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Just stumbled on to your diary. So you don't want to risk saying "fuck" on Facebook?" Know why? because you are SMART. Too many can access FB and it would come back to haunt you. Yes, I think you are smart. We always want approval from our parents and while they say we don't really need it, it is really difficult to ignore their lack of approval, even if they do approve but we don't realize it. I am probably not articulating this right. I have my folks approval on many things, but on those things I don't - it really kicks my ass. It is hard to explain, but I think I understand what you are saying. Congrats on the sobriety. That is awesome. A friend of mine has been sober for five years and he is much more fun now... cheers.

from daath :

The sparkles in part of your visual hemisphere sound like a visual aphasia. That's the fancy term for a partial or full blocking of your vision. I get those sometimes because of migraines. The tingling in the fingers suggest to me it might have been a mild migraine without the usual headache component. Anyway. I am sad that you feel lonely. I still don't have any friends in Ames. Not enough time to really cultivate anything with small child. I hope you feel better.

from fifidellabon :

Hey, how you doon? XOFifi

from elgan :

I'm so sorry you are feeling like this. I play second fiddle to a huge collection of guitars, which get played a lot! But at least I don�t have to put up with emotional abuse by my husband�s friends. That is unconscionable. (((hugs))) P.S. If you want to talk, just message me on FB.

from daath :

When a marriage is held together by convenience, it may be best to take it out back and shoot it. My wife is a gigantic pain in my ass sometimes, but fundamentally I still love her and our kid.

from daath :

Likewise about a week ago. Been ages! I hope you're doing well.

from fifidellabon :

How the heck are ya?! XOFifi

from elgan :

Gah!

from daath :

Interesting...

from fifidellabon :

"Good Omens " is absolutely brilliant! Have you read all of the Terry Pratchett? XOFifi

from elgan :

You need to reread your own diary, those entries you posted just prior to your marriage, when you were so enthusiastic and in love. These things do help. And you're doing the job of twenty men (arbitrary number I just threw out) looking after your grandmother, being there for your friends, doing the good-wife thing. You deserve a break every now and then yourself. Sleep is good. Jolly is good, too, but don't be false. Am I being preachy? I don't mean to be. (((((hugs)))))

from fifidellabon :

You are NOT a shoddy grandchild. I know that your g-maw is lucky to have you and she knows it. Depression is a monster that distorts things. My grand-mere was depressed, but mood elevators worked for her...LOTS of love to you! XOFifi

from fifidellabon :

Oh, yes! More poetry, please! What a brilliant idea! I do so wish that we could read your finalist poem. I simply MUST see how that phrase "like warm mucous" can be used! XOFifi

from fifidellabon :

Awwwwww...thanks so MUCH! It means a lot! XOFifi

from fifidellabon :

Lots of XOs to you...and you know that you can always drop me a note if you need to talk...XOFifi

from myagi :

You're an amazing grand-daughter and I'm making a "Stupid Uncle" voodoo doll as we speak. And yes, tequila sounds delightful.

from daath :

And thank you for the congratulations! She's absolutely amazing. She's Feynixie on here in case you're interested.

from daath :

You are a gorgeous person. I will echo the "what the hell is wrong with these "people"?" sentiment.

from elgan :

I have to agree with much that fifidellabon already said. Have the aunts whose hearts he's turned offered to help? Have they come up with another caregiver to replace you, whom they think would do a better job? I don't know what you can say to these people other than try to ignore them and just do your job. I'm thinking of you, sweetie. (((((hugs)))))

from fifidellabon :

I am so sorry to hear of horrid people trying to make you look bad. My question is, where the hell are THEY when it comes to taking care of your grandmother? ( Not that I'd wish it on her...) They are fine to criticise, what do they give though? Also, I'm sorry to hear that you won't have a granddaughter. Life can be perfectly wonderful without bio children. You never know what is just around the corner. I am wishing you the best, and I am wishing your horrible relatives elsewhere. I suppose that therapy is not an option for them...MUCH love and admration to you! XOFIfi

from fifidellabon :

Happy New Year, dahling! I do hope that this year brings wonderful tings for you. There is a hymn that has the line "another year of grace" in it, and that always sets me in a good New Year's mood. XOFifi

from deareddie :

Isabel, part of what's kept me sane in the second month is allowing myself "cheats". The first month was HELL- absolutely none. I have smoked 2 on the way back from Rbrg at Cmas(25th), to keep awake, and altogether 2 while having beverages with friends during the month of December. I want to bite someone. Notably, those who said it would be easy for me. So I am with you.

from isabelviolet :

I quit smoking five days and 21 hours ago. I might kill someone.

from isabelviolet :

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from myagi :

"I'm male, so I think I'll defrost Marilyn Manson." Yep, that's what your generator said, making me snort Diet Pepsi through my nose. I love you and I sososososososo appreciate your thoughts towards my mommy!

from elgan :

I wish I could hug you and make everything better. If you had written this as a letter to an advice columnist, she would advise you to seek marriage counseling, and if your husband won't go, then go alone. You've got to fix this or I see only pain and frustration and then more pain down the road.

from fifidellabon :

Hallo, Dahling, and I hope that your pain heals. I googled that name. Hmmm...Oh, and sorry, and by design, I am not on FB, not under any name. I am what you might call a neo-Luddite. Sometimes I think "Oh, what's the harm?" but I just can't be bothered to do it. Probably due to laziness. But I would deffo friend you if I were! XOFifi

from fifidellabon :

Oh, that doesn't sound very happy. Is it about a separation? I mean to say, in the legal sense? Well, keep growing, keep learning, keep as wonderful as you are. XOFifi

from daath :

I fixed it!

from daath :

I suppose grinding through a few hours of code upkeep isn't bad if I can get it to work with IE again. And apparently Firefox, though I swear the thing loads just dandy on my box. Damned national socialist drivers.

from daath :

How're things on your end? Any better? I've come to find that I'd missed a lot of my friends while I was caught up in being with someone. It was a good experience, though, and as a consequence I appreciate others. Maybe now is just another turning point for you.

from elgan :

No, love, you don't have to pretend. You can let it all hang out and we (or at least I) will still love you for who you are, not what you think you need to seem to be.

from fifidellabon :

Dearest Edward, that last entry was quite cryptic. However, it make sense to me. I feel as if I see all of us sometimes, all of us in different ones of us. I wonder how you are doing. I wonder what your State looks like in the Spring of the year. I shall deffo go to visit it one fine day. I wonder how your "g-maw" is doing and I hope that your husband is in full realisation of what a treasure that you are. XOFifi

from myagi :

Ok, I will, just for you. :)

from fifidellabon :

Oh. Grrrrr! I reeeaaaally detest it when a dude predicates how he feels for a woman based on her size. IF that is all that is really going on, well, I'll hold my thoughts. And wasn't Marilyn Monroe a size 10? Or Elizabeth Taylor or someone...XOFifi Pee Ess You are thee best, and don't forget it! Fifi says so!

from elgan :

Oh sweetie, I wish there was something I could say that would make things better, or at least understandable. I'm here if you want to talk. Seriously.

from daath :

My oldest female friend has a similar issue with her husband. Granted, she married him because he was the first guy that wasn't a complete dick to her. But there is a curious distancing as things go on. For the last 18 months of my last relationship, I wondered on and off again if marrying her was the right choice. I wanted to settle, frankly; sick to death of the alternative. And so that's the crux: do you deal with the indefatigable slide toward a half-romafriendship, or try to reclaim paradise lost? I am impressioned you love/d this mofo, so. Who know. God knows I don't.

from fifidellabon :

Oh, your jokes are brill! And being a neo-goth moderate, I got that one right off. XOFifi

from elgan :

You never answered the email I sent, or it got lost in cyberspace as it navigated the circuitous route from your computer to mine. What did you finally end up doing, if anything?

from deareddie :

She's avoiding me now. His ex is leaving drunk messages on FB. I feel really, really stupid.

from myagi :

Ok, wait. Does he have valid reasons not to like her? Is she aware that he is uncomfortable around her? If so, she'll probably understand. . . however, I'm having a serious issue with the fact that someone you are uncomfortable around (his ex) was allowed to attend, but your bestie was not? Not cool. Hmmm. . . that's an awful situation.

from fifidellabon :

I shall deffo keep an eye out for that book. Thank you! XOFifi

from fifidellabon :

Oh, dear, that really is a conundrum, isn't it? I tend to be a blurter, so I'd most likely muck it up but---here is how I might handle it. First of all, I would say "Do you really want to know, because it might be hurtful." And I'd stress that I don't want this to ruin our friendship, although that is a bit dramatic, isn't it. Fair warning and all. Then I'd say that most other people don't know her as I do, and so they can misunderstand her and think that she is totally different from what you know her to be. AND that they see a different person than you do because they cant or don't see beyond the X, Y and Z," (whatever the problems seem to be) But really? This will most likely affect your friendship. It is said that the truth hurts the most, and it can. You could also say "I really don't know, but you might want to consult a professional" because there are people that can help one improve one's social skills. On another note, so good to hear form you. How I wish that you had time to post more often. Smoochies! XOFifi

from muppet23 :

Thank you! I really appreciate the compliment. =)

from elgan :

Sarah! I haven't connected with you in an age and I miss you! Your entry leaves me in sorrow, for some reason. Speak to me!

from thisisjohn :

I know how you feel. If only if only, ten years ago...

from daath :

Ahh yes, the weird Explorer problem I can't figure out. If you use Firefox you should be able to access it. I don't have an internet connection, and the guy I was stealing it from boarded his wireless router up. So my updates are at best sporadic.

from daath :

Great to see you around these parts again!

from elgan :

My mother, who just turned 90, told me that her mother still used rags, even when disposable sanitary napkins were eminently available. I can only say, over and over again, that menopause is wonderful!

from elgan :

That entry was a roller coaster ride for sure. I'm sad about the sad parts, and happy with the happy parts, but I'm mostly happy that you've resurfaced. I have missed you.

from fifidellabon :

Welcome back! I've missed you! I am happy about the good and sad about the bad, but I truly hope that you will be able to update more often because wonderful things are happening for you. XOFifi

from daath :

Aww, I've missed you so much! I love you too. How've you been?

from fifidellabon :

I can't tell you how much I'd reeeaaally like to be there with you eating cheese and chocolate, and trying out the new co-op wines...XOFifi

from fifidellabon :

Dearest Edward, I simply Cannot Tell you how delighted I am for you! Gads, I am even gushing! In text! Well, when did it happen? Is he the dude from Way Back When? I want the deets, if you are spilling! I wish you all the happiness in the world! XOFifi

from elgan :

I'm so happy for you! I'd love to see pictures. Have you posted any at Myspace? Big mwahs!

from annanotbob :

I clicked on your name from fifi's and just want to extend the hand of hope and friendship. Best wishes xxx

from fifidellabon :

Dee Eee, I do hope that all is well with you! XOFIfi

from myagi :

I loved that...you wrote just what I feel. You're amazing.

from fifidellabon :

Dearest Edward, Please do not ever consider yourself to be unworthy of love. It just is not true. There are sooo many people out there that the averge person would say "Now no one should love them!" but that is not true. Hell, if my older sister (The one that we don't mention) is still yet worthy of love, well, then, silly, of course you are! It Just Does Not matter who you are, you deserve love. Why you are grieving I just do not know. We haven't heard much of your grandmother lately, so perhaps that is the cause? And you had a really rough breakup. And many difficult things.But I don't want to pry. Oh, yes I do! I pry all the time! I want to know so much about you! That's why I wish that you'd be able to update more, but I know that feeling of Just Not Wanting To. Oh cats, I have got to run. It's just started snowing and Biba simply must get out in it. A boozy chat sounds just the thing! Later, really xoFifi

from fifidellabon :

It is so good to hear from you! Is your name really Sarah? I adore that name!!! ( I was reading your notes!) Did you perchance relocate? My, arent I full of questions? At any rate I do hope that things go well for you this year and always! xoFifi

from daath :

We love you too, noodle.

from elgan :

Dearest Sarah, I wish you a happy and healthy new year, and much love and joy. All the best, now and always, El.

from fifidellabon :

DE, Happy New Year. All the best to you! xoFifi

from fifidellabon :

DE, I can't help but wonder how you are and what you are up to. I am really hoping that things are better. Wishing you the best! /Fifi

from myagi :

I'm trying not to freak out--what the hell happened? OH my god.

from daath :

Have you spanked a gnome today? Might help.

from elgan :

Talk to me, baby! Email or leave me a message at Xanga even. Whenever I see you on MSN you have your (Busy) signal on, so I don't know if you're approachable.

from futilehorn :

Miss is the word. S'been a long time. How you've been? Write or IM if you like.

from fifidellabon :

Ah, that's "Dearest" Edward...I kant spel fir bat turdz. /Fifi

from fifidellabon :

Daest Edward, very troubling times, these are, I can't tell you the depths of what I am feeling for you. I can't imagine that you'd ever want to unload to a perfect stranger (even though she is perfect!) but I am here if you need to write. It seems to have been a fick (spelt with a "u") of a year for nearly everyone, I am glad that you are still here and hope that you will remain. xoFifi

from daath :

What's up, buttacup? You know the usual if you want some jackass to yak with about what have you.

from fifidellabon :

Please excuse the bossing, but you must get up! Force yourself to take care of yourself if you must. Go see someone to talk to if it is called for. But don't, DON'T lose yourself!!! We all love you here, and I will bet that you have tons of real-life friends and family. No one is worth losing yourself for. I am wishing you the very best of everything. /Fifi

from myagi :

Oh wow. What happened, dare I ask?

from fifidellabon :

How are you doing? Your last entry was rahther cause for dismay. I do hope he wasn't foolish enough to do what is sounds like...YOU are the tops!

from daath :

Of course you're worthy of love. You've stuck by people who made it expressly and fantastically difficult to love them--and yet you still did. A bunch of people think love is giving rather than receiving. You're like Santa's Workshop on meth that way.

from fifidellabon :

Oh, yay! Continued best of luck to you, then! xoFifi

from fifidellabon :

So...are you and Kyle back together? I got that impression from your last entry...xo/Fifi

from myagi :

Something similar happened to me. Only it was a middle-aged desperate housewife being condescending about it. Grr.

from fifidellabon :

Grand hearing from you! Champagne, eh? Have you ever tried a Black Velvet? 1 part Guinness to 4 parts Champagne, although any sparkling white should do. I AM the Drinkmeistress, am I not? Well, I do hope that you are healing well. I am horribly judgemental, but it seems as if Kyle might have been a bit possessive? Also, although my Mum says that you can romantisise (sp?) a heavy drinker ("Just like Dylan Thomas, darling...pre-TEND!") I find that it just isn't worth the worry. /Fifi

from daath :

Perhaps it is the drink that distempers his temper and generally makes things go bollocks. Sadly and sweetly, however, love is not a perenial. Although oddly my latest attempt ain't half bad.

from fifidellabon :

Hey, DE. Just checking in. Hope things are going well for you./Fifi

from fifidellabon :

Cheese is always a good thing. Also goats. Not as easily procured, though, are they,and they don't really stand all that still for patting. Well, fine lines are not always a fine thing. Just don't give up on love. Because like diets in popular culture, there is always a new one coming along, and some are even fun! All right that was a bad analogy, but I'm workng on nine hours of sleep here. Wishing you and your grandmere all sorts of good luck!

from fifidellabon :

Just checking in to see if you are all right...

from fifidellabon :

It isn't over until it's over. I can't believe that it is. Take some time to regroup and then...well...things may look clearer. I am wishing all the best to you. xo Fifi

from daath :

It does go up and down..maybe this is just a down period?

from elgan :

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. I hope she mends quickly. I'll look for you online when I get a chance to spend time there.

from fifidellabon :

Oh dear, best wishes to you and your grandmere for a speedy recovery. You are wonderful for being there for her. I miss mine...On another note, I have found out the hard way---never drink anything blue. At least not more than one in a night! /fifi

from fifidellabon :

Whilst I am procrastinating, let me reassure you, I never call anyone a Yank as derogatory. It's simply easier, four letters less and all. I thought that perhaps it was you who stopped by! I found you from Hiss, whom I absolutely adore!!! You will as well. I do admire your turns of phrase and all, so none of that haring off to myspace, wot? /Fifi

from fifidellabon :

Hello, DE! I'm the one that's just been strolling through your archives. What a fun and interesting read you've been. I've even added you to my "buddy" list. Hmm..makes me cringe, that word. At any rate, I do have one or two questions. You are a Yank, aren't you? And did your blue car eventually turn up her tires? Wishing you the best of luck, keep up the writing and all that. /Fifi

from elgan :

Whoa baby! Yee haw! We must talk, tell me more!

from hissandtell :

Hello, and thanks so much for taking the time to read me. I look forward to making my way through your archives -- if your list of favourite authors in your profile is any indication, you're going to be sensational! Love, R xxx

from daath :

I think the sanity will extend through to when I pick up a new project that's not so, um, labor-intensively vile. And I'll be sure to pay attention to my silly meter and consult you should I get far too afield.

from elgan :

Oh, and that other matter that I had me upset, that we chatted about the other day, has resolved itself and everything is good again. Thanks so much for lending an ear. You're wunderbar!

from elgan :

I think it's because we tend to take our friends for granted in somewhat the same way we end up taking our spouses for granted; i.e. we know who we're going home with at the end of the evening, so what does it matter if we are less than attentive during the evening itself? Of course, this is a fallacy, the person who has taken us out has done so to bask in the glow of our company and tends to feel cheated if we bestow it on others and leave him out in the cold. I know, I've experienced both ends of the stick.

from daath :

Hell yes. I could do with a good bottle or three of a randy Shiraz. And nibbly appetizer and dessert things. I would enjoy this bistro outing with you.

from elgan :

Thanks for your note, and your comment. You're sweet.

from daath :

Snogs to you, sweets.

from myagi :

Boo PMS! Yay you!

from daath :

Thank you. I dearly appreciate that. I'm a mess inside right now.

from elgan :

Where have you been? You have Myspace? I have Myspace! Can we do Myspace?

from myagi :

Add me on myspace. myspace.com/myagi

from elgan :

Don�t leave me! Where are you going? Please give me a forwarding address, okay?

from daath :

I miss talking to you. We should do that some time, neh?

from elgan :

Hey, congrats on getting published! My hat�s off to you!

from elgan :

Thank you for that wonderful entry. Here's giving you the strength to last the next week in your family home. Happy New Year!

from daath :

Oh, and snogsnoggitysnog

from daath :

Feel free to get a hold of me on Yahoo, love. I'll likely accost you at some random time by the phone. Yay for having something else remember people's numbers. Now if I could just have a phone that knew how to write science manuscripts.

from elgan :

Aw. I am reaching my arms across the distance and enveloping you in a warm, heartfelt hug, pressing you close to my capacious bosom and whispering in your ear, �Go have some fun. You deserve it!�

from daath :

Analogy strudel. Mm.

from elgan :

If flakey pastry is the best, why not flakey people?

from daath :

I lob at thee a drive-by smooch. Mwa, yo.

from elgan :

Happy Belated Birthday, and sorry about the other thing. Thanks for the hug, 'twas much appreciated.

from daath :

Arr.

from daath :

How I wonder, by the by, on the plunder beneath my eye; for truth is grate and smiles 2, one toward the other, me and yew.

from myagi :

True, so true. I want to meet you next time I'm in Boise!

from elgan :

Me! Look at me!

from daath :

A pleasure and a joy to hear from you as always. I snog thee.

from daath :

Ah the bizarre contraption of courtship. It's like one of those incredibly complex machines that does something like turning an egg. Our culture is so assbackwards about a relatively simple thing. But then you wouldn't get nearly as many funny stories, so I guess there's that. Hope the bad days get fewer and fewer.

from elgan :

Sorry about manwich. You were so happy! I think he deserves a lump of coal for christmas and other just desserts. You're too good for that kind of treatment. Love ya! Miss ya! * hugs *

from daath :

Unto thee I give a snog-o-gram! Snog by some factor of 10! Weehaw.

from daath :

We miss thee [snugglesnogs]

from elgan :

Aw. We miss you too. Well, I miss you too. ((( hugs )))

from daath :

[snogs and cuddles]

from daath :

[nuzzles] You're fabulous.

from elgan :

I want to give you an enormous hug and make the hurt go away, if even just for the duration of the hug and maybe a moment or two afterwards. Either that or give you a certificate for a life's supply of Godiva chocolates. Personally I would prefer the hug.

from daath :

I miss you too, my friend. Please do call sometime. I'd enjoy talking to you.

from jackthripper :

Awee..doing me proud? HOw do you mean, love? Are things going well with you? I sure hope so. It has been quite a while since we last exchanged words. That's a real shame. A funny time for everyone I think.

from elgan :

Aw, you poor dear. I wish I had longer arms so I could enfold you in them and comfort you.

from myagi :

I'm having a total breakdown...this may sound weird, but it's strangely comforting to read aspects of my damaged psyche in your diary. Your straightjacket, or mine, love?

from elgan :

You have such a wonderful way with words. Men are simple creatures. Women are unnecessarily complicated. If we weren't able to breed, I would swear that we were from different species.

from daath :

Thank you for the call and well-wishes [hugs] Very thoughtful and pleasant.

from mmmme :

oh dear ... my sweet one ... hope all is well *hugs*

from elgan :

Yay! Love!

from daath :

The sweater phenomena is something I've noticed on several occasions not only with myself, but others. And as you mentioned, sure, moderation is moderation. It still seems rather odd that you sometimes get a rather negative reaction from glancing or looking or surveying a portion of anatomy that, in the cases I'm thinking of, are rather vulgarly flaunted. But I'm meant to be confused about these things, and shall remain so.

from myagi :

Excellent. I so need to read him...I hear I'd love his writing.

from myagi :

If you became ordained, I'd totally join your church. What shall we call it?

from elgan :

There are tons of belly dancing scarf websites, it seems. Here are the few that I checked out: http://www.missbellydance.com/; http://www.thebellydanceshop.com/; http://www.pyramidimports.com/bellydancing/bellydancing.htm; http://www.egyptiandreams.co.uk/index.php?cPath=50_51. Enjoy!

from lady-dra :

well then, look at the brighter brightside, at least you didn't have to..........ummm I'll call you when I figure it out :P

from lady-dra :

so yes :P

from lady-dra :

hey look at the brightside, at least you didn't spend money on getting drunk and pay for college :)

from elgan :

Goddam. I'm sorry about Brownie. What a pisser. About the $20 ordination certificate, I know two people who have one. One is serious as all hell, and the other uses his to bless his barbecue. It takes all kinds.

from jackthripper :

i do understand..

from daath :

That said, rather than leaving a note here: where can I reach you via IM?

from jackthripper :

What makes you think you've fallen out of my heart, my dear? Your soul is what is loved always.

from elgan :

If I�m the E you refer to, my email is in my diary, or: [email protected]

from daath :

It's good to hear that your personal life is getting better :) Most excellent indeed. You know my legacy with my mistress of academia. That'll change a little this summer, though. I may be able to make it out to Illinois. I'll give it a think or two when finals are done (i.e. early next week).

from parallel- :

Hello, i am millie, one of the council members from Parallel-, its a writting group. where you can write any of your thoughts and lyrics and poems. its a public diary..all you ahve to do to write an entry is be loged in to diaryland, and join our group(its free) Please join! we've just started and we'd love if you joined us!- millie

from daath :

Hell and I have become oft acquainted as of late, but hey: what's new, pussycat (whoa whoa whoa whoa)? Besides tracking Tom Jones onto your perfectly clean mind, I very much appreciate your thoughtful words. I've missed talking to you too. Until then, though, may the palor of life be more rouge than rancor.

from daath :

"I'm a faerie! I'm a threshing machine! I'm gold-trimmed! Converse with the cow, converse with the cow!" I loves that randomness generator. Hope you're doing alright, sweetie :)

from myagi :

It's that time again! Sing loudly and with a German accent, as if you were auditioning for the role of Hansel as a child in Hedwig! Here we go! O Canada! Our home and native land! True patriot love in all thy sons command. With glowing hearts we see thee rise, The True North strong and free! From far and wide, O Canada, we stand on guard for thee. God keep our land glorious and free! O Canada, we stand on guard for thee. O Canada, we stand on guard for thee.

from elgan :

Awwwww. I love you!

from mmmme :

and deareddie, i too was all perfumed and costumed-up last night, surrounded by love and loveliness - the only thing missing was you (((hugs)))

from daath :

Tarted up. Yum.

from daath :

You are good at the smile induction thing, hee. I miss you too, sweetie. You still get on MSN?

from mmmme :

okay - here's a hug (((hug))) ms eddie you are still the bomb - don't go changin'

from daath :

I'm with you on the bubble feeling. Seems like everyone is just far away somewhere, even if I'm talking to someone in front of me.

from lady-dra :

maybe it is but for me I just can't seem to reach far enough.

from daath :

I miss talking to you.

from lady-dra :

wow there are musicians that actually influenced our time? beside eliott smith, although someone should have seen that coming.

from jackthripper :

Dear, you say "Don't drink and diaryland" but I think I do my best at confession when my tongue is thick with rich red wine or my good buddy Mr. Daniels. I'm afraid the mantra would be devistated by my tastes:)

from lady-dra :

happy holidays although I'm a bit late on that greeting. well anyhow let me wish you happy easter maybe I'll miss that one too, :) just doing it so I don't forget later. oh and st pattys day and whatever holiday that people have created to waste time, :) luv later.

from mmmme :

um, I'm feeling cracked, rubbery and dubious .... or is it healthy, wealthy and wise?????????? meh - ms. eddie sweets - you're the bombbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb!!!!!!!!!!!!!

from mmmme :

Miss you too sweets. And you are the sunshine of my life. Blinding me with your brightness. Where are my damn sunglasses. (((hugs)))

from overlyemo :

Come see me. Now.

from daath :

A perfect pringle chip for my mind, your note was. Hope you're splendid and well as well, love.

from mmmme :

sweetie - and the word "sweetie" was invented just for you .......... you're the bombbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb

from elgan :

Best of luck on your calc exam. I have yet to do the card thing. The thought of all that postage is daunting.

from myagi :

There is no such thing as a slut, and I have kicked students out of my class who think otherwise. ;)

from daath :

:D Accepted and snoggily returned.

from daath :

Thank you, dear one! I cherish your compliment. I miss talking to you and others. Frankly I miss doing something else besides, eating, sleeping, walking and doing statistics. But the semester is almost over. And then I get a break. Woooooooooooooooooooooooooot. Hope you're well :)

from elgan :

According to Webster, slut is: 1. A lazy, careless, or slovenly woman: slattern, 2.a) a lewd or dissolute woman; esp: prostitute; b) a saucy or brazen girl: hussy, minx; c) a servant girl: maid; 3. a female dog: bitch; 4. (dial.) a rude lump of candle; esp: one made from a grease-soaked rag. I would rank as definition number one, judging from my abilities as a housekeeper.

from jackthripper :

I know well all there is about irony. I get it all the time calling myself JackthRipper yet having a gentle personality towards others. It doesn't make sense, does it? I understand what you mean and I know what you're feeing right now. Or at least, I can empathize quite a bit. If you ever need to talk, dear. Just e-mail me. I'm more than willing to listen and help you any way I can. My heart goes out to you, love. Just hang in there.

from elgan :

Hey, if you want birthday greetings, you gotta tell someone! Happy Birthday, honey pie. Hope it was a blast.

from jackthripper :

Email me if you want the password to my diary [email protected]

from daath :

Fascist, faith-based nonsense. Since when did Jesus get to decide the fate of America? I swear: too much religion on the mind. Our forefathers would think we're fools.

from myagi :

Well, you use the Hamburger Helper, replacing the meat with Vegetable Protein and/or tofu, and then you add buttloads of Japanese spices, none of which I can pronounce...Oh heavens it was good. (My friend Colter that made it--very Japan-obsessed).

from stayinschool :

dear eddie, that's because I am fabulous.

from elgan :

The word you seek is anaesthetize. Babies at that age are simply too small to put under anaesthetic. The pain is shortlived, the memory not retained, and a drop of wine is usually administered afterwards and the crying ceases. At least, that is what I have heard. I've never been to an actual bris myself. Glad you're feeling good about life!

from daath :

There's a caramel apple cider with your name on it ;)

from jackthripper :

Im dumbfounded. I had no iea I'd get a response like that..*hugs you tight* Im so happy I could kiss you! :D

from daath :

Ye gods..I feel so dimunitive next to photographs like that! I think the Kalamazoo Gazette one was the one you meant (with the girl on the steps of the museum or building). That one is awe-spiring in how quiet and powerful it is.

from mmmme :

awww dear e you added me - you are a dear

from daath :

He seems to be interested in you and you two have fun together. I'd say it's just emotional paranoia.

from elgan :

Sock sliding sounds okay to me. Have fun, sweetie!

from siddel :

The English guy sounds sketchy. DAGNY I keep thinking it looks like Dangy or worse, Stagnant. Are you still gonna be in this neck of the woods this winter?

from siddel :

Awww. :) I'm reading Atlas Shrugged. I'm appalled by the sex and want to take a train somewhere, now. (hugs hugs hugs)

from daath :

Hee :) [snog]

from elgan :

Long time no hear from, but that was a great entry! I'm really sorry about the loss of your little orange suitcase and your fabulous shoes. That is so sad! May the perps get blisters and ingrown toenails from wearing them! I too would be upset about the lack of sushi. For shame!

from overlyemo :

Aww! Thanks, Edd. I sort of look hellish in those. Dancing and whatnot leaves one's face a putrid shade of red. [smiles and hugs]

from daath :

Hehehe :) Hey there! I've been ultra-busy with graduate school and stuff, so I've been pretty scarce. Love the Dave Barry quote; inspirational. Hope you're well!

from overlyemo :

No, not really. Pissed, hurt, annoyed. But thanks.

from siddel :

hugs

from myagi :

How do you know Bagelbite? Truly, I must know...

from lady-dra :

strange isn't it?

from j3ff00 :

No, Eddie, nothing is right right now. :( I've reformatted my computer twice, and chat still doesn't work. Remind me to hate this. Super frown :C

from j3ff00 :

Thats really, really disturbing. :(

from elgan :

Definitely awwwww, that is just so sweet! And they called it puppy love....

from elgan :

Sigh, to lust after a 19-year-old again.... It's dangerous for me, working as I do around undergraduates all the time. Sometimes I find myself lusting after my own students, a definite no no. I will live my life vicariously through you, then, if you don't mind.

from the-thinline :

thank you very much dear. take care <love><me>

from j3ff00 :

Rain down tears of regret, you haven't seen the worst of it yet! Your name, a foul epithet, never forgive; never forget!

from myagi :

Someday we shall eat brulee, listen to Ani, and end up drunk and screaming about the inadequacies of men together. Ah yes...it will be glorious.

from overlyemo :

Hehe, little blue eyes. Cool. Thanks for appreciating me. :) You're true blue, edd.

from lady-dra :

ohhh the young ones ripe for the picking :D

from myagi :

Ooh...details, please.

from lady-dra :

don't be to worried about me :D I always end up fine

from bebeskid :

i think deareddie is chatterrific!

from lady-dra :

"I'M FREE!" actually I have the opposite feeling of you, I'm glad that you healed though :D later babe

from lady-dra :

wait I have only two i have a fifty fifty chance, "Could I call someone?" "I'd like to call eddie, she works at ummm...not sure, but she's good with answers." :D anyhow thanks for the comment it was nice although I still have no clue what you're talking about.

from lady-dra :

which entry on the 14th I have many, give me a title..

from overlyemo :

You mentioned me. YAY! Hope you're well.

from jackthripper :

I applaud you dear. *stands and applauds*

from lady-dra :

remember there is no matrix without you! *snicker* thehehehe :D

from daath :

I'll likely be around in the late evening tonight (9-10pm). Not on for long, but I'll check back a few times in-between packing up the car :) If I don't catch you, though, my deepest thanks for your love and well-wishes [hugs you back]

from daath :

Why thank you, good lady; I kindly and deeply appreciate your sentiment and compliments. I'll tuck them into my shirt pocket this very moment. I'm doing well and I think I've got the whole 'changing life around' deal pegged; as an abstract concept, anyway. I might be on later tonight. Take care my friend.

from lady-dra :

actually these people Know you THEY ARE THE ONES!!! THE MATRIX HAS YOU!

from lady-dra :

a poem to you : dear eddie why do I think of you at nights? why is it that you are so right? I always see you read with delight, dear eddie you must be o so very bright, dear eddie YOU are something alright. :D

from jackthripper :

it is wonderful to read that you had such a good day:)

from myagi :

My Sophomores gave me a hula girl at the end of summer school this year. Alas, my dash is sloped, so it sits on my desk, to be wiggled by students...I too am having computer difficulties. sigh.

from elgan :

Thanks for adding me. I am flattered and touched.

from jackthripper :

how shall i make you jealous, dearest? Name it and it shall be done.

from lady-dra :

kiss me you wonderfull intellectual :D kidding. I'm having fun reading your journal keep with it.

from jackthripper :

Thank you for the birthday greeting, dearest. That was very kind of you. Yes, I don't tell anyone about my birthday because I haven't ever really celebrated it. It's really just another day to me. But I thank you nonetheless.

from daath :

Haha! Yes, that'd be excellent! I could torture you all with my LA local knowledge knowledge! From Gardena to San Capistrano to Santa Monica, my ass has been there, photographed it, and casually joked with the police and security personnel! I'm known in 4 counties. Hee.

from myagi :

JUST SAY NO TO MEAT!!! You're getting chat friends, yet I never manage to run into you in chat...sigh. Someday...unless Karma turns you into a cow first!

from siddel :

C'mon. I'm sleepy and want a sandwich.

from myagi :

Having given birth to my first child at 18, and recently miscarried, please know that I pray for you and wish I could hug you.

from siddel :

Your uh, "song-writing" has reached new heights. (hugs) Cat says hi.

from myagi :

Good for you. Hope it went well!

from siddel :

Happy Friday!

from siddel :

Can I get an award for "leaving the most notes for deareddie"?

from siddel :

Hee. :)

from siddel :

Quite a kisser, too. Apparently.

from siddel :

Aww. A very happy Monday to you, too!

from jackthripper :

You help so much already dear. All of you. I have been so amazed at the outpour of prayers and well wishes from so many. I never expected so much. It was such a pleasant surprise. It helps to know others care so much. I owe a great to you and the others. Thank you so much. Truly, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

from daath :

'course ya may, love, 'course. It's Direhaggis.

from siddel :

Ooh, apparently I'm a "cutter". Took the quiz, you see.

from myagi :

I see you found Daath! Congratulations, I count him as a dear friend...insanely smart and sensitive. Thank you for the flowers...I especially liked the orchids, those devious "long purples."

from siddel :

Hopefully so...ninjas are hot!

from daath :

That can indeed be a puddle of suck, the derision one side feels for the other and those private little war games between them. I know that problem very well. I wish you well in exhuming demons, and opening up 6 packs of whoopass, and whatever else to feel more balanced.

from siddel :

Bah, sorry, I was sleeping. Not feeling too good today. kissy kissy

from siddel :

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I had a good day. -hugs- Shazam!

from daath :

Snogs right back atcha there, love. Hope all is well.

from dunstanfoxe :

You know, for someone who misses me, you call me "nitwit" a lot. Also, the phone works both ways. If I hear it, I'll pick up. You let me worry about the time.

from siddel :

Ohh, my diary's back.

from siddel :

Maddening? Hmm? I'm up to about page, erm, 130? -hugs-

from dunstanfoxe :

So, let me get this straight. I call you drunk out of my mind on red wine, babble on for over an hour to you and your pal, and THAT is a "decent conversation?" Wow, who or what are you talking to? Ventriloquist dummies? Packing foam? Shiny buttons? Your high opinion of me is unfounded, or perhaps you just find me amusing.

from dunstanfoxe :

"Proposition?" Thanks so much for that one. Go on, make fun. And in a public forum? All the better. Maybe I'll give you the benefit of the doubt and buy you a thesaurus.

from jackthripper :

I just wanted to tell you it was lovely to chat with you today. Take care and be well, my lovely.:)

from dunstanfoxe :

Wow. Great daydream. Of course, being the self-absorbed jackass that I am, I especially liked that you paired me up with someone. You...didn't happen to get a name for this wonderful woman, did you? Didn't think so. Oh, and check your e-mail. I've sent you something.

from myagi :

Eddie must have either written the play or is producing it...I have been trying for ten years to put thaT Boy on stage. Your vision made me smile...but now I crave this lemon grass brulee...does such a delicacy exist? Oh heaven!

from myagi :

I'm so glad! You sound so much happier! Your Beatles lyric I chose because you have so much you are dealing with, and trying to deal with alone, and yet I have total confidence you will end up on top. Does that sound presumptuous? I don't know you well, so if I'm wrong, please admonish me!

from myagi :

Honey, I teach Theatre. I LOVE drama queens, being one myself. You haven't forced yourself on me...I'm just a naturally suspicious person! I'm so sorry for your loss--please accept my mental hug to you.

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