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from jaysthoughts :
Oh, that rescan I've had. Herceptin treatment continues. Fun stuff.
from jaysthoughts :
Another rescan in six weeks.. I'll know then how I'm doin. What's cracking?
from jaysthoughts :
I'm trying to get on a diet of all fruits and veggies and lean meats like chicken and tuna. It should help to cut out everything that would feed the cancer. Sugars, carbs, etc.
from tarkis :
are you on facebook? would love to add you if you are.. I miss the connection we had.. didn't completely understand it all the time.. just knowing there was the connection was enough... and it seems right now I want our collective energies... maybe I should say . need those collective energies.
from jaysthoughts :
Thank you.. *massively substantial huggification*
from jaysthoughts :
Hello my only reader.. I know what you mean about that edge. I'm working on a book just now and any time I wake up in the middle of the night with an idea and think, god that's so good there's no way I won't remember it the same in the morning.. WRONG! For that reason, I am grateful for my iPhone's notepad and audio recording features.
from pondlife :
"Dreaming of Sunday" said everything I've felt so often lately. I miss you.
from jaysthoughts :
I feel you.
from tarkis :
I do not wnat you to be lonely
from tarkis :
thought of you often and our world here when waking felt so raw and hurting was the norm.. I am glad we got past all that.. how is your family?
from jaysthoughts :
..but never really alone.
from jaysthoughts :
I was feeling that same old dland nostalgia a few entries back. Were you around for dland chat?
from emeraldtiger :
Well, several changes will take effect in '14: 1) all US citizens will be REQUIRED to have acceptable healthcare coverage or otherwise pay a penalty, 2) companies with 50 or more employees will be REQUIRED to offere health benefit coverage to their employees or otherwise be penalized via fine, 3) insurance companies will no longer be allowed to reject/deny/drop someone from their insurance policy due to pre-existing health conditions (very very important to countless people, and it is a very odious, widespread practice at the moment), 4) lifetime caps on medical coverage through a given insurance plan will be abolished. 5) there will be more opportunities for individuals and small businesses to comparison shop for standardized health insurance packages, etc. Huge, huge changes. Here in the US, most (or a lot of) people typically get health insurance (often including vision and dental) through employers if they are full-time workers. And coverage does not hinge on health status. A lot of times, the plan extends to spouses/children. But the tricky territory is those who are self-employed, recent graduates or those who are between jobs who have to purchase individual insurance plans. That is where insurance companies have all sorts of shady business practices, like rejecting coverage for those who have pre-existing conditions (need not be major like cancer, but can be as simple as having had allergies or headaches), dropping coverage for people who are considered too unhealthy b/c they're a liability, or charging sky-high monthly rates for people (raising prices for those who are less healthy, etc.
from emeraldtiger :
Wow, as I live and breathe! I did a double-take when I saw your name lit up and it made me happy. This now-obscure but comfortable corner of the internet may have a thick coat of virtual dust and overgrown tumbleweed, but it has its unique charm for doing certain kinds of writing, for sure.
from picean-dream :
Happy New Year to you as well!!! Have meant to ask so many times, are you on Facebook?
from emeraldtiger :
Thanks for the new year's wishes, and same to you! Wishing you & your husband and daughters a wonderful 2011. How are you guys? Hope you're all doing well. xoxo,
from tarkis :
Happy New Year.. It has been so long - thank you for the note and good wishes.. all the best to you... how is your daughter and new little one - are there more? We have known each other for so long. it seems.. I hope you are happy
from emeraldtiger :
xoxo.
from pondlife :
Remember how we used to talk forever and ever? I miss that. Hope you're well, will try to rattle off some pathetic excuse of an email soon!
from emeraldtiger :
Thanks! :-) How are you? I hope that you have been well.
from emeraldtiger :
Thank you for the good luck vibes. I need it. As for getting an advanced degree(s) one day, I say go for it, by all means! That would be so awesome if you did.
from emeraldtiger :
Thanks so much for the well-wishes! I did have a great time, and the ppt presentation went really well. :-)
from emeraldtiger :
Thanks so much for the well-wishes! I did have a great time, and the ppt presentation went really well. :-)
from picean-dream :
Hi there, don't think I replied to that note almost a year ago, sorry. I've been rather depressed and trying to work through it. You've always been so kind, I hope you and your family are well!!
from tarkis :
How very nice of you to send me a note after all this time.. I am well.. happy.. and out of the black shadows that seem to have taken control for a bit.. the many "mes of me" won out. How are you and the family.. your little one is not quite so little anymore is she.. and your older daughter - is she in college now? Thank you so much for the note.. it started my day so positively... let me try to give something back... Let orange butterlies fill your soul today.... Blessed Be
from emeraldtiger :
ps, i hope you & your family are doing well these days. your little one must now be...not so little anymore! (walking, talking, constantly keeping you on your toes). xoxo,
from emeraldtiger :
thanks--i'm ok. just...so stunned that someone who i used to read regularly here apparently has lymphoma. wtf? she's my age, and very into fitness and health. it's scary! she hadn't updated here in several years, and then last night i logged onto diaryland and there it was (her own announcement, tinged with shock and angry disbelief). given what happened to my professor (her husband) last week, that is hard news to read right now. ugh. but, i am well, though summer passing too quickly and there's too much work to finish!
from pondlife :
Your notes are perfectly crafted! I've begun to draft a reply, honestly, but I'm home so little these days. Tomorrow, I promise!
from emeraldtiger :
thanks so much for the note! it helps to know someone knows how this feels. oh god, it's like my favorite pretty clothes will never fit again. and yet... i hold on to that teeny tiny bit of hope as i eat right and then swim lap after lap or watch the minutes tick away on the elliptical machine at the fitness club. anyway, despite that, my summer is off to a totally great start (i love summer and warmth and spending time outside more with my friends and family)! i hope your summer is going well, too, and that you are well.
from pondlife :
Let me know if you want a password. And the email is the same- [email protected]
from pondlife :
You, I have missed you so much.
from emeraldtiger :
A postman stalker! What a scary thought... I have to say I'm with Bex on not being a fan of Twitter, though to be fair, I haven't given it a try. I just can't get beyond the narcissism and egocentrism of it, though I suppose blogging, Facebook, and lots of other things are a little self-centered when you really stop and think about it. I DO use the Facebook status update feature, so maybe it's not that different. But, no... I think there IS a big difference between FB and Twitter, as I don't live-blog my whole day and fill up internet space telling the whole world my every move. You have to wonder if Twitter is clogging up the internet and if one day, the virtual world will be at full capacity b/c there are too many people online that make the world wide web grind to a halt??
from emeraldtiger :
Hey-you too? Cool! I'm really enjoying it, and look forward to continuing to read the series during my week off, next week. Maybe I'll devour books 3 & 4 before classes start up again. I definitely think about you and hope you're doing well these days!
from picean-dream :
Thank you for the note! I was feeling down today given the results of our presidential election last night and your note brought a smile. I hope youre doing well, I miss reading your entries!
from pondlife :
OMG! YOU HAVE TO COME VISIT THIS TIME! Not even kidding! How's the baby??
from pondlife :
The email I sent to you was returned.
from pondlife :
Hope all's well with you and yours. New email address if you care for it, let me know. Will be back over the end of August, would be nice if our families could get together???
from emeraldtiger :
thank you (belatedly) for the b-day wishes! i hope your summer is off to a good start, and that you & your family are well. xoxox,
from emeraldtiger :
hey thanks for your note(s)--it means a lot, esp. coming from an experienced teacher! thanks for sharing your perspective/experiences--it helped me realize that my line of thought really did make enough sense to write a coherent paper (which, btw, turned out really well!). i also agree with you about the idea of teaching from the top in a mixed ability classroom. it makes sense to really challenge people to grow and learn, and then if they struggle, you can and should scaffold them when necessary. although, i was thinking that differentiating to mixed abilities in something like math might be challenging at times if you have vastly disparate skill levels, with one student struggling to add and subtract, and another one who is ready for more abstract equations. i did not know you were coordinator of gifted/talented kids...interesting! i may actually be doing some research on giftedness this summer (hopefully!).
from picean-dream :
Oh Elizabeth, i'm so very happy for you! Take good care and stay warm over there!
from tarkis :
Congratulations on the wee one.... Glad you are both doing well...
from emeraldtiger :
hey congrats on the new baby, and happy new year! emanuella is such a pretty name. glad you & baby are both doing well--what a special and happy way to end the year and celebrate the new one. xo,
from emeraldtiger :
just sneaking in here during my vacation to say merry christmas to you, too! i hope it's a very special holiday this year. i'll be eager to hear your latest news upon my return...hope all is well right now, and that everything goes/went well!
from emeraldtiger :
i appreciate it--it is comforting to know there's someone who has experienced the same thing. i just never knew they could cause that much agony. wow. also, i hope you are well--the wait is not much longer, is it?
from emeraldtiger :
xoxo
from picean-dream :
Thanks so much. I don't know what else to say because I feel so in shock right now. I hope you and babe are doing well.
from tarkis :
I am so happy for you and baby.... you have to be so excited.. sounds as if everything is going well ( well, other than G D ) have you started gathering all that good stuff for baby & baby's room yet... not sure i have your correct email address anymore... and mine is not good anymore that you used to email me to... use [email protected] and I would love your address so I could send the baby a gift... what do you need?
from picean-dream :
Wow I haven't been on in forever and forgot to look at notes! How've you been?
from tarkis :
Yes - we are the lucky ones... and now what about your youngest soon to be....Dec right? everything on schedule?
from emeraldtiger :
i'm so sorry to hear about the gestational diabetes! best wishes keeping the sugars under control. your recipes sound great, and i'm sure that by experimenting, you'll be able to do find a way to eat well and eat things you enjoy, and at the same time keep you and your baby healthy. i had a friend who was diabetic in high school (but type I juvenile/insulin dependent) and knowing her really opened my eyes to how careful she had to be, and how she had to scrutinize labels for things non-diabetics might never notice (e.g."low/reduced fat" labeled foods often actually have more sugar in them than the "regular" versions, and a lot of diabetics avoid them for that reason). on another note, the lush store is finally open! i'll have to look for the snow fairy gel this winter. :-) stay well, take good care... xoxo
from pondlife :
What's all this about a baby? How've you been? I'm in Sussex now you know, for a while at least. Are you familiar with the area of Forest Row? Can't wait to hear all your news.
from emeraldtiger :
i'm absolutely thrilled for you! how exciting--a little girl! :-) there's always a lot going on december--and so this means it will be an extra special time for you this year. i'm sending you good vibes for a safe, healthy remainder of your pregnancy!
from emeraldtiger :
i always love hearing from you! thanks for the note. my summer was lovely but also much too short. how are you doing these days? hope you're doing well and that you have had a good summer too.
from o-jasmine-o :
What?? Your still around? I thought you'd disappeared! I sent you a change-of-address e-mail to two addresses but one came back and I suppose you don't use the other one. Which one do you use? How are you? WHERE are you? And and what do you do these days?? xxxxxx
from picean-dream :
Elizabeth I'm so happy for you! December is a fine time to have a baby, better than the heat of summer you know! I'll be checking up on you (being nosey in other words) to see how things are going. Congratulations and take care!
from tarkis :
I am sooo sooo happy for you.. yes, I was being nosy and getting ready to leave picean a message and read yours... hope you don't mind.
from picean-dream :
Thank you, and x's back to you! I'm going to be fine, just taking some time. How's everything over there?
from emeraldtiger :
thanks! hope you're doing well. :-)
from picean-dream :
Thank you! Unfortunately I don't have that little pig anymore either, he passed on a few years back. He was a sweet boy, liked radish tops and watching television, very shy. Yes, please post pictures of your new dog! That would be great!
from emeraldtiger :
i think so much of cooking/baking is an experiment, where you play around w/ ingredients until you get them just right. thanks for the easter wishes! i hope you had a good easter holiday too.
from picean-dream :
Hi, saw your note over at tarkis and just wondered what was new in your world?
from tarkis :
thanks for thinking of me.. I am fine.. staying close to who I am.. accepting what was not for me this time around. My energy though is good and powerful and each day I wander closer to where I must go.
from emeraldtiger :
oh i defnitely can't wait 'til the lush store opens near here!
from tarkis :
thanks so much for your thoughts.. as a mom I think I tend to worry too much .. I need to see the boy as a young man instead of an older kid... but he has made it to his destinarion and is fine.
from emeraldtiger :
no, but i'll have to try baking powder to see how it works--maybe they'll rise even higher(?). i'd love to hear if your vegan pancake batter works for the yorkshire puddings. :-)
from darkjelleh :
I'm so sorry for your loss. *Hugs*
from emeraldtiger :
you know, i *think* they're essentially the same thing as yorkshire puddings. when i went online and googled the recipes, many of them looked similar if not identical. it's amazing that they puff up like that from the hot steam alone, and no type of leavening agent! :-)
from picean-dream :
YAY!!!!!!! I'm so happy for both of you!!!
from picean-dream :
He ate the floor??????? Wow!
from picean-dream :
I'll be thinking of Bex on Tuesday then! I'm not sure what went wrong with Strudel, but I knew as soon as I saw her after surgery that she wouldn't live. I can always see it in the eyes of an animal regardless of what the rest of their body says. How long has your Elvis been gone? It must be in our nature as mothers and nurturers to look back and wonder if we did the right thing, knowing in our hearts we'd never purposely do the wrong thing for them. GP's are the sweetest. So, the doggie is working out then?
from picean-dream :
:( Poor little Strudel didn't make it through the night. I'm going try to make something good in her memory, a diary ring for g.p's and maybe a new diary just about piggies. was excited to read about your daughters plans in one of your previous notes, hope they come through so you can be together. Have I ever given you my email address? Big assumption on my part that you would like to exchange, but if so it's sbgnsc at aol dot com. Thank you for the note.
from bamstroker :
sorry they didn't reach you earlier, i just emailed you. :)
from bamstroker :
i have been worried about you since reading that, and assumed you left for good, so i'm very glad you're still here. *hugs* [email protected] is my email addy. i can't wait to hear from you. take care. :)
from bamstroker :
oh please don't apologize, i appreciate it so much that you've stayed with me for so long. i emailed the passwords to; [email protected] let me know if you don't get them (i've been having trouble with the dland pass notifier) or if you have a different address now. i hope your move has gone well and that you're in your new place under happy circumstances. :) and i hope to hear more about things in your life soon! *hugs* <3 whit
from picean-dream :
Thanks, she was special. Everyone is moving on the best way they can. Sorry I didn't reply til now, I've been working on something big big BIG! Have to tell you about it soon. Hope you're doing well over there!
from tarkis :
thank you for your thoughts... I am better.. getting stronger each day.
from emeraldtiger :
happy new year/best wishes for 2007! i'm still around, though i've neglected my page here recently. i'll def keep you posted on the new pw. i just realized you left me a note this fall, and i never responded. heh, i did manage to finish grading those single-spaced, tiny-font papers--all while studying for my own exams and experiencing a raging case of PMS!
from tarkis :
and thank you for sending good vibes my way. It will be a glorious year.. I just know it.
from tarkis :
an Indian blessing I give to yu this new years eve: May the long time sun shine upon you, all love surround you and the pure light within you guide you on your way this new year and this new day.
from emeraldtiger :
it's OK to still read even when not writing anymore. (no explanation needed, i understand). i was just thinking about how i used to read bex several years ago when she was 13 or 14, and went by "rollerqueen". (i found her on a hot tip from Ara Jane right after i found your diary). but when she left rollerqueen, i lost track of her writing. goodness, she must be about 18 or 19 now? i'm sure she's grown into a lovely young woman now! i hope she is well these days. xo,
from emeraldtiger :
i once read that the average lifespan of a blog is 9 months, so we've "outlived" most people here! people start (and stop) writing here for a variety of reasons. you had certainly gone through a lot when you stopped updating, so i hope you're doing ok now. i actually almost stopped writing earlier this year when i found out i'd be moving (but didn't know where yet), then had pneumonia, and was also busy applying to schools. too much was happening & it was all too close to my heart, & it overwhelmed me. but for better or worse i'm still here. at least reading. xoxo,
from pondlife :
I missed your note, I hope it wasn't long ago? Haven't been home a lot. How are you these days?
from emeraldtiger :
d-land service has sucked lately. like, everyone's guestbooks are broken, and some profiles and diaries have been coming up as blank pages. that happened to mine this week. anyway, at the moment you should be able to read me just fine b/c this is a very, very, very rare moment that i'm unlocked. that's b/c i think re-setting the password might help. so i went in and deleted them all and will re-enter them. will let you know when your password is re-entered. sorry to ramble on in your notes. xoxo,
from tarkis :
thank you, as I remember you always were one to appreciate a good day... I suspect you are having many of them at least I would hope so and I am happy for you.
from emeraldtiger :
andrew confirmed there was a d-land server issue last night. my diary kept coming up blank. it should work now. if not, let me know. xoxo, m
from emeraldtiger :
your pw is still the same. the only thing i can think of is that last night when i updated, d-land went blank for a while, so it wouldn't surprise me if something's up w/ the server (?). maybe try again and let me know if it works. if not, then e-mail me and maybe a new/revised pw will work. sorry about that... xoxo,
from emeraldtiger :
hmm....i'm not sure why that is, b/c it should. i would never lock you out, so let me see what's going on....
from tinyvessels5 :
Hi Elizabeth, In case you were wondering, this is just me at my new diary (or more aptly, my "other" one). This was actually a long time in coming, as I wanted a 2nd space where I feel more comfortable posting some things. But, my old one IS still my main diary, and it defintely won't be abandoned. I'll be posting at both. xoxo,
from emeraldtiger :
it's great to hear from you! thanks for stopping by, and leaving a note. i'm glad you enjoyed the photos. and i hope you are well these days. though you may not be updating here anymore nowadays, i definitely think about you. xoxo,
from emeraldtiger :
you have been issued a new pw. hope you are well these days.
from picean-dream :
P.S. you may erase whatever you need to of my notes about this.
from picean-dream :
Of course it will work, copy and paste away! Entries have to be moved one by one as far as I know. How exactly would she know you have a new diary? By looking through the history line on your computer? Or just by seeing it bookmarked?
from picean-dream :
Caution: Pathetic, rambling note below!
from picean-dream :
This breaks my heart. And no, I'm not sorry I asked. You know, you could have a totally private diary that no one links to. That way you'd still have a place to talk things out (what I do) and he wouldn't know about it. I'm just so sad for you. Ha! That's funny what you said about vanity-I too have settled for something less that wonderful in the layout department! My daughter knows how to make great layouts but she's too busy to ask. And anyway, now that all the entries are up I wouldn't want her to see it. :( Let's be sad and html illiterate together, deal? No, better, let's NOT be sad and learn html a little at a time!
from elf-arrow :
Thank you! And when are you going to write something? Hmmm?
from tarkis :
Sorry to hear about Bex not being with you.. It is hard to let go. It has been difficult for me to let the kid go to university 8 hours away but it was the best for him.. he has grown and found friends and is happy.. I am happy though my life is quiet the aloneness is not to be confused with lonely. Odd how we find peace.. don't you think?
from elf-arrow :
Sun signs are funny that way. Rising and moon also figure heavily into it as well, which makes me feel a bit beter about not fitting perfectly into mine. Now that I've discovered this I feel less of a failure as a Sagitarius-after all they are supposed to be big, bold, superhuman, over confident, blah blah blah and I was never any of that! That wasn't snooping, I always notice the first few notes left by other people elsewhere when I'm leaving notes of my own : )
from tarkis :
I am so glad it wasn't intentional. You must fill me in on where you ended up, how you are, what you are doing now,and most of all are you happy? You sound happy... You have been in my thoughts often wishing that for you.
from tarkis :
you could never be forgotten.. though you have forgotten me as your buddy list shows
from elf-arrow :
I'm sure no one has forgotten you, I haven't! But sure, I'll let you know as soon as it's ready : )
from emeraldtiger :
just saying hi...i miss your online presence. hope all's well. xo,
from elf-arrow :
Sending mine back to you (love&thoughts)!
from o-jasmine-o :
xxxxxxx
from elf-arrow :
Well just be very careful, and try to be kind to yourself-you deserve it. I'll write now and then to see how you are.
from elf-arrow :
We miss you so, and worry too. Say hello sometimes?
from arajane :
i'm so sorry to hear your news. and sad, also, that you'll be leaving this internet world. an eternal xoxo to you.
from elf-arrow :
Oh Elizabeth I'm so sorry. Please say if I can help in some way.
from emeraldtiger :
i am so very sorry. xoxo always.
from tarkis :
I am sorry for your loss
from tarkis :
Congratulations.
from emeraldtiger :
you're not pulling my leg are you? ;-) well, wow...congratulations! xo,
from arajane :
for real? wow, that's terrific!
from o-jasmine-o :
Oh my god! Were you trying? Congratulations! ...I think. xxx
from ruind-puzzle :
congrats!
from pondlife :
Oh my God, she does love those pigs! (Spying via your notes)
from pondlife :
Yeah I'm not sure if it's a case of me adopting her style, or her trying to keep things in the same vein as what was already in watercolored. Whatever the case may be I'm grateful for her unending kindness and understanding. And seriously, I could never be as personable as she makes it seem. I miss chatting. When Robert left his aol account went with him, so I've been without an isp for a while. Frankly with all that's going on I wouldn't have had a spare moment anyway. Sometime in fall Anna, myself, and the children will be visiting my grandfather making relocation plans. I'm less than excited at the prospect of Christian Danes beginning school here in the states so it may be back to London for all of us. Tisiphone is back, just in time as Anna is due around 21 May. Much love, take care.
from tarkis :
thank you.. family things can touch in ways that no matter how good you get at not letting anything touch you... you become a child lost in a nightmare once again trying hard to wake up.
from elf-arrow :
Yay! But oh you will be sorry you agreed, I'm mad about my piggies!
from elf-arrow :
Tell me what this very good and solid reason is, because I'm sure it isn't as iron-clad as you think. You are not worthless, you are beautiful! I have no idea what you look like, I don't mean beautiful in that sense. But spiritually, emotionally, you're a lovely person. Would you like to see pictures of my guinea pigs? It sounds insane and childish maybe but they are sweet creatures and they help me a lot when I'm sad.
from fan4 :
You're welcome.
from fan4 :
It's now easier to access the archives at unsentletter. Awhile ago, you had a hard time locating one of your "unsent letters".
from elf-arrow :
:(
from tarkis :
You are full of worth. never forget that.do not let this destroy your hope for tomorrows.. there is happiness out there for you.. an love.. deception is the worst but you will find a place to put it all in... I will be sending you all the positives I know how.
from elf-arrow :
That's incredibly nice of you to say and somehow I think you mean it too, but heaven knows why anyone would care. Thank you Elizabeth.
from elf-arrow :
I'm ok. I pretend I don't know most of the time so the peace isn't disturbed in our house. When I do mention it he gets really angry and says things that really hurt. I would never do that to him but he thinks nothing of doing it to me. By his own admission no one else would have him. Oh the terrible, terrible secrets I keep.
from tarkis :
You haven't updated in a while.. on either .. are you alright?
from pondlife :
Those sort of dreams are called nightmares :P
from o-jasmine-o :
Nope, of course not... I'd let you know IMMEDIATELY! xx
from tarkis :
thank you for always being happy for me when life is good... thank you for encouraging me when life is not so good.. sometimes I dont think any of us say thank you enough to positive energy sending people... so thank you
from lousrose :
being the eternal procrastinator i am, i'm here to reply to your note from a million years ago. lmao. passwords to this diary: goaway/private if you don't already know, and still want them. and of course i think you still have the passwords to my other diary. :) *hugs*
from elf-arrow :
I had to. They forced me. Ok, well they didn't actually force me Alex-style like in A Clockwork Orange...um wait, they didn't force him to eat anything did they? Aaaanyway, it was eat the stinky eggs or eat meat. So I ate the eggs. Next week I bargain with them over tofu and tempeh. Dunno about English doctors, but American doctors are fucking sadists. And the nutritionists? Unqualified. Period. How can you hold a degree in nutrition and NOT KNOW ABOUT ALTERNATIVE PROTIENS? Ok. I'm finished. Thanks for the sympathy, and enduring my rants.
from o-jasmine-o :
Yaaay for the bra! *I* want one! I didn't know there are places like that where they fuss about your tits and get you the right bra! Fun!
from o-jasmine-o :
Thank you Sparkly. I'm not quite sure why you're so intent on sending me anything at all really... but it's always nice! :) Things are crappy and weird. But the medicine side-effects have changed to more handleable things. Thank you for your email... I haven't forgotten to reply, I'm just in such a dinge that I do nothing at all except go to compulsory uni things and cook. For the rest I sit and stare. Oh well. Things will pick up one way or another, some day. XXX
from emeraldtiger :
i'm sorry you're feeling so very sad. i hope that some rays of sunlight shine through to you soon.
from emeraldtiger :
hey i finally e-mailed it to you. xoxo,
from elf-arrow :
I know, right? They are trying to find "acceptable" substitutes. I BAKE/COOK IN A VEGAN DELI! I think I can find substitutes on my own, thank you. What is it with doctors? Do they not listen to the patient ever? So frustrating. Thanks for caring, and leaving me the note :)
from emeraldtiger :
hi! thanks for the note! i'm sorry about being slow to respond. i have been a little bit absent from diaryland recently, as i had pneumonia a few weeks ago and it's taking me a long time to bounce back from it. but, yes, of course i'll send the password to the e-mail address you gave me. i hope you're doing okay these days. just so you know, i'm still your friend, and i'm still reading along! xoxo,
from elf-arrow :
I don't believe a word of it. You're a beautiful person, truly.
from o-jasmine-o :
OOOOooh FINALLY your notes are back on. I've tried so many times to leave a note but switching them on and off again would just cost me too much time. Thank you for your notes. You're lovely. I just brushed my teeth and my gums are all sore. I'm going through a very strange ...period I suppose. I've started the newest of newest medicine and I *think* it might be working *slightly* (I daren't say), but the side effects are SO horrific I can't begin to explain. I feel very extremely strange, and different every hour. I hope it'll pass because I think I might even prefer colitis to this strangeness! -- when you left a 'message on my diary' on the 25th, did you mean a comment at the bottom? Because they're empty... All I can find from you recently are notes XXX
from pondlife :
Feeling pretty-not-awful these days, thanks. And glad your notes are back on. Miss chatting with you.
from o-jasmine-o :
Weeeeeee your notes are back on!! I'm sorry I took so long to reply. I was really dreading all the switching on-and-off-again of your notes and I don't know which of your e-mail addresses that I have you use! Now for my reply: no thank you lovely. It's a really really kind offer but I canNOT accept it. Why would I not want to waste my money on a gold membership, but let you waste yours for me?! No way. And the annoying blocks for non-gold members aren't that often anyway. Hope you are well xxx
from tarkis :
thank you... I knew if there was one person that would understand it would be you... and I am already sure you are sending as much good energy and compassion to those in need. You of all people, would hear the cries of the children
from o-jasmine-o :
Thank you. xxx (I don't know *why* you're not accepting new notes though... I turned it on sneakily so that I could say thank you. I'll switch it off again now.)
from deadtomorrow :
man these diaries are bullocks, if only we could leave them without losing all of our stuff. :b Hugs and kisses silly goose x0x0 ooh in binary 0101010101010101010101010101010101010101010101
from pondlife :
Smiling, just thinking of you happy.
from tarkis :
I hope you are alright.. each path, each turn, each moment... you just have to love it for everything comes full circle,, what was up will come down and what was down will go up, You will be alright.
from emeraldtiger :
i dig the new layout! very nice. hope you've been well. xo
from o-jasmine-o :
Nice layout! I don't like the blue though, in the links. :)
from ohmyjetsabel :
i asked you a hundred times would you be my best friend forever?
from o-jasmine-o :
Hey lovely. I still think you should go teach at a Waldorf School. You're *supposed* to teach in your own way, there, and it's really nice! Hope you're feeling much better and aren't a slightest bit ill any more xxx
from hissandtell :
Thanks so much for your lovely note, darling. I'm off to bed now, and I've only read a dozen of your entries, but I'll come back when I'm wide awake and read more. (Gracious; I also studied propaganda and the language and metalanguage of manipulation - it's one of my favourite subjects, too. And I could relate completely to the eternal students' question, "Miss, why do you wear those big boots?" and your [doubtless] perplexing response...) Love, R xxx
from arajane :
you are nice, lovely, and agreeable. it's been a while, and i've missed you. xoxo,
from o-jasmine-o :
And *I'm* glad *you're* updating!! xxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
Hah. And you're still special.
from o-jasmine-o :
Yippeeeeeee I yippedeelike planetqueen's entries!! Weeeeeeeeee
from elf-arrow :
It's a fluke I caught your note before leaving, was actually supposed to be gone hours ago. Is there a more private way we might speak? I'll wait around here a while. If you're somone he knows we should probably talk. :(
from o-jasmine-o :
Get some earplugs! Have you always had the traffic noise or have you recently moved?? Did you get my emails? xxx
from o-jasmine-o :
How come?
from ladyfingers :
How did you manage that, then?! I hope you're all right.
from ladyfingers :
Also we have the largest number of female binge drinkers - make sure you tell Bex that! (And check your email.)
from elf-arrow :
Your daughter sounds delightful!
from rockingchair :
thanks for your kind words. My daughter seems fine now, she has recovered from the seizure. Now we just have to hope it doesn't happen again.
from o-jasmine-o :
Kisses. Thanks for your message, that was a lovely surprise! :)
from watercolored :
Amen.
from o-jasmine-o :
loving you xx
from shadytree :
something is terribly wrong with your email.
from o-jasmine-o :
Thanks lovely! It actually arrived perfectly healthy in my inbox :) I haven't read it yet but I'm dying to... but must go back downstairs first because I have a guest to entertain, bleeergh. Love you lots! XXX
from o-jasmine-o :
kisses
from elf-arrow :
I'm vegetarian but moving closer to vegan all the time. It's easier I would imagine if you're already vegetarian, plus there are so many dairy substitutes now. I'm glad you enjoy my food entries, the rest of my life is fairly pathetic. Thanks for the note!
from lousrose :
i love you. *hugs* p.s. lmfao, "um jeans?"
from elf-arrow :
Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! To be added as a favorite by someone as talented and interesting as you is an honor! Also, I'm so very sorry about your rabbit passing. I have lot's of animals myself and losing one is so difficult. I have guinea pigs and birds.
from ladyfingers :
i thought GLC were just taking the piss? they can't be serious!
from o-jasmine-o :
Blahblah all those 'sorry' messages below... And blahblah at my own message right here and blahblah at everything else but please please have your lunch together with Helen. Ask her to have it with you outside of the staff room if you really can't go in, but have it with her, please. xxx
from watercolored :
I'm so sorry about your rabbit.
from o-jasmine-o :
I'm sorry about Mango lovely. xxx
from tarkis :
i'm sorry.. i have to stay locked.. where I am going none may follow...
from o-jasmine-o :
Haha, I just read your guest book signing. It apparently DID work ;). You did nothing wrong... it was just the HTML messing itself about. Love you lots too!! xxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
There you go, all fixed :) It was Bex's silly coding that was interfering with the code you copied & pasted because they both used the same names for certain styling things, so I changed some things in the number code to stop the interference... Haven't a clue why my guest book wouldn't let you sign! xxxxx
from bebegracie :
Yes, yes it is! x
from elf-arrow :
You're welcome, and I think you're just wonderful! A mutual friend has lots to say about you-all good, I promise!
from emeraldtiger :
glad to see you're writing again. i missed your updates. hope you're well.
from watercolored :
I know someone Bex would love to chat with-so do you-but we're keeping him locked in the attic these days. Love you. Miss you. Hope you're well.
from o-jasmine-o :
Glad you're back... where've you been?
from preshusthorn :
i've missed you. so very glad you returned. youre in my thoughts ~Precious Thorn~
from rockingchair :
can i have password? I stopped reading when you locked up. but I guess I'm just nosey and would like to come in again.
from o-jasmine-o :
Entryless? The entry about Simon got added twice... and so did the entry before that one... Might it be an idea for you to type your entries into notepad first, and then copying & pasting it into the add entry box so you're sure you won't lose your entries? Me not like missing entries :(. Hope you're ok. Will try and be on AIM soon xxx
from preshusthorn :
I could never leave a diarist such as yourself. ~Precious Thorn
from watercolored :
I'm outta here now, no more diary, but you have my email address. Hope all is well.
from o-jasmine-o :
No you're not - you're the most kindhearted, caring person I know! (And I know VERY many good people, so that's a huge compliment!)
from arajane :
if you're going to be locked for a while i would love the password! i hope you're doing well with all the alain crap. i'm thinking about you. xoxo,
from o-jasmine-o :
Lovely, how did it go?? Can I have a password please...? Let me know how it went!! Thinking of you xxx
from o-jasmine-o :
Good luck lovely xxx
from o-jasmine-o :
:) Thank you for your note. Looking forward to your email!! Good luck with that letter. I hope it doesn't get to you too much. Thank you so much for offering another card... I don't need one though, I'm being very careful not to spend it all in one go. I've got about �7 left :) have got to prepare a bit more for my exam this afternoon now... take care! And love you lots and lots xxx
from o-jasmine-o :
With love xxx let me know how things go. x
from o-jasmine-o :
I'm glad you're writing again. Or that at least you've written an entry. Take care lovely. Send me a slice of that cake! LYLS xxx P.S. And don't worry I'll switch notes off again now ;)
from rollerqueen :
just wake up. breathe again. it's not hard. i just don't understand why you need the love of some cunt from utah to prove your worth. he means nothing. live for yourself.
from rollerqueen :
read my fucking note over, too.
from rollerqueen :
do something new. listen to me for once. i'm sick of this drama. just live. it's not that fucking bad. you could have it worse. stop taking what so many people in this world are struggling to keep. i don't know how to deal with this anymore. i can't be all kind and nice and comforting because it doesn't change a fucking thing. i just want to hammer it into you. i love you. i hate this.
from rollerqueen :
fuck you. i hate you. fuck you. i hate you.
from twinker-bell :
what's going on, did you forget to take that medicine or whatever again?!?! :-(
from watercolored :
After all, we wouldn't want to end up like Christian, now would we? It's ok. I'm smiling. Really.
from growpeace :
Hi, It's me Joy the person that does not know you but cares for some reason out of the millon diarys that are here I found yours and then when I thought you had killed yourself I was very very sad. So please listen to the impassioned plea below by rollerqueen and pick yourself up and brush yourself off and start all over again. You are capable and able and people care so hang in there ok love Joy
from rollerqueen :
you make me cry.
from twinker-bell :
you scared me too, i didn't know what to do
from rockingchair :
you scared me. please dont do that again.
from lotr-girl :
Hi,i never read your diary before.but i was reading twinker_bell's diary and she mentioned your screen name and said that you were in need of some help.So please,even though i don't know you personally,don't do it.you have reason to live,don't give up.
from twinker-bell :
please DON'T do this!!!
from rollerqueen :
you are so very stupid. you're probably stupid enough to be thinking something like "yes, i know i'm stupid, that's why i'm going to kill myself." well, no. you're stupid because there are so many better ways out than this shit. i really don't understand how your head works. why you rely on counting days and stupid fucking cunts you meet on the internet that are just as fucked up as you, and just like you, won't help themselves [ no, they'd much rather let their unhappiness eat away at them and all the people who have to live with them. ] why do you rely on having to live for something or needing a reason to be happy - why can't it be the other way around? how about a reason to be sad? and why not just live for the sake of being alive? or even, for yourself? aren't all these people here on your notes page enough? how many times do people have the tell you you're not awful? when will you believe them? look at what lousrose said a few notes down. that's the truth. you have no truth - your truth is distorted by your unhappiness. you spend your whole life thinking of other people. doing nice things. and just because they're cunts back to you - well you seem to think that makes you a bad person. that's bullshit. not everything is based on signs from the fucking angels or whatever it is you believe. ben said something once, it was something like "wouldn't it be wonderful if rebecca was the reason you wanted to live, rather than the only thing keeping you alive?" why won't you even try to help yourself? why haven't you grown up? all this desire to die soulfully and be tragic is supposed to lose it's appeal as soon as you're done with puberty. sure, you can say 'a doctor won't give me friends'. no, you're right. but he can make you see that there's more to life than this depression you have. give you some optimism and some confidence. because, frankly, people don't like people like you. and then you say "then i will have to die". well, why not try to change it first? do you want me to end up like christian or something? despite years and years of me nursing you and comforting you and telling you all of these things, and still you say i'm better off without you. yes, i'm sure i'd be much better off without a mother. i'm sure i'd be fucking ecstatic to spend the rest of my life knowing that my mother had committed suicide and i could never stop it. what a great fucking laugh i'd have with that one, knowing i'd let you down. ha fucking ha. you don't see to understand. i doubt you ever will. i don't get so angry at you because you're a bad person. i get angry because you think you are. it's not the things people say or do to you that cause you to feel so bad, it's your depression that blows every situation out of proportion. you're not foul, you're just messed up and too lazy to do anything about it. you say you don't deserve a life yet you still complain about not having one. well which is it? something there tells me that a lot of the things you say are just for attention. just to look tragic. where are we now? i hate this. i hate this. i hate this. and i would hate it even more without you. you would leave me with these feelings still fresh, and they'd stay with me forever. why can't you stay and give something good?
from rockingchair :
you arent quite making yourself clear... are you happy at the moment or not? :-p
from inaptbeauty :
hi! what's your name?
from twinker-bell :
you are NOT awful... i am just as down on myself and it's just so hard to get through the day but people WANT to help, if you want to know how to get resources, ask me, i will help you!
from lousrose :
hon, if you want to get better, you need to get some help. get a therapist and go on some antidepressants. join some support groups. cut ties with people who have hurt you. and make your loved ones be your motivation to be happy, but you have to be the one to do something.
from inaptbeauty :
&&please don't lose hope... there will be somebody..
from inaptbeauty :
i <3 you... sometimes when your head confuses you , ask your brain what's up...
from ladyfingers :
rightio then, i promise i will come when you have settled back into the school routine. in a couple of weeks' time? x
from twinker-bell :
hey - i just want to remind you, i'm sure a million people have...that things WILL get better, it's not the end of the world... you just need to believe in things...live, love, and laugh... :-) have a wonderful week... Jenn
from ladyfingers :
when does school start again? because i could come visit on wednesday night, and bring you a keeping-your-spirits-up rescue hamper or some such.
from planetqueen :
yeah, well, however worthless I am, I'm not so worthless I go around leaving unfeeling notes for people who already feel bad. Oh - and I'm not a coward either - you can contact ME by email, notes or guestbook, unlike you dear sourkandi.
from sourkandi :
Many people feel they are worth less than a crock of shit.so i dont feel sorry for you.Because everyone walks around feeling bitter,angry,anxious,depressed.and I mean this not as a insult.only to sperak my mind.Yeah,and I'm worthless too.
from ladyfingers :
you could do number 4 ANY time. you're always welcome here. and it would be nice to make a start on your list, eh? xxx
from thatmarygirl :
nice list.
from huocer :
the earth..... like a womb..... oh, how i weep. how your words have moved in me. Your pain has become mine. I am trembling here as i sit in disbelief. Weeping for the pain you commit to yourself. It hurts. Halfway across the world, it hurts. There is no distance that would hide this pain. How I long for you to be happy, for you not to be so broken, for you to feel loved.
from watercolored :
On all your "wet parts"? Where DOES he come up with such colourful salutations?
from jeanneserves :
i am picking You out of the crowd. i will serve You as my Goddess and show You genuine worth. You deserve the best!
from rockingchair :
oh and one more thing... Can you smile once in a while? please?
from rockingchair :
I was going to say no one is unlovable, but I've decided to change it to... no one who writes like you do can possibly be unloveable.
from absolutewhat :
Hello darlin' Glad to see that you're still breathing and bringing your own special brand of beauty into this ugly, ugly place. Just thought I'd check in on you.
from lonelylobo :
I wish this were a perfect world. I know it's definately not heaven, yet no one laughs in hell. Who knows... maybe this is a sort of hell that we're stuck on for the long ride. Our world is a combination of what we are handed and what we make of it. I hope you don't feel alone. Take care.
from worldgurl :
Lady. I love your words lately. It seems like this bit of time off has been kind to you, and good FOR you. I loved the last entry about books and sparkly things and pictures on the wall in random order. :)
from starsnck :
great writing! I look forward to reading more!
from screemingink :
beautiful diary. connor is god. heh, xoxo, Miss Takes.
from huocer :
I really wish I could see what this hotness looks like. hehehe
from huocer :
deary, talking like that (such negative self-image and hatred) is what's holding you down. Go see a doctor, honestly. And mice are just a fact of life. Get some mouse traps and peanut butter, you'll have that fixed in no time. But honestly, get some help. It's the best thing in the world for you.
from huocer :
another thought: out of my depression (i'm just clambering from my personal tomb today) I find that I am my own worst enemy. Time away is healthy, escape.
from huocer :
Hey, like the rest, I too enjoy the new layout. AND THE FANTASTIC QUOTE AT THE TOP OF THE PAGE FROM CURSIVE (nice touch)-- -- -- -- -- Sunken ships rest/ upon the ocean floor/where I make my home - Of Up and Coming Monarchs - Pedro The Lion ... ... ... ... ... Take care - J.B. (ps. I would have left this in the guestbook, but the dern thing wasn't workin' fer me)
from watercolored :
Cool new layout, I like it.
from tarkis :
Great new design... I like it!
from o-jasmine-o :
Guest book link? Random link?
from o-jasmine-o :
Oh my gooooood! Nice new design!! I better go tell Rebecca. No wait, you can do that. :-P. XXX
from tarkis :
I'm glad you're starting to feel better.
from lonelylobo :
Hey, I know how it feels to be in your situation. I don't know if I can give you advice, and even if I did, would it be the right one? I wanted you to know that no matter what you do you aren't doing it alone. Your friends care about you. I'm going to go home for the weekend so I wanted to wish you well. Take care.
from worldgurl :
I COMPLETELY FEEL YOUR PAIN THESE DAYS. IT SUCKS. I HEAR YA!!! MUCH LOVE....
from floorspace :
chop
from tarkis :
I'm sorry you feel so much despair today... jump into the colors and feel the sounds of the morning.. it does wonders when you wonder why.
from lonelylobo :
Maybe that was too sappy.... pretend I wrote a simple thanks and hoped you had a good day :)
from lonelylobo :
I thank you for all your e-mails and notes. Although it seems at times that I don't apprectiate them I really do. I don't care what you say about yourself, you are a kind-hearted, sweet person. I wish that God would Bless you with the knowledge that you are pure of heart. Maybe this is just all one big test. Whatever you say about yourself though I just can't understand. You know almost any truly kind person has this complex. The stigmata were righteous, religious people that thought themselves not to be. I remember reading "The Scarlett Letter" and the priest was a good man, but an admitted sinner (we all are sinners) but he didn't think he was good at all. If there were a heaven and a hell and I were God and was only allowed to admit one in a million, you would be one of the first in the gates. I know that some day you will be rewarded for your kindness. Take care.
from soulstrong :
i'm open again
from watercolored :
Have you given any thought to whom we should register with?
from soulstrong :
Thanks for the note. I probably won't be locked as long as I'd anticipated, but I'm not putting a time restriction on it. If I open up shop again I'll leave you a note. Thank you again. Love Letti
from o-jasmine-o :
Archiving done dutifully and a lovely new random link added! Love you lots! And NO, WATERCOLORED, SHE'S ALREADY MARRYING ME!!! HANDS OFF!!
from watercolored :
Seriously, marry me?
from watercolored :
Connected-Stereo MC's. Works for me everytime. Half way through this little magical, musical pill I'm almost convinced life isn't really a slow motion accident. Almost. Of course the draw back is it also makes me wanna get really pissed. That's drunk for your American readers.
from lonelylobo :
Thank you for the e-mail I will write back soon I don't have many things to talk about just yet. Take care.
from watercolored :
Thank you for the compliment, I enjoy your entries as well. I don't update often but there's another up now. Do I hear an English accent over there?
from watercolored :
Something here seems very familiar.
from lonelylobo :
Hey I just wrote an email but it said my session expired and I'm kind of mad at yahoo right about now. I'm sorry about it.... I will write you tomorrow for sure.
from o-jasmine-o :
Your words are so fucking beautiful they beat the idea of the Matrix. They are their own Matrix. (And you must take charge and form them into what you want them to be by manipulating their cause. Get that. You will.)
from o-jasmine-o :
Hahaha, you ask God, huh? (Your latest entry.)
from o-jasmine-o :
You're the most wonderful friend. Thank you ever so much for your text this morning. You are so thoughtful. XXXXXXXX
from o-jasmine-o :
thank you for your lovely thoughtfgul text! typing with one hand eating with the other, got to go do a little more studying LYL xxxxxx
from tarkis :
that is never the answer as you know you will just have to come back and do it all again.. you just have to get through... I till myslef that every morning waking up... I just have to get through... I said it this morning as I thought the smae thing as you.
from o-jasmine-o :
Me's tired. And awake. And missing you. And thinking lovely thoughts about you. You are great. So special. Just wonderful. Very very worthy.
from o-jasmine-o :
Oooh, your next entry shall be the entry of the devil! # 666!
from o-jasmine-o :
But lovely, you're contradicting yourself: you're life cannot be over if you didn't have a life of your own in the first place... So how can the ending of a book reinforce that your life ends? Maybe it should reinforce, then, that you DO have a life after all; just a different one to the ones the characters have. And no, you are not selfish, it is very healthy to relate anything to yourself and your own concerns, that is the way humans learn from various situations. Without relating situations to oneself one will never learn because one will never see any links and will therefore fail to improve what is left to be improved...
from o-jasmine-o :
So if I'd write a book about you, you'd have a life in that same [fantasy?] world as all the book characters do, for you'd be a book character too... Would that help to get you reading again? It should, if what you wrote is really the reason... And when you've finished a book, the lives of the characters aren't finished: all you've read is a small part of their lives, a piece taken out so to speak, and the lives can go on living in your thoughts or in your mind. When the book is finished you could grab the next book, and enjoy a piece out of other people's lives... Like that you gather a whole bunch of pieces of lives and all the lives can live on in your mind. I think it's beautiful.
from o-jasmine-o :
It's May, did you notice? I had hardly did. But I archived another month's worth of your lovely entries for you. And now I'm back to study. Hubbub. XXX
from o-jasmine-o :
Of course I think of you, silly, you're my friend! (& Left a comment too) XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
from o-jasmine-o :
I beliiiiiieeeve... there is someone who's waiting for a list!
from neeena :
Ah, the bitch teacher who doesn't believe a word you say. Yes, I had one of those. We also had a psycho library teacher... (Funny, reading that entry took me right back to 3rd grade.)
from neeena :
Hey, that was quick! :) *mwah*
from lousrose :
of course you are worth worrying about. i thought you were mad at me because you didn't reply to my guestbook entries. honey i love you. is there anything i can do? if you need ANYTHING just ask and its done *hugs* xoxo.
from lousrose :
honey??
from z0tl :
sounds like you are very adept at walkin the line and by line, even tho it may not make it any clearer, i mean http://z0tl.diaryland.com/line.html - i shall now walk outside without an umbrella, because the rain will stop & the sun will come out, so i can grin my way home :z
from o-jasmine-o :
So hah, I did your archiving for the last three months then -- and I have a question I want answering: which songs are on your Marc Bolan (T-Rex right?) compilation tape, and in which order??
from o-jasmine-o :
Come to think of it... I haven't a clue who they are! I hadn't realised there were so many notes from strangers, haha. Thanks for the picture compliment, I'd only just finished making that, it's been up for... well, minutes! I know you wouldn't mind me changing the months years thingy, I was just wondering if Rebecca would bite me if I would... or would not bite, but not say a word and then change it back stubbornly. And I've been at the computer for too long! Get me out of here! XXX
from o-jasmine-o :
AND I LOVE YOU!
from o-jasmine-o :
Ummm, is there a reason for the links to previous months on your archives page to be unhandily all the way down the bottom of all your entries instead of where they used to be (a long time ago) underneath the guest book signing form and the site meter image where they were easily accessible? In other words, did Rebecca find that a more design complimenting place for them or did they end up there accidentally with the years also linked strangely along with the first month and can I put them back in the left column of the table without causing any upsets?
from tarkis :
Thanks for making me smile today.
from o-jasmine-o :
Yaay it (see below) works! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
You'll have to get Bex to fix the link back to your diary from your guestbook (the link that says "back to my site" beneath the signing form), because it tries to go to http://planetqueen.diaryland.com/planetqueen.diaryland.com, and that doesn't work -- and I don't have the password to your guestbook so me can't do it... xxx
from planetqueen :
Hello again my dearest, three minutes after the last two talk-to-myself-notes (snigger). Comments are fixed, that soon enough for you? *Someone* had been messing with the HTML and put the wrong comment ID code up: it was set for the same comment box for each page, instead of %%option1%% LYL!
from planetqueen :
P.S. I'll see what I can do about the comments things, soon xxxxx
from planetqueen :
It's okay my dear, I'm not offended: I understand how you feel, so no worries. Besides, the pic's been changed already! And you wouldn't need Rebecca's help to change it if you still want to get rid of what is up now (and don't feel guilty if you don't like what is up there now!): from the members area click "Edit your profile" from "Other stuff" on the left, and you'll see where to click, and then you'll see what to do too, it's all explained by Mister Andrew! Love you lots. (Hey look, you're talking to yourself it says, hahaha.) XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
from o-jasmine-o :
By the way, nice new profile picture! Oh and, well done for changing 'waste of breathe' into 'waste of breath'! Hahaha xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
Lalala I'm bored send me upstairs NOW because that's where I'm supposed to be studying and I can't get myself to go there because I'm bored and I'm bored and I've only got through the first book while there are four and the first book is the thinnest of them all and the fourth one is three times as thick and it's already 14.52 and I only have today to study because the retake is tomorrow and I have to be at school early in the morning for music and I'm bored so I can't get myself to go upstairs to study because the next part of the biology is going to be about plants and last time I studied that I thought it was boring and I'm already bored so I might as well be bored here because that's easier because it means not having to go upstairs first to be bored but this is a waste of time and going upstairs and being bored with plants there isn't but I still don't want to go upstairs because it's much more fun to sit here and type nonsense at you without any punctuation marks because it's a nice training for my supple fingers which are ratteling away nonstop until about here where my brain stopped feeding them a constant stream of ridiculous words but I'm still bored and I better go and be bored up stairs love you lots
from o-jasmine-o :
And get your comments system working again you, because I want to be able to leave silly comments, so there! Here's the deal: you start putting in the date-y-code thing from your next entry onwards, and once I'm done with these few weeks of messy studying I'll edit all the entries in between where you stopped putting the code in till where you started again, kay? :-P
from o-jasmine-o :
It's okay. I think. He'd picked out "yes, a parent: my father chose to withdraw himself from most parental responsibilities at the time, so my mother was left to be the main influence" at first and thought I meant that he'd withdrawn himself as a parent from me. But I said no etc. Think he understands now. But I still don't like it. Or his reaction. Yuck. I wish I'd never shown it to him. :-( I'll think I'll go and lie on my bed and cry for a while. X
from o-jasmine-o :
...and when he'd finished reading he just got up and left the room and walked downstairs. Without a word. Fuck fuck fuck I'm fuck. :-(( Why? Why? He's in the kitchen. Is he making me a cup of tea (being nice), or is he completely insulted or pissed off or shocked or ?? jaksljalksjaksld jaksldaj
from o-jasmine-o :
Oi you, don't shut me out, it's no use doing that. You're probably thinking it's best for me or something, or your distancing yourself from all humans because you think you can only do harm or because you think you shouldn't be part of 'us' because you keep ((not deliberately) pretending to) believe you're not a human being... It's all not true, you know that. You're as human as anybody if not more human (having such intense emotions), and you've never done anything wrong, not to me in any case, and if you did do anything wrong it was never, ever intended. We all know you would never intend to do ANYONE harm. And I love you.
from o-jasmine-o :
"I really loathe myself. Why can't I just die? " Because you have to realise (and believe) first, before it's time to leave this world, how worthy you are, how much value you carry along with you as a person, and what a wonderful, meaningful, important human being you are.
from rollerqueen :
i really really really love you.
from lonelylobo :
Hey how's it going. It's ok you don't have to pity the fool. I thank you for your concern and stuff... you really are a good friend. Maybe things aren't as bad as I put them out to be I don't know. I hope you have a great weekend.
from lonelylobo :
Hey, I wanted to say hi. Hope you're feeling good. Sometimes we find strength within ourselves, but other times we rely on the strength and wisdom of others. I owe you a lot for you kindness and friendship. I really hope things take a turn for the better for you. Take care of yourself :).
from lonelylobo :
Hey I wanted to say hi. I hope your day at work is ok. Take care of yourself. Sorry I never emailed you but I dont know what to talk about really.... haven't been able to muster a diary thing either. take care
from lonelylobo :
somewhere the note lost a little meaning I'm sorry it shouldn't reflect on the message... but I hate computers :(. I truly do mean the words though... take care
from lonelylobo :
damn internet... I had a nice note for you and it didnt send it... well what I was trying to say before is that you will be able to find the strength within yourself to battle the woes in your heart. You are a strong woman and I believe you can do it. The goodness in you lies there and it brings light to many. The only thing is that you cannot see it because of one reason or another. I hope your day will bring you better fortunes and I wish the best for you. If you ever need someone to talk to don't hesitate to talk to me. Dear friend.
from midget-fairy :
The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore...Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, travelling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons. No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.
from lonelylobo :
Hey how's it going. I hope all is well. The tests went okay... I'm going to sleep now... but considering the time you probably went to sleep a few hours ago. Take care. Talk to you soon.
from o-jasmine-o :
Me left a comment. I hope that was a Real smile, the one you sms'd me. :-) LYL xxx
from o-jasmine-o :
Big hug to you.
from o-jasmine-o :
More I only just read and want to comment on: "I fancy Simon terribly but I'm totally convinced that he actually doesn't like me. He won't sit anywhere near me, ever. Sensible guy." -- He's shy! Go sit next to him! He doesn't DARE sit next to you, because he thinks it might be too obvious, therefore he inconveniently jumps to the other extreme! Go go go!
from o-jasmine-o :
Even your notes page isn't solely mine any more :-(( *whine* xxx LYL! xxx
from lonelylobo :
The pain of feeling not wanted is more painful than any. A friend of mine said that man fears darkness so much that he borders it with fire. I feel your pain, believe me I do. A nineteen year old who's NEVER kissed someone. NEVER had someone to hold onto at night. Yet, I still have hope. Hope for a new day, a better life. A better tomorrow. There are always better days ahead. The way I look at it, even pessimistically is that it can't get much worse, but I don't believe in pessimism. It can only get better. I am hoping that Mr. Right just fricking would show up for you. I'm sure he's there somewhere. He has to be. There is a man for every woman. Rest assured that he exists. Don't give up, for he wishes that you wouldn't suffer so. He doesn't know it yet, and neither do you, but he will and you will soon enough. PS - I added it under comments... sorry meant it to be a message.
from tater-fay :
I really liked your banner. Your "mod" banner, I'll call it. I like your diary as well...you write about yourself in a very honest way and sometimes you make me laugh (but I AM a jackass and laugh all the time anyways, so...)
from madisonagain :
hello
from lonelylobo :
Hey how's it going... not so well I read. But as I am going through rough times too we will get through them. And I don't know if you're religious or not, but Christ will always embrace you even if you turn your back on Him. Sorry about the religious stuff. But I hope that your life improves. That's awesone that you're listening to reggae and rap ... sorry about the stereotype... but English people are still stereotyped as being in the Victorian era :(. Your prime minister is awesome, but he is an expemplary example of the stereotype. Sorry hope you don't take offense to that. But Bush ain't no bargain either I guess. I hope all goes well... oh yeah if you can help me out read my last entry for the Valentine's thing. I can definately use a lady's opinion. Take care
from worldgurl :
GURL, DO YOU REALLY FEEL THIS WAY? HOW CAN I HELP???
from o-jasmine-o :
Have you ever read "Crusade in Jeans" by Thea Beckman? I just suddenly realised that you might really enjoy that book. It's a 'classical' Dutch children's book (translated into English, obviously!), about a boy who travels back in time and ends up in a crusade. You should read it. :o). xxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
I loves you.
from o-jasmine-o :
Hello I am very chagrined and tired and my head is starting to hurt and I really feel like just going to sleep but I did have a rest before dinner and I am really angry with my mother who is so * unreasonable and thinks she is a hundred percent correct not even realising a little bit how wrong she is but if I go to bed it might feel like such a waste of time and it all just makes me more miserable but I don't know what to do otherwise because I don't feel like doing anything more productive with this energy-less-ness and isn't it so easy to read a box full of text without any punctuation marks I just can't stand it when people don't use any punctuation marks and I don't know why I'm purposely annoying myself like this I do it sometimes too by not typing any capitals at all which I also find annoying unless it belongs to a certain style but it certainly doesn't suit my style and now my wrist is starting to hurt too and I hate the fact that when I asked my mother in a perfectly normal way why she reacted so ridiculously nasty to the question I asked about the potatoes when she started dishing up freshly cooked potatoes while there was still a pile of warmed up potatoes from yesterday waiting to be eaten first she just said she wouldn't be going into this now Tasmin and I really felt like bloody hitting her but instead I left and I'm here now while I should actually be clearing the kitchen which is also keeping me from going to bed relaxedly but I don't think I'll go down anyway. xxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
P.S. to the guest book thing OUCH I THINK COVERED IN FLEAS EVERY SINCE I PUT TEA TREE OIL IN THE DOG'S EARS TO GET RID OF THE BLOODY BASTARDS!! (And it's very very annoying!) And I really hope you cheer up quickly. Why don't you just put some new hinges on Mango's bedroom door? Fuck, I'd do it for you, I know how the things work and where to get them... but I can't get to the door :-(. And get to ask Simon out yet? Have a lovely sleep xxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
And of course I can't sign your guest book again, I just forgot to add that I did some commenting on your latest entries... just to force you to go look so you won't forget to check, haha xxxx
from oinkoink :
Hi there. I completely agree with your latest entry involving isolation and a longing for a kindred, tortured individual. I have felt removed from others since childhood as well. Gypsy culture interests me also, especially the gypsies of Spain, since I have taken flamenco on and off for several years. As you probably know, the transient gypsies wondered what the hell they were doing on this planet, and saw their lives as kind a kind of formality, a sentence to be served, until God would finally release them. You are not alone in your feelings...rest assured that you will find a fulfilling partner someday. By the way, thank you for leaving me a note a while back. Take care.
from o-jasmine-o :
Have not forgotten about you, nor have I forgotten you. I'm sorry I'm so 'distant' at the moment, I have weeks and weeks of badness (=too much work and very important, big tests) coming up, so I won't be around very frequently, nor will you or anyone hear much from me... I'm sorry. I am still here for you though, always and as ever, and I WILL be back. LYL xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
Send me to bed? PLEASE? (Okay I'll go in a minute. I've left you comments all over your entries again. I do hope you don't forget to check your comment boxes. :o). Nighty nighty xxxx) XXX
from o-jasmine-o :
Oh my! Just as I sent you the message saying I can't get online, I figured it, hahaha. Well, not exactly, I sneaked my way around the problem. We have a network of computer behind a router, which for some reason just would not work, so I took all the other computers "offline" and but the internet connection straight into my computer, then edited the settings to be right :-D. Well... officially the holly should go down on the 6th shouldn't it? I'm not sure though. But I'll take yours down if you want :-).
from o-jasmine-o :
xxx Happy New Year xxx
from o-jasmine-o :
Re:Re: my dream INDEED! Or at diaryland anyway. Hahaha.
from o-jasmine-o :
Oh! I just remembered. I dreamt about you. No, not really you, about your diary layout! I dreamt you'd got a new one or something. What a useless dream. Haha.
from o-jasmine-o :
Huggles.
from megami-hoshi :
*drools* i LOVE your layout. yum. :) <3 Amalia
from o-jasmine-o :
Yaaaaay I just saw your banner! :-)
from high-on-fran :
Merry xmas 2 u 2
from o-jasmine-o :
I am so sorry you've heard so little from me. I hope you're feeling better than you seem to feel judging from your latest entry. Big hug.
from o-jasmine-o :
Sleep well xxx
from o-jasmine-o :
You darling. That touched me too. You're so lovely.
from o-jasmine-o :
You could've asked me, silly - I could make you a link like mine: one that stays up always (so it won't disappear from your page), even if enetations server is down... But then the link won't always work when they are down. If you look on their site, you can read (somewhere) that they are busy getting new servers working and stuff, so they're improving their site; that's why, when they're busy working on it, sometimes they go offline (and it doens't load onto you page)... xxx (it's okay!)
from o-jasmine-o :
Oi where'd your comments go?
from o-jasmine-o :
Hahaha *evil grin* I'M TAKING OVER YOUR NOTES PAAAGE! Funny (sarcastically). I just noticed there's a long list of o-jasmine-o's notes, so that's why I said that. Pff, great, I've forgotten what I came to say here now. Um. Ahyes. What a nice heart in your guest book. I wonder who gave it to you. I bet you know, Miss Detective. Love you xxx
from o-jasmine-o :
Oh, you DARLING inner princess, I was not in any way expecting any kind of present from you for my birthday! (Besides, you already bought me Charlotte Sometimes! As far as I'm concerned, that's enough for the rest of our lives!!!) I understand completely. And I don't even find it necessary even if you were a millionaire. Your friendship is enough. You're the best friend and I am very happy to have you as my friend. Love you lots. xxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
We're having chocolate drink and butter biscuits and other kind of spice biscuits down stairs by the open fire. Because it's "Sinterklaas", that is the Dutch celebration of "Santa Claus", and he claims to be from Spain and that his birthday is on the 6th, though he celebrates it on the 5th. We don't do the proper Dutch traditional celebration. Just a cosy time waster. It's cosy. But I'm so stressing about how many things I should be doing instead of sitting there doing nothing. Haha. Love you lots!
from o-jasmine-o :
But you shouldn't give people something back at the exact same time as them giving you something. That way it would become a 'trading' in kindness, which is ridiculous, because that way kindness will no longer mean anything. You give them enough back at other moments, so nobody will be drained, that's the best way it can be. My grandmother always says, the hardest thing to learn is to RECEIVE love [and kindness] gratefully, happily and lacking any kind of guilt emotions. I agree, but I add that it should also be compulsory to learn it, however hard. xxxxxxxxxxx LYL xxxxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAAAY xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
Thank you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
Exclamation for your entry. Hug for you. I don't want you thinking like that. You matter as much if not more as any other fellow human being. Love you lots xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
Here's what I've been trying to add to your guestbook ever since immediately after I signed the last message I signed: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't be saying that, I know you don't like to 'upset' me. And I also know you didn't do it TO 'upset' me. It just hurts to see/read about you hurting yourself because I care for you. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx" I think you should take Lizzie's offer. It's a very good idea. Love you lots! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
(Grr bloody signmygustbook won't let me sign again.) I am! I am! But everything's chaos and computer is going crazy and we don't have a video player where we're going, so how can we watch the films we were planning to?! Weeee haha, an adventure. Oh well. Got to go catch my train now. So much for having a driving license! Grrr xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
I caught the rainbow, and gave it to you.
from o-jasmine-o :
Well it's true, I *am* (the) mad (one)! :-P
from o-jasmine-o :
HAH! I'm currently tittering joyously at the fact that I'm able to creep in on you from so many different directions here on Diaryland and internet in general, so fun to drop a little message here and there on my passing by. :-D Snigger. But I've forgotten what I was going to say now... Ah yes! Listing! Nice!! :o)
from o-jasmine-o :
Where'd you go? :-(
from lillieflower :
I can't believe you listed me as a favorite. That makes me smile! You are so sweet Beth. You really are. x x x
from mirrizimm :
Oh, but I was SOOOO curious. Oh well. Thanx for the advice. --a violist
from mirrizimm :
Oh, but I was SOOOO curious. Oh well. Thanx for the advice. --a violist
from mirrizimm :
no, I never did her how th mafia used violins. Tell, tell...
from o-jasmine-o :
It's a quarter past midnight. Haha, no it's not, it's a quarter past midday, why did I type midnight? Funny. Oh well, I was just saying that because I was actually going to say I've been thinking of you all day (whilst attempting to do some work). That's not really a reason for saying it's a quarter past midday, but still. Hope you're day is being nice to you! XxXxXxX
from o-jasmine-o :
Hee, sorry about those two entries beneath this one... *ashamed of herself*. Just dropping by to say g'bye. Or well, more like, see you later! I'm off to string quartet practise :-)) Been sitting here all morning doing some homework wishing you'd come online, but you didn't... Hope you're not lying around hiding in a blanket or falling back to sleep on the settee or anything... Thinking of you! Lots of love! xxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
But what I said that for, is because I am SO craving to write an entry but I just CANNOT sit here in this room for more than three seconds with these fuckin' stoopid girlies here. I cannot concentrate and I cannot blahblahblah. I'll shut up now.
from o-jasmine-o :
ashfkaslddsal hjsa fjksdal; fjaksdlf; jsakdf jaks Or something like that. I had a good time with my friend, we watched American History X, and then talked for ages about totally different things. But I am so FUCKING annoyed right now at somebody who is supposedly my mother. She has one of her BLOODY girly-friends over, and what they do is sit and drink wine and giggle, and giggle, and giggle, and make stupid comments thinking those comments are reasonably intelligent, and then they giggle and giggle, and it's just so low and ridiculous and I just CAN'T STAND IT, as they really think they're funny. Fucking hell, they're right here in this small room, with my father as well, who is playing his music too loud to keep their laughs out of his ears, and they're making fun of my tyoing now (I'm typing furiously fast, while I frown at the screen), my mother is now explaining to here how I taught myself to type, and she's telling the wrong story because that's not how I learned at all. ajkldjaskdlf;jadskfl;a sjfkla jfk Ooooh how funny they are. soirry, this must sound ridiculous and silly but I just do not have the words to explain what exactly is so annoying because I"m too annoyed to think properly. Now my dad has too loud BAD music on and they're being so funnily 'intelligent' about how annoyed I am. Fuck the fuckdajjaksl d;fjadsklf ;jasdkl ajkl ; Sorry.
from o-jasmine-o :
My my what a bunch of mistakes in my last note. Ant they pop? Ants pop? Do ants pop? But I didn't use the plural form of the word... ant does pop? Does an ant pop? Deary me. Go to do a lot of catching up now? Am I commanding you about? Peeeh, *I've* goT to do a lot of catching up! Oh dear. I am tired now :o( Mooooh. Heh. xxx
from o-jasmine-o :
Yoohoooo! You going to make yourself a wishlist at Amazon.co.uk today? Go ooooon :-D Please? Pleeeease? Heehee. I'm feeling a lot better. I'm not flue-y any more, but I do still have a BLOODY sore throat and my ears are occasionally blocked ant they pop... But I'm okay :o). Go to do a lot of catching up now. Bleh. Hope your day was good! Did you win anything at the vegetable quiz? Heehee. Oh yes, I hoped last night that your phone'd understand what I sent: it was a picture message, which you would have seen if you have a Nokia... I hope so :-). Hope I get lots done this afternoon, then I can play violin straight after dinner and then I hope I can either write you a long email full of my weekend acitivities and replies to your email... (so long ago it seems!) or have a chatty talk to you also about weekend things if you're online at the same time... Heh, we'll see how things go. :-) Hope you're well! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxLYLxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
2.30am. I had to get up (yes, me, the sick one, thanks a lot house mates) and stagger downstairs from two flights up to let the dog in. He'd escaped (and come back, barking to neighbourhood to bits wanting to get back in). Meaning nobody took him out in the evening. Great. Bastards. Nobody but me heard him. I'm going to kill them all in the morning. But anyway, my point was, I came downstairs to find my computer still on... So, Hello! Hope you have had a WONDERFUL night! I know it's shit when trains don't do their bit properly, but it makes things into a nice adventure, doesn't it? That's my opinion anyway. As long as you got there in time etc. Was the way back okay? I hope your bloody expensive taxi driver was a nice person. Sometimes they're such dorks. Heh. My head hurts so much right now. My ears aren't as blocked as they were before, and I still feel all my muscles but not as badly (except for my neck muscles, they're OUCH). My throat hurts like crap still though. Blahblahlbah. 2.35am. This is so weird. I've only been half asleep all night, having slept the afternoon... It feels like a long weekend, or, perhaps, some kind of holiday or everlasting relief and release of ridiculous labours... Hah. I think I should go get myself an orange, those round things that were specially bought for me - AFTER me having to ask for them, then having to remind the person who'd gone shopping and had forgotten them. Tah. They forgot my salad too, which I asked for with my dinner (they'd had salad, and there was still salad left!), and I never got my orange I also asked for, nor my hot drink with honey and lemon. Looked after? Me? Ummm... Oh well. I'll just go stagger down the last flight of stairs again and see if I can stumble back up two flights with a cup of warm drink and an orange... LOVE YOU LOTS! XxXxXxXxxXxXXXXXxxxxXXxXXXxxxxXXXx
from o-jasmine-o :
Birdy birdy in the sky, left a poopie in my eye. Me don't care, me don't cry, me just happy - that a cow can't fly!
from o-jasmine-o :
And poor Dylan! And poor your nose!
from o-jasmine-o :
I just had a long bath full of warm water! Woo! And got to wash my hair without having to shriek from the cold on my poor head! And I'm going to read in bed now. That would have been fun, but it's all ruined now, horrid Dutchness. But I was going to say something completely different in this note... I can't remember what though any more. Eh. That proves I is tired. Oh, and I agrees with ladyfingers below, but I bet you already knew that :o). It's dark in here because the light bulb likes to tease me, it broke itself with a bang to make me jump when I flipped the light switch. Nasty eh? Well no, it made me laugh after I'd realised what had happened, heh. I still want to know when your birthday is you know :-P. The men who put the new water heater in smoked in the attic. My room is next to the attic. Now everything stinks. And they used MY sink to mess around with water, and then used MY soap in MY sink to wash their hands. My sink has black and dark grey dirt spots all over it, my carpet is covered in earth from their dirty boots and they didn't pick up my toothpaste which they dropped on the floor. (What were they doing with my toothpaste?) Bastards. But we have a nice warm house again though. Lalala. You may hit me now. I must go to bed. So wish I had time to speak to you properly :-( Kissies xxx
from ladyfingers :
thank you for your note. though i don't really want to talk about it, i will definitely bear you in mind, what with you being a mum and all! i really loved your little bit about the sky, because i do that a lot (look up at the sky and think). ANYWAY. what i really wanted to say was that you are special, of course you are: just because other people are crap doesn't mean you're crap too. your self-esteem has taken such a series of beatings by such a bunch of arseholes, but one day you will realise that it's their loss. *hug*
from o-jasmine-o :
Great! 7.30pm? Don't forget to bring along your biscuits... I really want to try some! :-)
from o-jasmine-o :
Booh! You coming with me to the beach in the rainy storm tonight then? ;-))
from pocket5 :
((for the same reason most other people lock their diary, im doing it becuase there's one person i don't want to be reading this...for awhile at least. and it just makes me feel safer to know exactly who IS reading my diary)) i'm having some problems with my actual diary SHOWING UP right now, all im getting is a blank screen! but when its all fixed i will gladly send you the password. what's your email?
from rollerqueen :
what? so you're saying puff didn't really come and live with me? did he really die? oh my god. i'm going to go and cry now.
from o-jasmine-o :
Ummm I think I just messed up your guest book layout :"> Sowwy! :o) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
I need to cut my toenails. And I'm so craving to play violin - though (horridly enough) it would feel like a waste of time because I've got too much work to do (that's bad). Oh yes, and my mother's coming home from Greece today. That's a big negative. But other than those things, I am truly okay. Don't worry about me loveliness, I am fine. xxx
from pgagnon999 :
Yes, I forgot I used the gaelic for the City In Between. . .right you are. Mi dean leisgeul, Planaed-banrigh. I slip & forget too often & too much...
from o-jasmine-o :
I'm going to kiss you now. Love your new comment on me.
from o-jasmine-o :
Oop! How did I get here? My hand's been clicking. Naughty thing. I'm such a tease. You thinking you've got a million people sending you messages... but nope. It's all me. Snigger.
from pgagnon999 :
oh & it's not gaelic. . .not by a long shot. guesses?
from pocket5 :
vegetarians! woot woot!!!! (myself vegan)
from jonnybox :
Thankyou, and just for the record I am well up for the alter thing if you're ever in my area...
from weymouth66 :
Arsebiscuits! :o)
from redhorse :
I HUG YOU!
from o-jasmine-o :
No, indeed, you did not misread, I am proud! Of you!
from o-jasmine-o :
Don't be sad Beth, you're doing so well! I am so proud of you for being able to entirely break off what you had with Alain. It's for the best. (*Still here, still busy, still not forgotten that an email is waiting to be replied to and that there is lots to tell you.*) xxx
from o-jasmine-o :
I am... okay, yes. Everything's a bit complicated, but I promise to tell you properly as soon as I have the time. I am now too far behind on school work due to the "surprise" during the weekend, I think I've missed a few of your entries and just, there's so much I have to catch up with. Thank you for your signing, I'm thinking of you too Beth, love you lots xxxxxxx
from o-jasmine-o :
So much to tell... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee xxx
from cowgirlkym :
Thanks. I have literally just this minute put the code up! It's actually quite relieving when someone feels similarly to you! If you want any help or any good book titles, just ask! C-ya, Kym -x-
from redhorse :
ooooooooh! i love your out fit! if you ever want a pair of dm 5 gold glitter boots... (i have out fits lik that...)
from comedius :
i love comments in profiles and everything - but the motherfuckin' saw doctors?! what do you take us for??
from o-jasmine-o :
Me again, just a quick suggestion purposely not put in your guestbook, if you'd add a sitemeter counter (<a href="http://sm6.sitemeter.com" target="_blank">http://sm6.sitemeter.com</a>) it would keep track of who views your diary and leaves anonymous messages like "a believer" did. It'll tell you where "a believer" comes from (country-wise), which server they have, what site referred them to yours, and then you can recognise how often they read, too... "A believer" couldn't have been a passer-by, because they came back, silly person. Just in case you don't already have a sitemeter, I can't find one on your site, but you could've put it in the white background with a white colour... like I did xxx
from pocket5 :
hey...you're locked, i hope that doesnt mean bad stuff :/ if its okay for me to still read i'd love to. my email address is: [email protected] take care hun, byebye
from arajane :
i miss your diary already... i hope you're doing well. be good to yourself.
from mandypandy83 :
For the hollyoaks dring: http://favediaries.diaryland.com/020810_79.html
from sadjesus :
no, no. i wasn't afraid that you wanted it to be like that. not at all. i was just saying. i'm still up, but i swear i just wanted to go to the loo. oh well. har har. <nudge>
from sadjesus :
we will go touring again. but we should pick our moments carefully--should save it. i don't want it to become anything like routine. if you know what i mean. that said, i probably ought to set myself on fire, before someone does it for me. but instead i think i'll go back to bed, because to be honest i just got up to pee.
from rollerqueen :
*CHOMP*
from laquerida :
Flirting tips? Hon, be yourself. Don't waste your life with a man who can't love you for who you are. As for this guy who keeps beating the crap out of you, I suggest you *please* find a way to eradicate him from your life. He is of no good to you or your daughter. You both need better examples than that. No one deserves such treatment, especially a compassionate woman like you.
from lincok :
hi Miss Vincent thanks for your note you are very kind can you ask Rebecca if she is mad wid me
from gwenllian :
Ohh! "Ride a White Swan" is my favorite. I defy anyone to stay in a bad mood after hearing that song.
from kwellerbabe :
hey.. you are soo funny. your daughter rollerqueen gave me the addy to your diary and i am still laughing. maree
from almostalone :
you really fucking scary me. for reasons that are beyond your fault. tree-hugging hippies are some scary ass people.
from eyenotme :
I like you. I like you and your diary a lot :) I don't know what to say other than that, but it's the truth.
from planetqueen :
oh no! not... the... ENORMOUS CHAIR ...?!
from rollerqueen :
with ONE ENORMOUS CHAIR.
from jmixtape :
Great diary.you are dead on about the blackness.I got that down pat. James
from lilgurllost :
dragonflies...right.
from read-my-mind :
dear you, those dreams you mentioned are so incredibly awesome. i really liked them. have a nice day
from candy-flip :
Yeah, still like your diary. I just thought you were the other planet_queen coz she's a big T.Rex fan too lol.
from hermitage :
I rather like your journal. yay!
from crumpett :
hi. i love you. keep writing-because its become my life-support system.
from candy-flip :
Are you planet_queen at Hole.com? Just wondering. I'm CandyxQueen. Hello there. :)
from sheilasrs :
If you want to learn more about HTML, you can visit http://www.lissaexplains.com. It's a very helpful site. By the way, I like your diary.
from rollerqueen :
you suck

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