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from octoberbloom :
what?
from i-lost-sarah :
... i'm baaaack hm, that's not quite as creepy in text.
from paperskies :
Hey hun. I've got a favour to ask. Would you mind deeting this diary from your friends list, please? I'm gonna make this a private diary. Keep OctoberBloom, though, I'm still there :D. Miss you, Phil xxx
from octoberbloom :
Oh yay, you updated. *waves a flag* Talking about flags, are you talking about *football* in your latest entry? Or soccer, if you call it soccer there. Well, if so, shame on you. :P Anyway, I miss our chats, and I hope you're well. *hugs* Phil xxx
from octoberbloom :
*cracks up* Oh hun, I loves ya. P xxx
from octoberbloom :
Cheeky git, deleting me from your friends. I'm shocked at you. P xxx
from resrap :
Hey you, I am back! Under resrap, not just-onebody. Just-onebody has closed shop. I look forward to keeping in contact with you :)
from ethereal-red :
username: diet password: coke
from octoberbloom :
I am. I realised how much I need somewhere to vent, so here I am.
from dimstar :
I wish you would come back :(
from ethereal-red :
:)
from ethereal-red :
Thanks for the note! Thanks for adding me as a favorite also. Have a good day!
from newgyptian :
Everything is alright ya basha...thanks for asking. Things are good actually. every once in a while I sit down to write, but nothing comes to me. maybe it's time for a new diary? a new start for a new, more positive phase in my life. We'll see.
from i-lost-sarah :
rage is self-destructive and icky. typing is constructive and sounds comforting sometimes. *nod*
from octoberbloom :
Hey hun, Phil here. I decided to get a new diary. Yeah, I know I do that a lot, but I can't help it. I get bored so easily. I rather like tis one though, it feels right. I even like updating in it. :) Anyway, say hello and add me back. *hugs* Phil xxx
from i-lost-sarah :
that's exactly my point: you are what you DECIDE to do, her whole life-- my grandmother let society and etiquette make those decisions for her, and now she's free from that, whether she knows it or not. and i have no idea what "sith" is
from dinosaurcake :
Holy shit, it's an update! And fuck Auckland City? What did Auckland ever do to you?
from dinosaurcake :
Well, thanks for letting me know I'm missed... but when was the last time you updated? Aha, it's SIXTY-FIVE DAYS ago. I've been busy, I guess. And lazy. What's your excuse?
from i-lost-sarah :
lying is GENDERLESS hmph! and what on earth goes on in your life, i dont understand your entries at all-- you spend more time commenting on other peoples diaries than you do updating yours :)
from newgyptian :
Thanks ya Infinity...that was some pretty solid advice. It does just come down to the money issue, and I really hate being in debt, so... But don't be so sure about finding pretty boys. I have less luck with it than I let on. ;-)
from just-onebody :
Re: Your latest note and your profile. Hilarious! Can always count on you to make me laugh.
from i-lost-sarah :
thanks for the conspiracy theory-- i'm just concerned with my casualties and my poor lebanese friend who was visiting and has no way to get home now *sigh*
from dirtypetals :
*smacks you right between the eyes* Random, I know. Don't mind me. How are ya? Missed you, recently. Who left you a threatening comment? *hugs tight* Love Phyllis xxx
from dinosaurcake :
I don't think I'm being unfair at all. Those two albums lacked... their signature funk? And anyway, I figure I can be as unfair as I want, because they're rich and famous and don't care what I think because they laugh all the way to the bank with my money.
from i-lost-sarah :
i may quote dr. evil and name my belly, but YOU sir, discuss the origins of phrases like "Ladies first" (I'm guessing it started right about the time the booty fetish did)and take half nekkid pics of your (remarkably toned) brother-- although-- i'd definately beat you if we were measured on a giant cosmic weirdness scale, i mean just based on pure genetics alone, i'm pretty cuckoo
from dinosaurcake :
You know, sometimes I don't know what your notes are about at all. But that's ok, because I'm losing my mind anyway.
from i-lost-sarah :
you list both as your favorite music? por que? you really are quite eclectic
from i-lost-sarah :
ok seriously death metal... and vanessa carlton?! i demand an explanation.
from just-onebody :
Thank you for taking my desire for a emotion-sensitive template seriously and giving me practical advice on it :)
from just-onebody :
Because I don't express myself well. Like there's too much mystery and too little explanations.
from just-onebody :
Because I don't express myself well. Like there's too much mystery and too little explanations.
from newgyptian :
Well, I was sort of kidding about the exclusively messing around thing. I just don't like these guys who want to go from knowing you for five minutes to getting engage. I'm not ready to get married! Leave me alone! :)
from dinosaurcake :
Yeah you're right, it's really not. Let's call it extra research.
from dirtypetals :
You're an idiot, Muhammad.
from i-lost-sarah :
you seem intelligents?! (i just reread my note-- i speak london very best :S) you're failing something-- is this possible?! is it astrophysics or something?
from i-lost-sarah :
HEH-- more assignments, let me think about that... hmmm... HOW BOUT NO?! i'm tearing my hair out (not literally cause...well...baldness is only cool on guys and even then...its a hard look to pull off) because i'm FAILING ARABIC and and... i've shamed my people. :( Good luck with your assignments, although you seem pretty intelligents so you probably dont need it.
from i-lost-sarah :
all blogs are a form of therapy/indulgence so YES my blog is my online whine session i admit it i'm not proud-- actually yes i am :))) so i can't punch, my kicks are only aesthetically useful but i still have the power of the "Eeeeehhhhh" Also-- I never need any reason/excuse to kick Ivy League ass--purely by virtue of their EXISTANCE they're evil
from newgyptian :
it's not necessarily wrong, it's just probably wrong for me. other than all the reasons you mentioned (none of which appealed to me), i feel like my freedom would be limited. and that's something i cannot handle.
from dinosaurcake :
Well, things might be different here, but it's hard to walk through the city without passing several stores selling the toys I'm talking about. Not to mention there's the wonderful internet off which to buy things. I'd say toys are almost as easy to find as videos.
from dirtypetals :
Hey sweetie, I'm back. Well actually, I got back the day before yesterday. I've rested a little, but I'm still tired. The plane almost crashed. That's not an exaggeration, either. Anyway, I miss you, and I'll write in my diary again soon, I promise. Love ya! Take care *hugs* Phil xxx
from newgyptian :
Oh, here is a link for a lot of good pictures from after the game: http://goodcough.smugmug.com/gallery/1194848/1/55891249
from newgyptian :
Thanks for the travel advice. I think I agree with you - I'll wait on India. Also, I've been living in Egypt for two years, and visiting it for over 20, and I still haven't been to the south, so I think I should seize my opportunity now and GO! As for the songs - I think the only one I actually know is Pink's "God is a DJ", so I guess that would be a good one. So, you think I'm aloof, huh? Hahaha. What makes you say that? (I mean, I think I can be, but does it shine through in my writing? Interesting...) :)
from just-onebody :
Goodness what a long entry, I'll take my time with it.
from newgyptian :
You know, right after I left that last note I realized the perfect song to dedicate - Metallica's version of "Tuesday's Gone". But, alas, I had no way of knowing if you would hear it. Consider it dedicated though. :) Also, yeah, listening to radio/music is best done in the car. It's that fact alone that has gotten me to drive more even though I don't like it that much.
from newgyptian :
It was Coldplay's "Warning Sign". You listen to Nile FM, Infinity? I'll dedicate a song to you. :) What would you like? Also, I'll see about those pictures. I don't have many good ones, but I'll see what my brother managed to get.
from newgyptian :
I have no idea where the quote is from but....Mabrouk ya Infinity!!!!!!!! Your warlock did good work! :) "tuktuktuk Masr!"
from newgyptian :
Infinity! Tell your warlock I'm glad he let us win, but it would be nice if Mido wasn't such an ass and if our team could actually play properly against a good team like Senegal. Ask the warlock if he can make the Egyptian team make us proud tomorrow. Please!!!!
from just-onebody :
Yes, I think you have a 0-0 chance of going "Holywood", though you can have a 1-1 chance of going there if you create your own "Holywood", which is not bad at all.
from just-onebody :
My humor nowadays is quite wry. Alas.
from just-onebody :
"... it's like you have a hashish factory or something, I'm surpried you never were arrested." I forgot how hilarious you are! My goodness, your entry sent me in cardiac hysterics!
from newgyptian :
Please, feel free to take over my notes. :) You're the only one who leaves me notes, and practically the only one who comments. It gets kind of sad writing to a void. It's nice to have feedback and know someone is "listening".
from dirtypetals :
Yeah, I did it on purpose, and no, not really. I will be, though. How are you doing?
from just-onebody :
OPPS, HAHA HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 2006 WILL BE GREAT FOR INFINITYFYE!!!
from newgyptian :
wait, someone said something about sharon when the earthquake struck? also, hilary duff = love of my life. :-p
from dinosaurcake :
You THINK you like dogs better. Doesn't sound very convincing to me.
from dinosaurcake :
If you treat a cat badly, you have to earn back its trust. Have you ever had a cat?
from dirtypetals :
Thanks. I seriously doubt I'll want to come back home. Phil xxx
from just-onebody :
One word that describes Infinityfye as I know him through Diaryland and MSN: 'searching'.
from newgyptian :
Thanks Infinity. Happy New Year to you too. As for the details...I get conflicting feedback about that. Some of my friends tell me it's boring to hear all those details. Mostly though I think I will try to keep some of the agonizing I did last year out of the diary this year.
from just-onebody :
Oi. Cool it on the porno fantasy okay?
from newgyptian :
Well, I figured that "her" or "she" was someone important in your life, just didn't know to what level. Anyway, sorry to hear about it. :(
from newgyptian :
Well, Walid the Doctor (haha, it's like that's his "ism thulathi", Walid al-Tabib) said that he wanted to talk to me more privately, even though he initially claimed that he does not like "gawaz salonat". It doesn't matter what Walid has to say...I'm not going to lead him on any more than I feel I already have. Also, his sister is a bit older, and kind of mothering towards him it seems. In fact, she's kind of a big part of my lack of interest in him. Oh well...maybe I should advise him not to bring his sister along on future marriage ventures. Also, sorry to hear about "her" leaving.
from dinosaurcake :
Apparently, if a perfect person died, they would in fact automatically go to heaven. Only thing is, being perfect is impossible.
from just-onebody :
You serious about buying guns to shoot people that pissed you off?! How's that going to affect the equilibrium?
from just-onebody :
Okay.
from dinosaurcake :
Well, I didn't expect anything back from the jellyfish, and I'm sure I made a difference for them. That was a damn long note.
from just-onebody :
Translation please! Is it Japanese?
from just-onebody :
Translation please! Is it Japanese?
from just-onebody :
Yes I did, in fact the 2nd entry with my many faces on it. Hah.
from newgyptian :
Thanks for the comment on the layout. I meant the drawing with the little dude hanging himself at the end, but I think the tiger thing is pretty cool too. :)
from just-onebody :
Ooo...hot diary rydah.
from just-onebody :
The password's very pretty :)
from just-onebody :
Issit? Ok I'll check my email.
from catfish19 :
Well, I hardly think it's fair for me to keep writing for you when you've gone and locked your diary, huh? But seriously, the chances of me coming back are greater than you think. I sometimes want anonymity, and all my LJ friends know me in real life. I'm just having a break.
from just-onebody :
Oit..are you planning to give me a password?
from newgyptian :
Well, there's some trick to that sonic pong thing then. Eid Mubarak...and can I have the pass to your diary?
from just-onebody :
HAPPY RAMADAN!
from newgyptian :
It doesn't feel like anything. I don't know how it works, but it's not like you feel the electricity flowing through you. It must be a very low voltage or something.
from just-onebody :
cheeky/prissy
from just-onebody :
No it didn't...I'll type more on that incident, this time less cryptic.
from just-onebody :
Are you interested in my writing or my sexy teacher? Anyway, this is great: "It’s been 3 years and you still don’t know shit about me, especially my relation ship with my sexy bottle of dark Jamaican rum."
from just-onebody :
Yeah.
from just-onebody :
I need as much force as I can get.
from catfish19 :
You might think that I wasn't depressed, but the fact is you're not the one who's had to live in my head for the past eight years (and nor have you even met me). Risk-taking, for me, was not about thrill-seeking. I wanted to die, plain and simple, and everyone around me knew things weren't right for me. I was withdrawn and I was depressed.
from newgyptian :
I am ashamed to say that, yes, lately I have been looking in the mirror a lot. But usually I am not so bad. I would agree that it is a mental state of mind except that I have been very even-keeled lately. Hmm...
from newgyptian :
What I was trying to say is...Cairo's pollution has me breaking out like I never actually did when I was 13. I am spotty-faced, and I'm not happy about it. But in light of world events, I'm learning it's not so bad.
from catfish19 :
I'm sorry... It's nice to know someone cares if I write or not, but if I feel like telling people about my life these days, I'm more likely to use my Livejournal. It's because more people read that one, and really, it's all about numbers... isn't it?
from dimstar :
You write truth. Don't ever stop. I really hope things start getting better in our world, but I fear they won't. Take care. ~Gwen
from just-onebody :
Yeah. I notice every bit of him. AND I WANT TO.
from just-onebody :
It'll come along.
from falleninlies :
Yep, I know you didn't tell me to. I wasn't to speaking to you in the entry, I was talking to someone else. Silly.
from resrap :
HAHA BRAVO!!! Like the new entry man! It was hysterical as usual.
from resrap :
HAHA BRAVO!!! Like the new entry man! It was hysterical as usual.
from catfish19 :
Oh, I remember getting cabs in Alexandria! As someone who's navigated public transport in 13 countries, the only worse places to take a taxi were Kuala Lumpur, Delhi and (yes) Cairo. I've heard Rio's the worst though. I'll have to go and see for myself.
from newgyptian :
Hahaha. Great entry, that. But...you know maybe the cabbies in Cairo are wiser. I actually like talking to them most of the time. Then again, maybe they're more polite and intelligent-sounding because I'm a girl. Anyway, good to have you back for a few entries.
from dimstar :
I miss you. I hope you are alright. For some reason I worry about you, and you will probably scoff at that but I do. Take care of yourself. ~Gwen
from resrap :
man, tx for keeping up with my new diary...i dun have the answers rite now but ur note meant a lot cos it shows u understood where i was coming from with all that, and ur encouragement, it's pretty insightful..tx man. i needed tt.
from dimstar :
There is a God, no doubt lies in my mind. What rage filled you in that last entry? Never have I read one by you that seemed so enraged. It left me a bit concerned for you. And the donating blood... I feel like it was the one good thing I could do, to pass on life, and they sent me away, basically told me I was good for nothing. It hurt. Take care of yourself. You are much more than this. Amongst the divine philosophers on your level of critical thinking I should say. ~Gwen
from catfish19 :
Orders were being taken, but unfortunately they're all out of stock due to popular demand.
from resrap :
That movie with Mandy Moore? She's very pretty.
from resrap :
Fye, I want you to agree with me on Jeff Hardy. Btw, why don't you?
from resrap :
Is the devil the Fucking Killer? Or....God?
from resrap :
Smart people try to outsmart each other. How true, (smiles).
from resrap :
Thanks for saying that I'm brave. And you are not going to have a nervous breakdown or whatsoever, because I'm still standing, and as long as this friend over here in Singapore still stands, you know there's at least one person out there who's praying for you. I rebuke that nervous breakdown. Go away from Hegazi.
from resrap :
Your note is perfect. God bless them.
from dimstar :
Thank you, honestly. You are too kind as well. I hope that you update soon, but do it when you feel like :) ~Gwen
from dimstar :
Your writings are beautiful; they speak the truth.
from resrap :
Update, or your life!
from catfish19 :
yes, i am afraid they are.
from catfish19 :
Yes, I do want to smack him. And then kick him where it really hurts, come to think of it.
from resrap :
Stop punching people in the face fye, they'll tell their Moms.
from resrap :
You are who you are, that's what makes you funny! It's kinda rude to kill people but it's funny nonetheless that you should mention it. Fye lives!
from resrap :
You have this rude attitude that cracks me up! Everytime..
from resrap :
Re: Latest entry. Awesome.
from falleninlies :
Lol *hugs* Bless you. lol. Us Librans gotta stick together. lol. Anyway, it didn't really bother me that much, well except for the bit about writing half truths and stuff...
from resrap :
You know what I love most about your entries? They're very honest, you say things from the heart. It sounds like you held nothing back. And the best part is, they always have a ring of truth to it. "Oh, yeah, felt that." You'e right. Awed at the last part: hope your ghosts are better than you (paraphrasing).
from falleninlies :
*hugs* Thanks sweetie. Oh, and I agree with the last person. Update some more. lol. *hugs tons* Phil xxx
from resrap :
Update? Check.
from resrap :
I know this sounds selfish, on account that you have better things to do, but update more ok?
from resrap :
Chuck Palahniuk of Fight Club fame.
from resrap :
I know you're feeling sad at something and hurt, but the writing is more funny than any of those things. Fye!!? Plugging a CD's worth of memorable songs into your ass is not a good idea..if it's not physically painful, it'll "fuck with your chest". Really. I say, you're the new Chuck! Toast?
from catfish19 :
Well, I start to laugh then realise it's not funny at all. People actually BELIEVE that shit.
from cymbalmonkey :
I miss you, too! I'm sorry I haven't written in so long, but I'm kind of in a trauma where I can't use the internet! i'll update soon! I promise! God Bless!
from falleninlies :
*is wondering why you signed on msn, then signed back out again* Have I done something wrong?
from falleninlies :
Heya hunni, how are you doing? I miss you, haven't spoken to you in ages. Have you changed your email addy? Anyway, I hope we get to talk again soon. Love ya! Phil xxx
from resrap :
Your recent entry is refreshing to hear.
from confused666 :
*hugs you tons* Glad you like it hun. *hugs* Phil xxx
from catfish19 :
For the climate.
from newgyptian :
Sorry to disappoint about not including any pop culture references. :) As for the cutting and thoughts of suicide...these are things I used to indulge in as well at some point when I was younger. Thankfully, I was able to get out of it. It was a long process, but it helped to release myself from all self-imposed pressures and responsibility if that makes sense. I was always so worried about my family and the society around me, and I do still worry about those things. But I also now realize that I can do without those things if forced to (though I also hope never to be forced to). Sometimes, the key is to realize that time is not as short as everyone tells you it is. From our young standpoint now a year or two or even five seems like forever to endure a bad situation, or a cloudy state of mind, but in the grand scheme of things, in the relatively long life one can lead nowadays, those few years won't even make a dent. It's not (just) that suicide is stupid or selfish. It's that there are other options. Stick around, so you can tell the world to fuck off over and over again. Set yourself free.
from resrap :
It's true what catfish said. I won't insult your intelligence by saying that suicide is dumb. I myself was tempted and I can really empathise with that helpless/depressed/tired feeling you get when you think life holds nothing for you and that you're a failure. Hmm. I recommend you this book: Opening the door of your heart by Ajahn Brahm. It's written by a Buddhist. In it says, "People have never been taught how to be happy. In school, we learn how to draw, how to count, how to play the guitar, etc. Happiness is mental energy, freedom in being content with whoever you are. Depression is how you react to life, and not the problems in life. Joy is celebrating what you have and stress is focusing on your own faults and those of others. If you crack your head, smile and it'll hurt less." I hope you learn to appreciate life like I've done. Don't focus on the negative. And Life is a gift, infinityfye, please tell yourself that.
from catfish19 :
Ok, fair enough.
from catfish19 :
Because unlike fifty years ago, nobody taught us the importance of investing time and effort in achieving results we won't see immediately. I hardly know what to say about the cutting. I know it feels like it helps to feel the pain physically and I don't know why you're doing it, and I don't want to insult your intelligence by saying there are better ways to deal. But are you talking to anyone?
from falleninlies :
Oh god...you cut? Oh, I'm so sorry hun. I just kept ranting about my problems before. Why didn't you tell me? *hugs you tons* You know you have me, right?
from resrap :
So are you hopping on the next bus?
from falleninlies :
Thankyou, that's sweet. It helped I think. *hugs* Phil xxx
from catfish19 :
Ok, you know your zombies. Very impressed! As for the idea of my opinion having any influence at all on the political ideas of Americans - the ones I argued with (admittedly few, I was mainly friends with Kerry backers) all laughed in my face and asked me what right I had to assume I knew a thing about what was good for America, being a non-citizen. Not one would listen to me when I said it's not just America's best interest at stake when they vote, or that the liberal ideas Bush deplores work fantastically well in my country. Ultimately, I've been forced into the conclusion that the majority of Americans don't care about a thing outside of their own land other than Chinese and Indian takeout food.
from newgyptian :
you disagree? i feel like it takes a lot to get people moving here, don't you? btw, i can't tell do you currently live in egypt? interested to hear your thoughts.
from catfish19 :
I would have joined Kerry's campaign if I had been in one place long enough and believed that the opinion of a foreigner could actually impact on the political views of Americans.
from resrap :
Ok.
from resrap :
Start with the little things...start with the little things...
from falleninlies :
Someone told me a story once...about how the leaves die. About how they fall. I just sorta twisted some personal stuff in it...it's not easy to understand...you had to know what had been said. Lets just say, it hit me hard. I'm home btw. I can't wait till I get to talk to you again on msn. I've missed you.
from resrap :
Yup, I understood completely it was not about the looks. It's something along the lines of emotional scarring...rite? That's why I recommended the irreverent haircut..it's a simple physical change but it can change how you feel inside. Or: Put your right hand on your left shoulder; put your left hand on your right shoulder. That's a big HUG for you. Saying this in my mother tongue: "Selamat Berpuasa"/happy fasting.
from resrap :
Quote: "who would have the guts to get in a relationship with a loony–that I have turned to?" You changed from A to B. So what? It just shows that you have the power to change, to A, and even C. Get your act together. No girl will want a looney, let alone the burden of pacifying self-pity. Get a haircut. Something as simple as a haircut can change how a man feels inside. And happy fasting.
from falleninlies :
? huh? Thanks. But I don't see what you mean. lol. (Is tired)
from falleninlies :
Heehee, no worries, sorry I confused you too. lol. (If I did) *hugs* Talk soon, Phil xxx
from falleninlies :
Meh...I miss you, email me? I'm kinda lonely... I dunno, maybe I'm not ready. In a big city on my own...in a place I've never been, I thought I could take that, but I'm so lonely now. I hope we can talk soon. Miss you tons. Much love, Phil xxx
from resrap :
Re:"That was when I realized that poetry is not about the words... and sometimes not even the meanings they confine. But there is something else... something beautiful... like an inner city of complex feelings screaming to get out of their prison, their prison of stanzas and words. They only get free when we feel them, when we discover something new every time we read them. And of course after the translation it was no longer a sonnet it was a badly made pie of strange words that doesn't go together." I feel that way too about Tarkan's songs. Translated thay didn't hold much value for me. But when sung, it acts as a catalyst for me to dream big things. Where there's honesty, there's laughter. I laughed a barrel looking back at the entries had missed. The refreshed soul bit was brutal.
from falleninlies :
I came onlinnnnnnnnnnnnne. But you left as soon as i did!! *sulks* Meh, you know i love ya really. Hope i get to talk to you again soon. *hugs*
from falleninlies :
*pokes*
from falleninlies :
Meh, i dunno why, but i really hate it when you just sorta dissapear like that.... Stay in touch eh? Much love and hugs, Phil xxx
from falleninlies :
Heya!!! I just thought I'd pop in and say Hi. I'm already missing the internet and talking. lol. *cough*imageek*cough* lol Anyway, miss ya, hope to talk to you soon. Will be back again monday. *hugs you lots* Phil xxx
from resrap :
I miss the days when I write as brutally honest as you did in the recent entry. It has really touched something significant.
from falleninlies :
Yes you should do something!! I said you should see a doctor. Anyway, talk to you in a week. (I hope) Lotsa love, Phil xxx
from falleninlies :
Heya *hugs* What was with the whole internet dissapearing act? lol. I hope you don't have that awkward 'Talking after anger' feeling. Anyway, reaally wanna speak to you properly soon. I miss our stuidc questions. lol. *hugs* Phil xxx
from falleninlies :
Awww, It's ok. You weren't to know. Didn't you know about Arachnaphobia? lol. Fear of arachnids. It's irrational. Of cours you're forgiven. *hugs you lots* Oh...and thanks. *Grins* I WAS kinda mad. Hahaha. (I mean Angry) Lololol. Luv, Phil xxx
from falleninlies :
Look, read my newest entry, but don't get mad half way through, read to the bottom. k? Please? Luff ya. ^_~ Phil xxx (Who wishes you were actually online)
from falleninlies :
You know what..i didn't think you could dissapoint me so much. Fine it may not be your fear, but it is still scary to me. So much for supportive! Laugh all you want. I don't give a fuck...
from falleninlies :
Heehee.*Hugs* Thanks. *Agree's that Jude Law is hot* Sorry, just had to add that. Hope i get to talk to you soon, Luv n hugs, Phil xxx
from cymbalmonkey :
Why, umm.... you're welcome.... & why are you Jude Law? (He's freaking hott!)
from falleninlies :
Yeah, i can always talk to you. Wait..i do always talk to you. lol
from cymbalmonkey :
That was pretty interesting.... Sorry, I was just looking around on d-land & found you! ~Karen
from falleninlies :
Coome onlinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnneeeeeeee! Heehee, *sulks* Oh well. Hope to talk to you soon. I gotta tell you summat. *hugs you lots* Love Phil xxx
from resrap :
haha yup, mosa, not isa!!
from resrap :
Re: Donkey Shit. Wow...so much energy, it's almost anarchist. You can be the next Chuck. Re: "week willed folk". WeAk or weEk? Nonetheless, (standing ovation).
from resrap :
No, no just read this: http://www.seizureandy.com/stuff/guts.html
from resrap :
Re: Demons. What the...??? (prolonged laughter) Niway, stupid boys are demons. Read my latest entry.
from resrap :
Re: email. I use both, one for school and one for friends. So email me at blainey_d@hotmail.com ok?
from resrap :
Re: Sufis as imposters and blasphemers. Really? I read about them in Time magazine and I was somewhat influenced by an author's romantic take on the Sufis. But I'm really glad you shed a light on (some of) them. And you should know better than I do.
from resrap :
That's interesting, how you said you can't sense the divine in Cheb's voice. So does that mean other singers sing like him too? Or am I just being a girl with oestrogen?
from resrap :
Heard of youm wara youm?
from resrap :
Know the Sufis? Their love for Allah is so overflowing that they express it in dance, music, and poetry, which inspires other down the line...well, I was first religiously smitten with God (purely agape love) when I heard Cheb Mami sing those lines from Desert Rose. And subsequently, when I hear that Cheb's voice in other songs, I can never bring myself to say that I fell in love with that man. I'm still in love with that voice, and everytime I hear it I'm reminded of the beauty Allah is capable of.
from resrap :
"Just because of a small book of philosophy the way of thinking of an Egyptian holy man." He's a hermit, is it? Can you be more specific I'm really interested in doing some reading up on this for my general paper..:)
from resrap :
"...taking money from helpless people, sit at home and do nothing and all the other crap all more efficiently and creatively." Shit, I missed this one and it sounds like the joke of the century.
from resrap :
You see? I can't stop going back to your blog! Everytime I read it I find something I that I missed. Something new and...profound. Really, really, I'm not trying to pet your ego or anything. I sincerely think this recent one should be cast in...Gold. The ideas.
from resrap :
Hahaha compared to nobody! Didn't mean to implicate you. HAHA it's still very funny the way you connect it to yourself, in BOLD. Maybe we're both front-liners to Hell. Dunno.
from resrap :
Hey you, what does the recent most title mean?
from resrap :
Yes!!!! Consulted with my grandma and this book and it says that I have a lot of sins...
from resrap :
Wow I like the recent entry. "Magnifico"?
from resrap :
No reason to miss me. I'm always here, there (depends on where you stand. After much soul searching, the diary is unlocked. And thanks for keeping yours unlocked, alright?
from darkself :
Heya, how're you doing? Sorry about my mood the other day on msn. Hope you're doing good. *hugs* Phil xxx
from darkself :
um...i thought you already had?
from resrap :
hey i emailed u my diary's password. check it out please, ok?
from resrap :
i c, i c. Well, there was tis time tt i tot i was really gg to die the next day, didn't know where it came frm, n i noticed tt i never thanked god enuf. u noe, make amends wit god be4 it's too late. so i'm just terrified 4 others as well. a bit paranoid but i mean well.
from darkself :
hahahahaha, thankyou so much. *hugs you* lol (im a litle slow today) *rolls eyes* lol. :D
from darkself :
um...WOW? huh? lol Anyway, how are you?
from resrap :
I'm sorry that girl said those things about you. If it were me, I will reflect on it, to see if there is some validity in the comments, and if I have the potential to change for the better, I will make the effort to do just that. But if you had think it through and still find it baseless, reject it, and forget about it. Don't let it beat you down. Because people are twice more willing to point out your mistakes than advise you to change for the better. And I should think that they cannot be totally correct all the time. If i can suggest something, I will like you to try it: ask God for Guidance. Ask Him for whatever questions you have because He best knows all the answers. Because we can easily ask the devil (ie, people) what he think of us, but most don't even think to ask God. I hope I make sense.
from darkself :
hahaha, dont worry, honestly. lol. you are not the first to think i was a guy. lol. i really dont mind. keep on rocking *hugs* phil xxx
from resrap :
Re: Talking to female friends. I talk to my granny best. I used to talk to my girlfriends all the time but I found out it's actually more bitching than talk and it tired me out. I don't do it anymore. I talk about superficial stuff. Or politics. Never about me or my feelings. Since three years ago. And since my feelings are usually volatile and unreliable. I don't trust them to take my feelings seriously cos I don't myself. Yup, but thinking is the best.
from darkself :
Heeeeeeee, thanks for what you wrote about me, and about my writing. just thought i'd let you know that im a girl though. lol ^_~ *hugs* phil xxx
from resrap :
Yup. It's the Pic tag that I couldn't get right. Tx for being so attentive. (big smile for u)
from darkself :
Hey, just diary hoppin. lol. i just wanted to say that your diary is really interesting and your profile is ace. keep on rocking, phil xxx
from resrap :
Opps. Dispensable. Dispensable!
from resrap :
Thank you for the note.
from resrap :
I see that I've been promoted to sane. But what is sanity? In my opinion it is just another collective consensus that follows the prevailing zeitgeist.
from resrap :
Your newest entry is really interesting. I thought about that once when I watched this science-fiction movie churned out by Hollywood.
from resrap :
I don't think when you look for fights, you're a schizo. You're a masochist. As opposed to sadist.
from resrap :
who is the fuck upstairs? God? :)
from resrap :
Hi. Are you really an Egypt national? I've never spoken to Egyptians b4. I'm surprised I enjoyed ur diary v.much. It definitely have its own identity and structure. Curious n pleasing way of writing.
from just-me016 :
hiya, its ma from msn. you know who! i just want to say that your diary gave me inspiration and really made me think about life.

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