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i can totally relate to you. you just got to look for something good in your life. mine was my boy friend. eventually he broke my heart but i still was able to be happy on my own.

from bi-polar :

Hey, Just thought of you today and wanted to say hi. I would have emailed you but i cant find the address. ~Kati

from morgendoffer :

I have fallen in an endless adoration, not in a stalker way, with your writing style. Your gentle manipulation of the morbid angst and the bold intelligence has rendered a praiseworthy diary. The blood of the innocent will be spilled on each entry that you post. Please spill some on my door when the chance arises. My diary land virginity seems like a prepubescent boy basking in your shadow, so take it easy. I will look forward to reading more of your work/personal problems.

from angelkiss07 :

I can relate. just don't let stuff get you too down. it's not healthy or fun. laying in a bed feeling sorry for yourself is hell. like the rest of life, but you have to keep going.

from etherealrevu :

you got a review up---see it wasn't three years, even if it wasn't from brenda (it was from valerie)

from l-y-s-s-a :

OMG! U need to get a grip on life, u go on and on about all the bad stuff that happens, take a look around at what u do have, god has given u everything u DO have and all u want to do is complain!

from autumn-death :

Roommates suck big time, huh?

from kaylagirl :

i've spent the last few days reading your diary and find you extremely interesting. you are the reason i joined tonight. not sure if i will ever have a diary but i really enjoy reading your thoughts.

from paperxflower :

Long time no talk. Though things ended with us in an argument, I have kept you at the top of my buddy list, continued to read every entry you write, and wanting so badly to write you again. Even though we got into a fight last we talked, something has kept me longing for contact with you. You may not feel the same. In fact, you may hate my guts. And if you do, I imagine I deserve it. Even still, I just finally got the guts to write you again, so here you go.

from meandering80 :

cool, i like what you've said so far and my husband said you got a pretty good summary of me and that you almost got me down to a tee. I really liked that too and may be going back to that soon. And I may also put some pics of my kids. And some updated pics of my kittens. Anyway, yeah go ahead and mix it a little, meaning to do the review based on the old and new layout, that is if you don't mind. Thanks. C-ya!

from blondebaby24 :

Hello. Even though i'm only 14 i think i understand how you feel (about being lonely and no one cares). my I.D. for diaryland is blondebaby24 (beleive me I'm not a prep cause i know it sounds that way) Take a look at my profile and my diary.

from smockgirl :

Roger that! Your review will be donw by the weekend *at the latest* (two midterms on friday...BLAH) Thanks for your patience!

from smockgirl :

Okies, I'll keep checking back to see when you've got it back up and running. Sorry for the huge delay lol, you'll stay on the top of the list until you get your review.

from etherealrevu :

Hi there, Brenda here. I was about to review your diary, but your layout doesn't seem to be working at the moment (diaryland account expired?) I'll put you off for the moment though you'll still be at the top of our list; just get back to me when you can (http://smockgirl.signmyguestbook.com or drop me a note at etherealrevu) and let me know what you want to happen regarding your review. Thanks for your patience.

from paperxflower :

I love you girl. I really hope you and I are okay.

from darkfairy13 :

I love your diary ^_^

from raven72d :

And yet it's so scary to think that there's not another presence out in the dark that cares to listen, cares to be around you.

from jade1821 :

Hi hi hi hi hi!!! I am so happy to hear from you! Pass the magnum to me when you are done. I have started having nightmares now on top of everything. And I am home with my mom and everythin gis awful and she is the world's biggest hipocrite. Have to get out of here. I hear you... Definitely feeling friendship and connection and other vibes from you... My email is [email protected] I will email you when I get home from work at a decent hour or when the work computer allows me to do so. Antidepressants are useless, just for the record. Where have you been? Don't worry- we will always pick up where we left off. Hang in there. Catch me up on details and such- vent away. ***Hugs and love and support oozing from me to you*** (And other such sappiness) :p~~~

from bi-polar :

^_^ its good to know you are still out their, ive missed you and your writing, dont hesitate to email me if you want to talk. keep writing, ive missed your diary so much! ~kati

from raven72d :

I just discovered you this evening... You're someone I hope to read for a long time.

from jade1821 :

Missing you and your words terribly... Wish I could say something... My words are feeling empty to me right now... Just know that I care and that you are in my thoughts... If you need anything...

from jadedmist :

Babe I sure miss you.... where are you girl? E-mail me or something... MMMWWWAAA! xoxo

from jade1821 :

I am so sorry... I feel like my words are so empty when I need them the most... Just hang in there... I will write when I can... Still stuck in the depression facility... Take care... Breathe...

from jadedmist :

You left me a note a little while ago after I wrote the thing about my cousin, (which I have moved to my private entries,) and I was so happy to hear from you. I really miss you when we don't write to eachother. I can relate to you so much, and you know that. And I know you can relate to me in a lot of ways, too. And girl, I can't even count how many times I've been in your shoes about the love thing. I'm in those shoes right now actually. And they're pretty damn uncomfortable if you know what I'm saying. I love you so much, I can't even tell you. You are such an incredible person, you REALLY are. XOXOXO

from jade1821 :

Hey... I feel you right now... To put it lightly I have gained about 15 lbs and they are trying to stick me in one of those women help centers for depression, eating disorders, alcoholism, etc. but of course my insurance doesn't cover it and at $1,500 a day I could afford maybe 15 minutes if I didn't buy for for about a week. I'm sorry... Too much, just wayyyy too much it never ends... Gotta hang in there though... For the kitty... and the coffee/egg/orange maker people... *sigh* *hug* Drop me a line sometime... *zap* *strength*

from jade1821 :

from bi-polar :

hey Kaila, i havent talked to you in a while, i miss you, and i really want you to feel better ok? email me if you ever want to talk ok? ill be here ~kati

from jadedmist :

Girl, I love you so much. I really do. I have just not been able to handle things lately, and my alters have been taking over much of the time. I don't know how much you know about MPD, and I don't think I've talked to you much about that aspect of me. So that may not make total sense to you about the alter thing. I wish I would quit being triggered by everything, as I have been lately, because when I'm triggered, an alter comes out. And though that can be a good thing because they keep me alive, literally, it can make it very hard to keep up with things, and make it hard to even let my closest friends know that I'm still alive. When I don't write for long periods of time like this, often this is the reason why. I'm still having trouble getting used to talking to other people about my mpd and my alters, so it's weird mentioning it even to you. I am so sorry you are feeling so alone, I have been feeling the same way. I wish I could take all your loneliness away. I am really glad, though, that you got a kitty. Animals can be such a comfort, especially during times like these. Please don't do anything stupid like starve yourself or start purging. It's not worth it, and causes more health problems than you know. Just... PLEASE, be safe. Though I have no room to talk and you know it, but I just don't want you to hurt yourself in any way. Know that I'm thinking of you, I read your diary, and you are never alone.

from elvinarcher :

my friend is actually taking the confession better than i expected. ::surprised:: well, thus once more, another thing has proven that you shouldn't believe everything that seems likely.... oh, whatever! bye.

from rachel-1982 :

You know if they fuck you with the lights on or with out complete darkness then they accept you. I don't think I have the best body either and I still grab my breast after sex so my boyfriend can't see them..he told me to knock it off like he hasn't seen them already and he likes them. So I think that you are being to hard on your self. Cheer up!

from dontdropme :

thank you

from angelicscars :

(hugs) hey babe!! you should see the nasty "hate" note nancy posted on my diary..hehe it's funny, she wrote me some nasty emails too, telling me "i need a life, and at least she's getting in the military"..funny shit :) I passed them along to a lot of people, I might have sent it your way..BAD NEWS!! Andrew shut down Candid-Revu and Review Scars :( Sommer emailed him, and he shut her down and me down...so no more reviews for us, I'm so depressed!!

from kyousha :

Heh, well... it's a good thing there's nothing you can bitch to me about with the review ^^; I try to ask myself "if I were this person what would I want?" I know usually it's 100% but then there would be no point to reviews.

from reviewscars :

Whoops, sorry 'bout that. That's what happens when you do these reviews way in the morning before school. The review you mentioned was for lunablossom; avi scored much higher. :)

from gabriela83 :

Oh wonderful! Then let's do the following: once you are done with Curve Reviews and all send ME an email ([email protected]). And I will take care of everything. Thanks, you are a doll!!!

from gabriela83 :

Ohhh...too bad you didn't join us! But I'm glad you joined Review Scars, Vikki is cool, she also reviews for us. Well, I'm going to keep reading your reviews cos I simply enjoy them. In one word you are: unique. Love always, Gaby.

from gabriela83 :

Hey! Well, as we hadn't heard from you we dismissed the idea *shrugs*. Personally I would LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!!! to have you on the team so I will ask again. I simply enjoy reading your reviews a lot. I will get back to you asap!!! And THANKS!!!! Love, Gaby.

from elvinarcher :

wow, i didn't think you'd find out i read it. did you check who had you on their favorites list recently? well, nevermind. thank you for your support; i just hope that my friend doesn't hate me for doing what i thought was close enough to right. take care, -meg

from angelicscars :

Just wanted to see how my lovely beautiful stalker is doing? I haven't said hi lately, so I'm saying it now and thank you for being such a loyal obsessed fan!! You ROCK (( hugs ))!!

from x-gir-x :

Hey, I just randomly came across your diary. I decided I would inform you of my liking of your template...it is very nice. Yup...wasn't this a nice note?...this was pointless but yes, I really do love your template.. -Sammie<

from cowgirlkym :

I was actually scared about reviewing you! But when I read a few entries I could tell that you were the type of person who would be able to tell immediately if I was bullshitting you. Thankfully your diary was good enough that I could write nice stuff honestly! Keep on writing! Kym -x-

from jade1821 :

I am drying up here, hanging by a thread. It's been too long... Hope everything is ok... Thinking of you...

from gabriela83 :

Hey!!! Its Gaby again (tha gal you reviewed at curve reviews not long ago hehe). This is a note to ASK you to JOIN a new review site called Candid-revu. I am the co founder and the project is just beggining. We are very picky when it comes to admiting reviewers but you came to my mind imediately. Would you please, please think about it and get back to me???. Much love, Gaby.

from cutiepie1983 :

Hey! If you did have the previous and next links, I couldn't find them...But if you do wanna take those suggestions I made and you can always ask for a re-review a month from now! ~Nancy~

from magic-wand :

Hey, it's no big thing. Your opinion is your opinion. I understood exactly what you were saying about some of my entries, but I'm still sticking up for my font and my design. ;) Thanks for [honestly] reviewing me. I was terrified when I saw my name come up underneath your review list to be truthful. But I'm glad I got a different opinion from you.

from marieh :

if you don't mind, can you pass my diary to someone else? i don't know if my ego could deal with harshness right now...

from sxyangel :

i understand what ur sayin n no im not gonna go all curse u out for what u said. coz i kno what ur talkin bout. i keep a REAL diary for myself n that prolly has more meanin then this one. n my REAL one i only let a few ppl see coz i trust them but there r certain ppl who read my diary hehe u kno what im talkin bout? anyway thanks for the review hehe n glad to have talked to (sorta) a philly grl hehe :)

from usagiangie1 :

honesty is what I'm looking for, but please read some of the later entries instead of the earlier ones...I've matured a bit in that past couple of months...I'd love for you to review me

from jade1821 :

Sorry sorry sorry LIfe is crazy as usual... I am at home with my parents for the holidays... They have a dial-up connection and an extremely slow computer and it just makes me crazy to type something only to be kicked off the internet constantly so I avoid it as much as possible. I go back to school soon and I will be back to my computer, freedom, life, woo-hoo... Yeah, right. Anyway, I just went through and read your entries so that I would be up to date again... I feel like I am missing an arm... Or my eyes... I thought I might die when I read "this darkness." Something nothing everything and it's all the same always anyways... Sorry for being away so long... I have been aching for diaryland, lol, it's my new addiction. One that I don't plan on giving up anytime soon... or far... It's probably the healthiest addiction yet... I'd like to kiss whoever created it... That would probably get me into more trouble, it always does... [email protected] or Jade1821 on AIM. Put something about diaryland or Kaila in the subject or I'll figure it's junk mail or a virus or something, lol. Hope the rainbows are brighter, and that the rain is just enough to hide in...

from bi-polar :

happy holidays to you too kaila ^_^. thanks you for the never eneding stream of compliments i seem to get form you about my diary . . hehehe itmakes me feel good about myself.You know it is odd, about that whole dreamlover thing in my entry and that you wer talking to me about, sometiems hwen i close my eyes i can rememebr things like a touch or a whisper that i have never really felt. Sometimes i think it is just my imagination and sometimes it is just to real of a memory. and this probably will sound odd coming from someone alot younger than you but dont be concerned about not having any prospects at 24. One of my closet friends is 20 and still awaits a first kiss and first date. besides, i know you will never be alone. Email me sometime, when you arent being lazy :P ::huggles:: ~kati

from jade1821 :

Thank you. That's all I can say right now, have to go and spend time with the family... sigh. But thank you. You have no idea how big an effect your words can have... *HUG* More later... Promise... (Thanks again) ;)

from jadedmist :

uhhh, when I said, "...then my pathetic computer had to go and get all jacked up ricked when I clicked send!..." I have no clue where the word "ricked" came from. I can't figure out why it's in the middle of that sentence, or why I would put it there. It's not even a word.... okay, wow. As you can see, I am apparently really needing to sleep. Who knows, I might've put some other stupid non-word in this note, when the whole purpose of this note was to correct myself. haha, ok, ummm... yea. good night. LOL =)

from jadedmist :

DOH! I just wrote you this stinkin long note and then my pathetic computer had to go and get all jacked up ricked when I clicked send! Grrrr. Well, I'm way too tired to type it again. But I did write you an e-mail, though, after I read that entry. So you can read that when you get the chance. Night girl, thanks for wishing me happy birthday, and for running across the mountains so it was still my birthday, lol. =)

from love-is-pain :

duh, I wrote myself a note, omg, lol, that was for you Jade *slapping myself*

from love-is-pain :

lol. You've got mail. Hell, you have an entire diary entry devoted to you. *smile* - em, the one before my love for Claire the Transsexual. It's called, "My companion on my trip through hell" - whoo-hoo. I just ranted and went off on someone for like, 2 hours! and don't have an ounce of energy left. I mean, GOD I fucking hate that fucker! (Tell you about it later). No, I don't mean my little bro (smile)

from jadedmist :

KAILA, whaz up girl?? Ok, sorry, I don't know, I'm just a crazy freak, haha. Well hey, two Jades in a row have written you a note, funny heh? I just wanted to write and say that I miss you and am thinking of you! (I'm too lazy to go to my e-mail. Not that you've ever done that or anything. Oops, did I say that out loud?) Hey are you going to be a psychologist? Dude, you need to get out their and show up all those boring loser psychologist's that have no clue what any of their patients are going through except what they read in a book. Kick some shrink ASS. haha ;) Well anyway, I think I've bestowed enough stupidity on you for the night... (I don't know what I'm on, I swear this just came out of nowhere all of a sudden. You'd think I smoked something. But the scary thing... is that I DIDN'T! lol) Anyway, love you girl, hope to hear from you via e-mail or note or something sometime again soon! XOXO

from jade1821 :

Thank you. My eyes widen with your every word... When I am at my lowest of lows I write. And then I check to see if I have any new notes. And of course I don't, only making me lower. But yours is still there for me to see. Everytime I see it I end up checking your diary, which is at least once a day. It helps to know that I am not the only lost soul, that I am not the only one hurting... Simply hurting... And so much more... By the end of one entry, I feel just a little less alone. So again I thank you. Keep rising through it all... Our written words are the echoes of our souls that we cannot piece together aloud, that we cannot share. Thank you for sharing your beauty with us. Sorry for the corniness... Another day on the list of bad days... Trying to make it through without crashing again... *Sigh* Thank you...

from jadedmist :

you've got mail :)

from angelicscars :

oh!! i forgot, I PROMISE i'll never change my name again..I love angelic scars so much, i never want to leave it!

from angelicscars :

you finally added me to your buddy list, im so honored =) that's all I had to say, take care!!

from jade1821 :

All I can say is wow. I randomly read a few of your entries and there were tears in my eyes. Please keep choosing you... Someone needs to have that strength... Writing my thoughts away trying desperately to do the same... Thank you for your message... You were my first note, the first to take an interest... Hope today is a better day for you... Trying like hell amidst the rain and the tears to make it work somehow for me...

from sad-doll :

Your name is so true, love is pain. It's always been painful for me. Please do write back to me you seem so wonderful <X3 always, Audrey

from crying-dove :

I really like the way you write, comical yet true, I don't really know how I came across this, take a look at my diary, please leave me a note. x

from raska :

That was so considerate of you to leave me a note- it was my very first. Thanks. As for Piccolo's good/evil background, I'm not too keen on those details either. The brunt of my focus is on the prince. I'm sorry about your turtle. May life take a break from the curses and bestow a human friend on you.

from jadedmist :

OH MY WORD, I could not feel more sorry right now... I can't believe you quit 3 weeks after. And I've wasted all this time that I could've been talking to you... FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!! I have missed you so much, and take my word for it... I am NOT tired of you. Couldn't be further from it. I can relate to you too much to be tired of you. :) I am genuinely sorry that I hurt you, I never meant to. I honestly didn't know I meant that much to you. I didn't think I meant that much to anyone to be honest. Damnit, I'm an ass.... oh hey, if you want to start e-mailing this ass again, haha, don't e-mail me at my aol address anymore. E-mail me at [email protected] . I would love to start things up again. I miss you girl!

from jadedmist :

I LOVE the layout you did by the way, gorgeous :)

from jadedmist :

Girl, I can't believe I haven't written you in such an incredibly fucking long time. Man... I do have to fess up to something, though. The honest to God reason that I quit keeping in touch with you, is because you said you worked at an animal lab. That may (and probably does) seem completely stupid and idiotic, but animal labs make me shitfaced angry, and I would love nothing more than to blow them all up with everyone that does the tests in them. I know you just clean it or something, (can't remember exactly what,) but for some reason I couldn't get past that. Animals just have saved my life (literally) too many times to count, and I just simply can't bear the thought of animals living their lives in pain. I really don't want to make you mad, you were (and still are) such a great friend to me, and I do miss talking to you a lot, but like I said, I guess I just have trouble comprehending how you could work there. I really do love you, and I wouldn't be risking things by telling you this if I didn't. I really hope you know that. I'm sorry I didn't just tell you the truth months ago, but what can I say, I'm the biggest fucking coward I know...

from sewer-rat :

I love your layout. It's so pretty. I should really get around to doing one myself but I'm lazy.

from ciaramyst :

Thank you so much for the nice note.

from rei-ality :

Your title caught my eye, just wanted to say I seized the opportunity to check out your diary. Your entries hit home with me. Love the template.

from review-world :

Hello! Your review is up. Unfortunately, you got stuck with the bitch reviewer me) who basically gives out 40's to 50's. But you can find it at http://review-world.diaryland.com/loveispain.html Thanks for letting me read you.

from bi-polar :

kaila, i jsut observed that you locked your diary, just wondering why ~kati

from unluved1 :

just thought I'd let you know that I am a guy.

from bi-polar :

hey i tried to email you but it boucned bak so ill leave u a message: i jsut wanna say that the card u sent me and what u said in that email has to be the single msot wodnerful thing anyone has ever said to me or about me . . .you left me speechless, thank you

from saftey-pin :

i have nothing more to say

from bi-polar :

yeah, im just cool like that, me and my mind readin powers ^_^ actually the subject had come up a few dyas ago and jsut kept reoccuring and stuff until finally i had to write about it. . . odd . . . . as soon as u fele like emailing me go ahead, heh, i need some stuff in my inbox to make me feel loved

from bi-polar :

awww dont say ur note was stupid, thats my self esteem note, reading it makes me feel special ^_^, heh

from mia-xxx :

im sorry i didnt quite understand what you meant by your private life? well, i wanted to tell you i did take you advice somewhat in easier navigation. i prefer to keep the page simple. no html. no flashy pictures. its a rush, the simplicity, the honesty, the anonymous nondescriptness of it all...

from mia-xxx :

kaila (beautiful name) thank you for leaving me a msg and briefly having me as a favorite, interested in the brutal poetry i have to share, i was nervous for a couple days thinking i was saying too much but then i thought, the anonymity of my diary is the most climatic part of it. sex is all. kisses, mia.

from bi-polar :

thank you, for what you said . . some how those are the only words i can come up with at the moment . . . no u didnt sound trite or stalker-like, God, it is just so wonderful to hear . . . i nearly cried when i read your note . . i jsut . . . i'm really bad at communicating to people, so bear with me. Everytime i read your diary i did a double take, you always sounded so familiar, every time ir ead it i felt like somehwere in the back of my head i had met you before, ,this sense of familiarity that was eerily profound, and it took me forever to realize it, even after we bopth commented to eachother that we sounded similar. but it wasnt until recently (didnt i already say that phrase) that i realized that it was me all along, when i felt like i had met oyu before, when i flet like you were someone i knew, it was me, a very vague acquantaince i know. . . . and i don't know what my point was, aside from basically saying ditto in a somewhat profound way, so I'll shut up now. thanks

from femaleescort :

I'm so glad you loved my diary, I've been through so much with that girl lily, I'll start writing again now that I have time please keep reading.

from bi-polar :

hewwo, tis i, kati. i saw that entry you made where you said you missed my updates, it made me feel wuvved. sadly m computer is dead so i have been without internet for a couple months ::mope:: you probably already know that though, i do sneak on my brothers laptop ocassionally so feel free to email me ^_^

from vortex79 :

Sorry about the lockout, I can't use my email from this computer and I won't be back at my regular one for about a week... As soon as I can, I'll let you in...

from bi-polar :

welcome to the non-existant diary ring don't u feel better, you have been welcomed now ^_^ heh no my turtle dnamed myrtle didnt die, we ahd to set her (or was ir a him) cause it was too old. i hoppe you feel better, jsut keep in mind something that has helped me through depression, that nothing is permanent, that eventually the pain will end.

from vortex79 :

Sorry, I'm not a female... I'm getting kinda used to that though... By the way, you like Rhea's Obsession? Try This Ascension... same wavelength...

from bi-polar :

ok, im freaked out, after i saw that u had me down as a favorite i read ur diary and ur right u do remind me of me at ur age . . ok that makes no sense oh and i used to have a trutle named myrtle too

from bi-polar :

ok, im freaked out,a fter i saw that u had me down as a favorite i read ur diary and ur right u do remind me of me at ur age . . ok that makes no sense oh and i used to have a trutel anem myrtle too

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