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dudeinski : |
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I too wish you would return. COME BACK!
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dimstar : |
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I wish you would return... Just so we know you are ok :(
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cordless : |
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we can't hear anyone at the door when we are upstairs...which is most of the time.
My cell phone is reactivated.
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cordless : |
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another other try.
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candoor : |
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are you back somewhere else? :)
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candoor : |
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has it been so long?... well, there's no error message, so it must have been updated somewhat recently (not sure how long Andrew gives us before an error message appears)... hope you are finding more smiles than frowns in your world today :)
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f-i-n : |
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hihihihi
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agnes-of-soy : |
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I'm back
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ravenstears : |
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I found your diary and couldn't stop reading. I just finished, I read every entry and I'm thirsty for more. Your an amazing writer, please keep it up :)
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candoor : |
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still running?... me too... may your circles bring you back here now and then...
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bettyalready : |
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Merry upcoming Christmas.
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| from
bettyalready : |
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Happy Thanksgiving
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| from
bettyalready : |
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Where are you?
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| from
bettyalready : |
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HEY! Hope you're ok!
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imlye : |
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my hair wants to dread
and other small talk
you are not your life
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| from
agnes-of-soy : |
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I guess my "new" start isn't so grand.
I'm not doing so well.
maybe you should run away and live with me
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candoor : |
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Maybe the most important life lesson I learned came to me simply out of egocentric stubbornness, but it is simply this: I do not have to be like them. "Them" being anyone, but most especially my parents. I was a young child when I proved this to myself. I changed my posture and my outlook, sat back and watched them, decided what they were doing was not right for me, and realized I could separate myself. Powerless as I was, I could sit back and do nothing, instead of reacting with anger or prejudice or ignorance as they did. I wish I could bottle the power that sitting back and doing nothing gave me, for the simple decision to blend into the walls or chair or back seat of the car, not reacting, allowed me to develop my own habits instead of absorbing theirs. I am far from perfect, but not feeling bound by imprinted bad habits is a freedom I wish everyone could know.
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me-destruitt : |
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Beautiful entry.
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lilmez8 : |
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hi. no, i dont have a diary here, though i used to. im the one who wrote that entry in the death cab guestbook. people dont randomly say "hey i really liked what you said in their guestbook" to me. and if they do, they usually know me. or...theres a purpose behind the whole thing.
i am at livejournal.com though. i like it better than this or teenopendiary. i hate teenopendiary. really...hate it.
"call me, call me...let me know you're alright..."
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cactustree : |
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what do i think? send me your email...it's too long to write in a note.
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cactustree : |
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i am obsessed with your diary. that's Obsessed with a capital "O." i've read from start to finish -- jesus, i don't even read my *own* diary from start to finish. my god, i have so much to say to you and i don't think you want to hear it, but i sit at work and i read your diary and i think, "i've got to tell her this or that" because one person should not be holding all that pain by herself. and i think i just said too much right there.
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anathema- : |
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Thank you. The constant sunshine sure is nice, ain't it? Bye, bye rain clouds!
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candora : |
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and it is good to see you are still coming back :)
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agnes-of-soy : |
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yes, it is lil meg with yet another NEW start. I promise this one will be good
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| from
rndmfaritale : |
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my love, my love, my darling love.
Why must we play endless games of phone tag?
I need you to call my cell phone ASAP
I'll post you a message in my diary
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cactustree : |
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holy moley...that's a hell of an entry. i'll be back -- i want to find out more about you.
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fleshandbone : |
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Stare at the wall for a while, I meant. I do apologize, it's a Garfield monday.
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fleshandbone : |
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Sometimes the most beautiful things about us are what we once thought the ugliest. Maybe you should turn the mirror around and let her stare at the wall for a wall and feel what it's like to be cornered.
Namaste.
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daze-of-rain : |
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thank you so much for your note. I just got done with this new layout and was so pleased to have you comment on it. And of course, the content too. I have read only a bit of you but love your use of words. I intend to read more.
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fleshandbone : |
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That is the best damn explanation in defense of the hedonistic lifestyle that I've seen yet - and I've tried a few myself. Damn right.
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sourballs123 : |
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im addicted to quizilla
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candoor : |
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yeah, so I am early for next year - Happy Birthday - and maybe, if you are lucky and wise, you are still celebrating so I can sneak in and pretend I've been at the party all along... but then, I don't lie very well, so, Happy Every Day! too :)
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blutfee : |
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hi, i have added you to my favourites list mainly because i like your layout. but today i must say you surprised me. i liked your entry. it was cool. i know what you are talking about, i've been there and done that. well aczually i would reeeally be interested in further gossip but am glad to have taken insight into a piece of life and i am ok with that. thanks.
oh btw, i think you should leave the guy alone. he sounds like they suck. well don't they all. ;)
jEN (bloodfairy)
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rndmfaritale : |
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heartache, heartbreak, heartattack...I think I have em all covered now. I'm ok, love, really, ok. I know I haven't been there like a good little buddy should be, and I apologize. I've been meaning to call, but my fingers won't dial the numbers. You still hold that place in my heart, even if it feels like my heart has been ripped out and stomped on (by no means under your fault or knowledge) Let's just say, I don't need to smother people who are already choking. I'll give you a call soon, I promise.
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fleshandbone : |
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Late Happy Birthday! You are in my favorite week of birthdays. I have so many friends I love dearly born between the 10th and the 17th; they're all good people so I'm sure you must be lovely. Take care and indulge yourself.
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kikai-yasha : |
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Happy birthday! You are now officially ten years older than me :) From Kim x
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fleshandbone : |
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Awesome.
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kikai-yasha : |
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Love the story so far, I like the way you link back to the beginning at the end.
From Kim
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red-savannah : |
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Really, REALLLY dig the rewrite, esp. the parts about looking perfect. My, how close this story is hitting home for me...only I was 15 when it happened. You are an extremely talented writer :)
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shutupmom : |
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yes, i think ive been here before. wow. you write like a beautiful genius. lets get married and have like 10,000 beautiful genius babies.
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red-savannah : |
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I think your story is wonderful so far, it hit home for me.
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rndmfaritale : |
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I didn't die. I also didn't know you moved. I wish I wouldn't have found out by finding Bethany and Chris in the place of where I was hoping to find you. tears
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kikai-yasha : |
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I found your diary as I was randomly browsing the diary directory, I like it because of your style of writing. I like the way you see things, I suppose.
From Kim.
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| from
candoor : |
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I call that tinitis...
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| from
advice-4-you : |
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need advice? visit my profile to see how i can help you!
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imlye : |
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i check on you as a dear one and find myself in strange awe.
the architecture of your language conjures the stone delicacy of eternal monument. precious find, you prove, again and again.
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candoor : |
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I feel profound when I read you more, thank you for that.
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rndmfaritale : |
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you're right... I do need to go to the doctor
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imlye : |
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i fuckin love you
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| from
dimstar : |
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You sound so sad. I doubt that you are even slightly overweight, and if so, that shouldn't have to matter. I know it does though, and that sucks. This disease sucks. Please, don't do anything to hurt yourself okay? You are beautiful. xoxo Gwen
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imli : |
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missin you from thailand... long time no kontakt
write me
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| from
candoor : |
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missing the words...
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| from
candoor : |
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happy merry to you too :)
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| from
red-savannah : |
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Merry Christmas!!! WOOO PORN!!!
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imli : |
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i have hopes that a walking stick can be a tree or even firewood after helping you to the top of the mountain and being dropped. or maybe i just like mountains and being ok with dropped things. mostly maybe it's just that whatever takes you higher is absolutely beautiful.
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| from
prostituee : |
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FUCK YES! How disspointing to get notes and they're just from me.
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| from
prostituee : |
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OH yeah. YES!
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| from
prostituee : |
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YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! YES!
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red-savannah : |
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12-14?! WOW! I don't think I'd be able to type if that happened to me!
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anathema- : |
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"There was a time when I was loved" . . . you still are. . . just in a different way, a better, more meaningful way. I love you, and I know that I am not alone in that sentiment.
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| from
red-savannah : |
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Your entry today (12/3) was very, very good...
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bettyalready : |
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I just wish you'd see what you are instead of what you think you are. Fuck yeah I'm worried. I'm a mother, what the hell can I say?
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anathema- : |
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Thank you. I needed that.
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dimstar : |
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You are so special and strong. You deserve so much more than this. Please, try and take care. I am here for you. xoxo Gwen
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| from
xrockangelx : |
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CAUTION!!! Driver turns 65 years old today!!!
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| from
mostlydead : |
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insatiable hunger for love?
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| from
candoor : |
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home
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red-savannah : |
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I gave up on the concepts of 'home' and 'family' long ago. Now, people accuse me of being bitter and cynical, but I really don't care anymore about those things. I'd rather be by myself any day! Stay strong...
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dimstar : |
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You are an awesome writer. That story broke my heart. It was very good. All I can say is, "Wow."
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imlye : |
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i feel you. keep digging. i love you. in that space you dwell, don't forget your way to the tiny garden door. all is illusion.
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atavistik : |
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i'm really sorry you feel homesick and as if you don't have a family. i know exactly how you feel, and it sucks, but it will be okay. i can tell just by reading your words that you're a person who deserves much more than that, but i know that thats cold comfort. i'm sorry.
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dimstar : |
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You have no idea how much your message meant to me. Thank you so much. Please, do continue to spread the truth about eating disorders. I feel truly honored that you use my journal. (((hugs))) I am so flattered and thankful that I cannot event type it out. Just thank you so so much. Love, Gwen
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jackie-oh : |
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OH. MY. GOD. You like Cowboy Bebop!!!!!!!
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red-savannah : |
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Families are asses 90% of the time. Especially around the holidays! I'm moving out so I don't have to deal with another holiday season around them. Oh, and the other 10% of the time, they are mega-asses. I love your new layout, by the way! :)
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bettyalready : |
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but what the fuck do I know? I think you should move far far far away. far far away. far. Those people are sick and hideous.
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| from
bettyalready : |
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you don't choose your family. you can, however, build your own. not as in your own kids, but people who will look out for you. friends.
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idlehopes : |
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there, you've gone and made me feel loved again. i love you too.
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imli : |
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i see you
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prostituee : |
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Chilling. To the bone.
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dimstar : |
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I am glad to see that you are back, but I am sorry you have to deal with such shit. Hopefully he is just going through a phase. Families seem to be more hurtful to each other than anyone else. I hope that spending some time away will make him realize what a great sister he has and help him become more respectful of you. How have you been doing otherwise? I hope you continue to update. You are a wonderful writer. Take care ok? xoxo Gwen
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bettyalready : |
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Yes! You're back. And not a child abuser. You can't clean up someone else's mess, for lack of a better way of saying it. My first kid threw tantrums for an hour and a half a day. She was young, almost 2 years old. I used to hold her really tight and she'd fight me and scream and throw up. She stopped when I left her dad. Your dad needs to get that boy into serious therapy. Because you're related does not mean that you have to save him. He's his dad's responsibility and somehow his dad failed him already.
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| from
meighyn : |
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missed ya
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| from
dudeinski : |
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Adipose? Hope all is well.
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| from
chica-diablo : |
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Love your writing. Just wanted to let you know. I think you're going on my favourites list!
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prostituee : |
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Where oh where did adipose go?
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| from
bettyalready : |
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And where did you run off to?
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| from
imli : |
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where are you my love? it's been too long again. i can hear you from thailand if only you would say...
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| from
squishyvan : |
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your writing is beautiful. wow
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prostituee : |
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You need to get a different shrink.
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| from
prissy-pants : |
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HaPpY FoUrTh Of JuLy!!!! Hope you have a great day. Be sweet. :)
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anathema- : |
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I love you for your strength. And adore for your weaknesses--however few they may be.
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idlehopes : |
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that last entry, "Running Game," put this vicarious sort of female beatific smile on my face. i never liked him anyway, he was no good for you.
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amberfalls : |
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Your step-dad was some kind of fucked up asshole with serious issues. You don't have to make his issues your issues. If you want to be released from pain and unhappiness, then let it go. If you want to be happy then be happy. It's as easy as it sounds. Everything will fall into place once you let it go.
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suburbanhell : |
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i added you to my favorites because I enjoy reading your writing. i really don't know what to tell you kid, "it spoke to me". I like the way you write. have a swell day.
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breakthedark : |
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I am incredibaly honored by your comment in regards to my diary on your profile. Many humble thanks from this writer, to you.
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ablacksun : |
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Thanks for adding ablacksun to your favorites! :) It's a public diary and I'm not even sure who wrote that certain entry. I have a feeling it was datura93, but I'm not sure.
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| from
taa-tosbt : |
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hey. i started this, but in a way, i really wish i hadnt.
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idlehopes : |
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i love you.
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dimstar : |
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Thank you so much about the comment you have about me in your profile. It is my favorite, because I really hate when people leave notes like, "I want to be ana. I think it would be fun." Thank you so much for recognizing that I don't encourage eating disorders. I am so thankful for that. You are awesome.
xoxo Gwen
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astralplane : |
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Hey dudes, it's bettyalready. A man suggested I start a dream journal. I see people get all pissed off when people write their dreams down, or irritated and I'm not sure why. Anyhow, I could care less, I don't much like writing by hand. Started the dream journal.
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prostituee : |
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if you can, email prostituee@webmail.diaryland.com with your password...if ya feel like it. T'would be cool.
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punkroxxy : |
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it is okay. i am at work. so i am writing and talking at the same time. multi-tasking!! i will email you so that we can talk more. i don't want to use up your whole notes page. *smile*
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punkroxxy : |
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WHAT IS YOUR EMAIL ADDRESS?
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| from
punkroxxy : |
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i didn't realize people actually read my sad excuse for a diary. maybe i should update it more.
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| from
punkroxxy : |
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i will fall asleep thinking about vegas
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| from
punkroxxy : |
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are you serious that you live the same place i do?
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| from
punkroxxy : |
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will you marry me?
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| from
captivated- : |
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Ah i didn't finish my note! I was just letting you know in case you hadn't already.
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| from
captivated- : |
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Hey I was just wondering if you know that you've been on the from my heart waiting list for a long time now, keni is waiting on your review answers (http://myarmmyheart.diaryland.com/pending.html)
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bettyalready : |
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Dude. Not only are you brilliant, you have the *best* layout I have ever seen. Daaaammn
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dudeinski : |
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oh geez, I just read this part of your note "If you get a chance you should deleate my little note that I typed into your page to you". Which one was this? I haven't checked the notes feature in a very long time.
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| from
foxfyre : |
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you keep going away :(
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prostituee : |
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my alter egos and I are thrilled you are back! Thanks again for the GB entries!!! You da shit. In a good way.
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buttrice : |
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wow. that entry about valentine's day, that happened to me. that was such an awful experience. all situations are different, but i feel for you. what an awful knot in the throat. the next day i thought of her name and my head spiraled downward. a night of dark warmth replaced by bright light and nervous silence. alone, terrible. i am so sorry. love your writing, love your layout! your diary is now definetly a favorite.
- emma
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prostituee : |
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Where the heck are you?
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| from
anat : |
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I read your entry today, sweetie, and just wanted to stop by and offer you a wee *KISS* of sympathetic thought.
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amberfalls : |
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Hello! Thanks for adding me to your favorites. I will try to stop in and read some more a little later.
-a-
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| from
prostituee : |
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And why would you ask why I listed you? You're great!
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| from
prostituee : |
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I am laughing so hard at your comments about different diaries you read. FUNNY shit!
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dimstar : |
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I stumbled apon your diary when I saw it linked from another diary. It intrigued me bc we always used to joke about having excess adipose tissue in one of the treatment centers I was in. I really like your latest poem, and I like your honesty. I really admire that, and I see exactly where you are coming from. Take care!
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amberfalls : |
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And God help you if you are an ugly girl.
Course too pretty is also your doom.
Cuz' everyone harbors a secret hatred for the prettiest girl in the room.
And God help you if you are a Phoenix
And you dare to rise up from the ash.
A thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy
while you are just flying.
-Ani Difranco
Take care.
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dudeinski : |
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I got that template off of luckydesigns.diaryland.com. They have the best free templates by far. This particular template is on there and you should use it if you like it.
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bettyalready : |
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No, it's a banner add that's running for your diary. Or to advertise your diary. It was listed in the previous dudeinski HTML link. Anyway, if you didn't see it, it's a few back. No way could you offend anyone! It's a public diary and meant to be used for just that purpose. If you write a novel, I'd be the first to buy.
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bettyalready : |
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http://dudeinski.diaryland.com/030127_6.html
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redhorse : |
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hahaha, yeah, the bad spelling isnt intentional, d land dosent have one that i know of or i'd use it
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psycho-chik : |
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The exchange is fabulous! great job.
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bettyalready : |
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Thank you so much for your comment about the pot. I so appreciate it. My guilt was coming from the worst fear of making her feel worse, but I got positive response from a few people and I know they're right. People who self medicate know themselves well. And I hope that she'll actually get some sleep. I always wondered what lithium did to her. Do you take it and do you feel dead, so to speak? I take anti depressants twice a day a long with a bunch of other shit and I feel so mentally blocked. I've been around enough bipolar's to know they're not "crazy".
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solstice36 : |
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hi, i'm thinking of starting an open diary for people to share poetry, songs, stories and experiences about abuse and rape. i'm leaving notes for all the members of my abused and raped rings to see if there is enough interest to start the diary. if i get at least thirty people to agree to contribute i will create the diary. if you're interested and would like to contribute please let me know by emailing me at solstice36@diaryland.com. thanks :-)
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nemi- : |
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Hey..
U are so honest in ur diary, and u write very well. It hurt to read about everyone which has an ED, I'm one of those myself.
Take care
-Nemi-
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| from
ergoatlas : |
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You left that note for me a couple of days ago. It was a nice note. Thank you.
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| from
solstice36 : |
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can you please post the abused ring? thanks
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panda-baby : |
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It is more difficult since I do not know you, and do not know what you are going that could cause your dreams. But it is worth a try, eh? Okay... your nightmare. It seems to be about a change, a fear of change. Somewhere inside, you know what has to be done, but you are hellbent on not listening to yourself. You feel trapped but are afraid to free yourself. I cannot explain the burn, love. That is pretty scary, something caused in your sleep but you do not know how. Meep. Help any? Probably not. (And I did read a bit, and your gum thing... YES. They need calorie-free gum. I go through packs of gum like nothing else.)
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