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Really? And it's okay, I know how it feels, hopefully all will be well. Taht asshole better back off.
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I will email you okay? And forget him, he is just trying to bullshit him, what the hell? I checked out those names and they were blank except for mystrokyrst. I would be angry too and I am. Why? Because diaryland is supposed to be a fun website where you are not supposed to be worrying about this shit because we already have problems in our life. We don't need anymore, especially from this asshole. I can relate to how you feel. It's a great pain. I will email you okay? For the new username, hun.
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I know you've been getting a lot of notes but I feel I have to explain my situation. I am not of a harsh nature and do tend to forgive everyone should they be sincere. My personal belief is that both sides are in the wrong, yet I still care about the people there. That's all I have to say on the matter.
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Also, to say that I "have opened blog after blog and have talked about each of you in each" is an untrue statement for which you have evidence whatsoever. If we were still friends, I'd email you my entire recovery blog, which basically accounts my struggle to overcome my addictions. Why would I have any vested agenda in writing about you? If you would also speak TO me, rather than ABOUT me, I'm sure things in this area would improve. But since you won't do that, would you kindly stop speaking ABOUT me? That's all I ask of you - nothing more.
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OK I just read the WTF entry. I can understand you're feeling as though you were enjoying DiaryLand again. Can you understand that I was also enjoying it until friends of mine started to alert me to these posts you are writing about me? Look at what you wrote: "He's opened blog after blog, and has talked about us in each. Unsettling things. Disturbing things." Any reader here can read my entire diary, which yes I have abandoned, but which I left here for people to see. I have not said anything about you directly at all. I don't know where you see that. As far as me having "admitted to perversities," and being "mentally disturbed," and all that, I am wondering if you are saying these things purposely to provoke or disturb me, because they are disturbing. I am not a pervert - how can you say such a thing? Like any man, I'll deal with feelings of sexual lust on a daily basis, and perhaps because of my hypomanic condition, I am a little more sexually charged than the average man, but I deal with that too. In any case, I have never had sex with an underaged girl, nor am I, as an unmarried Christian man, having sex with anyone at all. The last time I had sex with anyone was with my wife before she left me seventeen years ago. So you can chuck the "pervesity" thing right here and right now. And as far as your friend, if she weren't posting similar flagrant misconceptions about me, I wouldn't feel like I *have* to email her again after saying I wouldn't. People do have a right to change their minds, you know. And it also bothers me that this person does not know me at all, and you do. Yet you choose to say these things. Why? As I said in the previous note, all of these statements of yours are linkable to my full name, and why are you doing this to a guy who would easily leave you alone if you did not? I understand that you and I do not share the same philosophy as to mental illness, homelessness, etc.; but you cannot persist in a condemnation of me that you made before I got back on my feet and began to make sounder decisions in general. But I do regret getting drunk that night, if for no other reason than that it led to that drunken post. Drunken emails are always embarrassing, as I'm sure you know. But anyway, it's there, I wrote it, and it sucks. But what I'm writing tonight is not drunken - I'm pissed, naturally. Who wouldn't be? Here I'm practicaly being accused of being some kind of child molester, and while I know it is not the case, you can't blame me for being upset with you, or for wanting to defend myself. After all, you were my best friend on DiaryLand for a good four years.
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Hello to the person who was my best friend on DiaryLand for a good four years. I'm not interested in engaging in a battle with you, but if you want me not to write to you, or to one of your friends, it might be a good idea for you to stop posting about me in your public diary. I can let go of what you have already posted, but I implore to cease, because you are only causing me to have to defend myself against allegations that are simply untrue. I know you would rather not hear from me, but because you have publicly posted false information about me, I have decided after much thought that I need to make a statement. After all, you used by real first name, which I don't even use in my current diary; you referred to another diary in which I had used my full name, and the things you are saying about me are easily linkable to my good name. But this was written before I saw your "WTF" post. All I caught there was a link to the drunken note I left you, and yes, I was drunk. I regretted the note in the morning, mostly because it was embarrassing, but I'm sure you already know that. I saw the word "perversities" and that is more to the point. I may or may not read that entry later. But there are a couple things you are saying that are not only patently untrue, but irst of all, the idea that people in my neighborhood might have reason to fear for the safety of their children cannot be reconciled in any way with my relationship to my current community - or any other community for that matter. Secondly, although a lot of men do confuse the compassion or admiration of younger women for romantic or sexual affection, I am not one of them. But it is common among men. Even Beethoven, at the age of 40, confused the admiration of his student Teresa for romantic love. The song "Fur Elise" was born of that. But back to the point, I can't imagine where you got these ideas, and it's probably best I do not speculate. I just wanted to set the record straight. Once again, your readers are reading things about me that are sheerly perceptual on your part. I understand that my sudden return to DiaryLand might have had you feeling temporarily threatened or paranoid, and that you probably wrote the posts at that time. So I certainly forgive you. But try to remember that you were dealing with me at what was one of the worst times of my life, when the overall effects of homelessness were grossly affecting my mood swings. Whether you know it or not, that is not the case today. I have my meds, a doctor, a therapist, and above all a nice place to live as of the last three months. And even then, neither of those two statements, both of which could have highly misleading and dangerous connotations for any man, were true. It's just not my modus operandi to think that girls who are twenty or thirty years younger than me are attracted to me, or to act in any way on that presumption. Nor is it the case that anyone in my neighborhood has ever had reason to fear for the safety of their children. These are both very serious allegations, as I am sure you can see. In any case, members of DiaryLand can read what you're writing, hear what I'm saying, read what I write, and decide for themselves what to believe.
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Yeah, so they're coming out with a new "extension" or whatever for WOL (world of losercrap) either at the end of this year or sometime next year....Paul wants, no wait, NEEDS it. It's FIFTY-NINE FUCKING DOLLARS. Bitch, we ain't got $59 just sitting around aimlessly, waiting to be spent. Plus, next year both of us need to pay for new IDs. His will be $50, mine will be $25, I think, because mine isn't a driver's license. Pretty sure that's more important. Fuckhead. And yeah, his mom is a pretty fucked up bird. And no, he doesn't have a brain. Wish they sold them at WalMart, but he wouldn't have the money for one anyway. *huff* Men are stoopid. Let's fart in their faces.
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I read that note and I agree it was totally creepy, and I agree wit you too, it did sounded like a drunk man trying to recite poetry. Is he your stalker?
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Thanks for comforting me and I am glad you like my new layout! Lol!
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I don't know who you are and how you 'know' andy but he is a good person. and it's not because he is a Christian. He is very kind and has helped me countless times. Why do you girls keep writing these things about him? I don't understand, so, you don't like him...then leave him alone! Don't write to him or about him. It's easy to avoid him. I just don't understand what you are doing.
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You did seem to jump to some premature conclusions about Neko. I don't think that she's the type of person who couldn't be friends with both of us equally, and I don't think it's a matter of her being on my side as opposed to yours - if there even are two sides here, which I also question. As far as "letting go" is concerned, I think you and I seem to be about even in that department. I did contact another diarist saying that she needs to remove a particularly hateful post about me for her own good, not mine. She cannot expect to receive blessings from God while allowing Him to look every day upon her statement of hatred toward another human being. She has to make a statment not to me, but to God. She just hasn't realized that yet. And as long as that post, and maybe a couple others, remain, it only stands to reason that I will on occasion contact you about it. Frankly, I'd rather just stick with my own friends and you with yours, but we're still connected as long as you are writing about me in your diary. If you want to read my diary, you'll notice that I am not writing about you at all. It's not my purpose here to make comments about other diarists, especially negative comments that could be hurtful. If have something to say, rest assured that I will say it to you directly.
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hello to you. i like the new layout. ;-)
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I've had much experience with men mistaking compassion for sexual attraction and the like. It's actually affected some very close friendships, and gotten me into trouble. I think the art of it is manipulation-- they like to know that they can take a woman's kindness and then use it to keep them in any possible way they can. "I'm sorry" is a big key phrase in a situation like that. Sometimes I wish I could tell them to fuck off and that apologizing (for the millionth time) won't work anymore.
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Um, I've been gone for a few days and never took your name off my diary. O_o My computer hasn't been the same since it got attacked by a malicious website. All my profiles, email addresses, etc. have been changed. Believe what you will, but I personally didn't do it.
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lol. I'm a ghost, too. Thus, I burn and peel. But I'm mostly German. My dad had black hair and my mom's got red. Not the bright orange red. It's more like strawberry blonde with more lots of strawberry. My dad was also adopted, so I've got no idea what he was but I do know that he had a big chunk of German. My mom was German and a tinge of French. But me? Mostly German. Probably 75%, if not more. lol I'm a Nazi!!! I'm a Nazi who likes cheese and bread.
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I like that song! Mine was blue-black, but it faded in like, 2 weeks. Now it's my natural color *gag* dark brown. Not medium brown. DARK brown. But obviously not quite black. Especially in the sun. Then it looks red-ish. Which is fine, but it's supposed to be freaking BLUE! *sigh* Alas, why couldn't I have been born with it?
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hypocritical. That's the word. Doi.
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Um, here's a thought....How come Christians are supposed to be all-accepting of other people and love thy neighbor blahblahblah....and yet they're all so quick to judge? I mean, we all judge, but damn how much more hypocrical (is that even a word???) can ya get??? What color are you doing? *crosses fingers for hot purple*
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lol...the Nanny. I can do her voice. Um, I really don't know. That's just it. And it's bugging the mudder-freakin' hell outta me. I neeeeeeeed to knooooooooow.
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Hahhaha, I love The Nanny! I used to watch that show all the time in the summertime when I used to go over to my Aunt's house. I used to watch Lifetime all the time, but ever since we got a new cable company, I've been watching less of the T.V. and spending more time on the computer. I like Niles too, he's absolutely funny!!
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Have I told you lately that I love you?
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Yes, I can understand. Sometimes we need to release our anger.
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Wow. It's been years since I listened to them...Must add!!
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Sometimes I feel like being alone too, but it's not a bad thing, sometimes I need to spend time with myself and just think, think good things...
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The Wisconsin Bureau of Child Support....past-due support....$2,526...If this amount is not paid in full within thirty days...referred to the US Department of Treasury for collection by federal tax refund offset and/or admin. offest.
Whatever that means.
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Well, it can cause thyroid problems mainly hypothyroidism (which I have). This can, in turn cause hormone issues for both mother and child.
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Looks horrifying outside. We're expecting major t-storms with hail, so I'm going to turn off the cp. Will try to get on after it's passed. *waves* Enjoy living girlish-ly through my childhood toys!
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Sort of...in the Cinderella version, you have to have all the jewelry of your color but NOT the clock tower. I was the only girl until my sister. Surpisingly, I didn't play with my brothers' toys. Usually just read alone in my room. My neighbor had the game and millions of Barbies. I didn't, so going over there was a treat. I had dollhouses. Not the wood kind that grampa makes. Plastic ones. http://s.ecrater.com/stores/12855/48b020224d5a4_12855n.jpg LIKE THAT ONE. Bad view of it. There was all kinds of buy-separately furniture besides the stuff that came with it. Fake food, van...I loved that thing. Didn't have to share with anyone cuz it was MINE.
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http://www.blisstree.com/playlibrary/files/2008/04/pretty-princess-cinderella-game.jpg THAT'S A LINK FOR THE ONE I HAVE http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/41S2P1A5WPL._SL500_AA280_.jpg THAT'S THE ORIGINAL. THE ONE I WISH I HAD.
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Makes me sick. Especially the way his parents were saying that they'd never elect a n***** to office, and lookee there! They did. Both of them voted for that bastard. I HATE that both him and McCain got to run when neither of them should've been able to. (since they were both born out of the country) Since when is it okay to break the rules? Oh wait, they're politicians. I guess it's okay, then. Kind of like how it's okay for celebrities to do whatever and get away with it. *barf*
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OMFG I TOTALLY AGREE WITH YOU!!! I THINK THAT'S ONE OF THE REASONS WHY WHATSHISFACE GOT TO BE PRESIDENT. NO ONE WANTS TO LOOK RACIST AND THEY FIGGER HEY IT'LL BE A STORY FOR THE GRANDKIDS!!!
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Thank you very much. I hope you get to feeling better. *hug*
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Hope you feel better, girl. Yeah, that sometimes happens to me with my family, and it is quite annoying. I ask them to politely stop talking because I don't feel good or am not in the mood, and they start to get all defensive about and stuff, and it makes it even worse. I can totally relate to that.
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I'm signing off in about a minute, but I just wanted to say this: I squint my eyes at him.
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WTF is this xx-holding person?? (who the f, not what the f) I just ignored the comment, seeing as I read yours first. I'll email you later, cuz me and Paul talked about it again and I think you're sort of right. But yeah, I'll email you.
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*grin* I lurf Star Wars. I wish I would've liked video games as a kid. Well, old Mario and Duck Hunt, yes. But now all I like is Animal Crossing and Lego Star Wars.
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I have a stoopid question...how do you find out your own IP??
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Awww! Cute dog, journalmine! I wish I had a dog like that, like I love golden labs.
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That's Mississippi, right? Gosh, that's hard to spell.
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We're heading to bed in a few, but here's something to amuse you. (Unless you've already seen it) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VYftmmbUGIM
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BTW, I WANT YOUR DOG!!! lol. So cuuuuuuuuuuute. How old??
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I could swear you live in Denver, but I thought about it and that's someone else. Where do you live? CA? (like everyone else on this site?)
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Let's put on our driving scarves and gloves then! lol I JUST put a container of Cool Whip in the fridge. It's too frozen to use. Damn. I have strawberries and I wanted Cool HWhip with them. So I have to wait SIX hours. Bullshit.
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*looks around guiltily* The last time Keebler cookies were on sale, I ate a whole package of those Fudge Grahams in one sitting. I wasn't even depressed. Super WallyMart, you say??
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OMG Yeah way! I try to skip that aisle, cuz one cart's not big enough and Lord knows I can't pull five at one time.
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*pout* I was thinking something along the lines of homemade, but okay. OMFG They have strawberry milkshake ones. And peanut butter and--*drool*
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Hmmmmmmmm. Double Stuff Oreo? Haven't had one of those in YEARS. :-D It was my favorite when I was kid.
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What kind would you like??
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NVM I know what you were talking about now. Over on the right side of the screen, where it shows recent users I saw that person. Thought it was an interesting name and clicked it. Just sounds like someone I know. Names, situations, annonymous rantings at people....Just fishy.
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"No idea. What brought it to your attention? I sense a mystery." What was that about??? Also, I don't wear jewelry either. She tugs on it. My ears aren't pierced, so I can't wear earrings. I'm just not a fan. I never was. The occasional sleeve of those plastic bracelets in HS, but...*shrug* I've been thinking hard about it and I don't think I'm going to do it.
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I agree with you, though. I don't want to do it if I'm only going to have occasional sales. I'd need people to be doing this on a monthly basis. Like, have "jewelry parties" once a month and then have people also buy online and somehow, I'd get credit for the sale. *shrug* It'd be extra money, but I don't know if it'd be worth the extra trouble.
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*pats you on the top of your head* Aldi is a grocery store. The company this lady works for is at www.itsjustjewelry.com.
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*laughs* Yeah, I started a murder mystery once without outining the plot.....Needless to say, I quit. I got too damn confused. I myself was wondering whodunnit.
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Done. Go read.
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Ah. Gotcha. I wish I could find Yellow Roses. It was a story that I didn't write until later in HS. I'm actually very proud of it. If I could find the floppy disk I saved it on...I suppose I could just rewrite the whole thing, but...wait. Wait. I have a very early draft. Part of, I should say. I'll go over to dragontaylz and type it out. *squeals*
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Oh! OH! OH! Have you seen the movie Se7en?? The one with the Deadly sins?? Gah, I love that movie. Creepy and gross, but it fucks with your mind. I love it!
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Kind of like in Rain Man? He can use it to count and be a walking, talking TV guide, but nothing else?? I know in that case, he can't help it, and that was kinda mean, but is it kinda like that????
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OMFG You said it. Everything about the way this society is, the politics.....*squints* Are you a mind-reader??
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lol. So I can be even more disgusted? Not to mention paranoid? Sure. I'll google it. Maybe I can do it back to NP. Nah. I don't think I have the patience. Sounds like too much work. *laughs*
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*grimace* Wow. People have nothing better to do than be devious little CUNTS in order to destroy someone else's life?? That's pathetic.
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POO...lol
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That's why the picture needs to have people holding a piece of paper with their URL and all that other crap. This 'unknown' person would have to be good a photoshop to do that. Although, if they can do what they're doing now, who's to say that they can't photoshop? *sigh* I can't win.
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Yeah...hence the photo-op I want everyone to do...Unless this 'unknown' is good with photoshopping...*sigh*
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O Raaaaaaaaaaaannnnaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! I have something for yooooooooooooooooooooooouuuuuu!!!
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Hahahaha, thanks for saying Happy Birthday! to me. Hahaha, then your son must be ten? Hahaha, that is cool.
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Well, there a ton of those wood roaches in the oak trees here. I really dislike them, but sometimes you get a stubborn one.
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Okay, I will and I have no idea what to name my novel either. I warn you, my Fanfiction are kinda wierd, but whatever. And your novel sounds really cool.
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I heard about that cartoon, but I never seen it and I have like no idea what it is about, like obviously it's called "Dungeons and Dragons, but it's probably more to it, I guess. I have a FanFic too, but I forgot my password to it, when I recover it, I will give you the link and thanks for the links, I will check them out.
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I love Harry Potter! And Alan Rickman is great, Die Hard is like a action movie or whatever the genre is (Obviously action, lol.) and it made me laugh for some reason, maybe because he was in it and that Carl Winslow from "Family Matters." (Reginald VelJohnson- that actor always plays a cop in movies and shows.) I can't for Harry Potter! Yay! I did a little FanFictions, but then I stopped because I was making my novel. My novel is mainly about you know, typical teenage plotline, but I thought it was stupid, but I made a new novel, which I am currently working on right now and it's a Romantic-Comedy of some sort, but I cannot figure out the title though. After the Romantic-Comedy is complete, I will make a far more sinister book that I had planned doing, I think it will be a success! What are your FanFics about and what do you plan to call you future fantasy novels? Sorry if this note is sooooooo long.
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I like to write too! I made my own novel, but I think it was really dumb, so I made another one, I'm almost doone, I'm half-way through. I love writing, it's my friggin' life, man, lol. I'm glad you are writing.
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Are you also saying that Crest Night time is nasty? To me, it tastes fine, but it does something weird to my mouth... makes it slough off the membrane.
I am not sure why the baking soda and peroxide toothpaste, but it is nasty tasting. It will whiten though. In fact, just take a mouthful of peroxide (not the stuff for hair) and swish it in your mouth while in the shower and then spit it out. Don't swallow it.
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Wow, lol, I never saw that cartoon before, but I heard about it, I basically liked all of the Nickelodeon cartoons, except for Invader Zim and Ahh!! Real Monsters! I thought they wre stupid, but overall I liked all of them. Now Nickelodeon is crumbling with their cartoons, piece by piece. It is sad to watch.
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Hey journalmine, I can relate how you miss the 90's. I miss all of the cartoons I used to watch and it was sad that they are not on t.v. anymore.
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I'm a dumbass and left a note for you except that I left it on MY notes page. Oops. Have a looksee!!
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BTW, neither of us work. He insists that nobody will hire him because he's disabled. Legally, they can't NOT hire you for being disabled, so STFU. He's just lazy. I don't work because my whole check would go to a day care or babysitter (although someone did point out to me that the state has day care and you only pay X amount of your income.) plus the gas (or bus fare) to get to and from work. Excuses, excuses, I know. But it doesn't pay to work if half the check is gone to something that I should get for free from him. (Someone to watch her) But now that he's going back to school and shit, he says that I can't work anyway. *rolls eyes* Whatever. But no, he doesn't work.
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OMG honey, I'm only 21. (22 next April) Paul is 26. (27 in February). He's on SSI and SSDI because of the MD (muscular dystrophy). His mommy handles the $$ because the courts deemed him incompetent to handle it himself. (Which was prolly the best thing to do since a DIME burns a whole in his pocket) She's his Power of Attorney because again, he's too dumb to do it himself. Although, I think that given the opportunity, he'd surprise alot of people. (Not with the money though. Just making decisions.) And you're right...He is a kid. A 3 year old, temper tantrum throwing, gotta have it my way kid.
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I'm terribly sorry about that. I hadn't realized that I turned it off. Haahaha. Oh thanks for saying the video was cool, yeah I've been craving to visit there, it is like on the other side of my neighborhood, it'll be cool, I just need some friends to come with me. It'll be like Ghost Hunters, lol. But I'm not so sure, it says in the article I was reading about the cabin, that you should not go out there at night if you are a teenager as myself because the cops might arrest you. So that is the downfall, which is really, really sucks. But it's not like we are going to do some stuff or whatever, we wanna see some ghosties, wooo!! Lol, I'm sure you will get through cold turkey, I'm sure of it! I believe in you, journalmine!
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Hey, I just read your diary entry and it reminded of when my father stopped smoking, he just stopped one day without no patch or no nothing and it has been like a since he stopped smoking which I am proud of him. Don't worry, your cigarette addiction will stop, just don't think about cigarettes, think about something else that makes you happy, like I don't know, lol. But something to keep your mind off the cigs, like scrapbooking or writing more in your diary. Just suggesting some stuff so you'll be healthy!
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Okay, thanks for the add, it's okay if you can't add me on the other diary, that'll be fine, it'll be allrite. I totally agree with you about Michael Jackson thing, imagine Madonna! *Gasp* That'll be more crazy and they will showing her face everywhere. I'll add you in a jiffy and I will read your diary whenever you update!
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Hi, mind if I add you to my list? I was reading your dream journal and it was fabulous. You can add me if you like, please.
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"Dat's wut'I thawt!" Um, English, please? Ugh. I would not, and do not, want to raise a family around that SHIT. I don't blame you for moving. In fact, I'll help you. I will move the couch by myself for you. lol. Of course, if he insists on living in the past when the present is going down the shitter, I guess I can't help you move. And why do they all sit outside? Like, shouldn't you be used to the hot, considering where you "mothafuckas" are from????? *throws head back, laughing* God I'm so racist today. I can't help it though. 6 families in one building and almost all of them are across the hall right now with their 2 dozen kids. Only 5 of them live here, but 4 are over there. The other isn't home. But who the other 8 billion and 3 came from is beyond me. It's like she's running a damn daycare and getting paid in crack. And it's constant up and down the stairs. Kids running around in unchanged diapers, going in and out of the door. The moms don't give a shit. People who don't take care of their kids should have their plumbing removed so they can't have any more. Guys too. Deadbeat dads should be castrated. On the news, there was a 5 year old riding their bike onto the freeway onramp. Yeah. My first question? Where are the parents? If the kid ran away then it's a wee bit different. But still. a FIVE YEAR OLD. *shakes head* Makes me wanna barf.
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You may be tired of writing it, but I'm not tired to reading it. *hands you a popsicle*
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OMFG You made me FART I laughed so hard!! I meant AIM as in AOL Instant Messenger. *snort* *HUG* You just made my effing day!
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Oh, before I forget, do you have AIM?
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OMG my heart does that too!!! But it's always so random, so I can't like, go to the doctor cuz what if it doesn't do it again? It only does it a few times a day. Or it'll be fine for a few days and then do it again. *sigh* We're all one breath closer to death anyway so meh. lol.
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Nice chuckle about crystal balls... reminds me of a guy we used to work with - Ol' golden balls. He walked like his balls were made of gold... Thanks for the laugh.
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I love Labyrinth and have all three mangas. The story is good, if you keep an open mind about it. I am pretty sure you will like them. :)
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Re: your 6/5 entry. I would guess that Andy (don't know him) emailed you to try to manipulate you into responding. Seems to have worked. If you want him out of your life, stop answering him... this feeds him.
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Like, put it in over on the side table with the all the links?? I'm sure I could figger that out.
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Which he are you referring to? Douchehat or said douchehat's dad? Or someone else entirely?
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Ugh. I laughed at your note. Paul asked what was so funny. Stoopidly, I told him and he threw a hissy fit, saying that reading other people's stuff is stoopid. Needless to say, we're fighting about how just because I've never met any of you doesn't mean that we can't be friends. *huff* He says that at least he talks to people on his game. "in person" he says. HA! Just because you can hear their voices doesn't mean "in person" you twit. Whatever, dude. But anyway, I hope they at least put a decent picture of me in the paper. One where at least I'm not having a bad hair day. *throws head back and laughs*
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I TOTALLY and COMPLETELY agree with you. It's like they have fucking spoons in their mouths when they talk....except for the expletives they teach their children. I love how we're supposed to help the "less-fortunate" when really most of them are going to end up just like their parents. And then they wonder why people are still racist. I know some white people who are just as bad, but still. When I first moved here, I though, hey it's the suburbs. Well, not quite. I have neighbors who know people in effing GANGS from the south side of Milwaukee graffiti-ing the playground outside my apartment. When they're outside, I stay inside. Close my curtains and everything. I remember once I was going with my mother to pick out carpet for the basement and we had to drive through a not-so-nice (like, RIGHT BEFORE you get to the ghetto) part of town and you're right. It is just house after house of unruly kids and parents who are just as bad. *sigh* I'm done ranting now. Well, not really, but this is getting long. *grin*
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lol. That WAS long. It's okay though. It made me smile! (now my cheeks hurt) I'll check out Elric. Pretty sure if you like it, I will too. We seem to share lots of common interests. Oh, and I like the song "Stirb Nicht Vor Mir". Did you add that recently? It's so pretty. Tangent alert! Did you know they're making a new Triple X movie? It's like, Return of Xander Cage or something retarded like that. Soooooooo glad my Hottie McBuff is gonna be in it. The State of the Union was so effing stoopid. *melts* Vin's voice makes my privates happy. *laughs* I know, I'm weird. ttyl!
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Both of you: STOP. Rana, if you can find it in your heart to do so just one more time, please, PLEASE stop responding to Andy. Andy, if you threaten to kill yourself one more time, I SWEAR, I myself will give you the tools with which to do it . Suicide is something that's between you and whatever God you believe in. Stay away from Rana, stay away from me and stay away from everyone else you feel influences you negatively.
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If you were God right now, I'd be burning in hell. Thank God you're not going to be my Judge.
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I'm gone, Rana. I wish it hadn't have happened this way. I still really love you, a lot.
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Just . . . go.
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That's not true. I have memory of the hurtful things I said to others - maybe not exact words, but I remember failing to exercise restraint, and spouting off things while I was out of sorts. But why are you so hostile toward me right now? What did I do? Did you just snap or something? It seems to be disproportionate to the reality of it all. I sent you some recordings of my voice, you say I have a nice voice, you say I'm a good writer, I never claimed to be anything but a troubled human being at this stage in my life, so what is the essence of all this? Can we break this down into little portions? Can I address things one by one? It's the violent energy that once again keeps me from seeing any positive solution here. People usually don't try to help me by yelling and screaming and cussing at me with reviling accusations. If I don't understand, which I don't, why don't you enlighten me? Is it really me who cannot understand, or is it you who really has no answer? I am not playing games with you - I am speaking my mind. If it is closed, and you have some special ability to open it, then please do so. I would much rather be experiencing an open mind than the mind that this dialogue is leading me to experience right now. I'm serious, and I mean no offense. You obviously have some purpose, and if you didn't think I would eventually "get it," you would not persist. So bring it on. Maybe I'm not as hopeless as you think.
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I know. I know. Of course it doesn't make sense, Andy. Naturally. To you, it never will, obviously. Even if you got it, you wouldn't get it. But, no, it certainly could never make any kind of sense. All you can see is people attacking you from all sides. It's the only thing that makes sense to you. Remember, you have no memory of all the hurtful, hateful things you do and say to others.
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See, I keep changing my mind every minute. I want to engage with you, but I don't want to fight or battle. I'm confused - you're using phrases like "standing up to me" as though I am in some sense the enemy. What brought this on? I still don't get it. Are you just anti-bipolar, or anti-God, or suddenly anti-Andy? None of this is making a whole lot of sense to me. We're like, talking from two different universes. Luke 16 or whatever, Dives and Lazarus (sic.) Between the two is a great gulf fixed. What I'd like to know is, in what sense is my music transcription service *not* a job? You make me out to be some kind of bum.
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No, really. There are both positives and negatives to spiritual dependence. You can always say to your enemies. Well, God loves me and he's on my side. Sorry, but . . . what-ev-er. Tantamount to saying, "I know you are, but what am I?"
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That's nice, dear.
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Why don't you just track down all the "others" and file a class action suit against me? Would that gratify you. The angel told me: "You will have many friends and you will have many enemies, but you will need to know hate before you know love." I told you, I know hate now. That's why I know love. So bring it on. I have nothing to hide or fear.
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Neko was right. You push away everyone who wants to help you. We offer solutions, and part of that is pointing out what you do wrong. Ever see Bart Simpson sticking his finger is the electrical outlet (or whatever he was electrocuting himself with)? [*BZZT* Ow! *BZZT* Ow! *BZZT* Ow! *BZZT* Ow! *BZZT* Ow!] We say, "Stop putting your fingers on live wires, A!" Good advice. Solution to a problem. And what do you consistently do? You lash out! And quit giving me/us the "walk a mile in my shoes" bullshit. I'm tired of it. You've worn it out. And I'm familiar with bipolar disorder. My step-mother is bipolar. No one is hell-bent on your destruction. Venom, blah blah blah. Clear intent to hurt and damage you, blah blah blah. Where do you come up with this BS? No one is trying to hurt you. No one is trying to hurt you. No one is trying to hurt you. No one is trying to hurt you. Got it, yet? Yet? How about now? I think of Eliza Doolittle in My Fair Lady when Higgins orders her bathed. She fights against it hard as she can, yelling all the way. They helping her, doing her a favor, and she's screaming at them. Years, A.
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I have a job. I transcribe music for a living. I also have a disability based on that I lost three successive real life jobs in a row and they attributed it to bipolar disorder. But my question remains: why did you, one of my best friends here, turn against me so radically? It's scary, Rana. I've always liked you. It seems like I made one mistake that I know of - oh about my memory, I'm an aging guy with a poor short-term memory. I don't know what else to say. I've been honest with you all along. But how did all your admiration of me turn to hostility so quickly? I went from being one of the best writers on the Internet to "train wreck" in zero flat, as near I can discern.
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You're really critical of me right now. I started to come up with a point-by-point defense, but it's taking up too much energy. I am definitely neither grossly irresponsible nor lying to you. And I don't quite follow the comparison of me to a user or abuser. In what way do I remind you of them? OK - when I haven't slept for several nights and a motel appears I grab it. Where else am I suppposed to sleep? Last night I slept on four busses, that was cheaper, but I'm pretty brain-dead today. I'm trying to run a business, and it helps if I get a good night's sleep. I would rather have a permanent residence, but like the laptop, I never have enough money at once. It is an incredibly stressful situation. I am in a shitty rental agreement with a lousy laptop, and it straps me practically every time I have to come up with the rent. I got Full Finale 2007 for free when my teacher bought it at the preschool and I landed with the license. I bought the Wavepad audio editor for sixty dollars. That's hardly extravagant. But I will be the first to admit I have a spending problem, and I think you and Betsy and all the others who are so critical of me might do well to go read the symptoms of bipolar disorder and see how well they match my erratic personality. Finally, I do not comprehend the venom with which you seem hell-bent on destroying me. I am already a fucking wreck. As for the drugs, I am proud that I haven't used the speed in as long as I have, I have no desire to repeat the experience of the night before last with the other stuff, and I am proceeding like any other addict with my recovery. Even if I were not bipolar, I would still have the different perceptions of spending issues that a homeless person has than a person with a home. Believe me, I long to be in a rental where I can buy my own food and cook it and not be bound to buy sandwiches from the Deli and so forth. I would love not to have to make a million bus trips just to get a night's sleep and stay up in the donut shop just to put a roof over my head. Now as far as your full name, no one knew it was your name until you yourself began to mention it in notes. I have no idea why you are so furious with me, but R. I do not have to take this. I have enough problems without your insensitive condemnations, clearly intended to hurt and damage me, being piled on a person who is broke and hungry and tired and that is the truth. BetsyBoops too, goes for you. All of you, walk half a mile in my shoes, and I assure you, you would not judge me. Nor do I defend myself. I am only an aging musician trying to get himself out of a shitty situation into a better one. I've made a lot of mistakes, but so have we all. Only God is my Judge.
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You're right...I'm just here for when it's convenient for him. He's even said that he doesn't love me, but usually just because we're fighting. Can't be sure if it's true or not. Maybe deep down it is? Or isn't? Until I can read minds, I won't know. *sigh* I need to get a job before I can leave. Or just find a nice, smart, funny, guy who won't mind bailing me out of my predicament. Which, unfortunately, menas he needs to be LOADED. Hard to find. Maybe a sugar daddy? Just for the money part?? lol Just kidding.
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Finally got around to reading your journal...I LOVE YOUR TASTE IN MUSIC!!!!! (esp. Within Temptaion. I recently discovered them and fell in LOVE)
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Hahaha I couldn't have said it better myself! But there must be others out there! We could start a group! You can email me via the Criticize Me link on my diary whenever you want. And as ugly as this must all be for you, I'm sort of glad to know that I'm not the only one who got freaked out on. LOL!
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I don't mind leaving the posts up if you don't ;-) What's the worst that can happen anyway?
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That's how it is with him, I think. He left me email upon email and note upon note, totally obliterating my character. I honestly don't get how his therapist(s), priest and friends put up with it (his daughters certainly didn't and don't). I refuse to help him for the simple reason that I feel that I will only be enabling him and he will continue living the way he has - which is fine except that he victimizes people by preying on their goodness. But in the end, he is a very, very sad man and instead of feeling anger, all I can feel for him is pity. I just felt the need to reach out to you - in the same way I reached out to him before (but I have forgiven myself for that) - because you have to know that there's nothing wrong with YOU. And don't worry about unloading off on me... Some days, he's just too crazy to take on alone.
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Oh oh. And how much do you want to bet that if he catches wind of this exchange of ours that he will say something like, "This is really the Lord's test... For Him to have united an evil whore (that's you) and a selfish whore (that's me) together to unleash havoc in my life must be His test of my faith."? LOL!!
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No kidding, I still haven't paid my bill! I am almost 20, didn't think it would happen either. Eugh.
I hope you get better. :)
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I stumbled across your journal because I liked the name. Back in September I found a lump where a lump should not be, however it was more like a bubble. It wasn't hard. I went to the doctor after awhile and he called a gynochologist to come look because the doctor had never seen anything like it. Gyno said it was a type of cyst that is caused by fragments of something and not to worry. Last week my cyst started getting hard and painful, especially during sex. Within the past few days it has been secreting something. Anyway, too much info, I know, but my point is I think mine is going away, but seeing a doctor makes you feel much more at ease.
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I agree with your gay rant. I remember once in a history class a girl saying that if we legalize gay marriage, that being gay will become the norm. I don't know if it will ever get quite that far, but...In my opinion, if you wanna be gay, fine. Go for it. But don't f***ing throw it in everyone else's face, making it a bigger deal that it has to be. Seriously. Oh, and who's Dave???
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I usually want to go to bed at the same time Paul does, so I end up not going to bed until LATE. But it's nice when he goes to bed without me so I can have some ME time. And I TOTALLY know what you mean about having to f***ing DROP what you're doing just to f***ing look at something. Like, dude, I'm BUSY!!!! I'll be on the phone, making dinner, putting away laundry and keeping an eye on the baby, and he'll ask me to get him something to drink!! WHEN I'M OBVIOUSLY BUSY!!! *hug* We are soooooooooooo under-appreciated.
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I don't get the obsession with soda. It stains your teeth, it rots your teeth...no thanks. And it just doesn't appeal to me the way it used to. If soda ceased to exsist, I don't think I'd mind. Well, except that I wouldn't get root beer floats anymore. But other than that...
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I had a similar problem with my laptop and I had to have the hard drive erased and reloaded. I could only go to google sites and if I did a search for example, pizza and clicked on a pizza site, it might take me to a doctors site. I had some weird virus. The clue was it would not let me connect to ANY virus scan websites, whether I searched or typed them in. Kept coming back "cannot connect" or "problem connecting" or something like that.
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*sigh* If only I could stay with my parents or something...unfortunately, it's not an option. Oh well. I might go with Kris, but not yet. *hug* Thanks for your input!!
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I have to say I really appreciate your support! *hug* Thanks a million!
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I got rid of my old story...started a new one. rough draft, so it sucks. enjoy
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