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from omfggwtf :
just stumbled onto your diary. i like it :) xo.
from shanmeid :
Oh wow at your and all your Steamie friends. I'm super jealous. >.< And I'm sorry about your Nana. I'm thinking of you and your family. Loves.
from moonbaby8u :
Im not sure if things are the same here in Wisconsin or not...but I just finsihed my phlebotomy class and here...you haveto do basic lab with phlebotomy and well....i found out that you really dont haveto take basic lab....all you haveto do is pass phlebotomy,,,,,could have saved almost 400 if I would have known that!
from shanmeid :
Yay! That's what I call a SUPER-SPRINGCLEAN! lol! I loved your room before but now I love it even more! :)
from shanmeid :
I didn't realise you've been going through such a hard time with everything. I'm really sorry to hear but at the same time I admire your courage to fight it and not let it control everything about you. Take care love :)
from shanmeid :
Yay for knowledge! You've always wanted to be the nursing kind? I believe that's a really admiral path to take in life. I have so much respect for people who are the care industry. It's not for everyone and those that do dedicate their lives to helping eithers are right on top of my list of awesome people. :)
from shanmeid :
That's just awful about the puppy. We had a pitbull when I was younger. She went all deranged and ate all her puppies... the SPCA took her away and put her down. >,< I know it's sad but there's something not right with those animals! It's really terrible...
from shanmeid :
Beautiful words...
from shanmeid :
It is really inspiring to see how happy you are with life! :) You look lovely! :)
from shanmeid :
Love Love Love ;) I'm so happy for you... it's the one thing we all ask for and you've got it! :)
from and-darling :
Hola chica. I find it super strange how your subculture fancy would typically conflict with your religious believes and yet, it seems like it doesn't with you. I'd like to think I'm somewhat the same way in a sense... Love the read!
from zuzus-petals :
You bought the ring at Walmart!?!
from exclamatory :
Great! Thanks! By the way, my diary is now locked. Username: pink -- Password: white
from exclamatory :
Hello, I stumbled across your diary and was very intrigued. I'm adding you to my fav. diaries. Add me back if you'd like. Perhaps we could be diary buddies.
from shanmeid :
cool slideshow... ;)
from shanmeid :
congrat's ;)
from shanmeid :
where are you going too?
from ohmegah :
when you see the name "ohmegah" what is the first thing that comes to your mind?
from jabari :
hey, stumbled upon your diary randomly. i really like the music selections. happy blogging! *poof*
from shanmeid :
hey... (((hugs))) :p
from ohmegah :
You seem like a very interesting person and we have a lot in common actually. Take care.
from pink-circle :
*The Circle of the Phoenix* Hi, I'm Phoenix, and I'd like to personally invite you to join The Circle; a writers' and artists' group for diaryland members. It's a public journal, so that anyone can post to it, but members have profiles on the site, as well as critiques, and once promoted to Apprentice have buttons to show off their achievements on their site. I hope you don't take this as spam, you can just delete this message if you're not interested, but if you are, please visit our welcome page: http://pink-circle.diaryland.com/welcome3.html -- Thanks for your time -- Atara Phoenix
from shanmeid :
sucks about your hands... I hope it heals, regardless of your job. As for that dress, it's gorgeous. I think it'd definately suit you. That women's hair in the pic is similar to how my hair is cut now. I'll try to post pics soon! <3
from shanmeid :
Hope you feel better soon *hugs*
from shanmeid :
I <3 tulips ;)
from shanmeid :
u looking so g'd hun'. hope he's a keeper! <3
from casey887 :
Hello. Im new to this whole thing...But I came across your profile and I really enjoy reading about you...Umm well I guessI just wanted to tell you that. haha Talk soon. <3
from shanmeid :
hey honeybunch... congrat's on the weightloss ;) won't be around much from today. i'm on holiday for a month. will be back at work the 19th march! keep well hun' <3
from shanmeid :
what phone are you getting? I'm also getting a new phone in a week! Yippee! ;)
from shanmeid :
I'm shocked! Love the new Evanessence! I bought the CD the other day and that is my fav' song.
from shanmeid :
friends after never works... at some point he would've moved on and you still would've been left behind! I'm sorry you're going thru' this! <3
from shanmeid :
how you feeling? did you write that poem? it's beautiful. almost like lyrics. i hope you're feeling stronger and your stomach is better. <3
from shanmeid :
no rebounds please! be his friend for about 2 months and take it from there... <3
from shanmeid :
happy new year! and yeah, you're right: new year, clean slate, new messes ;) hehehe
from shanmeid :
perhaps you were always meant to be as friends should be and not taken it to that next level, but then you would never know what it was like to love and be loved by him! <3
from shanmeid :
i'm glad to hear you say you'd be able to live with the sacrifices because so many people don't realise that love, relationships and marriage are about sacrificing some part of yourself to be with that person. i try not to think of it as sacrifice, i try to think about it as giving up something to gain something else...
from shanmeid :
*love you*
from dinosaurorgy :
Just wanted to say that you have a very nifty template :)
from shanmeid :
*hugs*
from shanmeid :
hey hun'... sorry you're sad... wish there was something I could do. :' ( Hopefully he'll come round... I know how much he means to you!
from onlyme4eva :
Don't give up, It could be worse, You could be stuck in a relationship with someone who loves you to bits but treats you like a little kid, and the next they are all over you making you feel guilty for being yourself, If he doesn't love you for being yourself then he's not worth it.
from moonbaby8u :
I adore your Angie....how *cute*
from shanmeid :
and more proof that you have fantastic taste in music... I love Papa Roach & S.T.P. <3
from shanmeid :
I love "Black Balloon"... glad to see you have a brilliant taste in music =D
from shanmeid :
hey hun'.... I think you should take the chance and apply for the position. You never know... and besides, who could turn down that much extra money! <3
from rachelsaur :
By the way, this is snowychloe. I'm just using a different account for another project I'm doing.
from rachelsaur :
Are you & Mike back together? :]
from shanmeid :
cute kitty... ;)
from shanmeid :
wicked car hun'... i'm so jealous! <3
from amazinfuckup :
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sunlight
from shanmeid :
"I give people too many chances to redeem themselves because I try to give myself too many chances with people" - gee, how familiar does that sound? ;) *hugs*
from blacksage :
well i'm able to get on the computer and that's about it so know if you want u can rite me back one questin did you and your mom ever get along i don't
from blacksage :
what did u get for valentines day. all i got my bf was a poem and he got me a paper flower but with herseys kisses in them.I might not write much this week cause i have alot going on in school like band and a science project and tutering.{i'm really stupid when it comes to math} but hopfully this week if i have time i'll write another entry well l8ters
from blacksage :
hi thanks for leaving me as your fav diary list. have you heard of a website called rotten.com its really sick well to my friends but i think it passes the time. maybe you should chek out my friends diary hers is forever-dork.i wonder if you like slipknot well l8ters
from blacksage :
hey i loved your background u think u can teach me how to bet one like that.and as for the steaks have u thought of a bloody red well see if u can write back
from shanmeid :
I know the feeling babes... that's why I've cut them out of my life and you know what? It feels damn good. I haven't seen any of them for about 2 months and not one of them have called, text or emailed me in that time. I'll probably hear from them when one of them needs something from me! So typical! Your life will be better without people who walk over you... I found I was starting to dislike myself more and more because of how others were treating me. It's helped a bit since they're gone! <3 You know you're a good person, so don't let the situation get you down! ;)
from shanmeid :
yay for you and Mike... it's so good to hear you sound so happy ;) <3
from snowychloe :
I read the essay. It's good. But I hate to ask -- were you angry at me for putting that up? Or were you angry at those statements all together? I'm confused. :( Well, anyway, (late) Merry Christmas! Thanks for the notes, too, by the way. I'm glad you enjoy spending time with this Mike guy. That is a very cute picture. The necklace you have on -- I have matching earrings, except I lost one of them at school. :( -- Rachel.
from shanmeid :
... that's why I dig you ... most of my g'd friends are virgo's! I just gel really well with virgo's! They rock! <3
from kitty-fuck :
ok. love your page. and i also love MM but dont really like the message! ha! ok. ttyl! <3pinkie
from shanmeid :
*hugs* *kisses* *more hugs* Wish I could make it better... and it's not your fault he's gone! Don't be so hard on yourself! <3
from shanmeid :
would loooooovvvvvveeeeee to get drunk with you and dress up! Promise, one day, when I'm rich, I'm flying all the way to where you live and we're gonna have such a party and dress up and just let lose! ; ) <3
from snowychloe :
Thanks! My wishlist is long & will not be completed for a long time. And you'd really get "God Is In The TV" for me? That's really awesome! You're awesome! I love icons. I have over 400 now. I took some, too, from your hidden site. If you want to see some of mine, obviously theres some on my site, but also there's some on b-a-n-g (http://b-a-n-g.diaryland.com), my icons site. I added a bunch of Manson ones. Yay! Feel free to take whatever. <33 Rachel.
from snowychloe :
No, I've never been on pills. But now my mom is trying to find me someone who can screen me to see if I have depression. But I mean, come on -- how can I NOT have depression?! Yeah, I know that pills can't always work anyway. They make numb the situation, but, yeah, it can exactly fix anything. I'm VERY happy right now, so I hope that doesn't change for a while. God (or whoever) knows that I've been through [mental] hell. Or at least pretty bad stuff. Anyway... -- Rachel.
from shanmeid :
That's exactly how I'm perceiving things to be right now. Everyone around me is either stagnating in the their old cycles of reget or changing into people I don't even know anymore, or maybe I never really knew them in the first place... All I ever think tho', when it comes to change in myself, is there will always be a reason to change. Past regrets, etc. etc. etc. And so you learn and you begin to develop new habits/characteristics in an effort to improve. But lately I find myself changing into somone I don't want to be, but perhaps it's my own minds way of defending myself. I can't always be this naive, caring person. At some point she'll be gone for good! That's the only loss I mourn right now...
from shanmeid :
thank you... to tell you the truth, I definately prefer the 'just come home from work' whore look ; p but everyone I know is sort of conservative, so I don't like to freak them out to much! <3 get some sleep! ; )
from shanmeid :
I hate when that happens to me, whether it be a friend or a something I like... don't make like you care when all it is really is that you want something from me! That just totally sucks! <3
from shanmeid :
I had a dream about you lastnight. It's the first time I've ever dreamt of anyone from dland. I dreamt that we took a train to go to some concert. Everyone was trying to bum our money and tickets off us. Then I went to your house and your whole family was there. Your mom was so nice to me and told me I could stay as long as I wanted to. It was just really, really strange... <3
from shanmeid :
your words are hauntingly beautiful... thinking of you <3
from shanmeid :
so so sorry to hear about Ashwar... I know how much he means to you! Take care babes, and you know there's a reason you didn't go with him! Who would have let me know if you were gone... take care hun' <3
from shanmeid :
I wish...
from shanmeid :
man... that's disgusting! Please do that more often... that's appetite gone for the day ; ) Happy me!!! <3
from shanmeid :
that's how I feel today... :'( and being @ work just doesn't help it either! <3
from shanmeid :
gee... you have like a gazillion notes from me... Mr Richard sounds so sweet... he's funny and charming and seems to really dig you! <3
from shanmeid :
~ always good to hear when you're in a good mood ; ) ~
from shanmeid :
... I know... the standards of society have distorted the word beyond recognition! What's 'acceptable' for myself, is totally different to the girl next door! It's just crazy! Loooovvvveeee the shoes just by the way! I wear a size 3 ~ ha ha ha ~ 'magine me in a 10 ~ % ) take care hun' and good luck with the modelling thing!
from shanmeid :
no... thank you for the sweet comment! I know it's tough having a dad who is out-of-sorts with themself! You don't expect your parents to have issues of depression, etc. It really makes you take a step back and realise that parents are also just human... ; ) <3
from shanmeid :
that is really lovely dress... in S.A. a dress like that would cost the earth! Can't wait till you post pics! <3
from shanmeid :
dig your new layout! love the dress... I'd wear something like out, bugger wearing it just for halloween! : )
from shanmeid :
C O N G R A T U L A T I O N S ! ! ! : D Welcome to the working class ~ again! <3
from shanmeid :
29 August 2005 Dear Feysuicides Happy 20th Birthday. I wish you all the best. May this new year in your life be the best! You deserve nothing less! <3 Shan
from shanmeid :
why not drive to the airport, fly to South Africa and come spend the day with me ??? 8-D
from shanmeid :
let's kidnap eachother : )
from shanmeid :
* hugs * x 10 billion = p
from shanmeid :
Give your kitties away??? I'd be sad too! Pls post some pics when you do your hair... I'd like to see! <3
from shanmeid :
Pls pls take some pics and post them... wanna see! <3
from shanmeid :
hey... so you did it : ( the sadness will pass in time. you know that! about the pms... i thought i would kill myself yesterday. after the exhaustion from my trade test and all the aches and pains i had, i felt that life was just too difficult to deal with anymore. now it's waiting to find out whether i passed or not. the wait is freaking me out, because i don't know if i can deal with the humiliation if i fail...
from shanmeid :
it's me, again... you're so much like it's actually scary. trying to save people from themselves and their sadness when the truth is we're actually drowning in our own emotions. it's taken me a while to teach myself not to get wrapped in other peoples stuff. i've learnt the hard way, and i've lost friends and hurt people and myself in the process. i love being loved by Fish and even tho' he makes me make decisions i don't want to sometimes it's for the best... you might not see it at the time, but eventually it'll be clearer. <3 <3
from euphoric-fae :
your bf will come back to you.. don't worry.. afterall he told you to keep the promise ring he gave you. blessed be. carine :*
from shanmeid :
Sorry to hear about you and Vidol. Who was that guy you saw? An ex? Vidol should know that even tho' you're with him and you love him, things from the past can still freak a person out badly. Story of my life, bumping into ex's and freaking out! Fish isn't the jealous type, which I am so grateful for. But yout take care and cuddle your kitty everynight you sleep... he'll be there with you!
from shanmeid :
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO YOU TOO... Hope Vidol spoils you rotten. Fish and I don't celebrate Valentines as our 'anniversary' is on 24 Feb'. We've been together 9 years this year! But we are going to a seafood evening on a yacht. Should be interesting!! Take care! Have a fab' day!
from snow666white :
Hello, dearest; Thank you kindly for the addition to your privilaged list of favorites.. I must indeed, return the gesture, as well as view your poetry... many thanks over. -Whitest of Snow.
from snow666white :
Hmm, I'm rather interested in viewing your poems, yet am unable to access them? I am unsure if there is a problem with your site or my computer. Regardless, my interests are at their peek -would it be possible to view your poetry some other way??? -Whitest of Snow, Snow White.
from shanmeid :
I think you're beautiful... 'specially that last picture of yourself. Love the make-up effects. Imagine waking your parents from a deep sleep with that face... it woud quite seriously freak them out! You're pretty creative... have you studied stage make-up at all? You should. Looks to me as tho' you have a talent for it...
from shanmeid :
THANKS SO MUCH FOR UR COMMENT IN UR PROFILE... No one has ever told me 'I rock'... u've made my day =D
from shanmeid :
Have your mum in my thoughts. I hope she's okay... hope God keeps her safe. And you for that matter!
from shanmeid :
Any 4 questions: (1) Doesn't being a goth and goin to church contradict the 2 beliefs? (Just curious, would never judge)? (2) What's the most evil thing you've ever thought? (Never read any of your past entry's)? (3) Would you kill yourself because you love someone so much? (4) What's your favourite position ;-) (You said anything) ...
from gigamonster :
Clicked on your banner and liked what was linked. :)
from candoor :
somehow I found myself here and explored... I am impressed with how much there is to explore :)
from color-me :
Hey!I started a new diaryland listing, Color-Me. I thought I'd invite you to come check it out, and browse the diaries.
from halifaxgirl :
shit, girl, we deffinity need to chat. you sould awesome and we're on the same page on some issures (probably most issues.) check me out.
from gothfukk :
um, sorry I keep writing you,this is Armscars by the way. I cant see my old entries, and I read the faq but it won't work. did you get to read them? they all have the same entry number and when I click 'older entries', it just shows the new one. sorry to bother you so much, I had to bitch, and your the only person I've had even remote contact with on this site. lol, i know, im gay. PS, your new page styles totally bitchin. I LOVE it! great pic bloody pic! im not gold, so i cant do that, waaaa...lol.
from armscars :
o yea, if you like sexy writing dealy shit, (you know what im talkin bout), my other diary GothFuKK is gonna have 'sexual'(pornographic) stories written by me. i dunno, maybe not your thing, whatever floats your boat. i make it as graphic as possible,lol. (kinda like those penthouse letters,*wink wink* *nod nod*)
from armscars :
I thought maybe you were a chick with pictures at suicidegirls, cuz I know I saw 'Fey' somewhere... Jhonen Vasquez rocks, do you read I Feel Sick by him? Its rilly good. I only have one copy tho...*weeps*lol.i suk
from armscars :
um, yeah, hey, so if your poor (like me), then how're you supposed to get all that cool goth fetish shit? the most depresssing thing in the fuKKin world...your name sounds familiar... are you familar with suicidegirls.com or a synthetic hair site thingy that shows how to do dreads braids, shit like that?
from godmoney :
nice diary.
from iluvjessee :
Hey! I found your diary through the members area. =o) Sorry to see youre depressed. If you need a Christian friend you can talk to me! MY AIM name is Boinkiesbabe8474. =o) Hope to hear from you! God bless you! <><
from renewedgrace :
Hey. I was just passing by and came across your diary. Men are such prigs when it comes to cat calls! UGH! Anyways, have a super-duper-uber good day! >>>---->

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