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from readnglst999 :
Where is clarity25? Recent vacation blog - http://twoshotsoftequila.blogspot.com/ "Eric's" Photobucket account - http://s795.photobucket.com/home/sketchbookshark/index
from babycupcake :
not sure if u'll remember me at all but evidently we used to read each other and talk! i found a note from u on my page so thought i'd come by and refresh myself!! unfortunately couldn't because its all locked....well hope all is well with you and perhaps i will read something on ur blog to trigger my poor sleep deprived memory!!
from readyorknot :
haha, no you didn't forget the password, I changed it- Sorry! is there anywhere I can send it. I'd leave it in a note but I'm a little worried about someone who shouldn't see it, seeing it!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am glad that you have this place too and of course I still love to come here and read! I know you guys can do this and that it will all workout. This is a new year and a new start for you!
from lindzeeleigh :
Yay for secret and safe places. :)
from readyorknot :
Lerin, wanted to say thank you for your notes lately! I looked up information and even though he has a (third degree) murder conviction on his hands, I cannot use that against him in the state of PA to terminate his rights. I wrote an entry about it. It sickens me but, it looks like murderers can be fathers, too.
from lifeofliza :
Okay it's clearly been too long since I've visited DL. Yipes - I can't remember the PW to your blog. Can you email me at lizachristine @ yahoo?
from lindzeeleigh :
You are more than welcome. :) xo. Hope you are feeling okay this weekend. Thinking of you!
from ashnwesten :
I'm glad that you wrote back too. She shouldn't keep going on thinking that she's right. Maybe it made her think, even if a tad bit. And like I said before, it was definitely rude. You are sensitive and I'm sure it is bothering you more, but it is something that would probably bother ANYONE to some degree. She's attacking you when she doesn't even know you. Instead of telling you how you should be, she should be concentrating on how she should be. If she thinks photographers should be that way, SHE should be asking! And I'm sure it's not going to be hard to find someone to take the pics- She's just being overly angry. Don't stress yourself out, though.. With absolutely any profession, there's going to be people unhappy with you at some point. Just think about all the good you've done for others!
from readyorknot :
wow, the child is going to outgrow the outfits and miss his four month milestone? really.. u could easily reschedule in a week or two. Really. Im glad u said something bad. what u said wasn't bad as it probably should've been!! ((hugs)) i hope you start to feel better!!!
from lindzeeleigh :
Lerin, that lady is a total bitch! She was being very insensitive to you and not understanding at all. She can find herself another photographer, that is if her son doesn't outgrow all his clothes in one week and she won't be able to possibly find anymore because you know, they aren't ANY nice boy clothes. Give me a break!!!
from leebeenz :
I would have sent the same sort of email. I can't believe that the women was so nasty to you when it is obvious that you are really unwell. They will miss his four month milestone? Really? In one week he will grow out of his clothes? I'm sorry, but she was just bitchy. I really hope that you and your family feel better soon.
from readyorknot :
also, i'm so glad jordin is no longer part of your life or your daughter's. How blessed! i know the pain is still there though (hugs)
from readyorknot :
oh my. i'm almost at a loss for words on her behavior. I am glad you're going your seperate ways. you defintely have a million people that love you and are behind you 100%. I read your bulletin about the credit on your photos. I didn't see anything 'rude' about what you posted so, I don't know why she would've had a problem with it. I think its best to stay away from her. ((hugs))
from ashnwesten :
Oh my gosh, SO scary. Lerin, don't believe ANYTHING she says. It's not the truth and you KNOW IT. She has something wrong.. she is acting in a very abnormal way. I'm glad you're distancing yourself from her, and I'm glad you've thought about the safety of you and your family. That's all you can do right now, and you're doing all the right things. Oh, and J-- guh. I'm so glad too. You're so lucky.
from lindzeeleigh :
I have yet to be pregnant, but I can imagine it is not easy for everyone and you have had some difficult pregnancies. I think four is a nice round number and why not add two more by adoption in a couple years? You need to worry about yourself and taking care of your family the best that you are able to do. *hugs*
from readyorknot :
i can understand your parania over it all but, please don't worry yourself over it all! ((hugs))
from ashnwesten :
I don't think the sickness you've had before is all that normal though.. I think the more mild nausea is. And you ARE having it, even if it's not terrible. Mine was like you're describing, and the pregnancy went fine! I'm sure you're just extremely worried because you love this little life so much already.. All of that is normal too.. At least for worriers like us! :)
from nixtress :
Having lost two babies myself in the midst of also having 3 living sons, I understand your concerns and fears. It's a natural thing, especially in light of the scares you had with your little guy. Keep having faith. I think once you begin feeling some movement, you'll have a little more reassurance. Big hugs!!
from dreamofblue :
I'm writing again! Come check me out!
from starlight42 :
When I was preggo with DJ I took one of those early tests, and it did NOT work. It showed negative. I think it was maybe 5 or so days later when I took another one when I still didn't have my period. So, who knows!! Good luck. You are amazing to want another one, it seems you just had Ben! I am still debating here.... :)
from lindzeeleigh :
Any word?? :)
from readyorknot :
I think when you're expecting to be pregnant or feel you might be- you notice every little thing that may say you're pregnant. Like seeing a lot of pregnant people, eating a lot, going to the bathroom all the time, being so tired. I can't wait to find out whether you are or not. i know I'm excited so, can't imagine how you're feeling :)
from lindzeeleigh :
Anticipating right along with you!!
from emaciana :
it's hard to not think about it, but do try. as you said, you'll never know if you did lose a baby or not, so focus on the future as you seem to be doing. with the weight loss and pills, etc. love ya
from theflyingrat :
Oh, poor P!!! I cannot imagine that - I would NEVER leave my child with someone else if he/she was that sick. A fever of 104?! She should be home snuggled up with a parent, not at the babysitter's house. :( Also, if I HAD to leave my sick child (or even my not sick child) with someone else, I would make sure that I was ALWAYS available to be reached. Because you just never know. I hope everything went all right. I feel the exact same way about the whole situation as you do and if that makes me judgmental... well, then I am guilty!
from lindzeeleigh :
i hate to say this and know you don't necessarily want to take care of someone else's sick child, but maybe she is better being with you?
from theflyingrat :
Not sure what to say! I hope things get less stressful for you soon. I can certainly relate. Whenever things get like that around here, I am rather snappy for "no reason" and Kent has to evil eye me before I smarten up. I'm thinking of you and if you ever want to vent/talk then you know where to find me. xoxo
from lindzeeleigh :
Wow, lots going on for you!! Just wanted to let you know I read your entry and am thinking of you!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am thinking of you as you and Adam go through this rough spot. I know that you will make it work, as you always do. You will come out of this stronger in the end and it will all be worth it. Keep your chin up!
from theflyingrat :
So sorry! I wish that I could do something to help. I would be a bit bothered by the no-notice thing as well.
from readyorknot :
i know right now is tough. its hard hearing you go through this difficult time but, I know you and adam both will make it through it! ((hugs)) i'll be thinking of you!
from theflyingrat :
That is how Kent would react and my youngest is almost two! I am sure everything will work out but I think it is so wonderful that she has you to support her right now when she will need you. xoxo
from lindzeeleigh :
I will definitely say a prayer for your friend and her husband. :)
from readyorknot :
((hugs)) i'm so sorry lerin. i wish you weren't feeling so down. i hope you find a way to fight this depression ((hugs)) I'm thinking of you!!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am thinking about you and praying for you! I hope you will feel better soon and that things will start looking up. You are not alone! Hugs! xo
from lindzeeleigh :
That is definitely a scary situation! That is enough to set anyone off. That would make me feel really unsafe and scared, so yuo are not alone. Keep up with your routine as much as you can and get your sleep, it will all work out. You are allowed to have "off" days, we all do. Thinking of you~!! xo
from readyorknot :
wish I could give ya a nice friendly hug. I'm sorry you're going through this difficult time. I'm glad you guys weren't home and no-one was hurt. scary nonetheless!! ((hugs))
from emaciana :
i'm glad you are all okay, but that incident would have shaken me too. hugs for you and your family.
from ashnwesten :
Oh wow! That's so scary. I'm sure that's the primary reason.. not because of it specifically but because it brings up worries/fears/etc. I hope you feel better soon
from readyorknot :
when i looked at that photo of ben, i thought to myself 'wow, who is that?' then i thought 'no way, that cannot be ben!!!' hehe.. he's too cute and he's getting way too big!!
from emaciana :
wow, ben looks so much more grown up than zach. lol. i guess in my eyes he's still a little baby, but wow, we have toddlers! sorry i don't comment much, i'm still reading though.
from readyorknot :
Oh Lerin, I am so so sorry ((hugs)) I hope you are doing okay (((hugs)))!!!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am so sad for you..... :( But I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and I agree with what you said in your entry. You can really do this!!! Work hard and challenge yourself and you will meet it. :)
from ashnwesten :
YOU CAN DO IT!!!
from lindzeeleigh :
I'm still here reading, right along with you! Thanks for the updates and keep us posted. :)
from theflyingrat :
Exciting. Keep us posted! As for the stopping nursing, is it possible at all for Adam to be the one who comforts him in the night? It would be easier on everyone (except Adam, I'm sure!) I think. That is what I had to do with Boo. She would scream if I went in to her but if Kent went in, it only took a couple minutes because she expected less from him. Sorry about the pain, I've been there!!
from theflyingrat :
It's not unusual for ovulation to be delayed if you were under any kind of stress (even mild) around the time that you were "supposed" to ovulate. I'm thinking of you! ♥
from lindzeeleigh :
I can't wait to hear all about Vegas! I was wondering where you had been and forgot that you had said you were going there! And what is the word on the other piece of news? Dying to find out!
from readyorknot :
(hugs) i don't know why anyone would ask if uncertain bout whether or not someone was pregnant. how awful ((hugs)).
from ashnwesten :
Oh Lerin.. I so feel for you hon. I'll be thinking of you & sending good wishes your way.. You can do it, and I know it's hard. We all love you.. remember that! And put those thoughts of what those people rudely & accidentally said out of your mind. Think positively!
from h2odragon :
WW really works for my daughter. She says the weigh in holds her accountable. Working out definitely helps everyone but occasionally gain weight in the form of muscle in the beginning. Don't be discouraged if that happens. Focus on the fit of your clothes. I'm fighting this battle with you. I lost ten pounds and put it right back on during vacation. But at my age if someone asked me if I was expecting I'd probably feel complimented. LOL!
from h2odragon :
That is very disturbing. I still love my Ex too but not in the way that I would want him back. I love him as a human being that I don't want to see hurt. That is Ok. June is full of ghosts for me too. It's Ok to have complex emotions for people that we were close to and who eventually hurt us by hurting themselves.
from readyorknot :
(((hugs))) i'm so sorry you had to have a dream like that. it was hard for me to even read (hugs).
from theflyingrat :
That is awful, I'm so sorry about your dream. I never know what to do when I have nightmares so I'm not going to be much help with advice. The only redeeming quality of it (in my eyes) is that when you wake up, you know it's just a dream. Though I know from experience that isn't much comfort sometimes. I hope you know that I'm thinking of you and I'm here for you if you need me. *hugs* ♥
from momma-at-17 :
its onlyme inhere and i was wondering if i could get your user info again?
from readyorknot :
First off- First off Happy Anniversary!!!! I'm so glad to hear that Madeleine is so creative! That's a wonderful thing!! I can't believe how BIGGGGG she is. Seriously, I can't believe it and how pretty she is! She looks SO much Like you, Lerin! U have such wonderful children.
from nixtress :
Hope you guys have a great Memorial Day weekend!!
from theflyingrat :
You're doing GREAT with the weight loss, Lerin. I am super proud of you and you should be too. I think of you ALL the time, I wish I had more time to leave novel-like comments the way I used to!
from readyorknot :
i just want to thank you for the notes you've been leaving me at diaryland. I missed a few of your notes and when i went back to read my entries, i noticed you had a few there and I just want to let you know I appreciate it so much-more then i can everr express. Thank you for your support!! i heart you, lerin!
from readyorknot :
I hope you're able to get down to your goal weight soon. I hope the TMJ pain goes away.. I have that also so, I know how painful it can be.. try not to stress so much! (i know, easier said then done). you'll get baby number four when the time is right in your life! :)
from nixtress :
Hopefully, once things cool off, you can both clear up any confusion or hurt that was caused. Don't think it's permanantly broken because it may not be. Sometimes, the best friendships come from situations like this. Take it as an opportunity to get a different perspective on things. Big hugs, Lerin! :)
from ashnwesten :
I've been reading your blog occasionally, but I lost all my passwords & can't get in here.. could you send them again?
from lindzeeleigh :
I am sorry that you are having such a difficult time right now Lerin. I am sending you big hugs and am thinking of you. I wish I had some simple answers.
from princessreva :
I'm not going to even begin to pretend I understand any of your situation - but, something about your words remind me of myself. I am on medication for depression, and when I have my dark times, I sound very much like you. BUT the only thing that I cannot hear from my husband is that it is my depression, because I can't see it. And it really takes a toll on our marriage. That's from a completely uninformed view, but take it for what it's worth. *hugs*
from princessreva :
Okay, I know you aren't sharing the password with anyone new, but what about an old reader that got a new computer last year that deleted your password after moving back to the states and had an insane year and has been meaning on writing you every blasted day to get the password back but has been going NUTS nonstop for a whole year and didn't get around to it? It's totally fineif you don't want to, but this has been on my to-do list since last March, so I figured I should just go ahead and ask:) princessreva at the hottttmailthing if you feel so inclined - thanks!
from anita-girl :
Hey Lerin! Thank you so much for your sweet note. I actually wrote you a note on myspace a few weeks ago. I had just gotten your Christmas address request! Maybe you didn't get it? Thanks for the support on my MIL I havnet' discussed it with her yet. I am actually going to talk to my OBGYN so I have some stuff to say to her when I do. I've been reading you on your new diary! Are you happy there? I am just glad that you are around! :>
from nicolerenee :
Yep. I know how you feel. It isn't the same. Of course, I'm glad it's not like the 'Haters.diaryland' days. It is different. And sad. :( I used to update daily..and now, it's like only once a month. If that.
from lindzeeleigh :
I have missed you and wondered how you were doing. I am glad for the update and know what you mean and what everyone else means about things not being the same. I will definitely check you our at your new place and let me know if you end up somewhere else. *hugs* I hope you had a Merry Christmas and that 2008 is a great year for you.
from steponme008 :
We better keep in touch! You know I'll follow you anywhere you go! Love you! ~Stephanie
from nixtress :
Hi, Lerin. I just wanted to stop in and wish you a Merry Christmas. I hope things are going well with you and yours. Know that I think about you often and pray for good things for you. Happy Holidays!!
from theflyingrat :
I LOVE YOU!! You SHOULD love your body. You have birthed and nourished 3 beautiful kids with it and there is nothing more wonderful and amazing than that.
from starlight42 :
Was just stopping by to see what was going on with you, I don't get on here too much either. So sorry to hear about your hips, I hope that it is something that won't be long term for you. And so sorry about the job, I know how that goes. I hope you get something new and better soon!
from h2odragon :
Hi Hon, I hope your Christmas season is going better and I hope Adam has taken you out to lunch for once by now. I have bursitis in my shoulders and its very painful. I can't imagine what a hip would be like! Merry Christmas to your family.
from anita-girl :
Lerin! Great to read you! I know so many people here who opt to have midwives and deliver at home. Here we don't pay or need to have insurance to have babies. They do it for a more natural and beautful birth! I couldn't! Poor Sophie I hope she feels better soon! I can't beleive that you guys are considering having an other child already! You guys do love babies! :> I am all for the longer it takes to get the period the better!
from nicolerenee :
Yes, Kyra is becoming quite the beauty. I'm nervous about her looks though...those icky boys...you know how they are! lol
from alifewithin :
I'm working on it. It's been a LONG TIME since I've done that. Last night just hit really hard. Thanks for being there though. :)
from nicolerenee :
HELP ME. I'm trying to have my haloscan comments on the diary, and it's carrying over the comments from every entry. HELP girl.
from mamabean :
Help! I lost your password with my old laptop. [email protected]
from alifewithin :
Thank you so much Lerin. :D Yay for your awesome weight loss!
from jennifergwl :
First of all, congrats on the weight loss! Doesn't that feel so awesome? I really need to get my butt in gear! Also, we have a Kia Sedona. It's a 2005, though. Apparently the new ones are really great. It rides awesome, like a small car actually. It does take corners very wide, but all in all it's very nice :)
from maineland :
I'm here! really! madkatlouie (at) gmail (dot) com .... (it's more reliable than that dreaded hotmail account that I just can't leave because I've had it for *gasp* AT LEAST 11 years)
from alifewithin :
I'm so happy for you and your pants! When I get home, I need to work out like MAD because (un)like you, I no longer fit into the shorts that I could fit into a month ago and therefore brought with me on this trip. I'm still in Hong Kong, so sorry for the IP address.
from readyorknot :
awe, thank you! I appreciate it, made me smile! :) I will have to resend my password information because i think the password i sent you is the old one. I recently had to change it do to someone finding my password and coming in without approval. I hope all is well and I miss you!!
from emaciana :
thx for bringing up the notarizing and filing thing for the agreement. i have to look into that!
from jennifergwl :
Ok I am not stalking you or anything lol, but I realized I didn't put my e-mail address in the note I left asking for your user/pw. It is [email protected] if you would like to :)
from alifewithin :
hey it's Winnie. I don't know if you can get the comments yet, but I'm in Hong Kong and China right now, so hence the really strange IP address! Good to hear from you and good thoughts are being sent your way, dear!
from h2odragon :
Hi Lerin. I bought you 6 months of Super Gold at 1:43 may 30th. Your comments should be back soon or yell at [email protected]. I already sent an email and hopefully that will be all he needs. Consider it a belated baby gift.
from bubbles11090 :
Oh, I am so sorry. You have such a wonderful husband, and it sounds like he is such a wonderful support system. I too am doing WW, and I am trying my hardest. It is so hard though. I love to eat. I have noticed though lately when i get stressed...or Madilynn is crying and Riley is throwing a fit I want to EAT!! I don't know why, and I am trying to stop that. :) Well, good luck to you and hopefully we will both lose weight come Thursday when we step on the scales!
from theflyingrat :
I'm glad you've got a set plan. For me - a big part of doing anything is to sit down and figure out a way to get it done. I always feel better once I have a list or something. I have a hard time feeling like anything is being accomplished unless I have hard proof. Anyway, I'm sorry for what you're going through and I'm very glad that Adam is being so wonderfully supportive. He's a gem. YOU'RE a gem. I ♥ you.
from love-me-more :
i just wanted to let you know that i have been plauged by those words on your last post since i read them last night. i was stuck in a meeting this morning, and i doodled on my notepad... i scanned the image and posted it as my blog entry for the day. it's hosted at picasaweb. i just wanted you to know that you inspired me. :)
from emaciana :
i'm only 22 and i'm asleep by 10! LOL
from lowercaseg :
Thinking of you, Lerin! I am always so happy when you "check" in. :) Yay Sophie for graduating and turning five - so impressive on Bella's sentenses, and of course Ben sounds like a little cutie as always. Happy Anniversary, too! :)
from newlywedblis :
Oh Sweetie--I will pray for you right along with myself. :) I admire you so much... because you're such a good mom, and because you are so honest with the ups and downs. It's hard to have those tough days/weeks... but somehow it makes it easier for me to know that you're having those ups and downs too and I'm not all alone in my hormonal freak-outs. :) I feel such a connection to you, and with our little boys so close in age, it's fun to think that you're probably seeing many of the same things I'm seeing every day. I wish we lived nearby!
from readyorknot :
wow, your children are getting SO big, I cannot believe it!!! Its so nice to hear that you Love your life, even if its busy and a bit caotic sometimes.. I hope YOU start to feel better soon and are able to find a way to put a little bit of 'me' time in your days. I really don't know how you're rasing three children at once.. I'm amazed!
from newlywedblis :
Hey--I miss you!! So glad you updated. And don't worry about numbers. You're gorgeous! :) Losing weight is such a weird thing... I have a friend who *lives* army training, and he was gaining weight for about six months while on an incredibly hard training program. Turns out, it was just the wrong combination for his body, and once he switched, he started losing like crazy. Thanks for your notes, by the way. I don't often have time to return comments, but I do try to keep up with reading you when you have time to update. I don't think I'm leaving D-Land, at least not intentionally, but the feeling has definitely changed.... It's kind of sad. :( BUT--a few of us are still here, so hopefully we'll be able to find time here and there to keep it up.
from emaciana :
i agree about dland not being the same....
from nixtress :
I've lived my whole life putting my body in starvation mode and didn't know it. Being a busy mom and just trying to live life, I was down to one meal a day and couldn't understand how I was soooo heavy. It took going to a nutritionist for me to see what I was doing to my body. In January, I decided enough was enough and was floored---eating 1200 calories a day (which, when you are eating lowfat and lowcalorie, actually amounts up to a ton of food!!) I've lost 35 pounds since Jan. That also includes a lot of walking (my favorite form of exercise because I just drag the kids along!) You can do this. Think of your body like a computer. It has so many programs to run at one time that sometimes it takes a bit for it to get to the next one. You're one of the strongest, smartest, most determined women I know of. You'll accomplish this goal too! Don't get discouraged!!! ((hugs))
from bubbles11090 :
I too have just started WW. I am so sorry that you have been working so hard but gained weight. At least you have another game plan now. :) good luck and hoefully weboth will hit our goals. :)
from lindzeeleigh :
I ♥ you and you are beautiful inside and out. You will achieve the success you desire, I know it. :)
from theflyingrat :
It's okay - I know you can do it! I find that in the past whenever I hit a "plateau" I would have a major cheat day (or two!) and that did really help. I waste time doing stupid myspace surveys and while I answer each question I'm berating myself in my head for not getting something more important done. It's good to hear from you. I ♥ you and I just know that you'll be okay. At least you're MOTIVATED and going about it the right way which is more than half the battle, I think. ♥
from theflyingrat :
Thank you. Very much. ♥
from theflyingrat :
I tried to comment last night but diaryland kept calling me a spammer. Sigh. I agree with everyone else - you write beautifully and I'm just happy to see you writing. I was afraid you were really gone for good and you just have no idea how much I would miss you! I can't believe Ben is 2 months old already!! That's crazy! I can't even believe that my daughter is 6 months! They grow waaaaay too quickly, don't they? ♥
from jennifergwl :
Hi :) I was wondering if I could have your user/pw? :)
from anita-girl :
Hey thanks for the note! I remember when your SIL used the name Lilianna how upset you were and I think if you really wanted the name Lily you should use it, did your SIL know that this was a name that you guys wanted before she had her daughter? I wonder if she thought to herself that you have two girls already and you can't go claiming that name as what was the likelyhood of you having another girl, or even if you liked it so much you would have used it. It is just easier not to tell people your names! A lot of people like things better when they know someone else does too!
from nixtress :
Happy Easter!!!
from theflyingrat :
You know, I tried the un/pw for the wheeless one but it never occurred to me to try hertinyhands. I'm a genius, haha. Thank you!
from noaddedme :
I clicked on you from your note on Tianna's page and would really like to read! I'll understand if you don't feel safe giving out your pw and all! [email protected]
from marilynstar :
Hello my love. Can you shoot the PW for your chilllren's diary my way?
from emaciana :
hey lerin, could i have the pw for your wheeless dland? starrysugar @ hotmail.com
from lowercaseg :
Thanks for your sweet note and honesty! It's good to know I'm not alone in this situation! And that even though bad things might happen, it doesn't mean it's the end of all things wonderful. thanks!
from girlreview :
http://girlreview.diaryland.com/lerin.html Your review is up.
from mathero :
I miss you!!! I'm going to start writing again so I hope you'll check in on me. http://mhmlo.diaryland.com
from nicolerenee :
You know what is SO bizarre. Before I wrote my last entry this morning, as I was doing dishes, I was praying. Praying for whatever came to mind. And boom. There you were, Lerin, in my mind. I was led to pray for you. I was led to pray for peace for you. I don't know why, I just was. And of course I did it. And you came up like 3 times while I was praying. So, just know, at 11 am Eastern time I was praying for you my dear. ♥
from mamabean :
:) I just remembered your family photoblog and popped over to take a look. The boy is GORGEOUS and you and Adam and the whole gang just look beautiful and happy and in love. Congratulations again, Lerin. I bet you are feeling SO wonderful right now, and you deserve every bit of it. Hugs and kisses - M
from starlight42 :
Dang it, I lost my password!! My IE reset a bit ago and apparently the email that I saved from back in Aug with teh info, has changed. Send it my way when you get a chance. no rush, since you just had the baby and all! I can at least see his pics on MS.
from silverscorp :
Okay I just read your birthday is March 7th! So happy birthday!!!!!!!!
from bubbles11090 :
Hey! It's been a couple of days since you have updated...everything ok??
from ashnwesten :
That is so weird! I still wonder what it was too.. Westen came out perfectly healthy and NOT making that noise once he was out of the womb, so I have no idea! Everyone else was clueless too..
from i-never-said :
Hi, my name is Ali, and my diary is i-never-said...I wanted to read your diary because you are on Clarity's, Tianne's and Ahsley's buddylist...I am 34, married(though it's been rough), and the mother of a 2 1/2 year old son...I'd love the password to read your diary...If you like, you may ask me any questions you'd like-I'm an open book...Thanks...
from nicolerenee :
Thank you, by the way for the encouraging note. It made me feel a lot, a LOT better with what is going on. I will have to head to the library and check out those two books. I actually do have spare time...at night! lol Thanks again, and I'm glad you feel you can relate to me. It's nice to be able to be here for advice if you need it, anytime! :)
from alifewithin :
Oh honey! I wish I could go to your shower! I wish I were closer too! You're absolutely welcome for the card! :D I would LOVE to be there to say hi, but since I can't, I'll do what I can from afar. I hope you are feeling better (a tiny bit) and can't wait to hear the news!
from ashnwesten :
I can't wait to read the update after your appointment tomorrow! (I hope you have time to update us!) And no, NO ONE could figure out what that popping was. The best guess was that the baby had figured out a way to make noise and liked it. You'll definitely know if it's happening, because it will KEEP happening. It would always be when Westen kicked or moved or something too. We had a higher tech ultrasound and everything, and everything was completely perfect.. I looked it up on the net and read other stories too, with no one ever knowing for sure what it was!
from emaciana :
you only have 5 weeks left until you get to see beautiful ben's face! I hope you had a great valentine's day and hope everything's going well for you, no more bad dreams, etc. About breastfeeding, I really hope that I come to enjoy it as much as you did with Sophie. it does seem much easier than mixing formula in the middle of the night. i also worry about after breastfeeding that they will no longer be attractive to stew because their "purpose" has changed. but i guess that is what the body is made for. it's natural and i will give it my 100%. it's still nice to know that you once shared the same fears though. xoxo
from princesse69 :
Hi Lerin. I lost your diary password so could I have it again? My email address is [email protected]. Hope you and your family are all well. Have a good weekend! x
from xx-angel-xx :
Thank you for your note. I COMPLETELY agree, it was so WEIRD to see you say EXACTLY what i felt!! Its funny because ppl tell me all the time 'why do you want to work out, you aren't fat, you look soo good' if they ONLY seen my body w/out its clothes on, they'd know exactly why i dislike my body so much! Even though you and i don't like our bodies sometimes, your note made me smile becuase it made me feel like someone actually 'got' me so, thank you!!
from xx-angel-xx :
i just wanted to see if u were doin' alright. its been a few days since you've updated. How are you feeling?
from steponme008 :
It was neat for the first 20 minutes of being there, and then Michael and I were like, "Ok... an hour MAX. Time is ticking by soooo slowly!" Both kids had SO much fun though, even Johnny who will be turning 2 in april.
from luckygirll :
hey there! im glad your doing so well. i look forward to hearing more from you.
from eggsaucted :
Oh it gets weirder...I'll write about it tonight if I can keep my eyes open that long. Needless to say, I have gotten an update and I was also up more than half the night with him because he couldn't sleep. Nothing is resolved at all but we did at least say out loud that we don't hate each other even though we have been acting that way an awful lot.
from newlywedblis :
Hehe-- When I'm not irritated I giggle too. :) I'm not sure I can handle staying in the class for the duration, but we really want to get the "whole" hospital tour you get when you go with a group, so we're in it for at least that long. It has confirmed that Beloved and I were made for each other though, because as far as we can tell we are the only couple who thinks this is a bunch of hooo-ey. So we're all serious and interested when we're sitting there and then run out of the place to one of our favorite restaurants where we collapse into giggles and then irritated ranting and then back to giggles. Mostly because we just can't believe how weird people must think we are. Thankfully we have one couple (the ones who helped us move and are homeschooling their three boys and one girl--almost teenages!) who see things mostly the way we do, so we're not completely on our own out here....
from babymakes3 :
I meant to leave you a note back from the one you left on this diary too. :) No, I don't let Westen sleep with a bottle.. Or a bottle of milk, anyways. I thought I said that, but maybe I didn't.. Westen does have a bottle before bed but he never falls asleep with it-- only with a bottle of water sometimes, which is fine. My question was more in HOW to cut down.. on bottles and on naps. Although we're doing pretty well so far! I had just heard different things.. like watering down the bottles little by little and things like that. And Westen's never been laid down with bottles, as he has reflux issues and got ear infections from that as well. I do appreciate you advice and input, because I know you're educated in the area AND you definitely have experience. :) Anything you can help with-- send my way! Oh, and I just got the note about Westen looking like me.. Thanks :) I see myself too, but we hear so many different things!
from ashnwesten :
That's a good point that you left in my diary. I had never thought of it that way. Oh, and I also got your Christmas card.. the girls are absolutely beautiful! I can't wait to see what little Ben looks like! Thanks again! :) XO
from emaciana :
Wow, I suppose that is a Canadian thing... the paid maternity leave of 55% of your wages. I thought you guys in the states had more of it covered than we did, but I guess i shouldn't complain after all. As for the epidural thing, It's nice to hear that you support women who choose epidurals. so many people don't and i would feel so guilty getting one, so that's one issue i'm on the fence about but after reading your entry it made me feel much more at ease no matter which way i go - natural or non.
from eggsaucted :
You'd think but after all of these years, but he seems to have a very different picture of me than I could possibly imagine. Really and truly part of the issue is that he doesn't believe those things of me, but he wants me to be so angry and hurt that I tell him he can't have anything to do with his child. He truly believes her highness will be better off without him, but won't really walk away he has to believe I'm keeping him away and I won't do it. It's the reason why from time to time he tries to suggest that maybe she isn't even his kid. He can't just break up with me he has to make me hate him. It's really a very sad thing. He hates himself, he thinks he's ruined all of his childrens lives and in some cases he thinks he's done that just by bringing them into the world (and that's not just her highness I'm talking about) and he has so much pain and guilt it's unbelievable. It's truly an impossible situation but I have long since stopped trying to help him, he won't let me, and now I'm just trying to focus on her highness. What's best for he is know that her parents love her, hopefully he'll come around and get his sh!t together and show her humself.
from eggsaucted :
According to him I'm being overprotective and just doing this because I want him for myself and if I can't have him I won't let him see her. Which is interesting since I've been saying this since the very first time he ever brought the idea up which was long before issues with him and I personally came to a head. I've talked to both him and his wife, so I know what has and hasn't been said to the other children and I just don't feel like I can allow her to be subjected to that. This is not just some sort of clean cut boy & girl break up now what happens with the kid situation. This is messy and it needs a special solution and he's not willing to see that. And I am beyond frustrated by it all.
from babymakes3 :
Thank you for the picture compliments, girgeous. :D haha
from eggsaucted :
Thank you! I'll always have doubts, but it is nice to know people out there agree with what I'm doing. I know I'm not perfect, but I'm trying my best and as a parent that's all we can do.
from marilynstar :
I know! Zuzu showed me this free comments thing, and I messed it up trying to install it and now my templates all crazy! Do you still remember my PW? Yeah we just hung out and watched Monsters Inc last night. No biggie. Hope you guys had fun!!
from nixtress :
Happy New Year!
from lindzeeleigh :
Merry Christmas, Lerin. :) xo. Enjoy the holdiays with your family!
from nixtress :
Merry Christmas, Lerin, to you and your little family :)
from alifewithin :
thanks hon! I was SO SHOCKED that I actually got straight A's!
from eggsaucted :
I sucked at keeping her highness' baby book up to date. My pregnancy journal NEVER got updated. I can't scrapbook worth a damn. But I always always always get her portraits done every six months, which works out perfectly for birthday and christmas. I'm so glad everyone else loves them as much as I do. Her wonderful father has choosen not to even comment on them or let me know if he wants a copy of any of them. I hope Santa whips a lump of coal at his head next sunday night. Hope all of you are doing well, in case this next week gets out of hand, I'll say Merry Christmas Early!
from emaciana :
thanks for your input about the christmas morning thing. it seems like i'm excluding him but it's not really like that. i will explain in my next entry more about the dynamics involved - which is why it would be awkward. it wouldn't be ME who would feel awkward, it would be my family... but i'll explain more. thanks again and i'm so glad you are having such a wonderful holiday season. that picture on myspace of your girls in their pretty red dresses is just precious!
from newlywedblis :
Hey--thanks for that link! I love having as much information as I can... and actually, after reading that page I'm feeling better. Unfortunately, I don't know what my levels were because they didn't do any testing of the blood in-house this time (I'm at a satellite practice so they send important stuff into the hospital), BUT, judging by the way I felt last time and the way I felt at the end of this test, I am guessing that my levels fall below the marks on the longer test. I don't want to get too hopeful that things are a-ok just yet, and I'm still going to do my best to keep better foods going in regularly, but I'm feeling better than I was when I left the office this afternoon! I so appreciate your input and encouragement on this!
from jamsjunction :
I just wanted to let you know so you werent alarmed. If you see alot of page views from today on your photo blog, it was me. I've had yucky dial up and wasnt ever able to view pictures and such. We got cable internet now and finally things load fully, and so fast. Love all of the pictures btw! Have a good day!
from mamabean :
:) It's always hard for me to tell for sure if Alex's hair is growing. For one, I see her every day, and for two, it could just be that it's having a "stretched out" day. It is always really tightly curled and close to her head right after I wash it, and then it sortof stretches out over the next day or two. Curly hair is really something else! It has its own little personality, AND it is a great place for Alex to hide little things! Anyway I was so dead set on homeschooling and I mostly still am, but then I look out my back window and THERE sits an elementary school. One of the best in the state. Alex watches the buses and kids come and go and is SO into the notion of riding the bus and going to school, and I am SO into having at least SOME time in the day to do my own thing. Will I be ABLE to deny both of us these things? Sigh. We'll figure it out. It's a hard decision, to say the least.
from anita-girl :
Hmmm maybe send the recipe my way as we don't have many Tollhouse things here in Canada. Actually I don't think we have any Tollhouse items! Thanks!
from theflyingrat :
Yeah, the lactation consultant really helped THAT MUCH. I'm so glad I sucked it up and admitted I needed help. I just HAVE to hold Aislyn in a certain position to get her to eat, she's very picky about that. If I try any other way, she can't latch on correctly and she gets super fussy. ♥
from anita-girl :
Everytime I go to read your diayr (ot days you've posted) it shows an entry that you posted ages ago! Nov 24. And it won't let me post a comment! Is something wrong?
from ashnwesten :
It wouldn't let me post a comment for some reason.. said something about spam..???.. Anyways...Ugh, I hate dreams like that too.. It's because he hurt you so much.. caused you so much pain.. I think at the time he made you afraid of yourself.. you had to doubt yourself, and you had so many mixed feelings.. you ended up having to deal with a LOT of pain and deal with a LOT all on your own.. I think the dreams are just leftover feelings from that.. It IS scary when you experience things like that, when you NEVER thought you would have.. and when it comes as such a surprise, I think that tends to make you scared the rest of your life. Dreams suck sometimes. :(
from classygirl83 :
Hey, can I have the pw?
from princessreva :
how did I miss you locking down?? Can I get the golden ticket please? princessreva at hot mail!
from nixtress :
Have a great Thanksgiving!!
from silverscorp :
Hey hope I can have the password? [email protected]
from dreamofblue :
hey, thanks for the suggestion! i'll have to look into that. xoxo
from bubbles11090 :
hey:) I still can't get in with your user name and password. I don't know what is going on...
from bubbles11090 :
Hey:) Could I have your new password? My email is [email protected] thanks:)
from youdontknome :
Hey Lerin, I deleted the message with your passwords, when you get a chance can you let me know it again. Thanks :) [email protected]
from bitterwineuk :
hiya lerin, you changed passwords again? Please email me new details as I've been away from d'land. Becca ([email protected])
from alifewithin :
hola, mi mamicita bonita! password please? [email protected]
from theflyingrat :
Aaaah! I'm away for a few days and you've changed the password. Can I have it pleaaaase? I miss you! ♥ [email protected]
from zkandaloza :
Hi Lerin! I see you locked up again...could I please have your password? [email protected]. Thanks girl! -Lety
from explicitsoul :
email [email protected] puhlease can I have the password
from tachyonbaby :
Hi Lerin, could I have the new password? (I tried all the others I remember) [email protected] Peace to you and yours!
from eggsaucted :
Hey missy, you locked up again and I tried the last password I had. If you're sharing you know I want your password. Hope you're ok. my email is either [email protected] or [email protected]
from stormy--skye :
I stop by d-land every so often to check on you and I've noticed you locked up again. I tried all the old passwords I was given but none work, I was wondering if maybe I could get the new ones? My email is still [email protected]
from nixtress :
Lerin, I see you've locked down again. May I have a password? If you need me to email you again so you have my address, let me know via notes and I'll be glad to do that. Hope everything's okay. Nikki
from xx-angel-xx :
I'm really not buying a lot for Logan, for christmas. He really doesn't need a lot of toys. I don't buy him toys or anything any other time but for christmas so, he'll just a few things in order to keep him occupied through out the days. My parents gift is what is putting a bit of a frustration on me. They deserve something nice, They do SO much for me and really, i just want to be able to save n buy them both something nice. I'd rather not recieve presents and just spend time together, goin' to church christmas eve, and eating cookies.. heh. Logan's happy with a cardboard box so, he's not really why i'm frustrated with money. I'm frustrated with money, period.
from alifewithin :
thanks hon. I really appreciate it!
from ashnwesten :
Oh Lerin, thank you so much. You are TOO sweet! And in response to your other comment, I too love you! I know it seems odd, but there is definitely a connection there, and I will always look up to you!
from ava-reborn :
Thank you soooo much for your sweet note the other day!! Hope you're doing ok! xx
from starlight42 :
I hope you get an angel baby too!! That's what I'm hoping our next one will be, if we have another. DJ is a cross between textbook and touchy, more towards touchy I think. So far, I love the book! I'm learning how to read his cues. Like today, I noticed that I started to feed him when he cried, being it was nearly time to eat, but then he only ate for a few and was done. Well, he wasn't hungry yet!! I just assumed he was. So, this could be why he's been fussy in the evenings? I can't wait to finish the book and put to use what i learn!!
from nicolerenee :
Thanks! :) I'm not too sure about it just yet. It'll have to grow on me.
from emaciana :
have a great time in tulsa!!!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am so glad to hear that everything is all right. :) xo.
from nmnohr :
Just saying HI! And going to check out more of your diary - I notice our birthdays are only a day apart! Although I fear I'm older :o(
from lindzeeleigh :
I just tried to leave a comment and it said I was SPAM!!! *cries* Hehe. Oh well...I just wanted to say your poor little girl and I hope she is able to gain weight soon. Thinking about you! HUGS!
from meandmyhouse :
My body spontaneously aborted. The appointment and procedure were not needed. Just wanted to let you know, because of your comments you left.
from meandmyhouse :
Thank you for your notes. I DO appreciate it, and yes, I DO understand why you had to say what you said. I love you, too. And big internet hugs are a God send, too. G'night. :|
from lindzeeleigh :
Wow!! That is exciting! I was wondering if you were going to find out if the baby was a boy or not! That is really thrilling news - the girls are going to have a little brother and you and Adam are going to have fun shopping for a son. so is it going to be Ben?!?
from emaciana :
oh lerin, we're both having boys!!! i'm so glad you found out and it makes me more excited about having a boy too. i'm becoming more at peace with the idea of it and i know that this child will not be my last one... i'm just getting started, and one day i will have my girl. yay for us!
from eggsaucted :
One would think he could do that, but no! I'm sure a part of him doesn't want to admit to me that he was laid off. But seriously what if something happened and she had no insurance. During a few of the conversations we've had since May when he decided it would be fun to be a giant ass, he keeps telling me I'm just angry with him for not choosing to be with me. Last I checked I was perfectly capable of being independent and didn't let my life revolve around him or anyone else. But I am pissed at him for doing this to our kid, for using her the last years as an excuse to continue our affair and now refusing to see her. I'm pissed that he can actually say to me, I can't spend time with her highness because if I did the other kids might get jealous, well doesn't he think her highness would be jealous of the other kids, it's a two way street, she's his kid as much as the other 5. Now he wants to play this game and leave her highness uninsured. I can get past my anger and deal with him as her father, but I just will not make her pay for the mistakes her parents made. I will not make her feel bad about what we did. Ok that was just me venting, now I need to go and do some work.
from explicitsoul :
Umm.... can I have the password please?
from ashnwesten :
Just noticed you haven't updated or written any notes to anyone in a while. I know you had family coming in, but I just wanted to make sure you're doing ok!
from alifewithin :
You're absolutely welcome! I can't wait to see the pictures!
from emaciana :
oh lerin, i'm not sick of reading your notes. your support is always wonderful... i hope you know that. you are such a good friend to so many of us on diaryland. i am enjoying pregnancy even though i have times during the day when i feel extremely unattractive. it's al worth it though.i can't wait to find out if you're having a girl or a boy either! it's like double the excitement!! my u/s and yours so close together.
from alifewithin :
please email me at [email protected]. I don't know why it's not working, so I'll fix it today. Thanks!
from elliemay23 :
Thank you so much!! xoxo, Ellie
from lilpeanut80 :
Can I have your password info again? I lost it when my computer died and I was embarassed to ask again. But now, I swallow my pride. [email protected]
from emaciana :
thanks lerin for your note. space is really good right now for us, and just taking myself out of the situation is good for a while. sorry if i haven't left many notes/comments for you... i still love reading and i still keep up with all your entries but i don't feel i have a lot to give in terms of support right now. I deeply appreciate your support and hope i can reciprocate sometime soon. take care.
from sandandfog :
Can I ask what happened in your situation? Do you still talk to your mother? If I'm too nosy, you don't have to answer that :)
from alifewithin :
thanks hon!
from marilynstar :
AHHH! password pleasseee
from alifewithin :
Sorry... [email protected]. Thanks!
from alifewithin :
It's me again. Could I please have the log-in and password information?
from alifewithin :
I really hope I'll have already moved on too. If I do get back together with him, we're starting ALL OVER again. I'm not going through all this for him to just come back to "Plan B" and confess his undying love for me. BULLSHIT! No worries Lerin. When he comes back, I'll keep your words in mind. :)
from alifewithin :
He's a fascinating character. I just met him and his work today with my professor. He's awesomenes in a book.
from lindzeeleigh :
You know I vote for public school, since I work in one. ;) However, not all public schools are created equal - go and check out the schools in your area and be picky if you can!
from lindzeeleigh :
I don't think the poll worked? I filled it all out and then clicked done and nothing happened? I thought it would take me to the poll page or something. I tried to click on view results and it wouldn't go either. Am I the only one??
from alifewithin :
Thanks for reminding me that I'm enough. I always thought I was with him. Always. Ugh. Oh well. There's nothing I can do about it.
from lindzeeleigh :
HEy, thanks for the lovely comment you just left me;) Glad the comments are working. I am sorry to hear about the sad death of your laptop, but yay for getting a better new one! That is awesome that you are going to find your brother, I can't believe the story about your father and his marrying and moving in with everyone so soon - wow! I think it is amazing that your parents are still together. I guess you just never know! :) Be sure and let us know how it all works out. When is the ultrasound again? Are you going to tell us? Hehe. Talk soon!
from emaciana :
thank you for your opinion on the last name thing. i really wish things could be different, but i don't regret getting pregnant at all. i know that women raise children alone all the time and they turn out great. i also know how good it is to have a father figure in their lives. i know that if Stew and i were to not get married, i would be the one putting in all the money/time/effort into our baby and i wouldn't want the child to have HIS last name. it's almost like he would get the credit and recognition for a child that he didn't sacrifice his life for.// I am truly glad I found your diaryland journal. I always think about the hard times you endured with Jordan and how you now have the "happily ever after" life. it makes me feel so hopeful that you can have a child with one man, get divorced, find another (wonderful) man even with the baggage of a child and get married and go on to have 2 more. i know it was hell for you to go through but you've landed on your feet and i hope the baby and i will too. it's not an ultimatum, but i also think that if stew knows i am serious about not giving the baby his last name, then it might make him more inspired to DO SOMETHING rather than just talk about it. Thanks for listening.
from ava-reborn :
Thank you SOOOOOO much for that note!! It meant the world to me!! I know my friend is suffering at the moment, but I like to think I'm always there for her when she needs me, no matter the crap I'm going through. I felt very let down. But that made my other friend's support all the more special!! As for my password for Avalonte, I will email it to you! I haven't updated, but I'll let you know if I do!! What happened on holiday isn't something I want to share with everyone. And I don't want to offend people by refusing the password. So it might be best I don't update Avalonte. Too many people have the password. I know you're not judgemental, but some people, no matter how friendly, are!!! Hugs!
from alifewithin :
I know I did everything. It doesn't so much right now because I KNOW I didn't give up. I know he's losing out. I know he'll be sorry one day. But thanks for reminding me of all that, including the compliment of how I am no worse because of him. Thanks Lerin. Thanks a lot.
from alifewithin :
I know, that thought crossed my mind last night too. I thought he was being a little selfish last night in saying that if we went on a break, he would know I was still there but he could really see for himself what else is out there. I would be his security net. It's hard. I don't know what to do if a break is what he really wants. I can try it. I'm willing. I'll keep you posted! How's wee baby three today?
from alifewithin :
Thank you so much, Lerin. I really do appreciate that more than you know. And I'm glad to know everything is going wonderfully with wee baby three!
from ashnwesten :
Just wanted to let you know I left a comment back to your comment on my entry. Thanks again for all your continued support!
from emaciana :
thanks for your support and just for letting me know that you understand what i'm going through. weighing out the good and the bad is something i will have to sit down and do very carefully. the hard part right now is knowing how much of what i'm thinking is influenced by pregnancy hormones and what i really *me*. maybe waiting until after the baby is born would be best so i can think with a clear head. you're lucky that adam makes a good living and can support you and your 3 children. being a full time mom/housewife would be wonderful. so glad to hear that things are okay with you and the baby. i hope your dryspell will be overcome soon.
from alifewithin :
Thank you, Lerin. I don't know what is going to happen now. All I can do is try to move all, because I can't hope he's going to come back to me when he might not. When he probably won't. It hurts, but thank you for the hug.
from nicolerenee :
Thank you for the clarification...although it wasn't your fault. I have been feeling that lately, but I think your entry put the 'nail in the coffin' for me. Know what I mean? And I totally understand about the situation with Bella...I wouldn't do it either. I have no time to finish writing this...Kaleb is screaming for more toast!! lol
from babymakes3 :
Thank you, Lerin :) And yes, everyone says he looks just like me!
from princesse69 :
Hi Lerin. I seem to have lost your passwords. Could you send them to me again? My email address is [email protected]. Thanks. I hope you're all okay. ♥ Sharon
from jktty :
Add away Lerin, and thank you. ;)
from amommaslove :
Hi Lerin! It has been awhile since i have been here. I have been in Alabama with my MIL and I was checking in to see how things were going with you as you were not doing so good when I left. Could I please have your password? [email protected]
from eggsaucted :
She's a pretty amazing kid and I'm sure we'll have bumps in the road to come. I'm in total amazement over how easy this transition has been. I've had way more trouble with it than her. I was so concered about how she'd deal with long days at school and she wants to be there longer than I'd ever intended and I really don't see that it's a problem, it's good for her. Not that I'm going to give up time with her, but I'm glad to see that when I need to have her there from beginning to end, I can and she'll be just fine. Now if I could just get the rest of our life to fall into place as easily and without any continued stress and worries I'd be good to go.
from eggsaucted :
No not at all. She spent her first 6 months at home with me and then the last 2.5 years with one of my parents. She occassionally plays with my parents 3 year old neighbor but that's not any kind of regular interaction and she's never taken any sort of classes. But she's thriving and loves it.
from comfortm :
LOL you want to know whats funny? i put my daughter on the toilet today just to have her get used to it and she pooped in it!LOL she's only a year old and i'm not going to start heavily potty training until i'm sure. It can't hurt to just place isabella on the potty every now or then. Eventually she'll understand what to do. Anyways, i loved reading your diary (hertinyhands). i read all the entries. Take care.
from mom2zoegirl :
Hi Lerin, I was wondering if it would be okay if I had your password? If not, I totally understand. My email addy is [email protected] Thanks, Samantha
from mehiel :
Lerin, I have a new layout, and an email address of mine is attached, if you'd like to give me your password. My username is "mata," my password is "hari."
from bubbles11090 :
Hi!! I just started reading your diary, and I couldn't stop!!! I just wanted to tell you congratulations on your pregnancy and I hope everything continues to be fine with the baby. It will be fun reading your diary since we are very close in due dates:) Take care!
from summer-gale :
I'm locked out again :( If you want to share write me at [email protected]. If you don't I'll understand, as always.
from eggsaucted :
I want to thank you for both of your sweet notes from this morning. Actually she looked huge today, she's one of the youngest kids in her class, but not even close to being the smallest, which makes me feel good.
from whereibegin :
Hi lerin! I'm glad you stumbled onto my site, and I promise I will update it again soon. I wish you all the best with your pregnancy, and am very happy to hear you are not having as bad a go with the hyperemesis this time. It gives me hope that maybe my second time around won't be so bad... we'll see. If you feel comfortable sharing your password with me, I'd love to read your diary as well. Take good care of yourself!
from mymemry :
my email is [email protected] (thanks!)
from emaciana :
thanks for reassuring me that it's ok to feel that way about male female friendships. i have never felt really okay about it because i know how quickly something can turn from platonic to something more. i wonder if men and women can have truly close yet harmless relationships.
from nicolerenee :
Oh, I'm glad you joined! Check it out...I would love it to get going. You are all set and approved. So start posting!
from mymemry :
Hi. I would really like to start reading your diary if you don't mind giving me access. Julie
from emaciana :
i just wanted to say, the more i read of you, the more i can relate to EVERYTHING. broken hearts, getting married 2ce (once legally, once ceremoniously), your love of the cocteau twins... etc. i hope you never stop updating cause i love reading you. take care
from love-me-more :
it's a browser thing -- go to http://www.worldfirefoxday.com/en/ and download firefox and you should be able to view it.
from skierchic30 :
hey! i see you locked down again. could you share the password? if not, i respect your privacy and wish you the best. -dj [email protected]
from zkandaloza :
Hi! I think I added u as a friend in Myspace already. If theres no problem, id like to read ur diary. My email is [email protected]. Thanks! -Lety
from theflyingrat :
I knew what you meant! Your comment didn't upset me in the least bit! While I DO consider David my second child, I guess I don't think of him as my second BABY... does that make sense? It's hard to think that way but it's just one of those things. I appreciate how kind and sensitive you have been toward me and my situation. I only hope that I can be as good a friend to you as you have been to me. ♥
from theflyingrat :
I saw "Faline!" on Riley's notes and I was thinking "What is she TALKING about?" haha. Then I realized what I'd written about.. so thank you! :)
from eggsaucted :
Thank you for your note! You know I'm not concerned about hurting him in court, I know I could. I could drag out years worth of dirty laundry. I could force him to pay child support. All of that, but I just don't want to take her highness to court, not at all. Even winning completely, wouldn't erase how bad I would feel about putting her through it. And frankly I don't want to win. I don't want to take money from him just because I can. I don't want to have the courts tell us how to handle our baby. I don't want to have to dictate to him when he can see his daughter. But as far as this has come I just don't know how it can be settled any other way. Nor can I figure out in my wildest dreams why he is the only person alive who doesn't understand my complete and total aversion to having w-p a part of her life. Why he can't understand that the situation we created years ago, good or bad, morally sound or dumb as hell, means that this isn't cut and dried. He seems to believe I am this horrible person and I admit I did a few things I shouldn't have, but a person can only take so much and I was justified to get defensive, even if it wasn't very nice. He is a good man and he loves his daughter, but he's being an unbelievable ass. And I have totally lost the point of what I was trying to say and probably didn't need to say it anyway. So gee...thanks for listening and for the note! Hope you're hanging in there, I can't even try to imagine what it's like to be in your shoes.
from bubbles11090 :
hi!!! just wondering if I could have your password?? [email protected] thanks:) I look forward to reading you:)
from eggsaucted :
How funny is it that at 9:44pm on Sunday Night I just got a notification of a new message and then was nothing there, I scrolled down and I just received your message from thursday night. I don't know what I'd do without email but it certainly drives me crazy sometimes! ;)
from emaciana :
i read almost all your entries from the beginning to about end of 2003. i wanted to say, WOW. you may not think you are that strong but you really are. everything you've gone through with your ex, all the things you had to endure PLUS raise a little girl... more and more i read of your diary, the more i wish we lived closer. i would love to meet you in real life, to give you a hug. PS. the letter you wrote to jordan made me cry.
from metame :
hi lerin... I didn't get a chance to look for an email address for you... if you are so inclined, I would like access: mnemATgrimsheep.net. Cheers!
from thenshefell- :
Hey! Sorry, I didn't get it! I don't have that email address anymore. Could you please re-send it to [email protected]? I would love you forever! ♥
from eggsaucted :
Nope didn't get it! [email protected] Thanks!
from fluttrbykiss :
I didn't get it. ;o( Please try to resend to [email protected]... Thanks luv... (((huggles)))
from ashnwesten :
I got your notes- thanks for the password information. I had noticed we liked the same music when you put lyrics in your entries sometimes.. and since I've read your entire diary TWICE! haha :D Anyways, thanks for the info on babymakes3 too. That's comforting to know.. I think I remember that now from college but you refreshed my memory! Also, I just noticed the new comments in your profile.. Thank you so much-- You are too sweet!
from mehiel :
I tried emailing you, but the email address connected to your layout didn't work. Anyway, my username is "mata," the password is "hari." What about yours?
from leebeenz :
Just wanted to say thank you for the comment. It really helps to know that there are people out there that are supporting me and can understand just how hard it can be. Supportive comments like yours give me just that little bit more resolve to keep going when I start to feel like giving in.
from xx-angel-xx :
Yes, i got your e-mail. Thank you. i re-read your e-mail and i musta over looked the last password, I guess I was focusing too much on, the top one. Thank you for clearing it up for me!
from littlelove4 :
I am sorry to see that you had to lock up. I enjoyed reading and wish you all the best with baby #3.
from xx-angel-xx :
I did recieve your e-mail and thank you but, for some reason the password you gave is not working for me. I've tried retyping it a few times, thinking possible i was typing it wrong somehow but, I don't think so.
from nixtress :
Hey there :) I sent you an email, just wanted to give you a head's up to expect it. Hope you're taking it easy and wanted you to know I'm thinking about you.
from emaciana :
hey hon, thanks SO MUCH for the recommendations on what to buy and what not to buy. with your 3rd one on the way, you have so much valuable knowledge and experience, it's wonderful to have your input. i have been looking for the light strollers with car seats that clip into them but i only seem to find the huge bulky ones. good thing is that i still have 6 months to keep looking! *i see you locked up again. just don't forget to email the new PW if you don't mind. [email protected]
from alifewithin :
Sorry, I deleted the email you sent us when you first unlocked again. Could I please have the password? Thanks hun. I hope things are still good. [email protected]
from ava-reborn :
Aaarrgghh!!! Please can I have the new keys for your diary?!! My email is [email protected]
from rdhdprincess :
Hi! Congratulations on number three! Any parenting tips you want to share? I'm still learning. I would love your password informaton?
from lindzeeleigh :
If you are handing out new passwords, please email me and let me know. lindzeeleigh AT hotmail DOT com. I hope things are going well with the baby and with the girls. :) xo.
from amommaslove :
You locked up? May I please read? I hope all is well. [email protected]
from lindzeeleigh :
I totally understand about locking up. It is more of a necessity than a choice - there really isn't anything else you can do it about it, so try not to worry about that. You know we will all still read you and leave you lovely comments!
from stormy--skye :
uh, hi. i just sort of stumbled onto your diary and read a few entries. i'd like to get full access to more, you seem like a very nice and interesting person and your kids sound adorable. i wish you the best for your unborn baby and really hope everything is okay. -stormyskye
from fluttrbykiss :
Hey Lerin. Can I get the password?? You can send it to [email protected]. Hope things are going better, and you get back to feeling yourself soon... (((huggles)))
from ashnwesten :
We haven't heard from you & I've noticed you haven't left many notes the last couple days. I know how much is going on, but I'm just hoping you're doing ok. Just thought I'd let you know I'm thinking about you & hoping you have a good update when you come back.
from lindzeeleigh :
Don't think you are being silly, Lerin. I would feel the same way if I was you. I think you are handling this and coping the best you know how and there is nothing wrong with that. Take care of yourself. Big hugs!
from starlight42 :
I've got you and the baby in my thoughts. I know how scary it can be, getting ultrasounds, waiting for that heartbeat...they always had a hard time finding my babys and it freaked me out!! I hope the complications stop soon and that you can relax and enjoy the rest of the pregnancy. ((hugs))
from emaciana :
i got that book "girlfriend's guide to pregnancy" thanks for recommending it!
from emaciana :
you are such a sweetheart, lerin, thanks for being excited for me! i have been catching up on your entries too in "hertinyhands" and also this diary. i feel honored that you would share your private entries password with me. it sounds like you've been through a lot too and i'm so excited, our babies will be about a month apart! i hope i can only be even 1/2 as good mom as you are.
from ava-reborn :
I'm sending you hugs and all the best thoughts in the world! You'll be fine, I know you will. You deserve the best in life! XX
from eggsaucted :
If you knew why he was being so unreasonable I'd give you a prize. But Sunday he told me I was being uncompromising and bitchy. There are some things I will not compromise about, but not much and only because I feel that there are certain things pertaining to her highness that I can't compromise about. About the getting up at 6:30am, I'd die. I don't do that now, unless we have some special circumstances. Her highness is all about sleeping in, if she doesn't have to get up for some reason she sleeps til 9 or later unless something wakes her. I generally let her sleep in the morning until I'm ready and then get her up and dressed and we're out the door and that's just about the same routine we're going to follow when school starts in two and half weeks. Thanks for the reassurance.
from sighlentex :
hi Lerin, glad you're back! i didn't get the new pw, my email address is texnokie11ATgmailDOTcom. ;)
from alifewithin :
I really hope I do like it. It's just nerve wracking and I still have to deal with home stuff as well. Oy. Thanks for the compliments though. I did finally go to sleep around 5:30. It wasn't the greatest, but it was the best I could do. And yes, things did look a bit better that morning.
from meandmyhouse :
i didn't get the email, i don't have a cox email address anymore. but you can mail [email protected] and i will get it, or drop me a message on myspace (not a comment, but the message thingy) and i will get that. i check daily if i can, sometimes not so often, depending on my access.
from jodi-junebug :
I just started this whole diary thing from inspiration on your myspace. I would love your password to continue reading. I have enjoyed reading your writings prior to the lockup. They seem to give me a boost of courage for my life as basically a single mom, in an up and mostly down and further down relationship. Thanks for being so honest in your writings! [email protected]
from mathero :
Email me the goods at [email protected]
from eggsaucted :
Oops...sent it before I finsihed typing. Anyway, I don't think you sent it but I hope you still trust me.
from eggsaucted :
[email protected]
from meandmyhouse :
[email protected] <-- If I am still a trusted visitor, that is. :)
from nixtress :
Thank you :)
from lindzeeleigh :
That is good that you are open again, it must be a hard decision to make and lots of work to go through all of your entries and archives to lock some and not others. You have written lots! I would like to have the password to your private entries if you are willing to share. :0) My email is lindzeeleigh AT hotmail DOT com. Thanks, Lerin. I hope you are having a great weekend!
from nixtress :
Lerin, I was hoping I could get the new password to the private entries. I'll send you an email to the hotmail addy that you sent the last one from. Just wanted to let you know so you'd know it was me :) Nikki
from lightupnight :
Congrats on pregnancy #3!!!! That is amazing!!!!!!!!!!!
from theflyingrat :
Aww, thank you! :)
from youdontknome :
Can I have the password? My email is [email protected] Thanks!
from love-me-more :
hey, it's leigh. i haven't been reading much lately because of my computer lab theft. and i have lost the login and password for your diary, apparently. can i please, pretty please have them again? email them to me, if you can, to [email protected]
from meandmyhouse :
Am I still welcome? - Jody
from emaciana :
thanks so much for your note with your reassurances in it. i read so carefully, trying to absorb everything. i am less nervous now just realizing that every mother goes through it and it's 100% worth it, the pain for the joy of a beautiful baby. you are a wonderful mother, i can just tell by the way you talk about your 2 girls and your experiences. thanks, lerin, for taking the time to answer my questions despite your busy schedule. take care.
from thenshefell- :
Hey you! I gave you my password and stuff a while back as you requested and have since wanted to read your diary. I have been back here before to check it out, so when I came tonight and found it locked I was saddened. If it is okay with you may I please have the username and password to view your diary? You can email it to me at [email protected] if you would rather not send it via d.land note. God bless! :)
from arifoxhawk :
Hi Lady. As always, I'd like to keep up with what's going on with you, but there are absolutely no hard feelings if you choose not too. *hugs* arifoxhawk[at]yahoo[dot]com
from summer-gale :
Hi Lerin. I'm sorry you had to lock, but I totally understand. My journal has caused me no end of personal problems in my real life. If you want to share the PW I'm [email protected]. If you move I'd love to move with you too. All My Love (And I know you think I'm being stupid but I didn't find someone else like you did. I still have feelings for him and he's older now. Maybe it will be different this time. I have to at least try or I'll always wonder. I know what to look for and I'll get out quick if its not what I thought it was )
from lowercaseg :
Sorry you had to lock up - I can understand, though. I'd love to keep reading - [email protected]
from mamabean :
Hi Lovey... [email protected].
from anita-girl :
Hey you I hope everything is alright! Please email me the password. [email protected] Hope your enjoying the summer!
from pantrypuff :
Me?? I understand if not, but if so... [email protected]
from momma-at-17 :
Password please? [email protected] Thanks hun, I hope everything is ok! **HUGS** ~*♥*~
from smedindy :
Hey, I came back and you were locked up! Password me! Remember, I like redheads!
from dreamofblue :
what about me? :-(
from nagvioli :
oops forgot to share my email. it's [email protected]
from jamsjunction :
I would like to continue reading. You can email me the info if you dont want to leave it in notes. [email protected]
from alwaysmuted :
May I have the password? [email protected].
from nagvioli :
if you don't mind, i'd like to read...
from lifeofliza :
Waaah, I want in. :) [email protected]
from alifewithin :
Sorry, my email is [email protected]
from alifewithin :
I hope everything is ok! May I please have the password?
from ashnwesten :
Hey Lerin, I don't know if you sent me the info or not, but I can't get into my ashleybrooke e-mail right now. So could you please send it to [email protected] Thanks!
from tachyonbaby :
Hey Lerin, I hope you are well! Could I have your password info again? I will miss your thoughts, but understand if you decide not to share. You can use [email protected]
from eggsaucted :
Hope you're ok, I read your late night entry! If you're willing to let me in, please email me the password at [email protected]
from clarity25 :
oh no! Locked! Would you be willing to share the password with me? I hope all is well
from leebeenz :
Hi, would I be able to get the password? [email protected]
from seasons79 :
Hi there! Can I please keep reading? I hope all is well. Take care... [email protected]
from jess1976 :
Hi there- If you wouldn't mind... could I have the password. If it's ok, can you send it to [email protected] Thanks!
from imazook :
Hi, I would like the password too. My email is [email protected] Thank you!
from nixtress :
Lerin, I would love a password, if you're willing to share (nixtressAThotmailDOTcom). If not, I completely understand. I went thru the same thing when I decided to lock down. Hoping everything is okay with you and yours.
from bitterwineuk :
You've locked up? Can you email me the details please hun. Is everything ok? Becca. [email protected]
from coexistapart :
would love, LOVE the password to your locked site if you do not mind...just tell me where to send the background check! ;) [email protected] if you have any questions
from xx-angel-xx :
would i be able to have the userinfo, if you don't mind? My e-mail is [email protected] I sure hope everything's okay!!((hugs))
from sandandfog :
would love the password but will understand if you say no..
from lindzeeleigh :
I was wondering if you were going to lock up soon....and apparently you did. :P If you are sharing the password, could you please send it to me? lindzeeleigh AT hotmail DOT com. Thanks, Lerin. I hope everything is okay!!
from emaciana :
awww... you locked up! if you don't mind could i have the pw? [email protected] i love reading!
from classygirl83 :
Hey, I was wondering if I can have the passwords and stuff to the prive entries. If not, I totally understand.
from imazook :
It's comforting to know that I won't get "bored" with the guy who is right for me. I guess I kind of needed to hear that. Thank you:)
from lindzeeleigh :
You are blessed with your 2 little girls and the third baby on the way. i liked your entry about when you found out you were pregnant with Sophie. It was just so real and honest.
from emaciana :
hey you, (by the way) i'm tianne on myspace. i love your diary and loved your entry on finding out you were pregnant with your first one. i have some questions, being a first timer... i'm terrified about giving birth. the pain during and afterwards, how a baby that big comes out of such a small space. how did you deal with your fears the first time around and how was your experience of giving birth? did you have an epidural, stitches, etc? sorry for all the questions, i just want to know as much as i can. TAke care!!! ps. love your layout, did you do it yourself? -tianne
from mommyx3 :
At the end of my reply I tried to add a pic I guess it didn't work sorry. *Cheryl*
from mommyx3 :
Hi Lerin! Thanks I hope I'm right too.I enjoy reading about your pregnancy. If you ever want to talk on yahoo my screen name is mom_2_kaley and on aol my screen name is cheryl051100. <a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v495/snowhite051100/CHERYL%20SIGS/angel5Fheart5Fballoon5Fcheryl.gif" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"></a>
from lowercaseg :
thanks, lerin! i just wanted to say again how excited i am for you and your pregnancy! hang in there with the morning sickness! does yours usually clear up by the 2nd trimester? i was lucky - mine did! take care!
from theflyingrat :
I made the graphic for Ri's diary in Photoshop. If you don't have that program (or another graphic program) I'd be happy to make one for you. It doesn't take all that long. If you DO have photoshop, I'll try to "teach" you but I'm not so great at giving instructions or whatever, haha. ♥
from ava-reborn :
Thank you so much for your sweet note, lovely!!
from lindzeeleigh :
You are not the world's worst mom! Not at all. You can't help it when you are not feeling well at all. Some days I just stay in my jammies just because I feel like it. Today is one of those days!
from dearkate :
Thanks for that add :)
from babymakes3 :
Awe, that was the sweetest note ever. Thanks doesn't even say enough
from ava-reborn :
Thank you sooo much for your sweet note! Huge congratulations to you sweetheart!! I can't believe I'm so far behind on my reading!! I'm so happy for you!!!!!!
from sandandfog :
got ya added on m.s.:)
from ashnwesten :
Ohhh, sorry! I must have mis-read about the teeth!
from fridayfilms :
Hi you, thanks for the add! I am stupidly busy these days and haven't been on top of posting but hope I can entertain you a few times a week regardless. I look forward to reading you in spare minutes as well.
from mommyx3 :
sure you can add me :-) and thank you for letting me add you!
from lindzeeleigh :
Hey, Lerin. I just wanted to say that I think it is fine that you are telling everyone about baby #3. That is your choice and if you have no had previous problems I am sure everything will be just fine. I talked to one friend about this who told me right away and then she said that if she did miscarry she felt like she could confide in me about it and I could help her through it because I knew all along and that made perfect sense to me. BIG hugs. :)
from geek-betty :
OF COURSE I'd make a bot for the new little one!!!! !!! I should have thought of it myself!
from mommyx3 :
I forgot to add a congrats to you on baby #3 and would it be ok if I added you to my bubby list? ~Cheryl
from mommyx3 :
Hi Lerin,My password is elizabeth. I'm palnning on updating the layout and I plan on giving an update as soon I can. Hugs,Cheryl
from parkerfamily :
Lerin.. Thank you so much for the last comment. You always know exactly what I mean (but can say it so much better :D) & you always say exactly the right thing. You help SO much & it's a lot of comfort that you've been where I am. I am so glad I found you & I thank you SO much for all of your support & advice.
from pantrypuff :
By the way, can I read your private entries? Or is it just for very close friends?
from princesse69 :
Hi, I've lost your passwords to your private entries. I wondered if you could send them to me again. My email is [email protected]. Thanks!
from pantrypuff :
Hey -- I tried to email you the password but don't know if it worked.
from babymakes3 :
Haha, well.. maybe I should have read my notes before I posted a comment! We said basically the same things. :D Anyways, you are doing a good job with her & I know it will be hard, but you'll both make it through just fine! Don't think/worry too much about the future. Sophie will be very happy for what she has. And I'm glad that you see there might be curiosity, because that is something you & Adam will have to prepare yourselves for. Good luck sweetie!!
from jamsjunction :
I just wanted to let you know that I have moved my blog. I am now at http://simplyjamie.wordpress.com . I look forward to seeing you there from now on.
from aloneindark5 :
Thank you so much Lerin. Your comment made me feel a little better. I know I don't comment much lately, but I do still read when I can! **HUGS** I hope all is well with you as it can be, I'm off to try and catch up before I head to bed... ~♥~
from lindzeeleigh :
Love the family photo album - what sweet and beautiful pictures!
from ava-reborn :
I'm already desperate to get number 4!! *hugs*
from lindzeeleigh :
Adam's comments are SO perfect. :) How lovely. You really are all so blessed to have each other.
from babymakes3 :
I've been meaning to leave a note for you, since you don't have it turned on on your diet entries. I'm really happy you're trying so hard & it seems like you are off to a good start & doing all the right things! Maybe you shouldn't weigh yourself every day... just keep trying!! I know you can do it!
from lindzeeleigh :
YAY for cute new outfits! I want one for tomorrow night because our grade nines have their graduation, but I think I will just wear something I already have. :P
from babymakes3 :
What e-mail should I use to e-mail you?
from starlight42 :
I think you deserve Adam and soon, you will know it too- even more so. And, with time you will be able to trust him more and his love for you. It's a long road, but you're getting there- look how far you've come!!
from redlilli :
Hi! I am new to diaryland and ran across your diary. I have enjoyed reading and would love your password and username. If you don't mind you can email it to me at [email protected], if not I understand.
from jess1976 :
Hi there- I just started reading your diary (found you through momma-at-17) and really like what I've read so far. You have very beautiful children! Anyhow, I just wanted to let you know I was reading and if you wouldn't mind if I read some of your private entries - you can send the user name and password to [email protected] - if not, I totally understand.
from xx-angel-xx :
that made plenty of sense to me. And that's something I am terrified of.. It does just seem like a losing battle any way you look except him actually being able to get over it and that, we arent even sure if he can. thank you for your notes!
from bitterwineuk :
Oh my God, how have I never noticed your photos link before. I've seen photos of the girls before but not you and Adam. The wedding photos are gorgeous and you look great together. You look amazing and I love the pic of Adam looking as Isabella lays on your tummy as a baby. Bless. Hope you and your family are ok my lovely. Becca
from xx-angel-xx :
I'm just stopping by to tell you I was thinking about you. You havent updated in a few days so, i'm a little worried, especially with everything going on with you and your family. I hope everything's well! ((hugs))
from pantrypuff :
No problem. I LOVE your layout :)
from parkerfamily :
Wow, Isabella must be going to be a tiny girl! That is so shocking to me, seeing as how Westen in at the 50% on everything! She must be tiny tiny!
from lindzeeleigh :
I think your rule of two drinks is a good idea. And I think it is awesome that you recognize s omthing you struggle with, that is something that some people never realize. good for you. I still need to get caught up on your private entry, why are there not more hours in one day???
from parkerfamily :
Hey Lerin- I've e-mailed you at dear_jane_does again... I didn't know if you had kept the same e-mail address (the other one) from moving or if it's different.. So, there's an e-mail there waiting for you :)
from theflyingrat :
I just got caught up on your entries. I don't know what happened but somehow I missed a couple. I would have been pretty frightened if that had happened at a restaurant we were in. Especially since there were children there. I'm glad you're all okay. ♥
from parkerfamily :
How can I ever thank you? Your notes mean so much to me.. I am so glad we've found each other & I thank you so, so much for all the advice, support, and compliments you give to me. Your comments always make me tear up.. they mean so much to me & I just wanted you to know that.. to sincerely thank you.
from babymakes3 :
Thanks for your last note! I'm really happy!! And don't worry.. you'll get there! Soon!
from ishouldcry :
thanks for your note, i only just found it. i admit i dont check my notes that often. i hope you had a wonderful mothers day and sophies party went well. thanks for your concern about me but i just wanted to say i feel at peace knowing deep down that this time it's for good and the only way to be. i was not a happy soul back then but already, in just 2 weeks, i feel like the old me again. back to someone full of optimism and hope and ready to face the world alone. thanks for your on-going support, it means alot. so hopefully, things will begin to change in a good way. and again glad the move went ok, sounds a lovely homely little place. Becca x.x.x.x.x
from nixtress :
Happy Mother's Day :)
from anita-girl :
Thanks so much for the sweet note you left me! That is so sweet that you lov emy Ariel, I also love your little girls. I bet all our girls would play so well togather! Thanks also for the nursing congrats, I know that you value nursing as much as I do!
from lindzeeleigh :
I think that is a great idea! I would totally come to Sophie's party if I lived on your street. I think that is a wonderful way to meet neighbors and maybe new friends!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am representing Canada visting your diary! Hehe, that is fun. :)
from babymakes3 :
OMG Lerin, I just read your diet entry. I'm so sorry for you! I know I would have felt just as terrible. Wow, some people need to just keep their mouths SHUT! I know just how you feel, though. Anyways, I'm sorry you had to go through that. :(
from parkerfamily :
Lerin, I've sent you an e-mail at dear_jane_does
from theflyingrat :
Diaryland has labeled me a "spammer" or something and wouldn't let me comment on your entry. So here is what I was going to say THERE. I think I know the friend you're referring to and I was tempted to do EXACTLY what you said you did. I have seen the similarities between the two situations (yours and hers) and if I were her, I would appreciate your advice. Advice from someone who has been there, who can tell me it's going to be okay. Has she told you that you're hurting her? I think you've only done what you thought was right and what else can we, as mere human beings, do? You have been a wonderful friend to me for a long time and a couple of comments wouldn't change that. You're a good person! Don't be so hard on yourself! ♥
from lindzeeleigh :
Glad to hear the house is sooo lovely! I knew it would be everything you hoped. And as for whatever bad thing you did, I doubt that it is as bad as you really think it is. I hope you are feeling better soon! ♥
from sighlentex :
hi Lerin...my email address is [email protected]. i should have left that in the password request, but that would just be too logical for me. ;)
from alifewithin :
Once you've seen it, you may want to erase the last comment I made. It totally stretched out your page. Sorry!
from lightupnight :
Thanks for the early birthday wishes!! :)
from fluttrbykiss :
Congratulations!!! I'm soooo happy for you.... (((huggles)))
from shaynalee :
I noticed you added me to your favourites! Thank you!
from sighlentex :
Ok Lerin, here's my request for your password *in a note* I'd really love to know what's hidden behind the locked door. ;)
from mathero :
Wow Lerin. A third one already?! I envy your carefree spirit. I'm definately not ready for a third. I think we're going to wait until Lydia is at least 2. I wish you all the luck in the world in hopes of adding a new addition to your beautiful family. I heart you.
from ishouldcry :
thanks for your comment on Matthew. I don't normally post photos at this address but I am putting a few up if you are interested. Becca (bitterwineuk)
from youdontknome :
My myspace is http://myspace.com/jenncat117 and thanks for making me feel like less of a stalker :) Also, don't forget what I said in my email, I meant everything <3
from eggsaucted :
Thanks for the ouch....I'll get better. Hope you're doing better as well. Your is a different kind of pain but pain none the less.
from busymomof2 :
You have such a beautiful way of writing. I do hope you start feeling better and things start to look up for you. You two (Adam and you) sound so perfect for each other. Theres not to many great men left out there in the world and God deffinatly blessed you with one of the best it seems. I don't know you personally but just by your writing I see just how strong you are and how great of a mother and wife you are.
from lilpeanut80 :
I guess I will need your locked diary info to be able to keep up with you! My email is [email protected]. thanks :)
from busymomof2 :
I hope all is ok with you. I have been worried, and I wanted to let you know my thoughts are with you. Again I hope everything is ok.
from bitterwineuk :
Thanks for your note back. My email is [email protected] Thank you and I am glad you are ok. I'd missed a few entries and wondered how you were. Take care. Becca
from babymakes3 :
Hey Lerin, I need the password for your diet ring!
from princesse69 :
Hi Lerin My email address is - [email protected]. Hope you're having a good day. Love Sharon x
from xx-angel-xx :
I just read your comment that you have beside my name (in your favorites) and I'd like to thank you for your wonderful, kind words!! It made me smile ear to ear! I don't think there's anyone else out there as sweet as you!! Once again, Thank you!
from lightupnight :
Happy 3 day-belated Birthday!! I haven't been around for 2 weeks so I didn't know it was your birthday!!! I hope 25 is an excellent year for you!!!!
from busymomof2 :
I understand exactally what you are saying. Never say never right? I to said I would never do something that I was dead against, I had to do it though for my son, my husband, but most of all me. I am not quite ready to reveal it to everyone. Kind of Still in fear people will judge, but maybe one day right? your entries are always so nice, I truely enjoy reading your diary!!
from theflyingrat :
Unfortunately, B#1 IS in good standing with the church, he is the only one out of Kent and his 3 brothers who has attended church on a regular basis. He goes to mass in prison and there is a priest (from his childhood) who visits him regularly and prays with him. I didn't think he would be permitted to become a godfather either but when Kent asked his Dad about it he said that it was fine because he would be standing in as proxy? (I actually don't know much about the technicalities of it all.) Apparently it's not okay if you don't go to church on a regular basis you aren't worthy but if you do something disgusting like B#1 has done, it's okay. Ugh. The whole thing really bothers me, I'm so glad I'm not the only one!
from mehiel :
Hi, I got your note! Don't worry--I don't care about my passwords being up. The people I worry about reading this diary couldn't find it, in the network. (So any other readers, go right ahead and have a look.) The username and password for my diary are: reader.
from xx-angel-xx :
I already took it out of the box, I was just so excited to start it! I didn't find it difficult using it. If in time, it seems like I could use a bigger ball, i'll buy another one. I have no clue why he didn't show up. I talked to him earlier that day at about 1:15 and he was still sleeping BUT he said he was on his way and he never came.. and I haven't recieved a phone call since & I haven't tried calling him either. I have a lot of wonders to where he's at. Part of me thinks he just up and left (if he's still not home). I really don't know. I'm sure i'll update with my thoughts on where he is.. I don't wanna throw a book your way (note wise) haha. Thanks for asking! Have a wonderful day!!
from classygirl83 :
Hey, I hope that you don't mind thatI'm adding you to my favorites. I kept on seeing you on myspace, and I knew you were from D-land, cause everyone from D-land had you on their buddy list, but I never could figure out what diary on diary land was yours, then I was reading a diary and I came across your diary. I love it! You write really well. You have an adorible family as well .Your entry today was soooo sweet. Your husband sounds sweet. Yall are both lucky people!! Happy Birthday!! I hope that you had a great day!!
from busymomof2 :
Wow what an amazing husband you have. His words left me speachless. You are one lucky women and by the sounds of it he is one lucky man. Have a wonderful Birthday Lerin.
from busymomof2 :
Thank you and Happy Birthday to you as well. I hope you have a wonderful day.
from parkerfamily :
That's ok that you left the note. I'm trying to get comments up on my actual page, so others can't read them. You can either continue to leave notes & I'll just move them to my entries, or you can e-mail me. Thank you for always giving me your advice & thoughts.
from sanetwin :
myspace ATE my profile!! no joke. I have to start from scratch and I don't have the energy to do much to it today lol. BTW, house looks BEAUTIFUL!!! Congrats.
from lindzeeleigh :
How does one possibly gain access to your private folders? :) Sing a little song and dance?? Hehe. I would love to see the pics of your new house and all, but I totally understand if you don't want everyone seeing or reading everything. Sometimes I am quite guarded when I write. Congrats again on the house!
from ava-reborn :
That actually makes sense as Brettin does look like you two! Aside from the colouring. Thanks for explaining it. I'm glad you didn't think I was being too nosy! I didn't realise you'd had so many piercings! I have many of the same, although I've never had my eyebrow done. You might have seen the photos I've posted of my piercings. I wouldn't have guessed you'd been into piercings! I'm enjoying getting to know you! It was great to see a photo of Jordan too!
from ava-reborn :
You're more than welcome! I'm just being honest! I know how scary it is posting photos of yourself! Everytime I do it I instantly regret it! What other piercings do you have apart from your nose? Oh, and sorry to be nosy, but I have another question! Is Brettin adopted? I just noticed her colouring is a lot darker than the rest of your family. You're all pretty though!
from jamsjunction :
I hope that you dont mind, I added you to my myspace. I love the pictures. I have to go back and look at the weddings ones again. Slow dial up here lol. Have a great day!
from alifewithin :
Thank you for the note from a while back. I'm sorry for the long noteback time, but it's been crazy. She's not doing that great, but after basically constantly reminding her, she got something done, and I guess that's all I can expect from her at this point. Congrats on the new job!
from starlight42 :
I like your new profile pic!! I think it's cute. As for your latest entry about Adam being Sophie's daddy, I think it's great that everything feels so natural with him. I guess that means it should, adn it's just meant to be. I think she's got everything she needs in a dad, in him.
from alifewithin :
check your myspace since I sent a message for you there! And I hope the house situation works out. I can kinda understand because I'm in the same situation about college. Once I sign up for orientation, I feel like my college career is set in stone and I'm fairly nervous about whether I'm making the right decision or not.
from fluttrbykiss :
Hi. I just wanted to let you know that I stopped by and read a few of your most recent entries and that I really like you writing style. I think that it's really cool that you're thinking of getting a house. I hope everything works out for you. I hope you don't mind, but I'll be back...
from busymomof2 :
Hi! I hope you don't mind that I have been lurking through your diary. I wanted to drop you a note. I am still pretty new at all this so I am just looking to meet some new moms. Have a great day.
from lindzeeleigh :
Hi! So glad I found you again - rather randomly through starlight42 - I used to read you years ago and thought it was neat I stumbled upon your diary again. I would like to add you as a fave once again. I am so happy to hear that things are going so well for you now. You deserve it. :)
from eggsaucted :
That kind of comment would never make me pissed off at you. I'm not really pissed off at Kevin, he thinks he's being funny that it's no different than the normal teasing he does about anything else, but this really bothers me and he doesn't get that, and I've told him and he still doesn't get it. It's not like I have garbage all over the place or an unsafe environment for our child. I know I'm not a neat and tidy person and I also know I'm a pack rat. I save everything, ok not everything but more than I should and we don't exactly live in a palace so I don't really have room to save everything. So if you look in the nooks and crannies and the corners there are piles and right now because of everything my piles are not even remotely neat. So Kevin picks on that and makes a point out of looking at it and I feel awful. I'll be fine, it's who I am and I will never be Martha Stewart. Kevin needs to do a lot of things and he is far from perfect but I love him and he loves me. Thanks for sticking up for me. Have a great day.
from youdontknome :
Thanks for your recent comments, I really really appreciate them! Also, the link on your comment page to your notes is wrong. :)
from imazook :
Hi, I stumbled upon your diary thru Katie's (marilyn's). I hope you don't mind that I add you! :)
from marilynstar :
Just got your comment on my last entry (Feb 19th) and was wondering if you had any advice for me. I'm in a rut.
from lightupnight :
I just read your Never, Ever entry and it struck a cord with me, of course. I feel that way about a guy I dated when I was 16. He was almost like the "first true" love I ever had, or at least I remember it being that way. With Mark, I feel differently than I did about this guy, but there's this place in my heart that always wonders if this guy still has any feelings for me because he nad I gave off the impressions and words to each other that we would never be apart and then one day, it just wasn't going to happen anymore. And I was torn and confused for a while and started doing a lot of stupid things and strangely enough, it was during these stupid things that I first met Mark and then here I am now, all these years later... about to get married to him. It's crazy how things have a way of working themselves out even when you think you can never get over things.
from nixtress :
Well. My younger brother B. is still completely immersed in all the stupidity that a 21 yr old boy can be. We still haven't gotten a complete picture as to what he has or hasn't done. I don't know if we ever will. The family counseling wasn't in regard to that, however. I was involved with someone who decided to have a long term affair that I found out about just in the last month. I was/am concerned about the effects all the changes might have on my boys...so far, so good, I think. I'm keeping my fingers crossed! Thanks for the invites :)
from smedindy :
Hey! Governments have to make money SOMEHOW! Get the house that's a good fit for you and your family in an area that's a good fit for you and yours. Playgrounds are cool!
from theflyingrat :
You would be the best company. ;)
from lightupnight :
I hope I have one too!!! I can't stand this anymore!!! I just want my kid and I want 'em now! :)
from smedindy :
Hey, those things happen, but good people get through them and you did! Have a good day!
from starlight42 :
sorry to hear that you're going through a rough time right now.
from momma-at-17 :
You know I'll want the new info. Keep me updated. Hope things are better with you! **HUGS** [email protected] ~♥~
from tachyonbaby :
password please? Thanks! (tachyonbaby AT outgun dot com)
from alifewithin :
please send me the password! Thanks!
from smedindy :
If you wish, send me the password! Thanks!
from nixtress :
Hey, you. Would love the password for the privates if you're sharing. nixtressAThotmailDOTcom. Welcome home :)
from childofmine :
i would like your private passwords when you make them. congrats on feeling safe with us. *hugs* [email protected]
from arifoxhawk :
Welcome to your new home! =]
from jamsjunction :
I'm here, and have the pw from your other site..is that all I need?
from summer-gale :
Ouch! I remember most of these posts but this recent one .. just ouchies
from sanetwin :
I don't have the password!
from meandmyhouse :
just wondering what the password is, since i seem to have lost or forgotten or whatever. (pathetic me! yikes!)
from lifeofliza :
Be sure to let me know about your password when you unlock ([email protected]). I'm so excited that you're coming out!
from clarity25 :
Yeah, you're comin' out!:).
from lifeofliza :
I'm so proud that you're coming out from hiding! Way to go!
from mamabean :
Hiya! Just wanted to let you know I'm in and reading your archives. I love the entries about baby Madeline Sophie... and loathe the entries about Jordan. I can't believe any of that stuff happened to you, Lerin. I mean, I do believe what you've written, but knowing as I know you (and I feel like I know you pretty well, as odd as that is when you ponder it, really), it just blows me away that such horrible things could have happened to you... I am so incredibly glad that you are out of that marriage and that situation, and incredibly thankful that God sent you Adam to give you the love and support and closeness that you deserve and desire. Thank you God for Your mercy, grace and love for my friend, your precious child, Lerin. Amen. :)

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