messages to juli-anne:
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from cherrygash :
Hey my name is julianne. :)
from diablogem :
I left the answer in secret-being ; )
from turtlemomma :
What happened to your diary??!
from hedgehoggy :
I sent you an email but I don't know if you got it or not. You also haven't said anything about whether you saw the pictures. Interesting. Oh, there's a squirrel outside! Must go watch squirrel carry his nuts around.
from krisbell :
Everything ok?!
from girle :
uh oh...locked? Hope you are OK!
from polly-esther :
i noticed you're locked...is everything OK?
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you! I feel tons better today.
from chikyblonde :
it should be playing even if you're using firefox...you may have to wait awhile for the file to download...eh...i don't want to change it cuz it RAWKS but if it gives me probs...if you're really interested in hearing it, i'll email it to you. just let me know.
from thekirks :
He was my favorite!!! Do they still have that show where they bring back one of the people voted off?
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you so much for leaving me a note! Even though your not a mother, leaving a note to make me feel better meant a lot to me. Thank you!
from dulligirl :
Thanks,Jules. And I know you are feeling a lot of stress yourself so hugs back to you tenfold. :-)
from aliboomboom :
I'm sorry to hear about your friend. IT sucks to watch other people destroy their lives. At least, you are on a different path now. As for the Roto virus, Dr Green says it can last up to 2 weeks. Great. I'm sure I'll end up with it. How could I not? Diarrhea and a stomach ache, great.
from goldieknox03 :
glad you understand me. Seriously, i was so lucky that he swept me up when he did. And even your circumstance, horrible as it was, IT saved us from so much worse. We have better lifes sans alcohol. though i do sometiems feel boring. But sober and more responisble. Good trade off.
from barbiewoman :
I had to lock up so e-mail me at [email protected] to get the password
from jules9- :
Haha, I have the same problem with a friend of mine at school who has the same real name as me..it's soooo weird to call them my own name!
from chickpea981 :
My thoughts EXACTLY. The bigger the guy, the tinier and sexier I feel. *muah*
from momma-at-17 :
Very cool. Thanx so much. I've added you. My sn is Sammybear86.
from momma-at-17 :
Thank you so much hun. Your note made me smile. Hey I've got a quick question for ya, would you mind if I added you to my aol buddy list?? If not I understand, I just thought I'd ask.
from momma-at-17 :
Well the actual couples ticket for the dance was $30 but we paid an extra $15 for the after party as well.
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you. Well, I called the doctor the other day and he just told me to give him either gingerale or pedalite because what Logan has has been going around the community. He's still sick.. so, i mean he's not eating and hardly keeping his water down, so what am i suppose to do? I have to take him to the doctors, i think. Yeah, sometimes I'd rather Just cry instead of having a major freak out. lol.
from aliboomboom :
Thanks for the note. I'm glad someone thinks I'm not boring. As for the B thing, it would all make more sense if there was some huge lesson to be learned but the only thing I can get from it is never trust again. It just hurts to think that he lied all this time. Why would someone bother to do that/
from ginger31277 :
YAY for new jobs. I got a new job too. Congrats btw. And I hope you are doing well.
from xx-angel-xx :
awe, thank you! I hope he does too.
from aliboomboom :
Oh and to answer your question, if the old Brandon came back. I'd be his in a heartbeat. Does that make me weak or what?
from aliboomboom :
Thanks for the note. I'm putting on a brave face. It's very bizarre to me what happened with B. I don't know how to react. I tried to the best of my ability and now I just feel like I look like some pathetic idiot so I can't put myself through that anymore. The first week will be hardest. I can do it though. Disappointments are a part of life, right?
from classygirl83 :
I know what I say can't comfort you,so I will give you alot of ***HUGGS*** and you're in my thoughts/prayers
from momma-at-17 :
Thank you hun. I had fun too thanks for the good luck wish. I found a dress that fit, I borrowed it from a friend. It's really pretty.
from goldieknox03 :
it wasnt you. I think your a great girl and you always give me great feedback. I was mainly venting about somebody i chatted with online, and comments i get in daily life. and from one male dlander. But as always, i dont name names, so i am so sorry if you thought it was you. Thought the scarf said it all;) Either way, I do hope you continue reading, though its your choice. I know I'll still read you, and miss dearly your comments
from xx-angel-xx :
i know and its so sad, lol
from chikyblonde :
it's the lyrics that have stirred something within. I don't know. I'm just very sad today and lonely. my mom just came in and told me that the dr's found something in her mammogram and she has to get another one done in may to make sure it's nothing serious. they're pretty sure it's a lump but told her, "don't worry, it's probably not cancerous." dude, you don't tell someone that. i have the same shit happen to me everytime i get a female exam done but that's because I use to be a whore and now I pay for it.
from chikyblonde :
Thank you so much for that note! It really made my day...and so is the storm that's coming. WOOHOO!
from classygirl83 :
Awwwe, girl, BIG HUGGS:) I'm sooo sorry that you're going through all of this right now. Just as life is starting to go right, something always has to throw you a curve ball. I'm sorry about your grandma. She's in a better place though now. I hope that you don't stress about school too much. You will get it all done, and you'll ace your test! I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to.
from aliboomboom :
I love Jennifer Weiner!! I have read In Her Shoes and Good in Bed and they are both wonderful!! I'm going to start Little Earthquakes soon. I'll let you know how it is.
from xx-angel-xx :
LoL, we should! Well, my dad seen it on the news so, I knew it would be on the interenet since everything's here. So, I looked it up and yepp, It was true. he beat his girlfriend, she said she or the baby wasn't hurt she just wanted him out of her house. So, I don' tknow, I still don't think a guy like that should be on american idol :)
from some-voices :
I'm actually not sure whether he knew it was cat food or not, but my guess is that he didn't. The people I work with are all disabled or mentally challenged and I think he probably just didn't know what he was doing. I know that he isn't that low on the income front and usually he brings very good meals packed by someone at his home, but this day I think he packed his own meal.
from ginger31277 :
Sorry for your loss. If you need to talk email or message me. Take care of you.
from momma-at-17 :
I'm so sorry hun, I know how hard that can be. I want you to know that I am here for you if you need/want to talk. You are in my thoughts...
from aliboomboom :
I am so sad for you and for Dusty. Losing a grandparent is so hard. There are a bunch of cheesy things that I could say that won't make you feel any better so I won't say them. I'm here for you and I'll be thinking about you.
from aliboomboom :
I think that I am going to get the South Beach diet book today at the library. I have to do something. I am progressively getting bigger and bigger and bigger. I always wondered how people let it happen to them and now it's happening to me. Awesome.
from aliboomboom :
Gosh, I wish I was thinner than I was in high school. I know you go low carb to lose the weight but what kind of stuff do you eat? I have the hardest time staying on a low carb diet becasue I feel as if there is nothing to eat. Tips?
from aliboomboom :
You are right, he is a crap head.
from dulligirl :
Thank you for your encouragement. And I think its cool that you get excited about financial stuff.
from aliboomboom :
Oh and how lame am I? Brandon just signed on AIM and my heart leaped into my chest. What is my problem? We haven't spoken in over a week. I need to get a life pronto!
from aliboomboom :
First of all, I want to say taht your entry today was beautiful. It is wonderful to share the kind of love that you and Dusty have. I remember many times looking at Ian and thinking that nothing mattered as long as I had him. It is such a pure and beautiful thing. And secondly I just took the time to read your story and I am amazed. I didn't know that you had gone through that. I guess I did, I just didn't realize how bad it was. It must really give you a different view of life and what's important. I am so glad that you survived!
from xx-angel-xx :
awww, thank you!!! I give the credits to Momma-at-17, she made it :)
from fish-reviews :
dear you, you're an asshole.
from aliboomboom :
I don't know what to do. It's as if I can't get the words out. It makes it too real. I know that it is real but its' a lot less scary when you don't have to talk about it. I need to talk to my lawyer. I think that is the only thing that will put me at ease. I need to hear that he doesn't have a legal leg to stand on from her, ya know? Have a great weekend!
from aliboomboom :
Congrats on the house!! As for the benefits thing, I have to have benefits. I'm going to have to leave if I don't get them. I really don't want to do that but what's my option? I get no paid time off, I have to be able to take paid time off for Griffin when he's sick or needs me. Most people start off in TN with 2 paid week vacations, paid holidays, and 5 paid sick days. I have nothing. How fair is that? Aaron uses the excuse that it's a small company but he's making a killing. I hate selfish people!
from momma-at-17 :
Thanx so much for the note hun. My doctor told me that it's pretty normal during pregnancy because the baby is taking everything from me ya know? He told me to just keep up with my vitamins and I'll be fine.
from xx-angel-xx :
I know, I hardly even talk to him anymore. LIke, I'd call him to talk about Logan such as: What time will you be here to pick up logan, and a question about the baptism on friday.. I'm going to stop even doing that because its just becoming more of a hassle for me. I thank you so much for leaving me notes. Like you said, if he wants to see Logan, he knows my number if its Not about Logan, I don't want to talk about him, ever.
from aliboomboom :
Thanks for supporting me. It means a lot! I only try to do what I think is right. I don't know why people are so quick to judge me on that!
from classygirl83 :
Thanks for the note. I really appericiate it. THey say that three time's a charm:) SO HOPEFULLY this one will be the one. GOod luck on your series 7 I'm sure you'll do great.
from xx-angel-xx :
lol, I would Love it :)
from xx-angel-xx :
thank you so very much! Your note was so kind! :) I know, he's so handsome, huh? hehe. Well, Frank (my ex) called me the other day. heather is like this jealous, rude, girl. who just turned 17, so she's very immature (even for 17) soo, she i/med me today b/c i guess she found out I talked to frank.. and every time it alk to frank (even tho they aren't dating anymore) she'll i/m me and start with me, tell me like i have an eating disorder (since i'm skinny) and that i'm ugly, and how logan's going to die and she'll make sure of it. Alright, I don't care if she says stuff about me becuase i can take it but, when she i/ms me just to ask if i talked to frank then to tell me logan is going to die? you don't step over that boundry.. ya know? I blocked her but, i know she'll find a way to msg me. I don't know, I blocked her so, i should be alright :)
from chikyblonde :
Well, it's from going to the gym at least 3 times a week and jogging at least 2 miles afterwards...for the last 7 months. Takes awhile but the results? GIGGIDY GIGGIDY GIGGIDY ALRIGHT!
from xx-angel-xx :
Awe, Thank you! I Most likely will update tonight after I get the one roll back. Then probably again in two or three days But, I will let you know :) He's getting so big!
from aliboomboom :
I'm sorry to hear about both grandmothers. It's so sad when loved ones get old and have to go through that. Why does the end have to be that way? My papaw had a stroke nine years ago and hasn't spoken or walked since. It is so very sad. As for Brandon, I don't know. I'm over it. I guess it's over, whatever it was. We talked on Wednesday and then I left on Thursday. He didn't call or text me the whole time I was gone which is odd for him. Then I got home last night and he didn't call me. He knows I'm home, he obviously doesn't care. I just don't understand what happened. How did we go from talking every single day and liking one another to meeting and really liking one another to this? Oh well, I'm not dwelling on it. I'll just take a sabatical from dating and start over again one day. It just sucks because I thought he was different and he's not and that sucks. Thanks for the compliments, I am fat as hell but it's still nice to hear~!!
from aliboomboom :
I didn't go so I don't know what the bunnies did. I'm hoping they kept themselves in line around my child. My mom said that they acted as if they were sedated. I hate bunnies. Gross. Anyways thanks for the Griffin compliments.
from aliboomboom :
I can see your point. But the situations are different. Tiffany isn't really struggling. Her husband has a job in a plant and she makes almost as much as I do per week except she doesn't get any taxes or social security taken out and then she uses state aid that she doesn't need or deserve. Ridiculous. Besides if your dad takes a vacation, he doesn't make someone pay someone else to do his job. I'd have to pay double that week and I refuse to do it. I know that you may not agree but I think it's an assanine request, I just have to figure out where I go from her.e
from ginger31277 :
sorry I haven't been around lately... I have been a little antisocial. I will try to catch up on the entries. I did just read the one about Ron Jeremy. I have never seen a porn so I have no idea what his 'wang' looks like, lol. But you are right, not very attractive. Good thing he smart and has a horse c**k, lol. Ciao
from girle :
Sorry about the house. Your dad reminds me of my dad...sometimes I would want to do something and THEN tell him...because I know he'd often talk me out of it. Our house is this total little old fixer upper...but I don't regret buying it. Hopefully we'll only be in it for another year or so - it will be five years in September. But it's nice to have a place of my own, despite the leaky windows and basement that gets some water when it rains hard. At least in the end we should be able to make a bit of money on it by selling or renting. Did you try realtor.com? Is the house you wanted online do you know? How affordable is housing? I guess too many questions for a "note" lol.
from ydwtk :
your dad's inspection convinced you the house was not worth it? ============================= if you can't sleep. maybe it's time to see the doc about some adjustment in the medication. you gotta take care of you! ============================= hope that's _real_ good news on the health insurance!
from aliboomboom :
I try not to let the Ashley Judd thing bother me. It did at first but then I was like what are the chances that she is really ever going to want to be with him, I should worry more about Plain Jane next door. Besides you are right, he only brings her up when I give him reason to feel insecure about how I feel about him. Last night I was being short with him and we were arguing and I think that is why he said something aobut her. He mentioned her on Friday as well which is why I said why do we have to talk about her all the time? He said we won't have to, I'm glad about that. So glad. I can't wait for you to see the pictures either. I'll post them ASAP!
from ydwtk :
you still have that je-ne-sais-quoi -- just now youappeal to a different type of people, not the crowd you've been used to. In a few short months, you'll graduate, ace that series 7 thing, and begin your career. you'll be traveling indifferent circles, and you'll start meeting the people with whom you will fit in. you'll find different ways to cope successfully with stress, and one day you'll realize "This is the life, these are the friends, I want. I'm content with where I am and where I'm going." I hope I'm still reading this diary when you make that entry! :)
from goldieknox03 :
"seven" is one of my favourites now too. "saw" and "the forgotton" is right up there too. I just try to watch them during the day as i am a fraidy cat
from momma-at-17 :
Thank you so very much!!
from chikyblonde :
Your so pretty. I like pic #2 & #4 alot.
from momma-at-17 :
Frisky sounds just like my dog. She's so old that she acts like she runs the place.
from xx-angel-xx :
thank you so much (hugs)
from momma-at-17 :
No problem. I originally started reading you from xx-angel-xx. Thank you very much for adding me! Have a wonderful St. Patty's Day!!
from kitty-kaboom :
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from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you for the lovely note. I'm so happy for you. Geesh, I wish I could find lots of books for that cheap!
from aliboomboom :
Thanks for the compliments. I just am so nervous that thsi won't be all I've hoped it to be. I adore Brandon, I don't want to stop doing that. Physical attraction is so stupid. I'll be fine, right? Anyways you look great. I wish I could lose as much weight as you have!!
from chikyblonde :
I wonder how far away Michigan is from Missouri? Have it on a friday night and if the trip isn't some asinine 5 day journey, I'd go.
from aliboomboom :
Oh I meant to add that I will definately be taking pictures!! And I'll try to post them Monday! I'm so exciteD!
from goldieknox03 :
I finally fixed that comment thing. I didnt figure it was a big deal because i had only recieved maybe 8 comments the whole 3 months or more ive had haloscan. But now, *hopefully* ill get more. Ps) great pics!
from girle :
Yay for the bra! I should do that too. I am wearing your old size...it makes me wonder! Also, did you lose a lot of weight? Was it from being sick or had you lost it before that or both? Just curious. You look really great in your pictures!
from anita-girl :
Hmmmmm that meal sounded sooo good! Makes me think of Olive Garden (which I havne't been to in ages) That is so exciting abotu the house, I really hope that you post some pictures! I just bought the right bra last June, I kept putting it off since it costed like $100 more than my usual, but I am totally enjoying it! It's better for them if you wear the right size too. I also want to mention that in all your pics Dusty looks like such a laidback pleased, happy man. He always has a smile that looks genuine on his face.
from chikyblonde :
I can't wait for my own personal "Dusty"...I like hearing about you two. If his temp starts hitting 103 and not going down after 24 hours, you probably should take him in...it usually means there's something else going on. And don't worry, if my boobs were a DD I'd dedicate an entire entry to them too!!! Love ya girlie!
from goldieknox03 :
Thanks for the nice email. My email is still down so I'll reply here. Im glad you like em. Sounds like you had a good time visiting. Those are some gorgeous pictures. YOur right about the marriage thing. Take your time. ITs all its cracked up to be, and all the dissapointments too. But the good should out weigh the bad. Still I wish I would have been a bit older before i tried. Anyways, IF you dont like the pom pom on the hat its really easy to snip off, just pull it up away from the hat and snip it off. Just be careful not to get the hat. :) have a good sunday
from thekirks :
Thanks so much for your comment! I love kitties and think they are all cuties:)
from girle :
Hey Jules I had to throw a link to you in my current entry. I've got new car fever and you've got house fever. At least you have been OFFERED the job. Have you tried realtor.com? Don't forget to get good counter space! Having this house for four years, we've got lists of necessities for our next place...when we bought it we just wanted SOMEthing. Good luck in the search! It's exciting!
from gumphood :
no more beer! Crying shame.
from classygirl83 :
Thanks for the note concerning my purse. I guess it's not as bad as it could be meaning.... I don't have any credit cards, and the only important thing that was in there was my ID and some money. They left my digital camera, and I still have my cell. I guess it's ok. I mean i wish it hadn't of hapepnd though. I hope that you're doing ok. Have a great week.
from aliboomboom :
Great! You had just never mentioned it so I didn't know if you wanted just anyone to read it. I am definately excited to find out more about you and yay to updating more!!
from aliboomboom :
I just ran across your diary here while looking for new diaries to entertain me during work. I didn't know if it was okay for me to read both. Let me know.
from goldieknox03 :
im feeling better but exhausted. I just feel disapointed in the both of us. Thanks for your note:)
from goldieknox03 :
hey so i finished the hat. DO you think pompoms are dorky, or make it cute? ITs a beanie style hat bythe way. HOpe thats ok. Ill mail them tommorrow or wendesday. And no your not greedy. YOU just seem like the coolest person, and your sweet notes make my day. So i want to make yours.
from devian :
i dated a boy once who went to harvard and said that his mother and kirstie alley went to school together and were close friends. he said she is a real bitch and had a lesbian affair with his mother, but i don't care--I LOVE HER!
from goldieknox03 :
Thanks.ITs been a good year! :) looking foward to your email.
from goldieknox03 :
yeah email me your address. janeknox01 at hotmail.com. what colors do you like. I have a bit of the fun purple left, the mushroom color and lots of the red that has been featured in my photos at flicker, i also have blue, a fluffy white, black, neon green, etc. Just tell me a color. and you live somewhere cold right?(just trying to figure out thickness. OK enough blabbering here taking up all your space. Give me a email:)
from thekirks :
I love your new layout and look forward to reading more of your uncensored entrys!
from classygirl83 :
Hey~ I feel you on censoring alot of things. I am CONSTANTLY censoring everythingthat I write about. I wish that Icould just write about stuff that comes from my emotions, and thoughts and feelings as well, but I too am scared of pissing people off. I hope that you have a great weekend!
from xx-angel-xx :
oh and thank you :)
from xx-angel-xx :
I've mentioned tim a few times... I mentioned him about a year ago too... and a few times before my last entry. everytime i actually talk about a guy here, shortly after it like turns to bad, lol.. so, i tried not to mention him much but, this time its different. I want to talk about him whenever I can. Sorry for confusing you.
from thisismywish :
Yes! Thank you for being number 11! Now, I'm off to read the blog, the blog that belongs to Jules! (Like, "Oh, we're off to see the wizard") Have a sweet day, darling:)
from xx-angel-xx :
:) Thank you! :)
from girle :
you mean "anna karenina" by Leo Tolstoy? :) I'm messin with ya!
from classygirl83 :
Hey~ Thank you for your get well note. I apperciate it. I am on an antibiotic, I went to the doctor yesterday. I guess I can't really get addicted to pain pills, but I worry about it sometimes. Well, I hope that you have a great weekend this weekend. Do something fun with D:)
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you so much for your notes. I really do appreciate them!
from thisismywish :
Hi, Jules! Thank you for being such an encouragement to me all the time. I really need that support that you give me, and I appreciate you. Happy Valentines Day! (A little late, I'm sorry!:) ) -Beth
from classygirl83 :
Happy Aniversery!! Wow 2 years is a LONG time! That's awsome
from classygirl83 :
HAPPY V-DAY!!!!!!!!! I hope that D is good to you today! Have a great night! I hope that it's my last single V-day, but I dunno? Have a great week!
from xx-angel-xx :
I know, I understand and thank you. If you need anything I'm always here for you too ((hugs)) Oh and your so going to do wonderful in your second interview!!
from afi311 :
Thanks for the input. I'll keep updating so check me out once in awhile. Jer
from classygirl83 :
awwwwwwwe, thanks for you comments. that was sweet and thanks for adding me! I hope that you have a great day!
from thekirks :
Thanks for adding me! I'm enjoying reading your entries and I love your layout!
from diablogem :
OMG I'm SOOOO SO SO SO SO pleased for you - fingers, toes, arms and legs crossed that this goes well, but good on you for doing so well today - I'm so proud of you! *hugs* gem xx
from classygirl83 :
Congrats girl!!!!! I soo hope that you get it! You deserve it:)
from xx-angel-xx :
My friend Kaitlin had died one year ago today. From mitochondrial neurogastrointestinal encephalomyopathy (MNGIE). SHe was the nicest person anyone could ever meet. She never spoke a bad word against anyone, literally. She was only 17.
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you for that lovely note you left me. I'm so glad that dusty makes you happy and feel safe with him. you deserve to be happy!
from ydwtk :
be proud of yourself! It takes tremendous strength to escape an abusive relationshp. Talking about it honestly and openly shows strength too, and is also an important step in healing the old wounds! I'm glad you shared! :)
from xx-angel-xx :
Oh yeah, I never did mention what the surgery was actually called, its called a leep surgery, its nothing major. I'm so happy to hear about your interviews! The BEST of Luck to you!
from ginger31277 :
I was thinking the same thing, but then there are other issues with that. LOL. But I will tell you about that myself in chat. ;)
from ginger31277 :
Good luck, Jules. You'll do great. Sorry I haven't been around to chat with lately. But you'll see in my entry as to why. Talk to you soon, and take care. Ciao ;)
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you for your note. I really do appreciate it!
from ydwtk :
maybe it's time for a heart-to-heart . . . AND . . . have you considered how you can love and support him better if he continues this lifestyle? can you have any fun at all drinking virgin drinks or sodas and being the designated driver? Best of luck!
from thisismywish :
Aww, thank you! Now I am on smile-all-day mode again:) Thank you, Jules. When is your interview?
from mellieemo :
howdii - thank you for your comment! :) I couldn't figure it out for anything, either. It took about 2 hours! But I think I got it now, so if you want I can let you know how I did it.
from xraygurl :
ATTENTION!!!! Alcohol consumption is not good for you. Who's Miss Priss now?! You're much better off without it. Don't be jealous...be glad that you're not out there making a fool of yourself and possibly drunk dialing later on. What's fun about that? Remember: your health is 1,000 times more important than some damn margarita or Corona. Hold on to Dusty. Have you tried talking to him about how you feel? Jealousy wise, I mean?
from ydwtk :
can you go walking in the daylight, even with the cold weather? That's supposed to help beat winter depresssion. Best of luck! :)
from mellieemo :
Thanks for your note!! I hope you have a fun time skiing...lol!
from tfrunner262 :
Thank-you so much for your kind notes. You are right that people reserve the right not to drink... it just gets annoying when they try to say that you're the devil or some shit like that for not sharing their beliefs... but I hear ya, and I know it must be hard to be among the minority there. I also have to thank you so much for caring about me and all. It is so unfair that someone like you should have to be sick. I feel like with mine, I did this to myself and thus I deserve any of the bad things that it brings... you never did a thing to deserve yours, it just isn't fair. I feel so sorry for what you go through, and I feel so awful and terrible for having made myself this way when I never had to be, so far as I know. You are so kind and I truly hope that everything in your life will get better. You know, you never see what you had until you have lost it sometimes... I think that it gives you some additional wisdom. I hope that your jobs will take you and that you'll be able to have lots of choices and make a good one. I can tell you that it will feel odd to leave everything that you know at first... as I'm sure that you know. You'll see some of the better things that you may have taken for granted, and actually miss them -- but in the end it will be worth it. Although I don't say this is my main reason for leaving Purdue, I know that I was never going to get better or feel better there... and maybe leaving where you are at and starting over again will help you to feel better as well. It just may take some time. Please take care, and I wish you nothing but the best! luv, ~Kris~
from mellieemo :
Hey Julie, I can kind of understand where you are coming from. Back in the day, I would be left home while John would go out and have band practice with his friends. I was thinking, "HE'S out playing MUSIC and I'M sitting alone??? I'm the one who is supposed to be playing music!" So I know that feeling, a very jealous feeling that goes a lot deeper. But anyway, in YOUR case, the changes you had to make were for your health and that's the most important!! :)
from krugerpak007 :
I wish I knew what to say to make you feel better sweety. You are doing so well working out and been healthy. Try focus on all the postive things you have going for you. Please feel better! *hugs* Kathy
from diablogem :
Jules, honey, I know this is really hard for you, and I don't blame you for feeling the way you do - you're in no way Miss Priss, you've just had to change your lifestyle. Keep strong, sweetheart, just keep thinking about your health, **hugs**, gem xx
from krugerpak007 :
Maybe it is the medication causing lack of concentration? Definitely speak to the doctor about side effects etc... I can relate. I feel lonely in real life too. Don't know what I would do without my diary buddies. Glad you cleaned and feel good. Nothing like a good, clean feeling after doing a big clean. Glad Dusty helped too. What a sweetie. Take care and feel good. xoxox Kathy
from xx-angel-xx :
Maybe you can ask your doctor about your medication and all that.. or maybe its just so much is on your mind that you can concentrate. There is so much going on with you, Its understandable to why its harder for you to concentrate and everything else.
from beautifulwoe :
I hope you get feeling better soon hon, and that the family issues get lighter. xoxo, Woe
from diablogem :
Oh Jules, I really feel for you - Just remember that none of this is your fault, or anyone's fault for that matter. People try to take the blame or point the finger when they don't fully understand their feelings, they just want someone to take it out on. Look after you, this is a time in your life where you need to be that much more selfish because of your health. Keep strong, you're probably the strongest person I've ever got to know : ) loads of love and ***hugs***, gem xx
from krugerpak007 :
Again I wish I had some magic words to make you feel better. All I can say is that I am thinking of you and sending many hugs and kisses your way. I am sorry to for moaning about stupid things while you have real things on your mind. For give me Jules. Love ya, Kathy
from xraygurl :
ummm...that was supposed to be what we CAN handle...that's what I get for not proofreading before the "done" button!!! lol
from xraygurl :
Look...your hair looks great!!! And life REALLY fucking sucks sometimes. Whenever I'm finally over whatever crisis that has gone on in my life I remind myself that what doesn't kill us DOES make us stronger (although you don't feel that at the time) and God doesn't give us anything bigger than what he thinks we can't handle. I'm so sorry to hear about your family probs. Although you probably can't believe it right now just remember that life won't always be so hard and eventually your curse will move on to some other individual(s) to make their life shitty. I have "the curse" quite often so I totally sympathize. You are too awesome for life to be otherwise.
from dulligirl :
Jules, I'm so sorry about your brother and your uncle. Putting this on top of your own troubles is just too much for one person. I just wanted you to know I'll be thinking of you. ((Jules))
from xx-angel-xx :
I am so sorry to hear about all thats going on in your life right now. I wish you the best and I hope everything will look up soon. I have no clue why so much is going wrong with you and everyone in your family and i'm sorry to hear that you just can't get a break, but, i'm sure its coming soon! I wish you the best of luck. Keep Smiling! *hugs*
from chikyblonde :
i have to get my pics uploaded. I have this great picture of zoey hiding inside those SMALL KFC bags...so cute how they can do that!
from dulligirl :
I know I shouldn't have a dvr since technically I can't afford it. But I can't bring myself to give it up.
from dulligirl :
No snow here, just freezing rain. I think I would prefer a bit of snow instead. I think Frisky and my cat,Maddux, are related because they are just so adorable!
from tfrunner262 :
I think that all of what you have been through has been quite a lot and you seem to have had every reason to complain at the time. Not to mention, sometimes writing just makes things feel better. I think your picture of Frisky is really cute :) We were also hit by what they're calling a blizzard on TV... so I haven't done much today either. Take care, luvs, ~Kris~
from krugerpak007 :
Glad you all mature enough to put things out on the table with Paul. I also hope you feel better sweetie. Take care! xoxox Kathy
from diablogem :
So glad you sat and talked things through with Paul, at least you kind of know what's been happening. And yay you for keeping up with the Aerobics and workouts! And I can't believe you don't get the British versions of American Idol!! They're hysterical!! Ah well, going to do some work now (does it never end?! LOL!), keep strong, **hugs** gem xx
from mellieemo :
howdii :) just *reading* about the pizza dusty made for you guys made me drool (like a llama). earlier, john and i were talking about *maybe* making a pizza one day this weekend. i now know what we will be doing for SURE -- making a pizza!! glad you all sat down and talked about things, too. it might take time to get everything all fixed up, but having thoughts and concerns out there on the table is definately a step in the right direction toward getting to that point. have a marvelous weekend! :)
from xx-angel-xx :
hehe, i know hes getting so big :). I'm glad that you all sat down and had a little talk. hopefully it does some good.. I'm happy to hear that you enjoy working out, I wish I enjoyed it or atleast try to work out :)
from diablogem :
You get a little icon by making a little pic 16 pixels x 16 pixels and save it as favicon.ico (not favicon.ico.jpg, just favicon.ico), and upload the icon to your image area, and it's done! You can also download free favicons if you do a search on google! There's more on it here http://members.diaryland.com/edit/favicons.phtml gem xx
from krugerpak007 :
Thanks for sharing your photos. You look wonderful! Chicago sounds like something to look forward to. I am sorry about your friends. I guess we have friends in different periods of our lives. Some of them remain with us forever but sometimes we each go our own ways. No matter how painful it is. I think that is life and I am sorry you are feeling down. You are just as sensitive as me. We are two peas in a pod. Take care honey. You look great and so does Dusty in his new jacket! xoxox Kathy
from mellieemo :
Yaah, dland is up and running again! I really loved all your pictures! The one of Gollum and Woody is so funny. That one should win a prize of some sort! I also loved all the new clothes you got!
from xx-angel-xx :
I loved your Random pictures, once again! I am totally an American Idol fan too! I missed the one on wednesday night though *sigh* I'm sorry to hear about your roommate.. Hey, if he doesn't want to stay in contact with you after your lease is up its def. his loss!!
from goddesskiki :
Aww Jules! I love random picture day. I'm totally doing another one soon too. (As soon as my room is, um, clean.) Yay for working out, too--I just started and my muscles are DYING. And OOH! I have the same boots as you, except in black. Hotsa hotsa! Ok, I'm done babbling...except to ask if you still wanted to see Phantom with us tomorrow night. =) Just message me, dear.
from sanetwin :
My favorite picture has to be woody and gullum. It made me giggle.
from diablogem :
So sorry to hear that your flatmate is being such a total knob jockey again - just makes me so angry that you feel scared to live on the same house as him, what a prick! Anyway, keep up with the exercise, and soon you'll be able to whoop his arse *HIIIII-YAH* ;D. And wooo to the new and random photos - I really want a digi cam now so I can also take random photos of things this end, would be nice to repay the joy of voyerism, lol! LOOOOOVE the jumper, coat and boots. I'm feeling better now, thanks for the note, loads of love, gem xx
from mellieemo :
How's school going? I hope well! Your excersising classes sound very neat! Yeah, this waiting part sucks. I think if I do not get this job I will simply give up all hope.
from webmiztris :
nice to hear you're having a GOOD day!
from krugerpak007 :
Wow, go girl. I am totally jealous! You are doing so well, and I just eat and eat and eat...Oy! You are wonderful and its amazing to hear you sound so happy and upbeat...Thanks for all your comments dear, you make me feel so good. You take care of you. Enjoy your studies and your workouts and be happy! Thats what I like to hear! xoxox Kathy
from xx-angel-xx :
awe, thank you for your kind note, it made me smile. :) I'm crossing my fingers with you. I hope you continue to feel good!
from diablogem :
Wooo You fitness fiend, lol!! Glad you're feeling good! Actually, me too for a similar reason - I've been doing exercise pretty much every day for the last couple of weeks and it's wicked isn't it :D ! Hope this cheque comes along soon (and if it doesn't, I'm on the first plane out there to lay the smacks down :DDD!!) gem xx
from dulligirl :
Thanks for your kind words,Jules, about my situation. I'm glad your aerobics was fun. Nothing like that rush after exercising. Crossing my fingers too for your overage check!
from diablogem :
*****magical hugs of anti-illness****, I really hope that you start to feel better soon - I know how important your work is to you, and I just want you to get back to it and start feeling more like *you*, if that makes sense? loads od love, gem xx
from krugerpak007 :
Your classes sound so interesting. I admire you for carrying on even though you are feeling so bad. I am worried about you though. Please go to the doctor when you are feeling bad so he can check everything out. Please take care and feel better. Thanks for your comments. xoxox Kathy
from webmiztris :
ooooh! I just got to see the new haircut pics. Very nice!! I hope you're feeling better.
from dulligirl :
Fabu hair,Jules!
from mellieemo :
I'm so jealous - I looooooove your hair!
from xx-angel-xx :
Your hair looks great! How are you feelin' today, i hope better! I feel much better but, that headache is still there a tad bit.
from diablogem :
What a fabulous haircut, sweetheart! You look even more stunning than normal - it really looks like you had a great time : ) gem xx
from goddesskiki :
Only YOU could make the tin foil look gooooood. Those pictures are great. I really like the last one of you laughing--I think it captures your essence--cheesy as that sounds. I'm lovin' the hair, I can't wait to see it in real life. If I don't talk to you before Monday, good luck with your first day of classes!
from anita-girl :
Your hair looks amazing! I can tell the difference, I remember what it looked like before! I think that is so cool that you saw such a proffesional, and he looked so happy to be in your pics!
from krugerpak007 :
Wow, you look absolutely amazing, I can't believe the change. It's beautiful. Go girl! xoxox Kathy
from sanetwin :
I love your hair!
from chikyblonde :
I just realized who you look like to me...Uma Thurman. You look really good! That last picture of you laughing was really nice. It always makes me feel better to take a day and get pampered...
from thisismywish :
Hi, Jules! Thank you for being so faithful and reading my diary. I really appreciate it, and all your encouraging words:) Keep your chin up (lol- I said keep your ching up on accident- that's hilarious). God bless:) -Beth
from goddesskiki :
Aww, hon. I'm sorry that NMU's being a prick. Again. Just think--this is the last time that you'll have to deal with that. No more filling out Fafsa or stressing about tuition. It's a blissful thought. =) If there's anything I can do to help, let me know. Love ya!
from mellieemo :
Julieeeee, have fun at your makeover! I hope you have a really fun time and that it makes up for all this nonsense with the school and your check! Go all out with the makeover and post lost of pictures for us!
from krugerpak007 :
Ughh Jules, I am sorry. Bureaucracy sucks...I hope this gets sorted out and fast! Hugs to you. xoxox Kathy
from webmiztris :
oooh! I love the pictures too! And I understand the whole not wanting people to sleep on your bed thing. I don't want people's face grease on my pillow. ;-) I'm so OCD.
from ydwtk :
we had chatted on one of those instant messenger things -- I forget which one. It's great to see your health improving all the time. best of luck! :) and show us all the "after" of the makeover too.
from krugerpak007 :
Uggh. I also wouldnt like strangers sleeping in my bed. Unless it was tom Cruise or someone in that league...I loved the pictures! More pictures, more pictures! Wow you really look great and all that weight loss! The last few kilos are always hardest but I am sure you will do fine. You are doing so well at the gym etc. Anyway enjoy the makeover! Take care! xoxox Kathy
from indigo-love :
omg, tell me about it (having someone sleep in your bed). my neighbors are complete trash. i'm not sure if you've read any of my entries about them... anyway, once, when i was out of town, my friend (who was coming in and taking care of my cats) noticed that my bed did not look the same as when i left. she was convinced that someone was sleeping in it. when i got home, my neighbor came over (man! and she can talk and talk... and i try to send signals to make her leave, but NOTHING works... anyway) and mentioned (as if it was no big deal) that she TOOK A NAP IN MY BED. ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. ok, i felt SO violated. so yeah, i know what you mean. :)
from krugerpak007 :
Thanks for sharing your pictures! Your tummy does look painful, I am sorry you had to go through all of that. But you look gorgous, I love the shirt. Thanks for your comments, they mean a lot, as always. Take care and be in touch. Love Kathy
from tfrunner262 :
I just have to say that I LOVE your bedspread! It is soo cute :) As is Frisky -- as always. I hope that everything is well. Take care, much luvs, ~Kris~
from mellieemo :
I downloaded Mozilla (Firefox)! It only took a half an hour...not so bad. I like it a lot because it loads pictures last. That makes it seem a lot faster!
from xx-angel-xx :
I want to thank you for the note you left me, i appreciate it. I enjoyed your random pictures and I also Like your Shirt!
from mellieemo :
"A mosaic of me" -- what a creative title, Julie! I really liked your pictures. Your tummy looks painful tho...I can't even imagine! oOoowww!!
from krugerpak007 :
Wow, you sounded great after that workout! You go girl. My MP3 player is my best friend so go for it and enjoy! xoxox Kathy
from dulligirl :
That workout does sound like a challenge. But when I've been a member of the gym, I always remember having that rush of endorphines that felt wonderful. Good luck on the black bikini!! Woohoo!
from anita-girl :
Hey! That is such a great idea to seek a natural way! I suggest going to see a Homeopathic Doctor, they will best tell you what kinds of vitamins and herbs to take, which will react bacdly wiht your meds and such. They may also be able to suggest a diet for you to help with your sickness. One of my close friends did a certain diet and it cured her of her stomach problems. Another person I know has breast cancer and threw a special diet (and no chemothearpy) she is getting better, and has lived already a month and a half longer than what the doctors have predicted. It's always worth looking into.
from chikyblonde :
hey there! check and see if they offer any kind of aerobics classes. the classes I go to at night are the only reason why I go to the gym regularly. Keep up the good work!!! I'm so happy to hear you've found something to help with the stress you've been under!
from mellieemo :
Hey Julie. The herbs help to balance hormones. That's basically what they want to do for me medically with drugs, but I can't afford it. So I thought maybe taking these herbs would be second best. They've been around a lot longer than medications and are a lot cheaper.
from krugerpak007 :
Gosh! I have to do this quiz. I am so bad at quizzes...but tomorrow I will give it a go! Hope you are feeling ok! xoxox Kathy
from diablogem :
>>I love me some man butt...LMAO!!! I giggled to myself at that one!! :DDD gem xx
from diablogem :
>>I love me some man butt...LMAO!!! I giggled to myself at that one!! :DDD gem xx
from webmiztris :
I've always thought it would be really fun to get a makeover! Be sure to take pictures!
from mellieemo :
We really liked Napoleon Dynamite! His dancing was grEAT! The tator tots in the pants pocket was almost too much to handle!!
from krugerpak007 :
Thanks for your wonderful advice as usual. You pick me up. thank you. I am going to work on myself. have you thought about going on some kind of antidepressant for a while, to get you out of the slump. I dont think its a sign of weakness. My psychologist explained it all to me tonight. maybe try it? I really hope you cheer up. That day of pampering sounds wonderful. You deserve to be spoilt! And as for Dusty, just appreciate him and love him, and remeber that you are a wonderful person, who deserves the best. dusty sees that and he sounds just wonderful. So stop quesyioning it and just love each other and enjoy each other, and be happy. Ok, sweety? You are loved. especially by me. Because you are sweet and a good friend and a special person. So stop been hard on yourself. Cheer up. And write to me if you need anything. Ok? xoxoxox Kathy
from mellieemo :
ps: it is WAY funny to see Pudge's name in my diary notes! Hehehehee!!!
from xx-angel-xx :
I think you are way too hard on yourself.
from tfrunner262 :
I'm so sorry to hear you feeling like that Julie! I can understand what it feels like to know that being sick is hurting others. But please don't ever blame yourself -- none of this has ever been your fault and I feel so sorry that you have to go through it. I keep hoping that everything in your life will turn for the better because you definitely deserve it. Please stay strong and take care, luv, ~Kris~
from mellieemo :
Thanks for you note to clarify! I should have known, but I just wanted to be sure! I'm sorry about all of the thoughts you've been having lately...it must be so tough! Just remember to always talk about your troubles and clue people in on how you're feeling. Not only will you feel better, but they might not even know you're thinking the way you are (Dusty, for example). That might help to give you some peace of mind. I hope you have a safe trip back home!
from mellieemo :
"I had friends in high school who made fun of everything that I did and made sarcastic comments about me." I'm confused!
from ginger31277 :
I heart you one million swedish fish. Drop me a message if you ever wanna talk. I am here for you to vent. Ta :)
from xx-angel-xx :
I want to thank you for your comment you left me and yes, I added new pictures, not many because I still have to get christmas pictures dev, i'm late on that one. Everyone "whines" and I don't call you letting your feelings out here really whinning anyways. You have the right to say whats on your mind and how you feel. everyone does it. Be happy :) ((hugs))
from dulligirl :
I think you're entitled to whine a bit,Jules. I hope you feel better soon about things. Have you ever heard of the book by Melody Beattie "Codependent No More"? You may want to pick it up to see if it can help you.
from ginger31277 :
Chin up doll. I left a note in the other diary. I thought I should leave you a quick one in here to let you know I am thinking about ya.
from xraygurl :
Dusty fell in love with YOU..don't forget that. People change...how you feel/act today will not be the same in 10 years. I think you make him very happy and will continue to do so. Haven't read any entries from you saying that he's running out the door. Depression is a real bitch and it makes you view everything differently (usually in a negative way..that's why it's called depression!). You're still that same chick you speak of...just with a few changes. Be angry. You have every right to be. Then get stronger. Because you have to be. But Dusty loves you and so do all your fans!!!!
from xx-angel-xx :
You aren't acting like a spoiled brat from what I hear you're taking this all very well.. so much better then what i myself think i would. I"m sure dusty doesn't feel that way, Maybe you should talk to him about it and tell him how you are feeling and how he's feeling about all this if you haven't? Well, I really wish things would luck for you. I hope you start feeling better about yourself also. XoXo.
from mellieemo :
Thanks for your note, Julie. I wish I was there with you. We could just stay in and play board games or talk or anything! It's so easy to feel alone in this world, especially when things go wrong. Just remember, there are so many people who care about you and are there for you.
from sanetwin :
Honey I don't think being strong has anything to do with this. this would knock the strongest person on their knees. You ARE strong to survive it!
from webmiztris :
sorry to hear about this new garbage being thrown your way.
from polly-esther :
I'm sorry...
from goddesskiki :
Juliaaaa! I love you!!! I'm so sorry about the news you received. If you need to talk, I'll be back in town on the 10th. Starbucks therapy perhaps? Or a girls-only night? You name it, you got it. Mwah!
from xx-angel-xx :
Maybe you should just stop worrying so much about all of your friends and take a few steps back and just focus on yourself for awhile. I'm sure no-one would mind that, we all know what a great person you are!
from xx-angel-xx :
Awe, I'm so very sorry to hear about your test results! You will always be a woman, always! Keep your head up high hun, I know that may be hard to do right now but you'll be in my prayers! I'm sorry that you can't just get a break from all of this crap thats happening to you. xoxo
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank You :)
from xraygurl :
I am so sorry about your results. You're still 100% woman...future hysterectomy or not! And a damn good woman,too! I'd share my ovaries with you if I could. You know..I have that twin producing ability! Hugs and hershey kisses..
from dulligirl :
I'm glad you were able to go skiing. That does sound like fun even though I've never done it. I was wondering, have you looked into a support group for people who have your disease? That might be of some help to talk to people who are in a similar situation, health-wise. Just a thought.
from diablogem :
Oh My God, Jules, sweetheart, when it rains it pours, doesn't it! I can't even begin to understand how you must be feeling, I just want to let you know that I'm here for you with all my support and all my love. I can't offer any answers as to why this has happened to you, but I believe with all my heart that you are strong enough to come out of this being more of a woman than most people could even dream of becoming. Always here, massive, massive ***hugs***, gem xx
from sanetwin :
((HUGS)) I'm sorry about the results. I have to perhaps get a hysterectomy as well because of my endimitriosis. It's a terrifying thought, at our age!
from mellieemo :
Hi Julie, I'm really sorry about the phone call you received. I don't know what else to say at this time, other than I'm so so sorry. I'm thinking about you more than you know.
from krugerpak007 :
Cheer up my dear sweet Jules! Wish I had some good advice for you...Just smile and think of me... xoxox Kathy
from diablogem :
Yeah, just online ones! Type "competitions" in google and you should come up with a bundle of pages! g xx
from goddesskiki :
Awww Jules! I'm sad that you're not feelin' so great. Keep your head up, dear. Maybe a trip home is just what you need--if anything you'll get away from the fucking (hehe--pun intended!) roommates. Thanks also for the note of encouragement about my latest entry--it means a lot. We DEFINITELY need more time together. I'll be back in Marquette on the 10th, clear the calendar! =)
from sanetwin :
Mabye be a trip home would making you feel better! ((HUGS)) it's the weather, getting everyone down!
from diablogem :
Euurrrggghhhh!! Shagging roomies?! Ick!! Luckily enough, we never heard our roommates at it! Maybe you should just drop a hint at them - something subtle, like, "Is that the third or fourth time you've shagged today? I've lost count!" or, "You know what <insert girlfriend's name here>, I ALWAYS make that noise when I'm faking too!" LOLOLOOLOLOLOLOLOL, that should sort 'em out!! :DDD gem xx
from tfrunner262 :
That's really ambitious to get to the gym so often and earily!!! I need to take a lesson from you on that, lol! Anywayz, thank-you for all of your kind notes! AND, I am soo annoyed by your roommate too!!! The place I lived in had paper-thin walls, so believe me -- I understand! It's not like people don't realize the walls are thin -- so come on! right?! Well, I hope your trip home goes well if you end up going. Take care, and I wish you much happiness! luvs, ~Kris~
from diablogem :
Sorry - I made your page wide :( gem xx
from dulligirl :
Good luck on the exercise regime.
from webmiztris :
that "cutting skin between thumb and forefinger down to the bone" phobia made me giggle!! Never thought of that one!! Hope you're having a great New Year!
from anita-girl :
That is so funny! Chad also tortered me today with sports, he watched football all day into the night, and hockey. The worst part is that he tapes the hockey so anything that he misses (we were out at both parents) he watches later when we get home! And dont' be silly you have to write about your experiences! A lot of people do, just write it under a new name, and don't be so negative! At least you will tell the truth, I want to write a funny novel based on my experineces as a newlywed, but i want to make the mother in law horrible, and my mother in law isn't!
from goddesskiki :
Jules, if you don't write a novel or book of essays or publish SOMETHING with your talent I swear I shall hunt you down and beat you with my cute shoes. You have a LOT of talent and there are so many different venues you could choose with writing. I'm a big fan of making things personal, but I understand your reservations. Just write, hon, and see what happens. I know you'll shine no matter what develops.
from xx-angel-xx :
awe, that entry makes me very envies of you but I'm Soo happy for you. I"m glad everything is going right for you ((Hugs))
from sanetwin :
I'm glad you had such a wonderful new years :)
from diablogem :
Oh Jules! I really enjoyed that entry - just goes to show that the most perfect things come out of the most imperfect happenings, I am so so so happy for you, and I really hope this year continues in the same way, **hugs** and love, gem xx
from goddesskiki :
that was one of the best written blogs I've read in a long time--and I'm not just saying that because you're my friend. You have a lot of talent, my dear. I'm glad that your night ended on a high note for you and I'm so happy that you and Dusty have each other--you're both fantastic and deserve nothing but the best. As for my night....um, I injured my ankle. Again. Whatever, it was in 2004, not the new year, so maybe it's symbolic. Anyways....love you hon! Happy new year!!!
from krugerpak007 :
I havent had time yet to catch up on christmas etc. Just wanted to say that Dusty sounds so romantic and great.I was quite jealous when I read about your wonderful New Years. Wishing you all the very best for 2005 lovely! xoxox Kathy
from tfrunner262 :
I'm glad to hear that you had a nice Christmas, and I hope that you will have a nice new year as well. I really hope that this year will bring all of the changes and happiness that you want it to bring. I hope that everything will work out with your doctor appointment and that you will be ok. Take care, luvs, ~Kris~
from mellieemo :
Hi Julie, I didn't know your mom painted - that painting is gorgeous! Your other pictures were so nice - it looks and sounds like you had a fantastic Christmas!! :)
from sanetwin :
I love the new layout!!
from diablogem :
Woooo! Love the new layout, very funkay! Glad to see that you're back, I love the photos! Shame about Christmas dinner with your grandmother, but I hope you had a wicked Christmas with Dusty and the rest of your family anyway, muchos ***hugs*** gem xx
from mellieemo :
Glad you're back! I liked your new years survey; I'm looking forward to seeing your new layout and your holiday pictures! :)
from krugerpak007 :
Merry Christmas. Wishing you lots of happiness and just health sweety. Enjoy all the time with your friends and family and enjoy. Lots of love and good wishes... xoxxo
from mellieemo :
Miss you, Jules! But I totally understand your theory about staying off of here for awhile. I, too, have found it difficult to write in my diary and would like to spend the time concentrating on the happy holi-ays (and SNOW!!!) Have a terrific Christmas!!! Church tonite...I wonder what hooligans i will see there from our stoopid high school class!
from sanetwin :
Merry Christmas!
from globe :
I've been doing a link check and I can't seem to find our link on your site. Please let me know within a week where it is located.
from diablogem :
Merry Christmas! I'm so glad you're in the festive spirit and feeling happy - enjoy your holiday, gem xx
from webmiztris :
Have a great holiday, Jules!!
from mellieemo :
Glad you made it home! Lucky! We aren't leaving until Thursday night. I hope we can all get together some time!
from thisismywish :
Was it YOU? Did you buy me a super gold membership?
from xx-angel-xx :
Awe, Thanx ((Hugs)) Well, ship them my way.. I may not be the greatest gift wrapper but i do sure have fun :-p
from ginger31277 :
Hahaha. Thanks. I hope you have a Happy Holiday as well. And best wishes in the New Year.
from dulligirl :
Do I like to work on the busiest shopping day of the year? Actually, I don't mind it too much. Mainly because all the managers are working and we are well staffed so therefore you don't feel overworked. This week leading up to Christmas is actually a fun and busy time save for a few grumpy customers.
from diablogem :
It IS truly wicked, isn't it! I know exactly how you feel - we finish uni in June, and all of my friends are like, "OMG! What are we going to do without uni?!" I think the friends you make here, are real friends for life!! Tone has already lined up our mate Steve as best man!! He hasn't even proposed to me yet, lol!! **hugs** gem xx
from diablogem :
LOL! Sorry, another Englishism - imagine someone fell out of the ugly tree, hitting each branch on the way down, then hit the floor using their face as a brake, then went off for a walk and they came across the ugly man who beat them with the ugly stick, and then that person decided to go ramraiding on a bike without a helmet straight into the ugly shop...THAT'S a minger, lol!!! I am feeling MUCH better now, I had a shower and watched Elf and listened to a few tuney tune tunes, it was just one of THOSE moods!! I really am HORRENDOUS like that!! Hope you're ok, **hugs** gem xx
from krugerpak007 :
I totally agree with Gem. She always knows exactly what to say. Sorry I have been such a crap diary friend. I promise to try and keep up more. And I hope you feel good. Smile for me, you are a beautiful, charming person and I am crazy about you. xoxox Kathy
from webmiztris :
I'm sorry, Jules, I hope you're feeling better...
from mellieemo :
Hi Julie, I'm sorry you had a tough day yesterday. I can't even imagine what you are going through and to see someone completely healthy doing everything in their power to jeapordize their healthiness must make you feel terrible. I just want to let you know how inspiring you are to me. I've known you since pre-K (and before that!) and to see my best friend go through this terrible thing, but yet to be so strong, to care so much about life, it is truly inspiring.
from diablogem :
Honey, in NO way are you too selfish - you are doing exactly what you should do to survive and that is go through the stages of confusion and anger and normality and back again - it's easy to say be positive, but how many people are going through this? You are a human, and you can't pretend to be something you're not - don't feel selfish, you are ALLOWED to feel like this sometimes, just don't let it eat you up. And you are strong, Dusty is right, this is a hugely life changing thing and although you can't feel it you are dealing with this. I feel so angry for you that this disease has to rule your life now, whenever I read you I feel a little more humble...You are a beautiful, amazing and strong person - those things don't go away overnight, massive ****hugs****, gem xx
from goddesskiki :
Darling, you have no idea how amazing you are. So many of my friends are shallow and/or self-absorbed, but you are brilliant and so much stronger than anyone I know (except maybe my mom--but that's another story for another day...). I wish I could understand how frustrated you are and how you're feeling. I love you hon. If you ever need to talk, you know I'm here for you--online, even since we're both going home for the holidays. We need to have another "date" when we get back in January--I adore Julie time. =)
from sanetwin :
Julies, sometimes people that want to commit suicide DON't have a real reason to want to. Their lives can seem perfect, but they are still not happy. Maybe your friend needs help. It's a scary thing to hear from someone. You HAVE gone through alot recently and you are being strong. Don't be down on yourself about it, Im' proud of you, Dusty is proud of you. You should be proud. You are still sweet and positive and you are such a good person despite your illness. Don't get down.
from xraygurl :
Hey! I just added you as one of my faves. Loved your pics and entries.
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you, Nice to be Back :)
from diablogem :
WOOOOOOOO!!! Hello, first person on my NEW AND FUNKY GUESTMAP!!! :DDD - thank you for the message, you too are the greatest! Wicked photos! gem xx
from thisismywish :
Band folks are so awesome. I'm telling you- I've never met one that I didn't like. I wish I could play an instrument...but I'm instrument challenged. What did you play? Or do you play, for that matter?:)
from diablogem :
Oh my god! Nirvana Unplugged - what an album, that takes me so far back - I must've been about 14 or 15 when I first heard that...Oh God that was about 8 years ago *sharp intake of breath*, you have excellent choice in music : ) gem xx
from hamiltonian :
ever read doctor zhivagho? or seen the film? thats my favorite love story, that and 'the human condition part 2'
from hamiltonian :
Loved the survey.. keep them coming!
from thisismywish :
Jules- once again- thank you for your sweetness...I love ya bunches:) And sorry your turkey was the nasty...that stinks...:)
from thisismywish :
Dum da dum! I did your survey, dearest:)
from diablogem :
Woo and yay for the utter goodness of fun surveys!! gem xx Hope you're ok, honey : )
from rocketcoyote :
uh, I had in my mind what I was going to write and it all slipped away into the part of my brain where nothing lasts longer then 10 seconds. *reads Jules journal again* OOO yay, im going to fill out that survey soon! Love ya jules
from mellieemo :
Your outfits always sound so cute!! :)
from diablogem :
Ooooooh! What a wicked idea! I'm pilfering it for my diary, hope you don't mind! And good call on the Metallica! gem xx
from krugerpak007 :
Just focus on you and your health right now. It doesn't matter what anyone things. You go out there and have fun. You don't need alcohol for fun. Just be yourself and go out and enjoy! Love Kathy
from rocketcoyote :
I promise you will be the first! I hope you dont miss me too much, lol ;)
from tfrunner262 :
That must be so hard to have to go to those parties and not be able to drink at all! I had to do that a couple of times last year when I was on medication -- and it was no ball. I'm so sorry to hear about all of the things that you have to go through because of your blood disorder (I'm sorry if I got that wrong!). I will keep you in my prayers -- and try to stay as optimistic as you can because you still have however many years in front of you and in that time who knows what scientists and doctors could come up with. I would absolutly LOVE to work researching that type of thing myself someday (unfortunately, the only thing they research here at Purdue seems to be corn and crops!). Please take care, and maybe the party can still be fun if there's dancing or something like that. Luvs, ~Kris~
from diablogem :
Keep strong, honey. I'm right behind you - prayers and positive thoughts, gem xx
from xx-angel-xx :
Well, I think its completely normal that you still have cravings and feelings towards all of that, of course you will. You aren't just going to forget about your lifestyle before all of this happened and think you can just go on without wanting it still. I'm sorry that you can't drink here and there, Im sorry that you have to look out for such things like that, its not fair.. Just keep your head up high. You're a wonderful person. *hugs*
from thisismywish :
Whoa- Boston sounds SO super fun. And by the way, I think it's completely awesome that you have so many aspirations! Honestly, I don't even want to go to college. I mean, I will, but I don't want to. Thanks for the opinion on my dream...maybe it really doesn't mean anything. Unless it's a subconcious warning about something...hmm...:) Just kidding. Anyway, I hope you have a SPLENDID evening!:) -Beth
from mellieemo :
avril lavigne! :)
from ginger31277 :
But do you think that they will ever ban it? No. There is no control over what is put on the web, which is stupid. But what can we do right. Just not click on things we don't know. I am better now though, :)
from krugerpak007 :
It is scary to grow up and make decisions, but it looks like you are well on your way, and that things are looking up! I wish you only the very very very best sweetie! xoxxoxoxx
from dulligirl :
Yay! Boston! One of my dream cities to move to! You do it,Jules! Chase your dreams. You'll never regret doing so.
from mellieemo :
that's SO exciting, Julie! You should definately go for it!
from mellieemo :
that's SO exciting, Julie! You should definately go for it!
from sanetwin :
DO IT!!! Go to Boston. My goodness, Jules, what an opportunity! I'm so proud of you! That's fantastic! I'm gushing!! lol
from thisismywish :
Hi there Jules! Man, sorry about your ex calling...that must seriously suck. Thank you for your comments on my purpose...I appreciate it. I haven't got my hair cut! Gosh, I want to, but I kind of want it long too. What should I do? I really need some advice. Nobody cares about my hair. This is a complicated issue, one which needs much contimplation and the like. Anyway, back to you...do you really think that your ex is doing that great? I mean, seriously. He's probably just being a flippin idiot. Honey, you just give him a piece of my mind when you talk to him next. Working out is so hard; it just takes you finding something you like to do. Running, swimming, lifting weights, pilates- whatever it takes. Anyway, I am so rambling tonight. This is going to be like- the longest note I've ever left you. Good luck with your weight loss! Don't give up! I wish I had your willpower!:)
from webmiztris :
Don't feel bad for not wanting to talk to your ex. I would hang up on mine if he called me.
from dulligirl :
Yes, my dream was superweird. Then I proceeded to have a another dream this morning that was much better. Greg Dulli, my diaryland namesake, was in a movie I was watching in my dream and that was cool. Oh, and my novel? I did not finish it for NaNoWriMo but I'll continue to work on it. Just haven't lately. Take care!
from dulligirl :
Yes, my dream was superweird. Then I proceeded to have a another dream this morning that was much better. Greg Dulli, my diaryland namesake, was in a movie I was watching in my dream and that was cool. Oh, and my novel? I did not finish it for NaNoWriMo but I'll continue to work on it. Just haven't lately. Take care!
from devian :
thank you so the kudos :) i'm glad u likey what i do.
from thisismywish :
By the stinking way, your hair cut is SO adorable. I love it. In fact, I might go cut my hair tonight. Yes, I shall. You have inspired me, Jules.
from diablogem :
I'm so happy that you're feeling better in general about things - there's nothing better than a really good weekend to clarify how you feel about anything : ) gem xx
from sanetwin :
I'm guilty of buying a few things for myself while XMAS shopping as well (blush) Glad you had a good visit!
from mellieemo :
Hi Julie! I'm glad you made it home safely! I had a great time visiting with you and Dusty! I'm glad you posted the pictures - your new camera takes really nice ones. Frisky *does* look rather evil in that picture! Take care, and talk to you soon!
from anita-girl :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! Happy 23! Wow! I wish you the most aweosme year! With great health! Good finances and really good friends! What a way to start it, it will be funny tommorow! Have a great time htis weekend!
from xx-angel-xx :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! hope your day got better from when you woke up... btw, Your hair looks really cute :)
from thisismywish :
Happy birthday Jules!!!:)
from goddesskiki :
Happy birrrrrthdaaaay to youuuu!! I hope you have an enjoyable and enchanting weekend, sweetie! You deserve it. I cannot wait for our date next week--it'll be so fun! (And I'ma gonna have a little surprise for you! Hee! :D) Love ya! PS: great pix, you hottie you!!!
from diablogem :
HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY!! And how great does you hair look! I'll tell you how good, it looks AY-Mayzing, you are stunning sweetie!! And pissed boys really are a nightmare, my ex got really drunk one night and I woke up to see him standing in front of the window with the curtains closed, hands on hips like he was "surveying his land" lol. Anyway, he pulled back one side of the curtain, then stood there again for a few seconds before pulling open the other side. Then he scrabbled around for the lamp switch which was down behind the bed with not much success. I was suitably awake and pissed off at this time, so I switched the light on, and said, "What the fuck are you doing?!". He looked at me, then gestured with little flicky "scoot away" hands and said, "Piss off, I'm having a pis-shit". (what the FUCK is a pis-shit?!) I just said, "Well go to the toilet then!" and he just flounced off, I think he actually used the word "harrumph" in his pissed, sleepwalk state - I have never laughed so much in my life!! Anyway, hope you are having a great day, love gem xx
from webmiztris :
Happy Birthday, Jules!! I love the hair! My husband sleepwalks when he goes to bed REALLY drunk. I busted him trying to piss on a chair, in the corner and many other things. Good thing I have sensitive ears.
from sanetwin :
Happy Birthday! I love yourhair. I hope the rest of the day is better than how it started.
from dulligirl :
Happy Birthday,Jules! Hope you have fun on your trip!
from xx-angel-xx :
Awe, I hope things start looking up for you.. But, you seem very excited to see your friends back at home, So I'm glad you have friends there that you love and want to spend time with. Hope you have Lots of Fun this Weekend, Even if its not for that long of a time. *Hugs*
from diablogem :
Massive, massive ****hugs****, I can only imagine what this must be like for you. Please keep strong, sweetheart, I'm sending loads of love and positive thoughts your way, gem xx
from dulligirl :
Hi,Jules!
from tfrunner262 :
I usually feel the exact same way whenever I come back to Purdue. Where exactly is Marquette though?? The reason I ask is because I know there is a Marquette College/University in Milwaukee Wisconsin and some of my friends went there... is it the same place, or is there a town called Marquette in Michigan? I'm sure you're wondering why I just asked you a totally stupid question like that -- but to be honest I have no answer, so I'll stop :) I hope that once you've been back a few days and get in the swing of things again and see friends you'll feel better. I always try to surround myself with people instantly when I get back because I go nuts otherwise! Take care... and I'm glad to hear that Dusty will be going on this diet with you because it will be a lot easier that way since he'll have to cut out the same food(s). Luvs, ~Kris~
from xx-angel-xx :
I hope everything's alright, you haven't updated in a few days.
from krugerpak007 :
Glad to hear the news sweetie. Praying for your brother! Take care hon. We love you! xoxox
from mellieemo :
Jules, I hope you had a safe trip home! Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!!!
from webmiztris :
It's great to hear you finally got some 'good' news!!
from devian :
thanks for your notes &hearts! she is at least eating wet food, but she is definately not herself right now. i can't wait until she's better so she'll turn into the cute, crazy, zany scarlett i know and love...her new friend suzy is sad too that her playmate is not feelign well...that and the earmite drops.
from dulligirl :
Very happy that the surgeon gave you some good news. You deserve it! Have a Happy Thanksgiving, Jules!
from thisismywish :
Hey, it's giantkiller and I've moved:) Love, Me
from diablogem :
Oh Hon! I'm so glad that you got good news! What a relief for you! All I wish for you now is that your brother gets the all-clear. Big ***hugs*** honey, yay you!! : )
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you. That made me feel better about it.. I am going to go to that appointment. My mom told me not to worry too.. but we all know me, I'm a worrier, lol.. but, thank you and I wil make sure to give Logan a Hug for you :-D and Have a happy Thanksgiving to you too :)
from xx-angel-xx :
thank you :). I hope everything goes well for you. You're in my thoughts and prayers. Good Luck!
from krugerpak007 :
I am thinking of you sweetie and really, let me know if there is anything I can send you, just to make you smile and feel happy, even for a few minutes. Take care and keep us updated! xoxox
from krugerpak007 :
Gosh, I am so sorry to hear all of that sweetie. I don't even know what to say. You are in my thoughts. What can I send you to cheer you up-huh? Anything you can think of. Gosh, I wish I could do more. You are in my prayers. xoxoxo
from sanetwin :
EGADS 25 lbs!! I'm jealous, but not of how you lost it of course. I hope that you are feeling well lately.
from diablogem :
thank you!! I had a good night, good friends and good conversation - all in all a successful birthday! gem xx
from krugerpak007 :
I am glad Frisky is home. Fluffy does these dissapearing acts all the time, but thank goodness she is sitting here next to me watching the TV will I try and catch up on a few diaries. We have a huge TV and I think it is freaking her out. She is peering at it and keeps dodging when a person appears. What a honey. Secondly I take it you didn't hear the best news at the blood specialist. Jules, I am thinking of you, and when you feel comfortable enough I am sure you will tell us whats going on and what you are going through. I am not sure what to say. Just to live each day as it comes. Not to wrry, not to stress. To take each days as it comes. And to remember that there are people who care about you. Thinking of you. xoxox Kathy
from xx-angel-xx :
Ohh, Don't worry Girlie, you'll see more then 30 years of your life.. Stay Positive and Don't think of the bad! You'll be living until you're an old old woman :P.. Enjoy your Time with your family!!
from tfrunner262 :
Your entry reminded me of a quote someone told me once (bear with me if you aren't big on quotes because I rather enjoy them): "I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be." Personally, I like to think that will describe my life someday... and in some very small ways it may already. Anyway, I certainly hope you live to be 30+!!! I also hope you have a nice time at home... you can relax away from that bathroom -- you poor thing!!! Take care, ~Kris~
from tfrunner262 :
I'm soo happy you got Frisky back! He is such a cute cat... hopefully he'll stay inside until you can take him home with you :)
from sanetwin :
I'm so glad Frisky is home! Yay Dusty! What a hero :)
from webmiztris :
Thank god Frisky is back home!! I would totally freak if someone let one of my cats out. It's like they're actually my children! So glad he's back... ;-)
from chikyblonde :
Well PRAISE GOD!! Oh Im sooo happy Dusty found him!!! Give him lots of hugs and kisses for me ok!!! email me ok!
from diablogem :
Oh Thank God! There's nothing more distressing than losing a pet, even for a few hours, especially if some pissed twats have done it! I'd have ripped 'em arseholes the size of clowns pockets! Glad he's back with you **hugs** gem xx
from dulligirl :
Thanks for letting me know you got Frisky back! My first reaction was "Thank God!". So happy for you!
from xx-angel-xx :
YaY! I'm so happy for you :) Where did Dusty end up finding Frisky? Yay
from dulligirl :
Oh,no! Frisky looks so much like my own cat that your pics of him made me smile so much. I really really hope that you find him!!!
from chikyblonde :
I'm so sorry to hear about Frisky!!! I sure hope he comes home. Put flyers up, offer an award. I know money is tight for you but I'm dead serious, if anyone brings Frisky home, I'll gladly pay them $50 (through paypal of course) because I can only imagine how you're feeling right now and oh I hope he comes home!!! And hun, maybe it's time for you and dusty to strike out on ya'lls own. Because it really just sounds like no one there is going to be supportive of you with all that's going on with you. I want to see and hear you happy and healthy and you don't need to keep yourself around people who aren't making that happen. Jeez girl...move down here, there's a receptionist job open here at work. And I promise I'll NEVER let Frisky out of my sight. I am going to say a special prayer for you and Frisky right now.
from giantkiller :
Aww! Jules, you'll find Frisky. Meanwhile, I am going to march right on over there and give them a little piece of my minds. How stupid. How stinking stupid. Anyway, thank you so much for your everlasting niceness! Nobody is nicer to me than you. You have a great day okay...and if you have something on your mind, you just spit it out to whoever will listen! And love on your cat when you do find him. You never know how much you have till you lose it. Man, my dog was like my child. That sounds odd, but he was. I did everything for him. He followed me around the house. Anyway, please feel better...Love, Beth
from sanetwin :
I hope you find Frisky! Try putting up posters and calling the local vet office and humane shelter.
from tfrunner262 :
Wow!! I really hope you can find your cat -- he was soo cute too! Hopefully, he'll come back when he's hungry or otherwise someone will find him. I'd be really mad at my roommates too if I were you!
from diablogem :
Oh my God! What total bastards!! I really hope Frisky is OK - How on earth did they manage to be so fucking stupid?? I really empathise with you, sweetheart, and I hope he comes back safe and sound. Man, I feel angry for you, **hugs** and *flicks the bird* to your flatmates, gem xx
from xx-angel-xx :
*Hugs* Awe, I'm soo Sorry To hear about your cat, but keep your head up, a lot of cats know their way back.. I hope you find frisky *hugs*
from krugerpak007 :
Wow, chikyblonde is amazing! Have fun with your new gold. I expect more pictures etc etc. Glad you seem a bit more positive. Have a great time with your folks! Love Kathy
from xx-angel-xx :
No Need to worry about me :) Thank you for the note though. I just have them moments.. Eventually it'll go away, I'll be fine.. always am :-D
from dulligirl :
Jules, I think when it comes to your health that even though you should definitely take care of yourself, you should take your life one day at a time. Don't think so much of what the future MIGHT bring you in regards to your health. Just do what you can now for yourself. Keep your head up. And I'm glad your meeting went pretty well.
from sanetwin :
I love your new template. Beautiful colors!
from sanetwin :
I love your new template. Beautiful colors!
from anita-girl :
DOnt' worry! You will not be denied tommorow! trust in God, and don't be nervous, be positive! I belive you will get it!
from tfrunner262 :
ooh, please don't mind my bad typing -- it's late and I have insomnia!
from tfrunner262 :
Just stopped by to say "hi" I am the person from no-longer-existant Autumn-revs who reviewed you a while back. I am happy to hear that you seem to be feeling better that before. The pictures are cute as well, and I absolutely ADORE your kitty!!! Anyway, take care, and hope you don't mind if I stop by more often :) ~Kris~
from xx-angel-xx :
Well, Lots of luck with your interview, I hope everything goes well with that! I also hope your brother's bumps aren't anything serious either. You all don't need to go through anything else especailly so soon. ((Hugs)) Btw. Cute Layout :)
from diablogem :
Wicked template, honey! Nice and festive - it's feeling all cold and crisp in London too, plus the sun has been out the last few days - I just LOVE days like that! Anyway, I wanted to wish you good luck in your interview tommorrow, and send some **hugs** your way, gem xxx
from goddesskiki :
I LOVE YOU!!! Call me or message me if you want to talk/hang out. And think of llamas--they are silly. Hehe!
from diablogem :
***hugs*** - I hope that everything gets back to normal for you soon, you've had enough bad stuff happen to you recently. Always here :), gem xx
from dulligirl :
This is why I hate going to the doctor. But I hope you have better news soon.
from xx-angel-xx :
Awe, I hope that everything turns out to be fine and you don't need anymore surgeries. You've been through enough. Just keep your head up high, you're already doing a great job at that though. I really do admire you and your strength of what you've been through. ((Hugs)) Also thank you for your note, I haven't looked into it, I'm sorta scared to. I'll make it through no matter what so. My son is number one always, so he'll always be taken care of :-D. ((Hugs))
from rocketcoyote :
Thank you for the note about my goat! She isnt new though;) She is just the youngest one I have. I dont have pictures right now of my newest goat. Thanks for always leaving me notes, its nice to know someone reads =P
from webmiztris :
Awesome! Good for you! I'm glad you're feeling perky... ;-)
from dulligirl :
Even your diary was extra cute today! Glad you had such a good day. :-)
from xx-angel-xx :
aww, I'm soo Happy for you :)
from sanetwin :
I'm glad you felt pretty today! You deserve to! You really are quite pretty :)
from goddesskiki :
Julia-Gulia you're not online and I have important info for you. If I had my cell phone with me I'd call you, but alas, I suck and don't. Anyways...more Cosby tix just got released. The seats aren't the best, but they're kind of close to the stage and you'll have a decent stage view. REALLY good tix will be released tomorrow. Message me later for details if you wanna know. =)
from dulligirl :
That's cool that you found a new hobby. Doing NaNoWriMo is a bit of a hobby to me as well and I'm so glad I'm doing it. But the fact that you're taking the time to write longhand (!) makes it so much more tangible.
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you For your Note... Your notes also make my day and I'm glad that I can help in any way even if its Just for a smile :) (*hugs*)
from devian :
hey you...thank you for your support lately--it makes a huge difference to me. i have never thought about writing for a newspaper--probably because i can't stand to read them (it's the paper itself--dries my skin). i would love to write for something online, though. i don't have enough ambition. i'm sorry for your friends--i had many of them myself in michigan and honey, i rode out of town on their self-loathing.
from anita-girl :
God did not choose your for this, he is a good God and he only wants the best for you. Often bad things happen to good people. And your right God has kept you from dieing becasue you have a purpose in your life. Sometimes I believe that tough things are thrown at you becasue your purpose is so great and that Satan is trying to stop you from achieving it. I am so sorry that all this has happened to you, it is hard to get used to, almost like a new life. God is there and he wants to help you, I am glad that you are choosing to go closer to him as he is the greatest helper.
from girle :
Hey there...hang in there. I would question things too. I don't think of it as God bringing these things down upon you, I think of it as evil trying to take away your faith. I don't believe that God puts people in bad situations. I think it's totally something negative and evil trying to bring you down and make you give up. It's God's grace that keeps you strong, keeps your mind thinking, and your faith up in these times. Look around you at all the wonderful people you've come across and heard from since you were sick. Look back at some of your old entries...you were questioning your life and what your future holds. An event has occurred that has changed all of your thinking. Perhaps your destiny is just to live. Perhaps you can help others with this condition - it seems rather rare. Perhaps you can help your friends find other things to do aside from drink and have fun in other ways. The world is still yours...now you've just got different things to think about than before. Look at Dusty who at one point you were questioning your relationship...now he is at your side in this rough time! Everything happens for a reason. :)
from xx-angel-xx :
Awww, hun. No, you're not being selfish in anyway. I can not even begin to imagine what its been like for you. You've been so strong throughout this whole thing too. Of course you're going to question why God is putting you and your family through all this, who wouldn't? Just keep your head up, You're doing great.. Probably a lot stronger then I would have been! ((Hugs))
from sanetwin :
Julie, I 'm so sorry you've been feeling this way lately. Really, don't give up. You have Dusty and your family and you've been working your ass off for a career! You have so much to look forward to in the future. Oh, and try Vitamin E pills. they promote hair growth and nail growth. Help your hair grow back in quicker. (hugs)
from giantkiller :
Some weirdly bad mojo happened with me and Lacee. I will e-mail you:) But on another note, thank you for always leaving me notes! It's so super nice. It always makes me want to smile and I do appreciate it. And seriously, putred is the bomb-diggidyiest word ever created. Seriously. -Beth
from dulligirl :
I just wanted to give you a hug,Jules. I think you need one. ((((Jules))))
from krugerpak007 :
Gosh honey. I don't know what to say. I complain about such superficial stupid, ridiculous things and there you are really suffering from an illness and pain.I only wish I knew how to help you feel better, how to make you feel happier, how to see the brighter things in life. I hope all the insurance sessions go ok, and everything works out, also with the tuition. The last bloody thing you need. What can I say? Life can just be bloody hard sometimes. But there are beautiful things. We just have to find them. Try and be positive sweety. I know its a bit rich coming from me, but you are a wonderful, sweet person, and I just want you to feel happy, and to be postive and to feel good. Is there anything at all I can do to make your day a little brighter? xoxoxox
from xx-angel-xx :
aww, I'm soo sorry.. I hope they get all that stuff straight already!! What Kind of people are running the show over there, seems like they have No clue what they're doing. Try not to work urself up about it though. I will be praying for you so that there is nothing serious done to ur pancreas.. god bless you. You honestly don't deserve all the crap that you're going through but, i'm sure God will repay you for still being such a great person throughout it all!! *Hugs*
from goddesskiki :
Juliaaa Guliaaa! Girl, I agree, we must get together soon. I'm free like all day Wednesday, if you want to get together and get Starbucks or dinner or anything. Or! If you wanna hang out with me and some of my crazy friends, we're going to see the Incredibles tomorrow night--it's Bring Your Bucket night so you can totally engorge on popcorn for cheap! Message me tonight--I'll be around scrapping or lounging all night. =)
from krugerpak007 :
Those pictures are beautiful! And who cares if you sappy. I say if you love someone show it and yell it out, its the best feeling in the world... I am very sorry to hear about your brother's lumps and all your family getting tested. My thoughts are with you and I hope that the results are only good. You should definitely appeal to that decision at the uni..Very weird if you ask me!! Anyway sweetie, sending good thoughts your way. Hope everything goes ok. xoxox Kathy
from xx-angel-xx :
oh yea and your cat is a cutie :)
from xx-angel-xx :
aww, thank you :-D
from diablogem :
Love the photos! And don't worry about the sappiness - love is good, honey! gem xx
from webmiztris :
Awww, he really does look like the Frisky cat! Cute.
from dulligirl :
Cats make everything better,don't you think?
from sanetwin :
P.S. He's lucky to have you as well ;)
from sanetwin :
I hope your brother is okay ((HUGS)). I think you and Dusty are just adorable! You are so lucky to have him!
from xx-angel-xx :
Aww, I'll be praying for your brother and for your family not to have anything wrong with them. Thank you and I also you have a good weekend and hope you enjoy your time at home.. Chicken soup.. Sounds good!! :)
from webmiztris :
How do I pass my time? You're looking at it. Bloggety, blog, blog, blog. Way too much probably. And I stay busy with work. And then Law and Order! And South Park! And Family Guy! And thank god for Family Video! $2 movies!! Note: These are all bad hobbies. The calorie-burning equivalent is 'zero' for all of them. Guess that's what I enjoy about 'em. lol
from xx-angel-xx :
hehe np :) and thank you for ur lovely note
from dulligirl :
Hobby? Does playing hours of Snood count?
from goddesskiki :
Fun hobbyage: yooper-watching (just kidding!...kind of), reading childrens books (pretty pictures! and you don't need a lot of concentration or focus!), watching entire seasons of tv shows on DVD (I enjoy Sex and the City and South Park) or scrapbooking. The last one? Yeah, that's my addiction. Seriously, it sucks you in once you start. And then you spend money on more stuff and then you start thinking in terms of layouts and then....yeah, it's bad, but it's so damn fun. It's a good friend bonding thang.
from xx-angel-xx :
Hey, i'm sorry things are so complicated for you right now and Paul is being a major ass about things... I think maybe you should talk to him about things... because hes prolly just gonna keep doing what he's doing acting like its okay. You shouldn't feel uncomfortable in your own home.. You aren't sad bcause you don't have a hobby or anything. I've been trying to find one myself too.. Hm When I see that i've gotten a note from you, I already have a smile on my face because it shows that someone might actually care and i know you'll have something very kind and often funny things to say ethat make me smile and i thank you for that. I just wish things were better for you.. *hugs*
from xx-angel-xx :
he apologized to me this morning but.. I just don't know anymore, ya know?
from anita-girl :
OH MY GOSH! That is a crazy bill! Thank God I live in Canada. That really sucks, but it is better to work hard and pay it off then not be here at all. Once your done school and get a good paying job it will all be good. That really sucks about your friends, it relaly hurts when people act like that. I think in the future you will start to make better friends, more who are like you, who will be willing to understnad the non drinking thing well. But don't worry I am your friend! ANd I lvoe you any way you are!
from xx-angel-xx :
i agree with SaneTwin... Everything will be fine in good time. Just you see :) I hear ya on not having anything good to write about.. I sorta have nothing to write about either :-p
from sanetwin :
Just think, when you finish your classes and start a career you will be able to pay off all these debts and it will all be worthwhile. Not much longer being poor. I'm sorry it's all seeming so overwhelming right now. Just hang in there sweetie. As to your friends, honestly it seems weird that it took them reading about you being upset in your diary for them to care enough to come over. If they cared they would have been there already. I'm sorry they weren't around more. But now they are making the effort and at least they are trying. That counts for something. ((HUGS)). CHin up, buttercup (hee hee, analise says that all the time) it will get easier and easier!
from webmiztris :
lol - I agree - between school and now this, paperwork must be your biggest enemy!!
from dulligirl :
You have the worst luck with red tape. Hope it all works out okay for you,Jules.
from diablogem :
LOLOLOLOL :DDD Love the costumes! What a fantastic idea!! Glad to hear your out and about having a good time! gem xx
from giantkiller :
That is the most wonderful white trash costume I've ever seen! Fantastic. Yeah, come to think of it- it is pretty funny. Gosh, if you think THATS FUNNY you should hear the OTHER conversations...
from xx-angel-xx :
Someone was messing around with me online and I think it might have been one of my ex's girlfriends or something and they were pretending to be "jesus's friend" and just being rude and yesterday was just sort of a bad day. so. ya know how bad days can be.. Thanx for asking :)
from webmiztris :
lol - love the costumes! Dusty looks like that 'git her done!' comedian - but with a mullet. Even cooler. But lingerie isn't a costume? Ooops! haha
from dulligirl :
I guessed right on what you were! Good costumes. What was really great is that in your picture someone was dressed as an old-fashion ghost. I love that! And I'm so glad you had such a good time!
from xx-angel-xx :
Awe, I'm glad you had a good time :) Nice Costumes By the way :p
from sanetwin :
Your costumes were great! How hilarious!
from xx-angel-xx :
Awe, thank you sooo much!! That made me feel so much better!! More then you can ever imagine You're the greatest!! :) *hugs*
from littlebub :
Thanks for adding me as a buddy! Like your diary-- that health scare is nuts! I'm glad you're doing better.
from rocketcoyote :
Thank you hehe. I tried everything on last night, and it looks so cool all put together. O and you should get a kitty, they are so cute!
from xx-angel-xx :
I want to thank you so much for everything, also for All of your comments. I really do appreciate it. *hugs*
from webmiztris :
Unfaithful is awesome - it really does make you think. It made me realize how I'd never do that to my husband. I don't believe, once a cheater, always a cheater either. I've cheated before, I felt awful about it, and I don't want to feel like that ever again.
from xx-angel-xx :
thank you. Eh, i'll be alright, i don't need to talk to someone. yeah, I'm going to find out how to see if he's registered or not. That saying isn't true "once a cheater always a cheater" I've never cheated before.. but, i do believe people can change and ppl do find that special person that they'll never cheat on them.
from dulligirl :
I love that movie "Unfaithful". I even own the dvd. It really does make you think about things. I think your circumstances for when you cheated were your own. Nobody elses. So don't listen to those "always a cheater" bullshit theorys.Oh and you should definitely switch docs. Stat.
from sanetwin :
I don't believe that adage once a cheater always. Like you I used to cheat on all of my boyfriends. But once I committed, when I was with Ryan I never ever once cheated on him. And I think when I find the right one again I won't. I'm glad you've found the right man in Dusty!
from krugerpak007 :
I am with diablogem on this. Thank god you are alive and well. Now go out there and live life to the fullest sweety! Feel good. xoxox
from anita-girl :
Ow that note that Dusty's sister sent to you was so amazing. And so true. You have been given a second chance. Make the most of it, it is hard to let go of the past, but is this a past that you want to keep living, was it so satisifying? It is understnadable to need to mourn it, change is so hard. God is there for you and he offers you so much more. I am so proud of you for how you are handling all this, it is hard and your really doing well.
from diablogem :
Hi Jules, I have to say that I do understand about believing. I've never really been religious, and although I don't go to church, I think that God really helps me. I don't pray every night, but I ask for strength and I ask for him to look after my family that have passed over. And I think you were given a chance at life - maybe there's something that you need to do to fully learn about yourself? I sound a little weird, but I hope that makes sense?? gem xx
from krugerpak007 :
I think maybe its time to find a new apartment. That would drive me insane!! I am glad you are feeling a bit better. Physically and emotionally. Just give yourself time. Thinking of you. xoxox Kathy
from girle :
Partying and using alcohol most certainly isn't a way of life. If it was your way of life, now's the time to do something more constructive with your time. That's a total opinion...I don't see much fun in it. I'd much rather watch a good movie or read a book. I do drink, not very often, and no more than 3 drinks at one time. Go back to school, get a better paying job, etc. This is your time to learn. If this situation happened to me, my husband would quit drinking too, just for me. I'd think that Dusty would care about you more than going to "party" and do who knows what else. I think this is a total door opening for you to change your lifestyle and enjoy it.
from diablogem :
Hi Jules - I am so glad that you're feeling so much better. Keep strong, honey, you have a lovely boyfriend and you have loads of loving, supportive people around you - I mean take a look down here...! Loads of love and hugs, gem xx
from xx-angel-xx :
scratch that out... he explained everything.. and well, it was a huge misunderstanding and well, it wasn't exactly what i wanted to hear, but far from what i thought. I still love him regardless. thank you *hugs*
from xx-angel-xx :
Hi, thank you. Well, yes.. its about Will I'm sure that's who you were thinking about. I'm okay, i think. I"m just very very hurt right now and I just don't know how to swallow it all, it'll hit me hard later, I'm sure. Well, He had a journal at LJ, that i dind't know about but, of course I found it and it was all about this girl sarabeth.. and how he loved her and they had sex.. All the entries were from this month. He lied to me.. the one guy i trusted the most, ya know? and he tries to say that its from awhile ago, he was updated his background or whatever.. But, the one it was the 7th of oct. and in the entry he said it was athursday... and what do yo know, this month the 7th was a thursday, and i highly, highly doubt that can be possible that it was another year ya know? b/c they hardly lay on the same day... unles I'm wrong. so, all this time i thought it was real, it was a joke *cries* thank you for being concerned about me *hugs*
from xx-angel-xx :
You're welcome :-) its always nice to have support :-D. Logan is doing good, thank you :) still a lil cold though but.. he's great :-)
from krugerpak007 :
The most important thing right now is your health. Those friends were obviously not true friends and you are better without them. Trust me. Just take everything one step at a time. get better, feel healthy and all will fall in to place. The important thing is that you feel healthy and look after yourself. We are all here for you! xoxox Kathy
from giantkiller :
Jules, dear- one day at a time. You cannot solve what has happened yesterday, and there might not even be a tomorrow. Maybe this is a big bonk on the head- everyone has to go through that. Make the changes you want to make now, get it all over with. It's so much better than drawing it out. Anyway, I luv ya! -Beth
from webmiztris :
That is rough - it's hard to be in a relationship where one person drinks and the other doesn't.
from dulligirl :
I'm adding a giant ditto to angel's note to you. There have been times in the past when I just knew I shouldn't drink too much so I've partied and it was amazing. Fun and no hangover. It was great. Hang in there,Jules. Talk to Dusty so he knows how you feel.
from xx-angel-xx :
Awe. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad! You will find a way to deal with it all, I'm sure of it but, I'm sure it'll take awhile. I don't think your relationship should be in jeopardy because you can't drink anymore. You two should find ways to be able to "party" with out you having to drink. I know that'll be hard but, try to look at it in a different perspective before saying you don't know if you and Dusty will make it past this. Everything will be fine, I'm sure but, it'll take time especially becuase it came at you so fast, you still need time to grasp what you've been through and how its effected your life. *Hugs* Good LUck. oh, and btw, no-one needs fake friends in their life.
from giantkiller :
Thanks for all the oober sweet notes! I am going to actually do one related to one of your entries here soon as I do something for my Dad. I am glad you predict sooner- I think he'll ask me out on some dates sooner but I think he'll ask me to go steady with him in December. Hmmm... lots of love, Beth
from xx-angel-xx :
awe thank you!.. Yeah, Time sure does seem to fly, he's already a month old :-)
from diablogem :
So glad you're getting and feeling better, sweetheart! Loads of love from rainy ol' London! gem xx
from dulligirl :
I'm glad you were able to move around today. Sounds like you are slowly but surely getting better. That nap sounds like a good idea.
from xx-angel-xx :
You're welcome, I'm glad you're getting better :) Do you have to stay home and such and get rest or can you go out Or aren't you physically able to do that yet? And thank you for your note, you're a such a beautiful person you deserve nothing but greatness in your life!!
from xx-angel-xx :
thank you, How are you feeling?
from softplaces :
I've been out of it for awhile, but I am so glad to hear that you came through surgery fine; your words have a buoyancy that they lacked, before, you seem more hopeful. It makes me so happy to read them... keep your chin up, Juli, you are such a wonderful woman.
from anita-girl :
Julie! I am so glad that you are back and safe and healthy! I am so sorry for your ordeal and I am so glad that you caught it in time! Your in my prayers! It does suck that you cna't drink anymore, but I don't drink at all and it's not bad at all. You will get used to it! Think of all the money you will save! Wishing you all the best! love anita
from dulligirl :
I sometimes wish it could be Autumn year round except for maybe two months of Spring. As for snow...I love it but living in the South we don't have enough plows and whatnot to handle a big snowfall. We had a huge one last year. Freaked us all out.
from krugerpak007 :
How are you feeling sweety? Are you still in much pain? I hope not! Thank you for your lovely words. They mean alot. I can't believe how much that comment upset me. I can't stop thinking about it. I hate been disliked. Even if it's a stranger you know? I mean I know my actions are wrong but still...yuck! Anyway I am very glad you are back.Please take it easy and take care! Love Kathy
from autumn-revs :
Your review is up.
from giantkiller :
Diary is locked. Username: bethbelieves PW: inchrist Jules! I am SO glad your back. I missed you like...anything...anyway! I am SO darn glad your back. Welcome. Get well soon. *hugs*
from xx-angel-xx :
No Problem :). My son and I are doing great, he's getting so big so fast.. lol, thank you for asking :-) Take care *-hugs-*
from dulligirl :
Holy cow, what an experience you went through. I'm so glad you're back and better now. Take care of yourself,Jules!
from sanetwin :
I'm glad you're home sweetie. Wishing for a fast recovery for you.
from xx-angel-xx :
I'm so happy to hear that you're not at home, i bet its much more comfortable for you. I'm sorry that you hadda go through all that pain. *hugs* Take care of yourself and eats lots :-)
from krugerpak007 :
Gosh, I had no idea it was that serious. I am very happy to hear that you are out of hospital and out of danger. Feel good honey, and welcome back. And take care! Kathy
from turtlemomma :
I know I'm not your mommy and maybe I shouldn't be saying this but one cause is abuse of alcohol. I'm sorry that you won't be able to drink again but I'm awful happy to hear you're going to be alright if you follow the diet. Btw, did you get the card in the mail I sent? ~K
from webmiztris :
WOW. I'm glad to hear you're back. That's really unbelievable that so much bad stuff could happen at once like that! You are due for some serious good luck - like winning the Powerball or something. Hope you are feeling better soon!
from dulligirl :
Just checking in. Its been a while since Dusty's post. How are you doing,Jules?
from krugerpak007 :
Hope you feel better soon. I just browsed past here to catch up and noticed Dusty's entry. You poor thing! Hope you feel better real soon! Thinking of you! xoxox
from turtlemomma :
Hey Julie, I'm thinking of you today and hope that you're feeling at least a little better (((bigsquishyhugs)))
from xx-angel-xx :
Aww, Hope you Feel Better Soon!!
from sanetwin :
I hope you have a fast recoery Jules!! All of my love and best wishes , Betty
from webmiztris :
Wow, Juli-anne, all this bad luck! With all you're going through I hope that someday you become a millionaire and your luck evens itself out!
from dulligirl :
Hey,Jules. Just checking in to see how you're doing. Take care of yourself,hon.
from krugerpak007 :
Wish I had something clever to say to you that would take all you worries and stress away. All I can do is send you hugs. And let you know I am thinking of you. Feel better. xoxox Kathy
from webmiztris :
Gosh, you have the worst luck, girl. Things are bound to get better!
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you. I know, i'm trying to think of something but... you shouldn't really take a newborn outside yet.. so, that's a problem.. but, logan will be going to the docs soon, so we'll see when he can go out exactly. Im sure things will turn out well.. we'll see, i suppose.
from xx-angel-xx :
Oooh, thanx.. I was wondering forever why my notes on the site wasn't working... lol, thank you :)
from anita-girl :
Congrats on the job offer! It sounds wonderful, even if you don't take it an offer like that is always nice! I am also happy that your money situation is finally getting into control, it is so annoying that you had to go through that! Things are lookin up! :>
from dulligirl :
Howdy! I don't know which is worse..spiders or roaches. I prefer neither. Of course jumping spiders..ugh..I used to have those in my apartment but haven't for a while. Just thought I'd leave you with that image.
from rocketcoyote :
It starts out at about 80 grand a year??? Holy chickens thats awsome =D =D if im getting that right lol. Im sorry iv not left you any notes =( shame on me, and im sorry your room-mate is such a pig.. }♥{ Lace
from turtlemomma :
It sounds grand!
from giantkiller :
Hey, I think that job oppurtunity sounds so awesome. What a bunch of cool-ness that is!:) Adios:)
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you :) I don't have any pictures because I don't have a scanner and I no longer have my webcam.. But Im thinkin about whenever I get my pictures developed i will get it transfered onto a CD so i can put them on the computer :-) He's a cutie though. hehe.
from xx-angel-xx :
I hope everything turns out alright! Take care of yourself! Hm, do they even know how to work their jobs? (Finacial Aid) Hmm.. I know i'd def. find someone asap to complain, you shouldn't have to be going through all of that especially right now! Just take it easy :-D
from diablogem :
I wanted to say right on with the complaining about your financial aid - similar thing is happening with me too. I hate these fuckers who somehow think that we manage to survive on air! I was supposed to get my student loan through on Monday, but the people at my uni registered me late (couldn't organise a blowjob in a brothel if you ask me), hence student loan company (who are on par organisational skills wise) are being total shitbags and haven't even sent me my fucking payment schedule, which means that I may not get my money for 3 SHITTING MONTHS!! Mr Bank Manager is in for a nasty shock! I have now taken to phoning student loan company daily (sometimes twice) asking them where my money is and refusing to get off the phone until I know and making myself really irritatingly well known ;D ;D!! Good luck with the theiving bastards, I'm off to scream in my pillow, gem xx
from dulligirl :
Take care of yourself,Jules. Oh and I just couldn't watch all of L&O. It was one of those "ripped from the headlines" stories about Iraq. I just couldn't deal.
from dulligirl :
Hey,Jules,you had a majorly crappy day. Those people at your college are idiots and deserving a good thrashing. Here's something funny though..in your entry where you said you wanted to break faces..I thought you were going to say throw feces. Eww..but yet a funny image.
from sanetwin :
Ahhh!! I'm so sorry. What an awful awful awful day. *HUGS*
from glass-veins :
thanks. i personally think it's a piece of shit, but thanks anyway, love. <3
from krugerpak007 :
Glad you made an appointment. You will see that you worried for nothing. I think you should change pills or try the new patch. I know a few people on it and they love it. It must be the pill. I was crappy on the pill. I hated it, had sore boobs, headcahes, you name it. So I rely on condoms now.... Irritating but I feel good and clean at least...(That was more than you wanted to know I guess- sorry). ANyway good luck with the appointment. Talk to them! tell them everything. And change to something that will make you feel better. You are lovely, stop putting yourself down! (I got the notebook at last) Will pop it off tomorrow! xoxox Kathy
from chikyblonde :
and the incident of you getting pregnant even being on the pill, even after switching (to something with more hormones it sounds like)is pretty slim to none so I don't think that's an issue.
from chikyblonde :
I'd bet it's your pill that's causing all the problems. You may want to look into Ortho-Tricyclene because the dose of estrogen and progesterine is much lower. When I was on OrthoCyclene I had major headaches & depression, weight gain, screwy cycles, etc...you just need a pill with a smaller dose of hormones. There's another pill that I can't think of...It begins with an L and that was the BEST BCP I ever took. But since it's so expensive, I don't take them anymore. But then again, I don't think I can have children anyway...*sigh* and now my cycles are all screwed up because I'm off the pill.
from dulligirl :
Greetings from a fellow blob. I mean, I slept for 6 hours so I think I out-blob you. No,I haven't read "Cold Mountain" but I've heard that its very good if a bit slow which is what I've heard about the movie as well.
from softplaces :
P.S. -- As for the Messy Kitty Syndrome, when I had a kitty that couldn't clean herself, I designated an old rag as Mommy's Tongue... it's kind of funny to wipe your cat's bottom, but that way there won't be streaky spots everywhere. And when he's not leaving streaky spots, his dragging-his-butt antics will be that much more amusing.
from softplaces :
*hugs tight* Your kitty sounds absolutely wonderful. Reminds me of a "perpetual kitten" of my own. Girl, you're not sure what's going on yet, so don't start freaking out -- if you have an ob/gyn, give him/her a call and explain the situation. They'll be able to give you the sort of advice that you're looking for. And, if you're getting the OHMYGODI'MFREAKINGOUT feeling... then go to a drugstore, buy an over-the-counter, and take the test. You'll probably feel a little silly about it later, but it'll help ease your mind. You definitely won't be the first woman that's had the pregnancy freak out -- in fact, I've rushed to several girlfriend's houses in the middle of the night with a test because of similar situations. Don't let your fear and anxiety rule you -- try to stay calm; most likely, it's just a false alarm. I hope everything gets better, much love...
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you, I really do appreciate your kind thoughts. You are really and trully an awesome person :)
from krugerpak007 :
Firstly I definitely don't think having sex makes you irresponsible at all, so you honestly do not have to feel guilty, you are doing nothing wrong. Personally, I think that it's because of the pills that you are bleeding, and not because you are pregnant. Just be exra careful for the next month because I know they say when you bleed, that you need extra contraception. I had those kinds of problems with the pill all the time. I really would try not to worry, although I know we get ourselves in to the biggest state and get so stressed out that that affects our monthly cycle too. Take a test, if only to put yourself at ease. But try not to worry. And phone your doctor for some advice. Or his nurse. xoxox Kathy
from giantkiller :
Jules- I'll pray for you. I know how scary that can be. God Bless, hon:)
from webmiztris :
Call your gyno, woman!! And I agree with the guy/girl down there - take kitty to the vet and make sure she doesn't have worms because it's true - they makes their buttholes itchy, and with the medicine it makes them go away quickly and easily. Ewwww.
from xx-angel-xx :
Don't be scared. It will mess up your cycle even more.. If i were you I'd take a test anyways, just to be safe that way you can go get checked out and everything. Having sex doesn't mean you're irresponsible or anything like that if you end up pregnant. Don't get yourself worked up about it. You may not be.. its that your body isn't used to the new medication you're taking.. So, it may be normal. Maybe you should look up information about it or give your doctor a call before you take a test, if you don't want to take a test yet... Your cat.. Eh, a lot of cats scratch their asses on the floor, Why? I don't know.. Mine has done that a few times before its weird.. but hey.. cats are... your cat is only 2 years old, he'll be around for a good while, I still have mine after 12 or so years.. So, No worries , they're here forever :)
from bingoguy :
I think you'd best check to see if your cat has worms.. They scoot their ass across the carpet cause their ass is itchy.
from sanetwin :
AWWW. Dusty sounds like he's been being absoultely adorable lately!!
from krugerpak007 :
Hold on to Dusty, he sounds like a winner!And best of luck for the job applying. I worked as a teller at a bank for a long time. I have some good memories from there too. Take care sweetie. xoxo Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
Just been catching up now. I am so glad that you seem to sound a bit better these days. Am I right? And did you decide to go for the ski instructor job? Sounds great to me. I have never been in to skiing although Trevor is trying to drag me to go on a skiing vacation sometimes. He says it is the most amazing thing. I digress. I hope Dusty is feeling better. He really does sound sweet. So all in all I hope everything is looking up for both of you. Have a good weekend! xoxox Kathy
from xx-angel-xx :
Yeah, I'd like to say give him another chance too. But, Frankly I gave him too many chances.. Too many to count actually. I told him he needs to prove to me that he's going to be.. Not there for me, b/c he has blown that chance but prove he'll be there for his son, our son. But we'll see what happens. I'm just not getting my hopes up for anything. Oh, did u decide if you're going to go for that ski-instructor job?
from giantkiller :
I thought'd I'd write a big long boring note about my survey and I thought in the meanwhile I'd wish you a great day:) Firstly, thanks for taking my survey. I will create more simply because I cannot help it- I love asking people questions so much that I PAID to do it. I don't in any way take offense to your bout about religion- I totally understand. I've been there before. I go to church because I know that's where I belong and it is what I personally believe- not because my parents make me (I don't want that to sound mean- I just don't want you to get the wrong impression of me! :):):) ). Secondly, panties is an annoying word. Thirdly, thank you for your comments on my diary! It's good to know at least ONE person respects me!:) Fourthly, I think your dream is weird but it made me laugh. Not because I am sinister, mind you, but because that is precisely the kind of dream I would have. Fourthly- wait- Fifthly- I don't think you'd scare me that much in real life. Like the church thing- I've been there and done all that- I just wanted a change. This is the brand new me. A quite reserved version, I might add. Anyway, that was all! I suppose my life is so pitiful that I must go around and leave long notes for people to read, but you don't seem to be the kind of person to mind:) Haha. God Bless, Jules, and have an awesome day!:)
from mellieemo :
hey julie - I only have 6 minutes left on the computer (i'm at the library). But I wanted to say "Howdy" and stuff. I'm sorry about all of the complications you've been having (money, Phil, Friends backstabbing you)...but it will all be o.k!! :) Take care, and you really should go for that ski-instructor job!!! I miss you, too! Take care...
from xx-angel-xx :
I uninstalled the Screen saver But it's still being like this, Unless its also somwhere else on my computer. I'll have my brother look through the computer, he knows a little more about computers then i do, thanx :)
from hothead :
of course you should visit us! we've got an airbed. you're welcome anytime! :)
from dulligirl :
Yes,I did like "The Butterfly Effect" even though it kinda depressed me. I'd like to buy the dvd. I'm feeling a bit better after the entry I wrote last night. Thanks for your comments,Jules.
from chikyblonde :
I just love what you did with that template. It's really really nice.
from dulligirl :
Yay for a good day. You deserved it! Hope they keep coming.
from xx-angel-xx :
Awe, I"m glad you're feeling Better :) I'm also happy for you that you have your boyfriend in your life :-D
from dulligirl :
I got my phone for $50 with a two year contract. Hey,go apply for that ski job,pronto!
from turtlemomma :
A sex diary????
from turtlemomma :
Don't waste time! Go apply! (((Hugs)))
from sanetwin :
I'm so sorry jules. :(. It sounds like you're just having such an awful day. I know how it seems like everything piles up. I hope things start to look up for Dusty. He sounds like such a great guy and he's letting himself get so down.
from xx-angel-xx :
I'm so glad to hear that I'm not the only one he confuses.. I don't know if he's trying to suck up to me or what.. I don't know.. Its just so.. odd.
from anita-girl :
I just got caught up with your diary. I am so sorry that everything has been bad lately, it seems that when things can't get worse they do. That relaly sucks about your friends, whyt are people so stupid? It's hard not to give up hope on things, and I really hop ethat you don't, your totally in my prayers, and I do think that things will get better.
from xx-angel-xx :
Awe, You are not shit, nothing about you is shit.. things are hard right now and i'm sorry for that, but I know you're stronge enough to not let it get in your way! People are always going to be backstabbers, even though people you wouldn't have thought or maybe in the back of your mind you figured. But hey, who needs them? You know who are truly there for you. Don't let rude and thoughtless people get you down!. Cheer Up :0)
from turtlemomma :
What dickheads! Are you going to confront them? Play the voicemail back to them?
from krugerpak007 :
Never ever ever apologise for being sad and for writing about it in your diary. After all. It is your diary. You are number one and it is for you. So don't apologise. I am so sorry you are feeling so down and out. Really. I wish I knew some way to make you feel happy and to solve your problems. I know money issues are the damn pits. Especially when your parents can not help you out. And you feel guilty that you can not help them out. I know you and your family are going through hard times now. I wish there was something I could do...But all I can say is that be happy that you are healthy and well. That you are studying. That one day you will find an awsome job with your degree, and hopefully start earning decent money and you will be able to sort yourself and Dusty out, and take care of your parents and you will make them proud. Hell, I am sure that just by you studying and getting through all of this they are proud. Or they should be anyway. Because its not easy, thats for sure. Anyway Jules, please hang in there. I know I still owe you that israeli notebook and don't worry I have not forgotten...Please take care and I am here if you need to scream/shout/vent/cry. Wish I could help more. xoxox Kathy
from dulligirl :
Jules,I can sympathize with the problems your family is having. I hope it gets better but until then..think those happy thoughts and know there is only so much you can do. Hugs to you.
from krugerpak007 :
Sorry you and your family are going through such a hard time now...My thoughts are with you. xoxo Kathy
from diablogem :
Really feel for you, hon - it's never easy having no money, and THEN hearing about your parents problems on top of that **hugs**, thinking about you, gem xx. PS Good for you on the weightloss programme! Keep it up!
from xx-angel-xx :
Awe I'm sorry, I wish I could help you out some how, Are you okay? *-Hugs-*
from sanetwin :
(((HUGS))) I'm sorry about your dad. But the weight loss is fantastic. Way to go willpower!
from turtlemomma :
Another great layout :o)
from xx-angel-xx :
Thanx :).. Well, a Great Read that I must say is Great is "The Lovely Bones" By Alice Sebold. One of my favorites :)
from sanetwin :
I used to think I wasn't a cat person, but now I know I am. Gawd, I hope I don't walk around smelling like cat piss either!
from dulligirl :
Those burgers sound quite tasty. As for books, I recommend "Good in Bed" by Jennifer Weiner, "Secret History" by Donna Tartt and "The Lake of Dead Languages" by Carol Goodman. Happy reading!
from krugerpak007 :
I like this one alot! Very cute! I hope you dear, are feeling better! xoxo Kathy
from diablogem :
Love the new template - very funky! The other one was really good too, but didn't sit well in my browser, this one is definitely the best!
from krugerpak007 :
I forgot to thank yo for your lovely comment. Thank you! xoxox Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
I am sorry to hear that. As they say I guess money does make the world go around. Well it may not solve all the problems but i guess it can help. I am sorry, I am sure things will work out though. They always find away to, just when you think you are down and out. Thinking of you! xoxo Kathy
from turtlemomma :
(((BigSquishyHugs))) You're in my thoughts and know I'm here if you ever need to vent. To answer your question, I don't know why we fight all the time. We've been married for 12 years, sometimes we go through these phases. They can last weeks or months, it all depends. It sucks :(
from xx-angel-xx :
I hope everything with you is okay :) ... You arn't nothing.. I was not offended by what you said so, don't worry about that. I have ill-feelings towards him too.. So, by you saying what you did made me realize I'm not thinking wrongly Or going about it all the wrong way, So, I want to thank you. :)
from krugerpak007 :
Oh no, what happened sweetie? And you are definitely not nothing. Not at all. I am not sure what else to say here to make you feel better, I hope though that you know that out here in the virtual world you do have people that care. As you can see by the notes. And that we are here to listen. And well, I just hope you feel good. Take care honey. xoxo Kathy
from webmiztris :
Cheer up, hon. Things are bound to get better.
from sanetwin :
I'm so sorry you're feeling low. What's wrong??
from turtlemomma :
What's wrong??? I hope you're ok.
from diablogem :
Hi there! Just thought you might want to have a look at www.sleepnet.com - they have a tick box test for checking symptoms of sleep disorder. gem xx
from krugerpak007 :
I hope you and Dusty have an awsome, romantic weekend together...I think you should go to the doctor and have a general check-up. Maybe you are just missing some vital vitamins or something? Take care and enjoy the weekend. xoxo Kathy
from xx-angel-xx :
Thanx, i will letcha know what he says in reply, if he does.. i'm just hoping its not sum rude, cruel thing like he likes to say to me lately.. Geez, I wish the weather here was cold, although 81 isnt bad.. but, i'd still like cold weather :-) good luck with the jobs.
from turtlemomma :
I will never, ever, ever, EVER work fast food. I don't care how desperate I am, I don't care if I'm so desperate for food that I have to dumpster dive. Is that snobbish?
from krugerpak007 :
So firstly, thanks to Krissi for introducing you to diaryland so we could meet you! I am also tired all the time. Everyone tells me to exercise and then I will be less tired but I don't see that happening, I am too lazy. So I am not ging to give you that advice (but if you can get in to it, then maybe it will help.) Maybe it is just the weather. nothing like curiling up while its raining and just ciddling in bed witha book and napping. Ok, now thats what I feel like doing...Anyway I hope you guys have a good weekend whatever you choose today! xoxox Kathy
from krugerpak007 :
Send me your address and I will be happy to send you a notebook...Sriously. Shit i am sorry about the finances. isn't it funny how money rules the damn world. Hang in there and I am sure it will all come together. And seriously, send me your address. I will post you an Israeli notebook....Take care and hang in there and cheer up! xoxo Kathy
from sanetwin :
I love your new hair!
from xx-angel-xx :
Thanx for adding me.. I'm going to Look Through Your diary Also. :)
from diablogem :
Really love your hair, it suits you so well!! I want to go and get MY hair done now, lol!! gem xx
from krugerpak007 :
Your hair looks great woman! Thanks for sharing the photos. Sounds like you had a good time! Great picture of you and your man. What ever is is you decided to do, I hope you had a blast! Looking forward to hearing allll about it. Good luck for the first day of school. I hope this is a brilliant year for you study-wise and friends-wise andeverything-wise! xoxox Kathy
from chikyblonde :
OOooo! I LIKE the new hair! I wouldn't look right getting my hair done like that.
from krugerpak007 :
Yes, we want to see the hair. On the way to getting a beer take a picture... :-) Whine all you want dear. It's your diary and thats what it is here for. I am glad to hear that you had a good time anyway. Have a good rest-of-weekend. xxooxox Kathy
from anita-girl :
Hey! Thanks for adding me! I totally just added you back! And I can't wait to read more from you!
from dulligirl :
There's nothing like a drunken conversation. I've had so many revelations when I've been drunk. I just wish I could remember them. (I want to see your hair!)
from krugerpak007 :
For a minute there I thought that was my diary. Gosh we are alike. I am exactly the same dear. I guess we are sensitive. Always have to be good, and nice, and make others feel good, and when it comes to ourselves we bottle it all in. Which is bad because one day, boom! It becomes too much and we can get sick. So my advice to you would be to try and be truthful and let them know how you feel. Right, thats my advice. I am not sure whether I would have the courage to do that, what with that been said. But I guess I would try. The apartment being in a mess, with only you cleaning. That is just not on. Try your best to let them know. In a nice way. (That only people like us know...)I am glad school is starting for you. Maybe you will feel happier getting out and studying and being interested in other things and being with other people. You can whine all you like, whenever you feel like it. It's your diary, and us, your readers will try and help you where we can. Hell, maybe we will even use all your notes space up. Oops, sorry. Anyway you are a lovely person, and very pretty. Appreciate yourself for the nice person you are. Ok? xoxox Kathy
from softplaces :
Oh yeah... when I was in Georgia, a shitload of my family members were all doing the Atkins thing, and pulling the same shit with me... so every time I was forced to go to a restaurant, I'd always glance briefly at the menu, give a loud sigh, and say "Well, I know I'LL be having that HUGE bowl of pasta." I'm such a bitch.
from softplaces :
Make people angry! People are too goddamn complacent and polite, anyways. The only way things change are when the smart ones go, "Waitasecond. You're being fucked up." I know how you feel, it sucks to be the one getting yelled at -- but just think of yourself as a catalyst. It's necessary for our evolution as a race! ...Man, I'm egotistical. Try it, it's fun. :D
from anita-girl :
I love your set up! I just recently (a week ago) discovered Family Guy, AND I LOVE IT! I have watched an episode or more every day!!! As for living with boys, I am a newlywed (two years) and my husband is horrible! He leaves his dirty socks by the couch, and he takes clothes off everwhere and leaves it!! As well as other things, MEN ARE HORRIBLE!
from diablogem :
Just read your post about boys as roomies - I had boys for roomies last year, and they seriously have no, but NO, respect for where they live! I was like their bloody mother! It doesn't help that I also have the nickname "Monica from Friends", so they just expected me to do the cleaning! Boys smell of poo and wee! Yay girls! gem xx
from krugerpak007 :
Thanks for your note honey. I hope you are having a good week. It's hard been back, I am sure! Gorgeous photos, now that I definitely know it's you. Take care. xoxox Kathy
from sanetwin :
Welcome back!
from krugerpak007 :
Welcome back! If that is you, you are lovely. And if its not then it is still a lovely couple... Ignore your flatmates, rrrrr. xoxox Kathy
from dulligirl :
Good to have you back! Have a pop on me!
from turtlemomma :
Isn't that annoying when everyone around you is on a diet and making you feel like a huge oinker just because you're not. I agree, it's totally rude. But I'm glad you're back, you've been missed! ~K
from hamiltonian :
sprinkle !
from hamiltonian :
Just dropping by to say hello...
from superluckie :
Thanks for adding me as a favourite diary.Indeed,don't ever let the candle in your heart die!Cheers! @--}---
from giantkiller :
Oh my word. I hope, that despite the sucky start to your day, you find a lot of ways to make it wonderful and exciting. Just keep plugging along.
from sanetwin :
I'm so sorry you had to go through that Jules (((HUGS)))
from dulligirl :
Hey,Jules,all of us give a fuck. You went through a lot. Don't trivialize your pain. I hope you feel better and let your friends support you for once.
from rocketcoyote :
im going to miss you =( But have fun hun!
from krugerpak007 :
Have a good time at your parents. Let them spoil you! And enjoy getting your tan. Don't stress about what they thing. Just get it and you will feel good. Take care! xoxox Kathy
from turtlemomma :
Have a wonderful weekend at home and drive safe getting there! ~K
from krugerpak007 :
Thanks for adding me. I can so relate with your entry. I am trying so hard to lose weight, and I just can't do it though. And since you mentioned those damn choc chip cookies I am craving them... Glad your financials are looking a bit better, have a good weekend. xoxo
from krugerpak007 :
Thanks for your note! I hope the insmnia is passing. God there is NOTHING worse than insomnia. I hate not been able to sleep. Take care! xoxo Kathy
from rocketcoyote :
Thank you Juiles for the sweet note! im hanging in there, this was nothing, so I think ill do fine ;) Im so sorry about you money troubles.. Ill pray everything goes well for you hun. OO and we are going to have to swap chocolate chip cookie recipes! ttyl!
from krugerpak007 :
I want some of those choc chip cookies...I tried to sign your map but its just North America! What about us in the Middle East? xoxox Kathy
from dulligirl :
$75 is nothing to sneeze at. Good Luck!
from dulligirl :
Hey, Jules, life can suck sometimes, I know. Glad your parents can help you out. Hugs to you.
from giantkiller :
Whoa, bad times! That sucks. Do you still have the e-mail? If you do then and they still make you pay I say, "SUE THEIR BUTTS". But that could be that I just enjoy suing. Hmmm...Anyway, I really will pray that God showers something good your way. You need it!
from turtlemomma :
Those buttmunches! That is so crappy. No chance you kept the email as proof? ~K
from mellieemo :
ps - i like your hot man list! i thought it was cool that you put DJ Qualls. i always thought he was super dorky cute in a very dorky way - especially in the new guy! he was pretty hot. lol :)
from mellieemo :
hey Jules! I guess Diaryland is the best! :) I locked Critterstars because I want mellieemo to be my only one (I won't write anymore in Critterstars, so you can take it off your links!). I might delete blogger, but we'll see! For now leave it up I suppose! I have to finish doing all my linking.
from sanetwin :
seriously the only guy from your list that i didnt' think was hot was vin diesaal
from chikyblonde :
ok, sounds weird but your friend from new mexico's name doesn't happen to be jennifer does it? That's my brother's girfriends name and they had a wedding to attend this friday in illinois?
from dulligirl :
Thanks for the commiserating! I'm better now. Reese's miniatures and a tv movie on Oxygen. Just what I needed. Hope you have a bright spot in your day.
from sanetwin :
What turtlemomma said *points down* You should put yourself first. You worry about others too much!
from turtlemomma :
YOU come first. What others think should be way at the bottom of the list. ~K
from chikyblonde :
Thanks for the encouragement. I'm really trying hard not to just tell bosslady, look...howz bout this friday being my last day...I just got yelled at for playing solitaire. She will find nothing positive to say to me while I remain here...Oh well.
from softplaces :
Oh! 'I Know This Much Is True' is the book about twins that sanetwin mentioned.
from softplaces :
'Lovely Bones' and 'She's Come Undone' ARE great books... you should read 'I Know This Much Is True' by Wally Lamb, it's quite a bit different from 'Undone' but it's a fucking fantastic novel.
from turtlemomma :
I've read both of those books. They're great, especially The Lovely Bones which I've read three times already. ~K
from rocketcoyote :
stupid DL, they never tell me when I have notes, and I have my note thing ON lol.. Yep more pictures coming!
from sanetwin :
I LOVE "She's come undone". That one of my favorite books. He (wally lamb) also wrote a book about twins. I can't remember the title, but it was excellent. You should check it out.
from softplaces :
"Run it? I already have it." *dies laughing* I think you need to go to IWorkWithFools.Com. They could use that story.
from dulligirl :
I would never work at a bank. Retail is bad enough. And thanks for the compliment about my cd mix!
from sanetwin :
Sarcasm is so much fun though! I thought you sounded hilarious today!
from turtlemomma :
Interesting yes, but not as cool as pajama day a couple of months back. I hope you're feeling better than you were yesterday. No more "special" stuff from far off lands! ~K
from turtlemomma :
Thanks for the note! That was incredibly sweet of you, or just nice if sweet sounds too barfy. I'm curious, I've seen your picture but now I wanna see a high school pic. What kind of changes did you go through? Happy Tuesday :o) ~K
from turtlemomma :
I was too chicken to go to my reunion :( ~K
from girle :
You know what though? Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. I think Dusty is being unfair. I would get a job at McDonalds before I let my partner struggle to hold us up. And there is nothing wrong with working at McDonalds. You have to hold your own in this world. He is not being fair...and you are too young to have that weight on you if you don't have to. That's what having a mate is about...sharing the load and helping each other. Just my own thoughts!
from turtlemomma :
Hi, I found you through chikyblonde. I absolutely love your layout! The Family Guy is a great show and Stewie is without a doubt my favorite character :o) Oh and also you shouldn't feel badly about food stamps or any other aide. That's what you pay taxes for, right? I've only done the WIC thing, which is like food stamps, way back when my daughter was first born but if I could take advantage of any of that stuff now I would. Why not? ~K
from dulligirl :
I understand the position you are in completely. Asking for financial help is hard but necessary. Hang in there, Jules.
from jilljohnston :
hey! thanks for putting me on your favs! i'll be checkin' up on your diary often! <3 jill
from sanetwin :
I'm glad that the talk went well and he was open and receptive to what you had to say. It sounds like he doesn't just recognize the problem, he wants to fix it as well. I hope what you did kicks him into gear!
from dulligirl :
Good luck on your talk with Dusty. I can't blame you for feeling like you do. Maybe a good swift kick is what he needs and he'll appreciate it..not at first but I'm sure when he thinks about it he'll know its best.
from chikyblonde :
I know exactly what you're going through. When the ex got out of jail, he thought he could go back to his old life of illegal activity and i did put up with it for awhile but then i just got to a point where it was like dude, you need to get a job. you're 25 years old, start beinga man and stop being a moocher off of me. Ya gotta keep pressing them. Maybe he just needs someone to help push him on. he might hate it at first but in the long run, he'll thank you for it. and for awhile there, i got soooo stressed out because I'd keep telling him get a job, get a job, GET A JOB! and he wouldn't and I would take all that as a sign that he doesn't love me, he's only using me (like the last bf did) and one day I realized you know what, my happiness, my attitude, etc is not dictated by whether he gets a job today or not. All I can do is be a positive influence, stop nagging him about it and hope for the best. as far as the illegal stuff, I basically told him if he doesn't stop doing it, I'm done with him. I want nothing to do with him as I will NOT allow myself to be acquainted with that lifestyle anymore. it took the bf about year to get off his lazy butt and get a job but it boiled down to either get a job and start doing something with yourself, or lose me.
from sanetwin :
Did you have fun at the hippie fest?
from sanetwin :
ewww I hope the party stayed under control last night!
from rocketcoyote :
Hey you I just wanted to let you know that I have had surgery, then a friend from wyoming up, and just super busy.. So thats why I havent added ya yet, or updated. I promise to be back soon though!
from dulligirl :
6 hours in a bookstore? If I didn't work in one...although at that used bkstore I was in, time kept passing and my groceries were thawing in my car. So part of me is going..c'mon! make a decision! and the other part is just..wait! I just want to look!
from dulligirl :
Aww. That story brought tears to my eyes. I think older people like that would never do computer or phone banking because it isn't what they grew up with or were young enough to feel comfortable learning. My parents don't do any electronic banking and they are in their 60's. They just got their first debit card though. Its quite exciting.
from giantkiller :
Hello, Jules! I thought I'd throw a little sunshine your way:) Hope you have a WONDERFUL evening! God bless!
from giantkiller :
Aw, I love your diary. You already ARE on my favorites:) Here is a little preppy heart for you: <3
from rocketcoyote :
You know what? I though I had you on my buddylist and I dont! I am so sorry!!! *smacks self* look at these- http://img65.photobucket.com/albums/v199/lacee/pets/ All Goats are mine except the brown ones, and all other pets are mine also =)
from sanetwin :
Sounds like you had fun this weekend :)
from dulligirl :
Thanks for the compliment! If you want to see anymore of my cd mix lists go to theartofthemix.com and look under my username there "judois". Nice pic of you! And you do look like Uma!
from sanetwin :
You are so cute! I don't know why you put yourself down so much. You are pretty :).
from sanetwin :
I love Law and Order. and if I didn't think 21 year olds boys had the mental age of a 15-year-old girl I'd be interested lol.
from rocketcoyote :
ya know I just now read your note about my snail layout lol. Thanks! =P #Lace
from sanetwin :
I don't think there is a woman out there who is proud of her body. Seriously. I'm short, petite, rounded and I HATE it. I wish I were tall and skinny.
from superhick :
Hey now, hey now ("... don't dream it's overrrr...." ... sorry). I locked it because weirdos from my past keep googling me and finding my diary. It's most likely temporary, and I hate having my shit locked. But the username and password is: "stalkers" and "suck." Because they do. I don't care who knows it-- I'd rather the diary remain public as it is. I just want to keep a certain IP address off my radar, is all. Thanks for the note, too! Night! :)
from sanetwin :
I LOVE strawberry shortcake!
from chikyblonde :
can you change the address for design in your code to chikyblonde instead of templatebycb. I'm not using that site anymore.
from chikyblonde :
Check with your county health department. Our's provides family planning clinics where you can get your annual exams, pills, and medicine's free!!!! And they don't make you feel stupid. I'm not fond of planned parenthood anyway and I went there once and it was VERY expensive even for being poor. Otherwise, rythmn method!
from sanetwin :
I've wondered where you've been. Abandoned us for a new diary? *pout*
from bingoguy :
I find notes, guestbook signings and comments seem to come in waves. I'll go through a huge wasteland of nobody commenting on anything and then they all come out of the wood work. I'm rather lucky too I've only had one batch of comments from asswipers the rest have been from so many nice people.
from giantkiller :
Oh I am a horrible reader. Your my favorite diary and I still don't leave you sweet notes. This is going to change! From now on I am going to be much more lovely and wonderful:) Jules! Your the absolute world's greatest!
from sanetwin :
So wait, Dusty is hanging out with a 13-year-old????
from goddesskiki :
Stupid guestbook isn't working. Aaarggh. <br> Anyways...what I was trying to say there was:<br> Soul-searching quests are the most exciting and scariest things in the world. Don't get frustrated if epiphanies are long in coming--you can't force these things. That's why they're so treasured when they do come. If you need to talk, just let me know. (Lord knows I've done enough soul-searching of my own. Gaah.) You're going out tonight? Ooh! Oooohhh! Where? I may get motivated to grab a few friends and meet you somewhere. Nights out are always fun. Plus I miss you! Message me if you'd like. Mwah!
from critterstars :
Hi Julie - I'm sorry you had a bummer weekend. I'm one of those who knows you in real life, and even though we don't see one another as often as we used to I know you are a wonderful person, a best friend! You are so much fun to be around. We have so many great memories, and I know there will be tons more in the future, too. In you quest of self-discovery, keep this in mind - try to forget about being the person you want other people to see you as. That's just one step closer to seeing/being YOU.
from giantkiller :
Yes! I have a new layout, and an UBER cute date. What could be better? Anyway, I read your entry. When I turned 15 my grandparents told me that it would be my year for the cheesy "self-discovery". I just shrugged it off and assumed I would have a movie or soap-opera moment in which I "discovered who I was." It didn't happen like that. What really got me to change for the better and decide who I was and what I stood for was my future. Just take a breather. You'll figure it all out. It's not as complicated as it seems. Where do you stand politically? Where do you stand religiously? When do you stand up and say what you think? If you have these things figured out, then maybe you know more than you know you know. Hahaha. That sounded funny. Anyway, I don't want to make myself sound conceited, so I am just going to leave you with this: Be patient, and in due time you'll have it all figured out. God bless.
from sanetwin :
Your brother's friend shouldn't have said those things about you. And your family should have told him not to. i'm sorry you had such a bad night.
from chikyblonde :
well, this one custom site I just did for srogers909 has one design for her main template and another design for her archives page so maybe if you want to do that you could. Yeah, I really want to change my template to one of the bunnies!
from sanetwin :
"You can do it!" I hope Dusty's appeals go through.
from lacblue :
Hi Jules, I just wanted to let you know I have moved my diary, my user name is "rocketcoyote" So you can catch me there now. Hope all is well, and ill keep you in my prayers
from sanetwin :
You're so lucky to have Dusty *sticks tonuge out*
from sanetwin :
My sister used to NEVER wear shoes. Her feet were like turtle shells. She could walk on broken glass wtihout it hurting. Random story, sorry lol.
from sanetwin :
I think every woman feels that way sometimes. I really don't know why any guy would ever be atracted to me. I've been told that a woman with confidance is so sexy. Show me a woman that REALLY believes she's pretty and I'll show you a liar lol.
from sanetwin :
Oh my friggin GOD I LOVE that layout!
from notyourbitch :
money just complicates everything, doesn't it?
from chikyblonde :
ok, I'm working on the menu system. The only real design change will be a yellow border around the entry instead of black but that can be changed back if ya like. I'll have something for you no later than Tuesday!
from sanetwin :
Yay for the job!
from notyourbitch :
awright. I'm happy to hear you found a job (with a 401-k and everything)! i hope it works out well, isn't mind-numbing, and the people are fun... I'm still looking.
from chikyblonde :
You know...I can create you a site if you'd like...I have nothing to do at my boring job...check out cyanideeyes.diaryland.com, I just did his and of course mine changes like the weather in missouri...every 15 minutes! and I got this really awesome script for a menu (it's on my site now)if you don't want it to appear cluttered. Not that your site is. I like the design of your site. Just a suggestion!
from notyourbitch :
good for you for quitting a job that you weren't happy with. it's a hard decision to make and i know most people don't understand. i share your philosophy, i cannot work in a place i am unhappy, it affects my whole life, thus the reason i am poor right now. everyone i know tells me to just get a crap job, to make some money until something better comes along, my friend's do it but i can't. where you work, what you do, says a lot about who you are and does shape yoru outlook on life. try to stay positive and i'm sure something good will come your way.
from chikyblonde :
what helped me to start getting in shape was paying for the gym. It does something mentally to me when I pay for the service because then I feel like I must use the money to the fullest extent and will go regularly. and about your clothes to the thrift shop don't worry, the workers will keep the best ones for themselves and overprice everything else! And I was really glad to hear you got a job...Phillipians 4:19 And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Jesus Christ.
from sanetwin :
Thank you for the supporting comments. I really appreciate it right now. Is it okay if I add you to faves?
from lacblue :
*gets all jealous* I was reading your entry on IE instead of msn explor today, and I noticed the neatest thing! Your little poem thing that shows up at the bottom of the browser window, I hadnt seen it before now. That so rocks=) Just had to tell you, and im going to make you give me the code wink wink lol. Ttyl hun!
from chikyblonde :
whenever I get that way my stepmom always asks me this one question: "When are you suppose to start your cycle?" For everything. Never mind the fact that I just may be having a bad day! So blame it on your cycle. Whether you're near or not! ha ha!
from lacblue :
Hiya Julie! Just wanted to say hi, and I am sowwy for your recent troubles. Hope all is well, and I have you in my prayers! STAY STRONG GIRL!
from chikyblonde :
thanks for the note! I REALLY like your site layout, that's what draws me in when I view other people's entries and I'm enjoying reading your entries. I'll have to put you as a fav.
from chikyblonde :
thanks for the note! I REALLY like your site layout, that's what draws me in when I view other people's entries and I'm enjoying reading your entries. I'll have to put you as a fav.
from lacblue :
mm, sounds good. only problem- all I have is mint chocolate chip. Id rather have chocolate, with chocolate syrup =P.. hehe Mine was about dealing with stupid websites, and people.. and my best friend got grounded (Bethy)
from lacblue :
=( im having a bad day also

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