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just lettin you know i'm thinkin about you, broseph. stay up man.
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stop copying me!!! yes, i did get your note. i was gonna leave a note on your xanga, but i forgot what i chose as my name/password on that, so i didnt. it didnt really weird me out, but at first i thought a little kid wrote it to me cus the handwriting (no offense!!) and then i flipped it over. actually i was kinda excited. but today im sick.
love,
lindsey
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i was on a farmhouse kick this weekend.
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hey... that was a true Lindsey entry. congratulations from the maker of those =) a lot of times, they say a lot more than a hundred paragraphs. i think... i love you still.
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Do you think you're living? Do you think you're trite?
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Hey Nathan...call me sometime. I mean it. And if you don't have my cell number, find it.
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Wish we would've gotten to talk on Saturday. Next time. We'll go for a walk. ziL--
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nathan, the same things have been going through my head, the same urge to watch myself bleed and the only thing i can tell you is if you're willing to die, then you take whatever risks you want in life do whatever you want whenever you want. if death and dying don't matter then failure isn't an obstacle...you're free from it. i'm not sure if that makes sense, but there's something about waking up in the morning that's prettier than crying yourself to sleep at night. i miss you kid. katherine.
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hey, what's up.
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The funny thing is, Nathan, that compliment is so obviously true when compared to the actions (or lack thereof) of other people, sometimes even other friends. The line, and the people on either side of it, are thrown into stark perspective. You're welcome, by the way.
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can't respond on xanga, so here: "But for some reason or another, people still love you. Hm. Imagine that." Anh, I'd prefer it was anonymous, but hey. And speaking to people intentionally is good. Confidence-builder and otherwise...and I'd like to believe it's usually appreciated, even wanted.
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neither.
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im sorry, okay?? but like... that wasnt it. i'm not trying to throw out our friendship. i was sick, and uncomfortable. and hes not my new guy, and ... whatever.
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read dude!
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i read, nathan graber! happy new year
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nate, no there's not a party at my house on new year's eve, the party at my house was katie r's birthday wednesday night, and it was good!!
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I would call, but I don't think you guys are home yet. I'll try later, anyways, since it's time sensitive. This Thursday night, music at the Fiddler's Hearth in South Bend. Nate Gowdy's good to go and I'm talking to Alice tonight to see if her mom will let her (pleasepleaseplease). Get back to me if you want to go...I still need to figure out rides because I'm in no location to do all the driving; I'm closest to s.b. --Liz
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That could be useful. And tasty. Find out when you're open, and we'll do something.
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An experienced friend-of-mine's philosophy on college is that you can do anything you want for one semester. Then it catches up to you. --Liz
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Hey, its amazing what you stumble upon on the internet!
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nate, you do have the the power to add peace and love to the world, just as much as you have the power to add pain! you have touched the lives of all those people that would have been hurt by your death, and that is, in essence, adding love. if you didn't have a positive influence on the world, then no pain would be felt when you leave the world. yeah, yeah, i know it's corny. but i'm telling you anyway because i believe it's true. and i agree, love is the most important thing in the world!
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I really owe an e-mail or something to you.
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reading your most recent entry made me realize some things...lately i've been having trouble keeping my belief in God and everything, dunno why, and it has been bothering me but i haven't known how to fix it. but reading what you wrote helped, i think. im just going through hard times mentally for a few reasons...long story...but thank you. not for almost being hit, but for writing about how it didn't happen.
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from nategrabes :
The best feeling ever, real fucking nirvana, is when you find that you can love [yourself]. Not in spite of [your] faults, including [your] faults as part of [your] person.
--[you]. For what it's worth, which may be nothing. I have the feeling I'm WAY off, but hey...I'm pulling for you. Keep the catharses, private or no...and don't take yourself so seriously.
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Yeppers.
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dude.
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Damn straight (or homosexual, or metrosexual, or transsexual, whatever, lol. It's a joke of Alice's.). And frozen peaches are pretty cool too, especially the ones from a can. The syrup freezes into little...uh...frozen syrup crystals. Try it. :) --Liz
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Nathan, "fkn tanked" is my favorite entry.
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Duuuude. I don't even have a diaryland but my buddy does, led to yours, etc etc all that shit explaining that I promise I'm not stalking you but Jordan Mumaw! I've been thinking about that kid. And well everybody really that I've ever known who's more than likely taking off to college that I'll never see again and wondered what was up with everybody. I wanna see him, yo. Like, yesterday.
I bet you don't even remember who I am, kid. It's all good!
- Brittney
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Did you see that ramp on the...whatever...the X Games or Motocross/MotoX, whatever the cool thing is. Yeah. :) Anyways, reachable sir, your phone was busy and...then I got distracted so I didn't call again. SO...I'm off the beach at 5:00 on Wednesday, so maybe around six or seven we could go see the movie about the candidate from Manchuria? Or I could just stop by after I'm done...whatever. I'll try calling again, but I'm kinda dubious and doubtful and delightfully disdainful (not really, but I'm going with the alliteration). Going off to find out how to cook ears of corn... (?) --Liz
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The ramp is 60 feet tall and they have to clear a 70 foot gap then land in a halfpipe. That's insane.
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I think a/the problem is the/a lack of ::segues::. That really sucks. I'm tired right now so it's not articulate...heh. heh...but yeah...okay bye. --Liz
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NATHAN, YOU ARE TOO BORED FOR YOUR OWN DAMN GOOD. GO...PROTEST SOMETHING. The democratic convention is getting rather boring, now that Brother Al is done. :( I clapped for him!! Yay Brother Al!! We will hang out, just let me...enh, I'm working on it. By the time I actually get around to having time to do something, it's too late...you know? Or I'm not ever sure of my schedule beyond the next day...enh. BTW, somewhere in Texas there's a village missing an idiot...lol... --Liz
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I do worry about that...and I try to communicate how much I remember....but sometimes I fail. I'm sorry.
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Did you ever think that there are those that worry that you might forget about them? That think they were only a passing amusement?
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i can't believe the way you betrayed me about the exemption. you knew that she wasn't going to let you off, but you just couldn't let molly and i catch a break. you complained so bad about the class selling you out, well you sold us out nathan. thanks for about 8 years of nothing.
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And I apologize.
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I think I'm happier feeling the wind whip around me than I am striving after it...the world is round so it always comes back. That means something, I swear, I just haven't figured it out yet. It's only a matter of time before you and I will exist again...everything's only a matter of time and space. But don't think about that. Hmm...maybe if we do reverse psychology with this proverbial wind...will it come back differently? T.S. Eliot has this way of...being so incredibly involvedly seperate. Such a questioner, such and involved observer. --Liz
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"So fuck this bleeding heart..."
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5 days... ;)
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NATHAN I LOVE YOU MAN, BUT QUIT IT!!!!! DELETE THE GIRL-SAD TALK!!!!!! HAVE FUN SMOKE SOME CUBANS OR SOMETHING!!!!! PAISE OUTTIE!!! ~gowdy
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I noticed Emily, when we were going in. It...made me feel good. Just good. Thinking of you, because I can't do much else to help...--Liz (*insert something to make Nathan feel better here.*)
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*fun TO write. And, yeah. Not buy HER...uh, that's wrong. Buy a CD of hers. Wow, three notes in three seconds. Feel special? Hey, the first hour of today is gone...never to be retrieved. Something's lost, no...put away, rather. Put away. --me, x3.
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Hey, copying the Gina CD for me with promise of mine in tow that I will visit and buy her at Mennofolk this summer, with thine promise in tow that you will take me. (That was fun tot write.)
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Palindrome that reminds me strongly of you: EROS, EYESORE.
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I do mind. The dude minds. This aggression will not stand, man.
I will be back in a week. Get ready to journey to a land called Pennsylvania.
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"Visions of Johanna" for you struck me this morning...well, it seemed to fit (to me). In response to your note, don't we all want, and desprately search for and sometimes fabricate, acknowledgement? You are in there. Chances are, if you think it applies to you, then it probably does (even if meant for someone else.) But a lot of it is very fluid; some references melt and congeal from one person to the next and seperate back out again. Do you want to meet after school sometime this week? I (at the very least) want to listen, if you might want to talk. --Liz
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I have some music that you...might need to listen to. It might be right.
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"asshat...?!" I'm taking that word back, if you ever had it.
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that's true, it wasn't... I got a few brain freezes when we were at Flavor Freeze. maybe those harshed it.
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My eyelids are shutting of their own accord right now...so if nothing makes sense, yeah. I'm tired. Sorry for getting so upset at you today...yeah. We'll do something on Monday since I haven't had a good long talk with Nathan in a while, and they usually end up being (almost) good for me, eventually. Yeah. (x3)--me, almost. A decent amount of me-ness is trying to run away and fall asleep right now...and now I have stopped making sense. 'Night. 'Morning. Whatever, lol.
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I wanted to be invisible. Just...sit and listen, then get up and leave without being noticed. Like reading a book, or listening to music; it doesn't notice that you're there, yet it...enlightens? (probably wrong word choice, but I'm too lazy to think more) all the same.---------Plus I didn't know anyone, so I was uncomfortable. Maybe next week I'll try just visiting the youth group...I don't know.------------The dobro solo I got off of that CD you made for Lindsey a while ago; she gave it to me to listen to on the Toronto trip because she thought I'd get a kick out of it. I agree on the awesomeness of it; it makes me happy every time, lol. However, if the whole CD that you mentioned is like that, I should save a bit of money and buy.-----------Hey, do you want to go to the zoo with me on Monday? I might be crushed if you say no by the way, lol. ------------- Wow, that's a long note. ----Liz
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I'm not sure. I don't know what...anything...is right now. --me
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I really need to learn to shut my mouth sometimes. Jeez, Liz. *Feels like an asshole.
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Graber man. Don't get down about something about that. You know, if she doesn't like you for who you are, she doesn't deserve the honor. And you my friend, are one of the most amazing people I have ever met. Like seriously, I have never met someone so in touch with life; so down to earth. You're seriously one of the coolest guys I have ever met and that's pretty shallow for her to say that. She's cool and all that but it's not that you're not up to her standards, it's that she doesn't deserve someone like you. -Mike Huang
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I think I'd like to schedule a music-listening session with you, because those are interesting. Although not done very much, really. Get back to me.
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I called but you were elsewhere, so yeah. If I'm home during spring break we will do...something. Be creative. On a really really really good note (!!!) I picked up the bootleg series of Bob Dylan!!! My heart beats faster at the thought, lol. And he re-uses/variates some songs, like "Meet Me In The Morning" is extremely similar to "Seven Curses." So this is an extremely happy jumping-up-and-down, arm-waving, randomly-call-and-say OH MY GOD!-and-hang-up-Liz. Then I listen to the music. Oh, haha to your kitchen thing. By the way. :)<--Soon I'll calm down. :) :) :)
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Hey grub! Its heather, goldy that is somehow stumbled onto ur site from hillary's or chirsties and wanted to say hey! Hope life has treated you well enough these past two years. in the final stretch of highschool can you believe it?
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Title...title...I'm actually leaning towards "Spontaneous Something," and/or put the words "Show Me A" in front of those two. Thanks for correcting my bad Spanish...or at least ignorant use of it...and thanks [(?) (no, seriously :) ) also for adding yet another straw on this camel's reading list (okay, that doesn't really work, but yeah. Silliness is underrated.) --Liz
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If you are talking about driving from Elkhart to Watersmeet, then it is 510 miles if we go through Wisconsin.
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I was interested in dating you, but that Dan Kurz has such a good mental attitude that I couldn't stay away.
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I have a song for you but your phone is busy. call me 8487813 if you want it? --Liz P.S. Not everything is about you, kid. :)
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Oh. HTML manipulation/spicer-uppers don't work. Nuts.
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We talked more about trand'ism in English, and I read up more on it, a bit. I don't think I disagree with it, now that I know more about it, just that it won't work now, not everywhere. You and I might be able to make it for ourselves, but the person sitting across the room? <br> Also after reading more, I realized that I actually kind of do go with that lifestyle, those kinds of thoughts and what I believe is important. So that was kind of an eye-opener for me. It might have been the everyone-is-good thing, and the<i>opinions</i> of people that I disagreed with. And by the time I got home, the disagreement there had...shifted to disagreement (I know I need a new word) to trand'ism. Or maybe I just know more now. <br> So I'm a hypocrite and now trying to make excuses for my ignorance. I should go change that entry. Or add on another to negate it. <br>--Liz
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I don't have anything to say, really, this is just at thinking-of-you note. They make people feel special and I like leaving them.
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You shouldn't have encouraged me, not while I'm in such a good mood! So I'll keep bugging you until you send me an e-mail. It's one of my (many) goals for people, etc. as of late. ---------Liz (Rice, since apparently my name to you is one of those that has to be said first-and-last.)
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Nate I pretty much felt like you do at several points in high school, but look how it has turned out for me now. Besides college girls are better, so don't feel bad and just wait until the fall.
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I am so in for Andi and I. Just tell me when.
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read your email!
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i think ill just continue to leave you messages... =D GO WASH OUT YOUR MOUTH WITH SOAP, YOUNG MAN!!!!! because i care... and i havent really had time to listen to that CD. i put it in the player, but ive been sleeping a lot mostly, so ill try and listen to it ASAP...
Lindsey
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i dont know how much i like that story. because i understand all too well. montana. does that mean anything?? or did you just arbitrarily pick a state that really does mean something??? anyways. i like my other story better. at least i get to be a princess.
Lindsey
i want a hippopotamus for christmas..
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sometimes, i have no idea what youre talking about. but thats okay, because thats why i l*ve you so much!! lol... I'm going to try to read your two entries.. for the 20th time and make sense of it. too many big words and things i have no idea about.... =DD thats what happens when smart people get their hands on keyboards.. just joking =D i heart you!
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I'm writing a note to myself......how pathetic.
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