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from raven72d :
Gianne needs you.
from raven72d :
Reading your 2002-2003 entries again... I miss that girl...
from raven72d :
glad you're back. go check e-mail and call me soon.....
from raven72d :
22 August 08... I miss you, Samantha... Call again soon.
from ohmegah :
I find your diary to be a great read. Hope you don't mind me adding it to my favorites. Take care.
from raven72d :
write soon, girl. i miss you.
from ravenslolita :
I miss you... I doubt that really matters but I thought I would let you know.
from raven72d :
I told you at sixteen: no drugs that require...Equipment.
from moonbaby8u :
slowly understanding....kindof makes me a bit "blue" kindof reminds me of better times,although they were worse.It all reminds me.I love it.
from raven72d :
Tell me what your dreams are like.
from fitofdestiny :
*can almost smell it all...*
from raven72d :
Call me and talk of blood and kisses.
from fitofdestiny :
Sounds like an enjoyable evening.
from raven72d :
Strip club and Ecstasy--- I hope you soaked through panty-free hiphuggers watching the dancers.
from onyx-cherub :
Your beauty still stuns me. Years later. So much time has passed. I love you.
from raven72d :
Grey Goose-- overrated. Try Estonian vodka--- Turi.
from fitofdestiny :
*hugs you tightly* I'm scared too...
from inthishouse :
yea unfortunetly it happeneds too much
from raven72d :
I love the methadone entry...
from raven72d :
Happy Halloween, darling.
from raven72d :
Don't forget: the quiet and the dark is often a safe place of refuge...but you must emerge later...and go back into life and the world.
from jaxraven :
It's the images, not the words themselves. I can see the spaces between words, this endless dusty place where echoes of voices sound faintly in the distance, where you can read the writer's thoughts scribed on the back of every letter, where only the spiders are forever... peaceful. I could sink into that dream and stay a while, I think. Let the spiders weave their wordless muttering webs over me.
from jaxraven :
I've heard it said that the first sound was something breaking. The thing they never tell you in therapy or treatment or counciling or anything of the sort is that if you wish to draw from the well of your soul something beautiful, it will be chained together with something horrible when you pull it up. The more good you do, the worse you end up hurting someone when it goes wrong. The deeper you drown yourself in suffering, the more perfect the moment when you are released. I'm no creator, oh delicious one... I'm just another tightrope act waiting to fall.
from fitofdestiny :
*hugs* The light is still there hon. You just need to walk towards it.
from raven72d :
Call me.
from jaxraven :
Always such disgusting beauty, fragments of carnival glass and diamond chips half-seen in the ashes. How do you do it? *envy and awe*
from raven72d :
Welcome back, beautiful. And, yes--- autumn is always a delight.
from fitofdestiny :
Hey love. I'm still here for you. *hugs*
from raven72d :
How was your Halloween, Sam?
from psychodyke :
i haven't gone... just... crawled behind the couch for a bit. if you look a little to your left, you will see the blow-pop i have for you. find me. (reignbeaux_@hotmail.com)
from raven72d :
Don't slip, Sam. Call me instead.
from razornotes00 :
No. Please don't go back to wanting to kill yourself! There are so many people who care about you! Don't you want to feel at peace...? Like when you wrote this: "quiet sleeping breath, warm flushed skin.... This is perfect." Didn't that feel good? :) ♥ ♥
from raven72d :
You so need to call me...
from fitofdestiny :
I understand what you mean. I used to think things were bad before. Now it just seems like my worries have 'matured' and become more serious than I ever realized possible. Anyway <3<3<3
from raven72d :
24 August 06... Brilliant entry, Samantha...
from my-serenade :
i wish you'd return
from onyx-cherub :
i still love you. and miss you very much . . .
from onyx-cherub :
it sounds wonderful . . .
from fitofdestiny :
Mmmm... That sounds perfect.
from dripping-wet :
wow. youre stuff is good. I really must say
from raven72d :
You do know that we must speak again... Call soon.
from fitofdestiny :
*hugs* <3
from fisk-me :
"This image has violated the PhotoBucket.com Terms of Service." Good solid effort right there...
from empty-dreams :
you stole my rachel, but i forgive you. just play earlimart "Unintentional Tape Manipulation" and tell her that she is dearly missed.
from rednsilver :
I'v been a reader for quite awhile now, and i just looked at your pictures from your last entry. I'v been a cutter for almost a year now, off and on only when the erge hits me is when ill do it, but i must ask how did you do that? I meen all those cuts on your body being touched and what not, did it not hurt? Or maybe it was the point, and im just missing it. -Cheyan
from raven72d :
You're both stunningly lovely.
from fitofdestiny :
Oh darling... I hope those were well cared for afterwards. *hugs*
from raven72d :
The photos are hot and sexy/scary... Do post more.
from mehiel :
Now that I learn that you are in Seattle, I wish I had started reading you earlier--so I could have maybe met you, when I lived there.
from raven72d :
Ummm... Sydney Smith?
from raven72d :
Is Rachel moving up to move in with you,
from hose-clamp :
LESS THAN A WEEK BABY AAAAARGH
from mehiel :
Believe me, I know exactly what you mean.
from raven72d :
Tracey Thorn...a forgotten voice. And 1200 miles-- is that so far by airliner or train?
from fitofdestiny :
Memories. Things that can keep us going through the toughest days and bring us down from wanting on our brightest... *hugs*
from hose-clamp :
yeah, well, i've grown to loathe eventful nights; they're far more trouble than they're worth. i'd usually rather be at home reading anyways.
from raven72d :
I did just send a "friends" request to you at MySpace. And to Hose-Clamp.
from raven72d :
My Caller ID needs your name on it.
from raven72d :
Do you still follow the fashion rules I laid down for you?
from hose-clamp :
ah HATE bears. oooooooh you should come drink with me, as i am becoming quite fond of it, and you. g'night
from mehiel :
I found you through Raven72d, and plan on adding you as a favorite. If you're curious, my username and password are: reader.
from fitofdestiny :
*big hug*
from raven72d :
Hotel rooms in exiles' cities: you're made for those.
from raven72d :
I'd marry you just so you could come home and tell me about your adulteries and adventures... Your addictions have never put me off: I've always found them an alluring part of you. I wish I could kiss your hipbones tonight while you told me of your life...
from raven72d :
I haven't seen your name on caller ID yet... And, yes: vodka is better than tequila.
from raven72d :
Tell me about how your nights are different now than in 2003 or 2001...
from lovemetwice :
i can honestly say that i'm glad to be back. i missed you, love. ♥
from onyx-cherub :
i miss talking with you and writing for you. it's so strange how so many things change but love can remain constant, through everything.
from onyx-cherub :
i still love you.
from raven72d :
I wish you were on my caller ID again.
from chaostheory- :
that is of course with the assumption that 1 or more of those images are of yourself.
from chaostheory- :
i find you leaning much more to femininity than to androgyny. unless you mean androgynous in personality, because then i wouldn.t know..
from hose-clamp :
darling, promise me that, when we meet, we will immediately become Lovers.
from jaxraven :
What city is it you live in? *suddenly curious*
from fitofdestiny :
*hugs* You are beautiful.
from inthishouse :
back online , username: avon , password: pd
from raven72d :
Do hold on, darling. You still have admirers and supporters and those who long for you.
from writergrrl88 :
Try to hold on ... you get get through this with as few scratches as possible as you graze those rocks. You know you will live through it ... use that to your advantage. *hugs*
from fitofdestiny :
*hugs*
from raven72d :
Joyeux Noel, darling... And I hope that 2006 will go better for you. You are-- needless to say --always in my thoughts.
from raven72d :
Sam-- call me.
from raven72d :
don't dare vanish, sam.
from sephiragrace :
love yourself. you're worth it. <3
from raven72d :
I was part of your 2003... I wonder if you still remember that... And if my voice is still there in your head. I miss you, Samantha. You're part of my 2005...
from onyx-cherub :
i love you. i love you love you love you love you. i miss you. i'm thinking of you. i'm in awe of you. you are simply one of the most amazing people i've ever known, and you still inspire and touch others and find it in yourself to care about them even when so much is coming down around you. and i love you i love you i love you. so very much.
from raven72d :
A heroin snow globe... Do you like the like the image of white flakes falling over a miniature Space Needle?
from hose-clamp :
seeing your name in red on my buddy list gets me hot in ways i can't explain. write more fucking often.
from raven72d :
Sam... I wish I had the Moleskines with the story of your life from 1999 'til now...
from darkest-elf :
i miss you sam.
from onyx-cherub :
you are intoxicating.
from driedxframed :
i can relate completely. your words are so impowered. ♥
from raven72d :
Monarch vodka? Oh, girl-- you can drink better than that!
from hose-clamp :
perhaps you remember me. i'm still in love with you, i think.
from raven72d :
Samantha-- please send me a number. Or call me. You have the number. I don't want you to vanish.
from onyx-cherub :
i love you very much, and would like to phone you again. is that all right?
from thevictim :
i want to thank you. reading your diary reminds me that there are others who are living the life i am. and that we're not bad people. we just do some "bad" things. whatever. thanks. again.
from katt-86 :
It can get better... you just have to wait, and look for that crack in the wall, that is your hope. Like i did... the meth and all were left behind, although i have a new set of problems, but they are ones I wouldn't want to live with out...so yes i can say it gets better, but i can't promiss anything soon...just wait.
from raven72d :
I was looking back over your 2002 and 2003 entries... I realized how much I miss you...and your voice.
from just-tonight :
hi. i was reading random diaries and i came across yours. would it be okay if i added you?
from xgreymousex :
...nicole blackman...i have been listening to her a lot lately...i cannot promise you it gets better, you have to do that on your own.
from raven72d :
Tell me about this girl you're living with...
from onyx-cherub :
i think she's very fortunate to have been loved so much. most people are never loved so much. you have a beautiful heart, and your dedication is something people should aspire to have. i'm so sorry to hear that you're hurting so much, and your words touched something deep in me because you have written things i have felt for someone i love. i wish there were more people like you in this world. and if i could, i would hug you every day of my life.
from thevictim :
omfuckingg! i love the lyric you put for my comment. thanks. <3
from onyx-cherub :
you'll always be amazing to me. and happy belated birthday. i miss you very much, but i understand the silence of those i love better than i used to. i'm still around, and i still care, and if you need anything i'm not far away.
from raven72d :
You are there always in my memories, too. I need your voice again. Call me, Samantha. Call me...or write me and tell me where to call you. You are haunting and omnipresent.
from katt-86 :
Where have you been, You havn't been on in ages? You still around?
from raven72d :
You hold a key place in my memory, girl. You're a voice that means a lot to me. You're a voice and a girl I won't ever forget.
from urbanstarr :
Hey....I luv whut u write....its like this twisted beauty...so understandable....relateable for those who travel on tha drk side...lol
from katt-86 :
Things will be better tomorrow. Thats what i've been telling my self. I know how you feel. I've been there too.
from raven72d :
More photos, Samantha...
from raggedyanne0 :
i love what you write, its so interesting and so beautiful.
from xxwhyxx :
i absoultly love your diary. it's really awsome. i would like to add you to my buddy list. leave me a note or something. -mallory
from gothangel :
Keep on writing the darkness that flows through your decayed veins... I love reading your diary.
from raven72d :
It will get better-- if you call/write me.
from raven72d :
19 April 05... Photo Nr. 2-- such beautiful legs, such a sexy pose. But, darling-- you know the rules about underwear. They still apply.
from raven72d :
I need you, Sam. Exactly like your entries. And exactly the voice I always loved.
from onyx-cherub :
i've missed your writing so much, my lovely girl. and i've missed you. you are so powerful and intelligent and no matter what you go through, you transcribe it beautifully. you floor me every time, and i love you.
from rednsilver :
i'v been a faithfull reader for awhile now and i just wanted to say i love your writing.-cheyan
from raven72d :
I'm glad you're alive, darling. And I need your voice... Call me!
from mylostangel :
i've missed you, glad you're back
from purgingme :
where are you. xo sharla
from raven72d :
I think of March two years ago, and hearing your voice... I miss you.
from raven72d :
Don't vanish... and do stay alive...
from leadme :
None of the pictures of -you- are showing up. It might just be my computer. But. Just checking anyway!
from my-serenade :
i added you, i hope you dont mind. ex oh, letti
from raven72d :
I did call an old phone number...but you weren't there... I wish I could hear your voice.
from cindreviews :
Cinderella Reviews is a brand new review site. So if you would like a review please come and check us out at http://cindreviews.diaryland.com/ . We hope to be hearing from you soon. Thank You!
from raven72d :
Sam-- I miss you! And I'm worried about you!
from bean-n-bacon :
where the fuck ARE you?
from cmyk :
your writing is haunting.
from raven72d :
i miss you so much, beautiful one...
from darkest-elf :
I miss you. I'm worried. I hope you're ok.
from thevictim :
happy holidays
from raven72d :
You're there in my bed at night-- a beautiful ghost...
from blackedeyez :
your implications of being inferior 2 your feelings is a terrible terrible insult 2 ur intelligence!! you are someone i look up to. shutup you kno how powerful ur word it. :) fuckeD&loveXOXO-L
from rzrbldkiss :
read ur diary..makes me smile to know i'm not the only one thinking these things...ur my inspiration to let it all out
from nyriad :
i'm adding you to my favorites. you're an darkly enchanting writer.
from blackedeyez :
you.re stronger than you.ve implied.. we all kno that. your words are still beauty 2 my ears. ++fucked, XOXO++ Ellis
from raven72d :
Surviving is good... But I wish you were surviving there in my arms.
from whitekachina :
surviving, it's a start, right?
from raven72d :
Come be on my sheets in the autumn morning...And always think of that left areola and think of me...
from agitator321 :
it's not across the street, but down the highway. get it right.
from onyx-cherub :
<3
from raven72d :
I read "Topping From Below" a few years ago... I still need a call and a letter from you... Stay panty-free, Samantha...
from raven72d :
It's All Hallows Eve... I wish I could be with you...
from raven72d :
Call me soon... Whisper words of soft affection to me again...
from timeforanew :
{(hoping you are okay)}
from purgingme :
things will be ok for you. just old on tight. there is always someone else just around the bend waiting to love you. xo sharla
from pushed-over :
"your words are synonymous with feeling but what is left when you're gone? empty memories, vague recollections, whispers of your warm breath against my throat. playing tantalizingly across my mind, the thoughts and wishes...". all i can really say is wow. i'm trapped for words. you're a beautiful writer. all the best.
from raven72d :
I'd give a great deal to be the one you call up like that... I so want to hear your voice again...
from timeforanew :
well... I'll confess. I like you. A diaryland crush in a network. Last weekend it was donnaisblue, and during the week it was caustic-slip, and now it's Sunday night and you're the one who is fixating my brain. Keep boiling. Rub some of that grit on me, baby. (you probably won't note me back. no one does. i won't be too upset.)
from timeforanew :
well... I'll confess. I like you. A diaryland crush in a network. Last weekend it was donnaisblue, and during the week it was caustic-slip, and now it's Sunday night and you're the one who is fixating my brain. Keep boiling. Rub some of that grit on me, baby. (you probably won't note me back. no one does. i won't be too upset.)
from decayingsoul :
i .feel. like your latest entry, i would have written. -leangela.
from raven72d :
such beautiful photos... i miss your voice and knowing sigh...
from blackedeyez :
<3 you made my whole entire day.--what you wrote was lovley..it made sense.. i love tha way you write..it seems so natural for you, i absolutley adore it. :) thanx so much for my note.. it made me smile. :) thank you. fucked&love XOXO-ELLIS<3
from blackedeyez :
<3.. you rock my socks. smile for me damnit? XOXO-fucked&love-ELLIS<3///////////////////
from intoxicates :
password sent. <3<3<3 nicolette
from purgingme :
your words are so powerful, i wish you had something happy to say. xo sharla
from raven72d :
I do need to hear your voice again.
from blackedeyez :
that has to be tha best thing i have read in a long time; or maybe EVER.. i jus got done readin some things that u've added since i last visited ur 'diary':: i saw ur pictures, sorry 2 say it::but i told you so.. I told you that you are beautiful. fucked & love--Ellis ((this is my new 'diary'..my old one was operaticblis in case u dont remember)) XOXO
from bean-n-bacon :
baby, that has to be the hottest thing anyone's ever said to me
from raven72d :
call soon. listen to my voice again...
from bean-n-bacon :
and i hold you to that promise. we're gonna make out and compare scars and draw pictures of each other. also there will be ice cream and rolling down hills. besos.
from lovetiludie :
quoted you.
from lovetiludie :
wanted to tell you i love the things you write; and the way you write them.
from decayingsoul :
things are always the same over here too. always just trying to change. i.m. sometime. rock on. love, leangela.
from raven72d :
I remember your voice...and I remember reading your entries when first I found you... There's such a gap since last we spoke, and I do miss you.
from operaticblis :
((holding my last breath safe inside myself)) .. Stay strong your beautiful -->fuck life who needs it
from bean-n-bacon :
now, baby. right now.
from raven72d :
Talk about your past, your thoughts, your photographs... And call me to talk-- before dying.
from bean-n-bacon :
i want to get spun with you and talk about drugs and scars and sex for three days, maybe four.
from theghostgirl :
I miss your shining, intoxicating words.
from raven72d :
Sam-- write soon... Talk about your life...
from operaticblis :
i fucking miss your words!!! tha ones that u write that drip with evry emotion, ur are so wonderful.. please dont ever give up
from bean-n-bacon :
there are fresh wounds and suddenly i remember... criminy i've missed you. besos.
from raven72d :
Where are you living now--and with whom?
from hindthesmile :
sorry i know you don't know me but...yeah well i suppose you can read my diary if you want to. whatever i just wanted to say im here if you ever want to talk ok?
from scarstain :
your amazing. and i hope everythings changed for the best/good. i wish i could write like you. its burntxheroin btw. xoxox
from hindthesmile :
hi?
from raven72d :
Write more often, Sam... And call me soon. Write letters. I've missed you muchly.
from fearthefairy :
Ohk, sorry, i'm probably drowning you with notes, but had to come back and tell you, i've read more of your diary and you feel like a mirror. please write more, i think it helps. -Tye
from fearthefairy :
Kick ass diary. You're one of the very few people on here who can actually write. Congrats! -Tye P.S. adding you as a fave.
from tilt-a-whirl :
do you know what happened to jane disdain?? i dont.
from sinsofred :
youre diary is fantastic, id love to get to know you, you seem a very deep and fascinating person. ~laura~
from i5150i :
I miss you.
from rapethismind :
[beware - carbon copied message to multiple recipients] Hey...I'm going through whose favourites I'm listed on to let everyone know that I locked my diary. Email me at btwindowpane@yahoo.com if you want the pass. I love you! (Even if you're someone I don't know =Ž) ~Emy
from operaticblis :
im so glad u updated i miss u SOOO much ur so wonderful xxxooo
from theabused :
epicrocks.cjb.net
from raven72d :
I've never grown up... In many ways, I'll always be Three.
from operaticblis :
oh i wish u would update i love ur diary so much! - there is so much to say and nothing to speak - L
from raven72d :
Send me a letter!!
from sad-doll :
Hey darling, I miss you so much! What's your livejournal name so I can add you? I love you girl. ♥ Audrey
from raven72d :
You're too valuable to lose, Samantha.
from raven72d :
As long as you're still here, I'm only a stamp or a phone call away.
from raven72d :
And I'll still be here for you, Samantha. Always.
from decayingsoul :
aim: xletspretendx. i'm bored most of the time, talk to me if you want. take care.
from death-dealer :
wow, your entries are so sad yet so pretty at times. hey, alot like life. go figure i put something together.
from lovetiludie :
you've been quoted ♥
from boundngagged :
i only read one of your entries...and i love your writing. sent a chill down my spine...
from raven72d :
So who is this new girl with whom you're in love...?
from raven72d :
I want to taste your skin and lips again...
from purgingme :
i hope you find love. and i am glad you wrote again. xo sharla
from purgingme :
i hope you find love. and i am glad you wrote again. xo sharla
from raven72d :
I miss having you in my life...and I miss your voice.
from scarletbreze :
my email is eflow@dellmail.com
from scarletbreze :
sorry ive been M.I.A. for long... I never forgot you. Last week i started going manic, so they doped my up on anti psycotics, and sedatives, not cool. Its hard for me to tell how you are just by reading your diary, let me know. Believe it or not, i think about you... take care. love, Tim
from analgesia :
I wonder how you can say you're so alone when I empahize so much; I wonder how I empathize so much, yet I think I'm so alone?
from raven72d :
It does leave me sad to think that you could die and I'd never know...
from onyx-cherub :
breaks my heart, you know.
from acidinferno :
I love your "diary" beautiful indeed... I have added you too my favorites... It is locked.. username=eye password=candy
from psychodyke :
someone. unleash me. remove the spindle-thread from round my neck. suck the lies from my throat. come... we... the damned. the demented. the deliriously whorish. are all traipsing round tonight.
from outof-reach :
Youre words are beautiful and youre pain is all too real.
from abusemyheart :
you are beautiful <3
from sad-doll :
Where is my darling dearest? I miss you Sam.
from raven72d :
Never think of your flesh or past as filth...
from sad-doll :
I miss you
from raven72d :
Call me and tell me about beauty hidden beneath track marks and scars...
from raven72d :
Tell me what you'd say to each of the men who shaped your pain and orgasms since age eleven...
from readmypain :
I can't believe how easy it is to become consumed with your writing. It is so...so...amazing. Love is an addiction too... I am adding you to my list if you don't mind
from whitekachina :
I had a dream about you last night.
from raven72d :
Never never think Ecstasy can make you happy. It only intensifies moods. If you're exhausted and miserable, it'll only drive you deeper into gloom.
from heartslashed :
wow, you are so beautiful, inside AND out. i cant even find the words to say how much i love you and your pretty words. you make diaryland worth while. lots of love, xoxo Kait
from lostboynada :
uummm... Yeah, me too. I just came across your'stuff and thought it was a great read! So I added you as well. Aren't you the popular one? And rightfully so...
from letmebleed- :
I randomly found your diary, but I really liked it. I hope it's okay that I added it to my favorites list. xoxo ♥
from raven72d :
You'll never be alone, darling. I'm always here for your voice.
from raven72d :
I wish Skelechick would write again. I wish you would finally send a letter again...
from raven72d :
I want to see you dressed for summer...
from skelechick :
im well. not as healed as i lie to myself, but well. and i miss you, all this..
from burntxheroin :
hey. i know its so fucked up. i dont understand why she even likes me. but im not complaining. you are so amazing someone will find you irreplaceble. <3
from fyux :
nice music taste :)
from raven72d :
I always wonder what you're like in sunshine, what you're like in summer...
from fairytale-17 :
You are completely right about looking for the meaning to you instead of to life. Thanks for the note to and all i have to say is dido (meaning that what u said in your note to me i say back to u) well type u later k. stop by again to.
from sad-doll :
<3
from decayingsoul :
indeed. indeed.
from fairytale-17 :
u will find the sunshine just dont give up k. always have alittle hope no matter how things get k. people do care. even if u dont notice. -hugs- type u later k
from oh2tank :
still. you know it. you got it. there arn.t too many people out there that can say it like it is. flat out.
from decayingsoul :
i can't wait for summer. hopefully then i'll remember sunshine. take care.
from oh2tank :
woah girl, you got a hold of things &you know how to say it. i admire you.
from sad-doll :
you and me both doll.
from burntxheroin :
you are amazing. so much more then me. your hair rocks by the way. v. cool.
from raven72d :
A new, stable, locale... I'll be looking forwardto your letters and voice, darling.
from justlivingit :
your writing style is unique. I like it.
from sad-doll :
sam I miss you.
from jesslez69 :
dude your hair is quite impressive, i cant ever get anything done like that done to my hair, cuz my moms a whack. i love your diary i relate, i totally freaked when i found out Gia was one of your fav movie's thats my all time fav movie of all time. but hey i got to go for now but i will leave another note if ya want, i hope you write a note to me also. also check out my friends diary pynkpsycho21 -jessica
from reject88 :
awesome hair. i quoted you, hope you don't mind.. -xx
from raven72d :
I love the hair and the photo.
from fairytale-17 :
hey, i know people have already said this and u might not believe it and that we are just saying it to make u feel better. but i really do like your hair. it is really cool to how u can do that cause i dont know i wouldnt really have the balls to do it. and i am glad somebody in this world is able to express them selves the way they want with out caring what other people think. i mean i usually could careless thats why i dress the way i do and stuff but i want to do my hair to and i cant cause the way i want to cut it i know people will put me down about it. and it is just not that but my one friend said that she would stop hanging with me cause of it and i dont want that. and i guess she isnt much of a friend if she says that cause a friend sticks by u. but i think it is just the thought of being alone that kind of scares me. so i give u props seriously. wish i had the guts u do. well type u later.
from girlsmad :
definitely cool hair
from oh2tank :
[gasp!] gorgeous hair!
from anadalaa :
I dont know you, or anything. But I feel like you take the words right out of my mind. And I think you have beautiful writing. I dont even use my diaryland anymore, Ive gotten another few diaryys.. but, I still come back here just to read your posts. I think they're the most intellectual and beautiful/true.. words Ive ever heard/read that I can apply to.. It kind of helps me too, I feel like I can express my thoughts, just reading your writings Just thought Id let you know
from raven72d :
Your voice is needed...
from decayingsoul :
the quick fix gets me too. this desert will bleed you dry.
from lovemetwice :
well put. well. i'm glad you're alive. the world needs people like you. the world needs beautiful things.
from lovemetwice :
not even remotely. but he is. and you are. and how are things sweetheart? your writing always makes me want to hug you. xo
from fairytale-17 :
hey, you dont know me but i like your diary alot the way u write it made me think thanks alot type u later.
from sad-doll :
I think you're the only one who understands <3.
from highxglitter :
hi, just makin sure u got the password coz this diaryland email system is weird & doesnt work sometimes. thnx bye{!}
from decayingsoul :
i also wish i knew you in real life. real live suicide. feel free to add my aim/msn names.
from highxglitter :
your writing is beautiful. feel better <3
from oh2tank :
i.ll go check em out then. but i bet your still gorgeous in all of em'.
from reject88 :
hello. lovely diary. i added you to my favorites. <3 xx
from kisstiara :
beautiful diary.
from musone :
♥ your diary. Beautiful. Keep it up.
from ellisup :
hi i like tha way ur diary reads..reminds me of myself some what. xXx-'L'-xXx
from raven72d :
Do send more pix...
from sad-doll :
Hey babe, how are you doing Sam? I miss talking to you, you've always had that magical way with words. I love you so much, I mean I really do. I care about you. Life is all about drugs and raves and love right? I'll talk to you on msn again sometime. <3 Audrey
from oh2tank :
ooo thanks babe! btw you have gorgeous pictures! and you are one .very. gorgeous lady.
from raven72d :
not everything is dying...
from oh2tank :
(i jus locked my diary thing, if you need the password (if you even read it haha) just gimme your e.mail, sorry about this.)
from oh2tank :
i.m just loosing my mind, but that.s okay. btw, who was this girl? maybe i do know her
from raven72d :
When will I ever hear the story of these two girls, hear what drugs you were doing, hear about the dark sex? You owe so many phone calls and letters...
from heartslashed :
thanks.. yup.. username=heartslashed and password=klldiary
from sad-doll :
<3 I love you.
from heartslashed :
can i add you?
from raven72d :
sit in a cafe and write me a letter.
from raven72d :
I wanted you all New Years Eve.
from onyx-cherub :
you. are. so. beautiful.
from punxn0tdead :
the glint of the sharp cold metal pressing hard into your skin and the joy you get as the blood slowly flows is so wonderful isnt it?
from jezimo :
Im a random passerby, and I just wanted to say I liked this place, I like the way you write, Ill keep reading, im the first to sign this year, and now I wonder, why do we reflect on the past year, it all ends up the same as long as we're still living. rock on. ponder. later dayz
from dollcrown :
heya. dollcrown x
from raven72d :
The last time we spoke was in March. You're never going to call again, are you?
from raven72d :
Tell me a story about Leah...and about the girls you've been with this season.
from raven72d :
I hope you'll send *me* cards this Xmas...or send me any letter at *all*, so I can write back...
from cutmelovely :
thanks. that means something coming from a person i envy. =)
from raven72d :
I do hope you'll phone me over the holiday!
from rapethismind :
hey! thanks for adding me to ur favourites. message me sometime on AIM (if i'm ever on-i plan to get the net at my apt EVENTUALLY lol). my sn is AnorexicApple
from icomeundone :
merci my darling. i feel the same.
from whitekachina :
just did (because of you). ex oh.
from oh2tank :
heh. fuck the lines! who needs lines?! we should scribble where eva we want to. with whateva color wheneva whyeva howeva.
from caustic-slip :
everything you say seems so right. i like your diary...
from raven72d :
write me from there... and call me.
from oh2tank :
addictions are what makes us who we are, though. addicted to cigarets, someone might hate you for it. addicted to close relationships, someone might love you for it. 'cause ur always gonna find someone. but it doesn.t really matter, now does it?
from oh2tank :
you paint them hearts black, baby.
from decayingsoul :
we hardly know eachother. but i had a haunting dream about you. be sure to take care. <3.
from raven72d :
where will you go beyond Seattle? and when will I hear your voice again?
from georgeboston :
Trent Reznor put it best" I've become Imposable"....."they pick and the pull tryin to get thier fingures in"....the best is yet to come!
from oh2tank :
fucking love you.
from raven72d :
write and tell me about her...
from georgeboston :
No sympathy for the devil, buy the tickett, take the ride, sastifaction in self destruction, Grab the bull by the horns and skull fuck it.....
from dejectedhell :
you are amazing and have wonderful talents. you also have great taste in music and lit.
from sephiragrace :
♥
from sad-doll :
Sam, it may seem silly but I was listening to 3 days grace right as I read your entry. I think we are alot more alike than we think. Get on MSN sometime and well talk more. I love you, take care. <3 Audrey
from raven72d :
Saturday is my birthday. I need your voice.
from girlsmad :
I like your writing
from raven72d :
all those words-- a list you and i should work through.
from stopbeingfat :
excuse me poetry is not awsome if it makes you want to get high and kill yourself, that would be bad poetry genious
from caustic-slip :
you are fucking awesome. your writing is liek poetry that makes me want to get high and kill myself and....well yeah, nevermind but yea its woerd and thats about all there is so i think that you must know something that no one else does. you just talk like it. uh-huh. thats it. rock on...
from onyx-cherub :
i love you (but you know that) and your new comment for me on your profile made me all sorts of happy. merci, darling. now get on MSN.
from raven72d :
Introduce me to these girls...
from decayingsoul :
i think i know how you feel.
from raven72d :
Then write me letters... and call me! You have both numbers... I miss you, too.
from fauxpas- :
you are extremely pretty.
from loserstacy :
cool diary want to check out mine? thanks Stacy.
from raven72d :
Razors and needles-- never a knife.
from raven72d :
If you called me, you wouldn't feel alone. Or even if you wrote me... Use my number. I miss you.
from cutmelovely :
-grin- i know what a martyr is. -.^ i was just wondering if it was possible to "suffer for your own cause" so to speak.
from raven72d :
write me and call me and tell me where you are now and what's ahppening to you.
from cutmelovely :
voluntary violent self-destruction. is it possible to be a martyr to yourself? ♠
from blackkachina :
but if I dreamt of you I'd never want to wake up.
from writergrrl88 :
inspiration is everyone ... but for some, you are inspiration, too...
from cutmelovely :
thank you for the gorgeous undeserving comment. you're envied. ♥
from onyx-cherub :
<3
from decayingsoul :
username? password? <3.
from cutmelovely :
oh dearest; you're so fucking pretty. i \\NEED the password, pleaseplease. (this is steel-glass;; kae, in case you were wondering) ♥ i've turned into your stalker. <3
from not-quite :
i would be ever so happy if you could let mew in on your password.please. -mei
from raven72d :
A password? I hope you'll send me you p/w... I need to keep reading you.
from scared0girl :
I just noticed your diary is now locked. I was wondering if this is going to be a permenant thing or if it is only temportary. If you plan on keeping it locked i was wondering if i could have a username and password. I have really enjoyed your diary for quite sometime now, i really love the way you write. I hope I will be able to continue to read more of it in the near future. Scared0girl (psichovamp@hotmail.com)
from decayingsoul :
hmmm. much love. <3.
from raven72d :
Who is driving you around at night?
from raven72d :
Where *are* you? Where are you living? Call me soon!! And write me a real letter!!
from lullabycure :
thank you god for listing trent as a favorite author...
from glassfae :
i love you so fucking much.
from justenough :
you are such an amazing writer. i regret not finding you sooner.
from raven72d :
I can offer you both love and pain...
from carlita27016 :
Oh my friggin goodness. Its official, im in love with your writing. beautiful, amazing, perfect.
from lostsadist :
yopu have such beautiful writting...i'm in love with your words...
from brokenmirror :
Du bist Magie [[Ich liebe dich]] =♥=
from xnevereverx :
im in love with your words, some days i live for them <3
from raven72d :
Call me!!!
from onyx-cherub :
i love you, dahling. so much.
from raven72d :
The towel image is appealing...
from blackkachina :
I am in awe of you (arewhatiwanttobe). xo
from onyx-cherub :
no, thank YOU! *giggle* <3
from onyx-cherub :
thank you. i love you.
from sephiragrace :
♥ I wish i could tell you not to be sad. but that wouldn't work. :(
from raven72d :
A note! Thank you... but do write me a letter, too.
from glassfae :
i love you. but you know that already.
from sad-doll :
Samantha-- Mourning by Tantric is a beautiful song, I must say we like the same music tell me some songs to download. Music is who you are as a person -- part of how you dress, who your friends are, how you act. But you are so beautiful and such an amazing writer. <3 Audrey ♥
from tornskirt :
i love your diary..i ust found you randomly..you write alot like me..look at my diary or go to www.livejournal.com/users/sourvelvet/ for more eyecandy
from steel-glass :
oh my. thank you sososo much! that, coming from you is just ___WOW. ♥ i've envied you ever since i started reading.
from raven72d :
Everything dies. Entropy is undeafted.
from junkieandme :
oh thankyou! you have been one of my favorite diariy writers since i joined diaryland- i love the way you write! <333 vivian
from onyx-cherub :
you're such lovely company, samantha. thank you for making me giggle through my tears. you really are a wonderful inspiration to me, pretty girl. it's nice to see you smile, finally. i know it's difficult to, but someone so darling shouldn't be so perpetually irate. *hug*
from raven72d :
I miss the way you'd be... talking, sighing, taking on a character... I miss your letters.
from onyx-cherub :
you are the most absolutely fucking beautiful person on this planet, samantha. do you hear me? YOU ARE FUCKING INCREDIBLE. and i love you.
from quantum87 :
.xo.
from junkieandme :
i've added you to my fave diaries. your words are so intense and beautiful and i'm loving every second. <333 vivian
from sad-doll :
<3
from raven72d :
You are so beautiful...and so talented a writer...and I need your voice.
from shellbell212 :
you must be me...you sound like me... suffocating narcotics serene worn off suffocating i'm reading... *shells*
from raven72d :
call soon. i miss your long letters.
from onyx-cherub :
i love you.
from whitekachina :
I adore seattle. We should go buy cheap records and fishnets at the thriftstores, then camp out in the EMP. xo.
from emilyjoe :
Your a badass..i heart your site. *...pull the shades razor blades i'm so tragic... i hate you so but love you more, your so elastic...the things you say, games you play, dirty magic...* <3 The EmilyJoe
from sad-doll :
you could make angels weep..
from lithium07 :
Oh darling, your words really touch me. You are so so beautiful. BEAUTIFUL, beautiful, beautiful. I love you. Stay strong. <333 Sarah
from psychodyke :
i was never a very... patient little girl.
from icomeundone :
Words pour out of you like blood/water/life/ from my wrists. You make them all taste beautiful. Sour sadness with a soul that is candy apple red[andsofuckingvibrant]. Keep shining[starsmaybowtoyouyetdeargirl]. I have added you as a fave. Please feel free to add me if you can handle another pyscho friend. I know how you feel[thisisnotanotherclicheintroductionofsympathy.] Keep in touch.<3[xo]moi[xo]
from psychodyke :
i'll be the one turned... ashen blue. from holding her breath.
from psychodyke :
somewhere between... here. and there. between... never. and forever. between. the faces of the clocks. with their incessent. ticking.
from psychodyke :
fucking. guestbooks... with their. don't sign again too bloody quickly. even if it's of dire importance. which this is not. i'm just finding it... irritating. that you're so close. but i can't reach you. play. now. you. me. ditches. 4 a.m.
from sad-doll :
Bloody fucking whore [menotyoualwaysme]. Crawl across the floor with broken kneecaps and nails through your wrists, girl.Never forget [whatyouare]. -- Perfect.
from scaredsick :
the pain as to some day fall away, that is when we all are truely alive
from itskipsabeat :
Fucking beautiful [you are].
from razorblade- :
Samantha, I'm still here reading. I know I don't really leave you notes, but your words make me cry. And I remeber when you said the song "Vivica" By Jack off Jill made you cry-- it made me cry too. I love you Sam, if you ever need anything just tell me. I really mean it anything. ♥ Audrey
from blackkachina :
[justsaywhen]
from sephiragrace :
you're so beautiful. <3 <3 <3 <3
from raven72d :
I'm still waiting for another letter.
from saxifrage :
hey, I really liked that line, Body tense with pain. Narcotic daze; insomniac haze. You. Moonlight and starshine. Your diaries so raw. Dont change.
from screemingink :
you are amazing. beautiful. exhubrant. nonchalant. carefree in your style. It is wonderful. I am simply in love! xoxo, ~Miss Takes~
from lithium07 :
Oh darling, your words are so lovely. You are such a beautiful person. Please stay strong, my dear. I love you. <333 Sarah
from razorblade- :
I get worried when you don't up-date, are you alright Sam?
from silentmtmind :
<3 ^_^ <3
from raven72d :
Tell me about satin sheets and the new, black, chopped-short hair. You must write...and phone (even collect).
from blackkachina :
choppy black hair? Samantha, my long lost twin (you being the beautiful one). o the mindless, vicious hacking. satisfying isn't it?
from onyx-cherub :
*roars a la the narcoleptic argentinean* SAMANTHA HAS TALENT! *sheepish smile* coz, well... you do. and because i love NA, and you. *smooch*
from onyx-cherub :
i miss you, beautiful.
from your-embrace :
so pained, and yet your beauty resounds sweetly. ♥
from honestliar :
You are soo soo...lovely. Just absoulutely beautiful. I love you so much. I died a thousand deaths when I saw that you added me. I mean really, I'm quite happy now. I've always looked up to your writing. You just leave me in awe.
from lovemetwice :
you are my favorite. ever. YOU fucking. amaze me. beautiful. xox.
from raven72d :
The intensity of your writing always amazes me.
from onyx-cherub :
you are so fucking beautiful it will never cease to leave me awed. your entries transcend words. you have such depth in your emotions and the way you express them, but you write in a detatched way that chills me wonderfully. god you're amazing. i can only hope that someday you will see that you have about a thousand times more talent than you think you do. *satine voice* you're... you're very talented. *grin* and i love you, to boot. *hug*
from sad-doll :
Your writing affects me, it's so damn beautiful. You are an amazing writer, photographer, and a most beautiful girl, not matter what you think. But in the end it's just what you think that matters.
from onyx-cherub :
your photography inspired my latest poem.
from sad-doll :
did anyone ever tell you that you were beautiful. And [fucking] amazing.
from sephiragrace :
thank you. I think your amazing. ♥
from raven72d :
Your writing gets better and better! Call me!
from ursaminor2 :
hmm i wonder.have often wondered why i allowed myself to be a toy,to be used in a way I didn't particularly enjoy. I never thought I understood the need to hurt/cut yourself. I was wrong. I am no different than you, I just inflict my wounds inside, where people can't see... interesting thought.
from onyx-cherub :
i love my sammy! *hug*
from ursaminor2 :
honored
from i-am-undone :
i dont have any words to say, only thing that really sums it up is W.O.W.
from sephiragrace :
I don't know you but you seem so beautiful. <3
from raven72d :
I envy the girl you're with. Write me a letter.
from onyx-cherub :
your beauty will never cease to astound me.
from neuroticaa :
like i can tell you something you haven't heard already -- i just love your words. come talk some time / <3
from verge06 :
Incredible. Thank you for serving as a reminder that all hope is not lost. When I come across someone that will go as far to scrape every bit of meaning from the casket of despair, I'm silenced in a perpetual admiration. You're a beautiful soul, neverending oblivion bows down at your feet. Cherish your talent, I am in debt to you for living.
from sephiragrace :
I admire you from afar.
from sweetfractur :
Its Kara...ive been gone for a long time but im coming back because i miss writing and reading diaries like yours!
from gingerxbread :
<3
from lovemetwice :
and yours do the same for me. [your words are the best written in this entire. diaryland.]
from raven72d :
I hate it that you've just vanished. I always looked forward to your e-mails...
from raven72d :
I miss you!! WRite!
from onyx-cherub :
your words always trap me in a black web of utter beauty.
from onyx-cherub :
you mean the world to me.
from onyx-cherub :
i adore you.
from raven72d :
Burn another CD for me... all female vocals...
from pixie-cutter :
your diary is beautiful. pain is art. xox
from lovemetwice :
you fucking amaze me. i love it. xox.
from blackkachina :
I think I'm falling in love with you.
from whitekachina :
[but really, it's only the other way around] .bloody kisses for every scar. [and it's you that means the world]
from raven72d :
Tell me about Persephone's Dream...
from onyx-cherub :
you're truly amazing. you've been such a support and that means a lot to me. you've listened and cared unconditionally and there are very few people in this world who are capable of such things. your words always touch something in my soul that no other diary or writer can. you hit the nerves with your thoughts and emotions - and it's beautiful. you have the ability to shock me, to move me to tears and to make me smile. i love you.
from silentmtmind :
Invisible Girl: No one notices her it’s as if she is alone in a crowded place. Not even her own parents notice her, like the wind when she speaks all there is, is silence no words. A lost soul or maybe even just a memory is all she is. No hugs, no kisses, not anything and that’s all she is an invisible girl…
from razorblade- :
hey (user) pretty (password)
from sad-doll :
you are my portia.
from scarletbreze :
Intensity I thrive on, hold on, we need you here, not enough of us around, enail me, err nail, tdonald42@hotmail.com, **love** hugs, tim othy.
from raven72d :
The photos are so lovely... And I so miss you...
from dvs :
Well I've been stalking your diary for some time now and I figured I would say hi. You are am amazing writer and your pictures are very pretty. Very talented grrl yep yep...buh bye =o)
from steel-glass :
Goddess you're beautiful. I wish I could convey what I'd like to, through words, as eloquently as you. I am envious. =)
from scarletbreze :
Saaaammmannn...whered you go. hope youre ok, ((((hugs)))) tim.
from justenough :
you are fucking georgous. "Desperation is bred when nothing is left to lose." is a brilliant. i want to write like you can.
from arsenictango :
Hmmm. I am envious of your writing talents- I want to crawl inside your brain and perform a labotomy to see where the gift comes from. Someone whose writing makes me feel all warm and tingly inside will have a good life someday.
from elwraith :
Your words are amazing and captivating and I can't get enough...
from suicidalwhim :
hi, ur diary is amazing xo
from onyx-cherub :
dearest samantha, you will never cease to amaze me.
from gingerxbread :
i talked to lindsay yesterday over the phone. we both miss you and hope you're okay. she's happy now, lovely, yes? xx-tracey
from raven72d :
Will I ever hear your voice again??
from xoexoh :
sorry doll it is hello (user name) dear (password) I'd never leave you out of my diary stay beautiful doll face.
from razorblade- :
your words are heartbreakingly beautiful my dear.
from brokenwings- :
sammie, dont be sad. try looking around, life has many pretty colors ... try to look at the brighter ones... the darker ones will fade away ... everything will be fine... -salma.
from scarletbreze :
heyheyhey sam, its your good ol frien tim, check out my diary, i finally wrote again >.< anyways, )))hugs and a kiss, or more((( unconditional..love tim othy
from razorblade- :
no you are beautiful.
from sad-doll :
finally someone else who ♥ vnv nation. every time I read your words I feel my heart sink deeper and deeper into my chest -- drownding in your sadness.
from raven72d :
don't feel alone... i'm there for you: write and/or call... you know the number.
from whitekachina :
my dearest, I could never even compare to you. xxoo
from sad-doll :
and the tears in my eyes I save for you to wash your cuts with.
from gingerxbread :
come to atlanta so i can sleep on your tummy<3
from raven72d :
sam... do phone me soon.
from onyx-cherub :
hello beautiful. how're you? *yawn* i'm tired. i hope that you're not ill, because that would be most awful. get some rest and drink some orange juice. take a hot shower and listen to NIN - trent therapy should have you on the mend.
from raven72d :
I'll always help you mend butterfly wings.
from onyx-cherub :
you're such a compassionate person. you completely amaze me with your honesty and your insight. <3 xoxo
from onyx-cherub :
i will call you today, darling. i need to know the time difference, though. i'm on canadian central standard time. it's presently evelen in the morning and i'll be home all day.
from satan-martyr :
I like your diary you should write some more fucked up things.
from raven72d :
there are those of us who do care for you...
from raven72d :
Go to Google and run "severed nipple"... you get some interesting stories...
from onyx-cherub :
*hugs* samantha darling, have you ever resisted the temptation of a blade? it's so hard to do, but i did it last night despite the fact that yesterday was horrible and my razor was new - fresh from the package and waiting to be stained with my blood. i have mixed feelings about resisting the blade... but i ended up calling one of my friends and crying for an hour. if you could, would you email me your phone #? i'm always here to talk if you need me, and i just hope that you can agree to the same because i trust you and i love you. <3 xxx
from whitekachina :
Just say when and I'll be there.
from blackkachina :
user: star, pass: fucker.
from whitekachina :
I hope you don't mind, but I've been printing off some of your photos for illustrations in my notebook. They're all beautiful and so are you. I also think we have matching handcuffs (cold metal bruising pre-scarred wrists). And Vancouver is only a ferry ride away from me.
from raven72d :
03 April... a lovely entry...
from onyx-cherub :
angelheart, do you have a MSN nickname so i could talk to you? you are the most beautiful writer... you're such a darling.
from onyx-cherub :
darling, I'M going to vancouver for the weekend!
from raven72d :
You are of course still encouraged to write to me...
from whitekachina :
I don't think I'd mind a little infatuation. You're very welcome, and you deserve every word and more. I hope you know that you inspire me more than anyone. xoxo -Briar Rose
from crazie-freak :
hello...i know that you don't know who i am and stuff, but i really admired all of your writing. the words touched me in a way that no one else's ever have. i cried. not because of the fact that you cut yourself, or that you are depressed, but because i could relate to your words. ive never cut myself before, but depression...its like you took the words i had tried to hard to say and expressed them in a way i couldve never imagined. you are like the girl i wasnt brave enough to become, oh how ive tried to hurt myself physically so many times, but i never can -- it drives me insane. i read that you dont like to talk to many people, but if you could please, my email address is xoafgirliexo@hotmail.com (kinda lame but my father wouldnt let me change it)...i would love to talk to you, i would like to get to know you a little better :) if you could do that for me, i dont know, maybe we could share thoughts or something...i would love to be the one to chill with you, as you stated you wished to have somebody to cut open each others wrists with... --kristin
from whitekachina :
Haunting. Like hands and leather wrapped tight, pressing on my throat, you always take my breath away. (choked on the blood bloody beauty of it all). Never stop writing.
from onyx-cherub :
i just saw your pics. you're beautiful!
from onyx-cherub :
yes it is, because you have penned my favourite diary and it is the highest of compliments to hear good things from you.
from raven72d :
Look at sirenslave's diary here... And at her entry "Waiting for the Blade"...
from raven72d :
The 21 March entry is beautiful.
from raven72d :
Sam-- you know why I'm quite worried. Tell me what's happening. And you never have to hide the truth from me.
from onyx-cherub :
I love you.
from raven72d :
I hope my words have come to mean something to you, Samantha...
from bloodterfly :
your diary is amazing
from onyx-cherub :
god, you're beautiful.
from onyx-cherub :
this is officially my favourite diary.
from raven72d :
Reality is suspect; control is illusory. But you're vur' much not alone.
from gothangel :
Deeper and deeper she goes into the night Shadows gather upon her presence of The night’s interlude of dark romanticism from 'Blood crystals' by moi wanna read me more go here http://bloodwrites.com/poetry/gykas/gykas.html
from lovemetwice :
you're. incredible.
from onyx-cherub :
your march 04 entry embodies EVERYTHING i believe in. you amaze me.
from raven72d :
Cantara is a beautiful song... And the 4 March 03 entry is powerful and wonderful.
from raven72d :
Stave off disintegration. You have missions yet to carry out.
from onyx-cherub :
you're brilliant. brilliant.
from soul14 :
i know exactly how you feel. there are times when i get so depressed that all i want to do is to curl up in a corner and die and i feel that life is just not worth living anymore. that all the abuse i get is enough to drive me mad one day.
from camden :
i feel for u x
from raven72d :
I do hope I remind you of what affection is like.
from onyx-cherub :
*hugs*
from raven72d :
Onyx is a lovely stone... Read Pat Cadigan's "Synners" and Wm. Gibson's new "Pattern Recognition" and think that your own circuitry is worth salvaging...
from puregoth :
i] would have to say the same about you.'never stop writing. you ar e [an] ispiration'=
from onyx-cherub :
i'm an avid reader of EVERYTHING by francesca lia block as well! *grin* you are so relatable and so lovely. i adore you.
from cabrona :
let's get married now.
from onyx-cherub :
you're too kind. those words mean a lot, especially from someone as gifted and insightful as you!
from onyx-cherub :
I'm a Trent Reznor fan too. *grin*
from raven72d :
Connections and conversation take the pain and fear away for a while.
from onyx-cherub :
you're so beautiful.
from bedroomdream :
wow, your writing is very deep. I enjoy reading it.
from onyx-cherub :
you have an incredible way with words.
from onyx-cherub :
you have an incredible way with words.
from raven72d :
No one with your intelligence and loveliness should ever lack for a reason to go on.
from cabrona :
i swear to god, sometimes all i want to do is be like you.
from raven72d :
"this girl" is quite valued...by me, anyway.
from raven72d :
You really must get a Yahoo e-mail acct.! Did you get my last letter?
from raven72d :
Don't disappear... Beyond the grey you'll find places and people both that value and require your presence.
from raven72d :
I hope you can get through the nights... I hope you'll write soon-- and tell me about Mandy... One day I hope to hear your voice... Thanks for the kind words.
from raven72d :
You don't need to feel faux-pure. There's an aura of gentleness and kindness and intelligence about you. Write soon-- and call.
from raven72d :
Check your e-mail for e-cards... Write soon.
from raven72d :
The film version of "In the Cut" will be out this year... Meg Ryan (with long straight dark-blonde hair) plays the lead... I think it'll be Kevin Bacon with whom she shares that last scene.
from raven72d :
Sam... do write soon... Tell me about Mandy and Gianne...
from cherry-girl :
i heart you. xoxo
from decayingsoul :
lately the outside world has been too much for me too. just too much. <3
from sickfreak :
goodday, how are you? anyway.. i really loveeee your journl, i can relate to most of the things you write about in there... i gope you don't mind if i continue to read it... I'm janai, goodbye.
from darkest-elf :
do hugs truly heal wounds for us, dear one?
from raven72d :
I loved the cards you've sent... Write soon.
from raven72d :
I can't do without Chinese take-away.
from blackkachina :
Cancel that, I'm changing the password. Give me your email address so I can send you the new one.
from blackkachina :
Cancel that, I'm changing the password. Give me your email address so I can send you the new one.
from blackkachina :
Cancel that, I'm changing the password. Give me your email address so I can send you the new one.
from blackkachina :
For a variety of reasons, I've decided to lock my diary. Username:blackkachina, Password:anasbaby (relapse)
from raven72d :
Orange was my favorite color when I was little, too... I do want to hear you whisper to me in Elvish...
from evil-matilda :
heya, ur journal is pretty fuckin cool, would you mind if i added you to my fav journals? i'd say check mine out but its shite cya xxx
from alwaysthere :
I too have scars, both white and purplish. I too know how it feels to wish he would rescue me from this nightmare he'll never understand completely. I guess I just wanted you to tell you. I too know what it is to feel alone and lost and in hell. hi.
from raven72d :
The 29 December entry is incredible-- sad, beautiful, gentle... And you *are* a fine photographer, Samantha...
from jaxraven :
*wanders through and pauses long enough to hand you a box of hugs, chocolate liquor, and refillable lighters* I take great comfort in the fact that you are one of the few people on the planet with enough sense not to tell someone to 'cheer up'. Thank you. If you're ever visiting the Beaverton relatives, drop me a line and I'll show you the best coffee-and-ice-cream spot in Portland. *grin*
from cabrona :
Hey Samantha, it's me, So-Annoyed / Pollypeptide. I just finished going through your diary after so long without. It was a relief to see your words, to feel what they brought back to me. I hadn't felt those emotions in a long time. Thank you. besos, ~rachel~
from lifeisshit :
hey i like ur diary and um...leave me a note if ya wanna amanda
from pixieneedles :
Great tallent shouldn't go un-noticed...You are a great writer.
from pixieneedles :
Great tallent shouldn't go un-noticed...You are a great writer.
from raven72d :
Call me soon...
from raven72d :
Endure Christmas, Samantha... And know that you're in my thoughts...
from ladydreamer :
::hug::
from raven72d :
Are you okay? What will you do at Xmas?
from crestfallen4 :
u sound like an amazing person, great diary
from bleedingisnt :
very awesome, i love how you write
from raven72d :
Even when you walk in spirals...you are lovely and I do treasure your letters...
from decayingsoul :
you m'dear, are not filth. but beauty.
from bandchick182 :
what would you give to feel the warmth again within your body, the pleasure and the pain surging to bring you true happiness? if the numbness were to fade and you needn't a facade? and breaking all the rules was allowed? and encouraged? would you survive? would you want to?
from bandchick182 :
can you know the true depression of it all until you bleed and begin to feel life flowing again? before that point can you ever feel alive? and do you really want to?
from blackkachina :
um, thank you. I love you. And you are not filth. You are my darkest beauty.
from gingerxbread :
you're so beautiful; don't forget that. ♥heart♥heart♥
from sxepunk :
skinny wonder.
from raven72d :
Tell me about Shadow Gallery... and do know that even though the stars fall into the darkened sea there are still those who care for you...
from inspector :
Good evening, i wanted you to know that your journal touched me, you remind me of myself. My journal is not here on DiaryLand but it is here at this link: I hope you would come and read it.. http://www.livejournal.com/users/alonegirl/
from ravenslolita :
would you do it with me heal the scars and change the stars would you do it for me I love that song.. but you already knew that.
from raven72d :
Samantha... I got your letter today... Many many thanks, darling. Write anytime...and send many photos...
from raven72d :
Thanksgiving... I'll be having Szechuan food... I miss the cornbread dressing my mother used to make...
from raven72d :
I'd write poetry for you.
from raven72d :
Dying is very much against the rules, Samantha. After all-- I'd miss you a lot.
from drymouth :
exquisite x
from raven72d :
The 21 November entry was deeply erotic...
from raven72d :
The card from Darksites was so lovely...and so was your message...
from raven72d :
19 November... An entry that overwhelmed me... One I identify with.
from blackkachina :
Do you like pritty poems?
from blackkachina :
I read your entries over and over. They are by far the most powerful/dark/painful/beautiful words I've seen. Please believe me when I say that I am the one entranced by you.
from raven72d :
Desolate, Sam? Tell me why... I'm always there to listen and talk... Write soon.
from blackkachina :
meow...
from raven72d :
You're worth as much as single red rose, Sam. Always. And remember that desire is always honest: it tells you what you need, what you lack, what you have to feed on. Trust desire. And remember that lust and love are never self-cancelling, never mutually exclusive. You're admired, you're needed, you're missed.
from xloststarx :
Do you remember me? Do you remember the pain? xoxo <3
from brokenskin :
u take pretty pictures.
from raven72d :
The 11 November entry was so beautiful, Sam...
from raven72d :
Samantha-- I hope the skin does hold together. I'd miss you, girl.
from hiddenapathy :
Sometimes I would sit and break for you, for me, sometimes I'd really wait for you, and me. For now just a x for all your stretches and strain - for people like us I long to stop the pain.
from jaxraven :
*tilts her head, curious* Perhaps I'm thinking too literally, but I can't help asking... asphyxiation? 'cause you have NO idea how hard it is to find others who appreciate that, the feel of hands tight around your throat, knowing that the breath you take for granted is suddenly in someone else's hands, seeing in their eyes just how much control, how much lust, how much hate, and how much desire is suddenly racing through them and through you... err... yeah. Um. Hi?
from grungedeath :
hey there, i like your diary,im also from seattle ive lived here my whole life. we like alot of the same things..maybe we know each other,i dunno. read me!
from raven72d :
It's winter up in the Pacific Northwest, Sam... Don't go out without a coat. Being found frozen on a park bench isn't a good way to end.
from sad82girl02 :
i stumbled onto your name and i viewed your words. i take them in and cast some out. i feel for you b/c we have the same scars.... my heart is broken, for people like us.....
from jadedmist :
I think you just described my world. So much so that it blows me away. You're not alone in that twisted world, that's for sure.
from raven72d :
Samantha... so many of the antinomies on your list are false dichotomies... So many of those things are all one...
from raven72d :
All night diners... I've always loved that ambience... I've spent so many nights there, talking and writing and flirting and arguing and being alone... And a lovely, doomed girl in a miniskirt without underwear-- always my preferred companion... Don't forget to send me music lists!
from whitekachina :
I was once where you are now and there are times when I wish I could go back. Bleeding beauty. youaresobeautifulsofuckedupbeautiful.
from ayamatsumoto :
Why hate yourself for what you feel? Even I cannot deney such feelings. And you and I both know you are more alive then me.
from skelechick :
hi love. i leave and come back and youre still here, suffering, desolate, beautiful, brilliant. hugs xo
from decayingsoul :
jesusriverdancingchrist, i feel your pain.
from raven72d :
Why do your hands shake, Sam? Expiration date? No-- that's far into the new century, girl...
from decayingsoul :
you dont know me. i dont know you. i simply read your writing, all of it. this may not mean much but there is such a beauty to your pain. and i see it. and ill continue reading. if thats okay with you, that is. ..until i write again. farewell stranger.
from whitekachina :
Bleeding beauty, you write with haunting passion and truth. May I sugest 'Crosses' by Shelley Stoerh
from whitekachina :
Bleeding beauty, you write with haunting passion and truth. May I sugest 'Crosses' by Shelley Stoerh
from raven72d :
Rain Fell Within... Beautiful name for a band... Do e-mail me/write soon...
from raven72d :
velvet, autumn, wind, rain...all those things are beautiful.
from raven72d :
Otep and Autumn Tears...please do tell me about both...
from raven72d :
I read the last scene in "In The Cut" over and over... Write me about it.
from raven72d :
The 10 October 02 entry, the image of lying under the stars with a lover, the blood on your wrists dark under starlight...girl, that's so alluring...
from raven72d :
Sam... Don't cut today. Don't. You have a long letter on its way from me, too...
from glitterscars :
You know i've seen you listed on numerous profiles and I've always been curious, but for some reason I never got around to checking you out. I wish i had come by sooner. You are so fuckedupbeautiful you leave me breathless xx
from xstaraboveme :
Lex?
from xstaraboveme :
Lex?
from saftey-pin :
Isnt it ironic how even words cant describe words?
from ayamatsumoto :
Thank you Sam...I need that slap in the face...I needed that last hope...to fall...thank you...
from jaxraven :
*wanders past, pokes at your in-the-process-of-being-updated guestbook and leaves a note here instead* Not that it'll help any, but it's the middle of the night here and I'm certainly losing sleep... I'll happily donate my sleeplessness and worry. *pets you, notes to self that she needs to find a gothchickie of her very own soon*
from hoth :
aww sweetie, if only you could come over to belgium and live here with me... my town(too) wouldn't be so fucked up to live in anymore. ps: I like your new lay out
from psycho-chik :
I wish. -that I could feel -that I were as expressive as you -that I had so much potential. You are great.
from jaxraven :
*HUGS* Thank you! It's always good to find someone taking my survey who is NOT a mutated Fish Person. *poing*
from raven72d :
I miss hearing from you, Samantha. I've convinced myself that I've offended or upset you in some way...
from raven72d :
I do miss you... That Jesus burned you should be no surprise. Never trust a messiah.
from isolatedsoul :
Very strange photo, quite haunting, I like !
from raven72d :
A black trenchcoat... I have one-- my one expensive purchase: an Armani. (Yes, Gabriel Byrne wore one as the Devil in "End of Days")Buy it a size too large-- they're so comfortable just to sink down inside. But a black trenchcoat is a fashion thing I like...
from xbrokengurlx :
Hello, I read you quite often, and I found my myself reading almost all of the entries. I <3 your writing. and I <3 you. :) Always xoxo
from gingerxbread :
: /. get better miss sam..
from raven72d :
If ever you have the chance, rent a couple of hours in a flotation tank. When you emerge, you'll see and feel things so much more deeply, feel things in new ways.
from quantum87 :
.wow .xo.
from jadedmist :
I love your latest entry. It's very sad, but you put everything so much better than I could have. I can relate to everything you say, and I love the way you word things. You're so honest in this diary of yours... you're a strong girl, this I know. So don't give up, even when you don't think you can go on anymore. You can do it.
from boredtodeath :
hey, what time zone are you in? because that might help me know when you'll be online :) heather
from raven72d :
Gaaaahhh!! My profile won't appear! I still have notes and entries, but no profile!!! Gaaaahhh!! I don't understand any of it!!!
from faerielover :
I like you and your diary. Enough said. Well no wait... I like all the insights you have. I can really relate to a lot of the stuff you talk about. You go in my favorites list.... now. <3<3 April
from jadedmist :
I swear you just described me perfectly... that freaked me out a little bit, haha... and the whole "guilty until proven innocent" thing, I do that exact same thing, because of past abuse and rapes. So I know exactly how you feel. I understand more than you know... keep writing...
from boredtodeath :
hi, I still think your the best writer ever on diaryland. I added you to my msn, i think it would be cool to chat with you...but whatever. My msn is sandnwavez@hotmail.com Heather
from liquidrave :
Hey Samantha, i've been reading your diary for quite some time. And now that i have finished reading all of your entries, i figured i would leave you a quick note. I really enjoy reading your stuff! It's awesome and real, you're writing is beautiful! As well as yourself!! Hey, hang in there and if you ever want to talk my aim sn is: glowstyx23. Try to smile! ~ jamie : )
from normalfreak :
hey hey. what you said is true, but i could never get around to making creative swirls or designs. piercings and tattoos make me happy too. rock on.
from jadedmist :
Wow, I know your entry was short and blunt, but it is amazing to me. It is the the exact thoughts that are in my mind all the time, but I've just never expressed them that way before... beautiful. Keep writing, I think I'm going to add you to my favorites.
from normalfreak :
hello again. lovely eye make-up, it makes you look like your crying. i wish i could pull something off like that, but being a guy sometimes limits things like that. i was confused on what you were eating in the picture, all the same thanks for taking the time in signing my guestmap. take care.
from raven72d :
Check your Junk Mail folder at Hotmail. Hotmail may be putting Yahoo e-cards straight there...
from raven72d :
Lovely, lovely entry about driving round Bothell...
from icut :
i like your diary. and you.
from nirvanazz :
You listed me as a favorite diary, and I feel so ashamed. Ashamed because I complain and gripe about my petty issues and griefs, when there are so many people out there who are worse off than me. I cannot begin to explain how much I admire the courage and strength you must posses to get up every morning and share your pain with all of us. You're amazing, and you don't give yourself enough credit. I love your diary...it's so honest and captivating. I should stop before I over-run your notes page. Thank you for listing me as a fave (although I dont deserve it), and I hope you find the strength to keep going.
from normalfreak :
i wish i could make you feel better, i love your diary. you remind me so much of myself, what i keep locked up. take care of yourself.
from gingerxbread :
thank you miss darling.
from athenex :
that last entry...''reality'' wow, you blow me away. this is real, you are real
from raven72d :
Chevelle I don't know; Tom Lehrer's "Masochism Tango" I do remember. I had friends once who'd play Tom Lehrer all night long... Feel better. Lose yourself into books, into films, into dreams. Don't tear yourself apart.
from chagrine :
I would like to have one of your blades, thank you :)
from mykrazylife :
"i have no scars on the outside..for all my scars are on the inside." - Mykrazylife
from cobylee :
My scars are on my right wrist.. for I am left-handed.
from raven72d :
Girls Under Glass, Theatre of Tragedy... I hope you'll tell me about the bands...
from raven72d :
check your hotmail account... you have Yahoo e-cards from me to open...
from raven72d :
Do check your e-mail for more Yahoo e-cards!
from raven72d :
I hope you like the e-cards I've sent...
from raven72d :
You have a lovely profile and eyes... Your resume/advertisement was lovely and sad...
from raven72d :
You have a typewriter? I'm amazed! I always loved the feel of a manual portable...
from raven72d :
If you lived anywhere close, I have this nagging feeling that we'd be on the phone every midnight...talking and reading to one another for hours.
from nostarrynite :
I'm going to try to stick with this one. I've developed a bad habit for starting diaries and quiting them. I fell in love with your diary from the first entry I read today. You're spetacular, and I wish I actually knew you.
from raven72d :
I hope you're better... And I'd always have support to offer... I mailed you 20 Questions of my own today... I hope you liked the answers to mine.
from raven72d :
The 27 July entry was scary and sad. I wish I could've been there...and been of some use to you.
from raven72d :
I hope you liked my answers to your 20 Questions... Music-- do look for My Scarlet Life, Angels of Venice, Love Spirals Downward, This Ascension... Projekt.com should have them all...
from fadingscars :
let's try to be optimistic. rapists & the like will all die soon enough, & they will be slowly eaten by beetles crawling through their flesh & they will know they are fucking horrible bastards and that left their fucking imprint on all of us. sigh. i get so worked up.
from raven72d :
You can learn Latin inexpensively-- try Humez, "Latina Pro Populo/Latin for People" or Peter Jones, "Teach Yourself Latin". A working knowledge for fifteen bucks...
from needingalex :
Once again I had to come back to tell you how amazing your writing is...
from raven72d :
I'll keep writing... I hope you'll keep commenting on things. I'll keep reading all your entries. You're bright and talented and fascinating. Thanks for the note.
from raven72d :
I hope you like the essay I sent you...
from xloststarx :
I couldn't find a gbook...so I am going to sign right here. I love your diary. Finally, someone who shares my pain. I cannot begin to explain.
from raven72d :
I'm glad you got your friend help. I've known girls that young who did coke or shot up, and it's scary-- though the indifference of family and friends can be scarier.
from needingalex :
Your recent entry is wonderful...and I understand completely once again. I'll be coming back for another taste.
from needingalex :
I know you hear this a lot, but I know a lot of what you feel...I guess I'm just looking for people to talk to who know what I'm talking about when I open my mouth. Do you ever feel like you're the only person who understands why you cut yourself?
from isolatedsoul :
god so powerful... just breathtaking
from boredtodeath :
You are an unbelievabley talented writer. It is like reading a book, except not, because it's real. Your style of writing is intriguing, and it really speaks to me because I have felt those kind of emotions too. maybe everyone has.
from panzer-kitty :
Thanks for filling out my survey... and there's nothing wrong with being amazingly pessimistic. ;)
from sharpsecret :
i love ur diary.i read every update.i love the way u write.with such a powerful emotion.u can tell that u are only honest in there.im here if u need me.love hayley xx
from squidge :
I adore the way you write, inspirational. And your taste is impecable. thankyou. *S*
from pepsi-twist :
how can you 'adore' me? not that i don't mind or anything, the adoration is lovely, but why? i'm just this little fucted up seventh grader. i'm not very good at much, and well i'm just not very adorable. or i don't think so. apparantly you do. i read your diary, and it seems to me that i'm reading a book for some reason. you seem like a character, and i forget that really, this is your life. it's a bit surreal. do you understand that? well, in any case, i feel loved. yay. thank you sweetie. we're stuck in this mess together, we just need to be here for each other. -tracey.
from sharpsecret :
the news of sicktrick also cut me up.i cant believe it.i just hope shes happier where she is now.:( these tears burn my face.takecare hunni xx
from bikini-kill :
hello, how are you? thank you for leaving me a note. i cant imagine how you find my words 'intriguing' i think YOUR words are intriguing, however, and very amazing as well. but so be it. i too wish i knew you in person. your writing is beautiful, and you are beautiful as well. xoxo rachel
from bikini-kill :
ooh dimmu borgir is goodness.
from nite-fantasy :
Thank you for sharing your pain and fight. With all the negative attention that cutting gets, it's a relief to find someone who shares the battle. My thoughts are with you.
from isolatedsoul :
hya - i had to lock my diaty cos of some wanker reading it and leaving horrid msgs .. so neway if you wanna drop by at any time the ligin name is : haylz and the password: 12344321
from bikini-kill :
i love you. :) your diary is simply amazing.
from dennisdmnace :
I almost don't wanna add you as a fav diary because so many other people have already. I love your writing though, I hope to maybe talk to you, maybe make a new friend or whatever. Blah I'm not good with words... bie
from violet-sneer :
you're so lovely. it makes me wiggle.
from zombiegirl :
I choose to not carve or slash, or wound or hurt for that sake, but plainly to say: I adore it all. No words needed now~Silje
from bikini-kill :
oh my, lol, thanks for the last note you left me. it made me feel all warm and tingley inside. haha, but yeah, thanks. i really enjoy your diary as well. youre such a great writer and i feel that i relate to a lot of the things you write about. thanks for leaving me a note, i hope you have a great day. bye bye. xxx rachel
from raen :
Now THAT sounds like my perfect night! Listening to kick-ass music, looking at the stars, some food. If it were possible, I do believe I would actually come over. Seriously.
from downcasted :
thanks for listing me as a favorite diary (i'm no longer using the somberdream diary, though). i like your writing also. i'll check back ;)
from lilpyro :
I can't find your guestbook, so I'll just sign here this time. I just wanted to let you know that I continually come back to read more about what you say. It seems you've gotten quite popular as well : ) Talent does spread fast. You have are so beautiful in everyway, not all hope is lost! Hang in there...
from somberdream :
you have a wonderful way with words -&- your layout is unique. i also have scars which i hide from the rest of the world
from litd4ever :
hmm... well, im in tears now. not because your entry was sad today but because i am feelin the same way right now. and it hurts like hell. just thought i would let you know, like you care or something.
from so-annoyed :
Who're you talking about? A former friend? I think we all have those kinds of pent-up hatred/love feelings for someone. I don't know your situation, but goddamn, I do sure know what you're going through. Hey, you don't have to eat your own heart in order to be able to scream "FUCK YOU!!!" into the mirror. Try it. It's the fucking best therapy money can't buy. Whatever that means. Oh, and ice cream helps too. Eat some. :::::besos, ~rachel~::::: p.s. I do love you, I do I do I do.
from sharpsecret :
ur diary is brilliant.i hate my scars they cover my arms and iv also had a go at my stomach and thighs.i need some1 to be here with me.i may have frends they dont see my blurred vision.u know what im screaming out to say.takecare.love hayleyxxx read my diary if u like xxxxxxxxxxxx
from sweetfractur :
wow...i feel every emtion with you. I know what lonliness is. i wish people like us could find eachother to be there for eachother. I know i need someone, I love being needed. Life sucks, Kara
from soulwatcherx :
Your diary will be the first one I'll add to my favourites. So far I couldn't find one which I can identify myself with. Thank you.
from bends :
[ I'll drink the poison that runs its course through her; wonderful, wonderful here ] Whither whither, young nymph; never carve too deep or you might find something you wish you hadn't.
from pollypeptide :
Don't cry... there's no beauty here, and you know me much better than most of my friends, save a precious few. Plus you and I have one thing in common that most people don't. Beautiful music, Diaryland and razorblades are our refuge. I bleed for my pain and yours. Thank you so much for being; don't ever stop. I'd write so much more, but I have a chem test to study for that I completely forgot about, so I end here. Oh–and I've decided to try and stop cutting? Just so I can wear short sleeved shirts again, you understand. Let's see how long I can keep it up. And you... be careful. And look in the mirror. You're more gorgeous than anyone but Shakira (sorry, she's not even human); remember that. ----- besos, ~rachel~ -----
from pollypeptide :
I. Am. Madly. In. Love. With. You.
from nirvanazz :
Hey...you have powerful emotions and a charismatic way with words. your writing is so real, so inspiring....you've given that gift to the world. thank you. life sux...but we really only get one chance to abysmally screw it up, so enjoy while you can. im definitely keepin ur diary on watch. *To live is an eternal hell, to die is an eternal escape.*
from scarletbreze :
heya there, how you been? I get these really amazing images in my head when I read your writing...suicide snow flakes, frozen tears and cold bloody wrists, I think your amazing, hang on over there, claifornia's great, lived there all my life, youd be a great addition...talk to you online sometime.. peace.love.empathy...Tim
from sicktrick :
Self satisfaction comes with a release of the unwanted bondage. I am not telling you to leave your home and family, but I am encouraging you to help them understand that this is the way that you feel free and artistic. There is plenty of possitive literature out there, look for some. I am hoping your parents will be pleased that you are making an attempt to communicate with them. Mine were. They still worry about me, I guess that will never change. But at least now they understand.
from scarletbreze :
The qoute in your profile from your journal is amazing, i really admire your expression through words, awesome journal!
from luccia :
I absolutly love reading your diary. It's odd, I thought that I was the only one who felt like shit, and who hated life and this horrid place we're forced to experience it in.... you've turned a shitty day into a better one. Definetly going on the favorites list. Luccia
from pollypeptide :
Your writing triggers the tears that otherwise wouldn't come. I hate having to wear sweaters and pants every day, but the alternative is having everyone know what a fucked up, verdant little bitch I am for digging bloody trenches in my arms and legs. So I wear a lot of clothes, smile a lot and latch on to Shakira as my only hope. Not that you care or anything... I just thought that you might need someone who shares your pain, and I do. Thank you for being. Don't stop. ----- besos, ~rachel~ -----
from faery-corpse :
do you realise how wonderful you are? you should, because you are. your taste in music is impeccable and i could live forever on your words. kisses and scratches, Jane Disdain. (aka scratches)
from gaybicycle :
just read your diary, u seem to know whta your talking bout, love your profile and Staind kick ass!!!!if u wanna, note me bak. we may have a few thing in common
from backagain :
I just stumbled across your diary today. I can't stop reading it. So much of what you write is what I feel. Thank you. Try to take care of you... ~ Shannon
from pisceschrist :
wait it out long enough, everyone's chances slide to zero. i guess happy endings are a joke. the biggest joke is to outlast the losers tho. i couldn't. best of luck to you, tho.
from pale-ale :
hey i really really love your taste in music what a coincidence it is the same as mine.. No emotional mental illnesses for me from your page because apparently i already have them. Www.angelfire.com/apes/bloodandguts
from deamonicus :
Everyone wants a fairytale ending. But if you think about it..a lot of them end in tragedy. It's just no one notices that the someone died so the main characters could have a "happily ever after" ending. The people are happy just happy knowing that the guy got the girl. If only life was really that easy.
from deamonicus :
Hey I know exactly how you feel. I just can't describe it as well. The thing is how do you tell someone close to you that you want all the shit in your life to end without them looking at you in a completley diffrent way? It's all too much sometimes. Sometimes I just want to crawl into a hole and die. I hate putting my problems on other people's shoulders. And I hate asking for help. Thats probably why I ended up this way. But as long as you keep writing your thoughts down, you get a little bit of your anger or your sadness out of your system. And sometimes thats the only thing you can do.
from devilspawn :
I like your diary.

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