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from dulligirl :
Hey, I love reading about your shopping expeditions. You always seem to find great deals! I love Wild Honeysuckle from Bath and Body Works. I have a bottle of the spray, shower gel and lotion! This past summer I went nuts with my friend Kathy at that store. I could still get more though.
from mal-adjusted :
Shall I try to give this another go?
from dulligirl :
Ah, shit. I Hate Hate Hate that this happened to you. I am right there with you, hon. And I don't want you to be there. You deserve so much more. Hang in there. It's the only thing either of us can do.
from dulligirl :
I did have fun this weekend. I'm going to post in my diary in a bit so check back. I hope you have a great time on your own trip. I'll think good thoughts for Sway, too.
from dulligirl :
Good luck on the interview!!!!
from dulligirl :
Damn. That sucks! Nobody should be going to work with the flu for one thing. Much less the swine flu. Idiots. I hope it turns out to not be the latter one. Stock up on clear fluids and hunker down to take care of yourself. (((Muffin)))
from dulligirl :
Glad Sway turned out to be ok!
from dulligirl :
Oh, the cynicism is fine. No problem. But, really, he's out of work right now and his car is not working. He hopes to borrow a car but that might not work out. So, he isn't flaking on purpose.
from dulligirl :
I sometimes wish they would just walk on me. That would be awesome. By the way, I was noticing on your movie faves that you put Dark Crystal (I've never seen it somehow). On Robot Chicken the other night they did this parody of what a sequel would be like and how to interest kids today to see it. It was so fucking hilarious. Try to find it on youtube.
from dulligirl :
Good for you on the gym going thing! I know that's been bothering you. I can't believe September is here either. But I'm so glad. Maybe sometime soon I can wear a sweater! Whee!
from dulligirl :
Moving in with AZ...such an interesting possibility. Sounds like he's really thought it out, too. Hope your days off restore your sanity to full force. Thanks for your words about the whole weight loss clinic debacle. I totally went about that the wrong way but not much I can do about it now. It'll be fine. And so much better this way. I love food too much to try and deny myself the pleasures of pasta.
from dulligirl :
I hope your day continued to be a good day. And those things you got for the kitchen sound like the kind of things I gravitate towards at thrift stores. We totally need to go shopping together someday.
from dulligirl :
Amen to your whole entry.
from dulligirl :
Yikes. That place is sucking the health and good will out of you. I hope you can get out of there soon.
from dulligirl :
I love picturing your cat in that harness... That seems to be the new thing. Though I remember being a little kid and we did that with our cat, Snowflake. I don't remember her liking it that much since she was an indoor/outdoor cat anyway. So, you like The Time Traveler's Wife? I keep seeing the ads for the movie and I remember thinking about reading it when it first came out. Maybe since I liked your rec of my last book I'll pick this one up too. "I wanna be your Joey Ramone" was such an enjoyable read. I wasn't always happy with the characters but it was pretty realistic, so I can't fault that. Hon, I hate that you're feeling so defeated. I want you to know that I'm thinking of you.
from dulligirl :
Boy, do I understand this feeling. Trying to figure out what you want to do and are able to do...it's not easy. Good luck.
from dulligirl :
Thanks for the crossed fingers! I need'em!!
from dulligirl :
It really is a wonder that anyone ever gets married with the way that men love to skirt the issue of actually saying something. Sheesh.
from dulligirl :
The vet clinic sent us a sympathy card when Maddux was put to sleep. It really meant a lot. And I do think they really do care. I doubt many people could work at a vet clinic without feeling sympathy/empathy for pet owners. I am about halfway through the book. Really savoring it and loving it. I'm at the point where Emily gets roughed up by her b/f and goes to talk to her dad.
from dulligirl :
Hey, I wanted to let you know that I picked up "I wanna be your Joey Ramone" on your recommendation. Bought it without even reading it. I really like it. But I knew I would!
from dulligirl :
I think you did right by Slink. You were a good mother and still are a good mother to your pets.
from timdangerous :
If I bite the bullet and come back as a rat, I hope to God you find me.
from dulligirl :
I'm so very sorry. I'll be thinking of you and Slink.
from dulligirl :
Once again I have to say that I could never ever do what you do. Just reading about poor little Vincent in the kennel and having to wait to see if he would find a good home...well,that made me tear up. So glad you were persistent in finding him just the right people.
from dulligirl :
I do know what you mean. And I hate that whole mixed messages thing that men do. God, it sucks. Anyway, I really hope you get well soon. I hate the whole sick during the summer thing. Seems even worse than having it in winter.
from dulligirl :
It's good that you are finding some light in that darkness. It will pass eventually, that awful feeling. And you deserve happiness.
from dulligirl :
I don't know what happened to you but I'm sorry it did.
from dulligirl :
Good luck on the dispatch job. I know you need a break from that misery of working at the shelter. It would tear my heart out every day to work there.
from sunstarr :
i am glad that Galaxie is taking well to the kittens. i know you get lonely at times, but i am happy that you *do* have your pets to hyelp you through some of those times. i want you to know that i am now with AT&T so when we talk, it won't be "free"....however, as long as we both have the minutes, no prob. (I'm referring to how we typically have to chat on Mondays because of your schedule.) But, I do have unlimited texting. Do you? Well, hope we get to catch up soon! Miss ya! Luv ya! ~HUGS~
from sunstarr :
i would HAPPY to give you one of each. or at least one massage and as many hugs as you need! ~love ya~
from dulligirl :
(((Muffinhead)))
from dulligirl :
I'll be praying for Vincent.
from dulligirl :
That isn't boring reading at all. I love how you describe your animals.
from dulligirl :
Oh my God! They sound sooo cute. Galaxie is probably just threatened by the cuteness. She'll adjust. Hopefully.
from dulligirl :
I feel like I can't go into Target without dropping at least $50. But I do love it anyway. And I really love the people in their Pharmacy. So much better than the service you get at a regular drug store.
from sunstarr :
I have a love/hate relationship with Target! I can also easily drop some serious cash in that store! If I had a cool grand to spend.... you'd have one helluva care pak! heh heh ..... anyway.... sounds like you're doing okay considering. miss you bunches. wish you were here! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
i think we're both wearing the same belt! at least we can be fashionable together. *wink* Love & Hugs to ya, babe!
from sunstarr :
i can totally relate to "broke" and definitely feeling like a hamster on a wheel. glad your ratties got a clean bill of health. sorry your allergies are acting up. miss you! (((((You)))))
from dulligirl :
Oh,man. Those dreams are so painful yet so sweet. I've had a few like that. You wake up with that feeling of loss. (((Muffinhead)))
from sunstarr :
OH THAT WOULD BE FANTASTIC!!!! I always welcome your visits. All you need to do is give me dates so I can see if I have the vacation time on the books... if not, I'd still work something out. I cannot wait to see you again! I miss you... sorry I've been quiet... trying to 1) give you your space and wait for you to be ready to call me and 2) been busy here actually; my new friend Stef has been a huge help to keep me distracted while Ben is in ATL. Miss you so much! Love & Hugs to you sweetie!!!!
from dulligirl :
Atlanta?! Hey, that's not too too far from me. Four hours but still... Make it up to NC if you can.
from dulligirl :
That is so nice what that lady said to you about the ripple in the pond. It made me tear up. You are a good person and don't let life get you down. And I hope you feel better very soon.
from sunstarr :
thank you for your very sweet & encouraging words. if you noticed, it was wayyyy better than what Karyl had to say. she was so generic and copied Beanie... ugh. Well, for the record, I love you as well and hope to hell to get you to the east coast someday! I think California is bad for your health. Ha, ha! I'll even let you bring your Mac into my house.... Miss you, darlin'.... keep your chin up.... I'm thinking of you!!
from sunstarr :
you're not second choice for me!!!! i wish i knew the answer to all your problems. i hate that you're suffering so much. i am sorry.... ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
hey girlie... sounds like things are at least a wee bit better. my friend, Stef has been hangin out with me a lot so i haven't had time to miss Ben---yet. however, she leaves next monday and then i'll be alone and miss them both. ugh. i wish i could magically wave a wand and have you here! i'll be so lonely in my big house next week. ugh. oh well... trying to stay positive. i think the books & knitting will be very theraputic for you and might do ya well. i miss ya! love & hugs!!!
from dulligirl :
I'm sorry about Cheeky.
from dulligirl :
Ah,man. That story about the guy's cat really got to me. How very sad. I really could not do what you do. It would just kill me.
from sunstarr :
as soon as i find that moneytree, i'll be sure to share it with you!!! i am crossing fingers that everything will be okay with your little rattie! again, sorry i missed you yesterday... text me when you have time to talk again soon... love & hugs!
from sunstarr :
hey sweetpea... sorry we didn't touch base this weekend. it certainly wasn't that i didn't want to. we were busy busy and then yesterday was Ben's birthday and all that jazz. i can't believe you cut your hair!! you have GOT to send me a pic even if it's through the cell phone. i feel badly that you're in a not-so-good place with your job & living arrangements. i truly wish i could make it all better for you hun. ~hugs~
from dulligirl :
I hope everything goes well for Sway. Crossing my fingers.
from dulligirl :
Oh,I was so happy when I saw that you had updated after being away for so long!! Galaxie sounds like a cutie. I miss my baby Maddux so I really hope I can get a cat again soon. Check my entry for what is going on. Seems like we're coming back to dland at about the same time. :-)
from doommuffin :
well YAY! now I can start posting crap for you to read again! *hugs*
from doommuffin :
*hugs* love ya! hope you're doing ok.
from sunstarr :
you're not the only one who is excited!!!!!! despite the fact that i'll be working the dreaded five 8s schedule, having you here will make it all the better! yay!! ~hugs~ ~smoochies~ ~love~
from doommuffin :
*hugs* love ya too.
from mal-adjusted :
Hey you! Send me an e-mail. I'm not sure if you've changed your address recently... x
from sunstarr :
it'd be easy for me to say "boys aren't the end-all of this world" but then, i'm happily married so that'd be wrong. however, i CAN say that no matter what, i'm here for you dear friend and i will love you and support you always. *grin*
from sunstarr :
i think you don't need as much work on yourself as you think you do. i think that other people are just stooooopid..... you're a TERRIFIC person and a GREAT friend..especially for putting up with my rambling all the time... hell, for putting up with me period. Anyway... love ya much. Let me know when you're off again so YOU can talk during our phone conversation!
from sunstarr :
((((((((((( HUGS )))))))))) it's all i can offer right now since i don't know what you need exactly other than space and time. when you're ready, i'm here for you. maybe you need vacation to the east coast. *small grin* Thinkin' about you and wishing that you'll be able to heal soon.
from dulligirl :
I was listening to "Mad World" recently and thought about that line. Lately my dreams are my escape from the crap that is my life, dying or not. I hope things get better for you soon.
from sunstarr :
i don't even know what i should say... just know that i love you no matter what. period.
from sunstarr :
you're not COMPLETELY alone.. you have me. i know i'm not a romantic interest, but i'm still here for you whenever you need me! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
Wow. I'm.... happy for you? Not sure if that's the right word. AND... have you ever considered writing? I mean, this entry was bordering on poetic in the sense that I almost thought I was reading a romance novel (the good kind; not the trashy ones!). Well, I miss you... I sent your package yesterday. Hope to hear from you soon! Love & Hugs..
from sunstarr :
you'd better have fun OR ELSE!!! hee hee... let me know when you're back, okay?? big hugs & smoochies!!
from sunstarr :
I am seriously glad that you're getting a vacation. You definitely NEED one and you totally deserve one, too. Since you have the day off, I'm gonna find some time in my schedule to give ya call. I might do it on the ride to the chiropractor; he was on vacation Fri so we have to go today. Miss ya, hun!!
from sunstarr :
password: mw1208
from sunstarr :
1) thanks for easing my mind; 2) thanks for the short chat; 3) hope you feel better real soon; 4) miss ya! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
well, bummer! i was going to email you some cheap ticket prices for a possible visit in August. and, i know how your work schedule is so if you're going to see Arizona Boy, I know it'll be awhile before you can see me. Crap. And school starts at the end of next month. Oh, well. Please let me know when you might be able to make it so I can keep looking for tickets. And, I am with Punk Rock Boy.... if I don't hear from someone in several days, i start to wonder if I've upset them or so forth. Just so ya know that he's not the only one who goes through that. ~hugs~
from dulligirl :
You are not a sucker! Just a tender hearted animal lover. Nothing wrong with that.
from sunstarr :
just wanted you to know that i miss ya, sweetie!! hugs!
from sunstarr :
i didn't even realize that the fires out there would affect you. ugh. i hope the "mini-vacation" was enough to help you reset and rejuvenate. miss ya!!
from timdangerous :
"I hate... and the state of Nevada. It should be paved over." I laughed so hard when I read that my sides hurt, BAD, and I was sure I would p* my pants! You are outrageous! That must be why I'm madly in love with you. *wink*
from sunstarr :
~hugs~ *smoochies* Thanks for the chat last night. I'm going to try to make a point to call you as often as I can on Mondays! Whee!!! And, I'll keep searching for tix!
from doommuffin :
*hugs* Thank you. You know, sometimes he's superspecial awesomely sickening...lol. In a good way. I go from superloser to this... the biggest problem? 400 freaking miles, that's what.
from sunstarr :
thanks again for everything! you are an AWESOME friend! ~muah~
from sunstarr :
~hug~ ~hug~ ~hug~ ~hug~ ~hug~ ~hug~ Does that help at all? Well, try to feel the love from all the way on the opposite coast! Let me know if there's anything I can do to make you feel better, sweetie! *smoochies*
from doommuffin :
Thanks. I really like the design too (especially since Happy Bunny magically disappeared on me). Patience is not that forthcoming...unfortunately.
from dulligirl :
I am so sorry. I know about retail therapy. Just piles on the bad feelings. Doesnt stop me from doing it. ((Muffinhead))
from doommuffin :
*hugs*
from sunstarr :
Don't you make me buy you a plane ticket right now and fly your ass to Florida!!! You'd better not off yourself. I mean, who would I have to talk a fool ear off of? Besides, you're better than these losers. Don't you dare measure your self-worth by them!!! I mean, you are your tatoo. In fact, take a look at it right now! You will rise above the ashes!!! (besides, aren't these all things you'd say to me?!?) Love ya, hun! *muah*
from sunstarr :
i cannot tell you how incredibly GUILTY i feel for not being able to take the time to be a REAL friend to you and listen to you when you called yesterday. however, my niece leaves on thurs and i PROMISE you that you're all mine after that!!! i love ya hun and don't you DARE sit around and blame yoursel for anything. men are stoopid. (except Ben, of course but then he even has his moments! lol!) ~HUGS~
from doommuffin :
*hugs* and *sigh* there's nothing wrong with you. You sound amazing. Unfortunately other people suck.
from sunstarr :
man. what a bummer. at the same time, *I* still love ya unconditionally!! YAY! (i know it's not the same but it's what i have to offer) let me know if there's anything i can do for ya, ok???
from sunstarr :
i don't think you're being silly. i'd want to go as well. i mean, it's VEGAS!!! i can't wait till we can make plans for your debut in South Florida. then the two of us will dangle THAT in his face! HA! Miss ya hun. Love & hugs!!!
from doommuffin :
I am not looking forward to this whole round of introducing...ESPECIALLY the ex husband. That's going to be pretty uncomfortable. So I can totally understand you not wanting to do the whole meeting thing either. *hugs* hope he brings you something back from vegas...
from sunstarr :
awww... i am loved. wheeee! and you do not suck.. well, maybe you do but that's another subject *wink*... anywho, no worries on the goodies in the mail. i thank you in advance! and when i do get them, it'll like having Christmas early! you're so welcome for the Health mags. Glad you're enjoying them. Don't forget, you can always call me at work if you have a moment or two. ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
Things are going good still. Waiting to get him back from Texas...
from sunstarr :
thanks for the nice words, sweetie. remember, someone on the east coast loves you back!!!
from sunstarr :
sounds like you need a mini-vacation to Florida. *wink* nothing wrong with the way you feel...you were independant and on your very own for a lonnnng time ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
Just wanted to say hi and *hugs*
from sunstarr :
Ok, girly.... it's Sunday... i hope i get my phone call from you! *wink* Glad you had a nice Valentine's Day. Ben had jury duty until 6:30pm. No biggie... not like there won't be others, right? Love & Hugs!
from sunstarr :
harumph! (sticking my tongue out at you!) i don't like Galaxy at all because now you have no time for me. (pouty face) ... seriously, i am very happy that you're doing well and he's treating you well. cuz if he screws this up, i'm-a-comin' to CA to kick his ever lovin' a$$. in the meantime... maybe we could catch up this weekend??? love & hugs!
from dulligirl :
I think that's the best thing you can say about Galaxy...that he puts you in a more positive frame of mind. Cool!
from timdangerous :
RE:GALAXY. MSG:Cool. Looking forward to reading more. I've missed you! ~t
from dulligirl :
Yay for finding somebody you not only love but respect.
from doommuffin :
Thanks hon. A lot of stuff was going on for years (heart attack, katrina and having no place to live) and I didn't need to change anything during that time, since I had way enough on my plate. Finally, now that I got settled, I figured it was time for a change. (and quite frankly, I'm evil...he's been a longstanding love of mine, and i think i would have just about pushed anyone under a bus for the chance. Night's bad habits didn't help his case any either.)
from sunstarr :
do i get a cool internet name?!?!?! ;-) hee hee... miss ya girl! hopefully we'll talk again real soon... ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
*crosses fingers for you!*
from doommuffin :
Ganesha rides a rat that represents the subjugated demon of vanity and impertinence. (I looked it up.) I knew it was a rat, it was just probably 4 in the morning or so when I answered. I got Kyrie to do the drawing to my satisfaction, just need to remember where it is. Thanks about the cross stitch. I thought of you while I was doing it as well, and it was well recieved by the recipient. Night and I had been together for 5 years, and well, i just don't have the patience for permanence anymore.
from doommuffin :
Thank you for your opinion. =) The Ganesha I had shown you awhile back was G3. The only thing is that I am going to get Kyrie to add a line drawing of a mouse by his foot...because to me it needs that...*hugs*
from dulligirl :
Oh,your new rat sounds like a beaut. I don't understand why anyone would think that would be a gag gift. That's just awful. Anyway...your new guy sounds like a good one. I really hope it continues for you. And thank you for your nice comment. I think things are slowly looking up. Slowly but I'm trying to have some optimism.
from sunstarr :
well that explains why i haven't heard from you in awhile. i'm not sure what your holiday working hours are, but i'm avail until Jan 2nd if you want to call me!! miss ya girl! hope you get better soon! ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
Glad to hear it hon. LOve you! Could you please also answer my tattoo question post, please?
from sunstarr :
sweet!! good for you! (Just got back from NYC yesterday... will try to catch up with you this weekend. Hopefully you'll be available.) AND, THANK YOU for the awesome Christmas card! I laughed my butt off ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
I totally understand about people disappearing. It sucks.
from sunstarr :
thanks so much for the LONG chat yesterday! i'm sorry that work is so stressful... you know what? you love your rats and hammie... and i loves ya!! ;-)
from sunstarr :
well no wonder you haven't wanted to be social.. first of all, you ARE important! to me, anyway... not sure if that means anything or not but there you have it. i would definitely keep searching for a job if you're that unhappy and as soon as you're "in like flynn" then quit the current one. life is too short to be that stressed out. seriously. i'm pullin' for you and thinkin' of ya girl! BIG HUGS!! *muah*
from doommuffin :
*hugs*
from sunstarr :
oh honey... i'm sorry that you had such an emotional day yesterday. ~Hugs~ Anyway, just wanted to say that I miss you bunches! *muah*
from sunstarr :
hi again! just lemme know when you're ready to be social again... i certainly don't wanna bug ya! ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
I totally know she did that on purpose. Can you say psychosymatic? And seriously, I made it seem he spent more time with the kids than he did. He popped in, hugged and kissed, dropped food off, apologized and left. Grand total? 15 minutes, tops.
from sunstarr :
i'm just glad you're doing ok.. i haven't gotten a chance to really chat with you and catch up... hope we can talk soon! miss ya!! *muah*
from dulligirl :
You know what's weird? I applied at a coffee shop online last night. It's Caribou Coffee and they are a chain but a bit different than Starbucks. We'll see what happens there.
from doommuffin :
ACK! DAMN! I meant to edit your note out...I'm spacey lately. Think flu/cold coming on. eek!
from doommuffin :
AWWWW! She's so cute! Poor little thing. See, and now I'm working with the SPCA and this is exactly what I don't want to see (oozing injuries) poor thing! I hope it all goes ok for you hon! Thank you, she is very cute. Its going to be hell keeping her still once she gets home (which is precisely why I elected to leave her there over the weekend) I'm a big believer in the SPCA, and have gotten most of my animals from there. I couldn't help but think of you when I went in to look at the animals.
from doommuffin :
I know I wish the old bag would just hang it up...C'mon and die already. Eye fungus, kidney failure, spine fungus, constant pain, broken hip. Egads!
from sunstarr :
sorry that you've had junky phones. i've owned 2 Samsungs (or 3?) and my sister had one for YEARS and they're awesome phones. i've not had a problem. now, i will say that i think my battery is slowly dying because it doesn't hold a charge quite like it did when it was new. anyway, i'll try to call you real soon! test out that phone! ~~BIG HUGS~~
from doommuffin :
Yea, jesus pizza. They would probably get a damn detention for doing the buddy christ thing. As it is, my son forgot his ID and they are giving him a 2 hour detention for it AND making me buy a new one.
from sunstarr :
soooooo where's the pics? i wanna see the final product! ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
Knitting isn't too hard. Let's put it this way, if I can, you can. knittinghelp.com has some really good videos that helped reteach me. And a million scarves isn't such a bad thing...:P
from doommuffin :
Yep. Court should be fun. More than likely I will sit in the hall twiddling my thumbs while lawyers argue back and forth.
from sunstarr :
love & hugs to ya! *muah*
from sunstarr :
thanks so much for the info i needed. i *almost* scored another $18 dress at that ROSS but Ben noticed a tiny hole in the top of the left shoulder. bummer! anyway... sorry you're having a small rough patch but at least you are gainfully employed!!and most of all, i loves ya bay-bee! <grin>
from doommuffin :
*hugs* just to let you know I'm here. Just remember, you are the only reason I still have my diaryland account. =)
from sunstarr :
oh honey... sorry... i didn't realize that you didn't want to be social and here i am calling you like all weekend. oops!!! well, next time just let me know and i'll be okay with leavin' ya be!! in the meantime, here's a GINORMOUS hug from me to you: (((((((( Jen ))))))))
from sunstarr :
i'm glad that i got to talk with you. i don't know what to say except that i'm glad you don't have the courage to take a knife to your vein. i mean, if you did, who would i make gingersnaps for?? :-) Love & Hugs, SweetPea!
from dulligirl :
To continue my last note...I would email you my phone number but I just realized you don't have an email listed. Here's my email... dulligirl66@hotmail.com
from dulligirl :
Happy Birthday? That doesn't sound right. I feel like I've known you for a long time now and I know how many ups and downs you have had. If you ever need to talk, please call me or email me or IM. I will email you my phone number.
from doommuffin :
the gay son is the only decent one. The other day, as Leila was giving me a backhanded compliment, I heard my dad in the background say, *so what's the bad news from the doctor?*
from sunstarr :
really glad that i got to talk to you again last night. i can't wait to hear details about your interview today. and good for you for learning all you can about your rats!! ~~hugs~~
from doommuffin :
Because the laws of employment state that once you are no longer available, you are suddenly highly desireable. (sorta the same thing that happens with dating)
from sunstarr :
nice survey answers! and thank you so much for spending a lot of your weekend talking to me. i reallllllly enjoy our conversations-- a lot. i hope you have a stellar day today! ~~hugs~~
from doommuffin :
Thank you and I will deal for a few years. But I am saving my money, and plan on moving in a few, back to Colorado. ( i wish i could combine the two states...)
from doommuffin :
Good luck honey, and hugs!
from sunstarr :
i am sooooo happy to hear at least you have an option...even if it's not your favorite option, you're not in complete dire straights. and you're probably right---working only a few days a week might keep you from burning out so quickly. as far as your sister's drama...right now you just need to focus on yourself. if she screws up, that's on her. YOU are the most important person in your life (and your little ratties, too) so take care of Muffin first. ~~~hugs~~~ thinkin' of ya girlie!
from dulligirl :
Glad you found a little bit of financial relief. That does make one feel a bit better.
from sunstarr :
((((((((((((muffin)))))))))))
from doommuffin :
My birthday is this Wednesday, September 5th.
from sunstarr :
well then i guess i'm crazy too cuz i believe in you! and you didn't call EVERYONE cuz my phone never rang. ha! i suppose i'll just have to call you and check up on ya. i'm sorry that it seems one thing after another is piling up on you. i really don't know what to say. i wish i had answers for you. really and truly you have no idea how much i want to make things all better for you but they just don't make those kinds of band-aids. here's a GIANT hug anyway: (((((((((HUG)))))))))
from sunstarr :
Oh, honey... gosh. I don't know what to say. I really don't. I want to say that I know how you feel but I can't because I'm not you. I can say that I've been where you're at... when we moved out of the RV and into the condo and i started work and slept less--- i was a mess! i want to recommend to you to get some Bach Flower Essences. I'll email you about it, okay? It's homeopathic and really helps. Really. Just try to think of me sitting on your shoulder (ow! that'd hurt!) and saying to you how beautiful, amazing, smart and awesome you are!!!! I know it won't give you a better life but it might make you feel better emotionally. ~~hugs~~ BIG GIANT MEGA HUGS!!!
from sunstarr :
don't give up... as soon as my transporter is out of the shop, i'll beam you down here for a visit. that'll refresh & revive you! nothin' like crisp east-coast air to make a girl feell good! ha, ha! well, never fear... i'm always here. you can't get rid of me!!!!!!
from doommuffin :
hope this works for you. I personally believe in the euthenasia part of the job, but don't think I could sucessfully pull it off myself. *hugs*
from sunstarr :
yay! i am so glad that you have some doors open for you. you definitely have quite a challenge ahead of you. thank you for all the positive notes you leave for me in my email and on my diary page. you're the best! ~~BIG SQUEEZES~~
from doommuffin :
This is a tough one hon. You know how once you have a job, that's when everyone else seems to call you for a job? All I know is that you need to do something soon. If it were me, I would take the damn job, at least so you won't have to stress and worry about bills and things...
from sunstarr :
hmmm...that is quite the dilemma. i guess when it comes down to it, you'll have to really weigh pros and cons---do you want to be financially stable in a short period of time and thus risk losing your dream job with the highway patrol ~or~ do you hold out in unemploymentdom (is SO a word cuz i deem it a word!) and suffer through that in order to get to the end result where you'd have your dream job. That's a LOT to think about and then your cutie-patootie rats, too. If you wanna bounce ideas off me, feel free to call me this weekend. If there's ANYTHING that I can do to help, PLEASE let me know! ~~GIANT HUGS~~
from sunstarr :
well this may seem strange, but honestly, you're always welcome to come east to get away from it all. i'd be happy to show you around and hang out (WITHOUT alcohol! <grin>) and have a few laughs. in the meantime, i think you should go to a gym and beat the crap outta a punching bag!!!! ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
You don't know how many times I've wanted to play Unabomber, with that little shack in the woods...
from doommuffin :
I have no clue, although the low blood sugar might have killed my strength...ahaha. I just know that by the time I am finished, I am more than sure someone is gonna effing die. Its totally stupid, and a waste of time. I think they enjoy torturing people, quite frankly. (plus i don't deal well with authority figures)
from dulligirl :
I appreciate your opinion. And I kinda know in my heart that you're right. But also part of me thinks that he might sort of know anyway. And I know that I'll tell him anyway because I won't be able to stop myself one night. It's an oncoming train wreck and I can't really stop it. Ah,well. At least I know it's coming so I can brace myself.
from sunstarr :
man... if only we didn't live in different time zones, I'd invite you over for a homecooked meal and a night of playing board games! i'm really and truly sorry that things are so rocky for you. i keep trying to send positive vibes your way and hopefully this will all end soon. I wish I could do something to make you feel better...... in the mean time, BIG GIANT HUGS from me to you, sweetie!
from sunstarr :
if there is ANYTHING i can do, plllllleeeease call me! i'd be happy to help. and don't think of this as a setback but perhaps this was good for you to give yourself more time to be 1005 prepared! you can do this. i really have confidence in you! ~hugs~
from dulligirl :
Aww,that sucks! Good luck on the job hunt.
from doommuffin :
*hugs* congrats on passing the first part, and good luck on the second part of the test. You can do it!
from sunstarr :
well, i'm glad that you've passed the 1st half of your testing! yay!! i hope you pass the physical part,too. (i'm sure you will!) if it makes you feel better, i'm a bit on the down side, too.... i'm sure it'll be better for both of us soon! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
hope your ankle heals quickly! i agree... most people our age lack manners. it's sick. anyway, i have stuff to tell ya so if you get a few moments this weekend, i would LOVE to chat. <grin> ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
Sorry about the ankle...Mexico sounds good right about now. Maybe I can drag Leila to Tiajuana
from sunstarr :
owwie! muscle soreness sux! what are your interests and passions? Perhaps you can find some type of job that caters to thing you already find interesting! anyway, remember that someone on the east coast is thinkin' of ya! ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
I'm ok. Maybe just a little soreness in my neck/shoulder but ok. He had insurance. I, for the first time in my life, am thinking of suing...
from sunstarr :
I SUPPORT YOU!!! I SUPPORT YOU!!! I am really pulling for you and hope this works out the way you want. Maybe you should just ditch the west coast and come see how much better it is to be an Eastener! ha, ha! anyway... whenever you need to vent or a little extra moral support, feel free to pick up the phone and gimme a call! ~Hugs~ *muah*
from dulligirl :
I really hope you did well. It sounds like you did though. And you are a workout machine. I'm glad you still love your car. I love my tiny Kia Rio, which couldn't hold a candle to Wicked, I'm sure but it does have a lot of personality.
from doommuffin :
*muah* Hope you did good on test..actually I'm sure you did good on test. Will see the 'Burbs. Magnolia is a sweetheart. <3 *collapses now*
from doommuffin :
I never saw the 'Burbs. Guess I should, eh?
from sunstarr :
ok. now it's time to hate you. yeah. i said it. why, you ask? well, because you said you ran a 10min mile after not having been running in TEN FREAKIN' YEARS!!! I *just* got to a place where I'm averaging a 13:00 to 12:30 minute mile and I've been jogging on the treadmill for 7 months!! Arrgh! Seriously, I don't hate you. It helps that you have realllllllly long legs. God gave me stumps so it's a lot harder for me to jog quickly. I hope your stress/depression lifts soon. I'm rootin' for ya babe! ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
I don't see Liv Tyler at all from your photos, so be comforted by that. (on the plus side, at least Liv is a female...)
from timdangerous :
"They're fun guys. Perverted. But fun." -- Why does that make me chuckle?
from doommuffin :
Thanks. *Hugs* I love rats. Kyrie and I had some we had to give up when we moved back here.
from sunstarr :
well know that *I* would love to hang out with you but there's this teensey little problem called ONE THOUSAND MILES SEPARATING US so, unfortunately you have to be cool all on your own! *wink*
from sunstarr :
((((((MUFFINHEAD)))))) ...I hope that helps. And if it doesn't, at least it's free. I'm sorry that you're in a tough spot right now. I've got you held tight in my thoughts. Call if you ever want to vent, okay???
from doommuffin :
*hugs* sorry its sucking right now.
from sunstarr :
not sure if you'd want a technical or an administrative job, but maybe you could look at http://jobs.faa.gov/Allfaajobs.htm The pay is usually decent, benefits good and definitely job security without dealing with riff-raff! :-) Just a thought! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
just so ya know.. i *always* read your stuff when you update!! thanks again for the chat this weekend. you are a true friend! i'm lucky to have you in my life. :-)
from doommuffin :
Most people who come to New Orleans either LOVE it or HATE it. No middle ground. Its a banana republic. we know this, but we love it anyway. Hopefully you would love it. Johnny's and Fiorella's both have atmosphere. They all have good food. So I am leaning more heavily towards Johnny's. The dealbreaker would be if they had red beans and rice or not.
from sunstarr :
nothing wrong to treat yourself every now and again. i bet you look HOT in that dress, too! me, i'd look like an overstuffed cat in something with a leopard print!! ha, ha! ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
*Hugs!* Good Luck hon!
from sunstarr :
thanks for the sweet note.. today is looking up (so far)...then again, it's only 6:50am! you're more than welcome to call me ANY weekend. just FYI. sorry that things aren't looking up for you just yet. would you be interested in a gov't job?? you could check the FAA's website. i know they're hiring here there and everywhere. if you want more info, lemme know (via email) and i'll be happy to give you all the details you'll need. ~~hugs~~
from sunstarr :
hope things look up for you soon... in the meantime, just FYI that i might not be "online" for bit... got some crap of my own and i just don't feel like writing or doing much of anything right now.
from doommuffin :
Ok! I'll come back!. Sorry about my long absense. Glad you care though. =) Joolz
from blucollarboy :
Use the negativity as motivation for self improvement, that's what I do, so someday they'll be kicking themselves for ever having under rated me. Wicked will always be there for you.
from blucollarboy :
Well I hope I've never made you feel that way. We can't win for losing.
from sunstarr :
well at least you're on the road to "recovery". do you have prospects for a new job? just wondering. anyway, i'm thinking about you and cheering you on from the other side of the country! can ya hear me?!? ;-)
from dulligirl :
Sing it,sister! I'm just taking the attitude now of just not taking it seriously. Men are great but too much trouble for me to fret over. So focus on yourself and get your mind back!
from sunstarr :
my gawd... i'm soooo soooo sooo sorry, Jen. i cannot even begin to imagine that kind of hell. if you need a vacation to get away from it all for a bit, know that my home is definitely open to you!!! ~GIANT HUGS~ xoxoxox
from sunstarr :
hang in there, jen... it WILL get better. i'm glad that you realized that maybe that job was not for you. have you considered perhaps a gov't job?? i know that the FAA is hiring in certain areas... just a thought. i hope that things improve in a big hurry for you. and, by the way, i'm using the HELL outta your orangey-yellow lettuce knife! while i'm not cutting veggies with it, i am using it to slice cakes and breads and such! wheeee!!! :-) ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
NO! Don't give up on men! There's the right guy out there. I just don't think he's in Nevada!!! LOL!! ~hugs~ (hopefully this weekend we can find time to chat on the phone)
from dulligirl :
I work with a vegetarian (she does eat fish) and I'm always impressed by the tasty looking stuff she brings in for lunch or the baked goods she's made over the weekend. Even with vegan ingredients they taste really good. But I could never make that leap since I do like the occasional hamburger and I like my milk. By the way, I loved the comment you left for me. My life like a soap opera? Heh. And I really do want to ask him out...when the time is right I will and I'll hear your "voice" yelling "ASK HIM OUT!!".
from sunstarr :
I agree that a difference in beliefs can lead to trouble in a relationship. And, I think it's weird for him to say he wouldn't pay for dinner if you ate meat. I'm okay with OTHER people eating meat, I just don't choose to do so myself. and as far as tofu goes, i agree...that stuff is nasty! however, if you spent one weekend at my house and ate my cooking, you could become a veg-head w/o issue! i promise you! (i'm that good of a cook! ha ha)
from sunstarr :
call me biased but i already like this new guy! *wink* i mean, after all, he's a veg-head like me. hee, hee. seriously though, i'm here cheering for you on all aspects and all levels! hell might not be too bad if you think of me! <grin> ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
DON'T YOU DARE GIVE UP!!!! You're not allowed. Maybe you should really consider totally changing jobs/locales/etc. Maybe you need a new perspective since where you're at and what you're doing isn't seeming to work. Just a thought! ~hugs~ (oh and thanks for the message on my comments)
from sunstarr :
good luck good luck good luck! i reallllllly hope it works out for you. you DESERVE to have a good man in your life! i'm sorry you're still stuck in the hell-hole that is Nevada. any chance they need you in south Florida? *wink*
from sunstarr :
oh most definitely i am TOTALLY going to feed you when you come to visit!! i *love* to cook for other people. by the way, that cool, yellowish-orange knife-thingy that you sent to me...well, i use it ALL the time!! everytime i make something for work, i use it to cut the brownies/cake/pie, etc. it's been a big hit. and the mushroom thingy, well it's not been used for that purpose, but Ben uses it to clean our juicer. so, thanks AGAIN for the goodies!!! now, when ya gonna get your tatooed butt out to Ft. Lauderdale?!?!!? :o) ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
i was just thinking of you yesterday... i'm glad that you are staying strong. i don't blame you one bit... don't you dare let him in. he must EARN his way back. PERIOD!!! anyway, glad to hear that you were able to do some nice things for yourself. you deserve it! miss ya! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
Peace be with Luna. I'm sorry your pet passed away. I can only imagine how you feel. I think Nevada is hazardous to your health... you gotta get outta there!!! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
oh hun... you've got to stop telling yourself those negative thoughts. you're a wonderful girl who is bright, funny, caring and thoughtful. (not to mention cool cuz she has a phoenix on her leg!) i think you should move to the east coast... east coast boys are better anyway! tee-hee! hope things get better soon! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
sorry that life has been a bunch of sour grapes lately... i've been trying to not bug you and give you some space. however, if you're done with having space, lemme know and maybe we can chat! ~hugs~
from timdangerous :
It's not that everybody that goes and works out that I see that way, it's just that so many of those type tend to be that way. Thanks for the note hun, and btw, I absolutely love it! (That'll sink in after a bit as to what I'm talkin' about... thumbs up, and you go grrrl!)
from sunstarr :
that a' girl!! way to take the bull by the...well, you know...and prove you've still got spirit! YAY!!!!! and, please don't hesitate to ever call me if you just need to vent, scream, yell, cry, etc. i wanna be here for you as best as i can. and i still think you need to be sent to a Ft. Lauderdale property!! LOL!! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
i am so, so, so, sorry that i haven't been in contact with you... my life has been sucking on its own and i've been stressed, too. of course, that's no excuse. i should have called you yesterday. i wish i could wave a magic wand and make things all better for you. know that i care about you even though 1) we've never officially met and 2) that i don't always make the time that i should to call you. ~hugs~
from dulligirl :
I am so sorry that you're going through this right now. The only thing I can say is that last year was crap for me but eventually it got better. You just have to keep believing that.
from doommuffin :
*hugs* sending positivity your way.
from mal-adjusted :
Hey gorgeous! When are you going to break down and join MySpace? Hmmm? :P
from sunstarr :
have you tried the stress mints yet? they'll help! and here's an extra hug, too.... ~hug~ take care of YOU, sweetie!!
from sunstarr :
SO not true!!! You are SO worth the effort! You see, testosterone just happens to be a chemical that makes a lot of men STOOPID!!! I'm not sticking up for him, but letting you know that there *are* a few nice ones out there....somewhere. Besides, *I* definitely think you're worth it as you will see evidenced (<---sp?) by the FedEx box you should be picking up soon! ~hugs~
from timdangerous :
Nice! Email cometh.
from sunstarr :
sorry that things are so sh*tty in NV. however, today keep your eyes peeled. i sent you something to that addy that you gave to me. it should brighten your day! BIG BIG ~hugs~
from timdangerous :
HANG out, not hand out... Jeebus tim!
from timdangerous :
So I was at this junk yard not too far away, to look for a few jeep parts for one of my many projects when I saw him. His back was turned to me when I walked in to ask about the price of this amazing looking '68 Commando way in the back all by itself. He had on a blue Corduroy jacket and skin tight jean tolled up above his penny loafers. Across the back of his jacket was a huge embroidered Big Daddy Roth "Rat Fink". When he turned around I was inches from what was quite possibly the worlds biggest pompadour. It was when he said, "What's kickin' daddio?" that caused that one quivering eyebrow to do the watusi! seriously, this guy walked out of a time machine man! Naturally, of course, we made fast friends and turns out he's a serious rat rodder as well! This nutcase bolted a 429 Hemi onto what amounts to a go-freaking-cart! So you want to know the point of all this? Point is, I found my connection to the underground for the east of the river. oh yeah, and I was seriously thinking about you while we jammed about shows and crazy projects. So tonight I've got you on my mind already when I log on, and BOOM, there you are! Congrats on the tat, I'd love to see if you care to share the eye candy. I'm seriously considering getting the Rat Fink plastered on me somewhere, that and/or an Alberto Vargas grrrl. Rawr! hey, its good to see you again girl! come hand out, okay? Hugs n stuff!
from sunstarr :
Maybe being in one place for a spell could turn out to be a good thing! I'm definitely pullin' for ya anyhow. I just wish that our time zones were closer together so that we could seriously catch up! Glad to see your spirits are still pretty up there in spite of everything. Keep on, keepin' on!!! ~hugs~
from dulligirl :
It's nice to see you updating more often! Hope the next property isn't a hole. I still love my tattoo after almost 5 1/2 years. I could still get another one but it was hard enough to decide on the one that I did get.
from sunstarr :
13 DEGREES?? Yeah, that does suck. I guess I shouldn't tell you that yesterday was absolutely beautiful with highs in the upper 70s to low 80s and lots of sunshine, eh? (I know, I'm evil...hee hee) Well, I hope you enjoy your day off and if we get a chance to catch up today, I'd love that. ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
man, a tattoo and a hot fireman to start off the year? sounds like 2007 is gonna be a good one for ya! Yipee! you definitely need some purples and oranges in your tattoo, but that's just me. i am so glad that things are coming together for you. we DEFINITELY have to chat this weeekend; either via messenger or phone!! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
that tat is super-cool! and you make an excellent point: it is a lot harder to reject alcohol than just go with the flow and drink. it's so cool that you choose to take that stand. i have a lot of respect for you! are you going to eventually have your tat colored in with ink? just wondered. i laughed out loud at the crayola comment especially cuz sometimes i get sick of looking at how faded Ben's tat is and I'll take a marker and color in the red & purple. hee hee...
from doommuffin :
Congrats on the tattoo! The red has disappointed me too, but at least it usually doesn't turn to brown, just fades a bit. Sigh.
from sunstarr :
now that you have a digital camera, i want pics of the tat! i'll send you pics of Ben's tat!! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
YAY! Glad things are looking up for you! Keep me posted about that situation. You think we'll catch up this weekend? Lemme know if you wanna chat on the phone or messenger. ~hugs~
from doommuffin :
*hugs**hugs**hugs* back. Sorry I've been so crappy about posting. Its good to be back here too. =)
from sunstarr :
hey, there is nothing wrong with taking photos of food..... is there?!? ::ahem:: anyway, glad to hear that you got a knife and a digital camera. i can't wait to see some pics from you. yay! oh, and have you looked at the Samsung A900? It's my phone and I *heart* it. Sorry to hear that you don't really like most of Sprint's phones, but all of the Samsung models that I've had have been really good to me. hope we can talk over the weekend. for now, big BIG hugs from me to you! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
and if you forget how to smile just for the fun of it, you know i'm only an email or a phone call away. (hopefully... hen the reception is good anyhow!) i'm glad we got to chat yesterday. keep me updated on your job, etc. where in tennesee? i forget. anyway, have a wonderful day! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
just wanted to say hi and let you know that i have not forgotten about you. still trying to get things settled and adjusted to life in the condo while juggling domestic stuff and job stuff. i'm sure you can relate to that! miss ya much! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
A date? That's great! Cool beans, mama! You'll have to fill me in on msgr or the phone. Meanwhile, see if you can come to FLL on the company's dime. Hee, hee!! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
Glad your back but sorry that things are little amiss for you. Maybe you could find someone who is good at art and ask them to draw up a design on paper before you get inked. Because, obviously, once you're tatooed it's permanent! hee hee... things are crazy for me still as you be reading in my diary. perhaps this weekend we can catch up over the phone... ~hugs~
from saved0803 :
Hi, Jen. So sorry about your cat Seven. Senidng good vibes your way so that you'll feel better soon! Rosie
from timdangerous :
I'm so sorry about Seven, Jen. Losing a best mate like that is really hard on you. I could lie to you and tell you that it gets easier, that it's all going to be okay, and how she is so much better off now, how you did the right thing, how it was her time and just a whole bunch of useless crap that everybody you know is probably already frothing off at the mouth about, good intentions be damned. But then again, our views on animals are the same, now aren't they? I wish I could give you a big hug, 'cause you need it. [my notes are off, hit me at tim_dangerous[AT]yahoo.com 'k?] *hugs*
from sunstarr :
you definitely have every right to be stressed out. i'm glad to know you're flying on sunday because i was thinking of calling you. i miss our chats... it's been crazy around here, too. we're not going to close until the 29th now and i start MY new job on the 27th! details when we chat.. maybe sometime between today and sunday? take care, hun! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
too bad my transporter is in the shop...otherwise, i'd zap you here to the east coast for some fun & sun in Florida!! hoping things pick up for ya sweetie. i'm thinking of you. ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
*yours would be a virgin drink, of course!! mine'd have the real thing! hee hee
from sunstarr :
Between the two of us, there's enough stress to last a decade!!! Sounds to me like you and I both need a vacation where some hot cabana boy fans us and brings us deliciously cool margaritas! How's that sound?!? Anyway, hope things improve for you... I'll be thinking of you! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
Oh, hun.. I'm glad you decided a last ditch effort to help your kitty. I know how bummed you were about that appointment. I was going to call you last night but wasn't sure if you'd be up to chatting. I have my fingers crossed that the new meds really help your 4-legged, furry, feline friend! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
how 'bout "Matey"? I think that'd be a cool name for a car with a pirate theme! Either that or "Arrrrgh!" ha ha ha! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
Oh, hun... I'm so sorry you're bogged down in emotional stuff. I know we've only just become friends really but I'll be there for you if you need me. Feel free to call me and unload! Really, I don't mind. It'd be a nice distraction from all of MY stress! ~hugs~
from sunstarr :
So glad you're back..safe & sound! Sorry your trip was kind of a bummer. And you still have ME for a friend!! :)
from dulligirl :
Congrats on the new car! Sounds quite nice. Sorry Vegas wasn't too good. But at least you had a cute boy and cute doggie!
from sunstarr :
I don't know which is more important to you: the look or the cost of a 2yr old car. Personally, I'm a huge fan of Saturn. They're well-built cars that go on and on like a Timex watch or the Energizer Bunny. My '95 Saturn SL had 250,000+ miles on her when we gave it to my brother-in-law 4 yrs ago. (Yeah, you do the math!) And, it was still running when he sold it to someone else...this is AFTER it had been in 5 accidents. Count 'em... One, two, three, four, five. Yes, indeedy! And then in 2002, we bought a Saturn L200. It has 120,000+ miles on it so far and has not given us any problems. (Then again, hubby is good at maintenance and oil changes, etc.) Anyway, I know that Saturns are reliable, affordable and DAMN safe in collisions. I'm living proof of that. So, that's my 2 cents worth. Good luck! Have fun in Vegas!!
from sunstarr :
i just read your updated profile... and i hafta say that i do NOT..repeat... do NOT recommend a move to Memphis. it's very crowded, a lot of the city is dirty, not to mention that they have a 9.25% tax on everything! It's ridiculous. Between Memphis and Nashville, i'd go to Nashville. However, you'll still battle 9.25% tax on stuff--not fun. Maybe you may want to consider north Georgia? When it comes to the southeast, I've been a LOT of places so feel free to pick my brain. *hugs*
from sunstarr :
I realllllly hope you get this job!! I'm so happy for you! And mabye you could come visit the Ft. Lauderdale area and I could show ya around. *grin* Could you email me your hours so I know when would be good to give ya a ring? Thanks! Take care hun!
from dulligirl :
Good luck on that interview. Sounds like a really cool opportunity!
from blucollarboy :
only if you promise not to sell wicked
from timdangerous :
I'm so glad you had a good time at the show for a change. You needed that. Enjoy the food, and I agree with Dulligirl, Yay for dancing!
from dulligirl :
Yay for dancing!!!
from sunstarr :
good for you for deciding to do what YOU want! you have a lot of confidence girl and that's to be commended. so many girls/women get the notion in their head that they HAVE to have a guy in their life. good for you for not being one of them. (Of course, at this point i kinda don't have a choice about that...ha ha!) And about the drinking thing... I can relate since I'm a vegetarian. People probably look at me more strangely than you with the no alcohol thing. But to try to explain to people that I don't eat meat (except fish) really baffles them. and when I go on to tell them that I don't consume dairy products either..... they have a field day. they usually ask me, "What DO you eat?" {as if to suggest that the only thing that THEY eat allllllll day long is meat, meat, meat!} Anyway, have fun at your car shows!! have a great weekend!
from dulligirl :
Retail therapy works wonders. I don't go to the mall often but when I do and I really need it..it really perks me up.
from sunstarr :
oh, hun.... if you want *I* will be your cheering section. Hoooorah! <grin> Anyway, anytime you want some cheering up just send me a msg and I'll be sure to deliver.
from dulligirl :
I'm cheering for you,Jen. I think you definitely need a change of scenery. Hang in there. The answer will come to you.
from sunstarr :
o mi gawd!! i agree with you 150%!! I've had two friendships end where the other person didn't give me the respect or courtesy to tell me why! i'd love to share my experiences with you, but i'd take up wayyyy too much space on your notes. mind if i email it to you?? my email address (so you can send me yours) is goldie1208 at aol dot com. anyhow, i'm so glad that you're another of my 4 loyal readers and i promise you, i shall never stray again! lol! take care and i hope all works out for you.
from timdangerous :
RE:"The Water Will Recede Someday" There is so very much of that entry's emotions that evades most people. Most people don't "get" that sadly. I could say so much, but not in this medium. Suffice it to say that it were as if I were reading my own words. Erie, almost. I want so badly to say,"handg in there, it is going to get better.", but I feel the same pain, so much to the point that I have taken the attitude outwardly that, "People are a@@holes and the world could do without them." Freud theorists would have a feid day with that, wouldn't they?
from blucollarboy :
thanks for pointing that out, it got me to thinking and that's what was making me feel out of place back in the states. being a transient most of the time, not having anything last more than a few months, or long enough to get attatched and then stripped away so many times has made it where i don't want anything to do with emotions. there's no pressure over here, it's nice to be a machine.
from timdangerous :
hey, I made it all the way to sacramento in my *example* camero before I had to do a U turn, come back and say.... Happy Birthday Jen! *Grins and Hugs*
from timdangerous :
Those "dudes" are jerks, pigs, and unacceptable unless reformatted. the trouble is, a@@holes won't fit in the CD/RW. Well, on second thought, you want I should *make* them fit in there? Hey, in all seriousness, I hope you get your pistol. I don't care what the politically correct masses have to say about it, there's just something about holding that heft in your hand, and the way it fits. It just.....Feels good. It's exciting, like when the secondaries open up on an 1180 double pumper, and your head is being held firmly against the headrest. Make that last ratchet shift into fourth, and suddenly the 101 is just a blur. Oh yeah.
from sunstarr :
sounds to me like you need a friend like me! would definitely restore your faith in people. on the other hand, i wish i could find a friend who was exactly like me--- one who doesn't stand someone else up when plans are made; one who actually wants to spend time together more than once every 2 months for 10 minutes; etc. etc. Anyway, I'm sorry that you're having a bummer of a weekend when it's your birthday. For what it's worth, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! (and thanks for signing my diary; i didn't know you still read it!) I hope it turns out better than you expected. Hugs from me to you... Michele
from dulligirl :
I'm wishing you a Happy Birthday,anyway. So..Happy Birthday!! 30 wasn't as big of a deal for me, for some reason, like 25 was. Not really sure why. I think the men in your life totally do NOT treat you the way you should be treated. That's just wrong. I can't blame you for feeling the way you do right now. Maybe "that guy" will come into your life when you least expect it. I'm hoping that for myself as well. Anyway, about your comment on my latest entry..you totally can come all the way out to NC and hang out with anytime you'd like! Have a good birthday weekend!
from dulligirl :
A fourth interview? That's nutty. I think Vegas sounds like a good idea. A fresh start in a new city and all that.
from dulligirl :
I am from the camp of You Never Till You Ask. I'm so glad you got the answer you wanted. As for PDA...man, I hate that. I had to be around that last night.
from timdangerous :
Ya know Jen, You are either the most patient, loving, sweetest soul on the face of this planet, or, you are as mad a hatter. (Re: sending the Bride doll to /Slick/.) Either way, I luffya As an aside, and I know you know this, (so why am I saying it? I dunno) All headers leak some. Period. It's some strange rule of the universe. All you can do is use a good gasket (I use copper, solid) and tighten the bolts one at a time, but not all the way, and skip around, the way you do on a wheel. Then tighten them up all the way in the same order This way you won't add any extra pressure to the collector and warp it, which is where the leaks come from. Take care, okay? Tim (Originally this went out in an email, but it bounced??? )
from dulligirl :
At least the moving part is over with now. And that bad luck cloud over your head has got to be gone soon, I'm thinking.
from dulligirl :
I hate moving! And mattresses are the absolute worst. They really should be legally bound to put handles on'em.
from dulligirl :
At least Wicked is ok! And I'm glad to see you around again. I kept looking for you to update and started to wonder what had happened.
from mal-adjusted :
I miss you tonnes and tonnes. We need to get back into the swing of e-mailing again.
from saved0803 :
Hey girl, you show on my list that you updated but when I click on your diary nothing comes up. Hope you are doing well.
from timdangerous :
I hope things are going well at the beach... One way or another. *hugs* Tim
from saved0803 :
Hi Jen, I think you should send the e-mail and that should be the end of it. I'm sorry for not leaving you a note before, but please know that I'm thinking of you and sending good vibes your way. Rosie
from blucollarboy :
All the crap you're having to go through is burning me out on relationships, and I haven't dated in almost two years. Sounds like all these dudes need to be scrapped.
from timdangerous :
Even if he does feel like "second choice", I don't like the response. Looks too much like a set-up to have to prove yourself over and over, like you'd have to "win" him over. Screw that noise! I'm not saying he should have jumped up and down in over-anticipation of the chance to see you, but you sure as hell don't need anymore damned mindgames right now. I say call it a loss and concentrate on you now. If we wants to chase you, okay, let's see how far he's willing to go. You made the first move, that's all you are required to do. Don't bring yourself down to asking or even begging to be a part of his life. Create your own future, and don't worry about time. Time will take care of itself. I *Love* you too.
from timdangerous :
I think that the "Liar" is the first cast member to have had his/her name changed. What an honor. (sarcasm intended) Okay, I'm quite sure you know by now I just say what I think, and don't sugar coat. Good job on the letter to "Slick" I can understand, even if others think your crazy and opening yourself up for more hurt. I'm actually proud of you. I've always said you were a grrrl who knew what you wanted, weren't afraid to ask for it, but couldn't always identify it. So this time, you lay out all the parameters, a war plan as it were, and you let him in at the onset. He can either be interested, or not. This way you save time and money if he's a looser as well. Kudos. I say job well done. Like you needed MY approval. You impress me because you won't change you base self to fit any current puzzle. Then again, you've always impressed me hun. Hugs, well wishes, and good luck from the bottom of my heart. Tim
from dulligirl :
Another thanks for your comment on my last entry. One day work can be hell another day it can be right as rain. I never know what I'm going to walk into. Anyway, that renter's insurance is a good idea. Hope nothing happens to make you use it though.
from dulligirl :
What are the stages of grief? Denial..then anger? It's a process. It'll get better. Oh and thank you for your comment. If anybody would understand I knew you would. Thanks.
from blucollarboy :
At least you have wicked, how much more would life suck if you only had a honda or saturn?
from dulligirl :
Do you think there are any strings attached to your boss paying off your car? If not, I say go for it. That would be a huge help for you, I'm sure.
from dulligirl :
I'm really sorry you're having to go through all that. But you obviously made the right decision for yourself. I hope you feel better about everything soon. And bring some fun back into your life.
from saved0803 :
So sorry to hear that it didn't work out. You really are better off without him. You really do deserve better.....
from timdangerous :
That sucks. Damnit. More cyberhugs your way.
from timdangerous :
sending good vibes youe way. i'm cheering for ya!
from dulligirl :
Thanks for your comment, hon.
from dulligirl :
I'm glad things are going ok. Your co-workers at the kitchen place sound like a nice crew.
from timdangerous :
*hugs* 'nuff said.
from saved0803 :
Hope everything works out for you!!!
from dulligirl :
Good to hear from you. I'll cross my fingers about Wicked for you.
from mal-adjusted :
are you on myspace, gorgeous?
from dulligirl :
I hope he arrives safe and sound to you!
from dulligirl :
We just have to get through this week. Just keep repeating that to yourself.
from timdangerous :
What kind of knives? Side loaders or tip? My favorite knife in my collection is an 8" Italian Stalletto with pearl inlaid handles, but I'll always be partial to my Kabar, and yes, that's a Marine thing. I sent my now wife, then girlfreind/fiance' a butterfly knife from the phillpines, so yeah, I'm weird. So anyway, heys!~ Hang in there. I'm cheering for ya hun ~
from blucollarboy :
thank you
from dulligirl :
Thanks for your note. The best thing about my life right now are my family,friends and fellow d-landers.
from blucollarboy :
I've actually have a few others, I collect cars to cover any possible moods. Good luck lookin for a dude, I've found it futile in the opposite search and thrown in the towel. There seems to be too many games you have to play and I guess we just don't have the patience for it. I'll sink my money into my cars and hopefully get to race you someday somewhere at a stop light. Wicked won't fuck with your head.
from mal-adjusted :
Happy belated love...
from doommuffin :
It'll take more than a hurricane and a heart attack to kill me...LOL. I am definitly taking care of myself.
from doommuffin :
Thanks doll...this has been one hell of a ride.
from saved0803 :
Hello Jen! I'm not shopping this weekend! No drinking and driving either! Going swimming. How about that? Hope you have GREAT weekend despite you car being down.
from doommuffin :
Hugs! I for one will not be shopping...=)
from timdangerous :
Hey. I was on the coast this weekend for a meeting and passed a show. I wanted to tell you about it, but it appears my outlook has deported you. email me.
from saved0803 :
Hello Jen, it's Rosie (rseagulls@hotmail.com) You asked if it was fair that you accept Archangel's offer. I would say no. Even if he loves you or you love him. It's just that then you would feel obligated to him and what if things wouldn't work out between the two of you? I say work your little behind off and get rid of your credit cards before you spend any more. That's what I did. I hope you don't feel as if I'm scolding you or anything. I'm sure you don't, as you are one cool girl. As for your home life, I understand what you're going through. I went through the same thing, but I did something stupid. Well, I went and got married! To someone that didn't have a job and was abusive!!! Can you believe that? Anyway...all I'm trying to say is don't get desparate. Just keep working and doing what you have to do and you'll be gone in no time. Things work out better for those who work hard, as you are.
from timdangerous :
Hooray on the tooth-be-gone! I carried mine home as well, it freaked out some peeps here, but man I paid big bucks like ya said! I was bringing it home too. BTW, have I told you that everytime I see a Chevelle I think of you?
from doommuffin :
yea, they are just sooo cute. Right before this, there had been a major dry spell of kittens, now they're everywhere. =)
from mushufrufru :
just glad to be back....wanted you to know... :)
from timdangerous :
Tennessee? June? Do tell!
from blucollarboy :
well if your boy really loves his truck he'll find a way to get it done eventually, and it'll be worth it, just don't let him get rid of it if he runs into problems. you should totally take that job at the garage, so when i open my hot rod shop i can hire you to come work for me. take care and keep smilin girl, cause i love ya.
from doommuffin :
*hugs* I hope all goes well for you on the trip...
from mal-adjusted :
I think I'm going to have to print out the last -- what...5 months and read everything in book form ;) From what I've read already -- AMAZING. Everything is falling into place. It's about feckin' time, eh? xoxoxox
from mal-adjusted :
MOTHER MAY I?????
from mal-adjusted :
let me in hon. i've missed you terribly!
from doommuffin :
Thank you other fellow muffin! =) I did indeed have fun. Once I get out of my Hunter S. death funk, I will write about the trip.
from saved0803 :
Hello Jen, Just wanted to thank you for giving me your password. I don't remember if I had thanked you already or not, but here it is! Have a great weekend! Love, Rosie S.
from saved0803 :
Hello Jen, Just wanted to thank you for giving me your password. I don't remember if I had thanked you already or not, but here it is! Have a great weekend! Love, Rosie S.
from blucollarboy :
Hey it won't let me read your diary, it askes for passwords and stuff. Sounds secretive, do you trust me?
from doommuffin :
if you want the password, email me at thoroughly_unpleasant@yahoo.com. Joolz
from candoor :
happy new year :)
from blucollarboy :
Hey, any car shows going on any time soon, you need to introduce me to wicked. Finally got my wheels, Lil Suzzy, fixxed after two months of being down.
from doommuffin :
Glad you bought him some Burt's Bees stuff.
from blucollarboy :
Why did the monkey fall out of the tree? because it was dead. Why did the chicken fall out of the tree? because it was stapled to the monkey. That was a joke sent to me by a 9 year old girl in a letter when I was in the middle east, it made me laugh, I hope it too made you laugh. Can you smile sometime and blame it on me?
from wisdamn :
Why thank you muffin head, that is very kind (I think). You know you just boosted my ego a little bit though and that may not be for the best.
from dulligirl :
I used to live in Memphis as a kid and I still have a friend there. I visited her a couple years ago and Memphis has a lot going on. Great food and music scene, of course. Just a really good vibe all around.
from doommuffin :
thanks! hope you're doing ok hon =)
from doommuffin :
Hope your birthday didn't suck too much! (sorry i'm late on this, but Ivan interfered)
from dulligirl :
Good luck on the job hunt. It ain't easy out there. I hope you have a nice bday also. And "can I taste your taco"? Just..ewwww. That is so wrong.
from doommuffin :
Thanks for the bday wishes hon. it was a pretty good one, despite the few setbacks...i hope your upcoming bday is good too!
from doommuffin :
eiyah. Toro will keep doing this, just like my stalker kept doing it to me. Hugs and next time he calls? don't answer!
from doommuffin :
yay! i am glad you decided to give him the boot...just listening to you writing about Toro gave me the heebie jeebies.
from timdangerous :
Hugs back my dear. By the time I've read you again (I'm leaving out for a week on the road) you'll have gone to motor city. It is my sincere wish for you that all goes well there. I think it's the coolest thing that the sudden new interest has appeared back at home, this way, it gives you more room to breathe in any decision making process you might hastily make while up north. Keep your head jen, and listen to the little voice as well as your heart. As long as you are truly happy I don't care if you move to Timbuktu! All my love as always, Tim
from dulligirl :
Lucky is a fucker. But I'm so glad for you that Gorgeous came through just when you needed it most.
from timdangerous :
"OH NO!", he said, barely concealing the mischievous grin while feigning horror. "She's turning into a geekette!"
from blucollarboy :
Merry Christmas!
from timdangerous :
47. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in? I don't know, for whatever reason I've always stood out, even when I try to blend in- I don't know what the other feels like. <P> That's because you have a brain and you choose to use it and have never conformed to the cookie cutter life style that all those follow-each-other-over-a-cliff types subscribe to! You are YOU and if others don't like that, well, they can, well, jump off a cliff! Incidently, that's why I like you so much. <P> She's smart, independant, thinks for herself, is sexy, even knows a 9/16 from a monkey wrench! What more could you ask for? Stupid guys.....
from blucollarboy :
If your around socal, when I get back I want to get a group together to cruise with. Wicked will always be there for you.
from dulligirl :
Damn, my back was hurting before I read your entry and now it hurts even more just thinking of moving all those fixtures around.
from dulligirl :
Congrats on the new cool sounding job!
from blucollarboy :
Glad to hear you saved the bird, that put a smile on my face. No matter what happens, wicked is going to be there.
from dulligirl :
Damn. That does suck. I'm so sorry. I have no pearls of wisdom for you. Just don't get too down. Remember you have Gorgeous at least.
from dulligirl :
Awww, your poor Dad. I can imagine how he must feel. The funny thing is he sounds similar to my own Dad with my cat, Maddux, who lives with my parents. He calls Maddux his porch buddy because they sit on the screened in back porch together. My cat is an indoor kitty, thank God. I only hope he lives to be as old as Sable did. My sympathies to you and your family. I actually teared up reading your entry so I completely understand you getting the plaque. (glad things are ok with Gorgeous, also)
from blucollarboy :
I've had a little time to read some of your entries but I haven't been able to find what kind of car you have! When I'm in Cali I'm cruisin my 65 falcon futura, please refer me to an entry about your car. If there isn't one, could you make one, yeah it might bore some people, but tell me all the details!
from timdangerous :
If they aren't bloody well honest with you now, consider it a gift that you didn't get involved any further with the inconsiderate areswhole than you did! &@(&#%^&%$!!!! Sorry.... I'm all better now. *sigh* *hugs*
from blucollarboy :
sorry it's taken me so long to thank you for the note, i look forward to going home and reading your entries.
from punkmuffin :
If you have that gold membership or whatever, You should put up a picture of Wicked, I want to see what it looks like. :D
from dulligirl :
I hate flying. Mainly the taking off part really. But I found that the last time I flew (I don't fly very often)that Dramamine did wonders for me. Motion sickness wise and it also calmed me a bit.
from blue88 :
Hopefully you have a lap top and can take it on the plane with you to write about you first feelings while taking off, etc. I did a journal entry years ago on paper (paper? what's that...!) when I first flew to England in the nineties. pretty stream of conscious kind of thing but it was really helpful to stay focused and not get airsick. Just a suggestion.....
from rice-milk :
was just, have been all afternoon, flicking thru diaries like some kind of pervert, but i liked your story about jonas - the hair on the back of my neck moved for gods sake. keep writing - xo rm
from timdangerous :
I hate loosing things, it makes me feel...inadept. Thanks for the support by the way, and all I can share with you is; Good things come to those who wait. I hate that saying. *Grin*
from timdangerous :
So glad to see your life getting so excited!
from timdangerous :
Where do I send a reume'?
from timdangerous :
I'm glad I made you laugh, because laughter is the best medicine. *hugs n stuff*
from candoor :
This is a test. (beep) This is a test of the Emergency Valentine's Day System. (EVS) This test is to see if leaving notes around DLand will make this a wonderful day (and weekend) in spite of not particularly being with anyone romantically at the moment. (ummm) May the results be that all this love in my heart found some productive use. (smile) And maybe a giggle or few (if it's all illusion, then I might as well make it a good one... Happy V-Day from my other persona too :)
from timdangerous :
Happy Valentine's Day Jen! *hugs*
from timdangerous :
I like the way your entries are more upbeat and on the positive. This is a good sign. I'm really happy that you are feeling better. I love it when a plan begins to form.
from dulligirl :
That was some weekend you had. I'm so glad it went so well and you had a good time. As for the boi...you did the right thing. Don't look back. It really does sound like you should move to LA. Go for it!
from timdangerous :
Oh man. I hate that feeling of anxiety filled relief, like hot and cold, bitter, yet sweet. Look to the future now love, and don't look back... Not yet anyway, until it's all a faiting memory. Hugs
from timdangerous :
I told ya you were sexy. Didn't I tell ya? Huh? Hurry up and write the rest! I think I held my breath the whole time I read it. I am so glad you had a good time. I knew you would, and ya know what else? You did too. *hugs kiddo*
from timdangerous :
You are correct in that words, used correctly, with the right timing, can make a difference in the world, however, used incorrectly one can count on hanging one's self and ruining what little chance remains to salvage a dying relationship. God that's deep. Yuck. Things ending are always so sad. *hugs* I'm rooting for you. (doesn't a pig root? Hmmmm, never mind.)
from doommuffin :
have fun on the trip and i hope it goes well!
from timdangerous :
If this shows up twice, I'm sorry, d*land seems all Katywampus today.... May I email you? tim_dangerous@yahoo.com
from timdangerous :
Go easy on yourself little miss... go easy. You are going to be fine.
from candoor :
when I saw your name I first thought of an old kids song, but that was the muffinman... ok, so my mind croses wires a lot... I still enjoyed your stuff :)
from doommuffin :
it has to be a virgo trait: i make lists for travel as well. i make lists for almost everything...=)
from timdangerous :
How many notes do I have to leave before it counts toward stalking? *Grin*
from timdangerous :
hey, I make lists too! But I do count underwear. It sucks to run out on a trip. ewwww! Chevy's door clips were always bad about coming loose. Real pain in the keester if you ask me. At least Ford can make a door! *sticks tongue out playfully*
from timdangerous :
LA... Isn't that like Nashville... with a tan? Have fun!
from timdangerous :
A grrrl with grease under her nails AND cute? man! One in a million.... Enjoy the moment with the crush and have fun. Life is too hard not to let your hair down every once in a while. You've got a good head on your shoulders, so I'm not too worried. So, was it just the gaskets you replaced? or did you get some cool Edelbrock chrome covers too?
from dulligirl :
I think Lead Singer is mentally challenged. The secret to understanding men is to know that they really aren't that complicated. Just stupid. .....I don't envy how much you have been working. These next two weeks the managers get one measly day off each week. Today was mine for the week! Yay! Take it ez.
from timdangerous :
I don't think your boring. Wanna race?
from dulligirl :
Cool car! Clicked on to your site from the main page of newly updated. I have the same problem you do with your cell phone. And being its my only phone that reallllly sucks.
from bluecharis :
Hi there! Neat diary... am glad, I clicked on it! I've also just started a new job and boy, am I glad, that this week is over... I never fully appreciated weekend before I entered the real workforce... Greetings from Germany and enjoy your free time, love, Charis :-))
from zeroreverb7 :
Hope you feel better very soon! take it easy!
from eekyfreeky :
Oh, sweetie! I'm sorry for you & the car's injuries. That SUCKS!! Please take care of you, and try not to rip that trucker's head off...*hugs* ...So far April has SUCKED!!!
from sunstarr :
You say you can't sleep cuz your mind races?? Well, my hubby said he used to suffer from the same thing until he started to write things down before bed. He writes down all the things he is thinking about and it basically clears his mind. That way he can go to bed with a clear conscience and he falls right to sleep. Maybe that will help you! *Hugs*
from gamine-grin :
Passed through from the classic car ring..and stayed awhile. What kind of car is Seraph?
from timdangerous :
1. Is my family at risk/affected? 2. Where is 'it' coming from? 3. Who is at fault?
from katress :
1. What will happen to my family? Will they be okay? 2. Is the cancer treatable? 3. What the hell is in the environment that is making us all sick? Hope that answers your questions! I love missions. :)
from timdangerous :
actually, if you weren't overconcerned about the relationship is when I would be worried. Personally I think you are a tad hard on yourself, love. I do, however, understand how you feel. This thing called love is amazing. I mean, really. Think about it, what else in your life, short of death, can make you totally rearrange everything to accomodate it? It's an all-consuming arrangement, yet feeds and nurtures you simultaneously. *shakes head* be well, love.
from beatlenut :
Hey, Muffinhead-- I'm back. I'm making the page more like a diary, now. I'll put short stories on paper and send them to magazines. The web-diary will be more about my daily life. Best regards...
from zerom3ph :
thinkin about getting a mullet... just to dye it funky colors.
from timdangerous :
i missed you, and i can't see the picture of the car.
from jadedcrow :
Heya. It's the Jaderz. I just wanted to let you know that Liyah's diary will be gone at the end of the month.
from srch-n-dstry :
Do as the prompt tells you to do and remember: Search And Destroy. http://members.diaryland.com/edit/addpub.phtml?user=srch-n-dstry
from darcyargue :
ahh. jesus, these people need to chillll... haha... yeah, i know what you mean. but then again, they DO work at hot topic... :P
from halfdevoured :
http://mmmgoddess.diaryland.com/020416_6.html
from darcyargue :
hey!! thanks for joining the antihottopic ring. x darce

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