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messages to jackthripper:
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from daath :
I hope your master hasn't been tethering you too tightly away from a clack-board. Here's to thinking about you, Jack.
from jiltedsoul :
I miss you.
from l-vnews :
I saw that you were online and just wanted to let you know that I've been thinking about you lately and I hope you're doing... reasonably well. I doubt that you're fine. I have to go now, but I just wanted to say all that. Much love from sailorcosma using her book-review news site.
from daath :
I long for the days when we used to pass the nights together. Where every pain, every fragile thread of strength, and all that had happened to you echoed in my ears like a song I know. I've gradually lost the essence of who I am. It is obfuscated by a life so mundane I barely believe what I gave up to achieve it. I thought I wanted normalcy. But in the end, I just want to wrap myself in a quiet moonlight and share the joyful anguish of regret. I want to pass it back and forth. A bong full of poetry and smoke and wonder. I guess the calling card would read 'I miss you.' It is a bent card.
from inkfruit :
Oh, Jack. If only you knew your worth.
from inkfruit :
Jack, the world misses those tender lips already. Happy birthday, sweet prince.
from ariza :
Jack, I haven't heard from you in a while. I forgot about your birthday! I am so sorry! I have been going through hell (literally) and it's become relentless. I don't have the will like I used to, that fieriness (sp?). Please write again. I would like to see you one of these days.
from fidelitykill :
Jack -- you would be terribly missed. Awfully. I'm sure these words don't mean much to you, traveling across the space between us as little ones and zeros, but they are heartfelt and real. Do you know that, from my various accounts here, and in times when I was too lonely to write, I have read your diary since I was fourteen? Do you know what kind of power you have over your readers? If I had the right words to say, the right words to tell you what you meant to us, I would write them. I would write them a thousand thousand times, and I would martyr myself doing it. I really would. You're a frighteningly wonderful creature, Jack, even if you won't let yourself see or believe it. And I would miss you more than I think I could stand, if you left without any good-bye, or hope for communication of any sort. You should know that you are receiving an overdose of guiltless love from all of us.
from silentforest :
I hear you Jack. I understand your loneliness far better than I wish I did. Come then my bittersweet shadow, and let us face this deeper darkness knowing that we have at least one friend left. "Ask, and the door shall be opened unto you."
from degausser :
prefer it without the dictionary, actually.
from al-bal :
I've realized, it's been years since we've talked. I went back and read all the old notes I left you and found myself disgusted. What a naive and bitter child I was then. How ashamed I feel for talking to you like I did. My deepest apologies. Seeing as how I've been out of touch for so long, I sat down today and read a large number of your entries. Your writing fascinates me. I wish I could help you with whatever you need. I never once forgot about you even if I hadn't been keeping in touch. You were always in my thoughts and dreams. Another apology, this time for being so careless and losing touch with you. It's strange, reading how I used to write back then and seeing how I've grown to write now. It's eerie and nerve racking knowing how times changes us so. Maybe that is the beauty in life though, knowing that it will never again return to the state it once was in, nothing returns to that state. When you realize that, you can grow and change and accept what has happened. I have gone through many hard times since we've last talked, times I am not proud of. I have been through all-time lows and never wish to return. You, my dear, are a rare breed. I ache with pain to see all the terrible things you have had to go through. You are beautiful and unique, I really wish there was a way I could help you, even just the slightest bit. I search the night looking for beauties like you. Do take care. Sincerely, Alyssa
from degausser :
mm, a perfect circle.
from cvdrama303 :
Hi
from nimfalas :
dearest jack; you are such a treasure. i have missed you so, i am so ashamed at not having kept in touch. as long as i've had membership to this site you've always been here, one of the best parts of this place. i do hope you remember me. i've had a number of usernames. i wish you the world. much love, ashe
from al-bal :
Jack! I'm back! I've read some of your diary, sounds like a lot is going on in your life right now. I hope you're okay. I hope you remember me. Have a splendid day, sweet one.
from occoquan1 :
...ever shall I be...Your James
from occoquan1 :
Jack...I've been sitting here paralyzed and astounded...by the depths of emotion that I felt, indeed continue to feel, upon your replies, both here and in your journal. I am in all ways inadequate to address your grief, which brings me but fresh sorrows, as you, my darling angel-boy, my dark angel-man, have never deserved anything less than joy and happiness eternal. Why the world went wrong for you, it's brilliant but troubled student, it's trubador of dark musings, I am but at a loss to say. I still cannot fathom why one I love as dearly as life itself has had to endure such as you have. If but I could I would rip open the fabric of time and deposit you in a happier realm, a time of Gabriel and Jade, who have been, are, and ever shall be, as I know you are aware. Gods bless Chalan for holding and keeping you. I only wish that Chalan could restore you, to fill up your empty vessel, to reignite the spark that makes you who you are. Perhaps in time? My darling, darling boy, your restoration, your comfort, and your solace are but the things that would begin to mend my heart. I have never, nor will ever, stop loving you. As I am the air you breathe in, thus it is the same with me. My sorrows are but a drop in the ocean, and are lessened yet still by knowing that my boy Jack lives. I apologize that this missive isn't more than it is...my profound joy in finding you alive is such that words seem inadequate. Remember once upon a time not too long ago a discussion in which we felt our souls had travelled togethered through many lifetimes? I feel thus in finding you that my soul has been restored...that I had been carved upon and sliced wide open and part of me had been removed, and I was so numb I was but unaware. But in finding you again, I understand that the part of my soul that was missing is you. And that is how much a part of me you are and have always been. Forever, my darling boy...your James.
from occoquan1 :
I am of two minds, my eternal love, to hug and kiss you or to slap you. You crushed my heart. To think that you've returned from the proverbial grave and nary a word after I begged you...well, enough of that. Some master I've turned out to be, eh? I've have bathed in grief for nearly 9 years now, and last summer's sorrows became a torrential downpour. It all blends into one eye stinging pain. Funny how people look at me and think that all is well. All is not well, all shall never be well. Yet but I am but a pawn to be played, and the player's moves are far yet from over. If only darkness gave comfort, if only sunlight washed it all away. But it doesn't. If you are of a mind to say hello, than please do so. Still, and with the deepest love and respect for you Jack... Your James
from dejawho :
sing a song of sixpence, a pocketful of rye... four and twenty black-birds... baked in a pie...
from sleetmiser :
Jack, I've sat around for a while and thought of ways to lift your spirits, if only a little. Unfortunately, I'm not very useful for cheering people up. I think it helps if you're an extraordinarily cheery person, but I can't claim that title. And I know what you're going through is vastly beyond whatever comfort a few petty thoughts from one deranged, teenage individual can offer, so I decided that I'd do it the little kid way -- I thought I'd make you something. So, if you follow the url at the end of this message, you can look at it. You don't have to use it, but you are more than welcome to, if you'd like. Otherwise, you can just come to look at it every now and then. Or never. :) http://sleetmiser.diaryland.com/preview.html
from daath :
Oh Jack, there are a handful of souls that'll love you long after death has its serenade. Sometimes regret is all we have to motivate us. They were good people.
from silentforest :
There is a reason I keep coming back here, Jack, though reason has nothing to do with it. And until I figure out what that reason it, I'm content to be a puppet for my obsessions.
from sailorcosma :
Nevermind. Must've just typed it wrong.
from sailorcosma :
Hey Jacky. Either you've changed the password to your diary, or I just can't remember it. I've tried 3 different ones and can't get in. Would you mind e-mailing it to me? Please? Love always, Tayler.
from punkedupqt :
now and again...
from ariza :
Jack, what you wrote was very beautiful. I am worried about you, and it is genuine. I know, you're probably wondering or thinking why am I wasting my time, but I'm not. Please, don't hurt yourself. I'm only "calm" now because I know you aren't dead.
from al-bal :
Jack! It's been forever. You probably don't remember me, though I hope you do. I hope all is well with you. What's new? Keep in touch. Yahoo instant messanger- X_arisusa_x
from daath :
Here's a laugher for ya: do you want to join a facebook group for D-land chat? We'd love to have you, but I'm guessing that's not your glass of wine or tea of cup.
from revengecaim :
Ahh its been so very long jack, much too long really. You probably dont remember me at all, well I suppose a year or so would do that. I once had a diary, madasian69 or something around there and we used to speak on AIM (revengecaim) but anyways whether you remember me or not doesnt really matter. I'm more glad to see that your still...well alive. I remember our last talk, I told you of me confronted my parents on my decision of my sexual preference and you wished me well. Well it went very well and I just felt the need to tell you that. I no longer have the ability to read your diary but I hope all is well with you and most of all i hope your happy. *hugs* Take care Jack.
from daath :
You've not a thing to worry over. You suffer enough for the dead. There are people loyal for you, to the end. I'm in a limbo myself, though it's over worlds rather than people. Rest, read, and heal, dear Jack.
from daath :
Well we're here if you want. If you don't want, that's alright. Best wishes either way, Jack.
from punkedupqt :
(so maybe it doesnt matter, cuz i could see why it wouldnt) but u should realize how much of an impact you make on this world, even if this world is just little diaryland. or better yet, fuck it, even if this little world is just me. i dont think u kno how much it broke my heart when you left...every time...but how much it healed me when you came back. you should email me; we can talk if ud like. [punked_this@hotmail.com] love always.
from daath :
You never cease to surprise me in the most pleasant ways, Jack. How goes?
from ariza :
Jack, I am so happy that you are still alive. I do pray that you will get better. Everytime I think of you, my heart aches...you don't deserve to be like this. Please, please contact me...I would feel so much better if you did.
from nimfalas :
dearest jack, it's nice to see you updating. might i ask for your password? if yes, my email is rhunfalas@yahoo.com. much love to you and yours <3.
from sailorcosma :
Jack! I thought you were dead. I'm gonna e-mail you, ok? Please reply. Love always, Tayler
from punkedupqt :
omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from occoquan1 :
Geeze Jack! I miss you man...I mourn for that embrace that we never had. I keep you here in my heart, you and Jade and Gabe. I hope you are raising holy hell in heaven, safe, sound, and happy in a place where you are embraced by love, and harm can never touch you again. I have no doubt that when I cross over, that you three will be there to meet me. And we can party the house down. :-) Love you forever... James
from daath :
Not a few people have asked after you. Given the nature of what happened and how recent it was, they both are undoubtedly still around. It wouldn't be out of the realm of reason to try to contact them. I could attempt this, or someone else if you happen to know a person with the right background.
from occoquan1 :
Jack, you had better write me!!! You KNOW how I feel about you...how could you wait so long after your diary entry to let me know what has happened? This has got to be some terrible dream, some horrible nightmare! My heart, it breaks! It breaks!
from daath :
Hell's Bells and Zeus' Balls, I don't think our usual media medium will work. Shall we try a messenger of some kind? Phone? Carrier pigeon?
from daath :
I've been detained by circumstance and bound with inconvenient devices. I tried accessing our usual means of communication, but it denies me. I keep trying.
from sailorcosma :
Did you really.... Are you gone?
from ariza :
Jack! I'm so sorry that I got here too late, or perhaps it's too late as I write these words...but if you do go through it (from what I'm reading), please talk to me before you do it. Oh, I hope it's not too late!
from daath :
I unfortunately didn't get your note until just now. I suppose, if anything--apart from saying goodbye--that I wanted to impart some wisdom that may or may not help about navigating the hereafter.
from daath :
Could we speak one last time, perchance to dream before you sleep?
from punkedupqt :
just be very poetic in what you say......i cant believe that.......
from ibinx :
Oh, Jack. I'm such a terribly old reader with so many different blogs: livejournal, blogspot, D*Land. I left all of them but livejournal, never to return again, but I heard tell of your marriage to Gabriel. Congratulations! I'd like to read all about it, but unfortunately, I never needed a key to your diary, and I don't know the password, now. =/ If it's all right with you, I'd appreciate it greatly if you could e*mail it to me. You can do a background check on me, if you'd like, to make sure I'm not a filthy con artist. ^o^ Oh, and, thinking of you inspired this layout: http://i191.photobucket.com/albums/z97/TheLollipopPrincess/layoutthumbnail.png I probably could use it as a future layout for my website, but I originally made it for you. If you don't like it, I won't be offended. It didn't take me too long to make it, so it won't be a big deal. Anyway, it's an 86% thumbnail, so it's really bigger than what you'll see. I hope you like it, though.
from sailorcosma :
Jacky I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy for the both of you!!!! Congratulations!!!!!!!! :D
from ariza :
Aw! I am so happy for you! I wish I could have come to the wedding, but I am glad to see that you are happy!
from daath :
You skulk about the electric streets any time lately, midnight writer?
from ariza :
Hello, Jack...haven't heard from you in a while....
from uglydove :
I miss you dearly.
from punkedupqt :
http://www.lyricsondemand.com/a/afilyrics/jacktheripperlyrics.html
from aerofeilde :
It does not fit my job description, to judge. I am merely here to listen and perceive. But, if, upon birth, I had been assigned a place in the judge's seat, I would tell you that you write more beautifully than you could possibly imagine, although I sense a streak of sorrow in portions of your decadent craftsmanship.
from aerofeilde :
I hear you're quite the writer. Can the rumors prove to be fact?
from punkedupqt :
i knew i heard ville's sweet voice in there....
from daath :
I miss the nights we talked. Hopefully they'll come again soon.
from footprince :
I'm so sorry, Jack. I know not what it is to experience the loss of a child; I may never know. Forgive my naivety.
from ariza :
Oh, I'm sorry...everything's lower-cased: jdariza
from uglydove :
I wish I knew the right words to say.
from ariza :
Username: JDAriza psw: monomania I've locked it yet again
from footprince :
Yes, it absolutely shattered my heart, where it beat, to read your entry. The loss of a loved one; yes, that is difficult and painful; but, the loss of a loved one that harbored unconditional love in return -- that is the sound of inevitable heartache. I am sorry, Jack. I cannot imagine losing Diesel, and so I cannot share in your suffering. And God... God could be a mere figment, conjured up by a wandering soul in order to give him peace. I honestly couldn't theorize anything truly legitimate. But he's a figment that scares me shitless, no doubt, and I do well to acknowledge my... misbehaviors. Rest well, Jack; I'll return to read what beautifully whispered endeavors you choose to distribute.
from ariza :
Oh, you would never become a burden to me. You are far too interesting. Those lacking in the brain area...well, that's another story. And as for the poem...you haven't lost your gift. I still envy the fact that you write so much better than I do.
from daath :
Too many know the inner realms below the cracks of society. They the troglodyte saints, caught in prayer, jerking to some nameless melody of self-destruction. How the locks of purgatory fall around your eyes despite fingerwork's best fancy. But I will allegorically perch on your head and do this now and then with the other folk. For while we are not the zeitgeist, at least you occasionally get some fun for the admission price of pain.
from sailorcosma :
You're welcome. :) I love you!
from footprince :
God, I suppose, if that provides any valid reason at all. I will survive, though; this, too, shall pass. Do what you love, and fuck the rest, Jack. I don't know what else to tell you, other than that the ones that love you are the people that have ever put distance between you and themselves, only to lead you closer to them, afterwards. Even in your darkest hour, you are lovely, and you are loved. Of course, I might do well to accept the same advice, but it's harder to take it than give it away. At any rate, I will be hoping for you, if hope is enough to overcome tribulation.
from footprince :
I wanted to be righteous. Every child that my parents bore before me has been something of a cancer to them: I didn't want to be the malicious disease that finally killed them. I wanted to stop being so selfish, to take into consideration how my family felt, and I wanted to experiment with religion. I wanted to know if there was any truth to what has been rumored. Alas, it has been a long journey, already, and the path is ever-winding, still. I feel as though I have been traveling a roundabout, with no definite landmarks to pinpoint my location. But I need some sense of purpose, and that is what has driven me to expel my love and any ardor that was paired with it. I do wonder about you, occasionally. I wonder how you fare outside of what is written in the pixels of your diary. Chin up, Jack. Everyone's here for you.
from ariza :
Oh, Jack...everytime I read your stories, it nearly brings tears to my eyes. I am always wondering why you are always bringing such pain, such agony, such misery to yourself. If I had the money, the resources, ANYTHING, I would shelter you...you poor thing! I thought about you the other day, when you sent me that poem for my 18th birthday last year. It was the best and sweetest present I have ever received. Thank you so much, dearest Jack.
from footprince :
Love... love is a difficult passage that I find myself wandering blindly around in. It is far beyond my understanding in its complexity, but my confusion deserves no tears. I have subjected myself to such, and only I am to blame. Thank you for your kindness, though, Jack. Even if I cannot change anything, it brings me comfort to know that I am not completely alone. I want to repay you, in some manner, but haven't the resources. If there is anything in my power to give to you, please do not hesitate to ask. It is a humble offering, but I extend it to you with a whole heart.
from uglydove :
Despite it all you make me smile, m'friend. Loves.
from footprince :
I am at a loss for words, Jack. I cannot begin to understand your pain, nor your loss; I can merely apologize and offer my sympathy and comfort, although I feel that would not suffice. Sometimes, life throws shit at us, and you just have to take it and make the best out of it. I can't promise you anything; I can't tell you that the future will be brighter. I have no advice to give to you. But I will be here waiting if solace is what you seek.
from sailorcosma :
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. But I'm always here, if you wanna talk or vent or whatever. I'll always listen and be here for you. I love you Jack. -Tayler
from daath :
Deals with demons generally do not go well--just ask my father back in the day--but sometimes it's the best one can make of a situation. Despite the traumas and travesties, things'll resolve themselves. You're a survivor.
from ariza :
Oh, so good to hear from you! I'm moving to Brooklyn soon!
from ariza :
Hello, Jack...haven't heard from you in awhile. How have you been? I still am not able to get into your diary for some reason. Have you "disowned" me? I feel sad:(
from uglydove :
I wanna...*need* to talk to you soon. Alright?
from daath :
Sometimes we must claw and crawl through a mountain of misery to find a vein of happiness. Though travesty be your handmaiden, one day your heart will find peace, if it shines as then and now.
from footprince :
My heart aches at the mention of your loss; forgive me, for I can offer little comfort in this time of tribulation. Prayer does nothing to ease the suffering, but pray, if you must. You have my many well-wishes, Jack.
from sailorcosma :
I'm so sorry sweetie. I know there's not really anything I can do, but I'm here if you ever want to talk. I love you. -Tayler
from jiltedsoul :
Finally word from you yet I am unable to read. Have you changed password again? Jiltedsoul@gmail.com, please...
from daath :
I wish I could have helped her transition to the other side of things. Other animals have a much easier time of it than we do, thankfully. She was well loved, and I'm sure part of her will always appreciate that.
from occoquan1 :
Hello darling...been wondering what you have been "up" to. Please don't be a stranger...hope you are ok... James
from daath :
We are quite willing and able to lay several bones about your feet. Or elsewhere, should your preference be such.
from uglydove :
Or. Are we not good enough anymore? Maybe that's it.
from nonasian :
Ahhh...its been quite forever since I've found my way across to you Jack. How I hope you havnt forgotten me but if you have than..well damn. I was hoping to read of your life but my rusty memory wont allow me to recall much. I terribly hope you are better.
from jiltedsoul :
It's been a while, and I worry about you. I hope you are alright.
from uglydove :
You make me want to throw a temper tantrum sometimes, you really do. Was there anything I could have said? Cause if there is, please. Let me know. Don't count on my giving up anytime soon.
from footprince :
...But, I Gravitation happens to be a favorite of mine.
from footprince :
Sometimes a cliche' is the only thing that will suffice. I was dragged into the ridiculous muddle of fandom, myself. ^^ (Pardon the emoticon)
from footprince :
You are welcome; it wasn't quite a laborous task, though. *smiles* You know... I never would have pegged you for a yaoi fan.
from footprince :
Ah, a key for a key; something so simple to give in return. I haven't many thoughts locked away just yet, but what I have, you may delight in reading. something :: precious
from footprince :
I must admit, I had been a secret reader for some time, but moments slipped out of the cogs and gears in my clock, and I lost track. Now I have returned, only to find that your thoughts have been muffled. While I respect this decision as much as the next man, I came to aquire a key.
from snow666white :
thank you.
from uglydove :
And from that truth I feel no fear Two kinds of death are present here Mine's the age-old act of dying But yours is like the phoenix rising Make Me As You Are. That's the song. But note the first line, that's what I wanna say the most. You know me. I'm stubborn. No matter what's happened - I'm *still* here.
from snow666white :
I recall your diary, some time ago, now... I had been meaning to keep a closer eye. Time transpired between these moments and now you are locked. I respect that you have restricted access...yet is there any chance of receiving a password? -Natalie.
from daath :
I'm becoming something of an infestation on your notes page. Keen. How are you?
from uglydove :
Hello, lovely. Figures, right after you left fixed whatever the problem was. The similarities are striking, gotta say. Almost mesmerizing. Love you.
from daath :
'preciate the introduction to the multimedia experience. YouTube is so much easier than expecting people to download or otherwise be familiar with my realm of music tastes. How's by you in these days of tin gods?
from sailorcosma :
Hey Jacky. I'm sorry about Ebony. I'll pray for you both.
from daath :
You saucy trollop, raising my cholesterol with all those sweet somethings.
from daath :
Here's an insouciant little curl of chocolate for your mouth: watcha think about singing "Dead Man Walking" by David Bowie one of these times? Kinda long, true, but it's so much fun yet morbid.
from uglydove :
I...Love...You :)
from daath :
My condolences, Jack.
from nimbus- :
you never say anything to me when i IM you - you're missed, i have so much to tell you, and i want to hear from you, i want to know how you're feeling - Rachel
from daath :
Chat up back is!
from daath :
It appears as if someone has already stuffed your stocking with holiday spirit. Being that you have your treats, all I can give is my fond wishes for your continued happiness and eternal well-being. And for really fucking hot sex.
from punkedupqt :
lick these...sins...
from jiltedsoul :
Thank you. As always, an honor.
from jiltedsoul :
At a loss to find you locked again. Jiltedsoul@gmail.com, if you don't mind...I miss you.
from punkedupqt :
so im guessing we dont put our tongues to our bad deeds anymore...
from sailorcosma :
Thanks! Well, I'm going to send it to you again, so be on the lookout! :D I'll talk to you later Jacky. Love, me
from sailorcosma :
Hey Jacky. I sen't you an e-mail a while back (not a forward, actual words, from me). Did you get it? I'd love to have your new password, if you don't mind. Love always, Tayler
from daath :
Fancy slipping a sleep deprived old devil such as myself with your journal particulars? Daath4242@yahoo.com would work. Much thanks and love.
from realitykills :
I wouldn't think otherwise..
from realitykills :
Changed the lock to keep things in or others out?
from lie-to-me-- :
hello love, how have you've been? Now for some reason the password and username you gave me isn't working...did you change them?
from triggerhapp :
Well, I have returned from my trip into Reality, and wondering how everyone is, Havnt had a chance to say hey to you earlier, and I'm regretting it, I've missed you Jack, you taught me alot, and were an Amazing friend, Hoping to see you sometime :)
from ariza :
It's so nice to hear that you are happy, Jack. Reading your diary nearly brought tears to my eyes. Unfortunately, I cannot say that I am as happy as you are...
from deareddie :
(smile) It's a happy thing to see you again, Jack. Had my own version of your diary later that night/morning on empty rainy streets. Things look good, just have faith, babe.
from jiltedsoul :
It's about time you've begun to accept the simple fact that you are loved; now just believe you are worthy. I am happy for you.
from realitykills :
I'm glad, then, that one of us is still able to form tears and wring them out. Might it do you well.
from uglydove :
Jackie :) I read your entry, listened to the music and I really just smiled very big because I'm so proud of you, and it just warmed my heart to know you're okay. It really did. My words are feeble, but I just wanted to say something. I'm glad you're well, love. Dove.
from punkedupqt :
some people become so lost in themselves that they they are so utterly blind to the angels standing in front of them. all they can see is the pain and madness that eats away at their soul everyday, and it seems like thats all there is; theres no goodness and no forgiving and no love. and then one day something really catches them on their toes, it all starts to make sense...their eyes start to focus in on whats really around them...and its like a punch in the stomach, a slap in the face. its a beautifully shocking moment, like waking up in a bath full of ice. how it can be real, i dont really kno. but...life is like that...and it seems to play out that way. its nice, isnt it...like a game of ring-around-the-rosie, running around in a circle and then falling to the floor where you belong with the people who love you...
from daath :
Ah. Sweet, sad Jack. How I do wish I could spell a lullabye through faintly moving whispers, and etch the air to refract each drop of pain away, a warm shadow to cast about your eyes and shoulders. Were that my poison so pure.
from panchopanter :
*sniffs* Very moving entry..
from ariza :
Why, yes, everything is fine. A few problems here and there, but nothing a good moving wouldn't fix:)
from nimbus- :
jack i need you... i'm hurting so bad... i need you...
from daath :
I could do with sipping from a cup of your conversation.
from punkedupqt :
sometimes you kno more than you think you do...
from punkedupqt :
sometimes you kno more than you think you do...
from realitykills :
As you wish.
from daath :
The cusp of sanity is stained with wine and blood, where I find Earth much too dry and eager for either. This is an age of decadence, yet it's all too rare to find that refined sense of debauchery, of muted moans behind solid wooden doors or some VIP lounge hermetically sealed by social ties. Divinity is a curious handmaiden that thrusts into our voyages, dear Jack. If we are indeed a devil's companion and an angel's concern, I gather we're invited to both parties. Fun indeed.
from daath :
How I adore and empathize with your sadness, the creeping balance of beauty and misery, like a brambled garden of roses on a moonlit night. You inspire me when all else is triffles.
from ariza :
Hello, there. Just dropping by to say hello.
from realitykills :
We aren't made from what we've come. But I can imagine you carry the burdens and secrets from your beginnings more than most do. It's just my hope that you know for yourself that it's not the stains that make the measure. It's that you've grown beyond the dirty water from which you came. Because you have.
from uglydove :
Jackie, I refuse to lose you. Please, dont let me. Hugs for you, lovely. Dove.
from nimfalas :
Jack, that's horrible! I can't imagine... Just know that someone is thinking of you, and have a hug. Again, I hope that you find some happinness. <3 <3
from ariza :
Hi, Jack! I haven't heard from you in a long time! College is great, but I might be transferring. I can't stand to be away from a certain someone. I have good news! I may be getting one of my stories published soon! Nicole has told me that she's willing to give me some money to get it published! Bless her heart! So, if you see a book titled "Cult Diaries" anywhere, just know that it's MY book! Hope you have a good day, my love! JD
from nimbus- :
my dearest lovely jack, i am so worried about you... please love yourself, please take care of jack for me - i love you jack
from daath :
I confess that I miss your company greatly. I have spent too much time in antique clock shops recently, all burgundy veneers and twinkling whispers that try to drown the rain outside. I feel terribly alone recently, and perhaps it's a selfish impulse but you have a knack for kindling candlelight and stars.
from uglydove :
m'lovely one, where did you go? you are missed greatly. yours truly, dove.
from nimfalas :
Thank you, and I deleted it. (I have to admit, I didn't even know you could delete them! But I found it easily enough.) <3
from nimfalas :
Hello my friend. How are you? At the very least a little bit good, I hope. Might I have the password? Love to you and yours, A.
from uglydove :
hello, my love :). Its too bad I didnt get to talk to you more tonight, but maybe this weekend? And I'm sorry, sweetheart...but there are certain things in my diary only my eyes will/should see. I have other places I write my thoughts down in you can see. I doubt it'd interest you anyway. Forgive me? All of my love is yours, darling. Dove.
from punkedupqt :
:) i think you might be the only person that knows that song anymore. savage garden=love... ♥
from realitykills :
I'm glad at least one chain is gone.
from realitykills :
No. I only ask because that's what I do.
from realitykills :
Two things come to my mind. One is that you have quite a fan following. The other is wondering what makes you tick.
from uglydove :
Hello, my lovely one -smiles- How are you feeling, still doing better I hope? I'm still so overjoyed for you, it makes me happy that youre finally having a few moments of rest. At least I hope this is still the case... I just wanted say, I have my internet back! :) That makes me really thrilled, now you can leave me notes...or email and I can write back to you whenever I have an available time, and not go by the library's hours. What a luxury. People honestly take it for granted, I can't believe it. I wish I could just give you a really big hug but I send my blessings instead, sweet. Love you, dearst. Dove.
from ariza :
Oh, I was just thinking of it the other day.
from punkedupqt :
(missing)
from nimbus- :
darling jack, please come back, i need to know you're still there
from nimbus- :
i heard you play lovely jack... thank you, it means alot to me... you're lovely jack
from realitykills :
Certainly seemed that you might.
from nimbus- :
play me mozart's lacrimosa... please? i wish i could hear you play it.
from uglydove :
hello, jackie - m'lovely. did you get my email this time? i think i have a theory as to happened to the rest of them that you didnt get, but i'll talk to you more about that later. hope you are well. i miss you. dove.
from nimbus- :
need help... slipping away... please play a song on your violin for me
from punkedupqt :
im not really sure......[im "out of it" and dont really kno what im talking about right now so plz forgive meh]
from punkedupqt :
you are so interesting...
from ariza :
Hey, what was your photobucket link?
from al-bal :
Dearest one, we fell out of touch due to things that were beyone my control. Yes, I am betrothed to my boyfriend, Deryk. Thanks you for being happy for me. I haven't really told anyone else yet. I want it to be a secret for now. After all the advice you gave me, after everything you helped me with, wouldn't it be unfair of me to forget you? I could never. No, that whole time I was absent, I was hoping you were okay. I was really worried. I wanted more then anything just to know if you were okay. I know now that you are. I feel so much better. I thought you were dead. Kind heart, I am always here. Email me if you don't see me on Diaryland again. X_arisusa_X@yahoo.com. God, it's so wonderful to hear from you again. With your elegent writing, you lift my spirits. I am happy now. Keep in touch.
from daath :
Hidden knowledge is my most bittersweet gift, dear heart, not entirely wanted or unwanted; that is why I chose 'Daath.' If my presence helps, it is there when you wish; all you need is my name. I do see that mark of unliving about you, that thin scar of the foot on the razor. I don't know what substance illuminates the ways really, but I am glad I can see you.
from al-bal :
It's been forever since I've left you a comment, but I'm back. How is everything with you? I'm good. I'm engaged. Nothing else is really new, but I just wanted to say hi to an old friend. Have a good day.
from daath :
The only belated gift I would have to offer would be a lantern light flickering through the ice-cold night, and a promise of company and reality woven from wherever else to wipe away the facade that is shambled through. Words are not so much akin to bodies, but they can be a comfort. Or at the least clear the memory and blind the mirrors.
from nonasian :
Jack..ahh how long has it been since I left a comment? Anyways...a kiss from me to you. How I hope the days ahead of you are better ones.
from uglydove :
Jackie, m'lovely. Seems to me you've had another birthday, all my blessings, love. I sent you another email, but I have my doubts you received it. I'd love it though, if you kept sending them to me anyway. No matter the length on my cell, send me as much as you want. This is probably the last time I'll be on a computer until next weekend, so I wont get to read anything except through email after this. I miss talking to you, darling. I hope youre okay, I'm always curious as to how youre doing. In my thoughts and heart, lovely. Dove.
from realitykills :
I would offer you a happy belated birthday, but I don't find that very fitting. Perhaps maybe more my condolences. You are somewhat a fascination of some description. Just wanted to thank you for allowing me to read.
from nimfalas :
For what it's worth, Happy Birthday. <3 A special hug and a cyber cupcake for you. (Only if you like cupcakes, of course.) I hope you find whatever you want in life. =)
from giftofflesh :
Miss you, love you, you know, all that lovey dovey stuff that most take for granted. Hope you've been well, and I send my love. :)
from ariza :
Oh, it's fine. Despite the fact of my being very teary-eyed lately, I always find your words truly touching... I hope things go "relatively okay" with your father.
from daath :
Out of curiousity, dear one, do you happen to know the name of the song in that YouTube video about the car driving? Where you were describing that buried alive nightmare?
from ariza :
I read one of your entries, about your goodbyes. And I must say, Jack, it has left me teary-eyed...
from uglydove :
My lovely jackie! I still miss you, and I wish we had more time to talk. But, I'm leaving today for San Antonio, Texas! I'll be there for a week, then I'll be going to a camp for a month, and then to Michigan. Please dont note me back, email me. You know my address. I can check it on my phone, and if you send me a note here I wont be able to read it and that will drive me nuts, and I really do want to hear from you as much as possible even tho I know its hard for you. I want to know you're at least okay, and how things are goin for you. I know it must be hard right now, but I want to be there for you. Even though I'll be gone for awhile it doesn't mean I have to stop talkin to you altogether, no. I'd hate that. You'll be in my thoughts, and my prayers love. I'd give you a big hug if I could! Love you, dearest. Dove.
from daath :
I'm just now reading all the things that happened this year in your life. I wish I had more time for the few people who deserved it. I also wanted to say thank you for being so sweet and honest. You're always that way and I sincerely appreciate it. You are the essence of some beauty that glows at night when the moon threads past the ivy. I wish you well.
from uglydove :
Its good to hear from you again even through notes and email, my lovely. Your comforting words touch my heart every time. From now on itll be easier to read email, I wont have access to diaryland, love. I'm leaving for San Antonio, Texas on Tues. and most likely wont get to a computer beforehand, but I have email on my cell so that's the sure way. From then on I'll be gone until near the end of August. Please, let me know how you are as often as you can, alright, darling? Remember you always have my love. Take care, dearest. Dove.
from occoquan1 :
Oh Jack darling, you will always be mine. I would never want you to leave. I just don't understand this at all. It seems like a heavy dose of punishment all around...to yourself and to Gabe and Jade. Forgive me for not understanding...but of course i love you. You still want me?
from uglydove :
Hmmm, alright. I suppose I've just missed you yet again. Awwwe, I miss you! When was the lsat time we've talked? Too long ago, darling. I hate that our emails don't work. Yours seem to work I guess, but mine just end in a terrible disaster. I dont know, but all I know is I lost contact with you once, jackie, cause that just tore my heart out and I'm not gonna let that happen again. Well, it looks like you're having adventures all of your own and you're going to have to tell me about them, email/something. Okay darling, I'd love to hear from you again soon. Take care, m'love.
from uglydove :
hey, love. didnt expect you to respon so fast! Is there anyway you can get on aim, if you happen to still be on?
from dawnavive :
sorry to pester you again jacky. Did you change your password or sign in? I can't seem to get in. ummmm, lemme know whats goin on.
from uglydove :
'ello, m'love. im not sure if you just havent had time, or whats keeping you but i cant help but wonder if youve received my email again. it may be selfish, but i just want to check to see if youre okay a whole awful lot. please answer soon cause starting on the 11 it looks as though i'll be busy the rest of the summer, with very little chances of checking my email. hang in there, m'darling. dove.
from occoquan1 :
Jack, dear soul...I left you be so you would have time to recover...to heal, to feel good again. And I come to find that you have left your heart behind...you've left those you love and who still love you so very much. I don't know what to say. I am still around. I will be looking for you over the airways, so to speak. Forgive me, but I agree...don't do this. Turn around and go to your true home. Go back to Italy, go back home. Love, James
from uglydove :
Hello, m'lovely. Hmm...dire dilemas truly are nagging again at you, aren't they, darling? I wish I could help, but you have to follow your own heart. Love may come, and love may go, but memories remain; whatever you choose. I emailed you back but my guess is that you didn't get it. Should have worked logically, I pushed the reply button this time. Always here for an ear to listen, love. Take care, dove.
from pinkgurl48 :
Jack, please don't leave them. I know you don't really know me but I do still follow your entries and what you have with Gabriel is so beautiful. You can't just up and leave that. True love you called what you have with him. Do you really think true love is easy for everyone to find? But you did. You did it. Don't just abandon something so beautiful.
from silverpain :
Jack, I know it's been forever since I contacted you but please don't do this. Don't leave them. Don't you know what it's going to do to Gabriel and to Jade if you leave them both like this! Goddamnit, Jack! Quit being so fucking selfish and just go back to them. I know that's what you really want. Don't get on that plane Jack. If you do, it will be the biggest mistake of your life and you'll never forgive yourself. Think about it!
from dawnavive :
thanks a bunch Jack. Just so you know I deleted that note for privacy's sake. as always look forward to talking with you.
from jiltedsoul :
It's been a while since I've written to you, but I felt now would be an appropriate time. Know you are never alone, no matter where you may be. My thoughts are always with you.
from dawnavive :
hey jack I'm not sure if you remember me or not, it has been quite some time. I have regained access to the internet again. It would be a great pleasure to be able to talk to you again. I no longer have access to your writings because it has been so long and my memory has faded slightly. leave me a note to let me know how you are. I look forward to our next encounter.
from dawnavive :
hey jack I'm not sure if you remember me or not, it has been quite some time. I have regained access to the internet again. It would be a great pleasure to be able to talk to you again. I no longer have access to your writings because it has been so long and my memory has faded slightly. leave me a note to let me know how you are. I look forward to our next encounter.
from ariza :
Oh, Jack, what did you do to make yo stay away from them?
from nimbus- :
i want to talk again, so hopefully i'll be able to get a hold of you tomorrow before i leave.
from uglydove :
hello, my darling. i tried it again and hopefully it got through. lemme know if it doesn't, wont you? yours truly, dove.
from occoquan1 :
Ah, I have so missed your exquisite musings...your angels and your devils appear to be a bit darker darling... Love, as always, and as forever... S
from occoquan1 :
Jack darling, I am here, and I am as in love with you as the first time I "met" you. You will always be mine to command...but those sweet and secret commands you shall receive in the privacy of our bed chambers...love S
from uglydove :
allo, lovely. maybe since everytime i try to email you, and you never get it that you should email me instead? usually works for you :D. then i can tell you about all of the adventures ive been having, and likewise. youre in my thoughts, darling. dove.
from nimbus- :
"A flick of my tongue, a graze of my teeth and he was mine." That's an incredibly gratifying feeling, it's addictive.
from uglydove :
hello m'lovely, where did you go? i miss you, check your email for me, dearest. dove.
from panchopanter :
*shivers* Beautiful entry on "666", the music is so gripping. I miss you...
from occoquan1 :
Hey baby, thank you for the comment on my page. It was a grand trip...abeit to short. I am missing you something awful. Love... S
from ariza :
Pearl essence... I absolutely love it!
from punkedupqt :
more* crazy maybe?
from ariza :
I absolutely love that song! Yesterday, I was in Orlando with a few friends. We were in Virgin Records, which is ridiculously huge (I could practically live there)! Nicole and I were in the section with the occult books, and we both thought of you, and how you don't write as much as you used to...perhaps you are tired?
from punkedupqt :
that music makes me feel crazy...
from punkedupqt :
i was going along with the person's comment under mine. i dont really care much (well i do but im going to say that i dont), but why am i not on ur diary list anymore? i thought my diary was getting quite interesting now-a-days, my writing has been nothing but angry and hateful and full of pain. but then again, maybe ppl dont like reading things like that. i do, not sure why tho.
from ariza :
Oh, Okay...I see.
from ariza :
Oh, tell me what that means! I don't take Italian until a good semester or so!
from loversvanity :
things are good for me, in a weird kind of way. i hope things get a little easier. i like my jacks happy. =) i love youu. ♥
from loversvanity :
hey jack...i haven't talked to you in awhile. how've you been?
from punkedupqt :
'the more you shake, the more you give away' is my favorite phrase... evans blue is a very good band...
from punkedupqt :
idve liked to ask that same question...but im modest. id like to kno tho...truthfully.
from ariza :
What is this? You've removed my name from your buddy list! Why is that, dearest Jack?
from nimfalas :
That was good of you, to give the homeless man something. Most don't do it. I hope you feel better. And I hope you find..whatever. What ever you want, or need. Just whatever. Much love to you and yours, Jack *hugs*
from nonasian :
My dear Jack, that had to be the best entry you have ever put up before. By far. Much Love.
from punkedupqt :
i wish that video was real. :)
from iprayforrain :
Oh jack, i have missed you so! i hope that all is well for you. hugs and kisses, iprayforrain
from sailorcosma :
hey Jacky! Sorry for sending you all that junk mail... but one of these days I'm going to send you original words... not just forwards. And I'll put "Hey Jacky!!" in the subject so you know it's not another load of junk. I hope you feel better soon and I miss talking to you. Love always -Tayler
from punkedupqt :
oh yay :) u knowing who flyleaf is makes me really happy. cuz their such a good band and they deserve to be popular. especially since some random chick (i think it was the singer actually but i didnt get a good glance) handed me their demo album after the him concert and i was the only one in bc to kno about them... yea sry. just excited. :) --ps i sent you the song--
from j3ff00 :
Do you remember
from ariza :
OH, so you like Flyleaf, do you? I just "discovered" them last week. OH...dearest Jack, I hope you get better! Love, Jazz
from im-a-idiot :
secret names come in handy now don't they?
from lady-dra :
I'm sorry. I'm leaving. I can't even explain why. I'll try very hard though to reach you now and again. Goodbye
from punkedupqt :
if i ever get the chance, id like to sned you this song that i think u may like. it makes me think of you everytime i hear it. its old...its called 'kody' and its by matchbox 20. (i kno that may sound weird but it really is a good song) much love♥always
from lady-dra :
humm maybe I was too forward in my request. I apologize if I was.
from punkedupqt :
oh my. i think my heart skipped a beat when i found out that woman's name...
from lady-dra :
if you're not busy would you like to chat in msn? or anything you have is fine.
from lady-dra :
no it's been in my head for a while. it's not good. my head is full of things that aren't that good. broken thoughts, for a broken soul.
from lady-dra :
have you ever met a person that makes you act crazy? because I think I have, and I don't want to think about it anymore, because if I think about it, I might not be me anymore.
from punkedupqt :
i just wanted to mention that im reading this book that i think you might like. its called 'incubus dreams' by laurell r. hamilton and its pretty decent reading...
from ms-turner :
Darling, I just saw the background. I know, I shouldn't run away. I love the image, very beautiful. Kisses!
from uglydove :
hello, my lovely one. you are missed, did you leave again? i am worried, i hope all is well. take care, dearest. a million roses for you.
from punkedupqt :
hey angel. im on a computer with internet for the first time in forever... and im just dropping by to say hello. long time no talk (and long time no reading your diary because my phone internet is fucked up..long story). hope ure doing well. id say the same but some other ppl might not agree with me. lets leave it at that. :) much love your way--- always and forever+
from j3ff00 :
I run and run, but cannot flee. I am often watched, but never seen. When long, I bring comfort, when short, I bring Fear! What am I?
from h000 :
May comes and goes in the dark of the night. He kisses the whores and gives them a fright.
from ariza :
Oh, I see....perhaps I was going crazy. I had seen that on your photobucket, but maybe I'm just crazy. My Valentine's Day went okay, although I stayed at home the whole day and just stayed on the internet....at least I wasn't sad...
from ariza :
I was looking through myspace, for some reason, and I saw a picture of Jade: http://myspace.com/the_dro. I was just wondering if that was him, and if so....picture stealing? Hope you had a good Valentine's Day.
from hp-fucked-dm :
allo. it's been ages. hope you've been well.
from nimfalas :
Jack darling, your words, the way you write, it never ceases to enthrall me. Hope all is well with you and yours! Have a good day. <3 A.
from occoquan1 :
:-D Oh my dear sweet darling boy...I love you; but of course you know that. :-D After reading that again, I think I need a cigarette. ;-) Love, S
from spanishmoss :
I was reading through your profile, and my eye caught on your comment for iprayforrain... In a crowd, perhaps one wishes to be alone. But the lonely man prays for a companion, no? We long for what we cannot have... ¿Eso es vida, sí?
from uglydove :
Hello, darling. Did you disappear on me or did I miss your response? You are a lovely person, dear. Your heart is good. Thought you should know, and dont you forget it. Miss you. With all my love, dove.
from mortalkombat :
mmm...don't be like that. its not like this is goodbye..
from panchopanter :
Thanks for your comment, that album kicks butt I can't get over it! :-)Hope to chat with you soon, take care, xoxo
from occoquan1 :
Jack, anything you want to know, I shall share with you. Thank you, dear one, for the sweet note. You are lovely. :-) Love, Salem
from occoquan1 :
Jack, bleak and gorgeous as usual; mesmerizing down to the last word...pulled me in, took my breath away...you can do it all, man, you can do it all. Love, Salem
from iprayforrain :
Jack darling, so sorry it took so long to respond...i have been going through a rought time lately but oh well, thank you so much for the last couple notes....they gave me chills, in a good way ;)..haha, wells anyways, you take care dear, luv always ~iprayforrain~
from nikolaos :
Darling, I promise I am not aiming for Paris Hilton, because...well...eww. Just trying to loose enough so that I feel comfy wearing a bathing suit in Vegas. Wore a bathing suit yesterday and did not...therefore, more must be lost. But not a lot :). Love.
from ariza :
Ah...such a rarity, isn't it?
from ariza :
Love the song. Is that Mindless Self Indulge?
from daath :
Time and toil veil the mortal coil, but now I can see a bit more clearly--and hell, I miss ya.
from daath :
What is the key to your book of mysteries? What is the password that unlocks all of those goodies waiting inside?
from loversvanity :
guys want me because i'm good. i really am. i'm terrific. being with me, (in any & all aspects) you'd never know i was using you. however, it seems i have unknowingly developed a conscience. not much of one though. just enough to know i'm being an asshole & not find it funny. i almost did something about it, but then thought that people who own properly fuctioning consciences probably dont do things on impulse, so i slept on it. bad idea. now i'll probably marry this kid. oh lord. by the way, i havent been around much, but i do catch up on my jackaliterature whenever i get the chance. =)
from iprayforrain :
Oh Jack, your words bring back the color of truth in this lying, fading world ....but if only for a moment though. Ciao ~iprayforrain~
from ariza :
Oh, Jack...
from mortalkombat :
Dont forget her last words jackii. Sssssuch powerrr
from jiltedsoul :
Still here, in the shadows..haven't forgotten you.
from occoquan1 :
Jack, just read your newest entry. Gods, beautifully written...I swear I could feel the claws of the devil in MY flesh. And to top it all off, at the end when kneeling before the priest? I got hard, I swear. Sex and sin and shame and delight, all in one package. Bravo, m'dear. Love, Salem
from occoquan1 :
Jackie-boy, thanks for the sweet note! In turns it made my heart swell with joy, made me feel better about the things in your life, i.e., Victor, and made my laugh hysterically. :-) I mean, maybe the image of you hitting yourself in the nads with a floor board should elicit some sympathy, but nah, it was funny. :-) Love you dear one! Salem
from ariza :
Wow...that was good. I liked how the music fit in with the whole subject.
from occoquan1 :
Jack m'love, thank you kindly for the sweet note you left me. I am glad my words gave you a little gentle comfort, and a bit of ease. :-) I love you so very much, you know. And now, to your latest entry...bold, beautifully written, and again, it caused a range of emotions within me, but the one I feel the most is anger...anger toward Victor for slapping you. Confidence, swagger, and power are one thing, but cruelty? There is no place for it, and I can only hope that someone strikes Victor in the face as hard as he slapped you. There has got to be some justice somewhere in this world. Love, Salem
from ariza :
Oh, thank you! You just don't know how much that means to me! I've never gotten a poem for my birthday! Oh, how much I love you, Jack!
from uglydove :
Hello, dear. Long time no talk, no thanks to the chat room being down. How've you been? Also, I lost your password, and that makes me sad. Note me back? tc dear.
from ariza :
Nothing much. A poem would be really nice.
from ariza :
Oh, thank you so much! Every now and then, I'll look in the mirror and I'll say to myself, "What a pretty girl." But then, my conscious will step in, and then I'll think I'm just being vain. I'll take back my pact with the devil, just for you. Oh, yes, my birthday is this Wednesday. What will you give me?
from cammella :
Hello Mr.Jack dear. How are you? I haven't talked to you since before Christmas, and I hope everything went well, and you're home now. Love you muchly <3
from nimfalas :
i know you weren't close, but..i'm sorry. it sucks that they had such an attitude towards you. much love to you and yours. <3 :)
from sailorcosma :
I'm sorry. Even though you weren't on the best terms with your parents, I'm sorry about your mom, and I'm sorry that you couldn't be home for Christmas and New Years. Maybe this year will be a much better one than those in the past. With all my love, always, ~Tayler
from ariza :
As I was reading, I was hoping that perhaps your parents had come to make amends. But I see that wasn't the case. I'm so sorry that you had parents who treated you like that. I guess I can see why you want to have a child so badly. At least you'll never have to worry about half again. I hope your year is better than that. Much love to you.
from punkedupqt :
its alrite dearest. i really dont kno how long ago u sent me those notes... i dont have a computer with working internet right now so im kind of cut off from my own little world that i live in. but i hope you are doing well and im sry to hear that you miss me. actually...well yes im sorry because i kno what it feels like to actually miss someone. but other than that im happy about it. no questions plz. :) always and love, meredith♥
from suta :
Hey dear. It's been a while. I read your last entry. I hope the new year will be better for you and your beloved ones of course. All the best, Lucia.
from elgan :
Thank you for your note. I have been totally bereft because of the continued infirmity of the Diaryland chatroom, missing my friends, being forced to consort with non-Diarylanders at a rival chatroom. I shall look for you on Yahoo and you can tell me all about your journey. I don’t have the key to unlock your diary, sadly, so I cannot bathe in the beauty of your prose. Your cyber-mama, El.
from occoquan1 :
Jack, welcome home, dearest one. I am so glad you back in the arms of Gabriel and Jade, in the home where you truly, truly belong. I am still absorbing the tale of your journey home. Feelings of sorrow and grief for what you went through, for those secret feelings you keep inside, for the torment you bore so stoically during your stay, intermingle with joy at your departure from such horrible events, and your return to Italy and your loved ones. I hope that in time you can erase the sadness and despair, the grief and sorrow that has come your way. I know they are words, but I wish I could say more. The words, for once they fail me. So many strange and mingled feelings dwell within. With the loss of my mother, I felt nothing but sorrow and grief, for I loved her with all my heart. I guess I grieve that you didn't receive the same from your undeserving parents. If only they knew, if only they could've understood what a bright, wondrous soul you are. Rare. Precious. Worthy of all the love in the world. May you sleep in the embrace of loving angels dear one. May your days be filled with peace and contentment from this day forward. May the Gods watch over you and your beloved dear ones always. Love, Salem
from ariza :
Dearest Jack, I have missed you so! You haven't written an entry in what seems like ages! I am still reading The Picture of Dorian Gray. The main character reminds me a lot of you, for some strange reason. I'm only on chapter 8, and it is quite sad.
from froggygirl88 :
Jack I haven't talked to you in forever (ok it's been like two days, but that dosen't count because i was doing my homework!) Send Gabby and Jade my love! (and don't forget to keep some for your self too!) well i need to get off of here. i'll talk to you later <3 ya Stephanie
from ariza :
Oh, at first I thought you were talking of someone else. But of course I naturally came to my senses, and realized that it was I you were talking of. Aw...you really are too sweet. I'm reading Picture of Dorian Gray in English class, and I'm only on page 3 at the moment, but it makes me think of you for some reason. My birthday is on the eigthteenth of this month. What will you get me?
from iprayforrain :
Oh sweet Jack! How i have missed you these last long days. Do not fret over me, your heart does not need it.... I am so happy your back love, oh so happy.
from giftofflesh :
We haven't talked in forever and a day. I miss it muchly. I hope you are doing well and I send my love, dear one. I'll send you an e-mail sometime tonight to talk in further detail. ~Michi~
from nikolaos :
Things are well, love. I'm going to try hard to continue with my diary. It's a great release (next to working out!) of stress, and it allows me to keep in contact with those I care about, as it's the only form of communication I have with some. I'm thinking a wedding in Scotland, as I'm sure you knwo my love for the land by now!Or Venice...I'm due there in 2007 for my vacation. I should go before I ramble and fill up all of your notes and leave no more room for your lovely visitors. Much love and devotion. N.
from cacophic :
Happy new year happy holidays....happiness to you I hope. XXOO
from egyptiandoll :
Hello lovely, it has been quite a while. I don't have yahoo any longer and I'm afraid I haven't aim either. If you have it, we could talk on msn, and when chat is up again we might meet there. My msn name is lisamcox@adelphia.net If you do not have msn, you are welcome to send me an e-mail at egyptiandoll@diaryland.com Missing You Dearly - Doll
from c0ldbl00ded :
Long time no pet, missed your eloquence. Hope you're thriving.
from cammella :
MERRY CHRISTMAS JACKY!!! I love you deary, hope you got all you wanted, I promise to send you a puppy soon enough.Pet Gabby and Jade for me, I love you all. <3 <3
from punkedupqt :
merry christmas. :) ♥
from elgan :
Merry Merry and Happy Happy! Lots of love in the near year and always. El.
from bluperspex :
a merry, merry to you - may it be blessed and utterly fabulous!
from j3ff00 :
i am in love with gabriel, rather who played him. lucky, lucky ed.
from avrilkiksass :
:-D
from avrilkiksass :
Your profile = amazing, therefore I love you :)
from avrilkiksass :
I love you!
from ms-turner :
Oh baby.... I'm so sorry.
from punkedupqt :
hey jack... i just wanted to...im not sure... but i feel like ive done something wrong to you, but i couldnt think of what that'd be. im prolly just being paranoid. anywho, i hope you have a good nite. love always, me.♥
from my-coldheart :
Jack I swear to you that what is in this diary IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!!! It is just the way that i feel at the moment. I PROMISE THAT I WILL NOT DO ANYTHING TO HARM MYSELF! I still have to finish the poems! Just don't worry I promise i will be okay. I will have a brownie and feel better, I just hate how my so called "friends" keep doing this to me all the time. I mean your best friend shouldn't tell you to kill yourself. My sister is going to take care of me and make sure I am okay. Thanks. Stephanie P.S. Send everyone my love
from ariza :
I absolutely love that song, "Satisfaction," by Benny Benassi!!! I heard it on the television a year ago, and I absolutely fell in love with it! I was just listening to it a few minutes ago...hm.... I think I should go clubbing with you. It seems like fun, as I have NEVER stepped into one...
from sailorcosma :
hey Jacky!! i just read all of my notes, and i wanted to tell you that I miss you! I don't know what I would ever do without you Jack -and I know this is a little cliche- but don't ever change!! You wouldn't be you if you weren't... you. Don't think that last statement came out making much sense. But anyway, I'll talk to you later jack. e-mail me! *hugs*
from nimfalas :
Hello dear Jack! I'm so terrible, I've not said a word in..forever. And a day, probably. I'm not even sure if you remember me.. :/ I wanted to ask if I might have the pword? I miss reading about what's going on with you. If not, it's fine. Seeing as how it's been forever (and a day). Let me know, will you? Much love to you and yours. <3
from punkedupqt :
you turn all the lights down low, trying to fade your empathy... you've made up a world where u cant even be you. the star in the tragedy, shadow of a voice on the open court; they line up around the world just to hear you scream....
from punkedupqt :
im begging you to tell me some of them.
from j3ff00 :
"We're watching you, and we're coming in through the walls"
from cacophic :
how in hell's name are you? I've lost your e-mail and need your password....but i'm still infected by you.
from ariza :
Oh, Jack, you just don't know how far I've come to love you and your words! I never knew that day when you had that old fiery layout that one day we would become friends. You live through your words, both in lies and truth, happiness and fury, serenity and the tumultuousness (I hope that's a word; otherwise, I'm inventing it. With every word I read, it whispers to me, "Jack...Jack." like a soft wind. I think of you often, and I wonder what you are doing just as often. You've inspired me. And I still envy you and your words, for I wish I could write like that! The way you use adjectives; it's as if you paint a picture with words, writing a verbal symphony, without overdoing it. Oh, I love you, Jack!!!
from occoquan1 :
Jack my love, I am so sorry to hear of your loneliness. I believe everyone experiences that at one point or another...being in a crowd, and being utterly alone. Being with those you love, and still feeling lonely. I believe that loneliness in one of your muses...poets write from both pain and joy, and you express those emotions oh so well. What is it "they" say? You write what of what you know. And that is why people respond to your journalistic journeys as they do. They recognize themselves in your work. That is the mark of a true artistic master. As for my being untainted by the world's cruelties...if only I could wish that to be so. But to live in this world, one is subjected to both its beauties and its cruelties on a daily basis. Despite all that, love and hope still have a home in my heart. So, maybe you are correct after all. Jack, if I could but reach out and ease your loneliness, I would. Hopefully my words help. All my love, Salem
from punkedupqt :
ill be sitting at my window, begging the moon tonite. do u kno someone who can answer my prayers? ♥
from ms-turner :
One favor per word? Okay then, you're down about 43,000 favors then. ;-) So when do I get to collect?
from froggygirl88 :
i have one last favor to ask of you! (sorry i keep asking you to do stuff! I'm just so demanding! lol) if you could email me (at my new email address) a picture of you, Gabe, and Jade! It really would help me out! thanks <3 you all! Stephanie p.s. tell them both i said hi! :)
from occoquan1 :
Jack, your darkest thoughts, your blackest words, your nighttime nightmares painted in shades of ash and pitch...still shine like the moon and stars in a velvet night, like an ethereal beacon, calling to the poet within the each living soul. I am forever in awe and wonder at your writing abilities. Every phrase that drips from your proverbial pen, every carefully chosen word, opens new gateways to realms hitherto only glimpsed in silvery fleeting dreams. You stir the imagination, you stoke the fires of creativity, you call out to those who believe themselves trapped by circumstance and you dare them to be free, to find a new way. You are truly a Muse set on earth in human form; you are the substance of brilliance itself. Just thought I'd share that with you. :-) Love, Salem
from punkedupqt :
aw, for what do i owe the pleasure of you thinking about me? :) but im doing...mediocre. i guess. i dont kno. how are you deary? ♥
from ms-turner :
Sweetness, I'm at 100+ pages, sure you want to owe me that many favors?
from ariza :
Jack, you naughty man you!!! But it's quite alright...we all need to be dirty every now and then, and speaking of that, my birthday is in January...I expect something...
from punkedupqt :
hey jack...havent spoke in a while. just dropping a little love. have a good night. :) ♥
from ms-turner :
Nothing of mine is out to purchase yet, but I think we can work out a deal... one sexual favor for one piece of writing? ;-)
from ariza :
Why of course you can bring Jade! I wouldn't have it any other way. I don't know why; it pops into my mind every now and then. I know your life isn't all excitement all the time, but I do think your life interesting. As for keeping up, I ran as a little girl, but I haven't been doing it much lazy. However, once I build myself up, I shall run! haha.
from ariza :
Memories of my Melancholy Whores? Sounds like an interesting book. Memoires of a Geisha is defintely a good read. It's been a while, so it's as though I am reading the book for the first time. It would be such a disappointment to have such a lovely written novel, only for the movie to be...sucky. I'm still envious of you and Gabriel. I think I shall run off with the both of you.
from loversvanity :
oh, i forgot to mention that part. because i was like, hmm, marriage. & then i thought, NO. i'm marrying jack. & then all was well. true story. so hows it going?
from ariza :
There's something about your words that always assuages my pain (I absolutely LOVE that word). Yes, it it is true that sometimes I do feel unloved, but I shall take your word...as long as I know that you and Gabriel and Jade love me, I think I can make it...may I ask, do they even know who I am?
from aequus :
...And just when I think you couldn't be more Jack...haha. ;) There you go, being more like yourself every day -- but I'm glad. What would we all do without you? Jack, you're perfect just the way you are, and I hope you'll never try to change for anybody.
from j3ff00 :
Strenuous use, jacko.
from aequus :
Ah... I feel flattered, dear. You shouldn't say such things -- the rouge rushes back into my cheeks. ; )
from ariza :
Thanks a million, Jack dearest.
from ariza :
Thank you so much, Jack! Also, you absolutely MUST tell me that song that is playing on your site. I've been trying to get that song for years ever since I heard it on a car commercial.
from aequus :
What's this? The note you left me... I'm not quite sure I comprehend...
from froggygirl88 :
why do i have to hust so much inorder to write something?? I just wish that all this pain could go away! even if it ment that i NEVER wrote again. Why won't it ever stop?? I know that you can't make it go away, but i thought that you might be the onl one that understands.
from ariza :
I would like you to do me a favour: Could you tell me "Angel of Death" in Italian? It's for story purposes. If you see a story with that title, you'll know it's me.
from ariza :
You are certainly most welcome, dearest Jack. How come you haven't been on yahoo! lately?
from ms-turner :
While I'd love to see what trouble you and I (and whoever else) could get into, Hubby refuses to share me. Won't even consider it, and I've asked multiple times. I even tried bribing. *sigh* Ah well, I can always imagine!
from j3ff00 :
I'll explain it to you when we're on yahoo.
from ariza :
Okay, Jack, I promise that I will never, ever, ever, ever do it again. And if I even think about it, I will talk to you...
from occoquan1 :
Sweet Jack, any package you wish to deliver, rainbow or otherwise, would be most welcome! Yes, you appear to be the only one who leaves me notes these days, but your notes are so wonderful I forget all the rest. :-) To interact with you in person is but a sweet dream, and in dreams, we can whisper the joys and sorrows of our secret hearts. SexKitten, indeed! :-) I know you would be gentle...you do have your sweet side. :-) Love, Salem
from j3ff00 :
The sound you're hearing is the symphony of what we are.
from giftofflesh :
Mwuhahaha! Then I shall have just a little fun ;)
from giftofflesh :
Aww, can't a girl have just a little fun? *bats eyelashes playfully*
from giftofflesh :
How about now? *giggles* I so doubt you, lovely :)
from giftofflesh :
*giggles* Hours, eh? Hmm, shall I doubt you now, or later? Hehehe
from ariza :
Yes, please row over here and tickle me to death! At least I would die a happy little girl!! But I've had a rough week. I tried to take my life on Tuesday. I really don't know why. I got a little support and comfort from three people. I don't ever want to do that again. But other than that, I've been doing okay.
from sailorcosma :
I don't even know what I'm trying to say... I answered the e-mail you sent me. =)
from meowangel12 :
if you don't mind giving me the password. my email is angelcatster@gmail.com. thanx
from graffitihart :
Everything is fine here...well as fine as it can be, anyway. Trying to do everything at once -- balance a job, a family, going back to school. I'm trying to start over and make a better life for myself, so that when I'm on my deathbed, maybe I won't think of all the bad things...Take care, my dear. You also have been occupying my thoughts, lately. I hope you are taking care of yourself -- as well as Gabriel. As always, I send you both my love, and well wishes...
from panchopanter :
Sure,i'll give you all the gossip. :-) I'm trying to messge him at this moment... Oh, "grandma" yelled at us because she had her light on and we thought she was giving out candy, well my little nephew yelled "Trick or treat!" and she yelled back "The porch light's not on!"; we laughed and that phrase has been stuck in our heads. lol.. funny
from giftofflesh :
*blush* Yet I can't help but giggle in delight, Jack. *smooch!*
from ms-turner :
First off, you are too cute for words. Second off, any male that can dance to Shania Twain and not feel like an idiot, I'm proud to know. :-D Kisses sweetie.
from occoquan1 :
Darling Jack, I am so glad that an extra set of neurons fired up, and you understood my wish for your and your companions "common good." :-) Tipsy is not a bad thing...it can truly make life a lot more interesting. It certainly helped me through my early formative years...and then some. Sex kitten?! Meow! Now that's talking! :-D Sweet Jack, I most assuredly prefer your delectable treats...I'd would despair to be sent away from you after a night's tricking. However...a little bit of tricking and a whole lot of treats? Oh, you've got my mind a-flutter! Love, Salem
from loversvanity :
haha oh man, i love that kid. he dressed up as jack sparrow. it was difficult not to jump him. haha.
from loversvanity :
haha. sounds like a good halloween to me.
from sailorcosma :
hi jack. i feel like there are alot of things i should say, but none come out... note me if you would please.
from meowangel12 :
hi... its been a long time. so did you do anything for halloween?
from ariza :
At least you had a wonderful Halloween. Instead, I spent the night sulking and mentally fighting back tears while staring at the candle light, silently praying that one day, I'll have another chance...
from panchopanter :
Heh, thanks, I was into the Halloween spirit yesterday. :-D I took my little nephew out trick or treating and two funny things happen: 1. This dog barked and scared him 2. This "granny" yelled at us to go away *giggles* I took pictures, which will be up soon. :-D Jose and I are mad about each other, *crossing my fingers* I hope we'll go out soon...
from aequus :
: ( I had wished to read your thoughts... Perhaps another day.
from graffitihart :
I know. I think it is that way with many of us. As for myself...I can't seem to learn from my mistakes. *sad smile* Hopefully, that phase will pass. But I wish you the best in whatever it is you're doing. You should know by now, but you're like family...I don't know if that makes you uncomfortable, and I certainly hope not, but it's true. The same goes for Gabriel, and I hope both of you are doing well.
from ariza :
Oh, don't worry about me, dear Jack. I have this way of looking at things differently. It's the fact that the person whom you are with--who you love--actually loves you back. And it's hard for me to get over him. It has never been so difficult for me to do this. And it nearly broke my heart when I saw him with someone else the other day...and the sad fact is, she may still be going out with someone else. Part of me wants to seek revenge and make sure that he gets hurt...but the other part of me wants him to be okay. I don't want to have to break it to him when I am not quite sure of the whole situation. But even if it rang true (and there is a huge possibility that it might be), I don't want to see like the jealous ex (which I'm not). He just doesn't understand...
from occoquan1 :
Jack, my love, you too walk in my dreams, both waking and sleeping. You are the music and the passion in my heart. I am so very happy that you are my dear friend. Your common good...you wonder what it is that is good about you and your life? My dear, do you read what you write? Your joys are palpable, your sorrows are tasted on the tongue in bitter tears, and yet, when you put proverbial pen to paper, you shine. I see brilliance, and light, and heaven in your words, and in your world. You split the darkness with your light, you shine so bright. When I pray for your "common good" I pray for the good of you and all that you love. Perhaps, "common welfare" would have been a better expression? I have fallen madly in love with your soul. There, I have said it. I love you. Is that so strange, for two who have never met, and probably never will? And yet, I do love you my friend. Even though you write of the darkness, I will always wish the light of heaven for you. Love, Salem
from occoquan1 :
Jack, my dear friend, words are such poor conveyances to express the depth of my affection for you. But words are all I have and I must try. My heart swells with love for you, and glows in joy at your every kind word. My heart is so very glad that my words have such a wonderful effect upon you. Truly, in spirit, I am really only across the way. Though in my dreams, I would love to think otherwise, we will probably never meet in person; in reality, you might be disapointed that I am an ordinary man, with ordinary concerns. But you have ignited such a sweet fire in my heart for you and your common good, and that is true magick. If there are angels that inhabit the mysterious realm of the internet, then you are one of those. All my love to you my good friend, and sweet Samhain blessings to you and yours... Salem
from froggygirl88 :
well to tell you the truth i have never read "where the wild things are"! But now that you have mentioned it i'll be sure to check it out.
from ariza :
Your entry nearly brought tears to my eyes...that and the fact that I almost touched it. I call my ex ( I still despise calling him that) Jackrabbit because sometime ago, he was "humping" my leg...and hence, the name has stuck. I still miss him very dearly.
from occoquan1 :
Sweet one, if my words bring you such pleasures, may you be showered in perpetuity with the sweetest words you've ever known. May you experience the greatest joys and the deepest love a heart can know. May sorrow fade and fall away from your life, never to touch you or yours ever again. This I wish for you with all my heart. Love, Salem
from loversvanity :
haha. before the meeting starts we have "feed the fatass" hour.
from loversvanity :
haha. do they serve food at the meetings? because i'll so be there.
from ariza :
Yes, I must agree...
from ariza :
Aw...reading about your falling in love with Gabriel again has made me fall in love all over again, too. I guess for me I know it's love, for I can never stay mad for him for long, if at all.
from loversvanity :
i'm the worst person to speak about morals. i think mine exist, they're just..warped? but you'll be okay. & for whatever its worth, in my eyes, you're perfect.
from loversvanity :
hey jack. havent talked to you in awhile. hows it going?
from j3ff00 :
Who does the song playing on the video, jacko?
from occoquan1 :
Hello Jack, your last note to me was so beautiful that it took my breath away. Thank your for wrapping me in your proverbial tender arms and for the kind things you have said to me. I may not be there for you physically, but rest assured that my heart and thoughts are always with you. That you love me is reward enough, dearest one, though I must admit the gay man inside me did respond to your sweet tease. :-) All my love, Salem
from ariza :
The pictures on your photobucket.
from ariza :
Oh, why thank you. If you don't mind my asking, who is the guy in your pictures, with the black hair and mysterious eyes? Is that you?
from ariza :
"God's away on business" is such a wonderful song. It makes me think of immigrants coming to America in the early 18th century, looking at the dingy cities.
from panchopanter :
*sigh* I'm in love again... read my entry. ;-)
from occoquan1 :
Jack, your last entries, beautiful, tragic, and tragically beautiful. You write so magnificently the reader is propelled along with you through those darkened streets, and compelled to see all, even those things most mortals fear to see. I am so happy that Gabriel had a wonderful birthday. Sweet light that shines through the unrelenting night. Love, Salem
from panchopanter :
*blushing* Oh stop it... hee hee I'm doing fine, just studying studying and studying... :-S
from j3ff00 :
But, what is "it"?
from ariza :
Every time I read something of your love for Gabriel, I must say that I grow quite jealous. Love just never seems to work out for me. I usually end up getting an "unreturned" love, if that makes sense at all.
from euphoriadied :
I was watching the Travel Channel and they were showing something about vampires in the French Quarters in New Orleans and it reminded me of you. I thought it was sweet.
from froggygirl88 :
Thanks! YOur kind words always seem to make my days so much better!!! Stephanie
from graffitihart :
I'm sorry I haven't been up to reading, lately, my dear, so I've no idea of the "goings-on" in your life, but I will try to do better. And I must say, I miss talking to you...
from daath :
Such a sweet, salty ocean wind. Your love and encouragement are treasured.
from froggygirl88 :
hey i wrote a poem and was wondering if you would be so kind as to give me your input. I always love having your oppion. thanks Stephanie
from occoquan1 :
Jack, your last entry was chilling and profoundly frightening. Salem
from occoquan1 :
Jack, are you and yours OK? I know you rained down a parade of much deserved bitterness on those f&cking bastards. When I read your last entries, you sounded so soul-sick that I knew you could not let events stand as they were. I knew for your own sake, and for those you love, that you had to take some kind of action. Still, my heart is in my throat and I pace and wonder how my dear friend is doing. Please enlighten me, if not in a note, in a diary entry, or even in an e-mail, if you'd prefer. When you feel composed and are ready, I will be here to hear your tale of the events as they've unfolded. Love, Salem
from ariza :
I've a question: on you PhantmViolin, who is the nice-looking male figure with the black hair, mysterious eyes, and lip ring? He reminds me of Criss Angel.
from occoquan1 :
Jack, you are signing my tune. Get them and good. Let them know what Pandora's Box they opened. No one stomps on Jack's soul without bitter payback. And no one can exact justice better than you. Good hunting to you my friend. Be careful out there in the dark. Yours, Salem
from ariza :
Jack, dearie, what I said was true. If I ever manage to scrap up any money (heehee), you can live with me!!!!!!
from occoquan1 :
Jack, my heart counsels vengeance for the terrible things those assholes did to you. The witch in me counsels right action, finding the balance to tip the scales and eradicate as much of the damage those f#cks did to you. There are many dieties of justice that you can call upon, that will bend low to hear your plea to right this wrong. Some are extremely powerful. And you will have to work with them to right the wrong, but they will help. Your faithful servant, forever... Love, Salem
from ariza :
Jack, you must come live with me!!! Hehe. I'm sorry for what happened to you. The music was quite fitting. Is it from the soundtrack of Lord of the Rings?
from loversvanity :
i love you.
from occoquan1 :
I love you too, Jack. You know that. You're my beating heart on the other side of the globe. Please, my friend, I don't normally counsel vengeance, but find it in your heart to hurt those who callously hurt you. You are the dark avenging angel for so many of your good friends. Now it's time to be your own unmerciful angel. Don't put yourself or those you love in mortal danger, but if at all possible, find a way to hurt them back. My heart to your heart... Love, Salem
from occoquan1 :
Jack, I admire the way you find beauty in the grimmest of circumstances. You wade through the deepest shadows, turning an unflinching light on your world. And through your eyes, even the muck and filth shine with luster. Gorgeously written. Yours, Salem
from loversvanity :
gorgeous entry. & gorgeous music. whos it by?
from occoquan1 :
Lost in a world of misery, the miserable make do with what the world throws at them. I ache for your situation, as though slammed into a brick wall. And I wish to offer hopes, but wishes and consolation seem but empty gestures. My heart goes out to you and yours. As for the beloved dark city of New Orleans, it is the spirit of her people that will determine if she survives this great tragedy. New Orleans has suffered tragedy in the past...I only hope that she enfolds this suffering into her soul and transforms it so that she may shine again. One thing is certain, New Orleans ghostly population has just risen exponentially. Love, Salem
from loversvanity :
new orleans has always been on my "places to go" list. & now its gone, more or less. it genuinely makes me sad.
from occoquan1 :
And on the world creeps, winding down, one tick tock at a time, one moment at a time, one memory at a time, one person at a time. And we stand as not so mute witnesses, our fists raised in fury that those people and places we love so well are being attacked and destroyed, moment by moment, minute by minute, by greed, lust, and the dark underbelly of society. All we have to fight back with is our love. Will it be enough? I am no prophet. But I do know that love is the truest and the greatest magick of all. Love can save. Love can rebuild. Your faithful servant, in love...Salem
from loversvanity :
mm. i love the new layout.
from euphoriadied :
It's true, all that you said. Jack, do you have Yahoo Messenger? I know I have you on AIM, but just in case, add me: HelloTsunami. I read your diary um- yesterday? The entry before your most recent one & there was a picture. I'm assuming it was you. Although you covered your face, which I know is breathtakingly beautiful, I can't keep it in, but my goodness. I just have a thing for slim bodies. :)
from ariza :
I pray I haven't caused you to worry of poor little me?
from ariza :
I sent you the username and password. I don't mind your reading my diary...it's just that some people shouldn't. But I have sent those to you on yahoo messenger.
from ariza :
arizaspirit@yahoo.com
from ariza :
Yes, unfortunately, I have decided to lock up. I feel that there are some things I need to get out, while at the same time some things that people shouldn't be reading....did you get my email?
from iprayforrain :
i am in love with your words..........
from loversvanity :
numb, dead, drugged..i still love you.
from iprayforrain :
was on a random search through my favorite diaries, and i began to notice your name pop up here and there, and i must say curiosity has been haunting my mind and i must know, who is jackthripper....if it is not to much trouble i would be honored to read your diary...so long and good night
from suta :
Hey *hugs* Didn't talk to you for a while, dealing with my own shitty problems I guess. I hope everything will be okay for you and Gabriel soon. Ganbatte, Lucia.
from ariza :
Oh, yes, and about newgrounds.com: If you ever get the chance, see Lilium and The Girl Who Was Forgotten by Everyone. The latter is quite sad and made me think of you...
from ariza :
Thanks for considering my work a "flowery perfection." I am sorry to see your home go. I was rather looking forward to going back next summer. There was something in the air about New Orleans that I loved. I could have considered it home. I'll try to do the best I can with what little money I have in my possession. Take care.
from luciangrey :
He, Who Found Me, This came about a day earlier than I perhaps anticipated. My schedule cleared up and I waded through your words. The trenchant past and present represent. Your love of the cosmetic evening and everything macabre (also on a seemingly cosmetic level). Such a rural pleasantry to die a little, with the nearly dead in petite doses of whoring attributes, sharp teeth and mock-necro based affections. Surely, something in which to be enamored with Jack, it is not difficult to see why they love you, these soft pink mouths that run rampant here, surely as I must seem to. Your heart and life are so spoken for, in a reality that I just cannot relate to, as mine is something of strong disinfectant and aloof periods spent away from everything here. I am inclined to wonder, Boy, why it is you’d claim to be in love on your comment after me? What of my world, surely appeals to your already-claimed self? What services can I render Jack? What would you have?
from daath :
I think fondly, often, and well of you, of course. Were it by some miracle that our common stage were once more renewed, I could dwell beneath the nightscape flourish that follows your fingers.
from daath :
Well thank ya, darlin' [smiles] Always happy to amuse. I recently came across a bit of noir animation that I think you might appreciate. http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/243164
from bedlamsblood :
Jack, I was meaning to ask if you've seen The Skeleton Key? Broken plot, psuedo psychotic, but the ending is just amazing. Took this little witch's breath away! ~ Zoe
from j3ff00 :
If it makes you feel any better, someone from TRMK donated about 50 bucks in the site's name...every little bit helps.
from occoquan1 :
I fully suspect that if another hurricane hits before the water is pumped, that will be a death knell for the city as we now know it. It's like a car accident, I try to turn away from it, yet I am compelled to watch. I am so angry with the poorly organized response to this disaster that I my mind is on fire. Can't they do better than this? As for you and your Gabriel, I do care, and I know you'll get it together. Flowery language for the masses is one thing, but truly, this is your life. And yes, there will be people who will read your entries, and miscue, and find romance in a dire situation, but I know those who love you and those who've come to know you through your entries are able to read between the lines. We are all pulling for you. Believe me. Love, Salem
from j3ff00 :
Knew you were born under a waxing moon, wide eyes waning, most of you was sharper than moonlight, always white...
from occoquan1 :
Jack, for once I am at a lost for words. I do hope you find a way for Gabriel to lose the drink...at least for now, and to restore his appetite. Flirting with, playing with, death is one thing...but death itself is quite something else...it's not romantic, it's merely ugly. What you and Gabriel have is beautiful. Together, you can beat this thing, I know you can. Help him to rise above. Love, Salem
from froggygirl88 :
yea i absolutly love metallica!!! that is my all time fave song closly folowed marilyn manson's personal jesus, and nickelback's new song i cant rember the name right now so i'm googleing it right now... found it it's photographs and i'm putting it in my diary! well talk at you later <3 Stephanie aka Froggy
from postcognate :
Farbeit from me to condone anything illegal, but I've heard somewhere that cannibus is delightfully efficient at restoring appetite. Can't speak from experience of course ;) But as far as an honest, healthy fix, the problem lies in the mind; the self-esteem. You'll do well to remember that. -The Emale
from ariza :
I am so very much sorry for you love, Jack. In some strange ways, I've been dabbling in that wretched "illness."
from loversvanity :
ps - you suck at being on aim for more than two minutes. hahah. ♥
from loversvanity :
i love how priestess comes to mind before priest. haha. you rock my world.
from loversvanity :
hahah. bugs suck. if i were god....bugs would not exist.
from bedlamsblood :
Dearest, I no longer have your password. Would you mind sending it to me. zoe_bedlam@yahoo.com , if you don't have it anymore. Zoe
from panchopanter :
Hi Jack, how are you hun? Long time, no see. Just dropping you a note to see how you're doing. I'm doing *sigh* fine but at the same time not so good... I went back to school this week and then on Wednesday I had a horrible fight with my sister. She left a scar on the upper part of my right eyebrow and my eye still hurts like hell, that b**** almost blackened it!! I even typed an angry entry (so angry it's probably on fire, lol) titled "bitter anniversary" which you're welcomed to read, I want you to see what a b**** of a sister I have... Take care. Love always, Pancho Pantera
from loversvanity :
i like it when you update.
from j3ff00 :
You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you, you let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you.
from punkedupqt :
oh my, i am so very sry for anything i said to you last nite. i never intended on spilling my secrets to anyone, and well... alcohol and i should never mix... ♥x
from ariza :
Oh, never are you unworthy, my dear Jack. And I am by no means "dainty":) But I will allow you the pleasure....
from punkedupqt :
nothing u say sounds cliche. every word drips with beauty, and i want you to kno that. i dont kno what it is that i feel that makes me be this way and say these things... i feel like crying as i type this. i am so in love with you its sick in its destructive way. i never have a chance to grasp at what i actually want. i should just end life with all the torture of what i can have. these ppl should suffer for what they make me go thru. there are so many more beautiful ppl out there that i want and cannot get a handful of. it saddens me that i have no hope for anything for anything anymore. reading makes my sanity come back for a brief time but yet i still dont kno what to do anymore, im sick of everyone knowing this side of me, but i am crazy and i cant help it. i just want to be happy is all, and when im with the right person i will kno... but i cant leave the ppl i am with right now because of the fact that i cannot stand a second of being lonely it hurts so much. i am so sry to stricken you with my presence... i am just a naturally hurt person and i need help. plz help me...
from loversvanity :
so what are you up to tonight, mr. i-never-go-on-aim? :p
from loversvanity :
you've got your hair permed, you got your red dress onnn. screaming, that second gear was such a turn on. who taught you those new tricks? damn i shouldnt start that talk. haha. it seemed appropriate. get yourself to connecticut, & we'll talk.
from punkedupqt :
not that way. i mean, that way too. but more than that way. i want you to be mine. i want you forever by my side, feeling what ive never felt before. ive never actually repeated this to anyone, but when i type entries you are the bold 'you'... this is a rediculous childish way to express my feelings to you but they have to get out somehow dont they? im sry the only way i could tell you is under a state, but i have to... ive been attracted to you for so long, its uncanny. i dont kno what it is or why it is, but its this way and its unexplainable.
from punkedupqt :
i want YOU.! im sry if im drunk, but its time to come clean. plz be mine...
from punkedupqt :
oh my... how delicious and very tempting... ♥x
from punkedupqt :
oh how some do dream the same... but what i meant were the pictures on your template of the man in the mirrors. are they you? alwaysx♥
from bedlamsblood :
My Dearest Jack, Zoe's back, and I have a new address. Come see me sometime. In Blood and Lust, Zoe M. Bedlam
from loversvanity :
haha. i've decided thats one of my favorite pastimes. i think that makes me evil or something. but its okay. because i'm cute. haha.
from punkedupqt :
oh the temptation from what im sure are lyrics of a song... i am not too kind to you, no one ever could be too kind to someone like you. are you in the mirrors? alwaysx♥
from ariza :
Ah, glad to see you back, Jack. When Nicole said you had finally updated, I couldn't wait to get home to read your entry:)
from j3ff00 :
if the cowardice disappoints you, i'm sorry.
from wilted-words :
Ah, and welcome back. We missed you dearly.
from wilted-words :
Love, how do I suddenly go from blank to "bloodbath darling?" By all means, keep the comment, I appreciate it, but have you had a change of opinion? Keep in touch. -N.
from graffitihart :
Jack, it's so good to have you pack. When I saw you had updated, I felt a sharp pain in my chest and grew afraid that I had just had a minor heart-attack! That's no way to go, now is it? Much love, Donna
from euphoriadied :
Jack, I changed my AOL screen name yet again. It's just that I dropped band for certain reasons & the name was of no use for me. So go ahead & delete HornStaRRR07 & add: a moment we die.
from occoquan1 :
Truly Jack, welcome home. Those were three of the longest weeks that you were away. I can't speak for anyone else, but I've been awaiting your return. I loved your latest entry by the way. Brilliant, beautiful, and erotically charged. Reading that definitely capped my evening on a high note. Love, Salem
from loversvanity :
haha, theres not much to read now. give it another month & there should be something worthwhile.
from loversvanity :
i missed you. seriously.
from giftofflesh :
Jaaaaack. :-D If you're ever on AIM, send me a message. I haven't got Yahoo, anymore, sadly. my SN is SugarMeSavage -- hope to talk to you soon, lovely.
from occoquan1 :
Imagine my sadness when I finally checked your diary and you hadn't updated. I am so glad you left me a note, because I do miss you, and look forward to your return. Be good to yourself Jack. Love, Salem
from punkedupqt :
oh lovely, i hope u come back soon. u are by far the best diary on my list and i think i may be going thru withdrawals... ♥
from occoquan1 :
I am so very glad you are back, you have no idea. I am at work, where for some reason, your diary doesn't open properly. Tonight, when I get home, your diary will be the first thing on my mind. You are loved my friend. Now dry your tears, if you can, and if your tears are required, then I shall weep with you. Love, Salem
from moon-eyes :
I miss you.
from j3ff00 :
In the midst of my disease, I thought "Hurry up, Jack. Get it turned back on." But no, you had to go and take your sweet time. I hope you're happy. *tear* PS, there's this guy in my science class...omfg he is sooo cute! lol
from pallidamors :
the similarities...disturb you? What similarities? We are nothing alike!
from sailorcosma :
just wanted to let you know i haven't forgotten you. and i might e-mail you later.
from froggygirl88 :
hey i added more to the story
from graffitihart :
Happy birthday. May you have many more that outlast these brittle remaining days of mine...
from sadexistence :
hello darling. Im so sorry i havent been around as much. Ive been terribly busy. Well love take care of yourself. Oh and i started a new diary because of pesky little problems. So darling, ill email you the new name. take care.
from cammella :
It's on an offline message.
from punkedupqt :
i will, as should u, behave like you -er- want? to... ♥
from cammella :
As did you! But I had to, too much DL drama. If you'd like the pass I can email it to you. Just ask.
from giftofflesh :
I'll miss you, Jack. I'll be good just for you, Jack :D
from loversvanity :
i hope everything gets better soon..it will. take care sweetie. ♥
from loversvanity :
where are you off to?
from loversvanity :
i'll miss you.
from occoquan1 :
Jack, that was beautiful. Gonna miss you while you are away. Take care of yourself. Love, Salem
from loversvanity :
welcome, darling.
from ms-turner :
I put him up on myspace and livejournal.
from occoquan1 :
Jack my dear, I hope crazy equates with fun. You deserve some good times. As for that dance? Of course I'll dance with you. Anytime, anyplace, and anywhere...just let me grab my dancing shoes. Love, Salem
from cammella :
Aww, Jacky, my special special boy you, don;t you feel SO special!
from giftofflesh :
A special entry for you, Jack. e-mail me for the key.
from mortalkombat :
expect the muffled screams of "i'll kill you!" then.
from ms-turner :
I'll dance with you if you dance with me on my fathers grave. I always dance better with a partner.
from loversvanity :
how beautiful. ♥
from loversvanity :
thanks. i love you.
from loversvanity :
come find me.
from punkedupqt :
sadly, i understand that. id dance along with you if i could...
from cammella :
Chat's back
from occoquan1 :
Life has a funny way of working itself out, eh Jack? Love, Salem
from panchopanter :
Hi Jack, how are you? Just dropping you a line to see how you're doing, which I hope is well. I noticed that you locked your beloved diary, can I have the password? I miss reading it. Take care, it's almost my bed time. *leaves a rose on your pillow with a bottle of wine* Love, Pancho Pantera
from lilfoxyvixen :
Thank you for all of your input, recent and past..... I appreciate it. Will still read you..
from thalakos84 :
I've lost myself, but I know who I care about. Take care Jack. I toast to you. Yes, I'm imbibing the acrid drink as we speak. Sorry for the doom and gloom. Please, listen to Led Zeppelin's "The Rain Song". If you never listen to another word I say, at least do that. Let me know what you think....and please be honest.
from j3ff00 :
What causes a man to fall in love? Is it need for attention? Need for purpose? or is it want? Wanting attention? Maybe the man wants to feel good for once. by the way, there was a teaser for SII. You lose. :)
from j3ff00 :
I'm sooooo dirty, and the light, it blinds my eyes...Here comes Christ on Crutches!
from euphoriadied :
Aw, Jack. Happy 21st birthday & may you have one of the best days ever. I love you, dear. :D
from sadexistence :
my my this is a very happy day indeed for you isnt it? Happy birthday my dear. and many happy returns.
from punkedupqt :
well well well, happy 21st dearest. no wonder i like you so much. my beloved is a cancer... :) best wishes and love always!
from occoquan1 :
Happy 21st Jack! You are very much loved from this side of cyberspace. :-) Hope you do something good for yourself today. And as for those books, with my particular favorites, I find myself slowing down near the end, so as to savor every word. The last chapter is always the hardest for me to complete. I hate saying goodbye to characters that I've fallen in love with. Most of it depends on the authors writing style. Dry and dull equals a long and not always fun read. Some books on mysticism and the occult can be like that. With a good author, reading is always a pleasure. Funny, I have a huge pile of books on my bookshelves gathering dust, waiting to be read. And I'll read every single one of them someday. :)
from ariza :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
from love-fatal :
happy birthday. i love you. ♥ ♥
from graffitihart :
We need to talk. Soon.
from la-luna- :
Gotcha. I bet you think this is about what I just told you it would be. Looks like the joke's on you, she said.
from la-luna- :
Bet you wish you had thought of it first.
from j3ff00 :
"See me in agony, give me uncertainty, take what you want from me - I'm alive!"
from occoquan1 :
Jack, I am glad to offer the support. I do understand that not all days are "diamonds" but you take even the most regular of days and polish it into something touching and profound. Your writing is beautiful. It really does transport me, and inspire me. I thank you for taking me out my world, and allowing me to glimpse yours, through your eyes. Love, Salem
from ariza :
Your music is quite lovely...I must have it!!!! Please, please, please!!!!
from angelsnagony :
There'sss a sssecret in mee
from j3ff00 :
Yeah, really. What a bitch. :(
from euphoriadied :
What keeps me going? I have no idea what keeps me going, but I just go along with whatever the day throws at my face. And no, Jack. I'm not bored because I think about you. I like thinking about you actually.
from hp-fucked-dm :
GrandJackieeeeeeee. Where've you beeeeeeen? Haven't talked to you in months.
from euphoriadied :
I've been thinking a lot about you these past few nights. Just imagining what you're doing & what you're thinking makes me happy.
from j3ff00 :
"*sobs**sobs*hahahahahah!"
from hp-fucked-dm :
How've you been, Grandpa? :)
from occoquan1 :
Jack, your writing is brilliant. You definitely write what you know, and you know how to capture the imagination. You've captured mine. Love, Salem
from froggygirl88 :
hello jack! i haven't talked to you in a little while so i thought i would stop by and say hi! i will email you more of the story when i get back from band camp next week. that should give me enough time to get a lot more done. well talk to you later Bye Stephanie
from postcognate :
You sly devil... Ok, but you have to come to me. I can't really find the time to go to Italy right now. By the way, you've yet to let me in on the new password. Peace and love for all your days, -The Emale
from angelsnagony :
I don't believe in the existance of mercy's guiding hand, not with all that we have witnessed, I cannot understand. Forever burdened with the knowledge that I could've been so much more, when the truth is hard to suffer, I knew this all before. There's no comfort in faith, the heaven's still will fall. A thousand towers rose before you, I cannot climb them all. There is no kind of joy in this, there is no time it can heal. When Emptiness shatteres bliss, there is nothing left to feel. I've not abandoned hope, though i know there's nothing more...you forget what I had hoped for....But I will walk this ground forever, and stand guard against your name. I will give all I can offer, I will shoulder all the blame. I am sentry to you now, all your hopes and all your dreams, I will hold you to the light. that's what forever means...
from occoquan1 :
Your paths crossed when you needed each other most. For that, I am most glad. Love, Salem
from j3ff00 :
I'm naming my boys Cain and Abel. that, or Malachi and Bane. :) Maybe one of them can be Cujo.
from jiltedsoul :
I would love to talk to you sometime. How I miss our almost conversations.
from occoquan1 :
You have a good heart Jack. I am glad for your intervention on your boys' behalf. If anyone can empathize with his current situation, understand him, and make his life better, it is definitely you. You are the angel that crossed his path. Love and Blessings, Salem
from suta :
Hmn I am kinda tired, sad. Last week I was in england. I was in london 7/7 with the attacks. The idea is weird. Would I have been five minutes later with the bus I would have been dead. Still...it didn't shock me. I am happy your doing better. ^_^ Wish you all the best always. Love, Luke.
from mortalkombat :
I wasn't able to get back on last night. A certain Sister stayed on past 2 a.m. :( But, that's ok, because I'm here now, and everything can be like it was befo
from deareddie :
Jack, sweet love, I will write you the tongues that garnish and flick you...If you might only not forget your sweet Deareddie. I have more for you.
from mortalkombat :
God, I love this girl. Thanks for all the help.
from occoquan1 :
Welcome home, Jack, welcome home. Missed you. I agree, despite the DNA testing, once you've developed a bond like that, that child is yours. Glad Jade and the love of your life were home when you arrived. Love, Salem
from ariza :
I would certainly hope so...:)
from j3ff00 :
Oh, I wish you could too, but hey. Looks like you won't be getting that chance. :(
from suta :
Oi oi, you seem so sad... how are you doing? I am just back from London. Saw your new layout, awesome... but hey *hugs* it will be all right.
from j3ff00 :
Now that that's all taken care of, who do you want to sing the tale of your dirty epic?
from ariza :
I'm so glad that you're back. I'm sad, though, that the boy isn't yours (or did I read that wrong? I've had a tough time concentrating tonight). I do hope you see him again. Well, I have another online diary, and a "friend" of mine told him about it. It's where I basically poured my heart out. Anyway, he called me today, and we were talking, and he was like, thanks for the compliment. I felt so much better...and a little awkward. But perhaps we just might have a chance....I certainly hope so. jd ariza
from love-fatal :
jackala my love. how have you been these past few weeks?
from froggygirl88 :
i emailed ot to you! hope you like it!! and if not i'll fix it so you do:) thanks so much Stephanie
from lostlabrynth :
I dance in the night you call your own
from lostlabrynth :
Merci Jack.
from lostlabrynth :
Perchance could I beg of you the password, the twisted key, that would allow me passage into the strange, dark world you inhabit?
from nikolaos :
Hopefully something very exciting. I could use a little excitment in mylife. Dearest, it has been forever since we've spoken!
from deareddie :
Hallo, Jack. It's been a while, just wanted to say that I'd missed you. Been doing you proud.
from ariza :
Greetings, Jack, I am back. I had a wonderful trip...but unfortunately, I didn't get to confess my true feelings for the guy I'm in love with. It's one of those moments where I feel I must beat myself up, both physically and mentally. But the time we did spend together, I'll treasure it forever. I had so many moments to tell him, but it just wouldn't come out my mouth. I guess I'm still afraid of being rejected. Anyway, when we went to China, our tour guide was named Jack...and we went to a jade museum. How interesting is that? I was waiting for a connection about Gabriel, but it never came. So, you're in New Orleans? I was there yesterday, at the airport. I hate airports now. So much of a hassle. Well, I hope all goes well with you. Have a pleasant week. jd ariza
from j3ff00 :
it's a quiz my sister and her friends made up. She met them through some book-fan-site, L.J. Smith, I think. Anyway, they're just her and some of her friends. Oh, by the way, guess which one I got? *curses teh fuxx0ring luck*
from occoquan1 :
Jack, whatever the outcome, I hope it's the one that you want. Love, Salem
from punkedupqt :
good luck with everything, hun. ill be praying for you. ♥
from giftofflesh :
You know my name, look up the number. Drop me a line, Jack. I miss ya. --Mich
from photo-frame :
long time no speak jack. can i please have the pw to your diary? i hope you remember what i said on aim, even though it was a long time ago
from lady-dra :
here I'll start. my word, is ummm.........purple. now you add a word until we get a sentance k ;)
from lady-dra :
come on give the word game a go...please :) with sugar on top, and a cherry, and those gummy bats that only sell during holloween, and and and more ice cream....please :) pretty please.....:D come on you know you want to :)
from punkedupqt :
luck changes. thats why its called luck. and some ppl are different. some ppl never come to that eventual reality and get struck down dumb from the person they love. some ppl accept ppl for their faults and way too judged upon actions and mistakes that they have made in the past. and maybe u dont think u can kno or understand love, but it can do wonders to ur heart and ur mind once it sinks in. but it was just a thought, not a im-going-to-hold-you-down-and-beat-you-till-you-want-to-love-someone-or-think-u-can type of thing. because i mean... yea. but thanks for the comment about my picture... it does enough justice, maybe even more. lighting has a lot to do with everything... ♥,m
from xaxphyxiax :
Dearest, I do believe, that I understand. And the music was absolutely delightful.
from jiltedsoul :
No need to sell me your soul, but I do understand perfectly. That fact alone is frightening.
from occoquan1 :
jack dear, did you change your password? I cannot access your diary. I miss you. Love, Salem
from ms-turner :
The hands that feeds us is often the same one that will slam us head first into the wall before it tries to rip our throat out.
from froggygirl88 :
i put the complete story start to finnish in my diary. i really hope that you like the ending as much as everything else! please let me know what you think. thanks Stephanie
from lady-dra :
need...
from punkedupqt :
for how very wrong it may be to say this, reading ur entry makes me think i could fall in love with you. i dont kno how to explain it really... it was just the sensation i got... but yes. that entry was indeed the most amazing thing i have ever read in my entire life. i just wish i could for once think and experience as you do... ♥,m
from thewoodwitch :
Come and visit me, Jack.
from froggygirl88 :
I finaly did it! i just finished my story (the ending needs a little work) and as soon as it will let me add an entry i an putting it in my diary ikselrok. and will put it in this diary in a day or two. talk to you later Stephanie
from lady-dra :
have you ever played a word game where people put together a sentance? one person starts with one word, like blind, then the next person adds another word until the sentance seems finished.....so.....blind....
from meowangel12 :
hi jack waz up oh em says hi and she sorry 4 the trouble. her parent r having a bad time. she has to move i'll be seeing u.
from sailorcosma :
hey jack. haven't been on for a while. still can't read your entries for a while though. its this whole thing with my mom, ne way, she'll forget about it soon. i'll e-mail you though. now that i think about it, did you answer the last one? NO HURRY THOUGH. i know you don't like it when i'm being impatient like i'm so good at. :| i will talk to you later.
from lady-dra :
blind
from thalakos84 :
I dreamed many dreams. A few struck me. You were living in an old house in my home town. You were a roomate of some sort of some other friends. You were laying in your room alone. I didn't want to bother you, because I didn't know if you were mad, or if you were sick. But you opened your door to see who was in the hall. Your gaze wandered back and forth, and you retired back into your bed with the door slightly ajar. I took it as an invitation. But your room was nothing like I imagined it. It was disheveled. The two things I remember most vividly were a mahogany violin laying face-down on the floor and pistachios. Hundreds of pistachios littered the floor and shelves. The last thing I remember was coaxing you into coming out to have some fun with the "rest" of us on that crisp and crackling night. From there, it fades back into oblivion. The rest of the dreams pertained to castles, women, being an animal of some sort, and a very distinct one of my elementary friends and I running around inside an abandoned psychiatric ward. I'm not sure how any of this makes me feel. I only wish I could dream it again and remember. But I wrote the previous note as soon as I woke up, so that's why I mentioned it. Sorry for sucking up your note space. Sleepily, Ð
from ms-turner :
Why did she wait so long to contact you? I hope everything works out for Jack, I know how bad you want a child.
from j3ff00 :
You could have it all, Jack. All it depends on is whether you want it or not.
from thalakos84 :
I had a strange dream about you. Had a lot of strange dreams last night. I always thought you were taller though..... Love, Ð
from bluperspex :
hope everything is going well with you... the sun always shines on certain people. have you noticed?
from j3ff00 :
Ouch, jacki. that hurt :(
from love-fatal :
its been awhile. i love you, jack.
from j3ff00 :
I don't care where, just far away....I don't care where just far, Away...I don't care, where just far, away, I don't care where just far, I don't care where just far, away...
from plastic-face :
You were the antidote that got me by Something strong like a drug that got me High... It came on the radio this morning and I resisted the urge to turn up my friend's car stereo as loud as it could go.
from jiltedsoul :
Don't leave. I couldn't handle that right now. Stupid to say, I know, but so is my mental state lately, so take everything I say with some understanding, please.
from punkedupqt :
i love the new layout image. :)
from j3ff00 :
Grey would be the colour...
from j3ff00 :
<3 Maybe it didn't mean that much, but it meant everything to me...
from ariza :
Greetings, Jack. This may be long, as I was going to write this on yahoo. But I finished reading ALL of your entries from 2004, and I must say...I am impressed. I'm sorry that there are people who think that your life is made up or the things you write are the result of your imagination, and even I admit that at first I thought the same thing...but when you wrote about how you first met Gabriel, I just knew that it was true. But can you blame people for thinking it's unreal? I don't know...it's the way you write. I'm pretty sure the majority of other people, if they had the life of you, would probably write it in such a dull way, but with you....you write it as if it were a story. There was this guy that I had befriended in 2003. We became best friends, and he was one of the most beautiful creatures that I had ever seen. He had these blue and green eyes that were just gorgeous, and he was quite brilliant. He told me that his parents had abandoned him shortly after birth and that he'd never had a formal education until he was 16 (he only stayed for a year and a half). He had spent all of his life just wandering. And yes, there were some things that I didn't believe, but there's something in my soul that just told me that what he was saying was real. See how the story relates? Have you two gotten married? I thought it was so sweet how you proposed to Gabriel, and let me tell you, I am still envious....oh, if it were me instead! (I kid; I kid) If you have not, I would LOVE to go to the wedding. Well, I guess that is all I have to say. I wish I could say more, but words have escaped me, so I leave. Love, Jasmine
from plastic-face :
We come back because you're intoxicating, love. <3
from thewoodwitch :
I read what you write, Jack, because I care. I may not say anything, but I do care. It's one of my many flaws, everyone I come into contact with, I care about in some way.
from sadexistence :
dear sweets, im so sorry that you have to endure the drama of moronic children who think themselves to be on some higher level and therefore have the right to pester us all. please keep in touch, ive grown so fond of you. your gianna
from cammella :
Yesh, I noticed the lockdown of the Jack Master. I was worried a bit, but figured you had your reasons and I respect that. I'm sorry about the 15 year old teenie bopper drama that you came down with, I can only hope it ended.
from suta :
Hmn... I am not 15 but well *shrugs* I can imagine how you feel. I am glad there are still people who know the prodigy... They've become rare lately...
from geminicola :
I am also glad that I'm not 15 :D
from froggygirl88 :
hey sorry to have to keep you waiting :( but i am trying to write about a page a day untill i'm done. right now i think i am half way done. and i promise to keep putting my days work up on my diary before i go to bed each night!!! untill then live with a shark attack ____/\__\0/_____ stephanie
from euphoriadied :
You are not a monster, dear. We keep coming back because we love you.
from j3ff00 :
You don't owe me anything. You already know that.
from ariza :
Well, I feel that, though it seems unreal, there is something real about what you say. I find it intereseting that a creature such as you, with a profession such as you, can pour out his soul the way you do. In a sense you have changed my life, Jack, all for the better. There are things that you say in such a way that has changed me forever. And thank God that I am not 15 ;)
from jiltedsoul :
Please don't.
from ms-turner :
Girls piss me off. Hence the reason I want sons... I have an odd feeling I'd be locking my daughter in the attic when hit 12 and leaving her there until she was 30, for my own sanity and her life... But that's just me. :-)
from cammella :
How is the increadible edible Jackolicious? We've stopped talking, I can imagine why, but I thought I'd ask how've you been, due to the fact that you've seemed distant as of late, from what I've seen.
from ms-turner :
If past sins make you a monster, then the world is populated with them. And you're not a monster dear Jack, for a monster would never admit that he is such. Trust me on that.
from silver-blue :
Very good point you have there. Things are good, looking forward to a long weekend this weekend spent with my boy :) How about you Jack? Sorry if I haven't caught you online, haven't been on much, flat out with everything else hehe hope you still love me. As for the pc issues, I'll figure it out. No dramas :)
from cacophic :
..and the password is???? I do have to say, I'm hurt...
from ms-turner :
I would happily share the biker with you! Now we just need to find him!
from silver-blue :
Looks like I am the odd one out, all it does is stops any images from loading unless I close the browser I used to view your site. Might have to have a play with it and see if it helps. Sorry to bother you Jack.
from j3ff00 :
A woman! A woman so ugly on the inside that she couldn't barely go on living if she couldn't be beautiful on the outside...
from suta :
You are not.
from j3ff00 :
Computer froze up and stopped working completely. :(
from ariza :
Thanks for the compliment:) I really liked Ave Satani. I had a feeling that it was..."different", but it never really occured to me that it was a female perspective; perhaps the dress gave me an idea at the unconscious level. But overall, it was nice; but I admit, I was kind of confused by it. I'll probably have a second reading of it and maybe I'll get it. Good work, though!
from silver-blue :
Jack, I may be the odd one out here however when I view your diary it does some strange things to my computer and I have troubles, has anyone else mentioned this? If not I'll assume it's just me. Hope the world is treating you well.
from ariza :
Awwww....you really are sweet, Jack. I never would have known that I have a place in your heart. After I read that, I decided to write a review of your diary on my xanga: http://www.xanga.com/jd_firelover. Just click on review. Don't worry; I didn't write too much. I believe most of it is just mushy stuff:) jd
from darkenedhell :
i'm just about the only one here who likes them..maybe two more people somewhere. heh sucks living in a redneck town but i'll be moving soon. just hope things there will be better. --KiTTy
from darkenedhell :
wow someone else who likes Cradle of Filth...about damn time lol. later! --KiTTy
from j3ff00 :
I turn my back, i walk away...there's nothing else that I could say, but you won't see me cry..
from ariza :
I will put that in my memory somewhere. I have a "bad" habit of copying what I've written, just in case something bad happens. You really do have a lovely layout. Is that you? And where did you get the music from on the older pages?
from thalakos84 :
Only once? I've heard him many times. Jack, something that happened to me has given me much more appreciation for your writing. Don't worry for me; nothing is wrong. I won't despoil my thoughts by trying to explain. I thank you. Love, Ð
from suta :
Hmn, how are you? Are you doing all right? I hope so. Wish you all the best kiddo. Love, Luc.
from thewoodwitch :
Jack, I never got the password for your diary... I would love to keep reading your diary. If I'm worthy enough, please send it to me at Vintageinferno@aol.com Thanks so much.
from ms-turner :
Peter Steele. I like the new layout! :-) Kisses
from cammella :
My friend Grace wants someone to do plastic surgery on her to look like Helena, and she basically turned me onto them. The song is amazing. In a way I can't blame her, Helena is beautiful, as is the song.
from rosebud-lips :
When I was a kid and it was raining I used to say that God was crying for all the sad things that people do.
from cabaretlost :
just stoppin bye to leave some footprints... there arent many of them 'round here. keep on.
from j3ff00 :
Tried to save myself, but myself keeps slippin' away! Find that song sometime ;)
from panchopanter :
Me too, I was about to e-mail Diaryland the other day asking them "What the hell is wrong with the chat?!" but now it's back up and running. :-) *smells the rose you left me* MMM... thanks. *puts it behind his left ear* Shall we tango? lol
from jiltedsoul :
I almost wish that was about me, odd feeling, isn't it?
from panchopanter :
Hi hun, how are you? The chat room's back, so let's hope we can stay in touch more. :-)
from plastic-face :
I am requesting your password, if I may.
from froggygirl88 :
I hope that you might take the time to red my new story. I decided to you as one of the main characters this time. sorry that you have such a dark role. but i thought you were the perfict person for it. well i'm off to bed bye. ___/\__\0/__ stephanie
from thalakos84 :
I've missed the last 3 or so entries. Could you be a dear and send me a password. Thank you Gentleman Jack. I hope to hear from you soon. Love, Ð
from mortalkombat :
Why? Because I envy your normal life. It seems that envy is my sin.
from punkedupqt :
haha. i would have thought that an obvious situation? :)
from sadexistence :
jack sweetheart. how are you? i just got back and i see your diary is locked. i hope to hear from you soon love. take care of yourself. and i miss you!
from panchopanter :
Okay, i'll try to be online at that time even though it's a bit late. I know, time differences suck.
from ariza :
Why is your diary locked up? Something private? Please let me know, dearie...I am starting to worry...
from moon-eyes :
Graff, your dramatic-ness makes me chuckle. Thank you, Jack.
from punkedupqt :
oh, but i do. :)
from lady-dra :
:P
from lady-dra :
you know what else is a real bitch? because I don't :)
from jiltedsoul :
When you get a moment, you have mail.
from graffitihart :
I miss you as well, my loveliest, but...I feel the "something between us" is a gap. A big, muddy gap full of sadness and pain. And I just don't think we can close it, Jack...It's just...hopeless.
from moon-eyes :
I will look forward to receiving it.
from ms-turner :
Jack, can I have password? Please email me msturner62783@yahoo.com
from suta :
*hugs*
from xaxphyxiax :
Thank you for the password to your realm love. And of course. I shall not give it out.
from punkedupqt :
wow... ive never thought about that before. hmm... i guess it all depends. sometimes its that i have a really big issue going on with myself and writing used to be an outlet and an escape... that and i kno that ppl actually read what i write so i think sometimes i write just to write for ppl. and i just love writing. but all in all, im not so sure. but yea. what prompted this question? ♥+m
from moon-eyes :
I would say that nonasian's note sounds melodramatic, but perhaps well meant. I did not get it, Jack.
from kornstarch :
jacky! you locked your diary again. send me a message, babe, i want to read your stuff! *hugs and luffs* later! ~_^
from sailorcosma :
i second what nonaisan said! it is so very true. and i e-mailed you. and added an entry to my diary that is really stupid but it's possible you'll enjoy the stolen part...
from j3ff00 :
I just wanted to say that they make pills for PMS now. Bai!
from suta :
Okay...I will.
from nonasian :
Hmmm Jack...my dear Jack. Your diary is once again locked. I know I have been..hmm I suppose away will be a good word. I remember once...just once we spoke on aol with one another. A grand conversation that was...alas it was long ago but one I would never forget. No matter what you may ever feel in your heart or your mind..read these words that I type with such a fiery passion. You are such a beautiful being. You have flaws but what person does not. Whoever says that they are perfect are just fools who fell into a trap of their own mind. You are not a bad person Jack but a person that gives new hope, inspriration and happiness to others. Believe it or not but it is true Jack. If its alright with you I would love to get the password to your sanctuary..if I have your permission of course. The email.....Inuart7@hotmail.com. Even if you decide not to give me passage...my wisdom is always available to you. ^^
from j3ff00 :
The morning...it was like...slow-motion, and everything was so out of my control. And, she said to me, you've really been there for me, and I want to be there for you, and lets go..and within a couple..seconds..i hear her crying. And, and in that moment, I don't know...what happens...where souls go, what I really realized was the depth of love that I had...and, thank god for her, because I really...had a very hard time taking the next step and like always, she always seemed to find me...
from moon-eyes :
Jack, I could not get your e-mail to work. May I have the password as well?
from love-fatal :
oh no. locked. may i have the password & such? email is blacknbluething@aol.com
from xaxphyxiax :
Dearest, may I please have the password to read your writings? I would love to regain access to your diary. Email it to me: IridescentLIE@aol.com or please leave it on my notes page. ♥ xAxphyxiax
from ms-turner :
I did make an adorable baby... black curly hair and big blue eyes... I just can't figure out what happened when I got older! :-D If you were in country, I'd help you guys out, you know that. Kisses.
from sailorcosma :
Jack, may I please have the password to your diary? I got on today just to read it and couldn't get in. you can e-mail it to me if you want.
from suta :
Hmn, locked? Already time to say farewell?
from punkedupqt :
locked? i think at some pt i had a password, because the box came up all filled in... but it didn't work. :(?
from jiltedsoul :
I don't even know where to begin, but I will be writing you. Your offer means more to me than you'll ever know.
from j3ff00 :
I don't want to let you go before I understand. I don't want to let you go to the no-man's land. I don't want to let you go, I want to hold your hand...I don't want to let you go to the no-man's land...
from j3ff00 :
I don't want to let you go before I understand. I don't want to let you go to the no-man's land. I don't want to let you go, I want to hold your hand...I don't want to let you go to the no-man's land...
from mortalkombat :
I've got t3h password, and you don't, bitches!
from jackthripper :
Want the password? E-mail me. I can't pass it on through notes. JckthRppr669@yahoo.com
from ms-turner :
That should be "were not" not "were"
from ms-turner :
If we were in different countries (seeing as you're now living on the other side of an ocean) I'd play surrogate for you and Gaberiel. :-)
from euphoriadied :
I wish I could hear you sing. And I know you're beautiful, but your appearance matters not, for you're already the most beautiful person on the outside.
from bloodbath99 :
oh. it seems that the poetry I write at the spur of the moment is the peotry people like best. I suppose it's because when I give it a lot of though, I second-guess myself and change what might've actually been good. But thank you again.
from bloodbath99 :
haha...you're full of flattery, aren't you? Thank you anyway, Jack. I appreciate your kindness. But...which poem do you speak of?
from sailorcosma :
and don't all you people who read my notes to jack go makin' fun of me! cuz it's not nice you know! but you really can cuz i'm sure you already do. (and sorry Jack, for using your notes as a message board)
from sailorcosma :
yay!!!!!!!!!!!!! you wasn't mad at me!!!!!!!!! that is veddy good cuz i no wants yooz be mad at me! (do you like my words that i maded ups?, well kinda) ne ways... iz wills beez a seein' yooz l8rs! (i is vurry hyper, can you tell?!) =) good bye Jack-y! (that's what i call you (Jack-y)) bye bye! =)
from bloodbath99 :
oh, no, it's perfectly fine. I don't expect an email the second I've talked with someone. And I understand things being hectic...every day is hectic around here...
from punkedupqt :
oh, u shouldn't bother with what ppl think of you. its whats on ur inside that counts. and if u are as beautiful on the outside as you are on the inside, then there's no amount of damage hooking could do. plus i dont even kno what it is. go figure the immaturity of my mind... ♥
from punkedupqt :
aw darling, i wish i could see your face... thats ok tho. i wish i never showed mine. :\
from love-fatal :
mm. i love you, i love my chemical romance. life is good.
from punkedupqt :
okei dokie, i shall ask her sometime. and aw, poppet? "well ello, poppet!" haha. love that movie... ♥
from punkedupqt :
ah i liked that video.
from jiltedsoul :
Sometimes I feel like you are the only one who understands. I am in need of your guidance.
from mortalkombat :
8 Goldfish, my dear. Six unnamed, two bearing the names of Duncan and Conner. I'll get you pictures of their environment when I can. Take care
from punkedupqt :
ok this might be a weird question, but i think since u did ur own html coding for ur diary template, u might be able to help me... how do u get ur entry to not square off at the end and just be loose like your's is? the squaring on mine is bothering me and i dont kno how to fix it... :\ thanks and love always, m♥
from lady-dra :
dear jack, vietnam sucks, it's way to hot, then it's way to cold, and it's never inbetween, I'm about to get shot, so I thought I'd write this to tell you, the weather's never how you want it to be....
from love-fatal :
last month one of my dogs died of heart failure. its strange that creatures that cant even speak to you end up meaning so much. another one of my dogs is fourteen, so i've more or less grown up with him. the thought of losing him is one of my greatest fears. that sounds stupid, but its true. anyway. yeah.
from moon-eyes :
A lot of these messages are annoying. I am sorry.
from nonasian :
How I wish I could give you a hug.....
from mortalkombat :
Choose your Destiny.
from graffitihart :
oh...I see you have unlisted me....
from graffitihart :
meh, I simply unlocked it. I don't really have a reason to be locking it anyway. Just something new, I guess...
from bloodbath99 :
Hello! I'm going to sound really cheesy, but I really appreciate your adding me to your list of favorite diaries. You've no idea how much that means to me. Sorry that I've locked it, but you can email me if you want the password. Thank you!
from meowangel12 :
jack, i read the entry about your dog. i am so sorry. but i have something to tell you. your dog on the day i was born. on that day i was celebrating my 6th birthday.
from meowangel12 :
i am glad you are not so crazy anymore.
from jiltedsoul :
Your latest entry brought tears to my eyes, as I have been there. I think I understand now the road to revenge, because I have just started that journey. My fear is that I'll get lost along the way and destroy myself in the process.
from moon-eyes :
I like how you did not advize me against my temptation!
from punkedupqt :
yes, we paint a pretty picture dont we... ♥
from meowangel12 :
what drove you crazy?
from jiltedsoul :
Such a following here, I fear my words would get lost, so I'll save them for another place.
from j3ff00 :
jack please leave me a note i'm happy i thinx a boy at school likes me
from euphoriadied :
Thank you, dear Jack, for your note. Sorry I couldn't reply sooner. I'm just being put under so much stress. Thank you for still caring.
from jackthripper :
I'm being driven crazy...
from rosebud-lips :
I rather enjoyed that entry, despite its vagueness.
from ariza :
Hi, Jack! I had a dream about you Sunday of last week. We were sleeping together (in a nonsexual way, of course). Just thought you wanted to know, for I found it quite interesting...
from moon-eyes :
I like that boy's lips.
from cammella :
Is it just me, or have you been noticing random people that you've never talked to before adding you to their profile? I'm a little scared.
from suta :
Hmn okay. (I am sorry, my english isn't very best) I hope you are doing well, my friend. ^^
from lady-dra :
not me not me
from lady-dra :
who knows who knows.
from meowangel12 :
my cat is the joy of my life.
from suta :
Hah, did you make the photos yourself or did you steal them from another website? ^_____^ Anyway. Nice picties. ^^
from ms-turner :
He was very yummy indeed, but since I have no claim, you are more than welcome to him! As long as I get details :-D
from punkedupqt :
oh, thank goodness. hope ure doing well. -*picks up rose and plants it in the rain*-
from love-fatal :
mmm. the cranberries. <3
from suta :
Selfmade photo's? ^^
from punkedupqt :
oh sweetheart... i surely hope that isnt your arm, tho im pretty sure it is. please hang in there and try not to let it hurt so horribly... (ps- 'zombie' is a good song)
from graffitihart :
No, no, that's not it. But it seems that no one received a password and the people I gave it to verbally have mentioned that it didn't work. I just unlocked it, doesn't matter.
from lady-dra :
does blood really satisfy the screams?
from meowangel12 :
i have a cat. i didn't know you had one either.
from mortalkombat :
JACK! IS THAT UR ARM?!!!11
from punkedupqt :
oh wow. in the oddest way possible (or maybe not, i guess it could be taken either way) that has got to be the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me. thanks :)
from punkedupqt :
haha aw... and how is it u think that? :)
from mortalkombat :
DON'T CUT!
from sailorcosma :
hey Jack, i didn't know you had a cat. i have two, they're almost identical, gray with gold-ish green eyes. haha, my dad just let them into the house.
from graffitihart :
oh...did I not send you your password? I'm sorry, darling, I'll try again...
from lady-dra :
cats know everything they're just to bored to care, beside they have better things to do, like clean they pretty fur. :)
from punkedupqt :
i think every diarylander goes thru that phase once or twice in their life. i did... like 4 years ago when i first came upon this place. its pretty common. happy trails tho sweetheart :)
from meowangel12 :
Can't Take No More I can't live with the lies any more. People expect to much from me Everyone tries to blame me for all the uncontrollable things in life Why must i be tortured for no reason Isn't it bad enough that my friends desert me There is no end to the lies They build up like a spiders web Only to fall apart and after this what is your reward By this time you have nothing Who would live a life so horrible Only by force do i Bound by wordly laws i make the everyday strife to live for freedom is my dream some one please make possible my dreams Before i take the breath of life from me.
from punkedupqt :
well... yay for the dedication atleast. thats always good, even tho now it seems like u feel like its almost a duty to write in there... :(?
from cacophic :
hello, stranger.
from murdrsxaffrs :
::Casually sit's besides you with a stupid big grin on her face and just stares at you until you look over, so startled but the huge smile that you yell fall off the park bench::
from hp-fucked-dm :
Hey. Um. It's been a while. I hope you've been well.
from meowangel12 :
jack, please forgive me of my trouble causing. i have suffered the effects of it. before i can have peace i must know i'm forgiven. please forgive me.
from lady-dra :
--fare thee well
from lady-dra :
"Alas! they had been friends in youth; But whispering tongues can poison truth; And constancy lives in realms above; And life is thorny; and youth is vain; And to be wroth with one we love, Doth work like madness in the brain;"--lord byron. darling your life is a book and I can't wait to turn the pages
from sailorcosma :
hi jack. me and made-2-mosh are writing an epilogue for a book we read in school, and you have to read it when we get done. we put alot of things the characters were thinking in French and Itallian, so no one but us will know what it says, and it's just hillarious. we were reading over what we had done so far today and we said "we have GOT to let Jack read this." so remind us and when we get it done i'll e-mail it to you or something.
from love-fatal :
your taste in music makes me smile. ♥
from j3ff00 :
Heaven'sForbidden,sokissmeonelasttime
from graffitihart :
Jack, darling, you're absolutely right...I'm suffocating to death, but there seems to be no "death" I'm sick of being this, sick of trying to be something else. I'm just giving up, Jack, just...quitting. There's nothing left for me to throw away, this time. I've burned all my bridges and now I'm just stuck...I...I don't know what to do. I need to get away. Cry alone, I've gone away...
from silentforest :
I did wonder how long it would take you to come across Vincent and his sad little story. But then you already knew it, didn't you? We all do, I think, if we look deep enough.
from lady-dra :
vincent was a sad little boy and all he needed was a cute little toy, to help him make friends with just a bit of joy.
from mortalkombat :
My beloved, do you know...how many times I stared at clouds thinking that I saw you there? These are feelings that do not pass so easily, I can't forget what you claimed was ours. Moments lost though time remains, I am so proud of what we were...no pain remains, no feeling..eternity awaits...Grant me wings that I might fly, my restless soul is longing... Yooouuushouldddddknoooowwhatthhhatisss.
from rosebud-lips :
Have you seen the movie Vincent? I would imagine so since you used the poem from it.
from samgrey :
I had to lock my diary. Email me at samanthagrey@gmail.com if you'd like the password.
from moon-eyes :
You definition of cherish seems closer to devotion to me.
from murdrsxaffrs :
Que, mi amour?
from murdrsxaffrs :
Aww, does Jacky McShmacky want the password?
from deareddie :
Je t'aime, mon chere. Mon francais c'est tres, tres mal, mais c'est le temps que je te dit vous etes mon couer. Comprenez vous?
from cammella :
since Dland chat is down time2 has set up a chat room on his diary, but you can bypass the diary and go straight to the chat: http://pub27.bravenet.com/chat/show.php/2277503233
from graffitihart :
what I'm trying to say is, thank you, love, for listening.
from graffitihart :
It seems to me that it has been a lifetime since we've last spoken, dearest...Times have changed since I last talked with you, and they are still yet to change. The light of the moon shines differently upon me, less lovingly, and it's once caressing rays are now harsh and cruel...Oh, what am I saying? I don't mean to complain in every bloody note I send you...forgive me, but I just don't have much else to say...I am lost for words.
from meowangel12 :
Jack, can you forgive me... for being stupid and not trying to help her. if it hadn't been for you she never would have gotn't the help that she desperately needed. so thank you. can we put all the trouble caused behind us and start over. -Kayla
from oblivian3 :
hi darn you have alot of notes it took forever to get this far but i've heard about you a real cool guy. no one know who i am but darkdemon3 who was drove to a stopping point and meowangel12 a fun little girl. anyway i know you probably won't note me but anyway just take your time ok... i'll see you deary -oblivian3
from meowangel12 :
listen, jack emily did listen. and i am sorry for my part in stirring up any trouble i might have caused. please forgive me. -Kayla
from murdrsxaffrs :
::Sighs:: Jack...I love you. I really should come up with a name for you. It's a habbit of mine, I give all my friends nicknames. I call me friend Rachell Rock-L, My friend Shelly Michellellell. Crystal is Cryst-al, and so on and so forth. I'll find one for you, it seems Jacky is being used...by everyone. So...I'll give you one. Love
from meowangel12 :
Jack, i have been told to relay this message from darkdemon3: Jack i quit. i don't wantyour stinking notes so don't leave me any. and if you have any notes for me give them to meowangel12 and she will relay them to me.thats all she told me to tell you. plus she trashed the note you left me. how do i deal with her?
from deareddie :
Jack, I feel so unloved, is my writing, though uncreative, not of your love? What can I give you of my soul that will be worthy of your attention, my Jackela?
from iamjackslie :
I see -- sorry about the life -- man, no offense but your mom sucked -- though you know that already. From one Jack to another -- hang in there. I know, easy for me to say -- hence me saying it.
from j3ff00 :
Get your thing out of him and find out that I'm not spanking either of you. Also, tell jade not to bitch about how loud you are. :)
from plastic-face :
Last night I was reading The Plays of Anton Chekov, saw the words "Jack the Ripper," and have been thinking about you ever since. Just...wondering what you're up to, I guess.
from cammella :
I promise Spanky will do most of the spanking, its only appropriate.
from cammella :
I worry about you daily, and now I worry for him. Please promise me neither of you will get hurt, otherwise I'll beat you both!!
from cammella :
I dont know wether to be happy for you or to feel bad. I'm glad you got rest, and I'm glad you went with him to do this, I was worried about him going alone.
from panchopanter :
lol, he's hot, insn't he?? ;-) *winks* I'm on my way to the museum, I was gonna go last weekend but I had a last minute change of plans. Hope to see you on Yahoo, take care. *hugs* Love, Pancho Pantera *leaves rose on your bed*
from plastic-face :
I've been thinking about you.
from samgrey :
Exactly.
from sadexistence :
dear jack.. is that a still from velevt goldmine i see?
from mortalkombat :
"plus she is scaring me. saying that jack told her to become a cutter" Jack, you ass. :D
from geminicola :
I was not teary eyed...though I do care... Gemini Angel
from sailorcosma :
i'm not sure i understand what you're asking me...
from ariza :
I was just beginning to worry about you. Nicole got teary-eyed this morning because of Gabriel. But he's back, isn't he? If so, I am happy for you. The baby is beautiful...but I'm still contemplating on whether or not I should have children of my own. Was that you smoking? SMOKING IS BAD!!! (<-Don't you hate when people say that?) Well, I have said enough. Much love to you.
from suta :
*grin* No.
from j3ff00 :
Not 'til you gimme your gun!
from j3ff00 :
*shrugs* Guess. :)
from j3ff00 :
*Insert MGS Theme 2:41* Activate Now.
from lady-dra :
Poisoned in our dreams by shadows of our enemies. Glimpses of good deeds gone into serenity. Grace or what we had reminiscent to me. Poison took flight through my veins it streams. Lovely how it made us be.
from meowangel12 :
jack, dear please help me help my cuz. she won't get help from anyone. she is scaring me. please help her. i'm afraid shes gone off the deep end.
from meowangel12 :
okay. sorry i jumped to conclusions. see you are the only person that she talks about i figured you might have given her the idea she was a cutter. please forgive me of my stupidity.
from daath :
Roses rose in black repose, near shores of glass no times disclose, reeds to west in threshing grate, the winds of past blow contemplate; Seldom seen if ever been, was a tune you knew back then, more a whistle than a rhyme, playing backward all the time: Evol evol evol, were it ever so, evol evol evol, how else would the mind's winds blow?
from j3ff00 :
Shang Gou, my sir. I believe I will purchase them. We will bury you. :)
from cammella :
Grouuuuup Huuuuuuug!!!
from cammella :
JEFF'S BEING A POO HEAD ON THE PHONE!!! SPANK HIM SILLY BUNS!!!! TO THE NEXT EXTREME!!!
from cammella :
Awwww ::gives undivided attention:: Mr. Spankmeister is dillusional. I think you should spank him...SPANK HIM GOOD!!
from j3ff00 :
Beware. There will be no mercy.
from j3ff00 :
Are you frightened?
from cammella :
Awww! ::Consoles Jacky:: Dont worry sweetie, you're a REAL MAN! They're blinded by your biceps. WHIP DAT AZZ!
from cammella :
AWWW, Jacky, your more of a man than they'll EVER know!!
from panchopanter :
Hey, I just hooked up the wireless system ALL BY MYSELF. Yay! *jumps around the room* All it took was my patience and my brains, lol. :-D I'll see you on Yahoo soon. ;-) *winks* I'm going to bed in an hour, nitey night. *yawns*
from sailorcosma :
hey jack. i don't really have anything to say. but i know that it isn't the same without your notes and that we miss you. luv always -Tayler
from j3ff00 :
Everyone will suffer.
from panchopanter :
*blushing again* Hey Jack, that's for your notee. I got the DSL set up, yay! :-D I just can't figure out how to hook up the wireless stuff, my brother in law (a computer geek, hee hee) will figure it out. Yes, I look forward to chatting with you soon, let me know what day/time your on, okay? Love, Pancho Pantera
from murdrsxaffrs :
Hahahaha, I'll promise to take some!
from murdrsxaffrs :
HAHAHAHA!! You two have Jade to take my place,Jeff wouldnt mind a bit..
from murdrsxaffrs :
Hahaha, sorry sweetie, Jeff will be doing all the groping :)
from cammella :
HAHAHA, I'm sorry girlie, That I dont, but I live down the street from three parks, a bolwling ali with an arcade, and across the street from an Ice cream parlor. And if you ask me, the swings are the best part of the park! And Yea, Jeff has that effect on people, sillyness.
from murdrsxaffrs :
Yea Jacky, CONSIDER YOURSELF WARNED!!!!
from cammella :
Wow, it's good to know that so many people are afraid to be alone. It scares the shit out of me, I don't know how I pull it off everynight. I wish you didnt have to go through this. In my opinion, you and Jeff should just come to Jersey. I have more than enough room. I'm telling you, Jersey is beautiful in the summer time :)
from j3ff00 :
Ah man, Jacki, how you attract some of these people is beyond me. :D
from panchopanter :
*blushing* Thanks for your note, it was very nice of you to say hello. :-) This afternoon i'm gonna set up the DSL on my sister's laptop, so hopefully we can chat on either Yahoo or (if it's up by now) Diaryland chat. Yay, i'll finally have internet at home! Take care doll. ;-) *winks* Love as always, Pancho Pantera
from meowangel12 :
okay jack. i have had enough with you. but on top of all that you are messing with my cuz's mind. you know that you are like her role model. you go around bragging about the note you leave her. do you think she's insane. well shes not as insane as i am. i am propably in need of seriouss help. but i don't care. why do you mess with peoples minds. she is going to get hurt one day and i will blame YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!consider yourself warned. -Kayla
from meowangel12 :
hi jack. are you going to be ok? please be ok. it is a bit boring around here without you. -Kayla
from ms-turner :
Nah, Eeyore's too cute to be dark as well. Oh well, I'll just have to be dark enough for all of them. :-D
from ms-turner :
Sugar, he's not dark at all. He's too cute to be dark! Now, my Eeyore that is dressed up as a vampire, that might be dark... but I doubt it! :)
from love-fatal :
now that 'show me the meaning of being lonely' was on your diary, no boy band love you throw at me could be surprising. :p
from cammella :
Jacky be kikin jaef azz BOOOOYAAA!!!
from j3ff00 :
Don't ever say booya. :(
from cammella :
I was on the phone with him and I read it to him, he says he wants to beat your ass. You made me laugh my ass off though. I love Jack from W&G, its a great show.
from cammella :
You're very popular,I'll use that and advertise for The Jacky. And out of curiosity, have you ever seen Jack on "Will and Grace"?.
from love-fatal :
all macho men should listen to at least one boy band per week, just so that they remain well-rounded.
from cammella :
I love it and want to use it on my profile its the best ever.
from cammella :
I still think they take advantage of your kindness. You're a sweetheart, and I think they think their popular if JACKTHRIPPER likes them.
from love-fatal :
jackk. backstreet boys? haha. you're wonderful. ♥
from cammella :
Jacky, where the fuck do these people get the idea that I care? And why do they leave me notes? Remind me again, they think I care?
from darkdemon3 :
hey jack you better get to cammy before i do. got it .i might not do any damage but my 4 brothers will. i need to talk to you now i've you what happened to me at age 8 right well this is now if i don't stop what i'm doing i'll might end but dieing cause i bleed to death. thats right i'm now a cutter
from j3ff00 :
They swallow the world....they swallow the world around me. :)
from cammella :
"like a bad soap opera housewives just can't wait to predict with eachother over a bucket of bon bons and a cup of hot, sugar-jammed coffee." That has to be the best line ever. But to be serious, your not a flaw, if anything your a perfection. Whats going on inside him ISNT your fault.
from j3ff00 :
I feel flattered to know that you're tonguing jade while talking to me. :)
from cammella :
Hahaha, I saw a bumper sticker that said "Remember: Bondage isnt for everyone"
from cammella :
Hahaha, I'd be the one saying "AWW" he would be the one kicking and screaming :)
from cammella :
Hahahah, about the song, or that I love you more? Cause I think he'd be a little curious about both :)
from cammella :
I magine kics, so much more ass... not even a fight.. hehehe, love you more :)
from cammella :
He said he knows the song kicks ass, and FYI, you got me addicted to "imagine" and I downloaded it, and I plan on trying to get it as a video on my diary, cause I got one on another on...I RULE!!
from cammella :
check meowangel12's notes hehehe
from cammella :
"shut up kayla read jack diary he's here but not checking his notes. his diary scares me it's talking about hell and this guy killing someone. READ IT!!!" OMG LIKE R U KIDING????
from meowangel12 :
i am really sorry for what you are going through. just remember if you ever need to talk.-Kayla
from sailorcosma :
hey Jack. i hope things are going better for you. i know a few people have left you notes asking questions, but the one's i've seen arent that important, and that includes mine. so take your time getting back to them. remember we all love you and are wishing you the best. love always -Tayler
from graffitihart :
There is no need for than you's...If anything I should be thanking you. But your welcome, just so you know. ; ) I just didn't think she was being fair, is all...Love Always, Donna
from lady-dra :
pooop!!!!
from ms-turner :
I'd happily risk my wings, but his are so pretty, I'll stick to dry land. :-)
from ms-turner :
Hello love, my favorite part of that little snippet was the 6 ft. tall man with his moth-like wings... do moth wings get ruined if they get wet? If so, how does he managed to shower, much less have sex in the tub!
from love-fatal :
1. my faith in humanity is intact. i see the world & the people in it as they are, completely fucked up & wonderful. sometimes the things i see & hear are enough to make me physically sick, but theres so many stupid little things that make it all okay, for me anyway. 2. by inspires, do you mean with my writing, or an idol-type figure? with my writing it can be anyone. primarily men that i am dating/have dated/would like to date/love/get hurt by/lead on/lie to/temporarily ruin. dreams, movies, books, & music also contribute. as far as an idol-type figure..theres really noone. 3. i wondered that last night. 4. the dead dont frighten me. with the exception of that scary girl from the ring, but fortunately, she is not real. 5. thats a tough one. to me the thought of immortality is practically orgasmic. the idea of being timeless. i genuinely am in love with life. i'm also in love with affecting the lives of others. how many lives could i have a part in if i had eternity to do it? the things you could do, the things you would see..all of the change you would witness, it seems perfect to me. but what about when things you want to keep change? people you love grow old eventually die, & you're still there. how much of that can one endure? is it possible to live too much? i mean, before i mentioned how sometimes the world can make you sick. how long before you hate it? or would the good still balance it all out? there are a million reasons why it wouldnt be good, but i'd have to say yes, i would take it.
from mortalkombat :
You Suck!
from elfingirl :
hey Jack. how are you?
from cammella :
Sweetie, dont do this to yourself. Do I have to send jeff down there in a leather one piece and spank you with a whip?
from suta :
Well, I like them. They're pretty. Heh, I like that hat of that guy, I've always wanted one like that. ^_^ I knew you liked shinedown. Everyone's pointing their fingers, always condemning me...lalala
from bluperspex :
i think we all need a little prayer. rephrase that... a lot of prayer
from j3ff00 :
Very, thank you. :)
from j3ff00 :
I TOLD U TO START LEAVING ME NOTES AGAIN MOTHERF***KER!!!!!! U R IN DEEP SHIT NOW!
from ms-turner :
I like her, but not many do anymore I don't think. She's popular enough now that she can have a 'no-edit' clause in her contract, so there are still misspellings in the final cut that is shipped for printing. But if you don't mind that sort of thing, I still think she's good.
from j3ff00 :
JACK!!!!!! I AM VERY MAD!!!!! ANSWERE THE NOTES. I KNOW THAT YOU UPDATE!!! NOW START LEAVING ME NOTES. IF YOU DON'T YOU'RE IN FOR IT. Bitch!
from suta :
Oh! I see you added samgrey! She has a nifty just new reviewsite (reviewu) (Just look at her profile.) Just try!
from suta :
Nothing helps. It’s an addict like heroine. The deeper you stick the needle in your vein, the deeper the thoughts and gone is your pain. *sarcastic* Just a phrase from my last entry *grin* I had to think of it when reading your entry. Did you make the picties yourself?
from love-fatal :
every night i call your name, every night i burn, every night i fall again. great song. i was listening to it a few hours ago.
from j3ff00 :
You think yours is bad? Josh got "The Big gay Throbbing Cock" and Joshua got "The Rock Hard Cock Sucker." Poor boy can't win.
from cammella :
I'm a gothic rapist, and negronic piss,Jade is skinned testicals, and gabe is a PMSing mexican...Hope you enjoyed!
from cammella :
http://thisisacryforhelp.com/cfhnames/index.php
from love-fatal :
hocus pocus. oh man. ♥
from cammella :
I.....REALLY didnt mean to, I feel really bad sweetie, want me to change it?
from meowangel12 :
JACK!!!!!! I AM VERY MAD!!!!! ANSWERE THE NOTES. I KNOW THAT YOU UPDATE!!! NOW START LEAVING ME NOTES. IF YOU DON'T YOU'RE IN FOR IT.
from rosebud-lips :
I love Hocus Pocus. That song is haunting. I adore it.
from thalakos84 :
You've unearthed a sacred crypt of memory. Thank you for that. Hocus Pocus, Ð
from apart- :
Control. Fuck control. I've been free to follow my own destiny, and look where it got me.
from cammella :
Sweetie, the fact that you want him to hurt you, means you care enought. I dont get it, you two love eachother to death, and yet, neither of you are willing to work this through. What you need to do (In my opinion) is sit him down, in a room, alone, and ask him how heel feels about it, just ask him what he thinks the next step should be. You'll get his answer, hence, you'll get your answer, and then maybe things like this wont happen. You messed up, but so did he when he basically did the same thing. Dont beat yourself up over this, the answer is right there. And always remember I love you.
from j3ff00 :
Hey, if my yahoo thingy is signing on and off, its not me. I left yahoo running on my computer when I left for school.
from graffitihart :
I can only say what my heart allows...but I must apologize for now.
from lady-dra :
whatever your heart desires and I can grant you shall have :)
from j3ff00 :
Whatever happened to the young man's heart...swallowed by pain as he slowly fell apart? Who is this creature? Who? What is he? What? How did he come to be? How?
from ms-turner :
you're to sweet to me darling.
from cammella :
You sent your love through that note hunny :)
from cammella :
Yea I am, He's a sweetie.
from cammella :
BUt how would you know if you didnt try? You really should have talked to him about you, you dont know that you couldnt have worked it through. Its an awesome book, I read it all in about 2 days tops, and I'm moving on to the second one. Its so sad.
from hp-fucked-dm :
Hey, real isn't always for the better anyway. I hope you're well and if not, cheer up, sweets. It's hard to, but if you don't try, you'll never really know, will you? It's an overused line, but only because it's true. Luff yew, Stephanie.
from cammella :
I'm so dissapointed in you, I dont want to come off as a bitch, but, it seems as thought you didnt make much of an attempt to make things better....
from meowangel12 :
jack. we all are worried about you. were are you. please leave me a note,dear. i think we need to talk. and soon. why don't you answere my notes anymore. can you not get off your lazy butt and do anything but answere your dear friends. well just because i am new, doesn't mean for you to dicard me like a rag doll. i'm not the type of person to cuss, so God please forgice me because Jack has really pissed me off for the last time. so jack if you don't start answereing my notes then you are to be cussed out so bad you will not think twice about not answering anyones notes. you will do it automatically. wether you like it or not.
from silver-blue :
Aww Jack, lighten up dear, just pulling your leg. It's called sarcastic over-dramatization and I happen to quite good at it when I'm having a friendly banter. Don't take it personally, life is far too important to ever be taken seriously. Just get yourself online occasionally yeah? ;) Hope you're feeling better, good cure for almost anything is Green Tea with a little honey in it. Look after yourself my dear.
from darkdemon3 :
jack why don't you note me please i'm worried about you meowangel12 is too she said you were dead please say your not please PLEASE... even though i'm a kid i'm smart i need to talk my mom just kicked my dad out of the house again i need 2 talk 2 u PLEASE
from j3ff00 :
Wasn't he worth fighting for? Wasn't he worth dying for?
from time2 :
No Cares, No Sorrows...I felt engulfed reading it.
from lady-dra :
*hands jack a lollypop* tis grape flavored :)
from love-fatal :
mm. vermillion. & its possible to have a real relationship with a prostitute. it just takes a hell of alot of work from both parties. dont give up, because then whats the point of anything?
from silver-blue :
Well, poppet, if you were ever online and didn't avoid me like the plague, I could send it to you and you could judge for yourself.. but no, I remain forgotten as always :P
from murdrsxaffrs :
uhoh, You worry me sometimes sweetie. I'm scared to know how it could get worse.
from murdrsxaffrs :
Sweetie, you cant let things go that easily. I have to agree with Jade on this, I think he may be jealous of her, I would be if I was him, knowing the love of my life is bringing his ex, who he still loves, to our home. It pains me to say, he just may be right, and it may have been a bad move on your part, but shit happens, he'll get over it. About the rest, all I can say is, maybe not drop to your knee's, but ask "Whats happening with us?" It may just open the floor, cause I'm sure he's wondering too.
from time2 :
I'm terrible with kind words...have a drink.
from lady-dra :
*me pats your hand* it'll get better right? go with me on this one, because that's what I'm hoping too. things gotta get better! yes they must! hopefully?! :) silly me.
from samgrey :
You fascinate me.
from suta :
*pats on the head* weirdo, is it so hard to understand that he wants to keep you for himself? Sometimes your just like a little kid. It is hard to share your love with someone, ya know. Love, Luc.
from love-fatal :
thank you. it means more than you know. but dont overlook your own beauty. theres a great deal of it.
from love-fatal :
the best loves are the ones where the reasons dont make sense.
from love-fatal :
i adore you jacky. ♥
from lady-dra :
*me sticks a powerpuff band-aid on jack* :)
from meowangel12 :
wow. it has been a long time since i talked to. please answer the note that came before this one. made-2-mosh and sailorcosma and me where worried about you.where have you been.
from hateulikeso :
Heyy... it has been such a long time. For some reason, the chatroom won't work for me. :-( Is it working for you?
from hp-fucked-dm :
Hi. Long time no nothing, really. Hope you've been well and if you haven't, hope you feel better sometime soon. The sooner the better, really. -hug- Being happy is good for you. Well then, I suppose I'll see you around. Bye bye.
from j3ff00 :
Oh, come now, Jackith. You know Christopher does not like having his photograph taken, especially not when he is "Busy." Silly.
from j3ff00 :
jack please leave me a note i'm happy i thinx a boy at school likes me (chris). By the way, I'll be calling Jaden's phone service when I can, you know, his sidebusiness - 1-900-EAT-JADE . :)
from geminicola :
Jack, I have many new things to tell you, so I hope to speak to you soon. Oh yeah, what is that music on your diary and how did you get it? -Gemini Angel
from darkdemon3 :
jack please leave me a note i'm happy i thinx a boy at school likes me
from suta :
Ack, yousendit still doesn't work. Do you know an other site like that or do you have msn? It's such a shame. I really would like to know what you think of it...
from lady-dra :
if I knew what kind of place it was I sure wouldn't be looking for it.
from graffitihart :
Sorry I haven't been around much, lately. I've been caught up with a load of other crap. I'd like to hear from you soon, though, and i hope you're doing alright. I've rally got to go now, or run the risk of getting fired...All My Love, Donna
from meowangel12 :
hi. r u mad @ made-2-mosh and sailorcosma dear? please tell me.
from scarletmoon- :
maybe it's just me, and, most likely it is, but from the last note you left Tayler, it sounded a bit like you were mad and/or annoyed. not the italian part, just the consider yourself noted thing. it just sounded really final to me, like maybe you werent planning on leaving her anymore, or that you had more important things to do. but from what she's told me you wouldn't do that, and as you know i am VERY good at misinterpreting things. but i just thought i'd ask. hope to talk to you later - scarlet
from sailorcosma :
you do know i don't really think youre a butt right? cuz i got this really horrible idea that you might get mad at me for calling you a butt so i just wanted to tell you that i don't really think youre a butt. and haha, i was coming to diaryland yesterday, and i typed in dairyland and it came up with cows and milk and stuff. i just wanted to make sure you knew that and i will talk to you later, and would you mind if i e-mailed you sometime? -Tayler
from honey-pott :
Ok, for my own defense, and for what its worth, no one was supposed to know of the other name, originally, and secondly, Jeff MADE me post that comment....
from graffitihart :
I am very nosey, I know, but you left a note for Tayler that I could not help but read. It stirred something in me that saddened me and hurt me for reasons I cannot explain. It's stupid, but I cried, and I want to know if you wrote that or if you read or heard it somewhere...Indebted to You, Donna
from made-2-mosh :
Wow. That was just...really poetic. Is it how you feel? I am lost for words...
from sailorcosma :
jack, youre a butt, and that was wonderful. cuz yeah, don't speak that language, but i found a translation website. and well thanks. and don't you wanna know what i mean by you're a really ugly orange?!
from meowangel12 :
hi. i see you have met made-2-mosh. she is my friend here and out of school. so is sailorcosma. and of course darkdemon3. she is my cuz. well all these kids in (a max of 20) this class are getting on my nerves. that plus a headache. i think this day will be miserable.
from thalakos84 :
Hmm. My life is almost uneventful beyond this virtual one. Would you mind if I spoke with you on occasion to fill the void? I thought I'd ask before adding you to my buddies in AIM. Just interested in this curious person known only to me as "Jack".
from panchopanter :
Ahhh, okay. :-) That's cool, yeah, i'm trying to get into the chat and it's not working. Darn it. Ermmm.... we should try Yahoo Messenger someday, no? See you later, take care. :-)
from silentforest :
Jack, I would call myself crazy before I would dare to assume that my vision has surpassed yours. I ramble sometimes, and I ramble a lot about things that don't make sense. So please, while I appreciate the thought, I believe reality should take precedence over something so insignifigant as my ego.
from ariza :
Oh, I remember what I was about to say. I'm trying to put "Sally's Song" on my diary, but I have no idea how to do it. Do you think you could help?
from graffitihart :
*Big Smile* I like cheesy people. Sometimes I'm cheesy, but really though-he is cute. Did you not tell him, really? Or is he just having a memory lapse? I dunno. I did kinda laugh...
from ariza :
What's the song that's playing on your site? It's so pretty!
from panchopanter :
Hey there, how did you know I got a new diary? Hmmm? *grins and stares wickedly* lol, just kiddng, maybe a "little bird" told you, no problem, thanks SO MUCH for adding me to your favorites, you're on mine of course. *big hug* Hope to see you and Gabby around, take care. Love, Pancho Pantera ( I couldn't fit the last A in, darn it)
from froggygirl88 :
if you think that was scarry did you read the entry before it. that one scarees me. Stephanie
from lady-dra :
I'm looking for a place east of the sun and west of the moon...
from j3ff00 :
Yeah, leave 'em notes.
from j3ff00 :
Silly Jack. :)
from graffitihart :
yes, very cute
from made-2-mosh :
Crawdads. Tayler will explain, on one condition. You gotta leave both of us a note. *smiles* I love bribery. Ps-I'm one of those that plays w/ her food. :)
from sailorcosma :
youre a really ugly orange. and leave me a note you num-num, it's been forever.
from ms-turner :
Um... a silly question, but why is your diary dated for August 2005? It is only April...
from elfingirl :
cool! :)
from overlyemo :
I've been wondering the same thing myself.
from ariza :
Thanks for the comment. I guess I am a "quiet beauty". You do have a way with words. *grins*
from suta :
Darker chore.. *just remembered* wait, do you know Apocaliptica? They are great... sort of cello (such a big violin, which name I don't know in english) music, but a lot darker... Maybe I could send ya a song of them, if you want?
from suta :
Hi homme des tenebres, *grin grin* Thank you for the note. I also love the darker type music, but that's cause I am a dark person. ^_^ I can't be happy for some reason. Anyway... you mean music like Nymphetamine of Cradle of Filth??? *smirks* So, you use a code... I'll ask my brother about that... *not that good with html* Later!
from geminicola :
My dear Jack, I was never any good at leaving notes, so I hope I speak to you again soon. I have many things to tell you and ask you.... Gemini Angel
from suta :
The only one who knows the answer is you. But you make me kinda curious. How do you do that with the music??? This is craig armstrong right? Anyway. Have some fun. ^_^
from love-fatal :
haha. the many sides of sage. thank you. ♥
from cammella :
both of them are unlocked sweetie, andrew decided to fix that :)
from froggygirl88 :
Thanks The Raven is my absoulte favorit work that Poe ever wrote. He is also one of my most fav writters so it was only a matter of time untill i shared it with everyone that reads my diary. Well i need to go do my homework befor musical practice. talk to you later bye Stephanie
from graffitihart :
Frightened? I'm not sure I understand...I went through my childhood just like everyone else. Maybe with complications, but certainly not a frightening one. Thankyou for caring though... love always, Donna
from lady-dra :
Original Une promenade et l'univers si loin Après une cascade, son nom c'est toujours toi Une escapade, la vie est dans les bois Et puis une ballade, son sujet c'est toujours toi Une promenade et l'univers si loin Après une cascade, son nom c'est toujours toi C 'est comme le vert des champs, et Comme un oiseau qui vole C'est toujours toi C'est toujours moi Toujours le rocher de la nuit nue Comme un enfant qui voile Ton passé comme drôle C'est toujours toi C'est toujours moi Sur les ailes de la joue du grand amour C'est comme le vert des champs, et Comme un oiseau qui vole C'est toujours toi C'est toujours moi Toujours le rocher de la nuit nue Dans cette époque cybernique Pleine de gens informatique C'est la seul fantasy ici Pour toujours C'est toujours moi C'est comme le vert des champs, et Comme un oiseau qui vole C'est toujours moi C'est toujours toi Toujours ce rocher de la nuit nue Comme la si douce Montegu Le bleu du ciel bien aperçu C'est la seule fantasy ici Pour toujours C'est toujours toi C'est toujours moi Pour toujours En dehors des jours Et des jours Et des jours C'est toujours toi et moi
from elfingirl :
yeah habits do die hard...i still can't stop fixing my nails with my teeth tho i haven't bit them out of nervousness for a while now :P. so how u doing?
from lady-dra :
still the dreamer never waking from the world that captures his light bon amie. I miss your stories that used to be so heavenly. who sings is it the bard or some one not known to me? would you be the raven or the lark or the sparrow or the hawk? or have no wings at all and cry with a small voice at something that seems to get worse? Will you be the bird that perches on a small tree branch or the one that flies endlessly in the dark blue skies? even if I rhyme it, it can't come true it's just something I gotta do.
from silver-blue :
I never went anywhere to begin with, so how can I come back?
from hissandtell :
Hmmm. You write very well for a kidney-eater, you know. Thanks for the note! Love, R xxx
from cabaretlost :
hey, if you ever want to talk online, my screenname is noosedhellscream on AIM. if you have MSN, you can IM me at cabaretlost@hotmail.com
from j3ff00 :
I never thought I'd apologize for last night, ;), but I rebooted the 'puter, and it wouldn't load back up, so i had to Recover it at the spot. :(
from meowangel12 :
hi. i'm a little sad to day so theres really not much to say but maybe someother time i will tell you why i'm sad.
from j3ff00 :
Like I've said before...you're a complete dork. Hey, if you get the chance, sign on Yahoo. I finally got it again.
from j3ff00 :
Firstoff, Fuck that realdoll site. I can't afford any of those. Secondly, am I a pretty rose? And, thirdly...yeah, josh is going to get some 'tough love' on saturday when I see him. God..that was lame, but I wanted to sound like a total badass. :D -Worrier
from j3ff00 :
One other thing...out of curiosity...You ever just find yourself sitting around, reading Guns 'n Ammo, masturbating in your own feces? Do you just stop and go "Wow. It is amazing how fucking crazy I really am."?
from j3ff00 :
Oh my...Jack, you do realize the only reason I persisted in the "only rose" bit was because you were complaining about how all the teenage girls asked you with (more than likely) wide eyes "Am I your only Rose, Jack?" one day, right? I will be in touch...I'm doing what I can...see, sometime, I'll explain to you why I made this temporary choice...a temporary permanence, if you will. Trust me, though, Jack. No Pain Remains. You've helped me a lot more than I let on, and, as you should've guessed I'd say this, those endless nights of intrigue made it all too clear. aww...something pretty just popped into my head, and you damn well better be able to place it: "You walk in a room...you take a seat...you don't turn around...you don't see me..." Now, I'm pretty sure that's how it went, if not, forgive me...its been ages since I heard it. And, Jack, as you know, I always like to leave with a bit of advice. Oh yeah, baby, you better've seen this one coming. *clears throat* If you're wanting people to listen, you can't just tap them on the shoulder anymore. You have to hit them with a sledgehammer, and then you'll notice, you've got their strict attention. *coughs* Ripper, I envy your normal life. It seems that envy is my sin.
from ms-turner :
Sure you weren't looking at pictures of Topaz instead of me? Love to you Jack-darling.
from j3ff00 :
Hey...jack...I'm going to go now...I don't know if I'll be back anytime soon. Just wanted to say bye..and thank you for all the good times we shared...We were quite the pair, you and I, and having Jaden and Gabriel in the picture only made things sweeter. I'll never forget the time you told me the story about the guy who asked where Gabriel got such sweet honeys...I almost fell out of my chair laughing when you told me that one. Ah...good times...good times. I guess i've just got one more question...Did we toil in vain and hope that wisdom came from what we'd done? If you don't want to answer this, i'll understand...just..send my regards to the boys. As, and I hate to use this line twice, Duncan said to Conner before one of them had to die, "I love you, Conner." You know what to swap out there, Jack. Goodbye.
from thewoodwitch :
I like the music on your site, Jack. Where did you find it? Oh, and I'm enjoying your entries more now... I always love hearing about someone else's past. It makes mine seem less important.
from thalakos84 :
Theoretical question. I know you may not enjoy my personality or my writing, but say I needed a place to live? Florence seems awesome. I'm enthralled with the fact you make a living without a standard job. Basically, if I bought a plane ticket to Italy, would staying with you for a stint be feasible. Keep in mind this is purely a what if, and I have no intention of doing so. You just seem like the kind of person to accept spontaneity. Forgive me for being so blunt. As always, Love, Ð
from j3ff00 :
I swear...you are just about the biggest dork I have ever come across. Ya know that? :D
from cabaretlost :
don't we all have a growing list... i remember i was a book klepto for a while.. stealing hundreds of dollars worth a day... so my list is rather infinite. enjoyably.
from scarletmoon- :
understood. i'm glad they're happy. sorry, but i must go, longer note later -scarlet
from sailorcosma :
well thank you. my favorite kind of people are all but the mean ones and the snobby preps!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so, so far i like everyone on d-land :)but especially you and donna and cherri and kayla and noelle and cooki-dough and gabriel
from razorblade-- :
How are we so similar might I ask?
from euphoriadied :
I admire your bravery; I wish I could go up to someone who stole my heart, but I'm a true coward at heart.
from meowangel12 :
Hi! i suppose i should have explained what entry i ment. i am so sorry about your childhood. i suppose i might have made what i read a little more horrible than it really was. so i'm not going to try to explain further it might confuse you even more. forgive me for confusing you.
from meowangel12 :
never mind!!oh!!
from suta :
Thank you. I draw quite different. *smirks* You first have to click the link etcetera under my entry, then you click the link help me. It's easy and voilà you can see them. You seem to be happy writing the story you met him, ha? ^_- Sayonara, Suta Mutou.
from cabaretlost :
i agree.. just enough to leave an odd taste in my mouth.. i also really enjoyed lost souls.
from meowangel12 :
i suppose my cuz will like the compliment, dear. i read the diary entry. how horrible.
from cabaretlost :
spoken like a true nightwalker.. and how did you like exquisite corpse?
from graffitihart :
: ) I only wish you could...But dancing, my dear, is a hunger nothing mortal could ever satisfy...
from thalakos84 :
I like where you've been going lately. It's nice to get some background on such interesting characters. Love, -D
from suta :
Well yeah your entry is beautiful bla bla bla (as usual) You really like the soundtrack, do you. I can't blame ya, I also do. But that pictie was most interesting! Say to your love I really liked that drawing! I draw myself, but quite different. I have a few on my page (first etc. then help me. if you wanna see *don't. they're ugly*) but not the personal and the most beautiful ones. Well, wanna sleep. Goodnight. ^_^
from meowangel12 :
yea i think shes nice to! if you find a busybody nice. but we (her family) try to overlook the busybody part.
from raveneys- :
I love you, Jack. I gave you my heart once. Now, I give you my hand, my soul, my eternal love. Shall we seal it with a kiss?
from lilfoxyvixen :
Thanks, Jack... glad you liked the Penis Song ;)
from postcognate :
(bow) I am flattered, Jack.
from euphoriadied :
Aw, Jack, that was beautifully written. :) You're so amazing.
from darkdemon3 :
thanx jack that will cheer her up.
from cabaretlost :
house of leaves? read it once, was intrigued and impressed. read it twice, started analyzing and annotating.. did some research, read it three times, and was utterly blown away. its been long enough, maybe i'll pick it up again.. what was your opinion?
from sadexistence :
thank you dear.
from cacophic :
In answer to your question, "I'm okay, and I'm just fine; things will be okay.....in time" I feel an overwhelming need to join the church tomorrow in their worship...who the fuck knows? I'm fine.. I'll e-mail you soon. XXOO
from love-fatal :
lovely music, lovely words. you never disappoint.
from cabaretlost :
it seems we do.. but doesnt darkness add excitement? if not excitement, at least some suprise.
from darkdemon3 :
tomorrow i'll be at church so ok um... if i don't see you sunday i'll see you next friday ok hee hee have a great super week i'll miss talk'in to you.hehe
from j3ff00 :
Just read your latest two entries...so sweet, jacki. :)
from darkdemon3 :
hey like the colors would you be a dear and note meowangel12 cause shes having mood swings about how you don't note her lol
from meowangel12 :
hi. have you had a chance to write my cuz darkdemon3. if you have what do you think about her. shes pretty cool am i right? bye dear kayla
from elfingirl :
thanx Jack :). how are u?
from sadexistence :
you intrigue me. - why?
from cacophic :
But what is it that had him so captivating that he drew it with such soft strokes all night? Shit, Jack...I know what you mean."The grass looks greener on the other side, the artist looks better from my own perspective" What the fuck!? Ahh, life. Shall we not live it until we die, a dreamy, undiscovered death? Buy the drink....flirt...live....XXXOOO
from cammella :
Aww, and yet you did, you fell so deep into love that you cant get up! My template is gone, and the one I want I cant get. The little corner of my heart is broken, I loved my template. Dark is hosting what is left of it, and I'm sad.....so I noted you, because I saw yours and I love it.Tell me, you didnt put your heart into that enty? Because its amazing, to have such emotion in an entry you didnt put it in, is, in it self, amazing.
from scarletmoon- :
oh, i did not mean for you to think i wanted you to erase your notes, i was simply making an observation on the amount of notes you have. i am fine and hope you are as well. -scarlet
from sailorcosma :
we are very insane people, no now we are very insane chicken people! and you can leave me a note any time, i love it when you do, hope you're good and much love to you also -cosma
from darkdemon3 :
thinx jack you always make me feel better and i'm sorry 4 your childhood you've had it wrost than i have my parents r out of town so i'm spinding my time at my grandparent house. today i got a new scaf its pink and red. it's pretty what your favorite colors mines red black yellow orange
from nikolaos :
Good evening dearest Father! Just letting you know I love you and miss you! Hope all is well! Visit me...i've written a brand new entry. I enjoyed it.
from scarletmoon- :
damn Jack, it takes a really long time to scroll through your notes. i swear the scroll bar only moves half a centimeter every 10 notes! You're like a friggin celebrity or something!
from sailorcosma :
hey jack. just wanted to leave you a note and well, that's mostly it. luv ya and read up on all the chicken talk(if you arent too sure what i mean read the last note scarletmoon- left you) -cosma
from darkdemon3 :
on saturday is the last day on the computer til next friday i'll miss u til then but now on spring break i'm here most of the time. i would still like it if u would note me most days your here. ok? you don't have a problem with me being way younger do you?
from j3ff00 :
There are some sick, sick fucks around here, Jack.
from suta :
Building up inside of me. A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free.. Oh yeah Avenged Sevenfold is great...
from darkdemon3 :
thinx for the note my brother is the wrost part of my family he tried to have... with me when i was in 4th grade. ps your way older than me i'll be 13 in september
from love-fatal :
that was beautiful. i love you. ♥
from darkdemon3 :
jack i... i'm so sorry... i didn't know how old r u now?
from suta :
"Nothing hurts my world, just affects the ones around me When sin's deep in my blood, you'll be the one to fall..."
from graffitihart :
Yes, I did go dancing after we last chatted :)What can I say? You left me starving, my dear...
from bloodfalcon :
Jack, I'm Sorry It has taken this long to Reply To the note you left me In months Past. I've just not Been a Very Happy Chap For a while. Yes, I Too Found Lestats 'Blood Canticle' Banter of Memnoch's Unpopularity Simply Delightful. People Didn't Give "Memnoch:The Devil" Half The chance it deserved. I found it Quite Fascinating, Since reading it, I have to Admit that it is One Of ms Rice's Finer Published Works. To read a book That in theory The Great Vampire Lestat Wrote Was Quite the Experience. But Listen to me Go on, I've taken up to much of your time Already. Once again, My Humblest Appologies for the Lateness of my reply. Adam
from euphoriadied :
As long as you live, I won't lose this smile. I love you, dear Jack. I know that if I were to ever see you or look into your eyes, time would stop. As it is, when I hear from you, the world melts. My good god, you're impossible to not fall in love with.
from darkdemon3 :
sorry i yelled at u ok!!! yesterday i was soo bored i got mad i take back everything i wrote back i've had a bad childhood so for give me.
from nimfalas :
Your words are beautiful. I pass over some quickly on my friends list, but yours I always stop to read. Much love to you.
from silentforest :
What is all that you write about Jack? Why, it is love, true and unabashed. It is the flowering of a human spirit, the unfolding of a life, the bright shining of a single torch in defiance of a world of shadows. That, dear Jack, is what I meant.
from euphoriadied :
Aw, Jack. You make me smile. :)
from cammella :
I ment the whole thing with gabe, I heard about it not too long ago, I'm not sure how things turned out, and I'm sorry it happened to begin with. I love you dearly, I wish I could make the pain go away, the confusion, and the heartache, I know life isnt great, but you only have one, make the best of it all, and try to see the light at the end of the dark damp tunnel, give me hope for the rest.
from cammella :
That should say heartache, not headache, geeze...
from cammella :
Sweetie, your tales should be in story books, there amazing, and creative, yet true. Thats what makes them so amazing, Thats what makes you so amazing. The things you've been through, heatache and pain, its a mere stumble in all the greatness you've accomplished. You found true love and thats more than I can say about alot of people.Things may be hard, but always think of it as a little bump in the road, I've been out of the loop for a while....so I probably am on the wrong track about this,But I think I know what I'm refering to. I'm more than positive I do......ignore this note.
from silentforest :
Dear Jack, it has been some time, I should think. But we all go through phases no? Perhaps you remember me, the questioner no one could answer, but then your popularity has indeed grown and you may not remember at all. But I still here, and your words have prompted one more question: do we dare to hope for all that you tell? Do we dare to hope for happiness? Do we dare to hope for true love? In all of the darkness that is this world, do we dare to look and see the light? But it seems that you do, Jack, and for that I applaud you. And perhaps, on some far away day, the light and the dark will come together in unison. But until then, I think we will all have to be content with our own shadows.
from overlyemo :
I've yet to figure out why I'm "broken."
from cabaretlost :
i know i love new orleans (been there so many times..). i plan on moving there, oh so soon.
from darkdemon3 :
what the craps your problem? why don't you get off your ass and send back people note or r u so damn lazy u want to torcher us who have time to talk now i'll get back on here in 1 hour and 1/2 and i want a note or i'll tell u off again ok. ps i adore u so don't make me yell at you again. your forever emily
from euphoriadied :
There's something grand about you. The way you write captivates me. Your last entry helped me imagine something I though was real only in fairytales. You helped me understand how real it is. I'd really love to know about the first time you & Gabriel talked. Your words are just so visual I feel like I'm actually living the experience. You make me feel so happy.
from darkdemon3 :
jack so many people adore you i wonder why? you aren't getting in their heads are you? now don't worry get and kill the world one person at a time k lol. god i hate parent locks!!! no chatrooms suck. i miss my friends or i would if i felt anything hey jack how does it feel to feel ps if i felt i would miss ya. by the way you don't talk to people much do you. i could'nt sleep last i could'nt stop thinking about you. it felt like you were in my head keeping me awake... yours forever emily
from love-fatal :
i adore you.
from j3ff00 :
Hey man...it's been awhile. I hope you're doing alright. I've got msn again for now, but God only knows how long it'll be until he formats the computer and I lose it. I'll see you around, Ripperman.
from scarletmoon- :
thank you for writing bwack, oops i mean back. i am feeling a little drunk even though i haven't been drinking, maybe im going crazy... and i seem to have spent too much time with sailorcoma. she has me speaking insane chicken language. you can look at her notes and someone named meowangel12 's notes to see all the chicken talk. best wishes -celestia
from deejayelle :
you want irony? i know that's why you come. it's a maternity and baby store. universe: 1,000,000...deejayelle: 0
from darkdemon3 :
i want to know a little about u jack. i have brown hair changing blue eyes and i'm a wrier and miner artist. how about you by the way your own my profile nad meowangel12 say hey stay dark all due respect darkdemon3. ps this my code ! *^!)% !'% !) %0@4...
from darkdemon3 :
hey thats ok i like italy. HAPPY EASTER dude. u like stakeboarding
from sailorcosma :
well, thanx 4 tellin' me the ring sucked, now i don't have 2 waste my $ to go see it. hope ur doin' ok, -cosma
from cammella :
Cammella is: gone again murdrsxaffrs is: designated 702
from redsirenbody :
you make me blush. and i love that. muses? hmm...usually I am not thinking of one particular person but just feeling...this is going to sound stupid and i hope not arrogant but the stories come to me and I write them down. Literaly, the words form in my mind without me wishing for them. that is why there is a lapse in writing a lot of times. i have to be very in tune with myself to receive them... ps, Jack, do you read the tarot? i just got into it and am loving it but would love to have some guidance, I trust you and would love to know if you have any advice for me. if you don't read the cards all is cool...hugs andlove from one who really cares for you, L
from cammella :
Which diary? And actually I think I missed something, because apparently Im doing something wrong, but, its not worth getting into. Love you deary.
from euphoriadied :
I don't know why, but I felt it flattering to know that a song could remind you of me. :) Jack, are you feeling better? I care about you.
from cammella :
You seem a tad upset Jack, not that I should ask, thought I'd tell you my comp is back, though I seemed to piss you off in more a sence than one, but whatever, I'm not to hold a grudge, just hoping all is somewhat well in the land of Jack.
from darkdemon3 :
dude that was dark. hey are u really from UK. united kingdom. if u r do u know talan parnell. please respond. thinx later, darkdemon3(emily)
from ariza :
I'm glad that you liked it. I put my "soul" into it.
from sailorcosma :
well jack, i may not be able to scare you, but the grudge did, AND THAT'S THE SCARIEST THING OF ALL!!!!!!!!! :)
from ariza :
I love the music on your diary! Please tell me what's the name of it and where you got it!!!
from razorblade-- :
Yes, I <3 Cradle of Filth. *drool*
from ariza :
What you wrote was so beautiful? Were those yours? Oh, my name's in your profile (*weeps)
from punkedupqt :
oh sweetheart, hows it goin? i haven't talked to you in forever and a day (2 hours, 14 minutes, 39 seconds and so on...)!
from punkedupqt :
oh ure awesome :D. and the only one that did, for that matter, when originally it was intended for one certain person only. but hell, atleast u did. yay! -*jumps around in her guy's pants*- :)
from graffitihart :
I'll have to email you the entry-it won't come up. Take care, love.
from meowangel12 :
hi! i love the username. i haver heard a lot about you from sailorcosma and her friend (i cant spell her username. leave me a note sometime. please. meowangel12
from nikolaos :
I love that song. I wish it were within a music box that I could open time and time again. Instead, I shall continue to visit you here to listen to it. You haven't spoken to me in a while. Have I finally bored you?
from raveneys- :
Jack, I love you. I can do you no justice with any words I put here. Just know that I love you. I'm sorry we've had so many down's lately. I promise I will make it up to you.
from moon-eyes :
Your words are too kind, and that entry was only the beginning...
from kornstarch :
Yes, here I am....so where are you? I want to know how things went, you seem so confused. Tell me what happened with Gabe, I'm a tad worried.
from rotted :
thank you for clarifying. now then... my apologies for the paranoia... if you wish to understand this deeper go to the archives and click on the "history" link... that should explain it well enough.
from rotted :
are you sure? because i detect a note of facetious sarcasm or maybe malice?.... hmmm... i'm not sure. clearly i am paranoid so which is it? be painfully clear so i can move along my merry way past this conundrum.
from scarletmoon- :
oh sorry i meant to put 'profile' on the last note i left you.
from scarletmoon- :
as i said on my profil, your entries enthrall me.
from sailorcosma :
no prob (taking a little while to answer the note) i just thought maybe i scared you. i bet we look reeeaaaally funny sittin' there doin' all that stuff. we love the one with the french fries, it's the funniest. we've done it about 3 times. and we do the brownies alot cuz we eat them alot for snack afterschool. i'm glad gabriel doesnt mind the purple for hair. when we find something(or someone) we really like, we seem to stay obsessed for quite a while. so, i'm glad you were flattered instead of scared. c u soon, Tayler
from hp-fucked-dm :
Apologies, I know not what to say to that. I love your entries though. :) Hope you've cheered up since the last time we've talked. The ratty kid writing you this note has been come a tea addict since then. :) Best of wishes to you as always. Au revoir.
from elfingirl :
okie dokie! will do!
from j3ff00 :
"Salvation? On QVC for 3 easy payments of $19.95 plus S&H." Whatever I've said before, I take it back. THIS is the greatest thing you've ever said, Jacki :)
from rotted :
what... pray tell... is that supposed to mean?
from deformatory :
I never said I was a lesbian, or gay. I certainly like women. However, as a fetishist, I am an equal opportunity whore. I am perfectly willing to take complete advantage of random vagrants in my GB. *grin* Thanks for the visit. Comments appreciated.
from kornstarch :
HERE I AM!
from moon-eyes :
It seems I have made a fan of you seeing as how you have left the last five notes on my page!
from sailorcosma :
jack, where are you? answer de note!!!! i didn't mean 2 scur(scare) you! really!
from elfingirl :
ty jack :) srry i didn't respond earlier. i've been really busy. but again ty :) hope ur doing well. -Elf
from ariza :
That was a pretty piece of work.
from shady78 :
such a nice compliment. thank you. i'll definitely make a point to read your journal. :)
from suta :
I must have that song somewhere. *seeking in her playlist...which is too long* Yay! Found it. Looks down: Try Kaori Yuki...I know her stuff are comics, but they make you shiver and sometimes cry. You are not condemned and if so? Well, then guess I am condemned too and so the rest of the world. Seeya Suta mutou.
from deewrite :
Thanks for the note, but I got into Anne Rice and quickly got outa her in the eighth grade. I don't find her that interesting anymore. I recommend Laurell K. Hamilton and Neil Gaiman.
from sailorcosma :
hey jack. this is going to be very long so bear with me. the other week me and noelle were at lunch and were disscussing how we could persuade you to give us your piano. and she suggested blood and i was all 'how do we get that?' and she says we use ketchup. and so we act out this little play with the 3 of us as french fries, your door as a plastic fork, a milk carton as your piano and a packet of ketchup. so we(the fries)go to your door and ring the doorbell. you answer and say 'who are you, what do you want?!' and we say 'give us your piano!' and you say 'never!' and we say 'fine!' and squirt the ketchup all over french fry you and run off with the piano. PS you make a yummy french fry. *dont think about me in that tone of voice!* and this other time you were a starburst with nerds. see we like to make things out of pieces of starbursts so ususally its a pizza or sumthin' but this time we made you and gabriel. you were both orange starbursts. gabriel's eyes were green nerds, and his teeth were white nerds and his hair was purple nerds (cuz they don't have black ones) and you had yellow nerds for hair, and a green and yellow for an eye (no blue and yellow for Valak) and pink nerds for lips. gabriel tasted better according to noelle. is your hair really blond? and this other time you were a little debbie cosmic brownie. and you had a blue and yellow sprinkle for eyes. and pink 4 lips. and yellow 4 hair. and gabriel had the same lips and purple 4 hair(cuz there aint's no black)and green for eyes. you tasted pretty. (pleez ask 'bout tastin' pretty so we can 'splain) PS we is very wierd as you probably have noticed by now. and we arent gonna stalk you, were going to make you out of food and eat you. like right now, we are going to fix breakfast (me and snoellee (noelle) cuz she spended the night.) bye.
from cacophic :
Hi...I'm back...if you care.
from ariza :
Hey, how are you doing? I was just wondering if you had time to read my little story. I came up w/ another one. It's called Zaari. More later... jd ariza
from poetichealth :
:) thanx. would u mind spreading the word on my diary? i'm trying to get a lot of hits.
from razorblade-- :
Don't worry, I don't pay attention to people who mean nothing to me. I respect and care for you too much to let some immature individual ruin that. And there is no way to save the damned, just pray that they will not suffer long.
from poetichealth :
ah! yes, yes. she left me a note, though i can't remember what it said . . . i left her one stating "here's a hammer - run. but first add me to ur msn . . ." hahaha i fight fire with leaves! 0.o
from hp-fucked-dm :
It's perfectly fine, dear. Don't be sorry. :)
from j3ff00 :
Think nothing of it, ma'lady. Whether you're right or not is another question, though, best suited for another day. Take care.
from devouredsoul :
strange...hrm... its okay,jack, i don't take anything anyone says to me online too seriously unless i know them personally. ♥ no need to appologize for crazy people.
from nikolaos :
Because of you, I am not afraid. You taught me that. Stupid girl she is. And yes, Anita is my goddess! She's my idol. I see a lot of myself in her.
from nikolaos :
Of course, dearest Jack. I've noticed that she had left messages elsewhere. She is friends with Mawce (a friend of mine) though I only know of her in passing. I know not what her problem with you is, nor do I care. To each his own, and you are mine. She can go very far away...it wouldn't bother me any. Love always, Claudia
from moon-eyes :
My entry written for your divine heart did not turn out quite as planned. Do not fret, though, for I will write more.
from thewoodwitch :
Thank you, Jack. I didn't think you would associate yourself with people like her. She's a little off, don't you think?
from love-fatal :
dont worry about it. i dont like warnings. especially from silly people that i dont know. love you like crazy. ♥
from nikolaos :
I would be delighted to become your Claudia, even despite the warning from this person I do not know.
from j3ff00 :
STRINGS!
from suta :
You sound happy, makes me happy. ^^ Goodnight.
from lizbathory :
I am watching you.
from nikolaos :
Why me?
from nikolaos :
Fear not...Claudia has been found. Could it be true? Has she finally found her beloved fathers?
from love-fatal :
i'm one of the most capricious people alive. earlier i really believed that it wasnt right for me to be here anymore. & a few hours later, i had something to say, so i'm back. thanks for the note though. ♥
from hp-fucked-dm :
-hugs-
from devouredsoul :
hey, darling! yes, it has been a while, hasn't it? i am always enchanted by your writing and glad you are no longer locked. i would love to take your hand. always, brit ♥
from silver-blue :
Quite the poet aren't you?
from suta :
Thank you for your note, dearest. ^^ I hope you are doing well and Gabriel, Jade, etc as well. Lots of love, Suta.
from euphoriadied :
You know that feeling you get when you just came across something that you feel is so beautiful it creates this certain feeling that makes one so sensative? That's what happened with that last note you left me. :)
from poetichealth :
i wuv u!
from kornstarch :
I am a nice little girl, Jacky. Tell me your secret lover's secret gender *grins*
from draconis72 :
brava jack, brava im happy for you tell jade i said hi, and gabe as well congrats
from euphoriadied :
I heard about this beautiful man marrying his lover in Florence... I heard it's going to be the wedding of the year. I also heard he's very happy. And he deserves it all, as I've mentioned before. :) I am extremely happy for you.
from sailorcosma :
no way! did the Grudge really scare you? You? love to say more but i'm about to leave. bye :)
from ms-turner :
Darling, I'm glad to see you are happy once again! Give my love to Gabriel, and do let us know all about the upcoming wedding! Kisses for you both.
from suta :
I am happy you are happy again! Lots of love to Gabriel!!! Seeya.
from thalakos84 :
Glad to see your back in good spirits. Truly I am. -D
from thewoodwitch :
Thank you for the note. No matter how much I didn't understand it, I liked knowing that you sent me something. I'm getting bored of Diaryland, no one ever acknowledges me any more. Either my posts are becoming boring, or something.
from poetichealth :
ur not mad, dearie, u have a bona fide conscience. tht's good, i suppose, i have voices in my head too, tht i can't control.
from hp-fucked-dm :
It's a utopia that you've dreamed. A precious fairy tale. We should all be a story, and then it'd be true. A happily ever after. Only a wish though.
from suta :
Sorry, I asked that. Of course it's lennons one. But the last time I was on your site. It didn't work. You know you should really hear the imagine version of A perfect circle, cause that one is awesome. Imagine all the people sharing all the world, you may say... Have a nice day, dear. Sayonara.
from j3ff00 :
Bravo, sir.
from c0ldbl00ded :
You dive headfirst into the longing and sorrow of an aching beginning, fingertips cutting through the surface but catching on the currents underneath ... it's a trying undertow which you'll undoubtedly conquer. I long to save you, take your pain inside my own and make them only one beast to defeat. I'd cradle you if I could. You'll stand again. You're the flawless savior we've all been seeking ... and more importantly I genuinely believe in you.
from sailorcosma :
only the brightness of diaryland's template awakes me from the wonderful trance-like feeling brought on by the reading of your latest entry, 'imagine'. it is truly lovely, your best yet. i love your writings so, they keep me sane, calm me. best wishes.
from redsirenbody :
Let us not miss each other...lauralgood@yahoo.com shall we talk? It sounds like you are fighting that old demon depression. She just visited me a bit ago...maybe it is our old friend apathy...friend? no not friend....talk with me. i do miss you too. thank you for telling me so. L
from suta :
Just a little question, which version were you listening lennons one or the a perfect circle one?
from love-fatal :
your words are amazing, really.
from suta :
I love this entry. It's great. I hope you feel better now and I am happy you started writing again, cause I was worried about you. Wish you all the best. Sayonara, Suta Mutou.
from rebellious99 :
You signed off before I got the chance to tell you...ah, well, it will have to wait.
from love-fatal :
i hope you're better now. ♥
from nonasian :
*looks up from his seat handing you a dying rose* Hopefully with your new found surge of life...perhaps this rose may bloom again my dear Jack. May the best of things welcome you with open arms.
from poetichealth :
it's okay sweetie - i've been really busy lately - between homework and everything, but i love being busy, when i'm busy i'm not depressed. hope ur well my dear!
from hiddensoul3 :
hello, dear. you had me very worried, jack...i was about to go send a search party after you, i was this close *shows little amount.* good to see you're back :). take care, m'dear.
from shadowninja :
hey jack its chris. i just wanted to tell you that ill be on next thursday at around the same time and i found out that ill be stationed in italy and that i might drop by when i get a chance if you want sooo..... i enjoyed talking to you today and look forward to talking to you again
from photo-frame :
It's great to have you back. I missed you Jack x
from murdrsxaffrs :
Aha, I get it now!haha, Please dont mind me, Im not exactly quick at catching on! Lovce you dearest!
from cammella :
Um.......My email said that you left me a note, but when I check...there wasnt one, so incase you left me a note, then, I didnt get it, but if you didnt...well, then thats strange and I think my notes love you....freaky deaky! Lovce you deary.
from suta :
Don't mind. I wrote that note yesterday, cause you didn't write that long. You don't know? But who does? me neither. "I won't let this build up inside of me..." Life just goes one, my dear.
from euphoriadied :
:) Jack. Hearing from you after such a long time, it seems, brings great joy to me. Jack, I've missed you ever so much. I'm sad to hear about what happened to you in the time of your absence, but it brings a smile to my face to know you have returned. I'm really flattered by the note you left for me. But reading every single word you write is like drinking from a cup of fine wine that's too godly to stop drinking from. YOUR words are what falling in love feels like. And I still love you with all of my heart, precious one.
from nimfalas :
Missed you, Jack. Love <3
from ms-turner :
Jack darling, I've missed you.
from schizothymic :
That is all too true.
from schizothymic :
alas, that is all there seems to be, in my life.....for now at least.
from rockrebel :
Ahh... love. The only thing in this world that can tear us all apart. The enigma that our mind creates to shield us from lonliness, but in the process, creates it...All I can say is to keep this trespasser called love from ripping the ripper himself... Best Wishes...
from suta :
Are you okay?
from rebellious99 :
I haven't been able to check my notes except when I look at "delete" so I was unable to read all of the ones you left. I hope you're feeling o.k. I don't know exactly what happened, but I want you to know that I have been praying for you, dear. Should you get an urge to talk further: darkabyss_115@yahoo.com Warmest Regards, India
from nikolaos :
Dearest Jack, Where have you gone? The world seems empty with out you. Please return. With love, "Nikki"
from love-fatal :
hey hun...you havent updated in awhile. you okay?
from doseeffects :
Just started wondering how you were.
from moon-eyes :
Hi. I miss hearing from you. Please write.
from poetichealth :
hey jack - how r u hon? i haven't had a chance to pass by ur diary lately, been busy with a lot of shit - well, dearie, i hope ur well, take care.
from murdrsxaffrs :
I love you
from cabaretlost :
i enjoyed the expierience.
from lesangrouge :
My, what an amazing creature you are.
from overlyemo :
Broken?
from euphoriadied :
My words are useless, I know it, but I love you no matter what.
from hp-fucked-dm :
You write such lovely words.
from bluperspex :
how are you doing, jack-y. how are. you. doing?
from j3ff00 :
Help yourself because I can't.
from j3ff00 :
I'm no savior, mon cher. Glad to see you're alive.
from cammella :
Mr. Jacko( I promise to never Call you that again) deary, I'm sending you the infor on my diary they deleted it, and I was wondering, to prevent this again, if you wouldnt mind, Just updating it every now and then if you will, if you can, then thank you deary, if not, please pass it along to Jeff or someone. Loves to you.
from nonasian :
Hello Jack...it has been quite awhile has it not? Must say the music that plays in your diary is quite fantastic..well I hope all goes well for you.
from overlyemo :
Je vous manque. Cette distance qui a forme entre nous me tue a l'interieur.
from poetichealth :
hey jack dearie? how r u? i haven't talked 2 u in forever :( i like the song playing in ur entry. i really want another #1 from mcdonalds. i hate earth science. i miss health class. i ramble on like an idiot. i made a funny.
from j3ff00 :
I'm creating something, Jack. Hopefully, I'll have it done tomorrow. I think you'll be one of the few to really understand it. Hope you feel better. -jeff
from hp-fucked-dm :
I can only hope the sun doesn't take you away as its jester. I'm still here if you need to talk.
from suta :
Hello. Playing for the sun? Yeah, that would be great. Je adore jouer de la guitare. But I didn't touch it for weeks now. -_-;;; Beautiful entry, just keep on writing...
from ariza :
Hi, I found your diary from redsirenbody. I think it's really interesting. Anyway, I write books for a "living" (well, not exactly), and I was wondering that, if you have time, would you be interested in editing them or at least give advice. It would be really appreciative. JD ariza
from j3ff00 :
I left this morning, jack, to make sure she had my email address and my j3ff00...I tried my best, but I'm afraid that I was too late.
from j3ff00 :
Thank you, Jack...its more than I could have asked for.
from ms-turner :
Oh baby... I'm here when/if you need me.
from medik8ted :
So sorry I haven't left you a note for awhile. Many things have kept me busy these past months. But I have continued to read your entries, and I hope you can hold on. Best wishes
from hp-fucked-dm :
Chaque jardin a ses epines. Meme l'amour. Les regrets vais quitter toi avec rien. Au revoir.
from suta :
*hugs* It will be all right. Het komt allemaal wel goed. Je zult zien. I don't know why I say this, but still keep having hope.
from lady-dra :
apathy is more of a curse then love.
from love-fatal :
i'm sorry that you hurt. i love you, jack. ♥
from hp-fucked-dm :
Je suis desolee. You deserve better than this. The devil could be an angel covered in paint. Paint will wash away, as will the hurt. With love to you, Jackie, I take my leave for the time being.
from lady-dra :
time has gone and I grew old but I've waited till I'm cold. jack dear.
from silver-blue :
You remind me of Mineko, she used to hide in the cupboard instead. Keep your chin up Jack, I have faith in you.
from madbh :
Oh Jack.. i actually wept.
from sailorcosma :
Hey jack! don't really know what to say other than i'm still alive but my computer's been screwed up for months. it's fixed now but with my luck who knows how long that will last?? PS how long do you suppose it will take me to read all hundred and thirty-some of your entries? cuz i read it from the beginning to the middle of july, then the computer died. so you probably have ALOT after that!!
from photo-frame :
-hugs- i don't know what to say, i just hope everything fixes itself up x
from triggerhapp :
*hugs* oh fuck... im lost for words. im here if you ever want to talk.
from thewoodwitch :
Oh, cher Cric... Je ne sais pas quoi dire...I don't think that anything I say could ease your pain. I am here for you, though... And, I pray que les choses travaillent hors dans votre faveur... You are l'un a chéri to me...
from hp-fucked-dm :
I'm sorry to hear that. I don't know much more to say than that. I hope everything gets fixed for the better with you and Gabriel. The best of wishes from me to you always. Love you, dearie. Au revoir.
from suta :
Keep having hope...it will be all right.
from euphoriadied :
I don't have any words to say. God, I just wish I knew what to say to make things better. But... don't be angry at me when I say this, but he must have felt the exact same way every night that you went off to work. Either way, he had to right to go on hurting you like this. I'm so sorry, Jack... I really am.
from nimfalas :
(previously fallen-elf) I could say a thousand words, but they might not help at all, they might not do anything. I've never gone through something like this, but I am truly sorry for you. *hugs* <3
from love-fatal :
*hugs* i'm so sorry honey..♥ ♥
from poetichealth :
hey jack sweetie, how r u? hope ur well, love 2 chat but i'm about ready to get attacked by a swarm of crazed monkeys
from nimfalas :
i love the quote [on the layout]. by the way, if you weren't aware, my previous username was fallen-elf. i guess that's the one you would remember me by..hopefully. :P arrivederci. <3
from deareddie :
Don't get sick and don't get killed. Hmm, appears to be sound advice to me. You should follow it, my darling. Be well and know that I am thinking of you.
from j3ff00 :
Hm...I'd have to think about that one. Meanwhile, shit, I don't want charlotte. What good does she do me?
from postcognate :
I'm not sure whether to be happy for you or sad with you. I would think that you would be glad to have a new (safer) vocation, but your tone seems to convey otherwise. In any case, what's your stripper-alias going to be? - The Emale
from hp-fucked-dm :
If it makes you feel any better, I don't know what to think half the time. Nobody's gonna know when it's hell because they won't even be alive then. Everybody's fingers slip one time or another. You've already held onto whatever you were holding onto for a while. At least, you tried not to let go, that's what counts. I guess... I'll see you around then. Wuv you. :) -hugs-
from hp-fucked-dm :
I get what you mean in a sense, just not to that extent. And you're not alone in how you think. Something will come out of those ashes. Something beautiful, like you. You've come out so many times like all other times. I believe that you're strong enough to come out a billion more, for whatever that's worth. If your love is an abomination, then so is everything so many others hold so dear. That's unjust. Maybe we've already been damned... You haven't gone too far and even if someone thinks you have, you'll forever have my admiration for it. Sincerely, Chilled.
from photo-frame :
oh jack -hugs- if only there was something i could do. Also. I am entirely sick of lust and envy. sick to the stomach, sick in my mind. the consequences of sinning, i suppose.
from suta :
Oh and... There are more people who feel sick in this world. Falling and rising. The hardest thing to do is life.
from suta :
Know what? You don't need a priest to get married. And if it's really necessary...if you really need a yerk in a costume (don't understand me wrong, I am a christian) go to europe. There are enough who marry gays, but why should you need evidence that you belong together? Just buy a ring, put it on his finger and say he is yours! Come on, do you really think God would make a difference? ...swimming through the ashes of another life...
from triggerhapp :
*hugs* remember how much youve helped me Jack? I still owe you for it all. *hugs*
from schizothymic :
That much is agreed.
from postcognate :
Here's a thought Jack. I'm a heathen, godless and proud of it. I am also a legally ordained minister. www.ulc.org It's worth a look. And cheer up, there is always a way. -The Emale
from love-fatal :
'sinning' is what makes us human. if we werent supposed to sin, it wouldnt be so natural to do so. & i dont believe we're all going to hell. because i dont believe in hell. or heaven. come to think of it, i'm not sure i actually believe in anything. people, maybe. but i'm with you, we need answers.
from schizothymic :
As have you, love.
from hp-fucked-dm :
-hugs- You don't give yourself enough credit, dearie. You're so much more than 'a sex object.' So much more that I can find words to describe. I hope you have a wonderful evening.
from c0ldbl00ded :
Two doors into a maze face the eyes of a perplexed child. One belongs to the keeper, the infant, myself. The other to you. I have nothing to offer but a weathered smile, and have taken far more than I could return. Regardless... I would follow you.
from postcognate :
Hardly the actions of a whore, Jack. It seems that there is more to you, after all? -The Emale
from love-fatal :
he sounds so sad. you did a good thing. ♥
from ms-turner :
Hello darling, just stopping by!
from suta :
Shinedown - 45? I love that song. Wish ya luck. Mari.
from schizothymic :
Why Jack, I have been gone much to long.
from deareddie :
Jack--My mantra now is "Don't drink and diaryland!" Heh. Sorry I was such a...er... "insert apropriate word here". As always, I send my warm thoughts and loves and hugs.
from occoquan1 :
Hello Jack, I've just finished reading your last six entries...I feel like I've been sucker-punched and had the wind knocked out of me. The grief, the sadness, the hope, the fears, the defiance, the grace, the doubt, the rush, the lust, and the strength depicted in your entries are the ultimate mix of searingly painful and breathtakingly beautiful. More than one tear has fallen from my eye tonight. May the Gods walk with you always... Salem
from hp-fucked-dm :
Oh my... -hugs- I hope you get your sleep.
from i-am-jack :
Your last entry was so good, that I had to read it again. I probably enjoyed it more than I should have.
from hp-fucked-dm :
Oh dear Jackie. -hugs-
from suta :
...your parents are...there's no word... My parents? ...no word either... There is nothing wrong about being gay. Americans should realize that. It's not that all europeans accept gays, but they seem to deal with it a lot easier. (Ack! just think of bush) There is no reason to be sad cause you are different or became not that what your parents wanted you to be, cause that you are different makes you a special person. Well, and your happy with Gabriel, aren't you? Life wouldn't be life anymore without our daily pain.
from photo-frame :
My dear Jack it has been a while since i have been here but i read good news! I am so glad Gabriel accepted <3 I wish you two the best of luck, it sounded beautiful. If only there were more men who put that kind of thought, that magic, that fragile beauty into those special moments. You are both very lucky to have each other and i am very happy for you ^_^ - Mimi xx
from suta :
OH! Do you like system of a down??? Father, Father, Into your hands I commend my spirit, Father, into your hands, Why have you forsaken me, In your eyes forsaken me, In your thoughts forsaken me, In your heart forsaken, me oh, Trust in my self righteous suicide, I, cry, when angels deserve to die... I love that song... By the way beautiful entry. *smirks* Seeya!
from cammella :
looking back on that note jack, I sound so pissed, I wasnt, heh, sorry If I got you upset, I feel bad, I look so mad, I was actually laughing.I love you deary, so sorry.
from mmmme :
I'm your strawberry, baby. Last night was great. I love you. (((hugs you tight))) MUAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from rebellious99 :
I know it's a bit late, but i just read your entry, "Christmas Eve," so I could discover the turnout(though it was actually quite pointless because the gods forbid Gabriel say no)and I cried so hard. That is so...beautiful. Absolutely fantastical and perfect. My love and good wishes to both of you!
from hp-fucked-dm :
Plus belle que la plus jolie rose.
from murdrsxaffrs :
JACK, GODDAMNIT!!!! If you were anyone eles Id kill you, I was just writing an entry, and I was putting that song in the quotes, I was taking all the great songs, and taking one line from each, and thats one of them, only me and my friends always say "take me now, fuck me later". I shall still add it, lie, and say I did it first, since I was supposed to do it yesterday, but my computer hates me, so I couldnt......::looks in Jacko's eyes:: I'm watchin you Mr.....dont worry, I'll never call you that again. Love you deary.
from time2 :
Holy shit that is powerful, intense.
from bluperspex :
...deliver us from all that is evil... for gods sake. just fucking deliver us.
from love-fatal :
nothings always not okay, cheri.
from razorblade-- :
Thank you, this decision is a knawing feeling in my gut. It's just making me sick.
from murdrsxaffrs :
Well, I see I lost respect from everyone here ::Throws hands up in the air in happiness:: Hey, now I cant say this year was a complete bust right?Well I locked my other Diary, if you decide to listen to me whine away (I'm good at it) I love you all the same dear.
from poetichealth :
jack, honey, u r so inspiring! i luv u so much! i appreciate ur support, 2. you have helped me learn to strive, and never give in to pityfull works of those who are ungratefull towards wisdom and knowing pain. i thank u once more and i hope u are well!
from precognate :
Whore is what you do, not who you are. Who you are is rather more complicated than that. Obviously, there are a few people that note that distinction. -The Emale
from rosebud-lips :
Your Christmas Eve story made me cry! It is so gorgeous. I only hope that my engagement is as beautiful and that my lover is as devoted as you. I think that our souls are alike. We share a love for beauty in all things. Please stay in d-land because your life, even if it is bad at times, comes to me in a language that is like liquid honey. Your words are music. Your words are inspiring.
from euphoriadied :
People admire you not for what you do for a living, but for your courage.
from hp-fucked-dm :
-Hugs.- I'm glad you won't be dying any time soon. Admiration is earned, not by what you do for a living, but by your personality, what type of person you've proved yourself to be.
from lady-dra :
'and thoes sweet decembers, and my love like glowing embers, but spring came and rained on my parade, and I wondered where you went, thinking was it something I said...'
from ms-turner :
I'm not a century old, I'm only 21. Promise! And I'm glad you liked the story so far, it means a lot when someone likes your work! Kisses to you.
from occoquan1 :
Jack, my dear man, thank you for your sweet words. I indeed had a wonderous holiday season, celebrated in my own fashion. I hope that you had a good holiday season as well. I am hoping and praying that the New Year brings you the joy and love you so deserve. And anytime you need an ear to listen I will be there. Much Love, Salem
from occoquan1 :
Jack, Thank you for the sensualness of your diary and the dark beauty that your diary evokes. Your diary is truly a wonderous read. Every word drips atmosphere...every phrase strikes a chord deep within me. In your words I recognize truths both hidden and not so hidden in myself, my friends, and the world around me. Thank you for providing a key to your existence. Blessings, Salem
from love-fatal :
hurt. such a good song.
from hp-fucked-dm :
Umm... You can scratch the last note out. I've given up with secret names. You just won't see me around for a while. Maybe a long while... either way. -hugs- Entry's wonderfully written as always. I loved the ending. Au revoir once more.
from hp-fucked-dm :
Hey Jackie. -hugs- I'm not really... going anywhere. Or at least... I don't think so. You just won't see me on my usual name in the chat for a while. It's my secret, unless you can guess it. Wuv you. Au revoir.
from euphoriadied :
Jack, what you quoted towards the end of your entry, where's that from? I know I've heard it somewhere before. I just can't recall. I hope you gain your energy back, dear. Feel better soon. :)
from bluperspex :
hun... it's gut wrentching to see you so sad. and i guess we all know it's easy to say "feel better" or "things will be okay"... but nothing consoles. nothing. only know... that you are never alone in your misery and be comforted by the fact that one day, is one day and blue skies will shine again.
from hp-fucked-dm :
In all honesty, I hope you feel better. That may not mean much, I'm sorry. That's all I've to say, in a sense. Love you. Au revoir.
from suta :
^_____^ Thank you. -_- I know I am pretty curious, I am sorry. Oh and cigarettes are bad. *nodnod* I keep on telling some of my friends. But I shouldn't say it...I am pretty caffeine-addicted. *smirks* Bye bye!
from cammella :
Jack, I love you. smoking?Silly Jack, I'd put you in time out for such, but you've been through enough sweetie.
from nikolaos :
Jack, No amount of words can change how you feel, but I shall share with you my thoughts. No person deserves to feel how you have been made to feel. These 'people' are shallow human beings who like nothing more than to drive swords into the hearts of men who have more emotion,power,thoughts and feelings in the palm of their hands than these 'people' have in the fingernail of their smallest finger. To hell with them. These barbaric animals have ruined everything to the rest of us. I know nobody else who writes these kind words to you, but I imagine that we all feel a link with you and the ending of your diary is as if that link will end (and if not end, then will become much thinner than any of us would like). Please don't go. The cruel words are only that...words. Remember the love your friends here have for you.
from euphoriadied :
Jack, you underrate yourself. You are not a hopeless fool.
from hp-fucked-dm :
-hugs- I love you too. And still hoping you won't leave this place. I wouldn't have anyone to send kissy wallpaper to anymore! Or anyone to do weird stuff to daddy. Or no more funny stuff. Or no one would have any more of your ever beautiful entries to read. And it'd be the greatest lost I'll ever see on this site. I'm sorry it's selfish of me to ask you to stay... You need not stay if you've no wish to. I wouldn't blame you if you didn't. You don't deserve being treated like this. Like some sort of liar. I don't doubt you, for what it's worth, if that needed repeating. Love you like family, still. -hugs you back tighter.- And with one last plea to stay, I bid you adieu. Hope you have a wonderful day, Jackie!
from elgan :
Don’t let the bastards wear you down. You know who your friends are, fuck the rest.
from suta :
Just one question, not a scary one, what's that music?, I like it somehow. I like your new entry, it seems to reflect a piece of myself. Have a nice day my dear!
from suta :
Same for you, jack. Wish you all the best. ^^ Lots of love, suta-chan
from cammella :
If pondering anything, love, let it be my spelling errors! No tears, you much to sweet to waste your tears. Im not worthy of your love, no one is, your an amazing person, if I could have but on embrace my heart would bust with over load of the love you have for a mere mass, that of which I am, no one understands me as you do. and for that I hold you dearly, maybe not dearly enough, as I have let you slip to these minor nothings of what they arent worth a dime to their name. Dont let them get to you my dear jack, they are nothing but green limes of jealousy, but jealous of what? The hardships you own, not much to be jealous of, who would want them, they are but leaning experiences, as we all have, your seem so amazing, yet I doubt they are to the one who has to carry them, they are but nightmares. Let this be a lesson to them, they are turning to an amazing man, they dont deserve such.
from suta :
I wish ya a Happy New Year!!!!!!! ^_____^
from euphoriadied :
Jack, I'm sorry you've been hurt; I really am. I love you Jack. Don't go. Reading your words has helped me so much, believe it or not. Your words have done something to me. It's something so grand. I'm more than sure you have affected not only me, but a lot of your readers. You are such an amazing & beautiful & lovely & great person. I could go on about what an amazing person you are, but I could strain your eyes. :) I love you, Jack. I'm sorry people hurt you. I really wish I could do something about that.
from cammella :
jack, I know your mostly tired of hearing "I love you Jacky, dont leave, I know you arent lying" so all I'll say is, Jack, I love you more than time Can tell, and for what its worth, I hope you dont leave, but If you do, and I hope you wont, e-mail me, because I will too, Like I have before. But I came back in time to see the downfall of what this site used to be, your one of the last real ones here, and Thats why I always read you, Im sick of being filled with lies, your one of the few truethful ones left, and for that, I adroe you and your words, your diary inspired a thousand tears, laughs and smiles. dont let the worthless people bring you doqn dear, you've much too much going for you, engament and the move, you have so much happiness in your life to let this piss you off dear. dont let that bring you down lovely.
from love-fatal :
jacky darling, have i mentioned lately that i adore you? because i do. really. & i'm prepared to throw stuff at whoever made you unhappy. congratulations on your engagement, & happy new year. ♥
from triggerhapp :
Ive just notice i still have yet to add you to my friends x.x but then again im not on 3/3 another 4 hours and im done. till then...Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar Sugar
from hp-fucked-dm :
Gods, Jack. I'm so sorry that ever happened to you. Really. I'm horribly sorry that happened to you. -hugs- Please don't leave... I don't think you're a liar... for whatever that's worth to you. Jackie... please don't return there. Let the true smile show once more for it makes the world brighter than it'll ever be. Please? I don't care if I sound like a moronic excuse for a poet. but If you smile, it'll be like a light that's shining on this dark, gloomy world we live on. So then, maybe with a shine from your smile, they'll be able to find a way to fix themselves. I don't think that had anything to do with your entry, but it's true. Without your smile, the world is dimmed once more. And we're all blinded in some sense or another. You've tried to do everything you could've ever done and you've made a difference, in my opinion, if it counts at all. A stranger's words can hurt without them knowing it. but if it hurts that much, they don't deserve to know you any better than a random stranger does. -hugs once more.- Love you like family. I'm wishing you a wonderfully happy new year. And so, with that, I bid you adieu.
from thalakos84 :
I meant no offense. I'm not calling you liar. I said I only doubt sometimes. You have to understand that this is something I'm reading online from a stranger. If I'm skeptical, it's only because I don't know you and my own life is quite mundane. I hope you accept my apology. Love, D
from cammella :
If anything dear, Im the lucky one, Ive got love from two of the most amazing people in the world. And please, dont ever doubt yourself love, gabe may not understand, But your just protecting him. And I just hope that while your out there protecting him, that you protect yourself as well. or eles I'll have to. :) and Gabe is the lucky one, he has an amazing man , and dont you forget that.
from suta :
Hi. I am happy your happy and Gabriel too. So I wish you a Happy New Year, for you both of course!!! ^__^V All luck of the world, my dear! *grin* Have a nice day!
from silver-blue :
Aww my pc gets love! Haha maybe your pc needs a visit to the format doctor too! Take care Jack.
from lildebkitty :
I have a feeling that you don't have to try to hard, you seem to have a beautiful soul. It is so rare to see such timeless beauty in ones writing. I feel honored that you have shared with me, thanks!
from lildebkitty :
you are a truly sweet man...
from cammella :
I must a gree with you choice 100%, I would say no as well, your not a hypocrit, Just keeping your lovely safe, and I admire you for that.and your no coward, just human love, please dont think any less of yourself.
from lildebkitty :
thanks for allowing me to read you. I have so thoroughly enjoyed it! You are an amazing writer!
from ms-turner :
You are many things my darling Jack, but coward is not among them. Do not ever fall prey to that belief. You are much much more.
from poetichealth :
jack, honey, u are no coward. u have faced more in ur life than i have and u have faced it with a brilliant mind. i have fell weak, and gotten back up to fall down again, but u have stood strong, and not fell. maybe we have different definitions for "coward", but by my definition, my luv, u are not.
from euphoriadied :
You are no coward, my dearest Jack. Everything you do, everything you risk... you are a brave soul & I admire you for that. I hope that Gabriel is fine & that whatever that incident was is nothing to worry about. I just hope you will be okay, my love. My prayers are for you.
from xaxphyxiax :
Wow. That ring is beautiful. And never shall you be a coward. Never.
from bornhabits :
-looks at the mass of notes within 48 hours- dear jesus....ANYWAYS! I would like to chat sometime. My AIM name in on my profile or you can e-mail me at glamourgirl at swbell dot net . -best of wishes- Shelly
from cammella :
who better to role model myself after then the person who could be in the worst mood ever, and yet is still a sweetheart? And for the record, my mom tried it once to scare me, yet, I didnt want to leave...is that bad?
from ms-turner :
I'm so happy for you darling!
from poetichealth :
jack honey, congratulations!!! beautifully written entry, so romantic!! i'm a hopeless romantic, so i throughally enjoyed ur entry. congrats again, hun.
from thewoodwitch :
Well, I am pleased that one of us had a good Christmas. Gutten tag, ma chere obscurité.
from candycoffin :
Congratulations Jack, It's good to hear that things are looking up for the two of you, and I hope you both have a wonderful life together. :D
from cammella :
JAACK!!! YAAY!!!!!! Im so happy I got into your diary in time to read that, the words honestly made me cry, and I screamed! I cant think of any two people who deserve eachother as much as you two, your both beautiful in every sence of the term, tho I dont know Gabe so well, he is my other adopted father, and I love him and you both all the same, and Im so proud of you, you made a perfect proposal, on the perfect day, and time, to the perfect person, and I love you both with all my heart.
from hp-fucked-dm :
-hugs- Hiya Grand-Jackie. Congratulations. I wish you two a wonderful life together as a married couple. Best wishes to you and Gabby. Sincerely. I wuv you ^_^ Au revoir.
from triggerhapp :
thanks for the thought. tell kinky im not angry.... i just want attention, and then again dont want attention... i dunno what I want,unless i generalise... and say Sam
from redsirenbody :
hugs and love to you...happiness! Love L
from euphoriadied :
Jack! I'm so happy for you! I have this huge smile on my face & my chest feels so weird. MY GOD! I'm so happy for you! I wish you & Gabriel all the love & luck in the world. You two were meant for one another. God, I'm so happy for you.
from bornhabits :
I KNEW I had seen you before, and loe and behold here you are. Linked through postcognate amd many of the people I read. How weird. Anyways, I just thought I would leave a note and say hi( though it seems you have enough already) and be well <3 Shelly
from xaxphyxiax :
*Claps* Well done love, Well done.
from cammella :
Well, DL was quite christmassy whilest I was away......its......kinda creepy, no, really, its creepy. well, Im locked out of your diary once again, Ill sure its just a gliche, but Ill get in eventually.
from silver-blue :
Congratulationd Jack, I told you that you do deserve every happiness and it seems like it's finally found you. My warmest well wishes for the two of you, you're right, it couldn't have gone better. You kept me in suspense but I appreciate you sharing your lovely night out. Take care :)
from postcognate :
Picture, if you can, the wry half-smile I am so recognized for and a low bow with a flourish. "It was nothing." -The Emale
from suta :
Thank you too, mon ami.
from suta :
Aw allright. Then call me dear not dearest. Have a nice day!
from suta :
By the way, I am nice to you, cos I like you. ^_^ But most of the time I am mean, ask my brothers. *smirks*
from suta :
Hey, don't be insulted! It just sounds odd, cos I know I am not nice at all. *smirk*
from suta :
*hugs back* It's okay. At least there is someone who had a wonderful christmastime. ^_^ But hey, I would prefer you not calling me dearest anymore. *smirk* Sayonara. *leaves a rose on your doorstep* (you did so often so.)
from postcognate :
I TOLD you that you didn't need luck, Jack. Congratulations and accept my toast to you and your love. May the fire glow ever brighter. -The Emale
from bluperspex :
congratulations :) a christmas worth remembering? i believe so
from suta :
^_^ Wishing you both all the best.
from j3ff00 :
Damn...I've been meaning to email you, leave a note, or something just to wish you 'luck' with your most recent escapade (Involving Gabby-girl :D ). Anyway, hope all went well, and you got what you wanted for Christmas. :) "My blood is on your giving hands, this life I took gave no demands."
from euphoriadied :
My dearest Jack, I've been gone since I last typed here & I wasn't around to read your lovely words & wish you a Merry Christmas nor the best of luck. It's fifteen minutes till the 26th of December, so maybe it's not too late to wish you a Merry Christmas, but I certainly do wish you the best of luck (even if you've already proposed). Jack, you deserve the world. I wish you the best of luck, happiness, & absolutely everything that will fulfill your life with joy. My eternal love to you, my lovely.
from hp-fucked-dm :
Merry Christmas, Jack!
from suta :
Merry Christmas! ^_^V
from postcognate :
Best of luck again, Jack. I will take a moment to look to the East tomorrow and send you some good karma. It's the closest thing to prayer you'll get from THIS godless heathen. Merry Christmas. -The Emale
from hp-fucked-dm :
-hugs- MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! ^_^
from insane-whore :
"Merry ♥ Christmas!"
from moon-eyes :
Best of luck to you and Gabriel. The Bridge of Sighs is gorgeous...I have been there myself. If you kiss in a gondola under the bridge as the bell strikes nine (pm) you will be lovers forever....
from moon-eyes :
What do you miss me for? Perhaps you miss the happy me. So do I. You know as well as I that love is essential, and when it is gone the soul dies.
from hp-fucked-dm :
-hugs- Okie! G'luck, Grand-Jackie. ^_^ Pretty entry, sad though. Beautifully written. -hugs again and gives you a kiss on the cheek- ^_^ No more school until January 3rd!
from suta :
Ha! Beautiful entry, really. Wish you all luck of the world kid. Sayonara! ^_^V
from lilfoxyvixen :
Have you read the Sleepy Beauty Trilogy? Please let me know how it was.. that is something on my wish list :)
from bluperspex :
all sounds so perfect... i'm insanely jealous. christmas and i, have become strangers - i hope it is warmer to you than it was to me.
from thewoodwitch :
Well, Jack, you deserve everything. I do pray that things go the way you wish. Please tell us all of the details once things turn out. And, might I come across the sea to visit and maybe even play that Baby?
from postcognate :
Good luck, Jack. You won't need it. -The Emale
from love-fatal :
lady. satans definately a chick.
from hp-fucked-dm :
g'luck grand-jackie. Not that I think you'll need it, of course. ^_^ -hugs- Errr... I've got a question... Since you're Grand-Jackie/Grandpa, when you and Gabby get married, does that make him Grandma? Or Grandpa? or Grand-Gabby? -is silly.- Sowwy. Best of luck. Wuv you. Bye bye.
from poetichealth :
jack, luv, what's the question? marrige? well, good luck with whatever it is hunny!!! take care, leave me a note, havn't heard from u in a while, hope all is well.
from rebellious99 :
scarletmoon699@hotmail.com, you can reach me there if nowhere else.
from rebellious99 :
The description seemed...fitting. I don't know why. Also, I wish you the best of luck-a million times over. But, you won't need it
from silver-blue :
You already know what I'm going to say and that I wish you the very best in your perfect night, you picked a nice time to do it. *hugs* Take care Jack :)
from redsirenbody :
LUCK from this world and the other....oh and if he is as lovely as you say he will drop to his knees and kiss your feet for such a gift from you. Love, L
from nikolaos :
Good luck Dearest. though, you shall not need it. I am happy for you.
from love-fatal :
satans servant calls himself jacky. hmm. haha. but yes, i apparently am satan. this i did not know. but i kind of realized i was slightly evil, & mentioned it in passing. my friends werent supposed to agree with me. "well, sage, you know we love you, but you are kind of evil. ...yeah, definately satan a little." yeesh. haha. oh, & i'm excited about you & gabriel. satans best wishes. ;)
from redsirenbody :
I miss you, love. Are you really OK? love L
from j3ff00 :
Hey, Jack's-ass, I felt like telling you that I bought a computer game today titled "Jack the Ripper". you play as a detective going around London trying to find out just who this motherfucker is. (Gee, his name JUST might be Jack the Ripper :D )Anyway, be happy.
from hp-fucked-dm :
Gosh, Jack. -hugs- I wish you didn't have to do that either. Don't you cry, for you never know who else could be falling in love with your pretty smile. So overused, but it's true. I wish you well too. Love you, Grand-Jackie. Hope you have a wonderful day.
from silver-blue :
"We are, all of us, in the gutter.. but some of us are looking at the stars"
from j3ff00 :
Jealous much?
from j3ff00 :
I took the quiz again. I thought you'd be happy to read this: "The Night Stalker "a madman whose lust for killing and depravity equaled, if not surpassed, that of Jack the Ripper." Eat that, beyatch :D
from silver-blue :
I'm glad I'm not the only one that loves that movie and I'm happy to have made you briefly smile and think of it with fondess. You're more than welcome to join my diary ring Jack. Take care of yourself and don't become a stranger :)
from postcognate :
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!!! In a word, awesome. -The Emale
from redsirenbody :
did the password change again? giving it out? if you do then I would love it. It is very early though so I might have just put it in wrong...smiles. thinking of you. L
from suta :
Oh hellup! Sorry I was that short... Damn computer *kick kick* Well, everybody goes through hell once. Sooner or later. I don't wanna say anything more about it. I am in a bad period myself... *looks at clock* Well it's already late here in the Netherlands, I think I am going to sleep, since I know I have to be up at 6 in the morning... -_-; Love & Peace, kid. ^_^V
from singing-punk :
jack, i wish i could say i know what you're going through - but i don't know if i have. i am but only young, and weak. i have experienced pain, and only until recently have i found friends (yes, i consider u one of them) who have let me confide in them and who given me inspiration. i walk alone when it comes to my "home" and my "family". But really, the truth is, my home is at school, and my family is my true friends. so at that, i do not walk alone. and your ranting is fine, because even the best of us need to let out are feelings to someone, it's the first step to recovery. and please do not block your diary from everyone, i enjoy reading it so, and many times i have tears in my eyes. u give me inspiration, and u listen and seem to care. that is what i need to be healthy. u r one of the people i think about when i am about to do something stupid, like cut myself. i don't, because i know u are strong and the other few i think about are strong and i have no exuse to be so weak. so take care, jack.
from suta :
Do you like incubus?
from plastic-face :
oh jack, when will you learn that you are not alone? just because you have enemies does not mean you have no friends. <3
from nikolaos :
Love Tears and kisses
from euphoriadied :
I believe everyone dies alone, but I don't believe you walk alone. Look around you, Jack. There are tons of people who love you & even though some of us who do can't walk beside you, we're there in spirit & mind.
from cammella :
you dont walk alone dear, just look beside you and Ill always be there, along with the rest of us who love you so, Ill never doubt you for the slightest second of the slightest moment, your heart couldnt lie, harm or ever be so cruel, and Ill always love you.
from hp-fucked-dm :
I'm sorry I didn't get to say this before you left, but if there's a single person who doubts who you are, they aren't even worth the shortest moment that interrupts your precious thoughts. You'd be wasting your time on someone who doesn't deserve it. -hugs- Love you, Grand-Jackie.
from brandygirl55 :
hey IM me AT Sarah11moo we will talk more than. leave me a note with your a/s/l
from brandygirl55 :
hey IM me AT Sarah11moo we will talk more than. leave me a note withyou a/s/l
from hp-fucked-dm :
Ooopsies! I meant Grand-Jackie not Grandpa!!!! Hehe... Sorry. Must've slipped.
from hp-fucked-dm :
-hugs tightly- I miss you grandpa. ;( Seven days no see.
from elgan :
I have just read "A Confession" as you suggested, and I am saddened. Enjoy Florence. It sounds beautiful. Ciao.
from toodead2kno :
my distrusting nature doesnt want to believe your words...but god--i cant help it. so beautiful. so much that i wish to experience. good luck in all, my friend. youre in my heart, love. <3
from euphoriadied :
I'm so happy that you're flight over to Florence was a safe one. I've prayed for you & I missed you.
from singing-punk :
i missed u, jack, luv!!! i'm so glad ur back. i hope all is well, hun! take care
from hp-fucked-dm :
Grand-Jackie! I've missed you!!! -glomps- I'm still trying to refrain from calling you 'Grandpa'. Pity you don't like being called that. Hehe... -still misses you- A tout alors.
from nikolaos :
Welcome back. You were dearly missed. Look forward to your wonderful updates from the beautiful country which you now call home.
from cammella :
:::bounces on bed and hit head and bounces between the ground and ceiling::: I MISS YOU!! and I hope your flight went as well as you said, give hugns and kisses to Jade and Gabe for me, tho I only really know Jade.
from suta :
Whoeie!! Nice songie song...but I was hearing other music and I was pretty shocked when that song started (it didn't start immediately when I was at your sitie site) O_O Nearly got a heartattack, boy... I am happy your back, kid, nice entry. Sayonara! ^___^
from hp-fucked-dm :
Five days, Grand-Jackie. =[ Stephie misses youuuu. -hugs and gives you a kiss on the cheek.- Wuv you. -misses your pretty entries too- Hope you're loving Italy.
from j3ff00 :
Thank you, Jack. Your words mean more to me than a lot of things right now.
from iamhubpluh :
J'ai regardé par vos notes et j'ai apprécié ce que j'ai lu. Pas que vous écrivez svp au duch d'étrangers en tant que moi, je savez ceci. Quoi qu'il en soit, merci de l'accès. Bonne journée à vous.
from mitemite :
hello, my pretty pretty little friend! I know I have been a terrible person as of late, but please, reply as soon as you can! I have so much to say on the state of the world in thrall that I am suprised that I am still alive! *kiss* Byby, my pretty little Kitten!
from hp-fucked-dm :
I miss you so, Grand-Jackie. I've something silly to ask you when you come back. -hugs and gives you a kiss on the cheek.- I wuv you!
from singing-punk :
i miss u jack!!!!!!!!!!
from zoe-bedlam :
Ps: Your song choice was heart-breaking.
from zoe-bedlam :
Dearest most Ingenius Jack, I read your new entry at the library and I have never cried in front of So many people. You are amazing and the way you put lyrics with your life is euphoric. In Blood and Lust, Zoe
from my-decadence :
thank you for considering my diary one of your favorites. could you please send me the password to yours? my email is chantilly_lace86@yahoo.com. <3
from iamhubpluh :
I was ramblin through and came across you, and I was saddened that I couldn't access it. May I then, if I have passed any 'coolness' factor you may need to obtain, have access to your lovely site?!? until then, ciao.
from hp-fucked-dm :
I miss my grand-Jackie. Hope you're enjoying the views of where you are. I wuv youu ^_^ -hugs- Daddy refuses to tell me what you did to him Thursday night and anything before that. Do tell, pwease? Thankies. I wuv you Grand-Jackie. -hugs again- Loved your entry, sweetie. You always manage to amaze me. ^_^ A tout alors.
from silverlamp :
Au revoir, dear Jack. Good luck, hope you like your new place. Don't be away too long. All of us will miss you too much. Tell us about the art when you get there; I'm planning a trip that way soon.
from i-am-jack :
I hope this isn't the last I ever see of you. Good luck with your move, and make good on that promise of hooking the internet up again first thing.
from singing-punk :
hey hun - i luv boulevard of broken dreams!!! from me to you :: "if you ever dread walking alone, call my name and i will walk at your side. if you ever dread crying alone, call my name and i will cry with you. if you ever need someone to listen, call my name and i will be there. if you ever need someone to just be there, call my name, i'm always here." -me
from al-bal :
HI Jack, darling. How have you been? I have been doing ok. I miss talking to you, a lot. I am doing mush better in school. The guy I am in love with shows no signs of loving me back. In case yo haven't heard, his name is Nick. He is very...dark, and strange. I am learning German. Null, eins, zwei, drei, veir, funf, zech, zeiben.......0,1,2,3,4,5,6,7..... you should learn with me. Everyday, my pet rat gets more and more fat. give Gabriel a hug for me. -Alyssa
from postcognate :
Good luck Jack. If I had a god I'd pray to him (or her), but you'll have to settle for my surplus good karma. But I hope it will be enough. Again, best of luck. -The Emale
from redsirenbody :
hugs and luck and love. L
from thalakos84 :
Maybe I missed it. Where exactly are you moving to? It has to better than Northern Michigan. *sigh* -D
from euphoriadied :
JACK! Oh, dear. I hope you get to read this before you leave. I just wanted to let you know that even though we live somewhat far away as it is, it feels as if I'm losing a part of you, but I know I'm not. I will pray for you, Gabriel, & Jade. Until then, dear. I wish you luck & the best of all. I love you, Jack.
from devouredsoul :
hey there. why thank you, i like it myself. i need to email you for the password to your diary. why did you lock it? ♣
from c0ldbl00ded :
Hello pet, Sincerely love what you've done with your diary. I am entirely enamored with you and your latest entry. Words that melt on lips, soothe the slowing beats, and whisper tales of a conscience long since past... All my love, Chelsea
from zoe-bedlam :
MMM Jack, I don't have to leave until February. And as long as I don't get sent overseas, I will still be online. I checked your profile also and noticed Poppy Z. Brite. I have read everything of hers and 'Exquisite Corpse' is my favorite! The pain is excruciating and beautiful. I think I'll go read it again. In Blood and Lust, Zoe
from j3ff00 :
Be still as chaos rains around you now, only so much rain can fall at once. Breath in, and let the air envelope you, and slow but sure, serenity will come. Close your eyes, try to breath-feel the ground beneath your feet, its still there; the world still turns around.
from bluperspex :
i can throw tanrums, you know. i do know how :)
from postcognate :
There are few words so decidedly erotic as "buxom". It brings joy to my heart that someone out there is still cultured enough to use it. Bravo. -The Emale
from hp-fucked-dm :
Jackie, that's beautiful. I wish you were happier though. -hugs- Have fun in Italy. I wish you luck once more, though I'm sure you won't need it. I hope you think about my suggestion about your writing. And I still haven't figured out the meaning of the French you left in your last note. Je t'aime. A tout alors, doll. ^_^ -hugs once more-
from cammella :
Hunnie,dear Jack, Smile, before I tickle It out of you, I hate to see you in suck a state of emotion. Tho,the entry was amazing, and you have yet to stop amazing me dearest.
from singing-punk :
i know - reality could really take a hint from dreams. in dreams, i can be what i want, and do what i want, be so selfish. but in reality, no matter what, i have to deal. with everything, pain, suffering, hate, love, tears, and so much. at times i love reality, because i cannot control it, but other times, i hate reality, because i cannot control it. ironic.
from singing-punk :
powerfull entry, luv. i enjoyed it so.
from deareddie :
I sit, an abysmal puddle. I hate this late-night grief that floods me. But then, I'm a self-indulgent slut. Wish you were here.
from redsirenbody :
honey...the new entry is beautiful and haunting. Hugs and love. L
from wonderfilled :
Hey, i would just like to say sorry about earlier, a lack of sleep..Also, thankyou for the note, you're thoughtful and sweet. love, Erin
from cammella :
I wish I could spill it all to you, I know you can help me, but I can, not here anyways. But Im just sick in certain ways, Im losing all patence and my nerves are shot, and when the phone rings my heart beats rappidly. And I know why, but I cant stop crying,I think my heart has permenently broken, and I cant find the pieces to put it together again.
from postcognate :
You have a fairly large folowing, and I'm relatively new to you. Thanks for taking the time. -The Emale
from hp-fucked-dm :
Awww. Thankies Jackie, I'm flattered you'd think that of me, but sweetie, I think you're rather mistaken in who you're saying that too. ^_^ hehe. -hugs- I wish you the best of luck in Italy although, I'm sure you won't need it. You really are a very intriguing young man and dare I say, it's caught my attention. Unfortunately for you. ^_^ Mwahahaha. -cackles childishly- It's impressing how you always manage to sound poetic. This is just an idea, but maybe you could gather a few things you've written up and possibly publish them into a book. I'd try to be the first one in line to buy it, for what that's worth to you. And... Ummm...I'm afraid to ask, but I really need you to translate what you said in French to me. I have no clue what you said... It sounds extremely pretty though. Thankies. -hugs again- A tout alors. Je t'aime. ^_^
from cammella :
Dearest, your more than just that, your an amazing writer, a dear friend, Your a giant star and Im a gazer, your the one gleem in my eyes that hold back my tears and for that Im thank ful on te cold and lonely nights I wish to shed tears but am Brave not to. Plus your my adopted daddy and my puppy owner.I had to throw them in.
from silverlamp :
You asked me where I was from. Well, to be vague, I'm from the Eastern part of the States. On the coast. Hence, living inland as of now is killing me.
from hp-fucked-dm :
Aww. Jackie. -hugs- I wouldn't be nice if you didn't deserve it. I'd be an awfully mean little brat instead. Hehehe... There are a few select words I'd replace 'awfully mean little brat' with, but I won't mention it. Hope you enjoy the rest of your day. ^_^ A tout alors, mon cheri.
from i-am-jack :
You are a fascinating person, even when you try to be as mundane as possible. Whenever I see you have updated, I look forward to being intrigued again.
from cammella :
Jackie dear, tho you maybe like everyone eles, you're a god to me, everytime Im down you make me happy again. thats a job only you can accomplish.
from zoe-bedlam :
Always dearest Jack, Every time you leave me a note my heart soars. It's a euphoric feeling when someone admires your work. It means the world to me. Always In Blood and Lust, Zoe M. Bedlam
from paco0010 :
Hello Jack, thanks for your note. *hugs* You are a dear friend yourself too. ;-) I'm doing well. I have my finals next week, so i'm a bit stressed out, but i'm sure everything will turn out okay. I have to write an essay for English, make a sculpture for my Art class, and sing (yes sing) *blush* in my Beginning Voice class. I do like to sing, but not much in front of people 'cause I get stage fright. :-S eeeek At least my class doesn't laugh at me, they laugh with me. I'm getting better. :-D *sings along* "Have yourself a merrry little christmas" :-( It's Frank Sinatra that i'm listening to. *sigh* Sweet voice he has. I've been listening to lots of his (and X-Mas type) music these days. Gets me in the holiday mood. Well, if I don't see on the Diaryland chat, then have a Merry Christmas and a Happy 2005. *big hug* Good luck in Florence, if you know what I mean. ;-) *winks* I'm going to spend x-mas with my family and maybe new year's with some friends of my sister's in Arizona. :-D Love, Paco ;-)
from ms-turner :
Yes you can watch! I'll video tape it! Want to help me hide the body?
from singing-punk :
awesome entry - maybe tht's why i like sleep so much. it isn't reality. dreams. i get so into them that sometimes i'll wake up crying because the dream was so wonderfull, and it will never be that good and i can't fall asleep, back into the dream.
from hp-fucked-dm :
Bonsoir. ^_^ Aww... Jackie... I'm sorry you feel like that and have learned to enjoy it. -hugs- I wish there was something I could do to help you. I don't know if I'm wording any of this properly. I do love your entries, though. I'm just sorry about what you went through that made you able to write them. Please excuse how horribly I've worded what I mean to say. Thank you. A tout alors.
from paco0010 :
Hello Jack, how are you? I just read your latest entry and I have to say it's the best thing i've read, as in your diary and words. The background music sets a mood to the entry. Nice words you wrote. :-) Take care, Happy Holidays. :-D
from j3ff00 :
Farewell to the Shadow.
from thewoodwitch :
That's fine, Jack. Just IM me whenever you see dragonwingslp online. I don't always pay attention to my buddy list, so yeah...
from c0ldbl00ded :
I succumb to indiscretions more often than not ... and the sins I have sewn into my skin will catch up with me. My one wish would enable us to watch the world unravel. Hand in hand judging the blameless, and time/justice would allow us a meeting.
from postcognate :
Forgive me for being bland and literal, but what do you do, in the world? I mean, I've been reading what you srite, but what is underneath? What are the mundane details of your day-to-day? I'll understand if you'd prefer not to breach the mystique, but I'm curious. -The Emale
from nikolaos :
Dreaming is a wonderful escape. I wish I could dream all the time. For I dream about those whose entries I read as well. I live through others. You, the most.
from ms-turner :
As long as you're willing to play hero, I'll see what I can do about making another me. :-D
from cammella :
You're a great person Jack, you truly are, irony, if you look at almost all you're notes, you see people saying it, yet, we dont say it, and you dont hear it nearly enough.
from redsirenbody :
Oh darling. Darling. Darling. How lovely and wonderful you are. Yes, I hear what you say...Yet don't understand how my words can help you. I praise the Goddess in us all that you find a strange comfort in them. I pray for you...pray is an odd word...I meditate on you and ask the universe to keep you safe. You are on my mind. Don't ever leave without telling me first. We will meet and I will hold you close. You are a joy in my life. love L
from overlyemo :
No, I don't.
from j3ff00 :
"Like a Fiendish tropic virus spitting bile at all you whores, razor sharp tongue-in-cheek poking in your open sores. A wolf in sheep's clothing, the ultimate disgrace: Wrapped up as a gift of God, exploding in your face," he whispered quietly.
from overlyemo :
For what?
from al-bal :
hi jack, how are you?
from redsirenbody :
might i be in lust with you? with your words? with your mind? God. Life is so odd isn't it? so beautiful too. You make me happy. I wish I had told you that more. I will make it done now. What a joy you are. L
from spirit-chick :
Thankyou! Some people are so forgiving. Thanks again! *huggs back* Yay! Take care, rosie xxx
from redsirenbody :
I want to know then...What do I do to you with my words. When you get time tell me, if you don't mind. I understand completely about getting out before it takes you down.. I will be a teacher when you return. I will be communicating with you with notes and entries until then...we will meet. it will be fun. Hugs and hugs. L
from redsirenbody :
Jack, do tell me that you are not being tongue in cheek. It would make me sad. It doesn't seem fair that we are not to meet. But maybe you will be coming back to the big easy one day. hugs. L
from spirit-chick :
Oh, I'm sorry, I though I did something wrong. Did I? Sorry. Take care, xx
from ms-turner :
Sweetie, if there were two of me in the world, we'd all be in deep deep trouble!
from j3ff00 :
You can run, you can hide, but in the end: There's no escape. Its a Small World, Baby.
from nikolaos :
Thank you. I do pride myself on my writing ability! <wink> I just was in a "Blah" mood :)
from bluperspex :
and if i want to learn about life again? and if i want to be over