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Hi I like your diary.
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me-me-meee : |
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I meant "get overwhelmed" Sorry about the typo.
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First of all, take a deep breath and relax. It's an overwhelming task to grow up and accomplish stuff if you look at it all at once but that's the thing. It doesn't all have to be done tomorrow. I fer overwhelmed all the time, but if you look at one goal at a time, it will be much easier. You know you can't move out til you have the money, for instance, so focus on saving the money first. When you think you've got enough to work with, that's when you look for a new place. Start by gathering your writing before you worry about submitting it anywhere, etc. You have a whole lifetime to get it done. Start slow. I think it was Martin Luther King Jr that said you don't have to see the top of the staircase to climb the first step.
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hey just wanted to tell you how happy i am that things are on the way to being ok again. I'm so sorry about everything and just glad that you could find it in your heart to forgive me. I love you.
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dont even bother...
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miagirl143 : |
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dude that is such a random entry. lol. and i could have told you it was 6 1/2 months. oh heather, heather, heather, talk to you later babe.
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lesbian glasses! small, thick framed, slightly square... have you seen "better than chocolate"? frances glasses :D
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...i wear a bra all the time. hmm..at least we can be slobs together? :-P (always here if you need to talk
to, hun. you know my email.)
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When a person can't be satisfied with their partner to the point of having to change who that person is to be happy with them, they need to move on and find someone who is better suited to them to begin with. You deserve so much better, Heather. I know you love her but love can only take a relationship so far if the rest of the things that make up a good relationship aren't there. As a friend (which I like to think I am) I hate to see you hurting so much because someone can't accept you for who you are. As for the bra thing, my house is spotless, my dishes are washed, I change my clothes everyday, I have complete routines relating to hygeine and housework and I know I'm no slob, but I only wear a bra if I'm going out somewhere important or around that time of the month because they hurt and need the support. You're not a slob for not wearing a bra. If that were the case, every flowerchild and feminist from the 60's was a slob because they not only didn't wear them, they burned them.
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my love, while it rips my heart to shreds to see you so sad, I also know that there is sunshine on the other side. When you can't see it, can't remember what it was like, it's easy to think it's no longer there. But it is. I'm so sorry you lost so much sunshine. Just remember, the best gifts come from unexpected places at unexpected times
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I am so sorry about your friend =( That is so sad. I hope you're ok and can be strong *big hugs*...x0x
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alykat730 : |
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hey i'm sorry about your friend :( i hope you're ok *hugs*
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shadyslayer : |
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hey...i just wanted you to know that i'm here to talk to if you ever need me. i know i haven't been online much lately but...yeah. i'm here. *shrug*
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hey as far as i'm concerned there are no sides. i'm not pitching myself against anyone. there hasn't been any kind of a fight. i've been keeping away a lot lately so as not to cause any more hurt, so i'm sorry that i haven't really been around. i'll make sure to poke you when i am though. *huggles*
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alykat730 : |
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how about we don't pass judgement on things we don't know the full details of? appreciated.
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alykat730 : |
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hey thanks for your sweet message *hugs* i'm sorry you're having such a crap time lately :-(
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shadyslayer : |
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yes'm. the name and pass are..hope and loss. depressing, *and* random! *shrug*
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sup guuuurl?
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Hey I love you, no matter what. Even if you don't see them, there are so many things about you that make you lovable. Your smart, funny, easy to talk to, affectionate, kind, a treasure
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Hi there. I don't know anything about you but I know one thing and that is you should give every one a chance to decide whether they want to be close to you or not. Don't you think it is Beth who has to decide what she wants? You shouldn't stop people to be around you thinking you are a burden to them. Show them your true self and let them decide. And the tolerance, affection and understanding you have for others, well have it for yourself too. Because you deserve to be loved for at least being able to love others.
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You don't have to be okay. You can feel things and you can express them and you can be confused and hurting because it's your right to do so, no matter what anyone else thinks. (((hugs)))
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hello lover. I hope you keep on smiling and being happy. Anything I can do toward that end, just say the words. I love you, always have and always will and there's nothing you can do to stop me. Hope you have a good day.
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Heather, hon, don't do anything crazy. There's a lot of people out there that care about you. I've read both sides of the story with this entry and I think you're far more mature than she's giving you credit for. She, herself, isn't all that mature if she can't just accept you for who you are. It will get better in time. Just give it a month or two to let the fog clear and things will all be better in hindsight, I promise. It's going to mean forcing yourself to get out of bed in the morning, to eat, to sleep at night, everything, and you're going to reach a point where you're numb and the day is just passing by without you really caring either way, but it WILL improve. If you need anything, just holler.
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Hey, I know you're upset with the whole Maudree thing, but please don't do anything bad. All the pain you're feeling now will fade away in time *huggles*...love Katy x0x
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hey just saw the diary. from seein all these other messages, looks like youve got a great support system. Just wanted to say happy birthday and I know all of thse people are glad you were born.
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(((((hugs))))) I wish I knew what to say but I don't. Just know that I care and I'll be thinking about the both of you.
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hey sorry for not being online..my comps being hellish..its basically fried.my keyboard keeps goin haywire too.I dont mean to scare you*huggle*i gotta go,laater
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I hope to meet you soon too, you seem so awesome :)
I LOVE JOHN GRISHAM!!!!! It's a new found love, but I've read many of his novels, just finished the Pelican Brief. I think my favorite is The Testament.
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*claps* I'm so proud of you! I hope you never have to see Ana again either. You've come so far in the last 3 years and there's no place else to go but up. We're (your readers) all rooting for you. (((hugs)))
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i only know you through this computer screen, but hearing you say you're going back to ana makes me want to tackle you down. there's no sense in it. But what do I know, I'm just a stranger.
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HEATHER! *glares at you* you and me are gonna have a talk, missy! :|
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I hope you won't be upset with me for saying this but Grandpa would be heartbroken if he were alive to see this and if he's out there watching somewhere, he's probably crying tears of agony for his little Heather. Sweetie, I can't tell you not to go back because you're going to do it if that's what you really want. I just want you to know that I care as a friend and I really hope you change your mind. You'll still be my friend no matter what and I'm here if you need to talk. ((((hugs))))
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*sighs and looks at you* heather, dear, i want you to know that i'm proud of you. Proud of your decision to not go back to that. You and your girl need to stick together, hon. I'm here for you as well, ok? If you need something, just email me or IM okay? I'm always there to talk. *hugs you tight* you can do this, ok? you can stay away from that. I know you can. I have faith in you. *hugs n wub*
keep it up sweetie
-Cor
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nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!! Don't do it. I can't even pretend to understand any of it but I care about you, you're a very good friend to me, and I don't want to see you going through that stuff.
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I happened across your diary last night when I was randomly surfing through diaryland. While I can't pretend that I know what it's like to be pro-ana, nor do I want to find out firsthand, I found everything you wrote about very interesting and I thank you for the learning experience. In a sense, I can identify because of my nasty cigarette addiction that I've been fighting for 10 1/2 years. I'm not saying that the two things are even closely related but I can identify with some of the emotions that go with wanting ana and needing to drown your sorrows in it, etc etc. You've done awesome with fighting it for so long and I know I'm just some random stranger here but I wanted to tell you that I'm proud of you.
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love is good--doubt just gets in the way...
take care
sylviashadow
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heya heya heya! It's corey! Just stopped by, wanted to leave ya a lil note, girlie! hope you're doing alright! *wub*
-cor
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i just realised i hadn't added you to my favorites- i'm such an idiot- the situation has been rectified
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dyingisanart : |
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we havent talked in ages - don't forget to stay in touch you beautiful person!
Ciara
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Your letter to ana is beautiful..one of the best I've read! take care--sylviashadow
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You have a great diary. I just wanted to tell you that I enjoyed reading your entries.
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HEY CHIC GREAT ENTRIES, hey i found a kendrid spirit in you writing, keep up with the entries, they have meaning and they are the gate way to humn thought,, read my stuff sometimes and you will realize i am "fuck up" like so many people and we need the life line to the real world. how old are you? well if you already know never mind but, learn and use the acronymn P.L.U.R : PEACE, LOVE, UNITY, RESPECT.
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sometimes you can't help who you love..but you have a choice as to how you will let things affect you..does that make any sense?
take care
--sylviashadow
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Sometimes you have to make your own happiness...sometimes you have to ditch school or call off from work and just say 'screw it' today is my day..
take care
--sylviashadow
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Hehehe...I love your diary...I love the way you talk...you are so *Cute* I'm sorry. Even when you are angry u are cute. U actually remind me of myself. I am gonna add u to my favs. Hope everything works out. Love ya. Fiona
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her-she : |
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Check out my design site especially for "gay people"! Thanks!
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dyingisanart : |
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all i can say is i know exactly how you feel- email me or something (emilyseyebrows@hotmail.com) or add me to msn if you want to.
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You should talk to your girl about anything that's bothering you. If you don't do it now it'll just fester until you can't deal anymore. Take care!--sylviashadow
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Hey! I read your diary... Wow... we have quite a bit in common... Creepy...
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I think you are putting too much pressure on yourself-you are only sixteen once. I'm 22 now and wish I had put less pressure on myself back then-I was just like you...you don't have to do everything everyone else does at your age. You are unique-hell, that's why you are on my faves list!--sylviashadow
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Hey, I used to live in Yuma, a few years ago. I went to Rolle and moved at the end of 5th grade. How old are you? I wondered if I might have known you. Im 16 now.
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Hello-
My archives page link is now back up so you can see the complete poetic history of my diaryland entries!
-sylviashadow
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sounds like your mom was just in one of those fanatical 'must clean it all now' moods or something--probley didn't have much to do with you at all--
sylviashadow
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congrats on Kassie...
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I hope you do feel better...
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lezbian : |
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I just wanted to let you know that I read your diary! Check mine out if you'd like :)
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hey sweetie--I know its hard to be who you want to be and not who you THINK you should be. My grandad died a year ago too--so I do kind of know how you feel. Try not to beat yourself up! yours pro ana/mia--sylviashadow
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Eliza Dushku... oh yes. And I do miss hearing from you.
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"Cruel Intentions"... my big crush was on Selma Blair... Listen to 80s songs by Berlin-- their "Love Life" and "Pleasure Victim" albums... Alongside Tori, listen to Loreena McKennitt and Julee Cruise...
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i love love love tori. i'm seeing her in less than a month. and i love silverchair beyond words. and. i'm going through the same thing right now. love is such a heavy load.
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Don't ever think you don't have the right to love her. Even if she can't respond, even if the affair can't happen-- you always have the right to care, to desire, to believe.
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I know its hard--but you have to accept who she's with for now--it might change--otherwise you'll fuck up a friendship--and friendship lasts longer then love unless its true i think--sylviashadow
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Thanx for joining verbalsmack! You might also want to join ana-miafems for feminists with ed's...Sylviashadow
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you might be having a clinical depression episode--go to a family doc or a psychologist--he/she'll diagnose you and go from there. Are there any gay support groups in your area? About ana, you have to decide what's right for you and stick to it..you control you!:)sylviashadow
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hey-me again. I've created a new diaryring-ana-miafems--for feminists with ed's--please join:)Sylviashadow
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great site..voices like yours need to be heard! I run three diaryrings--verbalsmack, poetica, and ladylazurus-and would be happy to have you join one or all of them--sylviashadow
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hi i have a new pro ed site which you can jion if you want to go to
http://poshgrrl.proboards13.com
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Hey I tought you might like to look at my diary I'm ana too. La la la read my lame diary
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Hello! I have a new Pro-Ana website that I am trying to tell people about via word of mouth! If you would like to see it, email me at Mpls_grl@yahoo.com, and I will send you the URL!
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anniere : |
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hey anapride! i like your entries... i am "recovered" and would love to hear your words of wisdom to push me back to my happy/thin place
anne to ana
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i am too proud of you for deciding to quit ana when it isn't right for you. rock on!
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Feather--
You're welcome...
-Julie
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fyrephoenix : |
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...don't end up like Juli...
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Honey, if you were this depressed, you coulda told me. I didn't know you felt THIS alone. Please, please, please don't fall into the 'Puppet' trap: getting thin just to look like the Barbies and Twinkies. And by the time you reached the weight you think is perfect then you become the 'Perfect Puppet'.
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don't think about suicide, thinking about suicide is a sign of weakness...you're NOT being "wimpy" by not doing it, ur being STRONG, girl! i'm going throo MAJOR depression rite now and yeah occasional i think..."whats the point?" but the point is, that it's a challenge, the more u can with stand it and eventually fight it off the more stronger u get, and later on in lyfe u'll be thankful that u have the "strength"...commiting suicide is THE LOWEST THING N E ONE COOD EVAH DO!
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okay, i understand how you feel now. i'm glad that you respect my feelings too and i'm going to leave you alone now. i thought you would be mad, but i'm glad you don't seem to be.
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um... hey... i'm not trying to be rude... but you're making it sound like anorexia is just some fun thing that you do one day, and it's not, it's a serious disease and it kills people.
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