messages to bluperspex:
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from bantenhut :
Hi, I noticed that someone googled your screenname recently and clicked on this entry of mine, in which I mentioned you. So I thought probably you were the googler, and anyway, now I see your diary is locked, hopefully not from this entry. here's the link: http://bantenhut.diaryland.com/070723_98.html I'm sorry if I caused you any angst or harm, and I'll change that entry immediately to some faux screenname if you want.
from pernickety :
Where have you disappeared tooo... *echo* *echo* *echo*
from blogjoe :
Hi Blu, when you get the chance let all of us know what you've been upto.
from rockboy :
hey. please write back when you're free.
from rockboy :
my soul slides away. but don't look back in anger i heard you say.
from rockboy :
i will follow you into the dark....
from captainron :
Always good to see you back, even if you are throwing things...
from the-moo :
*huuuuuuuuuuug* and also *waves* xxx
from pernickety :
You've been tagged! Look at my diary.. :)
from chapter3 :
As an American male, I still can't accept the term "booya" as legitimate. Can't do it. :)
from captainron :
Of course I'll save you a spot. Pack light :-)
from the-moo :
porno pics indeed hahaha :P I only post pics that make me look smaller and even some of them don't look exactly teenie! *hugs* but it's nice to know I'm loved *huuuuuuuugs* xxx
from rockboy :
my love, did you ever get that password? I always want you in my life!
from the-moo :
AHAHAHAHAHAH :D moolovesu xxx
from hippie-shit :
thank you for joining the anti-panties diaryring and sorry i'm late getting back to you!
from rockboy :
dear blu, i've sent an e-mail with the username and password at your work add. i will try again!
from rockboy :
where'd you go? I miss you so. seems like it's been forever since you've been gone.
from beckers-j :
Thanks so much for the guest entry! In case you haven't seen them, you've got lots of comments over at my place (even though the counter reads 0 - it's lying). ;)
from captainron :
Oooooo, Ooooo, magazine pictures? You have to post those... Please?????
from chakra-chick :
Just thought I'd say Hi since we're both from South Africa and all...I read your 101 things page---very cool. Where abouts in SA you live?
from beckers-j :
Would you be kind enough to write a guest entry for me? I'm going to add you so that when you click on "Add an entry" you'll see that you can post as me. If you'd rather not do it, just let me know. But I hope you will. ;)
from the-moo :
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK babies??? what what what.. that day will not be soon - kittens will do for me!!! haha *hugs* xxx
from markslament :
hmmm... maybe I am a classy bitch!
from baby-worms :
Hahahahahahahahahahahaha *gasps for air* ... Hahahahahahahahahahahaha!! Thats hillarious!! absolutely, how could you not! x
from captainron :
I'm glad you're back. You were missed.
from rockboy :
spying eyes are on me again, i will send you an e-mail explaining everything.
from stuberosum :
I find being able to live for something more impressive than dying for something, more challenging for me at least. One is done and once it is done, there are very few questions you can ask. Sure you died but you didn't die horribly enough? WTF? Whereas living you have to constantly try to live for that thing - there is no point at which you can say "Now I have finally reached a point which means I will always live in a way that is honourable to this thing" you will always have choices to make, many may become easier but there will always be difficulties. Or so I would imagine anyway, I'd like to think I'll be around for a while longer. Just for you I admit that I don't want to know about Palestine (so much sadness and pain) and also admit that I am a christian and believe in salvation through Christ. It is a little weird to me to say that online like this, I'm more of a person to person guy when it comes to stuff I find important, rather than person to internet guy.
from grimshawn :
I agree with Beckers. I am willing to die for my family. For my son and two daughters and wife...I will gladly sacrafice myself for them. As for faith...The name says it all. I have my beliefs - but they don't seem to mesh with most organized religions...HAH! What a contradiction! Organized religion...Since when has it ever been organized. It's all chaos. And within the chaos, one must find their own faith, their own light to guide them out of the maelstrom.
from beckers-j :
I think faith is important - but I don't think it necessarily has to be faith in a religion. It may be noble to be willing to die for a cause (including a religious cause), but I find those willing to kill others for something as variable as religious faith extremely disturbing.
from the-moo :
*huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugs* xxx
from rockboy :
i miss ya, and sometimes i think you're around here.
from grimshawn :
Love...In the tongue of Universal language simply means: Insanity.
from rockboy :
you know as well as i do, that this story of "us" isn't over. not without a fight from this side of the ocean. :O) there's a soco and coke with your name on it and tons of french fries. but maybe not together.
from markslament :
given my current strike rate I may be sick for a long, long time... if your theory is correct and all!
from stuberosum :
dude I have to say I love your name - it just sounds very nice BUT if we hung out in person I would constantly be wanting to say Dom, and just typing this I have thought of four or five different ways I could. I think I may be a tease addict. I think I could get you laughing with me but I just wonder if it would make you sad anyway. Kinda takes the fun out of it.
from pernickety :
Hah, well, when someone makes my name Daria into Diarhhea, just for the fun of it .. I'd rather be Domestos. :D
from sharpretzel :
Five Finger Exploding Heart Technique! : ) That would be a neat personal gadget.
from solitus :
I thought about that movie just yesterday while I was buying light bulbs at Target and thinking about all the strippers I've known. It's one of those movies you'll never forget for better or for worse.
from beckers-j :
"Butterflies Are Free" is the movie! She's so cute in that.
from stuberosum :
I had to read it through a few times to work out if it made any sense at all. You got it though, well done. What are weekend cooties? Can they be cured by being roughed up with a banana skin? Are you going to add man boobs to your list of things you don't like? or are you too scared to?
from stuberosum :
trustwor, hmmm sounds suspicously like Trust War!!!! Ah for you blu I WILL trust war, until you get another female friend anyway. Also I was wondering - if a woman told me to tell you that have great boobs and I told you that she told me that, would you tell me to tall her that she was hilarious and get me to walk into her office holding my (man) boobs and thanking the Lord for (exceedingly small) blessings? Or would you just punch me? Or both?
from captainron :
Just popped in to say Hi.... Hi
from rrrroooobbbb :
that man is me and i'm saying "today's weather is..." i don't know i got it from like a beginer learn chinese website and i kind of like checking the weather so it was appropriate.
from beckers-j :
I have the same rule about books - no matter how craptastic they turn out to be. And I've read some real stinkers as a result. ;)
from the-moo :
I have the same rule about books and I do regert it at times I think - that's *however manyhours* of my life I'm never getting back *sigh* haha I won't read that one then no? xxx
from markslament :
Give me playstation any day... No, make mine an XBox. *this may be a lie*
from rockboy :
::throws all video games out the window::
from the-moo :
:O a problem indeed *hugs* xxx
from sharpretzel :
Yeah...it was yummy ice cream. Thanks : )
from markslament :
As an aside I was pleased to see my beloved Waratahs completely trounce the Cats on Saturday! Just thought I would remind you of that!
from markslament :
oh the threat of a headbutt off you sounds divine (I must warn you that a headbutt resulted in me being banned from all forms of soccer in this land for 4 years, so proceed with caution). It was a brilliant game. When we got that many runs I thought you guys were in some real shit. I was wrong, but it was good to watch!!!
from rockboy :
maybe they already read the sign on my bum: property of bluperspex.
from markslament :
tricky or double standards? hahahah... I want a rant god damn it! In other news, I am so pissed at your cricket team. How the fuck do you chase down 400 odd runs? It was a brilliant game I must say!
from the-moo :
*compares* oh honey but yours are like waaaaaaaaaaay better!!! TOTALLY *gropes* haha sorry couldn't resist!! I've never actually seen your boobs but I am betting they're delicious ;-) xxx
from captainron :
note to Ron, do not comment on Blue's boobs....
from the-moo :
hmmm but a woman would look at them and WANT them on herself as her own a man would want them on him naked with you attached - I don't mind who looks at mine I'm so desperate for compliments!! haha shallow moo xxx
from lv-rndrdwrds :
i love to go where i am going. Will you be brave enough to leave when the nights are over and the veil may be lifted?
from rockboy :
i live to make your toes curl.
from the-moo :
we had an eighties sleepover for my bday this year you should trawl my archives and laugh at me in eighties gear!! haha and also.. *dances* xxx
from the-moo :
*falls flat on face* what do you mean it could all go pearshaped?? *destroys room in attempt to get up* I'm a great dancer *dances* xxx
from the-moo :
:-) *sings 80s songs to you LOUDLY and even throws in some dance moves* xxx
from candoor :
so I decided to respond to your 101 things in ultra-brief and relatively random fashion (compared to the way I sometimes respond to 101 Things) and this is what came out: and so of course putting both legs behind your head got my attention (trying to stop my imagination from visualizing isn't easy), and the fact that I love being on the bottom, but I don't like my nipples bitten, so it probably won't work out (hello, do I know you?... please allow me to introduce myself I'm a man who doesn't give a, well, I am relatively indifferent and quite irreverent and if you laugh then great and it you don't then oh well, maybe we weren't meant to enjoy a few moments of words)... I love your supernatural power and have no interest in politics or religions (but I can fool myself into believing I still have a social conscience sometimes)... I relate to Depp's odd film roles a lot, because I am odd too... I adore rainbows, love them too... and dream dreams most people laugh at, like pots of gold and true love and happily ever after and peace of Earth and all that... imagination is reality in my world... blue rocks (so does chocolate, which is well worth a tongue ring :)
from beckers-j :
Kempo, yeah. It's martial arts. A mix of karate, kung fu and jiu jitsu. I've been taking classes for the past few weeks. ;)
from captainron :
Well there is one good thing to come of all this.... You... Thanks
from captainron :
Maybe a lot lost... I hate being on the unemployment tredmill again... Life is supposed to be easier at this point. When did I become disposible?
from the-moo :
gareth had his tongue pierced when I met him... it was among the most pleasurable things EVER!! but it grew out and I considered getting mine done.. except apparently it chips the crap out of your teeth... it did to Gareth!! anyway... I am sorry for the loss of your oral friend!! xxx
from the-moo :
hehehehehehhe bird poo... I'm so immature!! xxx
from thecity :
the twenty year old virgin didn't work out so I suppose he'll stay a virgin that much longer...
from lv-rndrdwrds :
i'm having fun- comfortably insane
from candoor :
maybe bird shit is an aphrodisiac...
from solitus :
I'm jealous... You always know the right thing to say in situations like these. :)
from mandell :
HAHAHA! Oh that story did make me laugh. It reminded me of a poem I once heard. Don't worry, I'll share it with you. "Birdie Birdie in the sky, let a whitewash in my eye, I'm no baby I won't cry, but I'm sure glad that cows don't fly." End.
from rockboy :
there's a tear in the fabric of your favorite dress and i'm sneeking glances.
from markslament :
Yes yes... sunday... I had an encounter with a bird crapping on my head at Earl's Court Station in London. After fuming and cleaning it off I had the best night out ever and ended up going home with a drop dead gorgeous lady... I think it was the bird shit that gave me such good luck!
from grimshawn :
Yeah, it's good luck...In Haiti.
from markslament :
But just a friendly reminder that we are not ALL like that... Men, that is. I, on the other hand, have to rely on my personality to get places. And I have none of that!
from beckers-j :
You're completely right. It kills me that so many men still feel so entitled to objectifying women. And there are plenty of women who don't help the situation (and even encourage it in a lot of cases). It's maddening. So much for being 'liberated'.
from pernickety :
I so totally understand you on this. It's like you dress up to look nice, to feel good about yourself, not to get extra attention from males..okay, maybe just a little. But at some point it makes you feel like you're being viewed just as object or somethin. Like you want to look nice, but not for purpose of men drooling. So you have to somewhat repress what you're wearing..but then you don't feel like you are wearing what you want to be wearing. Argh, stupid men!! grrrr
from lv-rndrdwrds :
Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end.
from grimshawn :
Swedish Milkmaid...Go for the Swedish Milkmaid!!!
from mandell :
I got in!!! And for one who thought she could never sing, it comes as a mysterious and miracle-like surprise.
from chapter3 :
yeah! hehe. I should rough him up a little bit. Make him a little less irresistible to women. muaha.
from stuberosum :
heehee (wink wink) are you trying to make me fall for you? Havent you ever heard of Romeo and Juliet? Green and Yellow just don't mix! What would you do if Graeme Smith found out? I know I could never look Ricky Ponting in the eye again ... And what about George Gregan! I drink at his cafe! although I guess if I got your email I could email you about how much better Yellow is than Green or even msn. What do you think? Completely foe-ish for sure ;)
from markslament :
Ja, I know it is super uncool of me and all.... As noted in my little disclaimer, many of my relatives cannot speak the Queens English either. Hahaha. Now I must run along and practice my batting, which has been sub-standard of late!
from hibiscus101 :
oh my lord. shoes will do that huh?? I got stuck int he welcome grate (cause they couldnt have anormal mat) at a christmas part in front of my entire family. and my cousin had to come out and wiggle the shoe out for me because i was officially stuck and my hands were full. embarrassing moments are great huh?
from beckers-j :
You got roses yesterday? Niiiice. Sorry about the shoe, man. ;)
from pernickety :
Kinda weird, I get this when someone tells me something overly sad or dramatic, my first reaction is wanting to laugh.. although my head understands how sad it is. :|
from explodingboy :
Hi bluperspex and welcome to the explodingboy diarys. As you well know the diarys are a sound journal so click on stuff, plug in those speakers, and again welcome. cheers ebstar.
from elsworthy :
Thank you so much for the note - I do feel better! :)
from stuberosum :
Kermit was right - Its not easy being green. hope you aren't too sad about how being a foe went for you guys maybe it will change over at your place. You wore a tie to work? That would actually get my eye, I dont think school girl would come to mind though it would just make me look again :)
from chapter3 :
Thanks for the notes, sorry I haven't had time to respond lately. damn work. I'll try to keep shining cause that's the only way I know, to just push on through everything. My dog's being taken care of, I know that :)
from markslament :
oh I know... oh you will love my new pet hate... being told I look like Graeme Smith (if you are not a fan of cricket he is your national team captain)... I have lost count of how many people have said it to me now! grrr
from megsworld2 :
What a beautiful diary! & more.
from stuberosum :
I think you will see that there is a little bit of Yellow in your Green and a little bit of Green in my Yellow. Doesn't sound like foes very much to me. I think my brain just broke can't think of a single thing to say now. Oh Charlize is gorgeous purely based on looks know nothing of her really beyond that.
from mathero :
Someone from California googled bluperspex and ended up at my diary. Just thought I'd let ya know!
from rockboy :
look at these notes, you are loved, so loved. lumidee.
from captainron :
Thanks for making me think, even if it isn't about fun stuff, sometimes it just has to be done.
from stuberosum :
I knew there was a good reason for talking about me sweating a lot ;) Why are we foes? Should I start being mean to you? Before that happens though I just want to point out that Killing in the Name of is also great for counting swears - way better than most rap music. We counted on a number of songs to find that nugget of information. :) Good luck with the CEO too ;)
from mandell :
Thanks I'm working on feeling better again...people can just be so stupid, know what I mean?
from markslament :
Don't suppress your many personalities... Let them fight it out. It is so much fun! If this note made no sense, it was just the rambling personality in my head... the one that makes no sense at all.
from grimshawn :
We men have an emotional deficiency problem until the age of 32 - And even then only 70% of that number fix the problem. You could always date older men. My wife did...And she's quite happy, now...Well, I think she is. Save for that angry glare I get when I type to younger girls...Uh-oh.
from pernickety :
Many, many hugs and chocolate and other nice things to you. :)
from captainron :
Everybody is entitled to a down day once it a while. I hope yours gets better soon. Ron
from stuberosum :
ah well blonde isn't a dirty word, is it? I hope not, cos I am part blonde! I'm in Sydney which has actually cooled down and has been raining a bit so your bikini would get all wet and your pina colada get water in it :( Not what was advertised.
from rockboy :
i confess, i cashed the cheque. i'm flying over now!
from captainron :
Thanks, you rock! Oh, and we'll be the judge of the skirt :-)
from stuberosum :
well you are more than welcome to come over wearing a bikini to sit with me on my little balcony. I'm sure that would more make up for the brain draining heat. Make sure you take more than 15 min to get ready though - commando in that outfit could lead to legal difficulties :P How long til you noticed you had forgotten something? On a more general note, I like your style and look forward to reading more :)
from markslament :
oh damn you ... I so wanted to favourite you first, but you beat me to it and now it looks like I have just favourited you out of reciprocity and not because your diary makes me laugh my effing arse off! but thanks. you are a good kid!
from the-moo :
:O if that someone had been me... prezzied galore would have been shipping over to greet you!! *hugs* xxx
from grimshawn :
Oh, what I could do with 10k. (wiping away drool from chin)
from captainron :
I will trade you my yeller for yoru moaner any day :-) Happy Monday
from close-lipped :
btw, its no friggin problem at all! love ya.
from close-lipped :
<3 the blink lyrics! thnx 4 the note, your blog is awesome =)
from lv-rndrdwrds :
you ARE the reason i'm still here...
from lv-rndrdwrds :
yessum?
from livingwreck :
No problem for me either. Mmm.
from candleburns :
Oh wow. Thanks for the comment on my page. I can honestly say I have never forgotten to put on underwear . . . by accident, anyways. Err . . maybe I should keep that to myself, haha. (I'm kidding, by the way. This is what the flu does to my mind: Makes it perverted. Go me.)
from chaosorder :
I laughed aloud. [commando]
from captainron :
I agree, not a problem at all :-)
from the-moo :
no no problem whatsoever ;-) xxx
from beckers-j :
Not a problem at all - Ms. Dirty Girl. ;)
from markslament :
That's an exceptionally good point. I may have thought it, but you have confirmed this to me... Glad someone out there shares my pain!
from weatethesea :
maybe i can make you a sealion costume so you can pretend instead. it would be fun!
from beckers-j :
I want to kick her in the shins, too. ;) And I talk to myself all the time. Out loud. At work even. People walk by my door and think I'm losing it. Which could be the case.
from de-nos-bras :
i guess so. thankies for the note..hope to see more! can.t read your diary tho :/ ..some d-land probs i.m guessing. have a good day <3
from captainron :
Thanks Blue, and you were right, I do feel better today. I hope you have a wonderful day. Ron
from hospicenow :
So two things:<b>One. I can't even think about quitting smoking as I haven't even passed the idea of not wanting to smoke. I wish I wanted to quit.<br>Two. I just read your latest entry with the 3 Doors Down quotes and I definitely just heard the song a couple of hours ago. I don't know why that's relevant but there it is.<br><3_Lauren.
from lv-rndrdwrds :
no excuses and more pain. dearie me.
from stuberosum :
ha didn't even think that sounded like I was reassuring you that I wasn't telling you to fuck off. Good thing too already feel like crap without being beaten up. Not to be picky or anything but the "G" and "W" should have been "g" and "w" when I picture the repaired note in my mind it just looks weird with the capitals :) Gift - right now I think it would be nice to never wake up tired - but that isn't my request, I need some time to think up something magnificent time when I am properly awake and at least semi-coherent. Could be a bit of a wait. Thats cool isn't it Genie in a Blue Perspex Bottle :)
from stuberosum :
It was actually about someone else with the urge to say fuck off. You seem pretty cool :) Is this were I put what I want as a gift? Does it actually have to exist? Would you make something? Do you even know what I am talking about here? Neediness can be good I think - the word itself has negative connotations though. I guess it depends, just like practically everything. grrr faint is cool song. The End
from dinosaurorgy :
How can I be myself while hiding the bulk of me? Well, truthfully, I'd say with many great and amusing psychological difficulties.
from baby-worms :
They may never fully grow up, but when they are nearly 24 they can usually act closer to it than to 15... hm.
from grimshawn :
Getting older...When you turn on MTV and have no clue as to why this particular group has a recording contract...When the songs you once thought were brilliant pieces of art are now on a compilation called Soft Sounds of the 80's...Yeah. South Africa, eh? No lions in the backyard? A pity. But then, living in central Illinois in the States - I don't have corn growing in my backyard...Just a few miles down the road.
from murderher :
Thanks for that, isn't it so horribly true? Gorgeous diary, by the way! x
from outfoxed :
You've got some words stored up there, lass.
from joelholden :
hey sup
from mandell :
I hope your job interview went well!
from beckers-j :
Good luck with the job interview! I actually applied for my current job while working at my former job. Because isn't one's current shitty job the place in which one often feels the most motivated to find something better? ;)
from captainron :
Thanks :-)
from jackthripper :
Thank you for your kind greeting, dear. I know I am late answering it but I have been away for some time. Returning, I was happy to hear from you. Merci.
from linguafranca :
SA? Sanibona, then! I'm from the U.S., just a grad student in linguistics, interested in all Bantu langauges but Swahili is the language I work on most and the only one I speak. Visited TZ for a couple of months a while back, and hope to return when it's time to do my dissertation research.
from linguafranca :
Yes, Swahili. Seriously. Nimesoma Kiswahili kwa muda wa miaka tano hivi. Na mimi ni mwanaisimu, kwahiyo ni serious kabisa! ;)
from hibiscus101 :
happy birthday yesterday!
from shoutjo :
Hello, thanks for reading my diary. I enjoyed reading your's. The picture you have for your background is sensational. : )
from chapter3 :
I like your perspective!
from chaosorder :
Oh, I don't mean to laugh at pain, but the Fifth Horseman is oh so funny.
from livingwreck :
I read all 101. Go me. Actually, it was no trouble at all - I quite enjoyed it.
from lv-rndrdwrds :
never had a karen in my life. do you want to run away from here and see the rest of the world in this lifetime, or maybe the next?
from the-moo :
I love the profanity!! yeay!! xxx
from beckers-j :
Major kudos to you for standing in the bathroom in your bra in order to dry your top under the hand dryer. Awesome. ;)
from orangepeeler :
happy new year to you!
from jackthripper :
I've missed you, beautiful...it's been a very long time and I can't tell you how warm you are to remember someone like me. My holiday was tinted in shades of blue, I'm afraid...but I will make up for it soon. Thank you, m'love. I hope your holiday was wonderful.
from foolosophy :
ah chance, so much happens by chance and it is indeed good :D
from the-moo :
*huuuuuugs* xxx
from livingwreck :
I'm glad you were looking forward to Christmas. I hope it was a great day for you...And glad to hear the shops were just as bad where you are as they were here. Madness.
from fireflea :
Merry Christmas, you! I hope it's filled with laughter and all kinds of wonderful things.
from seared :
Joyous thoughts to you and yours. Lovely of you to stop by and leave a note - thought I'd do the same. Best wishes.
from dinosaurorgy :
Merry Festivus! (Thanks for the note: I feel so cheap-o giving art as presents, really.)
from mandell :
Have a wonderful Merry Christmas and a fantastic New Year. I think good cheer is needed all around!
from tathagres :
Merry Christmas to you too and thankyou for thinking of us. Has been a while since I've been here. Hope you have a great Christmas and New Year.
from pernickety :
Merry Christmas and happy upcoming new year! I wish you to have great holidays with lots and lots of great food; and lots and lots of great presents; and lots and lots of great moments! mwah! :)
from refusal :
Hi, happy late December days. I'm now writing as ottodixless at diaryland, by the way.
from hellmagus :
merry x'mas to you, too, whoever you may be :)
from its-all-odd :
merry merry to u as well. Don't get drunk and spew in your grandmothers ensuit. I won't be this year thats for sure
from lv-rndrdwrds :
One question: How did you figure it all out before me?
from lv-rndrdwrds :
Do what you like - it's my mantra of the moment... saying that's it's time to clean up around that special boy's birthday, when i'm singing this xmas i'll wish you were here.
from new-and-used :
I know what you're trying to say... but what you said sounds like an assumption... so i agree... anyone who 'tries' to be different cant... but if you just are, and you're not trying to prove it to anyone? It makes you wonder about personal integrity... thanks for the message.
from foolosophy :
why thank you, and also to you! :) Is there any common ground between us or just a chance encounter? Cheers :)
from nakedpride :
Thank you for the merry comment! :D I hope your holiday is just as marvelous, darling!
from the-moo :
aaaw *hugs* I'm sorry to hear that but I'm glad that it encouraged a funny comment from you because it made me smile!! Hope you are well lovelovelovelovelove xxx
from damenora :
One of these years, I think I may just wind a string of lights around a torchiere lamp and call myself a minimalist. Merry, merry.
from its-all-odd :
thanks? "Don't waste your time on me" is my boyfriends msn name right now so for a while that just scared the shit out of me. I hate coincidence.. well when it paralyses u with fear i do. We don't get breaks at work so i go to toilet about 3 or 4 times in 5 hours each day. nice talking to ya
from chapter3 :
haha. I'm glad you agree. I'm pretty sure I should be thanking you for that note, but it was written so coyly that I'm confused. Well, thanks anyway. haha. Oh and I'm very tired so that could have something to do with it.
from rockboy :
your x mas present is on its way.
from the-moo :
*hugs* xxx
from rockboy :
two handles to a trophy, remember?
from livingwreck :
She is at that. Not sure if that's a good thing or not...Ah yes, I had a few of those dumb people today. So much fun.
from beckers-j :
Ugh, stupid people drive me SO NUTS!
from wateryone :
oh okay... multi tasking kills braincells. You said astronauts miss gravity, same thing. word. sorry.
from wateryone :
I'm a new zealander living in australia. I don't think I will actually ever be an 'australian'. It's funny, I think you wrote that an astronaut misses space, but I think they actually do the opposite. 'Place can be as small as the corner of a room or as large as the earth itself - the simple observation of homesick astronauts from space'. I think they miss here.
from dinosaurorgy :
Your comment sort of makes me visualize a classy woman looking in a petshop window, peering in on some not-so-desirable men for sale. Like.. window shopping with a generous heaping of self-interest and humility from both sides of the window.
from the-moo :
that was a sad entry *hugs* but thanks for sharing the mucus with me!! yum!! haha lovelovelove xxx
from mandell :
Love the new layout. Congrats on quitting. It takes a lot of inner strength and courage. Great job!
from beckers-j :
Congrats on quitting smoking! I reeeeeally need to do that myself. And I like the new layout, by the way.
from the-moo :
mmmm coughing up mucus... yum!! *hugs* xxxxxx
from pernickety :
uuuuu, nice new layout you have! :D I like the song too..
from bad-mouth :
ha, yeah. I heart my pookie. I guess in that new movie "Rent" they say you know your girlfriends a lesbian when she calls you 'pook'. My friend saw it and told me. I found it funny because i call him that too. Well... im rambling, peace out!
from rockboy :
hello dear, are you getting any of my e-mails?
from pernickety :
I tend to think that the better I feel the less I need to write in the diary, so if I conclude from that, then I hope you're feeling good and well. :)
from the-moo :
WOOOHOOOOO YOU!!!! *hugs* xxx
from the-moo :
you should come to my house and we'll haev our own private drinking session and both wear the FMB's!! *hugs* xxx
from beckers-j :
"A Prayer for Owen Meany" is amazing, and I cried, too. ;)
from bluperspex :
umm.. it's kinda hard to explain - it's not a surreal sort of experience, but yeah, detached is probably it. and everything else. going for a ct scan tomorrow. i guess we'll see
from pernickety :
This is freaky.. do you also feel like there is a delay when you touch something or scratch yourself, like your skin doesn't feel it right away..? Because what you wrote I kind of have that too.. like, you sort of feel like you're disconnected from your body somehow.
from mandell :
It's hard to be optimistic when you feel like nothing is going right. I hope all went well for you at the doctor.
from mandell :
I've greatly missed your entries.
from the-moo :
you fascinate me!! *hugs* xxx
from suffer-never :
The inconsistent guys only come in handy if their penis (and the rest of them I guess) resides in the same country though really.
from rockboy :
you will always always be friday i'm in love.
from beckers-j :
Ew, are you serious? Your boss sounds like a real pig. You should tell him he's making you uncomfortable.
from pernickety :
I think the problem is that these people think they're projecting "sexy" image to you, while what you clearly see is "disgusting" and the more you refuse it the better they think they are. Vicious circle. brrrr
from mandell :
That is so nasty...lol...however the way that you typed it made it humorously disgusting.
from the-moo :
*hugs* xxx
from seared :
Yes... some things are better to be forgotten. But sometimes we throw things away that were worth having. And othertimes, the things we most want to lose cling to us dangerously.
from the-moo :
ooh just so you know... spitting won't hurt the baby... you should definately spit if she's the devil xxx
from l0stwhispers :
Hey thanks for the note! =) And thanks for letting me chance upon another diary to read too! XP =)
from the-moo :
you're a great writter!! keep it up I'm enjoying it!! *hugs* xxx
from the-moo :
ooh hello.. are you back?? there was no entry but it made me happy to have a little red highlight on your name! xxx
from rockboy :
our nations turn its lonely eyes to you..:O)
from caughtpurity :
Love is an addiction. And we'll soak it up through the tongue like so many heroine addicts in their blood, and live each beat with resounding meaning, but what will we do when it's over? Scream for more, more, more, but our little bodies can only take so much, and then we need God. Ultimately and forever, in the least dignified way. Only an athiest could suffice.
from the-moo :
yeay for disappearing reappearing notes *cheers* Hope you're coping ok *hugs* xxx
from the-moo :
wow that sounds awful I'm so sorry.. being a friend isn't always the easiest job in the world but she is so lucky to have you and I hope it all works out ok Im here if you need somewhere to blow off steam xxx
from the-moo :
hey there.. you added me and for that *hugs* I hug you and I return the favour (been meaning to for a while actually but kept forgetting - then I had you down as bluEperspex and bleh you're here now though wooooh) now I shall spend my boring day rumagnig through your back catologue of wonderful words!! mmm xxx
from the-moo :
hello *hugs* stupid london stealing our friends... if you're ever there we should all go out together then we can plot to drug them and drag them home with us!! yeah? xxx
from hellmagus :
ah.. hey. i got a note from you a few days ago. it made absolutely no sense at all. was it posted by mistake? considering i've never met you...
from seared :
My condolences for you heart. I, personally, have a growing hunch that even the good ones hardly understand how to handle a heart given. Though, I'd like to think the good ones are at least trying. Until then, it is sometimes best to cradle your own treasure.
from pernickety :
In deed, you have to try everything atleast once.. but some things are more addictive than others, so we get stuck on them~ hee hee
from mandell :
Since you seemed to know a lot about normality and how strange it is I decided, "Wow, I must read this persons diary." I find your writing style incredibly creative. Hah, bet you never expected a comment like that. I like it though, kudos to you.
from seared :
Spawn of the Devil, huh? My goodness, what in all the world would lead you to such an astonishing hypothesis?
from beckers-j :
Karma is a bitch. I often have feelings of guilty glee myself when someone gets what's coming to them. :)
from heelandlass :
Ouch! You definitely win in the drunken dart injury contest!
from the-moo :
oooh hello!! I've never had a note from you before!! *waves* HI!! maybe it HAS been two days maybe me and you just like.. missed it or something.. :-O do you think so? are we losing our minds? (maybe just our sense of time) nice to meet you anyway I'm off to poke through your diary xxx
from rockboy :
tell them you were going to talk when your where damn good and ready to talk to them. <3
from beckers-j :
Rough night. I have those a lot, but I don't generally get a text that puts that kind of smile on my face. :)
from mycafelatte :
yeah, but he has a thing for nannies.
from beckers-j :
Yes, wouldn't it be nice to go way back with Johnny? :)
from pernickety :
Oh my.. that sounds very frightening. I hope you're okay!
from beckers-j :
It is sad, but I think most people have given it thought only in a "what if" kind of way. That's the reason I've given it thought. I have never, ever felt compelled to think about it seriously. I sometimes can't help wondering about the macabre, however. :)
from rockboy :
i guess we'll have to see each other in july 2006, won't we?
from pernickety :
I think people are jealous, when they see you're having a perfect moment, they have to do something about it..ruin it, for example. It's like - go get your own perfect-moment!!
from batmosphere :
just one at a time
from beckers-j :
Hey, thanks for adding me! Cheesecake sounds even better than apple pie and ice cream. I did, however, have a fabulous brownie sundae last night with vanilla/caramel ice cream. Yum! I've yet to manage the chicken salad, but it's definitely on Tuesday's lunch menu...
from heelandlass :
Yes thanks, everybody present and correct. It seems it's someone else's turn to have their life wrecked.
from rockboy :
that offer to warm up your toes by cuddling still stands!
from beckers-j :
Mmmm...chicken salad AND apple pie AND ice cream. What did you do to me? It's too early in the morning to be thinking about all this yummy food. :) Thanks for the note!
from heelandlass :
It's only to be expected I suppose, I don't think those particular protesters had any plans to protest peacefully. If they did, why were they hiding their faces? Really sad.
from batmosphere :
I discovered 8921 Sunset Blvd @ San Vicente too late in life
from caughtpurity :
I went sprawling through your diary..The parallel loss erases some loneliness.
from pernickety :
I'm learning now that if you forgive, yourself and the source of pain, it doesn't hurt so much.. but it takes a 132-volume-encyclopedia worth of thinking over to finally come to the state of thinking where it doesn't hurt. If that makes sense.. Like an injured person subconsciously lies in position where it hurts less, so there's a way of thinking which takes it all away. But takes time to find.
from solitaryblue :
amen to that.
from jackthripper :
i suppose so...i'm not so sure as of late.
from kissingair :
You are so genuine. Don't lose hope.
from pernickety :
*Throws you a rope* Actually, those are hard to climb.. *puts a ladder* I'm sorry to hear what happened.. truly, some things are so hard to comprehend..and the more you think of them, the less you seem to understand.
from caughtpurity :
Store the grace of life that captures presence eternally in the back of your mind. They have been a glass poured back into the pitcher, and the great consciousness has been completed a little more. Silhouettes of reality is what we are.
from fireflea :
I've been there. I'm so sorry.
from rockboy :
i miss my hunny.
from batmosphere :
This life and work and choice took far too long.
from pernickety :
The good thing about doing silly things when you're drunk is that after you can say: "I was drunk." After all, we can't be "normal" always..silly things must be done!! ~~sending you lots and lots of positive energy~~
from rockboy :
don't be so hard on yourself. you're beautiful.baby.
from batmosphere :
Omnia. If you don't know that by now
from aqua-pandora :
happiness is great while it last. it sucks that it's always followed my suffering. nothing is pure bliss. there is always a crappy afterglow. aren't i a ray of sunshine today? ugh.
from rockboy :
i've met the author, mitch albom. he's a nice man. i hope you're doing well, dear.
from shewhowalks :
Breathing is, without a doubt, the hardest thing to learn to do..... :)
from in-crumbs :
i don't believe it is pathetic it at all. i think we can all look back and feel pathetic; couldn't we look back to how we are now in a few months or years and feel pathetic too(?) maybe it's just maturing in a peculiar disguise. xo
from abacinate :
I heartily agree with your 'men are the devil' sentiment :D
from rockboy :
me and nyc are still waiting for you. try mailing me at krisana.soponpong@purchase.edu
from rockboy :
i still care about you. i've never stopped loving you.
from batmosphere :
Last question. . .here ... Does he ever get the girl ?
from batmosphere :
One shall seek nothingness only to find a way out of it, and one shall mark the road for everyone.
from rockboy :
i gave you a ring, i hope you got my message!
from aqua-pandora :
there is always comfort in knowing that there is someone there that is listening to you, and all of your shit. maybe the person, in this case god, isn't really there, but just believing that he is can make you feel a hell of a lot better.
from baby-worms :
God is a good thing to believe in
from batmosphere :
don't mind me at all
from batmosphere :
shine on
from aqua-pandora :
cold? oh no, you start sniffing and everyone can tell that you've been snorting coke. come off it, we all know better. :)
from pernickety :
Truly, it is amazing how in your diary I can read things which always seem to be so similar to what I am going through at that very time. In deed, I realized too, that it DOES depend on me if my life sucks or not. And it made me even more afraid.. before atleast I could blame the "destiny" but now I have the responsibility. On the brighter side, we can make life not suck then. Oops.. I'm rambling away. Anyways, welcome back~ :)
from aqua-pandora :
it's funny how people can think so alike, yet be from different backgrounds, of different ages, and different continents.
from samgrey :
It happens. Unfortunately. I usually have better words, but not today. Thank you for the note.
from shedid :
Hi, do you have a screen name on AIM?
from batmosphere :
Promise me this: whenever you find what you are looking for, you will come back and see me.
from batmosphere :
You went your way and I stayed behind
from batmosphere :
Go if you want to. . .
from rockboy :
thanks for the note. be safe dear.
from malthus :
I read through the notes people have left you; what an eclectic and interesting read...if you look at the section as a whole. Thanks for the note. Fortunalty, I have (somehow) been able to cope with my (mild) disorder without drugs or counceling. I think I'm one of the REALLY lucky ones.
from batmosphere :
How accidental our existences are, really, and how full of influence by circumstance. . .
from rockboy :
please keep trying baby! i miss you so.
from batmosphere :
If I thought you were the least bit sarcastic, I'd say that I make my girlfriend laugh constantly and consistently just with my personality. . . without regard for fire and other people's butts.
from batmosphere :
Maybe this is good for you or me: ... http://www.forbes.com/lifestyle/health/feeds/hscout/2005/03/01/hscout524275.html
from pernickety :
Good thing hair grows. Or is it? hmmm...
from namelessgirl :
so i guess it's normal to feel totally at loss with yourself? okay good, because that's what i figured, but deep down i thought i was going crazy.
from jackthripper :
How am I? I don't know, my darling.
from batmosphere :
It takes my pain away.
from all-lockedup :
hey! i'm not sure how you found me...doesn't matter, but thanks for the note:)
from abacinate :
yeah i knew they were south african but i didn't know anything else :)
from a-la-carte :
i don't think you're nuts.
from batmosphere :
health news: http://www.reuters.com/newsArticle.jhtml?type=healthNews&storyID=7627991
from rockboy :
if i only was half as charming as rex manning!
from pernickety :
Vday wasn't created for couples to feel all loved up, but to mock the single people. I can just hear the Vday going, "nyenyenyenye! :P you're single!"
from flee-- :
the hole doesn't go away. it just slowly gets filled up with some other adorned shit.
from pernickety :
Yeaaa...I always imagine it, fall asleep in September, wake up - boom, already spring!! Winter is useless anyways.
from abacinate :
well if it was spitting, maybe i could be proud of it but it was more of a moron-drool thing going on. haha i totally remember that Mad About You scene!! that was pretty funny :D
from batmosphere :
Oh well. Apparently nothing. Apparently nothing at all. . You don't see me.
from batmosphere :
Yes.
from abacinate :
why thankee! well you still have more of a spine than me cuz i don't think i could have done the actual dumping thing. i think my pattern is 'wait til it gets so bad, it has to be over'.
from pernickety :
In deed, it seems to be inversly related, the more drunk you're the more convincingly you need to tell everyone you're not drunk. hehe Oh and Happy belated Birthday!! :)
from kissingair :
You're right. Thank you. <3
from baby-worms :
hey, a reader! thanks for your note, feel free to come by any time, i love getting notes, and i don't get enough! lol! I am always open to advice on whatever i have diary-ized, too!
from batmosphere :
vindictive? only here. .
from abacinate :
cockblock: To prevent a male friend or associate from getting some action.
from batmosphere :
so prescient. . exactly! Give (Up) the f***ing hiding. _ Oh and this is in case you ever do make it to NYc afterall: http://www.networkinggirl.com/
from missai :
hi. yeah,i met john over the net. and he is coming over at my place this year to see me.
from super-suzan :
Thanks for the words on my fish. Things were hard at first, but then about three seconds later it was all good.
from flee-- :
i know exactly what u're saying. and that's wat keeps me moving forward at times, the idea that i am not like them. but when everything falls apart again and again you can't help but wonder: is it really worth it?? why shouldn't i be as soulless as they are, at least they're happy the way they are. but it's tiny tweeny lil doubts and it's people like you that still give me hope :)
from abacinate :
haha neither....i just put in the next installment of the ski adventure :)
from chakra-chick :
Cool stuff. Great to find a fellow South African here on Diaryland! Do you still live in PTA or are you now living overseas?
from batmosphere :
What's right? If you want something, you have the right to take it. If you want to do something, you have the right to do it.
from chakra-chick :
Hi! Hi! You from josies too?
from abacinate :
ah well my nolongerfriends have a habit of coming back into my life for very odd reasons so i had to give them some sorta name, ya know? :)
from pernickety :
Awwwwwwwwww x 100000, thank you so much~~ It is quite bizarre, but it's true, I always seem to find somethin in your diary that relates, feeling that you're going through the same.. Again, thank you! :)
from abacinate :
what do you call 'ex-friends'? do you just not think about them anymore?
from batmosphere :
Oed' und leer das Meer.
from pernickety :
Thank you for your notes, :) and yes, I always wondered, where does the child in us go once we grow up? It can't be completely gone, now can it..
from foolosophy :
hey hey, far out, i think your takes the cake :( ahhh hmmm normally id try for a joke but...errr :p anyways, thanks for the note, just looking at your profile i see Dean Koontz, i was given one of his books umm deamon seed? i think it was a few years back, pretty good... anyways, toasted sounds good to me :)
from super-suzan :
The closest I've been to a school bus accident was in public school when the bus backed into a small hill beside the road two houses (about a mile) down from mine and left this giant dent in it. He was a pretty crazy driver. I think he left us after shooting his dad or something. Nice enough guy I thought, but then...
from jackthripper :
It was just some steam I had to blow off...I dunno what happened. I just snapped. But I think Im okay now. Someone set my head straight and overall, I think I'm better. I want to thank you though. Your words mean a lot to me. Everyone's do.
from pernickety :
Happy New Year, girl !!! May this year bring you all that you have always wished for~ Hugs
from pernickety :
I think those who say "you will never find your happiness" are too scared about not being able to ever find their own happiness. But you can even find happiness in the search for happiness, if you try. :)
from peppersoap :
you'll find your happiness. . .
from jackthripper :
Oh yes, definately a christmas worth remembering. Thank you so much for the kind wishes, dear. *hugs*
from flee-- :
hope you had a nice christmas :) keep it warm inside.
from rockboy :
check your work mail dear. everything is there.
from karmacops :
Merry Christmas lady :)
from rockboy :
merry christmas. the last entries are dreams. they're always dreams.
from batmosphere :
California's beautiful, but it's lonely without you. California's beautiful but it's nothing without you. California's beautiful but it's ugly without you. Palm trees and sunshine... no they don't do a goddamn thing for me.
from jackthripper :
Anger is the best form of energy there is, me thinks. It is my greatest muse, and in this case, yours as well I see. Well done, madam. Well done indeed.
from pernickety :
The "automatic" greeting always has me so annoyed: "hey, how are you?" I'd start babbeling away how am I just to see that the person's not there already. It's like, "I care, just I really don't care."
from batmosphere :
Set the example by taking your own survey first...?
from vilechild- :
dearest, i've been sad for you reading your diary lately. i hope things will get better soon because you deserve it. i've moved. i'm now "flee--". yes i've fled and i've been hesitant to tell you about it because i sometimes write in my own language wich would look like gibberish to you, but you can still drop by whenever you want :) take care.
from aqua-pandora :
yes, it's my new motto. it's part of the "i really don't give a shit anymore" lifestyle: a la mierda con todo!
from abacinate :
awww thankee :) i need to stop watching wholesome tv shows methinks. you be happy too dammit!!
from namelessgirl :
dear lord, i think i might die here. surrounded by all the latino men, i might not get out of here alive--or a virgin. heh.
from rockboy :
you bring me to me knees, in the best way.
from jackthripper :
Of course dear. Just e-mail me and you can come back to my world.
from jackthripper :
Ooh. You got a new template. Very nice, dear. Frames your words nice. Oh, and I like the image of a "soul iron". For some reason, it makes a lot of sense.
from batmosphere :
And ain't it bittersweet you were only just getting by?
from jackthripper :
Email me if you want the password to my diary JckthRppr669@yahoo.com
from pernickety :
I think November and February are the two months that should be taken out of calendar. They're just there to make fall longer and to make spring seem to be further away~ grrr
from batmosphere :
Pleas forgive me for being so rude? I have hurt so many people, and including myself. I don't know if I am truly sorry or just merely disappointed, disapproving, but either way, much i will lament.
from jackthripper :
sometimes, when we get lost in our own world, it's for the better...sometimes, just sometimes we're happier there
from solrsnoflake :
Obsession is a weird thing. Sometimes it feels like love.
from abacinate :
i'm not sure what your note's context was but you described what i'd love to be doing right now quite well :D
from pernickety :
Oh my..that must have been very frightening..and once again proves, this world is completely insane.
from kalria :
as with most hospitals my clients are mostly very elderly, why do you ask?
from reap :
What's happened? Not understanding weather fact or fiction.
from solrsnoflake :
I saw a t-shirt the other day that I thought you might enjoy... it said "Boys are stupid. Throw rocks at them." :)
from solrsnoflake :
Yes, one person can speak volumes of bullshit. Believe me.
from batmosphere :
Take a look at me now
from batmosphere :
This time is the last time.
from rockboy :
i want you to be your security blanket. i always want you to be safe here.
from tathagres :
thankyou for your note :) and i like your writing, though I only had a quick look tonight. you have stuff to say that will make me think. take care
from batmosphere :
Thank you for always being there. to remind me I need to keep breathing. that everything is ok. that time is moving on. that i am moving onward.
from kalria :
my job interveiws for nursing :-) best position for me i think *grins*
from batmosphere :
Is this what I wanted? Give up? See my latest (and perhaps the last [so, FINITO?!?!]) entry and soak it in. Take your time to respond... we have forever to see how you act, but that is the single catch, your response cannot contain a single word! fancy going about that...? much love to you <3
from abacinate :
Thanks for sharing with me. I was interested because I was...five days late and getting more scared by the minute. There's no way I would've had it because I'm not ready for that but I'm always interested in other people's experiences. It's a tricky subject but I think abortion should never be illegal because its a better alternative to A LOT of women. I know there must be tons of emotional stuff to deal with but I don't think its ever 'wrong'. Some people just gotta do what they gotta do.
from synthesize :
hug
from batmosphere :
I let you.
from abacinate :
I got my permit when I was 17 and I had to get it renewed before I got my license and I failed my first time :o/ Thanks though! I was curious about something...you don't have to tell me if it's too personal or anything...but what did happen with your child?
from batmosphere :
do you overstand the depth of personal connection that makes goodbyes unnecessary? I know this means the only important thing is a memory of a dream, and the hope that goodbye became inconsequential as soon as soon as what i see is no longer me, but hello to you, her, my love, once and for all. I live for that day, in pain, without it, and because of it. Thank you for the memories if (there is no if, you said. .?) that is all we will ever share in our parallel lives we live alone, as long as apart. ~ Ry
from abacinate :
haha not quite. this eddie is about 6244354 times bigger.
from jackthripper :
What's going on in my mind? My dear, that is a tale simply too dark to tell. There is no pain, no anguish, no past regret that inspires it. It is simply the demon inside eager to make its voice known. We all have our demons. Perhaps mine just screams a little more loudly than most. I hope you aren't frightened by my words, my life, my reality. That is never my intention.
from rockboy :
i wish like hell i could of seen you in general. :O) it's the little things.. you know?
from pernickety :
It's always like this, you think you can read in his eyes "I'm the one !!" When actually the next line says "..to break ur heart again." But we only read that line laterrr..
from jackthripper :
Interesting party type idea...heh. Never heard of that before. Where do I sign up?! haha. Just teasing. How are you doing, dear heart? It's been a while since we spoke.
from solrsnoflake :
You know when one of the rules is 'no dry humping' this can't be right.
from synthesize :
there's a giant step between love and understanding
from rockboy :
you're here. and talking to me. that's all you ever had to do. i'm sorry about what happened. you can always talk to me.
from solitus :
Actually, despite popular belief, it's quite refreshing and empowering to leave a job abruptly, especially if it fucks up the managers' vacation plans...I've done it about three times... All the shitty advice about "not burning bridges?" Those burnt bridges never came back to haunt me and you may have an idea of how paranoid I am... :) Hugs...
from reap :
I actually find the thought of nothingness quite comforting. The fact that there’s nothing to look forward to, nothing to be let down by, just quiet.
from aqua-pandora :
i'm glad that you've decided to leave those assholes where you work. that's something i don't ever think i would have had the guts to do, so congratulations!
from orangepeeler :
thank you for the note.
from kissingair :
Yeah...me, too.
from rockboy :
they will see us waving from such great heights, "come down now," they'll say.
from abacinate :
i want fox panties!! i used to love foxes so much! but i guess my sheep panties match my fuzzy sheep socks (which i had loved so much that I got two pairs of them).
from kalria :
GO THE BRONWIES!!!!!!!!!!! Hell yeah, nixy ROCKS!!!! hehehe
from batmosphere :
I just don't have me figured out yet. Until I can sit myself down and stope wading through the bullshit - eliminate it entirely - there are things I cannot., will not touch. Still and even right this very moment, some things I can only try as hard as I might to not stop letting it go... I don't expect you to understand this the way I do, or ever bring it up again, unless I decide to JUMP and balance my sanity on the point of someone else's blade... Leather, cold and BLACK. I never wanted to be a weapon (except when I have acted out as one against myself and those I love most, both with and without an intention) so I am the sheath at some awesome creature's belt to hold the blade for when it is TIME. If (there is no if you told me [I told you!?]) you knew me really well, you could have known to skip to this, here: Last(sentence) because -> until someone stops twisting the truth and another learns to trust the MOMENT, we will always be over at (Goodbye) goodnight.
from in-crumbs :
thank you for your note. hope you don't mind me adding you. x
from thesevildeds :
hey... guess who! haha Glad you're back also. Hey if you're ever online IM me sometime : mmm modern love I think you'd be a really amazing person to really talk to. <3 alyssa
from shewhowalks :
You know, hot chocolate sounds absolutely devine. I may go make a cup now. Thanks!
from sinistermilk :
I do agree Elliot's music is some of the best i've ever heard
from borrowmymind :
fuck, i know how that is.
from reap :
You have too many notes, so I'm leaving you another one. Let Sharon (personality no.17)take over, you'd be surprised at what's let out when you allow someone else take over your body. Just make sure you still hve a little control, we don't want you to become another number in your mind.
from jackthripper :
I confess I am glad my words were able to spark such recognition in you. Makes it all the more worth it. Please, keep writing. I do read all your entries you write. They interest me.
from rockboy :
it's not your fault. i was wrong. i'm sorry. really. on my diary is the letter i should of sent to you.
from abacinate :
yeah he prolly rubs them all over his body every morning and sucks on their feet :)
from pernickety :
In deed, I realized this too, you have to be selfish to get your happiness, just not care about how this little moment of joy will make someone upset, in the end, why must you feel bad to keep someone happy all the time, they don't bother about what you have to give up for it, so why should you. Rarrr ! And yes..I do talk to myself too much, it gets me worried sometimes. heehee~
from peppersoap :
"you start...with today" - your note. was it in reference to anything? makes sense tho, don't it.
from peppersoap :
hey babe, thanks for the kudos. :D he is pretty hot though. :P
from jackthripper :
Thank you for the kind words. It is clear you understood and for that, I can't express the meaning of the gratitude I feel. Thank you for the birthday greeting as well. I have never recieved so many. Tears came to my eyes immediately. This birthday was the first to be so truly Happy. Please rest assure, I will return again to take a look at your own words. I am eager to know what goes on behind your eyes.
from borrowmymind :
how old do you have to be to buy a gun in the states?
from kalria :
damn straight they do, GO THE CAPRICORNS!!!!!!! you sound interesting.........
from reap :
Well i'm glad you were procrastinating and came to my little internet purgatory. Oh by the way my name Nikki as well, much perfur to be called Nikk thou.
from pernickety :
Ah, I'm becoming almost convinced that time isn't a constant thing..the clock might tick the same but the time itself flows differently all the time..
from namelessgirl :
your new layout looks great. i love the green. and thanks for the note. simple minds are easily amused, i guess. :)
from reap :
Hi, you left me a note s i thought i'd leave you one. Note, note, note. I was just wndering did you read my diary because i know you (you name isn't anywhere so i don't know who it is) or where you just looking through for someone with the same authors or movies?
from opusshrugged :
thank you so much for the note you left earlier, i was so happy to have a note from you ... it's been SO long & i was very happy to see that you're back & updating & now i've got to get with it & catch up on your last couple months worth of entries. indeed indeed ;)
from spiggins :
especially when you have to walk 3 and a half hours through a scary park
from solrsnoflake :
Perhaps the reason the little man came to you was a message or a sign. I'm all about signs. I don't think it's awful that you felt that way. I think he came to you so that you would see exactly what you saw. It's not selfish. And yeah, on top is nice. Thanks for stopping in.
from batmosphere :
No one can understand how much I want to forget.. but then I remember that I love her enough to wait for her to crash and burn or fly back into my arms, years from now or even perhaps forever delayed.
from vilechild- :
username:you pass:111 tho i may unlock it i think :)
from batmosphere :
Of course, then or now, it hasn't been or now become any simpler... i once wrote this letter to a girl who I could never stop loving (though i have learned to start ignoring her) and another letter, and another.. all attempts in each individual way to apologize, explain, or clarify. Well; you know. When I sent her the last letter just around the New Year, I decided that was the last attention i showed, at least until I received a letter, or try half a dozen, in kind; meanwhile,with every second that passes the day edges closer to a time when my thoughts dissipate as my memory of her fades into shadows. Oh, and what I really meant to say (to comment on a thought process heavily influenced by my reading of your 'world of nonesense') is that I will not justify her act that is completely removed from the truth and reality worth a second glance of mine.
from abacinate :
yeah i found it disgusting too but it totally works!! of course a GUY made it up though :)
from rockboy :
but it's still important for me to know that you care about me. in any degree. that's all.
from pernickety :
when my mom was young, her boss made her sharpen his pencils for him. with a knife. since he didn't have sharpeners that time.. so maybe stamps are not that bad.. heheh
from rockboy :
i may not be johnny depp, or brad pitt, but i'm a simple krisana. and maybe it wasn't because i always had faith in you, it was maybe i didn't always have faith in me.
from pernickety :
yay!! You're baaaack~~ How have you been? Well yes, the blonde thing will just never leave us..will it. :)
from abacinate :
but he's the only thing i can believe in! ;) well do me a favor, okay? if you ever see clive owen, you must kidnap him for me so i may have my way with him.
from karmacops :
glad the Chinese handcuffs have been cut...welcome back...have missed reading your pages...
from abacinate :
haha yeah i'm certainly the person for that job :) yaaaay you're back!!!
from solitus :
Oh. My. God. [{You're back!!!!!}] Where have you been? I lost all hope of ever seeing an update from you.... Don't ever scare me like that again! :)
from emobre :
come join us here in xanga.com land. its a lot better, trust me. Breezy
from question-one :
and if you believe in dreams, or what is more important - that dreams can come true. i will meet you
from pernickety :
Low alcohol-blood level..I like that. heheh~ Definately needs to be charged up often. Yaa, and well surfing..it is but a dream, but I'll take caution of not falling in the sand once it's come true. :)
from borrowmymind :
Oh god, I know. They all need to die. Especially the stupid smelly ones who steal food from you.
from abacinate :
then he'd start wearing orgasm proof gloves so that he could still have sex once in a while! i think it'd be kinda fun to have it myself...then i could keep it all to myself or REALLY make some people days :) i don't think i've heard anyone give that answer before so three cheers to you!
from namelessgirl :
of course he does! how could he get "nervous"? that's just fucking stupid. goddamit. that fucking idiot.
from karmacops :
potatoes...potatoes...potatoes... 3 cheers for the little suckers... it's cold...
from abacinate :
okay okay! I SUPPOSE you have good reasons for going to New York ;) And I think I could prolly get into a freak show without BoB :o/ hehe nah...but should I get him a mini toupee if BoB gets any bigger?
from fireflea :
Your guestbook hates me. Dude! You live in South Africa! That's crazy! Is it fantastic? I've always wanted to go there.
from un-fold :
Would you like to know what strikes me? What strikes me is that you understand my metaphoric babblings [sometimes better than I can myself.] What strikes me is you can sum up my whole thought process in one little note and yet do it more eloquently than I. Darling, you and your words are striking.
from myblacksky :
i'm not sure what i would do without your advice. <3 thank you m'dear!
from limestars- :
amen to that darling <33
from rockboy :
i would of sat next you. and we could of held hands. and you could tell me silly stories about the girl in the cupboard. heh.and i was you're dreamy. but say closet. but i want you to keep saying cupboard.
from be-my-heroin :
coffee with a fork.. wow, i have done that so many times it's sad.
from limestars- :
wow.. your words are amazing <333
from abacinate :
another friend told me that white south africans are called 'afrikaners'...so yeah. why are you leaving to go to new york?!
from abacinate :
my friend told me this: 'my best friend here in chicago is a white, jewish, african american. being that he was born and raised in south africa.' do you still live in south africa? cuz then i guess you'd just be (south) african (which is awesome-coolness). i'm sure when white people first started settling there, the natives probably did not have politically correct names for them :o/
from abacinate :
the only thing my dad automatically changes the channel on is when Dubya comes on tv.
from namelessgirl :
larry from guam is just larry from guam. he cannot be hot just like he cannot be ugly. he is just there. there to save me from drunken idiots and from the wrath of my sister.
from abacinate :
hahaha...that's a good idea! hahah it'd be an extra shock to her since i normally only wear lip stuffages.
from bloodofaseed :
thanks. glad you liked. <3
from allie23869 :
Hey! Thanks for joinin the lip piercing diaryring. =)
from bluperspex :
honey... you know you're the cutest guy around. and since you can cook - well that is just doubleplusgood :)
from rockboy :
how did you know i cook? :OP or um, maybe you were mentioning someone else hehe.
from plaidsheets :
oh yes, all of us who are challenged in the cooking department should marry cute chefs. <3<3<3
from un-fold :
thank you, it means a lot. and we do rule... [p.s. i am adding you.] <3
from solitus :
Did I forget to tell you that I'm gald you're back? Just checking...
from rockboy :
heheh it was soo cute when you're drunk. you don't have to apologize.. i'm sure you're going to see me drunnk many timess talk to you soon :O)
from rockboy :
if i was anywhere around your vicinity, these boys would think twice about those ungentlemanly suggestions.. but i'm glad you tell them to "fuck off" :O) you go sweetie pie.
from abacinate :
Guys have what you would call selective hearing for the logistics impaired. What is this Cockayne Syndrome you speak of? Maybe I can start worrying about that after I get over my strep (at least I'm pretty sure that's what it is...my mom said it was most definitely not leprosy)!
from solitus :
Holy Monkey! I thought I was the only one in the universe frightened and delighted by that movie! Outstanding! And yes, the music is as twisted as it gets. I find myself whistling it while I'm shopping. Somehow that's a not good thing...
from borrowmymind :
Oh no. The mormons will come and take me away and force me to go to their nonalcoholic parties and church services. Save me. Please.
from pernickety :
hehe, seee! isn't it awful to hear such things.. Anyhow, I wish you a very veRY VERY Happy New Year sweety! :D
from abacinate :
well hope you have a even more belated merry christmas! yes my hair is much thinner than it used to be from all the bleaching and what not. but i'm not bald yet!!
from glamness :
August ^.^
from emobre :
heres a general 'fuck that' to your note. thank you for the note, but i didnt like that entry. generally what happens is i write one at night, then wake up in the morning when i am able to read, and read it. when i read it, my mind is boggled at how much of a complete idot i have become. i cant beleive you didnt put somthing like, "hey emobre, i cant beleive what an idiot you are." or somthing to that affect. bre
from un-fold :
[p.s.-your diary makes me smile.]
from un-fold :
yes, they are the best. it's a pitty i don't have them more often. you'll have to tell me about this dream of yours...
from solitus :
C'mon back now, ya hear!
from myblacksky :
merry christmas eve darling!
from glamness :
Merry Christmas to all the gorgeous people on my buddy list! ^.^ <3 -Jakie xOx
from solitus :
You've been gone awhile so I'm hoping that the Holidays' haven't bogged you down. Here's hopin' to read you're okey dokey- Shalom and feliz navidad. This shot of bourbon is for you![Slam. Gurgle. GACK! Drool. Smile...]Ahhhh.
from karmacops :
I'm responding to your last entry..."I have" is my answer...I am missing someone that much right now...the ache does not dull with passing days...it's been there for 82 days and will be there for another 26...but noone's counting!
from pernickety :
ah, why does he think he has the right to violate your personal space?? tell the mofo to relax and to stop using insect repellent for a cologne.
from karmacops :
u r gifted and your words are enjoyed. cheers :)
from rockboy :
i miss you, dear. :O) only in the best way.
from pernickety :
If you'll have to pretend that life's all nice and rainbowy in your diary; where can all of your dark thoughts find an outlet then? ahh...radiohead! :D (I'm tripping all the time as well..how do those, 'un-tripping' ones do that, eh??)
from radiowire :
you must have a sexy accent ;) i am from fl. burning hell.
from abacinate :
thanks much for the note :) i wonder what wednesday would look like with implants :o/
from radiowire :
yay! where do you live? maybe one day we can demolish and sabotage together :)
from abacinate :
Are you saying Wednesday isn't sexy?! ;o}
from plaidsheets :
thanks for adding me. i'm suprised people actually read the crap i write. thanks.
from solitus :
No need to chop them silly, my friend. Karma's a bitch and so was that vehicle. Georgia's such a small town I knew both of the Repo Dudes. I think I've done shots with one but I could be mistaken. Thanks for caring, tho'. It made me smile.
from radiowire :
always remember that pills are safer than are lovers.
from glamness :
Mmm vodka..Mmm crying. Let's all be glam and pretty and drunk and crying together <3 -Jakie x
from pernickety :
Thank you for your message..I suppose tis the best to do. Respect for you since in my case that little "yearning" won and I said "yesss...please!" :/
from pernickety :
I often wish for those comfort-hugs as well .. sigh. Where are all those black-fedora-hat men hiding anyways?? grr..
from vilechild- :
the two love birds filling up my notes nest. thank you.
from plaidsheets :
Thanks for the note! Yeah, I like your last entry [heeeeeeey!] it's cute. I know exactly how you feel.
from emobre :
youre terribly poetic... why do you read my stuff? its shitty and really not good. im just a lowly stoner that cant write anything good for the life of me. thank you, though.
from frozen-vodka :
Thanks. I know. It was hard yesterday, but I'm better today. A lot better. A teensy bit hung-over, but I lost count at 8 Tropical-tinis, so that's to be a bit expected.
from borrowmymind :
I'm not sure how it happens. But the weird ones flock to me (am i weird, do i give the evil weird vibe?) and the good ones are repelled somehow. Bah! Yes. I think maybe it might be pheromones. bad. bad. we should work on this problem a little more. figure out a way to get rid of creeeeps.
from pernickety :
I died too, about half a year ago. I'm russian, by the way. As if it matters..just saw someone's note talking about russians..so hmmmz. Sorry, next time I'll try to add some sense to my note. Your entries always touch me in a way; so I have to say something.. even if that "something" is so non-sense. :D
from emobre :
true dat, brotha, true dat. whats a girl got to do to have a good relationship around here? i dont know... but if you do, youd better tell me... i think i am failing.
from frozen-vodka :
You've got it for Russian too?!?! Russian and German make me do naughty, NAUGHTY things!!
from emobre :
youre terribly right. i am somewhat addicted to the pain of the situation. which is the worst way to be because what happens when i finally am with him (if that were to happen)? but, hey i appreciate the notes... makes me feel like someone cares or somthing. Bre
from vilechild- :
i will never have enough of telling you how beautifully you express yourself. you are an angel.
from borrowmymind :
damn straight. it isn't our fault (well maybe it is since we were the ones talking), it's all her. I do feel kind of bad now, though, since she's been institutionalized. oh well. i'd better get drunk and erase those bad memories.
from borrowmymind :
never ever ever. we're good kids. we get high on life and cherry cokes (with rum).(maybe.)....
from borrowmymind :
yeah. and loopy handwriting, they might not get the written slur too easily.
from myblacksky :
the fun drunk part is all that counts m'dear :-)
from pernickety :
Yes yes. I'm almost "hairless" already from it all. :/ I wish I had the courage to dye my blonde hair to black too~~
from emobre :
well, heres to you, then. have a good time wherever it is that you may go. im sure youll be welcome there. Breezy
from polarity :
thanks for the note. truth is you never know how strong you are until you have to be. the image on your page is wonderful. peace :p
from borrowmymind :
Rock on, my little drunk monkey! That would be an insanely perfect reincarnate of one's self. Littering and...smoking the reefer. That would also be sweet as sheisse.
from borrowmymind :
thank you! it's true, too. They would be puta'd.
from missused :
Thank you for joining my Micheal Vartan diaryring!
from grimm0826 :
If I buy you lunch and an ice cream, will you clean my bathroom? Pretty please?!?

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