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I'm glad you said hello. I've noticed your silent diary in the past. I still think of Tracy from time to time....I've often wondered how her family dealt with their loss. I can't even fathom it sometimes. It feels as though I should be able to close my eyes and make her come back again. I am glad to see you're hangin in there and doing well. :-) p.s. Rick and I got married silly girl.
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I told "him" "no no rice, I'm not fucking chinese" but I removed that line because I didn't want to sound chinesist.
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I just read that you're a "committed reader" of my diary. You did mean "you should be committed" right? Ya know what...I miss Tracy...still. I still miss her....it's still something I think about everytime I log on to write.
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thanks for the note, it was sweet of you! your entries are very interesting...i'll be checking for updates from time to time!
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Random hellos are always good so hi! :) xx
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hey lori! i am sorry that i could not see you again. i had no time for anything. when you saw me in the car i could not stop because i was taking jesses mom to work. right now i am in texas and i will be going to japan on the 14th of this month! i will keep in touch more then but right now i can only use a computer when i get to the base library. i love you and will send you pretty things. heehee.
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hi! your diary rocks, i hope to read more of it soon. loved the 'ghost' story!
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Thanks for your comments and visit to my site. Sending you good thoughts!
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i know this may not be the most appropriate question to ask, but do you a photo of tracy? ... i just read her entries and then yours and i felt truly impacted.. ♥
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I just wanted to reply to the note you left me. Actually, I'm very happy with the college I go to, and it would be impossible for me to leave here being that I have lots of scholarship money and things like that. Yes, we do have an LGBA here, but I'm pretty much afraid to go to meetings and even if I wanted to go most of the time I probably couldn't. Softball takes up the majority of my time and falls around the same time as their meetings. Also, it's not that my campus is homophobic or not an okay place to be open about your sexuality. Most of the time it's just my battle with myself and being afraid of what other people will think of me. As my past history goes, I've had a pretty hard time with lots of sexuality issues and having the people I trust the most turn their backs on me. I know I shouldn't let the past dictate, but I do anyway. I'm still trying to figure out the issue with the roommate, but I have no idea how to go about doing so without somebody getting really upset and hurt. Any suggestions?
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hey thanks for the note. hope college is going good for you except for the roomie who is stingy with her internet connection (poo poo on her.) ill keep watchign out for updates. peace.
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yes the catcher in the rye is pretty good. and american beauty as well. you are very enjoyable to read. i will come back when i am not so busy. xoxo, Miss Takes
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I added the Tracy button. I miss her every day. I hate myself for not telling her...just once how much I loved the person that she was.
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thank you for that, i had you layout for a long time, i like it... well, thank you for the bad news, i have tears in my eyes, i didnt even knew her, well, i dont know how much you are missing her, i lost my grandpa which i knew for three months last summer, and i didnt cry for him... and she must have been one of your best friends, i hope that you will feel her from where she lies in heaven, if she knew how much you care for her, then, you will be all right... thanks again... and, let the holy spirit replenisih your body... kitti
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you know, i don't know anything about your relationship with your mother, so i feel as if i have no place to talk, really. but i wanted to tell you that i felt EXACTLY the way you do when i moved out of my parents's house 5 years ago when i started college (yeah, i'm that old). i never in a million years thought i would miss my mother. and really, i still don't all that much. but, i've found that the distance between us has healed our relationship a bit. because i don't have to deal with her on a daily basis--or even a weekly basis, for that matter--i feel like i'm more comfortable talking to her about the things going on in my life and so on. of course i don't tell her everything, and she still mostly makes me feel crappy about the things i do tell her. and for that i resent her, but i do now realize her value as a person and as a family member more than i did before. i'm not trying to criticize you or tell you how you should feel, but i'm just saying that perhaps, in time, your relationship with her may improve, because i've been there; i've experienced that. good luck. :)
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thank you.
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you dont need to feel bad because your counter shot up after the tracy post. you gave people the news they needed to hear and me and im sure every other person who was touched by tracy's loving nature is forever gratful for you in figuring out where she was (even if we wished you hadnt sometimes.) i love your site and added you as a favorite because you were such a nice person to me through email and your diary is lovely. i wished i would have discovered it for other reasons but you have no reason to feel bad. feel free to email me for as long as you want. my email account is being screwy today so i havent gotten to check the past couple days mail but when i get in there ill read. *hugs* stay strong dear. we have to stay strong for tracys sake.
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You're a really nice friend...
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thanks, girl. i appreciate it. :)
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This is terrible, but I am glad that where she is now, she never has to be afraid of going outside again...Good bye Tracey...and if it was my child...I would want to see her diary..but that's just me...thanks for letting me know
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I also wouldn't tell her parents. At the very least not for quite some time. Let them grieve in their own way with time and think further about the longterm effects reading her times of depressive thoughts of suicide might have on them.
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I was afraid that she had further trouble with the clots and I'm sad to hear of her passing.
I do NOT think you should tell her parents of her diary. Tracy didn't want them to read it and her wishes should be respected.
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wow; thanks for letting me know. i'm really sorry &she will most definitly be missed. <3
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yes thank you again for telling me. like someone else said in your notes (i can't remember who) she gave me advice. i think you should tell her parents about her diary because even if they don't like all the stuff they read, they'll learn about who she really was.
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wow i cant belive it that you so much for telling me. we will all miss her and my deepest simpathys thank you for telling us all about tracy. we will all miss her
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oh my god...thank you for telling me. she'll be missed. *hugs* and i'm sure she's very happy that she <u>was</u> is loved.
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I found your diary via science-girl. I did not read Tracy and only just now glanced at her diary, but my immediate instinct is you should tell her parents about it. You are more aware of the content and whether it would be hurtful to them. But I imagine they would be thrilled to get to know their daughter a little better.
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I am going to go for a drive along the beach tonight and cry. This news has left me feeling completely distraught. I will miss her. There are no words for …. Tracy was a person I went to for advice and support and she made a difference in my life….
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are you serious??!!! i know you are but thats horrible i never even expected that or anything...thank you for leaving me a note, i would have never found out. thank you.
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Thanks for letting me know. God, that sucks. The irony of the situation is intense.
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lorilabcoat : |
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hey lori, thanks for adding me back. yay for new friends! xo.
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hey your right we do have the same name. You get a job yet? Me neither. Jobs suck. Freaken turn the city upside down trying to get one. yeha.
LoRi
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Hey there. This is Caitlin from Bop-Reviews. I just recently got a job, so that is why it has taken me so long to review your diary. But, I finally got to it today. I'm sorry for the time delay. Check out your score:
http://bop-reviews.diaryland.com/mercury.html
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Just thought I'd say "aloha" and give you a late congrats on graduating!
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Congratulations on graduating! I'm sorry about tracy. I don't know anything that's going on, but it doesn't sound pleasant. Hope things work out. Good luck!
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Happy Random Guestbook Signing Week! Pass it on...
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ok i know this seems crazy but im trying to figure out if tracy (the lady who owns the diary 'fakeitsoreal') is alright and she isnt responding to emails and no one seems to be able to get in touch with her so im going through the sites that list her as favorite in hopes i find a personal friend of hers or someone who has heard from her since her last entry. please if you have heard from her leave me a note or email me: psycocarebear@antisocial.com thanks
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it.s a controlled fall. so i.ve been out walking. sun burns + bug bites. fever sweats and lucid dreams. lead and mercury. antibodies and leverage. i.m.balanced. hurrah.
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I love your layout. That was actually my second choice...Thanks for signing my guestbook. I feel special!
-Allie
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I have not heard from her either. I know she hasn't updated. I worry about her as well. Always have... If you do hear from her...let me know. Thanks.
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Thanks for signing my guestbook and not trying to sell me a book on how to beat roulette. I mean, really. Who plays roulette anyway, huh?
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welcome back :]
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im sorry. i wrote you and i guess you didnt get it and i only just now saw you had posted again for me to write. i am sorry.
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lori : (
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i wondered where you were. i missed you. why is waykin doing this?? i am going to come disconnect those computer games. i am so mad. you should just go over and use his computer, forget where he is !! i missed you. i hope you are ok. tell me if you arent.
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you can say waykin makes you drunk. at least he is your official, in person, real life boyfriend. you are probably more drunk than i am. you can only get so drunk over the phone honey : ) i miss you !!! get that girl to sign up for the internet again !!!
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hey. did you find out how to get online? i wish that girl had not changed her pw or canceled her account. i miss you. these notes arent as good because we cant write private stuff. did you read my diary? you will know who paul is if you did. he is a boy i met. scary. how is play practice? how are you? how is waykin? when you are burning cds for me, will you burn the one with bullet with butterfly wings? thank you. i will send you cash for postage if you want. its so sad. paul is poor and so am i and we cant ever eat out or go anywhere so we just sit at my house. tell me when you might get online again. i miss talking to you. i will try to call you this week. when is good for you? i cant call tonight. dawsons : )
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you must come online everyday from school and talk to me somehow. install messenger !! i cant believe we can only talk in notes. sounds like you had a tough weekend. i am sorry. we both went through the wringer this weekend. i am sorry you are having so much trouble. at least you are going to learn photoshop like a pro. you will be making layouts like the layout people and giving them out. thats so cool. i need to try to learn it. i dont try to do anything with it and i have a book. shame on me. do you use the book at all? i am so bored. i wish we could chat. ok. hope this gets to you in 30 minutes. i miss you !!
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lori, you cannot lose the internet!! what will i do? i must have you online. i am so depressed now. blah.
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I'm so sorry I haven't been updating, but I've been incredibly busy at school, and then with spring break I got so far behind in my entries that I gave up for a while. But I am back!! And I will get all caught up. Thanks for the encouragement...or commandment heehee. Thanks also for reading my diary. I think you're my only loyal reader, but certainly the best loyal reader ever :)
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make sure we talk some this weekend. i feel like i dont even know you anymore !!
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lori !! farce is so cool. and your poems are so good. i read note to self before but the other two are new to me. i like them so much. and you rock so hard in photoshop now. i hate you! i love what youve done. turn on notes at farce so i can leave you notes there too. i put you in my dailys so write more poems.
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I just read "Everything I Strive Not To Be," and all I have to say is wow...and go you. First off, you write very eloquently. Second, it's funny to see how people change in such a short period of time. Ashley just failed to see what she was getting herself into and ended up falling into the trap so many girls face. Lori, go after everything you want..and most definitely, don't be another one of those girls. You've got a strong head on those shoulders. :)
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lori, all this fast food is not good for you. you are going to have cholesterol through the roof. i want you to ask for a salad today when the teachers ask everyone what they want.
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hey I'll give you some McDonald's hash brown if you murder Jamie Kennedy
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just saying *hi*! will be back!
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courtney love was lucky that she had drugs
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hi, thanks for making me a favorite! I don't know where my students are from - they are sheltered little hip-hop listening freaks, I think. they're college kids and they're woefully oblivious to major music movements of the past. Anyway. I'm sorry you have to stay by yourself at night - that sucks! I'm 23 years old and still get all freaked out sometimes when I'm home alone. it happens. hang in there!
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Oh God. I just accidentaly sent myself a note. Now I have to copy and paste it to fallenzero :P and try not to look like an idiot. And I got all happy when my email said I had a new note. I'm such a goober.
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I really like your layout! Anyway, yeah. I've had to stay home for a day or two alone and one night I locked myself in the bathroom with a kitchen knife and the cell phone that I begged mom to leave with me when she went to visit family for a few days. I can't believe she wasn't going to leave me with a phone. (we didn't have a home phone at the time) It sucke dpretty bad.
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It's okay to be 19 and feel the way you do. When my parents left me at home alone for a week, I slept with ALL the lights on and with the house alarm on and was still scared out of my wits. :P But then again, I had my fearless dog to protect me... She's a maltese..hahaha...I'm sure she'd scare anyone and everyone. :)
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aww you like the frogs?!? I LOVE YOU!!!!!
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Haha I hate it when people tan so dark you can't tell whether they're black or white...it's scary looking!!!!!! AHHHHH CRAYONS!!!
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just thought i'd say hi back! :) Your diary is rockin'! ~Missdirnt
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Just running round Diaryland and came across you...Peace xo PiperAnj
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WOW, really congratulations on your tshirt design, that's amazing... do you have pictures of your art up anywhere online? Because wow, you sold a design! We are in awe.
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the worst that could happen is that you just go off to college and never nail down the truth between you and boyfriend and there is never clarity between you two and the relationship just drifts into this grey zone where things become unclear and neither one of you know what is going on because you never discuss it !!!
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Hello. I read your guestbook entry. The reason of this is because she tried to kill herself on March 5. She arrived from the hospital because she didn't manage to hurt herself that much the day after, and killed herself, a second time in 48 hours. She added an entry sometime after she got back from the hospital, then later that night she killed herself. The one posted in her diary is saying that she was dead, but sometime after we posted this, we found out she had a pulse and was alive.
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WOuldn't hate you...I barely know you! Anyway, you were just being blunt. And I respect that. Some people don't have the guts to say what they really want in fear of hurting peoples' feelings and whatnot. Anyway, I read a few entries and most definitely will be back. :)
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eee. I know what you mean about boyfriend-ly insecurities so much, it might just be scary. How long have you guys been going out? And this might be really late, but do you know how Mr. Rogers died? I used to pretend that he was my grandfather and we held a little vigil for him in English class. :*(
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lori !! i am so sorry for your family. my gosh, that is so much to deal with. i hope things get better for them and you.
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Thank you for joining my Art ring, you are welcome!
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Your review is up at dork-reviews :)-Petey
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pelangi : |
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Lori, i've st up a special username for you - lori and password - mercury. I hope it works this time.
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pelangi : |
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Yes Lori, the username pelangi and the password is rainbow but I don't write in English all the time, sometimes I write in Malay.
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Hi Lori, just want to thank you for linking to my daughter's diary. my diary has a password - username: pelangi (it's Malay for rainbow) and the password : rainbow
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oh my god i love your diary design. thanks for joining my ring =)
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have you ever combined any of those? like like.... striped toe socks... or red kittens... or or or grilled velveeta cheese and chicken with pickle sandwich! perhaps I'm too ahead of our time.
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I would be that random Vanderbilt student. Now the mystery has been revealed. How did you know I was from Vandy by the way? Hm...
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grilled cheese and pickles? i heart you
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swordmaiden : |
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You know, that's what I thought, but it seems to be a REAL persons belief. Understand it or not...
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Thanks for signing my book! You're pretty cool yourself. In all fairness, I AM grammie, but I'm younger than your mom. Only 49.
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I just realized the name of your diary was on the stamp itself. oops. thanks for submitting it!
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fakeitsoreal : |
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your email isnt working
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dreamsarebad : |
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Hey....thanks for leaving me a note. Long live SP ;)
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i'm feelin' the no new notes thing. :)
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Have you picked up the Zwan album? It rocks.
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fakeitsoreal : |
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i am listening to linger right now. harsh : )
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see entry
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lori your essay is so beautiful and haunting. the end was so harsh and brilliant. i learned so much reading it. thank you
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I just wanted to say that I got your note. It was great to know that someone else felt the same way about their old diary and was trying to start over. It's funny because you were my first note ever. Even on my old diary that all my friends knew about they never left me a note, so your note was extra special :) I've been reading your new diary and it seems very real and genuine. Good luck with that.
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I got your note...I am PoeticaL of poetical.diaryland.com And I will email tracy and let her know.
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