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from rockhound :
A lot of your answers really hit familiar notes with me too. I don't read tear-jerkers because I'm one of those people who will actually cry at them. In fact sometimes I cry when reading a non-tearjerker that just has a brief interlude of abuse, etc. We probably cry at different parts, but the sentiment and the relived heartache is no less valid. It never completely goes away, does it?
from mugwhump :
I read your meme and played along myself.
from swimmmer72 :
"embracing my weirdness" - That had me laughing my ass off!!! I understand and agree completely!! Your questionaire was also a hoot and I plan on doing it when I get home from work tonight - very funny and good questions! Take care, Carolyn!! XO :)
from mskindasorta :
Hi girlie...this is my third attempt at writing and man I hope it works this time! Diaryland musn't like me for leaving! I just wanted to say thank you for your note and there is nothing you need to say, I know that you know where I am in my life and that you understand that. I think about you all the time too..hugs back my friend.
from lindzeeleigh :
I am surprised we don't have snow over here yet. You must have got it all already. I hope things improve at work for you and that your friend is doing okay. :)
from mugwhump :
Carolyn - I would love to send you an ornament if you'd like it. Send me an email with you snail mail address (and colour preferences if you have them). My email is at gmail but the first part is lj.ducharme@
from rockhound :
Good for the overtime but sorry it came with the cost. Hopefully things will smooth out...
from julymalaise :
Wow, it's already snowing over there already?
from swimmmer72 :
All that OT can probably buy an awful lot of pizza! This may be the one situation where school bureaucracy works in your favor. :)
from swimmmer72 :
Thanks for the compliment! I liked the way that batch of pictures turned out, too. I AM published, kind of. My pics are on the Presque Isle website, Raven Sound, and at least a couple band websites. I don't know if that is the same as being published, but it is good enough for me right now. BTW, you see the best of them right here! XO :)
from mugwhump :
We all make mistakes along lifes way. What a great friend you are to stick with this woman. I hope she understands how blessed she is.
from swimmmer72 :
People mess up, including friends. When I mess up, I find out who my true friends are. You are right - all you can do is keep being her friend and hope for the best. XO
from cocoabean :
Maybe no one would have noticed, but would you have been able to live with yourself? There are many opportunities to steal cash where I work, but I just can't do it, no matter how broke I am. It's called INTEGRITY.
from lindzeeleigh :
Oh dear. :( Sorry to hear that you are sick with the h1n1, seems like lots of people are. It sounds as if you are on the mend, which is good. Keep taking care of yourself! Happy 18th to Shelby, you must be so proud of her.
from myownjourney :
Heya. Sorry to hear about your suffering. Hope you feel better soon. :)
from kitchenlogic :
Lordy, that sounds like hell! I'm sure it's a matter of time before I get it. Dang! Feel better, okay?
from swimmmer72 :
I hope you feel better real soon!! Swine flu is nasty stuff, as you know all too well!
from julymalaise :
Hope you recover from the Swine Flu. My friend just got back from it, actually. He said it was the worst.
from mugwhump :
I remember turning 18. In Alberta thats the legal drinking age. I went out to dinner with friends and then my Mom invited the neighbourhood over after. The only problem was that the neighbourhood didn't consist of anyone under the age of 45. What was my mom thinking?
from lindzeeleigh :
Never underestimate the fact that you are making a difference, no matter how large or small it may be.
from swimmmer72 :
I'm glad my advice helped. Whether as a parent or a guardian, there will be highs and lows, which you know even more than I possibly could. In the end, you are doing a good thing, and with luck, it will reshape a life. On a lighter note, the nearest IHOP to me is 90 miles away and I've never yet eaten at one. We DO get their commercials on TV and it drives me INSANE, being a breakfast junkie. I'm definitely planning a vacation that passes through a town with an IHOP! :)
from swimmmer72 :
My job involves a bunch of boys who are almost all without good family resources. It's my job to supply them with the tools they'll need to survive in the real world once they leave us. I give you credit for taking her in - it is an awkward situation to raise someone not your own - but if she is to have a chance, it is people like you that will give it. Do what you can, I think she probably needs you, and nobody realizes this more than her. I hope that helps.
from rockhound :
It's nice to know I'm not the only one. Though G does generally back off by 3-ish. Otherwise I really would have to murder him.
from mugwhump :
Except for the part about having two daughters - I think we're living parallel lives these days. I'm having the same problem with sleeping / husband. Mine even says the same corny line "oh, you love me ... <grin>". And a 3am "love" is NOT what I'm feeling. Thankfully, I have a spare bed to go crawl into, and for some reason - even our cats leave me alone there. I hope you get some much needed sleep soon.
from wifemotherme :
Amen*Amen*Amen* God bless the tamis of the world! I have one too, named oddly enough: Tammy
from mugwhump :
You might still have to go to work, but think how much quieter it will be, and how much work you'll get done.
from rockhound :
Listen, this is YOUR diary. I know what you mean about writing to entertain, because I'm guilty of the same thing. But ultimately you need to write about what matters to you, and I'm glad you discovered that. Writing a journal can do so much to help you heal, but only if you write what you really feel. As to what set you off on a panic attack, it doesn't have to be logical. My son went through panic attacks, severe enough to send him to the ER several times in a single week before we discovered what was behind it. There was no identifiable cause other than the panic itself. In your case there is a root cause and it could be a thousand subtle or not-so-subtle details that jog your memory. And you know what? It doesn't matter what caused it. What matters is that you got THROUGH it and today you're having a better day. *Hugs* I still wish I were there to hug you in person!
from lindzeeleigh :
You've gotta write what you feel like writing. This is your spaces, so get out what you need to get out. I really hope you don't have another anxiety attack for a long time. I can't imagine how terrible that must be to go through. Hope your day is going well today.
from poolagirl :
I hope it's ages before you have to go through that again. My sister suffers from panic attacks too. What a horrible feeling that must be. I am holding you in my thoughts.
from swimmmer72 :
Yes, I hope it is a long time in between panic attacks, too. I can relate, although mine are more of the "anxiety burp" variety, and even those have diminished significantly over the years. I think you are right about your thoughts on writing here. Yes, entertaining is good, but it's also the place to "get it all out" and every once in a while, it's what a person needs to do and this is the place to do it. Thank you for sharing and know that there are a lot of us out here that care and support you. XO
from rockhound :
*Hugs* I truly wish I could be there with you. No, nothing can ever replace your son, nor can anything ever fully heal the empty space in your holidays. Perhaps an idea would be to incorporate good things about your son into your holidays? It might actually incorporate his memory into your holidays. Pull out photos, home movies, whatever you have, and be reminded of his joie de vivre? I don't know that it's an answer. You may not be able to do that, it might be too hard. Or it might be a start toward realizing that his spirit is still with you.
from yarnsmith :
Maybe if you radically changed the holidays and celebrated them in a completely new way...instead of staying home, go away for the weekend. Perhaps go see Mike and Lindsay. Make new traditions and find new ways that don't trigger old memories. I'm sure you have thought about this and other ways to cope, I can't begin to even pretend the kind of pain you must feel at this time of year...(and all year...just offering suggestions because I hate for you to miss out. (((HUGS)))
from marlen816 :
((Hugs)) I do not even pretend to know what you are going through, but want you to know that I am praying for you, especially during this season you are in with your journey of losing your son, Jeff. Continue to give yourself time.
from moosehunter :
I always hit the 'sad loss' period just after Christmas myself, but the only way through it for me is to busy myself with everything else. Pregnant wife and baby on the way this year will definitely help though. Hope things come round and life sends you a truckload of inflatable Shmoos and chocolate cream pies. I shall see to it.... SJAT
from poolagirl :
Healing takes a long time. Let your heart and soul be patient. I am thinking of you.
from yarnsmith :
Hi Carolyn, thanks for the note. I have been meaning to sit down and read and write for so long but I start so many little projects and I'm desperately trying to sqeeze them in with last minute "summer" stuff while I can....I'll set down this week some time...I promise. You know...I am the same about shopping as you...cold weather sets in and I go once and "stock up" on cold weather clothes....Late spring will come and I'll do it again. Just don't have the heart for constant shopping...fashion plate I am not. Also..LOVE LOVE LOVE the Red Box...we use it weekly. What a bargain. Talk to you later
from swimmmer72 :
You mean you can TRY ON CLOTHES BEFORE YOU BUY THEM?????!!!!!!!..... Yes, I'm kidding. :)
from lindzeeleigh :
Too much nightmare in payroll!! So I guess I shouldn't tell you that I haven't gotten paid yet either, LOL!? :P
from swimmmer72 :
For what it's worth, I REALLY understand "Because I'm evil like that." In fact, the "Steve evil Laugh" is a daily occurrence at work that the boys always comment on, especially when it isn't directed at them! Besides, he (your guy) deserved whatever he got - not because he screwed up, but because he didn't apologize! :)
from mel-is-dvash :
Really sorry to hear about your finger. Hope it is much better SOON! I miss you when you aren't able to update.
from yarnsmith :
I HATE payroll
from rockhound :
Oh my. Isn't bureaucracy a lovely thing? NOT! I hope things smooth out for you soon. It has to!
from swimmmer72 :
School bureaucracy used to drive me bonkers! Taking the good with the bad, as always. You do it very well - enjoy that free meal!! :)
from rockhound :
I do the same thing, and have been living the same kinds of stresses lately. Needless to say, my body is topsy-turvey as all heck with the change of work schedule, etc. Not pretty...
from swimmmer72 :
My old job would get me stressed and because I thought I needed it and thought I could handle it and thought I was strong enough, I ignored the way I drove to work too fast because I was stressed and angry. And yes, the stress was making me sick and I ignored that, too. That job and I eventually parted company and the stress soon disappeared. I listen to my body more now. :)
from yarnsmith :
Ha ha...I was going to write something similar about the people sho belly up to the sample tables on a crowded Saturday afternoon like it is their private lunch stand. I don't usually stop for the samples unless it is a product I really wanted to try but these people clog the aisles and won't budge lest they miss out on their free smidgen of old french bread dipped in olive oil or their 1" square chunk of quesodilla. The stand with the gian bowl of tortilla chips and 10 different kinds of salsa is the worse...it is unmanned and men shopping with their wives drag their beer bellys right up to that stand and just eat for as long as they can, not caring who else wants a taste or who needs to get around them. Like they never saw food before (but that belly gives them away).
from julymalaise :
You are quite welcome, by the way, what it because my notes were turned off because I think I turned them off by accident. i don't know. And no, I am a Sophmore, but yeah, lol.
from wifemotherme :
oh and while i am already here leaving notes, I thought you would get a kick out of this: - - - http://peopleofwalmart.com/
from wifemotherme :
HAHAAH! ok send the last one. Did you really tell that to the yogart lady? I wish i was brave enough to say things sometimes.
from poolagirl :
What a fabooo post! The yogurt thing made me pee my panties. She shops at my store too! Amazing, eh?
from swimmmer72 :
Since I've been through your area before and was thrilled with the drive from Bozeman to Missoula (as well as the rest of the area), I remain completely envious of the views you're talking about. "Sigh..." Be patient, I keep telling myself... Have a great weekend camping - you have definitely earned it! :)
from wifemotherme :
While I have never been camping a day in my life, and the idea of it sounds like hell to me, I could not be more happy that you got to go. I hope you have a wonderful time and that you are able to recharge and rejuvenate!
from rockhound :
Awww - well look at it this way. It's a three-day weekend before you have to go back!!!
from boxx9000 :
bummer is an UNderstatement. Good bye my wonderful summer vacation., hello hell.
from yarnsmith :
The words "back to school" always depresses me, even though I don't go to school nor have children who do...just something about it that says "BUMMER"
from lindzeeleigh :
Happy first day of school tomorrow! it is my first day too. :) and so begins another year....
from mugwhump :
YOU are a Domestic Goddess! Will you please come to my house - upside down currents or not.
from julymalaise :
My mom did the same thing yesterday, cleaned the house from the top to the bottom, me and my dad helped some, but we were mostly out doing some errands. Also, my mom said something similar to what you said about the house. She was like "Watch this house get dirty at the end of the week again." Which is true, I won't lie.
from swimmmer72 :
I've been there - West Glacier! Through it, anyway, on my way to "Going-to-the-Sun-Road". Only once, but it made my list of places I "need to get back to!" Also, why is it, exactly, that something that has had HOURS spent on it, restoring it to PRISTINE condition, can't STAY that way for even a little bit of time? While not being much of a cleaner, I can relate to that in terms of lawnmowing... :)
from fightn4life :
I am so sorry reading my dairy has re-opened wounds...not my intention. My heart aches for you and all you go through and have been through. Had I not been driven to write this book I would have to question why or how I found the words, and for what purpose. The most difficult part was reliving the past in order to write. At times I do feel a bit of healing, other times our loss like yours is raw...most likely always will be. I am learning to live with it knowing some day we will all be reunited. I wrote the book in hopes other people that are faced with inconsolable loss will know they are never alone. I felt alone for so long the only way out for me was to try and help others. Thanks for your kind words, I know it wasn't easy...I lived for many years with anger for others when it appeared they were able to move forward. If I had one wish besides to change the past, it would be to be able to give away the book I wrote. With all we went through knowing so many other people are dealing with their own grief, it hurts my heart to have a book "for sale." Find peace knowing it is not a "money maker," it is my way of trying to connect with hearts that have traveled a road familiar to mine. And hopefully together we can find just a bit of peace while we continue our journey through this often disconnected life we exist in. Thanks for telling me how this has effected you...Lord knows I understand and I am sorry, Sandyz
from rockhound :
My mother volunteered us to clean the church (basically me and her.) It was a Saturday ritual, every Saturday, for as long as I can remember. There was no pay or other physical reward, not even a thank you that I can recall. There was no arguing the point or planning to do anything else. Nor was there any togetherness. She simply told me which rooms to clean and I did it. I like your version better.
from swimmmer72 :
Forgetful principals, cleaning other people's bathrooms? ARGH! Two hours of mother/daughter time? PRICELESS! :)
from mugwhump :
First day of School!?!?!?!?! But its still August! What kind of torture is your school system?
from yarnsmith :
I almost did that too...lit up inside my office...You wonder where that comes from after all the years we've spent being banned to the nether regions of the earth to smoke. I hope Shelby enjoys her last year of high school....great high school memories last forever.
from swimmmer72 :
You are ALWAYS awesomely intelligent!! I remember the energy that a school building contains, having been a high school teacher for 6 years. Energizing and draining in the same moment, I think I'm more relaxed now that I do something else for a living. You're right about the hormones. Whoever came up with the bright idea to collect ALL teenagers and put them in the same place, I have to ask "What were you thinking???!!!" Yeah, I guess it's better than the alternative... :)
from rockhound :
Whoops on the ciggy... I'm glad all you got was a google-eyed look from a colleague. In this part of the world you can literally be arrested for lighting up on any school campus, even inside your own car in the parking lot.
from rockhound :
*Whines* I wanna go camping!!! I can't, though, darn it :(
from swimmmer72 :
You ARE amazing! AND, I'm glad you decided to go camping - cleaning can ALWAYS wait until next week. I've been telling myself that for years... :)
from julymalaise :
Wow, does school really start next week? Wow, that's early. I go back in September, but I am glad you went camping!!! Hahahhaha.
from rockhound :
While (thank God) I haven't ever had to face the loss of a child, I have gone through my dark places, too. My dark place once swallowed me up for more than a decade, never allowing me to see the light of day. I still find its shadowy tendrils wrapping around my mind now and again, and know how frightening it can be to wonder if it will ever let you be happy again. I'm glad you're able to recognize that it's not the only thing in life.
from swimmmer72 :
Interesting perspective on your "dark place" and right on the money from my view. I agree that it will probably always be there but I love that you are seeing other aspects in your life that give you reason to be proud and happy. I'm glad to have that to balance your life. Also, yes, Happy Anniversary it is!! :)
from poolagirl :
How neat you got to see the President! I am grinning from ear to ear for you!
from cocoabean :
how cool!
from life-my-way :
Thanks for the note and, as usual, you are totally correct--it would be fantastic if work and home would take turns stressing so everything doesn't have to stress at once. If only. I was glad to see you camping, hope it was great and that your back to school is easy-ish and fun-ish.
from rockhound :
Yay for camping! Yay for ice cream sandwiches! I'm so jealous LOL.
from julymalaise :
Glad you are having fun camping, wooo!!! YAyy! I watched Gran Torino, my mother cried at the end because of what Clint's character does in the end. It really was a great movie!!!
from mahvalicious :
I thought Gran Torino was one of the better movies that Clint has done. I saw the end coming, but that didn't make me like it. So sad. Hope you thoroughly enjoy your weekend. We pulled out of Sturgis on Sat. afternoon, spent the night in Sheridan and are currently heading west.
from lindzeeleigh :
YAY for camping! I am glad you enjoyed yourself so much and that it was the getaway that you needed. :) Also, I thought Gran Torino was fantastic! Enjoy your Sunday.
from swimmmer72 :
YAY!!! Good for you! Everyone has something that gets them to where they need to be. I'm glad you're getting your camping "fix". :) BTW, I get the exact same note from xxholding-on: just spam. She(?)sent me 3 of the same notes and I deleted them all and she hasn't bothered me since. I get enough dland generated spam in my email as it is.
from rockhound :
I love cooking, but not after work during the week. I tend to cook several big meals on the weekends then either fix the leftovers during the week or put something fast and cobbled-together on the table work days.
from julymalaise :
I know, men are creeps this days, I mean, you're right, we are not meat on display. We don't have a big neon sign that says "Lookie!" above us, so don't look! You tell that guy, h2ophobic! That was really digusting and right in FRONT of you, that was too stalkerish. Thank gosh, he went away after that. Yeah, my mom was like upset, and I reassured her, but it was still on her mind all day about those creeps at home depot.
from julymalaise :
Oh! I love Spaghetti and that lemon cake sounds heavenly, yum!
from rockhound :
Perfect analogy. I have my "pudding cup" weekends too lately, and man do I want to slow down as I get near the end!
from cocoabean :
The things hanging from the picture? The yellow one was Dude's honor cords he got from high school.. he didn't go to the ceremony, and would have thrown them out, so I grabbed them. The white one is my "Flame Trollop" sash I got last year in Tombstone during the Hunt. Hope you can make it this year... I'd love to meet you!
from mugwhump :
My hubby and I used to watch King of Queens as well. But the similarities were a little scary. The one difference was that (I pray) I am not nearly that bitchy! That, and we don't have an in-law living with us. Thankfully.
from swimmmer72 :
I think it was a good analogy. It pretty much descibes how I feel any time a vacation, festival, or day at the beach ends and I have to get back to the "other" side of reality. Hrmp. Well, today, I'm off for more pudding! :)
from boxx9000 :
The pudding cup is sooOoOOo true! I have to keep reminding myself to be happy about the pudding part and to not be so so sad about the end of the cup.
from swimmmer72 :
Thanks, Carolyn. For what it's worth, I feel the same way about your entries as I completely relate to the way you want to have things done at work and how you deal with the various intrusions into how things SHOULD be done! :)
from cocoabean :
he didn't take em all! still want some?
from lindzeeleigh :
You deserve you time! Enjoy your lovely new purse. :)
from swimmmer72 :
YAY for "me time" and the ability to make it happen!! XO :)
from cocoabean :
score! send me your address, I'll send you some cookies!
from boxx9000 :
boXxes, boxxes, boXxes! (especially those heavy ones full of books) My back is killing me.
from swimmmer72 :
I guess I should explain my entry. It isn't a matter of being sad - I'm not. Or lonely. There are times when I feel an infinite weight, for lack of a better way to describe it, and it's in those times that I realize at least part of my journey isn't meant to be shared and I'm on my own with it. And, rather than be saddened, to rejoice in the ability to learn about life from it. Yes, and to be thankful in knowing that there are people out there willing to leave notes of encouragement. So, thank you, from the bottom of my heart - your notes are appreciated. Also, I have the feeling you know exactly what I mean as you have travelled similar paths. :)
from yarnsmith :
Oh my God...if I ever have to do a payroll audit...i'm just gonna grab a weapon and put myself out of my misery. YAWN!!!! Enjoy your camping trip, if you ever get there.
from julymalaise :
Hello, camping sounds fun, h2ophobic. I went camping a couple of times: When I was in 5th grade and 7th grade, I did went. And we kids would always think that our cabin was haunted or whatever. I always like that, lol. Goood times.
from yarnsmith :
I do that too...talk to myself inside my head and answer out loud. Glad I'm not the only one.
from poolagirl :
I understand completely! I use my vacation time like a savings account. I hate dipping into it if I don't need to.
from julymalaise :
I read the "Half-Blood Prince." a very long time ago, but I remember some stuff though that they missed out and it was quite obvious that they did, and I was disappointed. The book "The Half-Blood Prince." was my favorite out of the Harry Potters, but I can't wait to see the next movie either! Yeah, my parents didn't know about the plotline of Harry Potter, but they easily guessed what was going on and they haven't read the book! Though at some points after the film, I had to explain some things about the movie to my parents, well mostly to my mother because she was asking all of these questions about it.
from mel-is-dvash :
So I'm curious what you thought about Slaughterhouse Five? I read it years ago, and barely remember it now. And, Hi, I'm back. Nice to be caught up with you again...
from swimmmer72 :
Good luck with the cyst. You're right - 5 cm seems big! Also, yes, I can relate to belt tightening. Like you, I've always kept a pretty tight rein on my spending, so cutting back a little more isn't that big a deal. The house guest thing? My brother staying with me for 4 months last year drove me bonkers at least some of the time. A person has to have some down time! :)
from yarnsmith :
I'll have to check that one out.
from rockhound :
I've never read that book. Maybe it's time to track a copy down!
from swimmmer72 :
I remember the book! Kurt Vonnegut, right? I never read Slaughter.. but I've read a few of his other books. Good stuff! :)
from cocoabean :
That's the message on the face of my phone, "and so it goes...."
from life-my-way :
Slaughterhouse Five is one of my very favorite books--Billy Pilgrim is one of the great protagonists of all time and "So it goes" would make a fab tattoo. Maybe I'll round out the summer rereading that favorite, thanks for the reminder!
from swimmmer72 :
Alright!!! The CHOCOLATE ATTITUDE!! A Carolyn Creation - I love it!! :)
from lindzeeleigh :
When I was younger I had a green shirt that said, "ATTITUDE" across the front of it. Perhaps I should find one similar for you?? LOL!! :P
from inwardblink :
sarrie to hear about the hectic day at the office. hope all goes well with Lynard!
from boxx9000 :
re: meat eaters. I personally do not care to eat any animal products, but it doesn't really bother me if other people do. It does bother me tho when other people are not sensitive to my way of eating. (vegan) I don't make a big deal out of (some people throw a hissy fit if meat even touches their food) I mostly just eat what is available that does not contain any animal products. My body does not digest meat or dairy very well and I hate the thought of some animal being caged and killed for my consumption. I do believe herbivores and carnivores and co-exsist. However, the site of the dead pig roasting would have made me want to cry. It makes it all a little too real that the meat was once a living being.
from julymalaise :
Hey h20phobic, that was a very funny story about the keys, ahhahaa. I loved it. If I had done that, oh my goodness, I would never hear the rest of it! (Although, I don't drive yet, so I wouldn't worry.) I wouldn't go near the pig either, I would be extremely mortified.
from poolagirl :
Ewwwww! I don't want to see the pig either!
from mugwhump :
I absolutely love having the office/building to myself. The peace and quiet is so lovely. Enjoy em' while ya gott'em!
from julymalaise :
Awww... thanks for saying Happy Birthday! hope everything is well with you.
from yarnsmith :
Taking a 1/4 preventative dose is not mood altering or mind numbing, it is prudent, so you can live a full life without the anxiety monster taking over. Funny thing about anxiety. I used to have such severe attacks that once set off, I would throw up for 4 days strait (every 15 minutes)...it was horrible. I couldn't take on any big life changes or projects because right before it was all to culminate...I'd get that horrible attack. I always thought I was having a heart attack. Funny but once I realized it was anxiety....and I relaxed about it and knew I wasn't going to die....it stopped. I can't take credit for it or even tell anyone else how I manage it...guess I'm just lucky...something clicked and although I can get bouts of anxiety (who doesn't)....it is not horrible like it used to be. Take your preventative dose and move on with your day...KNOWING that no matter what does happen, anxiety won't make it worse....just knowing you will be fine is worth the small dosage.
from mugwhump :
You do the same self-talk that I do. It's not healthy, but its a long term ingrained habit. Regarding the "assisted pharmaceuticals" - as much as we think we can live without them, sometimes its much better to live with them. We are NOT weak for having to rely. We are knowledged about our bodies enough to know that life is far better worth living with them. Hugs to you!! LJ
from lindzeeleigh :
I love that quote too and I think it is so true. :) Hang in there my friend and do what you feel is best for yourself. No one knows you like you do!
from yarnsmith :
I've poured a can of 7 up over a ham, I supposed Coke would be similar, however I never thought to throw it in a crockpot...gotta try that. Hope you get in touch with your friend.
from mugwhump :
I'm sorry for your loss. No matter the length of stay a pet has in our home, its always painful to say goodbye. You gave her a great quality of life for what she had left. Hugs - LJ
from julymalaise :
Have a great vacation!
from boxx9000 :
oh, i was so sad to hear the news about Princess. At least her last days were good ones with your family. (((hugs)))
from rockhound :
I'm so sorry you lost Princess. She was clearly as much loved as she loved you. *Hugs*
from lindzeeleigh :
Princess was lucky to have you to care for her for the last four months. I know she was a special doggie to you and I know you gave her the best four months of her little life. Thinking of you and your family. xo
from yarnsmith :
That's so sad. My cat is approaching the beginning age of the Lifespan for cats, and I am getting a little nervous about what her end days may be like...she is already deaf, epileptic and arthritic....they can't talk and tell you how they feel...all you can do is love them and hold them.
from swimmmer72 :
It's always hard to lose a pet. Echoing other comments, you gave each other happiness over those four months, and that means a lot.
from mahvalicious :
How wonderful that Princess got to spend her last months with a family who loved her so dearly. I'm so sorry for your loss.
from julymalaise :
I'm sorry about Princess and I wish you well. It's very sad to lose a pet.
from life-my-way :
I'm so sorry about your loss. In all the years, through all the dogs, it never ceases to amaze me how painful the loss inevitably is. Princess was lucky to have you all as you were to have her. You'll all be in my thoughts.
from yarnsmith :
It is exciting to rip up roots and move to a new area with your next phase of life and it will be wonderful for you to be with all of your family and cool that Shelby wants to go there too. Our move was only 20 miles west but the culture here in the Fox Valley and living in a city is different from that of our sanitized suburb we lived in all our lives....it really rejuvenated me. Good luck on your next phase and the best part of all is the planning....make that list!!!!
from cocoabean :
ROAD TRIP!!! It's never too early to start planning!
from poolagirl :
WOW! You've got itchy feet! Time to move on. YEEE-HAWWWW!
from boxx9000 :
HOW soon will you move? How fr of a move is that (in miles & hours) ? New start, new beginnings, exciting. Every time I even THINK about moving out of state I know I'm not ready to be away from my kids (yet)
from swimmmer72 :
WOW! Leaving Montana? Well, I guess that's the beauty of choice and if the time to move on is here, then let the gypsy spirit flow! I understand the gypsy part, even if my gypsy likes to move around but always return to "home" base. The Jeff reasons - yes, I understand them, too, and it makes sense to start anew. Time for the next chapter - enjoy Montana while you can!
from julymalaise :
You can kinda say Water Ice is like a Snow Cone, but Water Ice is more softer than a snow cone and it has more flavor and it kinda melts faster than a snow cone. I definetely will recommend you to try one, they are very brilliant! Oh, and Water ices aren't served in a cone, like a snow cone! It tastes much better than a snow cone.
from lindzeeleigh :
Happy 4th!! Hope you are having a great time with Lindsay and Mike!! :)
from rockhound :
Good for you - sounds like you got a much-needed break and had some real fun. About time! *Hugs*
from yarnsmith :
We have the AM personality vs PM personality in our home too only I am the AM person. I am like you though and don't have it in me to nag. Enjoy your visit with Mike and Lindsay!
from julymalaise :
Happy 4th! By the way!
from julymalaise :
Hey, I unlocked my diary, so don't worry it'll be all right.
from lindzeeleigh :
I totally agree with you about the news. I just turn it off and don't listen!!
from mugwhump :
I completely concur. Enough already, there is real news happening in the world. Lets get back to it.
from julymalaise :
Yeah, that sucks. That's why I hate the news, they keep talking and talking and talking about MJ! I mean, I know it's sad and all, but I honestly don't want to hear it anymore, please stop talking about it before my head explodes, you know? It's absolutely disgraceful, I mean just leave him alone! He's already dead!
from boxx9000 :
ditto. So sorry to hear about Bill's injury. I'm sending lots of good healing vibes his way.
from mel-is-dvash :
Yow! So sorry to hear of Bill's injury. You should both feel better soon. {{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}
from yarnsmith :
Take good care of Bill and while you're at it...don't forget to take good care of you too. (((HUGS)))
from julymalaise :
Wow, aounds like you had an eventful weekend, hopefully everything will be fine next week, I'm sure of it!
from julymalaise :
thanks for reading my archives, you can add me too if you like!
from yarnsmith :
Good for you...let's hope it stays lovely. Anxiety attacks are the worst. I know things with the economy and how they affect your husband don't go away so easily and it was ashame that you had to spend emotional energy on MH and her daughter instead of being able to devote that to Bill and helping him cope. I wish you were my co-worker....I wouldn't put you in a position to have to talk to me about anything...(((HUGS)))
from poolagirl :
Huzzah and hooray!
from seattle-rain :
You go, girl!
from julymalaise :
Hello, I have been reading your diary (Don't worry, I don't know you, so there is no need to freak you out.) and I think it is the greatest. MH sounds like a royal pain, but I'm glad you got through. Please comment back if you can, I'll be very flabbergasted if you do. -H.
from swimmmer72 :
YAYYYY!!!! You go, girl!!! :)
from wyndspirit :
So where is your supervisor while this non-employee is impairing productivity of staff? Technically it should be your supervisor's responsibility to talk to her, but I can understand why, in the interest of good relations, you would speak to her rather than "tattle." At the very least, she should sit quietly. Loud phone conversation is bad, but speaking to a new employee--especially on such an inappropriate topic--is WAY over the line.
from seattle-rain :
I would be equally as pissed. I hate inappropriate people and their relationships at work.
from poolagirl :
The daughter is completely out of line and you are well within your rights to stand up for yourself. Hang in. Your response was appropriate.
from life-my-way :
I, too, think you're completely right. And....if it turns out that you need to rumble with the barfly daughter, I've got your back. I've been in the mood to rumble lately anyway.
from swimmmer72 :
For what it's worth, I think you are completely right. MH needs to get her head out of her ass and understand she isn't in her living room at home. Daughter is obviously just as clueless and the only way to deal with that is to confront the behavior. Thing is, you shouldn't be the one to do it - it should be the supervisor. Good luck with this - it would piss me off, too.
from yarnsmith :
A pile goes down over here and it grows over there....they sneak up on you while you have your back turned...thinking you are accomplishing something..then you turn around and the "pile gnomes" have been busy behind your back building you a new one. I had to laugh at your comment about your co-workers. My sister works at a school too and has similar experiences with people who do not know how to behave in an office...I know through her how maddening it is when some co-workers carry on like that and you yourself have a work ethic. You have a good reason to dislike these people. My post about the looking in the mirror was when you have such vehement dislike for someone out of proportion to what they do to cause you to dislike them. On the surface...my co-worker is simply childish. I have good reasons for not wanting to be her buddy and she is rather easily managed. I have to ignore her...if I am the slightest bit nice, she tries to be my best buddy and chatters on and on...it's either on or off with her so I just try to ignore her and send out the signals "I am not your freind". However, she really really PO's me....I am severly angered by her mere presence. This is out of proportion to her childishness and it is that anger I have toward her that bothers me....that is what I have boiled down to her traits that I used to have...the me that is long gone but still fresh in my memory..the me I am ashamed of. Good luck listening to your daily drama. Maybe you could write a good book?
from rockhound :
My drawers are for the stuff I HAVE done. The rest sits on my desk where I can't let it slide. At least, not for too long, lol.
from swimmmer72 :
re: the drawer. I can absolutely relate. My problem is that I have about 30 drawers like that. "sigh" There's always tomorrow, right? :)
from poolagirl :
And a venereal disease too!
from poolagirl :
The last time I went camping, I got chiggers in my crotch. I thought I had a veneral disease!
from seattle-rain :
Oooh, I love mindless summer work! Have a great Father's Day and first day of summer!:)
from lindzeeleigh :
Happy summer to you tomorrow!! Enjoy your mindless work, I hope I will have some coming my way, but I have a feeling this is going to be a long week with exams, packing up my room, etc. Happy Father's Day to Bill. Hope you get to go camping SOON!
from seattle-rain :
Oh, no! I was thinking about your predicament with your co-workers leaving yesterday and I thought, "Oh my goodness! That sounds AMAZING!" I worked 3 jobs when I graduated high school and one of them was in medical records. That was great because I got to work by myself in the late evenings by myself and early mornings with my dad in the same office. So, anyway:) Sorry you didn't get to enjoy your day alone!:) I love reading those 25 things about people! What is it about running into people? And it's not like they want to small chat. Our neighbors always bring up my MS which is thoughtful but it's like, "Aaaagh! I don't want to talk about my personal life details with you!"
from swimmmer72 :
Thanks for the note, Carolyn! It is a bit of a mystery novel, hopefully with a happy ending. Congratulations on getting through another school year! Do you get/take time off in the summer? I hope you do - you are in an area that seems like it would have lots of outdoor things to do and I know you like to camp. I understand wanting to enjoy a little peace and quiet in the office, so yeah, too bad they aren't going. Take care and enjoy your summer! :)
from lindzeeleigh :
So did it all balance? :P I know it did!!
from swimmmer72 :
If that's how you piss people off, then they are the ones with the problem. Enjoy your roses! :)
from kitchenlogic :
Ahhhh. How nice of Bill!
from mahvalicious :
What a beautiful story - and those who get pissed because YOU got flowers really need to get a life.
from lindzeeleigh :
Free dilly bars at the end of your day? That definitely makes for a good end of the not so great day. :) As for the psychologist....I think they just throw words and terms out there to act like they know more than you. Seriously!
from yarnsmith :
A freezer full of dilly bars is very very dangerous...be afraid....be very afraid!!!
from poolagirl :
That pretend shrinky-dink has a serious case of Head Up His Assnia. And speaking of cases.....you gonna share those Dilly Bars?
from seattle-rain :
The eve before my wedding eve my husband accidentally threw my wedding dress away on garbage day. And then on wedding's eve it started to snow! It still turned out beautiful and it was a GREAT day! Yay for quick-fix weddings:)
from mahvalicious :
Oh my gosh - that poor bride and groom. We'll expect a full report. Have as much fun as possible, okay?
from rockhound :
Good grief - forty-six degrees??? I counted us extremely lucky today that the high was only in the 90's...
from lindzeeleigh :
I can't believe that you are done school already! I am so jealous! I have to hang in there until June 30th. I hope that you are feeling better, that is terrible that you are done work and are so sick! Sending you lots of get better vibes!
from yarnsmith :
Well at least you have a good reason for tired and crabby...I'm just crabby. Get well Soon!!
from swimmmer72 :
re: glass. I don't think there is anyone more qualified than you to speak to life's miracles and tragedies. That you choose to view life as a glass half full is an inspiration to me. :)
from yarnsmith :
Payroll is so stressful as it is...dealine...people's money...the whole thing can get so overwhelming, then when you add those brick walls...ay yi yi (HUGS)
from swimmmer72 :
Days like that are why I drive VERY CAREFULLY through Montana! :)
from cocoabean :
ohhh yeah, I was glad I didn't own a gun, too!
from cocoabean :
Oh I know you would have fun being a rain trollop!
from poolagirl :
Please come visit me! I am tired of watering my garden! And....I think you would enjoy coming to a Javelina Hunt and being a trollop with us!
from swimmmer72 :
You always make me smile! :)
from her-story :
I completely agree. My brother died when he was 19. I still get the, "Oh, was [so-and-so] your brother? How's he doing?" THAT'S rough... how do you go about telling people who didn't know that he passed? It's not easy, let me tell you... My sympathies to your family. :(
from seattle-rain :
Oh my goodness! That is so frustrating. A loved one of ours was just murdered and my husband and I have the same situation with our last name.
from yarnsmith :
Us human beings and our mouths..sometimes I wonder if we'd have world peace if we just didn't thoughtlessly open our mouths at the wrong time. When my Mother was in the hospital dying (we were out of town so it was kind of an odd situation in the little town we were visiting)...I was out in the smoking area and a couple doctors came out and just sat down..they started talking "we have this lady from Chicago here and....... I quickly said "that's my Mother". I didn't want them to go on...I didn't want to know the things they would say to each other that they perhaps weren't telling us in a way to make it easier on us to lose her. So sorry you had to be brought back to a painful memory right there at work with a stranger present.
from cocoabean :
yeah, like my co worker who told a customer who said he had a bad day that it couldn't get worse, only to find that his mother had died 3 days before....
from boxx9000 :
3 days ON and 4 days OFF sounds like the PERFECT work week to me.
from vanoonoo :
well, in my head, being able to deal with today is the equivalent with taking on the world so handling the next few weeks is an awesome position to be in!
from rockhound :
Enjoy your time off. You've earned it!!! Question for you, though: do you work through the summer too or just through the "school year"? My brain is on hiatus and I can't remember.
from boxx9000 :
"Eat the crust first" hehehehe. HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY WEEKEND. Enjoy! When do you go camping, soon?
from wyndspirit :
Getting caught up... It's hard to give up on the meds, even when you KNOW you are strong enough to make it without them. I still get physically exhausted fighting the depression, but I know I CAN, so I DO. As for talking fast, I talk fast, but mostly it's so I don't forget what I was trying to say. Otherwise I'll space out in the middle of a thought. Embarrassing!!!
from mugwhump :
they say that going peri-menopausal wrought's your brain. Maybe that's why you couldn't understand some entries. I know because I've been there. See .... I can't even spell rot, rote, wrought .... oh, whatever!
from yarnsmith :
My West Virginian Grandmother always said us "Chicago Kids" talked too fast. Now that you've confessed your deliciously evil pleasure in irking the mean co-worker, I guess I can confess that sometimes I do little things on purpose just to irk Wendy. Then I feel bad because although Wendy irks the heck out of me, she doesn't do it malevolently....she means well, I guess, she's just irritating.
from kitchenlogic :
I'm a fast talker, too. Which is why I love New York so much. They all talk fast! Slow talkers make me go numb!
from lindzeeleigh :
I love your own version of post secret. Next time you will have to design your own post card. :P I enjoy reading through them every Sunday morning with Ben [if he is home]. I laughed at the "hooker shoes" comment, such a gramma thing to say!!
from mahvalicious :
Loved your entry today (5-18). Your post about red shoes made me remember my favorite pair. They were a pair of red patent spike heels that I had back when secretaries wore heels every day to work. Man - how did our feet stand it. And as for Oprah - I used to love her shows, but don't have much time for her anymore since she traveled to London a few years ago with her show and wanted to shop at Harrods after hours. She and her entourage arrived at the store just as they were closing and they wouldn't open for her even though they knew who she was. She became angry and told the news media that the only reason they wouldn't stay open for her was because she was black. That shocked the you know what out of me coming from her - and I just can't abide her much anymore.
from mel-is-dvash :
Good luck, and, Congratulations! You may not feel like you deserve them yet, but believe me, you do.
from mugwhump :
Brake Cleaner wins the prize. The really sad part is that in truth - we'll probably be just like them when we get that old. Maybe this is why God decided not to allow me to have children.
from lindzeeleigh :
Good for you! That is not an easy thing to do, but it can be done and I know that you are definitely one of the people that will be able to go off meds. You have come such a long way and I know what you mean by wanting to live your life, not just kind of float along beside it. I will be thinking of you!
from vanoonoo :
Hi there - I found you via recently updated and realise you read bitchypoo too! In your blood testing - will they check your thyroid? Good luck with all the downsizing of the meds :)
from mahvalicious :
It sounds like you've made great strides and that's a good portion of the battle there. Good luck - and God Bless.
from poolagirl :
You have my full support. I am behind you 1,000%. Let me know if there is anything I can do. Blessings.
from swimmmer72 :
Good luck, Carolyn. I think your self-awareness is helping you through your pain and back to living your life. You're a good person and I hope you find peace.
from lindzeeleigh :
It is snowing here now, after it was beautiful! So be careful what you joke about! :P
from mugwhump :
You take that good weather and you run with it girl!!! We're having nothing but cold, overcast, and rain. Can I come visit?
from yarnsmith :
Is it as sunny in Montana as your wonderful disposition? Sorry you're all itchy and red eyed but yes...the flowers will be lovely won't they?
from poolagirl :
Glad you see the silver cloud through all that pollen. Hope your nose feels better soon!
from boxx9000 :
I got the memo, loved it.
from rockhound :
I don't suppose we could possibly squeeze that "calorie-free" Mother's Day rule to the day BEFORE Mother's Day, could we? Because I made homemade bread today. Between hubby and me, we jointly polished off almost one whole loaf by ourselves!
from mugwhump :
You have my permission to make some "me" time on Mother's day!!!! :-)
from swimmmer72 :
On my 2001 trip out west, after spending the day in Yellowstone, I spend the night in Gardiner before heading up to 90 and heading west (your neck of the woods). West to Missoula, north to Big Fork for the night, then Glacier the next day. East to Choteau for the night, then the drive on Rt 200 across "the big nothing". I think I saw nine cars and about as many houses the entire day. I do love your side of the state AND, if I hadn't already been blown away by the Rocky Mountains (Montana version), I might have appreciated the prairies a little more. Maybe next time, I come from the other direction! PS: I hope your Mom's Day is a good one! :)
from rockhound :
Your work sounds about as crazy as mine can occasionally be. Frantic as it is, at least you're employed. That's more than a lot of people can say these days.
from lindzeeleigh :
That is so awesome that you took in that poor girl. You are fantastic!! [And she is lucky to have someone like you in her life]
from swimmmer72 :
Good for you! I deal with this type of sperm/egg donors in my line of work too. Sickening to think what they regard as parenting skills and when you consider how that damage ripples through a community, well yeah, some people should not be allowed to procreate. I'm proud of you, Carolyn! :)
from yarnsmith :
It's now May 5th. I hope you aren't posting because you are feeling so good by now that you're making up for lost time and don't have time to post. I hope you are not still sick.
from rockhound :
Glad to hear you're feeling a little better. It sucks being sick. It sucks worse being sick and having to try to work through it.
from poolagirl :
Sounds like the tide has turned! Huzzah! Grog for all mates!
from boxx9000 :
Glad you are feeling better.
from lindzeeleigh :
Hope you are feeling better soon! Glad you don't have the swine flu. :S Yikes. Thinking of you! Hope you'll come visit me in my new home. :)
from yarnsmith :
Keep believing in those miracle pills....your mind can do miraculous things if you believe. So sorry your so sick...hope you will get truley better soon (as opposed to "pretend" better) (((HUGS)))
from swimmmer72 :
re: pretend better. I've never heard of that before, and yes, I guess it's better than the alternative. When I'm sick, I usually revert to "nasty better" meaning I get sick of being sick and just try to be so unreasonable that even the virus doesn't want to be around me. It seems to work. Hope you are back to 100% soon! :)
from rebeckajane :
I hope you feel better soon. Congrats to Shelby. Take care of you x
from rockhound :
Oh yuck - please get checked, if you haven't already. The swine flu is making its rounds and it's really, really nasty stuff :(
from yarnsmith :
Hope today finds you feeling better....and way to go Shelby!!!!
from poolagirl :
Hope you are feeling better soon!
from swimmmer72 :
I'm so sorry to hear you've been under the weather! I hope you're back on your feet soon!
from marlen816 :
WTG Shelby! Hope you feel better soon.
from boxx9000 :
congratulations Shelby! (((hugs))) Carolyn (I missed you) I hope your allergies are better.
from swimmmer72 :
You've been gone an abnormally long time - I hope everything is ok!
from rebeckajane :
Thank you..hugs to you too xox (I will send you an email about the plans to America)
from rockhound :
I like the idea of capsuling your week into list form. I might just borrow it ;)
from mel-is-dvash :
Thanks for the Primio Dartos. I know I spelled that wrong, ah well. I don't know when or if I might get around to acknowledging it on my diary, so I wanted to just say thanks here while I still can remember it. This made my day when I read it so ... thanks! :-)
from lindzeeleigh :
I love making lists as well and crossing things off is even better. :) And regarding the stinky man, i often wonder if stinky people know they are stinky. I mean, how can they NOT know?? Can't they smell themselves??
from rockhound :
I can't go to the links tonight but love your "Seven Loves" meme. I'll have to try that one out soon!
from boxx9000 :
Thank you for the award. My MzBee diary is empty, tho, and I've lost the password to get into it. Did you mean my BoXx Diary? I discovered today, that I have had my BoXx diary since April 30, 2003. MY HOW TIME FLIES WHEN YOU'RE HAVING FUN!! I sincerely hope to meet you one day. You are one of those very rare people here on DiaryLand that are sincerely SINCERE! (((hugs))) Peace, Love, HEALTH, and Happiness. ~BoXX
from yarnsmith :
I love that you are so filled with life, able to experience and feel the loves and joys and even the sorrows and able to translate that all to others. I've heard that we all get 2 chances at a mother/child relationship...one when we are a child and the other when we are a mother. Sounds to me like you took your 2nd chance and make the most of it. That is a blessing.
from mskindasorta :
I sent you an email to let you know where I am now. I really liked the meme about you and Bill. xx
from poolagirl :
What a precious and wonderful entry!
from boxx9000 :
I do hope to meet you one day. HOPEFULLY, if you are ever in CAlifornia, you will stop by to see me and my family.
from yarnsmith :
Congrats on the well deserved award and letting your daughter show you up by showing you how to post a picture....what exactly is that a picture of??? LOL!! Thanks for alerting me that my comments section was not accepting comments...it's fixed now.
from mugwhump :
Well done daughter! Now we expect great things from Mom!
from kitchenlogic :
I just love this meme. Thanks for being a copycat!
from swimmmer72 :
I had just gotten to the "neat freak" question and had to smile because I saw you were online and figured you'd be reading about my "science experiments" any minute. It isn't as bad as it sounds, but I'm pretty sure you would go absolutely nuts! Yep, that's my fridge. I do an annual dland review of what's on it. I imagine this year's will be within the next couple months. Good times! :)
from mugwhump :
Our inner voices can be so vicious and deceitful. Regardless of how much, or how little we weigh its never right - to our inner voice. However, by acknowledging stuff outside of our heads - we can make headway in shutting up the inner stuff. You go girl. You know in your heart what's right.
from cosmic :
My normally 145 weight has gone to 207 in the past year thanks to the prednisone. Tell me you are a fat cow and I will SO beat you up! I could fit you into one leg of my pants now!! Seriousley, I always thought I had a huge now. My step son broke it. I asked the doctor if he could that the bump out of it and make it smaller. I loved it!! I still do. Nobody else even noticed. Yes, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. If you think you are heavy, you will see heavy. I understand. My problem is I see fat and my scales agree by screaming when I stand on them.
from boxx9000 :
I saw a show on Oprah about BODY DYSMORPHIC DISORDER.
from lindzeeleigh :
I have had some lovely secretaries at the schools I have worked at. Forget the principals, the secretaries pretty much run the whole joint!
from mel-is-dvash :
Hi. I just wanted to wish you a belated happy birthday, but that seems silly so how about a happy forty-seventh year. Happy forty-seventh and may it be a wonderful year all 'round!
from mugwhump :
So I only have 1 year on you. But I am a day late. Happy belated birthday!
from lindzeeleigh :
That little bag for the puppies sounds so cute! Teehee. What a cute idea from Shelby. Glad you had such a nice birthday. Happy 46th!!
from poolagirl :
Happy happy happy birthday! You rock, woman!
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY 46th BIRTHDAY!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am not sure what your friend did to betray you, but it does not sound very good. I am sorry that you have to lose such a good friend that you once treasured so much.
from swimmmer72 :
I don't know what she did, but she lost me with her "too many people have left..." line, which was especially pathetic given the losses you have had. Sometimes, saying sorry isn't enough and she shouldn't get another chance. I agree with you completely.
from kitchenlogic :
I am so sorry that you were treated poorly by this friend. Having been there with a decades-old friendship, recently, it feels like a death, doesn't it? And I kept going back for more. Hang tight to your morals. Nobody needs a bad friend.
from mahvalicious :
I'd much rather have Montana's version of March Madness than what I'm dealing with. I'm so jealous and so tired of all this water. Love Lena
from mugwhump :
Shorts and a tank top - between two ski resorts .... something sounds very odd about all that. I'm jealous. (in a good way). And its always fun to run into old acquaintances, but it drives me crazy when I think I know someone and can't place them.
from boxx9000 :
I'm on VACATION for one whole week in Mexico! WhEeee!
from lindzeeleigh :
I love label makers too! :) I can't believe MH didn't let you use it after all your hard organizing!
from swimmmer72 :
You crack me up. In a good way... :)
from boxx9000 :
Today is PINK (slip) FRIDAY. Any teachers getting laid off in your school district? Sonoma County is getting hit pretty hard.
from rockhound :
Having gone through the process four times over, let me tell you a secret. Your children will make their choices regardless of your opinions. Sometimes that's a good thing. Sometimes not so much. My oldest son actually made the right choice, all the way around. My younger son is doing vastly better. My girls are still learning - but then again, so am I. Your daughter has the luxury of a decent, responsible father for an example. She'll do just fine - once she's done kissing her share of frogs. And maybe the occasional toad, lol.
from swimmmer72 :
You are right about the internet - I neglected mentioning the great people I've met from all over (yes, including you!) and how I wouldn't have gotten to know any of them without online. Also, that little car freaks you out? Imagine me driving that when I'm not driving a big RV - what a contrast!! Thanks for the comment, Carolyn. :)
from mugwhump :
My mom never approved of anyone who showed up in our driveway. But then again - if I'm truly honest - neither did I.
from lindzeeleigh :
I laughed when you wrote that you went and confessed to Shelby what you did! That was brave of you. :P
from poolagirl :
What a great entry about kids growing up! I helped my sister raise her two kids, and that was enough. Now, Octomom has had enough to make up for my lack. Thank goodness!
from boxx9000 :
You have to remember that ANYONE with a BA degree (and a pulse) can sub.
from rockhound :
Oh my... #3 was truly priceless, though they all have their "charms." And these people are teaching our kids??? No wonder our kids are in the mess we see these days
from lindzeeleigh :
Good grief....some people! You are going to give subs out there a bad name! I promise you that when I go to sub on my day off, that I am not like that!
from swimmmer72 :
I have one of those 24/7 jobs, so unless there is something specific going on and I happen to have the day off, Fridays are just another day. "sigh..." :) Enjoy your Friday AND your weekend!
from chickenfist :
Poor little old doggy.  You might want to rethink getting her vaccinations.  They may not be good for her at her age and condition.  How lucky she is to have found you!  Paula G from Indiana<br>
from cocoabean :
A lot of dogs come in to my workplace, and you are right, everyone talks to them like they are babies!
from kitchenlogic :
Now that I know you are the Robyn A. of chihuahuas, I'm going to shave Stella Mirra, Retrieved Golden, teach her to shake like Don Knotts in the Ghost & Mr. Chicken, and send her on the next train! I'll let you know what time you should meet her at the station!
from lindzeeleigh :
I was wondering what was going to happen with poor little Princess. I know you will love her and take good care of her for the rest of her doggy years. :)
from mel-is-dvash :
That poor dog! I'm so glad you are able to take care of her and provide her with a good old age.
from swimmmer72 :
Good for you! I hate people who abuse animals!
from boxx9000 :
ZUMBA is an aerobics/dance class set to all Latin music. It is soOoooOooo fun! There's some clips ay YouTube, here is one that is a bit slow. I swear our instructor is on crack. I'm going as fast as I can get my hips to go and I'm usually a step or two behind. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vf0q6qtThF4
from just2cusmile :
Hey sweet C~I miss you too-I dont really come on here anymore if I do its to check up on you,im usually at myspace or facebook or email..i've had a rough winter battling bronchitis since the end of nov. until about a week ago so havent been online as much anyway...hope your doing well...luv Patti
from swimmmer72 :
I agree. I'm not saying I would mind living in Hawaii with sunny and 86 degrees every day, but with a 5 month winter, we certainly don't take our good months for granted, do we? Hurray for springtime! :)
from life-my-way :
Hugs and tears from me too. What a sad and beautiful entry about happy and beautiful times spent together. Thanks for sharing those times with us--you're in my heart, you both are. Love, K
from mel-is-dvash :
I have tears in my eyes, but nothing to say. {{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}
from marlen816 :
((Hugs))
from boxx9000 :
((((hugs)))) I can't even begin to comprehend the level of grief associated with losing a son. ((((hugs))) I wish I could make the pain a little easier for you.
from mel-is-dvash :
I really hope you don't go away. Take a break maybe, change the format, but please don't go. I would be so sad. :-(
from mugwhump :
I'll miss you, but you gotta do what you gotta do. Please feel free to drop in and continue to visit us. I'd still love to hear from you.
from ship-jumper :
Nooooo. Please don't stop telling your stories! I love reading you...and even if YOU think your life is boring, I guarantee ya noone else thinks that. Thanks for the note...I have gotten behind in my reading and certainly my writing as well. Lot going on, but certainly no excuse for updating. Thanks for the note though, that was very sweet. Maybe that's the kick in the arse I needed!
from mahvalicious :
Don't stop - I certainly enjoy hearing about things going on in your life. If you need a break, that's understandable. I've taken them now and then too. But don't quit because we'll miss you. Love Lena
from boxx9000 :
I've had to change grades and curriculum EVERY year. I started out teaching 1st grade, then went to Kindergarten, then 4th grade, then I got to actually do 4th grade again (but I had been told I was moving to 3rd so I didn't keep any of my 4th grade stuff so I had to re do everything) Then 6th grade last year, and this year was a 5/6 combo. I had to get all 5th grade curriculum organized and figure out how to teach two different sets of curriculum at the same time. Next year is a switch back to 6th grade. I will not have two of the same years until I have taught 6th grade for another time. ( I did not teach 6th grade Language this year) It makes a difference for planning curriculum and ordering duplicating and the state standards that have to be covered within the yea, etcr. It makes a BIGGER difference if you have to switch classrooms. It will eventually be easy to teach in the same grade because I will have all my lesson plans from the previous year. We have a week long math training the first week school gets out and I will do summer school again. It will be easier to get ready for next year if I stay in the same classroom. All the 5th grade lessons from this year I will not use. I will have to organize everything for 6th grade only, which will be a WHOLE lot easier than doing two grades for a combo.
from swimmmer72 :
For what it's worth, I really like the stories you write and love your sense of humor. Still, you never want to let yourself get stale, so go ahead and shake things up!! Just please don't stop writing, you're not giving yourself enough credit. :)
from rockhound :
Please don't disappear into the woodwork! I'd hate like all get out to lose track of you. I'm guilty as all get out about not updating, but between having entirely too many people at the house and working my butt off (didn't even take a lunch break yesterday,) I haven't accomplished much of ANYTHING lately. At the very least, send me an email and we can exchange phone numbers and chat now and then. If it's le template, I can help you out there, too...
from lindzeeleigh :
I sure hope you'll keep updating! I would miss you if you didn't keep writing. I think that sometimes we all get caught in the doldrums and don't have a lot to say. I know I feel like that a lot!!
from swimmmer72 :
Nope, no cell phone. I used to hate how my work cell phone could interrupt my life whenever someone needed some ridiculous question answered, and now that I don't have that, I'm enjoying my ability to disappear into the woods with no one being able to find me. Yeah, if I ever break my leg, I may regret that, but, I'll take my chances. Also, I'm not Catholic, and for me, this isn't really a religious thing. I just like the idea of doing without from time to time. Makes me appreciate things more OR I decide I really don't need it. Thanks for the comment, Carolyn, you always brighten my day! :)
from rockhound :
OMG I love your daughter's take on how to survive her teens without a screamfest. No doubt I'd have been better able to vcope with parenthood with some chemical intervention, LOL!
from rockhound :
OMG I love your daughter's take on how to survive her teens without a screamfest. No doubt I'd have been better able to vcope with parenthood with some chemical intervention, LOL!
from mugwhump :
I concur whole heartedly!
from kitchenlogic :
Reading this entry, it just reminds me of what I like about you. Direct and honest. I like that in a person!
from seattle-rain :
Long time lurker from this blog, faithful reader from other locations. I love this post. I totally agree with every bit of your entry. Especially #6...
from mel-is-dvash :
You don't have to convince ME! Especially #10. Literally the happiest days of my life so far were spent up in Vermont cooking supper on a campfire and then relaxing over the meal, drinks, desert, and no cleaning up! :-)
from poolagirl :
Wonderful post! You crack me up!
from swimmmer72 :
Actually, I can strongly relate to all 10. They don't all pertain to me the same way they pertain to you (like the dogs) but I'm still in complete agreement. :)
from cocoabean :
I'm with you on #3.. although I would amend it to say, if the email ends with a threat of horrible things happening, I dump it immediately.
from swimmmer72 :
re: Norma. That's hilarious and sadly, all too true. Great story! :)
from danddteacher :
I updated... mostly for you *S*. How are you, friend?
from rockhound :
I'm also a 7. Why am I not surprised? Some of the 7 attributes sound like me; others don't. But your birth date number is only part of the equation. Other factors come into play, just like with astrology a chart involves more than your primary sign - your sun sign.
from boxx9000 :
2-16-1956=30=3?
from mugwhump :
Now I understand better why you've been on my mind this week. Hugs - LJ
from poolagirl :
It takes tremendous courage for you to go through this. You are strong and amazing. Blessings, dear one.
from boxx9000 :
I went thru situational depression for two years when both my parents died and the divorce was happening. It's been 8 years since then and I've learned some good coping skills. I definitely still have some triggers, mostly trust issues. All my worries magically disappear when I hold my grand daughter.
from mahvalicious :
Hi Carolyn - I, too, suffer from PTSD - or I used to. I've found that time has been the greatest healer but I still have "flashbacks" although they become more rare all the time. It's been eleven years since the incident that brought it all on, and during that time I think I used most of the items you listed to help overcome the horrible feelings. The entire issue was caused by one person over a long period of time, a person that I couldn't, at that time, get out of my life. I now find that whenever I come up against the same type of personality the symptoms come back almost immediately if I don't separate myself from that personality. I also found that my age at the time of the incident (49) had a lot to do with it. Those "change" years make all kinds of things more difficult to deal with. Hang in there, Dear. There is hope. Love Lena
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm really glad you aren't leaving me, 'cause I'd miss you awfully. I'm really not trying to chase people away, just to shake loose those who are going to stalk off anyway. *sigh* I need to get over it. {{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}} And btw, I'd say go ahead and hire the help. Improve the economy and have some more time for fun. Who needs more housework? *vbg*
from lindzeeleigh :
I can't believe that the geese are back already for you! Not here yet....I think it might be a while longer still. I wish we could get a maid around these parts too.....[said as I am on the third load of laundry, cleaning the bathroom and emptying the dishwasher after scrubbing the pots and pans.] :P
from rockhound :
I'm with you - I'd LOVE maid service. But I also don't have the money. Moreover, I'm never home, so couldn't be here to let anybody in (and the child unit doesn't get out of bed in time to do ANYTHING useful.)
from swimmmer72 :
Good call on the meds. It's always hard to tell when the meds are needed or if just being depended upon. Sometimes, it's good to give it a go without. :)
from rockhound :
Meds are such a personal thing anyway, it makes perfect sense that you'd want to change now and again. You sound like me; you never want to become dependent on them. And that's a GOOD thing.
from rockhound :
I agree with you. Target is da bomb! In some things its prices are better than Wal Mart's, and the quality is leaps and bounds better. I am living smack in the middle between two Target stores an believe me, I am a frequent flyer in both!
from her-story :
I'll send you my recipe... but just realize that I don't follow a recipe, I just tinker and mix. I need your email... :)
from rockhound :
So tell me again, how old is Shelby? You can't watch over her forever, tempting as it is. You just have to hope your common sense got through to her at some level. From my own experience, though, kids whose parents have successful marriages are more likely to find healthy relationships for themselves.
from mahvalicious :
I really enjoyed your entry about you. I'm with you on the pets licking my face. I think Beau has the quickest tongue in the west. Daisy not so much. And Lucy (kitty) for some reason loves to lick my hair. Love Lena
from rockhound :
OOoh I saw the previews of that. I'll rent it once it's out. I might even go see it at the theater. I'm notorious for wanting to see movies but not actually going to see them, though, hehehe.
from wyndspirit :
It sounds like you chose a good way to handle a rough day. Glad you enjoyed it!
from lindzeeleigh :
I was wondering if that movie was worth it to see and I am glad you have told me it is. I think we could use a good laugh around these parts!
from poolagirl :
Thanks for the "recco" on that film! I have been wanting to see it!
from lindzeeleigh :
Can I come work at your school, Carolyn??? p.s. Happy Birthday to the much remembered & missed, Jeff.
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEFF (and Brendan, too)
from mahvalicious :
Oh, I don't know about that, Carolyn - i LOVE to eat cookies, but not crazy about baking them. It shows in my waistline, too!! Love Lena
from rockhound :
Yum!!!! That actually sounds pretty good. I might make some cookies today. I was already craving something sweet.
from cosmic :
Peanut butter cookies? Wnt my address? I'll be happy to take them off your hands!!
from just2cusmile :
nahhhh i like the eating of the baked goods :)~**** it should be illegal to get that cold-i swear i would ball up and die lol
from wyndspirit :
BigName Outsourcer had awards up the wazoo for their "generous" contributions to the community--all of which came entirely from employees. We were practically harassed and shamed into shelling out a couple bucks a paycheck for United Way and low-level managers were forced to participate in humiliating "jail" situations where they were forced to call business acquaintances and friends to beg for $$$ to "bail" them out. I don't support United Way because 80% of what they take in goes for overhead. At the pet store, I happily donate a buck from my paycheck to their official charity, devoted to ending euthanasia of unwanted cats and dogs. It's a cause I firmly believe in. I say, don't do it, but talk to your coworkers. You might not be the only one who feels that way. If you stick together and nobody plays, this "big idea" will die a natural death.
from myownjourney :
I say give the money to me. That way, your making someone happy and still "sticking it to the man!" Word....? ;-)
from lindzeeleigh :
That is a tough call and I am all for donating to charity, but I think it it was better how they had it before. I think people should give when they are able to and how much they are able to. I don't think people should be dictated to because then we more or less lose the whole meaning behind charitable donation.
from mahvalicious :
I'm with you. I don't do well being told how much to give and then not knowing where it's going.
from mel-is-dvash :
I am totally with you on this - they have no right to tell you, or even to suggest to you, how much to give, to whom, or when. When TH was still employed by the big MM (insurance company) they just started taking 'donations' out of everyone's paychecks for the United Way one time. It was theft, pure and simple. Nothing we could do about it at the time, either. Also, no one has a right to question you about your charitable giving. OOoooo! It makes me so mad!
from cosmic :
Charity begins at home. I'm sorry but I am sure there are lots of people that can't afford it. I would be one of them. It should have been stated that if you wanted your name included as a sunshine fund contributor that you were "Invited" to give. It should be your decision and you should not be chastized if you chose not to participate.
from cocoabean :
I think if they want you to pay that much, they need to show an accounting of what is spent where, and a split of anything that's left at the end of the year. I personally would not put $50 into it.. if they didn't like it, then they can just not include me in anything.
from swimmmer72 :
I agree with you. The term "donation" doesn't seem to mean the same as it used to, does it? Personally, I like having more say on where and how my money gets spent and I've never trusted the idea of money going into a fund and parcelled out from there. Much more possibility for abuse, so as needed and when able definitely works for me.
from boxx9000 :
The same thing is done at my work location. We are told to donate $50 to the fund and a committee takes care of the rest. I don't like it either, but it keeps things equal and the committee doesn't have to chase down donations each and every time.
from life-my-way :
I'm with you, being asked to give $50 is not a donation. Sounds like the old way was better.
from rockhound :
I know you said you don't like TV dinners - I make homemade TV dinners. I still cook for a crowd, then divvy it up into individual portions and freeze it that way. I'll cook three or four big meals on the weekend, then switch off all week so I don't get sick of any one thing.
from lindzeeleigh :
I find cooking for two to be a challenge. However, since I am off work so early these days I have plenty of time to come home and prepare dinner. [Hoping that I took something out of the freezer!]
from wyndspirit :
Good luck with the new dog!
from rockhound :
What a generous thing to do. You sure you don't work with me? There's a chihuahua fanatic who sat next to me at work until just a few days ago. She never met a chihuahua she didn't love!
from wyndspirit :
I hope this isn't inappropriate at the time, but I am catching up and reading an entry from Oct. where you and your therapist were trading the most insensitive comments people made to you. I was reminded of what one cousin wrote in a sympathy card when my brother died, that it was a "bummer" he died. It's a "bummer" if you can't find any shoes you like when you're out shopping. It might even be a "bummer" if you lose your job, although that's stretching it. It was so ludicrous we didn't know whether to laugh or cry. We still mention that occasionally, only now we laugh over it.
from lindzeeleigh :
Aw, that is so sweet that you are going to adopt that old, little puppy. What are your other babies going to think?? ;) And YAY for new haircuts!
from poolagirl :
You are such a sweetie to take that dog!
from brightopal :
I'm soo glad I read your note to Poolie on your 'Net name. I always wondered where it came from!!! And one more question I always wanted to ask: are you related to h2odragon here on Diaryland?
from just2cusmile :
thats funny in my phone i have you as h20 carolyn montana :)
from just2cusmile :
your so much like me-im the same way about inviting friends over thinking they will see a crumb on the floor-which they probably would here or dog hair since my dog sheds so much but im the same way too about american idol-i thought that new chick was suppose to be mean but she hasnt been yet...the audition show is going to be in our hometown next week or the following week-should be embarasing :) did you know that was me who sent you the text on new years eve? lol
from cosmic :
What a nice picture that entry brings to mind. Very content.
from brightopal :
*Hugs* You know how it goes. You try to take one day at a time but sometimes a bunch of 'em gang up on you.
from brightopal :
Happy Anniversary! See, to me that's pretty cool. Both that you've been married that long, and that your hubby would do something like that. Which, come to think of it, is probably why you've been married that long.
from cosmic :
How sweet!! Happy 19th!
from ship-jumper :
Congratulations!!! Wonderful and exciting! Happy Anniversary to you!
from lindzeeleigh :
Happy Anniversary!! :) I think 19 years is awesome! Keep going!
from ship-jumper :
Ok, all of that sounds painful and bothersome. You sound just like my aunt poolie. Perhaps you are related to the milkman too? Instead of me saying I "pulled a poolie" when I do something injurious and silly, I may have to say I pulled a phobic??? Here's to an injury free 2009!
from beauty4ashs :
Oooouuuch... That sounds painful. And messy. I hope the REST of the year is a little healthier!!!
from mel-is-dvash :
I pray you can stop hurting yourself, at least for a while. I've got a couple of teenagers who are pretty klutzy, going through growth spurts and hurting themselves in the most ridiculous ways. I try not to laugh...
from lindzeeleigh :
Carolyn, Thank you for making me feel so much better about my klutziness. In a contest, I would have to say that you win. However, I do fall UP the stairs on a regular basis! All the best for 2009!!
from cocoabean :
gee, you are rivaling Poolie here for quirky injuries...
from mahvalicious :
Oh my goodness - I certainly hope your 2009 gets better. You haven't got many body parts left to injure and you certainly don't want to start a second round of the ones you've already worked on (snicker). Hope your finger gets better - it sounds painful. Love Lena
from cosmic :
B & BW absolutley best hand soap is Midnight Pomegranate at http://www.bathandbodyworks.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2784307&cp=2073259.3314711&parentPage=family. This stuff is so good, my grandaughters walk into my house and go straight for the bathroom so they can wash their hands. I ended up buyine my Daughter three of them for the house. I smells sooooo good and it is on sale right now for 3 for $10.00.
from poolagirl :
I applaud you for staying up so late! I never make it anymore. Getting old I guess, eh?
from yarnsmith :
Sounds like you made the best of Christmas and had alot of quality time with Shelby...nothing better than Mother/Daughter shopping, calorie laden lunches, giggling teens and children....Just wanted to pop in and say Happy New Year...Paula
from brightopal :
That sounds like a heavenly Christmas to me :)
from boxx9000 :
MERRY CHRISTMAS. Peace, Love, Health & Happiness in 2009 (I ahve a teachers version of that poem)
from brightopal :
Merry Christmas, and thanks for re-posting a classic. *Hugs*
from lindzeeleigh :
Merry Christmas! Enjoy the holidays with your family and I hope Santa is good to you! :)
from mugwhump :
Your co-worker need to increase her Prozac. Where's the Christmas spirit in an attitude like that?
from lindzeeleigh :
I love the gift exchange game! We did one at my staff party too, but we did it with tacky gifts so no one really wanted anyone's gifts because so many of them were so bad!! Haha! Merry Christmas to you and your family and all the best in the new year. :)
from brightopal :
Oh, DUH. Lemme give you the link to my entry about the editor: http://brightopal.diaryland.com/080711_63.html
from brightopal :
You're welcome to your winter weather - and as to the Italics, download and install Firefox browser (it's safer than Internet Explorer anyway) and install the WYSIWYG (What You See Is What You Get) editor script. I promise, it's very simple, and you never again have to ask your daughter to do your editing for you ;)
from swimmmer72 :
To learn bold, go to Help and FAQ section, then to HTML stuff. How to do bold, underline and italics is down at the bottom! Yep, I stole your idea. :)
from mahvalicious :
16 ABOVE? Where do you guys get off anyway! Ours says MINUS 9 so I hope your tropical weather is moving our way. Love Lena
from ship-jumper :
My Ipo has potty pads too...she hates the snow! I have to carry her a block down the road and then plunk her in the snow if I have any hopes of her going outside. And dangit, every time you say Idgie I just smile! I'm going to name my next poochie that....after you, and well, of course after MSM!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am sorry you had such a shite day at work!!! :S I hope this week will go by very fast for you so that the weekend will be here and then you won't have to worry about work and making silly mistakes that drive you mental! *hugs*
from poolagirl :
That is so very sad that she isn't getting support from her own mother. I helped a 13 year old deliver her baby, and the girl's mom was sitting in the lobby asking "Is this over yet? I want to go home and watch Jay Leno!" I kid you not. Some people.
from mahvalicious :
How sad for the young mother. She's going to have a tough enough time without her mother's support. I hope her mother comes around when that precious little baby comes.
from brightopal :
Yum! Yes, cake is indeed worth the two-block trek, snow or not. Enjoy the shower and take care while traveling ANY way. You can get hurt walking, too, as cocoabean (http://cocoabean.diaryland.com) will attest.
from mel-is-dvash :
Hi again. I'm a bit behind-times here, but I did want to say something - I can't help much but I'll be keeping you in my prayers, and thinking warm {{{{{{{hug}}}}}}} thoughts at you. FWIW I love hearing about your temps and weather, it's so drastically different from what we've got here. I hope you enjoy it, at least a little bit.
from cocoabean :
I MIGHT brave the snow for cake.. maybe if it was chocolate cake....
from boxx9000 :
I hope you two have fun at the baby shower today. I wish MY grand baby would hurry up and get here by Christmas! ♥ ~BoXx
from mskindasorta :
I cried reading this, but of course I cry every day, because as you know, I know this pain only to well. This will be my first Christmas without Nathan, I don't know what to do, I feel sick at the thought of it. I just want to sleep through it. I hate this. I hate every day without him. Anyhow, I just received your message as I was writing in my blogspot journal, I think I am kind of back to writing..we will see. Thank you for the thoughts, I know I can always read your comments and know that you understand. I think of you every day too. I wish we lived closer. Take care my friend. xo
from brightopal :
*Hugs* I have never lost a child so don't pretend to understand fully what you live day to day. All I know is, if anything happened to one of my children it would amputate a little piece of my soul and the wound would never close. I hope I never find out - and wish I had a way to help heal your unhealing wound. I wouldn't take away your memories of your son, because that would be equally cruel; I would simply like to be the friend who understood enough to help ease your loneliness. Sending you an email, too...
from mugwhump :
I'm sure your friend felt momentarily uncomfortable and wasn't sure what she should do. But (and I'm not sure if this would have been the 'right' response either) I would have said nothing and just reached out and given you a big hug. There never seems to be the "right" response in these situations. Nothing a freind can say or do will bring your son back. All we can do is love you as best we know how.
from ship-jumper :
I didn't know you lost your child, as I'm a fairly new reader and have been behind in my reading. I'm so sorry, and I can't even begin to imagine how that must feel. I'm sorry you didn't get the support you needed from your friend the other day. Big hugs to you, and I do hope the pain lessens for you.
from mahvalicious :
My older sister died at the age of 56. My mother was heartbroken and never recovered from her death. She always told me that your children weren't supposed to die before you. I can't imagine the grief that you still carry around, and rightfully so. My heart goes out to you. Love, Lena
from yarnsmith :
Hi Carolyn...I've been MIA for a while but am taking some time this morning to catch up with my old friends. I can't imagine your pain. I know after 12 years I still miss my Mother...I imagine missing a child to be a thousand fold. If we were real life...able to hug and touch and visit in person friends...I'd let you cry and talk about Jeff to me all you want...for eons if necessary. When my Mother had cancer she noticed her good close girlfriends dropping off...they just didn't know how to deal with it.....so they didn't deal with her at all. I witnessed this first hand so perhaps I can get a sense of what you feel now...but not really....I have never been in your shoes. All I can offer is a cyber ((((HUG))))
from life-my-way :
My thoughts are with you. I cannot imagine your a pain but every time you write about it here I share it a little bit. You've changed the way I look at things in my life--when something "bad" happens (like the water that is presently issuing forth from the bathroom ceiling light fixture) I remind myself (or, more often, Bill) if one of the children were sick right now this would not matter a bit. Therefore, it --does not matter a bit-- anyway. Wishing I could help. Hugs, Katherine
from boxx9000 :
((((hugs))))
from swimmmer72 :
Ditto what cocoabean said. I lost my Dad two years ago, but that's different. People are supposed to bury their parents, not the other way around and I know it isn't the same as your loss. My thoughts are with you.
from cocoabean :
I can't imagine the pain you're in. I would guess most people just don't know what to say to you..
from lindzeeleigh :
Dear un-named person, Beware the wrath of angry Carolyn!!! :P
from cosmic :
I bet that 8 out of 10 people working in an office has someone they could send that entry to. I had one in mine for 13 years. She spent more time looking at Avon booklets, filing her nails, plucking her eyebrows and shopping online than working. But if she needed your help and YOU weren't working, everyone heard about it.
from cosmic :
Send them home hyped up on sugar. You are soo mean. I admire that. I am too.
from just2cusmile :
first off I MISS YOU TOO :) and it sounds like you had more fun then the kids lol-good for you and I know the mom and kids loved it too and are looking forward to Thursday...
from mahvalicious :
Sugar high and send them home. (Chuckle) what a true grandma you are already.
from brightopal :
Interesting - I like ONE candy cane at Christmas - maybe. But the marshmallow fudge is my personal crack, lol. I have the stuff in my fridge at home, too (provided my girls didn't slurp all of it down.)
from lindzeeleigh :
I LOVe candy canes too! Which kind you like to get for yourself, er, the kids that come to the office? I really like the cherry flavoured ones, but the peppermint ones will do just fine as well.
from mahvalicious :
Wish I could get in the spirit of Christmas this year, but I'm afraid it's going to be kind of bah humbug. I watched a show on the Discovery channel the other night about how that hard candy is made. Quite interesting on they get all the interesting designs in it. Love Lena
from boxx9000 :
I keep a BIG bag of peppermint candies as a treat reward for my kids at school. They are peppermint balls, not really HARD candies, more like the texture of chalk, but the kids LOVE them. I like them because the kids all have good smelling breath! hehehe.
from boxx9000 :
We didn't have stockings as kids either. My Mom used to set up a mini tree and put a mini present under it for each of us. I really looked forward to the mini present. It was usually a charm for my bracelet. Thanks for the well wishes for my daughter. Today I HAVE to write my sub plans. I chose Monday, but you might be right with the later arrival date. I decorated my tree yesterday, too. It took HOURS to do. When I woke up this morning, I discovered it have FALLEN OVER. Now I have to re-do the whole thing. (sigh)
from mahvalicious :
I Love your upbeat spirit. Wish I had some of it right now.
from lindzeeleigh :
I love all your unsent letters, wifey poo! [Sorry, I just couldn't resist!!] Teeheee.
from swimmmer72 :
I love your notes!! I think you should send them, as soon as possible! Just to make things, you know, interesting around the neighborhood. Well, you could probably just talk to Idgie and Daisy... :)
from poolagirl :
What a totally delightful entry! "Dear Coffee Pot" You just crack my shit up!
from cosmic :
I just don't have the energy or the room to put my tree up this year. We have a little three foot on that we will put on the coffee table. It is gold with little god decorations. Sucky, but it will do.
from ship-jumper :
We got the bug the other day too. Rearranged the furniture, put the tree up...and well....that's as far as it went! Sigh. I'm a scrooge though, so this was a big step!!
from poolagirl :
LOL! I misread the last sentence and thought you meant the dogs and cats haven't put lights on the tree yet. I was impressed! Very well trained, eh?
from boxx9000 :
If there is a gift shop at Phantom tonight I will send something to Shelby. (((hugs))))
from brightopal :
Wait... Isn't it Thursday? ;) Happy turkey day, whatever day that is!
from mugwhump :
It's not Friday, but I love the little chuckle none-the-less.
from cocoabean :
It's Friday?? I thought it was Wednesday!
from swimmmer72 :
Thank you for your very generous comment! I know you don't say things lightly, which makes me appreciate your words even more. :)
from brightopal :
Wooohooo to your new-old comfy chair and sofa TOO! Good going!
from ship-jumper :
What a wonderful little story! Enjoy your chair!
from lindzeeleigh :
I think I need to get me one of those chairs! They sound perfect for reading in!
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY NEW CHAIR. ENJOY!
from cocoabean :
Good things come to those who wait. My daughter bought one of those chairs, so totally comfy!! Sure wish I could have brought it along...
from poolagirl :
Infinite patience. Infinite Zen.
from lindzeeleigh :
Sounds like entirely too much working to me! At least you get two days off coming up soon! [And with pay, even better!]
from ship-jumper :
Good to have ya back. Sorry things are so damn busy for you. I understand the whole 'needing more hours in the day.' I swear, the more I would work at my desk the deeper the piles would get. Or magically new piles would appear. Ugh! Hope you have a good couple of days off. Sounds as if you really need it!
from brightopal :
No muskrats here. Just javelinas, roadrunners, the occasional snake, tarantulas and scorpions. But nope, not a single muskrat. Though bears, yeah, 12 saw one of those last weekend.
from mel-is-dvash :
Go muskrats!
from ship-jumper :
muskrat fever.....muskrat love....oh yeah baby!! Yeah, good thing your were there or they may have thought they were seeing things!
from lindzeeleigh :
I don't like muskrats!! We have quite a few around here that live in the ponds and they freak me out because they are creepy looking!!
from mugwhump :
Now who's crackin' who up!
from lindzeeleigh :
Good old Alanis Morisette! That songs reminds me of junior high! Thanks, now I have it in my head, lol.
from cosmic :
My heart goes out to your Hubby. My daughter has had more needles in her back in the past few months than I can count. Just two days ago, she had 6 on either dise of her spine as a pain blocker. She is 35. Not fun.
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm so sorry that both Bill and you had to go through that. This is exactly what lawyers are for. If these people aren't kept to account somehow, ... My prayers for the both of you.
from poolagirl :
OMG! How could they do such a thing? I would pursue this if I were you. Hugs to all.
from mel-is-dvash :
Prayers going your way.
from lindzeeleigh :
I will definitely be thinking of and praying for Bill.
from swimmmer72 :
You got it! I pray things go well and they are able to resolve things with Bill's neck. My fingers are crossed! :)
from cocoabean :
what is the procedure??
from mahvalicious :
Prayers, good wishes and crossed fingers are on their way through cyberspace. Love Lena
from life-my-way :
Prayers on the way and fingers crossed--good luck, Bill, and may this one do the trick!
from just2cusmile :
im afraid thats how its going to be and that drives me nuts because I kept saying its a election for the President not for a "race",i've tried to teach my boys that there is only one race and thats the "human race" and to to judge people for their actions not their color...especially being from the south...
from cosmic :
Well that didn't make much sense without telling you what the statment was, now does it? I will write it in a few in my diary.
from cosmic :
I heard a tatement last night that is possibly one of the wisest statements I have heard by anyone in a very long time.
from cocoabean :
I agree.. I didn't vote for him because he was black, I voted for him because of his stand on so many issues... and he wasn't driven by the big oil companies!
from boxx9000 :
PRESIDENT OBAMA! WhEeeee!
from lindzeeleigh :
I agree with Carolyn's Law! All must abide by it or suffer the consequences!
from mahvalicious :
I Love your new law!! And it's usually those who don't make the effort that complain the loudest. We vote in a small town also, and have never had to wait at all.
from poolagirl :
Dang! I hope you feel better soon!
from cocoabean :
The doc just wanted you to have liquids that contained a lot of sodium.. and all canned soups have a lot of sodium, it's just that chicken seems to be easier to digest than something with a bit more flavor. Eat the soup you want, it's all salty!
from mugwhump :
I'm sure she's as beautiful (inside and out) as her mother! Growing up is a good thing.
from brightopal :
Happy birthday to Shelby and good job to you. That's a sign both of a terrific daughter AND a spectacular mom!
from swimmmer72 :
I wouls also title that "Signs you have done an excellent job raising your very mature, responsible daughter" You should be proud! :)
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHELBY & HAPPY HALLOWEEN.
from lindzeeleigh :
Yay for Pepper! Happy Anniversary! :) I am glad you celebrated with snuggles and cuddles. As for the stubborn husband thing, mine canbe like that too! But I agree, we women can be just as stubborn to boot!
from swimmmer72 :
HaHaHaHa!!! That story made my day!! Yep, revenge is SWEET!! Is that a true story?
from boxx9000 :
I'm going thru the same thing with my husband. ((((hugs))))
from brightopal :
Yeah I had a day like that, too. Had sooooo much to do and feeling like death warmed over, so absolutely none of it got done :(
from brightopal :
Cherry pie??? I'll be right over, LOL!
from theumbrella :
I will be living in PA with him:) Those are his siblings- one of our flower girls and one of our ring bearers:) Thank you for congrats!!:)
from boxx9000 :
cherry pie is my favorite.
from cocoabean :
I'll bet you will be first on the list when they don't get paid....
from boxx9000 :
TGIF! WhEeeee! The month is almost over! Where did it go?
from brightopal :
I'll second that emotion - TGIF!!!
from brightopal :
Man... your notes took forever to come up today. Diaryland must be in a funk. Good deal both on the travel to Billings AND scoring all the deals at Ross. I LOVE Ross - have made some seriously awesome finds there!
from mel-is-dvash :
Alone time sounds wonderful, and so does buying new clothes.
from cocoabean :
Yeah, alone time is great, isn't it??
from theumbrella :
Oooh! Bask in that alone time!:)
from mahvalicious :
I'm so glad to hear you're having a great time. I have "alone in a hotel room" envy (chuckle). I hope you're enjoying every minute of it. Love Lena
from brightopal :
Good grief. Of all the computers to get left behind, the PAYROLL? Somebody obviously waited too long to come up for air and ended up with brain damage. Yeesh.
from lindzeeleigh :
Hmm, where does one get a new supply of "nice"? Mine seems to have ran out as well!
from cocoabean :
Things like changing systems and getting things to print are easy in theory, but having been the "IT" person at my last job, I know that it never goes the way it's supposed to!
from brightopal :
*Hugs* Your comment to me brought tears to my eyes this morning. I think that's the biggest compliment you could ever give me. I wish I COULD be there to go with you to the store, to give you hugs when you're having a bad period, to remind you how to smile and to laugh again when you have better moments. You are such an amazing woman; you're articulate and warm and that comes across clearly in what you write.
from brightopal :
I'm with Lena. The state of medical care is as corrupted as almost everything else in this country. I know doctors are human and make mistakes; ditto for nurses and other medical personnel. But there is a callousness and detachment these days that just didn't exist years ago, certainly not to the degree that it does now. :(
from mahvalicious :
Unfortunately it's gotten to the point where you have to be your own advocate when it comes to just about any medical issues these days. I read an article in a magazine called WebMD (in a hospital waiting room, no less) that said to never leave a patient alone in a medical facility. There should always be someone else with the patient to make sure that things are being administered correctly and to ask questions. That's not saying much for the facilities, the doctors or the people who work there. Lena
from swimmmer72 :
I know from my own clients (I work in a juvenile treatment facility) just how vital a correct med mix is and the ramifications when the mix gets screwed up. I've dealt with a variety of psychiatrists and while some have been very good, there are a few that I wonder what they are prescribing to themselves. I hope your doctor got it right this time!
from brightopal :
It cooled off here too - just nowhere near the point of snow, lol. And as to the procrastination factor, I like your quote. I'd love to use it, if and when I get around to it ;)
from swimmmer72 :
I thought of you when I saw the national weather report this morning. Some places got 3 feet of snow and I figured you must have gotten something. Life in the high country - you must be used to it!
from mel-is-dvash :
It's never stupid to ask for help. You never know who will come up with the darnedest amazing suggestions. It just didn't work out this time.
from brightopal :
That's really too bad. Sometimes work friends are REAL friends (case in point, my friend S;) other times they're just, well, colleagues. Sadly, as you discovered, sometimes it's easy to confuse the two. When you need help is often when you differentiate :-/
from swimmmer72 :
We spend so much time at work that it is easy to fall into thinking that the people we spend time with there are "friends" when in actuality, if not for the job, we'd never spend time knowing them. Easy mistake to make and I've made it too.
from boxx9000 :
It depends what the problem is? Help with your new filing system? Finding the fountain of youth? Inner happiness? World Peace? The perfect chocolate bar? However, I know what you mean. (I think) sometimes I will specifically ask my husband for something and he thinks I can't possibly REALLY want what I am asking for and he will suggest other things. NO! I wanted exactly what I said I wanted and I don't know how to make it any clearer. It's hard for me to ask for anything, so when I do, I really MEAN what I say. ((((hugs))))
from mel-is-dvash :
Hi, I'm catching up again. I am so very glad to hear you are back from your dark space - and that you got there at least in part by laughing at those awful people! I haven't found a way out of my particular black spot, and you give me hope. I *used* to be OCD, but years of living with a complete slob while being disabled have made me work *very* hard at being okay with whatever is... I would LOVE to organize my home, though, and would keep it that way if I could. I think it's great that you use it to keep your home a lovely place.
from brightopal :
My oldest daughter is OCD too. She's also an organization nut. I'm not a horrible slob, though I'm not as anal about it as she is. My younger daughter, however, IS a horrible slob and I'm ready to toss her and all her crap out onto the street, in no small part because my house is a flipping disaster area.
from poolagirl :
Oooops! I read part of your entry wrong and thought you said Elvis jerseys. I swooned.
from boxx9000 :
I need you to come organize me. I inherited 4 filing cabinets filled with stuff. Some is good but a lot needs to be thrown out. I need a place to store MY stuff. It's one of those projects I'm always meaning to get to but never do. (sigh)
from lindzeeleigh :
I am glad my entry and the Buddha quote helped you to figure out that clock! LoL. I probably would not have got it either if I hadn't seen that quite in my calendar. :) I know whgat you mean about that job getting done for you when you were expecting to do it. I get the same way because I plan on things happening and then am disappointed when they don't work out.
from ship-jumper :
I've missed a few days. I didn't know you're son had passed. I'm so glad you are still talking to someone to help you with all that must continue to come up for you surrounding that loss. I am stoked you are back to jamming to your tunes in the car! I swear for me that is the best therapy. Big hugs.
from brightopal :
*Hugs* That's a huge step forward! You will never forget your son. That doesn't preclude your right to be happy when the situation warrants. *Hugs again just because.*
from mahvalicious :
A Big Hearty Contragulations to you. I'm so happy for you. Love Lena
from swimmmer72 :
You are absolutely right. We can't keep on living between the stress of the work week going to the stress of having to get everything done at home. Your mind and body need a break from time to time, otherwise the wheels start falling off. Good for you!
from boxx9000 :
I didn't do housework this weekend either and hardly any school stuff. I needed the ME time as well.
from brightopal :
It's my RIGHT side that hurts head to toe. So I know what you mean. If we traded halves we could have one entirely miserable person and one who's feeling pretty good, lol.
from swimmmer72 :
I know what you mean about one side being more fragile. For me, it's right leg. Actually, now that I think about it, it's also left shoulder. I guess that explains the lopsided-ness.... I hope your ailments heal quickly! :)
from mugwhump :
Are you feeling better these days? You've been in my thoughts lately. Its all good. :-)
from brightopal :
Yay for peace and quiet. And for cake *G* Parites can be fun but they are always followed by a return to normalcy, darn it.
from ship-jumper :
Hey limpiebutt! Did you at least throw a few good strikes while Wii bowling?? Your soccer with the hounds sounds so cute. You should really post a video of that! Oh...Friday is opening for Viva Chihuahua.....are ya going? The lead dog (the cute white one) looks just like my Ipo. I can't wait to go see that!
from ship-jumper :
Happy Birthday To the Hubby! And omg....you are so strong not to let the little Daisy and Idgie sleep with you! I get so suckered by Ipo's big, pleading eyes when she wants to jump on the bed!
from cocoabean :
happy birthday to your hubby!!
from boxx9000 :
Bill is about 3 months older than me.
from mahvalicious :
Isn't it amazing when you live with someone and see them every day they don't seem to age? Then look at a picture taken of them way back when, and what a difference. Ole has worn facial hair in one form or another since shortly after we were married. A year ago on our way to Sturgis he shaved it all off and I couldn't get over what a change it made. Who WAS that man?
from brightopal :
Good for you. I hope you have a blast with your Wii. :D My youngest son has one and plays the heck out of it. It's really something on his big-screen TV, lol.
from ship-jumper :
CONGRATS!! The Wii is awesome!! Now, forgive me for possibly burning another hole in your pocket but...if you REALLY want a fantastic workout that is customized to you and is sort of like your own personal trainer....buy yourself the "Wii Fit" It's another add on for your wii, and it is REALLY awesome! I've used it a few times and am dieing to get us one. I think the Wii Fit is another 80 bucks, but man, sooooo worth it! And yay for naps! I'm a napper too, and will always be, and always love them!
from boxx9000 :
I've played the sports wii games with my two kids and it was a lot of fun. I want a wii!
from mahvalicious :
Good for you. I think that's a wonderful purchase and nowhave Wii envy. There's a several weeks waiting list to get one around here.
from mskindasorta :
I know what you are saying. I try so hard to keep myself busy. I barely sit down for more than a couple of minutes during the day because if I sit for longer I'm a mess. At night I sit because I want to spend time with Jakey but once he is asleep I have to try and keep busy again so as I do not go crazy with my thoughts or this pain itself does not kill me. I'm seriosuly thinking of ending my blogging experience, I'm tired of being told in emails "gently" that its time to move on, tired of being told I should be doing this or doing that, tired of so much. Every week I think I will just hang in there and see how it goes. My journal is to express my thoughts and feelings, I'm not asking others for advice or asking for pity but I am starting to feel like I have to censor my pain and grief even in my journal. It's really my only way to express, because very few people call me now, very few people feel comfortable with me talking about Nae and his death. The trial is 3 week away which is making me anxious and nervous. I just feel like I am in the tiny room at times that has no windows and no doors. It sucks. Hugs.
from ship-jumper :
SOooooo awesome to have the doggies at work! And chihuahuas are the best!!! My Ipo is a Houdini...I can't leave her in the back yard out of my eyesight at all. She manages to get thru the smallest of cracks in the fence. Idgie and Daisy...I bet they are adorable! Is Idgie a bee charmer??
from brightopal :
How cool to be able to take your puppies to work. Not many places you could do that! :D
from lindzeeleigh :
I am happy that you had such a good day. I love that you brought the dogs to work and that everyone loved them and enjoyed them. There is something about animals that people just love. :) Hope you have an enjoyable weekend!!
from boxx9000 :
I was always quite paranoid of someone STEALING my kids. People would tell me I worried too much, that the actual odds of my child being stolen were quite low. But, when it's YOUR child it's 100%, no? I don't want to live in fear, but I'm not going to put myself (or my kids) in unnecessary danger either. As a child we were allowed to roam all over the town from sun up to sun down. It's amazing we survived unharmed.
from cosmic :
Your best defense against attacks, robbery or any other horror is fear. Without fear you leave yourself unprotected. Fear is a good thing. If someone says they aren't afraid, they are either very naive or very stupid.
from brightopal :
I once talked to a detective who informed me that the most dangerous place for children, at least in terms of molestation, is small towns. He explained that the problem was exactly what you mentioned: adults are under the mistaken impression that their kids are safe, and they trust their neighbors. A pedophile takes advantage of that trust. :(
from swimmmer72 :
I've noticed the same type of naive complacency from people who have never been anywhere. Blissful ignorance might be nice, but it won't protect anyone. There is better news coverage, but from someone who is in the "clean-up the mess" field, it HAS gotten worse and is a lot more prevalent than most people realize. In my own little microcasm, I've seen a significant deterioration just in the last 6 months. Scary.
from cocoabean :
Your grandma was right, although I think there is more of it now than there was before....
from swimmmer72 :
re: plants. That is one of my dilemmas. I have nine cactus ranging in height from 4 to 8 feet tall. There are a couple that I've had for over 30 years - many of the others are "descendants", as in pieces that broke off, usually while trying to move them. When the time comes, I'm going to hate to get rid of them, but I can't see trying to fit them into the RV either. Eventually, I'll be trying to find them a "good home". Maybe I'll drop one off on my way through Montana! I agree with all the health providing aspects you mentioned; I'll be keeping some of my smaller plants. :)
from just2cusmile :
we live in the same bodies but in different states-sucks to be us huh haha hope you feel better one day soon :(
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm sorry to hear you feel so awful, I hope you feel better soon!
from lindzeeleigh :
That sounds like a pretty rough sickness you have going on there. :( Not good! I hope you have a speedy recovery so you are all better to get back to work. Want to send me one of those paycheques?? ;)
from swimmmer72 :
I hope you are feeling better quickly! Have someone else do your lifting, at least until your arm is 100%!
from boxx9000 :
I'm sorry you are sick. Today is Dave's first day back to work. I have NO idea what he plans on doing with only one arm, but it better not be any lifting. ((((hugs))))
from swimmmer72 :
Thank you for that very encouraging comment about my entry. If that entry helped you come to the conclusion that changes were not only necessary, but also doable, then that's a good thing too. We all battle our own demons. That doesn't mean we can't put them into our past. Good Luck!!! :)
from brightopal :
Changes are a necessary part of life. I hope whatever changes you make, they will enrich and enhance your life - and I truly hope you won't disappear from here. I'd miss you!
from mugwhump :
Whatever's going on, may your decisions bring your peace of heart and mind. This sound cliche, but changes in life as well as changing life rarely come easy, but are necessary. Take this as a huge virtual hug from me.
from lindzeeleigh :
I think it is great that you are wanting to makes changes and I will be sending you positive thoughts and prayers. You can do this!
from mahvalicious :
Wishing you luck and keeping all fingers and toes crossed for your complete success. Lena
from boxx9000 :
WISHING YOU LOTS OF LUCK & SUCCESS in beating the whole anxiety and panic thing. ((((hugs))))
from mskindasorta :
Oops, I ment to leave you hugs, so "hugs" my friend. xoxo
from mskindasorta :
Some people are so insensitive, I guess they just don't understand. Anxiety and panic attacks are not something that can "just" be controlled that easily. One thing I hated about my job I was in before I lost Nae was that I would often stay behind or miss out on lunch because we were so busy or I was helping one of the girls, but if I was late, you didn't hear the end of it. So frustating and makes you wonder why you bother to be such a good employee. (Yep, I'm almost 5'8, which is why I like tall men!)
from fightn4life :
Sorry about the way you are being treated at work, I understand those attacks. (Unfortunately) I wish some bosses had a better understanding and could bend just a bit. Seems the harder we work the more that is expected. My thoughts are with you, Sandyz
from just2cusmile :
i feel for you sweetie-this a true crippling illness that doesnt get the respect it should and people should be more understanding-i know first hand...im sorry your going thru this...if you find a cure let me know!
from brightopal :
This must've been bring-out-the-asshole week at work for all of us. You get blindsided and just wanna stop the world so you can get off.
from boxx9000 :
I USED to have anxiety and panic attacks frequently, but since I read the POWER of NOW , I have been able to control them (for the most part) I don't know what is up with some bosses. My princiPAL was mad at me because I came to school at 7:50AM instead of 7:45. (school starts at 8AM) I PUT IN SO MUCH OVERTIME and do so many EXTRA activities without any pay. It was rather insulting. Today I worked a fund raiser from 8AM-3PM on a Saturday, but she felt the need to comment on my time at school? Like I don't put in ENOUGH time?! sheesh.
from mahvalicious :
BTW, that was me, Lena. I used to write as Mahvalicious a long time ago in Diaryland.
from mahvalicious :
I suffer from anxiety also. I've been in pretty good shape for the last few years, but the current situation is bringing them back. I feel for you and don't have an answer for your bosses behavior. Unfortunately some people think anxiety is an issue that's all in your head, but they're the ones who have never experienced an attack. Lots of cyberhugs and good wishes to you in handling this. It's a difficult situation.
from brightopal :
I've lived a significant portion of that list. Especially the last one.
from lindzeeleigh :
just wondering where you were and then you updated! Loved your list of things about you, especially the made up babysitter!! LOL!
from pureone :
You know, I know you've mentioned your experience before, and whenever I'm not quite sure of exactly what I'm doing, I think about it, and reprioritizing what I want and/or need. Right now, I'm really starting to feel both "normal" and "interested" in what I want in the opposite sex, and part of me can't believe its actually taken this long to figure it out, and the other part of me can't believe I actually got to that conclusion! The "Love like you've never been hurt" was a minirevelation, but a good one. I'm glad you liked it and agree! Makes me feel smart ;).
from brightopal :
*Slinks off a bit* Yeah - you hit the nail on a few of my heads there, lol.
from starlight42 :
I like the sayings in your entry 9/04 Those would be great to post up on my fridge or something! Hope all is well with you & your fam.
from yarnsmith :
Hi...just watned to pop in and say Hi. I am allwoing myself to read a few diaries today and catch up. Nothing new here. I agree, this summer has been too fast and I also hate that commercial where the mama bear tries to pick toilet paper off the baby's butt.
from mskindasorta :
I agree completey. Hugs from me to you xo
from wyndspirit :
So true. I hope you got to go home and curl up with your dogs. Sounds like the kind of day you needed!
from lindzeeleigh :
Noted. I needed to hear some of those things today. Thanks for sharing.
from mel-is-dvash :
Sometimes you just have to forget about all the other stuff going on and catch up on your diaryland buddies. :-) Hi! It's good to catch up with you, I hope you are having a lovely day.
from poolagirl :
You wrote exactly what I needed to hear today. Bless you!
from boxx9000 :
I am against abortion. There are other options like giving a baby up for adoption. I'm against ALL killing which includes, war, the death penalty and hunting, too.
from boxx9000 :
I definitely vote for summer to have lasted longer! Tomorrow will start my 4th week back to school. My summer vacation went by WAY too quickly.
from mahvalicious :
The first time I'd ever been to Montana was about 12 years ago when we took a trip through Glacier Park on the Harley. Montana has the bluest sky I've ever seen. You're so lucky to live where you do.
from swimmmer72 :
o you camp close to home? I've only been through western Montana once, but I loved it! :)
from ship-jumper :
I LOVE to camp!! Love it love it love! For all the reasons you listed and thensome! Great entry...and thanks for the note btw. Yes indeed, I am the neice of that crazy pie rat.
from mahvalicious :
What a great entry, and it gives me another idea for a post. I didn't grow up camping at all - my folks just didn't do it. I think it had something to do with the fact that our full-time home was actually a 35' trailer house (not mobile home as they're called today). Anyway, the very first time I ever went camping in my life was after I had married Ole and we were living in Iceland. I'll write about it some time soon. It's kind of hilarious. Love Lena
from poolagirl :
What??? No puffies??? Just kidding. It sounds wonderful!
from lindzeeleigh :
I totally know what you mean with the whole back to school thing. It takes so much out of you at first until you get back into the swing of things. Have fun camping this weekend - you deserve it and need a lil' getaway!
from ship-jumper :
I found you on my aunts blog and some other mutual diary buddies. Thought I'd come say hi and check you out! So sorry to hear you are carrying such pain and darkness. I hope the weekend will give you a few days of reprieve from that.
from mahvalicious :
I am so sad for you. You brought a tear to my eye. I hope better days are just ahead for you. Enjoy your weekend.
from mugwhump :
Nice to see you update again. I bin' thinking about you. You're kids are back to school early though. Our don't go back until next weekend.
from acaldwell :
good luck with the school year, and double chocolate bonus points if you can get him to wear the shorts!!
from brightopal :
You are EVIL. Hilarious, but evil *snort* What a GREAT idea, LOL!
from swimmmer72 :
Sounds like a great plan! Especially since I'll definitely be passing through your part of the country on a regular basis. One key test for my RV will be seeing if I can make it over Going-to-the-Sun road at Glacier. If the RV can manage that, I bet it could go anywhere I want it to go! Thanks for the comment! :)
from just2cusmile :
i always love this-your too funny and you sound like me-the lil things getting on my last nerve oh i cant stand that charmin commercial either-nasty!
from swimmmer72 :
re: letters. Hilarious entry! It really had me laughing as I can definitely relate to the things I'd like to say to life's little annoyances. :)
from fightn4life :
I love the letters you wrote, the neighbor one was great. I too hope you have a great day. Sandyz
from brightopal :
Your letters are awesome - especially the one about no panic attacks *Hugs* That's a great milestone!
from lindzeeleigh :
I must say I love the letters as well. They are cheeky witty! I really like the ones addressed to the neighbour and to the new staff of 08/09. Teehee!
from boxx9000 :
Carolyn! You have GOT to compile a book of your *Letters* They are soOOoooo hilarious. I enjoy them so much and I'm sure a whole lot of other people would as well. I could think of a few I'd like to write and send, but never will. hehehe.
from mel-is-dvash :
{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}} I hope you are feeling a bit better now. I used to say that keeping the moral high ground didn't keep me warm at night. Still, it does save on needing to apologize or feel ashamed later.//I'm covered in bruises myself today, but that is the fault of the 2%&%$@ Dr. I'm glad to hear it doesn't hurt.
from brightopal :
I've got the klutz thing down pat, too. Maybe we should form a club, LOL.
from lindzeeleigh :
I fell up the stairs the other day and broke a good chunk of my big toe nail off. Maybe we are long lost klutz relatives?!
from mskindasorta :
I'm leaving diaryland, new journal is rebeckajane.blogspot.com xo
from fightn4life :
Don't feel the need to say you are sorry when words come from that dark place, hurt and pain of loss often comes through as anger. Those that walk in the dark at times themselves understand this and no need for explanations. There is no time span for those that long to have a loved one back...it has been years and when I least expect it that dark place finds me. My heart is with you, Sandyz
from just2cusmile :
you hang in there lady-you'll pull thru this darkness and i'll be waiting right here for your silly self and laughter again-we aint going no where and im here for ya! hugs patti
from brightopal :
*HUGE hugs* I wish I could offer you a real life hug. Grieving is such an intensely personal process and your internal timetable doesn't always match up with what someone else thinks you should be feeling. I cannot fathom living through your losses. You are, beyond a shadow of a doubt, a strong, amazing woman. Converting your grief to anger is a perfectly normal behavior, by the way. All of us do it to one degree or another. If you ever need to just talk, please call me. Email me and I'll give you a phone number. *Hugs again*
from lindzeeleigh :
Just wanted to pop in and let you know I am thinking of you as you continue to try and process and feel things to get through this difficult time.
from mahvalicious :
Grief can be such a long process, but a process that that must be gone through nonetheless. I only wish there was a shortcut. I'm just happy that today seems a bit better than yesterday for you and that hopefully that positive track will continue. Lena
from boxx9000 :
((((hugs)))) I wish I could make it better for you. You have meds and you have counseling, it's just HARD I know. When my best friend died from brain cancer 12 years ago I had a real tough time dealing with it. It took me 7 years to be able to play tennis again. I felt GUILTY to enjoy it when she couldn't (we had been tennis partners and played together every day for 10 years before she died) Although I was sad, and ANGRY about her death, I had to accept that she was forever gone. I had a memorial stone bench installed outside the court we had always played on. It was a good remembrance and I felt she could come and watch from that spot. Is there something that could be done in Jeff's remembrance like a memorial scholarship fund or something? It helped me to deal knowing that part of my friend lived on forever. It's no replacement for the real thing, I know, but anything (no matter how small the act) that might help in any way is worth a try, no? A best friend is NOT the same as a child, I know. There is nothing that will fix it all. I'm thinking of you and sending lots of LOVE your way. ((((hugs))))
from cocoabean :
I read the paper yesterday at work, try reading this article... http://www.signonsandiego.com/uniontrib/20080816/news_1c16forgivem.html
from mskindasorta :
Thank you, I'm not so sure I was brave, my heart was beating so fast and I was so nervous, but I just had to make that call. I knew in my heart that the guy was the person who received Nathan's heart but I needed that confirmation and I am so glad I made the call. I am happy for them, it does in some way bring me some comfort I guess, but and I know I don't need to explain to you, I want my boy, I want his heart beating in his chest. And yeah, mum is pretty wise, I guess what she said brings some comfort too but nothing, nothing will every make sense in this whole thing, another thing I know I don't have to explain to you. You are so right when you say "Then the world comes into play and I crash again", every morning I wake thinking I can get through this day but then as soon as I get out of bed I'm back in a world that is still moving without Nathan and I just can't stand that. I still think he is going to walk through the front door, even after having moved. I'm sending you hugs for today, I can't explain the feeling of getting a memorial tattoo, I look at mine everyday and I feel like I have a part of him on me, my eldest got a tattoo a few weeks ago that has "Forever brothers Nathan and Jye" it's so beautiful the way it has been done and he feels so good about it. Take care my friend xoxo
from mugwhump :
Hugs! Nuff said. Oh ya, and ... love ya too.
from mahvalicious :
Just read your entry and my heart aches for you. I went back and read your early entries and determined that your loss was your son. How very, very sad. Wish I was there to give you a hug but a cyber (((hug))) will have to do at this point. I haven't read you previously, but after you left a comment on my last post in The Adventures of Ole and Lena I had to investigate. I've reincarnated at http://talesfromfrostbitefalls.blogspot.com. Stop over some time, if you like. Again, sorry for your dark days. Wish there was something I could do to help. Love Lena
from fightn4life :
I am so sorry you are traveling in that dark place. I saw a sign the other day...might mean something to you, (I hope) "We are never so lost that an angel cannot find us." I cried...this month on the 22nd, it will be the anniversary of when we lost my young grand son...at times it feels like yesterday. My heart is with you, Sandyz
from mskindasorta :
It's ok Carolyn, you don't have to say anything, I know we share the same thoughts and feelings. I understand what you say about joy and ever feeling it again. I wish we lived closer xo
from mskindasorta :
I just wrote in my diary and came to read yours and my heart knows exactly what yours does. I was going to say I don't know how you have got through this far but then remembered how it makes me feel to hear people say that. It was 6 months for me last Thursday, I don't feel like one tiny little ounce of myself has started to heal. I just don't know how to live without my child. I'm sorry. Hugs my friend.
from wyndspirit :
You just learn to absorb and live with the pain, I guess. We finally sold my brother's house--to my sister. None of us really wanted to let it go, but until now (12 years) she wasn't up to living there.
from brightopal :
*Huge hugs* I truly hope that there is such a thing as reincarnation and that you someday have the privilege of meeting your son again. I cannot fathom the loss of a child. You're an amazing lady just to function; but that you do so with such amazing grace says Jeff must be watching you with a smile and a lot of love.
from boxx9000 :
((((hugs)))) As close as I am to my son, should anything happen to him I don't think I could function. It gives me a shudder to even think of it. I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain. I'm glad you are seeing the therapist, hopefully they should know best how to guide you thru the grief. ((((hugs))))
from mel-is-dvash :
Popping in to say hi. "Hi!" I loved the photos (just read back through your entries). Be well and Gd bless,
from yarnsmith :
Bad shirt luck? I have bad pants luck..when I find a pair just right, I buy one in every color.
from life-my-way :
I googled for air filtering plants and came up with this site, http://tinyurl.com/595pxq , which had several suggestions. It seems like most of the palms are pretty good, the ones I got are the tall plants whose leaves grow from a central point in the pot (no trunk) and come up with a long stem in the middle with narrow "leaves" growing off the stem to each side--the regular houseplant palm. Also, mother-in-law tongue (snake plant, whatever) is supposed to be good for the air and very hard to kill. Our house is now full of various plants and I swear I'm breathing better. Of course, the house is also full of puppy and cats and our junk etc., but still I believe the plants help.
from cosmic :
last year when I was 157, I used to say I wasn't fat, I was fluffy!
from just2cusmile :
i agree with boxx your not flabby at all and girl wear what you want and dont worry about what others think-im trying to start doing that and not give a damn but its hard because i am flabby :(
from brightopal :
I don't go to work in tank and shorts, but around the house - you better believe I live in them! It's the only way to survive summer here.
from boxx9000 :
How could you even possibly be flabby? i WISH I was as small as you. I'm still wearing size 10, haven't made it into the size 8's and beyond (below) yet. I'm going to school today to put my classroom back in order. The custodians cleaned it, but they piled all 33 of the student's desks against the wall and three desks high! It's going to be difficult for short me to get those desks down. Just part of my job description, right?
from cosmic :
I thought being a mom would be the best thing in the world. Untinl I had grandbabies. Grandbabies are better. You get to play with them and spoil them and when they get tired or cranky you get to give them back and tell them to go home. It's a win-win, I tall ya.
from mugwhump :
I 'promise' that if I/we ever travel in your direction, you'll be the first to know. I can just picture you sitting with the other lady and wondering how to approach the subject. The thought brought a smile to my face as I read your comment.
from brightopal :
Somehow I suspect that playing a game with you would be one of life's more interesting moments, lol.
from fightn4life :
I have had only one cup of coffee too...know what you mean. :) Enjoy the great out doors. :) Sandyz
from brightopal :
Happy camping - and don't they have a Starbucks out in the boonies for emergencies like that???
from lindzeeleigh :
Happy camping!!
from mugwhump :
Another couple of cups of coffee and everything will look better.
from boxx9000 :
VACATION? ENJOY!
from swimmmer72 :
That probably isn't a problem at your end (diary access). I haven't been able to get into mine, either, OR several others. I passed that onto Andrew and he's already looking into it. Enjoy your camping! :)
from wyndspirit :
Wonderful pictures!
from brightopal :
Wow - not only is your family lovely, but so are you! :)
from lindzeeleigh :
Loved the photos! You have a lovely family!
from life-my-way :
Your children and child-in-law are gorgeous, and you're pretty gorgeous yourself! Love the short haircut, it's making me rethink this in between cut I got a couple of days ago, I should have gone short-short.
from boxx9000 :
HOORAY! PICTURES! How fun. I LOVE it!
from brightopal :
Ack - yeah, sounds like your best bet is silence while navigating that minefield. I hope you sidestep the worst of the mess
from cocoabean :
Yeah, I would think keeping quiet on that subject would be the absolute best thing to do!!!
from cosmic :
Is that fingerprinting for identity? How old are these kids? Just curious. Years ago, I offered to fingerprint all the kids at my daughters school. I worked at the Sheriff's Department. The deal was that I would fingerprint the child and give the card to the parents. Guess how many showed. 5. Ans two of them were mine. I couldn't believe it. I also wanted to start a program where I would take a sticker and put it on the back of a childs photo with a form for the shilds weight, height, color hair, eye's etc. No interest. What is it with some of these parents thse days?
from brightopal :
I'm assuming I'm menopausal these days. I can't really tell because I am 50 years old and had a hysterectomy back in my thirties. I haven't had any hot flashes profound enough that I could really identify them as such, and I've had so many extreme experiences and the accompanying rants that I can't pinpoint how much is moodiness and how much is realistic responses to impossible situations.
from lindzeeleigh :
Just stopping in to say hello and that I got caught up on all your entries now that i am back. I had lots of comments to make on your entries as I read them but now that I am here typing in this little box I forget them all! How typical. Glad that you are well and I promise more interesting notes next time around! :P
from cocoabean :
ok, send them on! are they in photobucket or just on your computer? i have the next 3 days off, so I should have no time issues...
from brightopal :
Ugh. Busy days for you about now, getting ready for the school year to crank into high gear. But just think - another couple of months and things will be just as crazy with the beginning of the school year *G*
from brightopal :
I'm trying to stay as far away from the flame war as possible. Rosie's still speaking to me - don't know about Art, he was but now who knows. Life's too short to play piss-on-one-another.
from cocoabean :
as to the current flame war, I am keeping my head down, but my hair is still getting singed off, because I refuse to support one over the other. It's all between the two of them, but one posted things that should have been emailed instead of being made public.. and I refuse to take a public stand on any of it!
from cocoabean :
oh you do bring a smile to me... and I would love to help you with your picture posting...
from yarnsmith :
Oh how I love me a good antique store and I also am addicted to antique earrings. The difference between you and me begins when a milk shake is served....I will always make room for a milkshake. Mike and I went for one last night at a local creamery that serves outside on a patio and the inside is a 1895 building filled with antiques and original fixtures. Re: flare ups in the blogosphere...so much of it starts with people who want to support their good friends and then try to smooth it over with the other party....when you get in the middle of that stuff...there is always fall out. It is such a shame. The blogosphere mimics real life and you are right...life is too short to get mixed up in stuff like this.
from brightopal :
Heee - there's something positively decadent about outsmarting a smartass like that. Good going!!!
from brightopal :
Dang - what a list! Did all that happen recently??
from brightopal :
I can't make the Javelina Hunt either. Too much to deal with, too little money, too little time, and so on. Here's hoping for next year...
from boxx9000 :
The date, Feb.6th is my Kelly's birthday. I don't know when I started Diary Land, but I know I was in the credential program at the time. August 2001?
from brightopal :
Wow - you definitely make me want to visit! :D Though in all honesty I've wanted to visit for a long time. Someday...
from brightopal :
No Freecycle? That's really too bad. You should start a chapter locally - it's done through Yahoo Groups ;)
from mugwhump :
I leave stuff on our front lawn lots. You'd be amazed at what people will pick up. Last week the church I work at put out a large sofa-bed, some toys, and a couple of broken bicycles... All gone!! Especially the heavy old dirty couch. Which is a good thing, because there was no way we were going to be able to fit that sofa-bed in the dumpster!
from poolagirl :
The free bear story is great! h2ophoic and the free bears. Get it? Anyway, you just inspired an entry!
from boxx9000 :
BEARY NICE! I love bears, too. Bears & Bees go together, honey. hehehe. I'm being silly this morning. WHY does it get so HOT & COLD there? You have such extremes in temperature. Your post cards arrived yesterday! WheeeE! I especially like the one with the three statues from Wizard of Oz. We're not in Kansas anymore! Thank you so very much, Kansas was one of the states I NEEDED!
from boxx9000 :
Dave just turned 55 on 6/21 and I will be 53 on 2/16. NOT as young as we used to be, but certainly not ready for the grave either. I really miss being able to play tennis and ping pong with him. He's so grumpy because he hurts all the time. He DOES have a lawyer working on it, working s-l-o-w-l-y. They're working on getting an unbiased third party opinion on the extent of his permanent disability and future medical costs. He hasn't had physical therapy in months! I don't want any money. I want my healthy husband back.
from boxx9000 :
I was wondering the same thing re: MY HOW TIME FLIES WHEN YOU'RE HAVING FUN!
from poolagirl :
Taco soup? I want some!!!!
from brightopal :
Wow - a boy who makes his own bed? Isn't that, like, illegal or something? I've seen grown men who do that, but not many boys.
from boxx9000 :
I really dislike grocery shopping, too, BUT...I actually LIKE going grocery shopping with my husband. I push the cart, he makes all the food decisions. I usually get a *toy* of some sort. (new flowers or a special fruit)
from brightopal :
Now THAT's impressive. Good for you! *Hugs* Given your history, it's no wonder your personal demons surround driving.
from just2cusmile :
YAHHHHHH YOUUUUU!! hugs ;)
from lindzeeleigh :
Good for you, you should be proud of yourself for facing your fear and conquering it! :)
from boxx9000 :
I'm PROUD of you, too! I used to have this irrational fear of becoming homeless, I also have the fear of being lost. Going thru the divorce years was pure hell, but it gave me so much confidence. Staying in the NOW is what helps me deal with my anxiety. I can not control the past I can not control the future, all I can control is the right now. ((((hugs))) I'm proud of you.
from brightopal :
Blond IS genetic and has absolutely nothing to do with hair color. I've met a Mexican woman with black hair, but she was quite possibly the blondest person I've ever met. After backing her pickup truck into my car, her excuse? "I looked on both sides of me when I was backing up. I didn't think to look behind me."
from cosmic :
Wow. Weird. I've never been to MT, CA, CO or KS. Spookey. okay, that was a whole lot funnier when I thought it out loud. Sorry.
from boxx9000 :
Those kind of coincidences happen to me quite often and always freak me out. However, there really aren't any coincidences. (insert twilight zone music) I'm so happy you and Shelby got some mother and daughter time together. It's definitely a favorite of mine to spend time with my daughter. Tomorrow the two of us are going tot he movies together (Mama Mia!) while the MEN watch cage fighting (yuck)
from brightopal :
Welcome back! I used to love to drive. Any more I love it when someone ELSE drives, lol.
from boxx9000 :
WELCOME BACK! Hooray for short work weeks, too.
from lindzeeleigh :
I am glad that you had such a fun trip and did lots of girly things! Wasn't a pedicure so nice?! I LOVE them! I totally laughed about the friendly Chinese lady, that was fantastic of her and I pictured her accent for sure. Hope you have a safe drive home!
from brightopal :
Long trips - with unexpected sidelines - are often the most fun. I'm looking forward to the details when you're home and have the time!
from boxx9000 :
Travel Safely. Thanks for getting me a post card in Kansas! WhEeeEe!
from mugwhump :
Have fun on your 'Thelma and Louise' trip, but do make sure to come back and tell us all about it.
from lindzeeleigh :
Glad that you had such a nice visit. It is great when you can connect wiht people of all ages and walks of life. Have a nice trip with Shelby!!
from just2cusmile :
have fun and travel safe-it sounds like its going to be really fun trip!
from cosmic :
Have a great trip!
from boxx9000 :
travel safely. ENJOY!
from brightopal :
Awww, how wonderful! I'm so glad you had such a good time with the family. At their collective ages, you never know when or if you'll ever have another opportunity to "play." This is as much their gift to you as yours to them. :)
from boxx9000 :
Please tell Shelby that Othello is also MY fave, but Comedy of Errors was actually better on stage this year. It was done as a western musical! I wouldn't have believed how good it was if I hadn't seen it myself. FANTASTIC!
from yarnsmith :
After 30 years of marriage, we have both perfected the art of pretending we are listening to each other while what ever whom ever is talking about goes in one respective ear and out the other...we no longer get mad at each other about this as we both do it. It's why we've managed to be married for 30 years.
from brightopal :
Oh, been there in a big way. But you know my absolute favorite moments? When my daughter accuses me of not listening to her. She gets absolutely infuriated when I invariably repeat back to her, word-for-word, what she just accused me of not listening to. I am evil that way *G*
from mel-is-dvash :
Yup, I'm nodding my head knowingly. Sometimes I ask mine, 'why should I listen to anything you say, if even you don't bother to?'
from cocoabean :
Yeah, I know that feeling. Man never used to remember things he'd said to me... or things I'd said to him. Are men all brain-dead, or what?
from cosmic :
There is one good thing about a husband that doesn't listen. Many a time I have done something hubby really wouldn't agree on, but I just get this littly pissy attitude on and say, "We TALKED about this already and you were all for it!" He just lookes confused and says, "Oh ya," Yes, keep them confused, that's the ticket.
from just2cusmile :
thats too funny and im the sameway-i cant only take so much of somebody like that and then i lose it :) and like you-i get mad when my hairdresser gets messed with when she is doing my hair...good for you!!
from brightopal :
BWAHAHAHA!! That's frigging hilarious. It's right up there with my BIL, who invites Jehovah's Witnesses into his house, then regales them with outlandish stuff like his (entirely fictitious) Satanic rituals, etc. They stopped coming to his door. Gee, I wonder why? ;)
from boxx9000 :
pretty red toes? pictures please. You really NEED a camera. I can't imagine not having mine with me at all times. There's always something that needs a picture.
from cosmic :
Just visiting for the first time and thought I would say hi. I'be been meaning to read you but kept getting pulled astray. You're on my list now! Oh, the readon I'm here today? Feeding the homless comment in poolagirl's diary. Way cool.
from brightopal :
I think your six-word summation is one of the best I've read. Good for you!
from lindzeeleigh :
Myself in six words?! i don't know how you did it? It might take me six weeks!!
from mugwhump :
Interesting meme. You did well. It would take me days to ponder six words on myself ....
from mel-is-dvash :
Yes! "Acknowledgment." Or rather Un-acknowledged. *sigh* Sounds like you know just what I was talking about. I suppose it's a good enough reason to want to avoid family because I don't want to be around people who find me irrelevant? I hope so.
from yarnsmith :
Um...could I have some of that medicine that make s you lose your appetite? My choices would have been between egg, yogurt, peanut butter, cheese or chocolate brownies and I'd have eaten the chocolate brownies with no concern for the "good side" of me.
from brightopal :
You SO sound like me here. I know I need to avoid sugary and starchy food like the plague, but I go through the same argument with myself every time I grab something to eat.
from wyndspirit :
Actually, cheese melted on toast is the most satisfying breakfast I've found!
from lindzeeleigh :
Happy camping!! i am off to the lake for the day, so we are both going to have fun! :)
from boxx9000 :
Then I am crazy, too, because I ALWAYS have conversations with myself regarding food and eating and what is the adult thing to do and what the child in me really wants to do. (((hugs))) I'm sending you LOTS of anti-anxiety vibes. Enjoy the beauty and peace of nature on your camping trip. Will there be any FERN plants where you are going? I love fern fronds, especially the new ones that are still curled. How's the weather? Sunny and warm? Blue skies? (envy)
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY CAMPING! travel safely. What do you do when you go camping? just relax? Do you play card games? fishing? hiking? Any art work? Just curious.
from brightopal :
Glad to hear today was better. Here's hoping it continues for a while!!!
from brightopal :
Awww, that had to be rough. I hope today is a better day for you. *Hugs* again. Wish I were there to hug you in real life.
from lindzeeleigh :
I LOVED the notes to yourself! They were so great! And I really hope you have a better day tomorrow. Thinking of you!
from brightopal :
*Hugs* Some days we're meant to vacation in place. Panic attacks aren't the best destination, though. I hope you find a measure of peace sooner or later, enough so to set the debilitation and shaking aside. Another *hugs* for good measure.
from just2cusmile :
first off I MISSS YOUUU TOOO! I feel for you babe about your anxiety-i suffer too and i take my meds on a daily basis 2 times and it sucks constantly worrying about it-its always on my mind especially when i go out in public.It runs in my family so were all screwed up.lol hugs and do just what you can when you can!
from life-my-way :
I read early this morning and did not write--what is wrong with me??? I know anxiety well, I must have the gene and be a carrier because John appears to have it too, dammit. I'm with you in spirit and hoping the feeling of anxiety ebbs away and is replace by the feeling of love from all of us who read and care about you. I have a reading suggestion for anxiety, if you're interested let me know. Love, K
from theumbrella :
I really feel you on this one, Carolyn. I'll say a prayer that your day improves.
from fightn4life :
I hope today is a good day, my thoughts are with you, Sandyz
from brightopal :
*Snort* You been reading my mind again? I swear I've had a whole lot of those conversations with myself ;)
from boxx9000 :
Hi, I'm back from my mini vacation and trying to catch up with my diary reading. (((hugs))) I like you just the way you are. All the things that happen to us make us who we are. I do not remember much of my early childhood either and I've always thought that was weird. I did not have a good relationship with my mom (she was narcissistic) I do remember wanting a better mother/daughter relationship with my own daughter and a LOVING marriage. Sometimes we can REPEAT the patterns or we can make the choice to change and make our lives better. I chose the later. I love my kids the way I wish I had been loved. I have the type of marriage I had always dreamed of. Dreams do come true. BELIEVE.
from yarnsmith :
Your post makes me want to cry and leap for joy at the same time. I feel so bad that a wonderful person like you didn't have the love a child should have. On the other hand, so many people who grow up like that are never able to break the cycle and learn what life is all about and what is important. I used to listen to that Dr. Laura Schlessenger alot...I know she makes some people mad and does sound holier than though sometimes but one thing she said still rings in my memories. "A person has two chances for a Mother/Child relationship"...I'm so glad you are getting your 2nd chance and using it wisely.
from pandionna :
Hi there! Clicked through from Kathyesque. Please don't mind me as I poke around in your archives. You've got a great diary here and I like your writing style. (In case you try to click through--my diary here is long-buried. Now I do non-personal stuff on WordPress under the same name. Just saying, because it used to creep me out when people dropped me notes and had locked diaries. Like, "Thanks, glad you like the writing but, uh, who are you?")
from fightn4life :
Wingless angels I believe are those that step into our worlds with the very tools of life we were not given for various reasons. The woman that showed you your very own heart knows the gift she left behind. I believe many of us grew up in unemotional homes, it was the times more than those that couldn't give a part of their heart. I was blessed to to have a woman come into my life and by example tutored me without knowing it. I learned to love my children unconditionally and without boundaries. In the many areas I might have failed as a parent the one I see through my children is the gift of love and expressing it, far greater than I ever did. I just planted the seed. I loved your entry as it showed your inner self, what a beautiful person you are...there is no hiding your inner light. My thoughts are with you, Sandyz
from brightopal :
Please don't change. Don't stop writing. Don't be anything but who you are. You're my inspiration, the person I would like to be when I grow up. I'm GLAD to see you have a good marriage. It gives me hope, something I wouldn't even have considered until the last 2 or 3 years. You're a godsend and don't you DARE change that! *Hugs*
from lindzeeleigh :
This is attempt two at a note for you! My last one didn't save for some reason?! Anyways, I think the gist of my note was about how happy and proud I am that you are maintaining such a positive outlook in spite of difficult circumstances. And that isn't always the easy route to take.
from wyndspirit :
In the end, no matter what examples we've had or haven't had, we make our own choices. You chose to make good ones, and it shows.
from poolagirl :
Blessings to you for breaking the cycle of non-affection. You are a true hero. I applaud you!
from mel-is-dvash :
Thank goodness for puppy kisses and kitty purrs. I hope you don't see another day like that for a long time.
from brightopal :
Awww *Hugs* I hope today goes better! It's always frustrating to deal with days like that, where absolutely EVERYTHING goes wrong.
from poolagirl :
Gads! What a day!
from wyndspirit :
I think you're supposed to keep on your underwear when trying on underwear or swimsuits. But who can trust that they do??? I would NEVER try on underwear!!! :( Congrats on finishing the payroll!
from brightopal :
Yikes about the allergy. Glad they caught it and that it was no worse than it was. And as to the brain cells and being dead tired, I hear ya. I am definitely going to bed early today.
from yarnsmith :
I think I have tendinitis too...when I hurt my arm shoveling dirt. It just isn't getting any better...I'm hoping to rest it while taking a few vacation days in another week. I'm glad you are finally getting a summer. We have had a great one so far. I put a picture of a Jack in the Pulpit on my blog for you.
from mel-is-dvash :
Yup, sucks. {{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}
from boxx9000 :
"I got to spend time by the pool. That made everything else unimportant." Isn't that the truth? HOORAY! We leave for our mini vacation tomorrow. I will send you a post card from shland for your board at work. Love, BoXx
from boxx9000 :
((((hugs))))
from wifemotherme :
I was just going to leave you a note of love and support but happen to read brightopal's note below. Her comment is insightful and brilliant. She is absolutely right. I pray you have a peaceful re digestion of this information. You do already have every thing within you that you need to cope.
from lindzeeleigh :
I can't imagine how you must be feeling to learn all of this about your past. You are a strong woman and even though it may be difficult, I know you will get through it.
from brightopal :
*Hugs* No - the processing and acceptance stage doesn't have to be awful. You already knew these things. You're only re-integrating the truth. You can do this, and you can do it with the class and grace you already possess.
from brightopal :
Mother Nature must surely be PMS'ing. Snow in Montana and rain where I grew up. Skeery stuff. :(
from theumbrella :
I look forward to getting out of that sleep stage...does it ever end? All I ever want to do is sleep!:-S I can't believe it's snowing there...
from lindzeeleigh :
Snow in June = :( I can't believe school is done already!! I still have two weeks left. I am looking forward to the end of the year, but not, all at the same time, you know? I hope your elbow gets better and that the darned weather improves over the weekend!
from boxx9000 :
You mean you were NOT dreaming of a white June???
from fightn4life :
WoW! SNOW!!! We been breaking records for spring time, hasn't been out of the 90's for a few months now. SNOW? Wow! Sandyz
from poolagirl :
Did you say SNOW?????????
from boxx9000 :
I just saw our payroll notice for summer school there's certificated and classified, special ed, elementary, middle, and High school payrolls. I'm going to get paid THREE times this summer in supplemental pay. Then there's mailed warrants and direct deposit. I don't know how you do it. OH, and I have to get a sub next Friday, too, so factor that in.
from theumbrella :
I am SUCH a lurker. By the by, this entry made me smile a few times which was refreshing:)
from fightn4life :
I am a lurker too, I often read other diaries and do not leave a note, sometimes if I love the writing I'll bookmark it and go back. I feel weird at times about leaving a comment, like you I am concerned I'll be misunderstood. It seems I am getting over that and take the leap. If I hear back I am thrilled if not I just continue to lurk. It's all good. :) Sandyz
from lindzeeleigh :
I think we are all lurkers at times! I leave comments when I have something to contribute, or when I have something i want to add, or if i just like the person too darn much!! :P I think comments on blogs, diaries, what have you help people to keep writing and/or give them much needed advice [as in my case lately]. Hope you are enjoying your rainy Sunday. I am all cozy in bed with my laptop and tea Ben made for me. :)
from wyndspirit :
Yeah, I'm a lurker, too. Lots of times I don't even have comments for my regular reads. Just because I want to know what you're up to doesn't mean I have something to say about it. But I'm with Boxx, I hate being "ordered" to leave a comment. Most lurkers are innocent readers. I know I have lurkers because certain people leave a comment once or twice a year, but I don't mind. I only mind if they know me in IRL and don't let me know they're reading. That's just rude.
from boxx9000 :
I leave notes when there is something interesting to respond to. I can't make myself leave a note just to be saying SOMETHING. I also do not like being TOLD I MUST leave a comment. Some people are just Diary Nazis but that's their problem and not mine.
from kitchenlogic :
Wow! What a nice comment to get at my kitchenlogic2point0 blog! I'm really glad that I helped you make some decisions. If you e-mail me at: kathy@kitschinart.com, I'll gladly invite you into my other, even more honest blog that only very very nice people are welcome into. I have to tell you, there is not enough cymbalta in my world to ever go camping. I was kind of happy for you when I read that you couldn't go because of the rain. But maybe that's just me. Camping is evil!
from lindzeeleigh :
It is raining here too. I actually woke up to the sound of thunder which startled me! That is no fun that you can't go camping. YAY, the last paycheques are done! I am glad that i still get one more, but it is kind of bittersweet because it is my last paycheque from them and they are paying me out for July and August so it all gets lumped into one. :S I am glad to hear that therapy is going so well, that is positive news. :)
from wyndspirit :
Yeah, he put it exactly!!! That's where I am right now.
from boxx9000 :
(((hugs))) the road is long, I know. ((((hugs))))
from boxx9000 :
Travel safely and enjoy your time with family. I start summer school in three days.
from yarnsmith :
Enjoy your camping trip. I don't need to get away from people, I do need the break from technology though. I'll bet Montana is beautiful at this time of year.
from lindzeeleigh :
I always vote for nap too!! LoL. Thanks for your nice messages and for the constant finger crossing. Are your little fingers getting sore and cramped yet??
from boxx9000 :
I know what you mean, I get soOoOOooOO much work accomplished at school when I don't have 33 kids all demanding my attention. hehehehe.
from brightopal :
I hear ya. Nap would win for me this morning but breakfast is yelling louder at the moment.
from brightopal :
Consider some days I work 8-9 hours and take the bus three hours EACH WAY. By the time I get home, I'm ready to body-slam anyone who even so much as speaks to me, lol.
from boxx9000 :
I can't express how relieved I am to have a bit of vacation time before summer school starts up.
from wyndspirit :
I'd like to hear, too. wyndspirit@diaryland.com is fine. I regularly work 60 hour shifts and people think it's gravy because I can play on the computer or read or do crafts, but it's tiring being "on call" for that long a stretch.
from yarnsmith :
Actually, I drive an hour each way. I have no life and permanent inkspots below each eye. Seriously though, Nano took my O/T away so for 2 weeks now I have been working normal hours...I am going into battle to get my O/T back next week because I desperately need the money but I am a little saddened about the all work and no play deal. However, I have Mike to do the housework and I have no kids so basically I am free to do nothing but work and sleep...weekends are spent blissfully puttering in my garden and enjoying the offerings of my beautiful city. I see that you two put in extra hours though by waking up and thinking about work, forming plans for the day while still half asleep...I have a habit of doing this to. In this manner, our employers get an extra hour per day out of us for free....he's living in my head rent free.....AGHHHH!!!!!
from just2cusmile :
i wanna hear-you have my email right?
from brightopal :
I hope Shelby finds something she likes as well as, or better than, the music business. It can offer huge financial rewards and can also decimate every trace of what you love about your child :(
from boxx9000 :
Would you be disappointed if Shelby followed a career in the arts? I understand about wanting security and not wanting the Britney Spears train wreck, but there has to be something in between, too. As much as I value the arts, I wanted my son to have a college degree also.
from marlen816 :
So glad that it was not cancer! ((Hugs))
from boxx9000 :
5-29-08 We get out earlier than you (TODAY!) but we have to STARt earlier. The first day of school for next year is August 11. That seems just plain crazy. School should NOT start until AFTER Labor Day! Thanks for your sweet note. (((hugs)))
from just2cusmile :
gurllll you can never leave me enough messages-i so look forward to them :) you help me out a lot with my feelings and experiences and that my friend I thank you!
from mugwhump :
I had the same scare a couple of years ago. No fun. Stupid cysts!
from fightn4life :
Phew, I am so glad your tests came back negitive, had me worried while I was reading. Tkae a loong break and exhale, Sandyz
from just2cusmile :
You had me scared the other day when I read you had PMS I was hoping that would go away too with the surgery lol but im moody at times so I doubt it will. No surgery yet-its June 6th-I've had the same problem with my boobers and its scary time when your sitting in there alone waiting and wondering what they are going to tell you-glad it wasnt nothing! hugs
from lindzeeleigh :
i am so relieved everything is all right! That must have given you quite the scare indeed. Yeesh! :S
from brightopal :
While I'm sorry you threw your back out, I'm glad the breast scare was cysts. Here's wishing you a lot less stress going forward!!!
from boxx9000 :
I am such an idiot. It wasn't your ovaries, it was your breasts. So sorry for the medical scare. That's no fun. Will they remove the cysts or leave them?
from boxx9000 :
I'm so glad that all is Ok with you. How come you are having problems with your ovaries? I thought you had all that removed???
from just2cusmile :
dont you dare do what meg ryan did to herself-i dont get it with her, she was so cute naturally. What kills me is when they deny having anything done....
from brightopal :
Most people I know have had so much "done" that their own mother wouldn't recognize them. I am who I am, warts, moles, wrinkles and all. I don't even color my hair - and these days that's considered radical!
from mzbee :
The whole cosmetic surgery thing really disturbs me. People are always looking for the quick fix. Everyone should strive for being healthy and happy. My sister is addicted to having cosmetic procedures. I may not like having wrinkles or sagging jowls but it is who I am and I can not stand the thought of actually being cut by a surgeon's knife and sewn back together again. EXERCISE is the poor man's plastic surgery. Go check out this site: http://www.awfulplasticsurgery.com/
from brightopal :
Awww - and owww! I hope you're not bruised up from your escapades :-/
from chaosdaily :
yes, your majesty~!
from lindzeeleigh :
All Hail Queen Klutz!! She is mighty and all powerful and will shred all your papers for you! :)
from brightopal :
Dang - do you live in Alaska or Maine?? I didn't realize you were that far north. Here our longest day it's dark by around 8:30-ish. We trade off with longer winter days than I'm sure you experience, though.
from mugwhump :
OK, so they didn't kill Booth. We both knew that wouldn't happen. But the Zack thing really took me by surprise! He leaves interesting shoes to fill for next season.
from becahh :
Hello! You sound down right bubbly. Chipper even. Yes it is amazing to think that our girls are driving. I am anticipating being very, very, sad in two years when J graduates, same as your Shelby. My plan is Blackberries. Maybe you two need them too. Then when J cuts me off I can contact you.
from boxx9000 :
re: our daughters....reminds me of the scene from Father of the Bride where the Dad is listening to the daughter saying she is getting married and he can only see her as being 4 years old. hehehehehe
from yarnsmith :
I've been doing payroll for 20 years and I still get nervous EVERY TIME I do it. I have only screwed up a handful of times in 20 years but I still would feel terrible to mess with someone's pay. That lawn boy you have is a delightfully rare bird. He will grow up to be a successful young man with that work ethic. I need a "gutter cleaning" boy like that...Mike is my lawn boy.
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm so glad to hear you had a great mood today. It just brightens my day reading about it.
from her-story :
At least you didn't break out in a pouring sweat during an interview and had to try to delicately dab the pouring sweat away with a linty tissue. (heh) I heard the rumbling... but it's usually me, so I wasn't sure if it was an echo or someone else.
from just2cusmile :
can you hand reach all the way to fl. and slap me too? :) I was going to ask you if you kept your ovarys cause thats the plan fo me.
from poolagirl :
Great advice from thundering Montana!
from brightopal :
Good for you. Let me know if you accomplish your goal - might give me the impetus to try it ;)
from brightopal :
Actually I was thinking good for both you AND Bill. A sprain is no fun but better than broken!
from fightn4life :
So glad to hear about Bill, not so good about your finger. Sorry but I laughted reading you did it washing the dog...not funny but...just think about it. LOL My thoughts are with you, Sandyz
from just2cusmile :
glad to hear about the good news with Bills shoulder-hope the mending contiues..I just bought finger splints a few eeks ago-a 2 pack for $5 what a deal huh lol-get'cha one... enjoy your spring weather!
from brightopal :
Sorry to hear the finger's sore but glad your attitude remains unbroken ;) Good luck on Bill's surgery!
from mugwhump :
They can't (they won't) kill off Booth. I'll stop watching!!!
from boxx9000 :
i LOVE the May payroll because I get a check for May, June, AND July! WhEeeE! All that money I've been having taken out during the year for the summer months. Three months pay. YAY!
from life-my-way :
Happy mother's day, Carolyn, turtle stories just for you!!!
from lindzeeleigh :
Happy Mother's Day, Carolyn! I hope you have a restful and relaxing day with more you time!
from brightopal :
Actually it's a misconception that you can't move a broken finger/toe/whatever. It hurts like heck but the muscle is what moves things, so yeah - you can move something broken. Still... ouch!
from yarnsmith :
"ME" days are all too few and far between. Enjoy that "flipper" while you have the excuse...and Happy Mother's Day...you deserve a good one...all Mother's do.
from lindzeeleigh :
I love *ME* days as well. I think we all need them or we will go a little crazy. I am totally laughing at your injury, a great way to spend a Friday indeed! Too funny!!
from starlight42 :
Jeff's funeral sounds like it was very personal and certainly a celebration of him. I still think of what happened once in a while when I check in on you and I feel so sad that such a great life was taken so early. And I have to ask, what Cher song did you play??
from mel-is-dvash :
Thanks for your note, I don't know if it makes any sense, but it feels better to know that I am not alone. Love your entry today, sounds like a good time, and I definitely can appreciate the dogs being like toddlers - mine too. :-)
from boxx9000 :
Saturday is also my favorite day. I like it better than Friday or Sunday.
from chaosdaily :
Gee I've been in a much better mood on the whole since I started the divorce thing....
from brightopal :
Happy Mother's Day! I hope today goes MUCH better than yesterday *Hugs*
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! "All you need is Love" is the end of the year song my 6th graders will be performing. (track 23)
from brightopal :
I'm impressed. I can't even get the ratty carpeting cleaned in my room
from mel-is-dvash :
Congratulations on a finished interior! I'm sure it must feel wonderful. :-)
from just2cusmile :
Congrats 2 years late on finishing the inside-we have so much to do inside and out too..
from fightn4life :
Congratulations! Inside done and you sound excited, bet it looks great. Sandyz
from brightopal :
Winter is already long gone here. We're in the 90's daytime, easy. I'll split the difference with the folks still dealing with 50-ish weather!
from lindzeeleigh :
I agree - no more winter and no more snow!!
from ipaula :
i am pretty sure after reading a few entries that you are a terrific person.
from boxx9000 :
I agree with you 100% that a couple hours of sunshine and a nap are better for the soul than WORKING.
from mzbee :
It's been 9 years since my Dad died and I still miss him, usually when there is something I would like to share with him. He never saw me graduate from college or know that I am teaching art & history (my Dad was an artist.) I think of him being away on a vacation, but he's not coming back. I do feel his presence daily and the memories of him live on forever. (((hugs))) I see a lot of my Dad in my son.
from lindzeeleigh :
You are very talented! And I am sorry to hear about you friend's son, that is terrible news. :(
from wyndspirit :
You don't get over it. Why would you want to? Because the only way you could "get over it" is to forget he ever existed, because as long as you know he lived, you'll miss that he's not with you anymore. The pain is always a part of your life, but as you live MORE of your life without him, it becomes a smaller--though no less important--part of your life, by default. Yes, you learn to live around it, but the living around it DOES get easier. You never lose the sudden twinges, though... But I wouldn't want to. I wouldn't want to NOT think about Dallas now and then. I mean, he's still a part of the family we were then. None of us exist as the people we were years ago anyway. Just the other day, I mentioned our (legendary drunk) childhood doctor to Mom, that my new client knew him well, and we remembered that the last time any of us had gone there was when Dallas got his finger pinched in a hitch pin when he was around ten. And we went on to my memories of my childhood pediatrition (before this doc entered our lives) and the conversation continued without hesitation. It's too immediate for her now, and you're probably just starting to really see what I'm talking about. You can say it gets better, just so long as the other person understands you DON'T mean that they'll "get over" it.
from fightn4life :
Thanks for you message, I too wish we lived closer and could get out and have a cup of coffee. Lord knows I could use a smile...some laughter would be nice too. Your entry was deep, Sandyz
from brightopal :
*Hugs* You're also talented enough to channel your grief here, to a place where you have friends who support you.
from chaosdaily :
Does that mean I am gifted, too?
from poolagirl :
Incredible feelings and power in your latest entry. Blessings to you.
from yarnsmith :
I had a hysterectomy 16 years ago and the left my ovary in too but I never had any PMS...before or after and I'm sure I've cleared menopause without any hot flashes or other stuff my sisters are going through...I've been pretty lucky with that stuff..except for the cervical cancer (which I considered a blessing seeing as how I caught it so early it was completely cured by a hysterectomy...yay for hysterectomies)
from mzbee :
It's called synchronous menstruation. My classroom girls go thru it every month at the same time.
from brightopal :
Yup, I remember those days. I don't recall PMS'ing after my hysterectomy (though like you, I still have my ovaries.) But hey - I have the excuse that I'm ALWAYS bitchy. ;)
from just2cusmile :
I've had the same problem with my anxiety pills/drs. too and it sucks-they dont get it how bad we need it-they see it as a controled substance and they have to report it each time a patient is giving it blah blah but it works and luckly my primary dr. doesnt have to give it to me anymore(it was a battle)my balance and hearing dr. gives it to me to treat me for those issues-you might need to find a new dr.-i know i cant live without it...hope you get the right dosage again..
from theumbrella :
11 hours? I am so jealous:) By the way, I had to go back and read some entries. You are BEAUTIFUL!:) Thanks for sharing a picture with us:)
from brightopal :
I hate doctors. And did I mention? I HATE doctors. I went through all kinds of grief getting antidepressants, even had one doctor outright ridicule me. (Effective treatment, there, Doc.) I have insurance now but won't even use it because 1) it costs so much I can't afford to live and 2) I FOOKIN' HATE DOCTORS.
from yarnsmith :
You are as cute as can be. Actually, I pictured you pretty much the way you look face wise but for some reason, I pictured you with shoulder length strait brown hair cut in a bob. Its funny but the hair cut I had in the picture Chaos took of me was a BAD experiment my daughter tried on my grown out. I went back to my tried and true haircut on Monday night and guess what...it's the same haircut you have. I have been thinking alot along the same lines as your post. It was especially after meeting Chaos and that I realized that we are truly all REAL freinds...at lunch we just sat right down and talked like if we had known each other in 3D...I have never in my life had many girlfriends...I've never been a girlfriendy person but now I am just enjoying the heck out of having so many girls to gab with and this internet friendship we have is truly a blessing. That's why I let my picture be displayed finally....I decided that I trusted everyone enough and I'm glad I did it...(however I do plan on posting a better pic with a better hair do and after some good sleeping time this weekend)
from myownjourney :
You know you how you picture someone through reading their entries? You kind of have this image in your head about how they look? I have to be honest, I had this very motherly picture of you. Who knew you were a hotty? (Can I say hotty?) Now I feel weird... I'm gonna go now. :-)
from just2cusmile :
awwww i've seen h2o and you are so cute and tiny-i love putting a face to a name :)
from mugwhump :
I completely agree with you. It is my morning ritual to see what everyone else has been up to. And now that I've remembered my D-land password - I can comment more easily. LOL!
from just2cusmile :
i love my online friends and i love it when DL is lit up with red letting me know my buddies have posted about their lives...where is your picture-i dont think i've ever seen at pic of you!! hugs to my friend C
from brightopal :
I hear you about the online friends. I've been privileged to meet a lot of my online buddies in real life and lemme tell you, they're at LEAST as cool in reality as online. And unfortunately I've also seen the ones who drifted into oblivion, never to be heard from again :(
from lindzeeleigh :
i know what you mean about your online friends. i, too, have lost friends online and have never heard from them and still wonder how they are. Love the picture of you!
from boxx9000 :
I'm very guarded about everything I say after the BIG drama that happened to me here at Diary Land. It really shocked me how hateful some people can be, I guess I am just naive.
from wyndspirit :
I did that one time, pre-online, but I lost around 50 pen pals. I got nailed with a paralyzing bout of depression that lasted 5 yrs. I still miss my pen pals. I tried to get back in touch with them later, but it wasn't the same. I still would love to get back into the world of "palling," but I'm so afraid I'll end up ditching them again. This is as close as I can get, but it's still not the same as spending hours decorating stationery and having "real" mail in your mailbox almost every day.
from chaosdaily :
my sister (DSis) found my diary... she said she was amazed at the support I got from my online friends... she said she wished she could get that much support from her real life friends!
from mugwhump :
Ah ha!!! The beautiful H2O appears before us!! Great picture. Thanks for sharing it, now I feel like I know who I'm reading about better.
from boxx9000 :
I LOVE pictures! It's so great to put a face with your diary. MORE pictures please!
from wifemotherme :
How adorable are you!
from marlen816 :
I love the outfit! You look so trendy =) And you look just like I imagined you would! I love your haircut, too =)
from wyndspirit :
Very nice. Thanks for sharing!
from brightopal :
I agree - you look marvelous! Nothing wrong with that outfit. I have to say, though, it is very Midwest America ;)
from life-my-way :
You're adorable, the outfit is great and I LOVE you hair!!! Thanks for sharing!
from chaosdaily :
send it on over... drkchoclover at gmail.com!
from lindzeeleigh :
It is snowing and blizzarding here too if it makes you feel any better! :( We are in the same boat! Glad you are looking forward to going back to work, even though you really had a good time and gre closer to Bill while staying home. :)
from brightopal :
Argh... Snow? I know it happens, but still. It's supposed to be spring!
from poolagirl :
Snow at this time of the year is just.....wrong!
from yarnsmith :
I'm here...just working too many hours and not at my home computer...I have trouble sitting in my BIL's tall tall chair and can't figure out how to lower it and his desk is extra tall so it's uncomfortable to use his computer with his man hand size keyboard....so...I'll be home tonight and post. I am housesitting. SO...you got snow???? I hope to God we are past that but the weather people were threatening snow last week...we escaped. I am meeting Chaos Daily for lunch today....perhaps I'll allow her to take my picture and finally expose my mug fo you all...don't expect a beauty.
from just2cusmile :
i sent it to you it must of not went thru-let me know if you still havent gotten
from brightopal :
I'm so sorry to hear about your friend's reaction to your son's death. For what it's worth, she may simply not have known how to deal, knowing you were grieving. There are people who, rather than acknowledge something so painful, will all but convince themselves it never really happened.
from fightn4life :
I don't know if I would have went with her or not…friends don't act like that. But you do have that little pill. LOL Try and have a good time, Sandyz
from mzbee :
I think the topic of death is beyond comprehension for most people. They've never experienced it and do not know what to say or think or feel. Death is hardly ever discussed. I hope I NEVER have to experience the death of a child. I was such a basket case after the death of my parents and they were old and sick and it was expected. but my child? OMG I'd be devastated beyond functioning. ((((hugs)))) I wish you never had to go thru losing Jeff, it makes me so sad every time I even think of it. There is no recovery. The death of a child is like a major gashing wound that never heals and the never ending pain of a broken heart, too. I just don't have the words to express how truly sorry I am for your loss. Do you think your friend really does not care or do you think she doesn't know WHAT to say?
from yarnsmith :
I started Juno but couldn't get into it...maybe I didn't give it enough time....I'll try it again.
from just2cusmile :
I have it and have to watch it still-i heard it was great...have a safe/fun weekend :)
from lindzeeleigh :
I thought Juno was fantastic!! The acting was superb and I found myself near to tears of laughter and sadness. It was so well done I often felt awkward for the characters!
from theumbrella :
I loved Juno. It was so cute! One aspect I really liked was that it DIDN'T idealize teen pregnancy, which isn't what I was expecting. It handled everything so delicately and in such a good way. What a cute movie.
from boxx9000 :
I really enjoyed Juno. The step Mom was great. I'll buy that movie when it is out on DVD.
from starlight42 :
Thanks for the note, it makes me feel so much better. Plus, today although is a busy day, is a much happier day. Looks like you are doing well and staying busy. It sounds like even though the kids get older, there's always so much going on at the house. I guess it's not going to be quiet here for a long time, huh? :) Take care and hope you get some time to yourself to relax.
from brightopal :
You're right - a lot of those DO still apply. The rest were worth reading, if for no other reason than the smiles they provoked :)
from lindzeeleigh :
I really like that list! THanks for sharing. :)
from lindzeeleigh :
I can't believe you lied about the massage place!! That is too funny! I am the same way about grocery shopping, but I give in and do it a lot more easily than you do, Carolyn!
from just2cusmile :
your having the same battle i am about going to the grocery store-i need to go NOW but keep putting it off..grrr
from wyndspirit :
Good to know I'm not the only one. Getting a massage to me is on the par with getting a complete physical. Yuck.
from brightopal :
Glad to hear that Bill's finally recovering. I know you're glad he's going back to work, even if it's only part time!
from brightopal :
If it's any consolation to you, one of the few times it snowed in Phoenix, it was April!
from lindzeeleigh :
I love that you got a look about you! Watch out for Carolyn and her look, she will get you! :P
from mzbee :
THANKS for the comment/compliment. OTHER people have been telling me the same thing, that my face looks thinner. I'll ask my daughter to take a full length pic of me today at the arts reception. I don't know how to use the timer on my camera. I haven't figured out my iPod either. I don't even know how to use my cell phone or the TV remote! hehehehehe.
from brightopal :
You know, The Look is nothing to sneeze at. And from the sounds of things, it was appropriate here. And I can't think of better indoctrination into the power of The Look. Imagine how your daughter feels now, knowing that The Look even works on her teachers! ;)
from boxx9000 :
I like TWITTER because I DON'T have time. It's like a condensed version of journaling, quick and brief updates. I like it even better than my diary land diary because I can do it quickly.
from mel-is-dvash :
I had to laugh reading you list - a family we know has a blind dog (puppy), and I hadn't thought about it, but when they take him for a walk they are his seeing-eye humans. Hee! :-)
from lindzeeleigh :
Glad to see an update from you. :) I am sorry to hear that Bill is still not doing well. I hope he will be able to get better soon. I loved all those things to ponder from your email!
from brightopal :
I have an answer to one of those: "When someone asks you, A penny for your thoughts and you put your two cents in, what happens to the other penny?" That's TAXES! (And I got the package in the mail - thank you!!!! *Hugs*) I hope Bill is better soon. That's got to be hard to deal with for this long.
from just2cusmile :
my family doesnt get it-maybe its because i have sensitve ears but i like a quiet home or time by myself at home but i love being around family and friends-my boys call me warren from "something about mary" if you have ever seen that movie :) im hoping the plan works for your babe poor guy!
from yarnsmith :
Family visits are wonderful but it is nice to return to normalcy...I'll say a prayer that Bill's new plan works for him and he can get better.
from yarnsmith :
Family visits are wonderful but it is nice to return to normalcy...I'll say a prayer that Bill's new plan works for him and he can get better.
from wyndspirit :
I grew up in chaos, but I've spent so much time alone I've turned into a spinster who winces at a raised voice. :(
from mzbee :
mzbee2008@yahoo.com
from brightopal :
Glad to hear Marlene and crew were helpful. Sometimes help comes from the most unlikely sources - even family! ;)
from lindzeeleigh :
Family, sometimes you can't live with them, but you can't live without them. [Cliche, I know!] *fingers crossed!*
from yarnsmith :
Sorry to hear that Bill didn't get any relief from his shot. I feel that you are getting sound advice from the Dr. about waiting on surgery as the very last option...surgery is serious and if there are things that can be tried first...try them. You sound like you are on a roller coaster of joys, sorrows, unknowns, and the ever present excitement of raising a teen daughter...hope you are taking care of yourself somewhere in the chaos. (((HUGS)))
from brightopal :
Oh man, I remember those days. Unfortunately in my daughter's case they generally DID... :(
from lindzeeleigh :
"Oh no they didn't" HA! I would have been shocked if he had spent the night, they know better than that I think! i really hope Bill is feeling better soon, this just seems to be dragging on for all of you. :( Happy Prom, that is so exciting!! p.s. Everyone needs some good retail therapy now and again. It will help!
from shadesofmi :
Happy Be-lated birthday to you. I miss reading you on a daily basis and should have my computer fixed/replaced soon. My diary misses you as well as myself. :)
from mel-is-dvash :
Hi again, I'm catching up and reading entries backwards as I do. I just read your 28.3 entry and I wanted to say how wonderful it is to read about your conversation with Bill. It makes me happy just knowing that happened. I hope things have changed.
from brightopal :
Good analogy - and absolutely right! They must've been executive frogs! ;)
from mel-is-dvash :
Hi, and belated happy birthday. I'm sorry I missed it. Hope the new year brings only good things. :-)
from yarnsmith :
You sound like you are practicing MzBee's new outlook on living in the NOW. That's all we can do is get up every morning and put one foot in front of the other and do the next right thing...the rest will follow.
from yarnsmith :
You sound like you are practicing MzBee's new outlook on living in the NOW. That's all we can do is get up every morning and put one foot in front of the other and do the next right thing...the rest will follow.
from chaosdaily :
There is a thing called "family leave law" that is a federal ruling that you can't be punished for taking time off for family issues... you might want to look into that.
from fightn4life :
It's ok to put a worry away, I like that idea. My thoughts and prayers are with you both Sandyz
from lindzeeleigh :
Thanks for your message, Carolyn. You are right, that is totally what marriage is about. The RCMP is the Royal Canadian Mounted Police and Depot is where they go to train for 6 months. Hope that helps. :)
from pureone :
Happy Birthday! I'm even singing to you! (very quietly, from my desk...)
from fightn4life :
Happy Birthday my on-line friend, I am sending a cyber cake. It is there! Enjoy. Sandyz
from marlen816 :
Happy Birthday!
from yarnsmith :
Happy Birthday and just remember..you might be 45 but I'm older...to me 45 is a young-un. What a sweet daughter Shelby is for cleaning your kitchen.
from lindzeeleigh :
Happy real birthday today! I hope you have a wonderful year. :)
from brightopal :
Happy birthday!!! And oh yeah, your neighbors are, as we speak, planning to murder your hubby for the truck incident ;)
from mzbee :
HAPPY REAL ACTUAL BIRTH DAY! WhEeEeeE!
from chaosdaily :
Happy birthday!
from brightopal :
It's a man thing. There's an old joke about signs saying "men at work." The point being that women work all the time; and for men, the sign is the only way we can be sure that's what they're doing, LOL!
from wyndspirit :
So you say it out loud: "Thank you very much dear. And YOU don't have to worry about doing the dishes, mopping the floor, taking out the garbage... I did it all." Um, well... *I* would say that. (Maybe there's a reason I'm single?) And I can't remember names, either. You should hear Mom and me going back and forth. "You know so-and-so... I can't remember the name. The one who..." "Yeah, I know exactly who you mean, but I can't think of the name, either!"
from chaosdaily :
Every time Man does anything, he asks "Why do I have to do this?" (with emphasis on the I). Ummmm maybe cause you live here, and I'm not getting paid for maid services?
from lindzeeleigh :
I still love that your little vacuum is called Nessa! I smile everytime I read it and think of the book. That is one I will definitely re-read. I just finished reading "Confessions of an Ugly Step Sister" also by Gregory Maguire and it was quite good too. :)
from mzbee :
re: men and chores. My kids at school want me to notice their every accomplishment, and for the most part I do. Sometimes, tho, I have to tell them about potty training my son. When he was little I used to clap every time he used the potty like a big boy. He even got a few M & M's for using the toilet. Then I say to my students, "Do you think I still clap for my son, now aged 25, every time he goes to the bathroom?" They all howl with laughter. Then I get to say that some things are just EXPECTED and you don't get to have a cheering section for that. hehehehehe. Men for some reason still think that doing what is EXPECTED is SPECIAL.
from pureone :
just letting you know, that was a pretty powerful entry...it struck me...I'm not quite sure why, but I'm very glad I read it.
from chaosdaily :
you could cover an old shoe with custard, whipped cream and chocolate sauce and it would be good!
from brightopal :
Organized religion has become a sad parody of what Jesus actually taught. If only Christians would've taken to heart his message of love and forgiveness...
from lindzeeleigh :
So glad to hear that you had such a nice birthday celebration with lemon cake and everything! Yum! :) I also wanted to say that I am so happy that you and Bill had such a wonderful conversation and that you were able to talk so openly and honestly with each other.
from poolagirl :
Glad you had a nice birthday. I know how you feel about writing. Sometimes, the most amazing things happen. You wrote a tender and true entry. Surely your heart must be open to great love and understanding. You rock, lady.
from mzbee :
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!! re: the god thing...I could write forever, but I won't. Religion has always been a very big part of my life . My dad was super religious and I actually believed until I was a teenager and then it didn't make sense to me anymore. There's too much suffering and hate in this world that makes absolutely NO sense. I do believe in a positive and negative life force and that everything is connected in this world. The only way I can make sense of when bad things happen, is to know that I will never understand the WHY things happen the way they do. I trust that everything works out somehow in the end, it always does. Re: the panic attacks. The book I recently finished has been REALLY helping me by teaching me how to stay in the NOW and not the past or future. I'll mail it to you.
from brightopal :
I love when kids mess with my head. It alleviates any guilt that I might feel for returning the favor. Only I've got a lot more practice at it ;)
from chaosdaily :
Dang. I would totally be going through the garbage!! Heehee!
from poolagirl :
I am SO with you on those lemon treats! PAR-TEEEE!
from mzbee :
I hated locking up, too, but it really was the wise decision. I keep two diaries (like most people) One is generic for meeting new people and one is more personal where only a few trusted friends are let in. YES! I did receive the newspaper article you mailed me regarding your princiPAL. It's always fun to get mail, it's like a mini present. THANK YOU MUCHO.
from lindzeeleigh :
I wish that I didn' thave to lock up either, but I knew there were people from my past who were reading and it mae me uncomfortable. I didn't want to start a new diary somewhere else, so I did the next best thing: lock up. Maybe one day after enough time has past, I will unlock again.
from poolagirl :
It's a shame that chaos locked up, but I understand. I also know how accessible the internet is and how easy it is to find someone or something. It's a two-sided coin, and people don't respect boundaries when asked to stay away.
from chaosdaily :
Thanks. You are right, it is a shame.
from brightopal :
I hope Bill's feeling better again soon. Here's to fast healing!
from theumbrella :
I love, love, LOVED "Enchanted." I went to go see it with the lady I take care of every day and we left and she said, "You're just like that girl...JUST like that princess girl."
from chaosdaily :
You can file a complaint with ebay, under the help tab, there is a "security and resolution center" where you can file your complaint.. good luck!
from pureone :
You're like my internet-mom! I loved Enchanted, absolutely love it(down to the Sound of Music cutting clothes for the drapes) My parents got it over the weekend and wanted to keep it so I couldn't "borrow" it to keep in my apartment...I guess I'll have to go be a grown-up and buy it myself! ;)
from brightopal :
*Hugs* I have never lost a child and hope I don't live to see that. Please pass on my heartfelt sympathy to Becka. I don't have to read her diary to appreciate her pain.
from brightopal :
It's been a disjointed kind of day, all around. Here's hoping for an easier week...
from mel-is-dvash :
Thank you very much, you made my day. :-)
from lindzeeleigh :
I really want to see Dan in Real Life and Enchanted as well! Let me know what you think of Enchanted. I am totally laughing at the stories about the random and your psychologist [?!?!] - SCARY!! Seriously. :S I hope Bill is feeling better soon.
from sunnflower :
I loved Dan in Real Life and Enchanted as well. I tend to buy them. We never remember to return movies either.
from boxx9000 :
I have the CD soundtrack from *Across The Universe* and I LOVE to sing along with it (in my car where no one can see or hear me, or so I think!) hehehe. HAPPY EASTER from my family to yours.
from mel-is-dvash :
So sorry to hear about the needed surgery. Both husband and dr. need a stiff mallet to the head IMO. I can see that happening here only too easily. Will be praying for you all. {{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}
from boxx9000 :
I thought my husband would be bored out of his head by now (several weeks post op) but he really is in so much pain that he hasn't felt good enough to be bored (yet) I'm hoping Bill's surgery goes well and he will get bored. Getting bored is a GOOD sign, it means they are ready to rejoin regular activities again. Video games are a good idea. books, too.
from just2cusmile :
enjoy your week lady and take care of that hubby!!
from brightopal :
Enjoy your time off. I'm looking forward to an actual VACATION if and when I take it. I have a week coming as of now, but am kind of holding off actually TAKING it until I move.
from theumbrella :
Oooh! I am glad you're day was positive AND you get a week off:-D
from yarnsmith :
Doesn't it feel good when a hard, bad week is over. I'm glad you will get some time off. Thank you for your wonderful supportive comments. I hope things with Bill go as well as they can. Enjoy your time off.
from brightopal :
*Hugs* Sorry about the work situation. I hope things are better today and that you DO get lunch. I know some employers consider it a foreign concept but the law actually requires it...
from mzbee :
((((hugs)))) some days are like that. (sigh) Usually you two work really well together, no? The whole divorce thing must have your co-worker distracted. I'm sorry it's making work harder for you. It all works out somehow. WHY are you working during EAster vacation? Are you OFF next week instead?
from mugwhump :
I'm kinda sorta glad to hear you say that about that movie. I was feeling like I was the only who didn't want to see it, but guilty because it is an Oscar movie and all. Now I'm convinced I won't be seeing it. (on a side note: Its darn hard to leave you notes here now. D-land has sure changed things up.)
from mel-is-dvash :
Oh, I hated that film. And I paid to see it in a theatre. Go figure, the one movie I go out to see in months.
from theumbrella :
The Oscars are such a joke that way.
from poolagirl :
I went to see that with Big Sister when it first came out, and I was soooo grossed out! Beyond belief!
from brightopal :
Thanks for the warning on the movie. Some Oscar winners are really, truly awful. Sounds like this is one of 'em. And Happy St. Patrick's Day!
from poolagirl :
LOVED the javelina marshmallow story you pulled off! Guys can be SO stupid! You rock, woman!
from brightopal :
I don't dare turn on QVC. I also choke at the prospect of paying $50 per sheet, no matter how much thread count. I can get a set of 300+ queen size at Ross for $20-25; for $30-35 we're up in the 500 count range.
from lindzeeleigh :
I am impressed with the sheets! And as for the groceries, I don't know about there, but here we have a website that you can order your food online and then have it delivered to your house! Now you just need to figure out how you cna do the payroll and everything from home! LoL.
from mzbee :
YES! 500tc = heaven. GOOD SCORE on the bed sheets.
from chaosdaily :
If I could just make a living from blogging and playing Pogo, I would die of happiness!!
from brightopal :
I'm glad to hear that your new four-legged family member has fit in so quickly. And as for the kitty with the puzzle fetish, might as well grin and bear it. My sis's cats are game for absolutely ANYTHING in reach.
from theumbrella :
Thank you so much for your compliment! I really, really appreciate it. No, I am not dating Bo again. Yikes! I explained the love situation a little bit in my latest entry. I seriously vote no on hormones too. What a joke. Plus, I'm really irritated about the ridiculousness of your new library. People are idiots. The end.
from mel-is-dvash :
My cats do exactly the same thing! We finished a jigsaw puzzle of a kitten today, and the great-grandlady cat immediately had to lie down on it. Then when she was done our calico kitten had to lie on it.
from yarnsmith :
Reading about your library helps my conviction that to be an administrator or politician, you must be a certifiable nut case first. The nuts are running the country. Hope you feel better soon and that the pain WON'T be for too long. My sister had alot of pain related female problems and she finally got a doctor to do what is called a Balloon ablasion where the lining of her female organ was removed by filling up a baloon inserted with boiling water and the lining burned off, came out and relieved her of monthly curses and the pain from there on. It's a good thing. It was out patient and not surgery and she was under general anethesia and there was some pain afterwards for a couple days but now...it's all good.
from mugwhump :
I've heard that story before, and never tire of it. A good days reading beats any kind of fishing any day! :-)
from theumbrella :
I love your last two entries especially. They touched my heart:)
from purple-satin :
hello yeah i locked my diary and deleted any trace of myself from it cause of annoying people poking and prying. but thanks for the thought (: that duh list is seriously double-over-in-laughter-worthy. and your dogs really do sound cute! do take care of yourself yeah (i don't really know what ailments plague the average american woman but i suppose it's not like a flu bug or anything.)
from brightopal :
I'd heard that before - and STILL love it!!!
from mzbee :
Carolyn, dog whisperer! hehehehe
from lindzeeleigh :
I like the blue better too as well. :) And mmm chocolate! it sounds yummy!
from brightopal :
I have to tell you -- while it's probably true that your problem child just didn't send her stuff, I've been in a situation where I swear to God I DID send things a bazillion times and the recipient swore they never got it. I'm just sayin'
from just2cusmile :
it will always be her birthday-happy b/day to your mom!! <3
from brightopal :
*Hugs* My mom died at age 70, just days after her birthday. Before she died I had all but stopped talking to her - and she ultimately became unable to talk at all. I hope she found peace after death. She certainly had none in life.
from mzbee :
Your Mom's initials were FM? She was so very young when she died, only 31? I've been out of High School for 34 years already (class of '74) My Mom died on my birthday. ((((hugs))) for you. I too, was mostly raised by my maternal grandmother.
from brightopal :
I guess that's probably how my husband felt whenever I tried to talk to him. On the rare occasions he was in a talkative mood, though, it was definitely a never-ending and repetitive drone...
from fightn4life :
Yes, you need a weekend of fun just for you, I laughed reading about your husband going on and on about nothing well something but driving it to extremes. It's the long winter and you need more than a lunch date with your friend but it was a positive step and I am glad you took it, Sandyz
from chaosdaily :
My husband repeats his favorite stories too.. even the kids will finish the stories for him, and he says, "Oh, have I told this story before?"
from yarnsmith :
I would be thrilled to find a pair of jeans that fit me and read "size 8" on the label.
from her-story :
I wanted to adopt a rescue kitten, but my husband nixed the idea... since we've just paid almost $1,000 to our vet for shots and initially to get her teeth cleaned, however, in the process, her heart stopped. After 30 minutes, he successfully resurrected her...at a cost (to us) of $400. She's old now, oldish according to ME... but I had a cat as a kid and she was SPECTACULAR. I'm hoping to convince him... wish me luck.
from fightn4life :
I bet mine would say rescuer of cats, I have three that I adore all throw a ways for someone, for me wingless angels. I adore dogs but never was able to replace my husky when she passed. Yet… Welcome to the little one who captured your heart, Sandyz
from just2cusmile :
oh gosh if i had a fenced in yard i would so have a ton dogs and animals-they break my heart and i love them-i feel so sad for the girl who had to leave her baby behind but her baby found a great home!!
from lindzeeleigh :
Aww, you are totally a dog rescuer! :) And Idgie and Pepper have a new friend.
from mzbee :
Congratulations on your latest addition to your family. That is one lucky dog.
from fightn4life :
I loved this entry "The First Annual Duh Award" better than reading the morning paper. I am still laughing. Sandyz
from lindzeeleigh :
YAY Friday!! And ooooh, Dr. Handsome gave you a hug. ;)
from brightopal :
This just reinforces what I always said in radio: it's easy to edit someone to make them look stupid. The real challenge is to edit someone to KEEP them from looking stupid.
from yarnsmith :
That Mariah Carey quote cracks me up. So many are by Dan Quayle...makes you wonder about the people running things huh?
from purple-satin :
hello i chanced upon your blog and it's so addictive. funny and witty and so very realistic, i'm 18 and i ALREADY wanna tender my registration as an adult, though i'm not even technically one in my country. anyway i wish you the best in your health and family and work! p.s. i hate those things in between my toes on flipflops too (:
from mel-is-dvash :
I really enjoyed the meme. It seemed different, more fun, from most of them that wander around. Between the beginning and end of that sentence there were multiple interruptions and several minutes - so I can't begin to make sense of it, sorry. ;-7
from shadesofmi :
I am with ya sister! My resignation as an adult has been tendered. Woohoo!!!!!
from theumbrella :
Agreed! And I'm just barely an adult as it is...
from brightopal :
AWESOME entry. I might take up your challenge - provided I can get through the next day or thereabouts!
from mzbee :
Can I sign up, too? I don't want to be an adult anymore either! WhEeEeee! I just want to play all day.
from fightn4life :
I want to give up my grownup rights too. Loved this entry. Sandyz
from brightopal :
I hate politics in general, but this year has been particularly crazy. And I'm with you. I find it mighty hard to stomach so-called Christians who conveniently forget the one thing Jesus specifically called His NEW COMMANDMENT: that we love one another.
from chaosdaily :
Huckabee wasn't my choice, either. As to Man, HE is the one who would blow it all in Vegas.. which is one of the reasons I'm leaving, so I will have something left for retirement!
from brightopal :
Yeah, there are definitely some less-than-Einstein brains out there...
from fightn4life :
I love it when the cats sleep with me, they are little cuddles. When "Baby" my huskey was alive she used to hide under the covers, so she thought big as she was but I felt safe with her so near. I miss her. Loved your story about your pups. Hope you get to feeling more comfortable, and I am thrilled not to be living in the snowy states. I suppose I may miss it someday, just not now. Take care, Sandyz
from wyndspirit :
That is just too funny!!!
from brightopal :
I fixed your recipe for taco soup last night. OMG it was absolutely heavenly! I had to improvise a little, but overall? Adore the stuff!
from chaosdaily :
Gee if it was that good of a cake, you really need to share the recipe!
from mzbee :
chocolate cake! wheeeee!
from fightn4life :
I am not offended at all, I got back from a Drs Appointment and she suggested I talk to a professional. My weight loss is significant, blood pressure too low, energy zapped. She tried to get me to open up and I only listed a few things, loss of home, back surgery that cost me my job, my 19-year marriage just walked away on Feb 14th. She asked how I was feeling…I told her numb…I feel tired. This makes three or four people in the last few weeks that have told me to seek help I suppose I should. Thank you for caring, Sandyz
from theumbrella :
Mmm! Sounds like a great day. I am making that soup this week...it sounds amazing!
from lindzeeleigh :
I think I just might have to try that recipe!! I love crockpot recipes! [I might have to start sharing some of mine with you] :)
from brightopal :
The taco soup sounds heavenly! I might just try that for dinner tonight - think I have everything it takes.
from chaosdaily :
I;m not sure I could endure the farts that soup must produce....
from lindzeeleigh :
I am so glad to hear that Shelby is okay. That must have been scary for you when she called you! :( I am glad the Sheriff was understanding and that Shelby did all the right things. I am not too sure of this new diaryland either. :S
from mzbee :
I wished you lived in sunny California, there's NO icy roads here. However, people get stoopid if it even RAINS, they forget how to drive. I'm relieved to hear Shelby was not injured. You've all had your accident quotas for the rest of your lives. NO MORE CAR ACCIDENTS!
from brightopal :
OMG - I agree with you, enough of the accidents already!!! *Hugs* I am extremely glad that Shelby is all right, and even more so that she did all the right things. I'm still sorry that your family has gone through so much in terms of accidents. In your case I'd actually recommend moving to Arizona - Southern Arizona, Phoenix or Tucson - so no more icy roads!
from brightopal :
*Hugs* I remember when your son died. I wasn't reading you at the time, but we have some mutual buddies, one of whom pointed you out. I remember coming, reading, crying and commenting. You will never forget and it will never stop hurting, but I do believe that death is not an end to us. I truly hope and believe you meet again in a sphere without pain and grief.
from mugwhump :
I think its wonderful what you've chosen to do to remember. That sound weird, and I apologize for that, but I hope you understand what I mean. We each have to do what we need to do to get through/remember/celebrate/meditate on things in this life. I'm proud of you for recognizing and following through. Hugs - LJ
from lindzeeleigh :
Why would someone write you an email to remind you?? Because obviously you would just forget. :S what is wrong with people?! Thinking of you today!
from yarnsmith :
(((Hugs)))
from mel-is-dvash :
Just wanted to send a hug. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hug}}}}}}}}}}}}}} And, - Wow. You can't fix that kind of stupid.
from life-my-way :
Hugs and love from me as well. Please share them with Shelby and Bill, there's plenty to go around. You'll be in my heart today (as always).
from mzbee :
((((hugs)))) I can't even begin to imagine what it would be like to lose my son. (that very thought just gave me a shiver) I'm sending you all my love and lots of hugs. ((((hugs))))
from h2ophobic :
Re: note from Brightopal Dr. Pink Shirt is definitely hetero. The reason Bill isn't having his next treatment for 3 weeks is because Dr. Pink Shirt is taking his daughter on a College trip, to check out various colleges/universities she's thinking about attending. He is quite the snazzy dresser though. And VERY confident in himself...I don't think I could pull off wearing an outfit like he wore. ;o)
from shadesofmi :
Stopped in to say "hi". Trying to catch up as I don't have a computer at the moment. Take care...
from mzbee :
cortizone really is a wonder drug. I don't know HOW it works, but it's used for such a wide variety of ailments. I'm glad to hear it is helping to ease Bill's pain. We used to have to take our DOG for cortizone shots each month because she was allergic to EVERYTHING and the cortizone eased the itching. Dave has had cortizone shots for a variety of sports injuries. My sister had cortizone for a bad case of poison oak! I had a cortizone shot in my wrist to break up calcification. I WISH BILL A SPEEDY RECOVER. (((hugs)))) for you.
from brightopal :
Glad to hear Dr Pink Shirt turned out to be okay. Gay, but apparently a competent physician, lol. I hope you're feeling better soon, though!!! *hugs*
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm glad to hear you've got a good dr., having things properly explained just makes so much difference. And I'm super glad that Bill is in less pain, that just rocks!
from chaosdaily :
Glad the doc was a good one.. I guess you can forgive the lateness and the pink shirt.....
from just2cusmile :
just wanted to say HI and let you know im still alive-i have a ton of catching up to do on reading your diary and others.. be good ;)
from pureone :
I've missed you too! I was in a show and lets just say "time intensive" is an understatement! So I'll be catching up on my diary-ing and my sleep soon! I check it every day, but that's all I had the energy for!
from fightn4life :
I love books and get them just as you did…Amazon. I lost most of my books in ARK…in less than four months I have them piled back up. Did I say I love books? Sorry about hubby, I understand losing hope when pain is involved. So glad he is going to get the go back to work slip, maybe things will look up, Sandyz
from chaosdaily :
sorry, hit the enter button... Anyway, surgery SHOULD be the last resort.. it doesn't return a spine to normal and many people think it will. I would do anything to avoid it, and I used to work for two back surgeons....
from chaosdaily :
stick with that surgeon! Spinal surgery SHOULD
from yarnsmith :
I'm glad that Bill at least gets to get up and go out. Maybe that will help lift his spirits and in turn help the pain.
from fightn4life :
I have missed you too; I loved your entry about your pill-spitting pup. I laughed and still smile just thinking about it. I am glad you inspired me to get back to posting. Once you close a door, it is difficult to open it at times. Glad to be back, Sandyz
from yarnsmith :
I suppose it doesn't take much of a brain to know how to get rid of something as awful tasting as an asprin from your mouth. I wonder if baby asprin would work...or is that what you are using?
from lindzeeleigh :
I like the story about idgie, that is too cute. I am like Linus because I like my blankie too! Yum for breakfast at suppertime! I haven't done that in a while and now I will have to!
from chaosdaily :
try putting the aspirin in a gob of peanut butter, it should slide right down...
from mel-is-dvash :
Yes, it could happen. There are miracles everywhere, every day. I really hope you get this one. ;-)
from chaosdaily :
I had a tv once that had sound but no picture.. seems one of my roommates had turned the brightness wayyyyyy down. I was so embarrassed when the repair shop called to tell me my TV was fine!
from mzbee :
your post today made me laugh out loud because I am going thru the same thing with my husband and his pain management. men. sheesh.
from mzbee :
#1. I have NO idea how to work the remote. #2. I don't mind doing the dishes at all, but I HATE having to do both. yuck! #3. I don't have a dog. Sid makes me crazy but I have to LOVE him because Kelly loves him so much. #4 I'm with you on this one. DON'T TOUCH MY STUFF!. #5. I'm not a big coffee drinker, but my son works for Peet's. #9. My Kelly LOVES horror movies and I HATE them. They give me major anxiety. Kelly thinks they are funny.
from lindzeeleigh :
I like your list of house rules. i think I shall adopt some of them for our house!!
from theumbrella :
I love church on the internet:)
from sunnflower :
Just checking in to say hi and say I am glad I am on your lists of pals!
from yarnsmith :
I'm an enabler/fixer too and sometimes my loved ones don't tell me things just because they don't want to listen to it. Sometimes I call myself Dr. Paula
from chaosdaily :
thanks for adding me!
from mzbee :
OK, you can make me one of those signs, too. (sigh)
from mugwhump :
Goat story is too funny!
from mel-is-dvash :
Hi there. I just finished getting caught up for today. --"Fell swoop" originally conjured up the sudden, savage attack of a falcon on its prey. Today, if we do something in "one fell swoop," we do it quickly, completely and with finality. --I knew what it meant, but stole that from The Word Detective, 'cause I couldn't have said it half so well. ;-) You DID ask... ;-)
from yarnsmith :
My former employer's kids did this with pigs...and he helped!!!
from chaosdaily :
sure it isn't a swell foop?
from yarnsmith :
You are so funny. The brisket sandwiches sound yummy, then again..I am a carnivore...Funny though my hubby used to ONLY eat beef and he would get mad if I ever even suggested chicken...over the 30 years we've been together he now shuns most beef except for very high quality hamburger meat and only it has lots of condiments on it and is happy to eat chicken or better yet fish or go meatless....Like Boxx...he isn't making a statement...it just smells gross to him as he gets older....me...I wish that would happen to me.
from mzbee :
That's how the whole *going vegetarian* thing started for me. I was just never a BIG meat eater. It wasn't that I hated meat or was making a political or ethical statement, it just didn't digest well. (I didn't like the texture or smell of it either) It was easy to decide that I wasn't going to eat meat anymore because I had never really liked it much anyway. Since the first of the year I have also gone dairy free for the same reasons.
from just2cusmile :
See Patti give Carolyn tons of cyber hugs!!!
from yarnsmith :
For Becca: I just don't know what to say and wish I could make it all better. (((Hugs))) from cyberspace for you and your son and your family.
from yarnsmith :
I hope it was decadent and gooey and sweet and extra chocolaty. (((HUGS))) You poor (but strong) girl.
from mzbee :
(((hugs)))) husbands don't make very good patients, do they? I would never be a good nurse. I saw my husband's scar today for the first time and just about threw up. ((((hugs)))))
from mel-is-dvash :
I said a prayer for Becca and her family, and will continue to keep them in my prayers, fwiw. I'm so sorry.
from lindzeeleigh :
Don't mess with Carolyn!! ;)
from yarnsmith :
Do the custodians still put that peppermint smelling stuff on the puke to soak it up...oh how I remember in school when you'd smell that smell of puke and peppermint you know someone got sick and you'd think "I don't ever want to be a janitor when I grow up". Your Montana teachers should come to Chicago area, particularly the Northwest Suburbs...Teachers there get about 45 G's right out of college and by the time they retire, they are making 100,000.00 per year....not bad.
from brightopal :
Ouch!!! I know they don't want to yank the ovary but you might want to give it serious thought. My sis had an ovarian cyst that was REALLY bad. It had spread to surrounding organs and required the doc to cut all the way back to her spine to get everything. Needless to say, she was in agony for a looooong time as a result, but was mighty glad to be rid of the pain afterward!
from mel-is-dvash :
It's funny for me to hear the Giants described as the 'underdogs.' Of course, the last Superbowl I watched was back in 1986(-ish?) when the Pats made it as a wildcat team against the Chicago Bears. Oy, long ago. I used to be somewhat of a fan, funny what things fall away and you don't notice...
from brightopal :
Just be thankful for those precious days off. They tend to be few and far between!
from just2cusmile :
I loved the game last night and was glad the giants won-thier coach tom coughlin use to be the jags headcoach so we were so happy for him-him and his family still live here in town during the off season-well he does his family lives here full time...they have a lot of charity events here still too-so it was kind of like the jags won too...plus i like eli manning...i thought that tom brady did a great job praising the giants-i odnt have anything against him but i feel different about their coach and i think it was rude as heck that he walked away from the game when there was still a mintue left in the game-he is sore loser...im so sad the season is over with too although there is the probowl next week in hawaii but thats boring to me-but it never stops for my boys-the nfl has the college scouting to come up and then the draft etc...im so glad im not the only waman football freak!! :)
from brightopal :
I am by nature a slob - but when I stress out, I clean to pull myself out of a funk - so long as nobody is giving me grief about it, at which point I refuse to do anything I don't absolutely have to do. On the other hand, my oldest daughter IS going into business for herself as a cleaning/organizing business. She loves it!
from mzbee :
When I'm feeling all out of sorts I also like to clean. The sorting ad organizing helps me *zone* and it also lets me feel as tho I have *control* even when things are OUT of control, no? It makes me nervous when things are messy. I too, feel the need to have things in their place, NOW. I don't want to clean anyone else's messes, but my daughter sucks me into cleaning for her. IDEALLY, I would have maid service that kept everything in my house spotless. I'll be thinking of you today while Dave is watching the Super Bowl. I need to prep for a sub. We go to SF tomorrow.
from theumbrella :
Sending you warm thoughts and prayers.
from just2cusmile :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEFF!! your mama loves you very much-I thought I cried all I could today and now I just read this :*( hugs
from yarnsmith :
(((Hugs)))
from lindzeeleigh :
Happy Birthday, Jeff. What a beautiful entry.
from brightopal :
*Hugs* I cannot fathom how much loss you live daily. My heart goes out to you. Happy Birthday to your son.
from mzbee :
Happy Birthday Jeff. ((((hugs)))) Today is Brendan's birthday.
from brightopal :
Holy crap - a 38 inch inseam? You're exaggerating, right? I mean, even at 5'7" that's a whole lotta leg compared to her torso...
from mzbee :
congratulations on your new vehicle (I googled an image to see what it looks like) PERFECT for the snow. re: Shelby...38"??? I am soOoOOOooO envious! I thought my Dave had long legs (inseam 36") but he's 6 feet tall! When people used to ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I always replied, "taller"
from just2cusmile :
congrats on the the new hot wheels-glad hubby did good ;) i wanna see pics!!
from mskindasorta :
Tee hee, you are so cute! Oh and I don't think I answered your question about where I would be living when I come over there? At this stage it will probably be in Melbourne, Florida. But who knows what time will bring. Have I mentioned I'm in love? *sighs and bites her lip*. Will you come visit me? or maybe I should bring him with me and visit you! Happy Sunday xo
from lindzeeleigh :
One of my friends has a Dodge Nitro and she really loves it. I have never drive it, but I enjoy being a passenger and think it is a spacious and comfy drive. I just think the hubby might be getting to know you and be right! Teehee.
from chaosdaily :
thanks for the comment, but those issues started a long time ago! i always like having new readers, and finding a good diary to read...
from just2cusmile :
have a wonderful weekend even though its freezing!!! brrrr
from brightopal :
Heee - I'm happy because I have TWO whole days off!
from brightopal :
*Hugs* Here's hoping things get better for you soon.
from lindzeeleigh :
I am sorry to hear that today was such a rough day for you. :( it seems to be one of those weeks for a lot of people right now. I hope that you are able to have a restful and relaxing weekend, you really deserve it, especially with how much you have been working!
from mugwhump :
You have no idea how much I relate to this entry - on ALL fronts! So, all I can do now is send a big virtual hug!
from mzbee :
Jeff and Brendan have the same birthdays? I'm so sorry about the panic attacks. You're right, they do zap all your energy. Our princiPAL announced she is retiring yesterday and we are sworn to secrecy until lunchtime today. (with the time difference, I think I am OK) You're right about writing down your feelings in your diary as being therapeutic. Once I've said something I can let it go and it doesn't have to take up space in my mind anymore. ((((hugs)))
from brightopal :
Ack! That's TOO. COLD. I have lived through it but would hate to live there now. Brrrr!!!
from mzbee :
-15?! How is that even possible? Don't people just freeze and break if they go out in that? *I* watched football yesterday and I was telling Dave that YOU are a football fanatic and he wanted to know what was your favorite team. I told him I didn't know. I only knew you really liked football. SooOooOOooOO, who are your favorite teams? Are you going to do a super bowl party? Do you have any money on a football pool?
from brightopal :
I don't agree with all you proposed, but would kill to have been able to go back and take a financial management class in high school.
from wifemotherme :
Ok I would vote for you. But one thing...please don't take my 1%. I know 1% does not sound like a big deal, but I am in a funky tax bracket were I am already forced to give away nearly half of my gross income for the government to waste or give away to others. Think about that, my husband and I work for nearly 6 month a year before we earn any monies to keep. Can you please just let me keep my 1% and figure out a better way to use what I am already taxed on? Just a thought
from lindzeeleigh :
I think you should become a dictator!
from yarnsmith :
I agree with ALL your points except the Electoral College. It's purpose it to protect the interest of the rural, less populated areas. Since most popular votes are in the highly populated cities (or in Population Centers as the policital scientists like to call them)....then the Presidential elections would always be determined by the people in Cities. The problem with this is that people who live in cities have different interests, points of view, needs and ideas than people who live in less populated areas. In most cases the popular vote and electoral vote stay on the same side. Lately, because the country is so divided politically, we have seen other results. The divisions seem to be along the lines of the fact that more conservative people live in less populated areas while most liberal people live in the cities. The way things are now, it would always be the liberal parties that have an advantage over the conservative (I am not saying that being liberal or conservative is a bad thing...just different poinst of view)....the electoral college helps determine the vote geographically, thereby insuring all of America...not just the cities have a voice. Also, the electoral vote is alway very close to the popular vote...it just swings in a geographical favor which the founding fathers of this country (who I think were very wise) must have thought was essential to the governing of this vast nation....most of which is "rural". 100 years from now the issues that the city people and rural people might be completely reversed...so I am not talking specific issues here...but the same will hold true. There needs to be a check and balance to make sure those low population areas are fairly represented because the rural areas will always have different needs and concerns than the cities.
from mzbee :
I'm definitely with you on the mandatory parenting classes. I also want MORE money spent on early childhood education and then a whole lot less money would have to be spent on prisons.
from lindzeeleigh :
I wish my work would come up with the option of having my pay stub emailed to me because that is way better for the environment and a lot of people just chuck their pay stubs anyways!
from theumbrella :
"I'm baby-steppin' it!" It makes me think of What About Bob? Anyway, I am praying for you as you make your baby steps:)
from mzbee :
Dave and I argue over the painkillers, too. I think men see it as "weakness" if they take them. I tell Dave I see it as a "stoopidness" (hehe) Studies show that people who take their pain meds heal faster. So, which is better? Slow and painful or faster and easier? re: computers and teachers... I am always shocked by how many teachers REFUSE to use computers to do their report cards. I think it is the age group. The younger generation has no fear of computers, but the older teachers don't trust them. I LOVE using my computer but I FREAK OUT when I don't understand things (like when I lost all my report cards) Less paper is good. I am proud of you. GREEN h2ophobic!
from theumbrella :
I can't believe I missed the reference! What a nut job. I just watched that movie. It's on my top five favorite list. I love those big fat flakes! I miss that small town environment where everyone just talked with one another. 80,000 people is so much more than my town of 400 that I recently moved away from:) And, thanks for the encouraging note. I am proud of women like us who can somehow gather some sort of courage to leave. And I ache for those who can't. I often fear the same things (that I might just be bad at choosing men)...but I know things get better. Thank you so much for the encouragement!:)
from just2cusmile :
I think snow is so beautiful and wish we got to see more of it-not here in fl.-but wish we traveled more to see it-I think your snow is probably a lot nicer then the east coast snow we sometimes get...Its usually slushy and messy! I refuse to drive all around town to go to drs.-i like mine close by too!!
from lindzeeleigh :
Teenagers, yes sometimes they are just "off" and sometimes for no reason at all. After working with them day in and day out, i just learn that is how it is. Shelby is a good kid, she will come around I am sure. :) And YAY for nice husbands!
from brightopal :
I'm glad you can find humor in Bill's 'tude. I also hope he realizes how frigging lucky he is that you DO.
from just2cusmile :
I would never want to be a teenager again-I wouldnt mind having the skinny body again :) I bet your hubby is a cutie as are you-your family sounds so cute and "normal"!!
from theumbrella :
The mean reds...ha. That's grand. Gosh, being a teenager does suck. I'm on the tail end of it and it still bites. I went through a stage where I fought with my mom hardcore for no reason at all and that was crazy. Things will be okay soon!:)
from mskindasorta :
Most people on the Island are permanent residents however there are a few holiday units etc along the waterfront. It's not a resort place or anything, it has one shopping centre (as in a large one) local stores, a movie theatre a couple of petrol stations, doctors, taverns, restaurants and so on. In my next entry I will post a link to the Island. I'm so glad Bill is feeling ok-ish. Er, I've always ment to ask what MH and DH stand for? I see alot of Americans writing that, I know it's to do with friends and partners and stuff, but what is it? dear husband? . Oh and believe me, we feel the same about some of the reality shows over here, as in "omg the whole world will see this person or this show and thing we are just a bunch of bogans!" tee hee
from just2cusmile :
ahhhh come on-you wouldnt mind if shelby acted like "glitter girl" from American Idol last night would ya?! ;) I love Simon but they are saying this is his last year-i hope not-they need to replace that wack job paula!! but i will watch again tonight :)
from brightopal :
Marking the calendar. The 21st sounds like an excellent day for a nervous breakdown. Though I'll be rehearsing pretty much every day in the meantime.
from mzbee :
I think I shall schedule my breakdown for the 21st as well, I'll mark that on my calendar. Congratulations on all your plants. I LOVE PLANTS. I feel really bad when I kill one or even when they start looking sad. They are like children, a garden of children to care for.
from theumbrella :
I locked up my diary. You can get my pw if you email me at cantaresempre at yahoo dot com or leave your e-mail and I'll send it to you:) Thanks for reading:)
from theumbrella :
I am sorry your day yesterday was so ridiculous...
from mugwhump :
Ahhhh ... that early morning bliss. That's one of the reasons I go into work 30 minutes early. It's 'my' time, and no one can take it from me.
from just2cusmile :
HIIII!!! lol ughhhh we had a chance to beat up on tom brady and win but we killed our selves-go packers!!
from yarnsmith :
Hope Bill is on his way back to health with your good care. I LOVED the Sarah Connor Chronicals. Mike hated it. He said he hates shows where there is no chance for a good outcome....I had to point out that there are machines helping as well as killing. He said man cannot win over machine and that bothers him...I loved the way they brought you forward to 2007. I intend to keep watching. I bought a surround sound for our TV and once Mike hooked it up and used it...I was sorry I bought it...I thought "I created a monster".
from theumbrella :
Carolyn!:) I'm sending get well-er thoughts to your husband, and I'm sorry you have go back to work thoughts to you! Have a really good day!:) Beth
from mzbee :
I'm not ready to go back to school this morning either. Someone told me we are half way thru the school year, is that true? ((((hugs))) I'm with you on the surround sound, it makes me anxious, I think it's the booming bass.
from lindzeeleigh :
Glad to hear Bill is doing better and that you had a nice weekend. I really wanted to watch that TErminator series, I saw the previews and it looked good!
from brightopal :
It sounds like Bill is recovering nicely if he will argue over choco chip cookies, hehehe. I'm glad to hear it. Though I'm assuming you won the argument ;)
from yarnsmith :
Ah....here in Chicago we are still celebrating the 1985 super bowl win over he Pats. (is that pathetic or what when your team are such losers that you still have to hold onto a win from 23 years ago to feel good about them?)
from karbonphyber :
christ, chocolate
from mzbee :
thanks for telling me about the h20's confusion (hehe) Meat does a number on my stomach, too. I guess I am just not a meat eater. I feel better now that I have cut out diary as well. I never thought I would say that because I have always loved cheese.
from brightopal :
I'm so glad that it was nothing more serious than that! *Hugs* I hope he continues feeling better :)
from life-my-way :
You've been on my mind for days (Bill has too, of course) but your notes haven't cooperated with me in telling you so. You're both in my thoughts and prayers, I hope the scan went well and found nothing that can't be quickly and easily fixed. I hope Pepper got to add a smell of his own to the back of the patrol car!
from mskindasorta :
I'm sending as many if not more good vibes and wishes as you did for my boobies! Fingers crossed and hoping to read good news xo
from just2cusmile :
Im so sorry im just now reading about Bill's accident-how scarey and im so sorry that ya'll had to go thru this again but THANK GOD it wasnt worse and yes my prayers are with him and you and the rest of the family-im hoping the ct scan shows nothing and he is just very sore!! hugs
from brightopal :
I'm sorry to hear that Bill's hurting, though I'm not surprised. At best he's bound to be extremely sore for a long time. At worst, they'll find a hidden injury and get it repaired. I hope it's the former rather than the latter - but still better they FIND an injury than miss one!
from mel-is-dvash :
Prayers heading your way. We all (me + kids) used to love the BK veggie-burger. It was just about the only fast food we could eat. Sadly, here in Israel, BK doesn't do a veggie-burger. But we can eat the really bad-for-us hamburgers & fries. ;-)
from her-story :
Thanks for stopping by and introducing yourself. It's always nice to meet the people reading my rants, however off-the-wall they sometimes tend to be. I'm just SO angry with government AND insurance companies right now... and I'm frustrated that people are being blind-sided by candidates who spout political jargon that sounds good, but in reality probably will do nothing even remotely close to what they're promising. Anyway... come back anytime and chime in... I always welcome comments. :)
from mzbee :
Here is the link for the EATING RIGHT brand, it's from Safeway. http://eatingright.safeway.com/
from mzbee :
Whatever it is can be fixed. The accident could have been so much worse. I know exactly what you are saying about the anxiety, tho. I know that feeling well. ((((hugs))) for you. Good healing vibes for Bill.
from theumbrella :
Thank you SOOO much for the compliments! They just made my day:) And thank you for the fun entry, it made my day twice:)
from yarnsmith :
Love MzBee's answer...such a cute story. I love your "things I overheard" entries.
from mzbee :
YES! Pepper should join the police force and then he could be known as *SGT. PEPPER* (hehehe)
from lindzeeleigh :
(My answer to above) "She's not saying Ok Ben, she's saying Ok bonne." Bonne means good in French!" - Okay, this is too funny, I love this story!!
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm so glad Bill is okay. Good heavens! Prayers going out for all of you - may that be the worst thing that happens to you this year.
from brightopal :
Oh my - I'm glad your hubby is okay, though I hope this is the end of your scared-out-of-your-wits experiences! *Hugs*
from life-my-way :
"One of the guys I was playing with walked up to me, took my gun out of my hand and shot me with it!" I hate it when that happens. But seriously, how terrifying for you all, I'm so glad Bill (if not Bill's truck) is okay. Give him my best. And I'm glad you're back today, mornings just aren't the same without you.
from mzbee :
Oh, that is too scary. I'm am so relieved to hear that Bill is OK. ((((hugs))))
from lindzeeleigh :
That is scary that Bill was involved in an accident on the highway. I am sure that dredged up some painful memories for you. I am glad that he is all right and hope he gets better soon!
from just2cusmile :
awwww HAPPY ANNIVERSARY you snot nosed woman and to Bill too!! ;)~ My youngest brat is in his room right now with his 24/7/365 days a year allergies sniffing/sneezing up a storm-i feel bad for ya'll!!
from brightopal :
Oh my... The other couple sounds (ahem) interesting. In a Chinese curse kind of way ;)
from mzbee :
You and Bill appreciate each other every day so that is why you don't feel you have to make a BIG deal out of just one day. I don't need a BIG celebration on the day, just an acknowledgement. although, I want that every day. constant reassurance. It's the people who don't get the daily stuff that expect the huge show on the day. silly huh? HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to you and Bill.
from yarnsmith :
Happy Anniversary. You don't need to celebrate because when you're in love everyday is a holiday...(OK....that's a bit over the top and schmoozy)
from brightopal :
Mmmmm.... Lemon cake... Your dinner sounds yummy, overall. And I'm still majorly jealous because you had time off. I've been working nearly nonstop.
from brightopal :
Happy 18th anniversary - and I hear ya about the crabby. It can catch up with you now and again and you just have to work your way through it. What's more, sometimes it's the RIGHT thing.
from mel-is-dvash :
Happy 18 years, that's great! I'm with you, I'd much rather stay home and enjoy. I hope you have a good time, and a really great 19th year.
from yarnsmith :
I'm sure Bill would never sell that pedestal. I had an employee that wouldn't fill out paperwork too and almost didn't get insured because of it. He showed up with half filled out papers 5 minutes before the deadline and I had to stop an involved project to help him with it and then drive it over to the parent company at the 11th hour. People can really suck sometimes...you have a right to be crabby once in a while.
from mzbee :
"Go ahead and take the pedestal you put me on. Sell it on ebay and make a few bucks." OMG. you had me laugh out loud at that one. hehe. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO YOU BOTH.
from just2cusmile :
You sure didnt bore me to death with reading your letter-I learned so much and enjoyed it-im sure your friend will too...In our sunday paper there was a story about how a lot of familys or baby boomers are moving to get away from crowds to Montana and Wyoming-so your lil town might be getting bigger-that stinks!! I do want to visit those states though :)
from lilpinkhouse :
Lovely letter. Nice to get to know you all at once like that :)
from life-my-way :
That's a beautiful letter, C, I feel like I know you so much better now! Sending that is much better than a phone call--your friend will read that over and over, for days if not for years! K ps Loved the Christmas card but hate it when that happens.
from mzbee :
I LIKE staying home, too. It's NOT that I am avoiding going out as much as it is I really LIKE being home. I don't consider that a phobia, but a preference, right?
from mzbee :
Are Carolyn and Laurie popular names for our age group? (but I'm 10 years older than you) My best friend that I played tennis with every day for 10 years name was Carolyn. One of the first teachers I worked for as a teaching assistant is Carolyn and we have remained friends for 15 years. coincidence?
from just2cusmile :
HAPPY NEW YEAR LADY!!! I too like to stay at home for the most part-its my comfort zone...sound like you got a lot done on your days off...did you hang your horseshoes?! ;)
from yarnsmith :
Happy New Year to you and your family. My job today is to organize the basement so I can put my Christmas stuff away proper instead of stuffing my beloved decorations in a cardboard box. I am a homey too....love to be home. Sadly thought the chance to stay in and hide from the world doesn't come up often. I'm in for the next 24 hours though and the thought of it is delicious.
from mzbee :
WheeeE! I was so happy to see your name in red. I went to bed at 9:30 last night, too, but with the time difference etc, you were in bed before I was. hehehehehe.
from lindzeeleigh :
WOW! You should be proud of yourself, 31 entries in 31 days is quite the feat. I don't think I could do it, but you never know. I am glad to hear that you had such a wonderful Christmas vacation, you really deserved it. Happy 2008 to you, it will be a great year!
from mzbee :
I hope you continue to update every day because I have really enjoyed reading. I'm glad your vacation went well, there just never seems to be enough of it, tho. I go back on the 7th. ((((hugs)))) HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008.
from mskindasorta :
Happy New Year! I have loved reading you this past year and hope to share another year with you. All the best for 2008 :) xo
from mzbee :
Dave was watching football last night, which I usually do NOT enjoy, but it made me smile because I thought of you watching it. hehehehe. Don't sweat the small stuff? Easier said then done. But every journey begins with the first step, right? Wishing you love, peace and happiness for 2008.
from brightopal :
I won't comment on the Patriots because I'm not a sports fan. However, as to the resolution: I suspect it might be the hardest one to keep. If you succeed, however, it will likely also have the most profoundly positive influence on your life. :)
from brightopal :
I haven't done Christmas decorations for a while now - not having a place of your own kind of kicks that into the back of your priority list - but never minded taking stuff down. Then again, I rarely did more decorating than a tree :)
from yarnsmith :
It's so much easier to bring all that stuff out than put it away, isn't it?
from mzbee :
I took most of my x-mas decorations down yesterday. Usually I wait until January 1st, but I had *time* last night while Dave was at work, so why not? It IS a big job to do ALL the decorating in both directions, UP & DOWN. I don't put up as much *stuff* because I know anything I take OUT, I'm going to have to put back. Everything stores neatly in 4 red & green crates. I probably only used about one crate worth this year. I should reorganize all my favorites into one crate and get rid of the rest. Some stuff I can't bare to throw away (yet) my parents stuff. I'm hoping my kids wil ltake some of it once they are more settled. fingers crossed.
from just2cusmile :
the pie/cake thing makes me laugh-we have somewhat the same issue when we hear the word "pie"...I had a uncle who would sit there and eat a whole pie by himself then complain that it wasnt good and my aunt would cuss him out saying why did you eat the whole thing? he did that everytime!! so no evertime we eat pie we all look at each other and say "that pie sure wasnt that good"! i'll email ya my phone # so i can see the horsey thingy...
from brightopal :
I love FARK. It's hilarious. It's even funnier because it's all true!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am all for re-gifting, why not??? Especially if it is not even something you really like, such as the horsehoe thing. It might be right up someone else's alley.
from just2cusmile :
our home is decorated in western/native indian stuff :) i love the stuff but im picky what i get-it just has to be right..i would like to see your horsey gift!!
from brightopal :
Enjoy your vacation - snow globe and all! I'd dearly love to have a vacation around Christmas time, myself.
from yarnsmith :
Enjoy that well earned vacation and those delicious naps
from mzbee :
Well, you could set your snow globe up in a spare room IN the house where you could go to be alone and read or watch TV or just watch your snow globe do it's snow thing? MERRY CHRISTMAS FRIEND. I hope it was a good one with lots of good memories. ((((hugs)))Love. MzBEE (alias BoXx)
from just2cusmile :
Merry Christmas and that was great-have fun at the mall!!
from brightopal :
Merry Christmas - very cute!!!
from lindzeeleigh :
Merry Christmas!!! :)
from brightopal :
Merry Christmas - stay warm!!
from lindzeeleigh :
Merry Christmas to you as well! :) I hope you guys don't get lost in the blizzard. Enjoy the time with your family and the fun Christmas movies!!
from just2cusmile :
i had to make sure it wasnt me that you deleted-that would of made me sad!! :( I could never say anything bad about you!!! goooo jaguarsss
from mskindasorta :
I can't imagine anyone having anything bad to say about you either and I'm sorry they did. I'm glad I read this entry before you went away and had the opportunity to wish you a Merry Christmas and Happy holidays. Have a wonderfuly relaxing time. See you in 2008! :)
from lindzeeleigh :
Enjoy the Christmas Holidays! You deserve all the time off. :)
from theumbrella :
Internet drama is weird. I'm sorry people are being meanie-faces...I can't even imagine what they'd say negatively about you. You're so sweet! I feel bad for how fertile the Spears girls are...for their kids, I mean:)
from boxx9000 :
(((hugs))) I don't understand how anyone could ever be mean to YOU. You're probably one of the nicest people I've met here at Diary Land. ((((hugs))))
from fightn4life :
I loved reading your letter to kitties and puppies. Made me smile thinking about my cats and the life they live around me. Sandyz
from starlight42 :
I Love the letter to your dogs and cats. I want to get one of those signs for my door! Too cute. Happy Holidays!
from yarnsmith :
You MW cookie eating hussy you!!!
from brightopal :
Mmm... Everyone is talking about cookies and I'm sitting here getting HUNGRY!
from boxx9000 :
Thanks for your sweet and supportive note. thanks.
from just2cusmile :
I HATE going to the grocery store too and I swear im there every other day...
from just2cusmile :
wow we have so much in common especially the silence one and meds making me hyper and they knock my big bear hubby out and NOBODY messes with my boys(men)and family-the "sweet girl" goes away quickly and I'd rather spend time with my husband then the girls...BTW-STOP SMOKING ;)~
from boxx9000 :
#8. I also was raised by my Italian Grandmother who spoke little English. She instilled a good dose of Catholic guilt in me and old world superstitions. Thus, I believe, is my source of constant anxiety and worry. Thanks Granny!
from boxx9000 :
3,5,8,10,13,&14. If it doesn't get done on the weekend then it just ain't going to get done at all during the week. I too, can't sit still, but I do know how to stay silent. Silently BUSY at all times, in my own little world inside my head. I LOVE mail, but I never check it. Yesterday, Dave was watching football (which I usually hate) but everytime I see football on TV, I think of you, and it makes me smile. MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU!!
from myownjourney :
Sometimes you make me laugh outloud - "fill his chapstick with superglue" - and laughing out loud in a jury room garners some odd looks. :)
from wifemotherme :
I am 2,5 and 17! We have alot in common. Now at the risk of being nosy - which I so am, was there an entry I missed about you growing up? How you ended up living with your grandmother.
from brightopal :
Bravo -- well said :D
from just2cusmile :
Ditto to you and your family :)
from brightopal :
Now you're just makin' me hungry. I'd love cheese and crackers, thank you very much :-p
from lindzeeleigh :
Mmm, brie cheese is so good! :) I also like goat's cheese though too. I liked your sneaky trick, I think it worked! ;)
from brightopal :
I never reported mine missing. Maybe I should've, though I think marriage and missing brain are kind of synonymous.
from myownjourney :
I had to wait 3 weeks to file a report on my brain...of course I think I only needed 24 hours.... still waiting for any news on it. :)
from mugwhump :
Me thinks you've got too much going on in that brain. It's not lost, its just full. P.S. - I too have a difficulty leaving messages on your sites. I guess that makes us even.
from brightopal :
Maybe Precious was reincarnated from a cat who lived in the desert. Who knows?
from just2cusmile :
that makes sense!! i have never ever been a coffee drinker until this year-i must be turning into a adult in my 40's-i do like my hot tea's better though!!
from yarnsmith :
I'd never heard that before about the middle of the pot. I'll have to try it.
from starlight42 :
Thanks for the sweet note! I am glad that you like the necklace and get some use from it. That makes me feel good! I still have your wedding bears, they are actually on a shelf in my kitchen, so I see them everywhen when I am cooking or eating. :) Sometimes people will ask me where I got them from and I tell them. Of course people are surprised that someone you only know online can be so thoughtful. Hope you're feeling better soon! And happy holidays if I don't talk to you before then. I'm sorry I don't get on here much, I'm on myspace more lately. You don't have a myspace do you?
from just2cusmile :
i'd rather be stinky sicky in bed then be working...not really but just the in bed thingy...feel better soon C
from yarnsmith :
Hope you feel better soon and those helicopters stop flying around in your head.
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
There is nothing worse than an ear ache! Get well soon.
from boxx9000 :
I hope you are feeling better soon so you can enjoy your vacation time off from school! It's better to be sick NOW then during your vacation time. ((((hugs))))
from just2cusmile :
ham and beans sounds so good-i love food like that and i love laying around in jammies all day with my dog..my niece has dark hair and she had a pretty royal blue highligts put in and it looked good actually-it reminded me of Veronica from the Archie comic books way back when :) it faded out quick though so she is back to regular highlights...have a good week sweet lady!! yeah my jags kicked butt today-did denver win?
from yarnsmith :
Sounds like a nice Saturday. Shelby's new hair color sounds real interesting. We watched The Santa Clause II Saturday also and we watched III tonight. They are all good, warm fuzzy, funny movies.
from mskindasorta :
I loved reading your answers :) I'm going to do that too!
from brightopal :
We don't have a Christmas tree this year - hopefully next year. And as for who's hardest to shop for, I don't know. My kids and I pretty much don 't have anything, so anything and everything is an improvement!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am glad you did the Christmas survey! I thought it was a fun one to do and a good way to pass the time and get out of writing a real entry. Although, I am off to do that now! :P [ I think... ?]
from wifemotherme :
You made me cry. Thanks, I think I needed that. I am also the queen of "sucking it up." I am having a tough time too. It comes in waves where the grief is sometimes so overwhelming it induces panic attacks. As if the way I feel right this second is so all consuming I will never function again. And then it somehow passes. I am babbling for some reason....I just wanted to send ya some cyberlove and support.
from just2cusmile :
MANY cyber hugs-my heart breaks for you and I cant even imagine what your going thru-losing a child-ugh-i cant even think about it....let your emotions out no matter who is tired of hearing about them,do it for yourself and what makes you feel better for that second!! I only wish I could say something that would help you but I know there isnt anything out there...email me if you ever want to vent or need a ear!
from boxx9000 :
(((hugs)))I remember the first 2 years after my parents died I thought I was going to die from the grief. I can't even imagine enduring the loss of a child. ((((hugs))))
from life-my-way :
What a horrible concept to grapple with, I'm so glad you have a safe place to vent! When I wrote about ACIM the other day, I wanted to mention a book that talks about the course and that has saved my life/sanity/heart many times. It's called A Return to Love and it's by Marianne Williamson. Most public libraries carry it and Amazon definitely stocks it (as do most bookstores). I'll be thinking of you today.
from just2cusmile :
If I didnt have my dog Bo to talk to I would be crazzzzzy-he doesnt like getting his nails trimmed either,he does them himself by chewing on them!! :) cyber hugs to you too!!
from lindzeeleigh :
HAHA! Okay, I loved the conversation with Idgie, that was just too funny. I am home sick and you brightened my day!
from yarnsmith :
Cool score...watch it though...that ebay can get addicting, although you can find ANYTHING under the sun on ebay.
from mugwhump :
Serious Score! I hope your virgin purchase goes off without a hitch!
from lindzeeleigh :
That is great that you found that book! I have never ordered anything off ebay before either, but i am sure it will all work out for you and you will be holding your new to you book!
from life-my-way :
Oh, I do LOVE my time alone (to be in the house without anyone else being here is, well, heaven)! I meant to write you when you wrote (so very well) about being not like the others--me too! If we get enough of us we can do our own meme's (ha). My favorite childhood book was Crispin's Crispian--the dog who was his own dog. I am Crispian, always have been, and parallel play is usually the most closeness I care to participate in. Oh, the reason I wrote today, ACIM is A Course in Miracles. It's one of the few things that can reliably fetch me out of a depressive event--I really should stick with it, I might actually function.
from mskindasorta :
Oh, ps, it's nothing to do with your diary, it's just the settings my son has.
from mskindasorta :
I'm on my sons side of the computer because I'm having problems with my side this past few nights and each time I go to read your diary the writing is so so so teeny that I cannot understand one word! lol. My pc will be fixed tomorrow so I look forward to getting on my side and reading your latest entries. Have a good day girlie xox
from just2cusmile :
i cant make myself write something interesting right now-my emotions are not in the right place but You and me are a lot alike and I know how you feel just on different levels and for different reasons but I also stick to my sense of humor to get me thru but that doesnt always work..I feel for ya babe!!
from boann7 :
therapy is hard...it also takes a lot of work and a brave heart to face the mirror. love and compassion to you dear
from yarnsmith :
Oh my goodness Carolyn, except for your unique "life experiences" like losing Jeff and being raised by your Grandma, you could be me. I completely feel the same way...like I've always been a species unto myself...a 3rd gender...someone no one else gets. This is why I too have limited participation in blogging and don't do the meme's and all too. This is huge that you are writing about this and have put it into words so eloquently. I have to force myself to go out. As a matter of fact, today, we are going on a historic house walk and I am all anxiety ridden over it because I don't know every detail of what to expect. I force myself because if I don't staying home where I am safe could take on a life of it's own.
from danddteacher :
In which category does Shelby compete? I was a DI, HI, and Duo girl myself! Gosh, I miss those days - tournaments were a blast!
from life-my-way :
I'd LOVE a card, and I'll send you one too! My email is life.my.way at gmail dot com, if you want to send your address I'll send you mine. Happy Friday! K
from life-my-way :
I'd LOVE a card, and I'll send you one too! My email is life.my.way at gmail dot com, if you want to send your address I'll send you mine. Happy Friday! K
from yarnsmith :
Well, I guess here in Chicagoland, we are having a heat wave compared to Montana. BTW, don't feel too bad about the Bears...they got lucky...we aren't used to seening them win so we got a good thrill for a change.
from fightn4life :
Yikes! 3 out doors. They say a cold wave is heading this way...nights 40's day time 70's. I feel I am blessed, for today anyway, Sandyz
from mskindasorta :
hia girlie..I've locked up for a while..email me at rebeckajane@gmail.com if you want the password :)
from lindzeeleigh :
Nice to hear you had such a good long weekend! And full of naps - even better! I hope your week goes well. p.s. I laughed about the hooks, so true!
from just2cusmile :
glad your days off went well and what does your puzzle look like?! :)
from mskindasorta :
It would be ok if I knew what context that "hmmm" was ment..tee hee. Happy Thanksgiving! xo
from mugwhump :
Happy Turkey Day!!! Enjoy!
from boxx9000 :
11-22-07 HAPPY THANKSGIVING
from just2cusmile :
I've always loved Tom Selleck-I remember having his poster in my bedroom sitting in his Magnum P.I. red Ferrari :) He still looks handsome-did you get a reply back from your letter-how awesome would that have been?!
from just2cusmile :
sounds pretty yummy to me-wrong pan or not :)~ im glad you have a short week-enjoy!!
from brightopal :
That actually sounds pretty good to me, even if you used the bigger pan :-p
from yarnsmith :
Yum...cakey bannana bars with too much frosting....YUM!!!!
from brightopal :
I hear you about the crowds. That's the one thing I dread about moving back into the Phoenix area. Traffic and crowds everywhere you go :(
from fightn4life :
I have always believed in divine intervention, you just added another reason for me to continue to believe, Sandyz
from danddteacher :
This is why I'm always counting heads when I'm with kids. I used to do it every few minutes when I was a camp counselor.
from boxx9000 :
re: saints or masochists....I haven't quite figured that one out either. It's a little of BOTH!
from yarnsmith :
Sounds like Vince and Kathy are the rednecks.
from brightopal :
Been there, done that. The idiot factor brings out my Redneckness.
from boxx9000 :
Sometimes I feel like screaming, "OH SHUT UP!", too. Does that make me a red neck? or just fed up?
from mskindasorta :
Oh I'm not around here less because of him, I'm not on here as much because my pc is so slow and painful to sit at sometimes and also I'm pretty tired between work and the boys that sometimes I go to bed early..er..ok so I do spend a fair amount of time on the phone late at night to a certain someone =) . Life isn't all roses of course..I'm still stressed about my sons unstable diabetes, stressed about work, stressed about money and so on, but a certain someone seems to take the edge off that stress =) (Have I ever mentioned how I love reading you!)
from myownjourney :
I only watch the Cowboys on Sundays. But lets be realistic here, all the other games are just filler to see who gets to play the Cowboys anyway. ;-)
from lindzeeleigh :
Good for you for going and talking to a counsellor, that can be a hard step to take and you have done that. I hope the road will be a little less bumpy for you from here on in. :)
from fightn4life :
Wow, I felt so much of what you wrote about; "going back to watching mindless TV curled on the couch" I do that. I don't want to talk much about loss, about pain, about sorrow, it makes it real. Many have told me I need to go to a counselor, some day maybe…when I want to talk, to fell again to heal. My heart is with you, Sandyz
from boxx9000 :
((((hugs)))) ♥ one day at a time ♥
from boxx9000 :
congratulations on your new door. re: Thanksgiving. You will make the right decision. ((((hugs))))
from myownjourney :
Did I give you the new password? If not email me at rick_dairy@yahoo.com :)
from mskindasorta :
Sorry I took so long to respond to your note..I've had meatball subs but never a french dip sandwich? Happy birthday to your sweet 16 girl :)
from just2cusmile :
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO YOUR SWEET LIL SHELBY DOO!!
from fightn4life :
Happy Birthday Shelby, mommies little angel! Sandyz
from danddteacher :
It's interesting to me that the musical has Nessa in a wheelchair, but the book has her without arms. Of course, it makes perfect sense to make the change - you can put an actor in a wheelchair but you can't chop off their arms! *L* Sorry, I've got a rather morbid sense of humor these days. Happy 16th to Shelby!
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN!
from yarnsmith :
Happy Birthday Shelby.
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
Happy Sweet Sixteen, Shelby!
from anthronut :
Oh my gosh! You're the coolest person ever. Except I think I would have gone with Elphaba :)
from brightopal :
Well, considering I'm now READING the book "Wicked"...
from yarnsmith :
Long long ago I remember reading an article about eating food instead of throwing it out called "mommy you are not a garbage can"...sure put that into perspective...better in the garbage than on my hips. Of course I eat the stuff anyway and my hips dont' lie. I was just thinking the other day as I looked in the mirror and saw the beginnings of a silver stripe forming down the center of my head...I need a cut and color.
from lindzeeleigh :
Isn't Ness Rose from "Wicked:The Life and Times....."? That is what it made me think of!
from brightopal :
I so rarely watch television I can't say I have a "favorite" show or shows. I like a lot of stuff on HGTV, and catch Doctor Who (the BBC version on the computer though, so not technically TV.) That's about it for me.
from boxx9000 :
Oprah, Dancing with the Stars and Real Time with Bill Maher are the 3 tv shows I try to watch.
from yarnsmith :
I had to break a severe addiciton to home and garden tv shows...I watched so much TV, I didn't have time to make my house nice.
from d1mndn3r0ugh :
Thinking of you. *hugs*
from essaywriter :
Got your note.. thanks for the add!
from mskindasorta :
Please explain to an Aussie girl what Bunco is and Hoagie rolls are? (I think I spelt that wrong?)
from mugwhump :
I've pretty much ended up doing my grocery shopping on Sunday's too. the problem with doing this is that I find there they're pretty much out of fresh buns (for Sandwiches), and everything else my husband wants for lunches. Yet, if I buy them on Saturday then he says the buns are too stale to eat by Monday. I just can't win.
from brightopal :
Good going on the crock pot meal. My crock pot is my best cooking friend, no matter what Dangerspouse says ;)
from brightopal :
I know how frustrating it is to work with someone like that. Which is one of the reasons I actually LIKE where I work. There are enough incompetent people around me that they make me look good, though, lol.
from mskindasorta :
I love reading you :) xo
from fightn4life :
Smelly animal smells, LOL I can relate. I hate to eat out alone also; I had a biscuit today and drove home eating it, no magazines at the little One Stop so I took it with me, (the biscuit) Yes, I was glad you shared this entry, made me smile. Sandyz
from brightopal :
Two stores to mention, if you've got 'em there: Ross and Bealls. They're both outlet stores so you get a mixed bag, but they are also inexpensive for what you get. Bealls almost ALWAYS has a collection of pants for $7.99 and Ross has pretty much anything you can think of, also at reduced prices. Bealls has an online site but the prices skew higher - beallsflorida.com. Best part is that their clothing is generally pretty good quality. :)
from yarnsmith :
I hear baby poo yellow is the hot color for the year. (I love your color descriptions). When daughter was little we shopped for 10 days for a plain white blouse for her to be in a choral concert at the local mall. Finally found one and paid through the nose for it. Day of the concert there we were, Michelle looking adorable in her crisp fresh white blouse. We made the mistake of grabbing a hot dog and fries before the concert. She reached over for a french fry and as she pulled back, she drug that crisp white cuff right through a pile of ketchup. She attended the concert ketchup stained.
from boxx9000 :
3 in 2 HOORAY! I don't understand your passion for football, but it will make me smile when I see it next because I will think of you. My Mom and I used to go thrift store shopping for books, back when you could get all the Maeve Bincheys you wanted for 50 cents each.
from yarnsmith :
Wow...that looks easy and tasty and great for the chill I am feeling in this cold weather we are having. I think I'll actually make this. Thanks for sharing.
from lilpeanut80 :
That potato soup recipe must be making the rounds, because my mom is making that tomorrow. Hmmmm....
from just2cusmile :
a big HECK YES to us women football FREAKS!!! and I sooooooo cant stand that Tony dude-how he got hired again for MNF or ESPN I dont know-i'll be seeing his face next Monday night-grrrr they set up behind our area where we sit!!which means i do get to see Steve Young-I like him!! I was at Wal-Mart last night too-you should of told me you were going I would of looked for ya!! lol ;)
from brightopal :
Glad to hear the wrist is improving. And if you have a crock pot, there are a lot of no-fuss meals you can fix. None of them actually require recipes, per se. I throw in a pot roast, a packet (or two, depending on the size of the roast) of onion soup mix, water, and throw in some whole potatoes and baby carrots (the kind you buy pre-peeled and washed in a bag.) Easy peasy lemon squeasy and you've got a great meal without having any serious WORK in the process. Another option? I just throw in a whole chicken or a package of frozen chicken breasts, salt & pepper it, add veggies and water and let it go. That version is good with a bag of stew veggies that includes baby onions, etc. The BEST, though, is tossing in a pork roast, no water - let it cook on low for most of 24 hours. Then drain it, shred it up and add a whole bottle of spicy BBQ sauce and let it go another hour or so. If you really get adventurous, throw in some chopped onion, though I prefer it without. Plop the BBQ pork on hamburger buns and all you need is some salad and chips - voila! Easy meal.
from lindzeeleigh :
Glad to hear your wrist is finally starting to get better. :) Bill is mean and bad for tricking you into going to Walmart, I don't think ANYONE likes going there! :( AS for the potato soup, care to share the recipe? I always like a new recipe for the crockpot!
from just2cusmile :
DARN IT~you just made me miss my back surgeon who I feel in love with ;) I hope your wrist gets better with the new brace and OMG I love our DVR-there is no way I could live without it now!!! The simple joys of life :) take care of yourself hugs!!
from boxx9000 :
((((hugs))) I'm sorry about your wrist. It's no fun to be injured. Dave just passed the one year mark since his shoulder surgery and is planning to have surgery AGAIN just as soon as they can scheduled it. (sigh)
from brightopal :
Ugh about the wrist. I hope that this provides a real resolution. If the detachment is that bad, much as I hate to say it, surgery might be the more appropriate option...
from mel-is-dvash :
I'm so sorry to hear about your wrist. I hope this three weeks passes quickly, and that all is on the mend after that. Hugs, Mel
from lindzeeleigh :
I am sorry to hear that your wrist is still not doing much better. :( Ugh, that is not the best of news, but maybe that now they know what is actually wrong and have given you the proper brace, you will start to heal. I hope you enjoy your weekend!
from yarnsmith :
Oh, you poor thing....I'll send you a one handed rolling pin and at least you can bake a pie (yes, they do make them)...Looking forward to your moving in to Webport village as soon as I can figure out how to build it. (web design software learning curve going on)
from mskindasorta :
I've missed you too girlie. I've taken you off my old buddy list and added you to my new one :)
from just2cusmile :
will you please take a pain pill and come clean my house ;) im glad your feeling better MS.CLEAN!!!
from boxx9000 :
i don't have a picture phone. (sad face)
from mskindasorta :
It's the Aussie girl =)
from danddteacher :
Sheesh, quit hurtin' yourself! *L* And yes, giddy is quite nice, I'm rather enjoying it.
from on-a-string :
Mrs. Green! I am so proud of you. I am trying to change all the lightbulbs in the house over to the energy efficient kind but it's a slow, grueling process. So super sorry you're in so much pain! I am sending prayers your way:)
from danddteacher :
OK, I'm not at all surprised that you're still dealing with knee pain. Ligament injuries take a LONG time to heal and even longer to be pain free. I spent years dealing with pain, buckling, etc until my knee was back to normal. I know it's not what you want to hear, but do what the dr says. Wear the brace. Do the PT. It'll take time, but you'll be closer to what it was like before the injury if you follow directions (says the girl who screwed up her knee by dancing too soon).
from yarnsmith :
I love wash and wear hair and I do think that is exactly what pain pills are for...so you can go on business as usual and not feel the pain. This is the modern era...we aren't supposed to have down time...we can just Take a pill.
from rebeckajane :
Hi Miss Green..er..Mrs Green! Thank you for the lovely note..I locked my diary for a couple of reasons but the main one being that I gave the address to someone and I regret doing so because this someone has feelings that I don't and I now find it uncomfortable for them to be reading me. Which means I'll probably be making a new journal home, I have one at blogspot which i barely write in but I am very fond of diaryland (even with it's pain in the bahootie problems at times) so might just make a new one here. My computer is still giving me problems (no laptop yet) and by the time I come home from work, do the mum things I have to do and so on, the last thing I have is patience to be sitting at my pc waiting for it to work properly when all I want to do is go to sleep, so that explains my lack of entries over the past months. I miss you too and I'm on 2 glorious weeks vacation so no doubt I will have more patience and more energy to write! Hope you are having a wonderful Sunday girlie :)
from brightopal :
I periodically tell myself I wanna cut my hair again. Then I return to sanity and think, NAH!! Long hair is easier for me to take care of.
from shadesofmi :
Not back to Cali but to a different part of the city. A friend is moving out and she hasn't had any problems so we are moving in. Signed a 6 month lease so if it doesn't work out we will be going back to Cali this summer. Thanks for the note and I hope you get to feelin' better soon.
from boxx9000 :
I am soOoooOO proud of you! GO GREEN CAROLYN! We bought a memory foam from costco my daughter has it now. Sorry you are sick, that's no fun. I have been known to clean when I am sick, too. Pics of the new hair do????
from boxx9000 :
did you get yur hair cut?
from mugwhump :
Hair Grows - tell your people to "deal with it". You do whatever you need to do for yourself. :-)
from fightn4life :
Some times people want us to be how they feel we should be, grow your hair and wear it any way you want to. I hope your bones heal, I do understand the longing to know how long it takes something to heal. My back has never stopped hurting. My thoughts are with you, Sandyz
from pureone :
Thank you!!! Its sort of why I posted it, in case anyone is looking for something like it on the internet! Its been passed on to all my friends who have, in turn, passed it on to others. This Formidable Women thing is catching on ;).
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY FOOTBALL SEASON.
from just2cusmile :
hello fellow footballmama :)~ J*A*G*S JAGS JAGS JAGS!!! sorry we had to beat your Broncos yesterday but i was thinking of ya ;) it did come by suprise for me that we won!! And have no fear I will always be "crazy" its in my blood and who I am...Enjoy your haircut and take care of your self!! hugs Patti
from yarnsmith :
Enjoy the football and your new wash and wear hair. I have often toyed with the idea of a grocery shopping service...then again...I have an unemployed hubby to to it...I just can't seem to give up that control to him.
from yarnsmith :
Size 8....I don't think I've ever been a size 8...maybe when I was two. Spikey, short wash and wear, easy care Hair?....works for me.
from brightopal :
Congratulations on the weight loss! I'd KILL to be a size 8, but I'm happy at the weight I HAVE lost, too. I blew it today but I'll be watching myself again as of tomorrow. ;)
from boxx9000 :
size 8! WOW! WTG! I am very envious.
from just2cusmile :
oohh nooo my luck is rubbing off on you~runnn!!
from fightn4life :
LOL, I couldn't say it once. Take care of your wrist; I miss your entries too but not wishing you to inflict more pain on "wonky wrist." Sandyz
from just2cusmile :
miss you more-take care of yourself and we'll be here when you heal!! :) i hope my jags beat your broncos this weekend but im dreaming :)
from yarnsmith :
Hope that wrist is working well soon...we miss you.
from lindzeeleigh :
I have been wondering how you were doing! I hope your wrist will be on the mend soon, keep listening to the Queen of Pain, she knows what she's talking 'bout! :P
from life-my-way :
We miss you, too. I hope the wrist mends up quickly and that you're back to typing in no time. Take care, Katherine
from shadesofmi :
Stopped in to see how u are doin' and to say "hi".
from fightn4life :
Good Lord, busy is right, you make me tired. But I did take a nap for you. :) Sandyz
from yarnsmith :
And you did all that with a sprained arm?
from sunnflower :
I say those same things - minus the one about paperwork filled out for school - to my son and he is in his first year of college!
from wyndspirit :
OuchOuchOuch!!! :(
from rebeckajane :
Ouch, I hope it heals quickly, sounds kind of similar to the tissue damage my son has done. I caught up on your journal again tonight! Hugs girlie :)
from boxx9000 :
please send me an email at Spicoli007@yahoo.com (boxx)
from fightn4life :
You are not a moron, just some one like me that has to do things for themselves. I "forget" about my back until after the fact. I hope your wrist is feeling better today. Sandyz
from sunnflower :
It's hard to not move the picnic table. That's why you did it. Hugs to you!
from just2cusmile :
your not a moron at all-your just a typical woman who likes to do things even when your not suppose to-your normal!! :)
from yarnsmith :
Dear dear Carolyn, what are we gonna do with you. Don't be too hard on yourself...it's the doctors fault. He warned you about picking up gallons of milk, but he should have also told you that you shouldn't move a picnic table by without wearing a brace too....or pick up a boulder, or chop down a tree, or split firewood, or build a fence, or pick up your husband and throw him or pull a tree out by it's roots or push your car back and forth up and down the driveway or ............
from lindzeeleigh :
I hope your wrist is feeling better soon! You will have to be using it for typing at work and such. Take care of it and I hope it will heal quickly. No more lifting picnic tables!
from boxx9000 :
You'll be the FIRST person I give my password to. There's not many people I can trust, but I DO trust you. THANKS for the GREAT post cards that arrived today. I was showing them to my Dave and he said he had been to all those places. (envy)
from yarnsmith :
Wait til you hit 50. Hope all heals up soon.
from boxx9000 :
healing (((hugs))) Best of Luck for the new school year.
from fightn4life :
We all get punchy, disorientated, don't worry it only happens to good people. Ok, I use that excuse when it happens to me. Let us know what the Dr says tomorrow. Good wishes. Sandyz
from brightopal :
Ack - well, hang in there. The beginning of the school year comes only ONCE a year ;)
from wyndspirit :
Ouch!!! :( Get well soon!
from pureone :
I'm honored that you managed to type me a note with all your injuries!!! ;)
from yarnsmith :
Hope that sprain heals fast. I've heard a sprain hurts worse than a break
from fightn4life :
This is the third Diary I have read tonight where someone has broken a body part. I am so sorry. When the pain gets less, I'll look forward to your updates. Heal quickly. My thoughts are with you. Many {{{HUGS!}} Sandyz
from pureone :
Oh no!!! Such things are soooo dangerous! I wish you AND your wrist a speedy recovery!
from ladybugge :
I'm so sorry to hear about your left wrist. I hope it feels better quickly! I'll miss hearing from you in the meantime.
from lindzeeleigh :
Yikes! Take care of that wrist, I hope that it will be on the mend soon. I sometimes think that sprains are worse than breaks!
from life-my-way :
Take care of your wrist and come back soon. Oh, and I believe that you need something like a cabana boy to lift banker boxes for you. I need a cabana boy, too, and I don't even have banker boxes [or a job, for that matter, snifflesob]. Get well, I'll miss hearing from you!
from boxx9000 :
Have you ever read the message COSMICRAYOLA has for her younger readers? It's really good. http://cosmicrayola.diaryland.com/030201_69.html I get a little freaked out sometimes that I have TOO much