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from ljungberg8 :
hey dude. i love the pixies, they rock. and teenager of the year is excelent. ABSTRACT MOUSE!
from sistercookie :
Ok, you are right. But I just wanted to voice my opnion in some fashion. We are allowed to vent aren't we. Its better to let it out and be done with it. On the other hand when somebody is complaining about physical violence against them I don't consider that bitching. The hand that is dealt is mine and its up to me to do the best with the circumstances. Food, clothing, shelter and safety while having freedom is what I am trying to achieve at minimum. Your skewed viewpoint is something that I appreciate as well as your company. I like visiting you. Maybe you have lost something in your frontal lobe, the seat of emotion, but whatever it was it did not destroy you. There are many different level of being emotional, I am an extreme swing and you are not. Still waters run deep but its still pretty calm emotionally in comparision to me. I am trying to turn the tide so that it doesn't pull me down anymore, because I always was a good swimmer otherwise I would have drowned long ago and you would never have met me. You are a single reason to be happy that I am alive just to listen to your skewed view. So be happy that you have at least some positive effect upon me even if nobody notices it. "When has the rest of the world mattered?" In the Zen sense you are like a tiny grain of sand in my shoe that annoys me as it grinds away my skin. Just kidding. You are more like a pebble. LOL I miss the gulag. The freezing temperatures, the frostbite, the endless walking through frozen tundra...
from sistercookie :
Seester says. What about me? I mean I finished typing dorknoodle's book. Its intense. I feel like I might as well be invisible for all the attention I get from anyone except for them to tell me I am annoying them. Weirdly enough it seems like 6 months since I seen you, except maybe that's just how it feels. You think of yourself but it never occurs that I might have needs too. I need to have 5 minutes of not feeling like being me is a bad thing. I think to call you but I am sleeping to avoid certain situations. Its a timing issue. My therapist says I am doing incredible. I am not sure of my existence sometimes. Why is being such a forthright up-front tell it like it is person such a bad thing? I mean the rest is bullshit. Sometimes I think I dreamed even you up. I mean you are the only straight man who treats me with some dignity, some respect. I would trade a pound for a penny if it meant I could smile because you are around.
from dorknoodle :
Positive works, man. No, you are not wrong. Thanks for the kudos on my writing. It's blood on pages. It's true. (Or so my constructive pretentiousness would have me perceive.) As for the flyer, that was copped from an old painting. If what's left of that band can recognize shit, they'd be happy to see it. There's just so much junk betwixt them. If I can find the better flyer, I'll take a blurred picphone pic of it and send it forth. Take care, young man. N.
from dorknoodle :
Hey, man. I'm finally leaving you a note. Things are twisted for me and my man right now, as I'd gather you've heard by now. We will survive (no Gloria Gaynor reference there). If you ever want to visit Detroit, you have a place to stay. Seester has been a great help. Take care, Taco.
from sistercookie :
You never attack anyone on a personal level you just point out the bullshit or the lack of logic. You are always about the contents of the box, not the box itself. People may get mad at you for it because you bruise their ego but they get over it and move on. Besides everybody who really knows you at work knows that you are only about the work and that's it. Not ego, not power, not control, not manipulation, not harassment, not arrogance, not vanity, not anything emotional. You just do your work to the best of your ability and that is it. Probably the reason that most people just move on is that you are like gravity a constant so they can't really take it personally. It would be like blaming gravity, its such a damn constant. LOL
from sistercookie :
When you are around I smile not frown. For you wish me no ill so I can just chill. As serious a soul you are you are by far one of the few that absolutely knew that no matter what I'm a harmless nut.
from sistercookie :
I guess it doesn't matter because you never look at my diary. I miss you. Sa la vie!
from sistercookie :
you bastard, your picture is gone, please update your diary. look at the pics of the 1883 house. Don't make me come down there and bitch slap you.
from sistercookie :
Hey stud, working through those long, hard hours should make you want me to help relieve you of all that stress.
from sistercookie :
You should check out daath on diaryland. He's a psychology guy and a photographer and a writer. Very interesting person. He writes similarly to you at times. Don't forget there is much left to be discovered because things change all the time.
from sistercookie :
But what are scars? They are reminders that we have lived through another war and are still here. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.
from sistercookie :
I think you actually surprised a few people lately. Out with your counterpart causing trouble after a long day of work. I sent you a surprise too. Let me know if you like my gift. All I ask is you don't bitch at me. I can stay home for that. As I said you are a smart motherfucker as opposed to dorknoodle who is a brilliant motherfucker. Anybody who doesn't agree just doesn't get it so why bother? I never claimed to be socially acceptable. LOL
from sistercookie :
Shhh don't tell anyone that still waters run deep
from sistercookie :
You are like all the little joys you find in life like ducks asses in the air.
from sistercookie :
Its a zen thing. Not trying to please anyone, just being. Zen. I thought you understood the concept. Remember art is subjective. If nobody likes it then I will not share it, but I still want to do it so I will. F.T.F.F.
from sistercookie :
Do me a favor and read through my entries with the bottom part of my additional stuff at the bottom, please?
from sistercookie :
Yes but wouldn't it be nice if you had me there with you floating along. Don't you understand that I think that ocean sounds are even beautiful when you are there. Think Fort Washington. Go zoom, zooming away. Its okay. We will get together another day.
from sistercookie :
Personally I don't consider caviar a treat. I like cookies better. LOL
from sistercookie :
I recomment the Odds "Someone who is cool" and "Eat My Brain". I don't know if you heard of them but I think you would really like them.
from sistercookie :
you seem to keep coming up with these very cool genius entries, thoughts, writing, etc. keep it coming. I'm your biggest fan;-)
from sistercookie :
I suppose you are going to make me trek through Siberia. That would be very gulag.
from sistercookie :
well I sent a note about the escape key to andrew but I don't know if or when he will even respond. Oh, well.
from sistercookie :
Thank you for thinking of me. Coincidentally I was thinking of you as well. If I have to be in a Gulag I would like you to be the one in my charge. LOL
from sistercookie :
well aside from the diaryland interface which I just use the old style and not the web style interface. Send a note to andrew and maybe you can tell him how to get rid of the esc problem.

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