messages to rainy-daze-:
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| from strawberrri : |
| Helllooooo, just in case you ever read this (August 2020) xxx |
| from strawberrri : |
| Hello!!!!! |
| from savedbyjesus : |
| hey, i am glad you updated, how are you? what have u been up to? I hope you remember me otherwise this comment will seem really random! rachiex |
| from diary--user : |
| Hi, I just recently joined your fairytales ring, but I noticed that the code is invalid. I know you haven't updated your diary in a while, but I thought I would tell you anyway. If you have trouble with the code, you could go to www.funky-chickens.com for HTML help, or you could email or note me. I am willing to help. |
| from flyin2thesun : |
| hello. we used to be buddies, lol. just found ur diary again. hope your well xx |
| from wombaby : |
| good luck with your driving test!! |
| from strawberrri : |
| congrats on passing your mock! :) i failed my first mock and was borderline with my second so sounds like you're doing well. i know i prob shouldn't have driven today but i didn't have much choice so i just made sure i was very careful xx |
| from strawberrri : |
| awww, thank you honey *big hugs* x |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Yup, tis De Montfort :) |
| from strawberrri : |
| *HUG* :) xxx |
| from strawberrri : |
| would you believe that paul was the first person i slept with and i haven't seen him in nearly 5 years and i fancied dave so goddamn much and did kiss him a few times (once paul was an ex) and still see him around occasionally! aw you dreamt of me :) <3 and i am so proud of you regarding the whole london shindig - it's a huge city and scary so i really hope it has made you feel more confident. you deserve every happiness. Love Sarah (with the H :) x x x x x |
| from strawberrri : |
| i wish you'd update more...miss reading you. thank you SO MUCH for the note you left me. you are wonderful x x x |
| from aurorafaerie : |
| hey, it's sad-faerie here...I have a new diary. feel free to come read =O) same username/password as before. if ya can't remember what that was, mail me & I'll let you know, sorry about the messing around...faith, trust & pixie dust xXx |
| from wombaby : |
| *hugs* sorry for not noteing at the time but I got a shock when I saw the pics, and my parents were up and about at the time. I hope you're ok now, or at least feeling better. |
| from soppy-sox : |
| I love you too much xx |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hey babes....so cool to hear from you. I've missed you. I haven't been updating cos nothing much has changed!! Big hugs xxx |
| from strawberrri : |
| fixed it! xxx |
| from strawberrri : |
| aw sweetie, it was only because you stopped writing, not because i don't care. i'mma add you back :) xx |
| from sad-faerie : |
| It was my 'cutting song'... |
| from littlesprite : |
| Good luck - see all your notes :) xxx |
| from roamany : |
| I was really worried about you, but I'm filled with happiness now that I know you've simply moved on. Good luck in your journeys, much love to you. Write me if you want [email protected] =Thea |
| from mjraven87 : |
| *hugs* I'll miss reading xxx |
| from strawberrri : |
| hey poppet, if you ever start a new diary i would love to read it. the best of luck with everything - you're a wonderful person xxx |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hey hun....hope ur ok, miss u xx |
| from ashley2ashes : |
| sorry i had to do this, but i have locked my diary with a different password. if you want the password... first leave me a note saying "turn around, bright eyes, and check your email!" then send me an email that includes your diaryland username, along with the reason i told you to write "turn around, bright eyes" in the note. if you don't remember, i will only let you know the password if i already know that you are trustworthy. |
| from savedbyjesus : |
| hey i know you havent updated for a while but i wondered if i could have a pwd anyways please. thankies. xx |
| from ashley2ashes : |
| argh...i lost the p/w to your diary. may i please have it again? <3 ashley |
| from whataboutus : |
| miss you xxxxxx miss ur smile, ur hugz, ur eyes |
| from littlesprite : |
| Do you have a new password and name? Please could I have it? How are you? x |
| from just-fine : |
| Thankyou, for leaving me notes and being so supportive. I'm sorry i rarely reply, i know it's no excuse but it's just i get so many messages left. It doesn't mean that i don't appreciate every word. Takecare of yourself sweetheart xxx |
| from sexy-secrets : |
| hello. i think you used to read my journal long ago. wanted to know if i could have a password/login. |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| Argh, you've locked up again! Could I have a password please? |
| from littlesprite : |
| Thank you so much! Many hugs and smiles x |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| Hooray! Good luck with the job interview. I really hope you get it. |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| Rach? New password? Can I have one please? Hope you're ok. |
| from lianimal89 : |
| hi. i'm soory but i'm speechless. i never thought i'd hear everything i am feeling come out of someone else like that. you don't know what it's like to realise i mite not as alone as i think i am. please could i have your password to read more. i'm new here and i bit muddled so i hope you get to read this if not, thank you anyway u've helped a little. i hope you find the strength u need to carry on thanks again lianne x |
| from littlesprite : |
| I hope you're okay *hugs* Do you have a new password and username? :( |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| Let me add to the clamour: if passwords are going I would very much like one, please! Hope you're ok, *hugs* |
| from bleedheart : |
| Hey did you change your pw and sn? Please leave me a note back,thanks |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Yes, it has been a while hasn't it? Have you changed your passwords? Can I have another one please? Take care of yourself honey xxxxx |
| from whataboutus : |
| Good Bye |
| from pink-fairy : |
| has your password changed chic? |
| from bleedheart : |
| You havent Been Updating =\ I'm Worried. I hope Your Ok Right Now. |
| from brodyblakk : |
| hey just wandering if i could read ur diary? love tash x |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| http://www.workabuse.org/info/new/index.htm - I don't know how useful this website is, but it's certainly interesting. You take care. *hugs* |
| from ashley2ashes : |
| hey there, it's ashley (formerly anasinger327) and i didn't forget about you!! i just overlooked you. :( sorry bout that. newayz my u/n is "turnaround" and my p/w is "brighteyes"...what r urs? <3 ashley |
| from buffylass : |
| hey, i'd like to give your diary a read if you'll let me? |
| from bleedheart : |
| What I would do..Is tell Becky she's a bitch and Bitch Slap her!Then i would quit and find a new job..But thats just Advice.She's turning you suicidal and i know how that feels.It Sucks really Bad. So my best Wishes To You ;) |
| from pink-fairy : |
| you need a new job! working there is not making you happy and the people you work with sound like arseholes! you need to get out of there. |
| from pink-fairy : |
| Sorry it broke :( |
| from pink-fairy : |
| I love you, I don't want you to hurt anymore. I want a way to fix all the bad stuff but don't know how :( |
| from bleedheart : |
| I only have one true freind the rest of them moved or either died.Ill be your freind if you want cuase im always there for my freinds. |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| Ok. I'm glad you're still alive. xx |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| Are you still there? I didn't/don't know what to say, but I'm thinking of you. Please post, even if all you say is "hi". |
| from bleedheart : |
| Oh,ok :P lol |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Oh my god honey are you hurt? Physically I mean? Mentally it is obvious. If I can do anything you know where I am. I can deal with phone calls in the middle of the night if that what it takes. I am always here and my phone is always on. xxxxxxx |
| from bleedheart : |
| im sorry.But in my opinon You should be the one hating Emma.She didnt treat you like a freind.Even though you dont know me in real life...I'll Be your freind and ill treat you like one. |
| from bleedheart : |
| thanks :) |
| from harmedself : |
| *big hugs* |
| from sad-faerie : |
| �� Rai ��, it hurts me when you talk like this...you just don't realise how amazing you are, honey! Seriously...I dont know what to say other than *hugs & love* �� aurora �� |
| from anarecsick : |
| Fuck the lot of them babes....it seems to me that none of them are worthy of your trust or respect. You need to be somewhere where you are valued for the amazing person that you are. Grrrr...they make my blood boil reading what they do to you. Love you xx |
| from bleedheart : |
| i have advice for you! My so called "freind" Gloria WAS GIVING ME NO RESPECT the other day and I was in BIG trouble of Flunking and if i flunked then my moms going to cry really bad and almost all my family members gonna look down on me. So i screamed at Gloria to shut the $#@$@# up and THAT evereyone hates her cuase shes sooooo damn bitchy. She Screamed and cried becuase i said that but she acted like my " Best friend " in class. I still hate her. You should do what i do. And If they fire you try to find a backup job. IT WOULD BE BETTER FOR YOU TO HAVE RESPECT INSTEAD OF TAKING IT ALL AND HAVING EVEREYONE THINK YOUR A WEAKLING! i used to be like you in fourth grade. i was kissing the popular girl's shoes. and they never respected me! THEY THOUGHT ME AS PATHETIC! so now they hate me cuase im back and im mean as ever to people who treat me like shit. i have a loyal group of freinds who love me and Im doing great in grades now. :) my best wishes to you. |
| from littlesprite : |
| Hope everything goes okay for you on the work thing :( if not, know inside that they were wrong (not sure what happened but dammit they were wrong) and that you're a great person :) mwah x |
| from harmedself : |
| WOW! that is cool! but how much does it cost?! |
| from harmedself : |
| :( They are bullying you, they're sad and pathetic! Call themseles adults? They are manipulative bitches and you could find well better mates and a better job in a rival shoe shop haha! |
| from newmillenia : |
| Hello..read through a survey you did on self-harm and I was curious about who you are and what you write. May I (pretty please) have a pass into your diary? ^-^ |
| from bleedheart : |
| yea,im 11 |
| from bleedheart : |
| cheer up =( just try to rest ok? ^.^ |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hi darlin, missing you and worried about how your doin. Any chance of the password for your diary? You can email me at work at [email protected].. Big hugs xxx |
| from harmedself : |
| I love you more than.... more than I love most people!!! And those BITCHES! GRRR! I HATE the people you work with. I'd well kick Becky in the balls. |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| rachie, rachie, don't start the drinking. remember describing me as "drunk as a skunk" (15-4-05)? don't follow me down there. it does just make you feel worse in the end. *hugs* |
| from amadiet : |
| I'm new to the diary but from the beginning something has drawn me to you becuase in a lot of ways I think we may be alike. I would like the password if you don mind and I would also like to become friends!! U can email me [email protected] |
| from pink-fairy : |
| well done on weight loss! keep going and you will feel so good about it! :) hugs xx |
| from anarecsick : |
| Missing you..hope ur ok sweetie xxx |
| from strawberrri : |
| hiya, could i have the password please poppet? x |
| from littlesprite : |
| :) *hugs* |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| hey dearie, how did today go? xx |
| from littlesprite : |
| Hey rainy-daze. What's your password? I'd still like to keep in touch with your diary, if you'll have me..x |
| from empty-souls : |
| Could I please have your password? My email is [email protected] |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hmmm...I don't think I have an AOL email...you can email me at [email protected] though if you want to keep in touch. I'd worry if I couldn't check your diary. Lots of love xxx |
| from redpain : |
| ok i added you if you dont mind. |
| from rainy-daze- : |
| yeah, msn, [email protected] |
| from redpain : |
| :) thats nice. :D good luck! do you have msn,yahoo or aim? |
| from redpain : |
| :D glad to hear you recovered! |
| from redpain : |
| I have a freind just like yours. she sometimes drags me away from my other freinds or drags them from me.And makes me feel so alone and left out. so when she does that i flick her off and pull my friends back and if she pulls me i just stay there.sure she got mad at me but then she started giving me respect.just try doing that.who cares if they are mad at you and hates you?DONT LET THEM STEP ON YOU. and if you want adivce,or help i'll try to my best :) |
| from redpain : |
| puking isnt fun.im sorry that you feel so lonely now.if you want to talk then feel free to aim me on twighlighttoheaven. |
| from xseverity : |
| you sound so lovely. |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| puking your guts up doesn't sound much fun :-( poor thing. hope you're feeling better today. good that you're going next week. too bad about the road trip, but maybe it's a good thing that you're not stalking tanvir ... |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| hey ... just wanted to ask how today went cos you didn't update yet |
| from anarecsick : |
| I totally understand how you feel about wanting out of it all...right now I just want to dissappear too...all I can say is that I care and feel sick to my stomach because I know how absolutely shit it is to feel what your feeling. Please, please hang on in there and keep in touch. Love Becks xxxx |
| from meghscho420 : |
| your funny and i like your survey..and to answer your question apparently i have visited it now |
| from ricklets : |
| I see a lost person, I see a person at their wits end, yet they are still living....well for now. Everytime I read your diary, I want to hug you and cuddle you....I think you are beautiful and I do think your amazing because you've been through so much and it gives me hope that I will make it through too. I also think there is more to you then your depression, I think you are intelligent, and wonderful and perhaps if you do get help and do get out of that stressful job, you could really be something, do something you like, and have happy moments cause you sure as hell deserve them. You don't deserve all the shit that you get, why can't people see what I see? So my two favorite words to sum you up are, amazing and beautiful. xxx p.s. If you ever need someone, Im here. |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| *Please* go to the doctors tomorrow, even if Becky lets you down. Maybe it won't help all that much, but at least then you know you've tried - if you don't try, you'll always wonder. Remember to write stuff down. xxxx *hugs* |
| from sad-faerie : |
| This will probably mean nothing, but *I* care xXx |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| Hey, I've never seen Dirty Dancing either - something on my list of things to do sometime when I have nothing better to do. I have lots of better things to do. Now on a serious note: I think dressing up as police officers is illegal - well, except for fancy dress - impersonating them I'm 90% sure is illegal. Might be worth finding out about that and not doing it ... take care of yourself!! Elfy |
| from catz-eyes : |
| hi again :) thank you *so* much for the url and for your reply/help - really appreciate it! hope Life is being kind to you and yours. kind regards to you, =^..^= |
| from catz-eyes : |
| hi. this is going to sound pretty stupid... but i'm a member of your diaryring (eyes), and wanted to ask you how/where can you larn to make navigation brs for Dland? i have some rings of my own and would like to create nav bars for them but haven't a clue how, though have searched and searched for answers. so... figured i'd ask a fellow Dlander (your the first Dlander whose site is still active that I've found) how i might begin...? with thanks and kind regards, =^..^= |
| from catz-eyes : |
| hi. this is going to sound pretty stupid... but i'm a member of your diaryring (eyes), and wanted to ask you how/where can you larn to make navigation brs for Dland? i have some rings of my own and would like to create nav bars for them but haven't a clue how, though have searched and searched for answers. so... figured i'd ask a fellow Dlander (your the first Dlander whose site is still active that I've found) how i might begin...? with thanks and kind regards, =^..^= |
| from confusedpain : |
| Hi! I'm a new diary for survivors of anything. If you've survived, you're welcome. We're an anonymous diary where you can come to vent, and no one has to know who you are unless you want them to. We also have a feature where you can become a regular member. If you plan on posting more than once, you have the option of having your name under the members list on the entry pages. All you have to do is leave a note and I'll put you in. |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| random stalking trips kick ass! :-D good luck with going to the doctor - would it help if you maybe wrote down the stuff that you want to say, just as bullet points, and hand it to the doctor when you go in - that way you can think about what you need to say before you have to say it, and you don't need to worry about getting tongue tied and forgetting what you want to say, or not getting it across. i did that with the counsellor today. you express yourself pretty well in your diary, so you definitely *can* write about it coherently - and it might be easier. i hope it goes well for you chick! *hugs* |
| from whataboutus : |
| Love you so so so so much baby. I'm really proud of you for losing your weight but you are beautiful anyway and i wouldn't change you for the world xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
| from harmedself : |
| WOW!!!!! Thats amazing you'e lost so much weight!!!!!! *muwah* |
| from harmedself : |
| I know I'm probably just words right now but when I come to see you I will be REAL to you. I loe you Rachey, you are beautiful. *hugs* And I think youre wellll pissed! |
| from harmedself : |
| :D sshhhh its a SECRET!!!!! |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| on this one, chick, you don't follow your heart. i'm glad becky's being supportive now - i think she's right about going to the doctor's. good luck with that. i hope you do manage to get some proper help that helps (bad word choice but you know what i mean). and well done with the compliment on professionalism!! :-D *hugs and good luck* |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Nobody is ever too lost to be saved, you just have to let somebody save you. I'd hate to loose you Rach. I am really worried about you *hugs* xxxx |
| from harmedself : |
| paracetamol?! noooo!!! |
| from harmedself : |
| *hugs* what a bitchy customer |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| that's a lot of alcohol dearie ... be careful ... (not that i'm one to talk, i know) |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hi Babes, just letting you know I'm still reading, sorry I haven't been around much recently. Sounds like you need wrapping in a big blanket and looking after for a bit. *hugs* Hope u and Emma are ok and as in love as ever xxxx |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| poor rach. *hugs* hopefully the docs will drug you up nicely and stop it developing into anything nasty. i am disliking that dionne on your behalf right now. |
| from whataboutus : |
| HEy sexy i know i cant be there at the moment but i love you with all of my heart sending you lots of hugz kisses and more hugz. Can't wait to see hopefully new years eve if i'm bette. Love ya XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX |
| from ashley2ashes : |
| please go here for sophie anaz-gurl - http://www.freewebs.com/sophie-prayers/ |
| from soppy-sox : |
| Hey darling. Could i read the letter? Love ya xx |
| from littlesprite : |
| You look dead nice in that photo, I don't know why you don't think you're pretty, you should know that you are :) smiles x |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| You're pretty when you look happy. I think most people are :) keep smiling. :) :) |
| from nightxmusic : |
| You look amazing in those photos, really pretty. *beams* love Hannah xXx /ophelia-w\ |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| point the first: wow, amazing hair!. point the second: your face does look skinny in that picture, and so does your neck. so there. point the third: if your mum does want you to move out - have fun! (would suggest getting a room in a shared house if you can - you don't have to interact that much with your housemates, and it is much cheaper and much less lonely). (but of course she might've just been getting you suitcases for trips to fuentevura or wherever it is you go). |
| from littlesprite : |
| Happy Christmas! xxx |
| from ricklets : |
| If nothing else, I wish that you sleep in heavenly peace (think what you want of that, but im not saying you should die) Even if you aren't in the most Christmas spirit, Have A Merry Christmas anyway, lovely girl. |
| from jjschanged : |
| I like that lowcut black top with the white brim ... it looks like a style that suits you. And maybe it's easier said than done and who am I to know, etc.... but maybe .... when people tell you you're pretty - take it as a compliment and don't be decieved by the lies inside your head. Perhaps people make snidey(sp?) comments, pretend to compliment you but laugh behind your back - but if they say you're pretty ... just force yourself to believe. Besides, do you HEAR them laugh, and if so, how do you know it's at you? The only evidence of that is the paranoia inside you, and in that case it's not them that's laughing, it's you. Maybe that sounds harsh, I don't know. Sorry. I'll just shut up. |
| from cinamonjaide : |
| Hi Since you are on my buddy list, I figured I would give you the link to my message board community. It's a laid back place with a few online friends. You are welcomed to join if you want. If not, that's fine, but I wanted to extend the invitation and let you know you would be welcomed. Here is the addy: http://groups.msn.com/ShovemeintheshallowwaterbeforeIgettoodeep |
| from star-soul : |
| Remember to stay true to yourself, and not to put up with any one else's crap. You deserve better than that. Stay strong. (((hugs))) |
| from aloverstale : |
| you know from personal experience I can tell you...when you are feeling that you are inately damaged goods, other people sense it and they attack. You need to be your own best friend. Don't give up. It will get better. |
| from harmedself : |
| :( I can't wait for you to leave that place. I can't believe you're still their. I HATE THEM for making you feel so crap. |
| from p1nk-r0se-29 : |
| Hi, i just read some of your diary and i just wanted to say that i know how you feel with the whole suicidal, cutting thing. I'm in the same place as you right now. Take care please.x |
| from wherwhenwhy : |
| Hold out for a better job. It isn't easy and you still end up feeling like shit when some one looks at you like death because you've dared to speak up for yourself, but there is a point when you know you are right and what they say dosen't matter, all they have in their power is the ability to pick on you, while you have so much more and are bigger than that. Although I still have the odd piss and moan baout things, today artists, but you go to bed and tomorrow is another day and the only ones that look stupid is them. Hope tomorrow is better and if you can't be happy, be better than them. It's a start. Lots of love |
| from harmedself : |
| i love you too!!!! Did your doctor call you selfish and disrespectful?! No way!!! I thought she was really nice.... sheesh. |
| from juststay : |
| I don't know you.. but you're a beautiful person. Have a really good day tomorrow, okay? Feel free to pop round for a chat anytime you need it... I can listen and try to understand and help, if you ever need that. <3 (Sometimes you read things that people have written, and it moves you, and so you sign with a heart... I feel kind of stupid. But, there is the heart anyway.) |
| from cinamonjaide : |
| I just learned that you can get into my diary by typing my username cinamonjaide and then use the password jaide. I thought I could only add 9 people, but you can use my user name to view my journal. Feel free. |
| from bloodystains : |
| I was wondering if you would be willing to sign my cutter/self injury support petition. I know it sounds stupid but after recieving an extremely rude note, I feel the need to have this. please help : ) |
| from harmedself : |
| SPICE GIRLS!!!! My fave spice girls song is Who Do You Think You Are and... Viva Forever |
| from baked-joey : |
| heya! I done your survey "this or that" and thought I'd have a wee peek at your diary to cos im new to diaryland and looking to find some diaries to read! :-) |
| from im-a-freak : |
| Please don't kill yourself. Try to be strong...x0x |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| who says "nobody cares"?? We care! |
| from pretoridpoet : |
| I know why it doesn't hurt 'cuase in actuallity people do care for you |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Please take care honey. It's just not worth it... |
| from strawberrri : |
| please, please don't take the tablets. :( there are so many people who care about you xxx |
| from pink-fairy : |
| hey chic, you didnt depress me or make me tired! i am sorry i wasn't very chatty yesterday i just have so much work to do :( am just finishing the report of my last assignment now so I shall be back on msn tomorrow as it will all be finished woohoo! :) *huge hug* xxxx |
| from cinamonjaide : |
| I mean it from the bottom of my heart. Any way I can be supportive to you online, I will try. Please dont feel alone. |
| from cinamonjaide : |
| I care. I do. Please dont kill yourself. You are a brilliant, wonderful person. Give yourself time. Is there someone you can talk with in real life? My heart goes out to you. Please know that I am here. You are loved most of all by God. Dont give up honey. |
| from nightxmusic : |
| Thanks for noting me ^_^ it's Ophelia btw, I just moved myself to a new location, finding that the old one wasn't quite right anymore. Take care xXx |
| from tearsofadoll : |
| hey there! i wuz gonna leave u a note, anyway. firstly whoa! have many notes have u recieved? go u! *lol* i'm envious. go check muh diary! go sign muh guestbook! go gimme a hug! go leave me a note! grrrr's... much luv! <3<3<3 -melody p.s. link: http://tearsofadoll.diaryland.com |
| from harmedself : |
| Hello my prettyful pal. I wish i lived close. I could be your best mate :) I think I would be ok at it. Love you and I am SO SORRY I left you last night :'( My computer broke. but now it is fixed. next time u r online i will stay up all night talking to you :) |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| hey you, you're not an ugly slag! (i know the feeling though). janey and i met through diaryland, then started talking on msn. you're welcome for the notes - i specially appreciated your one about puking up the clean - it made me laugh :) |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| one day at a time. *hugs* |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| i know the feeling when you wake up to the cuts, and you can't believe you've done it, it doesn't seem real. i know that feeling so well. but rai, please don't take so many pills! not all at once. they'll make you feel worse. and, well, drugs=bad (*cough* not that i can necessarily talk, but whatever, you know what i mean) |
| from cinamonjaide : |
| I am reading it, I added you, add me |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| *hugs* sucks that the world's throwing so much at you right now. but the doctor sounds good - and you do deserve her time. |
| from harmedself : |
| Hello!!!! Glad the docs went well :D I feel very happy for you. And you sooooo deserve a nice doctor who will treat you right. If I am ever in nottingham (is that where u live or am i making it up?) i will visit clarks and give them all dirty looks! Except you, you I will hug and kiss and dance around at in a hyper way! |
| from mjraven87 : |
| You're not a minger, or at least I don't personally think so. I am not saying this just to make you feel better either, I don't lie as there is no point in it. What would be in it for me to lie about how you look? If I thought you were ugly I just wouldn't say anything. Good luck for the doctors later, I will be thinking of you xxx |
| from harmedself : |
| No i cannae get served. That is what mums are for!! I hope the doctor gives you summat to make you feel better! or i wont be impressed. |
| from pretoridpoet : |
| maybe some depression medication could help you, you should talk to your doctor or therapist( I don't know if you have one but if you don't I think it would help) |
| from caresses : |
| I found it while doing your survey. |
| from pretoridpoet : |
| I saw your name on one of your diary-rings the name sounded interesting |
| from mjraven87 : |
| I am trying. I really hope you feel better soon. If there's anything I can do, let me know xxx |
| from caresses : |
| I just love your diary. Kisses |
| from harmedself : |
| Those poems are really good. Very powerful and emotional. tres good! |
| from mjraven87 : |
| I wish I could say the same thing for you *hugs* xxx |
| from pink-fairy : |
| I like you being here and I don't like you hurting yourself. You are worth a lot to so many people. I hope a brighter day is around the corner for you. X |
| from pretoridpoet : |
| I am sorry 4 all the difficulties you are going through. I have just started reading your diary. Sometimes I get scared, that one day you will stop writing. Not becuase your decided to stop writing but because you're gone!! Please don't! |
| from im-a-freak : |
| *hugs*...just because we all need a hug sometimes...love Katy x0x |
| from french-pixie : |
| Hey,pixie here. Well the last entries made me cry. I know Im a whimp. Although I am told that we are not alone and we are all beautiful bla bla bla bla I feel bad about myself day in day out no matter how nice some angels might be to me. I think I understand how you feel. Be blessed with understanding. Pixie |
| from harmedself : |
| Because you are beautiful inside and out. |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| welcome back! *hugs* |
| from anarecsick : |
| Thanks babes...thinking of you too...lying on that beach! Hope you have an amazing time, you deserve it xxxx |
| from pink-fairy : |
| I am very happy you had a good time. I bet you have a lovely tan! I am jealous and I need a holiday! Hope your ok, xxx |
| from sexxie101 : |
| Sounds like you are having the best time. Wish I were there... |
| from harmedself : |
| yay you are having much fun then? get a tan to die for! |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Have a good time and ENJOY yourself!!! |
| from harmedself : |
| off on holday again! that lucky |
| from strawberrri : |
| i hope you have a good time in fuertoventura :) xxx |
| from faith-scars : |
| Helloooooooooooo, Here is your note! hurrah! Hope you feel better soooon or are feeling better already. Sorry I didn't leave one earlier for some reason I had a problemo accessing your notes. We will talk sooon I promise. Ive been so busy recently but we so have to chat soon. Love, Liss - xxx |
| from mysterious-k : |
| hello rainy-daze! jus read bits of ure diary..hm ure interesting. congratualtions on ure weight lose! byeeXXXx |
| from almostmadeit : |
| Congrats on your weight loss. I am a tad envious. I don't even want to know what BMI I am ...... way too way too way too big. Oh well. I'm happy for you. The other week one of my friends who normally wheres like a size 20 got into a 16. It inspires me but I still lack motivation to do anything about but....oh my goodness, I'm sorry. I'm so egotistical sometimes. This is about you, not me. CONGRATS and keep it up! |
| from harmedself : |
| :) Well done on your weight loss! You're doing so well!!!!!! |
| from pink-fairy : |
| Hey honey! I think u are right, dionne was probably just off because she was shocked at the mess. Don't worry! :) I hope you are having a lovely day today! |
| from azureflame : |
| Hi, I've taken a couple of your surveys and I read your diary from time to time. That's all I have to say really. Just hi. And hang in there. |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| hey rachey rai, here's a note to make you feel loved! |
| from almostmadeit : |
| Symptoms of diabetes =/ .... I'd advise you to get a doctors opinion. |
| from tater-fay : |
| I took your survey on sadness and said I'd read your diary, so here I am. As to why your pee might be really smelly and bright yellow. That is usually caused by taking a strong multi-vitamin or alot of vitamin C..did you? Also, if you aren't drinking enough water, your pee is very potent like that! |
| from jpoet112 : |
| we're all dammaged goods. its an epidemic. some bruised and battered, torn and maimed. but you've gotta salvage. keep the dream alive. |
| from faith-scars : |
| I also can't type. DAMN. |
| from faith-scars : |
| I just wnated to say to you - HELLO. I wanted to say thanks for saying you liked my crappy attempt at poetry (I only just realised thats what your note said) adn to say, yay! I fixed my links :) hang in there! xxx |
| from sad-faerie : |
| darlin, **BIG FAT HANNAH HUGS** I don't know how to tell you this in a way you will believe me, but if I keep on telling you, maybe one day you'll realise I'm right? YOU ARE AMAZING!!! and you are loved, believe me! xXx faith, trust & pixie dust xXx |
| from ecappaccino : |
| ^^ Cheer up, life is good, and she loves you, full stop. |
| from cantilena : |
| Of course I don't mind! Don't expect too many wise words from me though, I'm more into absent-minded ramblings. |
| from harmedself : |
| don't worry about it! I'm sure she'll be fine with you, just a little embarassed. Honestly what a drunken commoner though! hee hee |
| from pink-fairy : |
| WOW chic what a night you had! I can totally understand why you can't get her out of your head. I hope she will be ok with you on Monday. Proud of you staying out though and being so courageous in a difficult situation! We shall chat very veyr soon, love H xxxxx |
| from anaz-gurl : |
| hello 2 u 2. soph x |
| from mjraven87 : |
| I've got a Motorola V500, I like it very muchly. Blame the lots of entries on my insomnia!! It is driving me crazy! |
| from harmedself : |
| Drunk people rock. |
| from rhi4j : |
| Hey! I added you to my favourite diaries because I did one of your surveys and you like Jacqueline Wilson hehe! Lettin' ya know!! |
| from catiscool23 : |
| Hi your profile is really cool! Haven't had a chance to read ur diary but i sure will! It's cool to see people who care so much about anorexia, I think with Mary-Kate Olsen becoming anorexic it has brought anorexia out into the open and more people can learn about it and the 'symptoms'! |
| from blunt-revues : |
| sorry for the lack in information, but blunt-revues has been closed for the time being, if you'd still like a review by Nikki, then check out her newest review site. ItchingViews.diaryland.com thank you |
| from whataboutus : |
| Hey Baby Love you loadz you are my angel. Miss you sooooooo much when we are apart. Cant wait for ur holiday XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX |
| from harmedself : |
| Hewwo!!! Congrats on your weight loss!!!!! And I think i shall be paying you �4.75 an hour to be my personal slave :) |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Wow, 4lbs, thats great. You will have to take a picture of Jo and send it to me. I'm all posh and up-to-date now with me own camera phone as well ;) |
| from sad-faerie : |
| WELL DONE HONEY!!! 4lbs is amazing in one week! You musta bin tryin hard! Honestly, well done...I betta watch out, I'm gonna have competition for the 'slimmer of the year' award! haha =OP Love ya lots xXxXxXx |
| from dracoglass13 : |
| yah, i def. will! im still working on sorting everything out...itll be a couple days but then ill add the link. |
| from faith-scars : |
| Lol! Thanks for that message. To be honest I started working on my page but then I couldn't be bothered so I never tried to sort the links. I will eventually! Its cool to think i've met someone new! I will have to get ur msn of janey or elfy! Talk to you soon, take care, Alice xxx |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| yay well done on the weight loss. don't worry about what dionne thinks - depression is not something to be ashamed of! (despite the fact that most of us have a massive guilt complex about it, myself included!) xx |
| from harmedself : |
| Don't be scared!!!! It's only work, deary me I wish you'd get a job someplace where the people are nice. I will employ you as my personal slave for a fair wage! |
| from mjraven87 : |
| I'll be fine, don't worry about me xx |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| i was so lonely when i moved to eastleigh last year. i didn't know anybody my own age. my housemates were all older than me and had their own lives, my colleagues were all lads working outdoors all day - they were nice to me but i wasn't one of them, the volunteers i went out with were all miles older than me, and people at st john took a while to accept me - it's not sad and pathetic to feel lonely when you've just moved to a new place where you don't know anybody, it's perfectly normal. it takes a while to fit into a new community, especially if you are "new" and they are "old". it can be done - i managed it by joining sj, sort-of. my other trick is to enjoy my own company! (and spend hours and hours on the internet lol) *hugs* |
| from almostmadeit : |
| Everyday that passes you by, it should start getting easier and easier - because your stomach should start shrinking once you've calmed down on the binges, and soon a weight watches wrap might possibly be *too* much for you... as crazy and totally-not-likely as that sounds. And also, as each day passes, you are one step closer to reaching your goal... one less day to struggle with, is it not? just keep perservering with it. You'll make it. It's an escape to dream about starting over and not cocking everything up and doing things differently - but the fact is, if you'd done it differently, you'd probably still cock up one way or another - because everyone does, so you can't escape it... just keep pressing on. I won't say that it'll be OK ... but I will say that if you want things to work out for you - you've gotta be the one to make it happen, no matter how hard. Sorry if I sound patronising... just some words of encouragement (I hope!) =D |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| fluoxetine ... that's prozac. not that i've been looking into these things or anything lol. well, not for a couple of years. i just have an anally retentive memory. can't remember anything useful, that would help me pass exams - just what generic drugs go with what brand names of anti-depressant. how random! |
| from pink-fairy : |
| Honey I haven't done anything to be admired for! :) But a huge thank you. I wish I could send you sooo many good vibes your way so you would know that you ARE pretty and that you ARE beautiful, and I am pretty sure you got a MUCH MUCH better figure than me! People care alot about you too. Lots of love xxxxxxxxx |
| from just-fine : |
| I know, and that is what hurts, i know how much you all care, your all so kind and sweet. Thankyou so so much for that, for thinking of me with such compassion. It means so much to me, it really does. On a random note, i noticed you had Judy Blume as one of your favourite authors...i loved her books. I remember reading 'are you there god?..' and 'Tiger eyes' is still one of my favourite ever books. She's brilliant. Keep going okay? Please try to takecare of youself, your precious. xxxx |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Janey gave me the name "arseless" lol. It's quite funny really isn't it? Hehe. xxx |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| eh, you're not a fucking bitch. i'm not commenting on the fat thing, because a, i have thoroughly distorted perception, and b, i've never actually seen you irl, so i'm not really qualified to say anything there, but you are most certainly not a fucking bitch!!!!!!!!!!! (enough exclamation points?) xx elfy |
| from im-a-freak : |
| In the pictures you've posted you don't ever look fat. You look thin and beautiful in all of them. So don't ever feel fat or ugly, because you're not. ♥...x0x |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| that's quite annoying that your mum won't let you share a bed. why not? is it cos you're both girls, or just generally doesn't want you erm ... doing stuff? either way, i think you're old enough! |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| heh judgin by ur typin u r a bit pissed but then i am worse so hey, lets be alchy 2gether *schmile* :) -elfy (skunk) x |
| from rainy-daze- : |
| thanks i understand you now and i know how to do it except i can't work out how to get the "hearing" bit to actually show up.. hmm... |
| from gettingnaked : |
| You have to add the optional fields to the HTML in your template. To get mine to appear the way I have it, I added this text below the "%%date - time%%" field: (I don't know if the notes feature will let me add html like this, but I'm going to give it a shot. If it doesn't work, I can always email it to you. <p><b>Listening to:</b> %%option1%%<br> <b>Sitting:</b> %%option2%%<br> <b>Reading:</b> %%option3%% <p>%%entry%%</p> After you add that, all you have to do is replace the "sitting:" "reading:" etc. with whatever you want your fields to be. Does that all make any sense? If you need help, feel free to email me... [email protected] |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| aww rach *hugs* |
| from pink-fairy : |
| New look has wellies! That might be closer for ya! Or faith - like my ones :) that is in the Victoria centre. Hugs xxxx |
| from pheenix : |
| hey, I'm kinda new to this site. I just filled in your survey on SH and felt I had to say thank you. I can't put into words why, but it helps. If you need anyone to talk to, pm me, I'm always willing to talk. |
| from ricklets : |
| Im a little surprised "The Smiths" aren't on your profile under "70's 80's 90's" I was listening to a thing on the radio about "The Smiths" and thought of you...weird eh? Anyways another pointless not left by someone you don't know. take care. If I could cry I would whenever I read your diary....breaks my heart. |
| from anarecsick : |
| hey babes...been away for a week...your last entry made me cry real tears for the first time for ages...that whole baby thing. Wish I could hold u and talk to you for a bit...all my love and strength, becks xxx |
| from harmedself : |
| rawr! I shall come down to where you live and kick all their arses coz they suck. I hope you find a new job soon!!! |
| from littlesprite : |
| Hey. Sorry, I had to delete loads of entries because I thought somebody was reading my diary who I really didn't want to know about what I was thinking and feeling etc. xxx |
| from flioaemo32 : |
| hi, i feel awfully alone too. i've been reading your diary for the past week or two. its sad, and concerning.. and all that good stuff. but it's comforting too. i find your pictures to be quit attractive, and your entries comforting. thanks for being alive. -cy |
| from soppy-sox : |
| Hey Babe, You *know* that if i could, i would come up to u right now, and hold u forever. and tell u it *will* be okay. I wish i could do so much more than just tell u this. I love you. xx |
| from harmedself : |
| Awwww you look ded pretty in every picture. Infact the only one cuter than you is Ozzie :p |
| from sexxie101 : |
| Ah. Okay. I was just curious. That's cool though. |
| from sexxie101 : |
| Ah. Okay. I was just curious. That's cool though. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Meh, I looked so thin and pretty on that photo of us at Stafford station |
| from ricklets : |
| oh and those pics of you and your sister are adorable. Also when you were a little girl...so cute. |
| from ricklets : |
| so maybe some pictures weren't as glamourus as others but I still think you looked gorgeus! I liked the pic where you were blue cause that looks so damn cool. Also the "scary drawing" is very awesome...i think the girl in that pic is how i feel sometimes take care XxX |
| from strawberrri : |
| hey, i recommend gargling with salt water for your poorly tonsil xxx |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| i'm sorry you're finding work so tough ... just remember, you are a strong strong young woman, and if they expect too much of you, then that is their fault not yours, and if you're struggling, it's okay to ask for help. *hugs* |
| from sexxie101 : |
| You are so pretty. I love your pictures. Outta curiosity Do you happen to live here in Colorado? You look so familiar. |
| from writingiris : |
| "You're a stupid fat bitch. You're ugly and you're fake. You deserve to die and burn in hell." You ARE burning in hell. Heaven and hell are states of mind and you, my friend, are in hell. All you have to do is figure out that it's your choice and heaven can be yours. You want to know a secret that I recently learned of? Everyone is flawed and everyone is insecure, even the beautiful people. They're not judging you. They're judging themselves. I promise. I KNOW. If only you could know. |
| from im-a-freak : |
| Aw, you're so pretty!!!...x0x |
| from pink-fairy : |
| You look so pretty in your pics!!!! I would rather have your face than mine anyday!! |
| from strawberrri : |
| i'm sorry to hear you're going through such a bad time, i wish everything could be ok :( *sends hugs* xxx |
| from pink-fairy : |
| The next time I am in Nottingham I shall go to Clarks and wear my wellies and let you try them on! I am a size 8 so they may be a bit big! :) |
| from writingiris : |
| The picture you have posted in your diary with the girl holding a doll is very similar to the photo in the movie Where the Heart Is. Very good movie. Just made me think of it. |
| from sexxie101 : |
| I would miss you please don't leave. There are too many people out there that would hurt if you weren't here. Too many of those who love you. I don't understand why you think so poorly of yourself you are a GREAT person. |
| from pink-fairy : |
| sweetie u r worth so much more than your mind is telling you. there are so many reasons to be alive. so so SO many people care about you. and NEED you there for them. Emma for one, and your lil sister for another. If you hate your job, you really need to get a new one somewhere else, where there are more decent compassionate people, instead of morons where you currently work. put a smile back on that gorgeous face! |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| good! (}) |
| from rainy-daze- : |
| eek.. i'm not going to!! |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| aww, please don't kill yourself. |
| from soppy-sox : |
| I love you babe, dont u dare end it. Uve come SO far, u no u cant give up. I love u and im praying for u! xx |
| from sexxie101 : |
| You aren't fat. And if if makes you feel better I am addicted to orange pop and sunflower seeds. Lol. |
| from soppy-sox : |
| You messed up hun, so what?! You are able to move on and try again. You can do it, and even if you do fall and slip now and then, it doesnt matter. you can *always* get back up again. And only when you dont get back up can you say you've let anyone down, and that person would be yourself, But theres so many of us here that would help you up before u had chance to give it babe. Just keep going. And never think you cant do it just coz u messed up. I love you so much xx |
| from sexxie101 : |
| Anytime hun. |
| from pink-fairy : |
| I still stall and my driving test is just 2 weeks away! :) |
| from sexxie101 : |
| I know how you feel when things like that happen. I've done it too. If you ever and I do mean EVER need someone to talk to who will understand the things that you are feeling you can talk to me whenever you need too. By the way the pictures that you posted up awhile back prove you to be quite a pretty girl. Honestly. But yeah if ya need to talk to someone I AM here. |
| from sexxie101 : |
| Thank you so much. I had no idea that you payed attention to my diary. I have looked in on yours time and time again because sometimes I feel that I can really relate to you. But thank you again. xoxox |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| don't feel guilty. everybody breaks from time to time, it's not a weakness or a failing. it's just what happens and it so does not make you a bad person (either that or we're all evil!!) xx |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hiya sweet....I can't tell you how much I'm feelin for u at the moment. Just so glad u have Emma the way I have Patti cos I know how special it is and I know she will help u be strong. Tons of love xxxx |
| from whataboutus : |
| Babe i love you with all of my heart. I love you more now then when we firdt started going out. I wont dump i want to help you will will attack it together one on one, even if it takes forever, at least we can say we tried. I love you with all of my everything and never doubt it or forget it xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
| from gettingnaked : |
| No use feeling guilty for what you did. If she loves you, she loves you in spite of whatever character flaws and weaknesses you may have. She may be disappointed, confused, and/or hurt, but what can you do? You have your feelings, she has her feelings... just let each other feel. My ex used to cut herself and I never could understand... I will always regret the day I told her that I just don't want her to talk to me about it because I can't handle it. Whatever you do, just don't beat yourself up. It won't help anything. (P.S. Thanks for the sweet notes! They always make my day.) |
| from mjraven87 : |
| My mum has just come out of hospital today after having her gall bladder removed. She was in constant pain for over a year before they did anything about it. Hope your granddad gets sorted out soon xxx |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| aww poor old Rai. Just remember - if they're nice people, they'll make an effort to make you feel included. If they're not, they're not worth your gorgeous company. Chin up, keep smiling. You'll do great. |
| from writingiris : |
| This is going to be a long note, but I could not locate your email address, so here goes. I read your diary and I want to say that I truly do know how you feel. It's starting to get better the older I get, but I remember so clearly feeling the way you seem to feel now. I felt as if I didn't belong on this planet with these people and I always doubted myself and doubted what others truly thought of me. If you ever get the opportunity, maybe you'd like to check out my diary. What I am doing now is going back through my old journals (written) and picking out my favorite parts, good and bad and I'm putting them in here (diaryland) and I'm commenting on them, but I feel, reading back through my past, from 14 on, that I have grown and learned and changed a lot and I'm learning a lot about myself just reading them. It's fun. Anyhow, I thought you might be able to relate. I never self-harmed as badly as it seems you did, but I did do things such as slam doors into my head so hard that I'd see flashes of "white lightning" in my skull, all out of sheer frustration. I thought the world was a dark place, but that's changed a lot, and maybe it will for you, too, if you can see things from another perspective. By the way, I saw the pictures of you, and I truly don't understand why you are so disgusted with yourself. You are beautiful and you are not fat, you are not fat, you are not fat!! You look like a woman should, curves and all. Men are meant to be shapless. Not women! I'm a Visual Arts major and I'm talking an art history class right now and most of the art with female figures, from the 13th century on, were full-figured, with curves and body fat, and they were looked upon as beautiful. It is society that has fucked things up. Women now wish to be shapless twigs. You should be proud of your hour-glass figure. I have grown to be proud of mine. Although I do wish to lose some weight, my ideas of what a woman should look like have changed and I love my big butt, big breasts, and curvey, hour-glass figure and don't ever wish to have a figure like that of a shapless man. Stop being so hard on yourself and see yourself as you truly are, and as others see you...beautiful. And last thing, I love the way you write. |
| from pink-fairy : |
| I have downloaded the MP3 from that commercial. Good luck in finding a new job. Nottingham is HUGE with millions of shops. If you work in River Island you get 20% discount off clothes!! :) |
| from anasinger327 : |
| lol that clark's commercial is great. the music is really funky too. how cool. <3 ashley |
| from soppy-sox : |
| Im willing to listen with my heart baby. u no that! I love you so much hun, keep going. Uve done SO well.. im well proud of ya. K xx |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| hey, you're not that dirty. it's that guy who's the dirty one!!!! remember that. *hugs* elf |
| from strawberrri : |
| that song used to be on my work tape when i worked at argos :) *big hugs* xx |
| from queenofpain9 : |
| I love reading your diary. You have been one of my favorite diaries and lately MY entries have sucked. You are inspirational to me. |
| from ricklets : |
| I love you. You are such a beautiful person. You don't deserve what you have gone/going through. love from a little friend |
| from mjraven87 : |
| I love your new hair! When did you get it done? I'm so sorry to hear about your sister, I really hope that she's ok and that you're ok... I'm going to Nottingham on 13th and 14th of December with college to Nottingham Uni for a few lectures there and I'll be staying in the halls of residence. Maybe we could meet up on the Saturday evening depending what time the lectures finish? Take care, Shell xxx |
| from rotten-love : |
| I'm so sorry for your sister. I hope she's ok...Love Katy x0x |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| I'm sorry about your sister. -Elf |
| from cheetahgrrl : |
| Dear rainy-daze-, I just wanted to leave you a note saying that Jesus loves you. I know you don't know me, but feel free to talk if you need a friend. Jesus loves you! He died on the cross just to be with you because He loves you more than anyone could ever imagine. You probably think I'm crazy, and maybe you already deleted this note, but if you are reading this I know that in your heart God is calling. God loves you and I love you. Please think about how much He loves and cares for you. He dies for you to live, and that's better than any sin. |
| from lousrose : |
| sorry for the confusion. i meant you don't deserve all the pain and unhappiness and bad memories you have. you are obviously very lovely and deserve to be content and treated well in life. *hugs* thanks for the note, hon. and i'm always here if you need a hug too! xoxo. |
| from anasinger327 : |
| hello to you, my darling. love the pictures, hehe, you're so pretty!!! <3 ashley ps- check out my pictures too, on the profile |
| from harmedself : |
| Awwwww you are sooooooo pretty!!!!!!!! |
| from harmedself : |
| Hiya :) Shell was supposed to fix my links. Thanks for the note! It made me smile. |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hey darlin'....sorry I haven't kept in touch. Hope u r ok. Drop me a note sometime. Big hugs xxxxx |
| from writingiris : |
| hey, it's me again, I forgot to tell you, the name of the entry is, "I went crazy last night". |
| from writingiris : |
| hey rainy-daze, I just wanted to tell you that I entered one of my old entries from '99 into my journal about one of my experiences with self-harm, incase you were interested in seeing a similar point of view. |
| from neonmoonlite : |
| I somehow stumbled upon your diary. I think it was through just-reviews. I hope this comes out at a compliment, as it is meant to be, but you look a little like Kelly Clarkson... |
| from writingiris : |
| Hey rainy-daze, Thank you for the message. I'm glad to know I reached you with what I said. I mean it. It's very true. I sense that you are a lot like I was a few years ago. I really hope things change for you the way they did for me. Honestly, if you could just change the way you perceive life, you'd notice a world of difference. Trust me. I know what you're going through. It seems you're going through exactly what I went through. When I was 13, it was consensual, but I was manipulated into it. He had done it before (many times, I'm sure, even with his own children). He knew what he was doing. It happened many, many times, but I don't really count it as my first experience because it was a sickening situation. Thank you again for the message. |
| from pink-fairy : |
| oh no! it was terrifying thinking i really had mowed someone down. hope you are ok :) x |
| from sexxie101 : |
| I care. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Thanks for the congrats, hehe. Hope the new job goes ok and that you settle in soon *hugs* Shell xxx |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| lol 'course i care that you're still alive. (btw, do you have a password to my diary? i might've sent it to the wrong addy; i get confused which one you're using) |
| from mokaki : |
| Hey, I completed one of your surveys, and found myself reading your diary. You seem like an intelligent and interesting person--who completely underestimates her strength, brains and beauty. Please continue posting, so we can see you progress through this (hopefully a) phase. That sounded really condescending, but I swear it wasn't meant to be. . . |
| from dylansgirl13 : |
| hey u seem really kewl, took wanna your surveys on self harm and thought we could talk sometime can't wait to hear from ya. |
| from evilreviews- : |
| Want an evil review? Come to Evil Reviews and get the most jammin' review your bitchfested life has ever laid eyes on. |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| hey, where's our rai gone? xx -elf |
| from amylee1fan : |
| Ya have a cool diary.I think you have one of the best diaries on this website.I can tell you are a very passionate person,and I admire that. |
| from queenofpain9 : |
| I love your diary. It fills me with such immense pain and passion. |
| from snow666white : |
| hi...ive done a few of your awesome surveys!! thanks for the entertainment...they were really good! im currently reading your diary and is just as interesting!! :) -snow:white |
| from scumthing : |
| ur a really good writer. be the flamingo! ~Lindsay |
| from wherwhenwhy : |
| I don't want to patronise you or annoy you in anyway, all I want to do is reasure you that as you get older the bad memories will fade and the good ones will start appearing through the clouds. When I was twenty I couldn't remember one happy thing that ever happened to me, now I can actually laugh at things I did when I was younger. It still hurts at times, but you do come out smiling more often than not. Take care of yourself and don't let some other fucker screw up your life. lots of love |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| hey there. i locked up because i felt paranoid - somebody added me to their list and i had no clue who it was, and then i realised i was on the buddy list of someone from church, so there's a faint possibility that others from church might be reading too - very faint, very unlikely to be anybody i know anyway - but i prefer to monitor who's watching me :) xx -elf |
| from sad-faerie : |
| Hey Honey, sorry I've been neglecting you lately! I do still love you to pieces, I've just been an ignorant and busy girl! Hope you're not too mad with me! I'm here if you need me xXx Aurora xXx |
| from whataboutus : |
| I love you honey :) |
| from lousrose : |
| hey hon. i'm on my way to bed, but just wanted to say hi- and i looked at your pictures, and my god, i think ur totally gorgeous. i don't think you need to change at all. but i do understand why you're doing this *hugs* hang in there. and i hope that friend of yours is okay, she is in my thoughts. xoxo. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| *hugs* I am always only a phone call away you know xxx |
| from pink-fairy : |
| I think you would be suprised by how many people really do care about you and are here for you. x |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| dearie, i don't think it's self pity, i'm not offended by what you write and i do NOT think it's your fault at all - it's not!!! xx elf |
| from vitalsoul : |
| hi, im a total stranger and u probably hate these sorts of notes, but i fell in love with your diary. its good reading on a late summers night xxx |
| from sillieshamma : |
| I don't know you, but I read your diary. Just know this; total and complete strangers are worried about you, and care enough about you to want to help. |
| from ophelia-w : |
| Sweetheart, what's happening? Please email me. x |
| from whataboutus : |
| baby, i love you. i know the past few days have been hard and they have for me but i'm ALWAYS here for you no matter what, ok. LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART NOW & FOREVER XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX |
| from lousrose : |
| hey i just took your survey, and wanted you to know i'm adding you to my list, and that i'm here for you and wish you the best *hugs* lots of love, whit. |
| from ophelia-w : |
| Easy on the smoking... x |
| from ophelia-w : |
| You are NOT a fucking fat bitch!! You are a wonderful beautiful lady who has everything to be proud of. Love H xxx |
| from pink-fairy : |
| *big hug* you have amazing strength to copy with everything that you do cope with. Lots of hugs for when you feel sad, but you are the better one! The stronger one. And by far the prettiest one! :) |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Argh, I've run out of credit. I just want to say well done for not cutting, I knew you had it in you *hugs* xxxx |
| from im-a-freak : |
| Please be strong and don't cut; you've done so well and lasted a long time so don't ruin it *huggles*...love Katy x0x |
| from anaz-gurl : |
| dont worry it'll all be ok,u can always talk 2 me(not that im ever around lol) leave me a note if u want and i'll reply asap or email me,whatever. take care+look after urself sugar. luv sohpie x |
| from roamany : |
| I used to make myself wear long sleeves when it was 100% out...but I finally said screw it and I don't try to hide or flaunt my scars anymore. Most people won't comment on them because they're too passive and it makes them more nervous than it makes you. Even when someone does comment now, I brush it off the best I can. They're with us for life...it's a waste to hide forever. I hope it all works out for you, and there are people that do understand...don't worry about that. |
| from roamany : |
| Holy crap, I'm so sorry. I feel like such an idiot now....thanks for letting me know though. lol. I wondered what happened to you...was a little worried. I'll get back to reading you now, and hope everything's going good. thanks = roamany |
| from dykecutter : |
| Hey you seem cool. Check out my diary. e-mail me: [email protected] |
| from pink-fairy : |
| Penguins ARE the sporn of evil :( Am I just too weak? |
| from sexxie101 : |
| dont you hate it when people give you comfort when you dont want it?? i know how ya feel. Hope things pick up for you because i believe that you deserve it. XOXO whenever you need a shoulder let me know. Ill do the best i can to help all you gotta do is leave me a note. |
| from ophelia-w : |
| I am so sorry that you have to go through all this. However, maybe, just maybe, Lorna knowing wouldn't be too much of a bad thing. I she knows then let it happen, it's not in your control anymore. Thinking about it like this will get you too worked up. x |
| from tolaugh : |
| Hi, don't know how this works yet.. but i will learn as we all had to i guess. I would like to be able to talk to you.. your entries. the few i could get to, touched a part of me that happened when was younger.. thank you... Dawn |
| from sexxie101 : |
| Thanks i really appreciate it. I would like to be friends with you if ya don't mind. |
| from strawberrri : |
| ebay IS addictive isn't it!? love to you as well :) xxx |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Hiya Rai. Sorry I haven't spoken to you of late, I've been a bit bogged down with school crap and when I'm not I'm usually left in no fit state to hold a conversation, lol. You reminded me of Omar when you put *pokes shell* he is always poking me via the www like that, lol. I have many virtual bruises now, hehe. Maybe we could meet up after my exams are finished? Take care xxxxxx |
| from iluveminem02 : |
| you seem very interesting, is it okay if I continue to read your diary? |
| from sexxie101 : |
| i like you. can i get to know you better. i think we may have a lot in common. |
| from sillieshamma : |
| I know the feeling... |
| from lesbogirl : |
| can i read your diary? i did one of your surveys but i wanna get to know ya... that sounded really cheesy. |
| from sad-faerie : |
| hey rai...happy to hear you're happy, but obviously if you wanna keep it to yourself, do. As soon as you wana tell someone tho, note/mail/text me, OK? Love n Hugs xXx |
| from jjschanged : |
| Yay for being hyped up and excited! Feels good, doesn't it? This time don't let it slip, but hang on to it like it's your life, and if it goes - don't let it slip from your mind, because so long as it's in your memory - it's real. |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hey darlin'...if I could spend every night curled up on the sofa with Patti I would, it's not weird not to want to go out...it's called being in love and being happy in your own (and Emma's) company. When you have something that special you don't need to go looking for kicks in the bottom of a pint glass or in a smoky, noisy club. Really we're the lucky ones! Love and cuddles xxxxxxxxxxx |
| from missingpearl : |
| Oh hun. You're not abnormal. I'm like you in many ways. I never party. I prefer to stay home or just be with a small group of trusted friends. That's perfectly normal. Unfortunately society implants this image of the teen years as being one big happy party, and THAT is not normal. Partying should not define anyone's life. <3 Brittany |
| from anarecsick : |
| Thanks sweet...i'll give anything a go. Just back of hols so will update when I have unpacked! Hope u r ok xxx |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| *looks round* where's our Rai gone? |
| from rothe-review : |
| Your review is up! Thanks for requesting and sorry about the wait. |
| from anasinger327 : |
| happy belated birthday, i hope it was better than you predicted. i know it's been a while since i've been around, but today i'm checking up on everybody. good luck babe <3 ashley |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| Hey Rai! Happy birthday, have a good day, and if Lucy doesn't get in contact then remember that she doesn't deserve you, not the other way round. I don't think you should "feel stupid for thinking highly of yourself" - it's not at all unreasonable to expect people to be your friend every now and again. But I know what you mean cos I feel like that too pretty often! *hugs* -Elf |
| from littlesprite : |
| Happy Birthday for Saturday! :) x x x |
| from im-a-freak : |
| Hey! I know this is early, but I'll forget to say this tomorrow...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! *big huggles*...love Katy x0x |
| from empty-room : |
| Hi. I was checking out on of my old diarys and found you. You are one of the most interesting, beautiful people I've ever read about. Hit me back...Daniel x |
| from sad-faerie : |
| Hey Honey, when is your birthday? xXx |
| from ophelia-w : |
| You are a beautiful person, and don't let Lucy and her hangups bring you down. You are worth so much better. Love, Hannah xxx |
| from harmedself : |
| Well i disagree! I looked on your extras page the pther day and saw your pics and you are gorgeous! |
| from anarecsick : |
| I know it seems impossible babes�the only thing you can do is close your eyes and gather up all the love you feel for her until it is too a great big warm ball in your stomach�then hold on to it and imagine how it�s gonna feel when she gets back and you can tell her and show her how strong that love is. You�ll be ok�I�m here for you. (Gonna update later if my boss ever gives me 2 minutes break!) My arms are around you today xxxx |
| from sad-faerie : |
| Yup, yup, yup. Was in Wales. Am now in England. Alone, Lonely, Cold & Sad...nothing new then! xXx |
| from ophelia-w : |
| Harsh. I don't know what else to say, except that I'm here for you if you need to talk. Love you, Hannah xxx |
| from mjraven87 : |
| *huggles* |
| from mjraven87 : |
| I so sorry darlin. Is there anything I can do? xxxx |
| from jjschanged : |
| Hey rai, that poem about your friend is really sad, but a lovely expression of your feelings. I love poems with depth like that one. xx |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| is it the hope layout that's triggery, or the other one? <3u -elf |
| from emptyempty : |
| ...just saying hi and leaving some hugs and wishes of a good weekend for ya *smiles* <3 |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hiya darlin'! Thanks for the note, it's good to be back and I was touched that you missed me. I really wish I could give you a big cuddle aqnd share with you some of my new found positivity, I really do. I wish you wouldn't keep everything to yourself so much...easier siad than done, I know, but you just torture yourself further by putting up with stuff and not letting people know how you are really feeling. I did it for far too long. It sounds like you trust Lynn quite a lot...maybe she would be a good starting point? Hope you and Emma are as in love as we are...it's the one thing that keeps us going isn't it? Love and hugs. Becks xxx |
| from gurrhippy : |
| hey just fell apon your ring.. well i love rain but thats obvious or i wouldnt be here but i read your last post. rain is my mash potato its comfort security and it shields me in. life always seems better when it rains... i use to slice and dice a while back occasional still do, too actually pinpoint the center over any uncontrollable emotions i want to know the source of the pain so i cause it myself. but im always on my journey tryin to find my copeing mechanisms music and the rain ohhh and mashed potato. you can find yours too love peace harmony |
| from harmedself : |
| Billie Jean!!!!!! It's a beast. |
| from ophelia-w : |
| Lyn sounds like such a special person from the way you have been describing her. Maybe you should start confiding a little in her, despite your reticence and fear of losing her or whatever. And as for your moving house, this is your life! You have finally managed to settle down, discover a life for yourself. Have you tried talking to your mother about this? I think you need to think to yourself whether you are prepared to start over again when you have set up a perfectly good way of living for yourself. Perhaps you could always start looking around for places you could live temporarily(sp?), keep your options open. I hope things work out, Love Hannah xxx |
| from ad80lopez : |
| hi i am zoe (aka ad80lopez) i am just writing to get aquainted with the members here and wanted to let you know your diary was interesting :) |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Why do you think that you've done something wrong? |
| from penelope423 : |
| Check in on my diary- I know how you feel. |
| from just-fine : |
| Oh..god i'm really paranoid now. Where do you think you know me from? Is this something to do with your friend Hayley? I never knew a Hayley in hospital if that's what you were thinking. Eeeek i'm really worried. Please respond. I read through a whole lot more of your diary and i'm so sorry your having a hard time (hugs) You've been through so much, please be strong, keep going, keep your head above the water. You are worth more than this. Claire xo |
| from scar-r-ed : |
| I don't think you're selfish, Rai. You've been through a lot of shit that should never happen to a kid, or an adult for that matter. And you're having a tough time coping. I don't know how to help, but I'm not surprised you're feeling shitty. And I don't think that's a selfish way to feel. *hugs* <3 Elf |
| from ophelia-w : |
| No you are not selfish, you are a beautiful young woman who can get through this! Love Hannah xxx |
| from whataboutus : |
| LOVE U My sexy baby |
| from strawberrri : |
| ahhh sorry, no all i meant by the comment is that it's clearly visible you go through a lot of pain (but i would never stop reading you). just gonna change it to something not quite so blunt xxx |
| from flowerlaces : |
| aw, you locked your diary. I enjoyed reading what I did. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Hey darlin. I'm looking forward to you coming over! Hehe. You'll have to let me know what you want to do. Basically its either bowling or cinema. Anyhoo, let me know. And could I ask a favour? I was going to attempt to try and archive my entries for last month but then I figured that I'd probably mess it up like I did before so...could you sort it out for me please? Thanky, I didn't want to mess up all the work you did last time :). Love ya xxx |
| from anaz-gurl : |
| cheers 4 the note, duno wot 2 say! Thanx. Ive updated by the way. |
| from sliceduparm : |
| hey! ok, about your sex life. i'm 19 and i'm still a virgin, and i'm planning to stay that way till i'm married. my boss talks about sex all the time and it makes me quite uncomfortable. so no, i don't think you're weird! maybe i am lol. t/c -elfy |
| from jedeg : |
| hi. i love your diary :) i'm adding you to my favourites! |
| from sadangl : |
| Hi Just wanted to tell i like your layout! Keep writting and take care! |
| from pink-fairy : |
| Nope - what makes you say that?? |
| from whataboutus : |
| hi babe love you lots XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXx |
| from finalscore : |
| heya. this is dana from violet-revu, your review is up! |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Hey darlin. Feeling lonely sucks doesn't it? I know exactly how you feel. Wana meet up during Easter? I was thinking, because it takes me ages to feel fully comfortable around someone (even close friends) that maybe one of us could stay overnight at the others house or something? God, that sound so childish, lol. Ahh well. It just seems that as soon as I start feeling less "arms folded, legs crossed" either you or I have to go home or something. Anyway, its just an idea. Speak to you soon, love ya xxx |
| from fuckedvirgin : |
| nope, just leaving you a friendly note |
| from soppy-sox : |
| the short answer is that God exits and evil exist also. But there is way more to it then that. |
| from fuckedvirgin : |
| hello love |
| from violet-revu : |
| Yikes! I don't know how you got on the bottom of the list. I'm sorry about that! I'll fix it. Thanks for your patience! Violet-Revu |
| from mjraven87 : |
| erm....I don't know if I'd be any good. If I were to start reviewing I couldn't start straight away because I've got to work my ass off to get my coursework handed in before Easter. I'll think about it. Kaylies party was ok, I felt a bit of a gooseberry and wanted the ground to open up and swallow me, but I struggled through. Love ya xxx |
| from justreviews : |
| Your review is up! And yes, I'd love to be affiliates! |
| from ophelia-w : |
| i like your review site. 'tis pretty and pink :D lots a lub, xhannahx |
| from anarecsick : |
| Thanks for the notes sweet�sorry I�ve been so rubbish at keeping in touch. Big hugs to you�time to get positive again now xxx |
| from ophelia-w : |
| no it's never a case of you not being a deserving person for huggles and friends listening. Never! They have no right to turn their backs. When you see a friend is in need, you comfort them, do as much as you can for them, not "forget" about them, or avoid talking because you aren't comfortable with the issues discussed. You are worth at least ten of them, hun! *huggles and mwahs* xxx |
| from keep-digging : |
| *giggles and waves back shyly* |
| from complex-ptsd : |
| Hi! You said "I was screaming out for someone to help me but nobody would listen." I relate to that. When I was a teenager I used to cut myself and hope that someone would notice. I even relapsed into cutting recently (leaving hideous scars all over my legs) and I am 34 now. I wish I had not relapsed because it was not worth the scars I now have to live with. When I was a teenager I was also anorexic and maybe I hoped someone would notice that too, but noone said anything. I know I can't fix your problems for you, but I have learned a few insights for myself that I'd like to share with you. I often think back and ask myself what I would have done differently to get the help I needed when I was young if I knew then what I've learned now. One thing I realize is that my friends were just as young as me and felt just as helpless. It's probably not that your friends don't care -- they probably don't know what to do to help you. Another thing I've learned is that "screaming for help" through your actions -- cutting, starving, whatever your particular actions are -- isn't very effective. Direct communication is the only way to be sure someone understands what you're asking for -- even something as simple as "I feel overwhelmed by my problems and I need help." I also know that if you don't know what kind of help you need, it can be hard to directly ask for it. But I do know that indirect communication (through actions like cutting) rarely works, and again it's not because people don't notice and don't care -- it scares them and they really aren't sure how to help. I also know that sometimes even if you ask for help directly, people will let you down. I had teachers let me down when I tried to ask for help. I would encourage you to be persistant. If one person won't help, go ask someone else and if they won't help, keep asking until you find someone who will help. At the very least, finding even one adult who you are comfortable talking to can make a big difference -- someone who has some life experience and who might have some wisdom to share with you -- maybe a teacher, guidance counselor, or a neighbor. You could also try going to a counselor or therapist to talk things through. I hope I don't sound like another patronizing adult who doesn't understand. Believe me, I DO understand. I've been through similar things and I'm still struggling with similar things. I just hope that maybe something -- even just one little part -- of what I've said might be helpful to you. And if not, I hope you will at least know that I am thinking about you and that I care. I wish you much better days ahead. I wish for your rainy daze to turn into very bright, sunny daze really soon! |
| from soppy-sox : |
| "my names dory and heres my story, i live on the reef and i dont eat beef" |
| from soppy-sox : |
| "my names dory and heres my story, i live on the reef and i dont eat beef" |
| from angelxtoots : |
| Hey hun, found them thru ur surveys=) I took most of them... Mirrors are awful dont feel so bad. They make us look worse than we do. xxx |
| from sliceduparm : |
| *more hugs* (you sound like you need them right now) |
| from ophelia-w : |
| like the layout :) if you feel like that, then pleeeeeaaase ignore the mirrors! They're mean, and shouldn't exist (well, for make up they are a necessity I suppose, so mebbe they should only come in very small sizes...hmmm...) lots a lub! *huggles and mwahs!* ~yes I am very sweet in reply to your note you left for me...muhaha~ |
| from justreviews : |
| Hey, sorry it's taking so long to get to your review. We just had an ownership change, but we haven't forgotten you and will get to your review ASAP. Thanks for your patience! |
| from idiotreviews : |
| Reviews up! Thanks for being so patient. |
| from angelxtoots : |
| Aww=) you sound so nice, loving and caring. Your so nice, lol. Always wanting to help some1 and give hugs. My gosh you sound so huggable^_^ |
| from pidgie : |
| Hi, just saying sorry you won't be getting a review from justreviews.diaryland.com. We kinda closed. At least that's what I am led to believe. It could be a conspiracy. |
| from pynkpsycho21 : |
| hi. just wanted to say thx for the note and that i found you in the self-harm diaryring. peace -katie |
| from amber-darko : |
| Hi! My name's Amber and I'm 23. I am writing a book about my personal account of self hate and self harm. I'd like to include some personal stories from different stages in healing, different sexes and different ages to show that no one is the same, but we all are hurting in ways that we are unable to convey. I do not intend on printing names, there is no length restriction and I will not censor. I have decided to also include poetry or just general opinions. Please email me if you are interested. [email protected] |
| from pynkpsycho21 : |
| hey gurl hang in there. i just read your diary an di feel for you. but even though theres alot of shit in life, i just keep thinking that it can't get any worse. anyways i just wanted to say that i really liked your diary. you should come see mine,(its under construction though) -katie xoxox |
| from sliceduparm : |
| *hugs* |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Love you darlin xxx |
| from soppy-sox : |
| And you'll continue to know nothing, unless u decide to get up and start learning. You need to stop moaning about it and get up and do it!! x |
| from sasume : |
| i took your survey...you might want to read it.. |
| from jjschanged : |
| Hey, it's Kaylees mate ... just joined your "disneypixar" diaryring, but my immediate thought was "is bugs life not good enough for you?" ;) Dunno why I thought that, but hey, maybe you intentionally left it out on the ring description, but yea. That's it. Take care, xxx |
| from sodead4 : |
| hi just wanted to leave you a note to say hope you feel better soon. take care of yourself xxx |
| from sliceduparm : |
| oh poor rai *hugs* hope ya feels better soon -elf |
| from pro-forever : |
| hey! i had to lock my diary but the username is:forever and password:ana.... |
| from sliceduparm : |
| hey ... well done! *hugs* -Elf |
| from mjraven87 : |
| I don't mean to be horrible, it always seems to come out that way. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Yeah, I know I'm stupid but I also know I'm happy doing this. Twisted, messed-up, stupid, selfish, I've heard it all before. Whats more, they're all true but I've given up caring what other people think to be honest because when I do I end up being somebody I'm not and they take advantage of the way they have moulded me. I know you only care but now I am being me, sorry if you don't like who I am. |
| from just-fine : |
| Oh hon, no, i'm so sorry if you got that opinion. I really appreciate all the lovely notes you leave me, it's just sometimes i find it diffiult to even update let alone communicate with people. Thats no excuse though, i get so many messages left for me & it's hard to respond to each one. But i'm so sorry if i've been rude (hugs) Takecare okay>? I don't take it to heart, your a sweetie xoxoxo |
| from demeter-chan : |
| Hey, I did one of your surveys and I loved it. I thought it was a great survey. Nice work. :) Please read my diary or something. You don't have to. I know you don't want to. Whatever. I'm practically schizophrenic (self-diagnosed) so just ignore me. |
| from xtooprettyx : |
| hi! your review is done thanx for waiting so patiently ♥ |
| from bloodredrain : |
| I have a clair voyant!!! They're good aren't they? Congrats on loosing 2lbs. What sort of diet are you on?! In 2 days!!! I am in awe! |
| from pink-fairy : |
| He came! I have a phone line :) shouldn't you be at work young lady? ;) |
| from pink-fairy : |
| I wish I was there to hug you. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Two? Why do I have two? *scratches head* See ya on thursday anyways *mwah* xxx |
| from hotpinkviews : |
| Your review is complete. Thank you for your patience. |
| from truth-review : |
| Your review is up at truth-review! Enjoy! |
| from anarecsick : |
| Oh my god sweet..I can't believe how similar our entries are today. I'm here if you need me...just know you're not alone...I realised that when I read how u were feeling. Big cuddles xxxx |
| from freelancerj : |
| Since you seem to like reviews, get your diary reviewed at freelancerj.diaryland.com , a diary/review site. There are no rules and there is no links required back. I hope you come! -Freelancer |
| from deathplanet : |
| believe it or not but i care |
| from bloodredrain : |
| *huggles* You are so special. |
| from complex-ptsd : |
| I hear you loud and clear. I relate to everything you say you are feeling. I feel the same way. I'm sorry you're hurting so much and that you're so confused. Believe me, I understand these feelings very, very well. Try to hang in there and take care of yourself! |
| from wflowerrevs : |
| Your review is up at Wallflower Reviews! |
| from mjraven87 : |
| That sounded really scary. Glad you're all ok xxx |
| from chickreviews : |
| Your review is up at Chick Reviews! Thanks so much for your patience and for requesting! |
| from complex-ptsd : |
| Hi rainy daze! I found you diary through one of the diaryrings. I don't remember which one, but we are in a lot of the same ones for rape survivors, abuse survivors, and cutting/self-harm, I think, if I remember correctly. Nice to meet you! : ) |
| from ophelias-cpr : |
| If you would really always like to help. Would you consider becoming an Ophelia? We try and help girls on diaryland (or other places)that spill out their heart and want someone to love them. (We have intervened in several suicides) No pressure, it means keeping a constant watch on the vunerable ones. This can be exhausting, you will do well whatever you do. Your survey just made me think you could help. Don't take it lightly its a really big job- easier not to do it. But if you want to- there is an Ophelia tag waiting for you. xxx |
| from ophelias-cpr : |
| PS hope your throat is better xxx |
| from ophelias-cpr : |
| Extra cool. Glad your not mad. Am in an off-beat (weird) mood myself tonight (*grin, big wink*)Think you are a survey queen, keep it up! Hope you don't offend people, LOL, Love ya, Ophelia xxx |
| from ophelias-cpr : |
| Eeek, no. Not you, sweet thing, that hurt me, it was just having to think about things your survey asked. Its the sign of a great survey if it makes people really think and feel. Well done. Rainy days and Mondays- well, an old Carpenters song. I thought , considering your user name that you would know it. If not, maybe it can be your new theme song. Take care, sorry if I worried you- you just seem to have a talent for asking the questions we don't want asked, but then again- no one forced me to take the survey.(Are you in social work or psychology by any chance? If not, maybe you should be!) I am sure you are lovely, so very sorry if I made you feel bad. Love Ophelia xxx |
| from browneyd-grl : |
| dude that's a pretty stupid question...plus I said no affence. so get over it. |
| from bloodredrain : |
| *hugs* how horrible for you all but groovy taxi man! |
| from ophelias-cpr : |
| I just took your survey. You asked some revealing questions. I am really hurting having had to re-live past suicide attempts. I would like to talk to you, I am not a freak, promise. Or if you are not interested, well done on a survey that makes people feel something. In this case I think it was pain. I am just a normal girl with more than my share of abnormal issues thrown my way. Anyway, rainy days and Mondays always get me down. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Nobody had a clue. For 3 years I have been trying to work out what went so wrong but I have never even got close. She seemed so happy. She did Judo and loved it, she was brilliant at the flute...the only thing I can think of is that she felt under too much pressure or something but then I think that can't be right. Her mum is lovely and never made her do anything she didn't want to do. She just gave her the opportunity to do things. She was so funny and her hands went purple in the cold, like mine and yours do. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| *Hugs* for unlocking. Take care babes xxx |
| from bloodredrain : |
| Im leaving you another note because I am praying you are obsessed with the cha cha slide. Do you prefer part 2 or 3?? I prefer part 2 myself. YAY for the cha cha slide. |
| from bloodredrain : |
| Howdy!!! I have done lots of your surveys. They are very fun! Do more to keep me entertained. I am glad you unlocked n all. |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hi sweet...so glad u unlocked, really missed u. Not got time to update right now just wanted to say hi adn it's a week todat that P goes..eeek! Will update later. Big Hug xxx |
| from whataboutus : |
| I LOVE U SEXY :) XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX |
| from anasinger327 : |
| you're absolutely right, you don't have to write for anyone but yourself...and just between you and me (and whoever else ends up reading this note) i think diary reviews are just bogus. i tried to get one and they never responded, but i really don't care because these diaries represent ourselves, and our personal way of writing, and other people shouldn't think that they have the right to judge us. if people like us, they like us. and i happen to like your diary, even the "boring" entries. <3 ash |
| from sodead4 : |
| thats why i like reading your diary you reminded me so much of me! Yes i do get stoned a lot but not all the time! i remembered my msn name! its [email protected] take care and hope u are ok xxxxx |
| from pink-fairy : |
| coz you are bootiful :) |
| from anarecsick : |
| Thinking about you loads babes...let me know you're ok. Lots of love xxx |
| from secretlife74 : |
| hey you gave me a note. can i have yur password? my email is [email protected] thanks |
| from mjraven87 : |
| I'm really missing you babe xxx |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Thanx darlin. Hope ur ok xxx |
| from sodead4 : |
| hey thanks for adding me and i fully understand your not wanting anyone to read your diary. Umm yeah i have msn but cant remember my name so if you give me your contact name i can add you on my list you can email it to me if you like? Kerry |
| from sodead4 : |
| Hi,yeah they are under my real name kerry stupid me! are you ok? im missing reading your diary i read everytime you update but i didnt want to ask for a password as i know how you feel at the moment you probably just need some space. Depression sucks! if you ever want to chat my email is [email protected] take care kerry xxx |
| from silencedx : |
| I'm sorry about you locking your diary. I know how it feels, but sometimes its for the best. Let me know when you unlock it so I can be sure to check out your rings. Thanks again, and I hope you find peace with whatever reason you locked your diary for. x |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Like I said before, I wish I could make a difference...I feel so useless. Email me xxx |
| from rainy-daze- : |
| just thought i'd leave myself a note.. don't know why. I'm paranoid. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
| from silencedx : |
| I know, rain is a very wonderful thing that doesn't come along enough. :) It makes me feel alive, almost. I can't thank you enough for leaving me a note. :) I don't get them much, cept from my friends. And thanks for your compliment, I'll check out your rings doll. :) |
| from mjraven87 : |
| I love you darlin. I will always be here for you. I need you, I wish I could make things better for you. I wish I could make a difference xxx |
| from xgrapefruitx : |
| Hiya :) |
| from keos : |
| I just took your quiz about self injury. It was...healing to get those things out in the open. A few people had known before, but I wish, now that I have stopped, I could tell everyone who ever hurt themselves how much I understand. I want to help people, and I think your quiz helped me. Bless you for being you. |
| from anarecsick : |
| Oh my god it scares me sometimes when I read how you're feeling and I am 100% there with you. You put things into words so clearly. Thanks for your note yesterday sweet...wish I could make things better for you too...course P doesn't think you're a freak..she's with me isn't she, nothing would shock her! I promise you're not alone in the world...big cuddle xxx |
| from bloodredrain : |
| That was a very sad poem. I loved it loved it loved it. But I hope you don't feel like that anymore... |
| from sad-faerie : |
| hey hun. firstly i wanna apologise for bein so selfish when we talked earlier. i hope you know i do care, but when i start talking, i never stop! i hope you're alright, and know that you can talk to me if you need, you just have to tell me to shut up first! faith, trust & pixie dust xXx aurora xXx |
| from anasinger327 : |
| ugh paranoia sucks ASS...can i just say i absolutely *heart* your template? it's so sunny and uplifting, despite your username being rainy and...daze-y. lol. i have a new template, a dr. seuss one at that, but i'm trying to resist updating until those mofos at OneDarkRevue acknolwedge my button...arghh it's been like a week and i'm going crazeeeeee okay bye <3 ashley |
| from deathplanet : |
| it's ok. i like coldplay too. one of my teachers used to know them. you know their song "Yellow"? that was supposed to be about her. lots of love |
| from bloodredrain : |
| *hugs* Your holiday sounds great. You will have the best time... Erm... I don't know if you remember this but you owe me �50 from a past life :P pay me back by the end of the week and we're cool. |
| from anarecsick : |
| Just wanted to let you know I got P to read your diary. She said to send you a hug. Glad your feeling a bit more positive, just hang on in there. Lots of love xxx |
| from sliceduparm : |
| yeah, i know what u mean about missing the depression. it's the biggest part of your life for so long, and suddenly it's gone and you have to learn to live all over in a world which is suddenly alien. make sense? oh well, nvm ;) -elf |
| from xgrapefruitx : |
| OOOOPPPPS!!! I forgot to put yours up. Its up now, sorry. Gemma x |
| from bloodredrain : |
| I know exactly what you mean about missing been depressed. *hugs* It's like a part of you has gone... It is about time I dropped you a note I think! I am glad you are happy though :) You deserve it muchly. |
| from gaunt : |
| Just letting you know I read your diary. Much love, Remy |
| from keep-digging : |
| i was just browsing through the members directory looking at random diaries, yours was one of them which interested me |
| from mjraven87 : |
| oh shit bugger pants. I have put up the codes but I've got two rings pages. I put them on the one that doesn't show up. Damnit. |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hi sweet...just wanted to say I understand your anger but PLEASE don't direct it at yourself, that's the way it breeds and you so don't deserve to feel this way. BTW are you on AIM? Would be really cool to chat to you. xxx |
| from keep-digging : |
| hey, i read your diary, i liked it, i added you to my buddy list, that okay? |
| from anasinger327 : |
| i LURV those pictures!!!!!!!! the one of you and your sister is so cute! hehe. it's kind of neat imagining faces to go with diaries. i have a bunch of pictures on my xanga journal (url in my profile) if u wanna c. <3 ashley |
| from harlemrain : |
| yes I am, why do you ask? |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Love you darlin xxx |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hey Baby...sorry i've not been on for ages. Just gonna get myself caught up with all your news and get a grip of myself! Hope ur ok. *Big Hugs* xxx |
| from sliceduparm : |
| (}) it's a hideous evil disease and it does kill people. And destroys lives. And destroys the people around the sufferers. And well done for being strong enough to admit that you have a problem, and that it's a one-sided friendship. (}) |
| from strawberrri : |
| because YOU are stronger than hayley. |
| from anasinger327 : |
| thanks for the note...i just read your entry about haylee and it was pretty scary, and sad. i think your diary is very riveting. and i love your background design!! :) <3 ashley |
| from sad-faerie : |
| hey, i'm sorry i never seem to leave you many notes anymore, i just dont know what to say or how to say it. i've never been any good at the whole 'comforting' thing...tho i want you to know, i really appreciate all the notes you leave me! xXx aurora xXx |
| from emptyempty : |
| Hey sweetheart : ) Thanks for the notes, you're always such a doll! I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling too well ((hugs you carefully)) I hope you're better soon. Heh actually I liked my old template better too, so I agree with you on that! But meh, I figured I could make a new one when I had to start over anyway... *shrugs* I made a few adjustments to it so I'm okay with it now. Sort of. Anyway- take care of you <3 love. |
| from bloodredrain : |
| That is a good review. But really, what did we all expect! Love ya tons. btw, how is your diet going? |
| from chickreviews : |
| Hey this is Tory from Chick Reviews! I apologize for the confusion! Sign My Guestbook has issues with itself and it doesn't always notify me for each post in it! But I see it now so you are added accordingly! Thanks for pointing that out! I will remember that and give you an extra point or two in your review! I am so sorry! :) |
| from pink-fairy : |
| Nottingham tis very very cool :) especially for shopping, which I did so much of :) *big hug* your doing very well and it is lovely you are so loved. Big kiss XXX |
| from ami-2oo3 : |
| Heya, I know that 1) You dont know me and 2) This is very late, but ages ago you left me a note saying you liked my template. I guess I just wanted to say thanks, but not just for that. I was looking on your diary, and was looking at some of the links, and one of them took me to a certain website... I wont go into massive detail, but after looking around on that website I found something I'd been looking for for a very long time. And its helped me change my life. Seriously. So I just wanted to say thank you, because I dont think I would have been able to change it if it wasnt for your note. Isnt it amazing how the smallest things lead to the biggest changes? :) xxxx |
| from anasinger327 : |
| ello to you. don't feel unloved. :-D <3 ashley |
| from rainy-daze- : |
| leaving myself a note cos I feel unloved. |
| from nobodiesgirl : |
| in case you haven;t noticed yet, your review is done. sorry, this is just from my diary. your review at near-death is done. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| I messed up me last note a bit didn't I? Lol. I know how you feel when you say you want to rip Allie to shreads but you're not a violent person. I feel the same way about Sarah. Like in my dream I had a really vicious argument with her and I felt so much better but it would never happen. I think we're just too nice for our own good sometimes. What you reckon? Love you darlin. If you ever need to talk you know where I am. Take care, Shellbell xxx |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Miss you too darlin. Happy new year, I really hope that this year will be so much better than years past. I'm a bit drunk and my hand-eye coordination isnt that good at th mo so I think I'll leace it at that. Love you baby, /kisses* sHELLBELL XXX |
| from tokcocktok : |
| Thanks for the compliments, and I hope you won't be so depressed tomorrow :) |
| from onedarkrevue : |
| Your review is done! |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Hope you feel better soon darlin'. Take care of yourself. Oh yeah and thanx for my Crimble card. Shellbell xxxxxxx |
| from brizerz489 : |
| I'm a little slow...I just realized you left me a note...umm..yeah thanks for the compliment on my taste in music. Bleh..I feel out of place in ur notes....most of ur notes are by people who have read most of ur diary.... |
| from anarecsick : |
| Just wanted to say that I totally know that feeling of needing to be so thin you almost dissappear...don't understand it either I'm afraid though hun....be strong. Glad you and Emma are so happy, she'll be your strength xxx |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hiya sweet...gonna update today, been a bit crazy this week! You're right about P only not quite sure where it's going...feel like she's a bit out of my league sometimes. Speak later, take care xxx |
| from confusingeh : |
| never really need a reason, just writing to say hi! HI! xx |
| from bloodredrain : |
| :) Love is all around la la la!!! I have seen Love Actually, isn't it funny! Be safe on your diet too, dont stop eating, just eat healthy!!! Merry Christmas to ya! |
| from sliceduparm : |
| hello sweetheart ... please don't dive headfirst into ana, it is so not worth it! and apart from that, MERRY CHRISTMAS!! have a really great day. *hugs* Elf |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Sorry you thought it was harsh what I said about Michelle. On reading it again I suppose it was but thats how I feel. Things aren't improving on the Lee front either, they're getting worse :( much much worse. He sent me a text lastnight saying that...on second thoughts I'll email it to you. Hope to see you soon darlin'. Merry Crimble! xxxx |
| from savedbyjesus : |
| Heya, thnx for the advice about your link. Im gonna fix tht in a min. And by the way, i read ur entry and u didnt deserve to be raped, no one does, i no i dont really no you but hun believe me it wasnt your fault. xxxx |
| from sacy : |
| Hello, love! Thanks for your note, do you read my diary? I am going to read yours now. Thanks again! |
| from jjschanged : |
| I have read some of your diary, yes - but not all of it. :) |
| from jjschanged : |
| Hi Kaylee's friend =D! |
| from bloodredrain : |
| Oy beautiful, no one deserves to be raped so don't think that for a second. *hugs* I should get a job...but I'm lazy. Good luck job hunting! |
| from dntlive2eat : |
| i sent it to your email address, i got the one from your diary. you should have it? |
| from dntlive2eat : |
| your life just seems interesting to me. =) |
| from sliceduparm : |
| hey, remember it wasn't ever your fault. and you can make it up and out through the rough patches. cos you're strong. hang in there toughie! -Elf |
| from whataboutus : |
| hi its im-stressed.diaryland.com here, just letting u know this is my new address. whataboutus.diaryland.com. Emma x I LOVE YOU |
| from sliceduparm : |
| Hey, is Mad World like one of those songs that we all just relate to so much? "Sydney glances at me. 'S.T.,' she says in the weary old voice Sam used when he was trying to get me to understand lateral thinking. 'Everyone loves this show.'" (Patricia McCormick, Cut, pg 148). It's like there's some things that are just universal to the fucked up kids? Or am I not making sense for a change ;) *hugs* -Elfy |
| from strawberrri : |
| ah you are so pretty. you have such beautiful eyes and you appear to have an enviable figure too. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Love you so much darlin. Don't know what I'd do without you there. I'm always here if you need me. Shell xxx |
| from pink-fairy : |
| *Big huge bear hug* don't be sad. Work sucks ass - it's true, but you can't let the bastards grind you down. [I read that in a Margaret Atwood book once] It's true. Chin up [beautiful chin at that!] Smile coz you are sexy and beautiful. pink - fairy xxxx |
| from magic-dirt : |
| Just letting you know I'm still reading.. I never have time to read these diaries anymore. I hope youre doing well. Love Kat. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| I'm sorry that the store in Derby didn't suit you. And by the way, I cried at little Mo too so your not sad at all. *hugs* Shellbell xxx |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Love you darlin xxx |
| from angel-pink : |
| Hey, i'm back now. Hope you're ok. Thanks for the note. Merry Xmas! |
| from confusingeh : |
| hey, i realised you were locked and got kind of down. but now that your open i'm glad you are. i always turn to your diary because i'm scared something might happen to you. i know your 2 years older then me, but i can't help but wonder what's going on in your life when i don't update. i was looking at your she reads list and noticed i wasn't on it. i know im new at this diary thing, and my diaries probably really shitty, so you don't have to read it if you don't want to. but im working on improving, and i just wanted to ask you if you could give me a shot? |
| from pink-fairy : |
| Locked? :( |
| from bloodredrain : |
| You locked your diary! Awww...you could put me outta my misery and give me a password? |
| from emptyempty : |
| No no no! Oh god I feel horrible for making you think that was aimed at you!! =*( It was not the intention at all, it was from an appointment with my doctor that day. It's meant towards all the fucking ignorant people who don't understand what it's like to be depressed and fucked up. I know you asked similar questions now that I think of it, but you're not like them, You don't look down on people who are struggling, cause I know you can relate... Aww I feel absolutely terrible now, please forgive me if it hurt your feelings <3 |
| from mjraven87 : |
| It'd be great if Emma came along too, I haven't got a problem with that. Either before or after Christmas dosen't bother me as long as it's soon!!! Love ya darlin, take care xxx |
| from emptyempty : |
| barney *chuckles* anyhoo.. Heh, yeah, you're right, I'm not english. The poor grammar and limited vocabulary kind of gives it away, huh, that english is not my first language? ;) I'm norwegian... Boo, heh. *blushes* <3 |
| from mjraven87 : |
| I'm missing you so bad darlin. I hope you are OK. I've got you a little something for Crimbo so it'd be great if we can meet up again soon. Take care sweetie and remember I'm always here if you need me. Love ya, Shellbell xxx |
| from anarecsick : |
| Thanks sweet�.I�ve changed it now�.wondered why I kept getting the error page when I tried to get to your diary through my profile!! Good luck with the weight thing, I still can�t see my ribs without breathing in even after 10 years so makes me think it�s just not meant to be. Ah well, we can but try. Take care and keep writing xxx |
| from alonenafraid : |
| http://www.petitiononline.com/butler/petition.html Can you please read this petition and sign it to try and help make the last few months of this woman's life, a little less painful. Also if you don't mind, can you put a link to the petition in your next journal entry, if you sign it that is. Thanks bunches. ~Danielle |
| from aurora-scars : |
| hi, just to let you know, i've changed over to sad-faerie...xXx aurora xXx |
| from sliceduparm : |
| rai, my dear, ribs are *not* good. well, having them is, seeing them isn't!! -Elf |
| from mjraven87 : |
| love you darlin xxx |
| from sad-faerie : |
| preferred your old layout, but wasnt too keen on it either really...there are some really nice ones out there...keep looking and one will grab ya! (or get your hugely-talented friend to make one perfectly to fit the dream image in your head, like me!) xXx aurora xXx |
| from anarecsick : |
| Hope ur feeling better soon...sofa, duvet and childrens television, that's what you need. And a big hug xxx |
| from silentcries6 : |
| hi. :) i hope you feel better...being sick sucks. *nods* |
| from mjraven87 : |
| omg i *hate* diaryland sometimes. my buddy list hasnt shown that you've been updating and i go on today (cuz it tells me uve updated) only to find you've got loads of entries from days ago! grr. sorry you thought i was ignoring you, i havent been intentionally. listen, i need you so dont go dying on me ok? you Kaylee and a few other random people are all i have, i can count the people who care about me on one hand. i dont want to have to put down yet another finger. love you darlin, Shell xxx |
| from depended : |
| Personally, I like your layout, is it helping to make you more cheerful? I got ill for the first day of my job as well (I work part time at WHSmiths cos I'm still at school) and I can remember how horribly nervous I was, which I think was one of the reasons I got ill so quickly. Good luck with the training! xx |
| from sliceduparm : |
| glad you're still here. I agree that the layout doesn't suit your mood right now *hugs* but maybe it's a sign of hope to come? It's cute anyway ;) Elf |
| from soppy-sox : |
| Revelation 21:4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away. "Be still and know that I Am God" |
| from anarecsick : |
| Thanks for the note....only my second ever!! I love the gloominess of winter too...feeds my moods which makes me self destruct even more! Just gonna have a read of your diary to get to know you a bit...strange the thing about your sister...I was thinking the same thing about my bro last night!! Take Care xxx |
| from alonenafraid : |
| Just thought I'd drop by and say thanks for the note. I like your profile too. The thing about the razor blades. I know how tempting they can be too. Well, see ya around. Later ~Dani |
| from emptyempty : |
| (((hugs))) I'm glad you didn't do anything... You're too sweet and precious to be lost <3 Thanks for all the wonderful notes you leave, they make me smile. I should be better at replying, I'm sorry... Your new layout is funky btw =) Take care *mwah* |
| from of-fools : |
| Aw. I'm glad you're alive, too. :) |
| from magic-dirt : |
| Yes, give your sister a hug for me!! And I dont want you trying something like that again, young lady lol. I lurrve your diary I shall miss you. And Im sorry, you can have whatever lay out you want, but I think it is decieving, and I dont think it suits you. But hey what would I know? Love Katie.. |
| from depended : |
| I'm thankful to your sister; I've only read two of your diary entries and I already know that you don't deserve to be in that much pain. I could tell you that I've been in exactly the same situation, but I don't think anything I can say could really help. But I'm thinking of you and thanks for the advice with the scar removal pads :) I'm here if you ever need to chat..xxx |
| from sodead4 : |
| i was just reading your entry titled raped and just wanted to say it really struck a chord with me i have had a similar experience as you reading what you wrote sounded excatly like me and it made me quite emotional but in a good way cos i realised that im not the only one that these things happened to. Im glad you didnt kill yourself :) xxx |
| from bloodredrain : |
| I am glad you are alive. Well done to your sister, I hope you are buying her a good christmas present. Your past is really sad, I am so sorry you had to go through that. |
| from magic-dirt : |
| Nah I aint pissed... Should I be?? I can be if you want me to be.. Oh and by the way I think your new lay out sucks too :) Love Katie |
| from bloodredrain : |
| hee! Fun new layout! |
| from sodead4 : |
| thanks i shall read it from now on :) xxx |
| from mjraven87 : |
| hey darlin. love your layout. it made me smile :) love you, Shellbell xxx |
| from sodead4 : |
| hi i came across your diary its very interesting do you mind if i add you? |
| from ben-g : |
| i'm just scary cuz you're brittish, otherwise you would think i was normal |
| from bloodredrain : |
| Hiya!!! Don't turn ana or anything on this diet! Be sensible my dearie! I cut for relief or to make inside pain real. Or you know when you go really numb? Well then I do it just to feel something! Stay safe! |
| from depended : |
| hi, i just came across your diary on the recently updated section and had a look round, if you don't mind. I looked at some of the links, and I was wondering if you think that scar-reduction pads work? I haven't got much money and if they dont work....and good luck with the diet, but i wish you didn't feel like you needed to. x |
| from magic-dirt : |
| Okay, Einstein I did what you told me to do. And I could link to my profile just fine BEFORE and now I get some error message. Please explain what you wanted me to do in dumbass-friendly language. Love Katie |
| from confusingeh : |
| hey, good luck in your new job. i had to lock up my diary for a bit, but if you want to go in, the username is your username rainy-daze- .. and the password is holler :) all for now natalee |
| from sad-faerie : |
| good luck in your new job!!! xXx aurora xXx |
| from magic-dirt : |
| ha ha sorry hun its not a bad thing at all!! I think scary was the wrong word... intimidating? If you met me you would understand... I am such a wimp. I cant explain this I am too dumb. I do like you!! xoxox |
| from mjraven87 : |
| good luck for wednesday even *hits self on head* |
| from mjraven87 : |
| im ok darlin, really. good luck for tomorrow! say happy birthday to Emma for me as well will you? take care baby xxx |
| from sliceduparm : |
| whoo-hoo! so cool to read that you're happy!! makes me happy too! good luck starting your job ... life as a working woman treats me well, hope it does the same to you!! i'm sure you'll do fine. don't get too hung up on the weight thing tho ... it's not really worth it. *hug* -Elf |
| from sliceduparm : |
| I sent the password (or tried to) to your new address - I used the old one off the other diary before. Hope it works! |
| from bloodredrain : |
| Hey Marlon! I am going to do that quiz now. Oy, don't feel guilty over Ian hitting your mother. It is no way your fault that he is an asshole the size of Europe. Grrr! I hope you and your mum are okay. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| love you darlin', hope your interview go alright (Emma's been telling me about them, lol) love ya lots jelly tots xxxxxxxx |
| from sliceduparm : |
| hey. it is so *not* your fault that Ian hit your Mum! to state the obvious, he sounds like a right prick. but remember, it's *not not not* your fault! luv -Elf |
| from emz-secrets : |
| bad :( all my so called mates are talking about me behind my back :( life sux! what about you? are you ok? |
| from anasxangel : |
| ohmigod i feel soooooo fat now.... well, i'll be that one day... |
| from confusingeh : |
| you seem more down then usual :( get well sooN! |
| from darkenergy : |
| Hey, you noted me quite a while ago saying you liked my diary. Thank you. XxX Your diary is nice too, i like your template. I saw your SI pictures, good for you for being able to show them. Keep smiling. Helen |
| from mjraven87 : |
| i hope she's ok. i got on the net just after you left and she told me..but then she left. hope shes alright..love you xxx |
| from magic-dirt : |
| Oooh I just saw your pics. Pretty neat. Please dont hate me, but Im going to ask the obvious (and stupid) question... "Doesnt that shit hurt"?? Forgive me for being so ignorant, but I prefer to harm myself in other gutless ways. And you are a pretty girl. Lovely shiny hair, I can just see you on a pantene commercial :P ~Katie |
| from magic-dirt : |
| Oooh I just saw your pics. Pretty neat. Please dont hate me, but Im going to ask the obvious (and stupid) question... "Doesnt that shit hurt"?? Forgive me for being so ignorant, but I prefer to harm myself in other gutless ways. And you are a pretty girl. Lovely shiny hair, I can just see you on a pantene commercial :P ~Katie |
| from magic-dirt : |
| Yeah my lay out is buggered. My links dont work either. I am too dumb/ lazy to fix it. Do you know how to make the pic come back???? ~Katie |
| from sliceduparm : |
| ha! i wear glasses too, but i hate them so i wear contacts most of the time! well, you ain't gonna believe me if i tell you you're pretty, so here's something a bit more specific: you have nice hair :) -Elf |
| from im-stressed : |
| I love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxx xxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
| from confusingeh : |
| your really pretty! |
| from mjraven87 : |
| see, ive always told you that you're gorgeous! love you darlin', Shellbell xxxxxxx |
| from sagana : |
| You are gorgeous. I'd date you and my taste is impeccable. ;-) |
| from strawberrri : |
| yes, yes... what them below have said. you are gorgeous. |
| from emz-secrets : |
| YOUR SO PRETTY! and your thin! whats with that your thinner than me! i dont even want to get my belly button peirced (sp*) because i would be to imbarased...im so jelous! |
| from bloodredrain : |
| Boo to you too! you are so pretty!!! |
| from where-i-fall : |
| I did offer you the chance for me to host anything you wish, but you didn't particularly seem like you wanted to talk to me when I added you to MSN. If this is not the case, feel free to message me on there and we'll sort something out. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| hey darlin. remember if you ever do want me to come up then i will. promise. xxxx |
| from sliceduparm : |
| hey I dunno if it'll help, but please notice that Emma *chose* you and *chose* to be in a relationship with you ... i often used to think that people would be better off without me around so I know just what you mean, but strange as it might seem they'd be even more upset without you around. Honest! luv -Elf |
| from sagana : |
| I have you on my buddies, so pretty much every time you update, unless I'm out and I miss an entry. why? |
| from mojo1915 : |
| Hello, I hope you had a fun and eventful Halloween. If not, I hope today will be a good day for you. God bless ya! -Jesse |
| from confusingeh : |
| i love winter too! - am i not supposed to sign this alot? i feel annoying. |
| from confusingeh : |
| happy halloween! :) xx. nat |
| from sliceduparm : |
| oh yeah, i added you on yahoo messenger, so when you get the message from the weird stranger, that's me *quack* (lol) ... have never yet succeeded in talking to anyone on yahoo though :( |
| from sliceduparm : |
| all right Little Girl? i'm sorry you're down, hope things pick up (}) luv -Elf |
| from confusingeh : |
| get better soon!! :) your in my favorites:o xx. natalee |
| from bloodredrain : |
| *hugs* Hang in there, I hope things get better soon :( |
| from confusingeh : |
| hey, i added you to my favroites, i really like reading your diary |
| from mjraven87 : |
| i love you darlin'. hold on to whatever you can. yeah its big coming from me, im having a shit day today and im kinda in the same frame of mind. do you ever wonder why you try to help/comfort people by saying things that you know yourself would help ou but you dont follow it? wierd. they say you teach best what you need to learn...maybe we should start learning. im speaking a load of shit now. sorry. just remember i need you and love you, i wish i could do more. please take care. if you ever feel your not special or not worth anything remember, i found you. i wouldnt have bothered if i didnt think you were worth finding ok? love you, your little Shellbell xXxXx |
| from sliceduparm : |
| i read u're diary when u update, but i don't think i'm up to date on all your back-entries yet -Elf |
| from sliceduparm : |
| um, the point is that it can get better (i think!) and you *can* do it! "and when you're feeling like it's just too tough, well just remember you're a real tough girl" (Sophie Ellis-Bextor) Elf |
| from heaven911 : |
| i hate when the internet does that to me. its so retarded... cuz ur second entry is never as good as the first. do you like talking to a counsellor(i think thats what u called her.. or whatever, u get the point). i used to have one.. but my parents didnt think she helped at all so i stopped going.... hope you have a better day :) *Tara |
| from confusingeh : |
| i really love your diary, i should start updating mine more. i also really love the song fast car by tracy chapman - keep updating, and check mine out if you'd like. - i have a site too . www.funtigo.com/iheartbeer |
| from magic-dirt : |
| Thanks for noting. I love your diary- its very well written. So many diaries here are. I'm jealous of you all. |
| from where-i-fall : |
| Just a note to tell you that the image you want displayed in your diary will ONLY work for you. No one else will be able to view it because you've not added the correct URL link to it. You've linked the image directly from your computer and you can't do that. All anyone will get is a red X. In order for everyone to view your images, you need to upload them to somewhere then find out what the url is to your images (eg http://www.website.com/yourfolder/pic.jpg). If you want, I will gladly host any images for you, just let me know. |
| from bbreviews : |
| I've noticed you like reviews... why not try Bondagebear Reviews? |
| from bloodredrain : |
| Wow...your diary is written so beautifully. I love it. It's sad that you've gone through so much but manage to turn it round into an amzing piece of writing for us all to read. *hugs* |
| from my000world : |
| hey, ur diary is amazing, ur such a great writer...!!! I really like ur layout and ur whole diary, it's really beautiful and u also seem like a really interesting person...so I decided that I really wanted to add u as one of my fav diaries... |
| from mjraven87 : |
| hey darlin'. could you send me those photos of me and you? thanky xxx |
| from emptyempty : |
| Hey - thanks for the message. I'm so sorry to hear about your friend, - it must be hard for you to deal with I'd imagine. Wish you the best <3 |
| from confusingeh : |
| you signed mine, thought id check out your diary, you sound pretty cool.. i jus started updating again xxx natalee |
| from aurora-scars : |
| oh my god! finding nemo! i was crying 2 mins in when his mum died! so so so so so sad! and at the end when dorie is like "i dont wanna forget!" deary god, am i over-sensitive? haha Faith, trust & pixie dust, Aurora xXx |
| from mjraven87 : |
| love you too darl' xxx |
| from justreviews : |
| Your review is up at justreviews. Thanks for being patient. |
| from filmstarrevu : |
| I just started a review site, and noticed you were on the pending list for a site I review for as well... Just wondered if you would like a review from my new site? Maybe hear from you soon! |
| from sliceduparm : |
| Have read some of your diary, and I love it ... feeling a bit triggered just now, so leaving it for the moment, but I'll definitely be back. Darling, it gets better, I promise. Don't know how long you've been on the drugs, but I was on for 8 months (seroxat) - going on and coming off were both hell, but overall they worked quite well - not that I'm never depressed, but at least I can function now! Take care of yourself - but in the end, like you say, it's gotta be for you. Loadsa hugs, take care -Elf |
| from aurora-scars : |
| damn! 9 days on your blob? that's harsh! |
| from rainy-daze- : |
| hehe, mine's not glittery :( gutted! I love glitter. xxx |
| from strawberrri : |
| hehe i have a purple vibrator from ann summers too. it's glittery :) |
| from anawaif01 : |
| I am 5' 7.5 sweetie...thanks for leaving me a note, I feel special:) |
| from emptyempty : |
| Hey, thanks for caring to ask, that's so sweet of you =) I updated it now by the way. <3 |
| from justreviews : |
| I will review your diary but i just wanted to remind you that if you dont link us it takes a bit off your score. Please create link to us soon and tell me where it is. It may take a while as i have homework etc so please be patient. Thanks for requesting one! |
| from mjraven87 : |
| love you darlin' xxxxxxxx |
| from aurora-scars : |
| the message means ive added you to my faves again...nothing more! |
| from some-trouble : |
| Thanks for the note you left me the other day. It was really nice to you to say that you enjoyed reading my diary. I've just read a few of your recent entries and yours is pretty interesting too. I'll come back soon when I have a little more time and read some more. |
| from andmia : |
| YOur diary has been so amazing to read bc i can really relate to you--I used to be extremely depressed and into si and suicide then things got better and now they are sliding back down hill. I really hope things work out for you and wanted to let you know that your diary rocks! |
| from angel-pink : |
| Hey, thanks for leaving a note. Im pleased to hear you're being strong, resisting the razors and all that. Glad you and emma have found eachother you even sound happy. Its probably just hard for your mum to understand, youre still her little girl. hope shes not too hard on you. keep writing, cya. |
| from strangeswirl : |
| heya...can u see my diary? i dnt kno if its private or not. luv lucy xx |
| from matethenkill : |
| Hellow ... be strong. God |
| from im-a-freak : |
| Hiya =) |
| from mjraven87 : |
| Jill is my individual therapist from Wall Lane. |
| from soppy-sox : |
| Rai- to be honest im shocked. |
| from emz-secrets : |
| hey hows it going? |
| from darkcreation : |
| Hi! Just found you put me on your diaries list so I'm going to add you to mine. Hope that's ok! |
| from girliepants : |
| hey! i really enjoyed my visit here...I will be back :) HUGS |
| from mjraven87 : |
| hey you. its really wierd reading what you said about it feeling better to vut on your arm than anywhere else cuz im just the same. it just feels so much "nicer". take care babe *hugs* xxx |
| from fat-ana : |
| Hey. I found your diary somehow and I fell in love with it, hah. I just thought I'd leave you a note telling you I put you on my favorites, since you said to in your profile. Take care, hun. <3 |
| from shh- : |
| hey girl, sorry someone I know found my diary and has read it. I feel so stripped. MY outlet, MY thoughts, ME! but soon I will get everyone who wants to keep reading my dairy a password, so soon babe! sorry again, xoxo *nikki* |
| from shh- : |
| hey girl, sorry someone I know found my diary and has read it. I feel so stripped. MY outlet, MY thoughts, ME! but soon I will get everyone who wants to keep reading my dairy a password, so soon babe! sorry again, xoxo *nikki* |
| from shh- : |
| hey girl, sorry someone I know found my diary and has read it. I feel so stripped. MY outlet, MY thoughts, ME! but soon I will get everyone who wants to keep reading my dairy a password, so soon babe! sorry again, xoxo *nikki* |
| from angel-pink : |
| sorry, sorted now. |
| from poshgirl86 : |
| Hey hi. Thanks for leaving a note. That was very sweet of you. Don't give up girl, everything will be OK. Take care of yourself *Hugs* |
| from where-i-fall : |
| Fankoo for the nice words. You should come talk to me on MSN :) |
| from strawberrri : |
| As I will! Please don't do anything rash. There is obviously many people who care about you and they care because you are a good and a nice person. xx |
| from emz-secrets : |
| i will care if you die!!!!!!! |
| from anaz-gurl : |
| Just a note 2 say goodbye, I dont no when/if I'll b upd8ing agen. Read my last entry if u want 2 find out more. Take care of urself. xSophiex |
| from lancesroom : |
| Take care of yourself.You never know who you might meet tomorrow..so you have to be ready to be that friend someone needs..but be a friend to yourself first. Yeah, I know its not easy, but be brave. |
| from askingtomuch : |
| i really dont kno how i found ur diary...just by browsing i guess...its really good though <3 |
| from askingtomuch : |
| your words hit me so hard...because they are everything i feel but cant say....just the thought of going to school makes my stomach turn... |
| from glitterfeind : |
| hi there :D how are you? |
| from fan4 : |
| Thanks for the note. I always like hearing that people like my diary. :) |
| from angel-pink : |
| Hey thanks for the note. Don't give up. Keep writing, cya! |
| from emz-secrets : |
| lol thats ok hope your good and everything :) |
| from queensdiarys : |
| hey im moving my diary to emz-secrets its just this diary has alot of readers from my school that i really dont want to be reading my personal stuff...but of course i dont mind you reading lol...im gonna add you on that diary and take you off on this 1 coz i still think your diary rox!!! love ya |
| from askingtomuch : |
| ur such great writer and your layout is amazing<3 |
| from emptyempty : |
| ohh *blush* heh thanks for notifying me, I've got it changed now =D <3 |
| from emptyempty : |
| Those photo's are so sad... =*( I added you to my faves though, I hope you don't mind. Thanks for dropping me a not - don't worry, I wasn't offended. You shouldn't worry, I'm alright - you're sweet to care though. And no, Im not from the US, I'm Scandinavian (hence the not too great English, heh). Take care <3 |
| from strawberrri : |
| hiya hun, i'll put you on my buddy list if that's ok, so i don't forget to read you! |
| from queensdiarys : |
| Thats ok and its true! |
| from aurora-scars : |
| not at all...if you want a username & password to get in, e-mail me on [email protected] and ill send you them :) xXx Aurora xXx |
| from soppy-sox : |
| "no one can make you feel inferior without ur permission" |
| from mjraven87 : |
| keep going babe, love you xxxx |
| from queensdiarys : |
| NO DONT LOCK YOUR DIARY!!!!! YOU CANT DIARYLAND WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN!!! |
| from angel-pink : |
| If you do lock your diary, could you please leave a note when/if you open it again. thanks. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| im fine babe, look after yourself xxxxx |
| from sexi-mami069 : |
| i love yah diary...come check mine out too..ok thanx bye, take care...bye! |
| from angel-pink : |
| Hey thanxs 4 the note! Ur layout is great. Keep writin, talk 2 ya soon. cya. |
| from queensdiarys : |
| hiya! i live near the isle of whight, you should of come for a visit lol |
| from strawberrri : |
| you got the same as me for english and english lit which means you are a very clever person :) i did sociology a level - it's very interesting. take care and watch it with the ciggies! it's not worth getting addicted xx |
| from soppy-sox : |
| I just wnat you to know, If you were the only person on earth, God STILL would have sent his only son to be tortured, beaten, ridiculed, and murdered for YOU. Because He loves YOU that much. Keep ya chin up sweety. |
| from yellowpetal : |
| very cool. hope you enjoy being a member! =) --yp |
| from dieragnarok : |
| I added you to my favorite diaries! Oh, and the layout is very nice, I like it a lot. |
| from queensdiarys : |
| WOW thanx for metioning me in your diary no1 has ever done that before *hugs* THANK YOU!!! |
| from dj--princess : |
| Hey hun hope ur ok |
| from queensdiarys : |
| love the new layout! |
| from angel-pink : |
| hey, hope ur ok. what happened 2 da layout?! keep writing, cya! |
| from strawberrri : |
| thanks hun. good luck with your results even if you think you'll have done badly xx |
| from moonsphinx : |
| LOL, man I saw the rainy-daze profile and I'm thinking, "This is the exact same thing I saw with the other girl." 10 minutes of oging back and forth and I realize you're the same person. Dumb me! =) I'll defiantely be looking a bit through this diary...seems more hopeful!! |
| from broken-torn : |
| Heh, don't worry about my last message. Your howdy was abrupt, so I tried to confuse you. ;) |
| from p-brain : |
| Welcome to the Ineedahug ring! *squuueeze* |
| from soppy-sox : |
| Hey Hey my loveleee. Love yta always and forever!! "keep on truckin', there'll be a bend in the road soon!" See ya around sweetie. xx |
| from solstice36 : |
| thanks for joining the abused ring. also check out http://speak-out.diaryland.com, a place where you can post poems, stories and experiences about abuse |
| from queensdiarys : |
| i just read the whole of your diary! wow! |
| from queensdiarys : |
| now im listening to big brovaz i am going to be your fist proper reader! ill put you on my favs list in a sec! |
| from queensdiarys : |
| lolz thats weird i was just listening to that song! im just on the bit about your childhood |
| from queensdiarys : |
| not yet im just getting into it now :) |
| from queensdiarys : |
| lolz thanx! your diary rox to!! lots of love Emma xxx |
| from broken-torn : |
| Howdy to you aswell. All your base are belong to us. |
| from i-lov-steven : |
| thasnks for joining, but my ring is only up for 4 more days, Unless I buy more time.Which I am broke right now and my credit card just expired so if you would like to donate money you can email me at [email protected] tHanks-Jr |
| from inkdragon : |
| You rocked my socks with your message. I will be back to read more of you. I have a feeling we have a lot in common (except I'm old)! |
| from angelgurl404 : |
| it means i dont know |
| from angelgurl404 : |
| iono really... |
| from flyin2thesun : |
| for christs sake sort yourself out! This food obsession is just getting worse and worse. I thought you were being sensible. Oh well I guess it's your choice...your funeral. |
| from strawberrri : |
| my landlord lives in syston :) in september i'll be living in highfields *shudder* but i spent my first year living in oadby, which was gorgeous and had a very convenient asda nearby. |
| from angelgurl404 : |
| i listed you as a favorite, just thought you might like to know. |
| from mjraven87 : |
| ok babe. u know u can always say how u really feel? i want to help. love u xxx |
| from mjraven87 : |
| love u too babe xxx |
| from me-destruit : |
| Hey, sorry about that, I knew I would misspellit. I'll change it! |
| from charmangel : |
| dear rainy-daze, i can give you my password if you want.please leave me a note if you want it. luv,charmangel |
| from me-destruit : |
| thanks for the compliment! I read a couple entrys on your diary and decided to add you as a favorite! |
| from anaz-gurl : |
| Ive listed you as a favourite diary. Hope that's o.k. Luv Anaz Gurl xx |
| from mystagrl05 : |
| hey, so uhm, are you bi??? If you are, I'd love to talk to you. I'm currently having a problem figuring out my own sexuality, so it'd be nice to talk to someone else about it. |
| from mystagrl05 : |
| hey, so uhm, are you bi??? If you are, I'd love to talk to you. I'm currently having a problem figuring out my own sexuality, so it'd be nice to talk to someone else about it. |
| from angel-pink : |
| dont b so hard on urself 4 eatin, we'v al gota eat. dnt worry bout da examiners, they'r paid 2 make our lives hell. heres a tip, wen u feel like choc eat a banana, less calories same efect so im told. keep writin and smile! :) |
| from dj--princess : |
| go you wth leavin your blades behind, enjoy your holiday, eat healthy n have fun! Dunno where ur off but wld like to know |
| from anasmyway : |
| Hi I was wondering if you would like to check out our Ana-Mia Mondays. Basically its where I will post 5 questions dealing with ana-mia. Please don't get the wrong impression. I'm doing this to provide support to people like us with ed and inviting them into our little family that we can give advice support to. I'm not trying to advertise ana-mia in anyway. So please come check us out. Don't want to bore you there is more info at my diary. I hope to see you there. Thanks for your time. :) |
| from xanasforcex : |
| hey ... dont be so hard on yourself! You need to have some cals a day just to get through! and your always burning cals... at least fit in alittle bit, total fasts never work! the longest a person can live with absolutly no food is only 4 weeks... so be careful girl! .... take care/kita |
| from strawberrri : |
| thank you for your kind words about my art and diary! you are such a nice person, it's a shame you're so unhappy x |
| from angel-pink : |
| hey, i just got your note and no ive not done anything stupid. i was at disneyland paris for the week. i can see why you might think that though, what with the poem and all. i shouldve explained, that was like a message to my friend even though i know she'l prob never read it. does that make sense? thanx for being so concerned though. sorry. cya. |
| from dj--princess : |
| There's NOTHING wrong with being fat at all, Please remember this, it's no fun been thin, trust me, please get help if you are not doing so already, im owrried about you i dont know you but i care, and it's not what u look like thats important, it's inside that is who you are, you are amazing! |
| from inkdragon : |
| Sweetie, just read your entry at Speak-Out. You are NOT to blame. No child is responsible EVER. Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you. |
| from sliceduparm : |
| hey, thanks for the note :) ... like Lauren, I'm curious where you found me ... can't seem to get into your diary to read it :( ... anyway, not planning on stopping just now, it's not working!!! -Elf |
| from slalauren : |
| yay I got a note *grins widely* just outta curiosity where'd you find my diary? -Lauren PS I'll nosey off and read YOUR diary tomorrow |
| from sylviashadow : |
| Thanks for taking my ana and mia survey and for sharing your opinions with me! Come back anytime!--sylviashadow |
| from ruthiebat : |
| Well, heyloooooo to you, too!! |
| from dj--princess : |
| Hey I've e-mailed ya [email protected] account so please read it, take care Thanks for leavin me a note to |
| from angel-pink : |
| hey, i read your poems and i think they're really good. i also think you're too hard on yourself, you sound like a really nice person. Dont let people get to you, they're not worth it. Cya. |
| from jilljohnston : |
| i applaud you for your courage of admitting your 'self-harm'... i was in that situation... once... although it's only the beginning. i take meds for depression too, prozac... i wish you all the best of luck <3 thanks for the note too, do you often read my diary? -jill |
| from strawberrri : |
| that was a very chilling (but good) poem. |
| from strawberrri : |
| hello you, was reading through your entries and i felt so angry about what that boy on the bus said to you, but at that age the people who make those comments have no idea how much it can hurt people. he would have forgotten he even said it the next day but you'll probably remember it for a long time to come. i was bullied at school for a bit and i too went through a phase where i thought i was the ugliest girl in the world, but it won't last forever, i promise. and please try not to cut yourself! |
| from littlesprite : |
| if you love yourself then the world loves you. smile and the world will smile with you. and if it doesn't then why should you care? you are you and there's nothing that's gonna change that. Never apologise for who you are. smiles. xxxx |
| from jellybelly84 : |
| heyyy what's up |
| from mjraven87 : |
| didnt have time to update my diary today, will do tomorrow before i go back to Wall Lane. love ya babe, take care Shell xxxxx |
| from bibulous : |
| Wishing you happiness and hoping your mum doesn't make things to hard on you. |
| from pink-faery : |
| Thanks for adding me. I wont be writing again until I get a layout, I think. But that will be soon. |
| from flyin2thesun : |
| ...ah ok. so who r ya? |
| from mjraven87 : |
| : P he he. Love ya babe xxxx |
| from strawberrri : |
| hello, hello! of course you may. i'll give your diary a read sometime...when i'm not feeling disgustingly hungover...ugh. |
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