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tofalldivine : |
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Sometimes those connections don't bode well for either party though. The ones that are good are usually worth grabbing at I suppose. I get what you mean when you say I seem more like a memory.
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tofalldivine : |
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Sometimes you are really good at saying what I'm thinking. I don't really know how much of a good thing that is. At least I can appreciate the way you say it though. But somehow I really don't think this matters a whole fucking lot either way.
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tofalldivine : |
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I think your name should be houdini.
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tofalldivine : |
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Then why does it have to be that way? I'm happy your "back" regardless. I suppose you never really left though...
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tarynheart : |
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i love you, too.
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natalias : |
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It's been the longest time since we've exchanged words. How've you been?
______________________________________________
"You mean she would rather imagine herself relating to an absent person than build relationships with those around her?"- Amélie
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tarynheart : |
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so i'll tell you that i love you even though i'm far away, and i'll tell you how you change me as i live from day to day. how you help me to accept myself and i won't forget to say - love is never wasted, even when it's hard love. - bob franke.
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teen-review : |
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you review is finally finished. i apologize for the wait. enjoy! - mandy
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tofalldivine : |
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You are not like invisible ink. There is no magic wildly colored solution to bring you back into sight. That means that you shouldn't disappear. So what I'm saying is write something or I will kidnap everything you love. Only less threatening and more coercing. Now go. Write. Be merry.
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tofalldivine : |
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Jake, you little....vixen? Okay, okay. I didn't have anything to say there. And vixen is a sweet word even if it does not apply. I think I have to call you Admiral Awesome Angst from now on. Triple A for short. Thought I should notify you.
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tarynheart : |
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happy birthday, love. i'm sorry i haven't been able to get a hold of you yet, but we will talk soon. i hope your birthday was really good and fun and stuff. <3love you muchly.
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tofalldivine : |
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Thanks Love! Right back at'ya! Drop me an email, eh? Tell me what is up in your life. Break up the tedium that is exam prep and application stress...please?
Lotsa love.
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natalias : |
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hello, jake!!!
Happy new year, dear. I hope this coming year is great and that you do everything you've proposed yourself to do. Many kisses and hugs filled with love-- gooey inside an' all.
Natalia
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tofalldivine : |
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Life is always glorious, if not always interesting. My Christmasses are always perfect but thanks for wishing me a good one. I'm glad you haven't mysteriously dropped off the edge of the Earth. It would be disturbing to realize that it WAS indeed flat. Oh...and that you had mysteriously disappeared. Hah. I have this absurd urge to call you "dumplin" cause that is like the funniest thing on the planet. Off topic but anyways, drop me a line if you find the time. Lotsa love.
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tofalldivine : |
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Heya Darlin'! It's been awhile since we talked and that's really too bad. Merry Christmas anyhow!
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a--new--me : |
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from: Natalia
I missed you all of yesterday. I still miss you.
-Nat
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a--new--me : |
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"how does it feel"
-the spill canvas
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tofalldivine : |
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I wish you wouldn't slip things like, "I guess I'll wait for you to give up on me," into our conversation. Nothing I do will convince you otherwise though, will it? Sometimes I may be a coward but not about things like this. So run away or stick it out but whatever you do stop treating me like I'm going to abandon you at any second. And this isn't a game at all because, you're right, no one can win but that means you can't lose either.
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studsnpatchs : |
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I have absolutely changed, I have just now realised. I no longer see the world like we did. I am no longer concerned. I no longer speak poetically, I no longer keep a journal, I no longer try to be deep and meaningful and so disgustingly emo. What is the point? Where did it get me? I now just live for the sake of living, I am not trying to get anywhere but where I am right now. I am better off. I am happy. I wish the same to happen to you someday, I know you'll fight it but when it takes over you'll be so relieved. Perhaps when you see me again, you'll have closure (I don't know if you need it). Once you see that the girl you loved is gone, you can find someone new. Maybe NOT avoid that girl who means so much to you - feel free to email me with all the details about her. I just thought you should know this. <3
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tofalldivine : |
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...by whoever gave them in the first place. Who is this beautiful important person in your life and how is it intelligent to stay away from them? Email me or something, hun. I miss you terribly.
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a--new--me : |
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why did you change, disappearer? so you're the only one who can disappear?
Why would you want to fade? nobody took you out of here. and you're still welcome.
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a--new--me : |
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this is not a role; it is certainly a transcendence. I'm not the one that hides. you can't see me anymore.
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a--new--me : |
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A passive outlook to those that pretend the words could contend to their thoughts, for the belief and disbelief of being remembered by those you cannot take out of the back of your mind. Time, its evil wing has you under.
I wish we could talk and you could see how much I've changed.
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tofalldivine : |
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I look forward to it.
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tofalldivine : |
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I don't presume to know your mind as I could not have known that I couldn't bore you. Unless that was spoken about some other girl, in which case I shall feel very foolish. (hah)It seems, sometimes, like all I ever do is speak. Maybe you should take over for a change. Hey,by the by, don't let the world get you down...there are too many beautiful things that you'll miss if your sad.
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tofalldivine : |
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You laugh but it it very possible. I think I may be wasting away without your company. There are so many things I wish I could say to you but there isn't one you'll want to hear. Truthfully, I don't think I am capable of saying them anyhow.
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tofalldivine : |
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Why won't you ask them if I'm willing to answer?
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tofalldivine : |
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Sorry about not answering you...I was interrupted. Some element of this IS already in play. You aren't the only one to think so. Again I'm really sorry, darlin'. Forgive me won't you?
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| from
tofalldivine : |
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That's right, darling. An original magic man(or woman in my case).
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tofalldivine : |
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Here I am thinking you are accusing me of being catty. Criticism wasn't welcome. Too bad words don't reflect my grins, people would read a lot less into things.
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tofalldivine : |
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Everyone has a purpose or a meaning. No one goes through life doing nothing...you wouldn't exist. Even if you meander along with no seeming purpose there is one. Or at least we think so to comfort us. And it's funny that you say I'm full of secrets because there is nothing hidden up my sleeves. There are no such things as secrets-just questions that haven't been asked.
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born-forlorn : |
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I miss you miss you miss you! <3
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tofalldivine : |
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Having a purpose is overrated. Anyhow, just because we don't see it doesn't mean it doesn't exist. And I haven't done anything horrible or tragic just silly and incriminating. I'm a little disgusted with my inability to keep this specific secret. Alas, a secret no more it seems.
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even if just for a day the polarized image could become clear and this glass showed how clear and pure everything could be. If only the distance could consume itself to let me tell you everything, for just one day. then I could sing the songs I've wished to sing to someone that's just too far to hear every tone with its purity. It will all work out because of the man that's inside the boy you see. That man that deserves everything the girl 'in a white dress' could be.
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tofalldivine : |
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Darling, you won't be alone and the fake lovers are always the most real. You'll have her. You have to. That's the way the story always ends.
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tarynheart : |
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i worry, i worry, i worry. it's hard to seperate truth from metaphor and at the end of the night i'm left cold with the thought that i might wake and not feel you anymore. i miss you with everything i am.
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tofalldivine : |
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If I could I'd be up in the stars, waiting and calling, as well. It's hard to forget how lucky the stars are.
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tofalldivine : |
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That entry made me cold. Sometimes you seem so sad and lost, my darling.
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tarynheart : |
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family is clearly not the secret. she harps about how i cannot lose contact and i must call her when i'm gone and the more she says it, the more i never want to talk to her again. is it normal to resent one's mother this much? anyway, enough. i miss home and i miss you and i will probably call on saturday sometime so i hope you'll be home. don't work too much and don't do too much homework and have a little fun, okay? all love. <3
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to-isabella : |
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We write for love.
"Reveal yourself on the page all your life, and yu are likelyto be rewarded with exile, neglect, or imprisonment... Tell the truth, and you are likely to ... damned with faint praise by your peers. So why do we do it? Because saying what we think is the only freedom. "'Libery,'" said Camus, "'is the right not to lie.'"
It is my meditation, my medicine, my prayer, my solace. People are remarkably similar at the heart level-- where it counts. Writers are born to voice what we feel. That is a gift. And we keep it by giving it away."- Erica Jong.
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tofalldivine : |
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I would too but I'm a little scared because I don't think we know what that means.
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to-isabella : |
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I am much better, love. Thank you for the talk yesterday. thank you for talking to me-- period. I would love to have more afternoons like that. now, in respects to my father's decision: we'll communicate through here. then.. you will come here, and he'll see what I'm talking about when I've said to him "you'll like him." I can't wait. But so far... I'm still going to UGA for Linguistics and Interpretation.
And.. if I helped with money, would you be able to stay longer?
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tofalldivine : |
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It hurts a little that it is only a "semblance of closeness." And the only thing that's created it is us. Is it real?
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tarynheart : |
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i miss you, love.
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tofalldivine : |
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Anyone,everyone but that isn't really it at all. I'm far too susceptible to people's charms and they know far too little about just how charming they are. Why are you locked again? It makes me feel like you aren't around anymore. I miss you when you're gone.
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tofalldivine : |
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Everybody says they value honesty but the truth is normally not what we want to hear. What do you think I see?
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to-isabella : |
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so far I love you.
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tofalldivine : |
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Then thank god that one of my finer personality traits is honesty.
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| from
tofalldivine : |
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If I said yes, would I be crazy?
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tofalldivine : |
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Sometimes I get the impression that I have some deep connection with you, like we are on the same wavelength...more likely than not I'm mistaken. In a deep little place in the back of my mind though...I wish I didn't doubt it.
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tofalldivine : |
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The lack of understanding is always the fun part. If we understood it wouldn't be fun anymore
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| from
tofalldivine : |
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Who wins these games you play? The way you write I kind of feel like everybody comes out missing something. These thoughts translate funny and the words from my mouth and on this page always seem to come out making no sense to anyone but me.
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born-forlorn : |
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http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v58/stardew27/44dfcefc.jpg lol... this time no HTML. kisses.
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born-forlorn : |
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<a href="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v58/stardew27/iloveyou.jpg" target="_blank">my way of saying things. </a>
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studsnpatchs : |
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i miss talking to you. a lot. its a weird feeling to have you so distant from my life.
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ifiwere : |
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your writing is beautiful. <3
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| from
tofalldivine : |
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It feels pretty goddamn bad but I don't think that was directed at me.
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| from
tofalldivine : |
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This sounds strange but I like how that entry was erotic without being erotica.
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tofalldivine : |
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I'm back to reality again after a week of comfortable bliss. And I'm escaping into that with your writing again. You never fail to amaze me.
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pocketsea : |
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Jakob.
As in Kelly's boy Jake?
If so I definatly do. He was pretty sweet and whatnot.
Ha ha, How's it going buddie?
Pee es,
I unlocked the diary for now, if I lock it again, I'll send you a password.
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| from
tofalldivine : |
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I really hate when you lock your diary.
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| from
tofalldivine : |
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Yay! You're unlocked. I'm doing a little happy dance. I missed your writing.
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| from
tofalldivine : |
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You are the one the note was directed at. A.N. is simply my abbrieviation for author's note.
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| from
tofalldivine : |
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It makes me a little curious as well. You know what else makes me curious? You're locked diary. When can I read it again?
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| from
tofalldivine : |
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Silence can be a good thing but I guess you can have too much of a good thing. Sometimes you make me miss things I never had and I don't know what that means.
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| from
tofalldivine : |
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Still listening, darling. Seriously...I'm keeping my eye on you.
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tarynheart : |
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i miss you.
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tofalldivine : |
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sometimes i forget how beautiful cryptic words can be. thanks for the reminder. lots of love.
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tarynheart : |
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i like the new layout; very cool.
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tarynheart : |
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picture me panicked. very panicked. why am i locked out and disconnected? jake, what is going on?
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on-empty : |
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Hey was just clicking around and came to your diary. No offence but I never knew guys could write so well. :)
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born-forlorn : |
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I want to write goodbye, but something stops me. I dont know if you need me anymore, please show me you're still there.
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tarynheart : |
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i miss you.
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goldn-eggsit : |
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now what?
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born-forlorn : |
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and, I love you.
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solace-blue : |
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"Oh, he seems great! That would be awesome to have a guy in bang-...and he seems pretty cool. I checked out his diary, and...wow. VERY good writing style, I'm impressed. Give him the password dammit. ;)", salt's comments about you. i'm not the only one who thinks you are amazing. i told you.
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bang- : |
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you took too long dollface, so i added you myself. if you don't like the quote i chose for you, you can go ahead and change it, but in you're in now, like it or not.
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tarynheart : |
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"miss you" and "you're so far away" and "this distance is almost too much to bear." i hope where ever you are, you're having fun and just...living. "hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend". anyway, i love you. <3
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dangelic : |
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Mind if I add you? I <3 your words. xoxo
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soul14 : |
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your words touched me because so often, i understand how you feel.
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tofalldivine : |
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I don't know. Somehow that last entry made more sense to me than anything you've ever written. Then again everyone finds their own meaning in things I guess I just found mine.
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deception- : |
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simply beautiful.
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dryink : |
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I love your "Gone for a while" entry because it reminds me of myself. Keep writing. And don't worry, were all in this together. Soon some girl will come along and join you on those docks and love you for who you are.
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usedglitter : |
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can you put yr code up for weretheshit please .you have 4 days if its not up by then im cutting you
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dryink : |
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I only wish I would write as beautifully as you. I added you to my buddy list. Keep writing!
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given-a-soul : |
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hahaha i didnt realise i was signed into your account, oh well. call me. love kelly.
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given-a-soul : |
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guess what? i love you. have a good day tomorrow. xoxo
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usedglitter : |
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<a href="http://weretheshit.diaryland.com" ><font
face="webdings" size="7pt">!</font></a>
have that up in 4 days on yr main page..yr beautiful........<3 delete this note after its up .
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tofalldivine : |
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honestly I'd say your both eloquent and insane.
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| from
tofalldivine : |
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my dear,dear tarynheart sent me some of your poems. Thank you for letting me post one. Wow, you're amazing.Beautiful work.
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studsnpatchs : |
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hey there, honey bear, i hope you had a good day, i want a kiss! haha, i hope you like the new layout, i am so creative and cool. just kidding. i love you. bye hun. xoxo
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tarynheart : |
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i've unlocked, just so you know. hmmf. <3
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expctnthing : |
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thank you so much. i'm going to try and write more... writing is beautiful. i like your writing too... your layout is pretty badass as well. thank you again.
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jenreads : |
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Do you realize how beautiful and wonderful you are?
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studsnpatchs : |
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i love you. xoxoxoxoxoxox. im sleepy.
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| from
studsnpatchs : |
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ACK! i gave him his soul! muahaha! anyways, hi hun, how are you, etc, haha i feel a little dorky cause im talking to you right now on msn but whatever, i love you, kiss kiss, umm. haha im in a good mood i think. did your mom send that letter yet? umm. send me a note! ok. later. <3 haha
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tarynheart : |
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so i have not left you a note in forever...hello there, how are you? you're writing poetry lately, i am loving it. you're a better poet than i am and it makes me jealous. frown. but oh well, that is life. you make me worry sometimes, with your...acting differently lately, and how miserable you seem. i would ask you if you were okay but i don't know that you'd tell me the truth, or a straight answer...or maybe you don't even know yourself. i do not know. are you alright, or do i have cause to worry? buttons buttons who has the button...hmm. you really should have faith in yourself, you know? you are a great person, whether or not you can see it, and this self-loathing stint you seem to be in is not at all flattering. i wish you could see what the rest of us see. oh well...try to smile, please? miss you muchly. <3
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parlance : |
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Quite nice, really.
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| from
parlance : |
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Yes. Changing soul -- but I haven't given it in for a new one.
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| from
parlance : |
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Yeah..
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| from
parlance : |
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You could always change the one you were originally given..
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| from
parlance : |
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Why? Your soul is you. You shouldn't feel the need to give it up like that.
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| from
parlance : |
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Then who gave you yours?
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parlance : |
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Given a soul? As opposed to -born- with one?
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partedclouds : |
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"I wouldn't trade all the things we wasted for anything less than fifty cents and a ride home." I love that.
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| from
maried : |
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Awesome entries. You write exceptionally, and it's beautiful.
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partedclouds : |
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Everything you write feels like song lyrics. I hope you intended it that way, bacause it's wonderful.
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jenreads : |
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Hope ou have a wonderful weekend and remember to smile because you are so beautiful!
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honeybunchs : |
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ooh, hun, guess what? i love you. look how many people love you too. today i am okay with you being so far away because weve got forever. and. um, thats all. i love you! xoxo
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seeinmyheart : |
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I have been reading your stuff for months now, please dont stop writing here. There is nobody out there whos writing comes even close to comparing to yours, and nothing that touches my heart more than your words. email me sometime? i would really love to talk with you.
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xforget-mex : |
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you are amazing. <3 i heart your diary.
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stardew27 : |
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why did you block me?? and don't answer my e-mails?....
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studsnpatchs : |
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today i smiled a lot even though i didnt feel good, and i made an effort to make some friends and it worked, i think, who knows whether "danielle" and "katherine" will want to talk to me again but ack, im just so infectiously happy, it even hurt me a little when jen was being mean to ali. but, these are just silly little details and the truth is nothing matters except that i get to see you in 7 days (and the next 7 days wont mean anything). i fucking love you. xoxo
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loveletter44 : |
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The lyrics are from a song called seventy-times seven. Its by Brand New (obviously) Heh. I wish I knew how to make my own template. That would be so awesome. But I can hardly even make my links work on mine. And I cant add my link to the dilly damnit. Grrr.
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studsnpatchs : |
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hey guess what. today i was thinking that maybe we could have a lizard and maybe we could feed it crickets and maybe you could save me from said crickets and wait, did i tell you i loved you today? haha. i feel kinda drunk or something but i am just happy and i hope you are too. kisskiss.
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tarynheart : |
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honestly...i know that it won't solve anything. i know it won't fix or change anything. and...i don't even know if i want to cut. but i feel like i have no where else to turn to, nothing to depend on, so i'm grasping at straws. i don't think i will cut, i don't need more scars on top of the ones i already have. i'm sorry for being so low lately, i wish i could pretend that it was different so you wouldn't have to see me hurt. (you never made me promise but i made myself promise for you, and for me, and for my mom.)
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loveletter44 : |
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Oh my, I love you diary. Im really glad you commented in mine. Oh, and I know TBS so you can talk to me. :)
pee. ess. Did you make your own template? I love it.
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supa-gurl-8 : |
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Hi, you have a nice blog...Well, visit mine sometime, kk? **Keep up da good work ~~supa gurl~~
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studsnpatchs : |
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iloveyouxoxo
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| from
studsnpatchs : |
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how come you never leave me notes? xoxo
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| from
driftnportal : |
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hello!!
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| from
studsnpatchs : |
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shake shake shake, shake shake shake, shake yo booty, shake yo booty! ack, get the hell online. its already 10 after. xoxo
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| from
studsnpatchs : |
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you need to get the internet again, hun. xoxo
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| from
studsnpatchs : |
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merry christmas (tomorrow) love, have a good one. xoxo
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| from
studsnpatchs : |
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dont let this get you down. enjoy idaho, enjoy denver, love life and be happy. ill always be here waiting for you to come back as long as you want me to be. but dont waste your tears on me, instead of being sad that im gone, be happy that youll see me soon. i love you. xoxo
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studsnpatchs : |
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hehehe sorry im a dork but tonight was fun and i miss you. kisskiss.
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studsnpatchs : |
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i
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studsnpatchs : |
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love
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studsnpatchs : |
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you
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tarynheart : |
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you're right.[there's a voice in my head that says "he doesn't think so," everytime i look in the mirror and call myself ugly. but i still have trouble believing it. it's hard but i'm trying, okay? and i wasn't talking about you, when i wrote about that, by the way...i was writing about gwynne.] and fifty cent saviour sounds best.
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studsnpatchs : |
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jakob love you are so beautiful. tonight i will lie in your arms and watch you cry and hold you close and make all your pain go away. i will show you all the beauty in the world and we will get away from the world for a while and just be together and let ourselves be in love. my dreams are everything i ever want this to be, and someday theyll come true. just think about this. xoxo
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studsnpatchs : |
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did you know that i dont ever want to have to stop kissing you? i hope you feel it too. xoxo
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| from
studsnpatchs : |
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i love you i love you i love you i love you goodnight. xoxo
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| from
studsnpatchs : |
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hi boyface. i missed you today, happy 4 months! i just wanted to tell you that your beautiful, and i love you, and that im going to wait forever, as long as you want me to. i love you so much, (i think i say it too much) and have a nice day. call me. xoxo <3
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| from
pentup-angr : |
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aaw. you're locked up and i cant read you anymore.
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tarynheart : |
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jakob i am very mad at you again. >=( Grrr. why did you lock your diary? that's not very nice. and even after things are okay. *frowns* please unlock your diary. or at least tell me why you locked it. i am sad. i never lock my diary permanently =(
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tarynheart : |
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jakob i am very very angry with you. you need to call me so i can tell you why i am so angry with you. because i don't want to stay angry at you but i need you to say sorry or tell me why you did it. and you never come online anymore.
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so-natural : |
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Your entries are so amazing. I do not know how to explain. I got so much advice, laughs, tears, from each and every single entry in your diary. I have read every single one, and each day I look forward to another one. You are an amazing person.
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tarynheart : |
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thank you for understanding. for trying to.
<3
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studsnpatchs : |
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i love you.
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pentup-angr : |
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lovely words drenched in sadness <3
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zero87 : |
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Hey there! Check out my diary!
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