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so an old DLander bumped me back here for a moment, so I wave hi to you here too, so I wish you well and as far as I can tell, I'm still happy to be connected to you :)
so when you revisit here, I was here waving at ya :)
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saranade : |
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Hey!! Good to hear from you!! I'm glad you're still around!
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ottodixless : |
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Ha, thanks for your Hungarian knowledge! It made my day (I'm easily amused).
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z0tl : |
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older men, eh?-) file up an application for z-wifey, you may be the lucky 8th 1.
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z0tl : |
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i've worked for the gov't now for 5 years, believe you me, no door openings here! yes, you can't be so airhead you don't remember i wuz unb0rn in tranzylvania [which we stole from hungary], dodo!-]
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z0tl : |
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retype like you jes don't care! sweet torment:z! or is it tormentings? z-[tor]mentor.
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z0tl : |
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wanting things to be different than they are = suffering // observing things as they are without getting wrapped up intellectually about them = living in equanimity // how's that for intellectualizing everything?
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z0tl : |
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live 4U, not your parent:z!
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ottodixless : |
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Ha, thanks for that link. I'm definitely going to sign up for facebook now. Next time I'm really really bored.
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z0tl : |
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i can't believe i spelled let's instead of lets, that's like unforgiveable, me g33k who reads back thru my own note:z!
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z0tl : |
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yes to c@t for friend, yes to payin attention more closely to what dad is saying, yes to gawd manifesting as dust sprinkled on cobwebs [& rotten flies] & diamonds in wrinkled paper bag:z! did i mention paying closer attention to dad and those w0rds that manifest right in front of you?
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z0tl : |
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stop teh boolshyat with trying to label yourself according to the dsm (the random manual of psychiatric diagnosing). surf with the lows and the highs and don't get overly attached to either. the last fucking thing you need is some moron psychiatrist to tell you God is a Pill and can save you.
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z0tl : |
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evdokia teh whistler say: confucius sux1!11 just coz your boytoy is in yo head at teh same eggsact dream moment, don't mean you're craaaazzzzzzzzay. still, you don't let him go, he doesn't let you go, IT let's go of both of you whenever y'all are ready.
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candoor : |
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Happy Birthday (continue celebrating, if only to be polite and all so nobody notices I'm late... ah, the logic of the belated is strange, aye? :) ... may this be your best year ever :)
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z0tl : |
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you can always return home as long as you understand home is somewhere you've never been before OR you can never bathe in the same river twice OR i forget the other ways to say even tho it feel like you always go back to square one, it may in fact be circle two & if you get lucky every now and again, even ellipsis zee!
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z0tl : |
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happy bee dee:z! sounds to me like your latest boyfriend is quite a paradox, solve it & be free of IT all. so like without him you suffocate, with him you don't have enough energy left to breathe, huh, fun stuff! thx for letting me know you live. remember, contrary to popular opinion, what KILLS you makes you stronger, not what doesn't.
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stuberosum : |
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big important thoughts. pray inspiration for you.
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stuberosum : |
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well hope you get it my friend. everything is ok with me, nothing too amazing or exiting, new people here and there this year but this last couple of weeks have hermit like ... partly explained by LOTRO but only for this last week. If you do come and try it let me know! be cool to play with someone :) of course there is only about 5 days left of free open beta and it seriously took me most of a day to download the thing that let me play. Addiction could be an issue but in this case addicted for 4 days only! :) What else is going on in your world?
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stuberosum : |
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I've got nothing dude. Hope you get something soon, some kind of peace, some kind of certainty, something! Nice to see you are back though anyway even if only every now and then so big smiles for you :D
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stuberosum : |
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congratulations. I hope you have certainty soon. not too much to catch up on with me here not writing much at all.
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z0tl : |
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passwords are llama lame, you must unlock!
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dope-slave : |
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give me the password
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saranade : |
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Hi. I would like the password, if it's ok. My e-mail is Forever_Firerose@yahoo.com. Oh, and Happy Halloween! :-)
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pernickety : |
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Note me if you want the password.
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stuberosum : |
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I dunno if I would say it is just a stage, more just that sometimes you aren't ready to let go. I dunno I guess that it is less sharply defined in timing in my mind - a stage finishes right here. becoming ready gradually comes, like something melting away ... also a stage is like a goal, you see the end and try to work your way there, force your way there, but its something that gradually happens rather than is forced, quite likely coming to a point while you are doing something that seems completely unrelated. Why people like to complicate each other's lives is a complicated thing, not so much their motivations which can be fairly simple if not particularly sensible or pleasing to anyone involved but because when you identify what you think is the issue, it changes you, if you want it resolved badly all you see is that is the answer and you just want to be there and all else can become hell and a failure on your part, which is bad cos its usually something they have to do or something in them that has to change, which you cannot truely control. Um, I am seriously going on here should stop. If you want to you can email me at jav050 @ hotmail.com I feel much more comfortable rambling on in emails :) there is no "I can't believe my commment was about 2 pages long how embarrassing"
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stuberosum : |
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I'd love to have the password if you lock it :)
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stuberosum : |
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sometimes people laugh at stupid times when they just have nothing they can say, or perhaps they didn't really understand or don't really want to understand. When you are ready to forgive or release any hurts something will change, sometimes you just aren't ready. Emotions are never completely tame even when they are under your control, sometimes you just have to ride them out and learn how they flow. I pray you find someone you can release it to and feel safe. Blessings and peace on you my dear.
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stuberosum : |
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Hahaha! I have to ask her it seems quite likely though, she is just that classy :D Love that you remember :P Hope things are going well for you :)
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sir-jeremy : |
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Jeremy's new journal is at all-for-not. Raederle's journal is for-you-only. Or you can check out http://artphoenix.diaryland.com. Neat journal you have... Cheers!
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ayco : |
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Boys are mysteries (maybe that's why we like them?). -ayco-
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stuberosum : |
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man I can just see you doing that book right now ... and on every few pages you see a girl within 5 a guy with a girlfriend WZZZZZZZZZZZZZEXPLODE!!! Sounds like a cult hit to me. Presumably there would be some kind a explanation for what is happening unless this is a fantasy all girls have, speaking of fantasys - making love to twin sisters? no thanks, I'd get all confused and give all my loving to the one girl rather than share equally between the two and I have a thing about unfairness. Hmm maybe I should do a new weirdness entry...
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z0tl : |
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whatchu talkin bout being inconsiderate? not at all, just that like any restaurant, i refuse to serve you if you're not wearing shoe:z! why is up better than down? i wanna be in space and spaced out just now. congrats on finishing uni, sorry you have to join "the real" wxrld now. it sucks or maybe it won't, but eventually it will. suck. don't mind me, i'm a negative sob. and ADD at that. rah.
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stuberosum : |
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hey just thought I'd say I did that tag thing, had a purple patching of babbling on my diary though so its a few back if you want to see the weirdness, such as it is :)
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stuberosum : |
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hugs dude, afraid thats all I've got :(
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stuberosum : |
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Man emotions are like the mob, just when you think you are out they pull you back in. I hope only misunderstandings are your problems :) Thank you for your kind wishes. Man the mental, emotional and even physical side of things just don't seem to be buying into what is clearly the best for everyone. I mean they agree sometimes but ... Eh, its all managable :) I think we would say Meh a lot if we didn't have emotions, which guess IS what cool robots would say. That and Smeee smeee smeeeG Heeead. Ha! I just realised I treat emotions how you treat baby's - interested but a little worried, poking them from a distance. Hmm, I guess that means I poked too hard this time and the baby puked all over me, or worse :S
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stuberosum : |
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desire to please is pretty human, and it can be great thing too. Is there a differing in what is wanted between you two? I think that in the grip of any strong emotions reality suffers too. Probably good to have somewhere else to let off some tension when you aren't talking with him so you can be calmer when talking to him but still be aware of what is bugging you. Of course today I have been going through lots of confusingly strong emotions so who knows what reality this advice is coming from. Good luck :)
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enidhere : |
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You've been tagged! check out my diary
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stuberosum : |
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I think "aww cute" and maybe gentle poking are completely appropriate - imagine if you broke their baby? how would you pay them back? you break it you replace as new? sounds like a good tshirt for a kid. Eh anyway seriously isn't gentleness a good response to such an uncertain situation? Especially if the baby giggles a little when you poke it gently ... awww
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stuberosum : |
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I'm from New South Wales in Australia. I just like basketball and go for the San Antonio Spurs is all.
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stuberosum : |
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that all that is around is the fruit of someone's thought is strangely disturbing and a white jacket is even more so - you would be completely covered in someone else's thought and unable to get out without help. Brrr.
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bluperspex : |
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yeah. when i was in grade ten i remember vowing never to smoke, drink, take drugs, have sex before i'm married... sigh. life, happens, i guess. don't beat yourself up about it.
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stuberosum : |
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doooooo it ... just a drop will be fine I am sure ;P
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stuberosum : |
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man you should be naming make up, I want to buy some Pink Panther's Nose and Chocolate Toffee sounds Mmmmm - Brown Turtle Shell is less interesting but I would buy that too just based on the power your brand would have in my mind. I would need someone to wear it for me though I guess. I think I am going to have to add "wears Pernickety brand Chocolate Toffee lipstick" to my list of things I want in a girlfriend.
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z0tl : |
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in z near future! just as soon as i open my subsidiaries in budapest! check it: i heard THE BIGGEST burger king in z wxrld is in actuality in budapest. wow!
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saranade : |
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:-) Yeah, they do...it would be awesome to be back at that age.
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gods : |
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you're hired! that moron z0tl will prolly make you an offer soon nuff! just get your ass to the states, eh?
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stuberosum : |
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I am glad I made you a little more proud of your name :) I guess I also win at life! I do like the cartoon too though *shhh* dont tell anyone ;) I like your writing. Its softly revealing, thoughtful, I dunno pleasant to my mind while still able to be serious. And I'm pretty sure that has nothing to do with your name ... or does it.
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stuberosum : |
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saw your note to blu and I just have to say if your name is Daria you immediately win at life. Feel free to celebrate this information in any way you see fit.
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megsworld2 : |
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Yeah, its like I'm learning something new about myself everyday. I think anyway.
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bluperspex : |
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i was thinking just the same thing... what do you do when you're lying to yourself. what if... you don't even know you're lying to yourself.
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megsworld2 : |
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Thanks for the hugs & the advice too. I'll remember just how stinky they are.
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bluperspex : |
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it's cos people seem not to care really... and i guess that's what's so great about loving and being loved... that's at least one other person who seems to care about something a little more other than themself.
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megsworld2 : |
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Hey, our weather is getting cold and possibly snow tomorrow. Maybe I'll feel better then. Thanks for the note.
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bluperspex : |
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well, you know what they say: a crazy person never doubts their sanity... so, i think it's safe to say... you're probably not doing too badly :)
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bluperspex : |
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you were missed amiga :)
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z0tl : |
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im more into august 8, 2oo8, but yeah, merry kissmas to you too & don't overdo it in terms of goolash or whatever the hell you guys eat a lot of during x'mas. have a blastin' 2oo6!
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bluperspex : |
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a merry, merry to you - may it be blessed and utterly fabulous!
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z0tl : |
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whatchu be doin, dood? i've been sporadically trying to keep up with your goolash & paprika stories, sadly i've been too out of it to do it regularly. hope your spastic ways of loving aren't driving you crazy! hug:z!
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bluperspex : |
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indeed. cos... nothing is coincidental. nothing
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bluperspex : |
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that was the read of the ear for me - very thought provoking. and still a story :)
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megsworld2 : |
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all that spoiling can take a lot out of you. thanks for the note.
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megsworld2 : |
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strange...surreal sometimes.
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megsworld2 : |
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Just to see a hundred dollar bill. I might be hypnoed too.
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bluperspex : |
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ah, yeah, i think they have a special penchant for soapies too!
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damiag : |
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hey hon thanx for your advice,its nice to know nice people exist!!
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missy-17 : |
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oh hey i am fine, and you, how are you??
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missy-17 : |
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hi!!!!!!!
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bluperspex : |
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...they're never accidents. always meticulously designed sagas... with us right in the middle. sad and beautiful. always at once
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bluperspex : |
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damn them directors!
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bluperspex : |
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hun. i think we'll be okay. well... maybe not. but at least we won't be the only ones :)
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bluperspex : |
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i can't believe we are always saddled with the assholes!
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bluperspex : |
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hey cookiloo... i think you're doing okay. we both know it's not us that's f*cked up... it's the rest of the population :)
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bluperspex : |
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:) why thank yee... missy. and the same in return for you. mmmmmm... bed. sounds like a great plan... hehe
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bluperspex : |
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mostly... things are useless. round heres anyway. or at least for now
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fourbysix : |
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I'm sending you a smile :)
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uridium15 : |
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we sluts get around. (;
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bluperspex : |
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:) cute.
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crackisbad : |
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notes really suck, but okay, if that's what you like. a guestbook slut sluts up people's guestbooks, and sometimes gives them various stds. because of all the previous dirty, dirty guestbooks that have been slutted once upon a time.
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lolamae : |
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I have to say, I agree with you. I am recently divorced and being criticized for starting a new relationship. My mom says things like, "don't you want be independent for a while" Umm... I am sorry, but If I thought it would be more fun to run around and act like a slut.....I would. I want a man in my life, not just to take care of me, but for companionship. We all know how other females can be. Why would you want to "purposely" surround yourself with women(who secretly hate you and will stop at nothing to make their lives sound so much more glamorous than yours). Ummm....I'll stick with men, and starting a family. Whew...sorry....that came out of no where. Anyway, I am adding you to my favorites.
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bluperspex : |
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lordy. i always thought it would be awesome to hibernate, but for real. can you imagine. fuck.
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bluperspex : |
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i left a little something for in my diary :)
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bluperspex : |
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i hope everything pans out for you... we all deserve a little light afterall...
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bluperspex : |
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thinking is good... it's how you know you're alive... and not dreaming. cos imagine doing all this again!
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bluperspex : |
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i think one can track the progress of time by the lines along our faces and the scars upon our hearts. god. now i feel ancient.
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bluperspex : |
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butterflyish... beautiful.
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fourbysix : |
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Hey, thank you. Thank you, really. =) I was wondering where you'd gone. Hope school's going great for you.
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bluperspex : |
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the world, my dear, is deffinitely insane...
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bluperspex : |
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tis mighty fine to have a healthy obsession once in a while. specially when the object of your affection is so beautiful they deserve to have a portrait painted :)
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bluperspex : |
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and scary. i guess we always become so consumed by our mortallity that we easily forget how limited our time really is...
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fourbysix : |
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I hope you're safe and well and possibly having fun.. (and god yes, the act of actually dropping the letter off is a very difficult thing to do for me as well)
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bluperspex : |
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or worse still... is if you're posting it or even if you're handing it over, because that is the absolute point of no return. watching a letter slip into that little red slot... is one of the world's greatest torments.
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ayco : |
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I guess it's nice to think being in love is something really personal while there are millions of people out there that feel the same things. It's a strange thing, that's for sure! Strange, but soooo deliciously good. -ayco-
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bluperspex : |
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yeah. i miss any of theose feelings... the good or the bad. cherish it beacuse really, it is a gift... that you can feel at all. and i hope it makes you smile in the days that don't seem so good.
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ayco : |
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Happy birthday! I hope you had a great day! -ayco-
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fourbysix : |
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Wow. You just gave me a new perspective on life, and everything else. Thank you for making me think, hey :)
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ayco : |
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Haha, they already stare. Or sometimes they don't hear what I say and then five minutes later they say the same thing and go all WOW about the thing they "discovered"... And you definately learn more from looking. *continues observing people* Thanks for the note! -ayco-
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gods : |
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lita z is z0tl & how much do you need to escape hungary into australia?
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bluperspex : |
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surfer chicks rock :) cept when they fall with their faces in the sand. hehe. so watch your step and go kick them boys butts :)
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saranade : |
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Thanks; I hope you had a happy Kwaanzadanukah.
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bluperspex : |
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hahaaaa... i am glad i am not the only one! over christmas lunch my brother's girlfriend started talking about "someone's left-over's in the toilet"!!! and i'm thinking... god!... way to impress the family. while trying to imagine i'm in another place :)
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bluperspex : |
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damn them bastidos for inflicting the ravages of exams! i feel your pain.
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indie-snob : |
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Hello there! I had the wonderful priviledge to see Radiohead the other night and just posted my review for it. I have a bunch of other concert and album reviews here too. Check it out. Thanks muchly!
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introibo : |
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i don't actually speak hungarian but i love how it sounds. and i think 'szerelem' means love? what does what you wrote mean (other than magyar - that's 'hungarian' right?)
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