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still alive & kicking-- in a new location. although i'd have to warn you, much less poetry, more real life. :)
www.livejournal.com, username _fierceflawless.
It's friends only, let me know if you have an lj account and i'll add you.
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Thanks for the complement. I just write what I am thinking. I hope God is blessing you in your life. How exactly did you get linked to my page? Just wondering.
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Thanks so much for the note hun! I love your diary so keep writing...i'll keep reading.
Love Gen
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hey darling...i just wanted to say i miss reading your updates. i hope everything is ok. take care and remember: you are infinetly loved. always, bex
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by the way i'm adding you as a fav. haha:)
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hey..you know my sister,ph0enix, and thats how i came across your diary. so i decided to be the nice chick i am and leave you a note. well gots to go..GodBless:)
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Hey ~ best wishes to you in your recovery, i'll keep you in my prayers ;) you can do it!
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I run the honesty diaryring and I was wondering if you put that ring up. Please leave me a note when you get this.
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always remember that rebukes are meant to edify and encourage...especially coming from the Lord. rock on.
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saw you were a member of the edsufferer diaryring and thought this new forum at caged-freed might interest you. check it out, if you can, and take care.
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Hey, it's ph0enix.. i kissed him b/c *all of the above*. Also, i think deep down inside of me, i wanted to spite him. That may be a reason i feel really bad. To add, i wanted to see if it was just my need to be loved that i missed him so badly. It's not that, i just liked being around Peter and everything about him i loved. Thanks chick. Ciao-Annie
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hey, love your diary! Added you to my favs...
Take care of yourself, you are in a tough struggle.
Love Gen
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Hey, chick, remember what i talked to you about. Only you can make this decision to get over this, but only God can help you get through it. Just take His hand and walk. Love you lots. You're great!
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hang in there and keep your chin up. i know the struggles are hard but you have victory over them in Christ, and you are such an inspiration to me. you are beautiful and worth so much. *hugs*
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o.o yes, i'm a christian...
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You are right about the alcohol thing. I just talked with my therapist about this yesterday. I am doing awsome in every other area. But I am still trying to sabatoge my efforts with something else.
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thanks so much for the note. i want to add you to my list of favorites also, you're so encouraging to me. keep hope in your heart and hang in there! *hugs*
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YES! I've spent many days in Medora. I assume you read the entry pertaining to the badlands town. Hehe, great memories... I'm from North Dakota as well. What city are you from? So glad someone understood what I was talking about! :P
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Where are youuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why is your diary blocked now? Write soon.
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Thank you so so much for your note. Its a wonderful feeling to know that someone can relate.
You, my girl, are an inspiration. I wish I could be so stong as to even try recovery.
I have been in various out-patient recovery programs, had a vast amount of therapy and spent an abominable (sp?) amount of money. I never get very far.
Now, its all up to me but I've given up. I don't have the desire or motivation.
I really admire what you are doing.
Just by sending me notes you are helping me.
Oh yeah, how old are you and were do you live. I'm 25 from Perth, Australia. I did look at the site but because I live in oz it wasn't really applicable. Perhaps we could become email/snail mail ED recovery Buddies?
Keep at it girl, you are on your way.
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You CAN do it. God knows you have so much strength.
I understand how you feel but don't give up.
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Thank you Rusty. I'll check out the website.
I've been eating disordered for more than 10 years. I've tried and tried again to recover. I am surprised I'm not dead. I feel dead. Do you feel sick? How bad is your ed?
I'm so glad to have found someone who cares.
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Thanks for your note. Every little bit helps.
Unfortunately, things are WORSE than they seem.
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Hey, you can do this! I have not thrown up in soooo long! If I can do it you can too sweetie! Are you on any type of medications? If you are not, you should get on prozac. It has helped me sooooo much. It is actually supposed to be really good for bulimics. I am so happy now, and my thoughts are not nearly as consumed with food. Lemme know. Bye hun. Luv Melanie
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*nervously sticks up her head*
Beth? Remember me?
i just spent hours reading your diary....
i wrote you in texas after i got out of the hospital... but they got rejected. sent back, ya know?
email me (dressivi@yahoo.com) God, i'm so glad you're alive and well.
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I'm coming back to diaryland.
Thankk you so much for your notes. I would really really REALLY appreciate any advice you have for kicking this damned bulimia.
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Thankyou for leaving me that note, it's nice to know i'm not alone and that some people understand. I'm so glad your better and recovered, maybe i will be there someday i just don't know. Right now i just can't see it, see through this black cloud over my head but i don't know...i just don't know what i want anymore. Like you said maybe the time isn't right for me, i feel i need all this to survive. please take care hun, your beautiful i hope you'll always remember it. x
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Thank you dearly for your note. Please read my latest update, it explains why I'm leaving for a while.
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thank you so much ur note was so inspiring to me.i feel like im going round in circles and not getting any where as anytime i lose weight i just give in and binge and purge it ,its so easy but its killing me.im so tired all the time.its amzing to think you got through this stage i wish i could see ahead like that.councilling really hasnt helped i just dont see the point in it nothing changes at all.hayley_foster@hotmail.com thats my email of course! just so u can email me if u like.thank you for understanding no body else seems to xx
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My "new" diary isn't actually new. It's just got a bunch of entries from ALL of my diaries. I'm going to be staying here, yes, yes. Well, I've got my joke diary and the mullets. But that's more for fun-ness. Not serious-ness. You're doing well, and that's great. And, you'll be happy to hear that you've inspired me to LIVE! YES! I'm going to attempt to get a job and I'm going for stand-up comedy. Because (I think) I can do this. I'm just going to have to work extra hard. And I need M-O-N-E-Y. That's what the job is going to be for. Yes. And Correspondance. I'm going to start that up, too. So I can get meh mah edumacation. Don't ask. So, by saying what you said, you helped me realize that if Tom Green can do it, SO CAN I! I have to make things happen for myself. Because sitting here waiting isn't doing me much good. No, no! BUT, my family aren't being very supportive. Which, I guess, if I have a job, it may make them see that I am serious. But who knows? If it doesn't, then plan b is this: I'm going to rely on strangers for support. Because anyway, it's not like I'm going to be making my family laugh. I mean, when I'm at some club, it's going to be filled with strangers, right? Not immediate family or any family or friends. And if they come, I'll kill 'em. Because they don't laugh at me. There was this boy on the bus that I made laugh. In fact, he moved up closer to me so he could make eye contact and hear me better. My friend says he wanted me, but I don't care. He just served as an ego-inflater. However, if I see him again, I'll take him out for some coffee. Which I doubt I will. Thank you for EVERYTHING, I love you absolute tons, too! xox, Emilie.
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Hey, it's Emilie. I got a new username. Dres... I don't know what happened to her. She said she was in treatment, and she left me a note saying: "*runs screaming, arms flailing*... hide me!!! hide me from the evil treatment monster. its hell. you... you *shiver* you don't know the things i've seen.... its... *lowers head and whispers*...hell." And then another saying: "boo. *gaps for breath* its killin' me Em.... treatment is fuckin' killin me." <-- that was the last one she's left. She didn't say anything in her diary about snuffing it. She once told me not to kill myself because that would mean I was letting everyone else around me win. And I mean, she isn't exactly a hypocrite. I just reely don't know. However, I'm glad to hear things are going swell with you. Ooooh... and Jarred. How cool is that? I liked what you said about how you're actually living your life, instead of just existing. I will always just exist. BUT, hey, I'm fine with that. Yes, so wow... and you thought that you were going to fail with the whole treatment thing. Shame, shame. I'm so super happy/ecstatic beyond belief for you. The hermaphrodite above works wonders. However, it was mostly your will to want to achieve a better state. Anyway, whenever you get this, hit me up and lemme know how things are. Lot's of love, Emilie xox.
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still here :) i was away on a recovery and reconaissance mission, but i've returned 99.9%.
good luck on your journey!
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hey. how are you? i haven't talked to you in ages... i have a new sn, btw, neoastroriot, and i'm on that most of the time now. hope yer having a bee ell ay ess tee.
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hi i know u wont get this 4 ages.but get in contact wen u get bk coz i want to try n help.i understand how life controllin bulimia is.spk 1day i hope love Haylz xx
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i read that whole damn cast list! :) ..i loved how you could paint the different people in my head with your words. bravo.
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Hi beth. Thanks for your reply. Whether you belive this or not, you are wise beyond your years.
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La la la... where you been, you saucy minx?! I miss you - you make me laugh.
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HA! I plucked the the cherry of your diaries note page. Wooohaaa. La de da - nuffin to say - cept t'adore, mon chere!
P.s. - you make me laugh too... not to the point of puking though. us ana girls just dont do that. *teehee*
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