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from lemoncats :
Welcome to gold! If you need any html help just let me know. I'm into all that crap even though I made a simple clean layout for lemoncats. Damn about the court thing. Maybe I can teach you to sneak ;) Mind you, egging a person's house? tsk tsk. Water bomb balloons filled with food colouring is much more effective :)
from some-trouble :
Happy New Year to you and yours, and may 2007 bring you all you hope for!
from requiel :
Schwoo! I'm so glad you didn't have to do hard time. heh,heh.
from bitterwineuk :
That's good. It was only a minor offence. In the UK you would have got away with it. ;) The whole court thing is so intimidating though but glad you got off lightly. Becca
from bitterwineuk :
That's good. It was only a minor offence. In the UK you would have got away with it. ;) The whole court thing is so intimidating though but glad you got off lightly. Becca
from sosuga :
Glad to hear you got a decent exchange @ court! If it makes you feel any better, when I was seventeen I got 60 hours community service, $175 fine & 6 mos probation for sitting on the sidewalk. Yes, really. A fourteen-foot WIDE sidewalk. A lady was walking her dog and a cop saw her side-step us a couple of inches so we go "obstruction of the sidewalk". Fuckin a, stupid court system can bite it. And? I'm glad things with W are good, here's to a new year of good times!!!
from skinnylizzie :
Glad things went okay at court, I think I might actually have been weeing myself through fright (my, there's a lovely image for you!). Also glad you had a good Christmas! :)
from jammybastard :
I know, feelings are immutable. Inconvenient, but immutable. Sigh. I'm just trying to lead an uncomplicated life of whoring -- is that so wrong? Glad you're (mostly) out of trouble, my sweet!
from bitterwineuk :
Ah, the false nail challenges. After trying to get on with false nails over a period of something like 6 years, I still have come to the conclusion EVERYTHING is difficult with additions on your hands. I give up now. And I agree with you Christmas is stressful and getting competetive about lights but it's not quite as bad as that here. :)
from skinnylizzie :
All the nastiness and stress pisses me off at Christmas too. I may not be the most religious person in the world, but I still don't think it takes that much effort to be nice to people this time of year, dammit! Sorry, slightly sore point here
from bitterwineuk :
VERY WELL DONE TO YOU!!!!!!!!
from bitterwineuk :
Glad to hear things are sounding good. I am glad you feel like you know you are worth something again. :) It's not a failure on your part but part of life. Yes, it does hurt but there's still so much to do and you never know who is just round the corner. You are still so young and have lots to learn and do as yet. Have fun while you can!! :) Becca
from jammybastard :
Well then he definitely deserved an egging. Though you should have bypassed the house and simply egged him, the bastard.
from bitterwineuk :
Oh THAT was Matthew! I think that it sucks when you do something in retaliation and you are the one who has to be arrested. It's not worth threatening to press charges against him now, it could look like you are just doing it to get back at him. Just be honest in court, tell everyone in front of him and his family why you did it. That should wipe the smile of his smarmy little face. Becca
from jammybastard :
Just scale back a few posts; you'll find my wee baby. Getting busted sucks. Though I must tell you, as a homeowner nothing sucks quite like eggs. When the yoke dries it takes the paint with it. No fun. Alas, I did far worse things in my youth and managed to get away with almost all of it, so I entirely sympathize. And just what sort of crazy cracker cops do you have in your town, anyway? Who the hell pulls a gun for egg tossing?
from bitterwineuk :
Did I miss something? Why were you doing that anyway? Bad luck getting caught though. I can't believe how the cops over-reacted though and I agree court wastes no end of money. Hope you get on ok. Becca
from requiel :
Dang, that sucks. I hope you get it all worked out. Your Dad sounds freakin awesome. hehe.
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
My hair has fallen out so much that it actually made the vacuum stop working. It took us an hour to clean it all out from around the belt!
from blazingstar :
Yeah, I do feel a little guilty. But I can't help it that they keep throwing money at me! Haha. I'm glad you're back -- don't feel panicky about updating! I love hearing whatever you have to say!
from requiel :
I missed you!!! I am so glad you are ok even if your coat isn't.
from startafresh :
Great Attitude there sweetie. I wish I thought more like that when I was younger rather than live with things I wish I had done differently. It's taken a long while to try and work out why I am never happy with people but with a little self psychology(!!!) I see where I made a wrong turn and can only do my best to improve it. Hope this continues for a long time and have a great week!!!!!!!!! Becca
from requiel :
Good for you and your new 'tude. It took me a long time to get to that point...wait I don't think I'm there yet. HA! Kidding, I am in a way.. it comes and goes.
from jammybastard :
Yeah, I've always thought Mormons were preposterously good looking. Shame about the whole wacky religion thing -- lots of scary stuff beneath that pretty surface.
from princesse69 :
Hellooo back! I see you noticed I added you to my faves. I thank you return for adding me but you'll need my password combo if you want to read my diary. Glad you enjoyed the new Bond movie. I really want to see it too. I saw the trailer at the cinema. Hopefully I'll get a night off from the kids soon and Hubby and me can go see it. I hope your puppy is feeling better soon. Poorly animals make me sad. Sharon x
from lemoncats :
G'day, sorry for not writing in my diary recently. I promise to read yours and update mine! G-parents.....yeah, I know how that feels... Keep the faith Donut-One! Robert.
from skinnylizzie :
Hehe thank you! I shall remain proud to expose my dinted forehead to the world! On a slightly different note, I'm glad the job is going well :)
from dakota99 :
Hello, how are you?
from sosuga :
are you ok my lovely? we miss you!
from blazingstar :
Yeah, I'm feeling really lucky right now. But you never know what boys are gonna do next, right? Grrr. It sounds like you need a vacation. Wouldn't it be nice to just get away for a while...find a hammock on some tropical island and just forget about all the stress and drama...
from ihatemyscale :
I hope you find comfort in knowing that I understand and think you're pretty great .. keep your chin up my friend .. Your friend, Michael
from blazingstar :
Aww...I'm sorry you're feeling lonely. I always get depressed when I start trying to figure out who my "true" friends are, because there really are NOT very many of them. Sigh. But hang in there!
from requiel :
I'm so sorry. We are all here for you. I'm sure we have all been there so you know we all understand. Keep positive.
from jammybastard :
Thanks kitten!
from ihatemyscale :
I hope you have a good day .. its a gloomy one here as well .. but then again it usually is .. welcome to Tropical Syracuse, N.Y. .. right ;)
from jammybastard :
I was 17 before someone showed me the proper way to open a Tootsie Roll. I'd spent years peeling the damn things bit by bit, until a girl I knew finally took pity on me. "Just pull the fucking ends, already." In retrospect, I probably would have eaten fewer if she'd never told me that. The wicked wench.
from sosuga :
hey dollface - that model chick? totally NOT model-ish. She's got one of *those* faces thats like, a diff color than the rest of her body. And thats great and all if she's fit, but she is NOT NOT NOT pretty! The best part is she obviously thinks she is The Sex, and she is so completely off. Second - glad the new jobbie is workin out!! Thats so good to hear :) Things will pick themselves back up. Life is all about rhythms, we wouldnt appreciate the good if we didnt have some sucky times thrown in there for good measure, you know? Have a good weds, dahling!
from ihatemyscale :
You're entry had me laughing ;)
from jammybastard :
Nice new job, friendly people, and you're too sad? Babycakes, that just ain't right.
from ihatemyscale :
Finding a place you like to work at .. with nice people is a real find .. congrat's .. I'm sorry though to hear you are feeling so sad today .. I wish I could give you that hug ;)
from ihatemyscale :
Thanks for your note, it really made me smile. If we lived closed, I'd take that hug. Thanks again.
from sosuga :
Oh!! Good luck on your first day today! I am so excited for you!!! *YAY*!!!!!
from sosuga :
ok thanks chickpea I'll check em out when I gethome, cant access myspace from work...but I also deleted that note so it's not for the world to see. I gotta catch up on your entries too, I think you updated since I last saw!! xo
from skinnylizzie :
Good luck for tomorrow! xx
from sosuga :
Wait wait let me guess: you did stealth mode and found her photobucket. Yes? No? Dude, I wanna see this. I am freakin nosey this I know, but seriously. She cannot possibly be all that great. Maybe she bribed him with cookies? Alright im sorry this is no joking manner...I havent eaten anything today so I'mgoing a bit loopy.
from sosuga :
wait, whaaa? you have pics to prove that brendon was with this other broad? I'm confused...but moreso, jesus what a pig. I'm glad he cut you loose when he did because if he had cheated on you I'd have flown my happy ass to Utah and beat some brendon butt. For real. And? Just go on the date you dont really wanna go on. I didnt want to go on the one I went w/ the cowboy on and I had a blast. Yay for the date tonight tho! WOOO!!
from reflect-me :
He was slightly (VERY) intoxicated so I don't think soon should be taken too literally. Maybe he means like, 6 months, which I am totally fine with. It was kind of.. Strange when I actually heard him say it to her though. I don't really want to think about it, cos that is what gets me in trouble.
from requiel :
Woo! Congrats on the job...and I'm sorry about your notebook. I hate it when I lose stuff I need.
from jammybastard :
Oh, and many congrats on the new job, sweetie!
from jammybastard :
Not that you can probably do anything about it, but your page is broken up pretty severely in Firefox. Instead of staying within the two boxes, everything has flattened out across the screen. Very peculiar.
from sosuga :
CONGRATULATIONS YOU!!!! THATS SO AWESOME i AM SO HAPPY/PROUD OF YOU!!!
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
yup, it IS HIS loss!!! stupid boys.
from sosuga :
what the? Youre not a hussy you crazy woman! I dont know where that comment came from but thank you for the note, sweetheart! hope all is well with you, sounds like youre feeling a little brighter about things <3 xoxo
from jammybastard :
Aw, you noticed! You're a sweet one -- probably best you're not in fondling distance.
from jammybastard :
My deal is I'm old enough to remember real hippies, my silly young lovely. It's a dire, sexless look that should be banned. Harrumph! Humbug! And other old coot exclamations as the need arises. ;-)
from jammybastard :
6'1", 200 lbs. I may be a mincing queen at heart, but I'm a dyed-in-the-wool hooligan to look at. And have patience, dear child. One day the Jammy Bastard will appear in the light.
from jammybastard :
Notes are still fine.
from skinnylizzie :
I know, my sneaking's terrible! I should really just come clean about these things (not that I did it more than once or twice...I think it's just nosiness!). Anyway, I've added you now :)
from requiel :
I'm so sorry you have to go through this. You are beautiful, inside and out. You know what they say, you have to kiss a lot of frogs to find your prince. I know I did. I never dated someone longer than 3 months. I either got dumped (a lot) or I dumped them (not as much) but when I met my sweet hubby I knew and it all just clicked. It will be like that for you. Don't settle for a frog when your prince is out there looking for you as much as you are for him. *hug*
from skinnylizzie :
Oh, I've just read your past 2 entries and the last line of the first one made me sad...I have to confess to sneaking a look at your myspace and you're just absolutely gorgeous. And granted I only know you through the medium of an online diary, but like I've said before, you've always come across as a good, likeable person to me. I admire you for all the pooey things you go through and your attitude concerning them, you really are an inspiration to me (if only whining was constructive!). So chin up hon, you may not think you're blessed but I totally do x
from sosuga :
Well I'm very glad you take what I say as terms of endearment and not some sort of "you should do [this]" because I hate when people tell me what to do and I certainly dont want to do it to anyone else. I'll tell you what girl, the best diets I have ever been on were the ones where I was emotionally strapped in a relationship (of any kind) and was too upset to eat much. Or at the very beginning of one where I am so overjoyed I forget to eat entirely. I used to think it was because I was unhappy with my size but I'm starting to see that everyone does that -- its a side symptom of being upset. As for this girl being a model or whatever: firstly, her looks will only get her attention to begin with, but I have found that the majority of beautiful girls do not have any personality developed because they rely soley on their looks alone and therefore never really strive to be better on the inside...looks are fleeting as well, some of the most intriguingly beautiful and desireable women are not the conventional beautiful ones. They are more average looking, however their smile is brilliant or their eyes sparkle or their hair grabs the attention of people without them realizing what it was that entranced them to begin with. The fact that you are going to still see Brendon worries me a bit because since you know this other girl exists, it will only be tampering with your self esteem rather than helping you better yourself. They say that we are treated the way that we allow ourselves to be treated - commanding respect in ways that dont necessarily come across in a demeaning way will get you further than you can imagine. A lot of this stuff is learned from past mistakes and rather distasteful experiences, and...coming from a girl who grew up as the "fat" girl and never getting the attention my large-chested, girlie girl friends did, I certainly have seen both sides of the fence. People who see me now that knew me when I was little cannot believe I am the same person - I decided one day I was tired of being walked all over and immediately took steps in the other direction to change myself. I even did the whole self-help-book-therapy shindig, which didnt get me very far (although I do still really like the mars/venus books and recommend them to anyone who can take advice with a grain of salt but still get a better understanding for the opposite sex) ok jesus I think I've written enough here, but you are FAR too hard on yourself sister. I have seen your pictures, you are adorable and you are WAY more intelligent than your age indicates, and I swear to you that this will simply be a lesson in the making of how not to allow other's to make you feel less of a person. This guy really does sound very immature, based on the way he responds to you - however if he is fun to be around and he treats you well than I can't say to drop him because happiness is what it's all about. I def dont think he will provide the ultimate happiness you seek and deserve, unfortunately. Just out of curiousity, what is this guys sign? I know, feel free to give me weird looks now.
from blazingstar :
Man, I feel for you. I'm sorry you have to go through all that. But I really admire the way you always try to end on a positive note. And when I lose faith in boys, I think about my brother too! I'm sure it's because of our influence that they are such good guys ;)
from sosuga :
ps - I HIGHLY recommend picking up a cute journal for yourself and writing out all the hate, mistrust, annoyance and pain you feel right now. Try to write every day, and in a couple weeks time look back and you will literally SEE your progress youve already made. and most of all: take it one day at a time. No sense in getting overwhelmed over anything that you can't help, these things will happen all your life and the faster you allow yourself to see that there was no way for you to know this would happen, the faster you'll allow yourself to feel healed again. Be good to yourself!!
from sosuga :
sweetheart, you ARE pretty and you KNOW IT! Dont let ANYONE - ESPECIALLY a guy dictate how you feel about yourself. *NO ONE SHOULD EVER HAVE THAT KIND OF POWER OVER YOU* and moreso, the best kind of retailiation in this aspect is to pick yourself up and never look back. It is a hard process and although it is the MOST cliche thing to say in the world, I have learned that anything that doesnt kill you DOES make you stronger and WILL teach you lessons to apply later so as to prevent any of it from happening. If you were second-guessing his feelings for you than my gut instinct is to tell you that you wouldnt be happy with him in the long run anyway, so youre better off getting away before youve wasted months and years or more with him. I promise that when you find someone that doesnt make you doubt yourself or him, you'll feel SO much more better about you and your life...and until that time comes, you just keep on keepin on, allowing yourself to grow and feel those damn emotions that we hate so much. Feeling is a good thing, cry it out and get it all out of your system so it doesnt fester inside and become a toxic part of you. I'm glad he was honest with you and didnt do something destructive like cheat or whatever, although I'm inclined to say he sounds immature and indecisive any way so you are FAR better than he is. I Realize none of what anyone says really dulls the pain youre surely feeling right now, but I will promise you this: someday you will look back on this and think, god he was so not good enough for me. Time is your friend my dear - it heals all wounds and the best part is, they say that time flies. So, with that said, this is the "time" for you to be good to yourself. You deserve it, youve been thru so much...poor thing. I really feel for you darlin, many hugs and well wishes are being sent your way. Take care of yourself pumpkin!! xox
from nightdragon :
Some men are seriously flawed. As are some women. As are human beings in general. It's not worth getting too angry and bashing all men in the process. I, myself, am a faithful husband and resent that kind of talk. Having said that, I am sorry for your pain and hope you eventually feel better.
from jammybastard :
Sent. Thanks for sticking with me, beautiful.
from jammybastard :
Sent the info to the email attached to your Dland account, then I tried the one you left me in my notes but it keeps bouncing. Any ideas? I'm a little wary of leaving it out in the open here in Notes.
from jammybastard :
Check your email, darlin'.
from blazingstar :
Those are some good resolutions -- I could certainly use them myself. It's very brave for you to talk about your insecurities here, and you're right, you ARE strong, and you can DOOOOOO it!
from bitterwineuk :
My darlin' YOU are female. It's what women do. we are crazy. It's taken me to get to my mid twenties to notice this. :) Even now, when I get a compliment, I take it wrong. A girl says I've lost weight, she's saying how fat I was before. Any man says I look nice in any manner, he obviously wants sex. Just smile when complimented and anything you think will be avoided and when you are with a man ie Brendan - HE is WITH YOU!!!!!! Thats cos he likes YOU. ;)
from sosuga :
I wish we lived in like, at least the same state. I'd be so: Jessica, we're going for a girl's day so we can knock some sense into eachother and stop being so over-analytical!!!! I bet we'd get along really well too, but what I was going to say was your entry really hit home with me. When I was younger I was "thick" for lack of any other word I want to use - because I was more or less very insecure. My mom took off on us so I pretty much played the mother role similar to your comment about how you were forced to grow up fast. And I was taken advantage of a few times by some very lewd boys, so now my dick-radar is always on the alert. When your emotions are involved, its hard to see what the real deal is and it's very easy to let your fears of being hurt dictate your actions. You are absolutely right, it's easier to think "I KNEW IT" when something goes wrong, than to take responsibility for dooming the fate of the relationship before it really even started. I have a tendency of always waiting for the "other shoe to drop" so to speak. I dont know why and I hate it - but I hear ya on so many levels sister. I guess we just gotta keep reminding ourselves that men are simple creatures and for them to be so incredibly devious to feed us lies for weeks and weeks - or more - is really quite ridiculous. They surely have better things to do with their time, so at some point we both gotta drop the "did he mean it"s and just trust them. I think I could use to be smacked around a lil because I know I have a good thing, and it sure sounds like you do too - so SNAP OUT OF IT, CHICKIE! :) If anything else at least we can say we enjoyed the ride. Right? Right. xoxoxoxoxoxox
from enurta :
I saw the devil wears prada. it was an okay movie...i didn't like how it ended though. she should have continued working for miranda ;D
from bitterwineuk :
good luck with all the job things. You wont be out of work for long I am sure of it. Always remember one closed door opens 100 new oppertunities. It's good you lost that job cos there's something better for you round the corner. It may take 2 or 20 more goes but it will be ok in the end. :) Becca
from lemoncats :
Hii....Sorry for not talking recently. I am curious. How did you manage to get fired? for work? I'm looking for a way to get fired really. I've aways wanted to get a random job with my boss after a week later saying, "YOU'RE FIRED!" That'd be cool. Saying, yeah, I'm leaving anyway, you dickhead! But I guess not for everyone else. How did you feel the first 40 seconds after being fired? Just curious... :)
from jammybastard :
Yeah, Kirk really did die. And it is sad. He was sort of the public face of that couple; it's almost hard to imagine Alex interacting with the outside world without Kirk to make the introductions. They had been together for 26 years, even though Kirk was still in his forties. When this boy told me, I was in sort of a compromised position, but I promised to give it some thought when we were done. And my main thought is that I'm sad for Alex, and that he must be wandering around that big house with those pugs of theirs ("the boys," they call them), wondering who he is going to talk to the rest of his life.
from requiel :
Don't worry about being fired, I've been fired from pretty crappy jobs only to find a truly awesome one!
from blazingstar :
Awww thanks for reading! Hi! I'm really enjoying your diary. Your teacher from New York sounds hilarious and reminds me of crazy awesome people from home (I'm from Brooklyn).
from requiel :
Thank you so much for the sweet note! I would love it if you added me! I'd love to return the favor.
from jammybastard :
Sorry you got the axe, babe. That's never fun (though be glad you don't have a mortgage or a kid just yet). Wish I could give you the tub treatment, too -- sounds like you could use it.
from skinnylizzie :
I'm really sorry about your job. But, you strike me as a strong kind of person, and I'm sure you'll go on to even bigger and better things :)
from sosuga :
I am *SO* Sorry girl, what a huge pain in the ass...god I know how that feels I'll NEVER forget when that happened to me last year. It's hell, I'm not gonna lie. But hold your head up, believe that everything happens for a reason (it does!) and you will come out on top. ((big hug to my girl))
from sosuga :
I can see a cause for concern there, this girl sounds like she may be harmless though. You have to ask yourself if its worth letting it bother you -- something you cannot control -- and decide if you believe he likes you or not. Really at this point there's not much to do except do your best not to show your weak side because if you appear jealous he may freak, thinking its too soon or something boy-ish like that. I'm sorry girl, that is a HARD situation to be in...men are difficult sometimes because they are so simple. If that makes any sense. We are the complex ones who make everything much more convoluted than it really is, so it sounds to me like your heart is getting in the way of allowing you to enjoy yourself: youre putting up walls in fear that he'll bail. Which we all do -- but if its going to end it will no matter WHAT you do, so why not make the best of it while you can? It sounds to me like he's just being goofy and it'll subside, I mean think of all the sweet things he's said to you or done for you. Actions speak louder than words - he has helped YOU study, he has cooked for YOU - he does things for you that indicate he cares on a deeper level than just attraction alone. He is with you for a reason! You are great! Dont let some other nitwit make you feel like any less of a person. No matter how gorgeous, beautiful, smart, funny, classy, rich, etc we are, there will ALWAYS be someone else out there that we could be envious of because they are better off. But whats the point? It's a waste of time and energy, right? Right. So, remind yourself that he is with YOU and YOU ONLY and let this one slide. I dont think it's worth worrying about (I know I know, easier said than done, huh)...take care sweetheart, you are in my thoughts~~~xo!
from sosuga :
alright girl, what the shit is going on with this new dude, brendon? Why are you having these doubts about things...what happened?
from sosuga :
that tea is fucking killer man I LOVE it...its soo heavenly omg! thanks for the tip! and now as for brendon, take a deep breath first of all. you will be a whole lot more emotional and little things will trigger outbursts when youre pms'ing, it'll level out just hang in there. and im not sure if youre referring to something specific that happened with him? but its normal to have thoughts like that, no relationship is ever perfect ALL THE TIME. It has its downtimes. Stay positive, just like you said :D
from bitterwineuk :
Noooooo, don't do things like that hun. Will be so hard to keep up AND "quick fixes" like that never work. What do you think will happen when you eat normally after that week on JUST cabbage soup? Anything you did to make yourself feel better will be pointless as normal eating will make weight go back on (and then some more) as quick as it came off. You an't live on that forever. There are other ways to do it with variety and still keeping healthy. I wish you luck as I would any buddy but don't let this take over your life. I know all about weight struggles. *Hugs* Becca
from sosuga :
ps..where in gods name are you finding vanilla carmel tea? please share!
from sosuga :
listen woman, stop bitching about your boob size or I'm gonna...throw things. Those of us stuck in the B realm would probably kill for what youve got. Little shit! :b
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
I love tea. All kinds. Try some Egyptian Licorice Mint...mmmmmmmmmm.
from bitterwineuk :
Glad to hear you sounding happy. I've just written a similar entry actually as it was my 800th entry and I felt like reflecting. It takes looking back sometimes to see how far we have come. I've been doing that a bit lately and can't remember being happier than what I am now. Great huh? hehehe *excited giggle* Becca
from enurta :
are you the sweet dottie that keeps leaving me caring notes and comments?
from sosuga :
thank you for that...it helps knowing that its not such a terrible thing after all. I'm too hard on myself when I slip, and I'm not really sure it helped me much in the sense of getting over him but I'm glad I did it none the less. Just wish things were different but...everyone has those moments, ya know? xo.
from lemoncats :
mmmm a coat. I know what that feels like. Mind you, It never really gets cold in Australia. More the needing to update my wardrobe every year :)
from enurta :
he sounds really great :) i hope he can make you happy! <3
from lemoncats :
G'day. Thanks for the note! I've been slowly working my way through your diary. It's lots of fun :) Talk soon, R.
from bitterwineuk :
I agree with you, today does feel like a Thursday. And hey thanks for the offer, hahaha, IF I lived in the same country I would be there. Hahaha. :)
from bitterwineuk :
Sounds my sort of night. Why was I not invited? haha
from rented :
I saw it tonight too... it was a lot different than I thought. I liked it, did you?
from jammybastard :
Though I'm sure you're quite lovely in your own right, darlin'.
from jammybastard :
Precisely.
from jammybastard :
Thanks babe. He's easily replaced.
from rented :
Fantastic job!!! I'm really proud of you to have run the race. I wish I could do that! I might do it someday. You are an inspiration, Jess!
from bitterwineuk :
*raises hands* dont blame me. I didnt make it up. I am just the messenger, could have been so much worse I guess. I loved Steve but he was a bit of a nut and with that sort of job, well, He sure lived.
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
Aw, you're not ignorant in the least! The braces help keep her ankles aligned with her lower legs. Her feet turn in when she stands. They also help to strengthen her lower legs so that hopefully she'll be able to walk someday. :)
from the-moo :
you are so sweet and so beautiful I feel I simply must hug you *hug* hope you don't mind xxx
from bitterwineuk :
And for you Dottie, 1. What would make you most happy right now? being able to do EVERYTHING I wanted but then I'd be bored having done it. 2. What do YOU think would make ME happy right now? If you took a step back in life and appreciate the good things you have and not worry about certain people too much. 3. Leave a compliment for me. You are a lil diamond. :)
from bitterwineuk :
That entry wasnt directed at anyone in particular, I dont want you to think that. It is all of us. Me, Sharon, Claire, Amanda to name just 4 off the top of my head. I hope I didnt make you paranoid as I am the queen of paranoia. :)
from bitterwineuk :
you dreamed about me? Oh wow. So refreshing to hear that in a non perv way. :) I normally here that from guys. hehehehe
from jammybastard :
I dunno. Every play has a final act; this could well be mine.
from bitterwineuk :
This is where I should be adult and tell you that binge drinking is not safe. But if I did I would be a hypocrite. :) Sounds like you enjoyed yourself. It's part of being young to have fun. I have found though, the older you get the more hungover and ill you feel so make the most of it.
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
Awww, sweetheart, you're so young! You'll find it again. Probably more than once ;)
from bitterwineuk :
awwwwwwwwwww, I hope things are better very soon.
from bitterwineuk :
Good luck. Here's to a whole new phase of life. Hope you have a wonderful time. Becca
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
Great picture!
from bitterwineuk :
that's why I locked up ishouldcry. There was too much in there I didn't want to be seen from just anyone. My main is fine, that's life stuff but I had to lock up all the crap that has messed me up over the years. If you lock up you can keep it private with only the people you want to see it seeing it.
from bitterwineuk :
For someone who doesnt have kids that note you left me sums up parenthood perfectly. :) hahahaha.
from bitterwineuk :
I love people writing these sort of entries. It is great to be so happy, :)
from jammybastard :
Thanks, darlin'! Though I am concerned about all the extra security. All that strip searching and they've banned liquids and gels -- sounds like some dry fisting to me.
from reflect-me :
Thanks for all your messages of support - what with my currently yo-yo ing love life. Its exhausting, but it has to happen sooner or later.
from skinnylizzie :
Exactly! That's what I keep telling my parents, but they weren't too impressed when I asked for a bigger wardrobe so I could fit all of my shoes into it... Glad the date went well, he does sound nice :)
from jammybastard :
I'll do something extra kinky just for you, kiddo.
from bitterwineuk :
I had this design briefly a long time ago. :) It shows your happiness. Becca
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
Cooking would be good!
from bitterwineuk :
good luck with your date :)
from bitterwineuk :
We've hasd this Britney convo before. I think she is doing a grand job in a crappy job. No matter what she does the media will criticise her as the more successful a person is, the more they want to bring them down. Brit is just a normal 20something woman with a family so the media want to knock that as they want her to be more a media celebrity. Media sells more with troubles than happyness so if Brit has accident with baby Sean like that fall incident then that makes better reading and pics than her saying how happy she is. I feel sorry for her. Go Britney!!!!!
from sosuga :
oh sweetie im so sorry about the accident, my heart goes out to you...
from bitterwineuk :
At least no-one was hurt. You sound shaken up though and stressed out. Get some rest, relax with a bath or something. Just get it out your mind for an hour and worry about it later.
from sosuga :
:::Crossing my fingers for you that you get your car::::
from sosuga :
:::Crossing my fingers for you that you get your car::::
from bitterwineuk :
beetles are such cool cars. You should try and photograph it. Silver is good though. Hope it wrks out good for u.
from reflect-me :
I am SOO jealous.. A beetle is my ultimate dream car. Lucky
from bitterwineuk :
Ah, that's sad. How did she die? Is it being treated as suspicious? Where were the neighbours at the time? You'll have to tell us more. Bless her.
from sosuga :
ugh...do they know what she died from? What a terrible way to go...
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
I imagine they really are just jealous.
from reflect-me :
I so very wish you were in Oz. I'd take care of you.
from skinnylizzie :
I don't know how it differs over there to what happens here in England, but I was still pooing myself at the thought of going to university, I dreaded it from the moment I applied (think panic attacks, perpetual hysteria...all those kind of pretty things!). But when I got there, after all that worrying about the cliques from school following us on, I found that it was full of the most amazingly open-minded, friendly people I could have ever wished for. Like I said, I know some things are different over there, but I've always seen college as a completely fresh start, no baggage. Anyway, this note's getting rather long, but I just wanted to let you know that I understand how you feel, and feel free to rant on my notes page whenever you like :) xx
from enurta :
that's awful. why did she wander off like that? what happened?
from bitterwineuk :
awww, that's awful. Being a parent myself, I can't think of anything worse to happen than to have a child go missing. Scarily, the longer they are missing the worse the outcome can be. I sincerely hope she is found safely and quickly. Bless her.
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
I'll say a little prayer for the missing girl. So sad.
from bitterwineuk :
the iud would be good (is that the same as what brits call the coil??) as it does very little to alter your hormone levels etc and you can have a pretty normal life with it. My friend had it after her baby and when she had it removed to try for a second, she fell pregnant immediately so it doesn't mess with your cycle for months after. Sounds good to me. :) Hope you find something that suits you.
from sosuga :
I was just gonna add (because someone already beat me to it) that I hear the average weight gain can be anywhere from 10-30 lbs. from depo shots. And other nonsense, like you still get some spotting and whatnot. I *highly* suggest you do some real in depth research because I have heard some terrible horror stories about it. Also, unfortunately, any birth control with make you gain a few. It changes your hormone levels and thus your metabolism suffers a bit....it sucks.
from bitterwineuk :
depo made me put on nearly 30lbs which I have finally lost after a year being off it. It also fucks up your menstrual system. I've been having 2 periods a month since xmas. Almost like I am getting the ones I missed back with my regular. I am only now getting back to normal.I wouldn't reccommend it to anyone after the problems it caused me. Big Nightmare. Becca
from sosuga :
So glad you like your job! Thats great - wish everyone was happy like that. I have a love/hate relationship with mine, it varies between the two extremes on a daily basis. But as for the donuts: yum. OMG sound SOOO good right now. Also? the diet pills...I hate to admit it but I bought hydroxycut not too long ago and lost about 6 lbs in two days. woah. but I'll let you know if it stays or if its just water weight. Let me know what u try, my friend used to use xantrex but it made her too jittery. Also? Hi Limey! :::waves::: Limes-sugar is awesome, for sure gotta check her out! Take care donut-one :D heh!
from bitterwineuk :
so glad work is just what you wnat it to be. Sorry, I freaked you out with my last comment. :) Becca
from limes-sugar :
Hi! I found you thru my friend Sosuga--and had to say that it's complete BS for a friend to read this journal and run her mouth about it. Granted, it's online...but, have some F-ing respect. We can rest assured that if that girl's private thoughts and feelings were read by someone who KNOWS HER IN THE FLESH, then she would also be irate. What a bad bad friend. Anyway, you can email me at limes_sugar@yahoo.com if you'd like to read mine. Thanks! take care-L
from sosuga :
dude, LOL - what the heck is goin on with this hippie?!
from bitterwineuk :
That storm sounds frightening. Watch the clouds. Are they moving in the same way as the wind??? Maybe the War Of The Worlds starting sequence is real. In the UK we are getting an influx of new strange crop circles and Tony Blair was on tv tonight looking incredibly nervous. Still that could just be Tony Blair. Sorry you are still angry with Walter. But it will get better. :) Look after yourself hunny!!!! Becca
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
Ah, yes! You must go to Africa. I always dreamed of that as a little girl. :)
from jammybastard :
Actually I know plenty of women into it as well. An affinity for rough sex needn't be gender-specific.
from nightdragon :
Well, I apologize if I pissed you off somewhat. I am known for occasionally writing very strong, red-hot entries now and again. ;) But don't worry, despite politics, I know you're still a great patriot. Best - ND
from jammybastard :
I know, I can't understand it either. Wacky dames. It's not like I don't come with a warning label.
from bitterwineuk :
I hope you enjoy your day off today. :)
from skinnylizzie :
Aww I'm glad the job seems good, and WOO for your own secretary! What kind of things will you be doing there? (apologies if you already mentioned that in an entry...it's still quite early in the morning and my brain isn't quite functioning yet) xx
from jammybastard :
Actually it's a Homer Simpson quote. Seems like that bald dimwit's voice is always echoing in my brain.
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
That is AWESOME! Congrats!
from jammybastard :
Thank you for your pity. Woe is, indeed, me.
from sosuga :
Give up hairdryers and flat irons, eh? Man, those are my two tools I've used since the beginning of time. Probably not wise considering I get my hair highlighted regularly and its already fine. Doh! But...yay on the pirates! I admit I was one of those jump-on-the-bandwagon-girls when the first one came out, but only because I've loved Johnny Depp since benny & joon....so, my reasons are a bit different. But anyway...also: why wear a one peice? Silly girl!
from skinnylizzie :
Aww, I'm so jealous! I can't wait to see that movie!
from jammybastard :
Oh honey, that's a mighty big question with a terribly complex answer. For now let's just say I did it for all the reasons most people think they're doing it. And forward momentum does tend to carry one along.
from bitterwineuk :
Congratulations sweetie. Glad you got the job. well done to you. Becca
from sosuga :
Ok first: who said that when youre 30 you'll be fat?! WTF?! Thats just lame. Second, congrats on the job!!! I'll bet you will love love LOVE it. Let us know all the details! And third: I added you! Have a good week, try not to beat yourself up about your weight. I'd kill to be a size 0-2, I'm a 5-6 sometimes 7-8. It's depressing. Oh one more thing! The thing you said about the someone who put something dumb in your guestbook and how you know exactly who they are and they will die? I Love it! Too funny!!!!
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
I'm living proof that just because you're 30 doesn't mean you'll be fat! I was as thin (or thinner) than ever well into my 30's. The ONLY reason I am having trouble now is because of taking steroids for my Lupus. Steroid weight lingers forever, especially when the docs think you have a thyroid problem! Anyway, just keep in mind that people that make those comments are probably jealous, older women!
from startafresh :
sorry you've been so down lately. I hope things improve very soon for you. (((big hugs))) Becca
from jammybastard :
Listen, think of me what you will, but please don't misinterpret any comments about weight or what have you. I'm concerned (in the case of the wife) about a woman a foot shorter than me weighing more than I do (and I'm a big ol' thug). A healthy size 16 and I wouldn't even mention it. I really hope you're not reading something into my posts that suggests starving yourself is a good idea. I may be a total shit, but I'd be pretty bummed if a nice girl felt crappy about herself because of something I said. Not that I'm the source of your anguish; I just don't want to compound it.
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
Congrats!
from sosuga :
Ooo I know all about the job-hunting-ness...had to deal w/ that about 6 mos ago and it took me FIVE job offers to find the one I have now (which was worth it tho). I hear ya on wanting an admin job, thats more my style too. Good luck ! :)
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
Good luck! I hope you get the job you really want.
from bitterwineuk :
good luck with the intereviews. Better money is always a bonus. :)
from reflect-me :
I love that you leave me notes. I wish more people would. It's my own fault for not writing anything worth commenting on... I got 2 Maltese x Shihtzu. Jack is brown and white, and Sarah is black and white. They are beautiful and will have beautiful babies. You should definately take the kitten. I have 3 cats, too. I love pets.
from skinnylizzie :
I'm so sorry about your parents and how worried you are about them. I know it's not much comfort, but I shall be thinking of you and keep my fingers crossed that things come good again very soon xx
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
Your letter was beautiful, in the sad sense of the word. I could have written the same thing a million times myself.
from kayrayne :
Im confused. whats going on?
from startafresh :
Thank you so much for your note. I am fine. I'm not just putting on a brave face, I've done that for too long. I accepted many moons ago that our relationship was dead and now I just need to make it official. I am much happier and rising in confidence again. I had to do this for myself. After being emotionally detatched for so long, nothing he does upsets me any more. We both accept it's over and then we can both move on and be happier apart. He doesn't make my life easy but he can't make it as bad as he used to anymore. Thanks for your concern. *KISSES TO YOU* Becca.
from bitterwineuk :
Just wanted to pop in and say hi, Hope all is going well and I am glad you love your new phone. I want one. :) Becca
from skinnylizzie :
Heh, thank you for the sweet note, I'm just about back to normal and should be thoroughly cheered up by the time my exam finishes on Friday! Hope the annoying dog has gone by now or has been slipped a strong sedative of some kind xx
from enurta :
Thank you for the sweet comment you left, it means a lot that you took the time to write encouraging words to me. And thank you for the add, you have an interesting diary so I'm probably going to read some of your entries if not all of them after this note... ;/ anyway, just wanted to say hello. <3
from reflect-me :
Maybe I just don't get it all, have no taste or whatever, but I really enjoyed The Da Vinci Code - Book and movie. I thought the book was better, of course - they always are, but I thought the movie complimented it very well. Maybe it worked for me because I have no religious background so I just took it as the story that it was meant to be. But, we all have our opinions I suppose. Kisses.
from nightdragon :
Heh. Thank you for adding me, and I look forward to an exchange of ideas between us. However, can I make a request? This will strike you as most odd of me and that's fine: But could you change your description of me from "human being" to "dragon"? You see, that is what I am. Feel free to e-mail me anytime if you desire an explanation - I wouldn't blame you - a_real_dragon2006@yahoo.com.
from skinnylizzie :
All I can say is that you're a much better person than I am :)
from bitterwineuk :
:) That's it, you go girl. Very well put. :)
from nightdragon :
Thank you. I, in turn, am impressed with your super kind note. Thank you again. I do have a few liberal readers who, though they disagree with 90-95% of what I write, are good friends. I wanted to make the point, in that article, that extremism is extremism, hate is hate, irrespective of whether it comes from the Left or the Right. It comes from both. So don't you worry, I'm not one to rest on my laurels, I'm very passionate about the things that go on in this topsy-turvy world of ours and I am committed to writing about them: The dragon's view of humanity! ~ ND (P.S. Mind if I add you?)
from skinnylizzie :
Ha, thank you, I'm not so sure that I'm that great a friend but thanks anyway! And ooh, a fly swatter...I'd not thought of that one before...
from kayrayne :
Girl, don't ever talk to that asshole again. None of this "but he's my friend" shit, you do NOT tell your ex that you slept with someone else. That is just him bragging to you, to hurt you even more, and you're letting him do it. I'm going to be a major hypocrite and say "get the fuck out of there!". He's not worth your pain, or your "ewww's" either.
from bitterwineuk :
big big hugs, I do understand all that and I have been there many times. The secret to recovery is to discover what it is you really want, spell it out clear and hopefully gain more respect from others. Just dont expect things to happen over night, it can take a while. But first you have to KNOW where you want things to go before you can figure out how to do it. We all have insecurity issues from time to time. Anytime you wanna chat, you can always email me. Becca
from cabin-boy :
Oh no... You evil evil snail-sex-interrupting human!! (falls over cackling) I am SO sorry you had to even witness snail skankiness, much less inadvertantly threw her Beau off the love train. (cackles some more)
from skinnylizzie :
Wow, a cold sore on your eye sounds incredibly painful, have some sympathy vibes... I know that if you get a sty in your eye you're supposed to gently rub it with a gold ring, but I don't think I know anything good for cold sores, alas. Hope it clears up soon!
from bitterwineuk :
hope you are feeling better very very soon. Did you get my email back to you the other day? Becca.
from kayrayne :
OMG! You're doing a nudie shoot!!! :-O
from bitterwineuk :
Hello Miss. What is wrong with getting drunk indeed? I am 25 and an adult with a child. When I was 18-22 I had no responsibilities. Every night was fun. Most nights I got drunk. I was being young and enjoying the perks that came with it. Don't give a damn what others say, you have your own life and it's up to you what you do. Not a vrey good role model am I?? Lol. But if you only live once. Becca.
from bitterwineuk :
hooray for britney spears hey? lol. I feel sorry for her and all the slack shes getting from the press at the minute but Tom Cruise deserves every bit of his. Mad man now wants Katie Holmes to change her name too Kate as Katie sounds like a little girls name. Oh dear... :) Hahahaha, feel free to add a review to the-b-l-c whenever you like now I have got it up and running. Just sign in as normal and type away. Have a good weekend, Becca.
from the-b-l-c :
Thank you for your email. You are in. :)
from bitterwineuk :
Hooray for feeling good in yourself. Becca
from bitterwineuk :
Thank you for your interest, I am glad you would like to join in.I have set up a diaryland account for it. It is the-b-l-c.diaryland.com (the book lovers club)and I will hopefully be adding to it the next couple of days. If you would like to lend a hand, feel free to do a review and email me it @ bitterwineuk@hotmail.com and feel free to write a profile for yourself so I can put info of my reviewers on the site itself. I will email you later with more info about login name etc if you just note or email me your email address. Once again thank you. Becca.
from kayrayne29 :
Hi! I have moved! Please follow me to: http://kayrayne.diaryland.com Happy reading!
from bitterwineuk :
Hey thats ok. I am always at a difficult part of my life. I just keep it in a different diary. I liked your honest open style of writing and your profile made you sound very nice too. Anyone who likes the writers you do must be of sound taste. :) I hope you get over your tough times soon. Becca
from rented :
http://rented.diaryland.com/fordottie.html
from kayrayne29 :
You're so brave, and I'm so proud of you for standing up for yourself. You deserve more than he ever gave you. And for him to suggest that because you broke up with him, he's going to sleep with someone else, proves that you meant nothing to him, otherwise, he would have left it alone. Be true to yourself, and remember, you're young, you have the pick of the world ahead of you. Don't ever settle for second best, and never hide your true self for some man. My thoughts are with you. *Muah!*
from skinnylizzie :
I think you're incredibly brave, not just for doing everything you talked about but also for sharing it in such detail. I know it's no consolation at all, but if you ever want to whine at somebody in particular, you know where I am :) xx
from kate-lee :
Sounds like you're having a hard time at the moment...but it also sounds like a lot of stuff I've dealt with in the past and spent a long time trying to get through/over. If you want an ear, I'm here for you (despite the creepyness of being an internet person who you've never met!) Hugs to you xxx
from steffateetee :
HALLO... sorry for the randomness, you dont know me, but i wanted to say hi anyway :D Byese Bye x x Steph x x
from skinnylizzie :
I care! I 'm still here, reading away! And I shall still be here when you return :)
from kayrayne29 :
I didn't ask about money. Money's not that important to me, I make enough on my own anyway. But I hope he's rich, but I don't think he is. It's all in the status baby!! :-D
from kate-lee :
I found your diary through someone else's profile, have had a read and have added you to my favourites - so I thought I should really say "HELLO!!" and send you a wave. xxx
from rented :
Have fun skiing today! I hope everything goes well! Be safe... and have fun!
from skinnylizzie :
It's not a dumb question at all! Easter's at the same time here but we get 4 weeks off for the holiday (I think it's equivalent to your spring break...I think, don't quote me on that), and Easter just falls right at the end of the holiday this time. I just call it Easter because...well, because I'm lazy, I guess! And the pound sign is on my 3...do you not have it on yours?! What a crazy, crazy thought, we have a dollar sign and everything too. Enjoy your skiing tomorrow, I've never been so I'm pretty jealous right now :)
from skinnylizzie :
Heh, don't be daft, it's just nice that you remembered at all :D. And the drinking age here is 18, so I can at least go out and drown my sorrows at now being in my TWENTIES (eep!)
from skinnylizzie :
Well, it's very nearly March 7th here in England so HAPPY BIRTHDAY! xx
from kayrayne29 :
Reminds me a lot of my boss!! Just goes out on a "school night" as we call it, gets blind rotten drunk, high, and you name it, she does it, and then passes out, and turns up late for work, or calls in sick! Plus, she's one of those bosses that gets really mad if YOU'RE running late or take a sick day... Hmmm.. Does that mean you'll get promoted???
from kayrayne29 :
I don't want this to come across as bitchy, but you're complaining about being 135 pounds? To me, I can only dream of ever being that weight. If I was to put my weight into pounds, I'd be over 200. THAT'S NOT FUN. The only way you can get guys to hit on you, is if you have the confidence in your own body. When you exude confidence, guys see that and it makes you look sexy. There is nothing quite so ugly as a girl who hates her body. (even tho there are millions of girls who do). You should be proud that in a time like this, you are able to stay skinny. Especially with high school, college, BOYFRIEND, and chocolate. You're looking at the wrong side of the ball. Change your thinking from "I'm so fat" to "I'm proud that I'm no longer as fat as I used to be" And I don't want to hear you complaining about your weight again until you are over 200 pounds and actually have a reason to complain. Be thankful for a flat tummy, and thighs that don't rub together. (AND NO MUFFIN TOPS!) :-)
from skinnylizzie :
Heh, you're right...sweaty, buff sportsmen are definitely a good thing! And I'm sorry you all seem to have a shitty day yesterday, hope today makes up for it a bit!
from skinnylizzie :
Good luck for your final!
from skinnylizzie :
Congratulations!!! I knew all of my finger crossing would pay off in the end :)
from skinnylizzie :
Don't be sorry at all, and I think you're perfectly justified in wanting to whine (even if I didn't personally think it was that whiney at all!). Congratulations on getting into your first one, I've got my fingers crossed for you that you get to go to the one you want
from rented :
Girl, CONGRATULATIONS! I know a little diaryland note is nothing like a huge hug and some flowers or something, but I'm proud of you all the same. I dropped out of high school, so anyone that can even think of college without getting a headache is a hero in my book! Good for you, You are fantastic! Stinky old Walter can take his smart ass head and shove it! You're smart too, or else you wouldn't have such great grammar or be so good at what you do!
from skinnylizzie :
Eeesh, I sympathise with the hair thing, it only ever rains here if I've spent 2 hours that morning straightening my hair (British weather, gotta love it!)
from sweet18-2004 :
I know exactly how you feel. I feel the same way with The Boy. Like I want so much from the relationship, and he refuses to talk about it. Whe he is drunk, he says he wants the same things as me, but, is he just trying to keep the peace?
from curiouoso :
Thamks for the correction! I fixed it. Must have been those 2 bottles of red wine we drank in Yuma,az before the Entry. Thanks for reading! Curiouoso*
from sweet18-2004 :
Yeah, the weight loss thing has never worked for me. My mum just got a reduction, and when I get older, I am having one too. The boy bought me back lots of things. Favourites being a Louis Vuitton handbag and a 1L bottle of Kahlua. YUM!
from sweet18-2004 :
I'm sorry to hear about your big boobs... I got mine when I was 15, and they zoomed. Up to a D cup in no time at all, and I am only 5'4", and only about 110lb. If you find a way to get rid of them, let me know, cos I've been trying for 4 years
from themoodswing :
Sorry to hear you have to have an operation darling. And those underarm crutches suck but they are the best if you're having an operation - they allow more support. Give them a go for 3-4 weeks and then you can look into the other ones (you'll have built up a bit of arm strength in the meantime and should be able to cope better with the shorter crutches). Come and hire them from my pharmacy! I'll give you a discount ;) *hug*
from themoodswing :
Btw, it's been 11 MONTHS since I last cleaned my room. It's not messy as such, just extremely cluttered. I intend to clean it as I pack to move next month :)
from themoodswing :
Awww thankyou so much for that lovely note! I feel all special :) I wish I could stop being busy with work, but it seems to have infested my life (but also my bank account, so that's alright). I hope to update soon *cuddle*
from where-ocar :
unfortunately, if he did die, things would only get worse with dick cheney and that bitch condi rice.
from dusk-bunny :
AHH !!sorry I am new to the diary/note thing, and I can see I'm being a nuisance. The grandfather part was for the next girl who left me a note and somehow I added it on what I meant for you, so I just wanted to say oop, sorry!! eek! :) Thanks again!
from dusk-bunny :
Hi there! I wanted to thank you for your note and I am sorry to hear about your grandfather. Luckily, I've got a good chance at beating this! I really liked your perspective on why you liked dusk as well. Another good observation on why dusk is awesome =) XO*JESS
from dusk-bunny :
Hi there! I wanted to thank you for your note and I am sorry to hear about your grandfather. Luckily, I've got a good chance at beating this! I really liked your perspective on why you liked dusk as well. Another good observation on why dusk is awesome =) XO*JESS
from sizmatters :
thanks for the kind words !!
from curiouoso :
Thanks for checking out my pages. Depending on what you read, I can't say that was a sterling representative of my diary. Come back anytime to see more. Curiouoso*
from themoodswing :
Blowjobs are illegal in Utah? Hmmm, now that I think about it, that doesn't really surprise me. Isn't Utah the Mormon capital of the world? I'm surprised you can even buy contraceptives there. I actually told a Mormon off the other day - he and his companion were tricking people into taking their Watchtower magazine at the train station by hiding them behind medical-looking newsletters. I was so offended that I stormed off the train and handed it back to him: "I took this because I thought it was something about diabeties, and then I find this religious crap shoved in the back." I hate sneakiness like that.
from propel :
Hey girl...don't stress the college thing. I dropped out of high school because I hated it so bad. I felt so out of place. If you really fell like college isn't for you, then you can really focus on doing something that makes you happy. Traditional college isn't for everyone, that's for sure. I had to learn that the hard way. You're going to be ok, you sound smart.
from skinnylizzie :
Oh I will, thank you :). And that island sounds like a bloody good idea right now
from evababy777 :
so if you're 116 lbs, how tall are you? i'm 5'8" and was 116 lbs in high school, and i looked like i was anorexic. i can't even imagine being 110 lbs. right now i'm about 140, and although i feel a little pudgy, my body still looks good.
from themoodswing :
You're only 116 pounds?? Cripes, I'm about 140. We used kilos in Australia, so in kilos I'm only 65. Sounds much better ;) Why oh why do we stress so much over a number? *sigh*
from evababy777 :
i did not say that sarah was wrong. i did not criticize her. and i certainly didn't say that i understand her disease. i wish that she were stronger. i wish that she could overcome this battle. i want her to fight. and, her struggle, her battle inspired my entry. which is why she is in my entry. and, no one on diaryland knows sarah. and even if they did, there are a million sarahs in the world. i doubt that anyone would figure it out.
from themoodswing :
Btw, I cross-sitch too and I love it :)
from themoodswing :
The dunnies do indeed flush counter-clockwise. The Simpsons never lie! ;)
from themoodswing :
I'm with you - that Senator's comment was fucked. What a prat. You should move to Australia. Our Prime Minister may kiss Dubya's arse, but he's definitely not a shithead like Dubya.
from some-trouble :
Hi Dottie, thanks for stopping by and saying hello! Yes, TMJ really sucks doesn't it??? I hope yours isn't too painful at the moment! I'm not sure what's causing mine - I have M.E/CFS as well so they seem to think the two could be connected. I don't know, I'll just take their word for it I guess. Sadly I've not been able to see Moby in concert, although I'd love to if and when I'm well enough. [It's another M.E/CFS thing *sigh*.] And how cool that you like James Patterson as well..... most people I know have never even heard of him! He's got a new Alex Cross book coming out next month, so I'll definitely be reading that. I've read the Shopaholic ones too [I noticed them in your profile] - Becky sometimes reminds me of me a little bit! ;o) Anyway, I've read a little of your diary over the last couple of days and just wanted to say I'm sorry that your going through a rough patch with your boyfriend at the moment. [Hug] Nobody can ever truly understand what goes on within a relationship can they??? It's so easy to love someone, yet dislike some of the things they do. I've been there too in the past. Hmmmmm, sorry this got so long. I've added you to my buddy list so I'll be back soon. In the meantime hang in there, 'n' keep smilin', Jo XXX
from eternity2002 :
Thanks a lot for your comment, I really love English and foreign languages! I hope to know you in a better way, writing here and chatting, I'd like to travel to USA...I'll do it once in my life, even if it's very expensive! Ciao!
from skinnylizzie :
Ah, you understand! I love meeting fellow shoe enthusiasts, it brightens up my day! I really hope things are okay for you, I love reading your diary :)
from curiouoso :
Thanks for checking out my diary. Hope to see you around again some day. Curiouoso*
from themoodswing :
If you ever need to chat about anything love you're more than welcome to email me (lullaby_requiem@hotmail.com). With your birth control, are you able to go to a regular doctor and get a prescription for something and just pay for it outright instead of using insurance? Everything's so different in the US with the insurance stuff - insurance isn't that popular or essential here, so you'll have to excuse my ignorance hehe
from themoodswing :
The doc may have to put you on another Pill. There are lots of different kinds, and sometimes it can be a hassle trying to find the right one for you :)
from themoodswing :
There is nothing filthy about you, or your natural bodily functions. Sounds to me like Walter needs to grow up a little, and learn that the world doesnt revolve around him and his erections. Boyfriends should support you and make you happy, not make you feel repulsive. He's the one with the problem, not you. You're perfect, and never forget it *hug*
from themoodswing :
I'm glad my note gave you some confidence; I was worried you'd be a little annoyed at my boldness. Make sure Walter continues to behave himself ;) xoxo
from themoodswing :
Urgh, the credit card thing is scary. It happened to a friend of mine. Thankfully the theif only rung up about 1500 on there before she noticed what had happened, and she didnt have to pay for it. I can only imagine how shit it made her feel. It must have felt like such a violation. And it's not fair your mum took it out on you initially. That's never fair *hug*
from themoodswing :
Dont ever let a man reduce you to a sex object. Anyone that treats you like that even for a second is not worth your time. I'm sorry to sound harsh, but I'm sick of men treating women like that. We all deserve better. *hug*
from themoodswing :
Glad you're not pregnant! I know that feeling very well. Even though you know it's the teeny weeniest possibility you can't get your mind to rest until you know for sure. And congrats on the foreign metal contraption up the vagina thing: I know THAT feeling all too well too haha It's daunting the first time but you get used to it. And one time I was getting my period while I was being examed, so it must happen quite a lot. The doc only noticed because my smear slides were a little brown. Oh well, we're all girls, so who cares eh? Hurray for periods and vaginal metal things that look like torture devices and all the rest of it! :)
from themoodswing :
Thanks for the reassurance, I really appreciate it. I wish I could have taken the dog home, but I already have a dog and the yard wouldnt be big enough for both of them :( I hope someone with a good heart adopts him.
from themoodswing :
Why is it your fault love?
from xher-secrets :
thanks for the nice comment! i added you to my favorite diaries :)
from themoodswing :
I'm with you on the listening thing. I'm so sick of people giving me 'advice' when all I want is to be heard. Sometimes you just have to get things off your chest without wanting to be told what to do.
from skinnylizzie :
I think you are possibly the only person in my 19 year long life to call me charming, and that makes me ridiculously happy :)
from themoodswing :
I think Britain needs to return to its roots - criminals used to be beheaded and their heads put on pikes around London. I think Bush's head would look quite appealing on a spike... *daydreams*
from gayteen14 :
Hi..If you've read my latest entry you'll know what this is about. You've been chosen! Yay you! opendiary.com/semi-queeryouth
from fall7stand8 :
Your mom hates walmart? My whole community hates walmart (I think it's okay) because it's ruining small businesses and some of the things they sell are made in china (rumoured sweat shops?). Your mask that you made could be hung on the wall with a plate hanger - ask your mom. It worked for me when I made one when I was younger. K xo
from fall7stand8 :
Hey. About girls picking on you - I put my reply on my site. Tell them to piss off.
from gayteen14 :
hehe, i just saw what you wrote by my name on your favs. *poke* it's cute :-)
from jenne1017 :
walking schmalking. lol. I walk 1.5 to and from PT every day and I am not losing. I have no time to walk more either! Don't want to do it alone in the dark. Come next week, I can get back to the gym so all should be better! Thanks for the note!
from fall7stand8 :
Hey...thanks for adding me. You are such a special person and a good writer. You must be having a down day (which I have allll the time). Maybe it's a girl thing I don't know. You're creative, insightful and very aware of who you are and what you like and wish to be. I hope you have a wicked day girl...take care!
from for-ever-you :
Thank you so much for that quote.. Its really beautiful.. :)
from dazlife :
Hi there! I agree, Beyond Borders was truely inspiring. Did you know that Clive Owens is up for Best Supporting Actor in "Closer?" :) Thanks for the note, that was very kind!
from gayteen14 :
Thanks for the note! I appreciate it much. May I ask your asl and how long you've been reading my diary?
from reakhavok :
hello love. just wanted to say hi and im sorry i havent been at school the past 2 days. i miss you and i hope all is well. i love you. please call me if you get any spare time. have a good day sweetheart. ciao
from iampeanut :
Dear Dottie, 11/30/04 was a very good diary. Great job staying positive as of late. It's been a pleasure being around you! Love, Nicky!
from reakhavok :
hey cutie. just wanted to say hi and remind you that im ALWAYS here for u and i love u unconditionally. thanks for all that you do. have a good night. p.s. i bought 1/2 your christmas present! eheheheehe. i think youll like it!
from iampeanut :
Dotty, that IS something you need to realize. Now don't take this in a bad way like you took my last note!! But you really can't make everyone happy, and trying just makes yourself unhappy. Don't try. When there is someone worthwhile, then you make them happy. But don't try to make everyone happy. It's just not worth it darlin'. I used to do this too... my dad would actually yell at me when I wouldn't make a choice without thinking about myself and not others... he would tell me "Don't try to make everyone happy, don't act like your mother, make yourself happy."
from iampeanut :
Dotty, this isn't meant to be said disrespectfully or rudely... but I have thought you needed medication for a long time, and yes, it would benefit you, and yes, there are ways around it; from the sound of it you are making the right changes. If successful, CONGRATULATIONS!!! -Nicky.
from iampeanut :
Dotty, what did your work do now? I really need to get a job... it's kind of depressing that on top of everyday life getting a job must add to all the stress. But on the really bright side I have really good grades, and will have an almost "perfect score" come report cards... homecoming is soon, and I am a LITTLE worried about losing Cassie - I think it's her upcoming trip. -Nicky.
from iampeanut :
T3h Dotty, I am sorry that I made you angry about Angelina. Apparently Tiffy is sick of me today too, so I will just leave you guys alone and not be goofy anymore. Have a good day... Love Ja. -Nicky.
from iampeanut :
Hey dotty. Congrats on the dance team busniess. And I wish you luck with your current situation/problem. I have faith that you WILL in fact sort it out soon and well. Everything always seems to work out somehow (Strange I know), but all we need is just a little patience...
from iampeanut :
HEY! HAVE A GOOD 8th. I AM RIGHT HERE TOO.
from boy196 :
Heya, good luck with the haircut! And with Walter... just a random drop-in note.... Will
from iampeanut :
"Please note I don't actually hurt anyone physically...Whether I truly wanted to or not...I myself am not physcially capable" Agreed, other than I usually AM capable. So how are you darling Dotty? Hopefully good. Walter good? Miss you! I got an interview on Mon. at Subway! YAYAYAYAY! I hope everything goes spectacularly well, and call me if you wish, Tiff has me number. Nicky.
from asecretiveme :
It's fine that you read it. The only reason that I locked it in the first place was because there are a few people who use this site that I know and it would lead to some rather awkward situations if they read this all. Actually, a couple of my friends figured out the password anyway.. But yeah. Its totally fine that you read it. I actually appreciate it a lot, knowing that someone takes the time to read what I have to say.
from iampeanut :
You have the same B-Day as my dad, and also, CHHS is probably where I am going, not sure yet... other than that, nada.
from iampeanut :
Hi Dotty, it's Nicky here. I really miss you all, and I am sorry I missed the party, I was in Layton at my dad's house working from Fri. to Tues. night. I promise to make the next one, and I hope Tiff gets better and hope her hair is cute. I miss you.
from dont-stop :
I agree. Most men are immature when it comes to relationships.
from lonelytree- :
thanks so much for your note i guess we all need some girl power support right now. it sucks but things happen what are you gonna do besides what you can do. its nice to know i have more than just my family i can count on. love bree :)
from rockin-out :
you are too cute. i think i'm definitely gonna cut it and bleach it blonde. blondes have more fun anyway right? and yes - finally someone who loves the notebook as much as me! xo.
from myownjourney :
Hi. Thank you for your note. I appreciate it al a lot,
from darkembrace :
so true, so true
from ooberfaerie :
It's sad but true.. Just surround yourself with the opposite of those people and try to close your eyes to the uncompassionate, that's what I do - but even that fails on occasion.
from ooberfaerie :
Hiya! Glad to hear other people aren't fashion-perfect like everyone seems to be! You change your template a lot, don't you? About Walter: Sometimes no matter what, even with the best intentions you can't help but hurt other people. Don't be too hard on yourself, the fact that you're so worried about it shows how good natured you actually are and Walter must recognise that! You do seem very aware of other people. I know I don't actually know you.. but i hope this helps, just a little xx
from ooberfaerie :
My guestbook is useless! I had no idea I had a message from you until just now! Thank you so much for leaving me one.. no one ever does (poor ol' me, eh?) I've succeeded into forcing myself to not like him, I really HAD to, but it leaked back a little just before he left. I suppose that's allowed as he's gone now.. Take care, Nicole xx
from ooberfaerie :
Happy Birthday :)
from ooberfaerie :
Hello! I hope you don't mind if I added you to my favourites list.. thought I'd tell you so you didn't find out all of a sudden and get freaked out. Interesting layout, is it random or is it connected to something? Tc

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