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Hi sugar - I hope you have a wonderful holiday!! Can you send me the link to your other journal again? I've been missing you!! Take care honey. xx luxe

from catsoul :

Hi, Merry Christmas to you. Any chance to get your password? My e-mail address is: [email protected] Take care...drive safe if you are out and about. =^..^=

from luxelady :

hey i know you're locked and everything but i just wanted to drop by and say that i hope you're doing well...xx luxe

from luxelady :

oooh you changed the pw!! i respect your decision but if you change your mind please please please i want to be the first one to get the pw!! ;-)

from ethereal-red :

Sorry your day was so bad. I think you should call the psychiatrist and make an appt (you HAVE the courage!). He/she will be much more helpful to you thank Katherine is able to be.

from ethereal-red :

It's good that you can recognize your mood patterns and when you are about to fall into the hole.

from ethereal-red :

I'm glad you received compliments on your weight loss, because you deserve every one.

from ethereal-red :

I am glad things are smoothed over between you and Judy. And as for your period-- being on birth control would regulate it like clockwork.

from ethereal-red :

Wow, 50 pounds! That's a lot! As for Judy, I sure hope she answers your email.

from ethereal-red :

Congrats on your weight loss. You are now 32 pounds less than I am! You're one of my weight loss inspirations for sure! :) And I am so sorry about you not being able to say good-bye to Judy. I can't imagine how difficult this situation is for you! I know that you so badly wanted closure.

from ethereal-red :

If you gain a pound or two, try to not beat yourself up too much. Just get back on track and continue with your diet.

from ethereal-red :

Nachos rock!

from ethereal-red :

Oh okay. I misunderstood. Well, at least you've got Marilyn.bnh

from ethereal-red :

I am so glad you have judy in your life. She sounds awesome. You will be seeing her during school, then?

from ethereal-red :

I am sure it is just water weight, especially since you stayed within your calorie limit.

from ethereal-red :

I am so proud of you for losing all that weight! YES! I can't wait until I am no longer obese. It will be a fabulous day when that scale reads that number.

from ethereal-red :

I love Apples To Apples. Haven't played that game in ages! And I'm glad you had a good time with Alyssa at her party despite the no-caffeine-for-you akwardness.

from ethereal-red :

I don't have an xbox or a wii. A Wii Fit would be super interesting, I think, since you can do yoga on it.

from ethereal-red :

I am happy you had a good talk with Judy. I hope you can get some more things clarified about the hole when you see her next.

from ethereal-red :

I am so happy that you are going to be able to see Judy in the future, and are also going to be able to see a psychiatrist.

from ethereal-red :

I hope your period pain eases up. That always sucks when it's really bad like that. :(

from ethereal-red :

With your mood disorder nos, the depression episodes will just come and go as they please. Some things you could do to help yourself during the episodes is vigorous exercise (helps lift the mood) and making sure to not isolate. Try to get out and do things, you seem to be doing a pretty good job of that lately. Sorry I can't be of more help.

from ethereal-red :

Sorry you had a bad day. :( I am curious about this jonathon w. guy. Is he an ex-boyfriend? If you don't want to talk about it, it's okay.

from luxelady :

i'm so sorry your day was so terrible ((((hugs))))

from ethereal-red :

I am very sorry about your experience with Hollister. I am sorry people were so rude to you there and didn't get you a dressing room... I have issues with that store and refuse to buy anything from there. It's such an elite, trendy, expensive store... like Abercrombie and Fitch. It's all about the label.

from ethereal-red :

Congratulations on your weight loss. I am seriously SO jealous. I have been trying for almost two years now to lose weight and it's just starting to come off. Damn metabolism. My eating disorder destroyed it and sent it into long-term hibernation. I have lost two pounds this first week since my exercise was drastically increased, let's hope I can keep losing!

from ethereal-red :

At least you are aware that you overdid it, and are not in denial about it.

from ethereal-red :

Congratulations on finishing the picture video! And I hope you have a good time at the party.

from ethereal-red :

Make sure to not tell me ANYTHING about the XF movie. I don't want any spoilers sneaking out! :) I am so excited to see it, I hope to go sometime next week. Yay!

from ethereal-red :

Sorry about your experience at the gym. That sounds like it would have been scary! It must be frustrating for you to want to get so much done in therapy, and yet have only five weeks to do it. I would hate that.

from ethereal-red :

Personally, I never thought you had an ED, so I think Judy is right. You just don't have the mindset of an ED person, not from what I've read of you and your diet. I'm glad you are relieved to find out that Judy doesn't think you have an ED!

from ethereal-red :

Sorry Judy never called OR emailed you back. Considering you are seeing her as a client for the summer, I think that's kind of rude. Even a curteousy call would have been nice. Best of luck with the soccer game!

from ethereal-red :

How do you stop the depression cycles? Well, unless you are on medication to help regulate your mood and stop the cycling, you really can't do much to stop them. You can do things to cope with the cycles and to get through them. Oftentimes depression has to be weathered out until it passes.

from ethereal-red :

I think seeing a psychiatrist is a good idea. A psychiatric nurse practitioner just isn't the same, not in the least. I know you'd have to admit your problems to your parents, but usually that ends up being necessary somewhere down the road. And really, meds could probably help you a ton, especially if you really are bipolar II. A psychiatrist could figure out your correct diagnosis. Anyway, that's just my two cents.

from ethereal-red :

I am so glad you got to see your file and see Judy-- and I am glad that it was helpful.

from ethereal-red :

I am really glad you had a great day!

from ethereal-red :

I for one am okay with the fact that you didn't take the job-- yes, it would've been a starting point and all, but at the same time, it would have sucked majorly! You do what is best for you.

from ethereal-red :

I am glad you got a job, even if it's not a very nice one. It's a starting point, right? Right. I am so glad I do not drive right now. I could never afford gas! It's so much more economical for me to just bus everywhere, but then again I do live in St Paul, which is big and very urban. I know that for a lot of other people who live in suburbs that bussing isn't an option.

from ethereal-red :

I'm glad you had a good day. :)

from ethereal-red :

I tend to eat when I am bored at work. I have been eating healthy things though. Still, I need to break that habit.

from ethereal-red :

Did I ever tell you my treatment team thought I had Asperger's for 7 years?! Then they did some neuropsych testing because things weren't matching up and found that, hey, I have borderline personality disorder instead. A lot of the social symptoms are the same. But come on. I was deluded for 7 years. That. Sucks. Anyways-- I'm glad you and your mom had a good time. I think it's awful that Dawn's mother sold Dawn's pets when she moved! How incredibly mean and cruel.

from ethereal-red :

Hi! I am glad the funeral went ok. I love how you list positives in each entry, by the way. It's uplifting.

from ethereal-red :

I'm glad you felt better today!

from luxelady :

thanks for your note, sweetie - i don't know what the hell is going on there. but on the plus side - i am OBSESSED with the Italian national team (have been since Euro 2000 when i was in Italy and it was MADNESS, plus Maldini?? yumm). i totally watched the game on my computer today when i was supposed to be working....oops! ;-)

from ethereal-red :

As you know, I am a vegetarian, so I don't eat bacon, but I LOVE fake bacon. It tastes exactly the same, and has the same crispness, without all the grease. Maybe you should try it-- Morningstar Farms makes a good one!

from luxelady :

bra shopping is so effin frustrating!! i can't do it without crying....i'm happy you were able to find some! and a size 12!! wooo!!

from ethereal-red :

Congratulations on fitting into a size 12! Dropping pants sizes is a wonderful feeling. I hope that once my meds are changed that I, too, can be dropping the pants sizes soon...

from ethereal-red :

It is fun indeed when you can save up enough calories to have something special! I love being able to do that with my meal plan. :) It's so flexible! And congratulations on your weight loss. :) I wish I could lose the weight. Perhaps this med change that is (hopefully) going to happen will help kick-start my metabolism. It's so frustrating. I'm doing all I can to lose weight and it's just not coming off.

from luxelady :

it's ok sweetie - i just wanted to be sure that i didn't offend you or anything - i think you're really awesome! ;-)

from ethereal-red :

I wanted to thank you for always leaving such supportive comments on my blog. I really appreciate it. :) I used to have a fingernail biting problem, too. I'm much better with it now.

from luxelady :

did i say something wrong?

from luxelady :

thanks so much for your sweet note - the struggle is so hard...but it's comforting to know others are with you...

from luxelady :

thank you so much for your support - it means so much to me. i'm so sorry you're having a tough time at home. those times in between semesters are always tough - to go from adult to "child" no matter how old you are is impossible to deal with. i'm thinking of you...xx luxe

from ethereal-red :

I'm so glad you got to see your kitty again! That's awesome. :)

from ethereal-red :

Gotta love it when you go clothes shopping for SMALLER clothes AND somebody else pays!!!

from ethereal-red :

Saying goodbye is always difficult. I'm sorry you're feeling so horribly. :( Hopefully the summer will fly by and you'll be back with your friends and mentors before you know it.

from ethereal-red :

Congratulations on finishing your paper. :) Goodbyes are really hard, I've had my share of them this week too.

from ethereal-red :

I hope you can get your paper done! I'm glad Jill defended you. She seems like a pretty awesome person.

from cached :

I have--I love Snow Patrol...all of their stuff, and "Chasing Cars" lyrics are very applicable to me. That entire album is great, but I think I prefer "Final Straw"...I need to get all their albums, but I have most of them now. I'm so swamped, love, can't anyone just give me enough money to pay for my college education, pay off my fine, etc. etc.? :) Hope this note finds you doing well. ♥

from cached :

It does, indeed. :)

from cached :

I know I have your email address somewhere, just send me an email (cause I'm too lazy to dig through mine. :P), and I'll give you a username and a password. ♥ Hope your day is as lovely as mine.

from ethereal-red :

Feel better soon! Having a cold/the flu is the worst!

from ethereal-red :

I'm sorry you aren't being diagnosed properly. Not knowing what's going on with you, and not having anybody tell you, must be so frustrating. I am proud of you for not drinking. And congratulations on your good grades!

from cached :

It's so great having people backing me up--even if it isn't my blood family. I feel I've found a family within people who are not even related to me.

from cached :

Aw, thanks, hon. ♥

from ethereal-red :

I am glad suicide is no longer a part of your thinking. It crops up from time to time in my head, but I haven't been actively suicidal in almost a year.

from ethereal-red :

Groceries are too expensive. So is gas. I know the frustration of spending all your money on it. Do your best to fight the decline. It doesn't have to be that way.

from ethereal-red :

Improvement is always good. For me, it's good and scary at the same time. And as for the meds... I am glad they are helping, even though you do not want to take them. I am proud of you for taking them despite not wanting to.

from ethereal-red :

Sorry about the weight gain. That's so frustrating!

from ethereal-red :

I hope you feel better soon. You deserve a happy life!

from ethereal-red :

Glad you had a good time at the party, sorry you are not feeling well. I hope tomorrow is a better day!

from ethereal-red :

Hi! I'm so glad you are feeling normal... I miss that feeling. I don't remember what it even feels like. I hope someday I can experience it again! I love the feeling of "flow", too.

from mendingmandy :

Thank you!! I feel amazing this week :).

from ethereal-red :

I was on Topomax for awhile, but it didn't work out for me. A couple of my meds have side effects of weight GAIN... yuck. I talked to my doctor about that and we decided it was best to not fuck with my meds because it took us five years to get me on meds that actually made me stable...

from ethereal-red :

Congratulations on another two pounds! What med are you on that has a benefit of weight loss?

from cached :

I love them. And the Postal Service. Ben Gibbard (sp?) is a God.

from ethereal-red :

A pound a day? That's my dream...

from ethereal-red :

Best of luck with the Topomax. I was on that for awhile, it was okay.

from ethereal-red :

I hope your meeting with Kathryn goes well!

from mendingmandy :

thank you!!

from ethereal-red :

I do not think you are a spoiled brat for wanting a pet. Pets really enhance our lives.

from ethereal-red :

I'm so sorry you had to go through that at the airport. :(

from ethereal-red :

I have a hard time when I am with my parents, too. There are so many temptations. They have a candy bowl, chips, ice cream, junk galore... stuff I do not have at home. I do okay avoiding that stuff most of the time, but on occasion I eat and eat and eat all that crap that they have, and I always hate myself afterwards.

from ethereal-red :

Hi, I added some stuff to my blog in the last couple days. I found a way around the "cookies" problem. :) Isn't weight frustrating? I am afraid to weigh myself because I'm scared it has gone up, even though it's had no reason to. My body's just fucked up like that.

from ethereal-red :

Hi, just letting you know that I will not be updating my blog for four days because I'm switching over to Qwest DSL and will not have internet access at home during that time. I have not dropped off the face of the planet, my parents' computer just doesn't allow cookies (I need them to update my blog, but not read or comment on other peoples' blogs) and I can't change their privacy settings. :(

from ethereal-red :

I won't have to "cut you out". I can still read your blog and you can still read mine. It'll be okay. I'll be talking with Jenny, my therapist, more about this topic later. For now, she just wants me to think about it.

from ethereal-red :

I, too, am considered obese. I hate my body, myself, and my weight. It's all just gross.

from cached :

...So, I just read about cyclothemic, I hadn't really known much about it. Sounds intense, but I think you can handle it.

from cached :

I've been diagnosed with so many diseases, but they're never really sure what I have. I've decided I have borderline personality disorder or the lesser version of bipolar (can't think of the name of it) perhaps. Mental health is so experimental anyway. I feel like a lab rat. Well, you can always drop me a note or an email if you need a friend. Cheers!

from cached :

Do you have bipolar, or am I just misreading into things? Anyhow, my girlfriend has bipolar, and I have weight issues. I weigh myself compulsively, I don't think I'll look good unless my body mass index is less than 18.5, which is obviously an unhealthy goal. I don't exercise as much as I should, but I stop eating sometimes, which is also unhealthy. I need to start getting into healthier habits. You made me realize how much I miss being in school, however, I plan on going back this autumn, so I'm excited for that. Just wanted to pass on an encouraging word: You're not alone and know that you can handle it. You can handle everything, if you just put your best effort into it. Well, that's all from me, just know you have a friend in me if you ever need one. <3

from ethereal-red :

I haven't weighed myself in a couple weeks because I hurt my wrist and haven't been able to go to the gym- I'm not supposed to go in the cardio room and use the machines, I usually just go to BodyFlow once a week. Now I'm afraid to weigh myself because I'm scared the number will be higher than it was last time.

from cached :

I noticed you added me, and now, I am curious about your own words...If I could have a password, I'd appreciate it, but if not, that's alright. You can email me from the link on my diary, if you'd rather not have it floating around on my notes page. Have a great day.

from ethereal-red :

I think the part of my I hate the most is my stomach. And my thighs. Yuck.

from imbuemyblue :

hi, i saw that you added me to your buddies. i'd like to read you back if that's okay? if you want, you can email [email protected] or just leave the info in my notes and i'll delete it from there asap.

from ethereal-red :

I know how you feel. My depression is consuming me now as well. I'd suggest keeping your therapy appointment. Please don't give up.

from ethereal-red :

Congratulations on getting to 179!

from goodandgone :

It's good to hear someone enjoys and finds my life entertaining =]

from ethereal-red :

Oh, and I hope you're on an upswing too! :)

from ethereal-red :

I HATE those tornado sirens. They're so loud, they hurt my ears, even when I'm inside.

from ethereal-red :

Congratulations on your diet beginning to work! That's so exciting! :)

from ethereal-red :

I know how you feel. I'm about the same weight as you- I'm 178 and I'm 5'3". I'm sick of being at this weight, I hate it so much. I really wish I could snap my fingers and weigh 115 again.

from ethereal-red :

Or, if you don't want to divulge your email address to me (which is totally understandable), you can leave me a note here with the u/p or leave me a comment on my BlogSpot blog. I'd love to read your diary.

from ethereal-red :

I'd love to read yours. You can send me the username/password at [email protected]

from shortst101 :

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!

from catsoul :

Being on meds for bipolar is alot less scary than being out of control and regretting what you did. I work with people who are chronically mentally ill. Accept yourself as who you are and seek what you need to be stable. Who the fuck cares what others think, if your parents can't wrap their minds around this, fuck them for now. Just take care of yourself and your mental health. =^..^=

from catsoul :

Hi, just letting you know that I am sending good thoughts your way. Trying to make a decision is so hard to do. Just do what you feel is right to do for yourself. Take care. =^..^=

from catsoul :

Hiddy Ho good neighbor! Just a note to let you know that I do care about you. The noise and night thing is unsettling for sure. Sorry to read about the tensions between your parentals. At least they get it out, some parentals just simmer and don't voice anything. I would think those are the scarier ones. Last night with the wind so strong, it blew open our side garage door, my little doggy Sadie wouldn't go off the porch. So of course I didn't get up, I went and woke up my husband, you know when they are there, it is their job!! Anyhoo, I think is was more of a scarried cat than me. I just didn't want to go out because it was so cold out. So again, just so you know, you aren't all alone. Have a good day and work on getting a better night's sleep. =^..^=

from shortst101 :

Sending you a truckload of "HUGSSSSSSSS" , wish I could do more. Hang in there.

from shortst101 :

1st of all, you are NOT stupid! I wanted to thank you for your message welcoming me back. I really appreciate it. Hugsss, I hope things will get better.

from catsoul :

Hey Kristin, you are using one of my favorite swear words, "fucking," it sure helps me to release some of my inner turmoil. Glad you were able to put how you are feeling in words. What you wrote is "YOU" right now, just think in five years from now, when you read it, the trama or should I say drama won't seem all the intense. Life moves on to other challenges. All I can say is, just do your best, be happy with your accomplishments, and everyone has something special to offer up in the world. The fucking class is almost over with and you will be done. Time to move on. Take care. =^..^=

from catsoul :

Sadie is a Boston Terrier. She is a wonderful pet. Sadie loves to walk, so if you are a walker like me, she would be a great choice. She gets cold, so she always like to be covered with her small fleece blankies. She also sleeps under the covers with my husband and me. As it gets colder out she wears coats. She loves to go for rides also. Sadie is a people person. I love my little Sadie. =^..^=

from catsoul :

Hi Kristin, just wanted to let you know that I have read some of your journal enteries, and I want to say that you write with deep understanding about yourself and people in your life. I also liked your ABC's of yourself and the quotes you liked. You quoted alot of writers I enjoy reading. You should check out the Diaries of Anais Nin. Anais writes fluidly. Take care and hey it does get better with your parents as they mature!!(Giggles) I am speaking there as a mom myself. My son tells me I have matured!! Anyway keep on writing it is such a release of the soul. =^..^=

from morceaux :

thank you for the note, dollface. i'm sorry i haven't replied, but life has been, well, tough, short of any better word. i [heart] you<3

from sparklytears :

of course. i am flattered. *blush* [<3]

from shortst101 :

LOL, ok, well I'm rooting for the Panthers! We might get our asses kicked but we made it to the Super Bowl! WHOO HOOO

from cry :

my dear, you have beautiful words. you are just not the style of cry. keeping writing<3

from darkest-elf :

and why did you cry?

from darkest-elf :

hey... i didn't know her extremely well, but it was hard enough seeing everyone i love hurt so badly, and such a wonderful girl die so suddenly. thank you for your sympathies; she truly will be missed.

from mewreview :

Hi, it's Chrissi, I was wondering if there was any possible way you'd be doing some reviewing or could recommend someone to me so I could contact them about reviewing? It's super hard being the only one doing reviewing lately. Thanks!

from labeled-girl :

first, thank you for adding both me and janechord to your favorites. it is appreciated with gracious eyes. second, if you were wondering of janechord's fate... seth passed away a year ago from complications due to a brain tumor. it was very unexpected. his father and i (his girlfriend) continued to post his handwritten stuff for months after his death. they may resume in the future, but for now, that is his journal. but thank you again for reading.

from pnkpnthr :

Clicked on your banner, and I couldn't stop reading.

from lovelyashley :

I am not beautiful, never have been. I must complement you're entire being, though, for it is so wonderful and compassionate that I couldn't not tell you that. You have been so wonderful to me, I only hope I can do the same for you. YOU are beautiful, and don't EVER forget it.

from damnitimlost :

aww thanks..sounds good to me.. =)

from damnitimlost :

really? thats awesome if u hear about it going up you will have to let me know about it...yeah i think more peopel should read it.. cool i didnt hear that she had a new book coming out.. ill have to get it when it does.. hehe aww thanks.. ur gonna have to go on my fav too!! =)

from damnitimlost :

oh I know... ur diary is cool... =)

from windowpain :

i miss innocence. and knowing where i belong. but i guess you just have to grin & bear it, and eventually it will all get better. ♥

from shortst101 :

i like the new layout :) Hang in there, the pain eventually goes away, either that or it is just a dull pain

from windowpain :

pee/ess: i'm digging this layout. easy for me to read. ♥

from windowpain :

darling, of course i'm talking to you. why wouldn't i? i was going through tough times before i left here, and so whatever it was that made you think i was mad at you or hated you, ignore it. you're beautiful. period.

from nateboxley :

Hi. I didn't know if I got back to you, but thanks for stopping by. I really would like more readers, but I don't know how to get them.

from lovelyashley :

*a million hugs* you are such a doll, i love you tons. thanks for the congrats, you have always been there for me, and i hope you know i'm here for you. love always **********-Ash

from tearstream :

I'm glad you had a good time in Japan! Can't wait to read more about it all! I'm glad you're back though :)

from earthdragon :

thanks for the random book signing : ) its nice to know people are out there heehee. keep writing girlie its worth it. writing will get you through everything.

from the-escape :

im glad to join your diaryring! finnaly someone who understands. i have been through alot, most of it has been just recently. but im pulling through. thank you for the support!

from born-fallen :

username is forever password is young

from darkest-elf :

but why...? why do you care? do i know you and i've forgotten... or ? i wish i could make both of our hurts go away.

from darkest-elf :

you'd notice if i was gone ... ? why...?

from darkest-elf :

*hugs*

from natchez :

i really enjoy your layout. that story about your dad was really funny. by the way, i found your diary on the top 100 diaries website. keep up the good work. come visit my site sometime.

from jabberxwocky :

You know, you could delete my previous diaries from your list (since I don't write in them anymore) and have about five free spaces ;) LOL. [xoxo] Hope things get better for you, dollface. -- "Pammy Cakes"

from black-days :

dairy reviews are stupid... this is your diary and you should feel free to write whatever you want in it. your diary should be your safe place for you to be, not a place where you're worried about ppl judging you and what other people think. fuck other people. of course you have the right to feel sad... it's important that you agknowledge and express how you feel, rather than run around like those pathetic plastic people who deny their true feelings. you are truly beautiful. i can relate to a lot of what you say. you are not alone-- never forget that. ~hug~

from razor-thin :

of course you can add me. ur mom sounds like an ass sometimes too. my om stays pretty neutral most of the times, but it hurts that she doesnt stand up to me. i like your diary. a lot. while i am NOT on meds i still relate to how you feel a lot of the time. we can and hopefully will learn form eachother

from poet-girl-87 :

hrm how humorous, Zoloft is my friend, too. hehe. Nice diary.

from jendra :

Of course you can =D

from shortst101 :

Hey, cheer up!

from zaraya :

happy birthday! i know im a few days late...but i hope it was a fun one!

from redivivus :

I never said I didn't like it. I've been reading it for some time now, so I think its all right. But you whine. Just thought I'd point out the depressing aspect (I have many so take your best shot ;). And I'm sorry - if it means anything at all, happy birthday.

from blank-looks :

oooh my gosh i love you to death!! xoxo and all that jazz! nahhh my voice is ugly, but it was wishful thinking. :) i adoooore you and your writing darling. keep at it.

from justnothing :

hey hey hey. course u can add me to ur faves. u have a lot of faves eh! anyways... im kinda surprised, this is my second note from someone i didnt know who reads my diary. :) and u said i speak ur lang. ... thats sweet, i like to find people who can relate to my stuff. i cant read ur diary since my computer is macintosh and it wont let me push any links or something, but i'd love to. anyways - im prolly making no sense.. but see ya! :) --sherri

from sood :

i wrote my last entry after reading 'can't die' i've included the link to your journal. thank you so much for the kind words. i like to think i have a 'following' ::giggle::

from mylifeat15 :

happy valentine's day - hugs from your sis elin

from blank-looks :

Wow, sure... go ahead. :) I'm pleasantly surprised that I actually have an up-until-now unknown reader. xoxo, <3 to you!

from dyania :

hey you're a pretty cool chick. i just got on your diary ring. & i wanted to say hey

from pinkygirl727 :

hey, your awesome! Im a writer also...I have an old diary nodoubtgirl7 and this is my new one so not much is in there yet..sooo ttyl ~lex~

from ladiscrete :

Thank you so much for your lovely comment. :)

from lone-star :

SMG wouldn't let me sign your guestbook. *grr* So here's what I wrote: Kristin, you can't just run away. I've told myself that I would run away for a long time, but I know I can't. You'll go down the wrong life-path and be lost and confused as to where you're supposed to go next. I know Life hurts. I don't know the pain it deals out to you, but I know the pain it donates to me. And, when all is said and done, it's the same; the pain that makes us want to hurt ourselves or someone else, or run away from it all. And we can't do that. We have to stick around because that life is the same life that teaches us to be better people. I know you can't see it now, but it's true. I'm already seeing differences between my friends and I that I don't want to see, because I know they're differences that are going to make us grow apart. We've got to stick around. If we do, we'll be proving to ourselves that we're worth something, and that's the best thing we could ever do :) [ heart heart ]

from draygonanon :

"I love my life for what it is, but hate it for what it is not." Ive never heard that before.. too true :)

from shortst101 :

Saying goodbye to friendship is one of the hardest things you can do, but sometimes we have no choice. Hugsssssssssss

from windowpain :

it's like you said: "i have seen my fair share of disappointments and rough times, but they always seem to go away". so here's to us, the disappearance of our rough times, and hopes for a great new year. exoh.

from lone-star :

Aww. [ heart heart ] to you, girl. Feel better, okay? I love you, and you know that. Everything will be all right.

from lone-star :

Well, I'm sorry things are going so badly for you. You're not being a bad friend. You're just going through stuff. And I'm sorry I wasn't on MSN, but my dad deleted it. Much love and [ heart heart ]

from windowpain :

thank you for the advice. i want to live life, so badly. and gorgeous, i want to take all the stars from the sky and give them to you. you're so beautiful. exoh.

from lone-star :

Okay. I must know. Who's the boy!? And I'm sorry that people ignore you. You're such a beautiful person, and you don't deserve that, in the least. [ heart heart ] PS: I'm sorry we haven't been able to talk much on ICQ, as of late. I miss you!

from windowpain :

i'm glad you can relate to how i feel. it makes me feel, not so alone. and yes, placebo are quite amazing; beautiful even. much like you. exoh.

from lone-star :

I'm back. I missed you dearly. You can read all about it in my diary. Much love. Moi.

from shortst101 :

Once again, I come to say THANK YOU.....I don't know what got into me today, it was strange......and guess what alot of people care about you, me included.....hope the panic attacks stay away. **HUGS**

from msguided :

Yes, I will admit that last play was a little iffy. But still the HUSKIES won! hehe

from shortst101 :

Thank YOU!

from purplelagoon :

Thank you for adding to The Quiet Ones, keep writing! Claire (I run the quiet ones)

from ladiscrete :

Ah, so you are alive and updating again! good! your poetry is really nice. Keep up the good work.

from fadingscars :

of course you can dear. xo.

from born-fallen :

thankyou for the note in my guestbook, yes you can add me, i think thats really cool. i like your diary to, hang in there okay... never sell yourself short, your worth so much more. xoxo me

from shortst101 :

glad to know that you are alive.....

from lavanderdawn :

thanks for your interest in my diary. i'm not done with it but if you wanted to read up on my old diary and my old drama its in my old diary that i might still write in at the site on my first entry. you can certainly add me as a favorite. i really enjoy your diary as well. i'm a big fan of stars...

from msguided :

Thanks for the kitty names. I love, love, love kitties. Our last kitty (he ran away) was named Mookie. He was orange. I believe this on is a gray tabby. So Usi would really fit since it means smoke. We can't call him Smokey though, the neighbors cat it Smokey. Hmm. When we finally get to see him, we'll probably name him something different. LOL!

from minderella :

well of course you can add me. very polite of you to ask. a kir, in paris, is a glass of white wine with a fruit flavoring added. my favorite is peach. actually, a kir is the same thing here in the states, just very few people actually order it. have a good one.

from maddysinsno :

hey you can add me. Thats cool.

from owningsun :

awww! that was such a special and nice message U left on my guestbook.Of course I wouldnt mind U adding me,I'd be honored. I will add U as well if U dont mind,I've started reading U and ur words go right away to my heart.Tanx for the support,it's nice to know that somewhere in a far far away place someone is relating to me. Hugs

from lone-star :

Oh, good. You're alive! You haven't been on ICQ--or at least when I was. But I'm glad you're okay. Love ya' muchly!

from neon7c :

i would be honored if you'd list me as a fave. i've already listed you..can't wait to read more...

from ladiscrete :

Hello! thanks for answering the survey. As explained just above the question, Noel Godin is a Belgian man who throws pies at famous people, generally because they've done or said something stupid. Bill Gates has been one of his victims.

from zaraya :

hi there! sure you can add me to your favorites. im new to this & i thought your diary was cool thats why i added you :) rock on...

from sweetbabe765 :

yea! Thats ok!!

from msguided :

Thank you for the note. It would be an honor to be listed as one of your favorites. Your diary is very well written. I am enjoying it.

from shortst101 :

Thank you so much for your comments on my diary. You have a very pretty diary and write really well. Of course I don't mind if you add me to your favorites, as long as I can add you to mine. Thanks again.

from ladiscrete :

Hello! I found your message on my guestbook and thought I would try and find out about your diary. I totally agree with what you said in your last entry :"Don't say too much, keep to yourself." That's exactly my point of view on life (hence my nickname, La discrete). Anyway, thanks for reading me... and to answer your question: I'd be delighted if you added me to your fave list.

from isolatedsoul :

i would be honoured to have you read my diary

from isolatedsoul :

your words

from isolatedsoul :

very pretty

from lone-star :

Chapter one of my novel has been posted. I thought you might be interested. Much love!!

from lone-star :

Oh. Smile :) I'm sorry everything's getting depressing. I hope it gets better. You deserve it! Mwah!

from lone-star :

Okay. I tried this once, and it didn't work, so we'll try it again. Thank you for all of the compliments [on why people confide in me]. I try not to judge people and jump to concluse, but being only human, sometimes I fail miserably. But you're a sweetie. One of the few people who give me compliments when I feel that I don't really deserve them, so thank you very muchly. I'll talk to you later. Bye-Bye.

from lone-star :

Aww, you don't want to die. That would be horrible. Your diary would just be another dead diary in DiaryLand vaults. I'm sorry that things are so bad for you, right now. It seems as though you and I have the same goals in mind (as for cheering people up). You're a beautiful person, and whether or not you remember this two minutes from the time that you read it, it doesn't matter.... Just know that it's the truth. With much love--Moi.

from lone-star :

You need a guestbook! That would be wonderful!! The hyper moment has passed, though seemingly unfortunately. I'm not too worried about it, though. Depression seems to give me a great deal of emotion. But I'll find my happiness one day, as will you. xoxo.

from lone-star :

Another g.book entry!? Woohoo! And you're right. Even having some friends is better than what other people are able to accomlish. But there are just those times...filled with thoughts of someone of the opposite sex telling you that everything will be okay. Who knows. Maybe I'm just too much of a hopeless romantic to make it. Hehe. But I'm so happy you're on your eleventh chapter! That's great! I'm just on my second, but mine is so hard to write. Goodness. I'm trying to write it from the perspective of a seventeen-year-old, but, at the same time, make it appealing to an adult. So.... But, anyway, I better be off, but I luv you muchly :)

from lone-star :

Aww. Thanks for the hug. I needed that. Really. ::hug:: to you, too!

from lone-star :

Aww. Well, I can't wait to read yours, either. I read some of what was on fanfiction.net, but I didn't read it all. I would rather wait for the published book. But I liked what I did read! Wonderful job. Keep it up! Luv you muchly.

from lone-star :

Thank you so much for your nice guestbook entry. You deserve to be happy, too. One day we'll be famous poets...and the happiest girls ever :) Until then, I can't wait to see your new layout!!

from lone-star :

Aww. Thanks for the guestbook entries. I miss seeing regular updates from you, so I'm glad you're coming back soon :) Anyway, I'll be checking my buddies list to see when your next update is. *hug*

from lone-star :

Thank you so much for the ::hug:: I needed that! And we are a lot alike, aren't we?! Hehe. Well, the new diary is very much like a fresh start. I think it will do me some good. Thanks for explaining. It wasn't rambling. It was "words of wisdom"! Haha! Luv ya' muchly :)

from lone-star :

It's Poetic Diva. My new diary address is at http://lone-star.diaryland.com. You're on my favorites there, though, so I can keep reading. Keep up the good writing!

from sood :

hye kiddo :) it's me again...sorry i have been away....i have been trying to move and be sick all at once...but...email me anything about your experiences so i can add them to the ring. I want the ring to be made up of all of us, so send me some stories or poems that have helped you through.

from supercilious :

*blush* It would be my honor :).

from poeticdiva :

Of course I don't mind if you add me to your favorites. I'll add you as soon as I find a quote from your diary to add to my comments. Thanks again!!

from poeticdiva :

Thank you for the compliments. They're much appreciated. And I read over your diary, too. I like it :) Is it okay if I add you to my favorites list?

from sood :

(I've been sitting here the whole night reading other people's entries that I almost forgot to write in my own.) lately i have been reading more then writing so i know how you feel :)

from sood :

love the back ground....did i over look your guestbook? i saw a diary that had twinkling stars :) it was my fav...i seem to like the darker colored layouts...to much color and i'm like a kid with ADD :)

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