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| from lostasyou : |
| I read your diary a long time ago, years in fact, from another account. I just remembered your URL really randomly and decided to see how you're doing - hope you don't mind. I really hope this year goes better for you. |
| from silver4 : |
| 10,000 is awesome! Congrats!! |
| from silver4 : |
| Just noticed your note, I am super oblivious to notes these days since we no longer get notifications! Right?? Inconvenient sometimes ..hope things are on the up with you <3 |
| from enurta : |
| how are they connected? I hope you'll feel better soon, keeping my fingers crossed <3 |
| from enurta : |
| Love you too, beautiful lady! <3 |
| from enurta : |
| *fingers crossed* |
| from enurta : |
| fuck men. they are stupid. you are beautiful. stay strong <3 |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Thank you, that meant a lot to me. I miss our random all-night facebook banter. And you're absolutely beautiful, and I'm not just talking about your gorgeous face. |
| from enurta : |
| and you are NOT fat. trust me. when you stop the drinking you'll lose so much...because alcohol makes the body all puffy. did you get the e-mail I sent? I mentioned AA. might be worth a shot? at least then you'd have a sponsor or something. that's a good way to meet people too...who knows. ya know? and a man cannot save you. I've tried that shit already. I am the perfect example of that shit failing completely. only YOU can save yourself. unless having a kid will make you happy. I don't know. I never ever want children. ever. in this life. |
| from enurta : |
| why do you have debt at all? and thanks for the note <3 I just got home. it went well. |
| from enurta : |
| you might suffer from anemia. see a doctor, please! I'm sure it'll grow back <3 |
| from silver4 : |
| Why is your hair going crazy?? Stress? I feel you, I've been down in the dumps and not feeling up there lately. I've cut back a lot on drinking though, and that helps with my mood sometimes. I know I am chunky, partially due to alcohol, so I'm trying to solve that issue these days. I think you should drop that freelance gig, since they haven't paid you. They are getting work done for free! That's never fair. Sending you love! I also suck with updating lately, trying to get back into it |
| from ecstasia : |
| Hi, remember me? I haven't updated in years but I felt the call to sign in and your diary was updated and I read some of your recent entries. I'm sorry you are in a terrible place, it must be really hard. Just know that when you write it doesn't go into a void - people are here reading your words. One of the things that helped me very much was geneen roth and her books, Women, Food and God and Overcoming Emotional Eating. I found much solace in reading those books and I hope you do as well. |
| from enurta : |
| <3 thank you. I do not believe it's true though. but thank you. <3 |
| from enurta : |
| I have advice for you...instead of purging, think of all the people who do not even have food at all...who die because of starvation. so just keep the food down and eat less or not at all the next day (your choice). I lost a lot of weight this way. it also makes a person actually value the fact that we even *have* the option to eat....<3 |
| from enurta : |
| your life doesn't suck. you're the boss at your job, right? that must be kind of good? I've never had a job in my entire life. so I envy you. and having someone isn't ALL THAT believe me. I envy women who can live on their own. I would never be able to do that. well, I did for about a year but it was awful. so consider yourself as strong & independent :) <3 |
| from enurta : |
| why don't you just lock up the diary if you want to remain private? xoxo |
| from julymalaise : |
| Meant to say you rock at the end, lol. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Thanks, Ray! Yeah, as far as I'm concerned, she can kick rocks. Don't got time for dumb bitches. By the way, love the goal that you set up for yourself for the summer! So inspiring! You rocm, raygirl999!!! |
| from silver4 : |
| You can do it! I feel like we are on some of the same journeys sometimes... I am desperately trying to lose weight too! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Damn, I want some! Looks yummy! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Thanks, I missed you! It was so nerve-racking that I had to leave diaryland just when I was coming back, lol, but the problems are fixed so that is all good! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I will bake a pie, but I don't typically eat it. For you, I'll make an exception. We'll call it co-workers-can-suck-on-dangerous-mold pie. But it won't be dangerous. . . it will most certainly be delicious. With ice-cream! |
| from silver4 : |
| Congrats on the new position, pending it works out for you! |
| from silver4 : |
| Sorry you had such a crappy time. Visiting family and Vegas shouldn't be so lame. Hope you are feeling better. If you find yourself back here for fun, let me know! |
| from silver4 : |
| Tinder was stupid for me. I most met up with a guy but he was blatantly just gross after texting with him a bit. And I got the same thing as you, I would send a message to a match and they didn't reply. Wtf, are they just swiping right on every girl just to get matches and then weed through after? Asses. Online dating annoys the hell out of me, but I still go back and do it every now and then, only to get frustrated and pissed off again. Hope you have fun in Vegas! The weather should be awesome this weekend! I am road tripping out for a convention but back some time Sunday. If you get some time away from the fam and want to hang, let me know! All I do is hang out downtown though mostly haha |
| from atwowaydream : |
| It's funny, because as I was being told these stories I immediately thought of you and that poem you received and your immediate reaction to it. Nutella? Oh Lawd. I wonder if there's a site dedicated to online dating horror stories. . . I think I'm gonna go find out. As always, I love hearing from you. |
| from silver4 : |
| Hm well I don't frequent the strip that much anymore, but there's a new place called The Quad that is supposed to be some good area to hang out at. You aren't going to stay with family at all? I usually end up downtown. People also like to go to the Cosmopolitan a lot too, it's really pretty in there. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| One day, I'm truckin' my ass up to New York, and we can both be unpredictable, reckless, and exciting together. As for the thoughts you're having lately, I definitely know those feels and send you big, sumptuous Diaryland hugs. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I think in some ways, we're possibly kindred spirits. |
| from msjessica : |
| feeling nostalgic i guess, thought i'd drop by your diary to see how you are. congratulations on your sober time, and even more for feeling like after having another taste you know you're not missing out on anything. those first few weeks of changing a habit can be so tiring and very rocky terrain but it's so beautiful when that clears and you can see things in a different light. sounds like that's where you're at now, i'm happy for you :) hug and love from an old "friend" on the other side of the globe xx |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I meant to thank you for the supporting and encouraging words. . . a little late now, but thank you, I certainly needed it. As for your nervous breakdown, I send you lots of anti-nervous breakdown internet pills. Which are essentially just diaryland hugs. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| From the little bit of research (mainly google and pinterest, but I'm willing to admit to both) I've done online, mermaid hair is possibly the most beautiful thing I've seen. Thank you for the vote of confidence! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Thank you. . . really. Same goes for you-- I know we both ride this roller coaster of life, but we both figure out how to buckle up and put our hands up for the next one. I love your dedication to bettering yourself. Everyone screws up, but you take that and melt it down to metal and make a fork to eat caviar and strawberries. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| When he wears a fedora, it's time to go. |
| from silver4 : |
| Haha well, by "runs" it is usually a run-walk. I have terrible endurance, which is why I am attempting more activity on the treadmill or outdoors. I really suck at running, but I try to place some motivators to get me to do it. So I just sign up for all these random runs (hoping I can ideally run through most of them), but knowing that really it's just a fun extra activity to do to get me somewhat active. Otherwise, a lot of my training is really sitting on my ass signing up for runs online and drinking wine, in my exercise clothes!! I am so unmotivated, but if i can sign up for a run every weekend or every other weekend, that would be great for training, because during the week I would force myself to go take a run so that I can get my heart and lungs semi prepared for what is to come. You can do it!! These get pricey though, it adds up. I haven't signed up for the half yet because that one is $100 and I'm not sure yet if I really believe I can do it. This may sound corny poetic, but believing and trusting that I can do it is a big part of my success in completing them. I talk to myself a lot and tell myself to power through, and eventually the finish line shows up! |
| from silver4 : |
| Wow, he sounds like quite the jerk.. Sorry he made you feel bad and that you cried. Not worth it. Hopefully things turn around soon or you find some place better that treats well and recognizes your merit!! |
| from silver4 : |
| Social media takes time. Geez, your guy sucks. Results take time, calm down man!! Lol |
| from julymalaise : |
| Happy new years to you as well!! GLAD TO BE BACK!!!!"! |
| from silver4 : |
| Oh..and some decent men. Let's meet some decent men, dammit |
| from silver4 : |
| Happy new year to you!! Hopefully we will both rock 2014! Much success to you, and let's both get our finances in check so our careers can soar! Looking forward to a lot of positive things |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Cheers to you love and Happy New Year! Perhaps 2014 will be even more dazzling and fortuitous than ever before. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I wouldn't want to work on a team with her, either! She'd just muck things up. Sometimes you have to work things on a more individual level just to separate yourself from people who'll otherwise bring you down. You always get mad props from me. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Thanks! I liked what you wrote about Nelson Mandela as well. I really was shocked when I heard he passed. My mom told me via text and I was like "OMG"? ITS sad... |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Darling, your cat is lucky to have someone like you. A person that makes that kind of comment, usually goes home to an empty house, even if she has a significant other. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Aw, glad to know that you got to see some family members! You guys probably had a great time together. Yeah, thanksgiving was fun! Its my favorite holiday! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Hope you enjoyed your time in Philly! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Haha, thanks, its great to be back! Those lame-ass bitches are getting so old. I'm ready for 2014. Hell yeah! |
| from julymalaise : |
| I totally agree. They act like a pack of high school bitches, like aren't they out of that phase of life? Misery lives company, though. They all need to get that pole out of their butts and be polite! |
| from julymalaise : |
| That's horrible that people went out of their way to say rude stuff to you, what the hell, what bitches. When I was on LJ, people were being snobby and I didnt like that. And yeah, they didnt seem to care either like d-land cares about their friends. They were just annoying and mean people, haha. |
| from julymalaise : |
| You had a LJ as well? Yeah, they are really dumb pricks there! Completely stupid and d-land is si awesome, the people here are so kind and loyal! It feels more like home here... |
| from julymalaise : |
| Okay, I deleted it and I sent you the password! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Sure, I'll send it to you! Do you want me to delete the note with your email on it? |
| from julymalaise : |
| Hey, I'm back! Missed you, girl! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Definitely still out here, definitely still reading. Hugs to you for still kicking ass. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I haven't tried day drinking in a long time; I'm always afraid I'll wake up in some parallel universe and fall out of my bed with a hangover at like, seven in the evening. But hey, everyone chills in their own way. Cheers. |
| from silver4 : |
| Ooh good luck w the chatting with the Cupid crew! I don't have the energy to tend to the online dating again yet. One of these days I'll get back to it :( |
| from silver4 : |
| You DO deserve the world! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Yay! Finally a boss and company that really appreciates your worth. You deserve it! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| she's not Beyonce, but yeah, it's hard to just get rid of someone. No matter what, I have faith in you doing the right thing, whatever that takes. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| This lazy entitled employee probably has an issue with you being her boss. Oh fucking well. You've earned your title and obviously she wasn't qualified, so it's time for her to get over it. I wish you luck. I know how much lazy coworkers find this invisible chip on their shoulder and keep nursing it time after time. |
| from silver4 : |
| My friend had bed bugs and he had to toss the bed and get the place fumigated, lived in a hotel for a few days. It was when we were in the D school apartments, and the bugs managed to make their way over to the neighboring apartment too. Fun times. Lots of drama. However, he had gotten the bed from the street or something so...yea. Hopefully your situation improves! |
| from silver4 : |
| WTH how did you hurt your corneas?? |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Whatever decision you make, it's your life, so it's your decision. No one knows the situation, no one is in your shoes, you are completely validated in whatever decision you make. And as a friend, however little that might mean across the aether, I'll support that. You go with your bad self. Sixty grand is sixty grand. I would probably be doing backflips. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| D'aww... thank you. I can't believe that situation with the movers. I mean, just. . . wtf? |
| from atwowaydream : |
| You have a conscience, is all. Your boss is a dick, but also, for a place of work to pretty much say "NOW OR NEVER" is hard to just accept and leave everything you know behind. I would have gotten drunk too, darling. So cheers! I still say, fuck your boss, but your time will come. You have way too much to offer for it not to. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Your boss hasn't done you any favors, do you really owe him one? If they're serious, and so are you, take the job, love. |
| from enurta : |
| hey. i just wanted to say I have a blog, if you want to read. here's the url: http://itsnotwar.blogspot.com |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I love Veep. Did the president call? |
| from atwowaydream : |
| "Fight fire with nuclear bombs motherfucker." Ha! Indeed. It's the only way. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I'm so happy that one of your bosses is finally seeing and DOING something about your potential. Also, congrats on your Masters, love! You definitely earned it. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Tomorrow, love, no worries. I'm just spoiled by my sister and got a couple of presents early. Eek. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| you are fucking rockin' it. You really are. I' always rooting for you, no matter how dickheaded your bosses. |
| from silver4 : |
| So I know you are counting the months/days till you are out, but are you kinda finding that you like that place right now since the boss is seemingly appreciative of you and your work? |
| from atwowaydream : |
| awesome job with the weight and the no bingeing and purging. it's hard. I hope this boss treats you the way you should be treated. . . you're a work horse, and you need to get some credit for it. |
| from silver4 : |
| So I was happy you found new jobs that seemed in line with what you wanted, but then they turned out to suck, so that blows. Good thing you identified it early on that it's gonna be a waste of your time, so you can plan ahead and look for something else. Hang in there. Apparently it is as hard as they have said it is to find jobs now. I am also enjoying distracting myself with working out a bit...not as much as I should, but it helps to clear away the frustration with work/non work. I'll have to check out that black soap, I've always seen it but standard just pick up dove or something haha |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Honestly, I'm glad their website is falling to shit without you, too. Hopefully it gets worse before it gets better. |
| from silver4 : |
| That's stupid. Why can't people just value the hard working employees they have instead of screw them over? Whatever |
| from silver4 : |
| Exactly. I would half ass the training completely. Yeah, it isn't the new girl's fault, but bad timing on her part. That shouldn't be on you to train. I say you call in sick and let someone else do it haha |
| from silver4 : |
| Wow. You need to get out of that job soon. They don't deserve you at all. You should "accidentally" mess up the websites somehow so that they have to figure it out on their own |
| from silver4 : |
| How frustrating and annoying. I hate your job too. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Thanks, I got registered today!! And hooray for continuing your celebrations! And you are welcome! Good luck on the dating sites, I'm eager to hear about it! |
| from silver4 : |
| Happy birthday!! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Yayay! Glad you enjoyed your 32nd birthday! |
| from julymalaise : |
| I feel yoir pain about the friend thing. I always try to plan out something fun with my one friend on special occassions, but she never wants to do shit, like the fuck??!!!? You are no fun!! Whatever, just enjoy your bday the way you want to enjoy it. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I miss your facebook randomness. Demon spawn children often have mothers who just sit there and watch when their "child" throws trash at someone. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Sounds like that kid needs some Maury Povich boot camp. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Hey! Sure, you can have a password to my journal. I sent you an email. Do tell me when you get it!!! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Wanted to leave you a note a while ago, but your note section was shut off. Anyway, welcome back, for the time being, or for however long you intend to stay. I'm here still, struggling as usual, but still learning. Slippery little fuckers, we are. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Yay!!! Raygirl, you are back!! I missed you so!! |
| from silver4 : |
| Welcome back! Missed you :) |
| from silver4 : |
| You updated but did you change your password??? |
| from silver4 : |
| No crying, no depression :( I think you are due for a vacation |
| from cloudy-night : |
| Your boss seems like a jerk! Why would he pull criticize you in front of everybody in such a manner? Doesn't he suppose to pull you to the side and tell you what he thinks? The fact that he didn't even read the effin report is just proof that he's a jerk. But it could be that he's just trying to prepare you for the reality of the real world. I'm pretty sure you'll run into plenty of jerks in the work world. I also had a problem with guys trying to sell me CD's and I tell them no, but I don't get the same reaction you get. I guess being a big, scary guy nullifies such occurrences for me. But with all the things that are going on with you, seems like sinking into yourself would only be a natural thing. But you know, this is all a test of sorts. Endure it and things will get better because sometimes the nicest people in the world are often placed in the shittiest situations. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| someone in your life needs to die. i'm not being specific, nor am i being serious. but still. she seems like the most annoying bitch in the world and you have my thoughts and prayers with you. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Of course you did, you smart little fuck. One of these days we will talk on the phone and then not remember it the next day. I will not say who could out-drink the other, but I guarantee I will out-weird the other. Like, that's a promise. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Yay for Happy Endings. Ha, that went three ways. i worked extra hard on that for a minute or seven. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Strumpet, even. argh. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| sometimes you make me giggle. your roommate is a retarded trumpet. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Part of me likes the timeline, and part of me doesn't. . . but I'm always strangely dualistic. I never knew a few facebook comments could bring out my little hidden satan, but uh, it did. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Yay, congradulations on the project!! It sounds like fun!! Keep us updated, raygirl! |
| from silver4 : |
| I still love how we seem to be in the mindset or same paths/situations kind of, I always see something of myself in what you write (except I don't have a psychotic bitchy roommate..)! Gym, school, work, love (or lack of bleh), etc... I swear you are my long lost cousin or something haha |
| from julymalaise : |
| Keep working hard, girl!! I'm so happy for you! And ewww, that roommate is dirty as sh!#%! |
| from julymalaise : |
| OMG, hahha I know. I need to write and thanks, I am okay and I missed you lots as well. How's it going? Hope all is well with you, Raygirl! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Good luck with everything, you little trollop! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Glad your vacay was great! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I looked through your vacation pictures, and I think you looked like you were glowing and absolutely lovely! Glad to have you back, though. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Have mucho fun in Mexico!! Do tell us how the trip goes and get some sun and enjoy the beauty of the ocean! |
| from enurta : |
| glad you're having fun :) |
| from julymalaise : |
| Have fun in Mexicooooo, grrrrll. Have a seguro viaje!! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Thank you very much raygirl!! I hope you have a lovely year filled with opportunities and adventures!! YAY!! 2012!! And you moved back to NYC? By yourself? Without that no-nonsense roommate? YAY!! *does flips* Go Ray!! |
| from cloudy-night : |
| It's great that you didn't forget the cat! Have a MERRY CHRISTMAS & a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| also, you did a splendid job of roasting this professor. i said splendid, yes. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| The Cosby Sweater is always a marker for. . . some sort of insanity. Your professor is a dick, but he's also a decent percent of the population, which is always so much fun. And refreshing. Then ending up in the morgue. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I send you hugs, darlin'. Surgery is always a big scary, no matter what it's for. As for your dickhead teacher. . . he's probably one of those dickhead Uncles who buys impossibly horrendous Christmas presents for his relatives. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| It's so awesome that you had a good time. Britney is one tough ass bitch, and right now I will go and listen to, "Hit Me Baby One More Time" and enjoy it tremendously. |
| from fat0free0air : |
| Thank you for your kind words, it means something to hear that someone cares every once in a while even when we know that more people love us than we can probably count. I'd love to read your diary....except it's locked :( xo |
| from julymalaise : |
| Awww... thanks, I'm glad you are proud of me and thanks for calling me awesome, so are you!! I love pens and journals. They define my life so much!!! And I totally agree with you, finding a long-lost journal is just so magnificent, it's just like recovering a treasure!! It's such a lovely feeling!! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Maybe you need a better-hearted circle in your life. |
| from julymalaise : |
| I know, I have to be vigilant around him, because this dude can be somewhat controlling and I will be careful. It just annoys me how he does that after I told him I want to be friends. He'll get the gist soon. And if he doesn't, that's it. I'll cut communication with him. I don't need this extra drama this school year. Thanks for the advice, RAYY!! You're always fabulous! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| aw baby, you know it. :::masturbates herself into oblivion:::: i'm just done with life sometimes, ya know? |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Your roommate needs her cat to take a shit in her mouth, preferably while she's talking smack. |
| from silver4 : |
| Congrats on the job! That's awesome! And I still don't like your roommate.. |
| from enurta : |
| never thought of it that way...but you are right. too bad I don't know how to 'end' a friendship, I don't have any friends left IRL who aren't family. so I keep hanging on, hoping she will make me feel less lonely. 'Done.Now back to crying and realizing I will die friendless and alone. Does it really matter though?' I feel exactly the same... |
| from enurta : |
| It�s always a �competetion�, and it pisses me off. So called friends like that absolutely loooooooooooove to make others feel like shit. I am not a loser and neither are you! So whatever. I�m just going to stop calling her. I�m sick of how she brags about her awesome sex-life too, hello? I didn�t ask. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Thanks so much, raygirl!!! I'm so excited!! :D ((hugs)) |
| from enurta : |
| of course things can change. hopefully, for the better *hugs* |
| from atwowaydream : |
| We would tear up the streets. But perhaps that's what New York needs. |
| from silver4 : |
| Hey! Sorry I didnt get back to you sooner. There are definitely things you can get done to fix the tooth back up. I know I'm late, but hope the root canal went well! I'm sure it was quick and painless |
| from silver4 : |
| Wait so what happened? I think I missed something during my Mexico trip haha! From what it sounds like though, your tooth came out and they put it back in? When that happens, the root canal will keep it functional, but there's a chance that over time the root will start to resorb from the trauma but it's hard to predict. Otherwise though recovery from root canal itself is pretty quick and they should be able to restore the tooth asap!! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Mexico! Yay. So friggin' awesome, sweetie. |
| from silver4 : |
| Yay Mexico and yay root canals! You probably expected me to say that ;) |
| from atwowaydream : |
| you always get back up, no matter what. that's fuckin' beautiful. |
| from silver4 : |
| The roommate sounds like a keeper! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Man, I'm sorry if B and F keep giving you a hard time, but they gotta stop being dramatic!! This is getting too crazy! Well, I hope you are doing well, raygirl and you are my fav!!! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Thanks, love. Crossing my fingers!! Oh, so excitedddd! |
| from enurta : |
| thanks for the hug sweetie. I e-mailed you a couple of minutes ago....I hope u get it <3 |
| from julymalaise : |
| Thanks for the kind words and I do hope the colleges I am applying to WILL accept me. Let's hope for the best!! And college does seem fun!! I can't wait to be out on my own and have some fun!! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| also, i remember talking about all of that. both of us got really dramatic with Smashed, because it was that disappointing. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| We certainly are. Voyeurs to the little bony heart-core. But, you really will like this book. I don't know you like that, but I think i might know you enough to recommend a book. if that says anything. Like Being Killed, the late, Ellen Miller. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Yeah, they have to calm down and man, he can't bring his lover back, at least now yet. Not with the cops surrounded and the like you said, it's halloween. He'll be noticeable, duh!! Unless he comes in costume, I dunno, a suggestion, perhaps? Just kidding. Lol. Your roomate needs a reality check and jeez, like she has to control her cat and see what's wrong with him if he is peeing all over the place. I hate when people are loud in the library, I mean the library is a silent place, that is why you go there, for some peace and quiet. If y'all wanna be all rowdy and obnoxious, take yo asses to a bar, the fucck! LOl. Thanks for calling me awesome and you're welcome for the note. I was concerned for you and hoping you were okay. Yeah, the snow melted and I glad it was gone in your area too. YOU ARE AMAZING, girrrl! Stay strong! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Wow, that couple are starting so hard to be star-crossed lover and all you did for them this weekend! I hope you will better and don't let it bother you. They will appreciate your kindness some way, but right now, both of them need some sense knocked into them. And man, your roommate is obssessed with their cat, but does not take care of it. She has to step up, yo. And feel better, love, because you are freakin' awesome and I consider one of my closest d-land friends!! Ta-ta! |
| from silver4 : |
| Okay so that sounds beyond frustrating and annoying. Especially the whole suicide codependent thing. When I read that part, I rolled my eyes. Not that it's not a serious thing, but it sounds like overdramatizing a situation. A night apart isn't the end of the world. Crappy situation overall, espec also for you to be mixed up in. It sucks having to be the one to save the day, and the one with a rational mind. Yeah um... damn. Happy Halloween? |
| from julymalaise : |
| What's going on? Do you want to talk about it? I read your earlier entry about the bf, but I wasn't sure what was going on... are you okay? ((hugs)) |
| from julymalaise : |
| It's snowing here too! But ours is a mix of snow and rain... |
| from silver4 : |
| Wow. I think I'd be part freaked out, part incredulous, part trembling after seeing that.. Good luck with your friends.. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Yo, your roomate sounds like a complete snob. She gotta chill, like now. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| You are awesome with a side of sauce. Wow. I really am clicking "Done". |
| from julymalaise : |
| I know, you're right, she was trying to push your buttons, but gosh, she didn't have to talk about her cat getting "excited", that's just gross, lol. Is she those crazy cat people? And I feel you, roommates are a pain because they don't want to do anything and you are stuck doing everything and it stinks. Glad you'll be moving from her though. She sounds mean! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| You know, I actually think we could be good friends. Perhaps one day we'll both have our walls down simultaneously. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Happy Endings is what reminded me how much I had a crush on her! I can't watch 24. I just can't do it. It was too mainstream. It was too current for a fake-ass hipster like me. BTW: proud of you for everything that's going on in New York! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Roomates, ugh!! Wow, that wasn't nice what she said and she does need to be slapped. And why were you talking about cats having erections in the first place! IMAO, funny as shit! |
| from silver4 : |
| Happy birthday!! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Eeep. thank you. :) |
| from silver4 : |
| Lucky, you met Bobby flay! I love him! and happy early birthday in case I forget to come around here on Friday :) |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Much love and hugs. I know I'm not your mama, but I'm proud of you. :) |
| from julymalaise : |
| Is that meanie still giving you a lot of work? That B IOTCH! |
| from silver4 : |
| Hm actually...not sure! I started researching programs out of state, so it's possible. The only issue I have with tx now is that I know waaaay too many people who have moved out there recently and I honestly don't think I can handle being around them all again! Dental school was terrible for my liver haha |
| from julymalaise : |
| Hey, has it been raining miserably in your area for the longest time as well? Just wondering... lol cuz I'm feeling under the weather... |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Your wisdom is always appreciated. And I'm stoked that you're finally coming into yourself in the city that never sleeps. I admire you, and you should be quite proud of yourself. |
| from silver4 : |
| Glad the right raygirl is there with you! Looks like you're on the right path and happy, so I hope it all keeps coming together for you |
| from enurta : |
| 'I feel good, I feel smart and I'm getting things done' that's great news, hun! but why obsess over calories? come on, you're better than that. you are beautiful. <3 |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I think New York is just. . . in your veins. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| aw, thanks for checking in, sweetie. just had some relationship drama and sometimes i come to my diary first to deal with things. even if it means talking them out to myself. many hugs your way. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| of course not, silly. just enough for emergency knock-outs. You're going to New York soon. Find out the good pizza joints for me. . . I'm really picky. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Oh, I'm sure it is not because of that. Weather happens, lol. And thanks, I hope you stay safe too! You have nothing to worry about. By the time, the hurricane comes your way, it will be diminishing. I heard we are getting the worst of it here soon. I hope it is not what they said it is... And good luck at the new apartment! |
| from silver4 : |
| Omg how much more time before the move?? I want you to be at the next step already!! :) |
| from atwowaydream : |
| i suppose it is life. just so you know, i can totally understand the whole binging/purging thing. it's been my worst best friend since i was fourteen. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| If only we could get it to stay the same at least throughout the day. I really didn't know there was anyone else who felt like this. I'm not happy about it, but don't feel quite so nutty. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Aww, thanks. I'm all right. It turned out no severe storms came our way, just only the one I was writing about in my diary. The severe storms went out to the shore, so yeah. But glad it's sunny today here!! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Awww, thanks, I will update soon. I just have to figure out what to say about my vacation, since a lot happened! |
| from julymalaise : |
| You're welcome, raygirl, and thank you. Yeah, I just got back from vacation like a week ago? Yeah.. I gotta tell you guys what happened, but lately, I've been lazy to update because I don't know where to start ! |
| from julymalaise : |
| I wish you luck, raygirl! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I have tried this whole false trashness, and he falls for it for like, a week, and then figures it out. He sniffs it out like some junkyard dog. I'm just going to drop him off at a dump and let him have his paradise. |
| from silver4 : |
| I swear, we are just living the same life! Just a few miles apart ;) |
| from atwowaydream : |
| can i get a motherfuckin' amen for your last comment? (also a slippery narcisstic need to pop up in some of his movies.) |
| from silver4 : |
| Haha I know! I wasn't even pissed I was more humored by it! I could kinda see someone having an adventure throwing random dollar crap into the cart with an evil smile hahaha |
| from enurta : |
| wow, your new lay-out is really cool :) |
| from julymalaise : |
| She is such a slut. I hate her so friggin' much. Her show is a waste of time and whoever watches that show is a loser. Even her family is so annoying! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Your boss needs a lobotomy. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Thanks for suggesting those authors to me! I really appreciate it! Yeah, I wanna read that latest book from James Patterson, the one about Middle School and the one after middle school. It sounds interesting. I seriously need to pay a visit to the bookstore and get some books, or at least go to the library and check out some books. Anyway, I love "Little Women."! Best book and movie ever. I love Winona Ryder, she is the most awesomeness actor! |
| from enurta : |
| 'I will just be me. Loud, crazy, tall and wild. Just me.' I like your attitude! wish I could accept myself like that too... |
| from silver4 : |
| Thanks !! It was a crazy first day but I love it <3 |
| from lisasays : |
| I can't even tell you how happy I am to hear of your transformation and commitment to health and happiness. Rock on! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Yeah, you are right, it is not worth the trouble, you know? He's such a loser and I won't see him anymore, so that's good. Yeah, Kashi is definetely out of this world. I had their granola bars and they are splendid! The Peanut Peanut Butter is my favorite! Omigod, if you are a peanut butter fan like me, they are guaranteed to satifsy! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Dear raygirl! That is good you are finding healthy ways to lose weights. Some of the healthy foods I like are the Kiashi brand. OMG! Their cereal is simply out-of-this-world!!! Especially the "Heart to Heart." And hey! There's no need to be ashamed of going shopping for clothes! Shopping is good for the soul, it's a proven fact!! Glad you are doing well, write bacccckk! |
| from silver4 : |
| I'm a decent eater, but you are inspiring me to do a lot better. I'm basically learning from what you write, except now you depressed me with the revelation of wine carbs!! I can't drop the wine!!! |
| from silver4 : |
| I think we are on the same page when it comes to the freak out reactions! And yeah, I never really know how to expect people to feel.. Just gotta wait it out sometimes |
| from enurta : |
| thanks for the note cupcake! I'm okay. *hugs* |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Understandable. I can respect that. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| there is no like button. argh. i should be able to Like your comment. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| oh, no! i share, i can share. we will share. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| perfectly fine, but um. tori amos and 'mine' can't just happen. there's a cult and shit you have to like, pass and whatever. what i mean is, Tori Amos is mine, no matter her new songs and no matter her little girl who shows up in all her songs and no stuffy serenades. Just in general, Tori Amos is mine. That's my main point here. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| um, you just can't say "plath mine" and expect me to be okay with it. like, at all. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| ummm. . . Sylvia is also my lover muse. We are allowed to have more than one, I'm sure. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I cannot explain how grateful I am for you using the world 'genuflect' in a comment that you left me. Awesomeness. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I believe it's the Top Ramen, since the other one has some sort of chicken or whatever in the flavoring. Yes, once you get settled in and everything's gravy, I'd love to come see you. We should totally go to that Oddities Curiosity shop. Then rip the streets up. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I had to special order the Oriental Ramen online. . . but now that it's here, nom nom. Excellent taste! |
| from lisasays : |
| I'm so happy to hear your optimism. I feel like you and I are in similar spaces - getting away from a place we dislike, moving toward the future. It's so great! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| If that entry on facebook, I would totally Like it. Your life. Screw those friends that might not really be friends at all. |
| from enurta : |
| 'This is my life. MINE and I am taking control of it' you go girl!!! I like your new attitude :) |
| from atwowaydream : |
| luv, you're doing an awesome job. you really are. just don't run yourself ragged. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Honey, you're already losing it, and another two or three days and you'll be back where you want to be. You're lovely no matter what, though. That's corny, but it's true. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I'm glad you're taking out the trash. Burn it, while you're at it. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Unfortunately, there's a little bit of Texas, everywhere. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Also, I will fuck you up for that title. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Sweetie, I only wish you to feel good things! I can't wait until you're in New York and feeling back at home. :) |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Libraries are for dirty, filthy whore books. I prefer to own mine, as well. Screw the twits who don't want to know about you. I find you to be quite fabulous! |
| from enurta : |
| I can understand completely what you mean about the purging, it�s more satisfying somehow if you keep it to a minimum. Better to purge once a day instead of 8 times. Or once a week instead of every day. After all, it�s really exhausting. |
| from enurta : |
| btw, I know what if feels like to be there for everyone but then there's no one there when *I* need someone. wish I had the strength to cut the ties with these people, but in my case, it's mostly my family, my father and my mom, also my sister. so I'm 'stuck' because they are family. it sucks. because it's *so* draining, hearing about their problems, trying to help them, I just want to rest. so good for you for being strong enough to say 'no, enough is enough, BYE!' wish i could do that....*hugs* |
| from enurta : |
| <3 |
| from atwowaydream : |
| aw, silly, you are doing so well! i don't know you all that well, and still, i am proud of you. Marshmallows or not. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| New York is so much closer than you can even imagine, darling. You will get there. |
| from warpednormal : |
| hey hun, i hope things feel better...shoot me an email or note or whatever if you need to vent. i am so glad you didn't leave us yesterday. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Well, if you ever come to DC, we will drink wine and watch reality trash television. I know what you mean about friends, sometimes it does come to retrospect, and sometimes they really are just harmless. But perhaps a little intoxicated. |
| from silver4 : |
| Oh no! I'm sorry to hear that everyone is being stupid towards you with your move. Just know that you are doing something that makes you happy and improves your life and your future. If people are going to be pissy, then that's on them. They are just jealous that you are actually going to do something and make a change and they dont have the balls to do it themselves. And as for the family, I hope they come around to supporting you soon enough. I don't see any reason for anyone to not want you to go esp with it being not just some whimsical decision. Keep your head up, you know you have a bunch of supporters out here <3 |
| from atwowaydream : |
| You are so much more than that, silly. Unless your friends are totally annihilated when you call them, then they're some fucked up friends. Or at least smoking some good shit that they're not willing to share with anyone under any circumstances. And to me, that's still fucked up. I feel you. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| You should be so proud of yourself for the NYU! But you are working yourself to death, sweetie. Give yourself some time for at least a little cat nap and some bad reality television. |
| from msjessica : |
| can i have the password? missjpulp at gmail dot come or just flick me a note? |
| from msjessica : |
| can i have the password? missjpulp at gmail dot come or just flick me a note? |
| from lisasays : |
| Wow wow WOW!! Congratulations on NYU. That's so amazing...you're going to be moving back to The City. I'm so happy for you! |
| from silver4 : |
| Bah its a no go for now... I'm going to stay where Im at for now...unless they get rid of me! Life decisions are just so damn difficult! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I totally agree, but she mysteriously tells my sister who mystically relays the message to me. Nothing is sacred, not that I give a fuck. But argh. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Hipster. This term always makes me slightly nauseous and then confused. I always think, Emo times ten trillion and then something I will never quite "get". |
| from silver4 : |
| Congrats!!! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Natural History Museum. Don't even play. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I'm like, ten minutes from D.C. Perhaps soon enough we would be able to visit each other! Toast! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Sweetie, I am so happy for you. Like, seriously. You may play hard but you work HARD. You deserve this. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| ::sigh:: You have such comedic timing! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Aw. . . that's really the sweetest thing ever. Fuck profound. I'm much more comfortable with profane. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Well you like the Clash and that just makes you awesome full-stop. What a fantastic observation you made: one-sided sock-wearing is just plain weird! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Dorothy Parker was tragic and beautiful. I'm abrasive and wily and ridiculous and coming out of the woodworks to fuck someone up. ::laughs::: i guess i'm silly. . . and vicious. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| just as long as you don't mind rather not tall, drunk and obnoxious! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| drunk and tall and adorable! but of course. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| any random 44 year-old can say that she understands and loves you. perhaps she means it. perhaps she doesn't know what "it" is. i think you're adorable. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| sweetie, start seriously looking. it sounds as if they're incompetent twats who depend on you to pick up their slack. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Your boss sounds like an incompetent douche. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Oh God. I remember that poetry. . . I think all of us literary geeks had pretentious and horrible poetry in our bones all throughout high school. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Argh. And this is from a fifteen-year-old girl. I would like to think that it's her morbid fascination with death, but I think it's a little more histrionic than that. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| overly-aggressive nodders should be shot. |
| from limes-sugar : |
| you locked :( can i visit? thinking ab you... |
| from atwowaydream : |
| You should be around. Damn this Sunday night. |
| from razor-vixen : |
| Hey! I didn't get any emails from you! Email is razor_vixen @ hotmail.com! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| my cell phone number is like fort knox. where's that vibrating melon-baller? |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I won't look at you disdainfully for anything you do. It's like, why? It's just retarded and useless. We can judge and die with a sour ass face or have fun and look somewhat pretty. I'm for the latter. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Yay, somewhat-drunken facebook commenting is fun! As for vegetarianism. . . I'm not one of *those vegetarians*. I don't look at you disdainfully as you're eating your steak. I pass you the A-1 sauce. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Okay, so we have the suspect. He should die for this. Can I get arrested for saying that online? Is that like, a valid threat? I'm much more cautious on Facebook, but not really. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Well, I need a valid suspect. And another shot. But yes, this roll thief can be apprehended and then made to cry like a sniveling adult baby. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| It wouldn't do much good, as apparently no one takes me seriously. That's why I have to used so much goddamn profanity. |
| from lisasays : |
| You are SO WISE. Now I just wish you could tell M the same thing! |
| from warpednormal : |
| no, my dear. you are bi-winning. also you are a warlock and part-tiger. :) basically you are on charlie sheen. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Sorry, it took me long to reply to yoour message, I haven't checked my notes in the longest time. Okay, I'll email you, and just to tell you, my email starts with a western nationality so you'll know who I am, mhkay? |
| from enurta : |
| I completely understand what you mean. I don�t feel happy, even if something good happens, because I keep obsessing about all the things that could go wrong in the future. I can�t relax, I am always walking on eggshells. It�s awful. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| a true friend will listen to you. but those true friends are friggin' hard to find. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| "Your misuse of the word makes baby Jesus cry." -Glad someone said it. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I remember those ephedra pills. I would take them and then drink coffee and then get so nauseous I could barely stand it. And apparently whiskers really are feelers for cats, especially if they get out of the house. But who knows, indoor cats are like this newer invincible breed. |
| from silver4 : |
| dude. your 44 year old friend annoys me. hahah |
| from atwowaydream : |
| of course you fight! it sounds corny, but we're tough in certain ways. i really do think you're quite strong and i would be in your corner. and i will fuck a bitch up. |
| from enurta : |
| thank you so much. btw - your kitty is adorable <3 |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Kitty pictures, yay. As for your other friend whose boyfriend made comments about you out of insecurity. . . sounds like he needs a good bitch slap. From Andre the Giant or something. If he were still alive. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I had a couple of those types of baby-sitters, too. Parents don't realize they exist, but if their children are eating Ramen and we're eating Spaghetti-o's, they're going to switch that shit. Also: ::: hugs ::: ♥ |
| from atwowaydream : |
| You remind me of myself in a lot of ways, as diaryland cliche as that sounds. I wish I could have said some words last night that would have helped you feel better, but I was watching alien encounter shows all night like a loon. I get like that, too. Suicide comes on like a tsunami. But you're a survivor, you've already mastered the waves. I guess it's all about taming them at this point. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Wild Turkey used to fuck me up back in the day, but if you don't have to get up too early tomorrow, I say woohoo. And if you do have to work tomorrow, I say make sure your alarm clock is inappropriately loud. I'm ordering one that's a little robot that runs off your nightstand and you have to get out of bed and chase it to turn it off. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I'll have your textual back. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Aw. You're friggin' awesome. Purple guy needs to realize there's a very serious line that he has crossed with too much purple on any given day. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Tell this purple guy that you really, really like fine cuisine and money and see what happens. |
| from silver4 : |
| ugh... sorry to hear about that :( i'm sure everything will clear up for you |
| from lisasays : |
| Oh no! Sorry to hear the news...but it's not necessarily doomsday. I've had lots of friends with fibroids go on to have babies. M's sister is 7 months pregnant, after she had fibroids and an ectopic pregnancy. So this stuff isn't the end by any means. It'll be ok, it really will. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Heeeey!! What happened to your journal? I quite liked it very much. I can understand the privacy, so if you don't want to distribute passwords, it's okay, because I can relate!! =) |
| from razor-vixen : |
| Hey there! Could I get your password if you're giving it out? [email protected]. Thanks! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Yes! The tantric sex. He acts as if we're living in the bubble yoga world where people slow dance to Fields of Gold at their wedding. |
| from silver4 : |
| sigh... lost you. please share PW if you can :) |
| from atwowaydream : |
| You are locked, and this makes me sad all day. Giving away any keys? Facebook boggles my mind, but if you want, my email address is [email protected], so maybe you can add me instead, since I'm obviously incompetent. |
| from razor-vixen : |
| Advil and water when you get home before bed....seriously! |
| from fat0free0air : |
| Thanks for reading! xo |
| from silver4 : |
| thanks! i will def let you know what it comes down to.. this stuff is getting ridiculous!! |
| from warpednormal : |
| oh my dear, open heart surgery was truly intense. not where i want to work in the future, but it was pretty cool. i saw an emergency one too, sooo it was pretty rad! i tried adding you on facebook, but your page does not give me that option :( boo! if you want, you can add me here : http://www.facebook.com/palacola much love! |
| from opposure : |
| Thanks for saying that. :) sometimes I will use the diary as a "spill" and then I will glean a poem from it. I really dig your list of favorite authors. xx |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I need to email you my facebook address because I am lost, and I feel like a tard. Cinnamon Toast Crunch for dinner. . . nom nom. As for stopping smoking for vanity, I hate to admit it, but that's a huge reason for me quitting as well. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Argh. I tried adding you on facebook, but when I go to your profile, it doesn't have the 'add as friend' option. So either I'm retarded, or I'm retarded. Or Facebook is screwed up. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Not tipsy yet, but the night is young. I'll add you too on Facebook if you don't mind. . . but you cannot scoff at my lack of friends, as I am a social anomaly. |
| from warpednormal : |
| i am also a huge attention whore and my self esteem goes straight up when i have a new facebook friend!!! Can i add you? :) |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I totally remember her! Danielle fishel. Her name was like, Tupanga or some weird shit. Yes, I need to set up this G-chat. I'm afraid of change, but apparently my 1997 chat options are full of viruses, so I need to grow up. Tomorrow is Saturday, and that is Selena Crunk Night, so I'll try to get G-chat installed by then just in case you happen to be tipsy as well. ♥ |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Oh my god, the dude with the skunk streak! John Henson. I loved him, and I loved Aisha and Hal, as now Tosh is my new temporary god. And Joel. . . :::little cartoon hearts::: Joel with his tall lanky ass, he's just awesome. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Cinnamon Toast Crunch is like the holy grail of cereals. Did you know there's a Captain Crunch Crunchberries cereal with only the berries? Nom nom. Windy Williams is just. . . "So how YOU doin'?" Do you watch The Soup? Yay about the virus. I mean, not yay, but yay about the good riddance to the virus. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| It's your diary, you can be as emo as you damn well please. http://files.sharenator.com/emo_its_like_goth_but_for_pussies_demotivational_poster_Demotivational_posters-s440x352-26277-580.jpg Teehee. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Ack. Am sorry about all the hassle with aim. I feel horrible. :( And as far as your pap smear, it's probably something minor, like a bacteria or something similar. My sister just go the same results and it ended up being a minor infection. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| yeah, i suppose aim is very 1999. but i hate change. you should see my trying to maneuver a spartphone. which is really quite stupid. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| do you have aim? |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I love David Sedaris! Have like, quite a few of his books. Not drunk yet, unfortunately. But yes, the girls at the gym twittering themselves to death while on the elliptical. I cannot even even think to convey how much I want to spray the disinfectant in their faces. Move, people. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I think I read every book that you mentioned, and yeah, Smashed sucked. I love The Basketball Diaries, and Dry and Running with Scissors are totally in my library. If you're drinking tonight, you won't be alone, so I might leave you annoying drunken diaryland notes. That's what happens when you're on my buddy list. No getting out of it. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| "You are not cute. You are dumb and annoying. No one needs to be "cute" at the gym. You should be sweaty and gross and mad." I cannot describe how much I wanted to textually high five you after reading that. And yes, it's a GYM, girls, facebook your ass somewhere else other than the exercise equipment. Like on your way home, like the rest of the texting idiots. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| omg! You like John Steinbeck! And Eminem! And someone else I like who I have now totally forgotten in that split second it took me to get here. I just wanted to say that I totally have sex with my socks on. I'm actually writing this from a boat as we speak - that is how important this information is. |
| from lisasays : |
| That's a good point about NYC...I do have a few friends still there, but I worry that they'll leave or that I'll end up in the same situation I'm in here in SF with friends who are very career-driven and thus busy busy busy. You're right that Portland or Seattle make a lot of sense for us. But they're just so far from our families. Grr, tough decisions! I hope to get this figured out soon. |
| from lisasays : |
| Loving your new attitude! You're going to build an awesome life for yourself, whether in NYC or anywhere else. Just know I'm rooting you on! |
| from msjessica : |
| Haha - I have the Pilates for Dummies DVD too. The instructor makes me giggle sometimes - she just looks so damn content with her big breaths... Take care x |
| from atwowaydream : |
| You should be proud of yourself, you really should. I know how difficult it is to get used to a totally new routine to be healthy. . . it's hard as fuck. I send you textual hugs. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Awwww... thanks that is a very nice thing for you to say, ahhaha. And you're welcome, your diary is awesome as well. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I've been reading you as well, and can definitely relate to the whirlwind that is the eating disorder. IT was awesome. . . just eerie in that timeless way that you never really outgrow. :::musters Tim Curry voice::: We all float down here! |
| from julymalaise : |
| I seen that you added to your list, cool!! I'm adding you too!! |
| from enurta : |
| thanks for the note, and also, thank you for adding me. I've read a few entries of yours and I want to read more! so I am going to add you. <3 |
| from silver4 : |
| thanks for the pointers :) i'm hoping to get away from the twinkies and get on it!! |
| from silver4 : |
| hey, what do you do for pilates?? do you watch a video or do you just already know what you're doing? i'm such a bum i need to get in shape and i'm thinking yoga/pilates maybe, get some flexibility going... |
| from warpednormal : |
| Jealousy is a huge kick to the balls. ughhhhhh. hope things are getting better on your side?! |
| from omfggwtf : |
| i miss your notes. i still read you admittedly, even if you do dislike me ;). i hope you get everything you want from this year. x |
| from lisasays : |
| I appreciate the notes so much! And I really love your new resolutions - they are good ones. Blow that popsicle stand and start over in NYC! |
| from silver4 : |
| hey there, yeah i feel you on that one about good enough to be involved with but not publicly due to some bs reason or another. stupid men. that's all i can say. merry christmas :) |
| from warpednormal : |
| haha! yeah, it was pretty freaky at first but it was a totally exhilarating experience to hold the thing. |
| from lisasays : |
| Thanks so much for your note! I love reading you, too - I love that you're taking control of your life and changing things around. You absolutely deserve happiness, and I think you're going to get there! |
| from ping-island : |
| thank you! :) |
| from silver4 : |
| oh believe me, i cannot leave this place soon enough! and i actually like it in a way, but... yeah. just not right for me. thanks for caring!! :) |
| from silver4 : |
| Thanks :) I'm obv ridiculously excited about the job, I'm just praying incessantly that I can escape this shit job easily with no issues. Seriously, praying, begging! Sucks a little because I like a lot of the people there. Gotta look out for myself though, like you going to NYC!! I've never been but I'm gonna visit up there in a couple months hopefully :) |
| from silver4 : |
| People are so intimidated by those who are brilliant and have things going for them, your work people must know that they are complete idiots and full of shit for knocking your performance and yet giving you an awesome raise. Of course you deserve it, they just have to give shit and prove their authority; I bet in the back of their heads they know damn well how good of an employee you are and what your true worth to the company is. Just do what you have to do to get by and get yourself together to get out of there and on to something better |
| from avantbedroc : |
| do you have a new new home or are you just having a rest with your livejournal? u better know i love you x |
| from silver4 : |
| :) yeah, fortunately today made up for yesterdays irritations. and even better was getting a damn paycheck! so to celebrate, i will have ice cream and beer! hahah, cheers to both of us! where did you relocate to?? |
| from avantbedroc : |
| hunny bunny, nooo!! |
| from limes-sugar : |
| hey girl. lock if you want, but don't go away! :) |
| from silver4 : |
| i'm with the others, stay, don't leave! |
| from lisasays : |
| I second newschick - don't go! We love you here and would miss you. |
| from silver4 : |
| Oh no, I am horrified reading about your night! Real friends would take care of you and not abandon you like that, I'm so sorry all that happened!! :( |
| from msjessica : |
| so nice to see pictures of you! i think you're gorgeous :) |
| from silver4 : |
| Happy birthday! :) |
| from msjessica : |
| thanks :) Look after yourself ok? xx |
| from msjessica : |
| thanks for making contact and the nice words! it's crazy how these phases hit where you constantly need to update your diary - i am in one, as you know, and it seems you are too. x x |
| from limes-sugar : |
| booooo that didn't work either :( |
| from limes-sugar : |
| maybe its me...but that didn't work!! |
| from limes-sugar : |
| user/pass? xo |
| from razor-vixen : |
| Shit. Sorry, that sucks. |
| from thinwishes : |
| I'm back on DLand again. Need support. Big time. |
| from blueeyes76 : |
| hello ! long time no see ! How are u ? Unfortunatelly, I cannot read you I think my server blocks diaries ! I'm in China since october for 1 year. I work in a hotel in Guangzhou. Work's hard, people are strange and I dont speak chinese... But I'm ok. Gimme some news ! Kisses |
| from unclassy : |
| lil miss trouble...look at you! hehe. That random chick who friend requested you not too long ago, from MI ..thats me :) |
| from unclassy : |
| hey chicko, wanna be friendlies on myspaces? |
| from razor-vixen : |
| I'm still paying attention! |
| from sosuga : |
| congrats on the promo!!! WOOO!!!! *high five* :) |
| from whtlunalycan : |
| tried signing gbook but it gave me error so don't think it went through anyway just surfing around and found your diary thought i would say hi. keep believing in yourself. ~Luna |
| from blueeyes76 : |
| hey sweety, i'm trying to read your diary since ages but i think you've change your password ! Let me know the new one plz ! Kisses |
| from sosuga : |
| k thanks chica! :) |
| from sosuga : |
| did u change your pword or am i just an idiot? |
| from razor-vixen : |
| Well, will be sad to see you go, but you have to do what's best for you of course. Ignore the drama (gee I should take my own advice!!) |
| from limes-sugar : |
| wait...did you change the user pass again? lemme in lemme in! :) |
| from razor-vixen : |
| Did you change the password? Mine doesn't work anymore! Can you email the new one: [email protected] thanks! |
| from justvivo : |
| Hey there - will you send me the p-word?? :) |
| from vla : |
| were you able to get in? so confused. |
| from sosuga : |
| aww thanks...my problem with this phone is its unlocked from the cingular network and runs on a tmobile sim card. So it tries to access the wap browser via cingular when thats all wrong. I think it may be a lost cause ...oh well. |
| from sosuga : |
| its so weird, its like...dude. Just a kiss? like you can only see the side of my face and the front of his...its just so odd to me that he just wouldnt include it. But I make mountains out of molehills so who knows. If I ever get it I'll post it lol, its not anything spectacular though. |
| from sosuga : |
| i agree with you, my problem is a pride issue too. dammit. |
| from sosuga : |
| think so? Even if it was on a CD???? UGHH...but it was just us kissing you know? Like is that so BAD? |
| from vla : |
| weed doesn't really help. fyi. hee. |
| from razor-vixen : |
| Hi, I see you added me, and I'd like to check you out! Can I have your password? [email protected]. Thanks! |
| from vla : |
| aw, girl. i am sorry. i feel like shit tonight, too. take care. you are not alone. |
| from sosuga : |
| ugh I dont know man but I am getting emails/notes from others who dealt with this bia before. It's probably a 50 yr old man or something!!! |
| from sosuga : |
| nevermind, I found it :D |
| from sosuga : |
| ps...sorry, youre not a hooker :b |
| from sosuga : |
| Whats your email hooker? I cant find it anywhere ARG...I had to change my info. Son of a bitch. |
| from sosuga : |
| I thought of you today (is that weird?) cuz some chick had that "mad world" song on her myspace profile and well, that has donnie written all over it. I mean, seriously. I love that damn movie. Yet to see the directors cut but I will soon!!! And, yeah. This match dude sounds like a doozie. I'd say its better off the way it worked out, you didnt seem all that enthralled with him anyway. I am so glad you have these back on because I've been trying to comment for E V E R !!! |
| from blueeyes76 : |
| hello ! sorry for my late message merry christmas and happy new year ! I am fine but not motivated at all to update, have a new internship but still drinking more than I should. I hope you're happy with match guy (we'll see how it goes, I not a good advice concerning guys as I always fail in relatonships). I wish you a happy happy new year full of joy, love, happiness and successful living...try to stay faitfull to yourself and your feelings. Kisses. Ana�s |
| from vla : |
| wait. is this the same guy who lied to you about the timeframe with his ex? warning bells, if so. I'd say try another mr. match! p.s. I love that you update too! :) |
| from xemowhorex : |
| ha! i love donnie darko. :) |
| from blueeyes76 : |
| Hello you, I didn't had time to write you before (due to new internship), may I have your username and pw please?([email protected])Thanks a lot. Kisses honey ! |
| from sosuga : |
| Can I have the pass? I knowI am like totally random, I'm a reader of vla/limey :) |
| from vla : |
| hee. match! |
| from limes-sugar : |
| ughhhh. i need your password!!!!!! jeeez. |
| from vla : |
| so email me back your password, girl! |
| from limes-sugar : |
| You know R, it's really just a matter of making a conscious decision not to date or want to date those kinds of boys. It's like...at some point you are going to get sick of being hurt..and you'll just get so sick of it you'll stop dating them. I did, at least. Well, I still date assholes, cause i feel like I can play with the best of them...but the ones that are crazy, those are the ones I had to give up. Whew! |
| from limes-sugar : |
| wondered where you've been. Well..hell, if he's getting other chicks pregnant, YOU DON'T WANT THAT MF!!! NO NO NO NO NO! I know, I know... what you need is what I need- - a little patience to wait out Mr. Perfect! it ain't easy! XOXO Limes |
| from wilyred : |
| Happy Birthday! |
| from limes-sugar : |
| Hey hey! We all end up wanting the ones we can't have!!! Hang in there- - or ,, what i'd do is find another boy to add to the rotation so your mind isn't consumed but just one! have a good weekend! XOXOXOXO Limes |
| from blueeyes76 : |
| Hello ! It's been a very long time since you've updated. Is everything alright ? I'm a bit worried and hard times are comming soon (aka christmas and new year)...give us some news please ! Kisses. A. |
| from morbidhippie : |
| i've moved, both state and diary.. http://msjessica.diaryland.com thanks for still reading! xox |
| from vanity-blade : |
| This is sweetvanity under my new username. Glad you're interested in knowing where I'm at now. Love you. |
| from blueeyes76 : |
| Hi sweetie I'm still reading and will always be ! Take care. xxxx |
| from comfortm : |
| i had to look my diary. heres the username:thiscantbe password:life please keep reading! |
| from sweetvanity : |
| Thanks for adding me. You rock. Hope to talk to you more and I look forward to reading more about you. Take care, doll. |
| from xemowhorex : |
| you have me listed as a favorite. if you're still around and care at all, i have had to locked my diary for a while. the username: emo password: whore |
| from blueeyes76 : |
| Hello! How are you ? Are you ok ? You haven't updated for ages. How is you job ? And your "baby-problem", is it resolved ? Please write something..I miss you....hugs and kisses. A. |
| from blueeyes76 : |
| hi, just read your last entry, are you absolutely sure you're pregnant ? have you made a pregnancy test ? Anyway you have my support coze I've been through that but never mentioned it in my diary, too scared of what ppl could think about me...You're in my thoughts, take care and take the best solution for you and your life (sorry for my bad english...) <3 <3 |
| from comfortm : |
| hi i noticed i'm on your friends list...i had to lock my diary for personal reasons for a week or so so i am giving you the password etc... username: thiscantbe pass:life keep reading thanks. |
| from bigfatc-o-w : |
| thank you for your note =) i've been reading your journal for awhile now (i originally found you through Hippo). Congratulations on the promotion! |
| from crzy4blues : |
| Hey Girl! Congo-Rats on all of the recent job developments! Oh, and sorry for not updating for a few days and makin' ya worry, lol. I didn't mean to. I was just in an apathetic funk. lol. |
| from comfortm : |
| thank you for the note.I feel the same way bout HIM as you do. |
| from blueeyes76 : |
| happy bday sweet heart (even if I don't know exactly the date...) I wish you all the best from health to money...wish you to find a good job, a new love, and (finally) some good friends this year....give you a lot of hughs and kisses...have a good week-end....<3 <3 |
| from comfortm : |
| hi,thank you for the sweet note..i'm flattered of the things you've said.....i wish i really could stand outside myself and observe the good things ppl say bout me and perhaps believe them...i really appreciate your support...i actually really enjoy your diary..just havent had a chance to add it to my faves..but i will...take care..xoxo |
| from blueeyes76 : |
| yeah..just wanted to say I'm still here for you, even if I'm not responding to your notes....I just don't feel feel well myself so I'm not giving any advice (good or bad) to anyone. Anyway, just wanted to say I luv ya and care for ya. lots of luv. xoxo |
| from wilyred : |
| Your g-book wasn't working...so what Pilates tape do you have? I have Classical pilates workout, and I don't think I quite "get it" yet. I started doing the "modified basic" routine, and it is very short. I don't feel like I'm getting a good workout. Lisa |
| from blueeyes76 : |
| Hi Rachel ! I'm happy you found a new layout you like. It's great and I think it rocks. I'm happy that I could help you in some way to find it. Take care sweety <3. A. |
| from iluvspeed : |
| The new layout looks good. Good and creepy! |
| from portraits : |
| i just thought of something..i've no idea why we should be wishing eachother happy 4:20's... |
| from portraits : |
| (previously morbidhippie) thank you, i think i will go smoke a bowl..happy 4:20 to you to! love the new layout by the way, we're sharing designers - how exciting! sorry, feeling a bit weird at the moment...x |
| from caged-freed : |
| saw you were a member of the edsufferer diaryring and thought this new forum at caged-freed might interest you. check it out, if you can, and take care. |
| from morbidhippie : |
| hi...just thought id let you know that another persons reading your diary. and in all honesty, i'm probably doing this for some reasons listed below by neo-geek(?). also, you've mentioned lewis carrol a couple of times..have you read 'sylvie and bruno'? i'm currently reading 'sylvie and bruno concluded' adn am quite enjoying it. so there u go, some useless information about a complete stranger. drop by and have a read sometime if u want. xoxo |
| from neo-geek : |
| Hi, I really like your layout. Actually, on second thought I'm just starved of compliments and was hoping by leaving vain, self-serving notes on other people's diaries more would look at mine. Anyway, try not to hate me more than's warranted. Oh, and keep up the good work. |
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