messages to alethia:
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from dangerspouse :
Oh my gosh, I just realized it's ME who sucks. I forgot to respond to your note! I absolutely adore the idea of having my very own Canadian who would pepper my enemies with passive-agressive sarcasm. You're hired! And yes, as long as you keep to your promise of never visiting I will make you privy to our new location when we move. Whew.
from dangerspouse :
Nothing escapes you, huh? "Paint me like one of your French enameled cast iron braisers...." Lol, good eye there, Rosie. I sometimes bring out my Hitachi Magic Wand when I look at them too :)
from browndamask :
been reading for a bit. hoping there’s more good days than bad on your horizon.
from kelsi :
I'm sorry. I used to think that I should be getting better at handling heartbreak, but now I think it just compounds itself and every new heartbreak adds to the cumulative heartbreak of your life. It sucks.
from loveherwell :
my initial response to your last entry is: fuck that. i feel like this person absolutely knew what he was doing. i'm so sorry.
from swordfern :
The only thing worse than the talk is the time spent waiting for it to occur. If you're looking for company and an empathic ear tonight, we could meet up for an awkward beer. :(((((((
from narcissa :
Hate The Talk. xox
from swordfern :
You've perfectly captured the sweetness and agony of new love, of the tenuous early part of a relationship, of the uncertainty of where things are going. I'm never disappointed to read your journal.
from swordfern :
"Every hair on my body follows his movements." You capture so much in so few words. I'm glad that you continue to write here.
from swordfern :
My Carolyn is a relatively recent transplant to Nelson (actually Blewett). I think that they moved there about eight years ago. Still, it wouldn't surprise me if you did have a connection to her!
from swordfern :
Hey? I hope you're doing okay.
from dangerspouse :
"So. Unhappy."? Waddup? Still Mr. SexualHarassment woes, or something new? Whatever it is, I hope someone kills him/it soon for you.
from dangerspouse :
Wow, you grew up in an exciting place! Why did you ever decide to leave? You could have married the Spiritual Father, had 17 Sister Wives, 9 kids, and learned to stitch all the other members' white robes! Sheesh. All I had was school, good food, and circle jerks growing up. I feel so deprived :(
from swordfern :
Yay for allies! Glad to hear that your people took action for you.
from swordfern :
Wow, I'm sorry that you are faced with having to deal with that guy. Know that prioritizing your safety can pan out in various ways; you are not obligated to do anything for anyone other than yourself. He's a creep, and you shouldn't have to deal with this in a workplace.
from swordfern :
Hah, that's hilarious. I like that this is a link between us. The Doukhobors are an admittedly strange and relatively unknown piece of history outside of Castlegar, Grand Forks, and Kamsack. My mother did everything she could to strip herself of the stigma, so most of what I know comes from summer visits with my grandma and auntie. Even still, I was shocked the first time I was served Ukrainian borscht. "WTF is with all of these beets? This isn't borsch."
from swordfern :
PoMo to Richmond via bus. Plus the return trip. And him not offering to alternate. Seriously. What a jerk. How are we so trained to accommodate others? I wonder what it's like to automatically expect others to put in effort.
from dangerspouse :
Yeah, I can see where that would be REALLY hard to parse out. (Cue eye rolling sfx) ;)
from dangerspouse :
Was the entry ambiguous?
from papotheclown :
I have a few friends who cite The Ocean at the End of the Lane as their favorite Gaiman book. I think I heard that it's Amanda Palmer's favorite as well. I'm going to have to check it out.
from dangerspouse :
*gasp* You used adult words?! Oh well, I guess it had to be done. This is a KitchenAid stand mixer we're talking about here. Still, that's pretty drastic. I'm just glad it worked and no one was hurt. Oh - you're one of those LAZY 60 hour/week workers. God you disgust me, sucking at the teat of society rather than deigning to make an effort. Probably have drinks with little umbrellas in them, too. Damn priveleged Karen. (But with a nice stand mixer, woo hoo!)
from swordfern :
Your mom is projecting her own concerns/fears on you. It's rather mean. I'm sorry that she's doing that to you.
from dangerspouse :
How could your mom call you lazy? A lazy person could never move a 300 pound mixer from the top of a 19 foot cabinet to back on the counter! (And btw, just how did that come about?? Did you pummel the roommate into submission? Threaten to release the revenge porn you have of her? Sic your passive/agressive mom on her?? Do tell!)
from dangerspouse :
Cookies that could have been made better had they been made in a 300 POUND 600-SERIES KITCHEN AID! I weep for your blob.
from dangerspouse :
A 600 SERIES MIXER!! There are very few acts of revenge resulting in death that a jury would accept as justifiable, but moving someone's 600 SERIES (!) KITCHEN AID STAND MIXER is one of them. Even in Canada. I say: go for it. (Oh, and cool beans pulling together an All-Clad set that way!)
from swordfern :
The tragedy of the moved mixer is real and doesn't need to be compared to other tragedies. I see the symbolism: you and your success has been set aside for an inane single use appliance. It may be a pragmatic reconfiguration, but it still hurts.
from dangerspouse :
There is no comparison. Your friend lost his leg, but nobody MOVED HIS DAMN MIXER. Between the two of you, I'd rather be him. Your roommate sucks moose cock.
from dangerspouse :
Hey, if it weren't for that penis you wouldn't have been able to leave me that note. You'll listen to all the stories about your father's penis and like it, young lady.
from papotheclown :
I like the idea of painting the sky. I feel a little jealous of that idea as well as being actually able to make money living in the van. I'll get there eventually.
from papotheclown :
Jelly fish, poison eels, sea turtles, and whales
from swordfern :
Hahahahahah! Your self awareness is endearing! In my field of work, I'm actually behind in my progress for my age, which makes everyone assume that I'm in my early 30's, and I don't bother to correct them. I keep wondering when I'll feel older than 32. Maybe that will happen on mammogram day :(((((
from swordfern :
Now I'm curious - did you think that I was older or younger than you? I'd figured you were about the same age, maybe a year or two younger than myself. But given the mammogram you are likely pretty much the same age. Really not looking forward to mammograms; you confirmed my suspicion that they are more painful than they let on. Hope the results are okay.
from papotheclown :
I thought I had responded to your note earlier, but I have realized I only did so in my head. I have been looking at doing stock photo stuff myself. Rumor has it that so many people are trying it now that it's hard to break through. But still worth a shot in my opinion.
from whystinger :
LOVE rhubarb pie. Your sounds really excellent! I am sorry it had that effect on you.
from swordfern :
I WILL TAKE A PIE!! Rhubarb, homemade crust, custard.. yum! I offer handmade soap in return. 🥧
from papotheclown :
That's crazy you were there. I would like to imagine that we accidentally bumped into each other and said "excuse me" at one point during the day. Could have happened. Also, I like the phrase "wiggle dress." Also, I somehow have not read you before, but am instantly a fine (after reading your last two entries) and look forward to reading more. Pleasure to meet you. Unless we've already met. In which case, sorry for my forgetting.
from notunique :
Feels like it should be so simple to just point to what's wrong and fix it but it's such a crapshoot. I hope you're doing ok.
from whystinger :
I hate when flirtation is lost due to the person being married...
from swordfern :
That is going to be my new mantra and lens on the world. Perfectly suited to my developing assertiveness. Thank you, my lizard queen!!!
from lust- :
Hello. What's the email where I can send the password?
from swordfern :
Thinking about your comment, your experience with respect to mentoring vs. nit picking applies to my situation. Other women have quit the company after working under this individual before, so I don't take it personally. It's exhausting to fight against, and I know that I have to speak up in order for there to be change with this person. You sharing your experience has helped me see a bigger problem. Thank you.
from dangerspouse :
I'm working on it!
from swordfern :
What was the book?
from dangerspouse :
MEN! Amiright, girls? (ps. Don't do it, kiddo.)
from notunique :
Thanks :) Was really sorry to read about your cat.
from dangerspouse :
Woo hoo! I'm really happy for you! That's great news, it really is. Er...sorry about your pants, though. Poor quality control at the factory, is what it is. *cough*
from dangerspouse :
I'm really sorry about your cat. I know what it's like to have a jerk of a pet that you love anyway. Kinda how my wife will feel about me when I go, I suppose. But yeah, that really sucks. Congrats on landing a gig - is it in the same line of work? How was your first day back? Details girl, details!
from dangerspouse :
Jeggings! Why didn't I think of that? (Well actually I did, but divorces are so expensive.) :)
from swordfern :
a beautiful tribute to your cat. she was well-loved and that's all most of us can wish for. ❤
from the-grey-one :
awww , i am so so sorry. :( it’s so damned heartbreaking to put down an animal :( :( :( , i’m real sorry.
from narcissa :
Aug 10. sorry about your cat, that sucks. xo
from dangerspouse :
Did mom reciprocate? Did she have any reaction at all?
from dangerspouse :
504! You ARE a Double Bitch! Medium pimpin', yo. Jesus, it turns out I really did not marry well at all. All MY bitch brings in is empty wrappers from her Candy Crush marathons. And no, I don't have a Switch. I have a PS4. You know what the deciding factor was? My hands. My manly paws are too freakin' big! The tiny girl-sized contollers on the Switch actually dig in and hurt my hands, especially when I'm gripping them tightly in fear like when I'm trying to dig up my neighbor's fossil before they see me. But if I ever do get one...I'm coming to your island and stealing all your turnips! BITCH!
from dangerspouse :
Forgive my delay responding, but I just now regained consciousness after learning you scored 400 BELLS PER TURNIP FROM THAT BASTARD NOOK!! You bitch! You can practically retire now! Lol...still, I probably have you beat. I recently counted all my bells between my various characters, and added up to 831,215,203. I'm practially a Bellionaire! So listen, if you ever need anything - a massage chair for when Mayor Tortimer shows up, a spiffy meteorite for the den, that crewel shirt you've been eyeing, whatever - drop me a line and I'll PayPal over the bells. What are friends for? (And I do hope you're back to your *real* work come August. I'm sure it's a very unsettling feeling for you right now. Hang in there, kiddo.)
from dangerspouse :
Oh my god, I thought I was the only one who shamelessly dove into pots of lemon curd with nothing but a spoon! Ok, maybe you don't WANT to, what with your lack of flour and all. But I'm still jealous. I hope you're well, kiddo. Haven't seen an update in a while....
from dangerspouse :
Silly thing. A VitaMix IS a blender. I do actually have a lesser unit, which I purchased in the gap between my previous VM (may she rest in peace) and this one. So technically yes, I do own two. But the stop-gap one was quickly relegated to the attic once the new Big Dog arrived, so really...just one blender in my kitchen. A VitaMix. And...fuck your roomates. How dare they claim space as their own! Grrrrrr.
from dangerspouse :
You can't have a freakin' blender? WTF! How do you make smoothies? Puree of Pizza? Hey - can you have a stick blender? I use mine about as often as I use my VitaMix, partly because it's so damn convenient to just grab it and go. Takes up a helluva lot less space, too. About as much room as a BBC vibrator. Got room for that (either one)?
from swordfern :
Ugh, that sucks about the cruise being cancelled. Are you going to do something else instead?? :(
from swordfern :
What?! Oh, cool! Where are you going and what are you planning to do there? I will be there on the third week of February. A few days in Tokyo and then up into the mountains to go skiing.
from narcissa :
12.18: "new normal" wtf. This is so scary. It must be so hard to keep advocating for yourself. Thinking of you.
from narcissa :
12.13: i'm so sorry, this sounds like a nightmare. I hope you get to see a specialist soon, and i hope they have some answers.
from swordfern :
That's totally how life and Vancouver would work. This David works (or worked?) at the college. I miss your updates, and I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling. The healthcare system here is infuriating and fails to address things that cannot be diagnosed by a test. Sending healing thoughts your way.
from whystinger :
I understand about the health problems as I just went through about two years of them. IN my case, surgery caused some problems and I am really tired of health issues and hope I get a break from them. I hope the same for you.
from dangerspouse :
You know what? I've heard of podcasts, but I don't actually know what they are. So to answer your question...nope, never heard of "Hidden Brain" (wait, it just hit me - was I their inspiration??). But if I ever get podcasty, I'll check them out. Thanks! (ps. I accidentally clicked your Amazon Wish List link. Did you ever manage to get any of those books you listed a decade ago?)
from dangerspouse :
Thank you! Thanks thanks thanks! (And I would have no objection to being called a Pinko Commie if it meant free - or at this point even just less draconian - health care. Oh, Canada....)
from swordfern :
18-APR: Rosie, I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm supposed to be dating around and seeing what's out there, and now I'm finding myself getting attached to the first person to kiss me. It's like a version of imposter syndrome - I keep wondering if I'm easy or a fool or am not seeing his fatal flaws or so hungrily enjoying the feeling of his skin on mine that I'm not able to separate that from everything else. I'm *trying* to not overthink it. Hah! Oh man, I'd for sure set you up with his bother if he lived here. I was at the Skills BC women in trades/tech mentoring event yesterday, and one of the other mentors was a set or props gal, and I was like WHOA MAYBE IT'S ROSIE. But her name wasn't Rosie.
from dangerspouse :
Oh good grief. Again? Get off that merry-go-round already, willya?
from swordfern :
WTF. Again. Exasperating x100000.
from whystinger :
He's polyamorous or a cheater... That sucks but it started out well.
from dangerspouse :
HAHA! 'Atta girl! Yeah, I guess for some people that advice was superfluous :)
from narcissa :
they played once in new orleans when i was studying for some exam and my priorities were so messed up i didn't go. So many regrets, i heard it was amazing. // I often have a lot of trouble turning off my brain. I have found these help: https://www.uclahealth.org/marc/body.cfm?id=22&iirf_redirect=1 especially the one that is for sleep. Maybe it will be useful for you. Hope all the things feel better soon.
from jimbostaxi :
I could never sleep when I had bad tooth aches. I would just lay there in agony holding my mouth and no amount of Tylenol could make it go away.
from narcissa :
Sigur ros remains a constant in my life. I love agaetis, but takk is also on frequent rotation. Thinking of you, navigating these questions you raised. I don’t know how we are supposed to know if our normals are normal - I think about this often. Xox
from swordfern :
Thank you for the suggestions. I plan to listen to the Aglaia album on the bus tomorrow morning. I will think of you and your rhododendron bushes.
from swordfern :
Columbus by Hammock. I'm taking suggestions - this is not my usual genre. Each of your entries is a gift. Even if I don't comment each time, I read and appreciate each one.
from jimbostaxi :
I feel exactly where you’re coming from Rosie
from jimbostaxi :
Hi, I’m a new reader added you to my list :)
from swordfern :
Someone linked me this article, and it speaks to what you are describing: https://tinyurl.com/ydectpkm So far, learning to slice through the bullshit has been satisfying. However, I also read somewhere about how it's useful to 'let the man be a hero' occasionally. I'm attempting to use this, to accept the gift of a hero, when he appears. Chris offered to drive out of his way to drop me off the other night. My immediate reaction was, "No, it's OK, I can walk." And then I realized that he wanted to be a hero, so I changed my mind and graciously accepted his offer. Where's the balance? That's what I'm intending to learn. Also, the art dept lady has it wrong. It's not your figure that would make you a beautiful belly dancer - it's your exquisite sensuality.
from swordfern :
Ugh, multiple versions of this? Not fun. It's helpful to hear that this is a typical reaction to help me detach from it.
from swordfern :
Hah! Your reaction to the letter is priceless. If you read even a quarter of it I am impressed.
from swordfern :
Thank you. Being home feels like stepping out of a nightmare. ♥️
from whystinger :
Reading your Dec 29, 2018 entry and see that you are online. I hope that you are writing an update. I started reading your diary, as your D-land name is similar to an old D-land friend who is no longer on here. I applaud you for dropping off social media for a while. I have been thinking of doing same, as some of the social media is a waste of time and people have become so hateful at times. Cheers!
from swordfern :
What an amazing place to be from. It's such a special place. My family settled just south of there in Robson/Raspberry in the 30's. Maybe we can meet there one day and hunt for Pyrex together. Xoxo
from swordfern :
Ahhh the best part of my day: reading your new entry. xoxo
from dangerspouse :
BTW, you got two KitchenAid...food processors? Not stand mixers? HOW MUCH FOOD DO YOU PROCESS?!
from dangerspouse :
How's the hand? Has a month's respite from typing provided any succor?
from swordfern :
I read your entry with my morning tea, rain sheeting from the roof of my house, warm sweater around me, clouds shrouding low on the mountains. Thank you for writing. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for being a beautiful, vulnerable, and honest human being.
from narcissa :
jul 9-18: just a note to say i miss your stories. Hope you're having a beautiful Van summer.
from lust- :
I lived in Vancouver for about 15 months, four years ago. I still have a few friends there. I'll be making it back in September for a friends wedding. I think it'll always be one of those places I hold near to my heart. Not sure if I'll ever move back there, though.
from narcissa :
2-16: haha, i'm pretty sure this means that you at your most awkward is me on the regular ; )
from narcissa :
2-6: i loved your 1/30 entry so much. You captured something i can never put words to. Thanks
from dangerspouse :
Your entries are so well written, but so full of dolor. It almost hurts to read them sometimes. Don't go back to the old flame. No one likes a squinter.
from dangerspouse :
Hey, thanks for the pro tip! And you're right, the sexiest things DO kill and bleach. Mmmmm, baby..... :)
from swordfern :
Revelstoke?!! D leaves in a week and a half; I'm following him up in a month or so.
from swordfern :
xoxo
from sky-rocket :
i can't figure out right now how to add you to my list of faves... I'll figure it out in the morning hopefully :)
from sky-rocket :
aw, hi! i'll add you to my list. thank you for the message!
from swordfern :
New job??!?! Yay! Hope you get some answers from your tests. It's awful to be poked and prodded and never getting any real clear direction on the issues. Also, menstrual cups.. yes! I haven't bought disposable products in 15 years, and the fact that a man isn't making any money off of my period brings me great joy.
from narcissa :
8-24: congrats on the job! (and sorry about the med stuff - esp those paper bag tests, the worst. I hope you get answers soon)
from narcissa :
i hadn't been in years... Back in Mtl now, but I *LOVED* your town. Those views! Everyone kept saying, "but the rain" but what a gorgeous place.
from swordfern :
Don't apologize. I love reading your entries - you are honest and open, and I like learning about different ways of being in relationships. Everything in regards to my friend has to be in context. It was more the way in which she was treating me than the content of her blabbering. There are aspects of polyamoury that I get and am curious about myself. It is very clear to me that it's difficult to get everything that you need from one person. The thought of having someone else in my life, someone with a slightly different outlook to support and cherish me.... well, there's abundance in that. And if someone wants to take photos of themselves doing sexy things - that's actually pretty fun and I admire their boldness! But for godsakes, maybe ask if your audience wants to see your private parts before *SURPRISE!* in a family breakfast restaurant?! Add in that she didn't ask about anything in my life.. well... the surprise juicy marco vajuje shot was the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back. Please keep writing... I feel your heartache in your latest entry, of wanting something so badly but knowing that there's something missing at the root of it all. xoxo
from dangerspouse :
Hey, thanks for the note. Yeah, Atkins rocked my world, despite almost wanting it to fail because of bad press I'd read prior to starting it. The thing is though, if you're gonna do it you gotta DO IT. No hybrid kinda "well, a few bites of this won't matter" bullshit. Do it as prescribed and it's pretty much guaranteed to work - no workouts required. That was one of my initial mistakes: I figured if I worked out hard (and I did) I wouldn't have to eat less. Uh uh. You get in shape at the gym. You lose weight in the kitchen. So don't worry if you can't hit the weight bench. Eating less calories (which is the effect Atkins has) will drop the pounds off no matter what. You just gotta get over the initial couple of weeks of cravings. After that it's cake. I mean, meat. Good luck!! :)
from swordfern :
Ahhh... you're so sweet to check in with me!!! Soo... I've figured out that my parents are reading this diary. This really complicates things. On one hand, I kind of like them getting to know the 'real' me, but on the other hand I find myself having to censor things and not write whatever I feel like. Like, I really wanted to write about having the biopsy done on my thyroid lump, but I am not telling them about the lump because I don't want subject them to needless worry... so.... argh. Plus, you know, the mild sexual content, esp. about men other than the one that I live with... that's a bit uncomfortable. Hence the lack of entries. *sigh* Sooo nice to hear from you, love it when I see your name lit up with a new entry!!!!!!!
from dangerspouse :
Allergic to...red meat?! NOOOOOOOO!!! Oh wait - pussy is pink, not red. I'll be ok. Whew.
from dangerspouse :
YOU would stand a chance (Depends). He'd even wear a condom, I'm sure. Lucky girl. Er, "Mom".
from dangerspouse :
Jeez, I'm almost sorry I did come back now after reading your latest entry. Who is this loser and why do you subject yourself to him? You deserve better. What do you have, cooties of the brain or something?? C'mon, Rosie! (signed) Dad.
from dangerspouse :
Thanks for the concern, mom. And yes - come over! I have ham.
from dangerspouse :
You had me up until "no weird stuff". That's a deal breaker. But it was generous of you to offer ;)
from notunique :
That's funny, I was just thinking the other day how at this point I have to know at least something by now. There's got to be 10,000 hours of something that I've done consistently.
from notunique :
Got the pre-30s blues going. Nothing too serious, I think?
from dangerspouse :
What about...what? POWDERED sauces? There is such a thing?? *thud*
from dangerspouse :
Yeah! Smack that boxed cake loser down! That's what I'm talkin' about, Willis. Good job kid, I'm very proud of you for schooling the bitch. Now to rid the world of the canned condensed soup scourge....
from dangerspouse :
Poor girl. I hope they got the smudge off. Er...you didn't perchance manage to grab a surreptitious picture, did you?
from dangerspouse :
Whew. We gotta get you laid.
from dangerspouse :
Yup. Punctuation gets 'em every time;
from dangerspouse :
Only the good ones :)
from dangerspouse :
WHY DIDN'T SHE THINK OF THE BEAD REAMER?! Damn her, always thinking of the other kind. :)
from dangerspouse :
Point taken. Dump him.
from whystinger :
Wow, aswesome!
from dangerspouse :
You're turning down a guy who cooks?!
from the-grey-one :
Damn, girl.
from dangerspouse :
I admire your writing. You evoke so much with so little. (But...eggs, rice and SPAM? /erection.)
from swordfern :
Take care, Rosie. Sending healing thoughts your way.
from narcissa :
12/4: that sounds so stressful, i'm sorry you have to go through this. I hope you get tests and (good) answers soon.
from dangerspouse :
"...your bread pudding looks acceptable" has to be the most complimentary thing anyone's ever said about my cooking. *sob* Thank you!
from dangerspouse :
Sounds like you coulda used those robot arms on Brian. Jesus H. Dateraping Christ. I mean, you must be awfully fucking hot for someone to keep coming after you like that. Still, there are ways to go about these things that don't require the use of force or roofies (or so I've been told). So, yeah. FUCK Brian. Right in the mouth. Fucker. I'm with ya, sister.
from narcissa :
I love reading what you write. Oof, moving is hard. happy birthday! wishing you good things for the year ahead.
from dangerspouse :
You ever thought of moving over to the script writing side of the biz? Or maybe moonlighting there? You good words do.
from swordfern :
You are so beautiful, your words. I felt as though I just sat with you on the highway in the dark in the rain. Your self portrait - a metaphor for working on yourself. Thank you for sharing your heart.
from swordfern :
Thanks for checking in with me. I finally updated. It's been a rough few weeks. I really appreciate your comments and stuff, it really means a lot to me. I feel really alone sometimes, but when you comment it makes me feel less alone. So, thank you!
from dangerspouse :
You need a grammarian then, if it's a problem with ellipses.
from dangerspouse :
Sounds more like you need an OB/GYN.
from dangerspouse :
So. How's it goin'?
from dangerspouse :
Whoa, you made it? I am so flattered! NO woman ever takes my advice! (Er, usually with good reason.) Really, that is too cool, and I'm glad it worked for you (*whew*). Zucchini lasagna w/ red wine ragu sounds killer! You made my morning, kid :)
from dangerspouse :
Duly noted about Michael's. Although I gotta tell you, if I need a skein of DMC 310 Black in the middle of the night and the only 24-hour craft stores in my area are M's and Hobby Lobby, I'm walking out of M's with that floss. I don't care what indignity you suffered at their hands, I'll give my money to NAMBLA before I contribute to the coffers of Hobby "Jesus told me you can't use contraceptives" Lobby. But barring that...yeah. Fuck Michael's. Solidarity, sister!
from dangerspouse :
The only thing on your list I can help you with is the jelly roll pans. The best ones are generally the thickest grade aluminum (aluminum conducts heat quicker than lesser, pretender materials) or stainless (very good heat transfer also, sexysexy more than aluminum but pricier). Oddly enough the really good aluminum pans tend to be remarkably inexpensive, mostly because they're usually marketed to professionals who buy in bulk. If there's a restaurant supply store near you pop in and see, otherwise...well here. Here's the alum pan I use: http://www.webstaurantstore.com/vollrath-5303-wear-ever-heavy-duty-half-size-18-gauge-aluminum-bun-sheet-pan-wire-in-rim-13-x-18/9365303.html?utm_source=Google&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=GoogleShopping&gclid=COCEmOXEtM4CFZVahgodEDIL-w . This size is commonly called a "half sheet", and at ~6 bucks (US) per sheet it's one of the best deals on the culinary planet. If you wanna go $exysexy: http://www.webstaurantstore.com/half-size-20-gauge-18-x-13-sanitary-open-bead-rim-stainless-steel-bun-pan-sheet-pan/407HALFSS.html?utm_source=Google&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=GoogleShopping&gclid=CI2p67vGtM4CFYVehgodfAAHEQ . Still a great deal, but not (in my opinion) 3x better than alum. Whatever you decide on just make sure it's the thickest gauge you can get your hands on - at least 18 gauge. That's the single most important factor, the one that allows for fast, even heat transfer with less tendency to warp. Don't fall prey to the siren's call of boutique jelly roll pans, I beg you! Sure, all the Cool Kids have them. But they're idiots, destined to die alone and unloved. DON'T BE LIKE THEM! Williams-Sonoma is the way of the devil!
from dangerspouse :
LOL. Filling a car with cheese is no gouda.
from dangerspouse :
Your car is named Wallace! Does it have many gromits?
from dangerspouse :
You and me both, sister. Not being able to cook SUCKS. Thankfully I planned ahead and my freezer is fully stocked with stuff I prepped in the days before my surgery. But you still want to get in the kitchen and play regardless of any NEED to cook. You know how it is. Obviously. Thanks for the rockin' note, babe. And I got ya on speed dial for when I decide I just gotta have a damn robot arm :)
from swordfern :
Aug 8 - I love this entry. Thanks for sharing. Your writing is beautiful. It speaks straight to my heart.
from dangerspouse :
With lasers. Don't forget the lasers.
from swordfern :
You are talented, strong, beautiful, and courageous. And remember that what other people say is generally about *them* and not about you. Welcome home :/ https://youtu.be/_XOa7zVqxA4
from dangerspouse :
Dads rock. So do you. Great writing.
from kelsi :
Yikes, dude, sorry about your mom. Google "raised by narcissists" if you haven't already looked into this - you may find something helpful there. p.s. Hi, I read you.
from narcissa :
definitely. brains? who needs brains? feet just need to move.
from narcissa :
long time lurker here... just to say: i know that magic of finding work away from home, and then packing it all up and heading back home into the unknown (and expensive) of Canada and I wanted to say I admire you for being so brave and just going for it. A lot of people don't.
from dangerspouse :
That su-huh-huh-huh-hucks, dude. I'm really super bummed for you. Damn. I understand Canuckistan has a pretty thriving film board - any chance you can parlay your talents there on the home front? Either way, I wish you all the best. If I wasn't already married, I'd offer to tie the knot with you just to get you that citizen voucher. And if my wife dies before you leave, I still will. That's the kinda online pal I am.
from dangerspouse :
Am I just even more dense than I give myself credit for, or did I miss something? I recall a few episodes back you referenced booking a ticket to Canada. But I assumed it was just for a little holiday jaunt or something. But people don't usually sell their garb before going on a little holiday jaunt or something. Are you...gasp....leaving the Big Time for good? Pulling up stakes and heading to greener (and colder) pastures? For good? Like, waddup, yo?
from outer-jessie :
You don't have to trust me on this, but I can at least tell you my experience. I was (well, am) in the situation you described, shortly pre the external validation of all your hard work: self-worth rapidly dropping as I continue to be rejected for jobs. It got to the point where all I could feel was suffocating dread. Getting on anti-anxiety pills has helped me enormously; my situation is still moderately dire, but I can feel feelings again, and most of them feel good. Medication doesn't change who you are, it just helps you be who you are. It doesn't dull the fire, it helps you to be in control of it.
from dangerspouse :
Warcraft, huh? So, one of them low budget little indie films, then. Lol. Nahhh, I'll reiterate: WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! You ROCK, babe! *sob* And to think I knew you when.... (You need power cords? I'll steal a few dozen from NewWifey(tm). She'll never notice - she has truckloads, I tell ya. Just give the word, bird.) :)
from dangerspouse :
Woo hoo! WOOT WOOT WOO-FUCKING-OOT!! This IS your real life, kiddo, and way to do it! And, uh...care to grace us with the name of the film?
from swordfern :
You ARE talented. Don't let the demons tell you otherwise.
from swordfern :
Hard decisions. I'm looking forward to following along, whatever you decide.
from swordfern :
I love the connection. That we read each other here, that our footprints have crossed the same paths. Life is so interesting. I didn't realize that you'd lived in Van... I'd pick NZ rather than 'home'. This place will always be here. But you also need to listen to your heart.
from swordfern :
Thanks for the note. I admire your courage to work in a non-traditional field. And I'm so excited for you that they chose your plants!!!!!!
from swordfern :
:) By the way, I'm always so excited to read your new entries. I love how you write. Thank you for sharing yourself!
from dangerspouse :
Wow, score! You have one lucky recorder playing friend. Good show! BTW, the little insert in the mouthpiece of a recorder is called a "fipple". That's not really germane to this conversation, but since I so rarely get to mention it....
from dangerspouse :
*gasp* You WOULDN'T! Ok, ok, you win. If it means so much that you'd break the one thing I love in my life (at the moment), I'll stay. Unless someone offers me a Robot Coupe R2N to leave, of course. Then I'm off like a velcro prom dress, yo.
from outer-jessie :
Be angry, because that is some stupid bullshit right there.
from dangerspouse :
You're not crazy. I know too many men who assume all sorts of stupid things based on gender, even when the evidence is right before their eyes that those assumptions are wrong. As an AFM (Ardent Feminist Male) it frustrates me no end seeing the amount of ignorance still to be fought. I'm sorry you continue to have direct experience of it.
from dangerspouse :
I wish I'd been there. I always keep an emergency supply of OB's on me and would have gladly tossed you one.
from dangerspouse :
Oh, and thanks for the birthday note!! No, I don't make my own birthday cake. It's the one and only thing my wife insists on making, and - unlike your feckless friends - she's pretty damn good at it. Usually it's a traditional Sicilian cassata cake, which is almost my favorite thing in all the world to put in my mouth. This year she's delaying cake making til the weekend, and has promised something different. I'll keep you posted :)
from dangerspouse :
I wish I could write like you. You get more in with less words than I ever can. That's talent. Of course, WHAT you write can be infuriating. MEN!! How is it that kind of blatant sexism exists in ANY workplace any more? Gah. It's a wonder (and shame) there aren't more lesbians in the world, given how badly so many women are treated by their male counterparts. Sorry you have to put up with so many cretins in your own life there. But at least you're not smart enough to risk having your fingers cut off. That's important too. You need them to poke mens' eyes out.
from the-grey-one :
Ah man, I do so love how you write
from dangerspouse :
You had it done when you were five and you STILL remember the pain and discomfort. Damn, chica. Too bad you didn't have access to a liquor cabinet back then. I've already forgotten all about my hideous ordeal thanks to Maker's Mark. But yeah, I hear dying hurts like a bitch. I guess I'm staying on this side of the grass a little longer, even if it means the complete and utter destruction of my manhood *sob*.
from dangerspouse :
Lol. I have two of my best childhood friends still taking up space in a box in my basement somewhere: an original NES 8-bit console, and a GameBoy (with aux rechargeable batter pack, woot!) and a bunch of games for each. When you come over we'll fire those puppies up and have Zelda tournament for the ages! (Not sure HOW, but we'll figure it out.) I always wanted to try D&D, but not having any friends turned out to be a bit of an impediment. Oh well, at least my cool faux-agate dice never got scuffed. :)
from dangerspouse :
What a gorgeous entry to end 2015! Well done, well done I say. Beautiful. Hope your 2016 lives up to your fantasies (guys who play D&D? really?)!
from moonbeams :
enjoyed your entry from today...you've got a knack for writing!!
from incshrnkmn :
Revel in the raise. When you talk to her, you can mention it and let it sink in how others think so highly of you they rewrite their own rules. Everything else is small and insignificant. Wad it up and stub it out like a cigarette.
from dangerspouse :
Congratulations on the raise. I hope it brings you some succor from all the other unrelenting angst in your life. Jesus. (And I'm sure that dress looked better than you're giving it credit for. C'mon, hottie.)
from dangerspouse :
LOL! "Monkey that thinks it's people" - that's perfect! Bwahahaha! God, she was scary....
from dangerspouse :
My god, what an exquisitely crafted entry. Does it really take overwhelming angst to craft such brilliance? I mean, don't get me wrong. It's horrible that your own mother could be so oblivious to your pain. And you have rats in your carbs. And the industry SUCKS (radio ain't much better, if I can commiserate.) But...it DID produce a magnum opus here. Small succor, huh? Well, I hope you at least land that 30% raise. It won't heal ALL wounds, but at least it'll let you afford some salve. Hang in there, kiddo.
from dangerspouse :
What are you, a lawyer now? Just invite me the hell over. Even gay guys can find SOMETHING to do with a pantsless girl. Maybe redecorate her bathroom or something. Sheesh.
from dangerspouse :
It's 2 days later. Are you still sick? If you continue to be pantsless, invite me over and I'll see what I can do.
from julymalaise :
I know how you feel, I'm sick also and I hate missing school, but I had to today. It really sucks.
from dangerspouse :
You drive a hard bargain, but what choice to I have? Fine, when I see the Epee Plant person update, I'll expect you to follow suit. But you better not cross me on this one! (Er....I've got long, knobby fingers too. At least one, anyway. Do anything for you?)
from dangerspouse :
FIVE IN THE A.M.?? Way to make converts there, bucko. Gotta give him props for having the strength of his conviction, or maybe gallons of Turkish coffee. Good on Masseuse & Co. for refraining from rubbing more than oil into you while you're pinned down. I guesse they're lapsed, or maybe reform. (And you ever gonna update again? I wanna know if you saw Italiano in the buff, or smelly E, or violin dude. C'mon, dish, sistah!)
from dangerspouse :
Yes. Yes you should. Fart, that is. At the very least.
from dangerspouse :
New Zwillig pairing knives! SCORE!!! Hey - maybe you could, y'know, blog about that. Not saying you're due for another entry soon, but....
from swordfern :
I love the tone and rhythm of your entries. I always look forward to reading them.
from dangerspouse :
Good luck! Good luck! Good bloomin' luck!! (I hope it's a remake of "The Goon Show Movie"!)
from dangerspouse :
"Radio Silence"! I get it!! God, the wit. I can't believe you have to resort to tinder. Did you know ants never do? Just another fun fact about our formidae friends I was surprised to find out recently. Hey listen, sorry about the absence. I suck. I really do. Unlike ants. But thanks for the note of concern :)
from dangerspouse :
Hehehe. Don't worry, I promise use this beard for good, not evil. (MY good.) :)
from dangerspouse :
That was a beautifully written entry. But yeah: BITCH!
from dangerspouse :
Orlando? I swear, reading your diary sometimes is like reading a series of fascinating non sequiturs. How the hell did you jump from flower arranging in London to cruise ship possibility to freakin' Orlando??
from dangerspouse :
I do go on, don't I. Professional conceit, sorry. (We talkin' 70's porno moustaches here? Hells yes, I'm in!)
from dangerspouse :
Don't get me wrong - I'm not the sort of man who normally gravitates towards deceptions of men with bronzed and glistening pecs getting their shirts ripped off - but your equally glistening review has convinced me to at least get drunk enough that that prospect loses all homoerotic undertones. So I'll give it a shot. Make that 12 shots, bartender.
from dangerspouse :
"Bublewood"?
from dangerspouse :
Finally, advice that makes sense. Thanks, kiddo :)
from dangerspouse :
Having standards is not being bitchy. Don't compromise them, or you'll jump out a window later.
from dangerspouse :
Are you SURE he doesn't have robot boots? Cause, y'know, you don't want to regret this later if you find out he does. Just sayin'.
from dangerspouse :
Haha! If you can find me, you're more than welcome to pull up a seat at the trough. Bring your own spork!
from dangerspouse :
WOW! Lol - what is happening in your life is what most of us wish was happening in ours. Hop on and enjoy the ride while you can, kid. Someday you may be stuck in a stable-but-stultifying cubicle gig wishing you could relive these halcyon years. To quote Evelyn Waugh about his own early tempest-tossed adventures, "I rejoice that went when the going was good." And yeah; gin and chocolate. Dutch courage.
from dangerspouse :
Holy lupins, Batman! That's a lot of flowers. A lot of very, very small flowers. I'd hit the gin too - it's floral! Glad you got the gig :)
from dangerspouse :
Hey hey! Way to go, Rosie! Sorry I didn't see this sooner - I just sobered up, and it's now 16 days since you posted. SOooooo....what's the 411? Didja get the job? Is it all about the flowers? Do tell!
from jaysthoughts :
Enjoy the rain. And the constant CCTV surveillance.
from dangerspouse :
LOL! 'Atta girl.
from dangerspouse :
Really? Pussy.
from dangerspouse :
Lol - a gin snob is less expensive than being a wine snob? Then you're not drinking enough! I went through a gin phase myself, and really enjoyed comparing the British style to the Dutch style. Until I passed out before deciding, that is. Still, that gave me an excuse to go back and attempt it again the next night. Never quit til you get an answer, dammit! Hope you're having a bully time :)
from dangerspouse :
HAVE A PINT FOR ME, GOV'NOR!
from dangerspouse :
Holy shit!!! Here's a thought that's carried me through many an insane venture. It's always come true: "Jump, and the net will appear." You're brave, you're smart, and you're not following the herd. God, I envy you. Godspeed, kid....
from dangerspouse :
Woooooooooo! You KNOW he wants some if he claims you didn't taste like vinegar. Guys will lie about anything when they're horny. And they're ALWAYS horny. But still, no matter how much your 2-year itch needs to be scratched: England, man. Don't be one of those twits who lets her dream get derailed by moist panties. There are guys in England who taste like pineapple too (I've been told). Hold your hormones til you get over there and find one. (Stupid old joke: how do you make a hormone? Don't pay her. Thank you. Try the veal.)
from dangerspouse :
GOOD LUCK, ROSIE!! Seriously. And congrats on the newfound mobility ability. Who knew chicks could learn skill at all, let alone so late in life?
from dangerspouse :
I am NOT JEALOUS AT ALL. Bitch.
from notunique :
"Crying? Nah my eyes are just sweating, bro. No big."
from dangerspouse :
Funny how that seems to work in so many situations. Except when I do it, of course....
from dangerspouse :
Your doctor sounds disarming.
from dangerspouse :
BOOBS FILLED WITH BEES!! Hey hey, honey!
from dangerspouse :
Since it's yours, I'm going with "comfort". :)
from dangerspouse :
C'mon, really? No faeces in your studio? Isn't that being just a tad too demanding? Sheesh. Tempermental artists....
from dangerspouse :
HA! Stupid French. Pineapples DO talk. Don't they have Spongebob over there? I mean, I know they have snails. Anyway, thanks for the hilarious note! "Grazia!"...I think.
from notunique :
It does feel like a huge risk with 0% chance of returns. And don't worry, you guys will be the first to hear it.
from dangerspouse :
Oh sure. Play the Ovary Card. Women!! (Why do they call it "PMS"? Ans: Because "Mad Cow Disease" was already taken." Thangu, thangu :)
from dangerspouse :
Wow. Rosie, you gotta find a support group or a supportive social circle or something. Your peeps on the east coast are worried about their homie!
from dangerspouse :
Very astute, that old dog. Stick with him.
from dangerspouse :
YOU SERIOUSLY GOT A RAINBOW LOOM?! Dude, I am so jealous. No, I didn't get one. My wife was like, "I'll go lesbian before I buy my husband a fucking RAINBOW LOOM. Not that there's any difference between a lesbian and a man with a Rainbow Loom." Women! Anyway, I was just living out my fantasy life where I got a Rainbow Loom in that post. Instead of socks, which is what I got. Black socks. Cotton. Not even wool. *sob*
from dangerspouse :
That's the spirit, Earth Woman!
from dangerspouse :
Oh - and put some clothes on, beyotch.
from dangerspouse :
You can still make lube jokes. That's always a good sign. Hang in there, kiddo! And when you do recover: GO TO ENGLAND! What are you, crazy? Why would you even consider NOT going? (Other than the fear of loss of employment and other trivial shit like that.) Seriously, take advantage of it if at all possible (like, ask your employer if you'll still have a job when you come back). I say this from experience: you don't know what ridiculous trajectory your life may suddenly be hurled along in the future, completely dashing hopes and plans you had up til then. Do it, ANY it, whenever you get the chance. Gather ye rosebuds, and all that.
from silver4 :
Feel better :( sick sucks
from dangerspouse :
I spontaneously ejaculate all the time anyway, so that's really not a good test. But I'm gonna take your word for it anyway that you're a kick-ass take-no-prisoner ninja warrior lemon curd meister. Way to go!! (And invite me to the family get-together next time you DO serve it to them. I gotta see that.)
from dangerspouse :
Is this still the DEEPLY SYMBOLIC play with all the man buttocks? Maybe it's better than you fucked it up ;) Hang in there, kiddo. All jobs have their rough patches. Keep reminding yourself that...uh...I dunno. What DO you remind yourself of when you think about why you took this job. Think of that! And be thankful you're not doing something awful, like, uh...uh....
from dangerspouse :
Seriously: thank you for the thoughtful, insightful, and sympathetic note at my place, It was much appreciated. But Rosie...Rosie... Rosie...it's a gold wedding ring. You look smoking hot in that dress, but don't do it. Just sayin'.
from dangerspouse :
We all have our teddy bears. Even when they're threadbare and tattered, we still have them. Even when they're no more, we still have them. Somewhere.
from notunique :
I'm a year and a half out! Definitely pulled a cold turkey when it happened. But I'm starting to realize that I might be putting more energy into not thinking about her.
from silverluna :
I love gardening.
from alliprincess :
Thanks for your message regarding the floods here in Calgary, about 100 000 people were evacuated, so that's a bit less than 10% of the city, and as for the Stampede grounds and Saddledome, they are just cleaning everything up and the Stampede and everything is being planned to go on as per usual :)
from notunique :
I have that exact thought every time her name is mentioned.
from notunique :
I want to say that she's literally crazy, but it just sounds mean and hyperbolic if you don't actually know her. You have to trust me on this one.
from notunique :
I'm really trying to break myself of that habit, but I can't really try to not care...IT JUST DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE.
from berkinix :
Wow. I've had my diary almost as long as you have and have maybe a third of the amount of entries you have. So, erm, whenever you feel you don't update enough, remember me (and point and laugh).
from igotsprung :
If it helps any, I know how you feel.
from igotsprung :
If it helps any, I know how you feel.
from silverluna :
When I think like that I always have to look at what I have and what I can do with it. Keep yourself busy. We feel we are not needed when we are not doing anything.
from bustedcolors :
That's crazy/awesome. My friend said he didn't believe it at first, but unless someone taught the kid what color everything in the room was for hours beforehand it was definitely real.
from notunique :
Waiting to see what my moving situation is like. If we end up staying where we are, then I'll try to make it happen. Every day that it takes for the three of us to decide, the chances of Europe happening decrease.
from julymalaise :
I understand :) But that is good that you hung up on that girl. She should not be asking you those questions, highly unprofessional and not to mention immature. I hope you are okay. And banks are definetely a bunch of goldiggers!
from julymalaise :
Damn, I just read your entry about the cerdit card payment and tat bitch was playin' herself because she was not supposed to ask you personal questions like that and treat you like that. That was wrong. Next time, ask for her manager if she wanted to be a dumb fuck about shit and cuss her out!! I am sorry what happened and I hope you are okay. Some people do not know how to communicate properly...
from fivethree :
YES, yes you should do it! Sure, it'll take a little time to get it going but the worst case scenario is nothing, and the best case is you get some extra money in your pocket! At the very least, I imagine you could make back that $250 relatively quickly. Only you can motivate yourself but I know it can kind of help to hear from a third party :)
from asmo-deus :
changing things up and moving them around. i have a few unwanted readers i'd like to keep out. if you'd like, i could give you a login?
from fivethree :
Do you have an Etsy account? If not, it could be something to consider...?
from igotsprung :
Happy birthday!
from silver4 :
Happy birthday!!
from cuntfeel :
hello there! thanks for reading.
from asmo-deus :
I don't want X-Files. But you've forced me to take notice of my absence. I do need to update more.
from asmo-deus :
i feel as if we've done this before
from notunique :
come to the show, I'll guest list you!
from asmo-deus :
you've drawn me out of reclusion. capital, my dear rosie.
from notunique :
I try to remind myself that she's not like that all the time. She's mostly considerate of the people she works with, it's just the little things that get to her. But it's super easy to lose sight of that when she gets moody. Maybe I'm spoiled from riding in a van with 5 dudes that never let anything get to them.
from dangerspouse :
Hey, if I hadn't decided to throw caution to the winds and allow tacky into my life I never would have gotten married. Hooray, tacky! I hope you enjoy your lampshade as much as I do my wife (and for similar reasons: looks good when turned on). Thanks for the nice note, kiddo!
from notunique :
Well, just got word that we'll be playing Iowa in the middle of August. Don't know where that'll put us for the rest of the month, but I'll be pulling for cookies and Canada.
from aryssa90 :
Stumbled upon your diary-hope you don't mind if I add you.
from aryssa90 :
Stumbled upon your diary-hope you don't mind if I add you.
from asmo-deus :
rosie rosie rosie, you are being watched. i expect exchanges and i expect a lot.
from fivethree :
HELLO! :) you are not alone, not here
from fatcowww :
Some people (not me) get tablespoons mixed up with dessert spoons. I was always more of a "couple of serving spoons" kinda girl :(
from the-grey-one :
daaaang
from fatcowww :
New Year's Dreams -- you have written it perfectly. I could see it like a movie (a movie of a graphic novel, I think). It has just the right resonance. I used to have wonderful complex dreams like this - I just wish I'd written them all down. Happy new year! :)
from fivethree :
Your first book? http://news.diaryland.com/index.html (first entry)
from the-grey-one :
'helium stomach' was an awesome read! hee hee
from joistmonkey :
You've made a good choice for me - I've dug out my copy of 'Raising Sand' (my fave 'Killing The Blues') and it's easing the combination (caffeine withdrawl, head cold, four beers last night) headache nicely.
from the-grey-one :
perhaps to find out where you went, you should ask yourself when you left?
from joistmonkey :
What you said about death and having peace with it coming early was beautiful. I feel the same (perhaps not in a 'it is coming' sense, moreso in a 'I expect it to come soon, and I'm not sure it'll matter either way if it does' manner) at times. Thought provoking.
from julymalaise :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ALETHIA!! Hope you have fun and that was nice that your boss gave you money and chocolate cake is so very delicious. Enjoy the rest of your day =)
from julymalaise :
Your story sounds very interesting, will you be posting it up in your diary? Just curious, because the plotline of your story is very interesante...
from julymalaise :
I tried to be a vegetarian as well, but it is quite hard since I have meat eaters in my home...
from fivethree :
If you wrote a book I would absolutely buy it and read it. I feel lucky enough to be able to read alethia so freely.
from the-grey-one :
okay not even kidding i shed multiple tears while reading Idiot... aagh. you write in a way that connects the reader directly to the tender thunderous beautiful heartbreak. my god lady, you got skill. that shit is intense.
from the-grey-one :
your latest entry just broke my heart! you were brave to see him!
from the-grey-one :
'cigarettes and rum-soaked kisses' blew me away! i don't believe i've ever used the word visceral before, but it seems like the right word to describe the entry. a raw moment in life aptly put to pen (so to speak).
from the-grey-one :
hahah!! you got a great laugh outta me with the chicken wing farts!
from the-grey-one :
sometimes all we can do is fake it until we make it.
from the-grey-one :
really loved reading Hands. you are writing out your heartbreak in an honest and sort of intriguing way.
from the-grey-one :
ah your diary is very interesting =) i am officially a fan
from julymalaise :
That sounds great, hope you had a good day, and who needs boys?
from fivethree :
Good luck! And here's hoping that you don't get any fingers up your bum...
from amazinfuckup :
No, I'm sorry for jumping on you like that. Me and the boy started fighting again the morning after, and of course, that's when I had the amazing idea to check my notes. I wasn't in a place to digest your advice at the time, but you're right. This certainly isn't the end of the world, and everything will be okay in the end :). Thanks for taking the time to write, and sorry I was such a bitch in return.
from amazinfuckup :
It's not an ex. She's a friend of his. But thanks for the unsolicited advice, I guess.
from julymalaise :
Awww... that story really warmed my heart, now that is the true meaning of Christmas!
from non-descript :
the sentiment jarred me but only for a moment, in a good way. I will pull through. Thank you.
from omfggwtf :
i really love this, would you mind if i added you? xo.
from clapclapclap :
It would probably be more bearable if the city talked snow removal BEFORE it snows. Plus the three days of riding on unkempt roads reminds me of an unkempt vagine: tread carefully, anything could be underneath, get going as quickly as possible. 3 more months to go!
from omfggwtf :
October 03rd entry, i feel the same :( hope you feel better. xo.
from julymalaise :
Glad you are feeling better, hope you stay good!
from amazinfuckup :
I'll cheers to that. Glad to hear you're HIV free--I got tested not so long ago, myself. I'm sure you're familiar with the strange fear that comes with getting tested, even though there is no reason to suspect infection. You must feel pretty fabulous right now. :)
from julymalaise :
I just hope you feel better, alethia!!!
from julymalaise :
I'm sure it is stress, Alethia. Have you been doing many stuff lately? I hope you feel better!! =)
from isky :
Aww this entry was sweet. I know how you feel:(
from isky :
I knows them weasels, they bother me constantly. I enjoyed reading your diary:)
from avantbedroc :
count!
from fivethree :
I say do it. Be clear about your intentions, but visit Seattle, and see how things go with G. You don't seem to trust him, but maybe seeing him in his own element will change things. Or confirm things. Either way, if you don't think you'll get crushed by a worst-case-scenario, I say do it, because what do you have to lose? (I've tried to keep up with your diary because I find it fascinating, but excuse me if I've missed something that would contradict any of the above points.)
from annanotbob :
Thanks for your comments - yeah , paolo nutini, running through my head... x
from julymalaise :
Just commenting on your recent entry, yah, I have to agree with you on the grammar situation, I hate when people rite lyk dis and shit lyk that. I hate it! It's a ridiculous situation! And it is much more easier to write it out better than spelling everything in what seems to be morse code or something like that, you know?
from fivethree :
hahah, somehow you also manage to make emotional vomit well written. hope you get to feeling better... I know those types of days well.
from fivethree :
I would give anything to be half as eloquent as you. The way you write is so beautiful and always a joy to read.
from julymalaise :
Thanks, and you can add me too if you want.
from julymalaise :
Hi, cool diary! May I add you?
from give-enough :
I thought you would like to know... that I've been reading your diary for awhile now. I found it by random a couple of years ago and really liked the way you wrote (which is the reason why I still visit it occasionally). I was surprised to find you live in the same city as me... and even more surprised when a couple of weeks ago, I SAW YOU! I'm positive it was you... Why? Because you were carrying bows! Plus, you were tall just as you described yourself, and wore colorful clothing. Anyways, it made me smile when I realized it. Small world. Anyways, hope I don't creep you out. It was just a funny encounter (not really for you but for me) that I'd thought I'd share!
from martinaa :
It will.
from tremendo :
"Whew" -- word. thank god for Obama and Biden winning.
from elliestuff :
you must make eye contact.
from theturtle :
"Disgustingly hot?" Is that the guy equivalent of "hernia-inducingly pretty?"
from greenteacup :
That's one step closer to world domination for us :] xx
from brodyblakk :
yep, something like that. Take a risk with this Paul love, you might regret it later if you let something so different slip by because your scared. Life is just a huge experiment at the end of the day. x
from martinaa :
If you give up this diary, I will question my entire existance.
from drferozlaw :
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=117292139
from drferozlaw :
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=117292139
from martinaa :
Yay for gardening. I can't believe how many people I know who are reproducing.
from martinaa :
It's a little dark for my eyes, but I'll manage.
from cdghost :
i think we are the grown ups of diaryland.
from cdghost :
thank you but you have been online longer
from cdghost :
still interesting to read
from hissandtell :
Hi Rosie - thanks so much for your lovely note, and for reading me. (Ah, I miss theatre-geek here, and although I still read her at LJ it's just not the same. Sigh.) Anyway, I've been reading your entries from the past couple of months and smiling a lot - I love your irreverent style and wry humour. (Poo story - um, not so much...) I look forward to keeping up with you. Love, R xxx
from martinaa :
Hey, Cheer up Charlie, we'll all leave the county with you if Harper wins a majority. I'm back at my diary regularily, or at least trying to be. Love, Martina
from wonderchai :
i deleted it because it was the worst three years of my life... and i wanted it gone. i saved a backup copy, but... i didn't want anyone who stumbled across it to see that as the only part of me. at any rate, i'll start another blog soon somewhere else, so i'll let you know. :)
from wonderchai :
i love you rosiepants. no sad! NO SAD!
from theatre-geek :
Re: Secretary. We still need to watch that. I have watched it a dozen times! Excellent movie.
from wonderchai :
haha, thanks for the comment... panel # 3 describes it perfectly: http://www.dieselsweeties.com/archive.php?s=1338
from wonderchai :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
from martinaa :
Rosie, What's *your* adress?
from wonderchai :
beautiful Bloc Party song for you? try: Banquet
from martinaa :
The pill is evil, don't let it's pretty pink appearance fool you...
from wonderchai :
i miss you! i need to be home more. send me your address, and i will write you. :)
from kallistina :
Jared misses you. Tells me so every time I see him. He's sad that both of his Nelson gals 'll be gone soon. Come visit.
from martinaa :
That's horrible. Did you know on my first mushroom trip we looked at that mural for like an hour before we saw the map in it, and the special place that marked where we were. My condolences.
from xyliao-o :
Yow, sounds like my ex, who ran sound for his friends' band. I've had many a similar conversation. Always good to talk it out, though :) Hope things turn around
from wonderchai :
msn? we must. i am wonderchai at hotmail dot com. :)
from wonderchai :
you and your (unfortunately easily quenched) libido! *shakes fist in abject jealousy* :)
from alethia :
Teeeeesting...
from martinaa :
Yay! your notes are are back.
from martinaa :
We're doing metamorphasis next year. With a Pool.
from wonderchai :
hell yes with the kung fu!
from martinaa :
I'm still here, reading your diary and hoping you feel better. You'll get through this, have I ever told you about the confetti leaves that once fell on me? They'll fall on you too and make everthing better.
from wonderchai :
*hugs* you know it won't always be this way, right? and what they say about it being darkest just before dawn? it's true. (i work mornings and i can attest to it.) i am thinking of you, and working on your cd. much loves.
from martinaa :
I have two cans of pineapple too. That's strange.
from martinaa :
Hot Corset Girl, sounds very sexy. Good job.
from martinaa :
Mee too. But only half as bad.
from martinaa :
Come to think of it, You look similer. He had his face painted white and it made him look like you. Again, no offence, he has a pleasant face.
from martinaa :
Sadie has Wicked. And yes I've heard those songs.
from martinaa :
Happy Halloween, no I don't. But why don't you email and ask her? I can get it for you if that's too much trouble though.
from martinaa :
Tenant ended (can you believe it) Happily. I won't spoil it completely in case you'd like to borrow my copy and finish it yourself. Would you? M
from martinaa :
Yay! My comp's working for now. Congratulations on being a lady Marie.
from martinaa :
Yes. He's fine. And by his car, I of course mean, his parents car. They have a new one now.
from martinaa :
Ryan totaled his car.
from martinaa :
Hey Rosie. I'm leaving you a note. Nothing else to say but hi. We haven't talked in a while. And I'm a bit too busy to update regularily. But that's okay because I'll still leave you notes. M.
from dark-doll :
Holys**t. Well I mean :P Thanks a lot for the note....It's just so...I'm speechless. The coincidence! I lost my first love as well, last October... I sometimes I think I'm over it, sometimes I know I'm not...Goes on and on, ya know. Anyway, I think there will always be a lil'piece of our heart gone due that breakup. But it won't stop our heart from loving again. "A broken heart continues to beat" take care <3
from dark-doll :
Hey hi. Sweet you live in BC? That seems so beautiful in this part of Canada. I wanna go visit it sometime :). wow you went out two years with a guy. May I ask you something a lil'lame...How did you get over him? I mean...Well unless you're the one who broke it up. But anyway. I'll stop here hehe...Take care!
from wonderchai :
oh! goodness! i wondered why it was looking a little bare! (i started all over with a ton of them and may have forgotten some, and i am so sorry!)
from xyliao-o :
mmMMmm! Hamsters! That's got to tickle a little goin down ;)
from sapphyrah :
Hey Girlie, Long time no see (Or talk for that matter) I realize I'm simply horrible for not writing sooner (What Can I say, I'm a gypsy and am never anywhere long enough) But I just wanted to say I loves ya and keep thinking about you .... ~Missy
from krugerpak007 :
Mmm, I am not sure what that could be. Maybe you are just tired? or maybe you are coming down with something? Maybe you can speak to yuor doctor about it? I would miss the cheese buns, not the papers... :-) I feel like eating a cheese bun now. Oy. Anyway I hope you feel better and everything picks up! And gets picked up-like your skirt!!! xoxox Kathy
from theatre-geek :
I would love to see pics of the skirt! Your boy sounds nice. At least he gets nekkid. Mine gets nekkid and then he doesn't like me to look at him?!
from krugerpak007 :
yes, I can definitely relate with the sex drive thing, but unfortunately not with the appetite. Maybe I can help you out with a bit of mine...? :-) Hope you feel good soon! xoxo
from theatre-geek :
Re: Sex Drive. Yeah, I can relate. Seems I don't feel the need to get busy as much as I used to. Hey, check out today's picture link! You'll get a kick out of it being the theatre person that you are. :-)
from greenspoon :
yeah, i know what you mean... I searched forever to find this template, and there's still things about it I would change if i could do it myself. My ex had some HTML books that were pretty understandable, but I think the dog ate them up...bad dog..I do like your template though. I think that's another thing that drew me to your page. I hate to judge a book by it's cover, but if someone has an ugly template or the colors just don't attract me, im alot less likely to read it..god..thats horrible of me..
from greenspoon :
hey there, ill be unlocking my diary soon..i locked it so i could do some HTML stuff without people viewing it when it looks bad. :D I'm picky. Ill unlock it by tomorrow. :)
from greenspoon :
no problem..and thank you for reading my diary as well..though there's just one entry so far. :) Unfortunately, i don't have much of a choice but to hang out with him, if i don't he'll kick me out of his house, and i go no where else to go...cant find a job anywhere so i can leave here. I think you'd make a good novel writer, but reading your journal is good enough for me :D
from greenspoon :
Hello there!! Just wanted to say that I stumbled upon your diary and after the first paragraph I was hooked :) You have a great style. I'll definately be reading more.. :D
from martinaa :
So you can tell when your period is coming...I knew I wasn't crazy. I can always tell too, for the same reasons and nobody believes me. It also means I'm ovulating. Of course this hasn't happened for almost a year, but glad to know that I'm right.
from theatre-geek :
Awww.... that is special. Maybe you mean more to him now than you once did. That sounds like the best way to fall asleep...hmmm....
from theatre-geek :
I moved! Come see my new journal!
from theatre-geek :
oooh! *balls hands into fists* Damn it! She's not going to tell us. That's okay. I have a very good imagination. Just wait till CONvergence part II is up. That'll give you something to read.
from theatre-geek :
I'm impressed you have so much patience with kids. You will have to show that little diva who's boss.
from theatre-geek :
Cast parties! Ah, what fun! Lovely drink mix! I'm glad the play went well. Now, it's on to the next one. What role will she take on next???
from theatre-geek :
What a great evening of music and art and food and...other stuff. You DO have a cool job! And a cool boss!
from martinaa :
I'm excited about this ghost. I bet when Harvey and Marg die they'll haunt the theatre...
from theatre-geek :
My old college theatre had a ghost. he would sit there in the front row and watch us perform. We could tell because the center chair was down sometimes and sometimes not. Probably just a bad chair. I don't tend to believe in ghosts, but the stories freak me out a little. I would be scared too if I was in the costume shop alone and stuff like that started happening.
from theatre-geek :
Thanks for the note! I really hope the dress is the right size. I was so happy to get it for under $40! It accentuates my back with the horizontal lines (I like my back.) and by doing that, it draws attention away from my butt (I don't like my butt.). I am about a 36 C cup. I hope that large size won't be too big in the chest area. I knew that the medium and small would barely cover my ass. So, I hope I did the right thing. I am totally going to go into the bathroom at work tomorrow when it arrives and try it on!
from theatre-geek :
Dang you...how dare you get me all hot and bothered at work! Mmm...hot steamy kisses... and I bet he thought you were so cute trying to resist his charms.
from theatre-geek :
Hmmm...you're giving me ideas.
from theatre-geek :
Sounds like my mom and I just before I moved out for good. Once I made the decision to split, things have been much better between us. She will get started over the dumbest shit. It hasn't been until recently that I have had the maturity to learn to ignore those little quirks and know when to shut my trap and just let her say what she needs to say. Sometimes, I tune her out completely and just nod and say "um hm you're right". I don't let it escalate. Maybe things might be better if you had more reasons to be out of the house. Maybe if you appreared productive, she might relax a little. I still think there are more issues she has that haven't reached the surface.
from theatre-geek :
Eww. Probably just dry skin inside there. Again, parents say the darndest things!
from theatre-geek :
Re your note: Yep! I'm seen em all! Now, I need to get the Cannibal soundtrack!
from theatre-geek :
Hmmm...seems like there might be more to this than the cleaning issue. I can sympathize with you. I am a crier. I cry all the time. My mom cries even more than I do. Probably why I cry so much is that I learned it from watching her. Sounds like your mom wants you to get a job. Looks like she would have been critical no matter what you did. Maybe try doing some little things now and then without having to be assigned "chores", you might surprise her. Maybe she has some issues of her own and she is taking out her frustrations on you. We always hurt those closest to us.
from theatre-geek :
Sounds like a nice boy. Yeah, wait a couple days. Let him think about you. :-)
from theatre-geek :
Yea! A new play! And the fact that you got notes meant that the director was watching you. That's a good thing. Pay attention to his notes and he will be impressed.
from theatre-geek :
Thanks for looking at the photos. One word. Lawsuits. Parents sue parks if their equipment could in any way hurt a child. I remember the metal/wood playground equipment of my youth. It's all gone now. Replaced by plastic and some kind of turf or sand material rather than concrete or rocks. Yeah, those are some weird swings.
from theatre-geek :
More storage! Always a good thing. For free? Even better!
from theatre-geek :
No problem...you're noticing the men around you. I go through those periods where I stare more often and just imagine...what if. You should definitely get him to sing Time Warp with you. A classic! And people could join in so it wouldn't be very hard.
from theatre-geek :
How very adult of you! I should remember that too. Do not hang out with people who lower your self esteem. On the other hand, you do want to be around people who challenge you to be your best. Those people are hard to find. (That guy sounds dreamy!)
from theatre-geek :
Wow...sounds like that boy has some problems. You did the right thing.
from theatre-geek :
People have VERY different views on flirting. I've tried to have the same conversation you are having. I've tried to explain the whole thing and some people just don't get it. Some people don't even know what the word "flirting" means. Her loss. You're cool Rosie. Don't let her ruffle your feathers.
from theatre-geek :
What man wouldn't like it if a woman wiggled her breasts at him? :-)
from theatre-geek :
Brave brave karaoke woman! William Shatner style...heh heh...
from theatre-geek :
Keep your wits about you woman! You never know what may happen. We hot chicks have to watch it so that we don't turn men on unintentionally. Hopefull he will remain the neutral neighbor boy.
from theatre-geek :
Cool! You never no when a mediocre role might be a stepping stone to something greater! Yea! And I'm sure you'll have tons of fun playing the witch! Cool makeup and very few lines!
from theatre-geek :
Enjoy your weekend! See you Tuesday!
from theatre-geek :
I'm relieved and pissed off at the same time when I get my period. I'd rather deal with the blood than a kid, so it's all good.
from theatre-geek :
I hang around nekkid in the apartment a lot. My husband thinks I'm weird, but I know he likes it. :-)
from theatre-geek :
What kind of dog is it? Sounds like some kind of hunting dog.
from theatre-geek :
WHOOO! YEAH! A job AND a theatre related one at that! You could always set up a paypal account for your internet friends to donate to. You never know what might happen. Wishful thinking...
from martinaa :
I'm clad there's a club. I'll try to come up with a funny acronym for us.
from theatre-geek :
Keep at it. Be dilligent and you will find a job. In the meantime, appreciate the days off. You'll wish for vacation days later. Take advantage of the quiet time.
from theatre-geek :
I know what you mean about seeing your peers doing stuff when you aren't. I just passed up an audition this weekend. I just didn't feel like it. I am trying to find out if I really have what it takes to do this theatre stuff on a more full time basis or if I would be happier doing something else full time and just a little theatre now and then. I am thinking maybe I should try and find a low cost/free counseling service and see if they can tell me if I am depressed. I think I might be, but it could just be my impending b-day.
from theatre-geek :
I was feeling a little depressed a couple nights ago. I think it was because I had been reading scary futuristic horror sf. Better not do that again before bed. Check out www.poopreport.com for a laugh.
from theatre-geek :
I think it's cool that the "one armed wonder" called you! He seems really nice. Sorry your chest hurts. Maybe because the blood is working to hard to pump through your system? I dunno. Make plain steamed rice with just a little soy sauce next time. Yum!
from wonderchai :
i don't know if i've noted you on this before, but i love reading your entries. you make my day! :) good luck with mike, and take care... :)
from theatre-geek :
mmm...nice. What a guy! I've been there. All the sexual tension. You handled yourselves very well. (heh heh...handled) Yeah, a lot of chick would be weirded out by the one arm thing. It was cool that you were both able to get along without that being a problem. Looks like he made good use out of his remaining arm though. :-) I think you should write more candid entries like this.
from theatre-geek :
Be thankful for your period. It sucks, but having a baby unexpectedly would be worse. "pink dildo weilding ninjas" HA! Now, THAT I'd like to see...
from theatre-geek :
Look at my hubby's web comic! http://www.eyeeighty.us/ That would be cool if you could manage a web comic. It doesn't take too much time, but you have to be willing to commit to a certain update schedule. Yes, being without equipment can be a problem. You may be able to go to a friend's house though.
from emeleeblu :
Hi. How are you? I love that movie, "Robin Hood. Men in Tights"Just something about a man in tights...
from theatre-geek :
You evil evil woman! I'm jealous...
from martinaa :
And I was 74.4% pure ;)
from martinaa :
I can empathize, I saw Dawn of the Dead in theatres and boy did I ever jump. Especially at the chainsaw part. I'm just not made for horror movies. Boys always think we're funny though.
from theatre-geek :
Was it the old TCM or the new one? Both are pretty scary. I have never actually seen the first one. I am a horror movie buff, but some horror movies are just unsettling. TCM is one of them.
from theatre-geek :
I have a hard time seeing myself as beautiful too. No matter how often I look at myself, I see the same thing. Isn't that nice to see boys all dressed up? You were good not to hit on him. I'm sure it took some willpower!
from theatre-geek :
Maybe you're right. I am sure there are others who can't see their families for the holidays. Maybe you should organize a get-together for those who are abandoned for the holidays. Maybe if your family realizes you won't be there, they will feel sorry for you and help you. Maybe you don't need them after all. I remember how hard it was not to be at home when I wanted to be. But, I also remember how fun it was to get out.
from theatre-geek :
I have to concentrate, but i can see the stars here. There are places I can go and see huge expanses of the night sky. That's one nice thing about Nebraska. Lots of nature. It's wearing thin though. I think I might like to move to a bigger city at some point. Then, maybe come back here after I've been away for awhile. Nice entry.
from theatre-geek :
Interesting story! Scared...and then turned on! Two emotions that go hand in hand in my opinion.
from theatre-geek :
You should scan a comic. I'd read it!
from theatre-geek :
Re: your note. A 10 hour radius? Where do you live again? Somehow I cannot believe there aren't ANY cons around you.
from theatre-geek :
Oh yes...you will be (yoda voice) you will be! But, this gives you a chance to see other actors at work and learn from them.
from theatre-geek :
It's her fault for keeping it in there. It's no big deal. I wouldn't worrry. It's just toothpaste.
from theatre-geek :
Hey there. I updated. Sorry about the leave of absence. Glad your cue to cue went well. Our show is over! Wheee!
from martinaa :
sorry Rosie, not all D&D players are social outcasts, and hey, even most social out casts are actually nice people. Just not this girl. She's just too annoying.
from theatre-geek :
3/17/04 I liked reading the letter. Wonder what would happen if she ever read it...
from theatre-geek :
3/16/04 You remember him. You can tell other about him. He left a legacy with you and your friends. Which is more than some people have when they go.
from theatre-geek :
3/8/04 Coming from a strict Christian backgound where that stuff was taught to us, I am not sure I want to see that movie or not. Maybe on video. I would cry too.
from martinaa :
Oh god...too too funny
from theatre-geek :
3/4/04 hee hee hee stupid lady. She must have been pretty desparate.
from theatre-geek :
3/3/04 It's weird when you get calls from exes like that. It good that the two of you can still talk. Healthy. Very mature actually.
from theatre-geek :
3/1/04 You vixen you!
from theatre-geek :
Money is good! Free money from family is even better!
from theatre-geek :
Some people take the touchy feely thing way too far. It feels weird when the line is crossed. You just have to smile and think of a way to get away.
from martinaa :
Hey Rosie! I saw your mom....(I'm on reading break) She seemed to think you were really good and told us something about albertans pushing over sleeping cows....did you know they're doing Godspell at the Cap next sum? I can't wait to see it. Are you coming home for summer?
from theatre-geek :
heh heh...I just noticed a typo in my last note. I'm glad you enjoyed your cheap chocolate. I like to indulge sometimes too. Chocolate is my weakness. Your evening sounds nice. Even with the kid in your lap. Wish I could have been there...or maybe I don't. :-)
from theatre-geek :
2/18/04 Yeah, girls will be birls. The lot of us can be downright bitchy at times. I should know. I'm in a production filled with girls!
from theatre-geek :
You are wise. You don't let the depression control you. You rise above it. You are greater.
from martinaa :
Awwww!
from theatre-geek :
2/16/04 Hot damn! You ARE mean... you go girl! I still wanna see a picture.
from theatre-geek :
2/16/04 I'd love to see a picture of you in the goth outfit. Collar, long hair, and all!
from theatre-geek :
No, you never did mention you had big tits...I'm sure guys love them! He he he That is brave to tell him to back off. I don't know how I would tell that to someone. If it has to be done, better sooner than later.
from theatre-geek :
2/9/04 Nibbling...yes...biting...yes...wonderful. Some guys are such fun aren't they?
from theatre-geek :
Yea! Flirting! How fun! I wish all guys had the "it doesn't matter" attitude. Life would be so much more fun that way.
from martinaa :
So Rosie, How are you Rosie? Rosie, do I get more candy each time I say your name? Rosie.
from theatre-geek :
Check out username diet-riot to read about my other obsession.
from theatre-geek :
2/3/04 Well, that sounded positive...and vague. Don't you hate it when people say those things and you're flattered, but then you're trying to figure out what the hell they meant? Maybe you could set up a lunch or dinner date and pick her brain at some point.
from theatre-geek :
2/2/04 I need to do something that makes me feel pretty. It's nice to feel beautiful now and then isn't it?
from theatre-geek :
2/2/04 Just be glad you are DOING theatre. Something you love. I have to remind myself when I start complaining about rehearsals and stuff like that. I love it. It's what keeps me going.
from theatre-geek :
1/30/04 I hate that.
from theatre-geek :
1/26/04 Hmmm...that does sound scary. I'm glad she gave the pills to you. If she would have really wanted to kill herself, she would have just done it. Thank goodness she heard the voice of reason at the last moment. Thank goodness you were there.
from theatre-geek :
Hmmm...fruit and yogurt. Wouldn't have thought of that. I may just try it. Sounds tasty! And I like yogurt, which is also a plus. It seems I am breaking some of those Feng Shui rules.
from theatre-geek :
1/23/04 Our apartment has terrible Feng Shui (sp?). I am at a loss as to what to do with it. Let me know if you get yours figured out.
from martinaa :
And that's really funny about the cartoon, I laughed a lot.
from martinaa :
I love it when you call me hon ;)
from theatre-geek :
1/22/04 Dreads...yes. Those are hot! Especially the ones Lenny Kravitz has in "Are You Gonna Go My Way?" Yeah... I think younger boys are cute too. They can fool you. Nice eye candy though.
from theatre-geek :
1/21/04 Oh...I see. Your skin sounds like mine! Damn! I'll remember that if I ever have to weld.
from theatre-geek :
1/21/04 Oh! You hurt yourself? If I were there, I'd hug you. They shouldn't be making fun of you. But, they are guys. Maybe laughing it off is just their way of dealing with something unpleasant. (OUCH!)
from martinaa :
I want to be cremated.
from theatre-geek :
1/19/04 Thanks for the link in your diary. Interesting things to wonder about... Your most recent entry made me smile. Similar things happen at conventions. I am married of course, but there is still plenty of eye candy all dressed up and oh so young and pretty.
from theatre-geek :
You might have the early stages of arthritis. I say that because it runs in my family. Who knows. That smell...J's computer room smelled like that when he had to stay home all day recently. I guess it would help if we opened the window now and then.
from theatre-geek :
1/14/03 OOoh! Welding! I'll bet you look cool when you weld! With that cool robotic helmet and all. Are you trying to make something? Or do you just weld random things?
from theatre-geek :
Re: Your note. Yes, I think I have it all worked out and then the director throws everyone for a loop. It has worked in my favor before though.
from theatre-geek :
1/13/03 I'd love to read it! It looks like you're off to a good start!
from theatre-geek :
1/12/03 Poor guy. He hasn't quite let go of that crush. You handled it well.
from theatre-geek :
1/9/04 You should sneak a picture of him on here. I would love to see what he looks like. I hope he contacts you. You never know what will happen.
from theatre-geek :
1/8/04 Yeah, he probably didn't care about school. That's kind of how it was with me and my first year and a half of school. I tried, but I really wasn't there to learn. I was there to goof off. My grades showed it too.
from martinaa :
Poor Rosie! Don't worry, it'll work itself out. (Have I said that in a play sometime?) Anyway, hope you're not having a stupid day anymore. And I had a stupid day yesterday too. I hate the freezing cold scene shop. Martina
from theatre-geek :
1/6/03 It will work out. I remember those registration nightmares all too well. I would always dream that I missed a class or something. Your first classes aren't really THAT important. You can always catch up later. I'm sure if you talk to your instructors (once you find out who they are) and explain what happened, they will understand.
from theatre-geek :
1/5/03 i know what frogs are (being a theatre geek), but I am glad you explained what you were doing. I had pictured a very complicated ornamental amphibian. Heh heh heh
from theatre-geek :
1/5/03 I wish I had the determination to make myself something. I would save a lot more money. It's amazing the amount I could save. Take a picture of the shirt when you're done and post it if you can.
from theatre-geek :
1/2/03 Some people are just lucky...or beautiful...that helps too.
from theatre-geek :
12/31/03 I can just imagine you dancing. I wish I could dance. Maybe I'll learn someday. I hope you have fun...and don't pull a muscle!
from theatre-geek :
Re: Pinhead. Yeah, I was annoyed by the talking doll. That's why I didn't buy it. It kept talking to me. Creepy.
from theatre-geek :
12/29/03 I narrowly escaped the whole church thing. But not before my mom made me feel really guilty for not going.
from theatre-geek :
12/24/03 If I watched LOTR drunk, I would fall asleep. I need to be awake and sober to finish an epic like that.
from theatre-geek :
Re: Your note. I can just imagine the pink suspenders. I suppose if you were crafty, you could make him some pink hankies.
from theatre-geek :
12/22/03 And I'm sure he knows it too. :-)
from martinaa :
ain't it nice to be home?
from theatre-geek :
12/19/03 Heh heh Stoned entries are fun.
from martinaa :
Yes! I love She Cries and I'd Give it all for You! Oh my god. Have you heard I'm not afraid of Anything? I love it to death. This is the same guy ( Jason Robert Brown ) who wrote Parade, which I fell in love with spring of grade 10. Until last week all I knew from 'Songs For A New World' was 'Stars and the Moon' which is singularily the best song EVER. I have Sheet music for it too. These musicals are good. Don't be embarassed. And they're not main stream like RENT ;) I'd better see you soon! Love Martina
from theatre-geek :
12/18/03 You should save your pennies and go to one sometime. Beg borrow and steal. I like the big cons (CONvergence in MN) where I get to meet all kinds of freaks! If you can scrape up the money for hotel and registration, you should go. Of course, as a girl, someone might take pity on you and let you stay in their room. Then, you would save money for sure. Cons are a nerds paradise! 8-D
from cutiepie1983 :
Yay! He kissed you!!
from theatre-geek :
12/18/03 Dangerous thoughts.
from theatre-geek :
12/17/03 I'm sorry to hear you're under the weather. Tea, vitimans, and movies sounds like a fine combination. Take it easy.
from martinaa :
I am SO jealous you're home Rosie. I hope the Panto was good! See you next week (eeeeEEEEE)!
from theatre-geek :
Do me a favor would you? Fill out my survey again. I don't care if your answers are different. I deleted your responses before I could capture your results. I am going to post a summary of the results on my site when I close the survey. Thanks!
from theatre-geek :
12/12/03 Huh? I'm gonna go back and read when I'm not so tired. *yawn*
from theatre-geek :
12/10/03 I didn't eat breakfast until I discovered how hungry I got without it. If I don't eat enough early in the day, I find I'm empty and hungry by evening. I guess you're supposed to eat the most in the morning and then the least in the evening...or something. They tell you all sorts of things in WW.
from theatre-geek :
12/10/03 It makes me feel good when I make something new. I'm afraid I'll screw it up. When people try it and say, "Wow...this is GOOD!" Then, you know you did well.
from theatre-geek :
12/8/03 Thanks for the note! That is THE BEST feeling...well...aside from, no I won't go there.
from theatre-geek :
12/8/03 Yea! You pulled it together! I don't know if I would have been able to do that. Congrats on finishing the test!
from theatre-geek :
12/8/03 Ahhh...drunken parties with actors. They can be fun. I'm glad you had a good time!
from theatre-geek :
12/4/03 Here in Nebraska, everyone is complaining about the cold. Be glad you're warm! Sleep nekkid! heh heh
from theatre-geek :
Yea! *chuck* *chuck* BIFF! Got another one!
from theatre-geek :
Yes, I agree. *chuck* Oh! I got one!
from martinaa :
I'm throwing Rosie, throwing those rocks hard ;)
from argylex :
beautiful site. that entry is great. {carpe noctem}
from martinaa :
I wonder how many of your 700 entries I've read...
from cutiepie1983 :
I hope you feel better girl! Yeah, being a chick sucks...lets go on strike! :::chanting::: strike! strike! strike! lol...~Nancy~
from martinaa :
Ahahahaha...Brak...
from martinaa :
Quihum? (that's my knew word)
from cutiepie1983 :
Wow, that seems unusual about your nose. Hope you feel better! ~Nancy~
from martinaa :
Gosh Rosie, Richard's a good name.
from martinaa :
First year is everything, lots of tech stuff, but most of it's pretty basic (sew on a button, hang a light, hammer a nail...)second year is slightly more specialized, but there's still a lot of tech stuff. Also lots of opertunity to do stuff on SATCOs (Student directed plays). I'm excited about you coming here too.
from wonderchai :
thank you for the note :) where have you seen me? now I'm intrigued. :)
from lyrasjordan :
*grin* i had meant alethia... truth. and your diary is entertaining. your layout is gorgeous.
from cutiepie1983 :
Aww, I'm sorry that you're feeling so depressed. I hope that you feel cheery and happy soon. I have the same problem with my left breasts. I think. It used to be a tad smaller then my right one, and now it is the same size...I guess that's a good thing? I don't know. But smile girl! Everything will be better soon! ~Nancy~
from martinaa :
Hey toots, keep your chin up even if your breasts are falling. Maybe Lefty's just taking a nap. You're young, he'll bounce back. This bitting you're getting into is fascinating...just don't let him draw blood so close to Halloween. Night :)
from martinaa :
Thanks Rosie, interesting fat complex, I think I'll try that; think huge and get smaller...hmmm
from martinaa :
Damn you Rosie, you make me cry.
from martinaa :
I'm on your side Rosie. The TV and kitchen light idea is stupid. Jeez. You should have taken control of those lights. Do you need an 8 inch adjustable wrench for lighting?
from cutiepie1983 :
Interesting point about the deodorant. I can't seem to get enough of it. I love the baby powder one. I guess whatever floats your boat! Have a great day..~Nancy~
from cutiepie1983 :
Sorry to read you are feeling kind of down. Cheer up girl! ~Nancy~
from sweetreviews :
Your SweetReviews review is complete. Sorry for the misunderstanding :)
from sweetreviews :
Hello, I apologize for this, but in order for us to review you, you must have a link to us in your diary. I could not find one, so I cannot review you until you have a link. Please add one and request to be reviewed again, making sure you say that you have been on the Pending list before. Thankyou, and sorry for the inconvenience.
from frank-dirty :
great big sea... not my cup of tea find them lame... every song sounds the same
from frank-dirty :
thank you. I can't necessarily consume your comment completely at this time... but the thought is appreciated. give me some time to inhale your diary and perhaps we'll becomes chums
from skruffy :
alethia, i got your note about Annie Get Your Gun. My school, in fact, is doing a medley with five songs from that musical for our Broadway Showcase that we hold once every year. it includes those two songs, doin waht comes naturally, anything you can do i can do better, and you can't get a man with a gun. I, myself, have never seen the musical but it does sound like one i would like to see. Hope to keep in touch! ~Skruffy
from sad-doll :
What about that guy from Tae Bo in his blue spandax suit? Ahh the white power ranger is so hot, I mean umm.. yes, heh heh..
from vintagegrrrl :
thanks for the joke! oh, and my boobs bug me every day.
from unloved-1 :
Thanks for caring. I don't know if you mean that in a "mental" running over by the bus, or physically, because it sure feels like it mentally, but not quite physically. By the way, I am Samantha.
from shameonkelly :
I hate my big boobs. it wouldnt be so bad but since I have hit 30 they are getting lower and lower. You can steal that banner as I stole it too. I need a boob lift.
from smilechild :
Wow!!!! your diary is so beautiful and colourful now! amazing. thats my word or the day, amazing! thanx for leaving me a note, dont feel so sad and unloved now, hope you dont either :-) smile teehee!
from nyquilgirl :
Hi! Thanks for leaving me a joke. I've tried Guinness once. Bleh. Not my type of drink.
from keryanna :
I have wierd obsession with breasts too. For some reason, I always talk about them. People find this odd. I think it's endearing.
from muckluck :
hey this is weird-but like, how can i make my name(muckluck) appear when you type in a name in the directory? i can't find out how to do it! help! thanks- Jenn please e-mail me at [email protected] or IM me at Namrepus182
from un-bad :
I dislike anyone who drinks milk. Irrational I know. But milk repulses me and hence so do the drinkers of it.
from kbaa :
hhmm...books...can never get enough
from kbaa :
yes yes. Friends rock.
from whymeohgod :
You should wear it the next time your mom asks you to go grocery shopping with her. come on, it'll be great.
from kbaa :
Hello. I saw your entry in boy/girl. I'd like to write you :) and be friends! Drop me a line.
from whymeohgod :
thanks for your submission. It has been done.
from whymeohgod :
That isn't a hampster, baby; that's LOVE. ;)
from whymeohgod :
you're becomming one of my favorite diarists. Keep doing stuff.
from whymeohgod :
Larry enjoys reading things by those who refer to themselves in third person. Your last entry was really interesting to read b/c he didn't know if you were Rosie or Mommy until the very end.
from cdghost :
boo! don't be frightened.. floats away
from athenepup :
I hear you. Parents, though they mean well, are the often the scum of the earth. And being young sucks alot. Just look at my life, I swear some of this stuff is just about universal. athenepup.diaryland.com
from athenepup :
I hear you. Parents, though they mean well, are the often the scum of the earth. And being young sucks alot. Just look at my life, I swear some of this stuff is just about universal. athenepup.diarylan.com

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