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from minstrelite :
http://minstrelite.diaryland.com/090212_1.html, as soon as possible, it's all good, it's so good, it's so wonderfully, marvelously, good...i was a laughing buddha on the streets of this beautiful, wonderful city....i have never been this happy before in my entire life!!!
from thruthecrowd :
;-)
from minstrelite :
I did read your entry - it's always good to see when you update, although that sickness sounds horrible. There was something else I was going to put in this note, but I can't remember it right now. If it's important, it will come back to me, maybe.
from dreams2tell :
No worries in my case, my friend. I've assumed we'll be corresponding again when the time comes. I have been beginning to remember some dreams lately, though - so I hope in your reading, they might arouse some intrigue. I've also been in a relatively stable period, I've noticed, during which the onslaughts of mania and all the vices it entails have been successfully thwarted. Finally, and most of all, Merry Christmas! I'm sure we can all relate to the stress of the holiday season. The combination of increased partying and increased responsibilities renders the general populace a wee bit wacky, not to mention that it doesn't do a whole lot of good for their driving. Happy Holidays!!
from famguygirl :
OMG Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough is my favorite!! Unless they have Moose Tracks.
from minstrelite :
I sympathize more than I empathize, having never been a housewife. (I suppose nowadays they call it a "house spouse" -- but that's a little too P.C. for me.)
from minstrelite :
I thought you did it on purpose, to answer my question without having to hassle with a late night email while tired.
from minstrelite :
Actually it was "our 9-year-old son." It was in this sentence: "I had to get him out of the living room because I didn't want our 9-year-old son waking to hear such a sound from him." The entry is raen.diaryland.com/081215_90.html
from minstrelite :
You mentioned your "nine year old boy" in one of your recent entries.
from minstrelite :
I can relate to being too brain-dead by the end of the day to believe in my ability to compose a coherent email. That's good that your dog is doing well. I have never had a dog, although there are eight animals in the present house, and I once lived in a house with four Lavradors. But that was thirty years ago. I seem to have been tired a lot lately, although I just now (9pm Wednesday) got a second wind. That's been happening. Oh, and now I know your son's age. Thanks for that. :)
from minstrelite :
Wow - how beautiful! Is that where you live? Nice car, too. And nice shot. As much as I complain over being "out in the boondocks," I'm still jealous. I'll have to tell you my Snow Stories sometime.
from minstrelite :
I'll head on over, then.
from minstrelite :
I wonder if the headache might also be the backlash of the caffeine chug that took place earlier in the day. In any case, I'm sorry to hear about it. By the way, I think I lost your rana-kane password when I proceeded to the new laptop.
from minstrelite :
Thanks for the explanation. :) Sounds like the excessive caffeine intake led to symptoms of OCD. My ex had that problem, especially when we lived right next to Papa Ron's Espresso Bar. That guy was a madman. Even one double espresso had her flying from room to room, disoriented, directionless. Somewhere in the Good Book it is written: "Resist the double, and it will flee from you." Wait a minute - or is that "resist the devil...." Now *I'm* rambling, though hopefully humourously so.
from minstrelite :
I think that when I added that link (in humor) it skewed your notes page to the right, so there's a lot of empty space in each box now. Didn't do that on purpose. You can delete the previous note if that will make it better.
from minstrelite :
Got your note. Things like that happen to me sometimes too, and then I have to catch up on notes. Also, I notes that there sure are a lot of A. P. Minstrelite statements over on http://members.diaryland.com/edit/addnote.phtml?user=raen -- is a puzzlement. ;)
from minstrelite :
Also, "had I had my head together at the time" (incomplete sentence) - I mentioned in my most recent entry that I lack eloquence this morning, which I now discover was an understatement.
from minstrelite :
I meant: "right off the bat" lol - I've been doing that a lot lately, for some reason.
from minstrelite :
If it makes any difference, I understood what you meant the first time, because it was evidenced by your having stated that you "envied my eyes." I think I'm a lot better in one-to-one in-person communication myself. But there's also the nature of the beast to consider. The medium of blogging or even composing an email is so unilateral by nature, it can easily impede communication right off the bad. Anyone seeking to communicate by doing so is almost by definition only communicating their own side of the story. Sometimes it helps if, when I reply to the email, I take it piece by piece, point by point, and quote the sender's salient points, and respond to each of them individually. That way, it simulates a conversation. (That, by the way, is what I probably would have done with the email of yours of which I only read the first paragraph, had I had my head together at the. Feel free to re-send it if you like. I feel kind of bad that I didn't give you a chance.)
from minstrelite :
Maybe you meant: "I have seen the sun set, but I have not seen a sunset." (That is, "sun" and "set" being two words in the first phrase.) But now the articles are inverted. Or does it matter? In any case, I thought I had gotten you the first time, but maybe not.
from minstrelite :
And when the full moon brightens the first stage of evening in a way that the sun could not, what do you see then? The moon?
from minstrelite :
Maybe I'll start keeping one. Your dreams are quite distinct, I've noticed. I'm tempted to tell you of a series of dreams about a person whom I've never met and have no idea what she looks like, although she's someone I ought to meet. I think there are references to her in my diary, but during the time you were M.I.A.
from minstrelite :
I'd have laughed - in fact, did laugh - fwiw. People often don't know when I'm being funny either.
from minstrelite :
You must mean the Jeremy Britt (sic.) Sherlock Holmes - yeah it was great. I always watched that in the 90's too. peace
from minstrelite :
Hey Raen, I just now got to DiaryLand for the first time in a couple days and am about to post. I really appreciated your note. Sometimes a person has to be drunk in order to express something that they were probably thinking all along, at least unconsciously. It surfaces then, and not only surfaces, but they become just uninhibited enough to actually go for it, and I think that's beautiful. Now, all platitudes aside. No, I am not including all information about my recent problems to all who are in the DiaryLand world, even though the only people who are reading my dairy now are people whom I know and trust. I leave things out because I haven't yet come up with a reasonable idea as to what the consequences would be. I'm always thinking - out with it, Andy. You've got nothing to hide, really, so why are you hiding? Paranoia will destroy ya. By the way, I got drunk the night after Thanksgiving too - first on beer, than the V-Drink to the point of Puke-Ola. So you're in good company, my friend. In Vino, Veritas.
from famguygirl :
OMG I'm drooling!! That was sooooo hot! (Awesome, too, but mostly hot) What's with the giant gears??
from minstrelite :
I'm sending a second note a couple hours later, not because I've been tripping on this for the past two hours (because I haven't), but because I don't want you to think that I am minimizing or invalidating your perception. I am also a little worried about myself, because going to that site is only a minor example of a more destructive pattern of Internet-related behavior, which seems to be defined by an irrational impulse to do every possible dangerous thing on the Internet that I can, so long as it never comes back to harm me. I fuck with the laws of karma when I do that, but I do it all the same. I usually don't do it unless I'm in a manic phase however, and at the time that I went to the site, I had not slept for three successive nights. Shortly later, I fell asleep for a number of hours. I think I got your note after I woke up, and was less manic by then, but also not yet fully awake to the seriousness of what I have been doing. I've always been a self-destructive person, Rana. It has always seemed that life cannot possibly provide me with enough stimuli to keep my mind as active as I seem to need it to be. Prior to the advent of the Internet, I had unleashed my self-destruction in ways that got me into considerably more trouble, six times in jail, and I can't count the number of times in mental institutions. So in a way, the Internet has become my hiding place, however visible I might actually be. I always think of myself as invisible and in fact, not worthy of much notice, unless someone happens to notice me. I hope this makes some sense - I know you're not a therapist, but you and I have talked a few times over the years, so I just wanted to express that you helped me to reach this insight. Take care.
from minstrelite :
Actually I was only there for about ten minutes before I realized I didn't want to be there, at least not unless I was both heavily incognito (which is probably impossible) or seriously bored (in which case I probably shouldn't even be online.) Unforunately I made the mistake of clicking "yes" to the little invite thingie without quite being aware they were going to automatically dish it out to everybody in my address book before I could second the motion. Sorry about that.
from famguygirl :
My hair used to be blue-black. My mother didn't even notice right away because mine's super dark too!! It's red/purple/brownish right now, but after Christmas, I'm dying it back to black. That's how I like it. 'Tis the season to be smexy!!
from minstrelite :
When you put it that way, it makes me want to buy a gun myself. I probably would, too, if I had any inkling I could use it (or not use it) responsibly. Of course, if the United States Government ever got it into one of their computers that Andy had a gun, they'd shit a brick. They've already got it to where I'm too incompetent to fill out a change of address form, so I can't imagine what would happen if I was armed and dangerous. Conspiracy theories abound.
from famguygirl :
*snort* I wish. I've mentioned doing that before, but I don't have the money. Maybe I could go "back to CA" by giving random BJs. lol. Can't be that hard, given that I've supposedly done it before to get here.
from famguygirl :
Ah. I should've done that. Oh well. That would mean re-emailing everyone again and I'm too lazy. =D
from minstrelite :
I know what you mean (re: New World Order.) If *I* were President, none of this stuff would be happening.
from desireis :
You have the user/password right? ;)
from darkenedhell :
I saw that you had me down as a favorite, so I'd thought I would come by and say hello.
from celtickatt :
ACK! Lemme in! You still have my email address?
from coldandgray :
can't get the password to work, will you email it to me? colleenfalling AT gmail DOT com THANKS!
from coldandgray :
hey lady, better check in, because I tend to worry. Thinking of you, love.
from minstrelite :
I give up. http://minstrelite.diaryland.com I'm back, and all my entries are back with me. I can hear the Villagers cheering outside by in the alley way, and by the railroad tracks. I'm back.
from minstrelite :
also i turned my notes back on--i'll never remember to read ppl's notes on their own notes, ok 4 notes in a row thank you tho! bye...
from minstrelite :
One more thing--I spend most of my online time these days working on my Music MySpace so add me there if u have one, it's http://myspace.com/theburdenproject thanks Raen and i hope you are feeling well
from minstrelite :
Oh, now I see the HaloScan comment--it was beneath my comment, a while back. Yeah, it's hard for me, from the opposite background, to see the piece as even being religious at all. So our perspectives are very different. I had the same problem with my musical during various readings, and so forth, until finally people I respected told me that although it was "still pretty religious," (as of last June) it would easily get the point across without being religious at all. So I've tried to do that with it, but it's taken me a long time. Guess I'm just a religious artist. About the AA thing, I'm totally on the outs with that friend. He hasn't had a drink in 8 years, but his perceptions of other people's realities are seriously skewed. You think religious people are brainwashed, you should see this guy. He factors everything through AA and it's scary. I liked him better when he was drinking.
from minstrelite :
Yeah, what you just said makes sense. I don't believe I ever saw the comment you're talking about, the haloscan--I don't use that--about the long e-mail attachement. You're right, I feel easily rejected online, it's kind of a defect of mine. But one of the reasons I haven't been blogging is because if people ARE reading and they DON'T say stuff, it aggravates that character defect. It sort of seemed like, just as I started to become obviously unstable, is when people stopped commenting, not just you, but everyone. I didn't mean to suggest you would forward an e-mail without permission on any subject, it's just that either I'm going to talk about what's really going on with me FULLY or I'm not going to blog at all, because it's bothersome to be half-assed about things and beat around the bush. Maybe I'll send you an e-mail, but most of the difficulties have past and I didn't get into nearly enough trouble as it looked like was in the works. I finally came into some money and can move to San Francisco, hopefully by May 1st (it's Saturday the 28th as I write.) I didn't see your note till just now. Then I have a job in the South Bay for the Fall. I don't really have a comment on the religious stuff either--my community is different than most, because everyone's some kind of Christian, like I've said, or else they think they're supposed to be. It doesn't have the negative label attached to it as in most places, and the way it manifests is not so much "religious" but spiritual and way less uptight than in your typical commununity. And I'm sure that when I'm in San Francisco again I won't be thinking much along religious lines, I'll just being enjoying the cooler temperatures and hanging out in the cafe and composing music without as many distractions as there are in the small town here. People are quieter in the City and keep to themselves. I understand your family situation and how it prevents you from being online most of the time. So what I'm saying is, I do regret taking things personally. It's just that I like you, that's all, and the things that you HAVE said, are things that I value and are meaningful to me. That's all. I don't have family, I live alone, spend a lot of time on the comp (too much time in fact) and so my situation is sort of the opposite. And it's hotter than hell in the Village these days, so if I even get out for a bike ride or early morning jog I'm lucky. But I do have a regular gig finally so I get to play piano tonight, and that'll be good. And the kids at the Starbucks like me, and people at the local diner. So between those venues and the local library, I pretty much travel around with my laptop, and don't have to head too far from the centralized downtown area. During winter it will be easier, but I'll be gone by then, and hopefully working in my field. Again, it's just that I like you, that's all.
from coldandgray :
thanks for the add & for the discovery of your site
from raen :
Dude, why do you think I don't like you? And I would never forward an email without permission unless the email was threatening in some way and I wanted someone else to give me advice on how to handle it. I know you sent me a huge email and I never really responded to it properly other than what I said in a recent haloscan comment, but I haven't had much clear-headed opportunity to get involved with anything online lately. I've been sick on top of sick, I'm naturally lethargic, I have to keep up with my son, and I've been extra stressed over something I can't talk about. I hate to leave that a mystery, and I only mention it because it's something that's really altered my state of mind lately. But anyway, it really is hard for me to be online much. For example, take this note that you're reading right now. I just happened to be online right after you posted your notes, but here it is an hour later and I'm still typing on it. My husband is constantly calling me out of the room to tell me something or my son (who is now thankfully asleep) repeatedly interrupts me with this and that and the other. It's very frustrating. And I wish I had more of an online presence like I enjoyed years back, but I simply can't manage it now. Most of the time, I'm only able to be online long enough to read friends' entries and then I have to get up again. Plus, I still have dial-up and my husband doesn't want me tying up the phone line during most hours. It's all a wicked balancing act. But anyway. About you, though, one thing I've really noticed about you is that you really want feedback, and if you don't get it, you get frustrated and think no one cares, no one likes you, no one's reading. It's the wrong way to look at it. Blog for yourself because you like it or need to express yourself. Don't expect comments. Don't ask for them. And certainly don't—well, I don't know how to word it properly—don't complain about not getting comments in an entry. It can turn people off. Don't say things like "Well, I guess no one gives a shit since no one commented on yesterday's entry." It insults the people who took the time to read the entry and did give a shit, but just didn't have words to offer or the time to put together thoughts to post to you. Just relax, man. On your religious issues, I can't help except to say that I feel that most people would be better off living by common sense and respect for other people. I've always felt that people can live good lives without trying to follow controversial, contradictory, ancient texts that have been re-translated and re-revised to the point that it's pointless. Anyway, if you make a new journal or re-start the old one, I'll still be reading. :) Later.
from minstrelite :
I think that you don't like me, but if I send you a more explanatory e-mail, can you promise not to forward it to anybody? What I've been tryting to communicate is that I'm in deep shit.
from minstrelite :
Hi..uh I didn't see your note till just now. I've been acting like a spoiled child, hoping ppl would just send me an e-mail or, if they have my number, give me a phone call. I cleared out due to my current instability. I want to open up about it, but on DiaryLand, I just can't. I will think I'm getting better, and be better for a couple weeks or so, and then everything goes to hell again. But as far as the entries, I removed the ones which were most blatantly Anti-Christian. That's all I meant. I've been trying to be a good Christian again, and I really was doing well until two days ago. If I can sleep tonight, I should make church tomorrow, as I did on Easter. I read your entry, and it sounds awful. I am praying that you get better with all of this. I don't want you to die. Back to me, in the past few days, I haven't been in the Christian space, and it's like it was before. It doesn't make sense anymore, and I'm all screwed up. But at the same time, I will pray for someone who is hurting. So I must be praying to somebody.
from raen :
Wow, you cleared out, didn't you. I'll respond to you here. -- So, you're back to normal? Heh, what's "normal," anyway? ;) Which entries did you not mean? Maybe I've been too sick and can't remember clearly. I'm a bit confused, Andy. :-S
from minstrelite :
Wow. I can't believe I wrote like a maniac for three weeks without hardly ever eating or sleeping. I look at it now, and it's all shit--every word of it. I'm back to normal. I have to call three people every day and tell them how many meals I ate, and how much sleep I got, and any other key variables. No, I'm not in the nuthouse. Nothing like three or four meals a day and eight to ten hours of sleep a night to cure a bipolar one hypomanic episode. Of course, I don't write anymore at all--but who really cares? All's well that ends well.
from minstrelite :
Here's a copy and paste of the relavent portions of the note I left for Emily (miedema or medidema) last night, wiht additional information inserted when hopefully appropriate. "The Unpardonable Sin is the Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit, referred to in Luke 11. It's been scaring people since the time of Jesus. There is not one Christian on earth who can provide an authoritive answer as to what this sin consists of. The best answer I've ever gotten from a salty old Methodist minister who said simply: "About that Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, Andy--no one knows what that is! I wouldn't be surprised if God just threw it into the Book to make sure no one kicked back so far they might start to think that all of their sins were forgiven." However, scholars who have studied it more deeply have decided that it would be tantamount to one's having hardened one's heart to the point where "forgiveness" of any sort were no longer a positive value. In other words, if the Christian belief-system is true, that person would stand, as we all will, at the Judgment Seat of Christ one day, and basically he or she would say: "I don't give a fuck if you forgive me or not. I hate your fuckin' ass. Send me to hell if you want, I'd rather be there than be with a guy like you." So, one would have to be pretty majorly resentful to maintain that attitude in the presence of someone who had already loved them so much that he had forgiven them of everything they have done, and everything they ever could do, and even of what they would say on that day. So, it's a sin that as unforgiveable because we ourselves refuse to receive forgiveness. I don't know, however, if the scholars who came to that conclusion, are correct. As you know, I'm at a point of my own self being pissed off at the way God set things up, though my anger tends toward fear fairly rapidly. (My judgment of timing is also impaired. It had been only two days since I sent you the e-mail, and I was thinking it was a week or so. Don't let your Internet interfere with your relationship--I speak as a total Internet addict here.)
from minstrelite :
I just sent you a huge-ass long e-mail that originally stemmed from the comment I'd reduced on the Prodigal Son page I just referred to in my last note. Anyhoo, I'm something of a perfectionist, and I'm sure it's replete with spelling and grammatical errors. I'm going to convert it Word and re-send it again, after making corrections and seeing just how long-ass it is anyhoo. Pardon my French--it's not for you personally, I'm just rather nutz at this moment. Oh, and btw. since it wasn't truly personal, I cc'd it to my daughter & I hope you don't mind. A forward would have sufficed but one of its paragraphs wound up becoming directed at her and not you. Have a good one, and post an entry soon.
from minstrelite :
Just to let you know, there's an extremely detailed reply to your comment on my "Prodigal Son" entry on my comments page. And it's the short version. If you want the long version, I'll send it to you in an e-mail, with the appropriate Word doc attached. May all the forces of the Universe conspire to work in your favor forever! (And I mean that--I truly do.)
from celtickatt :
Lol, cool ;)
from celtickatt :
You get it?!
from minstrelite :
Hey Raen, I got your comment, and anyway I had already decided to return what were probably the nost truthful words I have written back to their proper place. So the entry's up again. Like I said in the footnote, I'm going through birth pangs. I was a Christian, and now I'm the process of becoming a human being instead. It's a little new to me, and it might not happen easily. But it's happening. So thanks again for your support, and your understanding of what is clearly the course that involves the greater good.
from minstrelite :
That's all really interesting (your "Diabetic?") entry. I certainly hope you're not diabetic, but it can't hurt to make the suggested lifestyle adjustments. I myself have a hard time correcting my diet, mostly because I still suffer (and occasionally benefit) from a 70's running boom mentality telling me that it's okay to eat whatever I want and how much of it I want, as long as I run it all out of my system. But then when I'm sick like I am now, I wish I would eat only the good stuff. No way am I running, that's for sure. And about your husband, I guess he knows a thing or two, and maybe you can be encouraged in that? Sometimes it's in the way we say things that pisses people off, not in the things we say. I've definitely noticed that it takes me more time with some than with others, to trust their judgment.
from minstrelite :
I hope you and The Kid don't catch what *I've* got. I'm going to the doctor first thing in the morning. I never do doctors, but I'm told they'll fix me up.
from minstrelite :
i just locked my diary, so plz e-mail me for the username password combination
from celtickatt :
I JUST NOW realized that I've been so busy and missed telling you Happy Birthday! I'm Sorry! I hope you had a good birthday! Happy Birthday late! :-S
from minstrelite :
Hmmm...this is deeper than I'd thought. Let me ponder the "Car in Living Room" scenario, and I'll get back to you.
from minstrelite :
Well, in my opinion, you've got to just tell her that now is not a good time, and if necessary, elaborate that you need your morning times to wake up and get yourself oriented, and that you're not open to visitors or phone calls at those times. If she doesn't understand, re-word and re-iterate until she does. You may feel guilty that she's over 85, and I would probably too. But it's actually going to better in the long run if you're truthful with her, because she's taking advantage of you, and this will not be a good thing for her either. Hmmm. I've recently remembered how valuable the mornings are, and how much better the days go if I use them wisely without human interference, at least until I have my head together for that given day. I would think that people in all generations will respect that.
from minstrelite :
I don't blame you (about the doctors.) It wasn't a suggestion, by the way (in case you're wondering) only the natural, oft-asked question when one doesn't quite know what to say. I myself haven't seen a doctor for years, other than a psychiatrist, and at least half the time I regard the latter as a mistake. If you can get around the docs, more power to ya.
from minstrelite :
It could very well be food poisoning. Have you called a doctor? I admire you for having the presence of mind to calm yourself and wait it out. That also takes faith. Freaking out definitely doesn't help in such situations--I've been there too.
from minstrelite :
Thought you might appreciate that. ;)
from minstrelite :
If it were me, I'd just let it flow, baby! Forget about the Man. I should talk, though, because in my case, I keep thinking God is going to see it, and then I lose some of my wildest bestest ideas because I figure they're immoral or something. In my secret flow of writing, there are free flowing streams full of foul language and all kinds of narly images designed to bring out the adventuresome rebel trapped within us all. But my religious scrupolisity prevents me from letting it happen. I wish I had it like you did, and were only concerned about some wife or girlfriend finding it. But no--I've got to deal with *THE* Man. You've got it easy, girl.
from augustdreams :
Any haloscan comments, I mean. My brain is slushy from painkillers. :P
from augustdreams :
Hmmmm. It says on your page that you don't have any comments but ya do! :)
from minstrelite :
OK I'll check them out, thanks.
from minstrelite :
Weird about the inarticulate gal. Wonder if she was on the real, or just a troll? Hard to tell sometimes. Anyway, I'm noting you again because I'm curious where the dream forum is. I could use another forum.
from minstrelite :
30, eh? I'm trying to think back. I remember running my fastest 10-K race when I was 33, but the actual b-day, the big 3-0, contained activities far less healthy. There is some sort of anxiety associated with that particular milestone. It seems to be the age where we can somehow no longer rationalize that we're a kid anymore. But you'll be fine. When it all comes down to it, it's just another day. The 4-0 was the one I milked. Threw a major party, gleaned all kinds of gifts, and so forth. 5-0 was completely uneventful, like no one cared, and it was just as well. But as for discipline, it's a tough one--it's always harder to get into the good habit in the first place than it is to stay there. Have you tried joining a gym?
from minstrelite :
Yes, you dare hope. Always good to hope, and there's always hope.
from minstrelite :
Just to follow up, I read somewhere in a dream book that when you dream about something highly negative happening, it might mean that something highly positive is actually due to happen in that same context. So I went there yesterday believing that something really positive would take place, and it did. (This is not to overly validate the idea in the dream book, but in this case, it did pan out.)
from minstrelite :
Got your note. I just wrote about yesterday's event on DiaryLand. I'll write about the dream right now.
from minstrelite :
Actually, I ran into one of those two people (the one whom I said I would contact) a little after I wrote that last note. She's a nice lady. But I'm writing because I had the worst nightmare, and I've totally analyzed it. I awoke from it, then realized it was a direct result of something disturbing that happened yesterday. As soon as I remembered the disturbing real event, I couldn't get back to sleep, although it was only 3:30 in the morning. And now I'm afraid that what happened in the nightmare will occur in real life, today--since I always see the people involved on Tuesdays. Heavy stuff.
from minstrelite :
Wow, what a great note you left me! It was so exhaustive--it covered just about every angle. In fact, I saved it onto a floppy disk (that's all the local library can handle, and my only real way of saving files in the absence of my laptop.) I think that I will contact one of the two people about whom I dreamed. The other one, a friend from college days, is someone I'd looked up on the Internet, and though I excitedly called him & he suggested we get together, he since then didn't answer e-mails, and showed no real signs of pursuing a connection. So the dream about him might, as you suggested, mean that I miss the type of interaction he and I had. But that missing might not be mutual, and he sounds like he's in a different place in his life now. The one whom I will contact, however, is a woman from whom I twice rented a room. Not that I want to rent from her again (even though I'm looking for a room) but I am wondering how she's doing. We had had a pretty good rapport. The room, however, is too far away from my present commitments, and I still don't drive. (Well, I do drive, as you've probably gathered--I just don't have a car, and I'm kinda broke.) Thanks also for the info on your jounraling routines. I was doing it over morning coffee for the longest time, and daily--but now it's fairly sporadic. Just when I happen to feel like I have something to say, and when I happen to be at a computer with Internet access. Thanks again for the note!
from minstrelite :
A couple thoughts after reading your recent entry. (1) Maybe I ought to keep a dream journal too--problem is, I rarely remember my dreams. However, recently I've dreamed about two people who were meaningful in my life but with whom I have fallen out of touch. One of these occurred last night, and was very vivid. Do you think that means I should contact these people? (2) I've noticed that you have a remarkable ability both to write a lot, and also to keep track of numerous journals that you read regularly, and this impresses me. I'm not quite focused enough to do that.
from deadthyme :
Oh yeah- I'll never quit doing this diary. I neglect it somewhat, but I'll never stop it. I look back on it too much- I'm kinda obsessed with history and what was going on in the past at different times. And the diaries that I keep up with here- most ov them I've been keeping up with for years, so they're like old friends. I need to write in it more, tho. I have a Live Journal, but I started it really just to keep up with a couple ov people who left here- I like Diaryland much better. I don't update my LJ much more often than here (and when I do, it's just because I write something real hort- like a line or two. I don't ever do that here- I always feel like I need to write longer entries in here. I'm fixing to get a new hosting site so I'll have my images back.
from bitterwineuk :
Thanks for your note in my locked diary the other day. I am getting round to thanking everyone individually for thier support. In response to the racial thing, my ex was born in Afghanistan so big race differences there. Complete opposites really. :) Becca
from minstrelite :
Three things: (1) I returned your e-mail, sending you a password and an explanation; (2) I just saw the last note I left, and ironically just last Saturday got an e-mail from the company saying that *they* actually owed *me* money and wondering where to send the check; (3) the one entry of mine you have listed as a favorite is the one entry I had been planning to delete.
from bitterwineuk :
your note in my ishouldcry diary is right, i want him to go but i just wish he would stop making excuses and telling lies about it all. if he could just be honest with it all but he's never gonna be that.
from startafresh :
sorry, I am not keeping it locked. Just done it in a panic when I saw "Said friend" in previous entry sign in on MSN. She doesn't have a pc but I didn;t want her to see it before I told her myself. So, I sent her an email instead. :) Still a chicken. Becca
from newschick :
yeah you're telling me... at least my dad pays the psychiatrist bills, where i try to process what it was like to be 7 and sit alone for thousands of hours. i had(still have) a workaholic father and an 'uninvolved' (horrific) mum. THUS being alone was my safest environment. besides going to school of course. cheers!
from newschick :
i was homeschooled from 2-6th and 10-12th. it was an adventure. just try to be PRESENT and not have the kid sitting in a room by himself for...oh...4 years straight. (it was my own hell) i had to teach myself/do the work/grade myself...all alone. but i know people who have had great experiences...just not me! i look forward to reading your writing!
from minstrelite :
You're the second person who's reminded me of that same story in the past two or three weeks. I have also thought the same thing, except for that it seems morally wrong to take the money, knowing that payroll had made a mistake. It seems the right thing to do is to return the money, and God probably is not behind my doing something which is willfully wrong. Still, I recall being in a similar situation some time ago, and I wound up doing what I thought was the right thing, at considerable financial loss to myself, and I wound up really suffering for it. So I do have that in my experience. Let me think about it some more.
from bitterwineuk :
ps, as for the memory lane thing, that would have me running even quicker in the opposite direction. Looking back truthfully there was very rarely a happy time so that wont work on me. I am happier this way, trust me.
from bitterwineuk :
hiya, Just a note regarding the note you left at my ishouldcry diary, I am not at all upset by that. I know he cant change although he wants to, I've given him all the support I am willing to and there is no way I am ever going back. We are getting divorced as I need to move on in a positive direction. I know he has a problem but I have lost that last drop of respect and trust I had remaining. I can understand your concern and it's for my son that this is all happening, he deserves a better role model and I daily blame myself that he's already been through too much. I can't change the past, but I can make his future a happier one. That's what has made it such an easy decision to divorce. I just thought I would explain a bit more. Have a fab weekend. Becca
from ruachadonai :
I'm not sure what is happening (I use Explorer to get online) but I never see anything when I try to go to your page. All I see is the darkness weaves .jpg.
from celtickatt :
Your popups are getting out of control! What's up with the guestbook? I tried to sign it instead of leave a note, but it came up page not found. Hmm...
from justamephit :
I had quite a lucky Halloween of it - I'm living in quite a posh area so we just got very small, very cute, very polite children who asked us for "trick or treat please" and thanked us very sweetly for the chocolate and such. It's the only time I've ever opened the door though. Usually 'cos I'm living in some dump that means "treat" is your wallet and "trick" is burning the garden shed down.
from justamephit :
The new Harry Potter trailer must be quite something. I haven't seen it myself, but my friend Will who loudly hates anything even remotely connected to Harry Potter sidled up to me t'other day and said "please don't tell anybody but can we got and see Harry Potter together when it comes out?" Oops ... I just told.
from insideaway :
Yup, you just have to click on "post comment" and it will let you post as anonymous. But you can change that to your name if you want to. You just have to type in the security numbers in order for it to work. By the way, it's good hearing from you. :)
from hellraising :
Oooo, I love the new layout. Black is so much better than white.
from hamiltonian :
Nice design and journal!
from ruachadonai :
Thanks for the note! I love the picture, but decided against the colors. They make me feel faintly nauseous when I look at them. ::laugh::
from justamephit :
Woah! Sweetheart. Do take care. *blows at the hurricane frantically* in the hope it will go the other way. You know, it's the scariest thing because I've been reading about it vaguely on the BBC News website, watching it's progress and thinking "my that's bad" but not feeling, I don't know, as if it was real or something becaus it was so far away. But just reading you diary suddenly made me realise that it is real and that it is affecting and ruining people's lives. The world is so big it's easy to feel distanced from everything.
from ishouldcry :
thanks for adding me to your faves. This is actually a second diary so find out more if you wish at bitterwineuk.diaryland.com. Tahnk you again. :) Becca
from ishouldcry :
thanks for adding me to your faves. This is actually a second diary so find out more if you wish at bitterwineuk.diaryland.com. Tahnk you again. :) Becca
from justamephit :
My God, there's something so horribly pragmatic in the way you write of your marriage... (sorry, that sounds insulting, it isn't meant to be) ... obviously you have down times sometimes, do the ups make it all worthwhile?
from justamephit :
No, I was just clicking around randomly on your diary reading stuff - I wasn't, like, looking for Me in an orgy of egotism or anything :)
from justamephit :
By the way, apropos of nothing can I just see hee! I'm flattered and delighted to have been considered worth quoting! Take care! xxx *dances off feeling special*
from mydreambook :
There's another dream journal on here. This is the link: http://nepenthean.diaryland.com
from rainforme :
glad to know i am not alone in my angst and yet... so sad to know others agree. ;)
from hellraising :
What made you depressed then? And what does 'Hellbound' mean? I checked the dictionary and there's no such word. I really like the poem you wrote.
from justamephit :
*hugs* My dear, that sounds awfully traumatic, I'm sorry you're feeling so down. My Dad used to sometimes take that attitude to me when I was growing up but because he was a nasty bastard I was often too nervous to eat at the table with him. So it could be worse =P Sorry, this was meant to be cheering!
from hellraising :
Email has been sent to mail@ranakane.com with the username/password. Checking whether you received it.
from mydreambook :
Thank you very much! About Joseph Duncan, do you know what happened to him? He stopped updating his blog a while ago, is he in jail or something?
from justamephit :
I can never take Hurricane Dennis particularly seriously - my father is called Dennis. I keep imagining this short, fat, violent biker hurricane. It's not pretty.
from essaywriter :
thanks for adding me to your favorites!
from justamephit :
Oooh mentionables =P No worries - hope the headaches get better.
from justamephit :
Hello, just a random note really. I have no idea how I got here, compulsive clicking I guess ... but here I am and I just wanted to say how much I'm reading your diary. You write very wittily and very eloquently and it's amazing how fast your archives are flying past me this lazy afternoon at my boring job. Tangentially I can't believe HP & The Chamber of Secrets is four hours long! That's *insane* That's longer than, like, 2001 or Titanic or something. LIke just about everybody else in the world, I much preferred the third film. The first two were just the books on screen which my imagination can do on its own thankyouverymuch, but the third one was the act of creative re-interpretation that a good film adaption should be. Yeah. Sorry, I seem to have gone onnarant. I shall stop now. And, yes, I'll be reading. Thank you for writing and, err, take care. (sorry, I write incredibly random notes)
from celtickatt :
P.S. I definitely will post pics when I get largely pregnant! It's funny cause right now I look relatively pregnant, but that's because I've been horrible about keeping in shape and especially after I eat my tummy looks big, hehe (well, big for me that is.) Actually, I'm not 100% looking forward to being huge pregnant, but at the same time, it will be obvious at that point that it's a baby and not fat- right now I just look like I have some chub on me (which part of it really is!)
from maban :
As yet, I am undecided. I was going to advertise it as open to anyone who wants it, but I thought I'd leave my options open for now. I may decide to use it again, but it's doubtful that I'll ever use it to discuss issues as personal as before. If I did that, I think I'd have to put a password on it, because I just want private things to stay private. But who knows, the emotional slut may rise again. At the moment though, I really couldn't say what my plans for maban are.
from ashlynnhaven :
oh...and don't forget to post the rules!
from ashlynnhaven :
Aha! I have found your notes! Here goes with the interview. 1. If you could have any car, regardless of price, what car would it be and why? 2. Have you ever seen a ghost / had a paranormal type experience? 3. What has been the proudest moment in your life so far ( not including the kid...no cheating! :) ) 4. What qualities do you most love / hate in other people...do you think you have either of those qualities? 5. What is the stupidest ( most stupid? ) thing you've ever done? Was that really the most stupid, or just the only one you were brave enough to post? :) Okay, done!
from ravenheart :
I get your notify mails, so they do get out. Great pictures by the way. I would actually love to have that Slytherin ring!
from devil-jay :
I honestly don't know. I assumed it was the same all over the world. I found out late last night, when most of the day had passed. ;)
from devil-jay :
that's because we've reached summertime. The clock is supposed to be an hour ahead.
from raziela :
Graaah, I'm going insane, Raen! They won't fix my tagboard!! This is frickin' hilarious, don't you think? I'm paying for something that's supposed to work, but it isn't. Then where the hell does my 20 bucks go to? I bet they're just eating the money at tag-board.com. Man, that sucks so much. :(
from raziela :
Hiya! Thanks for the comments. *hugs* Maybe I should draw more and write less. No, j/k, I'll keep writing as much as I do nowadays and maybe more - I can always draw in the evenings when I'm bored infront of the TV. =) For some strange reason, I've only dreamt of Raziel as blue once or twice, and that was when I was being forced to babysit for a mini Zephon who ate my socks in my drawer. I... have a lot of dreams involving LoK, but there are only a couple of them that I actually type down, simply because I don't want my diary readers to throw tomatoes at me in frustration. ^_~ Hey now, you should try to get the image of Kain as Cher out of your head or it'll be stuck there forever. ;P And about tagboard... it's frustrating me. I can't believe that I'm paying for a taggie that won't work properly. Dang, it annoys the living... something out of me. >_<
from raziela :
*Hugs* Hi Raen! I just read your newest entry, and I got worried. I really hope that you'll be OK soon, and that your child will be alright as well. Make sure to eat lots of ice cream because that actually helps me sometimes when I'm feeling really ill (and it tastes good which makes you think less about the pain). :) Take care of yourself and remember - Dante is always with you! <3
from augustdreams :
Thank you so much! :) I'm thrilled that you liked it - that entry means a lot to me. Hmmm. I eat Booberry Cereal... wonder what that makes me? ;D Stupid ass fundamentalists.
from devil-jay :
Rid the world of religious freaks! Some of those statements apply to me too and I'm not Goth.
from raziela :
Hello! *huggles* Ah, I see that you like writing just as much as I do. Do you write original stories as well as fanfictions? My focus lies on original written work, but I really enjoy writing fanfictions every now and then, as you might have noticed when reading my rather crazy diary entries. :) W00t! I hope to be able to play DMC someday, too. I don't have a PS2, so at the time being it's kind of impossible. :( But here's hoping that I can get a boyfriend who enjoys playing games as much as I do. *lol!* Have a wonderful day, dear! Take care. ~Raz
from augustdreams :
Thank you! The fuzzies send you many purrs, tail-wags and feather flaps respectively. :) Love your new look, btw.
from p-brain :
...all my newly deleted pics are back. Aaaaarrrgh.
from p-brain :
Yeah dland is really wierd. Thankfully I haven't added any pics to my account. Just removed some. Don't you think it's annoying with the lack of folders in the image section? And that the new images take the place of deleted pics in the list? I want some form of order in there and I have emailed Andrew about it - trice - but he never answers. *GRRR*
from raziela :
*Hugs* Hi! Thanks for the lovely notes. Oh, I need to add lokmusic.com, I always visit that page but I somehow forgot to link to it. Thanks for telling me! =3 And about my inner fangirl showing up every now and then... people tell me that I'm a hopeless and crazy LoK and PoP fanatic, but really, I don't care about their comments anymore. Lord Kain, Raziel, Turel and all the others... they make me happy. And I won't let those comments take my happiness away. To be honest, I have a very difficult life that I'm _forced_ to live with (a.k.a: I can't get away from here, I'm forever stuck at this place), and for me to think about LoK and all my other obsessions means peace at mind. I fully understand you when you say that people would think like that about you if you began showing your inner fangirl the way I do. If only people could be a little more tolerant toward others, then the world would be a far much better place to live in. Why do I talk like this, so openly and freely? Because I like you too, and I feel that it's nice talking to you because you seem to understand me. :) I can also mention that I have a couple of locked diaries in which I write Swedish entries only, and that's where I speak more freely about my obsessions (since Swedish is my first-spoken language, after all). Oh well. I'm really happy that you left me that note, it means a lot to me. I will forever carry your words with me, and it's not an exaggeration (because I never exaggerate when I speak as seriously as I do now). *hugs* Thank you, Raen. Thank you.
from devil-jay :
I've done that way too many times myself. ;) Yes it looks much better with the links now. I see you removed the text pictures too. Looks good, although the other font was very good too. Nice work.
from raen :
:P I know. lol I just re-re-did it. Hope it works better for ya! :)
from devil-jay :
It's quite difficult to check it out when you have locked the place. ;)
from devil-jay :
I take it that the links are supposed to be positioned under "Rana". Well... they ain't. Not on my computer. Top left corner; over the image. =(
from asrael :
dun dun DUN.
from augustdreams :
You're all locked up. May I have the password?
from raziela :
Hello! *waves* I used to be a member at the Nosgoth forum as well as the forum at Eidos, but I don't know if they still have my member info there (maybe they've erased it, I don't know). I used to be a frequent visitor at those places. I'm not a member at the Yahoo! group, though.
from raziela :
Hello! Thanks for the note! It's always nice seeing more LoK fans. ^_^ I'm gonna check out your diary too. Take care! :)
from bettyalready :
Happy Thanksgiving!
from giantkiller :
Hi there! I am a Republican with a site at http://smartngoodlookin.sirblogalot.com that I'd like you to check out, please! Have a great day. -Miss Priss
from devil-jay :
I saw a documentary two nights ago where they had investigated Fox and especially Fox News. Statistics shows those who watch Fox have a warped view of the war, what is true or not, and have a tendency to love Bush. Fox say they are true and just but everything they have said was untrue and favourized Bush - and has already proclaimed Bush as a winner of the election! As for O'Rielly. He had invited a man whos father was a firefighter and had died along with the others at WTC. This man was against the war for several reasons and he tried to expalain his point of view. All this dick O'Rielly did was to interrupt him and say that he was supporting the "barbarians" and hating Bush blablabla. Threatened him and told him to "Shut the fuck up". The next day, when the show was supposed to air they said that they had to interrupt the interview because the man had become voilent with his opinions, that he was supporting Al quida and held Bush personally responsible for killing all those "barbarians". So, no, I do not like O'Rielly. I do not like Bush. I think he could've handled things much better than he did.
from leofiregazer :
I do recognize the title of your diary! It's funny though, in some twisted way my favorite song on the Heroes album right now is Joe the Lion. For the lyrics and just the sheer noise of it. I'm amazed that someone else has taken interest in my little diary! There's not much in it right now, but there will be as I start getting acclimated to college. I just thought that my friends were going to read this thing. But then again, Bowie fans have to stick together. I'm jealous of your friend! I would love to see him in concert. The weird thing is the first reason I liked him was because of Labyrinth (being someone who was born in the 80s). As I got older I realized that he had done a lot more than that, but it wasn't until recently that I really took the time to buy some CDs and listen. Needless to say, I was blown away, and have been addicted ever since. I just realized that this note is really long, but I have have a tendency to blather. Anyway, thanks for stopping by!
from celtickatt :
Okie doke :p
from devil-jay :
Really?! Wow. But it'll look stupid on my belly. Besides I have a huge scar two inches above my bellybutton going all the way to my private area and to draw attention to that is nothing I'm interested in. ;)
from devil-jay :
usually, when someone likes both dicks and girls, they are bisexual. Not many people seem to get that. No offense to you. I was thinking of another friend of mine. A "lesbian".
from devil-jay :
Jeeez...how stupid can one person be. XD
from devil-jay :
Hehe...I felt like I wasn't minding my business when I wrote the GB entry to him. But then I though "What the hell" and signed the damn thing. I don't think it's nice to steal other people's material. Maybe he felt ashamed after the confontation?! =D How did you find out he took it anyway?
from devil-jay :
Oooo...a vampire movie. I looked it up at IMDb. =) I'll put it on my list as a potential choice. Thank you.
from cheapandevil :
you've stated that you have an interest in Gor...if the interesting is any further then a mere thought email me...i have a ton of links with all kinds of information not to mention and i can help you find the books quick...Let me say (regarding the series) its difficult to read at first...he's an interesting author...but once you get into his style,...you can't put it down...none of the books are still being published, so yu have to find them on ebay or used books stores. (thats where i got them anyway) anyway e-mail me i'd love to chat. (xlepetitmorte@aol.com)
from devil-jay :
...another car: http://www.tradera.com/auction/Leksaksbilar/aid_6633822
from devil-jay :
Hi. I know nothing of Hot Wheels but i have found two new ones at a Sw. auction site. I have placed a bid on both because I know they are pretty popular at eBay. One is a Chevelle 1970, orange-like with "Root beer" on the side as if it was a race car sticker; the other is a boom box, bloodred metallic with silvery flames,. ?!? Both look very nice. Is this something you have...or maybe want?! =)
from devil-jay :
They're my work. You can use the idea if you like. =) Oh, hey. I have the ring pictures working now. You can delete the pics if you want to. Thanks so much for hosting them. It must be two years now. *hugs Raen*
from devil-jay :
I'm working on the rings. I think there was a bug yesterday. My ring page didn't show so I don't know if it was because any wrongdoing with my rings or if it was a general dland problem. Thanks! You are the best. =) Oh, and thank you for adding me to your buddies. You can remove P-Brain2 though. I've changed PB(1) to what PB2 was. Don't have the money to pay for both diaries. *Hugs*
from devil-jay :
Hey...I thought Bravenet had remote linking; but only if I pay for it. =( Can you hold on to the pictures a while longer? If not that's okey with me. =)
from devil-jay :
Hi, Raen. Do you have a copy of the "I need a hug" & "Tomb Raider" ring-pictures by any chance? I just remembered you host them for me and now that I have a Bravenet picture account I can put them there. I thought I had copies of them but I don't. >.< Thanks for hosting them, btw. =)
from datura93 :
Hey, just wanted to ask if you still run "ablacksun" or not. Haven't seen any activity in there for quite some time and I remember you saying that you were giving it away. Just curious...I was going to delete it off my list if it is no longer your baby. Lemme know, k? :)
from ravenheart :
If I was you I wouldn't see the Nick Berg video, personally I regretted seeing it. It was just too awful. It's not something you can forget and people that can do that to someone, for whatever reason, must be very sick. Anyway, I hope you didn't see it in reality? It was on a tape right? But just like you say; it was strange to see a living person suddenly turn into a cut off head. I think the father of Nick Berg said that that type of death was favoured over torture, but to me it looked like torture. Anyway, I hope those people will be caught.
from zaraya :
dante is HOT. i just played dmc for 4 hours. *drools*. i used to have trouble getting hair dye here in ND, but i found a stylist who would do it for me. FYI have you ever tried manic panic for color? i bet you could order it online, and jerome russel bleach works wonders for getting hair white.
from raveneys- :
thank you for visiting my little plot of Hell...as for that entry...yes, it was incredibly hard to write but as I said in it, no one ever talked to me so I decided to lay out my case for the world, or at least, anyone who happened to wander into my place...and don't worry about not responding sooner. I don't ever expect to get a response back. I appreciate it though. Also, I look forward to more of your entries. You are very interesting to me. Please don't take that as a creepy stalker phrase or anything. You simply intrigue me is all. :)
from datura93 :
Hey, thanks for saving me the money! No I didn't pay for it yet...I had downloaded a free trial version and was considering purchasing it after the free period wore off. Yay! I like free so much better! Thanks.
from datura93 :
Hi again. I officially downloaded and listened to "Love you to death". Mmmmmmmm. Yummy. I like it a lot. Feels like being seranaded (sp?) by a hot black-eyelinered vampire. Very sexy. Thank you :)
from datura93 :
Wow...love the playgirl one. Made me blush it did. Will you look at the size of THAT? Woah! Too funny. And I downloaded that Winmix program and I'm downloading my very first song as I type this. It feels kinda naughty...like are the copyright police gonna come to my door and throw me in jail? Is this like napster? Im just a rebel...Fear me! (Im a dork, I know). Thanks again. I'll let you know what I think of the song. He is definately gorgeous.
from datura93 :
Yay! I just got 2 copies of the email now, but I never did get the one forwarded from diaryland...not sure what that's all about. Anyhow, I found the ones you just sent in my junk mail folder since you used a different address than what I had on file for you. Damn computers are too smart for their own good. Anyhow, thanks! And sorry I was being such a whiner...I'm off to go look at those pictures!
from datura93 :
Hey, so you did sent one via email? Diaryland or stupid aol must have ate it... boooooo! Can you please send it again to my aol address? datura93@aol.com. Thankee sai )0(
from zaraya :
deep space nine has been one of my favorite shows since it began! i would read about cardassians any day.
from augustdreams :
Thanks so much for listing my recent entries as favorites! :D It made my day and Cthulhu says that he'll eat us both last. [and there was much rejoicing!] d*land ate that entry the first time I tried to post it. Then, for some wacky reason, it kept popping back up! Weird. I'm really glad I'm not the only one fed up with the media and magazine covers being filled with malnourished 15 year old models on Atkins! You must update! (It'll make Aph wag her tail! :))
from datura93 :
Yes yes yes! Please recommend me a few Type O negative songs to try out...I love discovering new music. I even looked at some of the cd's the other day in borders when you were talking about how much you loved the lead singer. Know of anywhere I can download a few of their songs for free to try out? amazon.com only hosts such small snippets, it annoys me. Anyhow, thanks for the cute note about my 101 things list...I was worried that it revealed me as an even bigger wanker ;) What else do you have in common with that list, hmmmmm? Has me curious. ;)
from datura93 :
Hi! Kudos on your 101 things list that you posted...it was full of juicy raen tidbits and made me go hmmmm. I especially liked the one about your bringing a gun to school. "Fear me"... you're such a hoot! :)
from datura93 :
Oh hey...I just wanted to mention that you have inspired me to re-visit and re-vamp my "101 things about me" list. I really didn't take the time to write it as I should have, and I've been since oddly motivated to beef it up. One of these days I'll re-link to mine. No matter what I write though, I always feel like it sounds lame. Hate that! Chiao!
from datura93 :
Woo hoooo! Thanks! I honestly didn't notice that...was kind of a lame entry for a 100th. No bells or whistles but ohhhhh well. Thanks for noticing! :)
from stella-caeli :
I got your message - thank you!! :o)
from stella-caeli :
Hi! thehour mentioned that you are considering placing your public journal with someone else, and I've been wanting to get one going for several months (Andrew isn't allowing new ones until he can work out a way to avoid having people use them to harrass one another), so I was wondering if perhaps you'd consider me as a possible new owner, should you decide you don't want it any more? Wow, that was a long sentence, wasn't it? :o) Feel free to come by and visit my journal if you have a few minutes - visitors are always welcome. Take care!! ~Shannon
from datura93 :
Real writers use paper and pencils? Psst!?! That pissed me off...sorry. You deserve some creative time to yourself dammit and ON THE COMPUTER if that is what you desire! Anyway, my thoughts are with you, and your "new" vehicle sounds real nice...I love silver! ;)
from p-brain :
I bet most people on D-Land got a visit from Dear George. >.<
from datura93 :
Sniff sniff. There's something about your diary that hates me. I tried to sign your guestbook yesterday and it kicked me out and then I went to your dream site and tried to add my email address (per your request) and I got this stinkin error: 566 Response HTTP Version Unsupported This Web page could not be opened with the specified browser HTTP version. Please contact the owner of this Web page for more information. Can you see my bottom lip trembling? Sorry. At least I tried.
from datura93 :
Hi there! I finally checked out your harem page in its entirety...cool stuff. You already know how I feel about Gareth, but Armond from interview with a vampire? Oooo oooo. There's just something about him in that role. The accent, the dark piercing gaze, even the chemistry that he has with brad pit since it's pretty unusual for hollywood male actors to even touch bisexuality. I love when he runs his fingers through the candle flame and does that sexy look. Ahem. Anyhow, I agree with ya. I need to dig that movie out...haven't watched it in awhile. :)
from thehour :
let's see if this one will stay.. good god, what did chris's mom try to give braedon? has to learn sometime? fucking with the cops just for grins? i think this woman needs to find a hobby or something. geez. some free meals just aren't worth it. and thanks for the compliments on my artwork... i wasn't sure about posting it, but then i thought... if someone doesn't like it, fuck em! it's my page after all! glad you updated.
from celtickatt :
Lol, that sounds good! (Ye know though, good ole D-Land is being stupid about updating lately. Hell, it's after midnight and my stats from TWO nights ago just showed up! So it's probably just being stupid cause I realized that one of the times it lists you it still says there is a comment, so the old one hasn't gone off yet.) But to hell with all the technical-talk! I'm just glad you double-love me! Whee!!!
from deadthyme :
thanks Mrs. Raen- I'm glad you still dig my diary after all this time. And I wish you much luck on your writing- I LOVE dark fantasy. Remember what Stephen King says- you should write 3 pages a day, no matter what. I don't think I could do that, but he's the multi-million selling author, not me. I always start off with an outline, and go from there. And I have to be able to picture the characters in my mind, so I base them on real actors.
from celtickatt :
Weeeeirrrrd... The list of people who have me as a fave lists you twice!
from datura93 :
Hello! Did you enjoy doing that soundtrack survey as much as I did? I had a hard time narrowing each emotion down into ONE song though so I plan on expanding that entry someday into songs/entire cd's even for each mood someday. Thanks for the plug too! :) As a side note I was real close to putting that NIN song for my sex song too, but at the last minute changed it. Nice do-it-to-me-hard-and-fast-now song I must say ;) Later!
from datura93 :
Ok, four in a row...I'm starting to feel stalkerish ;) Anyhow, thanks for the enthusiastic review of bee pollen. Made me want to run out and get me some! Did you stock up on your ephedra before it got banned?
from datura93 :
Hey there! Quick question: what does bee pollen do? Is it an energy thing? Herbal stuff interests me. What other ones do you take for "energy"?
from datura93 :
Hey there, and THANK YOU. You wouldn't believe how proud I felt for finally figuring it out...something just clicked today and I become a woman on a mission. P-brain had offered to make me a layout, but I had it in my head that I had to at least TRY to learn some coding myself first. All I did was individualize a template that someone else created, but still, it felt like brain surgery to me! Anywho, thanks for noticing... :)
from datura93 :
Eraena, what a beautiful name...sounds perfect. Just wanted to say that. :)
from celtickatt :
I just wrote in your guestbook but it didn't post it I don't think, so here's what I wrote, "Cucumbers- YUMMMMM! Roaches- YUCK! Have a GREAT New Years Eve/New Years!"
from augustdreams :
I'm new to the business-y side of writing. I submitted to a publishing house that only accepts manuscripts from new authors. I could end up getting the short end of the stick here, moneywise, since I have no agent but I figure everyone's gotta start somewhere. :) Absolutely submit your book! It would be doing the world a disservice to deprive it of your writing. The fuzzy ones and I are here anytime you need some moral support. Merry Christmas too, btw! :D
from datura93 :
Hi! I'm glad your internet hiatus was brief...I would have missed reading your thoughts. May the muses of inspiration smile down upon you and your book. I feel hyped FOR you! :)
from contour :
Happy Birthday! =) (I think it is really cool that our B-days are so close!)
from datura93 :
Hello there! I just wanted to ask you if you could recommend any good books or websites on hmtl? Your layout has inspired me to learn all about it even though it intimidates me. Thanks for adding me onto your buddy list too...I feel honored. :)
from datura93 :
Just wanted to say hello and thanks for leaving me my first message...I never had the option turned on before so this is new to me. Hey, it's the little things in life that excite me ;) BTW, I think your diary and layout is amazing. Bright blessings! )0(
from deadthyme :
Thank you Raen. Yeah, I really did hear a crash as I was falling asleep. A loud one. I guess I could have been dreaming, and I'm not sure exactly what time it was (tho it would have been close to the time she had the wreck). Kinda freaky.
from celtickatt :
The guestbook is being weird again. It won't pull up in this window. Is there any way you could change his regular doctor? I know it would probably be hard on him, but maybe since she's convinced it's autism, she isn't doing things right in general. Maybe she sees little hope for him and doesn't put forth all her effort in helping him? Either way, she's trying to incorrectly diagnose him, so there's definitely something wrong!
from celtickatt :
Piece if shit guestbooks! I signed yours twice and it crapped out on me both times. Andrew needs to figure out what the hell is wrong with his stuff cause the notify lists weren't working at all for a while. Anyway, what I wrote was, "Keep us posted! Good luck!" So yeah... let us know what happens with the wee one! ♥
from adonai04mint :
they're pretty cool, but it was actually my dad that picked it out. he wanted it to be tanelorn, but taine went better with my middle name (amber).
from adonai04mint :
its kind of from all of them, i guess, because my parents shortened Tanelorn to get my name.
from adonai04mint :
my name is from The Elric Sagas by Moorcock
from luciangrey :
It's been such a long while, I'm ashamed of the silence. I'm still here, giving blood, keeping faith. am Or not, L.
from maiarayne :
Thank you so much for the sweet note you left me. What an ordeal you went through! But at least you felt it was the right thing to do for you and your family. I'm not too thrilled about the weight gain but in the end, I know I can loose it again after the baby. Right? :) Take care!
from augustdreams :
{{Raen}} Sorry I haven't been by lately to spread the g*book love. That's so sweet that Braedon was talking away to your cat. He's making progress and he'll get there. After all, he's got a wonderful mama! You know, I refused to talk to my doctor until I was 3. I'd just growl at him. It used to drive my poor mom nuts because he thought she was lying about my being able to talk! Finally, I spoke to him. I said "You have to make me better or my dad will sue you!" Heh. Tons of love to ya! :)
from p-brain :
Oh...so I'm Jack now. =D If I ever create a "drag king" I'll name him Jack - the boy I never got to be. I'll let him have a pretty goatee and brown eyes. I can get contacts. // Thanks for the compliment about my layouts. I try to make them reflect my mood and how I feel. It changes from season to season. I just hope people don't get bored with me since I change the look so often. But I really have to. Better than getting new journals, right?!
from thehour :
ummm.. hmm.. just noticed that it did accept my g*book entry. so now you have g*book and notes. sorry.
from thehour :
damn guestbooks all to hell! and let me sign once before you tell me i can't sign again! fuckers. so thanks for the book entry. it was so sweet! i'm just so scattered lately. in fact, i went back and reread the last entry and it did make sense! yay! i think... hmm... i'm really sorry you feel crappy. being sick sucks. hopefully the worst is over. hope you feel better soon! sending healing thoughts your way... :)
from p-brain :
Cool name! Really cool. Why didn't I get an unusual name when I was born?! =( If I had turned out to be a boy my mum would've named me Jack.
from deadthyme :
For some reason it soesn't seem to be sending me a message to my e-mail when someone leaves me a note, now. Heh- I'm glad you like so many ov the things I say! I was going to tell you (you prolly already know) that there's a new David Bowie song (actually a duet with the singer ov Tool) on the 'Underworld' soundtrack. It's pretty mellow- I didn't care too much for it...
from deadthyme :
Holy shit! This new entry really shocked me. That guy was really cool- I liked him a lot. Really funny on Abaku. He didn't look very healthy- there's no telling what happened. He looked pretty young, but he might have had diabetis or a heart attack. My friend's Mom woke up one day, and her leg had went numb, so she went to the doctor. She died two days later- just out ov the blue. She was fine up until then. It's scary (I'm not the healthiest individual in the world myself). That really sucks. i liked him a lot...
from lagrimitas :
Dropping by to say hello and hope things are all going peachykeen on your end, lots of warm vibes, hugz =)
from augustdreams :
A very belated thank you for the sweet note you left me. I'm sorry I haven't been dropping by your notes or g*book lately. I've just been too wrapped up in all this stress and hurt. But that's no excuse - 'cause wonderful things like friendship are the whole point of life! Anyway, I shall now make up for my absense. I'm catching up on all my favorite diaries. Ugh. No A/C! That sucks hard. If you want, you can borrow Aph. Face her away from you and feed her treats. The breeze from her tail wagging will keep you nice and cool! :-D Um...just look out for a certain *other* kind of breeze that tends to come wafting out from her back end...'nuff said. Love and hugs, ~Nicole
from thehour :
okay, i don't know what the deal is... but g*books don't like me today... leaving a note instead. sorry if it shows up in g*book too!i'm sooo sorry about your ac.. it's so hot and humid here too and i've had ours break down before so i know how you feel... when you're sitting in a room that's 90 degrees you don't want to move. but... on the upside, that fan sounds fuckin awesome! especially that breeze feature... maybe i don't get out enough either, but i want one of those!!! and i agree about the flowery wallpaper too... the only flower wallpaper that i ever liked is in my mom's (used to be mine) bathroom. my dad put up black wallpaper with ivory flowers here and there with silver leaves. and then he put in black marble linolium... he's so sweet. :)
from lil-arsonist :
Awesome :D Have they seen Casino (also great!) or The Last Temptation of Christ? I reccommend any Scorsese movie :) My director-wannabe boyfriend (heh, he IS going to major in Motion Picture Production this fall!) love Scorsese and are bent on seeong every one of his movies/every movie he has ever mentioned in an interview as an inspiration. ^_^
from lil-arsonist :
Goodfellas (did you mean that when you said "Goodfellows"?) is an amazing movie! Martin Scorsese rules! :)
from elateddream :
I've decided to come back =)
from celtickatt :
If I go over there tomorrow and it's still up, I'll DEF-DEFINITELY vote again! I'm adding you to my messenger thingy now. It'll probably tell you I did. I think I'm forgetting something. Eh. Well, there's one thing cool that happened tonight.. Harley and I won tickets to see Steve-O (from Jackass) live next Monday! YAY!!!
from celtickatt :
If I go over there tomorrow and it's still up, I'll DEF-DEFINITELY vote again! I'm adding you to my messenger thingy now. It'll probably tell you I did. I think I'm forgetting something. Eh. Well, there's one thing cool that happened tonight.. Harley and I won tickets to see Steve-O (from Jackass) live next Monday! YAY!!!
from life-is-pain :
there isn't a point.
from celtickatt :
IvotedIvotedIvoted!!! And your game is at 15%, which is tied with "Metal Gear Solid 3". That's great! I'll try to vote again later. :p
from augustdreams :
I've got a dream journal! w00t! :) Thanks for telling me about that site. **hugs**
from p-brain :
Man! I never should've asked. First I got the "Wow. Great"'s. But now... Okey. I'll see what I can do. I knew Shannon would find "errors" because I couldn't find her style anywhere so I just "ah what the hell. This looks ok". It didn't. =) Cheshire was difficult too. I don't know her style in clothing at all. I had to go with a nice face and take it from there. But it's fun though.
from p-brain :
I have a favour to ask you. Read the first bit of my entry and follow the "instructions". I need feedback for a project regarding my friends in here. You're one of them.
from miss-morbid :
Hey! It's sickofitall0...got a new journal because of many unwanted visitors. I'm now miss-morbid.diaryland.com True Fucking Love,Kittee
from mookiesfooky :
Check it chicky, Thanxs bunches for the Gargoyle ring. I'm not the only one!!! Hee Hee Hee Muahahaha UUMMMM yah. Well it was sway cool of you. Later dude!
from p-brain :
Mmmm. So you're the kind of person that run the game 24 hours a day?! I don't have to worry bout being thrown out. I log on twice a day to spend all A.Points at that moment - mainly because I'm working all day and don't have the oppertunity to sit and wait all the time. =)
from celtickatt :
Man, I just left a big sig and didn't realize it hadn't been long enough for another one and lost it! The one you left the other day that was giving you a hard time actually showed up later. Ok, here's what the sig was basically... Do you know how I go about applying a hosted pic to a diary ring? And what happens if I ever want to switch hosts? Also... If I DON'T apply a pic, do you know how I can go about changing the color of the bar of the ring/and or the fonts on it? I know nothing about making them and don't want to make a blah one! I'd rather use a reliable host, but the one I have will do. I just don't want the goofy, default ring. Ok, thanks!
from p-brain :
Bank: Quale & 58th/Quince & 59th (in between so to speak). Pub: Pine & 51st/Quale & 52nd. I had massive luck this morning. Out of nowhere *5 people* turned up. All on the same square. YAAAY! there were more people, and vampires, in the area too. I boosted my economy quite a bit ... as well as my pints =D
from p-brain :
I'm on a mission to make a map but I need like... 10 A4 papers with squares. It's HUGE! I'll let you know if I find anything else. There's a pub at Quail & 85th/Quince & 85th, and one at Raven & 71st. I now know where there's another shop but I bet it has moved when I get there. Damn those shops. ;) Take care!
from p-brain :
Banks: Quail & 74th, Unicorn & 78th/Umbrella & 78th, Umbrella & 80th/Vulture & 80th. That's what I've got, but if they stay there or not I don't know. I'm on my way to Flint & 44th, but I doubt I'll get there until the shop leaves. =(
from celtickatt :
Thank you! And I was wondering about that. My MSN yelled at me and said I had an email from Signmyguestbook and when I went to read it, it wasn't there. Maybe it will show up later? It's been weird lately. Anyway though, thanks!
from celtickatt :
I would just put this in your g-book, but I have to wait an hour to sign it again, so now you are going to have a HELLA long note! **Taken from kabalarians.com::: "The name of Raevan gives you a clever, quick, analytical mind, but you suffer with a great deal of self-consciousness, lack of confidence, and much aloneness because of misunderstandings. Your idealistic and sensitive nature gives you a deep appreciation for the finer things of life and a strong desire to be of service to humanity. There are times when you experience inner turbulence at your inability to say what you mean. It is far easier for you to express your deeper thoughts and feelings through writing than verbally. You find pleasure in literature, in poetry, and in your ideals and will turn to them when you feel you have been misunderstood. You are deeply moved by the beauties of life, especially nature. Because your feelings run deep, you must guard against the ups and downs, being very inspired one minute, then moody, reserved, and depressed the next. Your reactions to people vary according to how you feel. You tend to be secretive and noncommittal about private matters, yet at times you will talk effusively in order to hide your self-consciousness or to lead others away from personal subjects. You are inspired by encouragement from others, yet suspicious of their intent. You crave affection but seldom find anyone who understands your nature. Physical weaknesses would show in your heart, lungs, or bronchial organs." ---Thought you might find it interesting... <3 -S
from celtickatt :
It's amazing how one can "proof read" and completely not realize they wrote "of" instead of "on." Whatta goober I am!
from augustdreams :
Hey, my beautiful Raen. I've often felt that way, too. I love being in my own company. (I hate that our society equates being alone with being lonely. There's such an enormous difference!) You can still be YOU, though. Really. You just have to find a way to carve out time for yourself. I don't think you've ruined your life, it's just that life is so hard. You never know what's coming next on the path you choose, and all you can do much of the time is react! It's so rare that life slows down and gives you enough time to breathe, and think...and ACT. I don't know if I'm making any sense. :) Just cherish your alone time and when you can't have the house to yourself...maybe a nice, long walk with your thoughts? Anyway, just wanted to send you my love. ~Nicole
from p-brain :
Hi. =) Do you know why the Tomb Raider ring images doesn't work? Could you perhaps give me the adress so I can check if I wrote it all wrong?
from moviegrrl :
hey babe, just a quick one - I know you're a big Peter Steele fan; I've just done three (obsess much?) Peter Steele templates - they're here: http://moviegrrl.diaryland.com/designs3.html *smooch*
from celtickatt :
Thank ya! I tend to be anal with certain things. Not everything do I care about, but I always re-read my entry after I post it to make sure things are correct. I'm sure sometimes I still miss things but jeez! Tonight was bad from the get-go! It's amazing how badly things can screw up with just ONE little html goof!
from celtickatt :
Hey, if that's you on my page right now (or if you were in the last 20 minutes) you should go back and read the 2 links I fixed. I swear I am so tired I screwed up EVERYTHING tonight in this entry! Jeez!
from p-brain :
Hmmm...found a picture with a skull(s) in a firestorm. I don't know if it's something you'd like... http://www2.macupdate.com/screenshot.php?id=6562
from gobemouche :
Hey, don't diss warrior women in the form of tattoos. Because that's only a stutter away from tattooed warrior women, who are always sexy. Or at least, always should be. But that was quite an asshole-esque approach to take to your tattooage. Skin me alive if I ever get a tattoo of some dainty little flower thing. I think tiny tattoos are irritating, anyway. They look strange from afar. Yes. That's my two sticks of incense.
from celtickatt :
Where are you in that board??? I'll try to find you!!!
from gobemouche :
Would you really? I'll give a second-to-second narration in my next entry -- I've only listened to the album once, so I can't remember all of the songs. I want Aladdin Sane so much... *bursts into tears of longing* Golden Years is just excellent. Heh. It's so... jovial. Stay's a good one, too. And hey, I have the best of Bowie 2-DVD set, too! I only watched part of the first one, so far, but yay! Excellent! Yay, China Girl... I haven't listened to Low yet, but I beg you to note the "yet." With that ominous note, I leave you.
from gobemouche :
Hell, yeah, it's good to be back. *stretches and grins* Yeeah. Still using LJ, though. I have connections in both places. Since I've been gone, I've become completely obsessed with David Bowie. Don't know if I've accentuated that enough. DAVID BOWIE. I'm sorry. I'll stop now... anyway. Must go read your diary, I have much to catch up on.
from p-brain :
Have you done something to your page? The ring images is centered which cram the entry to the right side. The entry has like 100 pixles to mingle in.
from gothangel :
Sampœrna cloves are awesome!!! fuck yeah!! hell no Im not a happy goth...
from lionyxen :
*HUGS* I wish there was something I could do or say to make you feel better...I suppose these cyber hugs will have to do for now *HUGS*...but I think that I'm probably getting the better deal out of it...I'm only a 36C....>=) Seriously though, lots of love from me to you. xoxoxoxo
from tikamarie17 :
Hey Raen...it's great to see that you're still reading my attempts at keeping my diary going. Read today's I'm sure you'll enjoy it :D
from contour :
Hey, sharing with Ozzy is sooooo much better than sharing with Britney. :(
from hot-crumpets :
I'm glad you were amused by the McDonalds bit :) I think your favourite quotes page is a brilliant idea - sometimes I read bits of entries that just crack me up and I wish i'd been collecting them on a page to remember! I think Toxic is a pretty vital word for anyone to learn - as long as he doesn't use it in conjunction with 'love' because otherwise he'll sound like he's got affection for some really strange things! :)
from lil-arsonist :
Youre welcome! :) Notepad solves all of my diaryland woes. ;)
from lil-arsonist :
I read about you having trouble with an entry--you should type your entries in notepad, then save on your compuer as an html file (or a txt file). Thats what I do; then I can always go back. I have one file on my desktop that I use over and over again for diary entries. No more Diaryland or Explorer going bad while youre typing an entry! ^_^
from lionyxen :
So...think you could make it up here in May?....things can be arranged...^_~ I wouldn't tell Chris though, heheheh
from raven72d :
Thanks! It worked this time...
from raven72d :
Alas-- the Swappingtons link didn't work! What was there, Raen?
from raven72d :
Thanks-- I'll go check them out!
from celtickatt :
Wow! I think P asked that for me! Maybe not, but that's hella cool anyway! Thanks for the note and hug *hugs Raen back, several times* Sorry I never emailed about my suggestion. I suck, I know. I will though. Actually... right now @fuckingwicked...
from p-brain :
Feel better? <BR>I have a wee question for you and you may say no if you like. Remember the time when we talked about hosting images and that you could host a few images, for rings, at ...wherever it is you keep your images. Well. Is it okey if you could host the Calvine and Hobbes, and the Tomb Raider Pics? They're not big. The will not take up space. If not, do you know a place where I can host pics for free? Take Care!
from contour :
Hitting ya here too! On public diaries: oh, I hold back in mine. I think that if you want to really just let it all out, a private diary is better. The public one can then be a collection of your editted entries. But one nice feature about the public entries, is when other people get to "see" how other people think, sometimes they open their mind a bit more. Things are less under the table, and easier for everybody to just admit whatever it is they feel pressured to hide. I hope that makes some sense.
from kimjoyce :
Raen, I hope that if you leave, you will let me know where your new diary is. I really enjoy reading you. I'm sorry about thoe punks that mess with you. I had to deal with shit like that in high school. How old are these people? They need to grow up, I'd say.
from deadthyme :
Bad news: TYPE O NEGATIVE Push Back CD Release Date, Line Up European Tour - Feb. 24, 2003 TYPE O NEGATIVE have pushed back the tentative release date of their new album, "The Dream Is Dead", to June. According to the band's official web site, the group expect to turn in the finished masters on March 7. As was the case with the band's previous efforts, "The Dream Is Dead" was recorded at Brooklyn, New York's Systems 2 studios and was produced by keyboardist Josh Silver. In other news, TYPE O NEGATIVE have firmed up the first European dates in support of the upcoming CD. But we already knew that was gonna happen, eh.
from nympholex :
I've moved again *hears groan come from Raen*, and suprise, suprise. I actually like you. So the new address stands thus: http://rionach.diaryland.com/
from gobemouche :
Fifty Bowie CDs. Fifty Bowie CDs. If your house gets robbed anytime soon, it, uh, wasn't me *shifty eyes*
from celtickatt :
Uh. Your book was bein' weird a minute ago so there are 2 sigs. Sowwy about that.
from bluelights :
Sorry for taking so long to get back to you. I have let my Gold Membership expire and I was unable to alter my snippet for the horror ring. I've emailed tech support and asked them to change the code for me as I bought my own hosting that won't waiver on me. If you quit the ring please join again. Thanks!
from thehour :
ok, last note, i promise. i just needed to say... oh my god... that video goes for $54 and up on amazon!!! but interestingly enough i found it for as little as $3 on ebay. now i'm coveting it. thanks. ;)
from thehour :
dammit.. now you have me searching david bowie on amazon to find out. :P
from thehour :
do you mean that the video is on the vhs movie? like after the movie or something? or do you mean that the video is on another vhs collection of videos. i had the vhs and it went missing.... i still have my suspicions. but i think they are still sold at walmart of all places. i'd love to see that though. i'm all nostalgic now.
from ravenheart :
Then mention one war that did anything else but destroy? It doesn't exist. You know most wars change something, usually it's the economy, but the people doesn't change. War makes people hate, it kills civilians and it leaves a country in ruins. What is the difference with what happened to the USA that september day to what the USA have done to many countries in a war? The difference is that the USA have better attack weapons and they are globally more modern. Iraq doesn't have a global news TV channel and a president that want to be supported by the whole world in all situasions. Afganistan is a poor country just like all those other countries the USA have attacked and made even weaker. Is an American more valuable that another? What is the name of the country that used the atomic bomb on a country? What is the name of the country that said no to globally support that political leaders should be convicted for their crimes against a country? War is all about money, it's just that the people dont get it, they are tricked by the media and the fancy words of a president that only thinks of oil, war and the justice for all thing, -which is really nothing but a joke in the USA. Look beyond CNN one day and you'll be shocked.
from celtickatt :
Hey. I got sleepy last night & I crashed, sorry. I tried that code you left me to bypass the counter thingy, but I couldn't get it to work. Not sure if I put it somewhere wrong or typed the wrong thing or what??? Thank you!
from celtickatt :
And now I can't even type right. How am I supposed to cuss myeslf out by misspelling words? Sheesh!
from celtickatt :
Sone of a BITCH! That's the 3rd time in the last week, well, ever, that I have left myself a friggin' note! Stupid me. Well, here's what I wrote... "Yay! I got it, check it out! HEHE! The only thing that kinda sucks is that I usually open my sitemeter in a different window (by right clicking.) Oh well. Thanks!"
from celtickatt :
HAHA! That's too cute! Do I just put that anywhere in the template? Thanks!
from celtickatt :
Ooh, I love Sampœrna cloves too! I gotta question... how do you make it where no one can right click on your page?
from sillymarquis :
Falling behind happens to the best of us. No prob with adding ya. Whenever I see something that I like, it's add on time! I'll go check out your latest entry and when I get the chance, I'll check out the other diary. Take care!
from deadthyme :
I understand how you feel (and part ov me just wishes if we were gonna do this, we should have just finished it the last time). I'm definitely not some blind hippy, I just don't like being had, and I am very afraid ov what will come next. I don't want to end up in a concentration camp, or having more freedoms taken away. I respect your opinion, tho. Just- don't believe everything on the news. And remember- you said you felt very bad that 7 people had lost their lives in the Space Shuttle crash. If we start bombing Iraq, so many more people are going to lose their lives- children, people who don't even care about Saddam Hussein. You know if we wanted to take him out we could, easily. Assassinate him. We have satalites that can read a newspaper in your hands, and military sharp shooters and people trained that could take him out so easy. But war is big money. I'm just scared ov what will be next? They aren't gonna stop. I greatly fear marshal law in this country, and they have it all set up. All they need is a reason...
from deadthyme :
Well, I guess the deal is, you believe what you see on the news, and I don't. I can see where you'd think attacking Iraq is a good idea, but to me it's just a scheme- a big political game. There are so many countries that could be considered threats- what about Korea? They seem like a bigger threat than Iraq, hell, we've even been in a war with them before (a real war- and they kicked our ass!). But Bush is so single minded about Iraq. Why? And if they are so dangerous, and we're going to attack them, why won't he say why? He's being shifty, and too much points to this being for personal gain. You forget- he was my governor for years before he was the president. He pulled a bunch ov political crap for personal gain then, too. If we have a reason to attack Iraq, let's see some proof, not 'Well, we believe we have found some evidence of something and we're gonna move"- you forget, he's been itching to attack them for a loooong time, since way before this weapons inspection stuff. It's because ov his family's ties with the oil companies that need control ov that countries oil. At least, that's what I believe (and I've seen a LOT ov evidence!). But everyone is entitled to their own beliefs and opinions- it's a free country (at least for now!). I still luv ya!
from celtickatt :
Right on Raen. I totally agree with you about the whole war bullshit. If we don't do something, we will always have to keep that 3rd eye out for the pesky bastards. Oh, thanks for signing the book. I know what an incubus is, but what do you suppose they mean in dreams? I know, everyone's meanings are a little different, but sometimes they have similar bases. And the whole running thing... That's odd about your wavy ground. Mine doesn't do that exactly. I just feel like I am in slow motion, having to put a LOT of force into trying (NEVER getting anywhere fast.) I can't punch either. But (this is hella cool,) sometimes I can fly. Anyway, yap yap. What symbolics does an incubus have?
from nympholex :
heh. i'm an arachnaphobiac. i hate spiders. i am afaid of them and eels. so i think we have something in common! namaste!
from celtickatt :
I understand (enough anyway) what you are going through. I'm sorry. Keep your head up though. Things will get better. And not that it makes a shit of difference, but try not to feel SOOO unimportant. I still love ya. - Shannon
from nympholex :
oh believe me. i did have a heart attack. and i am currently plotting my revenge... something nasty will happen to her...
from prostituee :
When you get pain in that area, it's always disturbing and you wonder if it could be something much worse. I actually have this kind of vulva pain and that's described somewhere. Geh. I knew my pain in that area you described was from the 4th degree tear I had with my last baby . Yours sounded a lot different than that. I just had to get to the bottom of it. No pun intended.
from ghanima :
any friend of ladyvivien's (and Jareth's) is a friend of mine. Picture Hoggle pointing at me and whispering: "You gets in...there..."
from casual-ty :
BTW what frame are you talking about...and If you are enlightned is that good or bad?
from casual-ty :
You thought I was a female... sorry about that. Must of really shocked you when I quoted youre diary...that is until..how did you find out I was male....lol Not that I was trying to hide it.
from casual-ty :
Yea , I have IE ...maybe mine is just junk. I will have to try re-installing it
from lagrimitas :
Opps! think I broke your tagboard as well, i'm just a walking mess lol Glad to hear your feeling better, but you should try to work on sleeping in, lol
from deadthyme :
Ahhh yes, it was messed up last night, and I couldn't figure out what was wrong. It's fixed now, tho. Sorry! I hope you're feeling better- you need to come on msn so we can chat some more! Well, off to work...
from theurchinone :
Hope you get better soon! Sucks to be ill. :( Take care of yaself. Rhiannon.
from celtickatt :
Hey, thanx for chattin! I realized there were several times you said something and I didn't even catch it. The screen wouldn't blink everytime you said something, so I completely missed it. I bet I looked like a friggin' TARD! That said, to answer your question, yes and no. Sometimes I hear the music, but not always. It's cool though. Are you having problems with it? I noticed you asked someone else that previously. Oh, thanks for checking out my albums, if you feel up to it, you should leave a pic of yourself. That would rock. Ok, shutting the hell up now! -Shannon
from celtickatt :
I think so. If not, call me a sucka! Why did you guys think that?
from celtickatt :
Hey! I left you a note in your guestbook but never heard from you - kinda odd... I made a place for my links and pictures so you should check 'em out when you get the chance. There's not a lot up right now, but there'll be more, and you can leave a link for me to check out and pic some pics in the "Visitorz" album if ya wanna. Stay sweet! - Shannon
from darkndeviant :
Loved the "Security" There's a Goth in the building!" story...lol... I have similar problems...:) I always seem to need to stop at a fuel station on the way to BDSM parties. I can see the cashiers with their hands hovering on the panic buttons every time....
from deadthyme :
I liked your stories. I had mall security detain me for 45 minutes for no reason (other than how I looked). They searched me, and I had a blank piece ov paper in my pocket, and he got all excited and said "What's this!!". He was so disappointed whenit turned out to just be a piece ov paper! Whoa- "He said he wanted to bend me over his desk...". heh heh. Raen has a naughty side!
from raen :
You're right. I hadn't really noticed. I just deleted about 25 of them. I'll get rid of more as I feel I can part with them. :)
from ciaramyst :
Wow, you get alot of notes!
from lagrimitas :
Yeah that was the banner, I also took the goth quiz, your not alone anymore (although I don't consider myself goth or anything else for that matter). It was an interesting slam-book indeed...The other I shall comment on some other time I suppose, I think I need a shower, I feel dead.
from ldygrinnsoul :
Woman?...I always have a pass around pack of the X's..just in case, one in a vial...just break the glass in case of emergency...My favorite writer/ artist, Joseph Linsner, has a character named Obsidian Stone...if I can locate the story, will send it to you...thx for your note!
from gobemouche :
Really? That's awesome! I must get me a patch or two or three dozen. I've never known more lucid dreams than those that sleeping pills give. Except those natural ones, which don't even work on me. Eh.... Melatonin, I think they're called. They don't count *shun*
from secretescape :
Thank you! I like it too. ;) I got bored with the other. Too bright. I bet you like the black style better, ey?! Take care!
from gobemouche :
Yes, and it might prove as motivation for me to actually recall my dreams. There's one I'd like to write, down as it was a bit confusing, if dreams really do have meaning, which I'm not sure of. Eh. Who knows.
from siilucidly :
thanx. but it's not mine. i've given up on my own at the moment.
from deadthyme :
You can't quit smoking and diet at the same time! That's insane. You have to do one first, then the other. You'll kill Chris before the weekend!! Heh heh. But good luck.
from someplace :
Just wanted to say that I love your diary. Kinda makes me feel as if I'm not the only one that feels the way I do. ^_^ Well, take care.
from lionyxen :
Aurora Illinois??? That's about 30 mins or so from my homestead, should've told me! =P Ah well, I'll get you next time >=) I'll see you when we both get back from our xmas breaks, hope the holiday season treated you well ^_^
from darkndeviant :
Hi Raen, Thanks for the quote reference. Yay! I have more than 1 reader now...:) Come and do London with me some time. I will show you how to cover yourself in fag ash and throw nipple rings at the tourists! Love & Licks, darkndeviant
from moviegrrl :
heh heh heh when we went to the pub on Saturday i was drinking a ruby beer called "Blake's Heaven". That just works on too mnay geek levels!!!! have a good christmas *smooch*
from gobemouche :
Well it IS an awesome song. Although I must say I like "Little Bombardier" a lot... That's one of my faves. Of course, there's "Magic Dance" too. In case you didn't know, I've seen Labyrinth now, I feel so enlightened.
from no-answers :
We must be COMPLETE opposites to look at then - last week I dyed my hair so white that I swear if I walked under strobe lights my hair would light up the room! And it's very short as well. complete opposites! By the way, i would certainly be interested in a notify list just for Dream Capture. If you set one up I'd be one of the first to join :)
from lionyxen :
I don't know how the fuck I knew that would be my word either... O =D
from anonymous666 :
why thank you...*licks you*
from lionyxen :
The tape I found I got from my friend Paula, the Queen of all 70's and 80's music tapes. No really. Hehehe it was something to see David crawling around onstage with the whole androgyny look going on, red hair and all 0_0 I'll see if she can somehow figure out a way to post it up on the net since I'm a moron at that sort of thing ^_~ Thanks for the thumbs-up in the prev. entry sweetie =D I finally posted my annual holiday bitch-off, hehehe I think you'll get a good laugh from it
from deadthyme :
Yeah, I liked the Next Generation t.v. show (especially the middle seasons). I played those Tribes Of Neurot and Neurosis cds simultaniously on the radio show (I put the level ov the Tribes Of Neurot cd a little lower, but you could hear everything on both ov them good) a couple years ago (the entire cds). It was pretty cool. A lot ov people liked it. The spice must flow...
from lionyxen :
You kick ass too baby! If you're ever in the neighborhood we'll definitely get together ^_^ I'll take you to 'Bondage Night' at Exit, hehehe everyone loves crazy people with whips and chains! Tell Jareth to babysit until later....and then after he's done doing that, well, you know ^_~
from deadthyme :
I saw Star Trek: Nemesis tonight. I thought it was horrible, but Pol thought it was awesome, so there you have the range ov opinions. heh heh.
from moviegrrl :
in Xtine's defence, she knows her banners are ut of control and believe it or not, she IS worth reading. i think if you read a couple of entries you might be pleasantly surprised..... later babe sas
from wee-man :
i was wondering if you could help me out. for your links, you can hover over them and more links come up. can you give me a code so i can do this for my website? thank you!
from pyxopotamus :
i realized as after i wrote that it sounded rather accusing. sorry about that.
from gobemouche :
Wow, I've made an impact on someone *blink* Evolution "happened". It wasn't because of time that happened – it was brainpower... I mean, to say that that was proof of time, is like saying time caused it, as opposed to build-up of skills. The same amount of time would have gone by, had our evolutionary predecessors taken longer to invent fire, the wheel, or whatever. Decay? Lack of nourishment or activity. Time doesn't eat away at a corpse (poetic as that sounds). Bugs might, though.... ew.
from ghostie :
You vampire girls really scare me! Seriously! I kissed a dog in a dream but never a girl with pointed teeth!
from pyxopotamus :
maybe it's just because i've been unmedicated lately, but the thing about the frog dying was just overly sad. please be careful.
from gobemouche :
Yes, going around in circles... Like hands on a clock, tee hee hee. Sure you can, but I must first prepare myself to be out-bated (like, de-bated, but out instead of de... er, yeah) because I think humanity's natural need for glorification will drive them to disagree with me. *sigh* Um, yes, I'm not saying you're doing that, I just think that certain people may do that. We'll probably be able to tell the difference. And who really is more reliable. Myself, or Stephen Hawking... uh.
from contour :
Silly Girl! You are supposed to keep the points in the same desk drawer where you put all your: Jedi Master points, Robot points, Flag points, and any other proofs of purchases. Why? Because every few years the COMPANY has a special mail away exclusive. ;)
from contour :
*bells drums horns* 2x 2pts! =) CURRENT TOTAL= 4 pts.
from gobemouche :
I just left this for myself for about a day, ew, how weird of me... Ugh, no. (in reference to the time thing – I'm glad you're keeping the teal and the peach ^_^) The reason my theory doesn't work for you/your theory doesn't work for me is because you think time is far more elaborate than I see it to be. To me, time is just a way to remember/consider things that could/will/have happened. Things happening "a long or short time ago", well, that works. But those things don't exist anymore. Of course they happened, but... Well, time is manmade (in my theory), and it wouldn't take god-like powers to do. You just go, "okay, this is a day, this is a night." Hours, minutes, and seconds probably evolved from there. The prospect of time was clearly developed very very early in human evolution, so man (as far as homo sapien sapiens go, assuming time was invented by homo-sapiens) probably doesn't remember inventing it. Time-travel/time has always existed theories treat time as what could be an object. Something you can turn around, turn over, turn forwards or backwards, while in my theory, it's more like something dying. It's dead. It existed, but it doesn't exist anymore. It's gone. (Well, things that die disintegrate, but the life is gone from them, and that's my point, not the former about disintegration.) That's my wonderful pictionary example of my theory. Er.
from tikamarie17 :
Yeah, Raen you are so awesome...just thought I'd let'ya know!
from moviegrrl :
*swoon* just hunting for more "ruby trax", and have found a version of "bad moon rising" by type o negative.... i repeat, *swoon*
from deadthyme :
Happy birthday!! God- has it already been 6 days!! (6 days ago, you said it was your birthday in 6 days, and I thought "I'll have to remember that", and it seems like it was just yesterday!). Yeah, after you turn 18, birthdays go downhill fast (and really, probably after you turn 11 or 12, they aren't very exciting anymore). I hope you get some cool gifts- something you want. Something good (I would hate to have my birthday this close to Christmas). That Bloodrayne looks really cool. I need to rent it. I also wanna play that Godzilla game. I'm rambling- so, i'll just say again: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!
from no-answers :
Thank you so much for saying such nice things about me & my diary - as you probably noticed I've not been too well today so it really cheered me up and means a lot :) You really deserved that review - you've been one of my favourite favourite diaries (if that makes sense!) for a long time now. I hope you've had a fantastic birthday, too!
from siilucidly :
you realise that now, i am your devoted fan/servant? thanx sooo much for the link!
from gobemouche :
Get rid of the peach and the teal and I hurt you. But people say I have odd tastes in colour schemes. Still. White would be boring. And it blurs with the text too much. I am el colour fascist, taa daa. Is it worth pointing out that I'm not a "he"? Just a dyke. So where was time before man came along? Animals can manage time. They know when to be with one another. Birds know when to fly south. They know how long they have to stay with their young before they can let them go off and fend for themselves. And yet they don't have watches that they check. Although that would be comical. Night and day, as I return to. There's not really a wall between them, as is my, at least, mental image. Things are the same, but the sun is facing away from the earth. I don't know. I've pointed this out before. BELIEVE ME!!! HAHAHA... Er... No. Well, schedules wouldn't exist if not for time, maybe time results from schedules. People said, "we have to do this before it gets dark" "fine." "when?" "...." "...." "when the sun gets over there *points*" ... this is assuming the word "when" existed before it needed to be used. Maybe "when pigs fly" is a really old saying or something.
from raen :
Already responded to it! I left you a note before reading this one. See, I do keep up! :P lol
from gobemouche :
Well, check out my latest entry for a time rant. Just for you *winning smile* And because I need to get it out. I want to show it to my science teacher. It's probably been thought of before, but still.
from moviegrrl :
don't be too down about your second review - at least you don't use "mystery meat" navigation. *grin* Sas
from deadthyme :
heh heh heh- thanks! That fav quotes page is a cool idea. You always come up with all these great ideas.
from lionyxen :
*Prolifically* Dammit, too early in the morning...gah
from lionyxen :
(profanities) Well there I was, trying to tag you on your message board...and my computer stuck out a cyber hand ~completely disregarding the 'laws' of physics~ and slapped me whilst screaming "REJECTED!" Well I did want to tell you that I though the review was excellent and that both of those quotes are true...(post-drinking hallucinations coupled with a phantasmic voice recollection of Denis Leary; you know) thanks for throwing those in ^_^ I'll be putting up one of your entries as a fav soon....the one that made me drool prolically, heh heh heh
from gobemouche :
*glares at Stephen Hawking* Time travel is <i>not</i> possible because time is man-made... Ahem, anyway... yeah, is the diaryrings link s'posed to work at all? It doesn't do anything at all on mine... Doesn't go anywhere. And don't you know that deleting entries is a cruel and callous practice, you foul wench...
from siilucidly :
nah. ^_~ i reckon if someone copies you, it's a compliment to your style.
from siilucidly :
thanx soooooo much for the comments! i must admit, if i had gold membership and stuff, my temp would probably be just like yours. but i'm lazy and can't be bothered to do anything that includes exchanging money x_X god forbid, unless it has something to do with buying osts from squaresoft games and anime. mehehehe. more to the point, i love your template and diary!
from secretescape :
Greetings! Yes we are on the same page. ;) I hope you enjoy it. :)
from p-brain :
Ok...I might've done something to send this before I had the time to alter the note. I hate this place. First the guestbook Fucks Up! Then this note thing. I made entry 200. Yay! *** If you want access to my other place, go to yors and look at the first note. It's written under a psydonyme. If you know me and my dreams, then you should be able to figure out it's me writing. It's my daydreams basically...
from gobemouche :
Oh, jeez, it probably is, I think. I just listened to some of the lyrics from the soundtrack, it mentions mars a lot, and I see other similarities too. w00t...
from deadthyme :
Ha! A stalker? That would be fun. I wouldn't think you were one just for adding me to your msn list- that would be cool. You should do that.
from bettyalready :
Regarding Leigh...is she a bible thumper? I don't mind bible thumpers as my sister in law is one, that woman knows her shit. I can't imagine sisters hating each other. Of course, I don't have a sister.
from gobemouche :
Well, my bad then. *blank look* I really need to crawl out from under this rock. ANYhoo, yes, well, either way, it's a great movie. And it's got Brian Molko at some point in it, who is one of the only remaining reasons I still like guys. He's holding the fraying rope I'm hanging by. I say there should be a... a Green Day movie! Uh... *walks off in shame to hide in Neverwhere* I'll never say that again, I'll never say that again. But hmph, as long as the movie isn't full of love-sick straight people, hey, I'll watch it. (Yes, in case you've read the description of Goldmine thouroughly, love-sick same-sex people are fine ^_^)
from gobemouche :
Well, sorry to disappoint, but it's not about David Bowie. Does he have a song called V. Goldmine? I really must listen to his stuff more. No, the movie's about... well... I hate summarizing, go here: http://www.apolloguide.com/mov_revtemp.asp?CId=1172 (heh, I'm lazy) I must be off now... answer notes, write an entry, and then work on my story like I've been planning to for the last decade...
from bettyalready :
Whoa! Satan worshipper?(sp?). What the heck was that all about?
from gobemouche :
Hahaha, what an interesting experiment, you selfish fox. Hahaha.... ErHEM, anyway. Do I count as one of the 20? (She demanded, as pretentiousness flowed out of her ears like a waterfall of urine.) Have you seen Velvet Goldmine? (I just have to ask this.)
from deadthyme :
I'm o.k.- I'm not near selfish, stupid, or weak enough to actually kill myself. It's just... this has been a bad year. The only kind ov problems I haven't had are romantic ones (thank god- couldn't handle that with all this other stuff). I usually LOVE the holidays, but this is the first year without my Grandfather (who was more like my father), and my ex-wife said she's going out ov town, so I won't get to see my son on christmas, and my car is fucking up, and my roommate is moving out soon, so I got to find a new one (daunting task), lots more stuff- it's just life, but it gets overwhelming at times. I'll be okay. Thanks for caring!
from sistercookie :
Hey you aren't the only one who is annoyed with Andrew. Believe me there are people close to him geographically who are bitching at him too. Those of us who have the computer background are especially annoyed and are making every effort to help but you only do so much with a guy. LOL
from shawn- :
Sorry, haven't read much of your diary, was just clicking your ad before going to sleep. Just to leave a comment on your 1994 thing. I do have a problem with remember dates and times, but I believe that was the year I was left behind from the only girl I've ever loved thus far and also the first year I started really hanging out with my good friend Jody. It would amount the the worst and some of the best times of my life during the cold dark winter and the go-cart riding beer filled summer. It was also toward the lasting end of my teen-age years.
from no-answers :
Oh my god! I *love* reboot!! I had quite a thing for Dot when I was 16, you know. I am joining!!
from mwovu :
too bad about the leonids. i'd be pissed at chris if i were you. i mean, practically once in a lifetime thing and you missed it. :( sorry. anyways, i like your diary, layout is awesome! keep up the great work.
from kimjoyce :
Hi Raen! I wanted to respond to your note. I have been learning of the original Ring movie from Japan. They have a Ring, Ring 2, and Ring 0 (a prequel), but unfortunately they aren't available here that I know of. :( I really want to see them. Oh and I agree with what you said about Levay as well. See ya later!
from gobemouche :
Why, I simply adore hypocrites and liars, not to mention racists and homophobes– who doesn't? I've always found that things written in the present tense don't so much give the impression as the narrator being hypnotized (although I probably will from now on) as I do find it generally hard to read. It's like running down a road but constantly having to stop and go around a road block... or like listening to a CD that constantly has little hiccupping skips. My discman does that. *radiates waves of bitterness* xoxo and french vanilla - Mouche
from no-answers :
I feel so shallow! On my bio I have a list of things I like comprising of Gillian Anderson, toast, Geri Halliwell, cheese, crisps, red wine..... :)
from gobemouche :
And hey, I've heard my friends talking about Labyrinth endlessly, would you believe I've never seen it– that fact is usually met with dropped jaws and bulging eyes. But well. The most recent I've heard in reference to Labyrinth is: "They're puppets." "They're muppets!" "They're puppets!' "Muppets!" "Puppets!!" *violence ensues* xoxo and french vanilla – Mouche
from gobemouche :
Aw, man, there's a movie coming out? I had no idea! I've just read Good Omens, it's really awesome, Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett make an awesome team. I've been reading Neil Gaiman stuff nonstop, I'm reading American Gods now, and before Omens I read Neverwhere... That man is like a disease that I can't and don't want to get rid of.
from moviegrrl :
Siobhan is pronounced Sh'vaun - and she calls herself Faun And if you think that celtic name is a nightmare, my best friend's daughter is called Sorcha, pronounced, Seruhca! Nice to knowyou keep stopping by! Sas
from moviegrrl :
I'm totally obsessed with Alice in Wonderland anyway, and yes, mcGee's ALICE is just awesome. I've not played it in ages though *sigh* - just too damn busy.
from deadthyme :
Hmmm... Lesee, for gothy metal bands- well, the ones I mentioned (Trail Of Tears, Tristania, Darkwell, Sins Of Thy Beloved) are all really good, as are Moonspell and Dismal Euphony. I really like Diabolical Masquerade a lot, but they're more industrial/ black metal than gothy. In Flames are pretty good, too- some ov these bands are a lot more metal than goth, it just depends. Some awesome songs to download: Dreadful Shadows- 'Futility', In Flames- 'Clayman', Cradle Of Filth- 'Her Ghost in the Fog', Dimmu Borgir- 'Puritania', Cathedral- 'Hopkins', Dark Tranquility- 'Freecard', Tiamat- 'Brighter than the Sun', Nevermore- 'Narcosynthesis', Samael- 'Ceremony of Opposites'- a lot ov stuff from all these bands is good. I'll think ov more...
from lionyxen :
Happy Samhain ^_^
from deadthyme :
Happy Halloween!!
from jinx541 :
What's the deal with people? I am so confused. Please help. Jinx541
from deadthyme :
I always liked Boob the Builder toys, but don't you think Braedon's a little young?:)
from contour :
Those toliet rings we've always called "streaks" (we meaning my friends). And they are annoying. So annoying that there actually is a "boy" ettiquette ... er spelled that wrong but you get the point ... about what to do when somebody makes those (by accident, always). Use the double flush. *snicker* Ick, they really are very annoying. *snicker* I'm just glad I'm not the only one around here who will sometimes talk toliet talk. ;) -contour-
from icemagick :
Hey, what's up? I just wanted to tell you that your diary looks really cool and you seem to be a very interesting person. I also couldn't help but notice that you have the same musical taste as myself. Very nice! I also saw The Ring today. I really didn't think it was all that scary. But then again, it's not nighttime yet. I'm sure the freaky images on the tape will flood my mind as I lay in my bed in the dark, unable to sleep...Is it just me, or did that tape strongly resemble a Nine Inch Nails video? I dunno, whatever. Toodles!
from deadthyme :
P.S. I'll tell you if I get a nosebleed...
from deadthyme :
So you liked 'The Ring'- yeah, it was hard writing about it and not giving anything away (I actually went back and added a little more last night- everyone who's going to red it probably already did, but I just added it for myself, I guess). For awhile, it seemed really predictable (the part when her ex boyfriend asked her 'How long could someone last down a well' I said 'Seven days', Matt was sitting beside me, and asked what I said, and I just pointed at the screen and she said 'Seven days') but then the end saved it. I still liked 'FearDot Com' (which was VERY similar) a little better.
from raen :
I thought it may be best to reply to you here in case your stalker may check your notes. :) See? I really do know how it is! - It must be especially frustrating for you with so many entries! I mean, Wow! Over 800! That's really impressive! I just froze when I saw that. :-O But yeah, it's really unfair and there's no real way to strike back. Some people just stoop to the lowest levels and they really seem to get off on it! Where exactly is "Skew 2", I'd like to read what that asshole did. I honestly looked, but couldn't find it. Read some other cool entries in the process though! :D I'll have to stop by again. Later! P.S. Oh, I like your font and how it goes all fuzzy when the cursor is over it. :)
from tehuti :
Re: "Irritants": Holy cow. I know that feeling EXACTLY. Unfortunately I'm still too much of a coward to just say what I will despite this person; even more annoying, since I know he visits someone else I know on this very site. *sigh*
from czarria :
:) I dig some of your music and movie picks, particularly Disturbed and the Labyrinth. who doesn't love the labyrinth?! Anyhow, i'm glad you added me. I added you yesterday :) it will be good to read your entries, maybe get to know you. you're fascinating. :)
from p-brain :
*screaming with laughter* You're twisted, you know that. =) Hey, I like the new South Park Raen. Cute!
from deadthyme :
Almost time for the new Type O cd (are you excited?). I started playing Soul Reaver, and I haven't gotten very far (I take a long time to play horror games, because I always look at everything and soak up the atmosphere), but I'm to the place where he's surrounded by broken columns, and he's supposed to cast a spell to go to the 'real' world. Well, I noticed you could jump up on one ov the columns, and then to the next, etc. Then I noticed a shiny thing up on the cavern wall- I haven't gotten to it yet (I keep falling- the controls are hard to master). What is the shiny thing? Is it worth all the trouble? Thanks...
from deadthyme :
Yeah, they put Type O's music over the 1922 version ov 'Nosferatu'. It sounds like it would be good, but it's not (unfortunatly)
from kittykat25 :
hi, i like ur banner!! r u in2 witchcraft?? i like ur diary i am a tree. its kool!! ne way leave me a message or e-mail me at kitten50000@hotmail.com. see ya soon!!! buh bye
from deadthyme :
Glad you liked the show. Too bad you had to hear the first time when we were in marathon (we have to beg for money for a couple ov weeks 3 times a year- we usually just play a lot ov music!).
from deadthyme :
Thank you for your concern (it was quite scary). I saw one ov your banners, and it looked good! I bought 'Soul Reaver' for 9.99 yesterday (haven't started playing it yet).
from no-answers :
I usually write down every tiny snippet of a dream, even if it ends up being something like "I dreamed about green nail polish. that's all I can remember"! Sometimes even a day or more later I might remember more of them with the prompting of the fragment - and even if not it's still nice to have a record of every snatch of dream. It's comforting, somehow :)
from celtickatt :
To the best of my knowledge, it was just Tool. No one/nothing APC. Tamahawk opened, in which Mike Patton from Faith No More is in. I missed 'em though. We got there as they were finishing. Kinda sucks, I was curious about them. I have Tool's setlist from our show if you're interested, though obviously it may not be entirely the same. Lemme know how it all goes after you go. Curious as to what Maynard will look like that time. Here, he was painted again and wearing very little... no shirt and a very skimpy underwear bottom thingy. Too cute. He had a cute lil' ass. ;p P.S. Take plently of money (if you plan of buying anything.) The shirts and stuff are expensive. My t-shirt was $30! (And maybe get a size extra, mine shrank even though it said pre-shrunk.)
from celtickatt :
Definitely DO NOT miss Tool! I saw them for the first time back in July (here in Tulsa.) They were SOOOOO fucking awesome!!!!
from no-answers :
Hey :) Thanks for filling out my dream survey last night - I think your answers were the most interesting I've had so far! I've been looking at the site you left the URL for as well and it's fascinating :)
from transparancy :
wow, i love your design. its so good with the two part thing so that i can refer back to the entry and stuff. its so good.
from deadthyme :
O.k. I took the quiz, and I'm a character named Raziel. I've never played the games, so I don't know who that is. Is that bad?
from hotsummer :
awww ur son Braedon is so cute! and thanks for adding me on ur fave list. it's really nice to know someone likes my diary beside my hottie. lol talk to you later..take care
from formergoth :
You've read my diary. You must know by now why I'm so sporadic in my entries. You must, by all means necessary, tear Chris away. I make SCADS of money (albeit Canadian, so... um... shut up!) and even I'm in debt because of it. eBay must perish in flames.
from deadthyme :
You are very welcome- I've been meaning to put you and a couple more as buddies, and finally I did. I've listened to 'Heathen' 3 times, and just can't get into it. So lackluster... But I guess we'll always have the old stuff, eh... I'm glad my trials and tribulations can amuse you- I hope they stay enjoyable to you. I'm glad you still read it. ttfn
from dazy81 :
Thanks for joining the over100 diaryring. Congrats on becoming a d-land veteran :)
from devilish1975 :
Hey you...sorry I haven't been in touch. Just been taking care of some stuff. I'm very sorry to hear about your ex...that is hard. If you get a chance can you re-email me your addy so I can send off this package to you. For the life of me I can't find it.
from deadthyme :
I forgot to mention thank you for filling out my survey (on your guest list), and thanks for recommending my diary. You're awesome, dear...(and I just noticed that Resident Evil 2 zombie in the background on your diary. Excellente!!)
from formergoth :
Now it's your turn for details, tired girl... though the photo of your beebee is so beyond adorable! It almost makes me want a gold membership so we can both post pics of our cute beebees. Though mine are decidedly hairier, and yours is more decidedly human ;)...
from deadthyme :
Thank you for the compliments- I especially like that my diary brightened your day a bit (a little humor is great medicine, and a little pessimism is even better). Hope it doesn't get boring... I'm going to read yours, now.
from p-brain :
*kiss kiss kiss* Can you feel it? I'm kissing your feet. I'm not worthy. THANK YOU!!!! *crawling about on the ground worshiping the Guru in front of me* South Park PeaBrain is so cute. =D
from p-brain :
Greetings, oh tremendous computer guru. =) I found a mac programme instead of the one you sent me. It works! But my problem is: my picture is broken. Did you do anything else other than take the pic, re-sized it to fit d-land and uploaded it? All I get is a grey window with a broken image.
from p-brain :
May I ask how you managed to get the South Park Picture onto your diary? Did you download it to your computer first; and if so, How?! I've tried but I guess I'm a wee bit stupid when it comes to computers. =)
from devilish1975 :
I didn't think it was bad before, but I do really like the new and improved layout. You are right, it does look less cluttered. And what is wrong with having a tag board on the main page. It does seem stupid to have someone go to another page to write a little note. If they wanted to do that, they could just come here. :)
from asrael :
Hey! It's kool that you added me to your list of diaries that you read, infact-thank you :) Stay kool -Az
from raen :
Yeah, do! I'd love to see it!
from devilish1975 :
I love the bobble head...I think I'll take a pic of my resin crow statue today and put it up. Braedon wouldn't let you do an entry and d'land wouldn't let me...lol. But I successfully got one up today. :)
from no-answers :
I love your new layout! :)
from en-trance :
your banner caught my eye... zee site, she iz nice... you are that raen, eh? i never knew there were others... come to think of it i never knew there were any... i supose it all comes down to, if you knew, then you would know...
from devilish1975 :
hahahahaha..actually if you send me your addy I can send you a ton..Tom and I both get a free pound a week, and after working for the evil empire 60+ hours a week, I don't drink coffee at home anymore. It's a shame too, I got some great coffee gizmos. Just let me know..I'm also making something for you. A dream pillow. I know how much you like your dreams, and it should give you many nice ones :) Maybe I should make a little one for Braedon so he'll sleep (and dream) more.
from devilish1975 :
Hey you..haven't talked to you in a few days, just wanted to say hello...if you ever need any coffee I can send you a ton...lol. I just wanted to say hi and make sure you are ok.
from freshjoy :
i am leaving messages in peoples notes. If I love them.
from petrichor :
I have had several friends who I've lost because they get depressed because of my depression. Just lost another friend recently who promised she wouldn't do that to me (ditch me) several times. And she admitted that she was just so drained about my bouts of depression that she just didn't want to invest so much energy and emotion into it anymore. But I can't pretend I am happy and dance around mindless just so that its easy for them. Severe pain ignored doesn't cure itself. Anyhow, I wish you the best even if wishing means absolutely nothing at all.. take care -- petrichor
from devilish1975 :
Hi Raen.. Okay, I guess I have to fess up about work. I've been trying to keep it vague, but since you are so super cool I'll tell. I currently manage a Starbucks. hahahahaha I work for the evil empire. I just celebrated 5 years with em, but for some odd reason my store gets TONS of celebrities. The only one I really freaked out on was Ozzy. I just couldn't speak. Ok..this is long enuff.... :)
from no-answers :
Braedon is so VERY cute :) Cancels out the horrible nightmares! There seems to be a trend for cakes and nightmares around us at the moment! Maybe we can start a bizarre diaryland craze :)
from heavenawaits :
hey, very nice diary. love your background, too. rock on <3
from ravenheart :
Thanks for joining my Ravenheart ring, you are welcome, take care!

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