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from miralogue :
hey there, tahnks for stopping in! you're the best.
from silveringrid :
thank you for your note :) i was hoping that i could get the password to read your journal? i hope to get back on track and write in here more than sporadically! you can email it to me if you would like at [email protected] I hope you are doing well!
from candoor :
did I follow already? (old hippies lose memory cells faster than normal folk :)
from zencelt :
Thanks babe. When I get my head on straight again, I'll look forward to more philosophizing with you. Its a rare treat.
from zencelt :
Me again. I'm kinda looking a like a groupie at this point. Yeah, I've never watched the Navy series. But, you might want to check out L0ST too. If they ever do the reruns, its facinating. Take care!
from zencelt :
I have followed your advice and set up the auto payments. Now I have to learn how to give myself an allowance so I don't overspend anymore... Thanks for dropping in!
from zencelt :
Thanks for the tip. I used to see a Chiro for spine issues, but haven't gone in a few years. Since I started the yoga thing. But, since the yoga thing has been on the wayside, my spine is probably crapped up again. See ya!
from zencelt :
Hugs and kisses!
from teena79 :
hey i'd like to come along if that's ok?
from zencelt :
Send me to new url puhleeze!
from gothique :
I've left some messages for you in your guestbook and haven't heard back, so I'm not sure if I should ask for your new url, but if you want to keep in touch I'd like to have it. ~Shann
from zencelt :
oldhippie, you are a very wise man. Another equally wise man told me the same thing. I'm heading the advice and roaming the ads daily. Kee in touch if you stop writing here, OK?
from bitchslap69 :
merry christmas!
from beotch :
:/ not sure it's because things are going so well. More like because other things are going so not well. Wish me luck.
from zencelt :
You are a brave man! I admire that. I'm such a chicken. She sounds like an interesting person to get to know. There's fun in that ; )
from zencelt :
I spent some time getting to know you through your earlier entries yesterday. All I have to say is, big, warm, cuddly hug out to you. : )
from lameassgirl :
hey there, cutie *wink*
from zencelt :
Thank you so much! My spirits are already lifting just thinking about the freedom... Nice to meet you Old Hippie!
from feileacan :
I'm sorry - I forgot.
from feileacan :
I got through most of it but really couldn't relate to it. Mainly because I can't make myself believe that God isn't independent of me. I just feel that there is a spirit somewhere in the heavens (and all around us), that is separate from us. The presence is too strong for me to deny.
from beotch :
i think there is someone meant just for you.
from beotch :
wow... i had no idea. i remember talking to you a little about this and being so insensitive... i had no idea that you were that close to the situation... i'm sorry. I had no idea you held him or had footprints. wow. I'm sorry.
from cdghost :
stumbled across your words and enjoyed reading them...
from sixweasels :
Thanks for the note! I'm feeling better now, but will definitely give a yell if I need to talk. You do the same, anytime. Hugs.
from lameassgirl :
rock on blondie
from beotch :
hey, i'm so glad you are feeling positive. just know, the negativity will come again, even though it feels so overwhelmingly good right now. Still though, it cycles in and out- if you start to feel negative again, don't get discouraged, just know it's part of the process.
from beotch :
i say: fuck it. If it's not there, it's not there. Don't sweat it. just let it go. you know? I mean... you wouldn't be questioning it if you were really into it. that's basically all i can say.
from willowgrove :
i just went through a pretty crazy time but i'm more okay now. thankyou for worrying. i did talk to my mentor and i'm actually gonna get some help in a week or two. that is a good thing and a big step even though i know i'll regret it tomorrow! keep on keepin on.
from willowgrove :
have you ever lived somewhere other than your hometown? sounds like you should get back on the road and wind up meeting people through whatever random adventures take place ;-)
from beotch :
you should move to Chi-town!
from aleathiad :
well, for starters at least 22 people think you are interesting and wonderful enough to add to their reading list. that should be some place to start shouldnt it? alea
from aleathiad :
i have to say that i think you are looking at the being alone thing kinda wrong. imagine what a wonderful time it could be to really find out who you are and maybe take all those supressed feelings and clean them out. being alone can suck...i know this but there is nothing more unattractive than a man wallowing in his hollow lonliness. it really creates a polar magnetic response in women. i think if you look for the small but wonderful things in your life you will begin to turn around....people will come to you.. and you wont be alone anymore. just a thought. it worked for me when i was alone. alea
from beotch :
why not just believe?
from aleathiad :
i just went on a random ole search and there you were. alea
from beotch :
i don't know, i just do. i guess more i don't see why you wouldn't. there are so many people, and everyone whether they phrase it this way or not, is looking for someone to be with. it's just a matter of time before you and someone like minded are in the same place at the same time, and something just clicks. its really simple. we (especially I) just make it complicated and then suffer.
from beotch :
you will. =)
from beotch :
hiya! ive been wondering when you would update every time i click my buddy page. i am so so so so so so sos os so sosos osososososos glad that you are in a different stage of life than you were two years ago, or whenever it was we had our late night IMs. I know how it is- being in that middle phase, when things don't suck but you're not there yet. It's hard in its own way. but i knew you would get there hip.
from willowgrove :
about your question in an earlier entry; i'd say it's because almost every woman is insecure and afraid of being alone.
from beotch :
it doesn't apply to me. I would never do that. And- way to be, not wanting to get involved with someone who is with someone else. I think that shows you're not into drama and want a real relationship. I am the same way- I won't even take someone seriously if they have been single for less than a year, much less still WITH the person.
from beotch :
just be you, hip.
from willowgrove :
give me your email again and i'll send you the address for my other site. it's real important to me to keep them separate though, because it's read by people that know me, that i live and work with. it'll probably sound like a completely different person because that's where i write when i'm basically happy--there's no way i'd write about my crap on a site where people really know me! they'd interfere. ok
from beotch :
hey, that twitchy thing happened to me too, when I used to take tylenol pm. so, at least it isn't just you. it would especially bother me in my lower back, like a tickly thing.
from wench77 :
hello there! you don't know me, but you post notes on hogwild666 and willowgroves' diaries... I wanted to know if there is any copyright on that cherokee 2 wolves story... I really liked it and would like to put it in my diary... I could credit or link to your diary if you would like... let me know! thanks a gazillion!
from lameassgirl :
well happy birthday and i hope things get better for you and im sure they will cuz good things happen to good people
from hogwild666 :
dude, maybe you don't open up to people, maybe that's what's wrong, of course, i am only sayin this because that's what my problem used to be, now i don't have that problem because i just don't have anybody to open up to.. can you imagine being alone for two years? meaning that everyone you know is nobody really significant, wheter because i don't want them to be or they don't want to be with me. i used to think it was because i was too different.. and maybe i'm right. maybe it's not me, but the people around me that are not the right ones. i just might take off on a bike this summer, and look up a few clubs out west... i might even find a Vikings chapter out there. i will tear away from all of these people here, including the girl i like, and boom, back to the wild side, where i will be happy, you dig? anyway, i guess just my fucked up wisdom.
from willowgrove :
sorry to hear that...and i think guys just don't usually feel like that anway. today kind of sucked, but it was good too because work was challenging and i learned alot. and now i feel beautiful so i think i'll go out and force myself to be social. a couple people have been getting on my case for being so reclusive.
from willowgrove :
me too
from lameassgirl :
hey i have my right eye brow peirced too! good deal
from hogwild666 :
man that beard you had looked awesome, why'd you shave it off? *lol* you looked about as wild as i do.but i guess chicks like clean shave better i've noticed. lookin good, man. anyway, i kinda dig what you said in your last entry, actually i dig it all, you know i've been there and still am in a way, except i have started to go numb little by little and that's scary too except it just don't hurt as bad. at least i always have one option- just say screw it all, forget about it, and go back to the service, that paid cannon fodder unit i was about to join awhile back.man it felt good in the forces, i never was hurt, all the girls were paid for and i never had any time to even think about the relationship let alone worrying about one because i had other shit to worry about, like not getting my ass blown off. i should've stayed.anyway.btw, i never get any calls either, that one girl that asked my # never called either so i can pretty much rip the damn phone out of the wall and forget about that.
from beotch :
hey hip, did i already email you this? i cant remember. you look awesome in your new pics, the clean shaven thing really works for you. i really think that finding someone isn't going to be as hard for you as you think... it might just be a matter of realizing that that will change things? maybe? I don't know. There is a shortage of handsome/good men out there, so unless you're cursed, stop worrying.
from willowgrove :
for a pretty long tim i felt that nothing was importants. that's a pretty dangerous way to live because it brings you around to dying. but then life got better, and i had to make a choice to decide to force myself to believe that it's worth living; for some reason. but every now and then when i'm sit outside cold under the stars, i see everything and myself from a distance and it blows my mind--how could we possibly matter? it's alright though.
from hogwild666 :
i now what you mean by that, thaough, like, if you can't find the right one then there isn't much reason to have the wrong ones, you know what i mean? i have a few friends and we always went for rides in big packs, but i haven't rode with anybody for awhile, and we have way much snow for bike riding now anyway.so when i ain't have friends around me i'll just usually chill, like drink, or get high. i know drugs are bad for me but i guess if i can't do what i want, what's there to live for, right? i used to turn my saddness into anger, and get mean. then i started to box, i guess you can call it that,and sometimes i got so up that i hurt my hands while hitting the bag LOL almost took the stuffing out of it. i still remember you writing me when i was going to off myself back then and i can't say i don't think about it, and i am still down like you are most of times, but it has to get better, right? so if one has hope there is still reason to be happy occasionaly, and man i don't want to have you ending up the same way i was, you know. anyway the reason i wrote was i was going to ask where about youlive at. i got a new car now and i plan to do some traveling over my vacation coming up this month...
from willowgrove :
do you have any biker buddies? i'll tell you what i do when i'm down and lonely--might be silly--i go to a mall or someplace like that, sit on a bench in the middle, and watch all the people walking by and kind of think. i've met some real intersting people like that. one in a hundred will realize that you're not just sitting there waiting for someone; your're by yourself and okay with it. and for some reason it draws people because they respect that. i think people are weird like that--it seems like as soon as women see that a guy is independent and not too needy, they flock to him. i guess guys do the same thing, because i get more attention when i'm happy and by myself, kind of glowing. i dunno, it's late and maybe i'm crazy. later -willow
from hogwild666 :
i know i am not the right person to say that, but there isn't no reason to feel down. like, the way i see it it's not just a girl that one might need, but a right one in particular. i have been with two girls since we last talked and both of them, well, they just weren't the right ones, dig? so we spilt with no harm done. i am still loving the one that broke me though.but i guess i will have to get a life, sometimes. i personally can't see why you haven't found anybody yet...like, you seem like a pretty cool dude to me. and i know about drinkin' since i do it most of the time myself. beer, mostly.gotta keep up my forefathers' traditions :)
from willowgrove :
i don't worry much about what other people think or tell me; it's myself that i have to stand up against. i'm getting a lot better at being cheerful though, starting to really enjoy the person i am becoming. that kind of sounds weird, but i'm definately not vain!
from willowgrove :
sorry, i think it's: willogrove
from willowgrove :
i think i figured it out, i'm pretty sure my name on msn is willow. i don't know how to look people up on there though.
from willowgrove :
how do i intrigue you? that's encouraging because a lot of times i feel boring. but i've been pretty happy and energized lately--i think it's the change in the weather. i don't have msn or any of that chat stuff. well there is msn chat on this computer but i don't have a name on it. is there a way to put multiple users on it? i was looking at that the other day but didn't see how. later -willow
from sixweasels :
Guestbook is being a wanker, but I just wanted to send a hug your way. I know it isn't the same, but I really hope today is a better day.
from dreamyautumn :
What can I do to help you change this?
from hogwild666 :
Howya doin',dude???Nice diary. How's your bike,by te way?You rode any this summer?
from hogwild666 :
still here,man..I just stay off the computers recently.how about you?
from dianabee :
doing better. unlocked. thank you for your concern. *wink*
from hogwild666 :
happy holidaidays to you too!
from hogwild666 :
yep i ain't doin so bad at all.how about you? we got some serious snow up here.i like to run the snowplow trucks every now and then.cool,isn't it? well drop me a note and tell me how's going.and don't worry i bitch about things all the time.
from hogwild666 :
hi man! hope you doing ok..too cold for a bike now,ain't it?
from hogwild666 :
how's hangin',man?haven't heard from you awhile.. you doing ok?
from hogwild666 :
hey,i have the exact same feelings...like,where the fuck is she?and guess what?i noticed someone i like!seriously!but...i haven't even talked to her yet...i just started to notice her last thursday....man,she's so sweet..young..fresh...silent,a bit sad looking maybe.... wish me some luck....i might need it
from hogwild666 :
no i havent find anybody yet and i am not sure i want to from the selection i got.i mean i know 'em all or they already have somebody or they wouldn't want to have anything to do with someone like me you know.i mean,im literally a bum and people are prejudice towards the kinds of me.and plus,i haven't met anyone special yet who would beat the image of jamie.
from hogwild666 :
hey i just thought i'd drop you a message and see what's up.i really don't think of killing myself too much anymore 'cause i'm either real busy or wasted on beer.bythe way what kinda job you got?i'm a friggin maintenance man.
from hogwild666 :
i really don't talk dying and stuff like that to anyone.i am known as one happy dude and so on because i don't want 'em to know about that shit cause they would do something about it then and watch me and take away my guns and stuff.people just don't care much about guys like me around here cause there's lots of good people and just few bikers like me,you know like in that damn beyond the law movie,crazy and dirty enough.but i made a head start and started to wear clean clothes now and shaved my beard off and everything.so i don't know.i can stick around for a little longer and see if you're right and that other does exist or maybe i will get Her back who knows right?i mean there's always time to quit and take off if i don't want to stick around at all anymore.so i guess i wait and see for awhile.
from hogwild666 :
i made it to kentucky and virginia and couple other places. about the other stuff...i am so sick and tired too...i have no fuckin idea what to do about it.i don't bother with the gym and all that shit-i have been in pretty good shape ever since i got outta military.and i am trying not to be depressive but it doesnt work.nobody likes me anyway.maybe i'm too fucking boring or maybe i look too ugly and wild with all those tattoos and shit.but oh well im glad that you made it back and you are ok..i am fucked anyway. good luck,man.
from hogwild666 :
man,it sucks that you feel so bad...i really dig how it is.i got back saturday and all the old shit started again...but i did have a great time,trust me.i rode few thousand miles and did every kinda cool shit..had so much beer and smoked some pot and i saw so many other bikers...but i feel so shitty now again..so i dig what you mean... anyway..
from hogwild666 :
i am alomst ready to take off now for my ride,too.i have some cash,sprayed that stuff on my wires and all that shit.i'll be heading south west,see how far i'll get!i have a tent and raincoat..that's about all an old biker & a infantry vet will need..ok,drop mre a note if you get a chance..
from hogwild666 :
well good luck on your trip,man..be careful i'll take mine maybe next week..if everything goes ok later
from hogwild666 :
i might try that spry stuff..might work..i got ways to go..i've been riding for many years and in two different worlds.. i don't need to take too much stuff..i've slept and worn the same set of clothes for weeks sometimes..and hygienics..i gave up shaving recently..i might take a tent..might need it,til i got outta the northern states. problem is,i gotta labor most of the times..i guess i need to ask my boss about few vacation days. anyway,i guess it's a good idea..either way. later
from hogwild666 :
it's a good idea..i actually planned to do it before i go.i'll take my tent,set of clothes,a map..i'll be on my way to anywhere my two wheels will take me.fuck yeah,it's a good idea. maybe next week...hell,that'll do.. except,rain is hard on my bike..she's old and her wires are kinda sensitive..but what the hell,you're right..rain rules..and for guys like me who doesn't accept the windshields. thanks..
from hogwild666 :
i got your point..and it'd be nice to think so. i read your stuff,man...was bad,wasn't?..mayhap you know what i'm going through then.but maybe you were even worse off than i'm now...at least,i drink...doesn't help for shit but i can pretend that i'm drunk 'n happy,right? but i got your point,man...i know you don't give a damn,but..i think about it. hw
from hogwild666 :
that your first bike? i owned a buncha them through them eight years i've been ridin. my current scooter ain't no harley either but it's about 10 years older than i am so i stick with her..she's one good scooter..sits real low and noisy and still pretty fast for that ancient look
from ghostinshell :
hee hee i like you...
from blueeyesblue :
That was supposed to be "so sad," not "so said."
from blueeyesblue :
Oh, so there are other humans out here in diaryland. You're a dyke, a lover, and linked to a few newsies. I'm the daughter of Oldhippies (age 23 this week), a very lonely + recalcitrant dyke (I wanted a husband and a minivan, DAMMIT), and a 3-year reporter now trying to make it as a freelance writer. I'm also (if you want a peek at Gen. X) struggling with a supremely nasty eating disorder I've had for 1/3 to 1/2 of my life. So said, that child that should have been yours. I know them too... yet unborn.

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