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Bunnies :-D and maybe you clan play games for a living? I know some people who do ^_^. But dont be rushed at all to find out who you are. Things will come.
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I'm working on it, I really am. It's hard to see here because all I do is complain but I like to think I've grown a bit. You're right, though, and I appreciate you telling me. And the hug. I really did need a hug. <3
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hey im sorry that it didnt work. I just didn't think you wanted me so i moved on. I get really down if i keep pursueing someone i feel i can't have. It took a lot of dates but found someone who made me feel special. Maybe that's what will happen to you. Things are different from person to person. I feel that you will find love. Or love will find you. I still love you, you are my best friend. We may not be as close or as in touch as we'd like but at least we still care and think of each other.
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Is this a return maybe sort of a little bit?
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http://rebelagent.org/amanda
register and we can talk there. Shouldnt be blocked from school at all.
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theoxymoron : |
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hey hows it going. Long time no talk? Seems you're down and out. Sorry to hear that.
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http://www.myspace.com/heartbreakingspecialty you?
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i Just randomly check your diary every once in a while. Im sorry that happened Amanda. I trully am. I am still here for you. Im always on aim and you can email me or send mail whatever works for you okay?
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That's great that you're doing so well. :)
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thought i sent you one already. so ill send by email again :P. miss you btw.
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I'll love you even if your heart does change.
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awww i cant see ur entries :(
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I love you *hugs*
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hey! if you get on b4 6 ur time go to RYL chat ill be there ^_^ i love you!!! and I'm so sorry that i broke your heart :( I swear I'll make it up to you! I love you and im all yours for as long as you'll have me i promise! xoxoxoxoox
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I think you may be the sweetest person I know. <3 Sorry for not responding this morning, I kind of got drunk last night and forgot to put up an away message before going to sleep. :X
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I want to know about the dream! *jumps up and down like a lil kid who can't wait to get outside* please tell me please pweaze *puppy eyes* lol email me :P I love you too xoxox
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http://pub48.bravenet.com/chat/show.php/4104149683
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I love you Amanda. And if you're on meet in the link ima about to post so we can talk while im at school please.
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I miss you! And I love you. I hope I get to talk to you soon. I tried calling back last night but the line was busy and then when i got answered i think it was your bro who said you couldn't talk :|. *sniffles*
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i care! I love you! I'm at school right now :\ if you're on maybe i can find a way for us to chat right now... if you are on ummm leave me a note...
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and the cd!!!! I love like all the songs!!!!!!!
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hi! I must've just missed you! *cries* I know you can hang in there i got an idea already in works love! AND i got your package like right after we hung up last night! I love the socks and the buttons and and the postcard! poison dart skills lmao! Andd yes I love you! I hope you come back on today. xoxoxoxox
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hey. I had found your diary some while ago, and sometimes I come by to read dome bits.... I like the last thing you've written. Everything seems cheap, and ou become aware of this hypocrisy. They promoted you a beautiful world. But it's just a really low-quality reality...And ironic, when you see that the only persons who ask you if how you are in fact don't give a shit.
Well well well.... Don't fall down the edge...
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*abandons you discreetly in the streets of London* ♥
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watchmexdie : |
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Thanks, love. I appreciate it muchly. Adding you to my favorites, too. ♥
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okay, i'll see you on monday. xox
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man i gtg now but ill be on on monday! Im sorry im using the mac store computers ^_^ sides i still gotta get you someting from the mall here! *luvs and hugs*
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miss you too!!!! xoxoxoxox happy new year!
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I read a bunch of your diary entries. I write in Cutters Club a lot as well. It would sound ridiculous to say that I "understand" where you're "coming from" considering that I don't even know where I am coming from, let alone you. However. Your diary still makes sense to me and it still rings a bell with me. It still sounds a lot like me. I guess the reason why I am writing this is just to say, "Hey." Just a strange, crazy girl waving her hand to another strange, crazy girl. After all, "we're all mad here".
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i haven't read your diary or anything like that, but your note on xsketchbookx, and i just want to say i wish i had a friend like that...
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hey, i somehow your diary and read like the last 20 entries. you sound so much like me... ive been to two insitutions and have been better for almost a year. better as in no one knows what goes through my head and i dont cut anymore, but you wont always feel like this. one day the black cloud will disapear and you'll be able to laugh. <3
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Ok, let's face it; I like you. Out of everyone who wants to review for Diary Nazi, you seem like the only one with any sort of brain. Send me a review of any of the diaries on the pending list (try to keep the scoring similar to mine, but if you want to move five points from layout to content or something like that then I don't really care) to hate_thisplace@hotmail.com and I'll get back to you. -Amanda
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You won't always be alone. As long as I'm alive and you're willing to be my friend you're not alone. And from what I've got to know you are attractive okay? And I know you are and if you don't believe me then I don't know maybe eventually you will. I love you too. ttyl
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hey guess who? bet ya can this is my new diary :p i didn't c ya today im saddened but its cool maybe 2morrow or next week? hope to hear from ya soon. i love you! take cares
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Well, I'll go on to AIM today or tomorrow at least till i see you on. Then I'll give you my new sn. yeah. okay. hope today goes well for you. *thumbsup* good luck.
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THAT'S WHERE YOU WERE!!! I was worried...I thought you were dead because you hadn't been on in ages. But im glad you're ok now ^_^
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hey dude sorry i logged off this morning without saying goodbye! My computer like froze then it wouldn't start when i turned it back on. So im back to using damn library comps. Feel better and if not I'll try my best to make you feel better ^_^ things is you gotta tell me what's working and what isn't. I don't think i can fully make you happy or feel worth but i think i can help at least a bit. I hope to talk to you soon.
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im sooo sorry hun, i hope you feel better... i really do, i Hate seein you like this :(
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hey i will be gone for a while, so i want u to try and talk to someone that will,stefane,she will be under my name.
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please be here 2morrow morning. Im here for you and i know how it is amanda. I know what it's like to not expect anyone to be there for you that long. But ill there for you. lol hell ill give u my number too just in case man. but not here. yeah. please stay safe. i'd miss you.
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awwww no AIM!!! And ok...*sniffles* i got all these lameos to talk to now...i miss you! *hugs*
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hang in there girlie. I know it gets hard. I feel the same way pretty much...but yeah *hugs* thought you might need an online hug. And have tried listening to music to drown out the voices? I used hear voices too...but they went away...i still hear them once in a while but i drown them out with music...they just become muffled whispers to me now. ok yeah...dunno if that helped but just thought i should say i miss you!
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yup thats how i feel, i was actually happy for 2 fucking days now im back at my stupid normal depression that was the frist time iw as happy in a year. :( but yeah i know.. i wanna die too :> after i hung myself. and lived......... i o.d'd and lived........ and then i cut into my veins...... along the vein. i lived. my blood clots to fast.... so meh im gunna try suffocation soon
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man do i know how that feels about the dreams and stuff. It's why i don't sleep anymore. I keep having one about cutting my wrists and cutting through my hand that i write and draw with...it really gets me man.
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thats good that i got it :> hehe, yeah my thoughts are similar
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woops on my last note,where i sayd...... to find its not real... i mean to find that it IS real, and not fake.
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Hey amanda i know what you mean exactly. and when you feel like.... its just going to... fade away.... thats the times when you need to find something to keep you going and make it seem like its not real..... maybe im wrong, maybe i dont get what you were saying.... but i try.
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please dont do it! I enjoy talking to you the few times we did talk! and hiback thanks for the note it meant a lot to me. <3
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I wish I knew what to tell you right now. I was where you are now. However, I have no good advice to get you through it. I know how hard it is, but just hang out, you will get through it. There is something waiting for you on the other side of this, I promise.
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fatqueen : |
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Thank you SO much for your encouraging words. Please drop in again soon, I will be back, I promise! ~ Ciao for now ~
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glassboxgurl : |
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k I totally know what you mean, but I've never found anyone who can say that and also tell you how to fix and/or get over it... really sucks doesn't it?
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thanks.
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j-u-s-t-me : |
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i would love for you to add me as a friend
thanks.
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glassboxgurl : |
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Thanks. Not all the links are working properly, but thats alright for now. I hate being busy SO much! I guess it's all end-of-the-year BS but w/e. Yeah, life's shitty but I'm hoping that it'll pick up soon, and even if it doesn't, I'm gonna be getting out of here for a month.
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oh honey, i so know the "i want to cut my wrists" feeling. i'm also climbing out of a breakdown and it just seems that every time i take one step forward, something comes along to remind me of my fuckedup-ness and i fall two steps back. but we just can't give in. it's exhausting, but we have to push forward again and again and again. or else we've totally lost and can never get our revenge on those who want to see us fail.
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ahhh muchos suckiness. I think I'm bi-polar. I might start seeing a psycho soon. I had a therapist, but it was only for abuse, so it was like ahhh blah I hate you I dont want to see you anymore. and then I didnt. and hey, quit bitchin' alright? I fixed your name lol.
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glassboxgurl : |
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I'm trying.
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hiddenbeyond : |
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wow, thanks for the note. it made me feel a lot better, kind of like i wasn't a wackjob. thanks for the compliment as well - on my writing. :)
laura.
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glassboxgurl : |
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No! K, what you just said, is like taping what goes on in my head and then playing it back. So there. Now you know. It's not just you.
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glassboxgurl : |
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exactly. EXACTLY. just with more stuff mushed in to complicate it. Because nothing can be THAT simple(even though its not even simple), can it? <---did that make ANY sense?
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glassboxgurl : |
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I don't find it intrusive. I think that sometimes, when you can find other people who know how you feel, or close to it, it helps.
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thanks for the comment, because without it, we would all be very void of people, you're a good person, have a nice day..
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glassboxgurl : |
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Alright. How long have you been reading my diary?
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