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from missleigh :
Thank you! *beaming*
from missleigh :
Aww, thanks for thinking of me. :) Cosmo's is doing pretty well for us, so far. I like the look of your new diary- keep it up!
from thekirks :
Hi hon! I can understand wanting to start over. Please can I have the new addy when you leave? I've loved keeping up with you!! Hugs!
from caffeinegeek :
Congrats on your milstone! Wherever you go I'll follow.
from thekirks :
Thanks so much hon...things just aren't so good at home. Trying to weigh my options right now. As much as I don't want to leave, I don't know how much more I can take.
from clarity25 :
Yeah, I know what you mean about the routine of life sometimes getting a little tiresome. For me it's work, sleep, work, sleep, sex, work, sleep. basically. Thank you for your last caring note.
from clarity25 :
Your past few entries have made me really happy. I read them and felt...really proud of you. (that sounds lame, I know..I can't think of the right word) I guess, What I mean is..you're going through all these awesome changes and life is heading in a good direction for you. I've been reading your journal for nearly 2 years now. I've followed you through a lot of your struggles, the good times and the bad. This is a huge step moving out. I imagine it must be so weird right now. I'm just really really happy for you. Also I know what you mean about online journals and how it gets increasingly difficult to open up. You don't know who is reading and you wonder what they think. I completely understood where you were coming from, I feel the exact same way lately.
from caffeinegeek :
One wonderful thing about blogging is that you don't have to bare all if you don't want to. You can pick and choose what to post and what to keep to yourself. ACtually I think that's part of the fun of it.
from maxsmom :
it's nice to read a blog entry from someone who is truly happy. reading it made me happy.
from thekirks :
So glad you are all moved in and everything is going perfectly!
from thekirks :
I appreciate your comment so much. I needed to hear all of your kind words today:)
from clarity25 :
I'm so sorry you're struggling right now and things are so difficult. I'm sorry you're going through that, I hope things get better soon. I'm thinking about you..
from thekirks :
Thank you so much for your support hon!
from thekirks :
I hope you are feeling better this morning hon..
from thekirks :
I'm so proud of you! I can't wait to read about your new chapter in life!!!
from thekirks :
Congratulations on the new place!
from thekirks :
yay yay yay yay! I'm so happy for you! Congratulations!
from caffeinegeek :
CONGRATULATIONS! I am so excited for you. You guys are finally on your way to freedom.
from caffeinegeek :
Good luck. I know you'll do great. And you didn't break your mother's heart. You can't control the unreasonbable reactions of other people.
from clarity25 :
Good luck!
from thekirks :
Good luck to you!
from thekirks :
Have a super great time this weekend hon!!
from clarity25 :
I meant to say "love" not "life", but it's the same thing, I guess:). Hope you're having a good weekend.
from clarity25 :
There have been so many beautiful things happening in your life. I'm glad you've found another person to share your life with and have a happy balance between the two. I'm truly happy for you!
from thekirks :
You just said damn near everything I feel about my mom. wow.
from clarity25 :
I'm really happy for you, I've been reading your entries lately and smiling.:)
from thekirks :
Kissing girls is always fun! I'm happy you have "the one" back.
from thekirks :
I'm so happy for you! I've had a few experiences with girls and sometimes I long for a relationship. I'm just kinda stuck. But I'm so happy that things are going well for you:)
from thekirks :
I hope everything is ok hon!
from caffeinegeek :
Tag you're it! List 5 things that society in general apparently enjoys or tolerates that you just don't get. Then tag five more bloggers to do the same.
from caffeinegeek :
Tag, you're it!
from clarity25 :
Thank you for your beautiful note, I'm doing much better. Thank you so much for reaching out! Good luck with your diet, it's always hard at first. Wishing you the best of luck in achieving your goal, the fitday journal sounds like a great step towards more healthy living, I should do the same. I might look into that. Hope you're having a good day! -Love, Clarity
from thekirks :
Thanks for your link to the fit day journal! I signed up. Your patterns of eating sound so similar to mine. Sometimes without hubby home during the week, I eat chips or candy for supper! Ugh! I need to get a handle on things so thanks for the link. Hopefully I can stick to it.
from sionainne :
Hey! Diaryland has too many problems and blogdrive is great, but not exactly what I was looking for, so here is the new journal: http://autumnbirch.diary-x.com Take care! ~Shannon
from thekirks :
It IS so hard! My big vice is food and I love all the junk. I wish I could diet but I just don't have the will power. I wish you luck hon!
from caffeinegeek :
Sadly the craving for cigs, drugs, etc. never does go away. 10 years later I still fight the urge to take cocktails of pills like I did in my drug days. Low carb eating of some kind really might help with the sugar cravings. The first few were a bitch, but after that it was a breeze. It might be worth looking into. Hang in there. It's hard, I know.
from thekirks :
they said my thyroid was a little high, 6.76 and they put me on synthroid but no big alarms. I'm sure everything will be fine with you. Hugs.
from thekirks :
I just went through that a couple of weeks ago. They had called back and I didnt get the message til after the office closed. I was going nuts all nite because the results came back so fast. Keep the faith, my results were fine.
from clarity25 :
Good luck with the physical..God, I hate needles too. I feel for you! I'm sure it will all be fine:)
from clarity25 :
awww..I can imagine how much that must have hurt, I know I would have cried too. But children at that age don't know what they're saying when they shout out things like that. They just know it will hurt you when they're mad, so they say it without realizing. I hope you have a good weekend and feel a bit better:) thinking of you!
from clarity25 :
I'm so sorry to hear about your last panic attack. I get those too..maybe once every few months. Usually when I'm watching the news, worrying about my father, my brother in prison, my sister, my mother, my bestfriend..and all of a sudden the room starts closing in on me. I can't breath, and I start clenching the sofa cushion. I can't even function..Eric has to talk me down out of it. I know what you're describing, it's awful. Hope you're feeling better.
from thekirks :
You are not alone in thinking this way. I feel this way almost every time I see someone homeless or begging:(
from clarity25 :
I know the feeling you described, just wishing you could do more. I had written an entry a few months ago about a homeless woman I had met, since then I pass her nearly every day and give her money. Eric joked about how we should "take her home" one day. But actually, that might not be such a crazy idea. Maybe taking her out for a meal, and providing her with a place to shower and clean up. I thought that was really beautiful, what you wrote.. anyway, I'm rambling.
from thekirks :
Thanks for your note! I hope it helps with me being tired all the time! I never have any energy! Thanks!
from clarity25 :
That's great that you're starting a savings account! Putting money aside, even if it's just a little at first is the greatest feeling. I can't wait till we move back to New York so we can do the same. It just gives you a bit of a feeling of security and freedom. Good luck with that! Thank you so much for your last note, it was encouraging and made me laugh. Have a great weekend
from thekirks :
Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers:) It means so much!
from clarity25 :
First off, congrats on the little one peeing while standing up! I had to giggle when I read that, I wonder what it will be like when I have a child and experience that moment. I'll probably be taking pictures. hehehe! Oh and I checked out that flylady site..It's actually really cool and helpful..for a slob like me.:). Happy Memorial day weekend!
from clarity25 :
I love your new template! It's really stunning, where did you get it? I need to change my look, I keep going back to the same dull images and format. It's been like that for a year now. Rainbows always make me stop dead in my tracks and just gaze. I can't help it, I find them so beautiful and their so rare. I hope you're able to post those pictures. Thank you also for your last note, and your kind words. Hope you're having a great day!
from bohemianlife :
Love the new design! It really is stunning!
from thekirks :
I love love love it! It looks great!
from clarity25 :
Nothing you wrote was offensive, and I never find your writing boring OR melodramatic. I can understand what you were saying. A number of people from my family, college and life found my journal. So it's harder to express myself and becoming less and less of an outlet for my deepest feelings. Especially when I feel judged. Every judgmental E-mail, comment or note makes me feel less like sharing and more like closing up shop. But I continue writing because of the people I care about that have come so far with me. I feel bad about just leaving or relocating. So I understand what you're saying. You have to do what's right for you, if leaving is what you need and want. Don't feel obligated to continue writing. Also don't ever think you're problems are insignificant or not big enough. Every person is traveling on a unique path in life, and everyone has their own struggles. No struggle is more important than the other. I don't know if this makes much sense..I hope you have a good week and you feel a bit better.:)
from thekirks :
So glad you are staying:) I'm sorry I don't leave more notes, but rest assured I'm still here and reading:)
from thekirks :
Hi hon..hope you don't quit writing here. But if you do, I understand...
from clarity25 :
P.S. Oh and thanks for your sweet note on my voice entry. As for the picture, I think I'll post another one in my next entry. I'm feeling brave..we'll see:). take care
from clarity25 :
It was so happy when I read your latest entry. What you wrote was so beautiful. I'm glad things are looking up for you.:). Have a wonderful weekend..and good luck, with the prospect of being pregnant. Whatever the results are and whatever happens, It will all be fantastic. You'll make it through even with tight finances because you're a great mother.
from bohemianlife :
wishing you luck, i know what its like to go through that honey!
from thekirks :
I hope it lasts for you too hon...you deserve to be happy.
from caffeinegeek :
It was good to hear from you. I've been worried. If you need anything please let me know.
from caffeinegeek :
Tiff, not to be preachy but you have got to get some help. Now. For the sake of you, your marriage, your son, and your sanity. Please, please, please get some help. If you really are that close to the edge you need to do something before you fall off.
from clarity25 :
Hey, I just wanted to wish you a "Happy Mother's day", girl. Hope things are going well for you:)
from salliel :
email me at sallieauau@yahoo.com.au for the username and password!
from salliel :
Hi. I just found your site via some duck review site. Sitting here spinning out because much of what you wrote in the disappearing entry, I could relate to. Anyway, drop in sometime and say hi!
from clarity25 :
I'm so sorry that you've been feeling so low. Your last entry made my eyes fill with tears, I sat in front of the laptop staring off into space thinking about how to respond for 10 minutes. It just somehow hit home for me in a way, even though our lives are so different..But I just felt strongly for what you were feeling and going through. I don't really have the words, But I can say that you will NEVER disappear. Your dreams will never fade and you'll never be too old to fulfill them. You're still young, with your whole life in front of you. Sometimes it feels like you're stuck in a rut or you're not moving forward. But in truth, you actually are. You just don't see it. You're exactly where you're supposed to be in life. Everything has a way of falling into place in time, sometimes when we step back and see the bigger picture..things look brighter. We see all the beautiful things, we realize that things like college educations, jobs, where we live..etc. None of this defines who we are. I'm probably not making much sense. Just know that I care, and hope you feel better. -Love, Clarity
from gothique :
Yikes. I've missed that one. The worst one I've seen is the Where's Waldo. You're supposed to find Waldo, then after 60 seconds the cute picture disappears and THAT FACE from The Exorcist comes screaming right at the screen. Unaware, I had the sound on and had zoomed in to find Waldo. Whoo...almost had to change my bloomers.
from gothique :
Good lord - which one of those damnable movies was it? I freaking HATE those things!! If it's the one I'm thinking of, no wonder your mood went into the potty hole. :o(
from clarity25 :
Thanks for your anniversary greetings! Oh and I have the worst immune system in the world too..it seems like every 2 weeks I'm writing an entry on how I picked up another sickness..perhaps you noticed that:) I really hope you feel better soon!
from clarity25 :
Sorry to hear about the little one being ill, I hope he gets better soon! Also, Your numb entry described feelings that I've had before, Usually when I'm in that mode I can't even type out the feelings coherently. You described something that I couldn't put in words before. I don't know if the fact that I've been there and will probably feel that way again in the future comforts you in anyway. But I have. I hope things improve for you and you feel better.
from thekirks :
I'm sorry you are feeling so down:( I wish I knew how to help you. I miss reading your frequent entries but I can understand not feeling like writing when you are down. I hope you get to feeling better! Big hugs!
from clarity25 :
Thanks for the warning on "Sin City", I was dying to see it with Eric when it came out in Germany.. But now..not so much:). I think I'll wait for it to come out on DVD. Thank you so much for your sweet note. it truly made me smile. No..I wont be censoring myself. Maybe just adding more Private entries, if anything:). Take care!
from clarity25 :
Thanks for your last note, I'm sorry that you've been feeling so down lately. Sad feelings have a way of just creeping up when you least expect and causing breakdowns. (I know how that is.. sometimes it's the smallest thing that can set me off..) But things will get better. It's great that he learned how to write his name:), You sound like a wonderful Mom and don't worry about the fact that you missed it. They'll be plenty more milestones that you'll be there to see.
from clarity25 :
That's wonderful that you're sticking with your work out routine! Sometimes it's really hard to keep at something (especially for me, I start healthy projects and drop it eventually) So that's something to be proud of, seriously.
from caffeinegeek :
Isn't the way your body changes fun? I was actually thinking about that this morning. At my heaviest I was a siz 22. Now I'm down to a 14, and it doesn't quite seem right to me. You know, if the yoga nazi makes you crazy don't go. Hit the mat at home instead. There is a teacher at my studio who's like that. I make a point of never attending her classes.
from gothique :
Thanks for the input about the new Tori CD - the more I learn about it, the more I want it. :o) Also, congratulations on your success with the yoga and weight loss! You're doing so well!
from knightwriter :
I think I like "Not About Love" best. They are all pretty good. Congrats on your weight loss/fitness. I know it's something that has plagued you for as long as I've known you (almost 13 years, isn't that crazy??)so I wish you the best. I need some of your inspiration, my lazy butt hasn't seen the gym in months, save for a meager trip or two after feeling guilty. I just wish I could find a class like I took in college. It was great, really busted my butt!
from gothique :
I'm sorry for cutting chat short - my hubby has the hungries and was waiting for me to call the order in.
from clarity25 :
I'm glad to hear you got a new yoga instructer:), oh btw, regarding your drunk experience, I agree that it's always important and good to sometimes just let go. It helps you unwind, life is so short. If you knock a few things over or say a few silly things. Ah well, who cares? (smiles) but yeah, I've been there!:)
from clarity25 :
Your last entry kind of hit home for me because I've been experiencing alot of the same emotions this week. I've had a feeling of lethargy and I also broke down crying because I couldn't find my shoe for work 2 mornings ago, we were running late for work and everything just overwhelmed me. I think we all go through moments and weeks like that, where everything just falls apart. We look around and the house is a mess, or the dishes pile up..and sleep seems like the only appealing option. 20$ isn't much to pay for peace of mind though, sometimes it DOES help to talk to someone. I don't really have that option here in Germany. I hope you feel better soon, You're in my thoughts. Just know that you're not alone in the way you're feeling. It's normal, it's okay. These sad feelings will pass, in time...
from clarity25 :
Thanks for reaching out and leaving a kind note. That meant alot.
from caffeinegeek :
Hang in there hon. Tomorrow will be better.
from clarity25 :
Thanks for your last note, and thanks for sharing you're own experiences as a parent with me. I can understand entirely the emotions you expressed, I believe I would have felt similiarly, especially since you had your child young. It's a difficult transition, I'm glad you arrived at a place of contentment and happiness. It's true, you never know if you had waited, whether or not you would have had the same beautiful child.
from clarity25 :
"Snuggle the snot out of him" lol! I'm glad you're feeling better, that was a beautiful entry.:)
from bohemianlife :
I'm with you honey. I feel awful for being depressed and angry when I have a life that most women would die to have. And yet I still feel bad, and you're right, feeling spoiled and ugrateful just makes you feel worse. You'll pull through this...and spending time with your son might be the answer. Being with my daughter always helps me. Sending love your way.
from thekirks :
I hope you are ok, hon. I'm familiar with some of those feelings and it's so hard to work through. Just hang in there and it will pass. I'm here if you need anything.
from clarity25 :
I'm so sorry to hear about what you're going through, the pain and sadness you're feeling. I wish there was something I could say to make it go away and I know there really isn't. But I can tell you that I'm thinking about you and that I admire your strength and that I hope you get through this difficult time and see the light on the other end. I've had dark times like this too, it's overwhelming and everything just feels so hopeless..but it gets better.
from clarity25 :
Thanks for your last note! OMG, your obGYN entry brought back memories of my own embarrassing incidents..especially with the ones here in Germany. A check up here feels more like being horribly violated. I can't even begin to describe it..I've been putting my last appointment off for the last 4 months. But now I'm out of BC pills, So now I have to cave in and endure the torture.
from clarity25 :
I meant: perseverance. :)
from clarity25 :
Thanks for your last note:). I know what you mean about fights being scary, but it really DOES bring you closer. It's like making it through a small war and you battled through it together, making it safely to the other side unscathed..haha:). Sorry to hear about your frustration with your Yoga class and the Nazi that's running it. :(, hope that situation improves, but it's great that you're sticking with it regardless! That takes strength and perservance!
from gothique :
Hiya - long time no see! Looks like you and I have the same thing going on (being plus size and trying to do yoga - but it really is relaxing if the instructor isn't a nazi, isn't it?). Your entry reminded me of the soup nazi on Seinfeld for some reason ('NO SOUP FOR YOU!!!). Anyway, this is Shannon. My journal used to be 'sionainne' here on diaryland. It's good to see ya. :o)
from caffeinegeek :
Gotta love a good coffee place. They can't be beat.
from bohemianlife :
This same exact thing happened to me. I was always good about putting my keys back in my purse when I got home, but then suddenly the dissappeared. We searched and searched and then figured that the baby had hidden them somewhere or maybe even put them in the trash. This was probably 2 months ago. Last week it was a little warmer, put on a jacket I hadn't worn in awhile, go to put husbands keys in my pocket while feeding the meter at school and what do I find? My keys. I felt like such an idiot, but I was glad to find them!
from clarity25 :
Have fun at the fetish party, you should definitely go for it..if for nothing else, just to say you did. We only live once:). My college roommate brought me to one once, I just watched. It was all a little overwhelming and over the top for me. But it was..interesting:) The entry you wrote after watching the E.R. episode..was truly beautiful.
from caffeinegeek :
I say go for it! You could have lots of fun, and if there's no pressure to participate what's the harm?
from bohemianlife :
Oh god, that episode of ER just broke my heart. I was sobbing like a baby the first time I saw it! You're not alone.
from clarity25 :
hahahahaha.. I can't even begin on this. It's like the purple teletubby. Sometimes you have to wonder about the people that get these ideas and then become all concerned about it. Homophobia is such a sad thing.
from thekirks :
Thanks so much for your note. I wish it had gone better..just keep your fingers crossed that the results come back ok.
from clarity25 :
Your new tattoo is beautiful!, But of course you know this means you are a Crazed Satan worshipper! lol, that had me cracking up! I'll send you an E-mail later on today:)
from caffeinegeek :
Right, but why does anyone have a take at all? That's my point. At a certain point this isn't about them, but about how we see things through them.
from thekirks :
Beautiful tattoo!!
from clarity25 :
Congrats on the new tattoo! I can't wait to see the pics!
from caffeinegeek :
Asana=pose
from caffeinegeek :
Exposed panties are about as funny as stinky feet. I love that both of our yoga sins involved the same asana. That's so much fun.
from clarity25 :
I always wanted to try Yoga. Congratulations on the weight loss and your motivation to continue it. Anything that makes you feel better about yourself is a good thing, I'm really happy it's all working out for you! Good luck in the upcoming months!
from thekirks :
Congrats on the lost weight! It feels great doesn't it?!
from caffeinegeek :
Oh the first class HURT. I was sore for three or four days. My next class was a week later and it only hurt for two. Now I go four or five times a week and I only notice soreness when I overextend. I've noticed that even athletic people get sore after their first class. It's a different way of moving and the body needs to adjust to that.
from caffeinegeek :
Glad you enjoyed Yoga again. That first class always makes you it's bitch doesn't it?
from irishblueyes :
Thanks so much for your note, it really meant a lot to me. Oh and the best of luck to you and your husband with you new healthy lifestyle goals...I feel you about the high school reunion thing...mine is let's see like 2 1/2 years away ('07) and I am already freaking out!
from clarity25 :
I want to see "the phantom of the Opera" too, now even more badly after reading your description. (It doesn't come out for another six months here in Germany) My father used to play the broadway soundtrack all the time, it was so haunting and beautiful. I hope to some day see it on broadway..and It's probably better that the bestfriend from the past didn't make it, I KNOW exactly the feeling you described.:)
from irishblueyes :
Well your entry really makes me want to see that movie now! I have to say that I don't even know the story, of course I know about it, but I've never seen the play or read it. But I love musicals, I'm the same way about them, singing along, knowing it all by heart - like West Side Story for instance. So I look forward to seeing another great musical...as soon as I find someone who wants to see it with me!
from clarity25 :
Thank you so much for your last note, it really made me smile! thanks:). I hope everyone enjoyed all the cookies you labored over (I'm sure they did!). I also wanted to wish you a very Merry Christmas! I hope your holidays are wonderful! Best wishes and love, Clarity.
from thekirks :
Just wanted to wish you and your family a merry Christmas!
from clarity25 :
I'll say a prayer tonight for your sister's friend.
from grngrl75 :
Continuing my thoughts and prayers for your friend's sister and her family.
from grngrl75 :
I have your friends sister in my thoughts and prayers..
from irishblueyes :
Thanks for the advice. We're trying to just let her get it out of her system. It's so hard for me to just sit by and watch while she's screaming and crying in the corner. The frustrating thing is that it's over nothing ususally and she acts like someone just attacked her! She seems so sensitive all of a suden, it's odd. But I guess like everything else it's going to just test my patience and I'll have to try and get tough with her and not cave in to what she wants just so she'll stop crying. Which is so hard not to do because after awhile you just can't take it anymore. And that's a good idea for the potty training, a messy one maybe but good. I'm not looking forward to any of it really. :) Oh, and I promise to get back to you about the sticker thing if you're still doing it, I've just been swamped with finals and it completely slipped my mind! Thanks - Kris
from clarity25 :
Thanks so much for your last note! I relate exactly with what you're saying about closeminded people and feel the same way. But it's good to know there are people like you that are different and raising children with open minds. It's going to change things in the future.
from caffeinegeek :
Good for you for sticking to your guns. Don't worry about the rest of the world. You know what's best for you and your children. Roxy
from clarity25 :
I'm sorry for everything you've gone through in life and struggles you still have to face. I don't have good advice, I guess because I can relate. I have so many self-esteem issues I also battle with on a daily basis and demons. But I can tell you that you're beautiful, whatever your weight is. Inside I know you realize this, it's just a matter of coming to terms with it and truly believing it. That's the hardest part. I know. You're in my thoughts, thank you so much for your kind note about christmas and your compliment on Eric. That was so sweet:)
from grngrl75 :
Oh hon...I'm so very sorry for all this happening to you. Each of us has our own story to tell, but that doesn't change the fact that you didn't deserve those things happening. You are so very strong and your husband, a lucky man.
from clarity25 :
Hi! Thanks so much for your kind note! I know what you mean about feeling like your vote didn't count..sometimes I wonder about that. (sigh). I caught up with your older entries that I missed while I was away. The "magic appearing baby jesus mug" had me cracking up. It's terrible how they commercialize these stupid religious items..and even more sad is that people actually buy it! lol. I'm sorry about the big drama on your thanksgiving and that you were sick. I hope you're feeling better. Your entry about being with your husband for four years and your reflection on your marriage was so touching..wow.:)
from grngrl75 :
Have my fingers crossed for you!
from irishblueyes :
fingers-crossed!
from irishblueyes :
Well I seem to be particularly drawn to letters right now seeing as how i just wrote a novel length one a few entries back myself! Oh and the "punk rock porn", it was really interesting wasn't it? I think a lot of those girls are really beautiful and I like to see anything that's not the stereotypical 6' blonde with a DD chest if you know what I mean!
from irishblueyes :
Beautiful letter.
from grngrl75 :
Thanks hon:) We bought the house in may and love it.
from grngrl75 :
Wow, I'm impressed! I saw the Ring in the theater and it was pretty scary there. I'll definitely have to check out the Grudge! Thanks!
from grngrl75 :
Have you seen The Ring? And if so did you think The Grudge was scarier? I was curious about that. The Ring scared the crap outta me!
from irishblueyes :
The singer you mentioned in your last entry is really good. I think you should go listen to Sarah Harmer if you don't know her already. You can probably hear clips of her stuff on amazon or tower. She's very similar, a Canadian singer I discovered while living in Washington and getting British Columbia radio. I think you'd like her. In fact now that I think about it...if you go listen to her and like her I'd be more than happy to burn her cd's for you. I love for people to have good music! Have a good night, oh and hope your mommy and son day went well!
from clarity25 :
Thank you so so much for your kind note:) It truly cheered me up! Your last entry made me wish I had a little child too, I have so much to look forward too. Oh and I related with your rant on ignorant people. My sentiments exactly.
from irishblueyes :
I have heard of those theaters! When we were in Canada during the summer we went to a theater and I saw a sign for that, I think it's so cool, I wish we had one of those here. It's a very amazing idea. I hope you're son likes the movie, we were skeptical of taking her to her first one but they said she did great. I'm sure he will too!
from roxyelliot :
Hey there. Still reading your diary, but no longer on Diaryland. I have a new blog on blogger. Here's the URL if you're interested. http://caffeinatedgeekgirl.blogspot.com/
from grngrl75 :
Good for you. Stand up for what you believe in.
from grngrl75 :
I know how you feel..I think I will just turn a blind eye to everything and try to go on. Otherwise, it's all too depressing:(
from clarity25 :
Yes, we're on that same boat on very scary waters, I put so much hope in this election. I should have known..I'm trying not to think of the four years we have stretched in front of us. Everytime I do, my eyes fill with tears and my stomach balls up in knots. But hey, We have a spare room here in Germany. Feel free to come and escape with us. :)
from grngrl75 :
My state went to Kerry...but I'm scared too. Waiting, waiting.
from grngrl75 :
Thanks for posting the link to those lyrics. I've been a big fan of Eminem for years and look forward to his new cd coming out. Sounds like he has the right idea and we'll be voting the same way come tues.
from clarity25 :
Thank you for your kind note:), I really related to your entry about your father. I also become that approval-craving girl when I'm around my own father, and I wish our relationship was different. It has it's rocky moments, what you wrote was really insightful. Also, I can't believe I haven't heard that new Eminem song yet, the lyrics are so powerful. wow. I'm glad someone out there has the guts to sing about what's going on right now in our country, maybe it will influence more people to go out there and vote.
from clarity25 :
Happy Birthday! 24..that's nothing and believe me 25 is a great age. So don't lament about being old just yet! Best wishes for the coming year!!
from irishblueyes :
Happy Birthday! And you know what, sometimes just getting yourself something like a clothes hamper that you like is a good thing. I buy little stuff like that for the house a lot, and even though it's not much it can make my day better. I think half the money I've ever had in my life has been spent at Target! Oh, and aren't new beds great? We went through the bed on the floor for a long time too. I hope you have a fantastic year!
from grngrl75 :
Hi there! Thanks for the advice! Since losing the baby, I've remained on prenatal vitamins which are supposed to be the best out there although I haven't felt much better. I think the main thing is I need more sleep and more exercise! I just hate exercising! lol
from grngrl75 :
I hope you get to feeling better. I know a bit how you feel with your mother...my mom doesn't agree with things I do with my stepdaughter. It's very frustrating. Hope it gets better!
from clarity25 :
I can hear your frustration clearly in your entry, Don't ever doubt that you're a good mother. Just know in your heart you're doing the best you can, and that will be all your son ever needs. Everyone is different the way they approach parenthood. Don't let your Mother's comments..which are probably full of good intentions..but coming out all wrong. (my mother does that ALL the time) ..get you down. You're in my thoughts!
from clarity25 :
Thanks you so much for your kind note when I was feeling down and out. That really meant alot to me!:). Oh and I'm behind you 100% with your equality rant entry.
from irishblueyes :
I'm so sorry that your son is not well. I know nothing is worse than a sick baby. You're in my thoughts.
from grngrl75 :
I hope the little guy gets all better soon...
from clarity25 :
I feel for you. There's nothing worse than all being sick at once, when it rains it pours. I hope you guys all feel better soon!
from grngrl75 :
So glad you are safe and will continue my thoughts for you..
from grngrl75 :
Please stay safe hon..I'll be thinking about you and your family..
from irishblueyes :
I hope you all make it through this safe and sound. I will be thinking of you!
from clarity25 :
I'm so sorry that times are hard for you right now and you're struggling to balance everything. I can understand you're frustration, I really hope things improve. I think we all have days like this when everything just crushes down on you and feels so overwhelming. Hope you feel better. You're in my thoughts! -Love Clarity
from clarity25 :
Thanks for your last note:). Your entry about your little boy was so touching, Those are the moments in life to remember.
from clarity25 :
I'm so sorry to hear about the devastation to your house and the neighborhood! My god, That's horrible, I don't even know the right words to say. I was reading it with my hand over my mouth and I felt like crying. I can only imagine how you must feel, I understand why you would leave work early. I've never experienced anything like that before, I would reacte the same way. It must be so disorienting and surreal. The way you described it I felt as though I was there with you. I hope everything begins to feel normal again in time. That you are able to rebuild everything and hold strong. Thank you for your support through my pregnancy scare, Despite the fact that you were experiencing a much worse problem of your own, That meant alot to me. Thank you. I'm so glad that you are your family remained safe through the storm, I hope you feel better. I think the only thought that would truly comfort me in a time like that is the knowledge that material items can be replaced, but your well-being is priceless. Take care of yourself and know that You're in my thoughts.
from irishblueyes :
I'm so, so sorry honey! If there's anything you need even from someone very far away, please don't hesitate to ask!
from grngrl75 :
I'm thinking of you and hope everything gets a little better for you all down there.
from roxyelliot :
You're in my thoughts. Come home safe.
from grngrl75 :
Please be safe!!!
from irishblueyes :
OH goodness honey, be safe and I'll be thinking about you!
from clarity25 :
Thanks for the compliment:), good luck with the approaching hurricane, I'm praying that you stay safe through it all. You're in my thoughts!
from grngrl75 :
Good luck, be careful and I'll be thinking about you!
from missleigh :
Get well soon, lady. :)
from grngrl75 :
Hope you get to feeling better soon hon!
from irishblueyes :
Hope you're feeling back to yourself soon! Being sick does definately suck, especially when you have a child to take care of! =)
from clarity25 :
Thank you so much for the kind and encouraging words you left over at my place, It truly meant alot to me. I'll post more artwork later on, thanks for your compliment!:). I loved your poem, it expressed your emotions so beautifully. That concert you went to looked like fun, and I wanted to mention this earlier: I really liked that entry where you describe your experience with the homeless man and your compassion. It moved me. Hope you're having a great day:)
from irishblueyes :
That was such a wonderful poem, and I can say that I really relate to how you feel. I am constantly looking backwards as well, I think it has something to do with the fact that I married young and had a baby young also. It has made me feel like I've missed out on something that everyone else experienced. But I'm personally hoping that getting back into school this sememster will help me to break out of that cycle and start moving on. I think the fact that you recognize how you feel makes all the difference! Thank you for sharing.
from grngrl75 :
You are such a wonderful person..
from clarity25 :
I'm glad you weren't hit hard by the hurricane, also I loved your last entry at your husband. that was truly beautiful...
from tailbonelust :
You're so caring!
from grngrl75 :
so glad you are safe, hon..
from tailbonelust :
You are amazing.
from clarity25 :
thanks so much for the compliment!:)
from clarity25 :
I read your last entry over a few times, I really understood the emotions you were feeling and how sometimes in life things can become routine. I have to admit, I feel alot of times like my life is in a rut. I wonder who I am..alot. We define ourselves by these labels, and our achievements. But that's not who we are. in truth, you are all those things you described that you think you aren't.. and every day has the possibility to be new and exciting, you don't need to travel, write screenplays or save the world. You just need to be yourself, and be in the moment, enjoy every second. You're mere existance is making a positive difference, not just to your husband and your child..But everyone around you. Think about it, I'm essentially a stranger and I care enough to write this note to tell you how wonderful and beautiful I think you are. Just from reading your writings.. -love, Clarity
from clarity25 :
I have to admit, that last entry has me really concerned for you. I'm worried. You really should take the money from your mother and see a doctor. It might be nothing, or stress-related. but you should have it checked out! I really hope you feel better soon..keep us updated.
from retailharlot :
Hi. I found you on the pending review list of the now-defunct Ms. Lovejoy's Reviews, and really enjoyed browsing through your diary. Just wanted to let you know that I added you to my favorites list. :)
from clarity25 :
thank you for the wonderful kind note, that truly meant so much to me and touched me deeply. I'm sorry for the emotional pain your husband is experiencing from the death of his step-grandmother. I wish there was something I could do to help you as well. there are times in life, when everything feels so dark and bleak..but I know that there's a light on the other end, even though sometimes it doesn't feel that way. I have to keep believing that. Thank you for being there..
from clarity25 :
I am so sorry to hear about the deaths of your grandmother and your mother-in-law. I'm so sorry for the pain that you and your husband are going through, How are you coping? I hope your husband will be okay, death is the hardest thing in life to handle, accept and struggle to understand. If I can help in any way, please tell me. You'll be in my prayers.
from grngrl75 :
I'm so sorry to hear about your hubby's stepgrandmother. My thoughts are with you and your family.
from irishblueyes :
Oh car troubles are the worst, they always make me so nervous, I can hardly ever relax about car related stuff.
from irishblueyes :
That was a wonderful story, though a bit scary I must say! I have never written my birth story in my diary, but might do so now. I had quite the opposite experience with the epidural. Mine was wonderous, and I can't imagine doing it without one. But I'll leave all that to the story!
from clarity25 :
Wow, that was quite a story, almost thought we lost you there! I'm terribly afraid of giving birth myself. Eric is all against going to the hospital, he wants me to deliver in a bathtub. (I'm not quite sure about that..) I don't even know if that's allowed in America. Though I know one thing now, I wont be getting an epidural! thanks for sharing your sharing your story.
from clarity25 :
Thank you for your encouraging note, it really meant alot to me. It's funny that you also had "Prodigy"..you're the only other person I met that knows what it was! Sounds like we both had negative experiences, but you also had such a positive experience on the internet. Meeting your husband! wow! By the way, I'm sorry to hear about your son getting sick again from daycare. ugh!. and as you can imagine, I can relate to you with your "gripe" entry. We're on the same page there. -Love, Clarity
from irishblueyes :
I can totally relate. It seems very weird not to have any kind of social life other than online now that we have a child. And I agree, I love my family but it would be nice to get a break from the routine every once in awhile.
from clarity25 :
I'm glad to hear that your son is adjusting to daycare. by the way I just read the book "Prozac Nation" about 3 months ago, It's my sister's favorite book and she lent it to me. It was really amazing.
from irishblueyes :
That is wonderful! It's so great that he's starting to like daycare!
from clarity25 :
I'm glad to hear that your son is feeling better..(sorry to hear the tale of the projectile vomit..you are a brave strong woman to make it through that ordeal. I mean that, you sound like a wonderful mom. I can't handle vomit, I start gagging involuntarily and have to run out of the room..I'm going to be a TERRIBLE mother) by the way, you're right about A.L.I.C.E., I asked her more questions, she's a christian and has been programmed to be intolerant to alot more issues than I realized. Bad computer.
from irishblueyes :
I'm so sorry your son is sick. Having a sick baby is just the worst most worrisome time, at least your parents are around to help out, maybe that makes it easier. Hope he feels better soon!
from irishblueyes :
Oh gosh! I really feel for you right now, but I know that both you and your son are going to not only make it through this but probably come out better for it on the other side. But I know it must be hard only getting to see him for so little time everyday. I am thinking about that myself knowing that in two months I am going to be going from being a stay at home mom who is with my daughter 24/7 to a full-time student and working again as well. But I think if our bonds with our kids are strong we'll make it! ♥
from clarity25 :
Hi, Thanks for the sweet note!!, I hope your muscle spasms stop, I had that problem before and it stretched over a few days. But medication that makes you feel stoned can't be so bad. Sometimes your body acts up just to force you to stop in your tracks and take some time to relax.
from roxyelliot :
I can't imagine you getting abuse for a Kerry sticker, though I coudl be wrong. We've had the Kucinich one on our car for months with no problems. Same with our anti-war and anti-Christian stickers.
from irishblueyes :
I think you are very right. I always said I would never put my daughter in daycare either. I'm still not 100% but I really do think she needs to socialize and that's tough without some sort of structured program. She's turning two in September. I am definitely going to look into it now. I had never thought about the Y having that kind of program, but it makes sense now that I think about it. Hope it goes well for your son!
from irishblueyes :
Oh good luck with daycare...i'd be terrified too! How old is your son? I was hoping our daughter could start school at 3 but found out that pre-school where we are moving doesn't start until age 4...so I might have to look into something similar. Wish you luck!
from knightwriter :
Thanks for the note sweetie, it meant a lot. And for what it's worth, I always thought you were gorgeous. Take a look at your photo in our 8th grade yearbook (I know that's going back a bit, but I remember that was a good one) and look at your face. You look like a porcelain doll! (and I mean that in a good way!) :)
from clarity25 :
Good luck with the daycare! It sounds like a great place, I'll probably have the same emotions in the future when I have my own child, I can understand.
from irishblueyes :
Thank you so much for your note, it means so much to hear from others who have been through the same things. And I will defintiely check out the patch as one of the options. I was very forgetful when on the pill too so I understand that, I need the whatever I have to think the least about! Thanks again!
from clarity25 :
I love that shirt! I think I'll get one for myself too.. God, I hope Bush doesn't get re-elected for president. Sometimes I have nightmares where I envision it..
from irishblueyes :
P.S. - Yeah my daughter is the same way, she's 3 months from turning 2 and knows most of her letters, counts to 15, knows all her shapes and colors, and is very well spoken. Everyone comments on how much/well she talks for her age. So I think educational tv is fabulous too!
from irishblueyes :
That shirt is really cool! Hoorah for you!
from irishblueyes :
Oh gosh, Noggin is such a life saver! We've been watching it since she was very young. She's a huge Blues Clues and Dora The Explorer fan, but she'll watch anything on there really. It's so great being commercial free and having the same schedule on the weekends. And she has really learned so much watching these shows. I'll never understand parents who don't let their kids watch tv. So don't feel alone - ours is a Noggin fan too!
from clarity25 :
Thanks for your sweet note:), As for music suggestions, that's always hard because everyone has such different taste. But since you mentioned a soundtrack, I think you would like "The Moulin Rouge" soundtrack, it has beautiful instrumentals, and fun to sing along with.
from tailbonelust :
Listen to Dredg. They have amazing instrumentals, and good lyrics. I still have your address from when I said I'd send you a written entry (I didn't forget about that!). Instead of that, though, how about I send you copies of their two albums?
from clarity25 :
Hi again, thanks for the note. I'm sorry D-land is giving you a hard time making new entries..particularly because I truly enjoy reading them. If I wasn't piss-poor at the moment, I would buy you GOLD. I really like what you you wrote about despising ignorance and your desire to change that with your son, making sure he grows up open and tolerant to all races. It's steps like that which make the world a better place. I think (hopefully) in 50 years, the future generations wont even know what the word "racism" means, and when they read about it in the history books they will simply shake their heads in confusion. Have a great weekend.
from irishblueyes :
More normal than I think I am - now that is a novel idea. I have to say that I am delighting in hearing that so many of my diary friends are living the same kinds of lives that we are. It must just be something with our generation! Thanks so much for your note!
from clarity25 :
hi again, I just wanted to thank you for the note you left a while back about keeping the love alive in a marriage, holding hands and working towards it. You really have these amazing insights and obviously a a very loving husband/Marriage. I just wanted to tell you that. Also, there was something I wanted to comment on regarding an earlier statement. You had written "he kept going on and on about how beautiful I am (which I'm not)" I saw your pictures and I have to tell you that you're wrong. You are beautiful.
from roxyelliot :
What a cutie.
from clarity25 :
I've had days like that, I understand what you were describing. Something falls through and everything in life feels like it's crumbling apart. Noone can understand why you're crying or how you can feel the way you do. Then sometimes it takes the smallest little thing to shift life back into the right perspective. Btw, thanks for the note you left last week about accepting that your husband finds you beautiful and fully believing it. You put it in the right words and it made perfect sense. Thankyou.
from tailbonelust :
Haha. I was trying to test out my block quotes. Obviously, it doesn't quite...stand out.
from banefulvenus :
:)
from raresilk :
Your review is up! Thank you for your patience and I apologize for the delay! I hope you enjoy your review! Sara
from clarity25 :
Thanks for the info on the Muppet show DVD, I checked it out and I'm going to start saving up for it. Happy birthday to your son. I hear you on the money issue. It's so frustrating when things don't work out the way you plan and you have to reach out to others for help. I know that situation all too well. I hope his "Bob the builder" party was a success.
from percephonecd :
I know all about the tall kid issues. My brother has always been super-tall for his age (He's now 6'3"). When he was two, he looked five, and he was expected to behave more like a five-year-old. That was, of course, impossible for a toddler. I'm afraid I am going to have the same problems with my own son. He's already into 6-9 month clothes, and he's not yet four months. That's the other problem: they swallow him in the width but fit perfectly length-wise. They ought to have more variations in children's clothing.
from roxyelliot :
Congrats to hubby!
from dr-evil45 :
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from tailbonelust :
In some strange way, I feel proud of you. It's nice to be satisfied with yourself. ;]
from roxyelliot :
Oh hon, please consider other options. This is *so* the worst way to go about this.
from roxyelliot :
What jerks. Ignore them. And celery and crema cheese is a perfectly valid snacking option, especially for low crabing. Next time tell them to fuck off.
from clarity25 :
No offence but Your boss is a prick, screw him. Don't let anyone make you feel that way, he has no right to put his two cents where it's not wanted and tell you what to eat. Sometimes I just despise this society we live in..
from clarity25 :
hi, Thankyou so much for your kind note.. That meant alot to me. Sometimes problems in life can be so overwhelming, I know what you mean about death and your thoughts on it, your fears and the whole situation in Iraq. It's been a preoccupation in my mind for a long time and when I start really dwelling on it, I become so depressed. Sometimes it helps for me to turn off the news for a few days...
from roxyelliot :
Thanks.
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from roxyelliot :
The realization came to me very recently, and it makes so much sense.
from roxyelliot :
Congrats to you and hubby! :)
from tailbonelust :
It's humid there too, right? Hmph. Let's move to...England, maybe?
from justreviews :
Your review is up! Thanks for being so patient!
from roxyelliot :
Can I ahve the password?
from roxyelliot :
Tuning in now!
from grngrl75 :
Thanks for your comments..I'm hoping I won't be going anywhere any time soon. Sometimes I think maybe it is better to hide behind this screen, ya know?
from justreviews :
Hey, sorry it's taking so long to get to your review. We just had an ownership change, but we haven't forgotten you and will get to your review ASAP. Thanks for your patience!
from dragonflys :
It sounds like you're in a tough situation... but follow your heart, don't let your mother rule (or ruin) your life. Moving away isn't the end of the world for her, it's a new beginning for you... your mother would have had opportunities to live her life the way she wanted, now it's your turn to do the same. Good luck whatever you choose to do :)
from roxyelliot :
What is it with mothers is Diarylander's lately? The best thing that you guys can do is get out of there and quickly. Your mother will survive, and your family needs some distance from her.
from roxyelliot :
Fingers and Toes crossed for you baby! I know how badly you guys need this.
from grngrl75 :
Good luck hon..I'll have my fingers crossed for you!(believe me, I can understand needing space away from family!!)
from roxyelliot :
You're spot on about the interracial marriage comment. Bob Herbert's column in the NYT today was devoted to this. Some of the quotes he provided from court decisions and laws about interracial marriagd were eerily similiar.
from renderdesign :
Oh dear me, I forgot to log in under her screen name, but the note below is from TarotReading, if you didn't know.
from renderdesign :
Well that's the whole reason behind the "payment" and "get a reading" pages. I can understand if I told you it would be free, but I didn't, so that's your problem for assuming. Others today have had absolutely no problem with the note. Now try to remember this: This is my MOM'S website, it's her business, so please don't cloud up her notes with comments that really aren't necessary. Thank you muchly!
from tarotreading :
Please visit my site if you would like a Tarot Reading! Thanks.
from roxyelliot :
You know up here I don't really encounter it much. Even the few republicans I know don't have a problem with Gay Marriage. I had to fight the urge to smack that woman though.
from tailbonelust :
Actually, you were the third eligible person to add a comment. ;] The girl who posted before you wasn't eligible. Once I get my email account back from those evil AOL workers, I'll email you to get the information I need.
from tailbonelust :
There were two nominations. One was for "Making Love" and the other was for "Old Age". Mhmm.
from grngrl75 :
Ack..I've been trying to leave a post in the guestbook but it keeps not showing up! Oh well...Its sad to see someone going thru what your friend is going thru. I used to think if I needed to, I would have an abortion but now at this stage and after what I've been thru, I wouldnt do it. My thoughts are with you, her and her family...
from banefulvenus :
How do you add a wishlist to your site? I'm not sure how to set one up but it looks very interesting....
from banefulvenus :
Merry Christmas girl! I was pleasantly surprised by the note you left in my guestbook. I hope all is well with you. Take Care
from tailbonelust :
You may not think so, but you do come off as a strong person. You'll do fine.
from roxyelliot :
Thanks for the reminder. At least I remembered my archives page. :)
from tsopenny :
I just read your entry about your hubby's shower. It's so true that it's the simple things that keep our relationships alive and happy. If only we all had time to appreciate more of the little things!
from roxyelliot :
Thing is, it's not about weight. It's a form of emotional abuse and weight is an easy target.
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from roxyelliot :
Oh sweetie I'm so sorry. Is hubby still looking for a job elsewhere?
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from missleigh :
Thanks for the birthday wishes :)
from tailbonelust :
Adorable! And i love the costume. ;]
from roxyelliot :
Amazingly enough he wasn't laid off.
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when I read your Friday Five, all I could do was nod uncontrollably. nice.
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from lifeofmytime :
I don't think you should stress out over being a workaholic. The money issue is such a difficult one - I know what you're going through. If you were working all those extra hours because you felt that the work needed to be done right away, or if you felt that only you could perform certain tasks instead of delegating, etc, then I think you could be considered a workaholic. At some point, you'll be able to rise above the money problems and this will all become a non-issue. In the meantime, it sounds like you're doing the best you can for the situation. Good luck!
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from tailbonelust :
You have a caring husband and a healthy son. That's worth a lot more than some people will ever have.
from roxyelliot :
I'm sorry to hear about your Grandmother.
from roxyelliot :
Good Luck. I hope this version is nicer than the one that drove Gingerbig away. Have fun with it. :)
from tailbonelust :
Happy birthday to your lovely diary! ;D
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Woohoo! Happy One Year Babe!
from amy-poetica :
I love Written on the Body. My fav quote is "dear friend, let me lie beside you watching the clouds until the earth covers us, and we are gone."
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from lifeofmytime :
I know what you mean about the 11:11/1:11 thing! It's so weird - I happen to glance at the clock at that time at least 3 or 4 times a week. It happens to me more with 11:11. I was always told that you should make a wish when it's 11:11. It is kind of creepy, though.
from roxyelliot :
JDS is a mentally retarded woman in a home in Florida. She has the mental capacity of a one year old child. JDS was raped and became pregnant. She didn't have a gurdian, and a legal war began over the fetus. Jeb Bush wanted to have a seperate gurdian to represent the fetus. A google news search should fill you in on the rest of the details.
from roxyelliot :
I'll keep my fingers crossed for you! Good luck.
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from roxyelliot :
I don't think you're selfish at all. You should have every expectation that the originial vows of your marriage should be stuck to. Both people have want to be poly for it to work.
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a very long time ago you left a comment at shire-reviews about your review that you say you couldnt find...?
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a very long time ago you left a comment at shire-reviews about your review that you say you couldnt find...?
from hobbitmuser :
hmmm, try it again, who did your review?
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I know. I do worry about hurting him though. You know, i have a new diary, if your husband didn't tell you, because i wanted to start fresh from this one. The address is http://balanochai.diaryland.com
from mrlio :
Lio is ok, I had a very bad sugar problem and she thought it would be best is she and the girls went to a shelter. Lio is a great person and is doing this so I get help with my diabetes. She is the love of my life. She and the girls will be ok until we get this mess ironed out.
from neolio :
Ok, girlfriend, I will try to fill you in on Er. It was all moving VERY fast, so I didn't understand it all, but here is the general idea: HOT Dr. Kovatch was already working at the African clinic when Dr. Carter arrived. Kovatch already has one of the nurses there as a girlfriend. I'm not sure what country it was, but everyone was speaking french, and there are piles and piles of sick people everywhere, and no supplies. People are walking up, carrying their family members in their arms, and a pretty Indian lady doctor teaches Carter how to tell if it is malaria, cholera, whooping cough, polio, or AIDS. Pretty much, they can't do anything for anyone, all they have is very weak pennicilin, so it's kind of just a place to send people to die. A man sits with his dead wife in his arms for hours because he doesn't know what else to do with her. Also, there is a war being fought outside that is getting closer and closer to the clinic. Men come in who have been shot, and Carter works hard, but can't save this one man. Blood and guts and screaming. The electricity goes out, so they are working by lantern light. Mind you, most of the action is going on in french, with no subtitles, so as to give you the complete state of confusion that Carter is in, because he doesn't speak french. Aside:Given his backround, don't you think he'd speak some french? A bomb hits, and a little girl is carried by her mother, screaming and hysterical, into the clinic. Her foot has been blown off by a bomb. They have no pain medicine to give her, but she loses conciousness, and Dr Kovatch amputates her leg with, I don't know, like, a butter knife. Very grisly, but the little girl survives. The next day they hold an immunization clinic and give shots to the children of the village. They finally feel like they can do something, rather then watch people die.Dr. Kovatch talks about how americans have no idea what war is like, we don't have our children starve, our land destroyed, our women raped. We drop bombs and go back to an aircraft carrier and never really know the suffering we've caused. An injured man is brought in and he begs to be removed because he knows that the army will come into the clinic and get him, and kill everyone. The drs. tell him that he can leave when he can walk, which means, he's staying. In the evening, someone is playing music, and everyone starts to dance and drink and relax. Sure enough, the army storms the clinic. Screaming, shooting, terror, everyone is put outside in the lawn on their knees with their hands behind their heads, with guns pointed at their foreheads. It's so horrifyingly tense and graphic. They are walking around the hospital, and you don't know who they are going to shoot, torture, rape...whatever. Everything is in french, so you have no idea what's going on. They drag the injured army man out, and after deliberation, shoot him several times. Then, they thank the drs. for doing the work they do, and left. It was horrible. I was crying. And I NEVER cry. Carter was crying. They walk through the village and their are bodies everywhere. People are carrying each other on their backs, injured children and grandparents, trying to walk out of the devastation. They have nothing. No bags. No food. Their clothes hang off of them in shreds. They step over the bodies in their path. It is time for Carter to return to Chicago. Kovatch decides to stay in africa. Carter goes back to Chicago, goes into Abby's apartment (are they living together?) and just watches her peacefully sleep in her bed. That's the end. It's so sad because right now this is happening, just as it was prtrayed. So, now I am much more grateful for my own life.
from roxyelliot :
OK I'll bite. What's up? You can E-mail me if you want. RoxyElliot@aol.com
from pastagirl2 :
Hi! Just wanted to let you know your review @ Pasta Reviews is complete - happy reading :o) Kelly. http://pastagirl2.diaryland.com/clrmehppygr.html
from nosanc321 :
Thank you for your note,I'm sorry to read about your illness and restrictions. I hope the thirty days pass quickly for you and your husband. Your living arrangements sound aggravating but try to learn from the situation. There are many difficult people we meet in life and learning to deal with them is part of the process I think. If you learn from the experience you can take something positve with you, which would defeat the intentions of the aggravating people. You win! They are then aggravated by you. Justice is sweet. Serve it up with a smile!. Best wishes.
from nosanc321 :
I always try to eat foods high in specific vitamins when I supplement. One medium tomato has 1 1/2 times the rda for vitamin C. Good luck.
from stitch-revus :
youve been reviewed http://stitch-revus.diaryland.com/clrmehppygr.html
from writeraurie :
I'm leaving a note because you listed my old diary theaurie.diaryland.com as one of your favorites. And i've moved to http://writeraurie.diaryland.com. This diary is, and i would like to stress it, ENTIRELY fictional. ~~Aurie
from laudien :
You're welcome for the review. I really enjoyed your diary, it didn't even feel like I was reviewing...just diary-surfing and landed on a really neat one. :) Take care.
from starlit-rvws :
Hi, it's Lauren from starlit-rvws. I'm just here to let you know your review is up and ready for you to read. Take care :)
from dreamyautumn :
I also meant to tell you, I'm closing Motherpeace tonight. There's just no interest from other moms and it's drawing bandwidth to host the images. I wouldn't mind if anyone was posting but it's been open a long time (almost three months), with only about 5 non-rules or content oriented entries. I hate to see it go, but at this point I don't think it's catching on. BB< ~Shann
from rurisue :
Hey, thanks for stopping by my diary, and I'm glad that the 'Child of the 80s' cheered you up a bit. I found that after reading about Effamy Cole... Felt like I needed a bit of nostalgia that'd make me smile. I'm still 19, though I'll be twenty January 8th [which really means nothing since being twenty allows you no more freedoms, plus I'm a goodie-goodie anyway]. Anyway, even though I've yet to move out and whatnot, I still understand what you're going through. Friends have turned into acquaintances, and I realize I spend far too much time thinking about what I used to have and is now gone. It's not pathetic, it's just a bit lonely... *sigh* There's not much else I can say except that I know what you're going through, and I'm sure some of the friends of your past feel the same way, even if they don't tell you that. I don't feel I have the right to give you advice, so I guess I'll just state the obvious: You're loved, and anybody who glances at one or two pages in your diary can tell that. Congratulations on being a mother and wife, and for being blessed with an extraordinary writing ability. Have a nice day, okay? You deserve it.
from thehour :
hey, just wanted to let you know that i think it happens to all of us.... i'm about to be 25 and i have a 4 year old... the only 'friends' i have now are other moms. and i don't have anyone to gripe to either except when i get together with one other mom i know but she doesn't have a phone. augh. i know it's hard, but you'll find someone who clicks with you and hopefully has a child around the same age. hope you find her soon.
from potireviews :
Are you stin interested in a review? If you are please send an email to Potireviews@yahoo.com. Thanks!
from stutterkitty :
Well it won't let me sign again in your guestbook, so I'll write it here. Nevermind about giving me effamy cole's diary address, I found it on yahoo.
from bodymindsoul :
thanks. you just signed the guestmap @ my blog. that winter design one. pssstt ... don't tell anyone that i am moving here slowly :) my other dland diary is poeticdiary@diaryland.com - just don't mention about the url in any of these 2 new journals. i need a new fresh start :)
from stutterkitty :
Hey. I've put a password on my diary, but I couldn't seem to find an address to send it to ya at...if ya still wanna read e-mail me sometime and I'll send the pw back to you.
from eustilly :
Join my diaryring, called oldfogeys! It's for 21+ who try not to sound so teen-angsty in their diaries.
from missleigh :
Hello there, about the new Tori CD... the CD/DVD set is a limited edition, so I don't know how long they will be around. You can buy the CD by itself and it doesn't come with anything but the CD. I love the new CD though, it's very nice. Thanks for stopping by!
from not-it :
happy belated b-day! i keep a diary to allow people from all over to live vicariously through me! i'm not that crazy or anything, but i have fun. i do the same when i'm reading other peoples diarys. its kinda like schizophrenia minus the meds. happy b-day again!
from not-it :
thank you for your encouraging words. they mean alot to me. this job becomes very discouraging when i see the kids i care for destroy thier lifes. thank you for your strength.

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