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GRIZZLY: I answered your question about our Closet (or tried to, anyway) over here: http://the-clan.diaryland.com/ds.html Hope it helps, and thanks for wondering.

from the-clan :

NINJA: Holy shit! When'd you unlock your diary, dawg? How's life been treatin' you? Well, seein' from yer latest entry, not too great, eh? Moochin' relatives suck. We've had our share of 'em. Well, jus' one, really, but that bastard leeched off enough for a fam'ly of four! An' I agree fer th'most part about Christmas turnin' people into a buncha overstressed, irritable assholes. I'd oughta know. (UPS employee here goin' on eight years, n' nuthin' gives ya' the warm holiday fuzzies like a screamin' customer tryin' ta crawl up any of yer open orifices 'cause they's want their package NOW.) Anyhow, hope the new year treats ya' better. It was cool fin'lly readin' ya. You got gorgeous eyes, anyone ever tell ya that? 'Course they have. Peace, yo.

from the-grey-one :

dang man! that's awesome. and thank you for the words of wisdom! they were very nice to read.

from the-grey-one :

haha awesome! thank you... but i have no idea what i'm doing with it, so you may very well end up in tears!

from the-clan :

BB: You are so sweet and nice and we're so sorry for worrying you! We're doing better now, really. I've taken up embroidery to help with my nerves and we're trying to coax Svl into drawing again. NINJA: I ain't all that good at this shit, but thanks. For carin' enough to worry 'bout some paranoid mooks y' never even met. You've no idea how much it brightens up our Closet. Peace, yo.

from the-clan :

BB: Thanks so much for your kind words. You're an angel! I know you probably left that note a long time ago, though. We just got internet back up at home, so we hadn't been updating our stuff very often. Sorry about that.//SVL: Seriously, thanks for the good advice. We're still struggling with the whole trust issue thing. And you're right - it is us older ones that over-think things. All the kiddos want is someone to hug and play with, I think. Speaking of which, hugs and cuddles your way! (Not just from the kids, either.) :)

from msjessica :

Do you give out passwords? My email is [email protected] just in case. Hope to hear from you x

from annanotbob :

ps LOVE your profile x

from annanotbob :

thanks for the add - can I read you too? best wishes, Anna xxx

from enurta :

i'm sorry about what your mom did to you. my mom treated me like that too, she hit me and said hurtful things to me, my brother hit me too, my dad did the same. but he drugged me from time to time and tried to rape me too, my mom did nothing, when i told her about it years after, about a year ago i think. she didn't believe me, she started laughing and told me I was crazy. that everyone knows I'm 'crazy'. but i still talk to her though...because i love her. but i grew up in a fucked up environment. i got out of there as fast as i could, when i was 17 i ran away from home. now i am almost 23. living with my husband and my cat and my two dwarf hamsters. how old are you? <3

from enurta :

i forgot to ask...since u have a lot of tattoos, you should know the answer to this question. what i'm wondering is, does the tattoo get fucked up if you lose or gain a lot of weight? I'm kind of worried about that. because i always gain and i always lose about 30 pounds from time to time *hugs*

from enurta :

wow. 17 tattoos? my e-mail is [email protected] <3

from noaddedme :

different is ALWAYS good :) [email protected]

from noaddedme :

Since we share a mother (woo hoo!) can I have your password? :)

from enurta :

I've lost your password. can u send the user/pass to me again? *hugs*

from enurta :

thanks.

from enurta :

your lay-out is scary...terrifying...is that a picture of you? WHy did you do that to your own photo? I am too scared to read your journal because i feel like that picture is talking to me and i get scared and panic and think omg, what if all people looked like that...i don't want to live in a world like that....you are a beautiful girl i saw photos of you. why did u do that to your own picture??

from enurta :

Actually, I am not American and I do not live in America. I am a Swedish citizen and I live in Sweden. State funded help still sucks no matter where you live. Well, maybe not in Canada or in France (yeah, I have seen the movie �sicko�). But never mind. I still didn�t get the user/pass, can you try to send it again? Or you can leave it in a note and I can just delete that note after I see it. No, I don�t think the eating disorder is me either. The voices kind of take over me and I see myself from the outside doing it, making myself sick. I just do it to cope, usually when I am stressed or angry or not myself I make myself throw up so the voices can take over and I can become calm. They get aggressive when I defy them, and living, is defying them, they want me dead, so to make them happy, I have to torture myself, burn my arms, drink, take too many pills, binge & purge or cut� When I do that, they leave me alone, for a while. It kind of started when I was a kid, when my dad hit me I used to think �this isn�t me, this isn�t happening to me, I am someone else�. And then poof � the voices where there, or the demons�.I usually call them the voices. I kind of feel like Niki in heroes, have you seen heroes? It�s like something just takes over and I become this different person that is outgoing, social, I put make-up on, I go out, I have sex and do stuff I forget later. It�s like waking up from a dream when it�s all over, really weird. Nobody understands. My therapist just thinks I am making things up, I can see it in her eyes, she doesn�t believe me, all she ever says is �that�s weird� or �I have never heard of anything like that before�. Blah blah blah, I hate her, and I hate my doctor. They are both ignorant and stupid. And they do not understand my black-outs. Because I do black out sometimes and remember nothing. N understand though�he knows that sometimes I am not �me�, I am �the voices�. It is so strange talking to someone like you. It�s like for the first time in my life, someone understands. I don�t feel crazy anymore. I thought I was alone in world feeling like this. Thank you for writing to me.

from enurta :

I just googled MPD/DID and all the symptoms match perfectly. It doesn't matter what I think though, what matters is what my doctor thinks and he doesn't care. I only see him when I need meds and that's like once every six months, mostly I just talk to him over the phone once a week. He doesn't give a shit about me and my problems are getting worse...I haven't slept in 3 days. I am so tired, I can barely keep my eyes open but I cannot sleep because of the voices and what I see when I close my eyes or when I keep them open.

from enurta :

Thank you for your comment. Actually, my doctor doesn't think I am suffering from schizophrenia...that's what my old doctor thought, this one believes I just suffer from borderline personality disorder but with voices. i have never heard about MPD/DID, never. But I am going to google it now and read all about it...i'd love to read your diary. can you e-mail the user/pass to [email protected]? And you were right about everything, I have never trusted anyone completely and I do not trust myself. And I was abused as a child, molested too. Unfortunately, I cannot change doctor because I have no money. This doctor I have now SUCKS, I fucking know but there is nothing I can do about it. He�s a state funded doctor, what can I do? He is the only one working at the clinic and he doesn�t take my problems seriously or he doesn�t even care. He just doesn�t give a crap and I am not getting the help I need because I have the wrong diagnosis.

from the-clan :

Wow, you added us as a favorite. (Sure, it was probably last year, but hey. We barely noticed, sorry.) We're really flattered. And you even added a comment on it, which made Jack squeal and slither all over the place (in a good way). So, thanks. It made us all feel good.

from mawce :

I have dibs on Toronto. You can have the rest. How am I the ass master? I mean, I know I have a nice ass and all...but master? :P Chains are good. I'd get tired of the ones who don't actually like being chained up pretty quick though. They're always downers, even if you gag/beat/whip/fuck them into submission, you can still tell it isn't their thing. And they're just no fun. (granted, my views on the matter come from typically a slightly different angle than yours)

from mawce :

Okay, but I get two of them. I'll swing them aroung shouting at the top of my lungs, and when anyone asks what I'm doing (which few will) I'll reply that I'm practising cock-fu. I shall be the Cock-Fu master (Until my sub gets drawn out). I will train others in the art of beating people with rubber phalluses. The world will be perfect.

from mawce :

Maybe. Chances are, you say anything with more punch than a glass of water and you're gonna lose half the ppl. But then again, they pulled it off in GTA:SA. Never again will there be that many pubescent boys running around waving long, double headed purple dildos (and forcefully applying them to other males no less). Ah, good times, good times.

from mawce :

I've always been more of a polka-dots and stripes kind of person. But I think they should have coded a sex toy store into that game. Oh, the fun to be had with the walking dead, a bottle of lube and a massive dildo...

from cacislave :

Dear Ms. Liz Bathory; This is Bill Kahle from Indianapolis Indiana. I have tried several times to write to you at the address listed below. [email protected] And I am too cheep to sign up for their expanded services using a credit card who balance I am making an honest effort to pay off. Still I really would like the opportunity to start a dialog with you that could lead to the real possibility of finding myself restrained, naked; eyes wide open behind a blindfold and screaming into a gag. OK, that is a little melodramatic, but the point is that I would like to give you my contact information, and assure you that if you send an email to the email address listed below, I will respond with the email that I have been trying unsuccessfully to send to you. [email protected] Hopefully this will establish a dialog. If after you read the information, you decide that I am not what you are looking, that is OK as well. BDSM is a two way street and it requires a connection that works between the Top(s) and the sub before adult play can move forward. I may not be what you are looking for, but I would sincerely like the opportunity to find out. Please write me when you have a chance. Bill Kahle Jr. 1710 Park North Way Indianapolis, Indianapolis 46260 Phone: 317-228-1232

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