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just-fine : |
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Okay this is a bit random but i was searching for my old e-mail address online and got a link to your notes page where i had left a message with it in - am slightly paranoid about people being able to trace me back here, so could you pleaseplease delete the message i left with my e-mail in it? That would really put me at ease - there was only one other link on someone else's notes page so i am asking them too. ;) Thanks in advance if that is okay, and i hope this makes sense! *kiss*
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johny-t-h-m : |
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Maybe you'll hear this and maybe you won't. Maybe you'll recognize it as the scream of searing pain...
Maybe you'll interpret it as a flash of genius.
Maybe you don't exist.
Maybe I don't either.
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evry1gtsleid : |
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BABY! WOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!
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evry1gtsleid : |
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...And your cousin Catie cried her eyes out when her Rachie walked across the stage, and she also screamed...a lot.. : )
<P>
hey,Nikki..I'll ask her w/e I want!!! *snaps fingers* Uh huh
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msmmack : |
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I know how you feel. I was there once. I gave it up, and now I'm not sure how to fight anymore. I'm not sure when to fight either. It's a no win situation.
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msmmack : |
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"4. Who is your favorite cousin that is 11 months younger than you?"~~ What is that crap?? Anyhoo, Rach, I just wanted to tell you that I feel you on the silence thing. I love you.
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1. What is one goal you have for your future? 2.Do you plan on graduating? 3. Even though they have MANY MANY faults and flaws, deep down do you love our family? 4. Who is your favorite cousin that is 11 months younger than you? 5. Who do you idolize?(or look up to)
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evry1gtsleid : |
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eep! I didn't know you were suspended! I'm sorry! : ****
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johnny-t-h-m : |
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your vow of silence will go nicely with my vow of celibacy.
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evry1gtsleid : |
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hey if you wanna talk call me : *
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evry1gtsleid : |
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I love you!
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evry1gtsleid : |
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I kinda like it, but there's all that empty space on the left, and i'm not a big fan of guessing which word will take me where : ) although i guessed "penetration" right : D ha
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msmmack : |
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Well, that's never good.
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msmmack : |
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There's nothing to forgive! I can't be mad if I don't know what happened in the first place. I'll just smile and nod. *cheese grin*
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msmmack : |
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Your darling cousin still doesn't have a clue what's going on. Here's what I've gathered- Rachel is angry because she feels someone is blaming her for something. That's the extent of my knowlege.
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The blame is clearly mine for this. I merely reiterated a previously used sarcastic response to a similar situation from the same person in question. In plain speak: once upon a time Catie asked me if I'd talked to Nikki lately. When I relayed that to Nikki she sarcastically replied that Catie's fingers weren't broken, that she could call her or email her. So I just repeated this sarcastic comment in the same situation of Rachel asking me if I'd talked to Nikki lately. I even said that's what I was doing when I said it. So where any problem arose is beyond my comprehension as I placed a disclaimer on the sarcastic remark. *finds the nearest door exits, slamming it firlmly behind me*
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Frankly, you have nothing to be sorry for. Blogging and getting your feelings down is the new therapy. You are just one of a million + people who are discovering just how therapeutic it is. And you didn't mention names or circumstances, so you just keep doing what you're doing! In my experience, there is never only one person to ever accept all the blame. Almost everything takes two or more individuals to make it happen. Keep your chin up, and keep up the great work. -- J
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msmmack : |
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Well, here's all I'll say on the topic. If you're just looking for a reason to be mad, carry on like you're doing. But if you're really interested in getting to the truth of the matter, you need to talk to the person you're upset with. It would be pretty shitty if you found out this relay person jacked up his, ahem, or her, story and this person who supposedly means so much to you really didn't do the thing you're so upset over. And then you'd be placing your anger in the entirely wrong direction. Why don't you weigh what you know of this person against what you've been told? It could save a lot of heartache.
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I'd like to know too, but if it is me, then I'd like to talk to you in person rather on a computer. If it isn't me, I'd still like to know incase you need to talk, even though you said it's in the past. I know you were fighting with Jamie for a bit there, but I don't think she reads this. it's like Nikki said, it could be me or her, but if it is or isn't, I still wanna talk just to make sure everything is alright :*
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Well, my guess would be that it is me or Catie, since we're the only people from the fam that read this. I'd love to know what's up though. I hate being left out of the loop.
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bindyree : |
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Hi there... thanks very much for taking my survey. :-)
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evry1gtsleid : |
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haha, how cool is that, just a couple days ago i was singing that song. it was stuck in my head for hours until i looked up the video onlin and listened to it : )
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cubjam11 : |
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Lean *with* the curve, but rail against it at the same time :)
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evry1gtsleid : |
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Alright, normally everyone would lean against it bc that's the way your body was moving before the curve(your body's still going that way) But Sometimes I lean with it just so i don't fly across the car ; )
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cubjam11 : |
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Thanks for adding me. You seem complicated. I like you already! :-)
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evry1gtsleid : |
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heehee, I know what you meant, I just wanted to give you a tough time, you know that! I hope your head feels better! muuah! :*
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evry1gtsleid : |
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your chest hurts? maybe you should stop smoking : P Well, I didn't see you here at school today so I hope you aren't sick!!
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evry1gtsleid : |
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rachy I love you! It was just a dream, and didn't mean a thing. if you need someone to talk to I will always be around, just track me down!
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evry1gtsleid : |
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*sings random song in head* Macho Macho Man..I want to be, a Macho MAAAAAAnnnn : )
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msmmack : |
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ROCK ON! A LAPPY TOP!! You, Rachie, are the bizomb. (Holy crap. I said Bizomb.)
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lovemetwice : |
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actually it's funny you say that, because i randomly break down and hurt because all i've ever experianced with closeness is loss. and i worry that it's just an inevitable process and that i'm going to lose the people that i'm close to now, which are the most amazing people i've ever had in my life. so i know exactly what you're saying. because i feel the same way. ♥
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lovemetwice : |
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exactly. it's very strange because it's something you've come to depend on to be there along with certain emotions, and when you notice it isn't there.. it's almost confusing. ♥
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evry1gtsleid : |
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Im sorry to hear that rachie, who was it? the guy across the street?
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evry1gtsleid : |
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News flash, Sweetheart.....there IS NO good cigarette
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johnny-t-h-m : |
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Thank you.
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msmmack : |
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Keep in mind the social group she was a part of back when she went to school. She doesn't have the same outlook that we do. She doesn't understand.
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evry1gtsleid : |
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YAY about homecoming!!!! I he came up and talked to me today at the bonfire and told me! I was so happy that you get to go with someone! you'll have fun, dont worry : *
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evry1gtsleid : |
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I love you too!!! And can I have the tree thing too? that'd be awesome to see, i read that book too ;)
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catsmeow1224 : |
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Hey sweetie. I'm reading that book that our "cousin" Bruce wrote. I am absolutely swimming in all of these names, so could you possibly send me the URL of your mom's family tree site. If I could see these people's names in some kind of format, I don't think I'd be so lost. I really appreciate it. I love you!!
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evry1gtsleid : |
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i love you, remember that for me.
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catsmeow1224 : |
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I don't think Dad thinks of you as crazy. I think he just gets mad because of the people who lead you to do things like this. I think he knows you're a product of your environment, and, like Catie and I, hopes that some day you'll be in a place where cutting won't be necessary.
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evry1gtsleid : |
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Hey! It's my allergies, OK???!!!! :) love you too
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catsmeow1224 : |
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Love you Rach!! *smooches*
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evry1gtsleid : |
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*talks like a pimp* yeah biotch, yous MA ho...:P love you rach!
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johnny-t-h-m : |
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"i stay inside my bed
i have lived so many lives all in my head
and don't tell me that you care
there really isn't anything now, is there?"
song seemed appropriate after reading your die-ary.
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lunaua : |
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Hey, you're unlocked! Welcome back!
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catsmeow1224 : |
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AWWW!! Chloe!!
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catsmeow1224 : |
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"If I ever have sex again, someone slap me. "
LMFAO! That sounds a little kinky, Rach!
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catsmeow1224 : |
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Rach, Take lots of deep breaths, and then say "ooooooooooohm". haha.Anyway, don't don't don't get an abortion. You will regret it so much, Rach. And THAT will disappoint everyone. Sure, you might be in hot water at first, but EVERYONE loves babies. They'll get over it, I promise. If you still don't want to raise the baby, consider adoption. I can think of lots of people who would love to raise a baby. (my parents included). Think about how you could be making another families dreams come true. But again... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't kill the baby.
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jesi87 : |
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i love you sweetcheeks
*muah* smile
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cacophic : |
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like your name...liked the answers you gave on a survey. If you don't mind(isn't this STRANGE??)may I read your diary? You're more than welcome to go through my nonsensical babblings.
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jesi87 : |
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I'm sorry you had such a bad night. I'll call you as soon as i leave school...hopefully i still am...*crosses fingers*
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jesi87 : |
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well me and jenn are coming. jess b isn't.
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jesi87 : |
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My bad about hanging up yesterday. Sorry. I'm bored..need an update!!
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jesi87 : |
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Rachy!
Uh..nice song..
Call me today. Alot of stuff happened :-/
I need to talk to you!
Its like 12 58 and you updated 28 minutes ago..dang you...
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jesi87 : |
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Sorry I didn't stay Friday. You know what happened. Did Kat stay last night? I was going to call you back and see if you wanted to stay, but I definetly fell asleep at like.. 10 30 or something. I love muscle relaxers now. I need one ouchies. Ill call you tonight i'm going to nick's with gabe. brians not going. he blew me off again. im getting mad.
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lunaua : |
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Hey there Nikki's Cousin! Do you mind if I read again? I've still got you on my buddy list and I always get to see that you've updated, but (obviously) can't get in anymore. If it's cool with you: lunaua@yahoo.com Thanks!
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charmangel : |
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heyy.may i have your password? email it to charmed_darkangel@hotmail.com if you dont mind.thank.take care
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dnyl22 : |
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The password worked this time!!
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catsmeow1224 : |
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Love the new layout!! Yay!!
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ktdream : |
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Darn, your guestbook won't let me sign. Anyway just wanted to say thank you so much for listing me as a favorite diary. Appreciate it! =)
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happy-schamp : |
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haha. (exclamation times three) I!!! will beat him with a stick for ya. lol Take care. <love><me>
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schampy : |
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thank you. Take care!
<love><me>
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happy-schamp : |
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((wide smile)) Thank you so much for adding my many names as faves hon! It means a lot. And p.s., I understood the irony of your gray ducky ;D I'll have pics up too soon I hope. Take care! <love><me>
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schampy : |
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thank you. take care. <love><me>
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schampy : |
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here you go: username: listen password: dontjudge
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lovemetwice : |
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the fact that both the word "slut" and fword" are in your name. means i love you. but your diary? honesty and bluntess [is that a word?] is the best fucking policy. rock on, you. xox.
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jesi87 : |
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yeah i didn't know you couldn't use html lol..dumb me
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jesi87 : |
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i tried to call you last night.. i guess you didn't get home till late..
<i>if i'm one of those people that push you..that make you feel like that..</I> <b>Im sorry Rach</b>
i don't want you to be hurting, i want you to be happy. i loves you sweet cheeks
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catsmeow1224 : |
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and when I said "deserve to feel it" I mean that you have been fucked over royally, and you deserve to be pissed about it... Not that you deserve to feel it because you are a punk kid or something. I just wanted to clarify that : )
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catsmeow1224 : |
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I'd like to know who in the family thinks he didn't do that to you, because I'll rip their black hearts out myself. That's Bullshit, Rach. I think he did it more to YOU than to her, even. He can sit and say "Marlo *trying to keep thing anonymous*, I was driving into another woman's bed because you blah blah, etc." But You didn't do anything to deserve the pain and anguish. And the REALLY bad part of it all is that not only do you have to deal with anger towards him, but anger towards your mom too. You have two people to be angry at, when each of them only have one. How in the Hell do they expect you to heal and get past the pain when they wont acknowledge you deserve to feel it in the first place?? Bastards, the lot of them. As for the "Summer Camp" idea, I think that's a very wise decision on your part. If nothing else,you'll get a nice vacation from home. Stay strong.
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darkfairy13 : |
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Great diary *la la la la la -^_^-*
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jesi87 : |
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no you aren't. not at all. im sorry.. illcall you when i get home
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just-fine : |
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Thankyou so much for the message. I'd love to talk to you too, i read through some of your diary, beautiful. I have msn and aim. Aim username is bruiseddreams and hotmail address xkisskisskissx@hotmail.com :) Takecare of yourself. Lots of love Claire xox
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invisibledon : |
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thanks for visiting
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jesi87 : |
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Tell me, how does it feel
When it comes to you
And all the things you say to me
You make me feel like nothing
Like nothing
When you break me down
Ill fall apart and
Wrestle with myself, inside
Im nothing
And tell me, how should I feel
And all the games you play, on me
You still make feel like nothing
Like nothing
When you break me down
Ill fall apart and
Wrestle with myself, inside
Im nothing
When you break me down
When you break me down
When you break me down
And all the things you do
Like nothing, like nothing, like nothing
Tell me, how should this feel
When it comes to you
And all the things you do, to me
This makes me feel like nothing
^that is one damn good song.
i loves you. I've been worried about you..today..and last night..
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jesi87 : |
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I love you Rachy.
I'm here for you, you know I am
stay strong
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jesi87 : |
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happy birthday to you! happy birthday to you! happy birthday dear RACHY!!!!! happy birthday to you! :-D
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catsmeow1224 : |
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Happy Happy Birthday, to you to you to you!!! Happy Happy Birthday, *plays the kazoo*
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jesi87 : |
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i loves you man!! how come your fairy doesn't work anymore? thats all.. bbbbbbbbbbbllllahhh like lol. i hate school. i want to not be here anymore it sucks.
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raq : |
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Eep! Your layout! agh! no piccie! Would you like me to fix this?! I can :) And we can add you a rings page so its not on the front page looking all fucked up. hehe. Drop me a line if you need some help :)
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catsmeow1224 : |
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HEY!! I forgot to tell you that the fairy on your diary is gonna stop working some time soon. The place I had hosting the image gave me the boot, so we're gonna have to change your link to the new place I've got it stored. There's no rush though!!
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catsmeow1224 : |
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HEY!! I leave you notes, goofball! : )
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jesi87 : |
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my dads a barrel of fun.. lol. yep yep.
im at school.. got much to tell you!!!!!
loves you much SMILE!!!
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catsmeow1224 : |
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I updated!!! and you're not here to see!!! that sucks. Yay on your party!! I'm so excited!! I can wear my black dress!!! yay! when is it anyway?? : ) Love you!!
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catsmeow1224 : |
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People suck rach. they just fucking suck. I've had it with trust and love and friendship. Take care of you rach, and dont worry about other people. God knows they probably aren't worrying about you. *cept me, of course*
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jesi87 : |
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i love you .. and you know im here for you.
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dnyl22 : |
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Hey you!! It's been awhile since I've signed here. Just wanted to say Hi. So--HI!! Take care
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jesi87 : |
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Rachy, I am VERY VERY VERY VERY proud of you. I told you that on the phone already. I didn't hang up on you, stupid fucking asswipe dad turned the power off so he could do something.. then I wasn't allowed on the phone anymore. At all. I was allowed to call Jen to get her address for the party and thats it. I'll call you tomorrow.
I LOVE YOU!!!!
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dnyl22 : |
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Congratulations!!! Your awesome!! I wish I could write. I don't know how or if you share your writings, but I'd enjoy seeing some if ya don't mind. Just ask Nikki for my e-mail. Congratulations again *HUGS*!!
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catsmeow1224 : |
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YAY!! I'm so excited for you... and now a word from my mommy... "I love you and I'm SOOOOOO proud of you. I'm so excited for you, and I think you're wonderful!!! *kisses, kisses, kisses*"
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dnyl22 : |
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Glad to see your better!
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robins-daddy : |
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Hey Rachy,
"Fuck, damn, shit, ass, cock, pussy, boner, bitch, ass, cock, butthole, barbera straisand!"
Quote frome: South Park vol.12 the movie.
Heehee
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dnyl22 : |
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Hey, hope things get better for you. Hope you had a nice christmas. Happy New Year!!!
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jesi87 : |
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no, no im not mad at you.. why would i be mad? just been busy.. read my deadjournal, it explains it all! call me today!! before 4.. cause after that.. its just gonna be WILD. love ya!! merry christmas eve!!!
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dnyl22 : |
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Hey, I took some of your quizzes. Thanks. Hope things are ok for ya. I haven't talked to you in a while and probably won't before christmas, so... MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
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catsmeow1224 : |
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Rachy, you dont have to keep all that stuff secret, just talk to me. What am I gonna do? Be all Grown-up at you? heehee... and plus, this is your diary... you're supposed to say all the stuff here you cant say anywhere else.Bleh!
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jesi87 : |
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rach! did you're mom tell you i called on saturday *yesterday* and i called on friday..
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thesign : |
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Rachy!!! Its going to be such a merry christmas!!! Catie got all sorts of awesome presents... cant wait to tell you all about them... *shhhhhh* heehee... And WTF am I gonna wear to your party??? What about the new black dress I got. Not the fancy one, but the other one. Let me know what you're wearing.
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quantum87 : |
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I don.t want anyone to be able to relate to me - but unfortunately, many can.. Including yourself. I.ll be watching over you, belle. Thank you for your belief .xo.
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thesign : |
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yay!!! Presents for meee!!! heehee... dang. I really need to go to bed.
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jesi87 : |
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Rachy i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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catsmeow1224 : |
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People fucking suck. I mean. honestly. I've just about had it with people. Take my advice. Never fall in love. Life is soooo much easier if you do it by yourself. Get a cat. They'll keep you warm at night. *heehee* can you tell I'm in a pissy mood?
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catsmeow1224 : |
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RACHEL, THEY HAVE A POTTY-MOUTH DIARYRING!!!
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jesi87 : |
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YAYY!!! WOOHOO GO YOU! I TOLD YOU SHE LIKES YOU!
~*all knowing Jesi*~ <~haha
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dnyl22 : |
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Congratulations!!!!!
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jesi87 : |
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you dork. im leaving you another note. ya, im gonna just ask my parents if i can come over saturday anyways. even if they don't go out of town. so yupp!!.. lol well since you are on the phone im gonna go..
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silent-heart : |
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Thank you so much for your comment. You are probably right and it will be nothing, but its nervy none the less.
=^..^=
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jesi87 : |
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I hope you feel better.. eh im not gonna say it im not im not im not..
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dnyl22 : |
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aww, I hope you feel better :)
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jesi87 : |
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Aw PoOr RaChY mE iS sIcK tOo!
I wUvS yOu MaN!
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squirrelx : |
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Thank you VERY MUCH for signin' my guestbook and leavin' a URL so I could visit you in return. Your diary is f*ckin' excellent. Best, Xtine / Squirrel X
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dnyl22 : |
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Hey ya! Hope all is well at your end of the screen!! HAPPY TUESDAY!!
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jesi87 : |
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EEPP are you otay? did you go to school coz i came home and i was gonna call.. but yea you should be home in a few if u didnt.. yup yup i wuvs you!
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dnyl22 : |
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Hey you, just wanted to wish you a happy tuesday!! Talk to ya soon
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maddysinsno : |
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woo it's your fucking greatist fan ever. I just decided to leave you a note. Erh thats it. Thanks
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jesi87 : |
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Rach, Im sorry. What happened?
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cdghost : |
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i loved my visit to fworld.. need t-shirt
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catsmeow1224 : |
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rach... you know that I know how to find her... *wink, wink* *goes to get shovel*
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robins-daddy : |
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Herro Rach,
I don't tink you are like every other teen. I know that ,at least for the guys, most confusion comes from being horney, lol ....Heehee I made my self laugh. There is alot of shit happening all at once and all I can say is hang in there and don't let the baddies get you. You should just hang out with Nikki and I more so you can get a stress break. Unless your confusion revolves around being horney. In that case, please don't ask for our help. Thats just nasty especialy since we don't live in West Vagina(OOps...heehee, I ment Virginia)
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robins-daddy : |
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Rach, If you need us, you know where to find us. We love you bunchies and we will help if you let us. I hope everything is Okie Dokie!
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robins-daddy : |
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Rach, If you need us, you know where to find us. We love you bunchies and we will help if you let us. I hope everything is Okie Dokie!
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catsmeow1224 : |
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WHAT'S THE MATTER WITH YOUR DOG??? I'm so sorry I didn't get back before you left! I was helping Kyle get Robin to sleep! Call me, or email... I hope everything is ok...
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dnyl22 : |
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Happy belated Tuesday, my days are so mixed up!! Talk to ya later...
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jesi87 : |
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Rachy,
is okay!! i know your upset, so its not like im gonna get mad. your my best friend, its okay if you vent it on me lol.
cheer up..itll be okay!! and if not..then we can stuff em in a closet!!!
hah love ya!
Jesi
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catsmeow1224 : |
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Happy Fucking Tuesday, ya slut! LOL. How was the Ring??? I keep forgetting to ask you
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robins-daddy : |
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Happy Fucking Tuesday! This is sooo fucking awsome.
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dnyl22 : |
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loved your diary, it's so cute. things might suck now, but believe me things will get better!! If I'm ever online and you need someone to talk to, feel free to IM me!! Cheer Up
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thevampire : |
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Awesome layout. You fucking rock.
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Happy Tuesday Darlin! Even though Ashley isn't coming for Christmas, you can come stay with us if you want!!! That way you wont have to be subject to the inevitable Prater Drama. We plan on stearing clear of that crap this year. Any time you need me, you know how to find me. I'll be there in a heart beat! I also nonchalantly talked to Gran about the family saying things about you, not telling her the whole story, and she was livid!!! Gran said she hasn't heard anyone say anything at all about you, and that if she did, she would give them a piece of her mind. I love Gran. There is one thing I want to tell you, but I'm sure you already know. There are three people in this family that you can never ever take what they say as the truth. They are married to our uncles. They all have good intentions *?* but like to start crap. I love you.
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I love you. Hugs!
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jesi87 : |
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Okay Rachel.. I truly am sorry.I know how you feel when someone suddenly gets quiet b/c their talking to someone..Im sorry. I loveyou! Cheer up..please..i dont know how to help
Jess
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Happy Tuesday, Slut! lol It's funny to call you that!
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raq : |
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Hey! Sorry I took so long getting back to you about a layout. I've been swamped with school and job hunting. Ack! :) I'd be happy to do a layout for you! I will tell you though, I hope you'll be writing in this diary more than you have. Hehehe. Email me at raqqedup@diaryland.com and let me know what you are looking for, and we can get started :) Thanks!
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