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Hey, thanks for the comment on my entry. First of all, I don't write this poetry myself, I just browse the net and copy/paste whatever I like, I should put the author on it.. I know.. and I will, soon enough. Too bad Sexycollab is dead. Surely I'd like to help out, the only problem would be i'm not a native English writer and I can't express myself very well. But if there's anyway I could help, do not hesitate to leave a note/comment.

from tobira :

I have moved.....check my newest page out...I am still moving thigs around but I found the old page that I lvoed the name of.....so check it out...it's the untrapped one.....like I said though still moving things around

from e-nymph :

changed the photo on my journal, go see. ;)

from crankyoda :

I am back!!!!!!!!

from e-nymph :

I ended up spending the night of July 2nd in the emergency room. I had an Anaphlaxis Reaction at work and was taken by medic one to the hospital. My throat tried to swell shut. the thing that caused the reaction, at present is unknown. I have an appointment with an allergist tomorrow to set up testing to find out what caused this. I don't know about you, I'm kinda fond of breathing. So I've been quiet and trying to feel thankful for the things I have in my life.

from e-nymph :

just saw pirates tonight, it rocks.

from crankyoda :

Check it out man....Yoda fixed up a little....hope u don't mind :P

from crazyblueyes :

ahh! it's been a while, how are you?? i feel like so many things have changed. we need to catch up.

from tobira :

hey...check out my new layout took me so long to make...hope u like it

from crazyblueyes :

where you goooin?

from tobira :

boy.....cell phones rock....wha up man! lol....u know I hate the new ring tones they freaking sound like music so it freaks me out when they go off lol.....anyhow I updated my diary go look and plz don't cry lol...I'm doing ok right now but who knows what tomorrow will bring...give me a call about the servce ok.....I'm sorry I didn't call u back it's like grand central station here...anyhow love ya and don't get ear cancer now ok

from crazyblueyes :

i know what you mean about being sucked in. you start playing and building and just when you start getting somewhere with it you look at the clock and it's nearly 1am. i haven't played in a long time. i am sorry that it got hold of you.

from crazyblueyes :

you and me both babe! let me see it when you finish

from crazyblueyes :

ahhhhh i feel like i was really rude :( or cranky i'm sorry i didn't mean it. i still care about you :D

from crazyblueyes :

haha this one is for you love. http://completelynaked.typepad.com/

from e-nymph :

it shows up black on mine computer but it's possible you did. :)

from crazyblueyes :

omg YAH! i loooooooooooooove it!!

from crazyblueyes :

ahhh! goegeous he is mmmmmmmm<br> do you like the new layout?

from e-nymph :

I sent you yule/birthday soapy goodness; did it arrive?

from tiragem :

Interesting quotes, and even more interesting diary... well, you certainly get full marks for originality.

from sensualistic :

my brother and i just spent the morning screaming and ranting out how we absolutely hate christmas!

from e-nymph :

the American Gods signing was the last one I was able to go to...Neil signed my copy with the words "Jenifer- Dream Dangerous. Neil Gaimen" he signed my vertigo tarot book at the same time; he's a lovely and talented soul. not so into posting pictures of myself anymore but extremely happy with the weight loss. :)

from sensualistic :

thanks for the note :)

from madamfafa :

Hey, Shadow Boy I posted you a picture up on my diary page that I thought might appeal.

from sensualistic :

Can you do me a favour pretty please and thank you? You've known me the longest on here and the best when I was going through the bullshit with you know who. Well guess who called me tonight? Read my entry http://sensualistic.diaryland.com/051019_76.html and tell me something, am I just being downright spiteful or am I perfectly all right with demanding what was taken away from me then?

from e-nymph :

Thanks for the link Sweetheart. much love-Jen

from dietcokegirl :

the picture of the no blow job sign and no peeing on the floor was my favorite. The cute boys name at work is Andy, I found that ironic somehow. Hope you have fun with Adam, it was nice to chat with you the other night. Hope all is well. It's very late. So I am off to bed. xo

from sensualistic :

http://www.livejournal.com/users/sensualistic78/45633.html <-- this me?

from madamfafa :

Just for the record, shadowbox, Leos rock.

from sensualistic :

You can't let your Mother's misfortunes ruin and control your life. What happened to her is unfortunate yes but is she doing anything about it to go beyond that abuse? No. So why should you feel guilty for wanting to leave? She's your mother true but you have your own life to take care of. She certainly isn't doing it. I know originally why I became so frustrated with you way back when. You are capable of getting to where you want but you simply choose not to. You write about where you want to be, and as you've just said it in your entry, you do nothing about it. It will never land in your lap. For some it happens that way and in reality I think they are the ones more sadder than those that have to fight at every step of the way. Go read an entry of mine. What was I like a year ago? Two years ago? Don't you know better than anyone online and offline what kind of hell I was in? How blind I was to my situation? Look now. Sure, I work six days a week, barely have any money or any time to myself but I'm here. I did it. I've been living on my own for a year now and I'm still alive! You know you can break old habits. You know it's possible. Where do you see yourself in 5, 10, 40 years? If you can't answer those questions you know you need to do something about it. And not just think about what needs to be done! Maybe I shouldn't have fought with you and explained better my point but I know you were being stubborn too. Get out of that house, get out of that city if need be and get out of that life. It will be hard and long and you'll probably be miserable and doubt at every turn but in the end, wouldn't it be worth every single step?

from madamfafa :

yes you're right; being a boy is difficult and I imagine, very trying at times...I was cross, impulsive and insensitive when I wrote that. PUT THE F*CKING TOILET SEAT DOWN.

from madamfafa :

You haven't offended me, just made me laugh. May I ask "geek boy drinking wine"'s permission first before you tout him to your public?! And yes, I want to touch your monkey.

from sensualistic :

i was in a serious anti-family mood at the time :D

from madamfafa :

Hey! ...your "do you know where your hormones are?" creased me up...like your new look, young man. FaFa

from crazyblueyes :

i like your style.

from rdwngstrfire :

there--- i'm updated!

from dietcokegirl :

http://www.livejournal.com/users/teary_eyed2/7307.html#cutid1

from e-nymph :

I'll check it out. thanks for the heads up. :)

from uridium15 :

hot guy in glasses = matthew good. seriously. do a google image search if you've never seen him. (there's a guy who lives in my neighborhood that looks just like him, glasses and everything. i figure i ought'n find him and get down on my knee.)

from synysterpath :

:) thankyou..

from e-nymph :

there should be a card for you at your mom's. things here are ok. alittle strange, alittle calm and falling into place. i'm feeling soft and it's in a good way. right now i've got the flu so i'm laying low trying to get better. i just wanted you to know that you're loved. have a wonderful time at the psychic faire.

from sensualistic :

you know, in reference to your entry about where your life is.. that old conversation that sparked a six month silence between us was intended to mean that you're not happy with life so you should be fighting for what you want. i guess it didn't exactly come out that way, we just ended up fighting. sometimes (if you allow me to be truthful and you to be objective) you sit there and say how you want your life to be this way/that way but what do you do? nothing. it's never going to change if you do nothing. that was my point then! it just didn't come out the right way :P

from sensualistic :

all those cat quotes are so true

from uridium15 :

on the toast-guy-image: indeed, i can & will send you the full image. on my writing: i'm not sure what's so odd about my writing, but whatever waters your lawn, guy.

from e-nymph :

btw- the sites look great. :) I actually sent the link to my satyr piece to a friend working at microsoft. ;)

from e-nymph :

I read your note and walked to the mail- the package was there waiting like magic. I am in awe. this is a very thoughtful gift. I love the ear rings, they are amazing. i'll wear them tonight to work. :) and take my cds to sing me far away places. and even some of my favorite candy. :) this is very very special and i will never forget it. i do think of you, wonder how you are, if you've found your dream boy...he's out there, i know it. i've been feeling soft lately and a bit lonely - but i'm ok. finding my way is really hard at times, but spring is here and it's time for rebirth. i need to go out and get my fingers dirty this weekend. :) I love you so much. and I love my gift.

from sensualistic :

I actually took the time to read your entry and stared at that red screen so long that when I hit the notes I think it blinded me. good thing I can type without looking ;-) and yes, yes you are a sporadic tornadoe!

from e-nymph :

I'm sorry mimosa turned you down. :( *sending you hugs and lots of love*

from sensualistic :

I never noticed you left a bookmark in that book you gave me. It has a note on the back of some place you were supposed to be. I thought it cute. Thanks for fucking up my eyes with your 'template'. ;-)

from frozen-geek :

I finaly got the chance to read your journal. And I am so glad to have come across you. The Mayan predictions have been all my boyfriend and I can talk about. Your site help me find out a lot more. I hear the exact date it suppose to be August 26, 2012. Or Maybe it was September... either way the whole thing has been pretty crazy to me. My boyfriend, Nico, has something with the number 24. It always pops up for him, it's kind of his lucky/unlucky number. So he thought he would be 24 yrs old when the worl ended, but when this Mayan prediction comes down, he'll be 27 so he gave up on the number, untill he found out I would be 24 yrs old when it happens. It's crazy. I hear the Mayans have a temple that the steps have been lit up one at a time each year, and in 2012 the top step will be lit by the moon or something. I'm not sure, but it's great to have read about it from you.

from frozen-geek :

Love Rice, huh? Sounds pretty trippy. You must tell me more. You listed Royal Tennenbaums as a fv movie... i love that movie, it's pretty crazy it just barely missed the cut for my list. I'll have to check out your journal... i think I'll do that now. Peace

from sensualistic :

Happy Birthday in advance as I'm clueless and will forget, even though I have it written down in my day book. Yes, all of that was needless except for the first 2 words.

from e-nymph :

you are welcome darling. :)

from e-nymph :

watch your mail baby, you have a yule gift coming. ;) love you!

from e-nymph :

This is a rare CD featuring the haunting and mysterious musical score of Mark Ryden's "Blood - Miniature Paintings of Sorrow and Fear". This music was in installation at the Earl Mcgrath Gallery in NYC last year to accompany the work of Mark Ryden. This is a special limited CD release of from Stan Ridgway (Wall of Voodoo) and Pietra Wexstun (Hecates Angels). they are all numbered. :) turkey day is easy this year- big turkey tv dinners and then pie with my sister's brood later. I love you too! good luck survivng turkey day. ;p

from sensualistic :

how odd, I was just reading you and about to send you a good luck note with the freaks. we don't celebrate anything, we crazy canucks had our thanksgiving last month. YOU weirdos do it a month before christmas :P

from pipersplace :

And just how often is your participle dangling?

from e-nymph :

I've been missing you.

from sensualistic :

hahaha. i love it.

from sensualistic :

no longer work there. and don't want the association please and pretty thanks. you know why.

from sensualistic :

i like this layout

from e-nymph :

hey will the other images for that layout be there too?

from e-nymph :

glad you liked the card sweetheart. :)

from puuur :

Hiya! :) Well, Isaac died at birth, 16 weeks premature, and I was there throughout my sis-in-law's labor massaging her and helping her to breathe, so I�m certain there was some transference. I do believe in reincarnation - this world is just so vast and our lives are so short, that even with our best attempt to live a full life, we can't possible experience everything it has to offer. Thank you for your kind offer, but truth be told, I've given up searching for the meaning of my dreams - I have so many, and they are so intense - I would simply drive myself mad. (I'm half there as it is!) I do like to document them since it keeps my mind from overflowing... Space is Limited! ;) I don�t do tarot, I try to distance myself from anything that causes the *heebie-jeebies. (* cold, stabbing sensation in my spine that inevitably ends with a headache and throwing up� eww!) I would enjoy sharing experiences and insights, though! P.S. I (heart) your diary!

from kinderkill :

i have no desire whatsoever to "bomb" your notes, but i will say this: we are all slaves to norms, mores, and cultural standards of our own society as it is; i've no desire to enslave other people for any reason. fact is much, much scarier than fiction. breathe that in. bathe in it. in a fictional world, people have the power to defend themselves from evil; whereas here in the real world, everyone is helpless to save themselves. here, evil wears a human face like a mask. here, everyone is his/her own demon. why harry potter, particularly? because he's a normal, boring kid who is suddenly given the ability to fight evil. in his world, evil is externalized and the boundary separating it from good is absolute. say what you will. attack me again. if you do, and you don't come off as completely judgmental and ignorant, you'll still get nothing.

from color-me-odd :

Andy! Just thought I'd drop in and say 'ello, considering I haven't talked to you in who know's how long. I don't want you disappearing from my sight anytime soon. ~Kayla~

from angel-elf :

It's alright, I understand, I'm like that myself. Thanks for reading and deleting my password.

from sensualistic :

haha. silly rabbit!

from color-me-odd :

Trust me darling, I've heard that before. Which, is why, I don't lie. I just know how to. Hmm.

from color-me-odd :

Yeah, I've been through sex ed...three times. My school district likes to drill it into our heads, but I never actually paid any attention. Besides, I tend to get words mixed up a lot, so forgive me. As for Paul, he's so confusing I don't know what to do with him. Each day it's almost as if I get just a little bit closer to him, and of course he always pushes me away again. Sometimes I just want to scream or...something. Grrr. See? That's me angry. Grrr.

from e-nymph :

I miss you too and my doing my best to be good to my phone bill. ;p Yay for free hours!!!! we need a good sit down chat, it's been too long. :) love you!

from eevviillgirl :

Are you designing templates now? I loved Jen's new look, although.. somehow I wish she'd used a picture of herself. I don't know... So are you?

from color-me-odd :

Maybe it does sound conceited, I wouldn't know. I'm not saying it to sound conceited or act like Mother Theresa. I'm saying because it's true. When I said it, I wasn't necessarily talking about out-right physical beauty. I'm talking about overall beauty as a person. I'm not going to lie and say that I think everyone is beautiful physically, because I have certainly run into some (I really do hate to say it) less than attractive people. I suppose it's just hard to explain. But when I really do like/love someone, it's easy for me to find the beauty inside. And it kind of just...shines out. I don't really care about looks anyway, they're not that important to me. I know a lot of people say that and then end up being completely shallow, but...yeah. See, now you got me all confused and lost and I am just babbling on without knowing exactly what I'm saying...Damn you. Anyways, if you understood that stuff up there at all I commend you. As for the rising, I read some stuff about it and it does seem to be like me, so I'll just suck it in and know that I have an evil sign in me. Ew. Oh well, I'll get over it. :) Anyways, I'll hear from you soon I hope. Love, Peace and Chicken Grease. <3

from color-me-odd :

Well I'm happy for you darling. But it was a joke. My lovely sarcastic wit...At least that's what I keep telling people.

from color-me-odd :

You flatter me. I wrote that entry at two-something in the morning and stayed up until five a.m. reading your diary and gawking. I simply fell in love with you. But, I promise to continue writing, just for you. I'm Kayla, 15, and completely insane. And I'm starving for something, whether that be boy-love or cyber ice cream I'm still not sure, but if you can help me find a way to get both, then I'll adore you forever. Luckily enough for me, I have my own computer, and I stay locked inside my room about 23 hours of the day. My parents even refer to me as the "house guest," so we don't need to worry about them. Although, I do wish that I could be thrown into a padded room. I love bouncing...Mmm, that could take on a sexual meaning if you truly think about it. How vulgar of me. Anyways, I'll stop ranting. Just know that you have a new stalker. Au revoir, love!

from sensualistic :

And to now completely stalk you. I suggest looking at chickpea's designs (sensual section) at lilydesigns.diaryland.com for sexycollab. One in particular I would say to use, their images are down I see at the moment so when they go back up I'll tell you which one I have in mind. I get her now to design my templates, I can't be bothered anymore. It just frustrates me to no end.

from sensualistic :

That's why I sent you the note. Because it doesn't seem worth it anymore. It was anger that shouldn't have been directed at one another. So we'll forget about it. I've emailed your yahoo account with the user/password. Maybe when you read you can tell me what is different about my writing. I know it is, I think I've lost the emotional touch to my writing. And yes, I still talk to cracker boy. As for AIM, I don't use it very often anymore. I added your s_h_n78 yahoo to my list. I can't remember your other ones. I don't really like AIM anymore for some odd reason. I only use Y and MSN. So you know. Let me know you have the password.

from sensualistic :

I came across my old guestbook and out of boredom started reading what people had sent to me months and years ago. What I noticed was the majority of those signings were from you. It made me sad and it made me smile at the same time. We were very good friends and something (egos?) got in the way. A stupid fight and then silence. Why? I thought we were both better than that. But I suppose not. We're both stubborn. Extremely. I just thought I'd let you know I do stop by on occasion to see what penile images you have up and how you are. And that no one is ever online at those really late times like you used to be. ~S

from kstyle :

oh, and you quoted me, haha! too funny!!!!

from kstyle :

hmm let me think, where did i see your comment? in treblemaker8's , i think, he's my pal, we work together..or maybe it was somewhere else? wow thanks for the big comment, that rocked! oh, the mohawk picture is one entry back...bald feels good, wanna rub my head? thanks for adding me to your faves, cool! ok, later, michael

from angel-elf :

Thanks so much!

from kstyle :

hi, you dont know me...i came to your diary through an old comment in a friend's diary...wow that letter from your friend was something else! why do some people need to label everything and everyone? anyhoo, looks like a fun diary..stop by mine if you like, i have some cool san francisco pics a bout 6 entries back...take care, michael

from e-nymph :

happy with thoughts of your upcoming return to the online world. love you! x0x0x

from e-nymph :

the tied penis wnet away. *poop* please send me the shot, i thought it was lovely and kinky. ;)

from e-nymph :

just missing your sweetness. x0x0x love you!

from almostbutnot :

maybe I like being dumb. Maybe I like my typos. Maybe I like my face. Yeah, I thought so.

from leonmcphelps :

Calm down now Andrew, there's no reason to be getting all descriptive on old Leon. I appreciate the affection but I assure you I am 100% heterosexual, but thanks for the recognition. I don't know why people think I am gay, maybe it's all the obviously gay pictures I put myself in, I don't know for sure. Anyway, Brad seems to be much more popular than Leon, you should fantasize about him. He would love the attention.

from almostbutnot :

and don't expect me to just give up because you don't leave me comments anymore. I have a lot to ramble about..and I WILL be on your ass about EVERY little thing I can find for quite awhile. :) Peace out home dawgs.

from almostbutnot :

apparently you can't register that I'm mocking people too. Damnit! Okay, Kurt Cobain died. He also dyed his hair with Kool-Aid. My friend Sean also dyed his hair with Kool-Aid. He also probably died tonight because he took the train to the mall but he couldn't figure out how to read the schedule. Look, why are you fighting with me about stupid typos? I'm sorry I'm not as smart and great as you. But don't even bother fighting with me because once you get me started I don't stop. And it's worthless because..YOU WILL NOT WIN. Thank you and G'bye.

from e-nymph :

You know my thoughts, no need to reitierate. ;p though I must say 'to thine own self be true' can also be a weapon when held wrong. transition is in my life as well, we need to chat sometime soonish. love you.

from untrapped :

check out the new graphics on my diary....plus my webpage is done...http://www.geocities.com/xstarsunskyx....check it out lol

from almostbutnot :

feeling stupid now? Yeah, I thought so.

from almostbutnot :

3. What if Chocolate was never discoverd, besides the fact that you'd like omg die without it, try thinking how this might effect the world? (all) People wouldn't be like "omg id dye w/out it!" and maybe then they could learn how to spell! ...OMG! Guess who needs to learn how to spell? YOU! "to die" is to be dead, "to dye" is to dye your hair. Get a bloody dictionary. OMG! GUESS WHO WAS BEING SARCASTIC! Obviously someone had a bit of trouble understanding the "maybe now people will learn how to spell" thing..I can't even begin to tell you how many times a day I get IMs from random people that say "dye" and "lyfe" and shiz like that. And I think I think I know enough people who have dyed their hair to know the definition of "dye"..look around you..I live in God damned NY! I see people with blue hair on every street corner.. Okay..I understand that I'm sarcastic..a lot..and I also understand that a lot of people don't realize when I'm being sarcastic..but..next time..read it over a few times before you're so sure that you're right. Thank you and G'bye.

from e-nymph :

I'm glad my words on yahoo offline helped sweetheart. :D the were completely heart felt and spur of the moment...sometimes we're given diamonds this way. love you! x0x0x

from miss-stress2 :

okay you answered to this one servey best memory or something was dancing with a male stripper on gay pride. OMG you fucking rock, thats pretty cool.

from untrapped :

Well....I'd like to thank the Oscars for this nice award....and I want to thank the little people that got me here....and to all I maybe have forgotten thank you....lol....Ok I'm bored....did you hear about the new movie coming out called "King Arthur"......I am in a weird mood.....nothing today is going to bother me....I hope to hear from averyone of my friends soon....lol....anywho thank you for signing my notes....I turned them on just for you lol :P

from e-nymph :

I tried to call you yesterday, did you hear me on the answering machine? I was just having a good day and felt like sharing it with you. love you! x0x0x

from untrapped :

hey I have changed the layout again lol....anyhow I also have a webpage in teh works soon....btw I love the darkness of ur page makes it look goth....I don't know but I think I am into goth things...well anywho talk to you later....have fun with the cute kittys

from e-nymph :

just sending you and snuggle and a smooch. have fun house sitting! :)

from dramoth :

thank you for taking my tarot survey! I'm in awe of your tarot collection, and impressed with the picture of Vash! ;) You've got good anime taste!

from e-nymph :

*awaiting the rest of Justin's story* x0x0x

from e-nymph :

it's not working for me, sweetie. maybe I should just remove it? I've been missing you lately. maybe we can talk soon. love you!

from e-nymph :

I have a crystal Kuan Yin charm on a red cord that used to hang in our minivan. *thinking she'd protect us while driving - we were still hit and had our bad accident in that van* the cord is now cream color from age but now she hangs off a statue in my room. i've always found it comforting. :)

from e-nymph :

LOL, glad you enjoyed it. :D I sent it to the dj this morning...he also has a cat and will completely understand. ;)

from e-nymph :

I missed you today. spent a bit of yesterday cussing and fighting with my computer- removed spyware and cookie hell, still is acting funny. the new drapes in the bed room are pretty, so much light...esp in the early morning, you should see.

from buggity-boo :

mmm . . . spaghetti-cum shot . . .

from exhorter :

i am making my own decisions.

from pocket-pool :

funny orgasm face? i haven't seen mine, but you'd probably find it hysterical. i howl. or yell. it's a primal experience for me. when i'm in the zone, i'm in the zone. why not let it rip?!

from miseryfire :

um... ok, I can give it to u. when should i? I kinda don't want to post it here, considering that anyone can read it... but yeah. I trust u, but please don't do anythin.... u know, except for changing the template.... thanks.

from miseryfire :

Hey, thanks so much for the template, it's gorgeous.... here comes the but... but, I'm having an incredibly hard time trying to figure out how to set it up. I suck at this. I'm not a computer person at all.... Sry for bothering u so much, but is it possibly for u to help? Thanks a bunch!

from technibeetle :

your friend madeline makes me wish i was her evil kitty meeowww! >:)

from exhorter :

You need to ttop making excuses. Only you will fix what is wrong. No one is ever going to do that for you. And until you do, that emptiness will sit on your heart forever. I know you don't like hearing shit like this but you know what? You need to hear it and furthermore, you need to actually react to it. Your life will never change by walking around feeling sorry, angry and upset about who you are and where you are. It's a hard lesson to learn but once you have you will appreciate emotion.

from exhorter :

so then delete who i was and put me back up where the old one is! :P

from kimisamazing :

Always thought that "The Canterbury Florists" would be a damn good name for a band... though Guys named Chris is damn good... I might have to steal that for my own ;)

from miss-music :

Sorry about the half-survey! lol I hadda skip-out. But, I'm glad you enjoyed what I had so far. Nice diary!

from etherealrevu :

Still interested in a review? If so, just leave us a note, if not, just disregard this message. Thank you!

from technibeetle :

ouch! being a doormat sucks. it sounds like you need an upgrade... astroturf to flokati... flokati might *look* cute and fluffy, but i'm telling you, don't step on one, it'll trip you up and eat you alive ;) </p> seriously though... you should check out a book on boundaries, something like "where to draw the line" by anne katherine... </p> ps thanks for stopping by and commenting on my diary :) </p>

from miseryfire :

I would like it as Dawn's... it was pretty. :) heehee.

from miseryfire :

Hey! thanks so much!! I absolutely ADORE the second one, that's all green. Is it possible for u to make it into a template? I'm handicapped when it comes to doing anything "correctly" on the computer...it's sad really...lol

from dietcokegirl :

and if i hurt you at all .. I'm sorry. I wasn't trying to. Just saying that you said that some kids think if they do the opposite of what their parents do, when they have kids they'll make it better .. and then you went on to say the way that certian parents raise their kids is wrong, based on your own experience, so this was the right way to do things.. and i dunno, i was just making some point about irony, or hypocrisy or something. About your mom though, not showing you things.. I think you enjoy your travels and discovery more, because you make the choice to learn those things.. many argue that it's the parents/teacher's job to simply teach the fundamentals, and let the kid use those tools to explore things.. to shape their own identity .. I don't know any more. I just didn't want to hurt you, okay? I haven't slept much in the last few days and I'm tired. I didn't want to be unnecessarily harsh. Cause you know deep down, I love you. you're my oldest friend. And I don't ever want to hurt you. So yeah. I don't know what else to say. I came home sick from work today, so I think I'm going to go lay down..

from meeyapede :

Hum, I'm not sure which banner it was. "It's been a fabulous year..." was in *2001*, which was, of course, the same year of The Fall (aka 9/11); the don't stand for anything was just hilariously tautological/redundant; and "the only thing I know is that they're bad people" is geopolitical morality gone freakymad. Hope that helps- I haven't checked out your diary yet but am about to now...

from miseryfire :

Merry meet! Thank you so much for commenting on my diary and I really do I like yours! I can understand how you feel. Yes I do have AIM and it would be nice if we could talk sometime, the template was really beautiful that you did for your friend. Write back, it was nice to have met you! Blessed be.

from dietcokegirl :

Honestly? The first word that came to mind, was hypocrite. If only because you have your own form of arrogance you're accusing your mother, and women like her - of. You want the truth as I know it? There is no perfect. Each mother does the best that she knows how at the time. Sometimes they make mistakes .. sometimes we, in our anger and distrust of our parents make mistakes, as children .. the best that any of us can do, when and if we have children is to love them - to try to let them be who they are, without giving them so much freedom, they wind up with wounds they can't heal .. it's a vey precious balance really. I don't honestly believe there is any one way to raise a child. Just as I believe there are so many ways to love one. Because children - are humans .. and despite our similarities, no two of us are exactly a like. So there can be no right or wrong way to raise them. Cause all of us are fucked up in one way or another. And at some point, you stopped being a boy - your motives stopped being simply to rebel against your mother, but rather to hurt her, as you feel she hurt you. At some point, a child stops being a child, and no longer has the innocense you seem to hate so much .. without innocense, a child now has responability. That responsability, means that he is held accountable for his actions. That everything he does can no longer be laid solo-ey on his parents shoulders. The blame also rests with him, for how he turns out.

from e-nymph :

I was thinking about working on a new one this week. something less of an promo ad and more me. love you too! x0x0x

from strippedraw :

you will find the meaning

from e-nymph :

you are correct about 'mordant truth'...i think i'm just going to let go and see where it falls. i'll enjoy the pleasure if it comes my way, if not i have other things to occupy my time. in fact i finished a new mix and posted it. :D love you! x0x0x

from e-nymph :

are you gone? what's happened?

from strippedraw :

wha happen?

from strippedraw :

we always want to see the same movies yet i never have anyone to go with, move up here so i can!

from strippedraw :

fuck me, i know that's not what *you* like, not what i like.

from strippedraw :

You're not fucked up, you just haven't found the proper way to express yourself. Remember you saying that? I do. Perhaps it's not through a diary, or furthermore not through an online diary. We lose the sense of what these things mean. They are outlets for what we need to get out of our systems but quickly those react to what we say and then it just stops. Maybe that's happened? I don't know. I want to push you but I know that's not what I like so I stay away but at the same time I think you're the kind of person that needs a push regardless of your reaction. Or maybe you're like all of us and you just have no fucking clue what you want to do. Life is damn hard but you do your best.

from chickpea981 :

You shouldn't let a review break you. And if you're really that fucked up, then get some help darlin.

from slutreviews :

http://slutreviews.diaryland.com/shadowbox.html

from dietcokegirl :

Grrr... your stupid note page wont let me add a message. Forget it.

from e-nymph :

just read what you said about the poetry night, thank you so much for understanding. thank you for always being there for me as i try to be there for you. *HUGS* i love you so much, my dear friend.

from slutreviews :

You left me a little note/warning in your diary. If you want a good content score, I suggest you email a list of entries worth reading that have more substance. Steph says you were very emotional at one point... where was that? I'd love to read it. [email protected]

from strippedraw :

La Senza is a Canadian lingerie company, our VS if you would like. Don't worry about being broke, we all are!

from his-boy :

from dietcokegirl :

What did you do?

from strippedraw :

I'm happy that you have a goal and I hope you reach it. I see you owning a bookstore or something along those lines, your personality suits it. Life is crazy right now, I miss talking to you.

from e-nymph :

hey sweetheart, did you open the e-card I sent you days ago? if not, you have a bit of sweetness waiting for you! love you bunches! x0x0x

from meism :

You honor me by both listing and linking me. Thank you, sir.

from e-nymph :

you're such a dirty boy! ;) I love you! x0x0x

from his-boy :

I love you [hugs and kisses] :)

from strippedraw :

what the fuck ever! johnny depp would be appealing in a god damn drag queen outfit... anyways my original comment was going to be about how i just got home from LOTR, how funny is that? now to read the books... ;-) love ya

from dietcokegirl :

Ugh! I can't believe you like 'From Hell' I *made* myself sit through the entire movie, and it was the most disgusting, stupid movie I've ever watched. Ugh. Not even Johnny Depp could make it appealing ..

from e-nymph :

oh baby! I've got a rope with your name on it! ;) love you! x0x0x

from strippedraw :

You've had this for two years? Shit that seems like such a long time. Yet it feels like a few months ago. Time is going way too fast.

from e-nymph :

laughing blond porn of the moment- all i can say is yum! ;)

from untrapped :

I am updating again so check it out :P anyhow talk to you later...btw I found a place for the cats.

from his-boy :

happy birthday *hugs*

from antlers :

Happy Birthday, Andrew. Check out http://www.beachnet.com/~jeanettem/chants.html#jump and see if there's anything you remember.

from dietcokegirl :

Damn, I wasn't the first one to wish you a happy birthday .. :( But Happy Birthday anyway!! :)

from strippedraw :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! WELCOME TO THE QUARTER CENTURY OF YOUR LIFE HAHAHA I know I'm crazy. xoxoxo

from e-nymph :

getting all set up to do nerve photos; i'll send you what i get done. ;) love you!

from strippedraw :

flailing madness. why yes i think so ;-)

from dietcokegirl :

it booted you cause i called you to say hi .. cause you were bitching none of your friends were online and your aim isn't on so :-p

from shewhowalks :

Just wanted to say hello. Your words are still moving me as I read and reread them daily. Again, thank you.

from e-nymph :

profound words indeed darling; ones I *need* to remind myself of more often. sorry i missed you yesterday, i was off wrapping presents. :) today i'm taking some me time and watching a dvd, maybe the pillow book. ;) I love you! x0x0x

from shewhowalks :

I was moved to tears. Thank you, so much.

from dietcokegirl :

mmmmm fruit loops. mmmm blue moon. *Feels craving* :( Fanks a whole heck of a lot .. p.s. thanks for listening to my shit the last 24 hours or so .. it's the only reason I've not offed somebody yet. Keep smiling eh? Stay strongs in the storms of life, and the sun will always shine on you (that's a kid rock reference) ..

from strippedraw :

do i get brownie points if i say i have no fucking clue what meme is? come on! you're always late with the 'scopes now, can i at least get some points? :-P love you

from e-nymph :

no offense taken; the real point to get is the title 'where are you off to hannah jane?' someone once told me that song was mine; this line always effected me- "There will never be no one to take your place;So don't you want to reach out and take my hand". and i've been called that leaving one of the most important arguements of my life- a point i should have turned around and changed my life. the mix itself is somewhere i see so much of myself in the songs that it can't be called anything else. but the other word is pop media trash, you are correct sir. enjoy the mix, i love you bunches. x0x0x

from strippedraw :

i responded to you directly into my diary. i understand what you said and for the most part i've already surpassed that. she's the one who brought him up, she always brings him up. i was bitching about her not him! but it's ok, i knew what you meant.

from strippedraw :

i was online today, in the am and then in the early pm but had to work. i am online now too but you aren't! :-P

from e-nymph :

it was really good talking to you, it's been a while. i was missing you. mail is on the way- enjoy the cds and the card. :) love you!

from dietcokegirl :

I'm sorry I made you sad :( I just knew you loved / liked him so much .. and I thought you ought to know. *hugs* happy turkey day

from dietcokegirl :

I found this somewhere and thought you'd want to know: The death of 27-year-old actor Jonathan Brandis, who starred in two seasons of Steven Spielberg's "SeaQuest DSV," was a suicide, the county coroner's office said Monday. Brandis, who died Nov. 12, hung himself, the coroner said. Brandis started his career in commercials and on television, landing a recurring role on the soap "One Life to Live" at age 6. He also made guest appearances on "L.A. Law,""Who's the Boss?" and "Murder, She Wrote." His film credits included the starring role in 1991's "The Neverending Story 2: The Next Chapter," the Rodney Dangerfield comedy "Ladybugs," and the martial arts comedy "Sidekicks" with Chuck Norris.

from his-boy :

Im a crappy villian

from glycerine-kt :

Missing you so much my heart is breaking. I want to wrap my legs around and never let go. We really should talk again soon. Love you dear....there was a thunderstorm the other night & I couldn't get you out of my head. *kisses*

from tom-seb-jak :

There called "SEXY EYES"!!! I talk about them often in my diary :)

from strippedraw :

oh i know hun, i hate the holidays! i just want it to be january...

from e-nymph :

Yay snow! we've had it here twice. i'm hoping it holds off until closer to xmas, so galen and i can enjoy it more. :)

from his-boy :

give me a tarot reading.but I have no money.:(

from strippedraw :

oh wow hot sexy red, i like this very much. the green was sooooooo not you!!! very very very very nice. now, why the hell haven't you been online? it's been far too long!!! ;-)

from dietcokegirl :

i forget to tell you sometimes, but you're beautiful. sometimes, when you're just being you - unaware, you are lovely. other times, you're very annoying and i don't like you very much. the the sum of the whole, is worth more than the parts has come to mean a great deal to me. you are a beautiful whole person ..

from kwesta :

Oh, on my diary... why arent' there differen't 3rdShadows... Like 4th... It's because I share my diary with about 6 other friends. So that's my Alias to tell the difference from eachother... Therefore all the "3rdShadow"'s are my entries, and the others are my friends. *Muah* still lovin' your diary -Third_Shadow

from hadassah :

Rhyme Ok now where's my money? lol I like your diary. Take care k?

from dietcokegirl :

you know I didn't mean it that way .. sigh .. i miss.. mmm us? the stuff before the u and i and egos which get in the waaaaaaaaaaaaay.

from banshee-rose :

again i click a banner thinking hmm probably another boring diary than BAM naked ppl! lol gotta love it! You and alfafa have fun

from kwesta :

Whoa, your banner sure did catch my attention! And your Background and your daily pic! Wouch!!! You sure got one HOT site! -Third_Shadow

from lovealways- :

there are two reasons i automatically love you. 1) your banner. 2) the pics on your diary. ♥

from banshee-rose :

lol wow great pics and layout...i hate when ppl do that too. poor guys...

from antlers :

In boner-pic #1, is it just a coincidence that there's a bottle of hand lotion visible?

from dietcokegirl :

you know that i'll be around - the holidays tend to be no fun for me .. and it only takes one experience to instill fear or discomfort for something.. but it doesn't have to warp you for life - or forever change things - the choice of permanence is just that - a choice - if you open yourself - and condition your mind to accept a newer - positive experience .. it can if not erase / equalize the negative reaction. Only they've done studies - it takes lots more of the positive to overpower the negative .. hey wait a minute, aren't you suppose to be the opened minded one?

from his-boy :

I cant get gold account.my mother doesnt let me.

from angelicmommy :

Hey! I love your pics! I did not however look at your ass pic, or your boner pics. I would find it very hard to look you in the eye had I seen something I didn't need to see.

from his-boy :

I've locked my diary.username=cleo password=love

from antlers :

Happy Halloween. Found the man you love, eh? Congratulations! (and just when I'd added a "next" button just for you...) ;) Oh, and you'll have to explain how you hit on the word "Moose". You hit so close it's scary. I'll explain how close someday....

from his-boy :

happy halloween

from e-nymph :

happy spooky holiday to you darling! great picture. :) i'm taking the little guy to a harvest festival tonight, should be great fun. :) x0x0x

from dierdre83 :

okay...ummm...disregard the last note...i um read my note wrong...i fucked up...lol...um...yea..so "like"...have a great day. haha p.s. my dick is bigger than your God!!

from dierdre83 :

just wanted to say..."chill out there killer" I got the point...just playing around on the net...dont take things so seriously...or you could choke on it and die...have fun with the answers...its just a survey. :)

from angelicmommy :

Hi Andy! I just thought I would let you know that I have started a new diary. In case you haven't figured out who I am, Lutin knows me very well. I think that is hint enough.

from his-boy :

Andrew, he's so damn cute!I hope the best for you. :)*hugs* and bytheway could you please tell me what you meant with that "still happy to see me" ???

from e-nymph :

typewriter man sounds interesting. :) good luck. x0x0x my friend is still teasing me to the point of frustration but at least it's a 2 way street. ;) love you!

from untrapped :

I need to talk you but I have no phone...email me when you work....and let me know other things...I am hopefully getting a phone soon...but I will email you about that soon...OXOXOX...ttyl...Cutest Girl in the world...lol heehee ok not that good...but I can try...ttyl buddy

from e-nymph :

have a great time at the show hun. x0x0x

from his-boy :

I hope you're ok.*hugs*

from strippedraw :

hi sexy! haven't been here in a while. love you! kisses, licks & naughty pawing ;-)

from areistia :

hey.. go over to www.lifestudent.com my friend john is looking for gay men to look at a gay porn website and give feeback on it. *10-17-03*

from strippedraw :

i am about to have a difficult day but i don't know if my mind is making it difficult or it will actually be just that. i don't want to do what i'm doing today but i have to. all i want to do is crawl into bed with you ;-) love you and stop dreaming about my tits!!!

from his-boy :

It doesnt work like that.I dont give a damn about Micheal.What I care about is love and I do search for it trust me.But I just cant ignore him when he's there everyday.

from e-nymph :

chocolate is good and so are you. :) have sweet dreams Doll. x0x0x

from untrapped :

Hey boy I have finally updated my page and I took out the old entries....well that's about it hope to talk to you soon...I will prolly come and get the CD's soon.

from his-boy :

Im sorry about Charlie.

from antlers :

another interpretation is that man is his own worst enemy. So true.....

from strippedraw :

ugh i have to work in the mornings all weekend which means early to bed all weekend. if i don't see you online anytime have a good time, i have no idea where i am next week in terms of work, it will be a nice surprise tomorrow morning if i don't like my schedule! i go shopping after work and still manage to have money in my savings so i'm doing something right. i love you and will talk to you soon! xoxoxo

from his-boy :

from strippedraw :

that would be "Texas" *shakes head at own stupidity*

from strippedraw :

OOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! THAT HAT!!! Ok I was just reading my last few weeks to see what kind of mental state I've been in and I found the hat reference! Yay! Ok, in Jen's profile (Drahmaqueen) it says this ... "I'll have her in a cowboy hat and jeans in no time!!! Hell, I don't even wear that crap! What am I saying??" So I was making a joke in reference to that. No one is really sending me a hat. Unless I plan on going down to Texax to see this lady! Ok hat issue solved. I love you :)

from strippedraw :

sweetie this hat thing is really starting to bug me. i read all of september's entries and still don't know what hat you're talking about! why is someone buying me a hat? who would buy me a hat? this is bugging me and i'm gonna go in search cause i can't stop thinking what hat? what hat? what hat? k i'm done :) i love you!

from e-nymph :

thank you Doll, i like it too though at present those desires exist only in my thoughts and on paper...the touch is yet to come. maybe soon, i am slowly learning patience. my mind is calmer and i'm feeling more at ease with my own self loving...those poems come from there i think. :) i love you. x0x0x

from his-boy :

OFCOURSE I am happy to see you.Always.I love you.*HUGS*

from strippedraw :

crazy man ♥ teehee

from strippedraw :

hehe banner up above "sometimes it's obvious you're a bitch" ... cookie-bitch. very original banner. see, it even distracted me! i have nothing inspirational to say ... i just wanted to pop in and say hi and i love you :)

from his-boy :

You made me smile.A big smile.(That's a tough one.)I love my character.He looks awesome.BUT,Im jelous of Steph's.really.:) Love you.

from e-nymph :

the cast page is great. :)

from e-nymph :

i'm glad you had a great night with a new friend- that's wonderful. :) take care. love you.

from sensualistic :

sweetie don't run, don't lock up. you write for yourself not anyone else. stopping to think of what we might say to others makes us hesitant. what will so and so think if i say this? what will they do if i comment on that? it's what keeps those deep dark secrets hidden. don't. running away solves nothing, embrace this period of confusion and see what happens. turn the guestbook off, turn the notes off, turn off every single form of communication to others if need be but don't turn off the communication to yourself. that's what these diaries are for right? so many lose that somewhere. they start worrying about what others will think and say. fuck them, fuck everyone, fuck it all. do what you want, say what you want and don't worry about those that don't understand. do what you want, not what is expected of you. you'll figure it out, you always do. love you xoxoxo

from strippedraw :

oh shit too funny you quoted the cake thingie!!! LOL i love you XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

from trickytreat :

What lies in the future: Change not as in Who I am, but the what may happen therein. Excuse the Arthur Miller bit. *chomp* muah

from e-nymph :

if/when you feel like talking i'm around. i love you, even when you are angry.

from amalthea23 :

a) i have a guestbook, you can find it at the very top of my diary, it's the link marked "guestbook" b) what the hell are you talking about?

from strippedraw :

you're 4 entries away to the big 5-0-0. wow.

from his-boy :

I love you.

from e-nymph :

no ill was meant by the R.Goodfellow comment darling. you are the Pan who tempts the wild woman's hearts to fancy. not a demon but in a sense an erotic trickster who helps plants sensual thoughts into welcome minds. I love you dearly and miss your voice tickling my ear. x0x0x

from e-nymph :

lots of love and good wishes on this day people comemmorate tragedy. i wish my arms were longer so i could hug you. :)take care and i hope confusion gives way to lots of bliss.

from e-nymph :

re: touched. i touched you today with words since i was to far away to touch you with fingertips. ;p glad we are both getting what we need right now darling. x0x0x btw- the new art is beautiful sweetness, just like you.

from strippedraw :

for the first time that i've ever visited your new layouts, it was the image i was drawn to tonight. granted most of your stuff i have liked, but the html always screamed out to me. tonight i just sat and stared at the image, it's amazing, it's you and your effort shows. i love this, and too bad i wasn't the first to see. it's not about fucking html, it's about who you are reflected through your words and through your layout. i see so much of you in here, i hope you keep to this one for a while, it really is amazing. now i know where you've gone, i'll be on for a bit longer in hopes of your return... xoxoxo love you

from his-boy :

I love you Andrew.I really love you.Wish I knew you in my everyday life.Wish I could have you as a friend.I love you.

from e-nymph :

re: nair...I don't know about you baby but i'd rather suck a smooth cock. ;) lucky the boy here knows how to shave. ;p Luv you Doll. x0x0x

from strippedraw :

excellent i get to be the first to sign. that image is beautiful of the stand by me kids, i love that movie. you're beautiful and i love you too :) thanks for making me feel a lot better last night, i went to bed content rather than a racing mind with whirling thoughts of emotions. whatever you're going through right now, those changes within, it is simply amazing xoxoxo

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