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from annanotbob :
Thanks for the add. I sincerely hope you're feeling a lot better than when you last updated. Best wishes x
from mugwhump :
I have no idea if you'll get this, but I wanted to wish you all the best - A Happy Christmas and Exciting New 2008. Blessings, - LJ (aka http://musingsbymugwhump.blogspot.com)
from shortst101 :
Please let me know how you are T are doing. I miss writing back and forth with you.
from shortst101 :
I miss you! Hope you and T are doing okay.
from rebeckajane :
I beg to differ..i explained to you in email and also on my pc sometime ago that i would not be writing to anyone as much as i used to for various reasons. Then Nathan got ill then my pc started dying..as you can see by my lack of entries, I'm barely online these days due to the whole pc situation and other things. I'm sorry if that's upset you Sammie. Thanks for the note to let me know you are ok :)
from rebeckajane :
where are you sammie? :(
from joistmonkey :
I read your last entry and it made me cry. I'm so very very very sorry that I've not made the effort to watch the debate for the Democrat candidates, and yet I intend to vote in an election soon. Am I 'a pathetic piece of shit who is not earning my way'? Should I just 'get the fuck out' because I am a 'worthless turd'? I'm sorry, you're right, I am. :-)
from hexychick :
I appreciate the suggestion on how to deal with my neighbors but do not let the fact that I live alone and am a single female escape your thoughts. Not as easy to face an apartment full of male wannabe thugs when you are alone.
from threexten :
you are thinking of juliet mills who plays tabitha on passions.
from stealmypurse :
I meant that my first entry upon returning to diaryland explained what happened to cause me to be so lacking in my writing. My email is not the email you once wrote to me on. I can send you an email from my new email host and name so we can correspond that way. I have not forsaken you. At least I would hope I have not.
from stealmypurse :
I have not forgotten you. A lot of things have happened as you have read and writing didn't seem to be the first priority anymore. Honestly and truly yours was the first site I checked in on again when I returned to diaryland just a few days ago. I hope you have not forgotten that I still consider you a friend. Please keep in touch. My email has changed. If you wish to correspond that way, ask for it later.
from shortst101 :
Dropping in to give you some hugsssss.....and to take a few as well.
from mugwhump :
Nothing. That's what happens. Is that what's supposed to happen?
from forty-plus :
Happy New Year!
from myownjourney :
Happy Thanksgiving Sam.
from luckeme :
You are very welcome my dear! :) I haven't used it, but another diarylander, savecraig, had put it on his page awhile ago and when I thought you could use it, I passed it along. and xox! i'll send you some right back thru this cursed medium of webs.
from mugwhump :
That's very presumptuous!
from spazs :
What no? Or is this you being mysterious again?
from on-a-string :
If only there were a way...
from shortst101 :
I'm sure once T got home, hiding wasn't necessary anymore. Sighs, being held by someone you love and someone who loves you always makes the world much better. (at least for a little while)
from hexychick :
I hope you finish "another uncertain day".
from on-a-string :
Well written, thank you for sharing...
from on-a-string :
Thanks for the add, yourself!:) Can't wait to read along!
from shortst101 :
Hey.....your comment thingy is missing again.....anyway.....what a shitty day this has been.....UGHHHH
from spazs :
Did you understand it? You donīt wanna marry. I would say youīre a black girl, by the way...eheh, ok, doesnīt matter...uhm, you donīt wanna marry. You are very...into these sudden meetings. That occur out of nowhere. Did you get it? I mean, I love you being that way! Being turned on quickly. *I* like that! YOU donīt wanna get married, you donīt wanna be put into a cage. Did you hear it?
from bindyree :
As of today, the middle of September, Americans are allowed to take their digital toys with them on their carryons. I always drag my laptop and my CD player and my digital camera with me onto the plane. And no, x-rays like the type they use in security won't affect digital photography. It occasionally affects film cameras, but that's very rare.
from kestra :
Hi! Thanks for the note. Well, I read ahead sometimes, and sometimes I don't read ahead. It depends on what kind of week I'm having. If I'm having a good week, with more study hours than homework to do, then I'll read ahead in the book. If I'm going underwater, just doing my best to keep up with deadlines, then I don't read ahead in the book... well, obviously, deadline material takes precedence. Thank you for the reminder of the importance of reading ahead, though. Even though I took the route of dropping the class for now, when I take it again in the future, I'll make sure to place emphasis on that. I think I'm better off not taking it right now anyway. I don't think I can devote the proper amount of time to it, which it's become obvious that the subject requires crazy amounts of time (and a sacrificial lamb). Geez, I'm thinking maybe there should be a semester just dedicated to Calc II...lol... Okay, I'm just going to see if I can take some easier courses concurrently with it next semester, like my GUR or Education classes. :) Anyhow, sorry for rambling in your note section. I just wanted to say thanks for the support!
from breatheasigh :
loved your second entry today :)
from hexychick :
I was at Lake Anne the other day and thought of you. I took some pictures wondering if you would see the same exact image. They're on my flickr page.
from shortst101 :
Hey there......sending you hugsss this morning
from mugwhump :
I am more thankful than you know - that it's Friday!!!!
from breatheasigh :
Hmm..I have to disagree with some of what you said, only going on how i live and the people around me. My children help out around the house, they also take turns cooking at least one meal a week, if the rooms are not tidy then they don't watch dvds. If they want to go somewhere they need to wait until i'm ready to take them and they have to give me warning, of course there are times they are invited with short notice and i dont have a problem with that. Most of the woman i know are single mums, and almost all of them make sure their children participate in the household etc. I know there are plenty of parents who do everything for their children and i have to admit at some stage there i did the samebecause i felt i was compensating for the guilt i felt for leaving their dad. But it didn't take long for me to realise that wasnt the right thing to do. I for one do not think that an untidy house is my fault. My children know that i expect the house to be tidy and homely, not spotless :)
from breatheasigh :
Hia sam, sorry i have not replied to your email, i was going to tonight but now I'm far too sleepy and stuff. I will tomorrow though, take care. Hugs my friend.
from shortst101 :
Hope you had a good week last week. Happy Monday. Missed ya.
from krugerpak007 :
Hope you had an awsome weekend! Nipple massage? *blushing*
from krugerpak007 :
Thinking of you. And I owe you a huge e-mail. Love Kathy
from whystinger :
BTW, try some whole grain pasta. Very surprisingly good. Makes me wonder why they go to that expense of bleaching flour, and takeing the good taste out of it.
from whystinger :
Thanks for doing an update on Krugerpak007. I too had been invited, but did not yet do a guest entry. From your guest entry, you are brave and you are my age... If you wish, you may want to check out NAMI.org. Perhaps you know about them. BTW I am a former NYer
from breatheasigh :
if you were not HERE you would be missed..
from mugwhump :
most of the time I can tell when your spinning a grand story or writing your truths... today ... there seems to be a little of both, and I'm not sure which side to lean towards.
from pfirsich :
Hm,I always call the failure voice me.And itīs not accidental.I call the failure,the breaking the diet and so on,I call THAT willful and intended.For me that is the mean old subconscious that tell me beforehand:you have to go on a diet,you have to control yourself,there is no easier way....you know:who WANTS to be on a diet? Who would be on a diet if food didnīt make you fat,sort of like air? I think itīs your old subconscious self who says:you must you must you must,and the new self says:ok,I really donīt want to and breaks the habit and looks out for new easier ways to get to your goal.I think the failure is the conscious thing. I mean,In ever failed at stuff that was really important to me,like not going to work or whatever.And even there nothing big could happen.Poverty doesnīt kill you...gotta get another job...you know.I think you fail at stuff when you subconsiciously already hate it there and really wanna quit....so that is smart...
from hexychick :
damn! Mr. Local, where do you live? Maybe I should apply tot hat apartment complex!!!
from breatheasigh :
it's funny (not in a haha sense) you know..being part of such a huge family is wonderful but then i realise there are so many of them to lose..one day..i don't like that..
from shortst101 :
Hope you are feeling better today
from breatheasigh :
man someone write here so i don't feel like a stalker please..tee hee..ok it's now 12 hours after those bottom messages..and when i said have a great weekend i forgot i'm a day ahead (duh)..anyhow thanks for the email and i'm responding tonight :)
from breatheasigh :
and one more thing..i'm sorry you are feeling irritable and grouchy today..i hope my notes don't upset you and i hope you feel better soon..
from breatheasigh :
their = there* (sorry had to fix my typo ;o)..OBVIOUSLY is a big statement btw sam..you say that OBVIOUSLY this is what i am etc etc...i would call that an assumption from you..sorry had to add that..
from breatheasigh :
sorry this is going to be long but i can't get into your normal comments (be interested in seeing what the 4 comments said) anyhow...ok first of all you are very entitled to your own opinion sam which you do all the time in your diary..as i do in mine..secondly let me point out a couple of things here..you said.." She wanted to wash the ickyness from her mind, and her only means of doing so, was with soap and water in the lavatory." first of all it was at a tap (no soap..if i had wanted to get rid of this ickyness and how eew you felt it sounded then surely i would of used soap?) by the car..secondly it wasn't to wash the "ickyness" from my mind it was because i KNOW exactly what this guy does and how many people he does it with..and no offence to the guy in question but i don't particularly want to have that on my hands if you had heard the conversation he and i had after this incident then you would understand..i was going to write that conversation in the story of yesterday but seeing as i am mindful of some of the more conservative people that read my diary (which is why i didn't place the name of one of the dvds in their..i didn't......as for this that you also said.."Well, it's the fact that this woman, and most woman I've ever known for that matter, feel this way. That a man's sperm is something icky. That because she doesn't love him, she should feel revulsion at his semen. That even though she claims to be perfectly cool with men having their way with themselves whenever they wish, so long as it doesn't involve her, she is clearly lying to herself. Because she obviously DOES view male sexuality as something gross or DIRTY if it doesn't fit into her neat little idea of how things should be. Which generalized, to me means, any male sexuality that she doesn't want." I do in no way at all (and if you knew me and my views as you claim to you would know that) view male sexuality as something gross or dirty and i do not have a neat little idea of how things should be...i would of done the exact same thing if it was a book that i knew he had sneezed or snotted over..and yep by me writing this then those that read will know that woman you were talking about was me..that doesn't really bother me...and lastly mr sam..i think that the whole *women think we men are repulsive* thing is a thing that men think to much..i don't know one single woman that thinks men are repulsive (apart from 2 lesbian women i know) and yes it may be true that some don't want to touch some guys sperm that isn't that of a loved one or one she is dating but that doesn't mean we find them repulsive...and you know what..i am well aware that any time i touch money or a tap or whatever that it may have been touched by someone who just got off..or just sneezed etc but the point is i knew..sorry but i feel that was a big over reaction on something i was writing in a jovial manner about a day of crazyness...but like i said you are entitled to yours as i am to mine..have a great weekend mr sam.
from shortst101 :
Waving hello on this Wednesday morning.......(May 3)
from breatheasigh :
i liked that :)
from mugwhump :
Toilet paper rolls - a serious dysfunction in most if not all homes without paid staff. What really bugs me is the pee spots that show up anywhere and everywhere I am physically unable to have been the culprit for. This lies only in the area of my husband. So if I take the last shred of toilet paper on the roll, and don't put a new one out - I don't feel so bad. :-)
from shortst101 :
Well i can't get my email to work anymore today, so haven't been able to read emails since earlier today.
from hexychick :
the only trick I have for taking photos of people is to either flat out ask or to try and make it look like you are taking a picture of something else entirely and get the sneak attack photo. you should check out ericg.diaryland.com - he takes a lot of photos of humans and has a link to his website on there.
from pfirsich :
More!
from breatheasigh :
you've got mail..
from hexychick :
yeah I moved. I needed to detach from the past and lock up some of that pain. I don't plan on locking this one up unless some fuckhead finds it and exploits it. I at least put a search engine blocker in it. Thanks for the comment you put on your profile about me. Made me smile. We are still due for alunch my friend.
from breatheasigh :
welcome back :)
from pfirsich :
But,I really think I suck! You know,so thatīs why Iīd feel most comfortable with you when youīre not that perfect and are misbehaving and stuff! I could SAY that I feel pretty when Iīm on a high note,you know,feeling good.But I would only say it,the same way you are joking.For entertainment.If you know what Iīm saying. I donīt have high selfesteem as far as my looks go,see,but you look really outstanding.Outstandingly gorgeous,you know.Iīm not just saying it. So....thatīs why I think I would like it if you would really misbehave and stuff so that you would look less perfect.You know what I mean? You are kind of on some pedestal for me,something.Hard to reach.If weīre now talking about actually meeting. You have to be imperfect.Unperfect.Try to be a real pig or something,that would make me feel comfortable.You can be creative about your flaws.You gotta put on some flaws here,you understand?
from neeeeek :
Hi, ... I'm from Europe and people from Sweden found a way to to produce alcohol out of wood, which is a pretty good fuel and even more powerful than gasoline. The Swedish will become independent from oil as a fuel and turn all their cars into alcohol driven vehicles. greetings, Julius
from pfirsich :
Yeah,itīs me,I know.I need time to unfold.Haha,thatīs really not my thing! Even when I read this word now,I think it must be dangerous or something! What you are doing is good,though! Somehow I thought you didnīt want me to write you because of something. So,anyway,if you want that,thatīs good,youīre really helping me in a big way.Donīt worry,itīs just me,I need time to unfold or something.Really,nothing has changed or anything. I donīt get it myself.I guess Iīm really shy or what is it? Funny. But donīt leave me,Iīm still working on it.
from mugwhump :
You have a most colourful neighbour. I'm jealous!
from pfirsich :
Mhm,yum,that entry of yours.Haha,I love your being "contrary".It works out well with me,I tell you.Your behaviour works out fine with me.Somehow I HAVE to give you gifts(donīt know why),so,the only thing I want is that I donīt get embarrassed.You know,that you wonīt say:oooh,youīre exaggerating.Or worse.You know,they look at me like Iīm stupid for...giving them stuff or whatever! You know,when I care about someone.I always get rewarded with being put to embarrassment,you know. I never suffered cause someone didnīt asnwer the phone and stuff like that,I always suffered from the look on their faces after they had received the present.They always made me feel like what I had given was something little,something small,they always took away from it! You know,when you can add something to it.Like,a shirt hasnīt a value by itself,it only has a cause(yeah,thatīs it,cause)because of your chest.
from mugwhump :
There is something deeply sad about today's entry. Being someone who struggles with her weight, and have only been married for 3.5 years there was a twinge of truth (and pain) in it for me. This was very well written. If its possible to have a love / hate relationship with a peice - this would be one. :-) LJ
from mugwhump :
There is something deeply sad about today's entry. Being someone who struggles with her weight, and have only been married for 3.5 years there was a twinge of truth (and pain) in it for me. This was very well written. If its possible to have a love / hate relationship with a peice - this would be one. :-) LJ
from breatheasigh :
no the cyclone has not come down and swept me out to sea..it is quite windy but not as bad as i thought it would be..they said we should get the after effects of the cyclone from today through to the weekend...thank you for the email..will mail you back tonight :)
from pfirsich :
Thanks,very nice,very nice! To tell me youīll be back,yeah,that was nice! Like you were taking me into your arms with words,you know,very nice.Youīve definetly reached me there! *sighs*
from shortst101 :
Your comments thing doesn't like me again. OK, I want to know how much this guy would charge to make me actually LOOK good in pictures and video.
from breatheasigh :
i really like that :)
from shortst101 :
Now your comments thingy seems to be gone! HA HA, maybe you were trying to tell me to stop leaving so many dang comments! Good morning!
from shortst101 :
We have the inspections and emissions testing once a year here too. I'm glad you got outside and went driving today. Why didn't you just drive on down to NC??
from shortst101 :
I wonder what my insides have been trying to tell me. I know they don't like me very much.
from shortst101 :
didn't mean to make you cry! Big hugssssssss
from shortst101 :
All I can say about your entry today (Regrets) is wow.
from shortst101 :
Sometimes it's the simple things that we don't take advantage of....like water! We are convinced that we NEED so many products that we could do without. HA HA, you should see how much bleach my mother in law likes to use on the white clothes and I feel like that's completely NOT necessary every time you wash clothes!
from shortst101 :
Whoo hooo, your diary is working again this morning. Now i can go back and read what I missed yesterday. But now your comments don't seem to be working, because I tried to leave this there and got an error message. And yep, let's go sing about being lost in the fog, or the forest or anywhere else.
from breatheasigh :
i wash our clothes without soap powder at least once a month..because apparently (they say..whoever they are) that a certain amount of soap powder residue stays in the clothing..being it builds up and stuff..i'll still use fabric softener though..how's that for an exciting note :)
from breatheasigh :
i wash our clothes without soap powder at least once a month..because apparently (they say..whoever they are) that a certain amount of soap powder residue stays in the clothing..being it builds up and stuff..i'll still use fabric softener though..how's that for an exciting note :)
from shortst101 :
KICKING your diary! Mean old thing didn't let me get my fix today!
from shortst101 :
I can't even read your entries from today :( They won't open for me. Pouting over here today.
from breatheasigh :
i can't believe that took me a few seconds to get what that was about lol..i am niave of course ;o)
from pfirsich :
Well,ok,I like emotional navel gazing(cause,who else matters to us than we ourselves? Thatīs logical),but the other one,with floodtide,that was like intellectual navel gazing.You are perfect,but that wasnīt it.You matter to me,you know?
from pfirsich :
You are BOLDER than everyone,though.Thatīs your strength,courage.
from shortst101 :
Hey, hope you are feeling better by tomorrow. Hugs
from breatheasigh :
as always i like your writing..especially the one of the expedition to australia ;o)
from shortst101 :
Just came by this morning before I headed off to TN to say hi and wish you a good day. Sending you hugs and good thoughts. Sandy
from normaltoilet :
hey sammy, we used turbotax.com we used the same place last year and it was awesome... but then again bv did all the stuff, i didn't even look at it. but it took her less than an hour and i had no problems at all good luck!
from mugwhump :
Luck
from pfirsich :
Haha"the one you might end up with",yeah,wouldnīt that be nice...
from shortst101 :
laughing at becka's response about the tongues. Actually the thought kinda turns me on.....to actually be able to feel a wet tongue (not dry for sure) on every square inch of my body.....well, hmmmmm, might be quite interesting indeed.
from breatheasigh :
we have that here..well some taverns/pubs/clubs..not sure about restaurants cos i don't often go to those..but they give you a little light that flashes red when your meal is ready..as for the tongues..not sure about that..if it was one..or two..or maybe even three (lol) then i'm sure it would feel yummie (not dry tongues though)..but for a mass of tongues..no..not i..
from shortst101 :
hey there, just wanted to thank you for , well you know for what :)
from shortst101 :
good afternoon to you, good afternoon to you, good afternoon, good afternoon to you...LOL, am I getting on your nerves yet?
from shortst101 :
Good morning to you, good morning to you, good morning, good morning, good morning to you.....okay so i'm overcompensating! ha ha
from breatheasigh :
i guess some just need to feel as though they are being correct or as mentioned below..the diary police..but it really is not warranted..as for the people spending two hours on your site..they could be just plain interested in you but too shy to say anything? or..like me ..they could have opened your page..read some of you..and left it open without realising it..am i the only oz ip that studies you? just curious lol..have a great night :)
from sallydallydo :
Geez Louise! Email slam from the self-promoted diary police? I hope the bureau of grammatical affairs never turns its attention my way.
from shortst101 :
Good morning, Happy Friday.....we all are getting "mature", you should see all the gray hairs I'm getting!
from breatheasigh :
ps..sandy said i could join in on the blindfold fun..apprently i have to bring silk scarves..and i did say i'd also bring chocolate sauce :)
from breatheasigh :
maturing? oh no! we can't have that lol ..."rhetorical" that word always sticks out to me..because it was the first word that ever make me think..*hmm what the hell does that mean..i think i need a dictionary* i did not get a dictionary cos i found dictionary.com..and that was the beginning of my adult education lol ;o)
from sallydallydo :
Most definitely! Hang in there!
from shortst101 :
Yes, I have been finally able to breathe a sigh of relief. And ohh, i'll have to work on getting some r & r, cause I need to be well rested when I come a visiting :) P.S. I'm gonna send you an email.
from pfirsich :
Hey,that story about Jack and Julie,that ended too soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can we have a second part? I want to hear his reaction aswell!!!
from normaltoilet :
bought my first Alice Hoffman book today... The Probable Future... have you read it? Isn't she one of your favorites?
from shortst101 :
You can bring the blindfold, i'll find some other things to bring :)...and how I wish I could move closer to you. I miss our emails back and forth. hugsssssss, and thanks for asking about my son, he's going better.
from pfirsich :
Youīre allowed to make mistakes when youīre young.Considering youth (and mistakes)a good thing of course! Look,Iīm sure you did what was best for you.Oh,I donīt know.But,like I said,youīre young,youīre allowed to make mistakes.And donīt feel like *I* know everything! Please,you are you.You know best,I guess. I donīt know myself why I went so protective over you. I mean,youīre not my child or anything.Iīm thinking I was wrong being so dramatic,wasnīt I? Like,why is it my business anyway? I donīt get that. I donīt know,maybe I was scared for something,but that had to do with myself.
from pfirsich :
Which one makes you sad?---Wow,those last three ones were truly funny aswell,thanks!
from luckeme :
I don't like this entry. It makes me sad. :( xox.
from pfirsich :
Hah,this one was truly fun!! Iīd see myself melt like her.
from luckeme :
I'm listening! :)
from breatheasigh :
hi :) thank you for the email and thank you for making me giggle so early in the morning! i will reply to your email later this evening but for now i am running off to work (how very exciting)..as for leaving me notes etc i don't have my notes on however my guestbook works..at least it did yesterday ...have a great night? becka :)
from pfirsich :
A slap in the face...of good taste,that entry.The worldīs a bad place,we know it already.
from breatheasigh :
i found you via sandy's diary.. "Pickin up sunshine and stuffin it in my pockets; dappling with the doseys and grappling with the dew. I've been out in the natural world, unfettered by any manmade walls."..i like that :) becka
from pfirsich :
Hey,impetuousyou!
from pfirsich :
That entry is somehow sticking to me.The one with the girl on the toilet,I mean.I donīt know.Itīs so..graceful?
from pfirsich :
Pfirsich was here!!!! That entry before this was pretty interesting,you know,twisted and all.Pretty intriguing.Like:something to think about.
from normaltoilet :
wow Sammy, you just made my day! It's just the stuff that's been kicking around in my head. :) NT
from pfirsich :
You donīt have the right to approach me and you know it.That you are here and we are talking MUST mean I invited you.The role you play.In society.The role doesnīt allow you to get next to me.The only way that can happen is if I tell you to.That right?
from pfirsich :
Haha,this was funny.You have so much humour.Yeah,but itīs all different,I mean,the first part,until you describe her with the tomboy thing,until then itīs closer to the reality.---If you are too dumb for me,that means you canīt come at me unless I call you.Unless I have called you.From what you are you shouldnīt have the option on making a move on your own.After all I must have called on you.Otherwise there is no chance for you to get near me.Like:why should I desire you if youīre dumber than you-apparently you do not think I like you.You assume I donīt like your true personality. Right? If this is true,if you really think,then you have no chance with being obtrusive.You donīt approach someone when you know they donīt like you,right? You think I donīt fancy you.Thatīs why you donīt come closer to me.You are not sure if I fancy you.We are still talking though,what does that mean? It must mean I am calling on you.Calling for you.SOMETHING must be drawing you here.Cause,you donīt take a chance on someone when you hear a definite no coming from them,right? So,that you are here proves that I have called you.If everything on me,all the voices would repulse you,then you would feel it and wouldnīt come here.Like,you are sensitive enough to it as it is.That we are talking must mean I like you cause otherwise you would feel the rejection.
from might-could :
KDHX plays Richard Thompson (depending on the show). They're great and if you have a good DSL, you can listen to them on-line. Google KDHX fm 88.1 and you'll see the site. I'm a financial supporter for several years. The dj's are unpaid and bring in their own music : )
from her-story :
HEY SAMMY... enjoy your trip, happy NY and all that jazz... :)
from vina-apsara :
Have a smashing time!
from mugwhump :
Have a most stupendous holiday! I'm looking forward to hearing all about it in 2006. :-)
from might-could :
I remember how much you love Christmas with your sweetie. May your Christmas be all that you hope for and T's return to school be an easier one for you!
from mugwhump :
It strikes me that the "Minute-Men" have very small lives. So much so, that they feel compelled - in the name of justice - to create a mob or gang mentality. It would be interesting to know what the local police department has to say about it.
from chickpea981 :
You should get a medium sized dog like a Keeshond or a Japanese Spitz. The Keeshonds are known for being good apartment dogs so you know you wouldn't need a lot of room for it and they are under 50 pounds. Same with the Japanese Spitz. Then you still get the feel of a big dog in a way. Check them out before you give up hope. Shiba Inu's can be fun too but smaller.
from vina-apsara :
Happy Snow Day. I'm jealous.
from pfirsich :
Being roommates would be WILD though.Iīd be ecstatic.You know,I donīt even ask for a relationship with you! Iīm really like dreaming of something like roommates...yearn.
from vina-apsara :
Enjoy your vacation! Happy Thanksgiving!
from pfirsich :
Hey,liked the entry,I liked the part with the alcohol.---Hm,Iīm not sad about our ways,you know,that you donīt send me letters and stuff.I can do without that,hm,no,more:I donīt want that.Like,in my life I have never dreamt of getting letters from somebody.You know? Iīm not like that,thse are not my wishes.I never had any intention to make you write me or call me or anything.Like,you are not breaking any deal with it.
from mugwhump :
I was already to give you a spelling lesson, when I decided to 'google' it first. You see, I was always given to understand that it is a P-coat, however google says that pea coat is also correct (only without the hyphen) Ya learn something new every day! Cool!
from candoor :
heaven is beautiful (your entry) and I could definitely use some of your will power... I've been reading (without looking for them) diaries of marathoners and healthy people all day while continuing to consume Halloween chocolate at a crazy pace... something's got to give, keep it up :)
from mugwhump :
I love all Classico sauces! Who's Gary Glitter? Sometimes when you see people yelling their fool heads off on the street - they're suffering from Turettes. (sp?)
from pfirsich :
Wow,I wonder where youīre going here! Hey,Iīm thinking you maybe could have written:The water was going down the FALSE way.Instead of wrong way.False instead of wrong.--I think it changes it a bit,do you think so,too?
from pfirsich :
This entry is weird again.But erase that if you take it as disencouragement!--I just really canīt tell what you might THINK! I think this is all so messy.Kinky. What would I be here,with you for if you would annoy me? Isnīt that something that you want to avoid? Like,in your head,people out there look for partners who annoy them,on purpose?---Maybe you annoy strangers,but,please:I walk through the city,five people annoy me and I want to knock them over. So,maybe others feel that same way when I pass,but,I never think about those things! Oh my God! You got ways to get yourself down.--Iīm not getting this whole entry,Iīm not getting YOU:why would I talk to you,why would you be talking to me if I didnīt want that to? I am making you.I have called on you! You have so weird views on relationships.But some of them are just wrong,I bet that now already. I have called you,I told you to make a relationship with me,come closer and stuff.So,you ARE in the right place,you have the right.*I* started it.*I* started the relationship,friendship or whatever.Itīs ME who wants it.You havenīt said much about it,all you have to do is stick around.Like,what is your question? All you have to do is to shut up and to be with me! I am in charge! I WANT you to be with me.Sorry,why isnīt that visible or feel-able,or something.How come you have so weird relationship views? You donīt have to thrust anything,unless I would want that.Unless I would ask it from you.Then it would be your turn to react.Then you could either say:ok,I want that,too,or no,thatīs not the kind of relationship I want.---I donīt see what is not clear for you.What is it?---Is it so improbable that *I* am in love with you,is it because of me,or in general,or is it weird that I am so bossy or whatever? Is it that what is new and strange? You want to be submissive,then do that! *wonders*
from pfirsich :
Oh,I know that you yourself donīt think youīre beautiful.You donīt want that in a man! Itīs good if men are back off-ish cause they think theyīre ugly.
from pfirsich :
That must be:Was ist los mit dir? Those question words always start with W.Like in english.---Dir is another form of du,uh,the dative? See how easy english is,you say you all the time,and you say the to everything! Oh what hardship is German,isnīt it?
from pfirsich :
Achtung,that means:beware,look out.It doesnīt mean attention as in attention whore.And it means regard.OK,in traffic it does mean "attention!".Like when a train conductor wants to start the train,then he yells:"attention!".But attention as in:I want a lot of attention,that means Aufmerksamkeit.Achtung is just somehow deeper,like,it is supposed to alert you A LOT,when someone says it to you.In school,paying attention,that is Aufmerksamkeit.And in traffic paying attention is Achtung.Like,it both has to do with being aware.
from pfirsich :
Wow-y!
from pfirsich :
Youīll have a million chances,no,more,to talk to me,sweetheart.Donīt worry,the momentīs not gone,it never will be.I am here listening.I odnīt have anywhere to go.Donīt take it hard.
from vina-apsara :
Thank you for adding me to your list of favourites. Most flattered and I'll be reading you too from now on.
from pfirsich :
Donīt tell me Iīve found myself a NON-looker!! Those are completly unknowable to me!! How am I gonna entice someone like THAT!!?
from pfirsich :
I guess Iīm due!
from might-could :
Sorry for the confusion. I think PC's can access iTunes podcasts online and download the free ones to your desktop as mp3 files. I could be wrong.
from might-could :
Sam! Was the “when it rains, it pours” entry a gen-u-ine “detailed” rejection letter? I’ve downloaded some podcasts which might annoy/ interest: it’s called, “You should be writing.” Go to iTunes (do a search if you don’t have a mac) and then do a search under their “podcast” area. There’s probably a bunch of other writing things to be found. I forgot to mention it before.
from mugwhump :
Don't be so quick to diss being old. Look at the notoriety that Whistler's Mother got. Or Gramma Moses . . . . there is still lots of glory and life in old bones. Although ... I kinda wanna go the same way you described. It sounds so much easier.
from mugwhump :
I liked the tone of this entry. Enough said.
from mugwhump :
To be expelled from a Catholic school - sounds like a blessing in disguise. God isn't that mean, why should Nuns, and Priests be?
from lunablossom :
If you write anything close to romance or erotica, let me know and I'll see if I can get you some contact info for my publisher.
from pfirsich :
Hey,I donīt think starvation will harm you.There are al ot of people who live entirely without food,very spiritual people you know,who consider this a cleansing,and,they only live off "light",whatever that means.
from pfirsich :
Haha,youīre so funny. Because-you sound so sophisticated,you know,but then yo blow it all by cursing so dirty! Thatīs so cute. Oh,I need to complain,I was looking for an anime template for DL,and didnīt find anything.No,I found something I didnīt like too much,but even that totally sorted itself out cause,I couldnīt install that at all!!? Boo. So I guess I have to get a blogger-blog...
from pfirsich :
Wow,thatīs pretty cool with the tunnel.I didnīt know that.Youīre very smart! That sucks. Haha,no,but-I thought you were smart,but,not like this,not like,with actual knowledge,I thought more in an emotional or instinct way. But thatīs not even the case!! So how could you think itīs not so? Oh,your vulnerability IS changing the universe! True,thatīs it,vulnerability! I was only yesterday still looking for a name for that,for the reason that you and I,you know,go together. So thatīs it,vulnerability!
from mugwhump :
Nature has an interesting way of reminding us of our humaness and mortality.
from her-story :
So my vulnerability brings the world to an end? Wow... that's scary.
from pfirsich :
You know,they,some women I know,they actually think they can "screw" an man like that,by sleeping with him and not planning on commiting. They think that they win like this,and he is the loser. So,how come nobody knows this,how come,this is like a secret!!!
from pfirsich :
Yeah,man,my question is:how come nobody knows that!! How you come you know that,and,you know,even in TV shows like Sexa nd the City they say itīs possible for a girl to have "sex like a man". Itīs so funny,cause it is impossible,physically not possible. In their minds itīs possible,and the real laugh is that thegirls who do that think THEY use the men they are with. I know someone close to me who is so convinced that she is winning when she is sleeping with someone she doesnīt wanna stay with. She doesnīt see that itīs him whoīs winning. How come that almost noone knows that?? That sex doesnīīt bind the guy,but the girl? God,you really got to laugh at those silly bitches.
from pfirsich :
You canīt lie "for me",thatīs just wrong. There is no spark.You would lie ANYWAY. The fun thing is:you would still lie,inspite of things going your way,inspite of me accepting you.
from mugwhump :
I've gone over your weeks entries, and for the life of me I can't figure it out. Why are you fasting???
from might-could :
...and for DL straight, the word is: ornot
from might-could :
Sam, I'll need your livejournal screen name. It's free and you never have to use it other than to sign in but you'll have to do it, sorry : ( I'll add you when I lock it...I'm leaving for a dr appt now so she's still wide open : )
from normaltoilet :
just be careful :) make sure you don't waste completely away. NT
from normaltoilet :
hey sammy, how much weight have you lost with the fasting so far?
from stealmypurse :
Oh love, I sense a little sarcasm in your voice. I know it has been dreadfully long. My email has changed, and I did actually finish reading your novel. Let me collect some notes and questions and I will email them to you. My new email, if you care to use it is graduallyliving@gmail.com. I don't really care who sees the addy, gmail has excellent spam blockage. I don't think that you will believe me when I scream out that I missed you, but it's true. I'm back in action now. Don't worry. Not that you were worried of course. Have a great day on me. Toodles.
from mugwhump :
Tailgate party! . . . . sounds like fun. I've never been to one, but then again, I don't do much in the way of watching sports - in live action. Ya know? I think I'm kinda jealous!
from finjamartens :
You know,itīs not like I donīt KNOW what to in certain situations,like stop eating when youīre overweight-itīs not the idea thatīs missing. I often have the right idea and know what to do-that doesnīt mean I can pull it through! Cause,I am not as strict with myself or something! I have no willpower or something. It is extremly hard to pull through things for me. Itīs simple to have the idea. Iīm good with starting thing,with beginning it. BUt then continue it,and see that finish line...that is like,so hard,it was impossible before I met you,I swear!
from finjamartens :
Yeah,you keen.I mean,youīre really good with getting things done. Are you mad at that ability or what? Youīre really good at finishing things. I donīt see how this gets you in trouble! If you can manage staying away from bad substances-oh my God,that is what everyone wishes for! Or me at least. Isnīt it good to be keen? And can you NOT show off with it like this? No wonder some hate you. Cool it down a notch,oh my God,you make everyone jealous like. If you are better than others with something you try not to rub that in their faces all the time.
from finjamartens :
Hey,quite good,what about,as last sentence:They needed to stock up fast before thereīs nothing left.
from finjamartens :
I like you,I appreciate your full body,but I do that for myself only. So there is no need to thank me or to go crazy,you know,itīs for free,you donīt have to give anything in return. Looking at you and thinking stuff up on you,that is the pleasure. It is like when you enjoy playing basketball,and this is me playing basketball and you being the ball. You are my toy of imagination. You are the canvas I project my dreams and visions upon,I mean,I need a canvas. Itīs like you are the weed Iīm getting high on. Itīs really like that! You are such a macho-like canvas. Itīs so much fun painting upon it! Donīt worry,you are really a lot of fun to me,just the way you react to me,you know. Itīs fun with you. I like the way you react,I like the way you feel me,you know. Itīs very rewarding for me,it pays off,because you are so very happy with small thing I say. Itīs cool to give you things,cause you give such great feedback,you know. Itīs easy to make you happy. And that makes me calm and relieved,cause I know Iīve done enough,at the end of the day,and donīt have to worry I might lose you,you know. I like it that you are macho and bossy and stuff,cause then I know you are happy. And then I donīt have to worry. I like it when you tell me what to do,give me directions because then I can be sure youīre happy and then I can sleep well. So that is very useful and pays off for me mucho. So donīt be afraid of telling me what to do. I really like your way of talking. Youīre very warm,you know.
from shortst101 :
Moon dance...beautiful
from finjamartens :
First cut is the deepest,huh!
from finjamartens :
M-hm!
from might-could :
Busted knuckles, eh? I thought about taking a picture of my right hand and putting up on LJ. I almost broke it. I'm not exaggerating. It looks better a week later. I don't even remember doing it exactly. I was having sleep-deprived knocking-into-things-week at the time. Come to think of it, I need to walk around and show it off to the coworkers again. Heh.
from might-could :
Best to you! Enjoy your holiday : )
from shortst101 :
I know I didn't say much but more posts will be coming to tell what's been going on or NOT going on...i just wanted to let everyone know I was back and come see my favorite people, you being at the top of the list. If OK, i'll email you and tell you what's been going on. Hugssssssssssssss
from shortst101 :
I saw your last entry, at least I think I did......
from shortst101 :
hi, hello, hiya.....man how i have missed reading your writings and talking with you....hugsssssss, hang in there....
from juniperhexum :
I'm not big on mourning public people or celebrities either, but I think what you just wrote was a damn fine tribute to Mr. Jennings. Hell, even I grew up with him and my friends and I can all remember watching the news with our parents. Its sad but like you said - we'll get used to it.
from luckeme :
I love Maggie, the entry. Awww. Brought tears to my eyes. :)) You're the best!
from her-story :
The map thing is at the bottom of my page, beneath HUGS and before Natalee. PIN ME, ok?
from might-could :
re: "silence nincompoops," I don't like to watch anyone put down someone else verbally but I'm blood-thirsty. Give me some boxers who aren't leaning on one another but knocking the crap out of each other and I'm a happy girl.
from might-could :
Iko Iko always sounded afro-centric-ish to me, too.
from her-story :
Uhhuh, SURE.....I come back and what do I read? You bitching about sissy men in minivans. What else are you going to complain about? Men wearing pink? Men in boat shoes? How men are emasculated by women when women buy them clothes that actually match? I say focus on the most damaging part of the male genre... MEN IN THONGS. Its disturbing. Very VERY disturbing. If you can stop men from wearing speedos and thongs, then you can bitch about a man in a minivan. *grins*
from her-story :
I'M BACK...didya miss me? Huh? Huh?
from cdolphinlife :
Hey Sam. Just wanted to say cool diary. The stuff about teachers and contracts was very interesting. I'm in the program and I had no idea. Heh, go figure huh? They tell you nothing here at Towson. Anyway, great job with the writing, you've got tons of talent and please sign my guestbook when you can. P.S. Italian food rules! Chris
from cdolphinlife :
Hey Sam. Just wanted to say cool diary. The stuff about teachers and contracts was very interesting. I'm in the program and I had no idea. Heh, go figure huh? They tell you nothing here at Towson. Anyway, great job with the writing, you've got tons of talent and please sign my guestbook when you can. P.S. Italian food rules! Chris
from might-could :
Moo. It's about money, as you know. Get 'em scared and the checks come in. All groups do it whether political, religious...maybe I should start a group and try to scare people into giving me money? No. That would be extortion. Heh heh
from might-could :
I'm sorry you're hurting.
from her-story :
I fixed my page again... I'm looking for a general layout and none seem to work. So, I'm on a color bender for now...
from her-story :
Are you outta the loop? Geez... sorry. I leave the end of this week. Then I'm off to hunt sharks...
from her-story :
LOL how funny is that. I like the MIC thing... You forgot... Bipolar Channel... where you can watch action and romance movies at the same time. (Does that count? Or would that be a part of the MIC?)
from usmcsis :
you are so sweet. t is a lucky woman. thanks for the birthday wishes. (((hugs))) ~ cindy
from sallydallydo :
So, just wondering how you REALLY feel about your printer? (Initiating duck-and-cover sequence now, running from flying printer parts)
from might-could :
Nuclear stuff: We have Calloway (sp?) in Illinois "near us" but I've always been way more freaked about the US Mapping thing in town and we used to have Boeing. We also have the Monsantos (campuses). Those are all primary targets. Some nifty teacher pointed them out to us in about the 5th grade and I've dreaded it ever since. The Cold War officially ended when I was a junior in h.s. so we really figured the Russians were going to bomb us one day when I grew up. Ha! Those drills to cover your head and crouch in the hallway? Bah!
from sallydallydo :
Wow, that's just how we felt last night sitting under the stars in our yard watching the fireflies twinkle. So many little miracles out there if we just slow down, shut up, and LOOK.
from might-could :
There was something that bothered me and I got support. I appreciate the supportive messages and at the same time, they kinda hurt a little, too. I don't understand the psychology of that. What you're saying about feeling like a misfit seems true for me if people are callous *and* if they say nice things. I want to keep getting nice things. I want to learn to accept compassion. I'm really happy that you feel better today.
from might-could :
I wrote such an alarmingly long note for you I'm posting it as an entry on my DL diary. I'm too ashamed to post it here. It's about the site you asked me to check out about you.
from her-story :
I can be nonsarcastic at times ya know... not all that often, but sometimes... er... occasionally... er... every so often.
from noaddedme :
He was found innocent of this particular act, but even jury members have been quoted now as saying they think he's most likely molested boys ... just not this boy. Michael Jackson has put himself out there to both be made fun of *and* judged. By judgement I mean, letting the public see how his mind works and therefore make opinions on him. I saw the special where he said it was a natural thing to sleep in a bed with kids. Hell no, it's not. 40 somethings and 13 year olds do NOT belong in bed together. Period. I cannot fathom how he could publicly say something like this and we as a public are not only suppose to resist making a judgement, but resist making a negative one. Personally I think he's a sick freak in many ways, not just in relationship to his association with little boys.
from coeurdoux :
Normal Toilet is one of my very best friends of all time and I love her dearly. As I read the things you wrote about her I kept thinking, 'yup, that's her'. She is very simply the best. Thank you so much for helping her understand just how very special she is. She needs a friend as darling as you are and as capable as expressing the ideas that you did.
from might-could :
Congrats on the swim-pass! Did you know, my best friend, who is a chick and weighs over 200 lbs, lost 11 lbs and scrolled back her insulin to almost nothing. Like she just sort of kept it for if she went crazy with eating. It's amazing what some daily exercise can do...I should do it! Harrumph
from sallydallydo :
Hey, thanks for adding me! Read a few of yours, VERY enjoyable. You're so emotionally descriptive! Regarding Michael Jackson, he is guilty of being a very odd duck and naive enough to welcome a predatory element into his life. Even if he IS guilty, jail would accomplish nothing. He would be best left to be his eccentric self in his personal prison, with parents having the common sense not to send their children there for sleepovers.
from daze-of-rain :
on to the next entry...Jackson is guilty...of being fucking odd. And this makes him a target. The fact is, I don't KNOW if he is guilty of anything more...But I do know a lot of people stand behind him. FAMOUS people (ummm don't their opinions matter more, I mean they ARE rich and some are even beautiful)...but more than that...McKualy(sp?) Culken...who was a CHILD when friends with Jackson has not one bad word to say about him. He has no doubts of his innocence...and I think he'd know better than the adults Jackson associates with. But, here's my deal...whether he's a perv or just an odd duck...this case is bull shit. The "victim" comes from a dishonest and disbelievable family. They are con artists...pure and simple. SO, if ol' Mike diddled ANYONE...I still don't believe he did this kid.
from daze-of-rain :
you mean the same way that we "voted" on a president? I agree with you as far as the 'people wanting to tell others how to live their lives' and that's really NOT their place...I am liberal, liberal, liberal...no matter how many people find this to be a dirty word, I stand by it, with pride. AND here's something some people can't believe...I'm REASONABLE and OPEN to knew ideas and concepts and other's views on the world...But, I can't say that I have ANY confidence in the random morons of America to decide something like this. NOT that I trust the elected morons of America to do it either...it's really...just not an easy thing. It's one thing to say federal money won't go to it. It is quite another to say that it just has to STOP happening. I'm ranting and forgot my point...so I'll end here. lol
from noaddedme :
I don't think Jackson is completely innocent either. You're right, we don't have the proof to see that he's guilty, but there is the proof that he's put himself in risk by letting children get too close physically. Sharing a bed? No, not good. Not right. Nor is it right the parents let them go. If he's found guilty, so should they for letting their kids go. This isn't Jackson's first swing at this molestation stuff. As for the camera, I think if you can be identified soley by a crotch shot, you have enough problems in your life.
from daze-of-rain :
feeling pretty introspective today, huh? Whatever has brought the past up...I hope it is beneficial in some way, and if not, it passes quickly.
from might-could :
Sam, you really *are* the best! I love the bathroom piece, in short, because I'm a GIRL. Can I like, credit that to you and email it to a few friends? If you don't want to, I won't do it. thx for the laugh!
from her-story :
Yes... I have FINALLY lost my mind... and as a tribute, I will tap and sing to the tune... Sunshine.
from mugwhump :
Emmaline - truth or fiction? Very well written either way, but terribly sad.
from thespark :
Hey, you should come join us!
from might-could :
Errrr, didn't you already move? Anyhoo, have a great few days off. I like to be offline now and then : )
from kaire :
Sorry, but "normal" and the ability to be successful don't go hand in hand. Think of anyone who has invented/created/discovered and I will guarantee you there was someone behind them saying "that fucker's NUTS!" Dream big and act on it. Don't get hung up on stuff that doesn't matter, like what normal really is!
from might-could :
Hi Sam, I love limas and most beans/peas (legumes) but I know what you're saying about the "pastiness." The trick is to only make enought that you don't have left-overs. It's the left-overs and/ or reheating that really brings out the wallpaper-paste. I'm so special I'll buy the baby limas frozen or in a tin because they're nice and smooth--not pasty.
from daze-of-rain :
I suppose we all have our crutches..mine come in the form of men. and sex...I'm fighting mine...you most certainly can fight yours. Not easy though, is it?
from augustdreams :
I've been sick as hell. But wanted to let you know I love you. Waaaay overdue email love shall be forthcoming. *hugs*
from her-story :
OH GOOD GAWD! I want details man, DETAILS!! I've never known anyone who has gotten evicted before. (Wait......oh wait a second....I remember.....something about the apartments turning into for-sale condos?? Am I right?) Sorry I haven't been around....this working gig is rough on my freetime. I almost miss the carefree days of lounging on the couch while watching Lifetime. *sighs*
from her-story :
No, I haven't forgotten you. Just been busy. I wanted to let you know that I liked today's entry (at least I think it was from today). *claps*
from might-could :
I said, "Coolio!!" Damned Julie is STILL gone or I'd ask if she has any guitar books or cd's. I bet she does even more now that you describe them. That'd be cool! My family was more into rock and roll in the 60's on but my dad's fam was, of course, gen-u-ine Hillbillies so they knew those songs just learning from one person to another. thx again
from daze-of-rain :
thank you for your note. It means a lot not to feel alone right now. That aside...I don't like the implication that homosexuality is a mental illness such as chronic depression. I am chronicly depressed and I find it horrible to compare my illness to someone's prefrence in sexual partners. I am not saying "How dare you voice your opinion" it's your journal...but it's your public journal...so, I AM saying....I so don't agree with that assessment at all.
from krugerpak007 :
I have been so self centered these last few months, sorry Sam. I do miss you though. Alot. Thanks for the answer about the cockroach! Uggh,Sam. Thank goodness that part of your life is over. I have a little request. I don't know if you will agree. I need you to please e-mail me the book again. I printed it out and started reading it and left the majority at the office, near my desk. I haven't been at work for over 3 months and would like to try and read when I can, so would you please do that for me? And I will understand if you disagree. please take care sweetie. xoxo K
from normaltoilet :
sorry, those Dockers commercials must have been before my time :) NT
from normaltoilet :
Don't be mean to me Mr! ;p NT
from daze-of-rain :
what's up with me? I'm not entirely sure I know what you are asking
from daze-of-rain :
lmfao...funny, your first entry of the day. I was thinking of taking a picture of MY nipple just last night. I pulled out my digital cam and started taking random up close pictures of this and that. My eye, my lips. The tiny dent in my chest I've had from birth. And of course, the nipple crossed my mind. lol I refrained however...so far.
from juniperhexum :
that was thoroughly uplifting
from daze-of-rain :
sometimes a little distraction is EXACTLY what is needed.
from krugerpak007 :
I miss you.
from augustdreams :
You've got mail! (It's from my AOL account - but you'll know it's me.) Missed you much. *hug*
from chickpea981 :
I may be the worst person on diaryland when it comes to writing to other people. I just never think of something to say in return - I really should force it. I'm about 3 miles from where I was with the father person, so yes, still in the area. I think we'd have such an odd but fun meeting. I think I'm intimidated by you. As for your questions, 1 - I LOVE to kiss, but so few of the men I've been with have been good kissers. I've been told I'm quite good. I used to make out with my ex for hours when we first met. Years later I longed for just a few deep ones, but it never happened. Kissing is much more intimate to me than most things are and clearly I have intimacy issues. I don't have nearly the literary ability as some (hint hint) but you're right, I should write about it more. 2 - I think it really depends on the person doing the touching, but 99% of the time I don't mind it one bit. I find it a form of affection and it comes from people that may be overly needy, but are generally warm people. Unless its someone trying to grope me or a guy I'm just not vibing with on a date, I have no problem with it. Conversational touching is fine with me.
from normaltoilet :
yes she is horse-faced... and I know that she in FACT will be the ugliest old lady EVER... but that doesn't mean the writers for the show aren't great... hehe... it just reminds me that i'm not the only one thinking these thoughts. missed ya! NT
from daze-of-rain :
so I have a question...if he KNEW you were going to need surgery why did he put you THROUGH all of THAT first? Dear god. It seems as though they could have dealt with it all while under serious meds. And T is amazing. As you clearly know. I hope your recovery is quick. And although her spring break was far from fun...it's great timing non the less...No need to schedule the time off and etc.
from might-could :
Keeping note short: I’ve had ass problems...I have much sympathy for you. T rules. Feel better!
from kaire :
How inspiring that through all that you realized how loved and lucky you are having T. Sending healing vibes your way ~~~
from chickpea981 :
You're right, I don't write to you enough. I really should. I love reading you. There's always somethign different to see. I feel like I can never catch up with all your writings and I actually like that about you. Thanks for filling out the survey. I think one of these days you and I need to meet up for lunch or to feed the ducks at Lake Anne. Something quaint. We've probabaly seen each other on the road. :)
from daze-of-rain :
totally adorable me, eh? [blush] Thanks
from normaltoilet :
sammy... you're getting an email from the infamous NormalToilet... don't let your spam-blocker delete it for you.
from might-could :
Um, me again. Sam, change is hard on everybody...not having your stuff right where it’s “supposed to be..” New stuff smells different, etc. I know with some of your stuff, it's harder. You’re brave, facing it all.
from might-could :
In response to hanging out w/ my bro: Um, I dunno. I said before that it’s something I can’t shake--family. I love them (I *know* that sounds stoopid & lame) and things would be better if a lot were changed. In response to your “bird” thing today 18 March 05, that was really beautiful. “That is all...”
from daze-of-rain :
I'm not oversensitive. Just sensitive as I always am. As for your rant on women...I think it's not just women. People in general are so much more rude than ever before. I always make a point to smile or nod when passing someone. It's just common curtousy. I'm all for that. I like to be friendly. It makes ME feel good. SO, I am. Men, women, children. Doesn't matter. THat's just how I was raised.
from daze-of-rain :
I hate to say it, but that sounded more like sarcasm than support. I really hope I'm wrong.
from daze-of-rain :
they star it out so that it can't be googled.
from normaltoilet :
"Little" is a term of endearment... not sure why... just is... but usually it comes out as 'littel' when I type ...;p ...but you know what I mean, right little buddy :)
from might-could :
Sunchips *are* the best. I've never had the original but the "harvest cheddar" and "french onion" have been berry, berry good to me.
from normaltoilet :
hi little buddy -- i can't open your page today :( did you post a super large pic or change your template or something?
from lorster :
Found you through a link on Kaire's faves. I'll be linking to you on my faves, too, as soon as I tell you how fantastic it is to have found you. Holy hell, man. You can WRITE. *And* you play the guitar. *And* you swear. I could quite possibly be in love. Heh. :)
from stealmypurse :
Danke. How are you darling?
from her-story :
one more thing....do you have AIM or something? I REALLY need someone to read my philosophy... I'm on AIM: Brisa427 (ty)
from her-story :
OK...now you've done it. I am filling out the application as I write this. But, I have to tell you, for a person never short of words, I'm having a HARD time writing my "philosophy of education"... and an even harder time not including "filling out this application makes me feel like I'm applying for a job at Burger King." I hope you're happy now. :P
from might-could :
With an entry like that, I figured I had better scurry over to say sorry you’re feeling poopy : (
from her-story :
Oh yeah...I agree w/ the abusive man thing... and g/l w/ the new apt. :)
from her-story :
Yeah yeah yeah... I don't know if I want to put myself out there just yet. I'm still reeling from the OTHER rejections... You know, the stinging/biting ones. Uh, when have I sounded angry at the world? *looks up and whistles* And, thanks for the info on the comments boxy thing... :) have a good one
from marlen816 :
Thanks for the note. I am going to check into that here....in Texas =)
from augustdreams :
You've got MAIL. :)
from juniperhexum :
maybe I chose to deffend the girl who's work was being taken because I know her personally. I don't give a damn about the other person in this case and I wouldn't if I were the one being plagerized either. Would you?
from daze-of-rain :
actually, the rules of copyright are most certainly changing with the times. As soon as you post anything "publicly" it is, in essence copyrighted, at least according to the book I read on copyright. And beyond that...fine...you need to use someone else words? I sometimes do as well, in the form of lyrics, poems, quotes. When this happens...I CREDIT them. There you go. You don't have the words IN you. You need to BORROW from someone else. Say as much.
from daze-of-rain :
what lie is that?
from normaltoilet :
wow what, mon ami?
from daze-of-rain :
I think it's normal and natural to develop crushes. This is such an intimate look at someone. And if it's not...then I'm not normal or natural. Because I've had my share of surface crushes. And one pretty intense one.
from her-story :
It's because if I don't answer the phone, it'll just keeeeeep on ringing. However, once I do answer it, it doesn't stop ringing either. Either way I'm screwed. So, that's why when the boys are home, I let them answer it when I'm sick... this way they can officially lie for me... and I can sleep (sort've).
from her-story :
...because that's what happens when you're an only child... and the bearer of her grandchildren.
from meli-melo :
Thanks for your comment. I read your entry about how little free time children get at that private school and it made me really sad. Today, in the doctors office, I read a very similar story about over scheduling children and how it doesn't make them any smarter, it just makes them more stressed. Also, since you said you were lonely in your bio I thought you could try PostcardX - which is a website where people send strangers postcards. I am currently addicted.
from invisibledon :
It is truly their loss not having the time with their children - I love every minute I get to spend with my kids and no amount of money in the world can buy that time
from might-could :
Thanks for the note directing me to the free stats counter. I’m not *really* sure if it worked. I don’t get that much traffic anyway. Cheers
from her-story :
Ok, I get the message. HI... HOW ARE YOU? *GRINS* What's new?
from chickpea981 :
thats a very good question. The answer is: because I haven't the slightest clue how to get into photo journalism. I am, however, creating a portfolio very slowly.
from her-story :
I did the "do my own hair" thing... but my hair is REALLY dark so no matter what color I use it doesn't show. However, I usually stay away from bleach or peroxide because it turns my hair...ORANGE. I think that next time that I decide to fuck my hair up, I'll make sure I do it for free so the only person to blame is myself... So, how's it going? Long time no hear...
from smashley719 :
Thanks for the congratulations! :) Just in case I've never mentioned it...you are an amazing writer! Keep up the good work and you will DEFINITELY be seeing some publishing action!
from normaltoilet :
yeah, i guess i didn't realize those "optional" spaces were a gold feature. sorry! :(
from wherwhenwhy :
all I do is type in the box and then that is me done, warts and all. I think that may be the lazy way though. You seem to put a lot of thought and effort into trying to post an entry, and then two more, now that's dedication for you. lots of love
from normaltoilet :
Hiya Sammy! I have to say, you go through a whole lot more than i do to post and entry... i type it up in word and copy it into the add an entry page. i rarely use underlines or italics so i can't help you with those. There are those 3 "optional" fields on the add entry page that you could use as your "3rd ENTRY for 03/03/05" type heading you'd just have to change your code so that field is right before your date and format your date accordingly. (there is a apecial place to do format date but i can't remember off the top of my head) anyway, don't know if that helps any, but that's what i got for ya :) NT
from stealmypurse :
Oh thank you for saying what I have thought in my mind a thousand times. My friends get annoyed when I mention how wonderful Josh Groban is even though they like him too. He would be a much better Phantom than Gerard Butler. I knew there was a reason I loved ya. Wink wink. Besides the flirtation and flattery of course. Have a great day on me. Toodles.
from jbthechosn1 :
"need more friends with wings, all the angels i know put concrete in my veins"
from augustdreams :
Dammit! On my buddy list it said you hadn't updated for 3 months. That's when I noticed that d*land saw fit to remove the final e from your name so that you'd become "impetuousm" (Grrrr.) I have returned your stolen e! Long may it reign. :) Same time next year? *wicked grin*
from completeliar :
chimy chonga chimy chonga. i'ma gonna sing a singy songa.
from normaltoilet :
well, i didn't know how far back you've read... apparantly you've been busy. Anyway, I've already divulged my last secret...if you've done your reading you should know that :)http://normaltoilet.diaryland.com/040220_39.html
from normaltoilet :
hhhm, yeah, about that LDS thing... I'm not. Grew up in a VERY LDS family (not in Utah) and knew it wasn't for me...and then ended up here of all places ;P Crazy Wih!
from stealmypurse :
You'll be getting THOSE pictures soon enough. Patience dear Sam. Of course, I don't think the bar will be in Kenosha, more like Minneapolis but still, you'll have some. Ahah, such a dirty mind for Mr. Talented Writer. I love it. Have a great Sunday on me. Toodles.
from chickie-legs :
hey thanks for writing that in my guestbook! that was super sweet, totally kicked it.
from normaltoilet :
Dammit Sammy! why you gotta go write somethin good like that when i'm trying to swear off men and dating and all that (not that i was any closer before i decided to swear it off, but still) :) NT
from normaltoilet :
Dearest Sammy--- isn't that what they made the favorites list in d-land for??? so idiots like ME have a foolproof way of catching updates? hahaha! You totally made my day! NT
from her-story :
That's why places like Walmart have FREE blood pressure machines... for people who like to have their arms squeezed until they near-explode. By the way, I started reading it again... I'm tooling along slowly, but I promise, sometime BEFORE you turn 50, I'll be finished. *grins* This way you can die knowing I'll have finished reading what I was reading... *wink*
from stealmypurse :
Why thank you darling. Now if only to see your mug someday. Hint le hint.(Watch it's an in an email I haven't opened.)That would be typical, oh so typical of me. Keep in touch and have a great Tuesday on me. Toodles.
from shortst101 :
I hope that you and T had the best night last night. What you had planned and prepared sounded wonderful. Your weekend was awesome too, thanks for sharing that as well. Hugssssssssss and kisses to you.
from mugwhump :
Happy Birthday to both of you. You are sounding so much more positive these days. I truly hope you are doing well. Blessings - LJ
from krugerpak007 :
I wanted to leave you a quick note. Thanks for all your lovely uplifting comments. I hope you are feeling well. My hotmail isn't working here so I haven't been able to email. I hope you have a great weekend with T. Take care of yourself please. You are very precious to me.xoxoxox M
from invisibledon :
ok Sam I'm trying to hate Valentines Day right now and you are making it hard with French Canadian Love Stories even if about flock fowl - damn I hate being a romantic
from shortst101 :
Sighs, you might have to move? Damn! Hugssssss, just hang in there, everything WILL be okay.
from augustdreams :
That was an extraordinarily beautiful entry, I loved it. I'm saving a copy of it in my file of beautiful poems and other inspirations. Thank you for sharing that with all of us.
from chickpea981 :
you're absolutely right on all of that. I didn't mean to come off as being right. The lines between he and I have always been blurred. It's never been 100% D/s with us. It always switches mid-way through the evening. Whoever starts D turns s and vice versa. It's why I never claimed it was D/s or Master/slave. It was just thoroughly disappointing that he'd lure me over there, knowing full well what I wanted and then be such a dick. Also, there are things I left out of that entry that may need to be put back in... I think though, that I will just end that chapter. I have an entry coming later. Thanks for the guestbook signage.
from daze-of-rain :
I must feel it's needed or I'd not have done it eh?
from her-story :
YES....M&M's with PEANUTS (are there any other kind??) And *gasps* You are so right...what the heck was *I* thinking? IT wasn't Ossie as grampa Huxtable.. *ouch* I think that was my ego bruising. (Do I get points for almost getting them right? They DO kinda look similar... right?) OK..send me the first part of your book, but I have to confess... I have this condition called "RedPenItis" and I try really REALLY hard to NOT red-pen things I read (tho, sometimes I just can't help myself). It's not meant to be mean, it's just a part of my genetic makeup... KNOWING that, if you still want to send me the first section, then SEND AWAY (my email link is on my diary index page). And, thanks again for the accolades... I'm not sure I deserve them, but OK... I'll take a compliment when one's sent my way. :) Have a good one.
from love-laugh :
=0)
from her-story :
Sarcasm is ALWAYS warranted, however, I know this guidance counselor... and I like her a lot. Besides, she's been super nice to my son. HOWEVER, I have to watch myself b/c I can get reaaaaaaaaally sarcastic (it's in my nature) with people who can't handle it. I've learned that some people can take it and others can't. The can'ts can kiss my ass and go boo-hoo in the corner, whereas the can's... well, they're usually sarcastic themselves anyways. Yes Ozzie Davis WAS the grandpa on Cosby (played Heathcliff's dad) with his wife, Ruby Dee (in real and on the show, married). Uh, how LONG are these aforementioned novels? If they're under 500 pages, I'll read em. (I don't commit to larger than that... hehe) I can *try* to help ya with a synopsis, but I'd really have to read it (ya know)... however, only if you'd want me to. (I'm trying not to be pushy...) And, WOW...madly deeply enamored? (*coughs*suckup*coughs) I'm flattered, really. Uh, I have no formula for my insanity...other than children. They'll make ya nuts every single time. Have a good weekend...! (By the way, KUDOS and M&Ms to the guy who can take care of his wife, cook, clean, and still have time for Diaryland! *WOOHOO!*)
from her-story :
Fiction....my life...isn't it all the same anyways? *grins* I side-step, it's in my nature, by the way...and sometimes I don't answer questions head-on... *shrugs* Younger IS a compliment IF you want it to be *grins*. I just thought that if you wanted an unobstructed fleecing of the parts of your story that you felt were... I dunno... not working (?), then I'd offer my services. I have edited before... (it was a doctoral dissertation for a Global Leadership doctoral candidtate... which is way boring... but it paid my tuition for 3 semesters). Just being nice... that's all... :)
from krugerpak007 :
I have all my faith in you Sam. Hang in there, it will happen, I know it. xoxox
from her-story :
I thought about joining the masses in producing a book about my life. But, I figured it would be too boring... *shrugs* HEY, I wasn't insulting your book (honest)... I was *offering* my tweaking services to you, if you wanted them, for ... I dunno. Practice, maybe? *shrugs* I'm used to doing book reviews b/c that's ALL I ever do in grad school. I'm working on my 6th now... And, no, you won't have to attend my grad classes. Why would I wish such a punishment on ANYONE... novelist, historian, or other...? That's just darn cruel, I say... Glasses always make people look smarter (fyi)... and depending on the frames, maybe younger. (Man, do you ask a lot of questions...lol)
from krugerpak007 :
Gosh, scary!
from krugerpak007 :
Hi Sam, I hope T is feeling better. I suddenly have an awful craving for fudge. Yum! I hope you are ok. Your "cutting" entry made me cry. I hope you are ok, and that T feels good soon. She is lucky to have you. xoxox Kathy
from her-story :
I was actually paying attention to the Georgia rat that said, "Da Spring Boss, Da Spring." (Leave it to the Southerners to get it WRONG.) However, watching Phil getting groped by old men in top hats... well, it wasn't a first for me, but it definitely cheered me up. (I was just glad no old men in top hats were dragging me out by my ass...) I always say, "He can't tell which is his shadow b/c of all the damned cameras going off." Either way... Spring is coming in March, let's just deal with it and move on. OK, I read the synopsis, and I'd LOVE to tweek the story for ya. Just...by...a...hair. Interested in a partner? :)
from her-story :
You aren't supposed to GIVE MY TRUE IDENTITY... ya goof! Us secret agents types like anonomity... like... you know... secret agent stuff. I have no other online stuff that I have written. *shrugs* Hey, what is your book about anyways? (Care to give a synopsis?)
from shortst101 :
Yes it matters, to you, to me....to those that care about you.
from daze-of-rain :
You write because it's what you do...it's not about who reads it or who praises you. It's much like why we do anything that comes naturally. You don't love someone simply so they will love you back. You love because you don't know how NOT to.
from her-story :
Hahaha...Now that sounds like a plan. Tho, I accidentally slip sometimes and tell people I'm a secret agent. And, since no one listens to me (irl), I throw out 'testers' like that every so often. I mean, hell, no one believed me about the Wonder Woman thing, either. (Bummer^5) Tho, I have to say, when I get the whole "are you still a teacher?" comment, I say..."well, someone has to teach you how to ask questions like that without insulting ppl." GEEZ... Do I drive thru the drive-thru at Burger King and ask the cashier if they still flip burgers? I guess in a way, my secret burning desire is to be so incredibly rich that I can buy the school and fire everyone. This way the scales become equal. However, since THAT'S not going to happen anytime soon, I am moving on... Where to, I dunno... perhaps Prison Rodeo... or Toilet Plunger Tester. *shrugs* (So, this might seem ridiculous to ask, but I'm Queen of the Ridiculous....do you have any writings (other than the d'l thing) online that I can read?)
from her-story :
LOL...you totally crack me up. If they gave out agents for idiotic life-stunts, then I want Jerry McGuire! (I'm about as lost when it comes to agent-dom as it gets... tho, I'm sure between the two of us, someone'll figure the whole "steps to getting noticed" thing.) AND... loved today's entry. You sound like me... I don't play lottery for a reason. Why should my dollar go to financially libertating a backwoods creature who's never seen a $20 much less keeps their money in an actual BANK. That's my green-eye of jealous rearing it's ugly head... I wish *I* were a backwoods toothless mountain person that just won $300 million bucks... geez... if you think my family's dysfunctional NOW... imagine what it'll be with BIG MONEY. (Fodder for the rich, remember, I'm fodder for the rich.)
from her-story :
One day you're going to have to explain this whole "how to get an agent" thing. I've had people tell me that I should get one (something about doing the "writing" thing... but not novels, more like sarcastic blurbs). I think I want to be a free-agent, like pro ball players. Do you see how much they can make? If only I could run, throw, and hit as well... *sighs*
from shortst101 :
Hi, just wanted to say thank you.....because even though my day was shitty, it was much better after reading your entries from today and the two i missed from yesterday. Crossing my fingers that this agent is THE ONE....hugsssssssssss
from her-story :
Thank you for stopping by. I understand the plight of the people... sometimes all too much. Good luck with your situation and I hope something happens for you soon.
from wherwhenwhy :
Well I get into trouble when I say it infront of my Dad. lots of love
from normaltoilet :
ok, so I'm a fairly new reader and have enjoyed your entries (that I have consumed thus far) There is a definite difference between popular writing and contemporary literature. Who's work would you say falls into the latter category?
from wherwhenwhy :
the prev/links have been aptly converted to the link at the bottom of the entry, just above the last five entries link and has a nsty word in it. No two, sorry forgot about that one. Just click on either end, but not the middle and wonderful things will start happening. Well, you'll be able to read my rant about the SAC. And thanks for the compliments. lots of love
from mugwhump :
My husbands 1st guitar, which he was presented with when he was 38, still sit in the corner of our bedroom collecting dust. He, unlike you, doesn't have music writing to fall back on. You Go Guy!
from essaywriter :
I'm glad you like my stories. Thanks for all the lovely things you said about my journal; I've enjoyed reading yours as well. Bad spelling and punctuation are two of my pet peeves, too. When I see a journal with "it's" where "its" should be, it always makes me wince. I'm glad to answer questions and will try to answer some of yours in future posts. Cheers!
from shortst101 :
I'm smiling with you!
from love-laugh :
Well, how annoying to find that my diary has disappeared. *is fixing that.* So anyway, good luck looking for an agent...truly. If you can't find one, I give up any hope for myself. You are very talented. Keep us updated every time you get any new news on your search...or at least me. :)
from sunnysusan12 :
Thanks so much for your input about my "force of nature" question. Always nice to know I'm not just rambling to myself! Have a great weekend, enjoy my schtuff and I look forward to reading yours!
from daze-of-rain :
lmfao Thank you for making it clear you weren't talking about me...Actually, aside from punctuation (which half the time I just guess at) I feel pretty confident in my grammar...Just not always my spelling. - Desiree'
from shortst101 :
Happy weekend to you! (Think GOOD thoughts)
from krugerpak007 :
I am worried about you Sam. Sending you good thoughts and hoping you feel better! xoxox Kathy
from shortst101 :
Hugs to you on this chilly morning. I hope today is better.
from daze-of-rain :
i don't know if your current frustration is coming from real life or here at diaryland or another part of the internet...but you know, that's just part of the downfall with dealing with humanity as a whole...everyone has an opinion and everyone is so willing to share. I'm sorry for the aparent frustration you are feeling.
from shortst101 :
hugssssss
from shortst101 :
Waiting on you....
from shortst101 :
you know.....sometimes words are all we have....and sometimes we have to find it in ourselves to BELIEVE that they aren't just words..and know that there is real meaning and feelings behind those words.....
from shortst101 :
I have felt the way you feel, said these words to myself, but I want to tell you something. It does matter to me. You matter to me. Your thoughts, feelings, words, stories, YOU, matter to me. And I know I'm not the only one that feels that way.
from krugerpak007 :
Sorry about the damn desk. I know how you must be feeling. You wanted to just do something good and now part of it was damaged and its the most frustrating thing. Just take it easy please sweetie. have a good long weekend with T. Catch you on Tuesday (only, *sob*) Take care! xoxox Kathy
from shortst101 :
Yay for T having a three day weekend. The kids here have a four day weekend (no school today either). And all I get is my normal two days off. Guess that's better than nothing, huH? Hugsssssssssssssssssss
from krugerpak007 :
You never seize to amaze me. Again I am sorry about my lack of e-mails. I hope you are missing me, and at least i am finally catching up on reading diaries. Take care dear sam and I am still reading your novel, a few pages a night because of the sleeping meds. The monkey is great. (Thats where I am...).You are a wonderful, talented man, dont forget that. xoxox Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
You are amazing-what would I do without you. I am so jealous of T. I wish you guys all the best. But you have each other, so it sounds like you already have the best?xoxoxo Kathy
from invisibledon :
Dear Felix, I understand what you mean, I don't have a significant coming home to meet me or viceversa but having been bouncing until the last year from place to place I'm finally settling into that feeling that I'm home when I'm home and not just in a temporary place - cool that you have the bonus of someone you care for that comes back to that at the end of the day, Oscar
from krugerpak007 :
OMG. I have no words for this. I cry about stupid things when there are people with real problems out there. It just makes me feel embarrassed!
from krugerpak007 :
Sorry I have been such a bad e-mail buddy lately. I have just been feeling sorry for myself. I am still crazy about you. Dont forget. I am off to carry on with YOUR great novel. Goodnight! Love u! Kathy
from mugwhump :
For a moment I thought you were ove in Asia. Experiencing first hand the aftermath of the Tsunami. Well written. Cheers - LJ
from krugerpak007 :
What a beautiful entry. You made me smile. its lovely to hear about your love. Take care and enjoy your sweater sweety! I am really enjoying the novel. I only read a few pages a night because I am on sleeping meds but you are amazing. did anyone ever tell you that? well here. you are an amazing, sweet, talented man. Thanks for sharing it with me. Thanks with all my heart. I am trully privileged to have you share it with me, and to have met you. xoxox Kathy
from usmcsis :
have a good weekend sam. see you monday. ((hugs)) ~ cindy
from kaire :
I don't know that there is an easy answer to mental illness/murder. In my mind anyone who could cause such physical harm to a person is mentally unstable. I think her family and the system failed her, but how do you *really* prove a person doesn't know the difference between right and wrong? The problem is that if you institutionalize her, she can possibly get out, stop taking her meds and do what?
from shortst101 :
Being a fat ass over here, I have to agree with you....but I know it's all my fault, at least part of it anyway.
from kaire :
one day has already come, it's just that as a writer/artist if you settled for good then what would be left?
from krugerpak007 :
So glad you are back.Gosh I can almost always relate to your every word. Sometimes I think I am going to be locked up in a mental home for the rest of my days. I deserve it I think...Anyway at least you have wonderful T. Soon you'll need to send me a picture of this lucky woman! Love Kathy
from stealmypurse :
You must be mistaking me for some naive girl who hasn't been around the outside world. I know exactly what goes on at college. Don't pretend that I am all innocent for your own sake. Do you honestly think I would fall prey to that pretentious drinking game that is known as 'the college experience'? If that be true, you be wrong. Perhaps you doubt my inner strength and my need to succeed in what I want to do with the rest of my life. Please don't think I am angry. This note holds no anger, just bemusement at your assumption of who I am. You're a little off the mark, but I chalk that up to my lack of proper communication. And by the way, you're last part of the note, your sympathy for the Ryan situation was appreciated. You're sweet and I thank you for that. I thank you for you basically. Have a great evening on me. Toodles.
from shortst101 :
not a coward, not at all...hugsssssssssssssssssssss
from might-could :
I don’t know what you expected as response. I know feelings of humiliation and guilt; they’re true feelings however, they are undeserved. Your diary is mostly for writing purposes; mine is an electronic diary only. I saw your piece as a study. I have no need to “correct” any of it. It’s your perspective. I know there’s a heck of a lot more people in pain out there. I’m comfortable in others confiding experiences to me. I probably won’t have anything to make it better. If I did, I’d be very, very wealthy! BTW my friend got me to get a cheapy uke for $28. I'm disappointed that it won't hold a tuning for more than 5 mins. but the next up were like $130+
from stealmypurse :
Summon me by email or tele, letter, or telegraph. By hook or by crook. Doesn't matter what bird you send my way. Send a bluejay for all I care. As long as you summon me from here to there. Ok, little cutesy poem over. I don't really know when we'll be able to meet. But I do know that soon I will be safely planted in college. And I cannot wait for that. Dear gentle Sam don't worry we'll meet. We'll talk about it in a later note or email. Have a great evening on me. Toodles.
from might-could :
I was going to re: about the ukes but I’m a little busy at work and not wanting to work, yet bored...I’m going to a store to listen to some after work. People at my job didn’t realize I’ve played music before and I thought that was odd. I’m thinking of writing an entry on it but ech, I need to do something on my dream from last night before I forget. Oh, and actually do work.
from usmcsis :
you are wonderful and i love you.
from shortst101 :
your simply amazing
from stealmypurse :
Just summon me and all those bawdy acts you described will be yours to cherish. Eheh. I always keep word and I know that perhaps it didn't seem like I did before, and perhaps I can see where you're coming from. But I am here and you cannot get rid of me mate, like it or not. Though I am hoping it's the former. We've got to keep the post noties in business don't we? We owe ourselves that much and this friendship building that much. Sadly, for a time I didn't think you would return my note and wanted to give it up for lost cause. But you reached me just in time. You're good at that. Have a great day on me. Toodles.
from usmcsis :
you emailed me one and i've been reading it for quite a while now in the midst of reading other things and working and doing nothing. and i finished it over the holiday, just the other day and haven't been in my right mind enough to email and exclaim and praise and love you. but i will all those things soon i promise.
from shortst101 :
So what does boiled dinner consist of??
from usmcsis :
i've read your words, whole novels of your words, and i've loved every single one of them.
from shortst101 :
"when the knowledge hits me that no one .. . really cares" Guess what...? I care.
from usmcsis :
i'm so glad the break is over and you are back. i missed you. i hope you and t had a wonderful holiday together. thank you for the wonderful note this morning. what a great thing to wake up to. wonderful story, as usual. love ya ~ cindy
from shortst101 :
This story was sad, yet wonderful. Once again, the tears have been brought to my eyes by your words. Hugssssssssssss, so glad to see you back. I've missed you.
from love-laugh :
Wow. *shudders.* I was waiting for that last part. And when Billy was singing, I felt like it was me up there, knowing I might screw up and just waiting for it and dreading it and then feeling astonished when he made it through just fine. The tension in the house reminded me of growing up, and I remembered a bit more about what it was like to be in 6th grade and have a horrible crush on someone. I don't know what else to say really except...great story. I enjoyed it a lot.
from candoor :
merry happy new year :)
from krugerpak007 :
You are so so so missed. Happy 2005 sweety. I will e-mail you when I get home, but your novel- WOW. Love you. xoxox
from stealmypurse :
I won't say Merry Christmas or happy holidays since they have come and gone. I only hope that they were wonderful. Sincerely, I missed talking with you. I have finished the first part of the book, and I believe that I have the second in my email but have not been able to recover since I receive so much junk that has nothing to do with novels or friends. Please forgive the sad excuse. I shouldn't really apologize for anything but being a lazy friend. After the new year things will slow down and I can breathe. Then I will just be focusing on work. Funny work stories to come yeehaw. Send an email and I will respond. Or I will email you if you wish. Remember now, I am past that magical November 23 and am an adult who can handle her own email account. Well, I always have but you know what I meant. I am babbling aren't I'? I should go. Keep in touch please. Have a great Tuesday on me. Ahna.
from invisibledon :
happy holidays
from love-laugh :
hope your holidays are great. you're in my thoughts. take care and have a good time with T. hopefully i will have some exciting adventures to tell of after these next couple weeks.
from shortst101 :
Merry Christmas.
from might-could :
righty-o! Have a wonderful holiday with your beloved!
from shortst101 :
Bricks.....your never cease to amaze me, i know i have told you this many times before, but it's true.....loved this story.....loved it.
from shortst101 :
This story made me cry.....but it also gave me a glimpse of hope....thank you, more than you know.
from usmcsis :
i will be the first in line to buy your book when it hits the stores. i could read you all day.
from usmcsis :
you are definitely a writer. a wonderful talented writer. and in my book, you are successful, when people come here every day to read what you have written, usually more than once a day. there just isn't a back cover to put your picture on. oh, yeah, and no money. but if there were, you'd be rolling in it. ~ cindy
from shortst101 :
I updated the entry about the snow to clarify about the digital camera.
from shortst101 :
You are a writer. A wonderful and amazing writer.
from shortst101 :
A friend for life.....this was beautiful.
from shortst101 :
Hope you and T enjoy being out tonight watching the children. Hugs
from shortst101 :
Gotta love all that legal shit
from usmcsis :
good morning sam. i'm off to finish my shopping (ick) so you have a good day. ~ cindy
from might-could :
I can’t get over the name Hasbro...this piece had me smiling...the North, the gypsies, the shoes. It’s all very intriguing.
from shortst101 :
Soft sighs, you and T and just the way you are with each other, and the way you love each other, it makes me well up with tears when I think about it.....what a love you two share, thank you for sharing it with us.
from might-could :
me AGAIN: I'm another Dawn aficionado. However almost all other cleaning can be done with WATER, baking soda, and vinegar. I bet there's pages of "natural" cleaning online. I buy "Citrus II" from the health food store for stink-stopping and snot-bacteria killing. Also: when I was in hospital, what did they use to clean intestinal spewage? "Citrus II."
from might-could :
I think the piece about family & time is amazing. I guess that was an OCD passed on? My Gram had a common OCD and I occasionally see myself doing a very slight version of it as she taught me to do it on purpose.
from usmcsis :
take care of yourself sweetie. you and t have a good weekend. and enjoy your steak. love ya! (((hugs))) ~ cindy
from kaire :
I've spent a life time wondering if I'm fake ... life is fake ...when I'm going to be called out. Odd feeling isn't it? It took me years to realize it stemmed from mother instilled low self esteem. Now I am learning to accept (and appreciate) this is my reality. I think it's part of me really accepting this IS me ... I'm not fake and if someone takes issue, that is their choice (and problem.)
from might-could :
I have never seen or heard the term “asshat.” Personally, its 2 “a”’s rhyme amuses me. I do think it’s also odd that it should be less-offensive than asshole considering there can be a hole in the ground, in one’s pocket, etc but an ass is an ass unless it’s a donkey. I have seen “jackhole” at squirrelx’s diary. That amuses me too but I still like asshole or the perhaps kinder, arsehole. Arse is just more fun to say, really.
from shortst101 :
it should have said, if only you weren't so far away
from shortst101 :
You have no idea how badly I need to cry with you, with someone, and how good it would be to let someone hold me while I do that. Today, I had to leave the office for a little while so I could go cry...just like now, i'm welling up with tears and it would be a matter of seconds before they could be rolling and then I wouldn't be able to stop them. I need so badly to let them go, no one will die, I certainly won't, but what good will it actually do? And here at work they might think i've truly lost my mind. Thank you for offering and if only you were so far away, i'd be there in a minute if that could possible happen.
from shortst101 :
Sending you hugs
from kaire :
Oh boy, you seemed to catch my funk! Me? I'm in great health, just a fat gimp with a bum arm. Have been since I was 25 ... some days it's overbearing, other days I realize I'm the least fucked up person I know. No one knows how long the have, but I know if I died tonight I didn't waste my life, I lived it! I'm typing w/one hand lately, so I've got a constant reminder of my handicap ... god it sucks, BUT I'm doing it and getting faster. Option b is "give up" and I would rather not go there!
from krugerpak007 :
I am sorry you are feeling so down and out. I am not quite sure what to say in response to that entry. Just that you are loved out here, you are talented and try and concentrate on the good things. Like you are good looking, have T, are talented and have so much going for you. Please take care! xoxox K
from might-could :
“Sometimes, it's like talking to water. Seeing your breath, making the stuff ripple, but is there ever any sort of real reply? Any sort of something of substance, that has any sort of meaning at all? You know I love the way you love me. But do you love the way I love you when I do? Do you cherish the words I speak? The simple acts of banality, that exist in your everyday life? Do you even notice?” Not necessarily for the same reason but both of the above.
from might-could :
I really liked this piece today. A “stanza” of it sounds like one of the things I said to Shrink yesterday. It’s somehow “soothing” to hear others say it too.
from kaire :
you can try autozone too. I got a Pooh one there :)
from usmcsis :
i was actually going to tell you that we carry fuzzy steering wheel covers at target, but, someone beat me to it. however, i also wanted to tell you that i thought of you over the weekend, while watching our 'skins play like they haven't all year. i hope you and t caught the game. ((hugs)) ~ cindy
from daze-of-rain :
Target has great car accessories...Try there (hell maybe even online then you don't have to LEAVE the house.) yay for that!!
from shortst101 :
You can't say that nothing good happens out there, look what you did...you bought T some holiday socks and got some bowls so you two can eat in bed together....and I'm sure that both will put a smile on her face...so there.
from shortst101 :
More than enough...that's the kind of attitude we all should have. I so wish I were more like you.
from shortst101 :
Your story today made me smile and smile. (12-3-04)
from usmcsis :
thanks for sending new readers my way. you're the best. ((hugs)) and don't feel bad about bitching, i've been doing it today too.
from shortst101 :
Bitch all you want sweetie!
from mugwhump :
Yes - it's ok to be bitchy. But if I didn't know better I'd say you were suffering from PMS. Doesn't feel good, does it?! Chin up, tomorrow is another day. :) LJ
from juniperhexum :
Yes well this one needed locking and it's been far more liberating. I just don't update it all that much. The other one has had the guise of anonymity since day one so it's easier to speak freely and post more boldy. Plus that one is like never-ending dessert. Always something tastey there.
from might-could :
I'm no equin-o-phile but I've seen several specials on how therapeutic they are (for physical or emotional issues) *and* my recent bawl-session where the neighbor horses came up to me hit home how they *can* be very caring. I know someone who volunteers to help kids who are there for "horse therapy" and she gets the "therapy" by being there w/ the kids and the horses. Kinda cool.
from usmcsis :
sam! fasting is so not good for you. starving yourself makes your body shut down and store more fat. this is very dangerous. there are better ways to drop some pounds.
from shortst101 :
Thank you....just thank you...for everything as usual.
from juniperhexum :
I don't leave you enough notes but I just wanted to say that i love reading you every day. There's always something different in here. That's it.
from shortst101 :
Not eating anything isn't good for you either.
from might-could :
Bloodwork...YAY! ech. I think sallow means you’re kinda yellowish. Hrmm. Be well! ps: Made my apptmt and they can squeeze me in 27 Jan. 2005. Jinkies. Good thing I called now.
from shortst101 :
Let me know how the doctor's (and dentist) appointments go. I have to go back to the doctor on Monday.
from might-could :
Good luck at the dr’s. I will be brave *because of your entry* and make my yearly “women’s” apptmt. I hate that so much...
from might-could :
Thanks for the nice words at my place. I have to disagree with your "separation" idea. I like to be around men and women and I enjoy the differences. Also, as an unmarried woman, I'd be screwed. I wouldn't had to marry one of the men my mum or auntie tried fixing me up with and they were horrible people...but they had college degrees and jobs. Anyway, I was just talking about how much I'd love to live in a modern commune, so there!
from shortst101 :
hi there, and welcome back. I'm glad that you and T had a wonderful time together, but really hate that you got sick during all of it. Missed you.
from starlight42 :
Thanks for the note. I enjoyed your thanksgiving entry. Your Thanksgivings past sound wonderful. I think one year we will do the soup kitchen- I was thinking of that just this morning. What better way to celebrate how much you have- and to give back! Happy Turkey Day!
from usmcsis :
i forgot to tell you happy thanksgiving sam! well, when you read this on monday you'll know that you and t were both in my thoughts and i am very thankful for having become friends with you here. and yeah, one day when i'm off, i'd love to drive up and visit you. it's only a couple of hours drive from here. and i hope you enjoy your pie this week. :P love ya ~ cindy
from might-could :
Yalp. I signed your notes and then saw you had signed my guestbook. Hurrumph, I suppose I should check my stuff before traipsing around d-land. That first note was in reference to your latest entry. In re: to yer message to me: Yeah, sometimes I get very silent and withdrawn. It's natural for me. I'm "on" or "off." It's a me thing, don't take it personally. : )
from might-could :
A very sweet and timely message! Hope your long weekend is loverly!
from shortst101 :
Happy Thanksgiving...and thank you for everything......
from usmcsis :
good morning sam, well, afternoon as it's almost one. just wanted to check in and say hi and tell you once again how much i love your writing. the things you say (write) are so moving and touching. you rock. one of these days i'm going to have to take the road trip north. :) ~ cindy
from shortst101 :
We should all have our own hiding places where we can go and feel safe and get away from everything for a while.
from shortst101 :
You might not care, but I do.
from shortst101 :
hi there...I just caught up on all your entries I missed last week. Sighs, I missed a lot.
from krugerpak007 :
Its amazing as to how much computers are a part of our lives. I don't know what I used to do without one. I have withdrawal symptoms when I am away from mine for a few hours...Have a good week honey!
from krugerpak007 :
Only 2 days. Aaaaaaaaaaah. I hope you have a good week with T. That you get to the post office. That your spirits pick up. That you laugh and smile all week. That you just will be happy. Thinking of you. xoxox
from might-could :
It cost $2 and that's a one-time only set up fee. I paid through paypal. A lot of diaryists here use them. I figured for $2 I could deal.
from might-could :
I'm hogging your notes too. From my diary, I added a link to "sign my guestbook." You can click on it and it takes you to my new, shiny guestbook for "notes."
from might-could :
You asked WTH I meant...gee, I rambled in my note to you and I rambled in my own diary too...To you, I meant you did your part of contacting the Pointy-Haired Boss of the therapists. In my diary, I don't know what I was saying. I take part in discussion groups and just ramble. Sometimes I post what I said in my diary.
from kaire :
Hard choice ... have unanswered questions about the life that leads to the moment in the attic ... or have you answer the questions that I don't even know I have. I mean, I can go to my own devices and think about the man and his life (plus his family & their lives) and come to my own conclusions and ends (which could be oddly satisfying) or I could encourage you to tell me more about him (leading to wanting to know more about him?) Quite a predicament you put me in sir!
from might-could :
You did part one and hopefully the only doing you have to do (huh?). Hmm, bureaucracy... it might take more. Kinda funny the guy wasn't "into" listening but he's in the therapy field.
from kaire :
I really like the story you just posted about the attic ... it makes me want to know more ...
from might-could :
Cool about yer new shrink. You should be comfortable. Names: Okay, I think purists will say your birth name but I’m on the side of whatever you go by. I believe it’s whatever *YOU* identify with. Then again, if someone gave you the nickname, perhaps that shows how *they* see you. Like there’s the rising sign (astrology). Rising is the “mask” you present to others...equivalent to the nickname, perhaps? I’ve said I always have an opinion...
from krugerpak007 :
A few years ago I had a male therapist and I fell in love with him. he even told me that it happens alot. He becomes attractive because he is kind and attentive and actually helps you. So I can relate. Besides all that I hope you are ok and less anxious. I wish i could send you some of my valium. It helps so much. One in the morning and I am a new person! Take care! xoxoxox
from might-could :
I think it's cool that you respect la femme and want to be straight up with her. I'd say, it's your call (duh) but if'n yer ask la femme and she says, "go," well...then you've got that.
from daze-of-rain :
glad to hear she was professional...and I can't say I'm shocked by it. (can you tell I didn't read the other entry until I'd already posted my last note? lol) Too bad she's purdy though... [smile]
from daze-of-rain :
to me this seems...an odd concern. Having never met her. And...well it comes across as somewhat...silly in all honesty. Because, if she is good at her job, and a professional, there should be NO concern on what HER behavior will be. I totally get worrying about YOU having an attraction towards HER...because...that's part of why I think I shouldn't seek a male therapist...I am too likely to develop an attraction if he actually HELPS me. But...to actually think she's going to "flirt" with you? That to me would do nothing but show how unsuited she is for her job.
from might-could :
Isn’t the mostest commonest of all things to become attracted to an opposite-sex therapist? I mean, for a split second, I even thought I liked Shrink. They’re “on your side.” They tell you your fucked-up feelings are “right on.” Also, you don’t have to deal with (in my case) him leaving the toilet seat up, refusing to talk to his mother on the phone, and still expecting me to put up with his work friends on non-wedding occassions. Oh, yeah, I went on for a bit, sorry. Enjoy the new therapist (if one can say that). If it doesn’t seem to be working, can’t you tell her, “Yo, I seem to have a problem in my pants around you, how’s about recommending another therapist?” Just wondering outloud...um in type.
from shortst101 :
I like cementaries too...in fact I used to live near one. Today's entry seemed so....hmmmm I don't know the word.....but i'm sure you know what i mean.
from might-could :
I like the idea of the blue marker. Why a stick and not just hold the cardboard? Too cheap? Not enough contruction/ effort involved? Pondering...
from krugerpak007 :
You make me worry too. Hope you are ok honey. xoxoxo
from ducky-girl :
too much going on right now...i have to leave my house soon. i won't be on the net much anymore if at all, at least for a while. but if you want a password all the same, leave me your email and i will gladly do so...anyway, thank you for your notes, you are a very sweet man.
from shortst101 :
I think the word "fuck" has gotten quite a bit of action today, don't you??
from shortst101 :
awwww, i don't mean to make you cry
from ducky-girl :
I'm glad I made you smile, you earned it. Thank you for your comment. I want to write more to you but I don't have time right now...just, thank you.
from ducky-girl :
I only wish I had such talent.
from usmcsis :
that was a beautiful story. of course it makes me ask a hundred questions in my head. you are such a wonderful writer sam. ~ cindy
from shortst101 :
Hi there.....I hope you are feeling better today.
from the-mistake :
uhh..
from usmcsis :
thanks for your note this morning, i do appreciate it much sam. i am doing pretty well all things considering. i just wanted to let you know i was equally sick by the game yesterday. and i've never watched joan of arcadia. maybe i need to check it out. have a good day sam. ~ cindy
from usmcsis :
i personally look forward to your multiple updates. partly because you write about so many different things. sometimes it's a story of your life, past or present. sometimes it's a story of someone else's life, someone you know or someone you invented. i look forward to coming home every day and reading what you've written and i for one hope that you continue to write as you have. i hope you and t have a good weekend and that you are feeling better soon. much love ~ cindy
from mugwhump :
I so relate with your entry today (Nov.12). I lived much the same life of walking on that tight rope (jobs). But I won't go into it here. One thing that crossed my mind as I read was that I feel sorry for guys today. You've been fed one message from your dad's and a completely different message from society. To the end that you don't know what you're supposed to do or feel. Society has un-manned men. How do you get back 'masculinity' without pissing off 'society' - a mean task master or mistress. Thank you for your heartfelt, honest entry. Keep up the good fight - cheers - LJ
from kaire :
The subconscious is a miraculous thing, but I've always felt when you get aware that it acts out, then it's not subconscious any more. Self sabatoge is something I've done well, but in different contexts. Perhaps fear has kept me from fucking up anything but myself. Jobs are too important I guess for me to go that far. Knowing you have this serious tendency means you can also change it. There is middle ground. It wasn't your fault in the past, but now that you know it's up to you to take responsibility. It's like my boyfriend's friend, who claims he is an asshole because of his fucked up family. I finally told him "when you realized you were an asshole, it became your responsibility to change, not continue to blame it on your family." Unfortunately he neither got it or changed (he's a dim bulb.) Another part of it is that you may fear failing so much that you take the control of it over and direct the results yourself. No matter what, you are a strong, intelligent person ... and are capable of acting as such!
from shortst101 :
can we share a cup of hot chocolate
from shortst101 :
Never alone....you will never die alone....as long as you are in someone's heart.
from shortst101 :
Sometimes we just never know how nuts some people really can be....i had a stalker once....
from shortst101 :
what you wrote about your wife was so beautiful......
from krugerpak007 :
Sam, that entry made me cry. It was beautiful. Just as you are. It made me really think. There is so much to be grateful for. So much I take advantage of. Moan, moan, moan and not enough appreciation going on there in my life. One definite thing is that I appreciate you, your e-mails, your part in my life. And that beautiful entry to remind me to get a life and stop wallowing in my self pity! Take care and have a good day. Not only T loves you... xoxox Kathy
from shortst101 :
The fact that you would hold on to all of that for me is plenty......
from shortst101 :
I needed to read your entry this morning(November 10). Thank you.
from shortst101 :
Sighs.....enjoyed the last entry......maybe I wasn't supposed too. Hugsss
from invisibledon :
Morning soaps ah... I mean news shows - well they are there to keep you from actually thinking about anything at all and more importantly only giving you enough information to say oh yeah I've heard about in case someone says something in a conversation that actually matters so you nod along like you are listening and think about who is going to get the shaft on this weeks scripted reality shows.
from might-could :
Because it’s too fucking early in the morning to get “good help” that’s already finished their job at 7AM and is ready to deliver. Also, consider the IQ of Joe and Brenda American (dunno if you saw the state by state average IQ breakdown making the rounds last week). They can’t handle too much ever, let alone in the morning and all by themselves. Best wait till work when someone there can explain it to them. I like BBC news that’s on at 5AM our time (PBS). It’s just rehashed but it’s delivered as if it’s real news.
from shortst101 :
hi
from might-could :
I really liked this story/ diary entry. I just really do. I guess if you spaced, she could’ve already asked you for the ball...that they were just going to go look for it. But the best part is we don’t know. I really liked your description of the ball although my memories of them (and my lack of physical skills) are not pleasant!
from shortst101 :
Guess what? Someone misses you!
from clawfoottub :
thanks for the note about tv watching. it's nice to know i'm not crazy after all. you're right. things are starting to get a little strained because i'm ready to be on my own now, but for the most part we all still get along pretty well. only certain issues bother me, and it's the small things! talking during a tv show, loading the dishwasher a certain way. stupid stuff like that. i hope to be out of the house in about a year or so, but in the meantime, i'm collecting pots, pans, dishes, and homemaking things like that in anticipation. p.s. the pow wow sounds like it was a lot of fun!
from krugerpak007 :
Glad to hear you sounded so happy in that last entry. You put a smile on my face. I could feel your happiness and mood. I hope it continued all through the weekend, and that you are feeling great! Thinking of you honey. xoxox Kathy
from usmcsis :
that should say i am NOW going to snuggle under the covers, not not. you'll have to excuse the typo i have a migraine so i'm squinting my eyes at the screen in order to lessen the nausea i'm feeling from being sensitive to light. so, yeah, bye again sam.
from usmcsis :
i was going to make some comment obviously or i would not have clicked on your notes link but it took so long to friggin get here that i have since forgotten what i wanted to say. thanks for your note this morning. of course i didn't get to read it until i got home from work tonight and i am not getting ready to go snuggle under the covers once again. um, yeah, the writing is going well. i'm not quite at the word count i should be at but i'm not far off and i'm off this weekend so i'll be able to catch up and perhaps surpass the goal. we shall see. now i think i have rambled enough in your notes for one night so i will go. i won't get to leave you another note before you disappear for the weekend so i'll tell you now that i hope you and t have a good one and i'll be looking forward to monday and your first entry of the day. ((hugs)) ~ cindy
from kaire :
Perhaps what needs to be written is the giant cryptic book of non-answers? Some kind of extention of the "why? because I said so" arguement. My first question would be "why, if everyone is so sure they are right, can't they sit back smuggly in their chairs relishing their 'rightness' in silence instead of opening their mouths and showing how wrong they really are?" p.s. I like your writing too ~~
from might-could :
I don’t know how you can get published but I *do* have answere to most anything. As I tell the people at work who are always asking me things, “Of course I can give you an answer. If I don’t know, I’ll surely have an opinion, and if all else fails, I’ll lie.” I get to say this several times a week. My greatest natural talent is being able to walk in and “decide.” ...not for myself, mind you.
from usmcsis :
good morning sam. it's raining and cold down here too. i think i'm going to crawl back under the blanket for another hour or so. maybe it'll be better when i get back up. have a good day. ~ cindy
from jinkymarvels :
oh r.i.p. hope is what i say. what a grim day it is when (v. well put), when a retarded cowboy is *re*elected. well, on the up-side, something big's gotta happen, which is inspiring. sigh.
from might-could :
Thanks for leaving the sweet note. I had "stalker issues" from my original diary so I opened this one for the first time recently. I've looked over some of your entries on my lunch hour. I'm glad you stopped by so I can enjoy some of your writing.
from sabathine :
Defend your insult, coward.
from clawfoottub :
what think ye about the whole election hoo-ha? i woke up this morning fully expecting to know who our next president would be. *sigh* legalities. also, was it you that complimented my christmas tree? if so, thanks very much! it was a gift last year from one of my friends. i know it's way too early to be putting up christmas decorations, but i love that little tree so much that i couldn't wait any longer.
from usmcsis :
i very much enjoyed your note today, as always. especially the fist bit. lol i hope you guys are both feeling better soon sam. ~ cindy
from usmcsis :
thanks for the note today. i hope t is feeling a bit better. perhaps it's the dreaded winter blues setting in? oh, and the first two inches of the straps are rhinestones. nifty. :)
from shortst101 :
Thinking of you
from shortst101 :
I loved your story today....Shooting Stars....sighs....
from shortst101 :
It's the worst feeling in the world when the person you love is in torment and there is nothing you can say or do to make it better. But, it does help knowing that she is cared for and loved and there is no doubt in my mind that she knows this. Hugsss for you and Hugsss for T.
from usmcsis :
if, one of these days, i drive up to see you, will you sing that song for me? lol it sounds to me like you are the hit of the party every year. i'm sorry you weren't feeling altogether well today but i hope that you and t have a wonderful weekend and i'm looking forward to monday already. ((hugs))
from starlight42 :
I want all those Halloween experiences too!! Why do we have to grow up?!
from krugerpak007 :
You always manage to put the smile back on my face. That entry made me want to be a kid again. And come and eat your candy. And sing with you. xoxox
from shortst101 :
Ok, do i get to see the picture? Please? I missed you today. HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSS
from usmcsis :
you are not a whore sam. plain and simple, attractive people have life easier than people who aren't so attractive. if you've got it, use it. god know's i'll never be able to include a picture in anything i send off. :P look at it this way, i love your writing and i've never seen what you look like. but if you're as good looking as you sound, it could only be seen as the icing on the cake. love ya ~ cindy
from krugerpak007 :
Lovely, happy thoughts on a Thursday morning...:-((( Take care and have a good Thursday. xoxox
from shortst101 :
I'm proud of you! You did it! YAY! Smiles @ you, really big. Mothers sometimes cry over the silliest things, don't me. Look at me??
from krugerpak007 :
Great that you did it. Holding thumbs for your sweety. And as for the griddle. Well I guess you could have done worse things... Take care. xoxox
from shortst101 :
You can and will do it. I have faith in you and in your writing.
from invisibledon :
Veni, Vedi, Veci ... or as a ski instructor buddy of mine said one time as she and I were standing at the top of a slope one day looking down the steep grade and moguls everywhere "You know when you have to kiss a frog, the longer you look at it the worse it seems." Then over the edge she went and a second after her I was skiing down right behind her, I think the trip to the mail box is a lot like that - kiss your frog already -if it's a prince it is, if it's not well maybe the next one will be.
from krugerpak007 :
Go do it! And good luck. You deserve only the best.
from krugerpak007 :
You blow me away with nearly every entry. xoxox
from shortst101 :
I know him....
from shortst101 :
finder's keepers made me cry this morning....
from shortst101 :
sandy doesn't even know what's going on with sandy today
from daze-of-rain :
I think the deal with Miss Simpson isn't the lip synching...it is that she tried to put it all on her band...then lied...It was how she handled it...not that it was done. At least that's the impression I got from the story I read on it last night.
from krugerpak007 :
Wow
from invisibledon :
Re: ticket to ride - excellent stuff there
from invisibledon :
Wiesbaden is a beautiful city I loved going there. I lived west of there Mosel-Saar Hunsrück-Nahein region between the Rhine and Mosel river valleys. My German is much in disrepair these days as well not that it was very good to begin but yes it's One for all and all for one etc. The song is funny as hell playing on the Jagermeister being the Game Warden and a Drink - saw the video for the song while I was in France and laughed my arse off at the thing.
from shortst101 :
I love hearing about you and T's weekend. It always bring a smile to my otherwise dreary Monday mornings. Let's put our two halves together, and maybe we can come up with a whole. Hugs
from juniperhexum :
weekends are bittersweet in gengeral but at least you have the sweet side of it. Those weekend moments are signs of happiness with you two and that cannot b etouched by anythign else - even a Monday morning because at the end of the Monday, she's back. Also, WTF is up with throwin the statue in the lake?? That's the founder of Reston! Damn fool children. Lake Anne has really gone down hill.
from shortst101 :
It's DOES matter...to me.
from invisibledon :
Thanks, that comment meant a lot I like it when I WRITE too, I just can't go back and read it too much or I'll want to change it or toss it out. I'm thinking about doing the NaNoWrMo thing this time just to force myself back into WRITING.
from shortst101 :
I'm with you, if i have to lock my diary..what's the point, then again, it's not like i'm updating it now is it? Hugsssssssssss, have a wonderful day sweetie.
from usmcsis :
the letter sounds good sam. i have minor issues with the parenthesis, i would prefer commas or semicolons where appropriate. if it were me reading the letter. but it isn't. well, it is, but it really isn't. anyway. so, yeah, it looks like i won't be finishing the move before you disappear for the weekend, so have a good one sweetie and we'll talk next week. and i love linda's story, by the way. she's judging us all hon. every single one of us. god, that's such a depressing thought.
from shortst101 :
Actually, the letter you wrote is quite good.
from shortst101 :
Ok, I need YOU to teach me to write like YOU do. I'll pay you good! <smiles>
from shortst101 :
Wake up sleepy head...your fans await you! Good morning, hope your doing okay today.
from usmcsis :
wow sam, that was beautiful. sexy and sweet and tender and hot and beautiful all at the same time. i hope you're well today, i've not been on much with the moving stuff but i hope to talk to you later this week. take care ~ cindy
from invisibledon :
she is from up in your area but moved out west her sister worked with my brother in the DC area until about a year ago - I would like to meet her once though to see what would happen. I'm not the stalker type though just hoping perhaps one day she'll find me - who knows stranger things have happened.
from shortst101 :
There is so much I could say......but you already know.
from shortst101 :
Good morning
from stealmypurse :
My god, I have really deserted for you for awhile. But have no fear, for I am back. How are you doing lately in your role as impetuous you? Hope that things are coming and going your way whatever that way may be. School has been a whirlwind of excitement.[yeah right, that's why i never post about it haha] and I am just trying to get things done and out of the way before I can waste my energy on more creative outlets, ie writing to you[because believe it or not, writing to you does require creativiy]and updating stealmypurse. Please don't worry about me leaving you. You're always in my heart. Cliche I know, but if it wasn't true, I wouldn't say that and somewhere deep down you know that. Have a great evening on me and keep shining. Toodles.
from invisibledon :
that last one might be bad but I worry sometimes that I might be standing a bit too close to the edge of the abyss or darkness
from daze-of-rain :
although I have no idea who wrote that...the fact is that MY generation (you know...the younger one [wink wink]) holds less weight in those words. They are every where and we use them so damn frequently that they are no more meaningful to most of us then "go away" or "I'm mad". But for the record...I've been known to say those words to MY husband as well..."Fuck you!! How could you fuck her in MY house?" Eh...yeah I wouldn't take them back if my life depended on it...and quite frankly...Fuck HIM indeed...
from invisibledon :
which edge is that? I miss a lot of referrences
from usmcsis :
good morning.
from invisibledon :
In regards to your no phuck you entry, I can totally relate to what you are saying there that too much is too much.
from shortst101 :
Sighs.....you always make so much sense to me, too much so....
from usmcsis :
happy monday to you too, now that it's almost over. :) i was very glad to see that last entry. i'm proud of you.
from shortst101 :
Sighs, lovely words, as usual
from krugerpak007 :
Mmm. Why do I love Mondays so much? :-)
from shortst101 :
And good morning to you...missed you over the weekend.
from shortst101 :
Sighs...the joys of shitty corporate world! Sorry you got fired, but you were probably better off not having to be there.
from invisibledon :
sorry you got fired
from usmcsis :
i haven't been fishing in probably ten years. daddy used to take us all the time when we were younger. i guess i grew out of it or something. anyway, enjoy your dinner at lonestar, i am horribly jealous, it is one of my favorite resturants and i haven't been in ages. :) and have a good weekend, talk to you monday.
from shortst101 :
Singing "teacher don't you fill me up with your rules, Everybody knows that smoking ain't allowed in school"
from clawfoottub :
actually, even better, i learned that song from my granny, not andy griffith! glad it made your day. have a good weekend!
from krugerpak007 :
I am sorry you are feeling that way. Cheer up. I wish I could take my own advice... Anyway, I used to go fishing when I was young too. I loved it. Trevor always laughs at me about it. He just doesn't understand that you haven't trully lived if you haven't been fishing. Anyway, I hope you have a good weekend Sam. I will miss you. Until Monday.. xoxox
from clawfoottub :
you get a line an' i'll get a pole hooooney, you get a line an' i'll get a pooooole, baaaabe. you get a line, i'll get a pole, we'll go down to the crawdad hole, baby, hooooooney o' mine.
from shortst101 :
Me?? a tease??? Surely you don't mean it!
from shortst101 :
Let's go fishing?? Today?? Right now?? I too learned to fish like you only with my grandfather.
from usmcsis :
that should have said mama and i don't trust him to pick something that doesn't suck. see, that's a whole nother thing altogether isn't it? and i love the ice fishing story too. i forgot to mention it. the descriptions were great.
from usmcsis :
okay, so i read both posts today before i came to make a comment. but i did almost forget. i was scrolling back up the page to hit the notes link when i stopped and said, i know he's written more than this today. :) you left caffeine off your addiction list. i love me some caffeine. i've been told that it's a harder addiction to break than nicotine or alchohol. that looks like i spelled it wrong. anyway, i will email you later tonight. it's been a weird day and i haven't even made an entry yet but now i must go. daddy's cooking dinner but i have to make a vegetable. just cause mama and i don't trust him to pick something that sucks. toodles :)
from juniperhexum :
SLAA and SA are two VERY VERY VERY different groups. I used to go with my ex to the SA meetings. No laughing matter man, some of those people are seriously ill. COuldn't believe the stories I would hear in there. Then again I had a hard time with the ex's phone sex and porn addiction so I guess I shouldn't have been all that shocked.
from shortst101 :
your words never cease to amaze me, the way you write, the things you feel....
from shortst101 :
Sighs......I'm so stressed out that I need a cig, joint, drink and sex!
from shortst101 :
LOL @ Don below.....Sandy shouldn't have clicked on them either! The other links you left on my diary didn't work either!
from invisibledon :
drink some coffee - that's what I do when I want a cigarette now - I never really connected the two things so I drink a lot of coffee now which may add to the really strange things I've been writing but hey Juan Valdez for President yeah. if coffee doesn't work try ice - I'm not sure what to do with it but it works for a lot other things.
from invisibledon :
Oh you did but I wasn't thinking - my bad just as much but like I have room to talk my page always has the girl on it no link required
from invisibledon :
note to self do not click on sam's links at work - bad bad for at work viewing
from shortst101 :
Wow, somehow I missed the entry about Ernie. I love the way you write.
from shortst101 :
Unfortunately the links didn't work for me....so I can't see what kind of tits you like! LOL
from usmcsis :
damn, i should start reading all of your posts for the day before i make my comments because if i don't then i end up making more than one comment. anyway, so, yeah, ernie is cool. like with the angie entry, i can just picture it, your descriptions are wonderful. ah, i'll tell you again, you rock. :) ~ cindy
from usmcsis :
you are such a good friggin writer. i can picture the two of you sitting there together, her staring off at nothing, you going through her purse. you rock :P ~ cindy
from krugerpak007 :
Hugs and kisses from me. Ernie is gorgeous! xoxox
from krugerpak007 :
Yip! That's my life these days. Eat when I am unhappy, eat when I am happy (which is almost never, eat, eat, eat. Ughhhhhhh. Winter is coming. Thank goodness we can wear big, baggy sweaters.
from krugerpak007 :
Great entry as usual. Thanks for your beautiful e-mail. I will be replying soon... Love Kathy
from usmcsis :
i'm good on space at hotmail so send away. :) i'll be looking forward to it when i get home from work tomorrow. ~ cindy
from juniperhexum :
damn good self-debate there... left me thinking for sure. I might actually vote now.
from shortst101 :
I'm glad that one of us has made up our minds.
from starlight42 :
MMMM pineapple upsidedown cake?! Yummy! And you even baked together? Nice.
from usmcsis :
wow, it sounds like you guys had a great weekend. don't mind me, i'm just a tad jealous. :P ya'll are very lucky. and yeah, i was pissed about the skin's too. have a good day!
from krugerpak007 :
Sounds like you guys had such a lot of fun. I AM jealous, I must say. But I am glad you were smiling and enjoying yourself. Hope you are feeling good. Take care hon. xoxox
from clawfoottub :
i love love LOVE sunday morning with charles osgood. bob dylan was supposed to be on this sunday but i missed it. :(
from shortst101 :
You and T are so sweet and wonderful and wow....it makes me smile.
from krugerpak007 :
Aaaaaaaaah!
from shortst101 :
Well, THAT sucks! The schools aren't closed here today.
from daze-of-rain :
Thank you...I'm very pleased with the layout..it looks familiar eh? lol, yeah, probably because the image is from the same series [wink wink] The surgery went well...I realize i've neglected to mention it...once it was done it felt minor compared to everything else.
from shortst101 :
You are way too hard on yourself. I wish there was a way to make you see that your accomplishing more than you know. But I too know how you are feeling as I have been doing this to myself and trying desperately not too. I believe in my heart that as long as you and T have each other, anything you both set your minds too can and WILL be accomplished. You will make it together, because you love each other THAT much. And I wish I had that more than anything. I would care if you weren't here on Monday, for I have come to look forward to knowing you, emailing with you and reading your entries, notes, etc. You make me smile....I hope in turn I can help you at times too. Ohh, and as far as your novel....I would have told you if the one I read had NOT been good.....but I meant it when I said that it was awesome...just like you are awesome. You have a knack for writing..you can do it.....and if you can't believe in yourself, then i'll have to believe in you enough for both of us. Hugsssssssssss cause I care.
from usmcsis :
has it crossed your mind that you are flogging yourself? maybe not physically, but you're doing it all the same. i have to say that i can relate to what you're saying though, i've been down that road myself. but i think i've finally found the right path to get me out of this place. i wish i could drop you some breadcrumbs along the way so that you could follow behind me. t is obviously a loving and understanding partner. i wish i could find that myself. maybe one day. i hope you guys have a good weekend. and btw, i will care if you aren't here monday, i'd love to read your novel and if it sucked, i'd tell you it sucked, and i think you accomplished several things this week, you left me several notes which helped me feel better and brought a smile to my face and you wrote several touching and interesting entries in your diary which i very much enjoyed reading. take care and i'll be looking for you in a few days. ~ cindy
from shortst101 :
Hey, thanks for adding me as a favorite too.....you make me smile
from shortst101 :
Sighs, always another new day......
from stealmypurse :
I am not going away. It is not that I have left the country or shut down my diary. Things have been up in the air and college applications far exceed updates at this moment. I am still reading the second part of your novel[and loving it]. You are still a great friend. So consider this the first of many notes that you will be receiving from me. Have a great evening on me. Toodles.
from shortst101 :
I wish I could express my thoughts, feelings, memories...the way you do....
from usmcsis :
and thanks for listing me as a fave! ((hugs)) and i can't remember whether or not i've told you, but your writing is wonderful!
from usmcsis :
thanks for the great note. i look forward to reading you every day also, and yes, you are the first i read because i know that you usually have more than one entry for me since the day before. :) i have wandered a bit through your past and hope to catch up on your entire diary soon. plus, it rocks to read another person from VA. :)
from shortst101 :
laugh 1st, then offer assistance :)
from shortst101 :
I wish I could have seen the fountain with water shooting up into the sky and the liquid rainbows.....but in a way I kinda just did. And on the subject of the twins and the fact that one was with an beautiful girl and the other wasn't so beautiful...well, that just goes to show that everyone has different tastes and that beauty can be seen in everyone.
from usmcsis :
oh, and i am taking your advice over at FMH with my next story and i'm working on adding more "feeling" descriptions. thanks again.
from usmcsis :
i am lmao at your letter! do you mind if i print it out and put it on my bulletin board? i so want to be published one day but usually i feel about as talented as you describe yourself in that letter. of course, you obviously *do* have talent as you wrote that letter and it is the funniest fucking thing i've seen in ages. i'm crossing my fingers for you by the way. and thanks for the notes you've left for me, at usmcsis and FMH. ;)
from shortst101 :
LMAO @ your letter.... you know what, if you can't believe in yourself, i'll believe for you.....so there.....
from shortst101 :
~waves at you~ will write you in a bit.....hugsssssssssss
from shortst101 :
I hope tomorrow is better
from shortst101 :
there is always someone who cares...
from snow666white :
hello... I'm sorry to see that you are in a bad way today...I hope that your anger passes -all too quickly and that you feel better 'morrow. Take care xxxox -Snowie
from shortst101 :
Good morning......Hugs
from shortst101 :
Hey, just wanted to tell you to have a wonderful weekend. (expect lots of email on monday)
from shortst101 :
Hell I opted not to write an entry at all....i know, i'm a slacker
from shortst101 :
Wow, you said it better than I ever could. (I opted NOT to write an entry about the debates).
from clawfoottub :
bravo!! last night as i was watching, i had a very hard time following the answers to the questions. i know what a lot of the issues are, but i was lost in the distraction of actually watching them. BUT what i did hear, was exactly what you mentioned just now. i heard john kerry smooth-talking his way into the voting booths of america, and while george bush wasn't exactly eloquent, he repeated his core steadfast ideas and plans and values over and over again. that says a lot more to me as a voter. if someone is willing to strongly reiterate their beliefs over and over instead of trying to come up with a different suave answer to every question, i'm going to vote for them. because they have their head on straight. it makes me so angry that people are going to vote for john kerry because he sounds good and "looks good" according to some women. (NOT me. he looks like a horse.) who CARES if george w. isn't the greatest speaker. he has a plan and he's willing to do it. i wholeheartedly agree with him about presenting a united, consistent front to the world. if john kerry is sworn in come january and starts changing things all around, i swear we'll be wearing an even BIGGER "kick me" sign in the terrorists' eyes. they'll KNOW we're weak and we can't make up our minds on a leader, much less a war strategy. GRRRRRR. vote for me as president, clawfoottub, in the 2020 elections.
from clawfoottub :
thanks for your kind words on my lj. i confess that i've gotten behind in reading your diary, but hopefully i'll be able to catch up soon. things have been pretty hectic in just about every area of my life, and i am more than ready for them to settle down again!
from shortst101 :
And just WHAT was in the turkey?
from shortst101 :
I want to come hide too....I hope T's back to school night went well and that yours did too.
from shortst101 :
The letter you wrote was lovely, however, I need translation of some of the words...
from shortst101 :
You have no idea how much your note this morning brightened my day, especially now when I really needed it. Thank you so much.
from shortst101 :
I hope it works out with the new therapist. Maybe T could actually meet her as well if you find that you like her. I'm not sure it would help or not, but you never know.
from juniperhexum :
my birthday is the third of June
from shortst101 :
How about the rest of the story?
from shortst101 :
You don't have to worry about thanking me! I know you appreciate it :) And I should have said more than what I said, i've just not been one for lots of words today. And, just so DON down below doesn't feel so bad, I will admit that the D-lish thing came to mind as well...LOL
from blulinepaper :
Coming soon to a galaxy near you...
from krugerpak007 :
That is sad. xoxo Kathy
from invisibledon :
but maybe not as good as D-lish -sorry I know it's bad but i would have said it and then been was that out loud. Sorry about the kid though that is sad.
from shortst101 :
So sad to think about a child losing their life. Sad indeed. HUGSSSSSSS
from shortst101 :
I really enjoyed today story. <smiles>
from shortst101 :
Ok, it's almost 9 AM and no entry from you?
from daze-of-rain :
no I'm not mad at you at all. I save mad for people that have wronged ME....I honestly was just curious. One of those things that doesn't always translate well into type
from daze-of-rain :
so, quick qestion...do you share these words with your wife when a woman sends them to you? And if not? Why not? And how do you respond to these words? Just out of curiousity? With kind rebuff or with similar words of love? And this picture? I can only guess what it was of...and do you keep it or do you throw it out? All these questions...all related to your entry on cheating...and omitting...and, and, and...
from shortst101 :
Well, I really was only referring to one someone :)
from shortst101 :
Oh my.
from shortst101 :
How about trying to eat something good today? Please?
from shortst101 :
I really enjoyed the short story you posted yesterday afternoon. As usual, your words always have a way of hitting home with me.
from daze-of-rain :
one problem with that question is this...you can never possibly know the best, most right decision without knowing all facts included...And another problem with that question is this...I don't know many people who have been cheated on that don't have some inkling..whether they chose to ignore it or not. And to have been able to lie about it the person would have been asked the question...therefore the possibility has occured to the spouse...and therefore the doubt will remain, no matter what answer is given. And doubt and wondering, it's always worse than knowing to me.
from shortst101 :
Just wanted you to know that i'm writing an email to you right now as I write this. Sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you.
from shortst101 :
Hello, can I come in? I'll be happy to share a smoke with you on the back porch.
from invisibledon :
thanks for the comment on the Utopia thing and if you want toss my site address to the smoking girl
from shortst101 :
Knock Knock
from daze-of-rain :
as far as lying vs. omitting vs. confessing...it comes down to this in my opinion. The expectations, boundaries and desires of each individual person. Some feel they need to know, others know they'd rather not. And if people know they don't want to know...then respect that. If someone feels they need to know, or if they ask...and you lie? to me that is the ultimate in disrespect. And having been lied to as often as I have...I know the value of truth.
from juniperhexum :
his note was in reference to one I left him "Is it wrong that I'm 23 and think that you are very very attractive?" so I am the 23 year old he's referenceing with the prowess. As for a restaurant recommendation - well I don't know. I'd say Carrabbas because thats near me and they have a killer fire grilled chicken. But you don't want to drive...
from quietud :
it was a note at the end of the movie "the madness of king george." a good movie, if sad; i don't know how accurate. if you google "king george" and porphyria, there's a ton of information.
from juniperhexum :
you asked why people lie in a recent post - the current one I thought and that was my response to why people lie
from juniperhexum :
self-preservation because everyone is obsessed with appearance, worrying about what other people will think about them.
from shortst101 :
Lots of good points here.
from krugerpak007 :
You are more sane than you know. Thinking of you. Kathy
from shortst101 :
Now you make me want to have one of "those" baths. Bubbles, warm water, a good book to read and some good music (no news for me).....Hmmm, maybe I'll do that tonight.
from shortst101 :
You make me want to go bike riding. Of course I'll be one of the pathetic ones that everyone will feel sorry for.
from invisibledon :
Ok the Seminary there in Vienna is supposed to be haunted there was or is if it's still there a pond on the property where a student drown. Well the kid came back in the school nurses office but died again as it were. Well if go in there you can hear the kid breathing. I went to a seminary but not that one. It closed in the 80's so most likely with all the expanding that area has done I'm sure it's gone. One in Ohio had tunnels all over the campus and you could come up all over the place. The one I went to was rather boring - that is until I landed there. Thanks too for the encouragement, and hey at least I'll have the craving pangs to look forward to, they can actually be a bit fun.
from shortst101 :
Is there anything I can do to help you not be so cranky and feel so icky?? Just let me know. Also, I want to know what diaries you are reading with sex stories..lol
from invisibledon :
is that old seminary still standing there in vienna? If it is I have an interesting story about the place if not then it won't matter
from snow666white :
in reply to your note : in the last note i left you I said "oh you are too" and you were wandering what?! lol And i meant to say "american" -anywho that short poem was really crap, I just wrote it to piss ppl off- but it didnt lol...i suck! Anyways, I have 2 weeks vacation! YAY... i hope your doing well and having a cool time oxox -Snow.
from usmcsis :
wow. not only is it unbelieveably incredible that you did that for her, it's incredible that you can write about it so sensually and sweetly now. it is sad that you are no longer friends, but if it were me, with the history she had, that one night would have been worth it. it would have given me hope. :)
from shortst101 :
Your entry made me sigh and wish and wonder. And umm, i'm in trouble me thinks, I just sent you and email answering the questions...but ummmm....i didn't read your email before i sent it (because i didn't know i had it) so ummmm i'm thinking maybe, just maybe i'll have to go back and elaborate on quite a few of them and i'll do just that tonight, but just remmeber, you ask for it.
from shortst101 :
I'm in one of those moods today that really can't be described. I don't feel bad.....I don't feel good, I just feel....(if that makes sense). It's an A-OK day. I'm in the mood to go outside and play. To enjoy the sunshine and the lovely day. To smile and laugh and have some fun. To walk a mile with a sweet someone. To hug and kiss. To laugh and cry too. To just be.....do you feel it too?
from shortst101 :
Life is funny....Life is strange....life can be scary.....Life can suck.....but....Life can be full of good surprises...and life can be wonderful....Life....
from shortst101 :
I want to hear the song being sung....and I don't think that you will ever be alone. Nope, your not alone.
from shortst101 :
and..... I think you are an awesome writer....I absolutely loved it. (check your email)
from shortst101 :
I finished it <big smiles>
from clawfoottub :
you're welcome for the gelato explanation, and yes, i did get your note in my other journal. thanks.
from shortst101 :
Hey, guess what?????
from shortst101 :
Awww, of course someone would hold you.....can I volunteer?
from shortst101 :
Ok, you made me smile....(as you always do)...that's one thing I know that you will give me...lots and lots of smiles. I want to be very greedy about your optimism and attention....give it to me, please?? (grins)....yep, I would lend anything I had to you, just like that, because well, your just that kind of person who I like to share with. Time is a precious commodity that we all want to be able to have and share. If you share your time with me, i'll certainly share mine with you. (kinda like, show and tell...lol) OR...well never mind...haha. And you made me blush with your sweet words about me....thank you, I think sometimes we just meet someone that makes us yearn for those things...and I'm glad that someone for me is you. Thank you for everything :)
from shortst101 :
uh huh, i'll lend you a coat, my car (if it would make it up there) and all of my time that you want. I'd love to give you all my optimism over an open fire or in any way I could. Nothing wrong with being greedy, can i be greedy too??
from shortst101 :
I'll lend you a coat.
from shortst101 :
You ask me this: what would happen if you decided to go camping...would your world collapes around you? would everyone just drop dead? would there be too much anger or resentment... what would REALLY happen you know.. if you just DID it.. without asking.. just TOLD everyone ... would it realy be so bad??? Maybe it wouldn't be so bad, maybe if I told them that I needed time to get away, everything would be okay, but i really don't think it would. 1st of all I would feel guilty for leaving, you know, because I know that my mom in law would be the one to end up watching the kids and she already does enough of that as it is and then I would have to explain to my husband why i want to go away....why I feel I need the time away from him and the kids and I'm sure he wouldn't understand. I dont' know, maybe if I went with a friend that he knew then he might be okay with it. I really am going to work on this because I really do need some time away, just to think and be one with myself for a while. HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
from snow666white :
oh thats right, you are too! I remember you telling me that in a note of early! *smiles* And by the way gelato's rock...esp. Watermelon flavoured gelato -its fruity yet creamy! Oh so good ^_^ -catch you laters ox Snow -white
from clawfoottub :
gelato. mmmmmmm, gelato. it is an italian ice cream type of thing, except it doesn't taste like any american ice cream i have EVER tasted. the texture is unique. it's smooth and creamy, but not heavy at all. it's just... perfect. and the cantaloupe flavored kind - YUM! it's very sad that i won't be going back over to italy any time soon at all. i would surely load up on gelato while i was there.
from shortst101 :
I just wanted to thank you for the entry you posted today (the one about marriage). YOu made me think alot and I appreciate it more than you know.
from clawfoottub :
i love reading entries about you and T. the two of you sound so sweet together.
from shortst101 :
Sounds like an lovely evening that you and T had :)
from shortst101 :
How sweet.....that you would do the little things for her like put snickers in the freezer. How wonderful it would be to have a nice evening like that....smiles
from clawfoottub :
"quiet.. you know... how us guys get when we're feeling insecure and stupid.. yeah.. like THAT... where you women think it MUSt be bacuse of something to do with YOU.. but it doensst..." a HA! thank you for clearing that up. i never knew what that was about. also, i didn't mean you shouldn't have a brain-vein-crisis just because of MY selfish whims. i only meant that people would miss you.
from juniperhexum :
whenever I read about you exploring some part of the county or writing about a bike ride through Reston, it makes me appreciate this town/city/place a whole lot more than I already did. You make it beautiful.
from shortst101 :
I wish I could have been there to see you do your little jiggidy jig <smiles>. Your entry made me smile really big. (also, you have no idea how hard i'm trying to find the path inside me that helps me be free)
from shortst101 :
In regards to your entry, can I go be free with you??? ...................................... Under the boardwalk, out of the sun Under the boardwalk, we'll be havin' some fun Under the boardwalk, people walking above Under the boardwalk, we'll be fallin' in love...................I love the song too :)
from shortst101 :
I sure would miss you. And I'm sure we could share a spot in hell together.
from snow666white :
Thankyou for your kindness!! I just finished reading your entry of late- I hope the rest of the day compensates for the ugly morning!!! Indeed -post away! Are you in Australia? I'm not usually on in the mornings...mostly afternoons! :) Toodles -Snow white xox
from shortst101 :
I wish I knew the answer to that! Also, I for one wouldn't want anything to happen to you!! OK?
from clawfoottub :
if a vein in your brain did happen to burst, i know T would miss you terribly. and what other journal could i count on having at least two updates per day?
from long-ignored :
how do you feel about a girl that sells her voice, her thoughts...her words???
from starlight42 :
ya, it's probably netscape. I know most of the designs I had don't work well with it. I have Mozilla at work and a lot don't go well with that either- things skewed, missing etc. Sorry, I don't know how to fix it. :(
from shortst101 :
We may not always know what to do, we may not always know what to say, we may not always believe, but we can always try to make things better, somehow, someway. There has to be a way to make it better, to take away the hurt, anger and pain and find that which has been lost.
from snow666white :
wow...that piece was sensational! Totally rocked my boat! You are original and talented, well done <333
from shortst101 :
Here you allow me to be inside of you, even if for brief moments and I'm thankful to get those secret glimpses of you.
from clawfoottub :
and i know you don't do phones and a trip is expensive, but if you could just reach out to her SOMEHOW. i know it would help BOTH of you.
from clawfoottub :
i know it's a long shot, but i wonder if visiting your sister would help her. even though you and your sister parted badly, you can't change the fact that you're family, and that regardless, you love each other on SOME level. having support from a family member might do her some good. maybe this is the time for the two of you to get back on track. maybe you could give her a call, at least. i know you said she couldn't speak, but maybe just hearing your voice would help her if you could just comfort her in some way.
from shortst101 :
I'm not sure what we are waiting on! I really don't know what to say about your entry today, it struck me deep within, I guess because I see that the older I get, the more downhill my relationships go with my brother and sister. I'm sorry about your sister. Big hugssssssssssss
from shortst101 :
You have no idea how ready I really am! That sounds like just what I need too. Good food, good conversation, mountain air, camping....awww, if only.
from shortst101 :
Thank you and you are more than welcome....I enjoyed this story as well, and I'm looking forward to the continuation............(so, hurry up, please?) grins.
from shortst101 :
Sending you all the sunshine you can fit that heart of yours. We both need it today if your morning has been as ugly as mine! HUGSSSSSSSSSS
from long-ignored :
thank you so much for your comment. I'm sorry I didn't get back to you sooner. Sometimes you write something that makes me love you, in an artsy kinda way as well. Your encouragment and support means so much to me.
from daze-of-rain :
I've been out of touch for the last week...wallowing in self pity and gut wrenching pain. But I caught up tonight. I will start fresh on MOnday with timely notes and such.
from shortst101 :
WOW! I wish I could get my ass in gear and ride around the block on my bike! That's awesome.
from shortst101 :
BIG SMILES! (that's all I have to say)
from juniperhexum :
oh my god I was at dulles twice today... you'll be reading about that very soon. and I got your other notes... still formulating a response as the "as you wish" one really tugged at my heart strings.
from shortst101 :
Let's not start the drinking again, drinking won't make you forget...it might even enhance the memories. Sometimes it's better that we remember, so we know not to do that again.
from invisibledon :
oh no don't start drinking again - I've tried the drink not think plan - it's only mildly effective. Then you just end up with a lot of liquor bills and still have the same stuff running around in your head.
from starlight42 :
I feel the same way about anniversaries. Sometimes it sucks to look at the calendar and remember what you were doing that same day- 1yr, 5yrs or 10yrs ago. Old lovers birthdays, dates of deaths of a loved one...etc.
from starlight42 :
that's ok. you never know with a quote anyway, especially if the word does have seemingly double meanings. stupid english language! :)
from starlight42 :
Hmm, I don't know too much about Jim Morrison. However, I think you got it mixed up, Jim Harrison is who I got the quote from, I guess it's from his book The Road Home, although I found the quote in another book's forward. I don't know too much about Harrison, other than he wrote the book which turned into the film Ledgends of the Fall (Brad Pitt!)- never read any of his books.
from shortst101 :
ughhh, that looks like shit in your notes....I'd delete it if I could..you can look at it here, if you want. http://shortst101.diaryland.com/010911_88.html
from shortst101 :
I was working on that day.....and that morning (before it happened) I had written this poem: September 11, 2001 @ 8:14 a.m. Mourning on the Corner Ballons tied to a telephone post announcing the anniversary of your death words written on a rock at the high school saying "we love you Ben" two years after your death they mourn not just your family but also your friends you must have been someone very special because you touched their lives and left them with memories that will never fade You are in their hearts forever. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Though you were taken away at such an early age you left a lasting impression not just on your family and friends but on many others who shared in the grief who read the news who watched the mourning on the corner. I'm sure you are watching them and smiling a sweet soft smile I hope your heart is full and that you are at peace and that you realize that so many people remember you and think of you even if it is those passing by that corner, just like me.
from shortst101 :
Unfortunately I wasn't doing what you were doing when that happened.
from starlight42 :
Well, when I looked up the word interminable, wanting to make sure it was what I thought it was, I found "having or seeming to have no end" it did mention after about it being "wearisomely" But I don't think the quote would make sense if he was saying that it would be not a plesant thing. Why then mention about the effort put into it? That's my take. :)
from shortst101 :
In the orchard..what a wonderful piece of work....sighs, you never cease to amaze me
from shortst101 :
I would so love to do something like that. Just go, go, go, meeting people, living in the ourdoors. Of course, if it was raining, I'd be a wuss and want a hotel room. LOL
from krugerpak007 :
I am so glad that you are enjoying this work. And its taking your mind off things and motivating you. Its good I say. Very good. Just don't neglect us. Because we would be very very sad to be forgotten...xoxox
from shortst101 :
Math was NOT one of my best subjects, then again, neither was Life Science...LOL....Hope you get the spreadsheet done. I've spent the better part of my morning working with PowerPoint Presentations and Excel Spreadsheets myself, so I feel your pain (or as you put it, your fun! ) Smiles.
from shortst101 :
I have to say this....I have been reading your novel and I'm totally hooked. I love the characters! Don't think I've done away. I'll write soon, I promise. I'm just in a funk right now. Big Time.
from krugerpak007 :
I hope you and T are having a good long weekend. And that you come back relaxed and ready for the week ahead. Smiling. xoxox Kathy
from snow666white :
Thank~you for your kind words! I’m not a very big sports fan…hehe… god damn I’m so lazy~! Lol..I hope all is well down your way…I’m looking forward to another entry!! :)
from shortst101 :
Dark Splotches was amazing, and I really feel badly for Tess....thank god she has T.
from snow666white :
hehe..that was an awesome read! im going to add you ^_^
from shortst101 :
I love your Silent Journey entry.
from shortst101 :
hi there.....just wanted you to know I haven't fallen off the face of the earth.... will email you in a bit! HUGSSSSSSSSs
from krugerpak007 :
"I want you forever and a day plus two" xoxox Kathy
from stealmypurse :
Thank you. It means a lot coming from you. I really do miss you, you know this right. You will have an email from me by the end of the day. This is not a hit and miss. So don't you worry your Mel Gibson-esque head about it. You just keep those post noties coming my way, y'hear? Have a great day on me. Toodles.
from krugerpak007 :
But then again, you have written other such awsome stories. Wish you would appreciate yourself more. You are talented, sweet, supportive, and if you lived near me, I would have to give T a run for her money... :-) I have a bit more time today it looks like. I hope to catch up with everything. Thanks for you know what... xoxoxKathy
from juniperhexum :
you make me want to go camping again
from krugerpak007 :
If that is non-fiction. I'm teribly sorry. Crazy about you! xoxo Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
I am so behind in reading, I have horrible. I am so sorry to neglect you. You are in my thoughts, i ahve been working from 6:45 in the morning until 11pm at night. I am so tired, I can't concentrate, I am going through a lot of weeping because of the med changes, so I am terribly sorry for my lack of concerts. I think about you often and hopefully I will catch uo on all the entries. I feel so bad. I am glad you will have more time with T, I am sorry to hear about Jo. It sucks when you have to change therapists. Its awkward and just plain crap. Hang in there. maybe it will be for the best. Thinking of you. ahope you ok, dear Sam. Please visit me. I have been up to mischief. I woud love a big hug from you to make me feel good and so taht I could do the same for you. xxoxox Kathy
from juniperhexum :
dude, I grew up here. I knew right away it was the "zoo." I can remember when there were no houses next tot he fence and it was lush and green. I remember sitting on a gigantic turtle there once. My girl kryptonite13 lives right across the street from there. Small world aint it?
from aliop33 :
But if it weren't for protesters, this country would not be where it is today. They only show the more crazy ones on purpose to make it look as if everyone is crazy, but I don't think that is the case at all.
from juniperhexum :
Reston "Zoo" ?
from clawfoottub :
no reactions to my livejournal?
from starlight42 :
Thanks for the note on the wedding! I appreciate the advice :) Also, I feel the same way sometimes that you described in your 'Still' entry- about going through rough times and questioning our importance. That's part of the reason I love the Goo Goo Dolls song "Name"- where they say, "Don't it make you sad to know that life, is more than who we are..." Just profound, in a way.
from shortst101 :
wanted you to know I got your email and i'll write to you tomorrow
from aliop33 :
and what always seems to make it worse for me is that i'm always thinking about how much i don't want to feel that way and how no one seems to understand what i'm going through. but, it makes me feel a bit better knowing it's not just me, not that it makes it any easier ya know?
from krugerpak007 :
I can imagine how hard it must have been to say goodbye. Goodbyes just suck. Thats why I also hate airports, because there is always a goodbye involved. Thank god for e-mail though. you can be in touch. at least you both had the pleasure of been in each others lives physically, and now you still will be physically, but it will be virtually. Am I making any sense here? Really Sam. You guys will be in touch, and you touched each others lives forever.Besides been a good husband to T, you are a magnificent writer, an amazing friend, that always cheers me up, you are doing great Sam. you have to give yourself much more credit than you do. ALOT more. I will miss you. Until Monday. xoxox Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
Gosh, a lot of hectic stuff you wrote about. I will be e-mailing you back soon. T is one lucky woman, thats all I can say. And she works hard for both of you, because you work hard to make her happy. And thats all we woman want. You are kind and loving and sweet and talented, and always know just the right thing to say to cheer one up, or to make one smile. And in return for all of the wonderful things you make a person feel. She works. I think it's lovely the way you wait for her, the way you look forward to her coming home. To spending time with her.About the clothes thing. I agree with you. I just think that these days society puts so much pressure on being thin and perfect, that that is why most of us feel absolutely uncomfortable naked. I can say for myself, that if I was thinner, and happier with how I looked, nakedness would not be a problem. I don't know how it is for men. And hey Sam, would it be so bad if I were to go wandering around the desert naked? Thanks for the smiles, and for always saying the right things. Again, I say. T is one hell of a lucky woman. xoxo Kathy
from shortst101 :
"and... she said she never promised me a rose garden but still, I was impressed with the way she wore... that little red dress..." I love what you wrote in your journal today.
from clawfoottub :
funny you should ask about my other journal. i almost put a link to it in my last note to you. the thing is, i'm kind of on a little journal-break-thingy because a lot of icky stuff is going on right now and i don't feel like recapping, but i promise i'll be back soon. there's more than enough old entries to keep you busy for a while. also, if i happen to say something in my journal that gives away something personal as to my location or last name, pretend you never saw it. okay? okay. :) drumroll please. www.livejournal.com/users/amazingplinko oh, and interesting assed? is that a compliment or what? (i prefer to think of myself as eclectic!)
from juniperhexum :
I used to live in Fairway apartments and my brother and I would walk up to Lake Anne all the time. We would stop to play on the concrete structures, especially the one by the church and the grocery store. Way back in the day when the lake froze over, me, my brother, and 2 of our friends walked across the very frozen ice. You're making me want to go up there and feed the ducks for a little while. :)
from pornoviolent :
The Creature From the Black Lagoon: Most of you should know who he is, but if not learn now. Starred originally in 1954's Creature from the Black Lagoon. As a smash hit, two sequels followed: Reven of the Creature and The Creature Walks Among Us. His special power is his enormous strenght. He is also impervious to spears and bullets. Scientists dig him up and he comes to life. Then dies and comes back to life in the sequels, etc. Then is discovered to be somewhat human. In the end he just escapes without another sequel. even though I always thought the Creature was a cool moster, the only times he really seemed to scare me was when he would get all horny with the ladies.
from clawfoottub :
sorry to make you feel weird about the notes. when i made clawfoottub, i didn't tell a lot of people about it, and the ones that used to read it now don't because i never post in it anymore. i just use it to post notes in other's diaries, except i don't do too much of that at all. thus, you are my one and only note person right now. oh, and you mentioned a blank slate. just the reason i like to delete all my notes sometimes. it's nice to have a fresh clean notes page. sometimes i delete all of my e-mails (except for extra special ones i keep in a separate folder) just to have a nice clean inbox. it's weird. i like to let messes just build up and up and then clean them all at once so that everything is refreshing and crisp.
from stealmypurse :
I see clearly that you don't want to talk to me. Ok. I'll just wait until you want to. PS:Check your email. You will have my first biography installment.
from shortst101 :
Hiya, just wanted you to know that I got your emails late last night (and I'm already reading your novel!!) and that i'll write you back sometime today when they give me some breathing room here at work! Hope your having a decent day
from aliop33 :
everytime i leave work i feel like i'm forgetting something and have to come back to my desk to check, even though i never really leave anything. i guess it's just ocd with my office or something. I hate when i see someone i think i know and i wave or something and then, they don't even know me or see me and here i am with my hand up in the air like an asshole and i inevitably have to run my fingers through my hair or something, just to make it look like "i meant to do that".
from clawfoottub :
just the other day i saw a man i thought i knew. he looked like the man, and the kids that were with him even LOOKED like the man's kids. i waved and said, "hey!" and he said a timid nervous looking "hi" and quickly walked away. it was not him. i felt embarassed and silly and weird and wanted to just rewind and skip that moment. i hardly EVER do that when i'm unsure of who the person is. i don't know what made me do it, but after beating myself up about it for a minute, i decided to stop, because if it HAD been the guy, i would have gotten points for being outgoingly friendly, which i hardly ever am. anyway, i guess i just said that to say this. yes, i do have those moments all the time.
from mugwhump :
Did we say something wrong?
from krugerpak007 :
Sam. I hope you are ok. You made me worry. let me know that you are ok, and when you get this note, smile. Just for me. Just a little smile. Ok? Please? Thinking of you angel. xoxo Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
You know what the scary thing is. I could easily eat 100 hotdogs alone with no help of any river or anything. Really. Bloody scary hey? Shit, now I am craving hotdogs...
from stealmypurse :
I miss talking to you. I will have to send an email soon I know. While reading your note about high school, I realized that I could not find anything that I didn't agree on. We seem to think the same about those "best years of peoples' lives". Thank you for supporting my thoughts on that. Another thing that makes you an amazing friend and find here. Please post notie me back as soon as you receive this. Tell me how you are feeling, places you have been recently, how pissed off you are that haven't received email from me, etc. Have a great day on me. My tab of good days never runs out. Toodles. ♥
from shortst101 :
Ohh I was dead serious about reading one of your novels, if not all of them! (yes I did realize they haven't been published, but was hoping you would let me read them anyway). I would be honored and delighted to read it/them anytime you want to email them to me. Use my AOL account for that though, hotmail sucks when it comes to attachments! Yes, I did receive your email and in fact just sent you a reply, unfortunately I didn't get to finish the email but sent what i had written already and will finish it up when I get home. Hope that was okay. Your most welcome Sam! Now I'm excited about getting to read your Novel. No more tears today Sam, I've cried enough for the both of us (all because of your entries today)!
from shortst101 :
LOL, I actually was referring to the novels. Sorry, sometimes I made no sense!
from shortst101 :
I wanna know how i can read the stuff you don't write here?
from krugerpak007 :
I think T is the luckiest woman in the world, and I have a feeling that you are the luckiest man in the world. xoxo Kathy
from juniperhexum :
"This is true love - you think this happens every day?" - Westley, The Princess Bride. That just came into my head when I was reading about you and T. I've watched the core relationships in my life crumble and fall and always thought marriage was some awful institution. But every now and then I read an entry like that of you and T or I look at my grandparents who have pulled through together through struggle for 56 years and it gives me hope. I always saw marriage as work, but work can be fun if you have the right co-workers.
from shortst101 :
"That what we'd found, was what everyone else seems to dream of." What you and T have is beautiful, I can tell by the way you talk about her, by the way the sunshine beams off your words when you tell about your love for each other. Yes, what you both have is what many people dream of and only a small few find. (once again your entry moves me to tears)
from krugerpak007 :
Sweet September-I want more, stop teasing! Just when I think you can not be any more sweeter, you suprise me....Thanks for your beautiful e-mails. I am about to reply. have a wonderful day, my Sam. xoxox kathy
from shortst101 :
Surprises, one of the best kinds of fun :) Sounds like you had a good day, I'm glad you did.
from starlight42 :
Thanks for the note. Yes...I'm going to have to learn through this wedding process to do what makes us happy! I'll have to keep that in mind.
from shortst101 :
"And then, maybe, fow a few minutes anyway, I would be happy." This sounds like something I would say.
from shortst101 :
Ok, now it's my turn to have something to say. <smiles> I thank you very much for your kind words about my poetry. I really just do it when I feel moved to write something and haven't been writing it as much as I used too. You are right about the fact that I have been holding back in my diary. It just seems lately that I can't seem to put into words what or how I'm feeling so I just don't write anything at all. My husband does not read my diary (for if he did, he probably wouldn't be my husband anymore)for there are places in here where I truly tell how I'm feeling about things he's said, done or what's going on in our lives at the time. He wouldn't like it one bit. Honestly, I have never truly shown my true self to anyone. And I will actually take you up on writing that email to you and tell you the things i wanted to say when I read certain entries but I just didn't take the time or make an effort to really say it. I guess sometimes I want to say something but then when I write it, it doesn't sound like I wanted it to, so I just don't send it at all. I really do believe you are a wonderful writer, from what I have read here on your diary. You have had me moved by every emotion there is. I'll tell you more about that in my email. Thanks for taking the time to read my diary and send your note because honestly your quite the ray of sunshine in my day as well.
from shortst101 :
Your very welcome, although I really didn't say as much as I wanted too or could have. I've been reading for quite a while now and on several ocassions I have typed a note only to delete it and not send it. (don't ask me why) Many things you have written have moved me in lots of ways. I'm glad I was able to say the right thing
from shortst101 :
I really enjoy reading your diary.
from krugerpak007 :
I would love to rent-A-DickHEAD!I have a list of people who I could rent for. And as for that second entry for today, it's not fair that you tease us with these brilliant stories and then don't give us more. I want more, more, more, more! I just can't get enough! xoxox Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
I ask myself a few times a day,"Why can't I just be normal, and well?" We are special in our own way. And sensitive. And good people. Yes we have our problems, and sometimes don't handle them like others. But we are only human and we will carry on. Because we don't have any choice, and because we can try and beat this. Thinking of you. xoxox K
from krugerpak007 :
I am so sorry you are feeling so crap. I hope you did go to the group though...and I hope you are feeling better somehow. Thinking of you. xoxo Kathy
from juniperhexum :
*hug*
from daze-of-rain :
my updates come less often when I'm back home...for two reasons...My sisters comp is in the living room (And she says I type too fast and the noise botheres her) Also, I'm actually busy with having a life, my life... lol It's such a strange concept for me. Places to go and people to see.
from krugerpak007 :
More, more, I want more!! That was sad....I hope you are having a good Monday. And I hope you have a good week. xoxox Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
I also spent the entire weekend eating and watching TV, and am now of course feeling desperately sorry for myself and my weight..So I can so relate. I think you need Supergold even for your comments to work. When I had Gold I had to upgarde to Supergold so that the comments would work. Of course Trevor wanted to kill me when he saw the credit card. he doesn't undertsnad this diary thing...Have a good week though and I will be in touch a bit later! xoxo Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
I would just take it as a compliment and that is that. To tell you the truth, if I was at home, and knew that a gorgeous man was stripping down naked everyday at round about the same time, I would make an effort to feast my eyes. Yip, really, weird but true. So just enjoy it...Don't feel so bad about not swimming or cycling, you need a break sometimes too, especially if your are hurting. I know on monday you will get in to it again, so just enjoy the break. I hope you and T have a good weekend! Until Monday! xoxox Kathy
from daze-of-rain :
some women just like to watch...and for some to be caught is not embarassing at all...maybe you shut the blinds in an attempt not to embarass YOU? or maybe she's just sad. lol Either way...Just saying...some of us like to feel like we are doing something naughty, without being hard up
from clawfoottub :
ditto, mugwump. i was so glad to hear that this will be everybody loves raymond's last season. i do have a confession, though - i am hopelessly addicted to big brother. (you will not, however, ever ever EVER catch me watching fear factor. that is the lowest of the low not only in reality tv, but any kind of tv.)
from mugwhump :
We are so opposite on the TV thing. I'm an addict - but I do have my viewing under control. However - we do agree on one point - Everybody DOES NOT Love Raymond. Count me in. Cheers - LJ
from stealmypurse :
You will have email today. Perhaps the first part of the biography which is birth-2 years. Granted I will not be doing the entire thing in two year increments because that is too much to remember and as I might have mentioned previously, my mind works similar to the boy's mind in The Butterfly Effect. Literally, it eats what I don't want to remember. But what I do remember you will have in email increments. Now I must return to getting ready for swim practice. Have a great day on me and note me later. Toodles.♥
from krugerpak007 :
I am glad you made up with her. Women are difficult I know. We get upset sometimes over the smallest of things, especially when we don't understand something. So good that you two are back to normal. Where is she going to? Back to Poland? Well, if she has e-mail you guys could keep in touch, I guess. Ok, that was lame. You will miss her, and there is not a thing I can say to make you feel any better about that. Sorry, but I will be "here" for you...xoxox Kathy
from stealmypurse :
Well thank you for the ravshing compliment. I don't know if that is the right phrase. But I enjoy knowing someone views me as ravishing so I'll take it! I know that the lisp will go away. Slightly at first and then a litte more until no lisp at all. Right now it is diminishing. Still I do not talk to much and if I know I am going to have to talk for a long period of time, I take them out. Sneaky aren't I? My email works again so you will be getting a nice little reply from me. Also I have started the first chapter of my biography. I write long chapters, forgive me. Another aside, I am writting again, and willsend you what I have when I have enough. Nearly am I finished with the first half of the novel you wrote. I find it beautiful in short. Right now I cannot think of any better words. Suppose I need to sleep on it. Please note me back again soon. Have a great day on me. Toodles.♥
from krugerpak007 :
Wow, that was great as usual. I agree. Life has become cheap. We watch people been killed every single day on the news. I realised how cheap it was when I was in india a few years ago at a train station in a town, when I man fell on the tracks and his leg was sliced off. A few people started to carry him, running towards a rickshaw. And they just squashed him on the floor, with what was left of his leg hanging out. It was the most awful thing I have EVER seen. and right then, I thought about how cheap life was.I just got your beautiful e-mail! And am about to reply. Thinking of you my Sam! xoxoxo
from clawfoottub :
BRILLIANT! you could not have articulated my thoughts more. especially this part - " ...even as I believe we should also all be taught that there IS a difference between the man and the office he holds." it saddens me that people think they can bash and belittle the president of the united states because of tiny things like the way he pronounces words. he is the president, and he deserves some respect. it's okay to question him and disagree with him on bigger issues that actually affect our country as a whole, but it is so sad how it has become this huge game of everyone throwing the proverbial rotten tomatoes at him (aka the whole nukeyuler/nuclear thing - what does it MATTER?). whether i agree with any president on his stance or not, i have to appreciate that he is, in fact, the president, and either way is doing a hell of a lot better job than i ever could - i mean, he's there in the first place and i'm not. also, about the health insurance/keeping up with the joneses, i am very proud to say that i am more than willing to pay for health insurance and forego new clothes every week or shoes or going out to eat or whatever. i've been frugal and appreciative of money ever since i was a kid, and i can say with 100% certainty that it will continue into my adult life because it's the way i was raised. necessary things come first - luxuries later. that's just the way it is.
from ducky-girl :
It's a defense mechanism. Everyone who uses it knows it. To keep people at a distance. I'd be lying if I said I didn't do it, too. I haven't made any close friends since I left my home state, and I have no desire to. Every now and then I get lonely but mostly, I like to spend my time alone. But you seem to trust your wife, and I trust my boyfriend, and my old friends. We all do what works for us. Anyway, agreed. Loving someone with BP comes with that stuff. It's not a burden, not even something you have to 'deal' with...you just love the person...they aren't any different than anyone else. Everyone has their nuances, their feelings. I went through a long period of pretty extreme depression myself in my (way too young) years...and off and on later. Love helps. And yes, I'm afraid the story will drag for my readers...but I'm willing to edit until I feel it's something I would pick up off the shelf if I hadn't written it. Even rejection letters would be beautiful right now. As for outlining...I did it, but yes, there are gaps, places where conversations take place, and they just aren't as full as they should be...so I guess I didn't outline enough. I know this...it is those little things, making the readers understand without having to say certain stuff...cause they aren't stupid and you can't treat them that way if you want an audience...that is hard, as you said...but it's comforting to know that you have started and stopped books so often yourself. That gives me hope. As for your new novel, yeah...just remember to follow your own advice and I bet you'll do just fine -- outline. Thanks for these notes back and forth, they're motivating...I very much enjoy talking to other writers. Someone who understands the creation of a character and how hard we love those characters. How we cry for them and are driven to watch them as they seemingly do things on their own.
from krugerpak007 :
Ok, first I though Joe was a therapist..Who exactly is Joe? That second entry was sad. Really. Otherwise, I wander how you are doing today? xoxox
from ducky-girl :
to daze-of-rain...kathy and impetuous...about the trust thing and consideration...i believe personally that you always have to know you can be hurt, and you should be wary, but you should trust as well, or what kind of life is that...on the other hand the other extreme is also not healthy -- caring so much about others that you don't think of yourself. i used to do that, and it was a hallmark of how badly i felt about myself. anyway, back to why i came. i don't deserve a pat on the back for dealing with my mom...she is who she is. i was frightened a lot as a child by her moodswings because i never knew what she'd be like in the morning when i got out of bed. she might be mad at everything for no reason, or she might be cheerful and take me shopping. there was no way to predict. we weren't close when i was young, but we have still been through a lot of shit together, and i love her...perhaps because she always trusted and respected me as a person...though some of her actions i guess could be regarded as disrespectful to my love for her. and i know exactly what you mean about crying for your characters, etc...i do love my characters deeply and feel exactly that same way...sometimes i just feel the plot is dragging and i don't know how to get out of that. but it's funny you mention the cemetery and illinois and how i should perhaps make that my setting...my favorite book i started is in fact ABOUT that cemetery and that town and a character there. as for your strong reactions to me and my boyf...i made him look bad, actually...and i feel bad about that. in the moment of my last entry i was just upset. he really is so kind and loving, and would never want me in any harm. i trust and love him enough to make him the father of my children. but feel free to comment on my entries. if i didn't feel that people should be able to do that, i wouldn't be here at diaryland. sorry this is so long.
from juniperhexum :
Now how the sweet fuck do I respond to that? That has got to be one of the most amazing notes anyone has ever left me. I am feeling a bit let down. I am feeling a bit off. As per usual I will get through it. I always do. No one else responded to that entry, but YOU did. YOU took the time to say something that may not have necessarily been advice, but it was comfort, and comfort can mean more than anything else in the world. Thank you.
from daze-of-rain :
I don't agree with you or Kathy at all. I don't feel you 'can't trust anyone'. I truly believe that if you are the kind of person that is worthy of anothers trust then you can trust in other people. Period. You get what you give. Even if not from the same person. Maybe this is the optimist in me, the romantic...the kinder side of my spirit..but I'd have it no other way. I'm glad that even after all the dishonesty and disregard I've witnessed and experienced I can still put myself out there to possibly be hurt...time and time again. Because without that risk, there is most certainly no gain. One of my biggest 'issues' that I'm trying to work through right now is that I don't only NOT put myself first...I rarely even allow myself to be a consideration. I am too busy taking care of everyone else.
from krugerpak007 :
I guess what it all boils down to is that you can only trust yourself? Because you can not rely on anyone..sad but true.Why is life so damn hard. Rrrrr!!! xoxox Kathy
from ducky-girl :
I've been reading many of your past entries. I grew up with a bipolar mother, so a lot of what you say sounds familiar.... On another note, I admire that you've been able to write three books...I've yet to finish one although several have been started...from one writer to another, I wondered, how do you do it? What gets you to remain there writing and stick to it? The fact that I give up after a while is frustrating to me and not something I've found a way around....
from krugerpak007 :
That was nice... You are talented, your words make me feel exactly how "they" are feeling. I could almost feel myself walking with them to the woods... Am I making ANY sense at all? xoxox
from ducky-girl :
Added you to my favorites. I'm a writer as well...I just don't tend to talk about it much. But I like your words.
from stealmypurse :
I miss your post noties. Also, my email is being a royal pain in the underside so emailing you might be a problem for a while. Please communicate with me this way until then. Have a great day on me. Tis Saturday after all. Toodles.♥
from clawfoottub :
HA! so funny. that type of thing happens to me all the time. whenever i leave the house i always leave the blinds on the back door window shut a certain way, and close certain doors inside so the cat can't reak havoc all over the ENTIRE house. well, i got home the other afternoon and the blinds on the door were WIDE open and as i looked through the window inside the house from the outside, i could see that the doors i had shut were now open! needless to say i was really freaked out because i had spent the first five minutes after i got back home walking around the yard inspecting my flower gardens. for all i knew some robber could be inside watching me out the window, plotting to slit my throat the moment i walked in the door. i hightailed it back to the car and called my dad on my cell phone asking if, by any chance, he or mom had come home for lunch. mom had, and had put the cat out on the porch and left the blinds open. scared the bejeesus out of me!
from aliop33 :
I hope you can make your wifey feel better. i hate when mine doesn't feel good, but i love making her feel better.
from juniperhexum :
damnit! I'm not supposed to get choked up this early in the morning!!! And yes I did notice that link was to my other side. Sneaky sneaky.
from starlight42 :
oh- and I am in Pieces of You!
from starlight42 :
Well, I read your last few entries, including the one no one commented on. It didn't creep me out. I guess it's different than the stuff I normally read, but that's ok. There's one diary I read, Argentum, he writes about sex once in a while. Some of it is funny or interesting. I think you can enjoy it when it's from an eloquent person, or a mature person- not just some horny teen, you know? Anyway, that was so sad about that person's house, when I was little that was one of my big fears- the house burning down. By the way, figured I'd add you to my buddy list, since I'm enjoying the writing :)
from daze-of-rain :
Hey, just wanted to leave a comment on that which 'no one commented on'...I agree that baldness lends itself to a pre-pubescent look and I think it's odd when men insist upon this look. As for the no comment on certain things...I rarely get comments on ANYTHING I write...people just often times don't know what to say, i guess. As for men and what the write... I find it not only natural but expected that sexuality would play a part in your writing...as how could it not be in your mind? I mean, it's in mine and I'm a chick. It just doesn't "shock" anyone into responding if it's a man...you know?
from clawfoottub :
some answers - you are correct, i am no longer updating my journal. i have another via the lovely livejournal system that i write in most of the time now. i use it to chat about everyday stuff and just blab about whatever i want. i originally started clawfoottub to write about some personal stuff and to vent, but i kind of feel like it's served it's purpose and is over now. i use it for commenting on other d-land accounts, though. next - my friends are actually very nice people, i just think that sometimes i put too much stock in what they say, you know? i'm very sensitive about what others think about me, and i know i shouldn't be, but i am. i think a good deal of my friend related disappointment is all in my head. i'm not a very strong person as far as my own perception of myself. lastly, re: the older man thing - it has not been too very long ago (two years? i can't remember.) that i was hurt/scared/used/taken advantage of by an older man via the internet, and i am extremely wary of that sort of thing now. (thankfully we never actually met and he was never a physical threat, but he put me through a very very hard and scary time psychologically.) part of it was because of my own stupidity, but let's be frank, this guy was a creep in the creepiest sense of the word. i don't wish for a repeat of that. most of my online friends now are friends that i had before that incident and i have made very very few, if any, since then. part of the reason i like your diary so much is because you remind me of him (the nice, smart, literary parts of him), but at the same time that also makes me very cautious about you. sometimes i think to myself that you could really be him because a lot of stuff you say is just like him. i don't doubt that he lied to me, so it's possible. but at the same time, i WANT to think that you're just a regular guy having fun on diaryland. i really enjoy your writing, but sometimes get a little freaked out by it because of the similarities between you and mr. creepy pants. i hope this makes sense and i hope i haven't offended you at all. i guess my point is, i'm not being intentionally distant or rude or snobbish. i'm just trying to be cautious and careful.
from juniperhexum :
I almost cant' keep up with you! 3 entries a day 2 days in a row! Don't worry about disappearing, it happens. We've added each other to our friends lists and we can keep up that way. I'm still getting used to reading about famliar faces. It dawned on me that it's highly likely that you and I have been in the same place at the same time many times. That's somewhat comforting, isn't it?
from clawfoottub :
awww. i didn't comment, but i did mention to a couple of online friends that your paragraph on being the perfect slut and domestic goddess was something to aspire to. annoyingly enough, they disagreed and made me feel stupid for wanting to be more like that. ah well. i had several thoughts on your entry, actually, but just didn't post them. it didn't make me think you were creepy, it's just not something i normally discuss with older men. (not OLD, mind you, oldER.)
from krugerpak007 :
I often think about what I would grab if I ever had to leave the house in a hurry, like if there was a fire or something. I have picked this blanket that I sleep with (got it from my gran when I was 6 and can't sleep without it.) And my frog that I sleep with. he is quite little. His name is Kobbi. Short for Jacob.I am sure you really wanted to hear about all of the above..huh? Hope you are feeling good today. xoxox
from starlight42 :
21...ahhh, what a good time. Loved the entry!
from krugerpak007 :
You are very much alive! especially to me. Please cheer up and you have to start appreciating yourself more. You are talented and bright and sweet. Ok, so you are not 21 anymore but you have come through so much and it has made you a better person. I wish you could see it. xoxo
from krugerpak007 :
That was sweet. xoxo Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
What a trip!!!! It's all behind you now. And I totally understand the anger. I mean I wonder, in the end, whats it all for. All the things we go through. All the difficult things. Whats it all for? Take care! xoxo K
from clawfoottub :
life is very strange. the more you think about it, the stranger it seems.
from starlight42 :
Came across your diary- sorry to hear about the $$ troubles. Money sucks, because it's so necessary to survive. Hope things improve for you.
from krugerpak007 :
Shame man! What a bloody night mare...Waiting for part 11. xoxo Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
Hope you guys have a safe trip. Thinking of you both. Kathy
from juniperhexum :
That's borderline scary, but completely awesome. I grew up in this area. Born in Rockville, moved the Herndon, back to Silver Spring, then to Reston in 1990. South Riding with my ex then Silver Spring with my grandparents for a year, now I'm back in Reston. Crazy! And you just know I was nodding my head to every damn thing you put in your recent note. There is a little handful of local peeps in my buddylist, but you're the only Restonite thus far. And yeah, I'm blunt as hell describing people. I cease to care what people think and I don' t like to skirt around the issue. Could have something to do with the way I grew up, but I tend to think it's just my personality.
from clawfoottub :
i am so sorry to read about the things that have been going on with you and T lately. i don't even know what to say. i wish you the best for this weekend and hope T makes it through this okay. if she has you to be strong for her, i know she will.
from krugerpak007 :
I am blushing now. You are so sweet. Finally my words are been heard by you! Good. Good to hear!! xoxox Kathy
from juniperhexum :
hey! thanks for leaving a note. I love when lurkers finally say something. :) I just read the current entry and you mentioned Great Falls. If not neighbors, we are VERY close to each other. I'm in Reston, you?
from krugerpak007 :
*hugs* xoxox
from stealmypurse :
I missed you too. So glad that I could help you woo the Polish lifeguard. Next year I think I might tackle Gaelic. During my soc project on Ireland I realized how much I didn't know about Irishman O'Swoon's birthplace. Miss Linguist will be oh so pleased. We can now have fights about how to say potato in Gaelic. Such fun. Where am I? Oh yes posting you a note. Sorry love, my brain went away for a moment. Nearly finished am I with your beautiful novella[since it is only half finished a novella is what it is in my mind] Dreadfully beautiful. If only I could write half as realistically. My mind must be set in a different place. You right so marvelously. Please send a friendly email my way if I forget about that bio you ordered. Have a wonderful day on me and chin up chum! Toodles.
from krugerpak007 :
I don't even know what to say. I am so sorry for you and T and all the family. My thoughts are with you. xoxo Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
Firstly you are doing so damn well with all the exercise. Can you send me some of your inspiration/motivation, because the only exercise I get is up and down the grocery aisles, and from the bed to the refrigerator. Ugghh. Secondly, maybe you can buy her something from the Body Shop? Like stuff for the bath or lotion or something. (I love that kind of stuff and I think most women do.) Anyway I'll keep thinking about what else you could get her....Thirdly I hope the driving went ok, and that we will have you back soon and in one piece, and that the trip goes ok. Take care! And be in touch. xoxox Kathy
from stealmypurse :
Well that was a nice slipup. That way you can always copy and paste without having to rewrite everything. A writer's dream come true! I did receive the novel and have sent a nice little email back to you. Something to read before you leave. Return safely is all I ask. First chapter is read. Once you get past the pesky little question marks that dot the email through some html freakout, it is wonderful. You seem to touch upon some of the material just right. IE the awkwardness of moving all the time and puberty. Not fitting in etc. Slyvia Browne is a woman with whom I would never reckon. Besides to bring her and her sick little empire down. Yes, I could teach some Polish to you so you can impress lovely lifeguard. Czesc is hi. and you pronounce is chech. Or rather if you would like to say good morning it is Dzien dobry pronounced je-ny do-bre. Goodbye is Do widzenia pronounced do vee-je-nyah. If you need more in depth things, that comes later. Right now you have to master the basics just like me. So with that I will say do zobaczenia.(see you) Toodles.
from impetuousme :
I've never heard of Sylvia Brown, but I am sure I would concur with your opinion. I've quite often been fascinated by people that make their living off the gullibility (or is it stupidity) of others. But even more so, I suppose, by the people that get sucked into all these things. The pyschics, the tv preachers, they all strike me as funny. How anyone could believe them, is beyond me. Anyway, I am glad to see that I have not upset you, and that things between us are cool. Ok, since I sent you an e-mail last night, I really have not much else to type here. Plus, I am going to send you another e-mail shortly regarding getting you the FUCKING novel... mk? Ok, then, hugs dear heart.
from stealmypurse :
The emails you sent are lovely but the attachments will not download. I did however send you a reply so check that inbox now and let me know how we are going to get around this little downloading problem. I so want to see your writing, hopefully there will be no hinderances the next time. Toodles.
from stealmypurse :
Ok, now I get it. By the way, when George Bush got the news about the towers he went on reading to the first grade class he was visiting. Just to let you know. I don't know where I got the info about NC 17 but I know when and where I can get into a rated R movie so let's close that discussion post haste before I make you come to my little piece of hell and take a gander at the rules at the movie theater. That is alright, you didn't do anything to hurt me so apologizing now is unnecessary. In fact apologizing at all is something you need not do. Unless of course you were the twenty-five year old asshole who did it to me, but math wise that doesn't work out. Cheer up chum! I am healing and that is all that matters correct? And now I will go and write a beautifully funny entry about fake pyschics. Because they are my people after all and fraudulence is my forte. LOL. Kidding of course. Have a great day and hugs. Toodles.
from krugerpak007 :
I am so so sorry to hear that news. Holding thumbs for you and T and thinking of you. I can imagine how difficult this must be her and for the family. Thinking of you. xoxo Kathy
from mugwhump :
Thank you for sharing your heart regarding your father-in-law. So much of that story reminds me of my own father. WWII vet, well liked and well known in the community, parents married in '45. I did not, however, have an opportunity to say good-bye. The 2am phone call came early on a Friday morning in January 2000. A massive and slightly unexpected heart attack had taken him. Make the most of the next few days, as difficult as they will be. Support your wife as best you can. Blessings > LJ
from stealmypurse :
Second note of the day. Or at least morning. YOu asked in the last note you left about how my father and I are getting along. To which I can only reply things will never be the same again. Not that I would want them to be bceause the longer I think back to my childhoor the more shit I remember that I wish I couldn't. By the way, my father's family settled in Indiana after leaving Ireland. Where abouts does T's father reside? Because my father lived in Bluffton Indiana. And he once said he knew a group of guys that would get together and play. I don't know if that is the same person. Or if it is even true, since most of the things my father tells me is a lie. I read your perspective about George Bush and his daughter. See, I was raped when I was twelve. Well actually sodomized. (don't worry I don't care who reads this it's common knowledge) With a rose. Thorns and all. You want to talk about rage? My father was furious. My whole family was. I was twelve. But you know what, no matter how much they hated that man, they never took it out on another country. Because it wasn't there business. It was his and mine. So I smiled pretty at my parents from the witness stand and put the bastard away. Because that is all you can do. You can't attack a country because your daughter was raped. Even if you are the president. Sure, I hated Saddam Hussein. You think the same shite doesn't happen undercover other places? Rape of a loved one is hard on a family. But you should never use whatever power you have, big or small, out on something you really have no control on. You once said you wanted my opinion on Bush, and since I have read this, I guess it struck a nerve and made me tell all. Perhaps I should have confined this to an email, but I didn't want to take the time to log in and let the thoughts manifest to a dangerous level. My family dies with me, for I cannot have children. But I am too past it all to really care anymore and I am sure whatever Bush girl was raped is tired of it being brought up everytime someone remembers a sound, smells a scent, etc. It's ironically funny how the family's pain and anger sometimes overshadows the survivor. Alright enough. My god forget I said anything of this. Jesus...
from stealmypurse :
Well then, what I don't understand is why the motion picture industry is now saying that 17 is the age limit to rent or view an R rated movie in both stores and theaters. Perhaps you didn't know things changed. I remember the day they said something about lowering the age because around here it used to be eighteen. Don't know. Perhaps no two areas of the country are alike. ::shrugs:: Mother knows that I have this diary along with my poetry one but she never looks at it. When you get right down to it, she gives me more freedom than most kids I know. This she claims is because I have been mature since I was two. Two going on thirty she used to say. And I started drinking coffee at three to prove it. I received your test message and have sent one in return. Just so you know this is not all some big joke. I googled myself again and still nothing. Don't you love it! Take that future creepy lurkers on my diary page. Ok. Enough boasting. Yes yes please send me at least a tiny sample of the novel. I would love to read it. Of course there would be some revisions made if I find them. But I won't be like the editors. Remember, I am going to come along and change editor history, and when you make millions from your novel, you can thank me. Just don't use my real name or they might google me. ::winkwink:: Have a great day on me. Toodles.
from stealmypurse :
First of all, thank you for finding my plight so funny. That is what I typed it up there for. I knew that you would get a kick out the paramecium and such. The next rating after R is NC 17 which is redundant since to see an R movie at the theater you have to be 17. Anyway, the second note pertained to you emailing me. My mother doesn't know what I do. This computer is mine. I pay for it, the internet service on it, and she doesn't use it. Secondly, I have friends of all ages from all walks of life who email me and she knows that they do. So to ask permission would be redundant. I would love to see your novel and promise that if you do, I will give you the utmost careful criticism and not just about your grammar either. Ahah. So give me an email. The only reason I have not emailed you is because you said wait and I waited as I had given my word to do so. Now, if you are telling me it is alright to email you, then I will do so by all means. Just say the word and there will be an email coming your way. By the way, I did google myself and nothing came up, so if the creeps try that way they are bound to lose. Alright darling, I have to go and get ready for the rest of the day. Irishman O'Swoon Tuesday don't you know. Uck. Speaking of maggots...Hey have a great day on me. What's left of it. Get out and enjoy it. Though I guess you did because you biked more than I could ever do. Toodles.
from krugerpak007 :
I carried on reading today-simply superb. I am enjoying it so so much. Talented, talented, talented you are and its time you start loving yourself and believing in yourself. I am going to drum it in to you until you are sick of me. Take care and I know I owe you e-mail. xoxox K
from clawfoottub :
i would LOVE to read a book about edgar, or at least hear more about him and his family.
from stealmypurse :
Well another note again from me to you. Blasphemy I say! Kidding. How do I feel about my scars hnnm? I don't mind them but I cover them up around Miss Linguist because three years later and a million scars she still doesn't know I cut. That is why I said I didn't do it for my mother's attention. She hates cutters and would probably throw me out of the house. Not even kidding. Friends all know so if they see em who cares? No. I didn't cut that deep but since my skin is so white usually they showed up deeper than they were. Ok I agree enough scarring talk. I just wrote up a funny little entry if you wish to read it while responding to my note since you seem to have mastered the multiple window trick. Memorizing seems easier due to my many theater experiences. I do use my real email address because I am not afraid of what people send me. Never did anyone say I had to look at all the mail I receive. Trust me, I am careful. It is a free service so finding out much about me won't be easy. IF you wish to use the email link and actually communicate that way someday you can. Until you feel like it though, we always have post noties. Don't you worry about me darling knight, this princess will probably kick the creep's arse before you can say a word. Just in case everyone comes a'knocking at once though, I would dust off that armour. You might need it to defend your darling wife sometime too, though she sounds stronger than me. Kudos to her. She sounds like a smashing woman. Well since I have already sent you another note previous to this, I am going to jet and do some other internet stuff before checking back here in the afternoon. Toodles.
from stealmypurse :
The reason I did not like to show all my pieces of girly flesh in public is because a lot of the people were drunk and we all know how I feel about citizens of the land of the Drunk&Grabby. Didn't want anyone to touch what was showing. Just because I am French does not mean I am instantly an exhibitionist. You must have forgotten that the other half of me is Irish and that means modesty in all things sex. So I guess I am in a half and half stage trying to find out which one works better. I guess you're casting your vote for screw modesty. I will be sure to check your name off the list of people's opinions about that particular subject now. I am happy to hear that you are enjoying the company of others. Boating is fun, but I wouldn't want to fall into any of the rivers or lakes around here. Too much ecoli. Edgar sounds like an excellent kind of story. Something that will someday be made into a documentary on PBS or SCI-FI. Who knows? You could be making a mint in a few years off of this guy. Kinda sad that his poor children have to live alone without mates. It reminds me very much of Blue Lagoon that movie with Brooke Shields and...that one guy. You know the one I am sure. Aren't you pleased to know that I am the first one to leave a note this morning instead of the usual vice versa. Though watch as I say this, you are writing a post notie to me. Hmm. Hopefully, otherwise that means you are angry at me. Even if you are, I wish you a grand morning. Toodles.
from krugerpak007 :
Just got your beautiful email. Its late here-2:16am so tomorrow expect a reply. Glad to hear u r a little happier today! xoxo K
from stealmypurse :
Never did I realize that you cut. Though of course I wouldn't know would I? You never came out and said anything so I am terribly sorry I didn't understand the sympathy you were trying to project. Cutting for me has never hurt until days later when the scars come. Don't ask me why, something in my psyche I suppose. Anyway, I am no longer talking about it. Just know that I am glad you told me because now I understand a whole lot better. I have a heart on my thigh so I know about cut-out shapes. Ok. This is what I am now doing about the note situation: I have taken to memorize your notes. In fact that means I read them more than once over, memorize what you have said and play it back as I type. Multitalented brain you say? Why yes of course. Didn't you already know that you silly goose. I did change into my dress at the Faire. They fit you right there and I took my street clothes home in a bag. Sadly, I had to keep wearing my Converse orange shoes. Not a really delicious combo in the way of fashion but it drew some people in. What can you say? Fashion was never one of my strong points. Once again, you telling me how intelligent I am is only fueling my creative fire, which then leads to a little frustration when I cannot come up with something. As if I were Orson Welles coming off the sucess of War of the Worlds. Sorry, I have recently been on a Welles kick. You're html ended up looking like html. HTML does not work in notes. Trust me I have tried many times. Don't feel bad. It happens to the best of us. Everyone should read my diary eh? Hmm does that mean all the creepy perverted stalker diarists too? Wow what fun that will be. You can fight them off for me with a stick. My knight in shining armour. Sadly, I am out of note writing steam. Perhaps later I will post another note on top of this one if I can keep thinking of things to spill my guts about. Until then continue having that great day I know you are having. Toodles.
from daze-of-rain :
Actually...she agrees to go out with him and then recants when he is safely on the ground...I think most women would lie about going on a date to keep someone from dying...lol
from stealmypurse :
You added me. What..how? Well then that was a nice start to a nice day. Woo. Ok breathing again. Must gain composure. I believe we need a new president because the current same old swing has brought death to this nation in the form of a war, and now Bush is killing trees because he claims "if you have seen one, you've seen em all." as if he doesn't know what they do for the environment. Now I am not one to tree hug but I care about what happens in this country. Kerry, though a Democrat like myself is not a strong candidate as I had once hoped he would be. However, I have seen such terrible things, read things, seen things, that I have not seen during Bush Sr. or Clinton. Yes I am only old enough to see two presidents but my parents have seen many more. Some of them terrible as well, but some that genuinely cared. I believe that this President does not care a single shit. No, he does have an effect on us because he is the one who went against the grain of Congress and fought for this war with Iraq. Ok enough of this. When I talk about this I want to punch the screen. That would such hinder our conversations. No, my scars were always well hidden and it hurts when you say I was doing it to make a statement. That was never my intention. I was sick and now I am better. There was never any "try to get mommy to love me" involved. Simply put, I cut so I wouldn't hurt. What hurts now is you suggesting that I did it to be in with some pyschio crowd. But you are a dear friend and I cannot be mad at you nor will I ever have reason to be. Just a little sad that is how I must have portrayed it to you in the last note. Yes, I will post more notes if I see fit to do so. Since it is obvious it will take awhile to respond to every question hidden in your post noties. But it will be done. Alack and alas. The faire was the height of summer. Even bought myself a costume with a bodice and everything. Quite an eyecatcher with a bodice. Well then I guess anyone is if they are showing that much flesh. [including you hahaha] Of course you would make my list. For it is you that posts the most notes and creates the most intrigue in me with your writing. Cannot wait to see today's entry as I usually write my notes before I check my buddy list or update. PS I tried that other window thing and my computer simply would not allow it. If I did not address an issue, I will simply have to post again since you are allowing me to do so. You, as always, are welcome to do the same and I know you do. Have a great day on me and thank you once again for adding me. Toodles.
from stealmypurse :
Well I assure you once again my dear diary friend that I will not forget you as I absolutely adore your writing, your notes, your charm. This is not a crush. For the love of all that is champagne, this is a great friendship that borders on mutual attraction. No more mentioning of that big straining M word I promise. I am writing a memoir in poetry of five friends who escape for the summer to find themselves. Basiscally young adult. I don't think I would or could ever create a children's story. Wait, I did for Spanish class and I think I received an A on it. OK. So I would not want to create another one. Let's leave it at that. Yes I am feeling much better besides the orange skin. The scars are on my wrists, my legs, my hands. Anywhere I used to find a razor or piece of glass useful. Don't worry Mr. Impetuous, I have grown far out of that state of mind. you can breathe now. There you go. I forgot your other question before the scar thing. Well if I go back and remember them I will send two notes to you. Which is certainly against my post noting religion, so that means I will blaspheme for you. Proud aren't you? Yes my accent is quite odd and I do agree with you on how grating the WI accent is to the nerves. Please don't tell your darling siblings of the female persuasion I said that. As they could certainly find me in this small cloistering state. Not that you would because then you would be letting on about our friendship. Yes I meant Jackie Paper was a douche bag, but if the moron chooses to drown, so be it. Alright, now it is my turn to feel the strains of this little posting box. So I bid you a fairweather Friday and once again sign off with the grandest exit: Toodles.
from invisibledon :
you shouldn't be supporting your upper body weight with your arms -
from invisibledon :
Sounds like one of two things, one your seat is too high forcing your weight on to your arms or two you are supporting your upper body weight with your arms. Either causes the flow of blood to slow and then numbness you talked about and pain in the muscles and joints. Hope that helps.
from stealmypurse :
Well darling, I am not going to forget you. Little Jackie Paper was a douche to leave everything he loved behind. (there I go again with the l word..pardon)I have more of an Irish accent sometimes, and more of a French one. Depends on the word. I do not have a WI accent. Thank the Lord. My bantering is getting better. Flood my POST box like the banks of the Ol Mississip. Inundate is a great word. Just thought you might want to know that I admire the use of such a word. As for how I am feeling, I guess it is alright. Better actually, much better. All I needed was some rest and friend time. Now that I have had both, things are cool. Hope that your slump starts to go uphill instead of down. I know about sitting on my ass for twelve hours a day. Since things in my back of the woods are not perculating half as much as my coffee maker. Right now I am starting to write a book. Let's hope that things go well. I have fifty pages done and I feel satisfied. However I won't tell you what it is about unless you want to know. Thought I should tackle something this summer. Other than your wonderful notes and how to respond to them of course. Chin up soldier. Toodles.
from daze-of-rain :
I know it's easy to say...but I want you to know that I understand how you are feeling. I've been dealing with it all my life...and the wrost it's ever been is the past year or so. I'm hear to listen...or you know...not. Whatever it is you need.
from krugerpak007 :
That was funny.I picture you sitting with your glasses in front of the TV, dribbling. :-)Now, now. First of all it is going to take a bit of time with the butterfly thing. It's muscles and things that you are not at all used to. Cycling is also different muscles so I guess you shouldn't compare. Anyway it could be quite nice to be passed by women (well, for me-men) in spandex. No? You love it, I know you do! In fact, you let them on purpose...:-) I can relate about feeling more confident and sexy I guess. I will be thirty in 2 weeks. I have been dreading it, crying about it even. But I know that I have never looked better than I do now. (And I still hate myself now, so you can imagine me a few years ago..)Anyway, I don't know if I am making ANY sense. Must be the age.... xoxox Kathy (P.S. Must have lost 20 pounds carrying half of the book home today..:-)
from stealmypurse :
My interest in what is waning? Right now I am just a little tired dear sir. I wish that I would be more peppy both in my diary and in our post nosties. However, I am finding myself in a spot of slight insomnia. Bear with me while I try and fix the damage. Until then, keep sparing with me. I am sure I can get a few good cracks back. They've been building up. Even though I am a little under the weather, I still hold our conversations in high esteem and hope they do not dissipate. Have a great day on me. Toodles.
from krugerpak007 :
Amen man, Amen.. :-)
from daze-of-rain :
I've always said that to a man the best breast is the one he gets to touch...lol
from krugerpak007 :
Printed the first 273 pages and left it at work. Dammit. I promise to begin tomorrow evening and all weekend. And I can't wait! xoxox Kathy (I may just get fired though for breaking down the printer....)
from krugerpak007 :
Your comment blew me away. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. xoxox Kathy
from stealmypurse :
My father used to say mercy buckets. Or marcee bo-coops. So it is all right. I am always getting that. Your comment would be appreciated though because it would be higher educated sounding. If that makes any sense. Thank you for the sympathy or the empathy. I know many people with bi-polar syndrome. My best friend's father had it. Anyway, enough of that depressing stuff. I am now in a sprightly mood and I am excited. I did try and contact sundry once but she never responded. Something tells me that I am not of high caliber enough for her. Whatever. I can steal a cutout from B&N. My very good friend Craig will get one for me. Love love love. He can join my Josh Groban one. Yum. Ok. Enough. Have a great day. Toodles.
from krugerpak007 :
You know what? Sometimes I feel intimidated to write what I write. But then I realise that I started this diary for me actually. It's just an extra bonus that people read it and support me with their comments and notes. So I feel that you should be able to write whatever you feel here. It's your place, just yours, and you can feel free to write whatever you want. And I am positive that anything you write will be brilliant anyway. xoxo Kathy (I think again this isn't making sense-it must be the meds again....)
from imabrat2 :
Tore your pants?? Hmmmmm. So, just where did you tear them?
from stealmypurse :
Alright, believe that I am crushing on you go right ahead. The truth will remain what you believe. I will call all your agents and send anthrax in the mail if I have to[joking CIA, FBI!] just so you can get published. Someday, I might go through the same thing with agents and editors and you can return the favor. Yes I love the witty banter we have as well. Hiding parts of myself is a way of being me and keeping what I consider can be pirated by others. There are some things you never give away to anyone. At least that is what I believe. Perhaps I will become an editor, but right now I am leaning towards Professor of Pyschologist. If I become an editor, I will for sure let my publishing buddies know about you forthwith so keep writing fresh new stuff. No promises though. So now that you know Viggo Mortensen you know what a compliment it was to compare you to him in my mind. And that is the way it is staying. Perhaps partly because of your poetic nature at times, and your artistic side. Where can I get said cardboard cutout? Please let me know... Well thank you for the nice long note again. Sorry I probably didn't respond to all the things you said, but I could hardly make hide nor tail of your last post nosties. Send a fresh bowl over my way later. Have a great day on me. Toodles.
from stealmypurse :
Jesue,Maria and Josef! That is probably the longest note I have ever received on any of my diaries. Oh my christ. Well, no I do not smoke. The ash was from the incense I was putting into the holder. See, I have a incense burner in my study. Which is where the computer is, where I do the updating. Obviously. Thank you for agreeing with me about the Mart of Walls. Or should it be the Mall of Warts. LOL. I digress. Where was I when you were growing up? In my mother's ovaries just waiting to be made in 1985. That is where I was. Viggo Mortensen. Aragorn in LOTR. Hmm, he's been in a lot of movies. Plus he is an artist, photgrapher, poet, and singer. Talented hot man. You must google him. There is just too much to explain. Anyway, the compliments did not go to my head. They just stayed in between my brain layers. Someday they might come out again when I need them. Until that time comes, I can assure you that they are subconciously floating around. Along with so many other tidbits. Miss Linguist would have a field day with you. She hates people who use descriptive words like well, good, cool. She is an English major and a French minor. Only fair that you would minor in your native tongue I guess. If she ever knew I was not using all the big dictionary words she has been drilling into my head, I would catch hell. You are right, there is no one within a ten mile radius that can keep up with me. That is not ego talking, it is repeated findings. Call it my own research. But don't call it finding Mr. Right. You're a love. Not that I am in love with you. I mean that in the most European sense. Being a love, being a dear. ETC. I don't know how to thank you for being so kind and a great diarist. Once again, great entry. Keep in touch and have a great day on me. Toodles.
from krugerpak007 :
Thanks so much for your comment. Really. I really would like to read it. You are so talented. Do you know how talented you really are? xoxo Kathy
from mugwhump :
Wonderful Wally story. It made me laught, it made me cry. But most of all it made me rethink how friendly I want to get with the little fellow that's been visiting us.
from krugerpak007 :
I want the book...
from krugerpak007 :
I am so impressed with all your exercise. The most exercise I get these days is to the fridge and back-Ughh.Isn't it amazing how you can totally change the way you look at someone after meeting them. Ok, its 7am on a Saturday morning so maybe that is why am not making sense... Any, hope you have a good weekend. Looking forward to your updates next week. xoxox Kathy
from mugwhump :
Thanks for your note responding to mine. I didn't actually expect anyone to respond (I was prompted to send several - we all need a little literary lovin' sometimes. We should thank Condoor) anyway - made my way around your site. I fell in love with the fact that you call your spouse T, as do I. Looking forward to reading more from you soon. Cheers - LJ
from stealmypurse :
I am always at the top of your notes list and you are always on the top of mine. And I quite like it that way. No I was not saying that Mel Gibson is my idol. Really if I were to like an older actor it would be Viggo Mortensen and since you are the same age, I picture you like a cross between the two. Which comes out marvelous by the way. Your last note was confusing. I will not be linking to a cast page. That is why I dedicated an entry to it. Pretty soon I will have to tackle why I have the username I do. All in good time. Glad to hear you had a great day and a great weekend I shall have. Miss Linguist finally goes back to work. Woo. I don't mention my cousins much because they come and go. Cousin Literal is a pain in my side and unless he does something to shock me into a coma, you might not hear much about him. His sister you will. Yes I have mentioned Drunk Uncle buying me the Doc Martens before. Perhaps in the spring. I forget when it was exactly. More to the point, the cast probably will not expand. However, I do so hope you noticed my mention of you in my diary. See, you do hold some sort of presidence over others. Neener neener. Now I must go and update. Toodles.
from stealmypurse :
Ok shut up silly sod I forgot that I posted what I looked like in my diary. [I am kidding about the sod thing you know] And Mel Gibson is not bad to be compared to. I get compared to Lisa Loeb. Which is odd. And not all that flattering may I add. Your entry is wonderful by the way. I know you like to hear that so I told you because it is true. You need that extra ego boost this morning. You know you do. Ahha. Thank you for picturing me cute I guess some people would say that. My parents always said I would grow up to be pretty but not beautiful. Which is better than homely. I digress because looks fade. Yadad yada. I see that you capatalized daughter for a reason. Truly, I knew you had one because you said so in your bio I believe. And if you didn't I just assumed you had children. Well I shall be going and posting now. Have a great day on me. Toodles.
from imabrat2 :
You are a lucky man to have so much. Your wife is a lucky woman too because you know how truly blessed you really are.
from krugerpak007 :
That was beautiful. xoxox Kathy
from stealmypurse :
I read all your words. Of course I do. When I have time. Which is always. Now I am intrigued as to how you have pictured. Hopefully it was not blonde and tall. Because as I might have said before, I happen to be short and auburn. Which is no matter since I have no clue as to what you look like or if you have braces. They come off August 10 by the way so you can keep them erased from your picture of me since they won't be there long. Deal? Now now my dear friend, let's not get too many dirty images in that brain of yours. There won't be any room for writing. Toodles.
from imabrat2 :
You could always wear your spandex under your shorts. That way you won't jiggle but look cool at the same time. As far as me, I know the world is not ready to see me in a bikini top and spandex....but maybe someday...
from krugerpak007 :
To be honest, I think cyclists are quite sexy, and to be very honest, ESPECIALLY those in spandex..A few years ago I was in India and hired a bike for a day to ride around a huge bird park there. I think I couldn't sit for about 4 days after that. I had the sorest arse ever..so I am totally with you on the spandex...:-) Kathy
from stealmypurse :
No no. You should not have sensed defense in the last note posted. There was no intention of that. I said I had foreign parents not foreign parts. Silly dear, did you read it wrong or did you want to read it wrong? Freud would have a field day with you. Lol. Kidding you know. I have stopped couch dancing long enough to post this little note. No, I assure you posted notes is not on General Mills list of cereals to market. And if it is, I will buy every last box to share between us. Don't crash into anything and hurt yourself as you chuckle over my humour. Have a great day on me. Toodles.
from krugerpak007 :
I can't believe she put your dog to sleep. When you were in hospital. Jesus!That dissapointment entry...amazing. You wrote what I think...does that make sense? xoxo Kathy
from mugwhump :
Lovely entry. Candoor sent me (as well as others I'm sure) to tell you you are loved. Cheers - LJ
from imabrat2 :
Would you consider slapping the bitch to be too confrontational?...Sorry, I guess that wasn't a very productive suggestion. I just found your diary and thought I'd put my 2 cents in.
from invisibledon :
Advice - having run a group session for teens who are unmerciless about stomping on other people and not following social codes - I would be the interrupting cow and stop the person jumping in by saying you know "name" I don't think so and so was finished and if the person was shy who had been interrupted I would prompt them to continue by saying I'm not sure what you saying can you be a bit more in depth about what ever it was you were saying - after a few times of being shut down for just blurting out on top of people my chronic blabbers were more in line with keeping things on an even keel in group - not sure if that will help
from krugerpak007 :
Thanks very much for your comment. Really. I just read your last entry and I can only relate to your last entry. That is EXACTLY how I feel, really. xoxo Kathy
from stealmypurse :
I am sorry I did not comment on your latest story. As always I find your stories filled with realities that I have not yet faced. Yet the way you write them makes me understand how a situation like that of which you write comes about and feels to the opposite sex. No I do not claim to work for the government. My father was actually born in Dublin. My mother was born in La Gacilly. So therefore, I am technically a US citizen with foreign parents who don't really celebrate the fourth. Forgive me, it was the way I was raised. I thought I explained that in an entry but I guess not. Hmmph. Don't let that get out though. You never know who might be watching. Thank you as usual for the nice compliments towards my writing. I do not consider myself a hero because I never know the person who receives my blood. But at least I can do something right even if it is only lying on a table. This note will be extremely long as well but you will just have to deal with it. Perhaps you only read half. Hopefully it was the signing off half. Toodles.
from daze-of-rain :
so, ummm color me uninformed...you're a man. (this is where I am blushing, seriously) I have only glanced at your diary and had been meaning to actually read it...and now I am and I see you are Sam...not samantha or etc...ummm yeah. That was an interesting discovery. I promise to do better with being informed in the future...So, were you on my side or his in your relationship...as in what role did you play? I am very curious to know how you saw things. Feel free to email me daze_of_rain@hotmail.com
from daze-of-rain :
I'm not sure why comments didn't work for you...I just tried it and it worked for me. I do have all three...I like to be available. lol sometimes guestbook doesn't work. If the comment you want to make is in specific regard to my entry I prefer comments (which really, should work) and if it's about my diary in general...either notes or guestbook is fine. I actually get notified with a note. And it didn't really discourage me as much as it reminded me I guess...We'll see how it goes. Were you the one to leave? If so how'd you go about that?
from stealmypurse :
What I meant in my last note is very much a mystery to me as well. I believe I was trying to state that you knowing I update more in order to talk to you was creepy. Perhaps I was teasing about the spyware because you always know when I am on. I don't know what I was thinking with that last note. But I do know that I am over being pissed on. Bygones. The fourth of July is never really a big thing to my family because we are f-o-r-e-i-g-n. Shhh. You never heard that from me. But it was a nice Sunday all the same. Hopefully you enjoyed yours as well. I am now going to write an update. Check for it. Toodles.
from daze-of-rain :
thank you very much for the note. It is good to know that lifes moves on after a relationship so painfully numbing. As for divorce...you know, it's something i've been mentally brining myself to terms with for awhile now. I just know I'm not ready yet. And I guess hearing that is was bad is a little discouraging (not that I wasn't already aware that it would be) but the fact that life does continue is good. I am reassured by your ability to choose wisely the "next time around". thanks again
from candoor :
here for a moment I read something and decided to leave my mark in the form of this note, just to let you know I was here, a stranger, admiring your writing...
from stealmypurse :
Well well, I capitalize my letters because thought Mr. Jefferson was a genius, he also slept with his slaves. Perhaps I don't want to be put in the same category as him. Yes, I am sure he would have us shipped off somewhere, but I think we would be going there in tight white jackets with armholes sewed into the chest. Or at least me I guess. Yes I write more just to be able to check my notes. How in the world did you know such a creepy thing? Are you using spyware of some kind? Damnit, you just got the gov't off your case, don't start something. Ahha. I kill me. I am glad that you are being charmed by my humble wisdom. Now, I will go and write all about the concert. Tis a funny entry. Or at least I will make it funny. Toodles.
from clawfoottub :
my life in a nutshell - superficially great. living comfortably, nice car, dean's list, somewhat loving family most of the time. my life is rarely scary in the truest sense of the word, and seldom awful. in fact, i know it to be much better than others. similar to you, my mother was verbally abusive when i was a child. sometimes intentional, sometimes not, but always under the guise of "constructive criticism." being raised with that every single day of my childhood has left me a rather introverted, anal person. the few times i actually DO have a positive social experience, i come home and lay awake at night analyzing, thinking how i could have made it better, and nitpicking things i did wrong. in turn, all of the negative social experiences are because i am of course, less than a normal person (devil's advocate. i know all of this is bullshit, but i still can't help believing it). most of the time i just stay quiet in public to prevent any of this anxiety at all, but then of course there's the anxiety of not having done anything at all. all of this, of course, was learned behavior from my mom. when i would make a mistake as a child and say, "i didn't mean to," her reply every single time was, "did you mean not to?" and it is exactly this that has been ingrained into me and will NOT let me just relax and enjoy things. i guess you could say the "stress" that causes these dreams all the time is anxiety caused from "meaning not to" too hard, and being disgusted with myself when i don't "mean not to" hard enough. basically i've just been raised to be a very on edge, anxious person. sorry for filling up your whole notes page. :)
from stealmypurse :
There we go, friend. Now that wasn't so hard. Admitting I am wise. Nice touch. Thank you very much. I don't know if wise is the word persay. Snarky and bullheaded works too. If that is where wisdom comes from, bring it on! Seriously though, thank you for the many compliments as usual. Have a great day and keep in touch. Toodles.
from invisibledon :
really enjoyed the entry about sarah
from stealmypurse :
First off, I don't think anyone reads my notes. Who cares what they others think. They are my friends. If they are worried about you writing everyday they would have said something by now. Don't fret. It's really alright. I loved your Yorkie joke. I will take your being the one to call first advice. Sounds good to me. Dash it all if they choose to be silent about it. Whatever, amen. Ok, I won't call you friend anymore if it makes you uneasy. I'm not screaming it from any mountaintops or anything so don't get your grundies in a bundle. Have a great evening on me. Toodles.
from clawfoottub :
re: dreams. i don't dream every night, but i would say 99% of my dreams are bad, the other 1% being dreams that make me anxious/uncomfortable. in short, i do not have good dreams. in the grand scheme of things this doesn't really make me feel one way or the other except frustrated that i can't seem to get a good night's sleep. i liked your story today.
from impetuousme :
everyone, to see what the crazy lady "bad_writer" is talking about, please check out http://sundry.diaryland.com... in the individual notes section at the bottom of her posts... over the past couple weeks. To be clear, "bad-writer" is NOT Sundry. She's just this pyscho that has been harassing me (in the guise of "protecing" Sundry.) And if you visit her site, you'll see her nick-name is in fact correct. Also, please note that "bad-writer" makes sure you can't note to HER directly. Hmmmmm? What does this MEAN? And, plese feel free to post or write your feelings on this.
from invisibledon :
thankfully I don't have a wife to waste ... ah i mean spend my money on things, been there done that before - I was instantly smitten with the micro bikini girl she is... well all that
from bad-writer :
The domain "pathetic fuck" is being held for you, bud. What's up with you dude? Are you so lonely and miserable and bored with life that this is the best you can come up with to amuse yourself? Trashing another diarist using transparent aliases while continuing to obsess about her adds up to creepy shit. Not funny, not clever. It's obvious that you're a stay at home parasite more interested in perpetuating your insanity than taking responsibility for it. Such people are usually friendless and you strike a lot of us as majorly deprived of companions. Andrew has banned assholes like you before. What makes you think he won't ban you? Maybe instead of obsessing about diarists you don't know and will never meet, you can watch soaps until your momma comes home with the bacon for her little boy.
from clawfoottub :
i can relate on the dreams thing. i have them all. the. time.
from stealmypurse :
In Nov, we can email. Until then the occasional note will not hurt. Yes. The government has officially gotten off your trail. You can go back to smuggling immigrants into the US in the back of your van. Dinner with Grandmum went well, except for me wanting to shoot myself repeatedly. Mostly I just let her drone on about this and that. I know about p-o-y. Pieces of You correct? I have heard. Is that not a ring? Or something close to it? Anyway. I will check out Claro of Charo. Thank you for the info. Please feel free to write notes still. Smaller ones if nothing else. I consider you my friend yes. Sorry that is so hard for you to believe. Someday you will come to terms with it Obi-wan...Toodles.
from clawfoottub :
hi, there. i found you by way of sundry, and i've been reading you for a couple of weeks. i just wanted to let you know that i enjoy your ramblings and writings.
from stealmypurse :
1.)I understand your not budging on the five month thing. 2.)Thank you once more for the wonderful compliments to my humor 3.) I like dark artsy movies. 4.)Not entirely your fault. Genetics played a huge part. 5.)I will never send you money as I have none to send to myself. 6.)Yes I update more because you were so persistent on that fact. 7.)Irish men are not always like my father thank bob. 8.)I will always have not so good memories but at least they are something and 9.)You're an amazing friend even if it is not yet legal to call you so. Don't worry old chum, the goverment is not watching this site. I would know, I work for it. Ahaha. Good day and write me another note if you want. Toodles.
from stealmypurse :
I am jealous of this new girl friend of yours myself. A fair duffing-up is in order if she takes my place as the funniest girl at diaryland. Hope you are having a wonderful day that does not include running over deer or pastel wearing blondes. Toodles.
from ashtraygurl :
now i have to come up with other questions...
from ashtraygurl :
ray, a drop of golden sun...
from stealmypurse :
Here's the deal. You can officially add me to your faves on November Twenty-third at quarter after nine at night. That is when I will be of legal tender. Thank you so much for saying I am the funniest person. Yes of course you would be on the front page you are a huge ego boost to me. Plus your diary is the shiz. I added you to my profile too so you are doubly blessed. Thank God, Buddha, Allah, Jehovah, aliens or whoever for that. Or you know.. don't. I will tell my mother that my friend already is taking care of distracting the Arabs for us. She will probably try to get you cananized. I updated twice today. So dance about it or something. NO really. I mean it. DANCE. Ok stop you are making me dizzy. I love getting notes from you. They make my day so much more exciting. Plus as I have said countless times, they are long and almost like a letter. I love letters. But I don't like love letters. Well I must go and finish cleaning THE PIT OF DESPAIR AND LOST PANTIES. Do not fear, I have enough pairs to sufficiently last me until I am well into incontinence briefs. Not that you cared to know that or anything. Toodles!
from stealmypurse :
You are a nice person. The reason I have not added you is because I am not quite eighteen and I thought if I waited it would not look so statutory on both our parts. Just kidding doll. I am sorry I do not update more often is because I have a lot of things I have to do. My health is just one of the many problems around here. This summer my mum as enlisted me to be the cleaner of the whole house all day everyday. Plus she calls me constantly to see if I ate or some other minute detail. I cannot be tying up the phoneline otherwise she thinks I am contacting the Arabs and telling them to bomb our house or something. My mum is a paranoid schizophrenic you see. No lie. Perhaps I will update twice on a good day. Otherwise it will just turn into me writing what I did. You will find entries about me sneezing pretty soon if I updated forty times. My life really is not that interesting. Perhaps that is why I take the mundane things that I can use as material and make them pull in a funny direction. Thank you for saying I am one of your favorite journals. I will try to update more and find a better layout from a different site. Thanks loads and keep in touch. Your notes are the most mail I have ever gotten.
from ashtraygurl :
i like this, feels gritty and real.
from stealmypurse :
Don't worry. I am going back to get another layout now. I know enough about html to not copy another diarist's layout. In the past, I did that and the diarist chewed me out. I prefer an image in my layout. So I am going to find something we can both agree on. I loved my last layout. Perhaps I will find something closer to what I had with better font. Let's keep our fingers crossed. Yes? Alright, thank you for the input and the help. Keep on reading and look for the next layout to tell me what you think about it. Your opinion matters. You might think I am being sarcastic, but I truly mean it. Have a great day!
from favoritegirl :
this was an especially pleasant piece to wake up and read.
from stealmypurse :
I apologize at the layout bothering you once again. I will try hard to look for a new layout that we can both agree on and that will bring in more readers. My intention through my diary is not to bring in thousands or even hundreds of readers. My intention is to place my daily thoughts into a place where no one can stumble upon it from my day-to-day life unless I give them the address. As for being a minor, that will all change soon enough as I am almost eighteen. I do not think it should matter what age I am, so long as I have a maturity level above the age of puberty. Which I believe I do. However, if that is the way you feel then I honor your opinion. No, I have not gotten around to adding you. Thank you for telling me I have a talent. I don't know if a blogging talent is really something I can use in life, but if I can I am glad to have someone find it for me so early. Yes, I will add you and read you often. Now, if you excuse me I am going to go and look for a layout that we can both agree on. Thank you once again for bringing these things to my attention. Ciao.
from favoritegirl :
well, then we'd probably have lots of nuthouse stories to trade! (which only makes me feel all the more safe with you).
from p-o-y :
Welcome to Pieces Of You!
from stealmypurse :
I know about the graphic getting in the way. Sorry about that. I don't know enough about html to change that. As for the font, I love it. Though I am a bit sad to hear you have trouble reading it. I might change it in the future when I get bored with it, but for right now it stays. Please come back and visit if you can stand the ugly graphics and the terrible font. I am going to add you to my favorites for now. Toodles.<3
from invisibledon :
thanks for the comment on my entry and no problem on the link - look forward to reading posts you submit.
from ashtraygurl :
beautiful.
from favoritegirl :
thanks for the hint...that is a really good idea, i can't believe i never thought about that! about the sc, it's squamous cell, which, while being a little more risky than basal cell, they basically just cut it off. it's me own fault anyhoo, i'm the ass who lays out in the sun and otherwise fries myself! btw, i really enjoyed that entry about the garbage. your diary's great, i'm definitely going to keep reading.
from ashtraygurl :
you've just multiplied my paranoia by, oh, say 1000. thanks for that :)...xoxo...Lauren
from invisibledon :
have a great weekend !!!!
from liar-by-rote :
no, thank YOU. ;)
from invisibledon :
Rachel was a girl I lived with a long time ago who took her life and I was the one who found her.
from invisibledon :
thanks my life hurts me sometimes just living it - I too know about the risk of squirting a child with a squirt gun - hell hath no fury like a child squirted.
from pridegrl :
love the song. love it.
from pridegrl :
what????!
from drollwit :
you are insane. But in a good way. I can't wait to see what you post next.
from pridegrl :
please, just don't let go. 'cause i'm falling, hard and fast. my smile has hardened into a cast; a mask to people-please. but my heart is crying, and i'm back to crawling...
from pridegrl :
hey, how was your holiday weekend? do anything special? thanks for checking in on me...i was vacationing in Arizona. Home safe, now.
from bad-writer :
Dude, I saw your entry in Sundry's comments and visited your site and read a couple of entries; the one about Sundry and the one you wrote about meeting someone from the Internet (me thinks that girl might regret having agreed to meet you at all). Speaking as someone who is a well-balanced fan of several diarists, if I were the object of your particular type of fandom, a post like yours would scare the living shit out of me. Why in god's name would you write all this stuff about someone you do not know and aren't likely to meet because you're offensive and crude and low on social skills? Get a fucking grip.
from invisibledon :
I did read an entry - pulled you off the Virginia People with diaries list
from invisibledon :
happy tuesday
from meltlikesnow :
Hi! I just wanted to let you know that I really appreciated your note in my diary. It's nice to know that some people read what I have to say. Thanks for your nice words.
from impetuousme :
hey dude... cool site

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