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i'm done talking about this subject.
obviously you're still no different, you still use your line that 'i just don't understand'.
so when and if you ever get back to being that girl i once knew, the one i actually liked being friends with, tell her to contact me?
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true-diamond : |
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my add you to my buddy list> It's nice hear someone say that actually love their vibrator. You're a really brave woman.
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true-diamond : |
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my add you to my buddy list> It's nice hear someone say that actually love their vibrator. You're a really brave woman.
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paintedkiss : |
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you can do it.
don't tempt yourself!
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iris001 : |
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I wish you all the best Lex, I truly hope that you'll succeed and come out a stronger, healthier and happier young woman.
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redflye : |
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"THAT WAS A TOP NIGHT LADIES! TOP NIGHT!"
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paintedkiss : |
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so.
i'm feeling in need of some lex one on one time girly!!!
you need to call/email/text/contact in ANY FORM OF COMMUNICATION me sometime ♥
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iris001 : |
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If I had the money I would totally buy your art work. And I agree siblings are most of the time good for absolutely nothing and my sister is also an excellent example of that.
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downloading music comforts me too
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redflye : |
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s'ok baby, I know, I just don't really pay attention cuz I just don't really care :P ^_^
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paintedkiss : |
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check and check.
there's almost nothing better then rugburn... hahah
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paintedkiss : |
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YAY for NOT being preggers!
MWAHAHAH
<3 love you.
thanks for sticking with me tonight, though drunken vanilla vodka times :)
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i dont know if i should be at this but... i hate when people whom i care about or whom i love(d)hate me , its been about 8 months since everything happend and i just want to say sorry, im not appoligising for any thing that happend becouse for the most part it was amazing , im just saying sorry things happend the way they did... any way id think if you'd like we could talk agin (nothing more) i just think its healthy to forgive and put things in the past, witch i have done but i'll always care about you and i started talking to thea so i figured if i could do that i could talk with you as well , well im not going to use this diaryland thing any more, i use a thing called bluekaffee.com its better lol my nick name is ChrisCarter look me up if you'd like or not its up too you, ether way id like to talk to you, you did mean alot to me and i rember how things were and thats enough for me to forgive, my msn name is the same christophercarter1000@hotmail.com hope to hear from you
love always Chris Carter
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For starters, don't fucking tell me that I don't have the right to be upset! You don't know the half of it! The bowling incident wasn't even the original problem, it just topped it all off. I've already spoken with Rosie about how I've been feeling left out and she agreed with me about how we should be spending more time together. The truth is that there have been several occasions when I have been hurt or offended by the two of you and I have almost always kept it to myself. This is the kind of person that I am, like you've said SO MANY times, I'm a pussy. And I now feel like I should stand up for myself for once and tell you how it is and not be a pussy anymore. I don't have many friends anymore, so the last thing I want is to lose both you girls, but I feel like it's happening no matter what I do. There has been this rift between us for a while now, I don't know if you've noticed, that's been keeping us from being as close as we used to be and I wish that would change. But right now I'd rather that I didn't hear from the two of you for a while. So that we don't make all this worse. And you can call me pathetic, you can call me whatever the fuck you want, but we both know it won't help anything.
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it's just sex for a reason...?
maybe he doesn't want commitment.
and whatever happened to that random i met that night? and your soulmate in toronto?
you confuse me so!
but i still love you <3
just don't get caught up.
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redflye : |
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and sadly I still am an embarassement, you left me here all by myself :P
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paintedkiss : |
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hey... i want to hear how tonight went by ;)
leave me a note/message on msn.. and read me!!! i *FINALLY* updated, you'll be glad to know <4
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hello there, haven't talked to you in a very long time... tried to give you a call, no luck... just wanted to see whats goin on, how you're doing, get in touch if ya'd like, ignore me if you'd prefer.
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I liked it too (and not just because of orlando he was a pussy), and one of my future daughter's middle names will be Perseus coz it really is a beautiful name, but it'll be spelt a little differently. p.s - weed sucks!
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we'll be perfect.
Lex
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redflye : |
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I'll be dead with you for a day
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iris001 : |
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You are FANTASTIC!!! I love how you've thrown his immature, stupid, pathetic waste of a life in his face. It's wonderful!
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paintedkiss : |
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is there some sort of chemical imbalance with him that i should be aware of? i mean, things are done. that's the past. why does he keep bringing it up? clearly it makes you feel like shit and he's really adding salt to the wound. [let's hope he reads this] but yes, just ignore him. he just wants your attention and the more you refute, the smaller he feels. yupyup, i liked your entry too, very raw. ♥
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AHAHHAHAHAHAHHA, WHAT A LOAD OF SHIT ON A STICK!!! I'm almost gonna cry because it's so pathetic, nice entry back though lex, and the spelling in his note...holy crap...anyways, ^_^ *smooch*
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its been awhile , im ok if you cared to wounder lol its funny i miss you alot but becouse of you i only realized everything you were saying was true ... thanks for everything lex i hope some day you'll talk too me agin , im not fat anymore lol and im going out with lots of people ( none as perfect as you but meh its a start lol) i got my licence and im buying a ford focus with my aunt things are good , im in unaversity and im becoming a soc. worker , i get my grandparents mansion in two years becouse there moving to florada and they left it too me any ways so its mine , i have everything i want .... well almost but what can i say lex you were right too young , too stupid , well i needed to at least say sorry for it all but hell that house was hell , im happy now caring for my self and not driving to please others like i use too , your a insperation lex and dont give up hope , you'll get your kids and your perfect boyfriend and i'll find my sexy sweet classy bride when im ready , but the more important thing is to respect your self and only through you did i learn that lesson and i have scares to prove it ... love you always ... but never quite the same. i wish you the best alexa thanks agin
Chris Carter
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redflye : |
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..twenty..three..
..twenty..one..
TEE HEE!!!! We can be feather girls together kk ^_^ love you hun
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spkeohane : |
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hey... just so you know, love does exist, you just gotta do it with the right person. someone who's gonna treat you the way you deserve and should be treated... you'll find him, promise.
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scenefour : |
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ps/ i dont use this much anymore. elevenx2 @ livejournal k?
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scenefour : |
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i wannaaa knowww..
we haven't hung out in what seems like ages.
i rented 'sex and lucia' and watched some of it last night. hahaha.
yay for english subtitles.
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spkeohane : |
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hey, it's sean, pass the new e-mail on =)
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iris001 : |
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Gimme, gimme... (your email I mean) :P
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iris001 : |
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Did not signing the lease have any reprocussions???
Go Moffats!!! Of course you can head bang to the Moffats, its the 'cool' thing to do :P You will survive through everything, I know you will. Love you tons and a bit more, Tessa
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lex you're the best poet! And the best best friend ever! I love you soo much!
P.S I'm really really fuckin high! :D:D:D:D:D
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Lexa lucy. The artistic. The strong. The emotional. The skater chick. The cowgirl. The wild cat. The innocent girl. The pole dance. The one who knows everything. Marolyn Manroe, and Venus mixed up as one.
Never forget who you are. And don't ever change. Run away from the world, and let everyone forget about you. And then return, a new woman to eyes that are clear of judgement.
Deja vu is driftwood in the ocean of the mind.
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redflye : |
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cold ice water? I can't tell if thats good or bad ! ^_^
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chriscarter : |
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Hey, its me umm .... ya the bunny is like freaking out now and janet jackson is still looking for you ... i think tony dansa wants your body !? I'll teach him what for!!
I'll be at the hospital later to see you I know you'll be better soon and then we can go pick some sunflowers togather!
-Chris Carter-
PS: man your sexy ;)
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scenefour : |
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i went to the docter and i was on drugs too! but..for a much different reason ;) how are you and chris? i hope you're good! ♥
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iris001 : |
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Your weakness will fade and then your beauty, your confidence and your strong will, will return and take over the world once again. I'm here, always and forever.
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This may be a ridiculously public place to do it, but doesn't that work? I wanted to appologize... now that I think about it both to you and kellie, but more so to you. I never treated you fairly, you gave me a lot, and I never returned that much... if anything at all. I threw it away for something that has more than just blown up in my face, but just the same, at the time, it couldn't continue. Doesn't change what I've done, nor excuse it, but I want you to know I'm sorry. I leave for BC in 10 days. It'd be swell to hear from you.
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personally, i think that you SHOULD go to prom with your friends, and especially me. i've been wanting to go with all my friends, my entire life. and now you're telling everyone you can't? or that you don't want to? i can understand if money is a problem, but you didn't mention that. just because you aren't graduating , doesn't mean anything. rosie isn't either, but you should realize that this would be the last time everyone would be able to get together and have some real fun. i just think you should reconsider, or else you'll miss out...
pleassse think about it. because it won't be the same without you!
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paintedkiss : |
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nothing quite like sex! i'll give you that much...[in fact, nothing better ;o) bad girl for being so bold & posting such things !]
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
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spkeohane : |
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you rock lex, don't let anyone else tell you otherwise ;)
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perineko : |
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The ISU bubbles people place thenselves in are the ones that will guide them to successful, happy futures. Somehow I doubt this Pat character can offer that. Your friends have made the choice to stick through the mundane normality to acheive something grand, and have actually remained more true to you than you seem to realize.
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redflye : |
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Mouwahahah, I know you soooo digged the gatekeeper ^_^
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yesterlife : |
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Don't forget to apply for Black Jack!!
Iloveyou
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yesterlife : |
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I've thought of another reason for you not too. If and when you decide you don't like it, you'll have serious scar tissue, and you'll never have the same sensations again. I have another reason, but i'll tell you next time I talk to you.
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yesterlife : |
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Hey. Here's my opinion. I may have suggested it in the first place,but I didn't think you'd take it to heart. So here's my real opinion, I don't thinkn you should do it for the following reason: the fact that you need other people's opinions on it shows that you're not entirely sure yourself, which means you will regret it later on. Maybe it's just me though, what does my opinion really matter?
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gotmilky : |
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Thats love.
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paintedkiss : |
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i'll help you... just send me your pass.[i know this sorta stuff :p]
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paintedkiss : |
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[open...yet again]
dude. i'm a star!!!! [oh & sycophant...that was the word of the day...way back in the day! scary that it should be again on my favourite number/4/]
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patw-21 : |
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:)
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patw-21 : |
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hey there, glad you liked my diary, and thanks for commenting...cheers!
**pat-trick
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paintedkiss : |
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btw, i'm just in a bad mood, and bitter so...try not to take what i say to heart.
[that's why i started a new page, more or less... so i could start new where no one would know and read it...]
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paintedkiss : |
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i just can't stand a lot of things right now. i'm terribly irritable. i hate how if i start something, you'll pass it on to your friends, and they all start doing it. it just bugs me. i can't explain properly...it just makes sense in my head. soon enough, all of your friends will be doing little things that i do, like listening to my music which i introduced to you, or doing the quizzes i put on my site, or making cast pages...you get it, don't you/
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paintedkiss : |
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what's with the sudden "cast pages" popping up all amongst you and your friends???
ugh...
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yesterlife : |
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I'll be that something if you like...;)
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elyssina : |
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something corporate does rock, :-) . Thanks for the comment on the layout, but ill be changing it soon cos of my recent departing from my boyfriend. YOu know how that is
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iris001 : |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, YOU LOOK LIKE A MONKEY AND YOU ACT LIKE ONE TOO!!! I hope that you have a wonderful day today, coz u deserve it :D hugs and kisses, tessa.
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i don't know whether you should be proud of ashamed of the fact that you may know more about eating disorders than i do.. then again, of course you must. your sister, right?
look, whatever's crawled into you and made you a completely different person, i can only *hope* disappears. you're being hostile for no reason.
as for my "limited views on the world" ... well, can't argue with that, now can i? no..i only write every SINGLE day, NOT about guys, but about life and problems and the such. but of course not, i guess that about cancels me out then. whatever...
when you've returned to being the giddy girl who was happy about most things then come and talk to me. until then, you can remain cold and cynical, but try and do so on your "depressed other friends" time.
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paintedkiss : |
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[side note;; have you ever stopped to think that maybe the people you hang around most often are bringing you this bad vibe?? because it sounds to me like you're unsatisfied with pretty much everything and everyone right now. maybe you should re-think hanging around people who are as depressed as you are, and start hanging around positive people who can literally bring you out of the slump. like me, because we all love me. :p [let me just boast for a sec...]
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paintedkiss : |
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anorexia may start OUT as a psychological problem, but in long run, it's more a disability of the body... where you've run down your body to the point where you no longer nourish yourself. it's more physical then psycological, if you understand where i'm coming from.
as for the arms things, you can most always find some. that goes without saying, you may think that i don't understand you very much [especially when you live in metaphor-world..]but then, you never give me much credit either.
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iris001 : |
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i will never shut you out, I promise. We've both been so depressed lately, away from each other, lets be depressed together :) love always tess
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iris001 : |
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awww thanx hun :P we have to do something weekend, I haven't seen almost all week.
Tessa
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paintedkiss : |
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[mortified! simply mortified]
you are NOT anorexic. don't claim to be...you're healthy & beautiful, just like you should be! and on top of that? if you're suffering from depression, don't wait around for a drug to cure your ails, find comfort in secure arms.
<3
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yesterlife : |
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what is there to say? Hmmm.... I can't think of anything to SAY to YOU right now... maybe a little morphine'd loosen my tongue... ya that'll do
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yesterlife : |
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Such a good song...although...the first line you wrote there is supposed to read "I wanna take off your clothes". Watch the video...;)
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iris001 : |
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I'm sorry that you've been felling shitty lately, but everyone has those days and some people have those months. Just always remember that you're not alone.
Tess
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iris001 : |
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so that must explain your absense at the show that tino bought your birthday present for, is it?
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yesterlife : |
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harsh...call me
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iris001 : |
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Your're right, he won't admit to himself that you're not really an ice-bitch, but he was hurt and yes its pathetic how he's not over it yet. Thats his own problem, I was just glad that he values me as friend and right now, like I said before, thats all i really want.
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yesterlife : |
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Hmmm...perhaps painting was a misuse of time today..;) I think California is the way to go....And whatever PJ says is worth it...it is!
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piijay : |
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being a vrigin isnt SUCH a bad thing. Besides you never know...
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piijay : |
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Of course its worth it. Its pat!
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paintedkiss : |
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stupid boys*** typo..rrr
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paintedkiss : |
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syupd boys & stupid useless problems. in the end you gotta ask yourself; "is it worth it?"
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yesterlife : |
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Well I guess if that's how you see it, it's my job to give you an out right now..it's there if you want to take it
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yesterlife : |
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Because you're really good at it, and you could be the one to change the trends and proove that not all designers are pompous, stuffed shirt, rich gay boys with nothing better to do with their money than treat their dog to a day at the spa...Why not do something you enjoy.
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yesterlife : |
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Next time you need a place to run, my window's always open...I love guitar music...
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paintedkiss : |
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the starting line - you're the best.
okay, let's not talk about being naive okay? this might not be a ♥ note, but it will do for the time being. [where's mine!?] anyways, life is not about making other people happy. 'i' is before 'u', don't forget, don't make the mistake of overlooking it either. let's go crazy &splurge &forget all about boys &their stupid existance, we are so much better off without them. the lackof emotion comes with such a small price... there's no 'blonde spirit' or 'blonde ambition' in me. because i want to buy something, or because i HATE HIS FUCKING APATHY [GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!] but, if i started to get into that you'd have a novel instead of a note. wouldn't want that, now would we? anyways, like i was saying..whatever happened to DESPISING a.e? you would NOT walk in and around there for someone! you woulnd't for me! so don't frigen change for a boy. or else. or ELSE OR ELSE OR ELSE! you hear me? good.
so...yeah, we'll be in touch.
xo
-kel
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paintedkiss : |
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it's about time the tables turned, my dear ;o)
<3 xo -k
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xcheekyx : |
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by the way... [just one more thing ;o)]
he went to have another shower. he was wearing that same yellow towel. i went in first...
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xcheekyx : |
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people got me questioning....`where is the love?
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paintedkiss : |
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fuck 'em running, i say. :op
-kel
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dothedan : |
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damn
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paintedkiss : |
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curious iris',
withstand torture,
the tease,
my eyes
proclaim.
cool stare,
sweat,sweat;
drip, drip,
ooh baby ;)
control urges,
face wall,
excited halls,
scream for,
more.
no, you,
can't go.
can you?
you're enraptured,
crossed arms,
hands on
subtle hips.
'no. stay'
you seem,
to shout,
vigorously, wow.
i'm reeling.
stunned, fully,
stuffed with,
emotional baggage
& courage.
doors slam,
[echo echo];
bang bang.
BOOM.
between the,
space here,
& our
lips, locked
in deep,
desire.
we wait,
so patiently.
til...when?
til...then.
til...friday.
friday's hunter,
is on,
the prowl! [me-ow]
on the
loose, unleashed.
all kittens,
beware,
i'm shocked
& amused
at his
blatant apathy;
follow,follow
me;
but WHO
is the
leader?
me.
your eyes
seem to
beg, conceal.
too late.
you're open.
[[[[til...friday!!!]]]] oh bebe. that was so fulfilling.
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paintedkiss : |
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so i step inside, pour a glass of wine..with a full glass and an empty heart, i search for something to occupy my time. but you are in my head, swimming forever in my head, tangled through my genes, swimming forever. so i listen to the radio, and all the songs we used to know..now its morning light, and its cold outside, caught up in a distant dream..
so i leave my bed and i try to dress. [the corrs / radio] mhm. <3 -k*
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paintedkiss : |
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another note for you,dear.
i was drawing today, [& i haven't done that in God knows how long...] & i finished White Oleander, & i gazed out the window lovingly to the world below, all the while, Bjork pumping through the speakers [hi/fi, no doubt] and my thoughts found their way back to him. him & his humble abode. and how would have thought that i could have been so easily sucked in, manipulated, pulled by his certain gravitational field?!? this is ridiculous. but everytime i hear 'i miss you', it reminds me of him. seductive lies whisper from him ALWAYS , always... sultry, and unmistaken. ah, please...we have to get my head straight...
-k
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paintedkiss : |
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awww lexy... i called, but your brother said you were gone. [where, oh where, art thou??] shucks... i really wanted to chill! but i went out to visit my grandparents today, and also stopped @ bayshore to get some stuff...got some new shades, and a shirt. [score!] still looking for the perfect sandels though...we should go hunting! ;op sometime soon!
-k
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piijay : |
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Im from adelaide ;)
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piijay : |
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Not much effort in todays entry huh lexa lucy. In case you didnt clue in its pj, just thought i'd say 'hey' so.. hey...
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paintedkiss : |
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i.m confused. and i can.t think straight, not like if i had the choice i.d choose that direction anyways. you are one fickle , everchanging girl!! and i mean that in the best possible way, i do. you really must sort out your priorities, and by doing so, you will *Finally* figure out what you want, what.s important to you, and what.s not. don.t always feel the need to cling to someone else who has the potential to make you feel better about who you are...you don.t need anyone to help you realize what and who you are. don.t ever need any GUY to make you feel special about who you are, cause you ALREADY stand out so much.
'night.
xo kel
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toying : |
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Drape yourself across comfort.. What a thought! Wouldn't it be nice to be so relaxed and so at peace that we could just sway and bend with whatever life decided to throw at us? Good luck! :-)
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schwanz : |
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hey there..very artistic, you're good at musing and psyching yourself out, lol.
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paintedkiss : |
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completely and utterly hopeless.i sit here, and wait, and wonder, and stare out the window to a world where to a billion people i don't even exist. and i wait for a phone call that may never come..[don't jinx it now kel.. :.] ever get that? those consistant lyrics running, pouring, and they never cease? screaming infidelities... and everytime i turn on the radio i hear a little reminder of him, so i switch it to another station and it's him again, and the phone rings but it's not for me. he's so fake.
and i'm still ever so subtly hopeless, resting on this thing line between regret and love.
it'll never change. let's just hope he does, for my sake..and sanity. :)
'and as for me i wish that i was anywhere...' you get the picture ;)
k <4 xo
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