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from stillill :
3 words learned, and probably 3 words I'll never use. Hope you get better and hang in there.
from ceildah :
I loved it. Wes did a good job.
from ceildah :
Mwah. Thank you for that entry. Feels nice not beingthr only one going through the entrails of her life and examining what went- differently to how I'd hoped in some respects- but crucially not all.
from myra-lee :
I know what you mean. My conscience can be very bitchy, and it's exhausting. I find myself looking for a way out.
from ceildah :
thesis! good on you. Little and often, as they say! (And also lots and less often if you can manage it) x
from vodkatonic :
I love Alan Cumming!
from kayemess :
I'm online so instant-advice! But first, I'm really sorry to hear about your Grandmother, that's very sad. I would definitely go, definitely. I was stressed about traveling with her when she was so little, but actually, I look back on those days fondly for airplane travel. I wore her in a sling, which helped a lot in the airport and security line and all that, and people were SO nice when they saw the little baby. Even when she cried, they understood. It was much easier to travel with her then - now (14 months) she is more than a lapful, a wiggle monster, does not like to sit, and people don't have the same tolerance for a willful toddler. Now is a perfect time to fly - however, I say that not having breastfed on a plane and that does sound stressful, if you're next to some business guy in the middle seat etc. Security is MUCH cooler about liquids for kids these days so maybe pumping first would be good...also, our airport had a special security lane for families which made that whole trauma less traumatic. We survived almost 24 hours of travel, three take-offs and landings in one day, and we made it out alive. Imagine how happy your family will be to see the new baby at a sad time. I'm not saying it will be a piece of cake but trust me, if it could be that easy again...I didn't know how good I had it... good luck, and again I'm really sorry.
from allmadhere :
Let me know if you want someone to come over and hold that kid for an hour or two. *hugs*
from kayemess :
dearedwin, it will happen! but now I look longingly back on the time she was small and mobile and not so willful - even though this time is fun too. I hope your little family is doing well...
from kayemess :
ah, failure to thrive. For me, it involved weekly trips to see the Dr. and the lactation consultant who were both really nice but ultimately, their worries led me to "supplement" her with formula which was good in some ways, because it stopped the crazy screaming and obviously she was hungry, but bad in others because while for a good while she did both (and it stopped the 2-hour nursing sessions that never really seemed to satisfy her) eventually she stopped nursing all together. The pump did not work for me, I always had scanty scanty milk, fenugreek helped a little but overall it was a pretty lame experience - like failing my first motherhood test. Of course she is just fine, 9 month check-up Dr. pronounced her "terrific" and "thriving" so whatever gets them there - do it. No guilt!
from theshivers :
Can't believe I am just now catching up on the birth saga! Glad to hear she arrived safe and sound...can't wait to see pictures! xoxo ~r
from kayemess :
oh my lord lady, the first 6 months are like some kind of crazy dream of hardness, at least it was for me. Then it gets really, really awesome. Hang in there. It tests your mettle but I'm sure you have mettle to spare.
from ghost-song :
Congratulations! :-)
from allmadhere :
I'm sorry to hear there have been all these bumps in the road, but I'm glad you have all that family around to support you. Encourage little A. to take after me in the weight-gaining department. Wish I could offer more concrete advice, but, well, you know. I am always here cheering you on.
from kayemess :
wait - you had the baby??? congratulations!
from ceildah :
yaaaaaaaaay!!!!! cant wait to hear more
from theshivers :
i know you're otherwise occupied but i locked my Twitter for political reasons..i'll unlock after the election but, in the meantime, try to update more here...or you could just create a twitter account because i'm sure you have tons of free time right now ...congrats sweetie!
from ceildah :
it was truly so good! how's things? how is the bump? :)
from allmadhere :
I think the baby's getting to you, not the yoga. :)
from theshivers :
thank you for your sweet and, as usual, wise advice. Leave it to me to look a gift promotion in the mouth, right? Or something like that. OK, hereby trying to enjoy the rest of my holiday weekend -hope yours is fabulous
from theshivers :
Never apologize, re: Rory...
from stillill :
Funny, Reprise has been playing at my theatre but it ends tomorrow. I haven't seen it yet but people seem to love it. I guess I'll sneak into my theatre and watch it in the off hours tonight.
from myra-lee :
Yes, the model! She's lovely to look at (despite the hats), but she's so obnoxious and self-congratulatory in this show. Do you guys get Planet Green? It's the channel formerly known as Discovery Home. You have to watch this show. It's absurd. By the way, I've been longing to see 'Reprise' at your recommendation. It's playing at one theater up here and I'm worried it's going to go away!
from theshivers :
just sending you good thoughts - hope you get those TLC days....and yes the first George Michae1 album rules!
from stillill :
You know what, that is a pretty good name for a band or book. I guess you can copywrite it if you want. Don't worry about the weight, I finally lost about 10lbs after indulging in the slacker lifestyle. Yeah it's not baby weight but it's something.
from allmadhere :
I think anyone doing freelance work has those same worries. I think it comes with the territory. And I think, next time Aaron stresses out, I'm going to tell him "Why don't you watch your George Michael video?" but only I will realize why it's funny. That first George Michael album ruled.
from ghost-song :
No idea why it blew up - neither of us are very good on technical stuff unfortunately. I love Rupert too, and i believe i've got a better chance with him than you have, so there! ;-)
from allmadhere :
A mini-M! Yay!
from theshivers :
oh good lord, I am so sorry to hear that! I know you'll get through this and figure it out, but still, frankly, it sucks.
from kayemess :
Congratulations on almost being 3rd trimester - tho it is shocking and lame to be laid off, not terrible timing with the babe on the way. I can promise promise promise you, thought it's been said a million times, it's awesome and every day just gets better and better.
from ghost-song :
I hate the internet!
from allmadhere :
'nuff said. ;)
from stillill :
I thought it was the 18th yesterday!
from allmadhere :
1st time out? This one's my FOURTH. Always a bridesmaid... ;)
from ghost-song :
Dog town sounds great though :-)
from theshivers :
seriously, i think you're gonna be the hippest, most loving mama, ever...
from allmadhere :
I was hanging out reading theshivers and something just told me to click your diary link on her page--and there you were! WTF? I'm dland mind-melding with you apparently. I'm glad you're back. :)
from theshivers :
Now you just need a smoking jacket and the Crane-ification will be complete : )
from ghost-song :
Congrats :-)
from theshivers :
a be11y book?!? oh good lord...
from theshivers :
i'll tell you what's 'oh sweet jesus' - you've posted! hooray...and who *doesn't* love and covet a little Martha St8wart?
from myra-lee :
So glad you're back in the land! It sounds like we have the same gardeners. Ours kill everything. I'm pretty sure they could kill a cactus.
from ghost-song :
I'm glad you're back - this place is like a ghost town these days! :-)
from theshivers :
you always make me feel just a little bit better about everything (teaching, anti-social tendencies, friendships)...so, thank you.
from but-whatever :
it's ok with me if you're the only one leaving me messages. In fact, I think i like it better that way. Anyway, maybe I'll give that book a go.
from discodave :
M, my dear, if you feel better on dland, then come back, by all means. After all, a bit of me still doesn't want to leave here either. Dxx
from ceildah :
uh...exsquease me? are u like, too cool for us these days hmmm? or is it just a std case of diaryland apathy or life to busy-itis. Either is understandable. Hope you are happy and well anyways... x
from discodave :
If anything, you're more emotionally attached to the place than me, so I feel bad for knowing what's happening more than you...it's really horrible right now... Hmm - 10 Things I Hate About You or Ferris Bueller? Dxx
from in-my-life :
I finally watched Dig! and absolutely loved it. Not so much sex, but lots of drugs and rock & roll. Yee ha!! I especially liked the commentary provided by members of BJM. Even though I had previously been a bigger fan of the Dandies I found myself really annoyed by their commentary track. So much so that I couldn't listen to all of it and have since taken them out of rotation. But, I'm still having a Brian Jonestown Massacre listening party on my iPod and waxing nostalgic about the time I saw them at the Purple Onion. Good times.
from all-on-paper :
Phew, I'm not the only one who's a fan girl for Austin. :P
from ceildah :
ooh you're online! cool. One too many mojitos I think...went and left a note FOR myself...durr. It was pure luck. they are your archytypal hot gay dancer couple. v nice. hoping for some free tix to the Billy show but my have to just pay up, sounds good.
from ceildah :
my landlord is/was the choreographer for Billy Elliot. hows that for some A1 name dropping...huh?
from in-my-life :
There were lots of pictures of him on the faces page, but this is easier to link to. He's Dr. Scott: http://www.satisfactionclub.com/section/space.aspx
from all-on-paper :
I'm hoping its all just minor worries somehow surfacing out-of-the-blue. Anyway, thanks for adding me. :)
from stillill :
Oh my god, I was waiting for that specific entry to finally be written. Congrats on the engagement, and stay happy.
from in-my-life :
How bittersweet. Probably a good idea to leave it alone, but I can see why you would be tempted to reach out. Last night before I drifted off to sleep I was obsessing in my OCD-like way about contacting a friend from the past who's LJ I found. Then again, I can't remember how badly we left things.
from theshivers :
I know, I know...in 2 days I'll probably be high as a kite and happier than a clam...just riding the old emotional rollercoaster as usual...btw, I've been wanting to e-mail you to see how you are...but I didn't necessarily want to bug you with pesky questions such as 'how the hell are you and why aren't you writing...?'...just know that I'm thinking of you and i hope all is well.
from shadowdress :
there are worse places you could get a pickle stuck. but no, seriously, that was really funny.
from stillill :
That's cool that the link is useful. I had a feeling you might of had some live songs already but if it helps, I'm very happy! Happy new year!
from discodave :
I still haven't read all of it, but the introduction's gig was the first time I ever saw them and my name is somewhere in the dedications at the front. I only made one fanclub show - apparently Kenickie were dancing up the front ;) Dxx
from miralogue :
your story about giving away the beatles cd made my heart bigger. and probably that guy's heart too.
from girlypop :
Thank you, sweet you.
from worldwar24 :
Well... think about what was in it. I don't know what I'm doing right now M, really I don't.
from discodave :
I meant to say thank you for the ridiculously nice comment on your profile. Thanks. (And I sound like Pepsi!) Dxx
from vodkatonic :
i quite like foucault. what are you reading?
from almostgoldsf :
Another SMG internal error message. Grrr. Anyhow, another easy way to get active is to use working assets as your telephone provider -- they give you updates on issues every month, and you can use their letter writing service (for a fee) to send a letter to your local representatives.
from miralogue :
i want to change things. badly. and i'm heartbroken. and i agree with you. but don't lump middle states together. i'm in minnesota, and there are a LOT of disappointed people around here.
from almostgoldsf :
Last night, I was trying to think of ways to stay involved and try to keep working for change if we ended up with another 4 years of the same. My urge to flee the country is there, but if I do, and you do, and all my friends who care do, then this country becomes a huge WalMart lovin' Republican playpen. Although I'd love to work on getting California to secede from the Union, I don't think that would happen. So, what I came up with was this: Ask likeminded friends to print out that electoral college map. Memorize which states are red (or at least just FL and OH where there were pre-election dirty tricks aplenty)...and avoid them at all costs. Don't voluntarily go there on vacation. Don't book a work-related conference or event there. Economics is the one tool all people understand.
from discodave :
I wouldn't ponder too much, no. Just enjoy yourself (and remember that 2005 may see an album by the Tears - something to look forward to there, no?) Dxx
from dominguez :
i'm not going to be reading diaryland anymore so you best make sure to double post your entries into lj or something.
from pattyb :
thanks for that little note a while ago. i didn't reply sooner because with notes from people i don't know it almost feels like i should reply with a "thank you for your note [insert name here], it was carefully considered and it may make next weeks publication" or something along those lines. anyway, i read it's your birthday coming up, but it had better not be today (oct 25), because that's mine and it would be creepy.
from dominguez :
happy birthday in advance old timer.
from almostgoldsf :
hehe. i *thought* you'd appreciate that wording... ;)
from shadowdress :
oh i'll spread the romance baby. it's called the San Remo. i think you would really like it.
from theshivers :
eh, those people "who seem on the level of the professor" ...don't worry about them...they work really hard on cultivating that particular image. Not to say that they aren't nice, decent, very smart people...but really...they go out of their way to be a part of the ivy tower crowd...
from discodave :
Heh - I wasn't nagging, or forgetting you were travelling, I just kinda like the vicarious thrills from hearing about other people's journeys. Dxx
from almostgoldsf :
Any good shopping or museum-going in London this go-round?
from but-whatever :
oh, probably not...nothing majorly life-changing for me at least, it's only that (other) people are having babies, moving and moving on...i always think I want change but then it also makes me sad...
from discodave :
I covet them too. Mainly because I'm always working ;) Dxx
from worldwar24 :
Knowing me? Probably, and soon. For now, it's nice to have a place to play and rage and scream a little louder than usual. But you'll be the first to know <3
from vodkatonic :
Sorry but i've had to lock my diary. The username is matthew and the password is trustnoone.
from mariamania :
OMG! You guys are so funny -- I'm so glad that you two work together. We have a guy like that at the office too. I always say that he was born with a pencil up his but.
from discodave :
Heh - I'm sure you will at some point in the future. Bruce was cool, too. Dxx
from discodave :
Glad you clarified that - I must admit, although I thought not, a little bit of me wondered "is she...?" ;) Dxx
from stillill :
that last paragraph on the 7-19 entry is almost exactly me. I'm probably missing out on the world
from lastyeargirl :
That post-exams glow is the best feeling in the world... here's to a lovely and lazy summer (did somebody say "dissertation"?!)
from discodave :
Don't get sad - get pissed off. That way, at least, something might get done. After all, Bush doesn't want to piss off you Americans - you all buy the gas he sells (metaphorically and literally). Dxx
from discodave :
Me too, even though I don't think he's quite as much of an auteur as his IMDB bio would have you believe... http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0004965/bio I'll always think of him as the insane roommate from Friends, sadly. Dxx
from discodave :
OK, I meant Sharon Stone, not the more Lovecraftian "Shgaron, ice blond overlord of the seventh level of hell"... Dxx
from discodave :
Apparently, Shgaron Stone was meant to be kicking round Coachella with musical pretensions - any sign of her? Dxx
from discodave :
My username is Suedejesus - didn't think you'd forget THAT! Does this mean you have one too? Dxx
from discodave :
No VH1 for me, unfortunately- I'm just a poor boy, after all. Still, she was 30 or so when Blondie were at their biggest (hope for us all there), so she doesn't look that bad considering. Have fun at Mr Bowie tonight. Dxx
from in-my-life :
I'm very excited for you! What a big step -- I admire that you're so open to change. And I loooooooove the red/orange combo.
from discodave :
Glad to hear it - you're more likely to make it back across here than I am to over there, after all. Dxx
from discodave :
Quick note so as not to distract you from your reading - congratulations on the apartment and becoming all grown-up like. I guess I should think about doing that soon ;) Dxx
from discodave :
It was kind of random. I son't know? Maybe they're signed to the same label in the UK as each other? Still, at least they made an impact - I doubt people are going to forget them, which has to be a good thing, right? Dxx
from discodave :
I guess they just didn't fit in with our expectations, is all. They really were not feeling the love at the gig, mind you - I've never heard boos quite that loud before. I'm sure they lovely guys, though. Dxx
from theshivers :
ok, so stupid question - just how would you split the tip? $20 to the stylist, $10 to the blowdryer/shampooer? I have no clue on this. I feel etiquette impaired....help!!!!
from theshivers :
ok, so how does one tip on a $135 haircut??? I tipped $30 and figured they could figure out how to split it. Was that too much?
from discodave :
Yeah, I did try to explain it to Ellie, but she just looked at me as if I was mad. If you get the chance, watch the all male version of Swan Lake - very good stuff, though I didn't find the bums quite as attractive. Dxx
from girlypop :
Hey! Thanks for writing. I'll have to catch up with everyone but I'm so glad to be back and to be reading about your adventures again :)
from discodave :
That one passed us by, I think. We had Stig of the Dump instead - which was good, but unfortunate for the Swedish boy (with the same name) who'd only just started at our school. Dxx
from discodave :
Heh - the good thing is, even if I couldn't speak English, I'd know which paper I should be reading by the pictures. The one that has Iraq on the cover and not Beckham. Or the Royal family... Dxx
from unhappyboy :
my response to the email? it was this 'are you insane???'
from shadowdress :
oops. i just edited that to sound a little less suicidal hoping no one had gotten to it yet. then i got your note. sorry for the drama. thank you for caring.
from shadowdress :
wow. i didn't even realize it had been that long. i haven't even been reading other people's diaries. secretly, i'm feeling a little sad about the whole idea of trying to connect with people and a little bored with hearing myself talk (not just in my diary). self-pity--that's boring, too, huh? well, as Eyeore would say, thanks for noticing :)
from ceildah :
Im unlocked. I liked your advice! Its probably just some saddo IT guy...ick.
from unhappyboy :
<a href="http://members.diaryland.com/edit/showsurvey.phtml?name=unhappyboy-survey01">my Survey</a>
from outbox :
hello. just wanted to drop by and say thanks for the note in my guestbook. i think we'd need alot of sandwiches. last time i drove by the line was around the block. yay!
from allmadhere :
You really want a love affair to end up like it did in Cold Mountain? ;) I think the nicest part of imagining having an affair like theirs is that Jude Law is involved.
from allmadhere :
You'll be fine. If you stress about food, take her for fast food. Every kid has an opinion about fast food. She'll let you know what she wants to eat. And kids do need to go in the back seat cause of evil air bags. There's a kids museum somewhere in Lakewood or something. Ask V.--she knows where it is.
from discodave :
If that picture is a fake, I'm going to be laughing - the guy who rediscovered it is taking the piss (I think I mentioned him last year, as he kept "rediscovering" things a little too frequently). And I'll keep an eye out for Babbit, thanks. Dxx
from discodave :
Deal - just get over here and I'll be your guide. Aside from Wales and the Islands, I've been pretty much all over. Dxx
from in-my-life :
Here's one idea: http://www.futurememories.com/futurememories/mbe-20028.html And then this is the sort of cheesy v-day stuff that I think people only buy when they absolutely can't come up with anything else: http://www.futurememories.com/futurememories/lovekits.html
from discodave :
Well, I did manage to go to 14 of them in the space of two weeks remember - I didn't really spend all that much time in any of them. Hey, you've been to Britain a hell of a lot - that's more impressive than Wisconsin, trust me ;) Dxx
from discodave :
Not terrible at all - Richard Oakes, whilst good, was never a patch on that moody bugger Bernard. Dxx
from theshivers :
ok, i'm really glad that i'm not the only one who initially thought it was Faith the country singer and not Faith the rapper/R&B diva...
from in-my-life :
I think it's great that your so clear on the whole being friends with the ex issue. Most people are wishy-washy or even sneaky and that's when people's feelings really get hurt. (Or at least that was my experience). So, no you don't get a "C-" in that department. You just need more men in your life with the right amount of confidence and trust. Just make sure it's a two-way street and you'll be in good shape.
from in-my-life :
I liked that quiz. First I was a Celebrity, and that didn't sit well, so I went back and took it again. Then I turned out to be a hippy! Eeeeek! Why can't I have been an intellectual?
from in-my-life :
Oh, those are the worst sort of nightmares! I think for good measure I'll go call my mom too.
from discodave :
I can't claim responsibility for that name - it was thrust upon me. Three cheers for Myspace and you, however! Dxx
from discodave :
I'll still sned you a postcard, though, never fear. Hope you have a good time, hon. Dxx
from discodave :
Hope you got into the cold, wet and grey of the UK alright and are suitably excited for the gig. Dxx
from theshivers :
your mom rules!
from discodave :
Thought you might be interested: http://www.suede.net/xfmsession/ £3.00 for 3 tracks. Dxx
from discodave :
I deny that completely. I had a blouse... Dxx
from almostgoldsf :
Like the other 2, I tried to leave happy birthday wishes in the guestbook, but it was not cooperating.... BTW, my closest H&M is in NYC, so I am very jealous. Can I come with you next time? Only 6 or 7 weeks 'till I retrace your steps though...
from discodave :
I second vodkatonic's problems. Happy birthday M. you jet-setting glamourpuss, you. This is the start of good people birthday month, by the way - it starts with you and finishes on the 28th with me. Dxx
from vodkatonic :
I tried to write Happy Birthday in your guestbook, but it didn't work. So happy birthday in here instead!
from discodave :
Don't apologise - that was a great entry. Just thought I'd pop by and mention that, if you have a few more Euros to burn, Live Forever (that Britpop documentary) is out to buy on DVD. Have fun in London, hon. Dxx
from but-whatever :
you can have a but-whatever too...this is the place for the thoughts i dont feel like i can tell anyone else...the horrid, ugly thoughts that seem to want to ruin everything....x0x0~S
from discodave :
What's with that? You're a cynical romantic - same as me. Dxx
from lastyeargirl :
I hate guestbook signing restrictions... the same thing happens at the store where I work (well, used to work... I'll never get used to this). The checkout girls all seem to be in there whether or not they're working and I suppose it's because they're all friends outside of work, or we all have to eat... I laugh at them for it, and then have to realise I do it too.
from discodave :
Heh - me too. Hey, when you've cleared the back log of questions, do you wanna trade some? Ooh - and I don't know if I mentioned, but I'm seeing Suede on the first date of the tour, so I'll give you the heads-up on what to expect, OK? Dxx
from panicbird :
oooh champagne breakfast. How very lovely...
from bother :
my notes got burnt. it was very sad.
from stillill :
good luck with juggling class and travel. Not me, I'm the world's #1 procrastinator.
from smartypunk :
Thanks for the note. Even though I'm too old to be going to so many shows, I still do. That's the curse of having 90% of my friends (like-minded music lovers) who are motivated enough to be in bands - you have to go see their bands play! Only one other d-lander has found me on friendster so far. I don't mind it. You should be able to find me via my e-mail address, which is carefully hidden on my d-land diary due to my poor html skills.
from dearedwin :
do you let diaryland people look at your friendster profile?
from discodave :
Um - oops... Well, I figured me and almostgoldsf could come down and surprise you both. Or, at least, I would have done if I was clever. Dxx
from discodave :
I dunno - I just grew up not liking them and find it a hard habit to break. I don't know if I still loathe them, but I did at one point. Mind you - I used to dislike the Smiths (I know, I know) - so there's hope for me yet. I wish I hadn't ditched the Suede fanclub sometimes... Dxx
from almostgoldsf :
hang in there.
from stillill :
wh0 has time to search g00g1e 1ike that?
from kbaa :
:)
from girlypop :
Thanks! It definetely has to do with stagnation and probably insecurity. "Does anything lead anywhere?" and the like... It's good to have a new diarypal. Your diary is very interesting! And you're a Smiths fan. This definitely helps :)
from torch :
Welcome back to the land of Diary. Yes.
from panicbird :
Am loving reading you. What you have to say is very relevant to me, despite my very different situation. Everyone seems to know you from of old...Did I know you in your former life?? I don't think so... But glad to know you in this one!
from discodave :
True, true. Good to have you back, hon. Dxx
from discodave :
I'm thinking you should have used a Suede lyric... Dxx
from panicbird :
oooh thanks for adding me! I'm adding you right back right now! cool.

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