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from loveherwell :
i love that you updated just to go over good things - i often forget to do that so it looks like i'm miserable all the time (haha).
from dangerspouse :
COSMO AND WANDA!!! (Er...can I be Wandisimo?) Glad to see a happy entry from you for once. I really hope 2018 continues that trend. You deserve it.
from loveherwell :
i love that!! ah, it's such a nice show to kind of zone out of everything that's bothering you and just focus on. i'm sending you good vibes across the country.
from loveherwell :
i love broad city :) just haven't seen the newest season!
from comebacktome :
Definitely a random over weirdo Lee, 100%!! Also, you can always talk to me about nervousness, and I will repeat your words of wisdom from when I had my 10 year hiatus back to you ;) xo
from sparkle-pink :
Ty! It's not too short, about an inch below my shoulders. I have had long hair around mid-back for years now. I think the shorter look is fresh, plus I can already tell it's going to be so much easier to manage! And I'm just doing my own thing for a diet. I try to get a major exercise in every day, be it walking or swimming. And then I count calories. Just this past week I started restricting food, mostly stuff with tons of sugar in it, like fancy starbucks drinks or pastries. I was staying within my calorie limit eating that stuff but all that sugar was turning to fat! Haven't gained which is actually amazing, and I am very glad for that!
from lust- :
Thank you!
from sparkle-pink :
yikes, i really hope Bill's health improves. stomach viruses are no joke. Thinking of you guys!
from comebacktome :
I am very grateful you are alive also!! We can't have only just met to have you taken away! luubbzz
from sparkle-pink :
i am so glad that you are mostly okay after the accident. I hope you recover quickly and with minimal pain!
from tinea :
girl, i know. thank you so much for your note. everyone keeps asking me what i'll do if he calls me in a week or whatever and i know in my heart i just can't. i can't do this again. they say, "when someone shows you who they really are, believe them." so i will. i'm not perfect but i deserve so much better than this.
from dangerspouse :
Don't let Bill talk you into leaving The Great Catsby behind. You'll regret it forever. Do whatever it take to find a way to transport him, and stick to your guns. I don't usually give sincere advice, but this is sincere advice. If you start resenting Bill in a few months/years because you miss your cat terribly, even counseling might not be enough. I hope everything else goes smoothly with the move, and your marriage as well. You deserve a break finally.
from loveherwell :
i've been missing your entries since you've been MIA for a while! thank you for your note - it's been a stressful month. but i love reading your stuff; i also find you to be a kindred spirit. i'm wishing you well.
from whystinger :
Just dropped by, thought I would say hello. Will be back to read more...
from dangerspouse :
Atkins too, are you? Woo hoo, good for you! I bet you make some great meals on that plan - the spaghetti squash you mentioned here, and the cauliflower you posted in my notes, sound terrific. And both are bear free! Most excellent :)
from papotheclown :
Thanks, friend. I am glad you exist too.
from dangerspouse :
Welcome back! Cool that you got to meet those two. Looking forward to the indepth report :)
from dangerspouse :
Thanks kiddo. You're a pal :)
from dangerspouse :
Held together with a zip tie?! Send me your address - I'll mail out NewWifey(tm) first thing Monday morning to either fix that thing, or terrorize your home owner into doing it!
from dangerspouse :
Awww. We appreciate you too. Especially the smut :)
from loveherwell :
there is always *something* that has to be better before something else can be done...sigh. it's nice to know you get it.
from dangerspouse :
WE'RE STILL ARGUING ABOUT IT!! Of course :) Lol...we're gonna see if we can agree on which makes a better sandwich with the leftovers today. Stay tuned! (And I'm glad to see you're sticking with the cello lessons...and going to couple's therapy. I hope both turn out well.) :)
from dangerspouse :
Yes! Send them to me! SWAG!!! Lol...hey listen, don't get discouraged. You're enjoying the various things you're doing, right? THAT'S what's important about any hobby - not the result. Think about that. And...I love love love "The Great Catsby" :)
from dangerspouse :
"I feel like my hobby should be eating delicious food you make". That's it! That's what I'm talking about. You've got an interest in it, AND you'd be great at it right out of the box! Lol...hey liste, cello and archery are both tres cool. Amazing, actually. I love both, although I've only ever tried archery (and that was tons of years ago). You go, girl! I hope getting back into cello scratches that itch somewhat. But if it doesn't...listen, "I don't want to take up something new because I won't be excellent at it right from the start" is about the stupidest cop-out there is. No! I won't apologize! It's true. C'mon, NOBODY is great at their hobby when they first take it up. Well, except me and cooking. But I'm god, so that doesn't count. But yeah, knock it off. If you want to try something...try! We all expect you to fail the first time, but that's ok because we did too. It's part of the learning process, which itself is actually quite gratifying in and of itself. Do I really have to explain this? (And btw, that was a very sweet entry about you still loving Bill. I hope you still find fulfillment in your relationship for a long time to come. All the best, babe.)
from dangerspouse :
The reason why it's taken me so long to respond is that I felt your question deserved deep contemplation and a nuanced response, not some glib, off-the-top of my head "just do what you love" bullshit answer. Well, that and I'm also just so lazy that I couldn't be bothered to check my notes for a couple of days. And did I mention all the hookers? That takes up TONS of time (if you do it right). So...sorry. Ok, so, after consulting various oracles and thinking hard on this for, like, 4 solid minutes (or however long that "adorable kitten plays with ball of string" video was), this Favorite Adult of yours offers you the following answer: "How the fuck would I know?" Ok, ok, while that's true, it's not very helpful, is it. Sorry. Umm...ummmmmmm... hmmm. Let's see. Er... yeah, sorry. I'm striking out here. How can I give you advice about hobbies when I don't know what you enjoy (other than that), what you're good at (other than that), what kind of physical abilities you have (other than...screw it), etc. Is there anything out there you've always thought was cool, but for various reasons you never thought to try it yourself, like rock climbing or scrap booking or something? Have you looked to see if there are any kinds of clubs in your area - any kind at all - that meet when you're free? It doesn't even have to be something you ever thought you'd be interested in, sometimes just immersing yourself in something new is all that it takes to spark enjoyment. A photography club, a birdwatching club, the Lady Elks, that kinda stuff. Things you never would have thought of. Waddaya think? Have I now become the Least Favorite Adult in your life, or does that sound kind of reasonable?
from loveherwell :
post...autocorrect sigh
from loveherwell :
thank you <3 i don't lose enough but it makes me so happy to see when you're doing well
from dangerspouse :
I'm doing great, thanks! And you're gonna be doing great if you make these chocolate chip cookies. It was printed in "Cooks Illustrated" originally, and why it works so great is that it uses a higher ratio of brown to white sugar than the usual Toll House cookies, and it adds an extra egg yolk for added soft chewiness. Sounds like what you're asking for. You can Google it if you want, but here ya go anyway: 2 cups + 2 tbsp all-purpose flour, 1/2 tsp baking soda, 1/2 tsp salt, 12 tbsp butter, melted and cooled, 1 cup packed brown sugar, 1/2 cup granulated sugar, 1 egg + egg yolk, 2 tsp vanilla extract, 1 1/2 cups semi-sweet chocolate chips, Preheat oven to 325ºF. 1. In a medium bowl, whisk together the flour, baking soda, and salt. Set aside. 2. Melt the butter in the microwave or over the stove top and let it cool. 3. Use an electric mixer fitted with a paddle attachment to beat together the sugars and melted butter. Mix on medium speed for 2 minutes. 4. Reduce the speed to low and add the egg + yolk and vanilla extract. Mix until combined. 5. Gradually incorporate the flour mixture in three additions. Mix just until the dough forms. 6. Fold in the chocolate chips. 7. Scoop out two tablespoons and roll into a ball. Place on ungreased baking sheet. Repeat to have 7 balls of cookie dough. 8. Bake for 15 minutes, then let cool completely on the baking sheet. EAT!!
from dangerspouse :
Hooray! Working sewer pipes are more important than food. I'm glad you're flush with happiness again. Now get rid of that cough! :)
from dangerspouse :
Oh my GOD! You poor thing! Shitty, indeed! Damn, I really feel bad for you. Flu, broken sewer line, borrowing from grandma...damn! Jesus, I hope things turn around for you, and quick.
from lonelyhaven :
I started my diary in 2004 and until tonight it's been about 5 years since I last logged in. You were listed as a user online right now. I read your most recent entry and your every word could very well be my own. To get straight to the point, thank you for putting your heart out there to be read. You've mattered to me on this night.
from whystinger :
I don't mind at all. Is aryssa90"at"diaryland.com a good address for you? If so, I will send a password. I had wondered if you had the password. If a different email, hit me at whystinger "at" Yahoo
from whystinger :
The 02/10/2017 entry is spot on. Beautiful.
from whystinger :
I hope you feel better soon. I hate sinus infections... and strep.
from friskyseal :
There are also the lost entry ideas I never got to, but I think they will just float around in my head forever. I'm nowhere else, I put it all here. But dude, I need friends! Chat with me sometime--you can tell me wtf is in Illinois. Google is best, email me?
from friskyseal :
Look on the bright side, at least you won't have to wait around ten years for the ending. =D Maybe we can think of some sort of epilogue. I'm not sure if you saw but I'm very close to Santa Clarita. The new one's name is Ott. My mother named him that actually. I guess "otter5" didn't really stick. I couldn't take him with me the last time I went to Germany, because he is too uhh... well-fed. I didn't want to squish him into a bag. =( When my mom would email me, she would always conclude with, "Ott says hi!"
from friskyseal :
Oh, it was a joke. I meant that I concluded my diary. Hence out of a diary-related job. Yes, I had two bars removed and one inserted. Otters say thank you. I have a new one actually. He's very special...
from friskyseal :
Thank you, Aryssa! Since I'm out of a diary-related job now, I'm available for consultations! =D
from dangerspouse :
I know you weren't ignoring me. How could you?? Lol. Hey, thanks for the birthday wishes. She's still down with the bug, but hopefully (she says) she'll be well enough for at least a little sumpin' sumpin' this weekend. We'll see. Speaking of sumpin' sumpin'...do what guys have done to virgins since time immemorial. Get him drunk. Not enough to pass out so he doesn't remember how good it was. Just enough to make him pliable. Trust me. It's how I got that sheep back in college.
from dangerspouse :
Aw, good luck with the second meeting, Aryssa. With the weight loss journey, too. We're all pulling for you here :)
from dangerspouse :
I'm very sorry to hear that. Very sorry.
from thruthecrowd :
Omg... :-(
from thruthecrowd :
emailed you...
from dangerspouse :
The fact that you wanted to go to a march is enough. It's what happens , after everyone goes home and the signs are put away, that's important. I admire you and everyone else who stood up for this cause, whether it was at a march or just in their heart. And yes...life is often this confusing for everyone. I hope you find relief soon.
from dangerspouse :
Sheesh. I just saw your "rejected by Bill" entry. How awful for you. I'm sorry :(
from dangerspouse :
HAHA! Trust me, you'd rather have me mail you out a loaf of bread than send you a recipe. My last recipe, which my dad asked for after tasting something I made, began like this: "Open a bottle of white wine and pour it in, but stop after about a half a cup when you notice the wine is brown and has spoiled. Spend the next half hour adjusting spices to try to compensate for the horrible taste." So....yeah, I'll just make the bread and FedEx it out. You're welcome :)
from dangerspouse :
I hope you get the job!! Way more money is always better :)
from thruthecrowd :
<3
from sparkle-pink :
I've been doing well, thanks for asking! I've been doing yoga too, along with swimming. So far I've lost 9 pounds, so I'm happy about that. I'm also really looking forward to Christmas, I'm flying to Edmonton (from Vancouver) where all of my family is. It's the one time of year I get to see my littlest sister and her boyfriend and I enjoy our time together a lot. Do you have any holiday plans yet?
from sparkle-pink :
good job with the yoga! keep it up <3
from dangerspouse :
Yeah, Stephie was indeed one of a kind. It's amazing how many people here in D-Land knew and admired her, us included. Of all the stupid, idiotic things that went down in 2016, her passing is up there with the worst of 'em. And btw, I'm not on Facebook. We were emailing for a while, before she got too sick to continue. She was even more hilarious, profane, and perverted there than in her public posts. You would have loved it :)
from dangerspouse :
Oooo, nice little SUV there, Chickie! Congrats, I hope it serves you well. I understand those Buicks are very nicely appointed for the price. Well done! (GET RID OF MY PORN?! My god. How could you even type such a thing? Don't worry, I work in radio. If I feel the need to jerk it but my elbow's hurting, I'm covered. That's what we have interns for.) ;)
from dangerspouse :
Typical girl. WHAT KIND OF CAR DID YOU GET?? Jesus. Ah well, despite that I hope you get over your flu or MRSA or whatever has attacked your poor body. Wish I could give you some advice on how to cure lonliness....
from dangerspouse :
Hey kid. Just got back after a bit of a hiatus. Sorry to see things are so soul-sapping for you. I can't fix cars or clean houses (really, trust me), but if you need a meal mailed out to you, I'm your guy. Or porn. Just holla back, girl.
from thruthecrowd :
<3 thinking of you, sending strength and hugs.
from thruthecrowd :
I'm here if you need me...i'm so sorry and hope he pulls through. <3
from sparkle-pink :
Really sorry to hear about Bill. Hoping he pulls through and recovers. My thoughts are with you guys.
from papotheclown :
Thank you. That means a lot.
from thruthecrowd :
I really miss Malibu and the ocean and my hermit crab friends. <3
from thruthecrowd :
Thank you...I hope things get better for you soon <3
from dangerspouse :
Wow. I hope the trip to Ireland goes well, and you get to wallow in a sea of dick when you get back!
from raven72d :
very good entries.
from sparkle-pink :
Hey there! My username is sparklepink password envelope. I am sorry I can offer no advice on how to cope with a death of a close relative. My Poppa was on his deathbed a few weeks ago and I was a mess (he is recovering now, which I am glad for). Stay strong and I really truly am thinking about you and your family a lot.
from dangerspouse :
Words rarely ease pain at times like this, but like the others I am so very, very sorry for your loss. How absolutely awful for your family. My thoughts are with you.
from papotheclown :
So terribly sorry for your loss. You'll be in my thoughts.
from sparkle-pink :
I am so, so, so very sorry to hear about your Grandpa. You and your family will be in my thoughts.
from dangerspouse :
No offense, but I think Bill really has to wake up about the CPAP business. Dying early from sleep apnea is a very real possibility. I'm sure he knows that. Why he would choose that risk over a bit of discomfort is beyond me (not to mention the horrible snoring/choking that must wake you up constantly). How about getting a prescription for Ambien or something? Something that will help him fall asleep no matter how uncomfortable the mask feels?
from comebacktome :
*cough* Australia for the win *cough*
from dangerspouse :
I am very sorry to hear about your Poppi. Very.
from thruthecrowd :
ha, i never feel hungry, ever, and i can totally forget to eat, but for the last week or two i've been feeling like i'm starving as fuck, all day, and i'm pissed about it. heh, weird and funny. :-
from thruthecrowd :
Aww, thank you for telling me that. That's sweet! <3 And aren't they neat to look at! I've been admiring the baby ones we have in my bf's yard, all different colors. ;-)
from thruthecrowd :
Thank you <3!!
from dangerspouse :
I'm sorry it's not gonna last much longer for you guys. Sounds like you were really taken (so to speak).
from comebacktome :
I hear you sister!! Ridiculously difficult!! Come on men of the world, get your shit together!
from dangerspouse :
I'm so good I can even make a Fleshlight squirt ;)
from dangerspouse :
Yeah, I was lookin' at the fleshlight. But they're just not big enough. And they taste awful. :)
from papotheclown :
Opposites attract. I think it would be kind of hot to be with my polar opposite. I bet you can convert him!
from thruthecrowd :
I'm like okay...till I got to the Trump part... :-/
from comebacktome :
Ahahaha! She speaks the truth! That and we live on different continents *sad face*
from lostasyou :
Jeeeeeeeeez, I haven't read in a while and what's going on?! Your life is mad haha
from dangerspouse :
Oh yeah: the speaker is freakin' AWESOME! It's so loud I don't even hear when the phone rings while I'm plowing the wife :)
from dangerspouse :
*riiiiiiiing* "Oh hi, baby." "Hi honey. I just called to see what you were doing." "No one." "What?" "I mean, nothing." "Don't forget we promised to catch Star Wars with the Pinkney's tonight. Are you coming?" "Am I coming? No....no.... no.... YES!" "Ok good. See you at nine." *click*
from comebacktome :
OH HELL NO. Dude! Uncool!
from papotheclown :
I have taken part in two threesomes in my life. Both times it was with a lady and another dude. Someday maybe I'll get the more fun kind with two ladies. Thanks for the support. I think you should come down to Ole Colorado. It's a super fun place to hang out.
from dangerspouse :
Hey hey! You GO, Oreo Filling Girl! Was it Ken and Lee? Details! Details, dammit! Lol. Hey listen, thanks for the great note at my place. Glad - I think - to hear that your grandparents are still hanging in there for the moment. Wow, 46 years. That's longer than some countries last. Hey, make sure you update when you find out if you got the position at work. I'm pulling for ya here. I'm doing great, thanks! Still have a job, wife's still putting out, Christmas rocked, some of my hair is still on my head, etc. And I bought new socks! Woot! (I'm guessing Lee's big mixing machine is a Hobart floor standing mixer. They originally owned KitchenAid before selling it off, but they still make the most popular restaurant supply heavy duty mixers on the market. They're pretty much indestructible.) Now then, your next mission: post videos of the 3-some! Wheeeeeeee! :)
from papotheclown :
High five for threesomes!
from dangerspouse :
For godsake. Just get Ken and Lee together and start enjoying DP's to your heart's content. Why is this even a question? In non-ridiculous comment content: good luck getting the supervisor's position!! And...your grandma left your grandfather? Really? That's kinda sad, on the face of it. Unless they're both happier for it, of course. But still...really? Damn. How long were they married?
from loveherwell :
You got this!!!
from papotheclown :
Good luck!
from comebacktome :
TOTALLY got this! xo
from dangerspouse :
Gah!! Feel better, kiddo. And happy 2016 - I hope it rock for you :)
from loveherwell :
i just realized i hadn't responded to your last kind note. i am hoping that these next few months give me some clarity on a lot of things: where i am, my job, who i'm with, etc. we will see if it works. i have a feeling i will be going back to kentucky before the end of next year, but we will see.
from thruthecrowd :
I know that feeling...<3
from loveherwell :
he is sad and i kind of hate myself hah
from comebacktome :
Sounds promising my dear! I am talking to a guy who loves motorbikes. And books. Spelling is inconsistent, but he correctly referenced Dylan, so I'm going to give him he benefit of the doubt for the moment...
from loveherwell :
i'm sorry everything is so shitty :( i'm hoping it gets better soon.
from dangerspouse :
Return of the Prodigal Orgasm! Huzzah!!
from dangerspouse :
Cards Against Humanity! And booze! If that combo doesn't cure things, shit really IS serious. Hang in there.
from buffylass :
Thankyou so much :) day went awesomely in the end, and we're now slowly working our way through all of the leftover wine, cake and cheese. It's fantastic! xx
from dangerspouse :
Any horse farms near you? Or a 24-hour jackhammer store https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r5j84BucjyQ ? Good luck, kiddo. I'd like to say "I know what you're going through", but I don't. So I'll just say: DO SOMETHING!!! THESE ARE THE YEARS YOU SHOULD BE WALKING BOWLEGGED FROM ALL THE ACTION YOU'RE GETTING! For godsake, you don't want to be 50 and reminiscing about all the cobwebs you used to have to sweep away every week down there...and still are. Let's go, chickie, DO SOMETHING!
from papotheclown :
The desire to be properly fucked is not a shameful thing. Don't add guilt to all of the other burdens you are carrying. I hope you get some soon.
from spit-n-lie :
Your lack of sex has made me laugh hard but very much wishing you get some soon. Fingers crossed(but not legs).
from dangerspouse :
Gosh, how could I take that any way other than as a diet reference? How dare you, madame.
from dangerspouse :
Naked with a spider on your face? How the HELL did you know my fantasy?? (Hang in the with the low carb. I lost 60 pounds in just over a year when I went that route 2 and a half years ago, and its stayed off. If you are any good at cooking at all, and can use your imagination when looking at ingredients, there's no need for it to be boring or frustrating at all. If you need ideas or just want to vent or brag, feel free to write me an e-mail anytime. Hang in there. It - and you - are worth it.)
from spit-n-lie :
Ooh! I like that.
from spit-n-lie :
May I ask, does B know about K? Just trying to figure out the dynamics... Nosey me, I know :/
from spit-n-lie :
Awesome. mundilfari.thegiant @ hotmail
from spit-n-lie :
do you share your diary? let me know and I can give you my email
from spit-n-lie :
Not at all! Strangely flattered, actually :)
from thruthecrowd :
Thank you <3
from dangerspouse :
Good luck getting the DV Shelter gig!! Oh - and to your grandma, too. That's pretty important also :)
from dangerspouse :
Heh. The Duggars being cancelled is indeed a positive. Not as good as "Duggars all killed in a horrific double-decker bus plunge", but you take what you can get :)
from dangerspouse :
Happy birthday! (Er..don't read this til Tuesday, ok?) Glad your house is clean at last, ya slob ;)
from thruthecrowd :
is it an infection? Have you been tested for bacteria, etc? :- I could barely move it got so bad, I'm doing better now after antibiotics I hope they figure it out soon! <3
from dangerspouse :
Did you get a diagnosis yet??
from thruthecrowd :
I hope they figure it out and that it's an easy fix! <3
from loveherwell :
no you aren't! you're wonderful!
from loveherwell :
is that the kind of dog from where the red fern grows?!
from comebacktome :
Yay!
from dangerspouse :
Bitch. You didn't say WHAT KIND OF COOKIES!!
from comebacktome :
Preach it sister! Fucking doctors can suck a dick!
from loveherwell :
thank you! you are so nice :) it's very difficult. i typically feel fulfilled either through school or a job, and i currently have neither (well--not what i consider a "real" job). we hang out with people on a semi-regular basis, but they aren't *my* friends, which is odd. luckily i have three friends visiting in a couple of weeks. and THANK YOU about the hair! this haircut has absolutely killed me. every time i look in the mirror, i hate it more :( but it'll grow, at least. i hope that you are doing okay--it seems that as things are progressing with ken they are slightly degressing with bill. i love how upfront you are with both of them, though. i think that's the key to success in all of this. i'm wishing you well.
from dangerspouse :
I knew your Bikini Bottoms became all a-quiver in the spongy presence of ol' Squarepants! I knew it! And I don't blame you. I would fuck that squirrel with the Texas accent and deep sea helmet til the cows came home, myself. Good to know my fetish is shared by someone worthwhile for once!
from dangerspouse :
Do not underestimate the power of Sponge Bob to unleash a torrent of libido.
from ashwink14 :
I apologize but at the moment, I'm not comfortable with anyone but myself having the password to my dland diary.
from dangerspouse :
A real bed? Pfff. Fogies!
from dangerspouse :
Oh god. I'd rather have a Mexicali parasite than develop an allergy to chocolate. Chocolate! My very raison d'tre!
from dangerspouse :
Thank you very, very much for the note and offer to chat, kiddo. I'm very grateful for both. Sorry I was too drunk and/or distraught to remain online last night and take you up on your offer, but know that I was touched that you'd offer. You rock, babe.
from dangerspouse :
You're trying to squat for 30 days?! I've only done that when I've been severely, severely constipated. Maybe it's from your flu. (Oooo, Northwestern! Go for it!)
from dangerspouse :
So...are you going to go back to school? That's always a plus!
from papotheclown :
Thank you for the clarity, but surprisingly, I had already figured that out. Please tell me that you didn't just go from aryssa18 to aryssa90 and that there are actually 72 other blogs out there that belong to you.
from thruthecrowd :
I have come to the conclusion that having a body genuinely sucks...i hope everything works out, and even more so that the doctors are wrong. :-
from dangerspouse :
Oh no! What's the prognosis? Have they given him one?
from enurta :
I miss reading your diary! user/pass please?
from thruthecrowd :
<3
from incshrnkmn :
If pasta tips are anything like rib tips, they sound great. Good luck on your hunt for anacondas and similar wild creatures.
from comebacktome :
I don't think you're being punished my sweet. I shall email you about this, but it's biological, not karmic, I PROMISE! xo
from lostasyou :
i emailed you but you never replied.. lostasyou@hotmail.com x
from lostasyou :
Are you giving away a password? x
from jaysthoughts :
Another diary locked away, never to be known. Alas.
from dangerspouse :
Eh. You'll only end up getting another pedicure. :)
from dangerspouse :
How very uncomfortable. I don't know if you've mentioned this before, but have you considered counseling? There must have been some chemistry, some qualities that made you marry him in the first place. Maybe those qualities have just gone underground during the complacency of marriage, and need to be dragged up again. Or maybe...counseling will bring you to discover otherwise, and it will save you from spending the rest of your life with someone you find stultifying. I hope this works out for you, either way.
from dangerspouse :
You just have to solve this equation: "(Things I like about being with Bill) minus (The things I don't like about being with Bill) equals....". That will let you know if it's worth going through life with someone who doesn't share your interests or inclinations. (Oh, for extra credit factor in "plus odds that he'll change in 'x' amount of time".) Good luck!
from papotheclown :
Two things: 1. I emailed you again, hopefully you get it this time. 2. More importantly, I tried to delete the notes you left, but they don't seem to be disappearing. I emailed diaryland support about the issue, hopefully they will take care of it soon.
from papotheclown :
I have two single friends. One is a single mom that works all the time. The other is kind of an arrogant asshole who seems to make women feel uncomfortable, which makes me really hesitant to hit the town with him. C'est la vie, I suppose. Did you get my email?
from papotheclown :
So I would like your password and stuff so I can read your diary. Think about it. I'm nice.
from dangerspouse :
I'm glad you talked about it first. Good luck, mighty huntress.
from papotheclown :
You can absolutely follow me. Judging by your profile, I think I am going to follow you as well. I imagine we can have some interesting conversations. It's nice to meet you.
from dangerspouse :
Fucking money, indeed. I feel for ya.
from dangerspouse :
Oh, SNAP!
from dangerspouse :
Yeah, so haiku is not your strong suit. You're still a very nice person.
from dangerspouse :
Hey, no, you didn't say if you'd landed the job or not. Congratulations! Now get some sleep so they don't fire you the first day. Slacker.
from stepfordtart :
I know. I need to stfu. Ive lost your pw, would you send it to me again (or I never had it, in which case, can I?). Thanks everso s x
from dangerspouse :
With entries like THAT, what do you expect to be called? "Demure demure demure"?
from dangerspouse :
"Bee"-utiful. I see what you did there! Ho ho ho! :)
from dangerspouse :
Was "input" a deliberate pun?
from kalel592002 :
Sorry it has been so long since I answered. I've had a very trying year and don't visit Diaryland too often. With luck, I will be a more frequent visitor in months to come.
from dangerspouse :
Heheheheh. It worked :)
from won-too-tree :
Will you send me your login info? won_too_tree_fore@yahoo.com
from dangerspouse :
I got into a locked diary only to be told I'm about to be regaled with tales of WEDDING PLANS?? I didn't sign up for this gig....
from incshrnkmn :
It would be great to get your password... incshrnkmn@aol.com P.S. Dangerspouse's advice below is absolutely right.
from thruthecrowd :
Email me your pass...
from sparkle-pink :
hey there! if it's okay I would love to continue reading. shoot me an e-mail at princess_jessica16@hotmail.com with da info if it's cool! Thanks :)
from dangerspouse :
Oh yeah - shoot me the password if you go that route.
from dangerspouse :
You would have felt bad and wrong if you hadn't done it, either. Just not (as) guilty. Now do yourself a favor: if you want to stay with Bill, take this to your grave. When you try to convince him to get freaky, don't bring this up as an example of how much you need it or you risk him seeing it as a betrayal. Then all bets are off. (Still - sounds like it was worth it!)
from loveherwell :
i'd like in still.
from peggypenny :
Afraid they will cum too soon, out of control. Men think it's a weakness to cum to early. Give him an ultimatum in a positive way. "I'll give you a new technique B.J. if you go down on me first."
from dangerspouse :
I dunno, THIS guy certainly can't give an opinion on it. It's just such an alien concept, not wanting gonzo sex if offered, that I can't even pretend to know what's going on. I mean, I love cars and own cars and sometimes even love IN cars, but that doesn't mean I understand what's happening when they start driving funny and not acting like their supposed to. Same with your guy. He's SUPPOSED to be all over that shit. But he's not. So something's wrong, and I'm no mechanic. Sorry. May be time to trade him in for a better ride....
from peggypenny :
Many men would not want to watch two woman for fear of getting "out of control" a big fear in many men. And if you want your lover to do something for you, you announce loudly, "If your want a lover to do something for you, you do it to them." Then, immediately with large hinting eyes, go down on him. Then stand up, put your pussy in his face and give him the same hinting look. If that does not work, then you say bluntly, "Go down on me."
from dangerspouse :
Thanks for the note back! You're kidding - Diaryland made a mistake?? Quelle surprise! Oh well, the important thing is YOU LOST 20 POUNDS, HOTTIE!! Wheeeee! Drive them puny gas station attendants mad, baybee! Lol. Seriously, congratulations. Ok, now, a grave concern must be addressed: is Bill an illegal alien from Mars? What red blooded (I assume hetero) American male turns down an offer to watch two chicks do it - with his girl's permission?! How did you find the ONE GUY ON THE FUCKING PLANET who even had to mull that one over?? I'm bringing this up at the next Manly Man Meeting of Men. We may have to revoke his membership. Jesus. God, if you were mine....
from whystinger :
Keep pushing for couple's therapy and don't give up. You may have to go through a few to find one who works. My wife refused to go to couple's therapy until I moved out. I have been back a few years but things are still eh. You deserve sex and someone who will participate with you in sex. My wife claims "you (I) don't give me enough sex" yet she is the one who constantly says "no." Don't fall into the trap I am in and stay IF it cannot be fixed. Oh, my wife is fairly overweight and I still WANT her. It is the person I married, I don't worry about the weight. I need to make a note and find my way back to your diary.
from dangerspouse :
Twice in one weekend?! Greedy, greedy! Lol...I hope you get it too. Report back and let us know, willya? Oh - and did you get the job?
from thruthecrowd :
you too? That was my whole day. :-
from jimbostaxi :
Happy early Bday! :0)
from sparkle-pink :
I've been cooking a lot too! I really like it. Here's a blog that has EXCELLENT recipes, as well as complete nutritional info for all of them! http://www.skinnytaste.com/
from thruthecrowd :
omg that's terrible! I'm glad you're standing up for yourself against that type of treatment! :( I wish you luck in finding a better and less life-threatening job soon! <3
from sparkle-pink :
That's so awesome that you've lost 19 pounds!! Keep up the good work!
from buffylass :
Ahaha this hen do was for an evangelical Christian, which may explain the lack of porny Disney characters! Definitely less Princess Jasmine and more Baloo the bear x
from buffylass :
I believe the USA hen do equivalent is a bachelorette party - I'd be interested to know if they also suck in the States? I was Jessie the cow-girl, so not even technically a Disney character! And thankou for the gran well wishes :)
from stepfordtart :
Hello dear! Do you know what youll be studying for Brit Lit yet? VERY interested to find out. :-) s x
from ruebenwafco :
love the 'taste the lies' entry. Happy New year!
from loveherwell :
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D
from ruebenwafco :
good to be back. I took a hiatus. really life was fucking with me. I say sleep, it does the body good. write your dad and just say, "I love you." that's all. nothing more. you'll feel good for doing it and it doesn't tie you to responding to him or seeing him in May. Peace. and keep in touch.
from dangerspouse :
Thank you for replying to my note. That was very sweet what you wrote. I'm glad you feel that the good outweighs the bad in your marriage, even if the bad can really be miserable. It was heartening at least to read in your current entry that Bill is seeking a medical answer. I hope for both of you it helps. And best of luck to your father. That is a very, very tough road he's going down, and I'm sure it can't be easy for you to watch him do it.
from thruthecrowd :
I had to cut off my dad with the message that i love him, but that as long as he is doing things to hurt himself and others I cannot have contact with him at all. Since then my siblings have followed me in that.
from dangerspouse :
Seriosly - why do you stay with Bill? Do you think he'll change, somehow, someday? I wish you the best. You sound very sad all the time. (And just out of curiousity, have you heard any updates from your father? Has the guy who called your grandmother for money left him alone since getting it?)
from lostasyou :
Sorry! I somehow accidentally changed it but it should be back to normal now!
from whystinger :
Loved your entry, sort of related to it. My wife is like your husband, except it has been about two months since we had sex. I know how you feel, not wanting to have an affair. Keep working on a resolution or you will be like me, stuck in a marriage with a shitty sex life.
from ruebenwafco :
yo, been MIA for a while, but your diary is what kept me sane today. enjoy reading about your life. hang in there, kid.
from loveherwell :
i tried that years ago, so i may need to go back to it! i seem to remember it working quite well.
from thruthecrowd :
ha...that made me smile. Life is all about coping and adapting to try to cope, even if it ends up being maladaptive...I'm convinced.
from thruthecrowd :
Did you take antibiotics in the last month? I don't remember if you mentioned anything, but if so, my bf's gma got C. difficile (sp?) and had the exact symptoms you are experiencing. It is contagious, and any dr. can give the test for it. I hope you get better soon. <3!
from thruthecrowd :
:( feel better <3
from buffylass :
Ha! Amazing. Handy in a spinning round sense?
from thruthecrowd :
Feel better <3
from thruthecrowd :
heh, started mine today too and thought the same thing...I actually hoped sincerely for the last two weeks.
from stepfordtart :
Please do, cos...umm....there seem to be some gaps where stuff mightve happened. Maybe? s x
from thruthecrowd :
yay! :)
from lostasyou :
Of course :) username: yes / password: andno
from comebacktome :
oh oh. do you want to chat?? xo
from thruthecrowd :
<3 I've experienced similar things with various people and agencies. I'm sorry you're experiencing that though.
from comebacktome :
Boo for bronchitis and lack of computers to Skype. Boo, booo, boooo, BOOOOO! xo
from loveherwell :
i just realized that i never replied and wanted to say thank you again. it has taken me a bit of time to realize that people deal with other people's pain in different ways, and more so the world just doesn't work the way i want it to. i really appreciate what you said, and i'm sorry for what you've been through as well. x
from thruthecrowd :
:( I'm sorry. I'm thinking of you and hoping things get better soon. <3
from comebacktome :
Oh honey. I'm sowwies. Let me know if there is anything I can do?? lubz! xoxo
from loveherwell :
thank you for that. really. x
from thruthecrowd :
<3 Thank you
from lostasyou :
Thank you for that and it's okay. Also I think it's just the comment box being weird. It should go back to normal soon, hopefully.
from thruthecrowd :
OMG I know...it is the worst flu I've had in some time. Warm-hot tea with honey helped my throat the most. Feel better soon!
from thruthecrowd :
I would be concerned too...that therapist needs to look into diagnosing. DID is from extreme longterm repeated trauma, and only can be dx after years of intensive work w someone who knows on a specialty level how it works. I have a relative w it and know more than i want to about it. Normal childhood traumas cant cause it, idk if your guy understands the implications of her dx on him. The therapist is making pretty severe judments all around. And misdiagnosing people doesnt help them, it destroys everyone involved.
from thruthecrowd :
not you too..this is the worst flu ive had since i was a child. :(
from won-too-tree :
Sorry to hear that... work sucks sometimes. Unfortunately, having no money sucks more. :( Hope you hear back from one of your applications.
from thruthecrowd :
Have you signed up for the IBR program? I don't know if your loans will qualify, but if they do, try to do this ASAP and you won't have to pay more than 15% of your income over $10,000 or something like that. In the meantime do anything, just don't default. And FYI the percentage of interest goes up if you forbear your loans. here is one of many links: http://studentaid.ed.gov/repay-loans/understand/plans/income-based
from thruthecrowd :
Les Mis is awesome. I haven't seen the film yet, but it is my favorite musical. Hope things get better. <3
from thruthecrowd :
I hope everything is okay. I'm thinking of you two. <3
from comebacktome :
Hey honey, I hope bill is ok. Thinking of you xo
from lostasyou :
Well, I don't even know about extensions myself really aha. I just hope for the best. You can get them online and stuff but it's risky if you are not entirely sure about the colour. If I get them online then I normally buy a shade that's quite light, so then I can dye them myself to a darker brown colour. And just hope that they match my actual hair.. aha. For these new ones I just went into a hair shop in town and some woman working there found some 18" ones that matched my real hair colour. But they were mega expensive. And I had to sew the clips to them, ugh. I don't know what else to say, really! Probably best Googling information aha, Google is a fuck ton more reliable than I am ;)
from loveherwell :
oh, yay!!! i just love them :)
from thruthecrowd :
i link all of my pics from photobucket or flickr. I'll tell you how to do it if you like. It's cool cause you can lock the folders, but still link a specific photo publicly. :)
from sparkle-pink :
Hi! Sorry I missed your note, I didn't get a notification either! Anyway, I'm so glad you're feeling better. You're right though, this diary is a great place to write about all the shit. My username/password is sparklepink/envelope. Take care!
from thruthecrowd :
you might feel stupid, but I completely know how you feel...unfortunately. <3
from thruthecrowd :
yeah, it will hurt as it heals. I'm sorry though. I went through it too. The bottom has nerves that go closer to the area where the teeth are. I remember the first few days I ate ice cream, frozen yogurt, yogurt, smoothies and breakfast shakes, pudding, and refried beans. After then I broke chicken into swallowable bits (its irritating but works), and just tried to let myself swallow without really chewing. Ground turkey or chicken is better for that. After a few days I also put ice in a baggie wrapped in a wet cloth on my face to ease the swelling and pain some. Feel better soon <3
from thruthecrowd :
did u ever get my email? idk if it actually sent.
from thruthecrowd :
yeah, but I have an interesting theory on that. I'll write about it in my diary because it will take too much space to write it here. :)
from thruthecrowd :
I'm glad that guy did something positive to help you. I hope you feel better soon. <3
from comebacktome :
Oh noooeees :( I hope the dentist fixes the problem tomorrow and you feel better AND THEN have some awesome sex to make you feel better properly ;) big loves xoxo
from lostasyou :
I haven't heard of it. I'm glad it's working for you though! My scars are all white now, they really stand out even on my stupidly pale skin aha. And there's hundreds and hundreds of them so I guess they'll be more difficult to cover. Ah well. I'll try something else one day.
from lostasyou :
I've tried bio-oil on my self harm scars.. doesn't seem to make any difference whatsoever :/ but then again I don't religiously use it every day because I forget. I want to find something that can seriously disguise them.
from thruthecrowd :
D-land is awful for informing people of notes. I always wondered, and even inquired as to why it can notify you of updated diaries but doesn't for new notes. I really appreciate all of the kindness you have shown me, it means so much to me, and I will email you as soon as my head stops being foggy; hopefully later today.
from aryssa90 :
thanks for all the notes everyone, i am just leaving this note here for everyone to know, i'm not ignoring your notes, diary land just doesn't email me notifications anymore and i never think to check my notes! Sorry but thank you!
from thruthecrowd :
Thank you for caring. <3 I love writing. I shouldn't be giving advice on how to really get into it because of how little I have been writing lately, but what I love to do is make lists of things I wish were possible or things I like or wish, and start writing as if it is all possible. :)
from comebacktome :
Wohoo weight loss! High five my friend! Xo
from comebacktome :
My darlingest aryssa, is you online? I wish to speak with you about how you are! xoxo
from sparkle-pink :
I'm worried about you. The way you don't feel like yourself and the suicidal thoughts you have been having (I know you mentioned they're not serious but I believe that any suicidal thought is serious). I really think it would be a good idea to talk to a professional. Perhaps with school ending and getting married these big life changes are a little overwhelming. Idk. I am not qualified. I know it may seem unnecessary to get help, that's how I felt. I always felt like I was the girl who had it together, had all the answers, it was just a phase, just pmsing, but I really needed professional help and meds. Not saying that you need meds too but having someone to help you figure out what you're going through will help. You can delete this note if it's too personal, I don't mind. Please take care, I'm thinking about you.
from sexyatheist :
Girls is amazing, i love it! i wish there were more episodes. and you are very welcome. i'm glad it helped, even a little bit. and well, my affair didn't exactly turn out well but hey, i still got the story. :)
from loveherwell :
exactly!
from thruthecrowd :
<3
from sexyatheist :
i'm sorry to hear you're in pain honey, that sounds like it's really tough on you. i'm proud of you for sharing, it's embarrassing but nothing to be ashamed of. i hope you feel better before your plane ride!
from ashwink14 :
Yeah, I've seen that! :) Thanks for sharing, regardless!
from thruthecrowd :
lol. I had the same conversation with mine, and we love our non-existent children too and the perfect world they would live in. :)
from loveherwell :
yes!! that's totally it!!
from comebacktome :
AHAHAHAHAHAHAH! I just laughed out loud in the middle of my loungeroom (pants off crisis style). You is freaking hilarious as always! Now, GO DO YOUR HOMEWORK!!! xoxo
from comebacktome :
And that is the exact topic that my good friend did her PhD on :) I can see if she will send it to me if you want to have a read? xo
from comebacktome :
What s/he said!! Babe, she met you for like an hour, there is absolutely no way in hell that she knows you, even a little bit. And, as pointed out before me, academics are so wrapped up in their own little world of academia and their own bullshit and egos that they can't see anything about how the real world actually works. Yeah she may be a practising clinician, but it doesn't make her any good. I can tell you right now, the worst lecturer I ever had, was also the shitest clinician- and ended up being barred from practising, but that's another story. It is all about what YOU want to do babes and I agree that a school that doesn't support you may not be fab, but don't give up on the career that you have wanted so long, because she's got no social skills. I bet that bitch wouldn't want to be a sex therapist either, so really she doesn't know shit about your life and plans for it. Big loves! xoxo
from thruthecrowd :
Practicing clinicians are the ones who wrote in my files that I would never in life be able to do anything beyond an 11 year old with my education and socializing history...they are the least aware of others as individuals while being the most judgmental, and I would dare to say the most bitter to have a job at all. They base everything in life from books and statistics, with no life experience of their own. Trust me when I say this because I have met too many, and that woman has no idea of life outside of her little office and any books contained therein. Don't doubt psychology, you have qualities that are in line with psychological based studies and careers. And there are much better places that will be more supportive for you and your future studies. <3
from comebacktome :
That sucks, she sounds like a douche! I had a shit day too, with people pissing me off. Wanna hate the world and all the fuckwits within it together??? xoxo
from thruthecrowd :
Which means...we both have a year off! :) Sorry that that lady has so many issues. She seems to exude everything that is wrong with psychology. I look forward to you finding a better place with people who really love what they do and want to do! <3
from thruthecrowd :
now I can add you to the people I know who got engaged list, as I stare at mine with dis-contempt knowing I should just buy myself a ring already and let everyone I am engaged to myself because my other half wouldn't join me. :)
from lostasyou :
Yeah.. I guess things like that are a big slap in the face. I'm going to get a few of those in my time, I bet. For all the awful things I do to myself and the situations I get in.. corrr, I'm going to get a slap ha. But it's good you're thinking that way, well I think so anyway.. not sure what I'm getting at haha I'm terrible at explaining myself.. but yeah, I'm still sorry for your loss xxxx
from lostasyou :
Your entry about Trevor made me really sad. Opened my eyes slightly, too. Life is so short. I am really sorry for your loss, hope you feel better xx
from comebacktome :
Oh honey, I'm sorry :( I sympathise, I felt the same when I found out about Sam. It's okay to feel weird and upset, he was still a part of your life. If you want to talk, let me know xoxo
from lostasyou :
Ahhh yeah, it's annoying. I want my room done nooooow. And hmm, he has a Youtube account but only where he listens to other music and whatever. Not sure what the band account is named under.
from lostasyou :
Cheers, and yeah it's nerve-racking at first but it's okay. I know I get very uptight and anxious but it's okay. Maybe volunteering is a good chance to like.. practice? I think of it like that anyway. Get all the mistakes and shyness out of the way now and I might be better when someone finally properly employs me haha, might be the same for you too :) and ugh my room is a mess. Boxes of things to be taken out when I paint the walls etc, but nothing has been bought yet. I want to get on with it though!
from lostasyou :
Yeah, sounds good for a test haha. I think I'd be very nervous myself.. but I guess if someone got my boobs out in that sort of situation then it'd be different and more acceptable than if it happened by some randomer in the street hahahaha. Sounds really exciting, glad you enjoyed it :)!
from lostasyou :
Thank you :) and naaah it sounds really good. Plus, really great that you and Bill are so comfortable with each other. Being able to do things like that together with no jealousy/trust issues and whatnot.. I like it :) makes things a lot more fun! I'd love to look into doing something the same, I think I might after reading your story haha.
from lostasyou :
and happy belated birthday! Sorry, I'm shit at being nice and polite haha. xxx
from lostasyou :
Your birthday story sounds so good! I'd love to go to a strip club, or like a burlesque sort of place. Must be fucking expensive though haha.
from thruthecrowd :
Thank you! <3! And Happy belated Birthday! That was quite a way to celebrate!
from incshrnkmn :
Happy birthday. Thanks for the present. (Loved that story!)
from thruthecrowd :
I didn't mean I would leave my diary or anyone here, sometimes it scares me how much you know about my life and thoughts, but you never put me down when I feel overwhelmed or sad, and no one here ever has. I meant more face book and other social media crap where people are weird and don't like being human. I have appreciated your comments so much, even if I haven't often replied in return. <3
from lostasyou :
Whatever film you choose, don't pick Piranha 3DD! Hahaha nah it was okay.. but not great. Hope you have a good weekend anyway, sounds like it'll be a laugh :) xx
from comebacktome :
I am here! I am online! Come back my sweets and we shall chat! xoxo
from comebacktome :
I am your friend and you can always talk to me my sweet! Oh and I don't see it as regression, more processing. I think you are looking to things that free up your brain to hash over the big stuff. And I completely think you are fair enough in being pissed at Angela, just because you are friends doesn't mean that you just have to accept and support everything she does. Especially if she is being a monumental douche. Just my $0.02 xoxo
from comebacktome :
Nope, you're just awesome! Don't let someone make you feel bad for NOT being pathetic! xo
from sparkle-pink :
Try checking out local music shops. Sometimes they offer lessons and may have a cello teacher on staff, if not they may have a list of recommended teachers or even just people they know. Are there any post-secondary schools that offer a music program nearby? That's probably the best place to look for a teacher. Maybe you could nab one of the teachers at the school, or they have a colleague or student they could recommend, or the office of the music school might have a list of students interested in teaching, or maybe there's a bulletin board with a teacher's posting. You could put a post up too. Also you could try out cellists of nearby orchestras and see if they're teaching of if they have anyone they recommend. It seems to be all about cracking the seal, once you get in the recommendations start coming! Good luck finding a teacher! The cello is one of my favourite instruments. If I could go back and do it all over again, I would choose cello.
from lostasyou :
I wish you all the best for the future :)
from lostasyou :
Congratulations on the engagement <3 finally aye :D
from sparkle-pink :
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! CONGRATS ON GETTING ENGAGED! I'M SO EXCITED FOR YOU! In trivial news, and I'm sorry I haven't responded sooner, I've kind of fallen off the train re: dieting and exercising. It's a sorry excuse but I'm still figuring out my schedule about taking transit instead of driving. I don't know how much weight I've gained back but for sure I've gained back a fair bit of it. Oh well!
from comebacktome :
Hey lovely, just a quick note to say that I did get your email but have been out all day and driving for a couple of hours, so might not get a chance to email back until tomorrow morning, but I am thinking of you and sending positive healing vibes to Bill. Big loves!!! I will email you soon after I get some sleep xoxo
from comebacktome :
Lucky bastard indeed! BTW the beautiful man who works in my building and goes to my gym and is my secret eye candy spoke to me today! And smiled! And flirted! And checked out my arse! This made up for the crazy lady earlier in the day! xoxo
from sparkle-pink :
Congrats on losing 15 pounds! Keep on kicking ass!
from ashwink14 :
Yeah, I think my uncle mentioned something about their tires. And yeah, you're totally right. I suppose I figured they'd be more fearless, but then again, seeing as I pointed out, people have died in this sport, they definitely don't wanna risk it.
from sparkle-pink :
Starting over is better than giving up! I thought about trying weightwatchers but decided against it because I'm poor and what I'm doing seems to be working. You mentioned you didn't like the meetings- how come?
from sparkle-pink :
Thank you! How's the calorie counting going? And are you getting any exercise in? Is there a specific plateau diet or just following general tips? Sorry for all the questions lol.
from sparkle-pink :
Sorry to hear about your family troubles! I hope your stepmom is found soon. That's scary business. In other news- good for you for being on track again. Working out when you're stressed out always feels so good. I'm starting week 4 now which is where things tend to fall apart so we'll see how things go. So far I feel good though! But it's still the morning lol. I don't get the hunger cravings until the evening/late at night. I've been cheating the system by eating a big dinner. I've seen around that you should eat a small dinner but I know for sure I would end of binging if I did that. I'm still seeing results so I guess it's okay!
from comebacktome :
Ohh noooo honey, lemme know how this pans out mmkay? xoxo
from thruthecrowd :
You are a really good member of your family. Don't let anyone make you feel bad for that. I hope everything works out for the better, especially for that little girl.
from comebacktome :
Boooo. Fucking unis man, they are nothing but drama and angst. Let us skype and whinge later this week yes? I shall emails the deets xoxo
from sparkle-pink :
Still doing well despite it being the 3rd week! Here's where I typically fall off the train so we'll see how it goes. I feel strong this time around though. Sorry to hear about you gaining 2 pounds. Just remember to take it in stride, each day is a new day, you can do this! Oh and just in case you missed it, I posted a healthy cupcake recipe yesterday, if you like white cake. Haven't tried it out myself yet so I guarantee nothing!
from sparkle-pink :
Bob rules too. Both of them are totally awesome. I actually have a difficult time ordering healthy when I'm out. It's always like, a salad with grilled chicken or salmon or something. I have a hard time paying lots of money for something I can make so easily at home. How have you been doing these past few days? I've been staying on track but yesterday was difficult because I was home all day. Plus yesterday was my day off of exercising so that only made matters worse. I juust scraped by under my calorie limit yesterday lol. But today was good. Had a snack when I don't usually have one but I was still over 100 calories under my limit (1000).
from comebacktome :
YAYAYAY! See, good communication for the win!!! Loves xoxo
from thruthecrowd :
Maybe we should introduce our boyfriends to each other...I'm about to buy myself my own ring. :-\
from sparkle-pink :
Ugh that's so hard when there's yummy food around you. I remember trying to diet when I was living at home with my parents and there was like, open bags of chips just laying around begging to be eaten. I always ended up binging. I have the Biggest Loser game too! It's great. Who do you train with? I love Jillian so I choose her. I'm going to buy the 30 Day Shred and add that to my exercise regime. I think I'll get into yoga once I'm a bit more fit. It seems like such a great activity, good for your body and mind. I use caloriecount.about.com too, but just for looking up info about foods. I have a journal that I write in to keep track of all the food I eat and the exercise I do. I have the app from myfitnesspal.com downloaded on my phone for an easy way to check calories when I'm out. So far I haven't had to use it because I have no social life lol. I don't mind though because so much of being social is wrapped around food! It's so much simpler just to stay in and eat a salad.
from sparkle-pink :
Yes! I'm in it to lose 150... well 146 now. What's your diet and exercise schedule like? I wrote about mine in today's entry.
from comebacktome :
It's official we are soulmates!!! I never expected anyone to know what that was from lol. Mark and I quote that scene on an almost daily basis. Freaking hilarious!!!! Gold star for you! xoxo P.S trying to sort out some linkage with things that are also registered under the same name i.e blogs, twitter etc. to make sure only the etsy one comes up, but I will sort it this weekend. I have been making stuff, so there will be things for purchase ;)
from lostasyou :
Haha that exact same thing happened to me. I tried dying my brown hair blonde years ago.. HA! It was just pure blonde roots and gingery going down and then the same dark brown it was before :( Had to wear a hat in the shop I went to to get more brown dye and the store assistant's made me take it off.. how embarrassing hahaha.
from sparkle-pink :
Thank you!
from sparkle-pink :
Thank you for your note. You're right... nothing will fill the Kodiak-sized hole in my heart but another pet will help to heal it.
from fatcowww :
Hiya :) I have decided to lock my diary again, probably indefinitely, starting the entry after next. I hope you would still want to read me - if so, please let me know where to send your details for login (via email would be best). Note me or email me (fatcowww@dl). xxx
from lostasyou :
Thanks for the comment :) there's gonna be some definite walking. Along with no cabs to places that are only a 20 minute walk in the day, i.e just to go shopping ahaha. So lazy.
from lostasyou :
haha! i think i was partly joking, but i am aware that i'm one of those "types" tut, some people aye.. hope you feel better and less angry :P
from lostasyou :
was that last entry aimed at stupid people like me? ;) or am i just paranoid haha..
from comebacktome :
Oh no my dahlink, what is happenings to chu? It may also be an inner ear thing, keep that in mind if it doesn't go away and get it checked out. In the meantime you have an email full of scintillating details waiting for you to entertain you in your sick bed ;) xoxoxo
from sparkle-pink :
Hey! The password hasn't changed at all. Still envelope. Username is sparklepink.
from comebacktome :
Oh nooooooeeess, your nooooossseee! I hope it is ok? Pack of peas on your face my friend, stat! BTW, I kinda sorta did something possibly silly, that I swore never to do (again). Still unsure whether it was a good move..will post later, but sleepies now xoxo
from thruthecrowd :
ew...sorry about the worms. If you have an extra blanket, use that as a sheet temporarily. luckily worms are usually easy to get rid of.
from fatcowww :
Re signing up for free, or not - when I made this account I had to pay $2 to get a special link to use to create the diary. I had assumed that this link was randomly generated by the system and different for each signup, but possibly not, since more spam diaries have popped up since then (hence the return of the clickable * after usernames on the members pages) - presumably some asshole distributed the signup link. Official info about it here: http://news.diaryland.com/#1279598358 ... although I don't know for sure that it's still in effect. I guess if you log out and try to sign up again and it doesn't ask you for $2 first, then we know it's free again (in which case I panic).
from comebacktome :
Mokay, very important typo in previous note- try NOT to stress! Anywho, I have a long email coming your way full of bitching, intrigue (not really) and just a hint of fun stuff. Stay tuned! xoxo
from comebacktome :
Mokay, so I think the joint present thing is bullshit. I agree, it's the thought that makes it. It's why I hate getting- or giving- money, or even worse, picking out what I want and knowing what it is. Ugh! I am sorry it's all gone badly with the dentist :( Try to stress my sweet, I am thinking of you!! xoxo
from comebacktome :
Totally agree- hot vampires who actually bite people and look scary for the win! Ian Somerhalder shirtless is reason enough to like that show, aside from the fact it is actually good lol. I misses chu, alas have not one, but 2 massive assignments due and have been slack and not done either of them, hence enforced hibernation from the intermenets, but I will write back to you sooooon xoxo
from lostasyou :
Thanks. Yeah hopefully they do something to fix me aha. Someone has to.
from ashwink14 :
Yeah, you're right. And I think I was aware of that when I posted the remark. I suppose maybe instead of judging the type of animation it is (I've seen a lot of hullabaloo about traditional vs. CGI) or even the medium, we should go with judging the story/characters. :)
from lostasyou :
I look forward to hearing about the dog!
from comebacktome :
OMG, you got to use the Zoolander quote in perfect context, arrrgghh I am so damn jealous!!! I had this moment when I was in Slovenia when I really really really missed my brother because some friends were talking about how it was underwhelming and all I wanted to do was say 'I know you can be overwhelmed and you can be underwhelmed, but can you ever just be whelmed...I think you can in Europe' But no-one would have gotten it :( I had an idea, which may or may not work...depending on the time difference, maybe we can skype on my birthday?!?!? That would be AWESOME!
from comebacktome :
Hahahaha. The throat thing and the orgasm thing are totally related, think about it, pharyngeal tightness due to stress and tension, release stress and tension (pun intended)= hey presto, better, more relaxed throat muscles. That's how I get rid of headaches ;) Much love, apologies for the disappearing, stupid net broke in the storm. Grrh. xoxo
from sparkle-pink :
Thanks for the film suggestion. It's on my to-watch list on priority!
from sparkle-pink :
I don't think there's any way you can be a bad puppy mommy! The best thing for a puppy is love and you'll definitely give him/her that.
from comebacktome :
That's settled then! We shall have puppies and kittens but no husbands lol. PS so exhausted, but will hopefully write you an email tonight xoxo
from comebacktome :
Hahahah. I won't marry you, but puppies for sho! Also maybe kittens? I do so love kit-tens xo
from sparkle-pink :
Nice template change! It's fun!
from sparkle-pink :
Re: Project Runway- I'm pulling for Anya, although I'm not sure how much longer she's going to last given her lack of sewing experience. I also really like Viktor, he makes amazing stuff! But I'd be okay with any of them winning at this point EXCEPT for Joshua. He annoys me.
from comebacktome :
Awww that is really sweet. Oh and you can tell Amber to f* off, from me. You are way too good for that kind of crappy behaviour. Rudeness. If I was there, we would be having words. Much worse than Bitch would be mentioned, I can tell you that right now *nods sagely*. But don't worry, I lubzzz chu ;)
from thruthecrowd :
dang, that must be some strong strep if a drug that's supposed to kill Anthrax doesn't get rid of it. :-( Hope you're better soon.
from thruthecrowd :
I hope it wasn't amoxicillin that they gave you because it doesn't cure the new strains of strep. Zithromax knocked mine out. I hope you get better soon.
from comebacktome :
Arrgh guys are just so crap with this stuff! You will get it sorted my sweet, you just need to give him a kick up the ass ;) In other news, I may have found a house, huzzah! Miss chu xoxo
from stepfordtart :
Im here! Thanks dear - will delete your note. Just catching up on some old stuff, I diamond isnt important in an engagement/wedding ring AT ALL. Ive been engaged 5 times (dont ask!) altogether and married twice and I didnt have a diamond every time - it didnt seem to bear any relation to how long the relationship lasted or whether or not it even ended up in a wedding! With my 1st husband I had a big yellow citrine. With L I have diamonds - you can see it here http://stepfordtart.diaryland.com/070425_3.html (with the reason why on one entry previous to that). Right. I'll stop leaving you massive notes now. s x
from comebacktome :
My lovely, I haven't forgotten about the email I owe you, I am just drowning in snot & mucous atm. Oh and once we are both better we need to get this skype shizen sorted. Stat. I see you are online and it makes me want to talk to you :( xo
from stepfordtart :
Delighted for you to add me! Thanks! If you are sending out passwords, would you send one to me? stepfordtart@hotmail.com should work (or leave it in my notes/comments) - I tried a swish, a flick and a hearty Alohamora but nothing happened ; ) s x
from won-too-tree :
Do you mean vs. a fake diamond or something less traditional.. a different stone, no rings at all, etc.?
from ashwink14 :
I'll second the person who said something about the diamonds being conflict-free. That's important. And as long as the guy doesn't lie and say it is a real diamond when it isn't, as well. Personally, I don't really care about rings for weddings/engagements. For a variety of reasons (fear of losing it, not being a jewelry wearer, mostly).
from comebacktome :
Or maybe we just swapped- I gave you my period and you gave me your sickiness. I feel like death. And I am having some tres weird boy issues. I shall email you about this later, still trying to figure it out :/ Oh and if it didn't involve moving across the world again, I would totally take you up on your offer xoxo
from sparkle-pink :
I don't think a real diamond is important at all! It's all about love right? My roommates, who have been happily married for 10 years, bought their wedding rings for $10 at one of those ring kiosks in the mall lol.
from comebacktome :
IMHO, the only important thing about diamonds is that they are conflict free :) Otherwise it depends on what is important to you. Big loves xo
from sparkle-pink :
I actually wasn't too happy with my wand and also my sorting. Dogwood sounded kind of lame and I'm so not a Gryffindor. But with my other account I got a hazel wand and I'm in Ravenclaw! Yay! I didn't cheat either and try to sway the results and answered the questions honestly. I'm very happy now.
from lostasyou :
AHHH the things we do to look good or feel better ahahah. Yeah if I just condition it lots it might improve x
from lostasyou :
Hahah! Thank you. But that's why you get extensions.. ;) or not. They are so annoying to maintain and it'll be worse now my hair feels like straw ahaha. Just a temp change, it'll do for now! Thanks xx
from ashwink14 :
Congrats on getting into Gryffindor! :D
from sparkle-pink :
I had strep throat once. It was honestly one of the worst times of my life. Hope you're feeling better! Thanks for the advice, I'll stay away from the Blind Side book.
from thruthecrowd :
strep really does feel like swallowing razors, i remember all too well. Tonsillitis is more of an irritated sore feeling, but it's not emergency levels of pain like strep is. And I have yet to place who or where I got mine, so I'm not so sure it has the textbook requirements for getting it anymore. My bf never had it, and the only place I went that week was a church to watch Buddhist monks make a sand painting. Three days later I was in unbelievable pain and looked like the Easter bunny attacked my tonsils with an egg polka-dotter. I hope you heal fast! In some ways I wish my doc had given me a shot of antibiotics, even if it had to be in my bottom...my antibiotics took over three weeks and many allergic reactions before they knocked it out. I was in pain that entire time. :-( *hugs and wishes for a quick recovery* from all these miles away.
from comebacktome :
Not an abscess (sp?) babes, actually sounds like textbook tonsilitis with swollen tonsils and the white dots- which does hurt like a bitch IMHO. Strep unlikely if you haven't actually come in to contact with anyone who has it, as you get it from saliva and nasal fluids AND it's most often kids that get it, but get swabbed if you want. No needles and popping should be necessary, either way. Your ear is probably hurting because your tonsils and adenoids are swollen and this is pulling on your eustachian tubes- OR you may also have an ear infection (I get the double whammy sometimes). Your Dr should be able to diagnose you in 2 seconds and give you a script. Get better soon! Love loves xo
from thruthecrowd :
i've had tonsilitis off and on most of my life, it doesnt hurt - strep throat however looks almost the same swollen tonsils and white spots and is unbelievably painful. Get tested for strep. They just swab your tonsils - no needles. It is contagious, so if you have it you'll have to take antibiotics to not be contagious to others. I hope you feel better soon. <3
from thruthecrowd :
thank you...I think I'm just very overwhelmed and very alone here. But thank you for caring. <3
from fatcowww :
Of course I don't mind that you read! It's public, innit..? :) I don't mind lurkers, really, but I do get curious eventually. xx
from comebacktome :
Aaah my friend, it is not that you are immature, just that families can never actually see you for who you are, they are way too ingrained in their memories of when you were 2 and they babysat or whatever. It's irritating as hell, but unfortunately just the way that it rolls. Living apart definitely helps, people tend to see the changes a bit more. But they can still be a pain in the ass. True story :P xoxo
from fatcowww :
This is a belated greeting - I noticed you added me ages ago. I should have at least said thanks by now :( I hope you find me amusing or entertaining or whatever :) Since you've not noted/commented I have no idea what you think... but I like to be optimistic. Cheers :)
from lostasyou :
Thanks for that note you sent, I'm not sure when it was because I've been a bit all over the place but yeah. I always appreciate it, thank you x
from comebacktome :
Heya sweets. I meeeeeeses chu. I hope you have a good week away. Big loves xo
from lostasyou :
Oh I know.. it's just so shit. I think we've all somehow been the person who won't listen to everyone else, makes the bad choices. All of us! I just wish she'd come home. It's her 22nd birthday today and I don't know where she is or if she's happy. I wish she'd come home to see her friends who love her so much even though she's such a tit sometimes!! But yeah not much else I can do. I think I am just a bit of a worrier.. It'll sort itself out :) thanks xx
from lostasyou :
Doubles dates!!
from comebacktome :
My lovely, I am the most terrible email friend in the universe, I have been away with wedding schizen and am massively behind on my uni work, but I have been thinking of you and will try and write you an email sooooon! xoxo
from ashwink14 :
Nope. Haven't gotten my welcome email yet. They do it in like bursts. They did one today, I think. According to Hypable (http://www.hypable.com/harry-potter/2011/08/29/pottermore-hits-major-beta-user-count-milestone/), a few days ago there were about 105,000. And a million people got early access. So, yeah, I'm like, 90 percent of those who hasn't gotten that email yet. http://insider.pottermore.com is also helpful in finding out when they're sending emails out.
from lostasyou :
P.S. really don't have a drink.. Not sure if I have the right to even say that but sod it ;) just don't. Haha.
from lostasyou :
Haha thanks for the note. It's alright.. I was just having a bit of a meltdown after he left my house. It's alright though. I'll get over it eventually. I dunno about counselling now, I don't really feel comfortable with the thought of someone sitting there listening to me whine on about the break down of a crap relationship, it just doesn't seem.. needed. I dunno. But yeah, thanks. And it'll get better. x
from sexyatheist :
it has been sent! let me know if somehow it doesn't make it to you.
from comebacktome :
My sweet, just got back after spending the whole week with my bestie and her girls. Sooo knackered, but suffice to say I am a way craper writer-backer and I am like 90% sure I am the one who owes you the email, so we is good. I will hopefully find time to write a big one this weekend, coz I have news!! Love loves xoxo
from lostasyou :
Thanks :) *blush* I saw a film called The Inbetweeners Movie.. it's a British TV series that they made into a film. Just a comedy, with really crude and disgusting humour with a bunch of loser college boys haha, and in the film they go on their first proper holiday together.. cue lots of trying to get hot girls and failing.. it's all really silly but hilarious. Yeah I'm not sure what I eat, it depends. A lot of the time because of the drink I either forget to eat, or I am too sick to eat, and other times I'll eat quite a bit. Just depends on my mood really but yeah it will be the alcohol helping the weight gain, sigh. And thanks :) I like that it's seen that way with the pregnancies haha. x
from mspsyched1 :
Thanks...I greatly appreciate it. I feel like I have been reading you for so long, that I just have to keep reading up on you. Almost like someone I've known for a really long time...without actually knowing you. So, thanks again. =)
from lostasyou :
It's so weird :( Finding out one of them was pregnant last week was a big shock but this was even worse. I really couldn't take it in. I can't. I was pregnant last year and took the easy way out because I'm not prepared to have that lifestyle yet and I just wasn't ready. I'd also have been on my own ha. I know it's bad to take that way out but there was no way I could do it and it was horrible. But I don't like to think about it anymore. It's so weird that there's going to be these two little babies crawling around and they're all going to talk about it so much and blah. I think I just need to get my head around it a bit more. It's going to be weird. I don't seem to accept changes very easily even if it has nothing to do with me hah. It's just.. weird. But yeah. Thanks for the note :)
from sexyatheist :
hi! i don't think i got it, would you mind sending me another email? sexyatheistatdiaryland@yahoo.com. or you can leave me an email address for you and i'll just send it. sorry, i don't know what happened!
from lostasyou :
Haha eeep *blush* thank you <3 Yeah it's pretty cool I guess. I never say "no" to that sort of thing, just let him walk all over me and I DIDN'T for the first time haha. Waheeyy x
from lostasyou :
poor dog!!!!!!
from comebacktome :
Ohoh, what happened?? xo
from comebacktome :
Bwahahah. 'I like em if you pay me'- loves it!!!
from lostasyou :
Haha oh god you'll make me cry! Thanks :) I don't think I even want to think about being with anyone else right now. It sounds like the worst idea in the world. One day though. xx
from comebacktome :
Heya darlin. I meees you too! I am now back in Oz and will email you tomoz. Love loves xoxo
from mspsyched1 :
Ive been trying to read up on you...but youre all locked up now. Would you mind me having your password? *crossing fingers* =)
from sparkle-pink :
Yes, I do watch Project Runway! I haven't seen the latest episode yet though. Soon. So I've just seen the first 2. So far I really like Olivier, and Anya (surprisingly). I LOVED Anya's pet store outfit. I actually thought she should have won. I liked Bert the first episode and then changed my mind about him the second episode. What a terrible attitude!
from sparkle-pink :
Sweet! I have two, in case I get sorted into Hufflepuff lol. CharmWillow209 and DawnCharm31. I'll tell you which one I end up using. I'm hoping to be sorted into Ravenclaw or Slytherin. And it was definitely the Britney Spears Crossroads. Nothing but quality.
from ashwink14 :
Thanks for the info. :)
from lostasyou :
Congrats on your news before I start :)! And yes, perhaps it'll be much better to be "numb" hahaha. I don't know. I just don't feel much right now. Can't be bothered with the effort. And yeah! I emailed them, they asked for my details and then they sent me a text to say they have my details and I'm on the waiting list :) Said it generally takes about 3/4 weeks to find a free slot, so I hope I don't bottle it when the time comes, ughhh!
from sparkle-pink :
That sucks about the $$$. I'm not sure how it works in the States, but in Canada we have student loans, which makes getting a higher education a little bit easier. But I agree with you! Why is it so difficult to get a good education? It's not right. I finished my bachelors like, $40,000 in debt. That's ridiculous.
from ashwink14 :
I think my plan at the moment is to be a licensed professional counselor or something for a while, and then go back for a doctorate and/or Ph.D. I think I most want to do research and maybe be a professor.
from sparkle-pink :
Yay! Congrats on grad school!
from ashwink14 :
Congrats on getting into grad school!
from lostasyou :
I feel like everything would be better if I had a job.. I mean I did have a job in March but I lost it in 2 weeks.. hahahaha. Seems the alcohol takes over! But next time I want to learn from my mistakes and get it right. A job seems like the answer to everything, doesn't it? A routine, money coming in, something to do, no sitting around being bored, at least you'll be a bit more social, might make some friends.. sounds great to me :(
from comebacktome :
Hurrow!! I am your friend!! I may be a bit crap at replying while I am away on hols, but the love is still there :) Just got in to Copenhagen from Croatia and feeling stressed depressed and woozy so thinking I may need food, but then I shall sit down and make some aryssa email time xoxo
from ashwink14 :
Congrats on getting into Pottermore! What's your username? Mine is QuaffleDust197.
from sparkle-pink :
Hey! Sorry... I didn't notice your last request for the password and I forgot about the other one. Username sparklepink password envelope. I've been reading your journal, I'm rooting for you to get a job! Sucks when no one wants to hire you. I've been there and I had to settle for the worst job ever (Payless Shoes). The job was all right I guess, but the people were HORRIBLE. Assholes who took the job way too seriously. I was desperate though so I couldn't quit. Good luck to you! Something will come your way eventually.
from lostasyou :
Ah I see. Yeah I think it'll be a little harder for me somehow hahaha. I suppose we're all different though. Thanks for the suggestions yeah, I am trying to figure out some stuff about what I can do as a distraction. And thanks again, it's nice knowing there's someone there :).
from lostasyou :
Thank you :) how did she stop completely, do you know? That's if I can even ask ha. It'd be so appreciated, I need all the help I can get.. I am drinking now and don't even want to. I need all the help I can get x
from lostasyou :
Haha ;] They piss me off so much though when they get a text or something and they all stand there looking around for about 10 seconds. Do something else, good grief.
from lostasyou :
Cool, thanks :) Haha don't worry I never have anything going on in my life really, things just pop up and I make a massive drama out of it.
from lostasyou :
Noooooooo! Goodness me!! Sorry I am a bit of a mess at the moment, I do enjoy wallowing hahaha. I'm completely fine for you to read :) I think my last entry ended on a rather bitter note so I'm sorry if that got to you, it's nothing like that don't worry. It does suck being miserable.. Really does. I'd love to get in your diary but you locked it :P You haven't upset me at all you silly goose, the only person who can do that is the one I often talk about.. Hmmmmmmm! xx
from lostasyou :
Ohh I can't get in :(. Haha no it's fine, I get it all the time I just just too stupid to actually do anything about it. Yeah I always wonder that.. If it's acceptable to be treated like shit some of the time, and be treated nicely most of the time.. Probably better if it was just nice all the time, aye? I dunno wtf I'm even doing anymore. We'll see. And thanks :)
from thruthecrowd :
Thank you for caring, it means a lot to me. <3
from comebacktome :
my darling one, muchos apologies from my corner, my laptop charger broke so I have been the better part of a week without net access- Yes, I nearly did go insane! Anywho back in the land of the emailage and my plan is to pack up my room, pack my suitcase for croatia and email my neglected buddy Aryssa. Oh and make coconut cupcakes for my last day 2mrw. It shall be done! xoxo
from comebacktome :
I just literally laughed out loud at the anaconda reference. Ahahahah, that shit is funny. I am aiming for some emailage 2mrw...hopefully. I really need to do some exercise though my tummy flab is just not cool given the former awesomeness my abs once were xoxo
from ashwink14 :
Thanks for the correction, Wikipedia describes the spell as "Used to heal relatively minor injuries". If anything, they'd probably use something that makes the blood disappear or something. Though that would probably be just overdoing it, bringing magic unnecessarily into the bedroom. And you're right, about the series being mostly for young persons. And, I completely agree with you about these characters basically being her children, and I think the point that you made about that, is probably why I feel rather unsure (for lack of a better word) about thinking about them in sexual situations myself. And thanks for agreeing with me re the movies. :)
from aryssa90 :
odd indeed, i shall have to look for you! i have an e-mail in the works for you detailing my wonderfully boring life :) hope you're doing well and stopped reading that book!
from comebacktome :
So I tried looking for you on skype, but no dice. I will emailz you my name and then maybe you can try on your end?? I have figured out that it doesn't like to work with the sound, I have to be wearing my headphones...xoxo
from thruthecrowd :
Thank you for caring, it means a lot. <3
from comebacktome :
I meeeessses my Alyssa, yes I does. I will get around to emailing you back one of these days, right now I am still in panic mode facing the fact that I will be back home in a month. A MONTH- eeeeeeeek! xoxo
from comebacktome :
OMG that is shit, I'm sorry to hear that :(
from comebacktome :
Hurrow you, did you get my emails?? I have been thinking of my girl, yes I have xo
from comebacktome :
Ohh nooo for sickiness! That is tres shit. BUT guess what, I actually have some time this weekend for the first time in a month and I think I remembered some of the Oz stuff I had to tell you so I will endeavour to write you something to entertain you. BTW Thanks for your little note via email, it was appreciated xo
from sparkle-pink :
OMG that "I love you" moment is so beautiful! I'm glad you finally got to say that to each other!
from comebacktome :
OMG, how did I not know this??! HAPPY BIRTHDAY my hot schmexy friend, may your pants off time be plentiful!! xoxoxo
from ashwink14 :
When I used "the" for Batman, I was going with how Colbert had called him in the clip. Plus, I think in the Nolan movies, they do call him "the Batman" but Colbert was my only actual reason at the time. Plus, for some reason it makes him even more badass (which doesn't make sense, lol.) As for Wolverine, I don't think I've an excuse.
from comebacktome :
so the pressing of the play got in the way of the writing of the email. Or at least I did write it, but didn't have any intermenets to send it. It is now waiting for you- part 1 anyway. There is a whole Part 2 that has evolved in the last few days that I will try to find time to write you soon xoxo
from comebacktome :
Well I am writing you some angst to keep you entertained, so gear up for some serious reading my friend! After that it may be radio silence for a few days while I try to press the play button on my life that has been paused for 18 months. We'll see how THAT goes :/ Oh and yay for hot schmexy time! xo
from comebacktome :
SO I wrote you a massive email while semi reclining on my keyboard and drooling with bleary eyes, but the love is there! Or it better be, I have this horrible feeling that it didn't send properly, in which case I will kill someone...once I get some sleep xo
from comebacktome :
I wouldn't say a toddler, 2yos are evil by nature- not their fault, just the development of all the cognitive stuff that happens at the same time. Defo 3yrs and up- they are the ones that I work with. OMG, the cuteness! P.S I is putting aside 'Alyssa Emails time' this evening, so watch your inbox xo
from comebacktome :
You bet your sweet ass I am wanting that email- I am totally fuzzled, what is the silky situation??? I will also email you back in a decent time frame as have some time off next week when I shall be organising my life that went to shit through one thing or another. But you first! xoxo
from comebacktome :
*cheers* Good work! Way to wear the big girl panties! And your reward shall be me actually getting off my arse to write a new entry lol xo
from comebacktome :
I tell you what, I will write you a shiny happy entry sometime soon. Alas tonight I spent the whole evening writing the most depressing letter I have ever written in my whole career. It's not even finished either, I just couldn't stand it any more, I needed a break, so I watched some HIMYM, coz that makes everything better xo
from comebacktome :
I too am rooting for your vadge to sort itself out post haste! (could that sound more disgusting?) Since mine is broken I need to live vicariously damnitt!! (Yes, apparently it could...) xoxo
from comebacktome :
ssoooon my pretty soooooonnn. Good luck, I'm sure you'll do great! xo
from comebacktome :
I am back, I am alive, I will write you tomorrow I SWEAR it on Eric's hot body, which is the most sacred thing I can think of right now. I have to alas get up at a heinous hr to get in early to work to prep for a presentation I have to give first thing. Ugh! xo
from sparkle-pink :
I actually bought a box set of the Little House books. I've never seen the show but judging from your reaction it's pretty sweet. I'll look into that.
from comebacktome :
Nope, never heard of Stratego, but if it's like risk the awesome factor is most likely high! BTW I will eventually get off my arse and write you an email, but I have been crazytown busy this week/end. We shall defo all share and lust over Eric together! xoxo
from ashwink14 :
Part of the reason is probably because episodes 1 and 2 were the first of Star Wars I had seen. I didn't see the originals until around 2002 or 2003. I mean, the second episode (Clones) for years was in my top five favourite movies. That got knocked off once I realised most of what you said (and ep3 came out and I was like, THIS IS GREAT). In a look of my top 100 movies from last summer, the 3rd is the only one of the newer to get in the top fifty (at 3), and the original trilogy are all in the top 50. I think I'm definitely either switching teams or just liking the films regardless of when they were made. I do know that I prefer Han/Leia to Anakin/Padme (we know how much I love UST...). Plus, the older trilogy doesn't have Jar Jar. If anything, I think I like episodes 3 to 6 the most. Thanks for your insight, Alyssa.
from sparkle-pink :
Hey! Sorry it's been a few days. My workout routine is 30 minutes of cardio at the gym (15 treadmill, 15 elliptical) and then I have this Biggest Loser game for the xbox kinect, which I do for 20 minutes. My diet is really close to the South Beach diet, except I have 3-4 servings of fruit per day. My Dad had a heart attack so I'm eating heart healthy foods, like steel cut oats, spinach, salmon and blueberries. I've been bad lately though and need to get back on the train. Good luck to you in your weight loss journey!
from fangbanger :
I want to come and being a roomie in Oz too. Haha, he is a ganster wanker. It's a shame though because the sexy time was awesome.
from comebacktome :
No, but I had to go and drag everything out from under her bed because she is too much of a wuss. It is times like these I feel like a total guy, because she is honestly hysterical and it is just ridiculous. It's a fucking mouse, not armageddon! Oh and lol to being roomies in Oz, that would be fun! BTW you have an email waiting :) xoxo
from fangbanger :
Why thank you :D
from fangbanger :
Wohooo! I am SO glad I got your password. Love your horniness, is awesome! :D
from fangbanger :
can I have your password? :)
from fangbanger :
They are indeed! I always want some pants off time with him - damn the people that have had that opportunity!!
from comebacktome :
AHAHAHAHAH you are fucking hilarious. I am in the process of sending you emailzzz xoxo
from comebacktome :
I heartily approve. Which I'm sure surprises no-one lol. Anyways, check your email, as you have a reply waiting xoxo
from comebacktome :
Yo, where is me deets? I is a lookin' but I is no seeing no deets. Email me woman!! (please) xo
from comebacktome :
Hello my lovely, I owe you some emailage, but need to be good and do my assignment so may need to wait until after the weekend. Am thinking of you and the big visit though!! xo
from comebacktome :
:O Holy snapping shitfish batman, that is a BIG decision! What's with this weekend and massive choices being made?? I hope the talk goes well xoxo
from comebacktome :
Snap! I always get it either when I'm about to go away, or while I am away. Really fucking annoying when you have to go in search of tampons when you're in a foreign country and don't speak the language (and have better things to do!)...can you tell I had to do this today?? I was partially prepared but not in the quantities required it seems. Sigh. Being a girl sucks arse sometimes.
from comebacktome :
Ahahahahah. That is hilarious. And icky. But mostly hilarious. I laughed my arse off xo
from comebacktome :
Hello my sweet. APA style freak at your service :D That is what all of my stupid assignments have to be in too. I have no idea what time it is over there and if I am too late, but I thought I would offer :) P.S Sweden is amazing!
from won-too-tree :
Can I have your password..? If you want to email -- won_too_tree_fore@yahoo.com
from comebacktome :
Nah you're gonna rock it! Now go get some sleep and then kick some arse, I believe in you!! xo
from comebacktome :
Yes but why do I still care??? I am meant to be moved on with my life damnitt and then he does something stupid like this and I am right back where I started. Arsehole. I just want it to stop :(
from comebacktome :
So thanks for the note and the emails and I shall email you soon I promises, but I need to go sleepies now xoxo
from comebacktome :
I had Mac n Cheese last night at this cool vego restaurant and thought of you xo
from comebacktome :
Awww. *sends big hugs* xoxoxo
from comebacktome :
P.S I sent him an add, he hasn't responded :/
from comebacktome :
You can say this because you had sex last week lol xo
from comebacktome :
Hooray! Congrats on having the scary convo and having it work out fab xo
from comebacktome :
Very sucky start- BUT I am now writing you your promised email full of wonderfullness and amazing insights...well, not really, but it will hopefully be a slightly better end to the day at least :D
from comebacktome :
I am SO PROUD OF YOU! Sounds like it went pretty well too! Will email, but it's midnight and I am already going to be going in late tomorrow as it is :S xo
from comebacktome :
Okay I think I knows, so I shall say good luck! I am sorry for not replying yet, the commuting is killing me this week, I am utterly exhausted. I will get back to you this weekend though, I swear! xo
from ashwink14 :
I only applied to TAMUCC as I knew I'd probably only be able to go there given the closeness to my home. I basically spent several months on my application. Mostly for the essays and the letters of recommendation. I had my application mostly done by the end of 2009, the end of January of this year, but did not hear until April. If I were you, I'd start at least in October. The GRE exam is several hours long, and it's got like verbal, math, and writing sections, if I remember correctly. I would check out http://www.ets.org/gre for more information. I hope this helps out, Alyssa.
from comebacktome :
Sounds like a fantabulous date to me! xo
from comebacktome :
OMG, Amsterdam! You must go, and I shall meet you over there and we shall fuck shit up. It'll be legen...wait for it...DARY! xo
from comebacktome :
Hahah! Damn skippy! Do you know what is funny, I was actually going to write a note saying that there better be an email waiting for me tomorrow before I got to the end of that entry lmao. I was just thinking of you actually as I was enjoying that special time in my life...HIMYM of course. I wait with baited breath for my email, I actually have an entry I was gonna write, but might just emails instead :D xoxo
from comebacktome :
:O ! You also forgot to add emailing me to tell me more in that list of things to do!! xo
from sparkle-pink :
Hope you're doing okay!
from comebacktome :
Oh oh. What happeneded? *hugs* xo
from comebacktome :
Bwahahah! Well, I am the same, so what does that say about me?! I think we just have well developed masculine sides. And I know I shouldn't say it, being a feminist and all, but sometimes girls are CRAZY. Guy logic is much more straight forward *nods sagely* xo
from comebacktome :
Mokay, so I really wish you could have been inside my head while I was reading the whole chicken paragraph, because the image that it conjured up was priceless. That shit is funny! Not you getting pecked to death of course, that would be bad :D xo
from comebacktome :
Hey babe, I hope you got my email? And I'm sorry you are feeling perturbed, but if it makes you feel better, he's prolly feeling a bit guilty re the money thing and is just trying to lighten the whole concept by joking that it's all about something else. He knows how you feel, I'm sure xo
from ashwink14 :
You're not a pussy for crying at Toy Story 3, girl. You just have a heart. <3
from comebacktome :
I defo agree, the casting for the supporting roles was shiiiiiitttee. I would put someone actually blonde as Carlise, Peter whatsit just looks weird and someone actually HOT as Rosalie. And I am all for cutting the dead weight, screw them, you don't need them anyway, I truly believe it is better to have true and good people around and while they may be fewer in number, they are worth more than 10 crap people who cause drama and BS. Quality over quantity all the way! xo
from comebacktome :
I had a productive day too! I tested a kid and talked to his school staff and then did this massively long and complicated report for education support in like 2 hrs- everyone was impressed- and THEN came home and did the remaining 1500 words of my essay- yes, it is finally done, YAYAYAYAY! We kick arse my friend. Tis a scientific fact. xo P.S I will emails you 2mrw, right now True Blood and naked Eric is calling (mhhhmmm)
from comebacktome :
Good thing you know yourself well enough to know that you will *wink*. P.S regarding babies: Welcome to the darkside, soon you will be looking at miniature converse sneakers and going 'awwww', just like the rest of us suckers :P xo
from comebacktome :
Oh noes. This sounds bad. I hope you is okay :/ xo
from sparkle-pink :
I think it's not a bad thing to be upset about bad news. Hope everything's okay.
from comebacktome :
Hey sweets, sorry didn't get to your email today, but will reply tomorrow once the assignment is done. Only 1000 words left! xo
from comebacktome :
Yes it was!! I have sent you a reply, which is hopefully "fun", but I'm off to bed now! xo
from comebacktome :
So I have been a good girl and done like 6-7hrs of uni work today, including lots of reading and then more searching and downloading and now I have to do more reading- can I have a reward email to look forward to?? Pretty please?? :P
from comebacktome :
Bwahahah. My vagina can't count. Lmao, love it! But see, you're going to get your marathon, pants off time ad infinitum- remember the deep heat babe, you will need it! I think you should just mention that some oral would be a nice little addition to the mix. It's actually easy to do, particularly in a marathon situ, as you can have a break from the actual sex bit, rest your various sore bits, but still have fun :D Be brave, it improves the intimacy (and the sex!) xo
from comebacktome :
Ahahah. Oral is the shit. I love it, but I totally agree the first time was weeeeeiiiirrrrddd. Not helped by the fact that it was the first time Gallus & I had hooked up, so my head was like "You do know that's one of your best friends right? One of your best friends. Going down on you. Right now." Cue freak out. The weirdest part was that he did that before he ever actually kissed me on the lips. But he totally loved it and he was a *machine*, PB was 2hrs solid. Aaaah the memories. Le sigh. Anyway, point is, it's awesome, but your head definitely needs to be in the game to enjoy it (no pun intended). I say bring it up again with Bill, this is one of the benefits of a long term relationship after all. Go get some pussy lovin my friend! xo
from comebacktome :
Hahah shanking over mac n' cheese. A worthy cause my friend! I have been good since I got back and dropped about 2kg of my cheese belly. But goddamn if I don't want some cake! I have been enjoying the spoils of my shopping though :D It's cool, she hasn't asked and I decided to lie if she ever did. xo
from comebacktome :
Okay okay, so I have written you your required post, now I need to go do my assignment (if that's okay with you :p) xo
from comebacktome :
Alyssaaaaaaaa! I am finally back, my beloved ibook and I have been reunited and I am now catching up on all the goss. More LOLs from me with the whole horny thing. I did some special shopping in Amsterdam, and thought of you- you would have loved it, it is ridiculously cheap and they are so blase and cool about it, it's hilarious! xo
from sparkle-pink :
Of course I'm not mad. I'm super pumped. Haikus are the best!
from sparkle-pink :
Yay haikus! I look forward to reading them.
from comebacktome :
Hey babe, in Budapest, just had to tell you about something. I was watching Family guy and there was this bit with Stewie- "But do you even know what sex is?" "Err...Im pretty sure it is a type of cake" lmao. I thought of you and just had to tell you xo
from comebacktome :
Thanks or the note babe- i laughed! xo p.s if the Italian guys I know are anything to go by, they will rip their OWN pants off lol
from comebacktome :
Nah babe, that is actually the point of burlesque, it's all about the tease and the hint of stuff- flaunting what you got and feeling comfortable with it. The dance steps are super easy, no real flex required (swear!), because it's all about the WAY you do it, sex kitten attitude is key. Plus you get to learn how to strip and not look like a doofus- I learnt this awesome spin/shirt removal/body roll thing. I have yet to find someone to demonstrate skills to, alas. So yes, while I may be able to imitate a pretzel, I don't have anyone to do it FOR, so don't be jealous :) And now I have to go pack and try and do my last assignment! xo
from thruthecrowd :
from a fellow student who is still in the trenches of finals, and will look much the way you described for the next two weeks, thanks for the laugh. I hope, besides the creepy white stalkers, that your trip back goes well. :-)
from comebacktome :
I have come to a conclusion- you are HILARIOUS when you are sleep deprived. You could write a sit-com (I think that is now a scientific fact, true story :P). On a related note, my friend and I were just talking about your little theory in that asian people hit around 12 or 13 and then don't age and look exactly the same at 35- so, you have at least two supporters, if not an entire scientific community xo
from comebacktome :
Bwahahahahahahahah! You made me laugh out loud in the middle of my loungeroom again! Believe me doll, I *wish* I was pants off time, but it hasn't really worked out that way. And alas, no, I was never in the circus, I wanted to be though! I did gymnastics and stuff for a long time and they were doing flips etc. and it made me miss it. And I am definitely not flexible like a slinky...more like soft licorice. The rest is true- as in all the ates-es (lmao) and my love of food and comic book films and kung fu. Oh and burlesque is super fun, it's all about the tease, you would love it! Go find a class, you'll have a ball!
from comebacktome :
Well I'm happy for you with the great sex part- pants off time hooray! xo
from comebacktome :
You're not weird babe. Grinding on someone and making them out of the mind insane with lust = mega fun! I love to tease- but I always follow through at the end- it's just the making them hot bit that makes me hot. So yeah, IMHO, totally normal ;) Oh and you kinda might want to say some of this to Bill, he's not going to know what you want unless you do...
from comebacktome :
Vibrating tables and pants of time. This just gets better and better! I had this mental image with 'pants of time' it was like this magical pair of undies that never went out of fashion, always looked brand new and never went up your butt crack unless you wanted them to. Can you tell I have no life and am avoiding my assignment? xo
from comebacktome :
So your first note made me LOL again (so hard that my housemate came in and asked what was funny) and then the second made me AAAwww. Thanks. Although I have to ask, did you mean pants OFF time? Or is pants of time a new phrase I'm just not hip enough to know yet? lol xo P.S You are welcome to use 'sexed up nubile self', I hereby bequeath it to you for use as you see fit :)
from comebacktome :
Brains are definitely hot. And of course you can have a marathon, you just need to make sure you change it up at critical points to take the edge off. I highly doubt he's going to be like 'Nah' to your sexed up nubile young self. Have some pussy confidence my friend, you can make it last if you want- even if in the down time for him, you let him watch you. That is usually a popular option. My only word of advice (as a 6 hr marathon girl) is to be aware that you may be sore the next day- like all over, because your muscles go into overdrive after a while, so take some deep heat. And go get yourself some new toys in the meantime ;)
from comebacktome :
It's stress, definitely the stress. I say go get yourself laid and you will feel much better. Oh what was that, oh yes, I believe it was a *Pants Off Crisis* huzzah! I say go forth and put it in to action! lol xo
from comebacktome :
You are very welcome my dear! The original diary entry made me laugh so hard it made me forget my crap day at work, so as far as I am concerned t'was a win-win :D Good luck with the move! xo
from ashwink14 :
It's kinda sad of Comedy Central, though. I expected a little more of them.
from sparkle-pink :
Thanks! Exercise helps me sleep and relieve stress also, but I've been so lazy that I haven't made it to the gym. That changed today though, my psychiatrist made me promise that I would go. BTW I loled a lot at your pants off crises. That totally seems like something I would do.
from comebacktome :
Pants off crises. I like it!
from comebacktome :
I literally laughed out loud with the pants off comment. Genuinely laughed out loud in the middle of my loungeroom! That shit is funny!! But if you think about it, there are some crisis situations where that could work i.e "Ahhh I think something is biting my leg!"...or maybe even "I really need to get laid. Honestly, it is a matter of life and death!" :D
from sparkle-pink :
Thanks! user= sparklepink pw= envelope Take care!
from home-of-d :
all locked up? boo. honeysimple at hotmail dot com if you feel like sharing with a strange girl in Canada. :)
from sparkle-pink :
Hi. I like reading your journal. Would you mind sending me the username/password? My e-mail is princess_jessica16@hotmail.com. Thanks!
from thruthecrowd :
it made me sad, can I haz password, pwease??
from ashwink14 :
Yes, totally new South Park tonight. It's about an hour away for me. xD
from comebacktome :
Can I have a password pretty please? xo
from home-of-d :
relationships need to be the whole package. We need to find someone who fits us in all ways. I've tried to change myself in relationships to think that sex/attraction/peronality/smarts... that one of them was ok to leave behind for the whole.. and in the end you get annoyed that something is missing. Sex is important, as much as all the other puzzle peices. And if your not doing things you want to ... you may regret it later in life. live life dont settle.
from comebacktome :
See but that's the point babe, I'm not interested in waiting around for that. Everyone acts like I have to change who I am to attract someone else, it's completely ridiculous. I would rather be single!
from ashwink14 :
The stuff I saw was about Mormon polygamists and Taboo covered Jewish polygamy in their episode, if I remember correctly. I think the Mormon man had like 120 children. I am aware that the Mormons were big supporters of Prop 8, but thank you for the further information. And, I absolutely agree with you, for the reasons I stated in my entry (not fair, not practical, and of course, jealousy). Interestingly enough, I've no problems with threesomes (or moresomes). But, not as a continual thing or as a reproductive strategy.
from home-of-d :
I compleatly agree, it's just a new realtionship and there needs to be some learning about each of us. :)
from ashwink14 :
Thanks! I like them too! I actually decided to go to the Kohl's physical store for shoes when I checked out their website and saw that their shoes weren't that expensive. And that they had quality looking shoes. I hope you find a good pair of shoes! :)
from ashwink14 :
There are 180 episodes of the Golden Girls, and at about 22-25 minutes per episode, you would be watching tv for about three days, and that's if that's all you do. :D *nerd* I'd love to see you do that. It would be win.
from thruthecrowd :
I agree with you. There is a reason I don't go to church, partly because my relatives are Catholic heroin addicts and drug dealers, and partly because of the people I've known who were Republican, Christians, who smoke, drank, cussed, watched porn, were abusive to children, and put down single mothers on welfare and called me a worthless welfare bastard. When I finally read the Bible for myself at age 14, I found out just how far away from God or Christianity they really are.
from ashwink14 :
You're welcome and I hope it clears up soon. :)
from thruthecrowd :
You really really need to see a doctor for that. It's not normal, you could be hemmorrhaging. See a doctor ASAP.
from ashwink14 :
Alyssa, please go see a doctor in regards to your period. It could be something serious. Even if it stops before 2 weeks. It's already a medical issue.
from home-of-d :
I'm good.. stressed... but good. :) Currently trying to balance life.. and work and school and photography and the hope of adding a man.. lol One is very interested but older then I want (over 35 for a man means high rates of birth defects) and one is younger but 5 hours away on a job. Lol.. I never do anything the easy way. :) Hope your world is good. And that the new year brings to you all the things you need. :)
from home-of-d :
oh and watch your sugar intake.. granola bars are brutal for sugar value, which spikes your insulin levels again causing your body to push everything to fat.. :) Sorry if the infos unwanted.. just trying to help :)
from home-of-d :
Processed foods are brutal for you as is starving yourself.. figure out what your daily calarie intake should be there are calculators online.. and the reduce it by small amounts.. If you crash diet your body goes into starvation mode and every single thing you eat will pack on as fat. Also avoid simple carbs like noodles and crackers really hold no neutritional value for you. The harder the food generally the more your body will work to process it.. the softer it is the faster it turns to sugar and to fat... :)
from home-of-d :
I always give real opinions. :) And you seem to have a good head on your shoulders... good luck.. in the new year.
from home-of-d :
Its none of my business and I know I only read what you post so thats only a small fraction of the story. But I cant help but feel he's dropping you clues. If he tells you your only a friend, if he tells you he cant give you what you need... it reads like he doesnt have the balls to tell you straight up he's using you with no intention of ever giving you more. It sounds like you go above and beyond to be who you think he wants... but he does nothing to be what you need/want. You deserve better girl then to be some mans sex toy. And trust me... it might seem fine now, but when you hit your 30's and your still chasing someone or if your alone and you'll see all your friends marrying off having familys and you blew your younger years... their could be regrets. Thats just what I think, not that my opinion should matter to you. Just keep your eyes open and think with more then your heart. The heart can be fooled with kind words and kind touches.
from thruthecrowd :
hey, thanks for your notes. I like the in-love part, but him sleeping in his truck means no place to stay with him. It's a two seater, not a camper or SUV...blah. anyway, if I can't access internet from his relatives houses, I hope you have a good Christmas and New Years!!
from thruthecrowd :
I would complain about those fees to someone high up at the bank, give them a sob story cry that you don't have enough money to cover your bills that are due this week, and tell them you had no reason to expect they would hold your check...and then charge you. Your deposit is supposed to count from the time you submit it. Even if it takes a couple of days, it's supposed to be "pending" and available. :-( This makes me happy I'm not with US Bank.
from mspsyched1 :
greeneyes...laguna =)
from mspsyched1 :
Just wanted to let you know that I had decided to lock up yesterday. So if you want the log in and password, let me know. =)
from ashwink14 :
I knew it was something like that. Thanks for the intrepretation on the text. :)
from entragian :
this may sound bad, but if you want to lose weight, you should pick up smoking cigarettes. it releases chemicals into your blood that make you eat 30% less than you normally would. it's a "nasty habit" i suppose, but you're young and you can always quit when your 25. then there's also this other diet - fasting every other day. it's extremely healthy for you, and you can eat like a beast every other day, and your daily caloric intake will be cut in half. say you eat about 2,000 calories a day...if you eat every other day, that averages about 1,000 per day. keep that up for about a month, and you'll have lost at least 15-20 pounds, without having to excercise or restrict yourself for long periods of time. plus, i read an article that eating only every other day reduces the risk for heart disease, cancer, and diabetes. combine the two options i just gave you, and you'll be a size 2 in no time. ^_^
from won-too-tree :
7/7/9 Hey.. it sounds like things aren't going too well right now. I'm sorry to hear that! I hope things start looking up for you soon because you deserve it!
from home-of-d :
No one can tell you what to do or what's right. Only you know the whole story and even then sometimes we don't listen to what we are being told. If after this long he's still saying things like you imply then thats how he really feels. I kept waiting on the last guy, believing in the "good things" ignoring when he said he didn't really want a relationship.. But in the end. He had been telling me all along that he didn't want me for the long term. Listen to what the undercurrent is with your man. There will be someone out there who does want every part of you for keeps. Just got to find them and not waste time with those who say what you want to hear not what they really mean. Those who are looking for "goodtime girls" someone for right here and now not someone for keeps.
from fuck--that :
So are you moving back or are you a first time Iowan? I hope you adore it, Dubuque is a great place to be; it's civilization! Which, honestly, is rare here. =) I hope everything is going well!
from ruebenwafco :
wow...OK, so HE lives in Iowa...big move. I'm happy for you...I've finally caught up on ur blog as well...ttys!
from ruebenwafco :
still looking for that craigslist job...I'll let ya know. so, youre moving to cali or you already live there? my guy left and just moved back to san diego. i miss him and that place (Im an east coast boy right now)...good catching up on ur diary and glad things are swimming along for you!
from theotherman :
thank you for the info... that's pretty much what my dr said too--- whew! ;o)
from entragian :
username - hatesit password - still
from thruthecrowd :
hey, Happy (belated) Birthday!
from mspsyched1 :
I will definately keep my fingers crossed for you. I think its great that you have goals and things that you want to accomplish. I'll be here, ok there (on the other side of the country lol), cheering you on. YOU GO GIRL! =)
from ruebenwafco :
loved your letter to bill. no worries. he's lucky to have you. and theres a reason its you and not those other girls. when you going next?
from entragian :
I read somewhere that you can get your ex back if you just stop talking to him. Altogether. Because that'll make him miss you. More importantly, don't let him know that he has control over you by crying over the phone. Sorry, that may have sounded harsh. And post pictures of you having fun without him like on myspace or something. Act aloof. Like you don't need him. It works 95% of the time. ^_^ (I know you don't know me very well, but whatever happens, you'll be okay. Men are in abundance. So even if it doesn't work out with him, just rest assured knowing that someday you'll find someone)
from thruthecrowd :
haha...I guess I"m happy sad too...in a weird sort of way.
from thruthecrowd :
:-(
from addict-in-me :
: ) Doesn't god have a way of " STicking " It in and " Breaking " It Off You'll be alright girl just call him this weekend.
from addict-in-me :
Hey glad things are going better for you, pasta rocks : )
from enurta :
hello. thanks for adding me.
from ruebenwafco :
thanks..Ill keep up with you. take care, breathe deeply and take your time. later skater. p.s. youre no looser!
from entragian :
Haha, I'm fine. And yes, I'd love to talk to you on aim...my aim is JS Hellbiter JS (don't ask, I was weird in 8th grade). Like everyone else, I have problems with my relationship...and since the economy sucks here, and I graduated...I don't go to school, nor do I have a job, this town is INSANELY boring, so I never do anything. So I tend to focus solely on my relationship, and since I happen to be a pessimist, I focus on the bad things. d00d, do you have a myspace? and niiice for making a guy friend on WoW. guy friends are teh best! :)...my myspace is...myspace.com/bjorkklover
from won-too-tree :
I hope you feel better.
from ruebenwafco :
ummm for some reason, i just read every one of your entries. all of them. not sure why? it was like watching a drama and a comedy (and i mean that in the best way). where are you with bill? ldr's are very hard. i know. anyway sister, thanks. ive enjoyed it and hope to follow more.
from entragian :
Yup yup I'm 18. And yuh, diets are very...disciplining. If you feel like you can't do it, try and get the "heartbreak flu"...something you get when your boyfriend leaves you for another chic for 8 months, or he just cheats on you. Though sometimes it's opposite...some chics gain a shit ton of weight because they get into the whole "emotional eating" thing. And yeah, Chris loves holidays...kind of. I mean, he'll do something for Vday but nothing extravegant or anything. But he told me he's going ALL OUT for my birthday this year so I guess he's really excited. However, my friend is pregnant with twins and her boyfriend HATES holidays, especially valentine's day. So it's different with every guy I suppose. And don't blame your "whiney-ness" on your vagina. Everyone's like that sometimes, even men...hey, hey, people like to feel special sometimes. Do you play WoW WITH Bill? Or no? Cuz if you did a character transfer then you guys would probably spend more time together, eh? And maybe you should do something nice for him on vday...even if he doesn't do anything for you. It'll make him feel like an asshole...so I'm sure he'll end up getting you something :)
from entragian :
AHHHHHHH yes I love her diary! I'm so happy I found it. And errrmmm Chris and I have been together for four years. High school sweethearts. Haha. Organic poptarts...hmmm...soy is an ingredient in them. Sea salt, which, if you're a vegan/organic chic *such as myself* then you can't eat regular salt. You should read the book "Skinny Bitch." It's amazing. It changed my life. It's like, the easiest diet to go on, and the easiest way to lose weight. But it's a hard diet to stay on because you ALWAYS have to read the ingredients. Regular sugar has to be replaced with Raw Cane Sugar because regular sugar is encased in animal bones and yeah...it's bad for you. High fructose corn syrup is bad...and meat is carcinogenic (cancer-causing) along with diet coke. Replace all drinks with water, your skin starts to glow within a week. But they have organic white chocolate, so yeah, it's good. But you have to eat in moderation, too. And whenever you're hungry, you should just drink water because, well...chances are that you're just thirsty instead of hungry. Haha, sorry, I'm probably telling you a bunch of stuff you all ready know. Just read Skinny Bitch and it'll tell you everything you need to know about food. Plus it scares the HELL out of you. Mmmmm but yeah, how are you? :)
from entragian :
Yup yup, everyone needs sun >_<. That's sick that you play WoW though! I've got...ummm...a 74 blood elf DK, a 70 troll shaman, and a 46 blood elf priest. I prefer alliance, but my boyfriend plays Horde and HATES alliance sooo that ain't happening for me =(. And idk about the psychic thing...it's not really an ability, I just thought I had the ability for one night right before I fell asleep. ^_^
from addict-in-me :
rofl, you are such a girly girl lol
from entragian :
Haha, Gawd, if only the psychic abilities were real...I totally would. But I was so convinced they were two nights ago. Anywho, I'm glad you like my journal ^_^. I love yours. And do you play World Of Warcraft? Cuz I do ^_^ I know your lover does as well...but hmmm...you might hate that game considering he plays it lots. So IDK. <333
from entragian :
I read all of your entries. I'm so addicted to this diary. Um yeah, hi ^_^
from addict-in-me :
Keep your chin up !!
from won-too-tree :
Thank you. I've been thinking of ways to punish them.. ha.
from addict-in-me :
Hey you should try Magic The Gathering, it' a great game but it is not easy, you have to trick you foe into letting you win lol.
from addict-in-me :
Growing up sucks, so does waking up alone !
from clashpunk :
that is so sweet! You lucky girl :D
from won-too-tree :
That really sucks! Eventually they'll have to either respect that you are an adult and let you live your own life or not have you in their lives.
from addict-in-me :
LOL that is a shitty thing to say to someone. Well if it matters I think you are awesome !!
from theotherman :
my mom is a horrible-spirited person and i always knew... i tried for a long time to make that relationship work, but finally in my late 20's gave up. we rarley talk and my life is so much better without her terrible influence. it will take time, but just remember you know what she is and take it all with a grain of salt (although i know it's very tough)!
from won-too-tree :
Thank you for that. I feel like a burden is off my shoulders now. I hope your situation works out too!
from addict-in-me :
Hey, just remember to be honest : ) Your mom understands that you are an adult, she might not like it but she will get over it.
from addict-in-me :
Hey : ) Give it some time, love doesn't happen over night you know : p
from won-too-tree :
1-11 I know what you mean about being the one who cares too much
from addict-in-me :
Hey Alyssa keep your head up even when you are taking criticism, and beat that seven year olds ass lol

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