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Sounds like not telling your mum yet is the right approach. I imagine it's hard enough having to sort through your own feelings on this without having to sort through hers, too. Things seem to be moving fast... I hope you're coping alright.

from tithonus :

I'm glad I helped. Sounds like you're still in very tough and confusing situation but it looks like progress. Anything I can do, or if you want to talk, let me know. What's going to make telling your mum hard? Does she not want you to speak to your dad?

from tithonus :

If you contact them, something will come of it. Perhaps they will ignore you, and you will feel hurt and rejected and confused, and it will be very painful for you, but even that, IMHO, will be better than not contacting them for fear of the possibility of it happening. Going through a terrible disappointment like that is a difficult and painful process, but it is a process which produces changes, and while you may not just pick yourself up and "march on", you can and will recover from the blow. Whereas, if you let you anxiety prevent you from contacting them, you have to stay with that anxiety and the question of how they would respond to you for as long as it lasts. Don't prolong it, I say. And of course, I think a much more likely result is that they won't ignore or reject you. If I suddenly discoevered I had a sister that I didn't know about, I would probably feel a turmoil of emotions... anger at my parents, curiousity about what they're like, confusion about what this means about what I don't know about my past... but I can't imagine not wanting to meet them. The desire to find out what you don't know about your family is a powerful motivator. Families are complicated and difficult, yours probably more than most, and I don't envy you your situation. Maybe you need time to process the discovery and think of what you want to say and how to say it: but my advice is, accept that contacting them is inevitable, think of it as something that's already happened in a pre-determined future (if that makes sense) and then just settle into thinking about what the best way to go about it is. Good luck. :)

from tithonus :

Say hello, see what happens?

from gypped :

waah! I HATE those days! xxxxxxxxx

from tithonus :

Yay you!

from tithonus :

...because there are other cities that are good? Nah, seriously, lots of people love London, I hope you do too and have an awesome time there. :)

from tithonus :

Why London?

from pink-pearls :

I'm really sorry to hear kitten. I hope the funeral is not too awful.

from gypped :

re: teaching english in china - you can get paid heaps, potentially, and you probably won't learn to speak much chinese at all. hope the shop works out ash-splash!

from betholindo :

Yo, just come work here. You speak English. I can get you a jobby job. It's not hard. Do it and save money for London.

from tithonus :

Have you thought about teaching English in China? It won't pay a lot but it means you can spend time overseas without having to save up huge amounts of money in advance... also, learning to speak Chinese will probably give you a very marketable skill for the future...

from betholindo :

Easy jobs in London: www.greataupair.com. You can probably get a lot of jobs with the working visa you Aussies have worked out. Amsterdam is also an easy, easy place to get a job.

from pink-pearls :

Fuck, about the phone and mugging. Plus I messaged you Friday night because I thought I saw you. Bummer.

from gypped :

dude I haven't heard 'sinch' for so long. I think it might be 'cinch'. sinchical.

from betholindo :

Yay! Shanghai - we have to get together!

from tithonus :

Wooo! Travel is awesome, keep on rockin'. :)

from tithonus :

So, how much can't you believe what's about to happen to you? ;)

from gypped :

tell me whyyyy either of you would shit yourselves on a train again?

from pink-pearls :

Start a Paypal thing, I'd donate for your trip.

from pink-pearls :

Happy Birthday Pashly you sexy bitch.

from tithonus :

Happy birthday, kid. ;)

from jason75 :

Heidi just got back from india and had a ball. She has a bit in her diary if you get time but from what I gather is a really cheap place to visit so dont stress too much about money

from asper-gen :

Aren't you living in the middle of Sydney??? We used to get misdirected kangaroos bouncing all over Canberra (a hazard for smashed drivers coming home at 5 am after clubbing all night) but then Canberra is a town situated in the middle of a paddock...

from trillion :

Thats absolutely awesome that you're going to India (I'm planning on going there whenever I finish my bloody degree). You need to stress less about the planning and the money saving. Trust me, if you're that excited about going it will seem like it takes for ever for January to arrive so you'll have plenty of time to get things organised. That kinda makes sense, doesn't it? Even if it doesn't- good luck with it all!

from betholindo :

Sorry you're sick, but am so happy to hear about the holiday and Serious Plans for Europe. Au pairing in Europe could be cool- Whatever. You're too cool to stay in Oz forever.

from asper-gen :

I like that you're all healthy when you have a cold. I personally go for the green tea, pack of fun size milky ways and lots of codral option.

from sunstargirl :

haha, you sound like me last week when my Congress passed a bill denying Habeas Corpus to our detainees in Guantanamo Bay. I threatened everyone who would listen to me that I was moving to Canada. I mean, what's the point of having a Constitution if we're never going to follow it? I guess you could move to... umm... Tonga? Maybe I'll move to Tonga too. Canada is just too cold.

from tithonus :

Yeah, I get that. The minute they say I'm a doctor, I'm going to actually leave the country. Oh, and I have to ask you something.

from pink-pearls :

oh kitten I am so very sorry. Although you can go be a dirty hippie with your ashram meditation retreat, bloody hippie.

from tithonus :

*hugs*

from gypped :

your beautiful hair! yikes xoxo

from anhnie :

im going parklife too!! // been counting down since may ((when we brought our tickets)) // total randomness :p

from pink-pearls :

Oh, my Ashy is in love. That made me feel squishy and warm, congratulations to you and Christian kitten.

from pink-pearls :

Ahaha! Drunken ashy gutter spunk. Sweet.

from tithonus :

Well, I'm glad you're ok. You had seemed really happy about being there so I was worried you might be really, you know, unhappy, about not being there. But... yes, it's not really a place that gives recognition to those with itchy hands. So to speak. You want any help figuring out what's next, I can give you all the bad advice you'll ever need. ;)

from gypped :

I had a conversation in the bath about that very thing just last night!!

from pink-pearls :

Why the withdrawal kitten?

from tithonus :

What happened? Are you ok?

from gypped :

you realise of course ash that you made me want to go out immediately and see them.

from pink-pearls :

Anita bloody Roddick did not sell out to L'oreal! Good lord they go against all of the principles she set up in that company (I loved The Body Shop until that news) (I still miss my 50% discount though)

from trillion :

Oh My God. Peter Combe! I was so excited when my mum took me to see one of his live shows and I was so insanely jealous when my brother got invited up on stage.

from trillion :

Yeah, I'm a BA majoring in film and english. : ) I did World Religions over summer session and its not too hard - you can't beat an open book test! Thats awesome that you're getting into uni. I've had a couple of friends who've recently gone back to studying after a five year break. I think you appreciate uni so much more when you're a little older. I actually enjoy the stuff I'm learning about now instead of just doing the work to try and get through. As for Foundation day I'd love to come and I may come in the morning but I have to start work at 1pm. : ( So, I'll be missing most of the fun stuff.

from trillion :

Yeah, I am at UNSW but not Fridays. Friday is my laaazy day, I'm only at uni Mondays and Wednesdays. It was just so weird that I'd watched Austin Powers at uni that day and there you were talking about uni and quoting from Austin Powers. What are you studying?

from trillion :

Honest to god I'm not trying to stalk you, but were you watching Austin Powers in a film class today? If you did, then its too, too spooky. If you didn't, then just pretend this never happened and that I'm not after your lucky charms.

from trillion :

Varga bar is awesome! The pear and rubarb porridge is the best thing ever on a winters morning.

from pink-pearls :

Yes, I hate the thrush ad purely because she uses the word vaginal which makes me queasy. And I have one.

from pink-pearls :

Yep ashy, testify. I love them, but the ones I like are kinda shit.

from tithonus :

Perhaps if one had an overwhelming love of expensive sushi and very little money... ?

from pink-pearls :

You made me laugh out loud with the retard post and I don't even know why. Then I found out it was for me. I love you ashy pash.

from pink-pearls :

oh, oh, oh. A boy ashy! A country boy! God I love them. Keep me up to date on this boy k love.

from gypped :

ha yr awesome

from tithonus :

You are a goddamn champion. Also, I have fond memories of eating at Clem's while hungover, but that was before I turned vego... it's a wonder they're still there. :)

from asper-gen :

Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo congratulations! And definitely ditch the tiara, unless it's made of diamonds and he's buying it for you

from gypped :

um!!

from tithonus :

Eeeeeeeeeeeee! You are getting MARRIED, you crazy girl!

from tithonus :

Yes, is there going to be a big wedding and cake and bridesmaids and dancing and so on?

from pink-pearls :

Ashy, I totally fucking second titho. You and Arfur? I always thought the babies of Arfur and Ashy would be beatiful. Oh and invite me to the wedding.

from tithonus :

No, wait, for real? You and Arthur are getting married?

from tithonus :

It's a flight from where to where? If it's in the USA, you might do better buying the ticket once you get there.

from tithonus :

My life veers with frightening speed between being unbearably wonderful and unbearably awful, and yet somehow I bear it. :P What uni are you doing your course at? Also, yes, please stay inspired by me, making that last payment that puts you back in the black is one of those satisfactions that no impulse buy can equal. ;) Not that I'm one to talk of course... or I am. I don't know. Sometimes I'm responsible and sometimes irresponsible, but isn't that the way to be, anyway? Yes, it is, I've decided, so there. :P

from tithonus :

Like the new layout. Also, something something. Like, chill out, you will do great or something. Or something else. I was sure I had something to say here. Oh, yeah, I was going to rudely enquire as to the seriousness of your debts.

from arthurgeorge :

me and jo booked our flights today we r going to san fran, new z, then we get to sydney on about the 25th of feb and we r there for 4 weeks. i can not wait iv never looked more foward to a hoilday. tell all the others

from gypped :

um, it rains at bluefest. I forgot to tell you.

from asper-gen :

awww, what cute fluffy slippers! Mine are black and furry with white snowflakes embroidered on them...

from arthurgeorge :

alright mate, that festavell sounds good i didn't know u liked blues musick, it aint a bit of me personley, but the camping and all that sounds like a largh. i liked byron one of my favarit plase's in austraila. im going to v this year, it sounds like a simler thing. im of to egypt next week i cant wait to get a bit of sun i look like a pint off milk at the moment, it should be a good hoilday there's enough of us going, ill call u when i get back i should have a few storys by then

from leyla-moon :

Blues is gonna rock.

from gypped :

well I think you look lovely.

from tithonus :

"...screwed down hairdo, like some cat from Japan..." ;)

from asper-gen :

Awww, hello kitty

from tithonus :

And yet you resent elderly gentlemen for holding the same sentiments. :P

from tithonus :

You are awesome and this job, it seems, is not. Either you have to become less awesome or find a job that is more awesome. Don't you think the former solution would be a tragedy? :P

from pink-pearls :

To change the dictionary (in word at least) go select Tools - Language - Set Language and you'll have an Australian English dictionary.

from pink-pearls :

Yeah we are both pretty awesome. And congrat's on getting the girls out more these days too, most photos I see they're out. And they're magnificent. And I still want your hair bitch. (Should I get my hair straightened so I can get that awesome brush over fringe?)

from pink-pearls :

Fuck you Ashy, the fringe looks awesome. That's exactly the type that I want except I have curly hair and I'd look like I'd have a frullet (female mullet) So be bloody grateful Ash to the Bo Bash. Oh and move out already so we can go drinking with Stella.

from asper-gen :

Lamebrain makes you sound like my Dad (in the sense that it's a term that he uses, not that he's lame in the brain) and neurotic makes you sound like my cat (in the sense that she's a bit out of her tree, but in a good way ) :)

from broodling :

I dunno, gorgeous, I think the fringe looks kinda hot. :D Then again, it could just be your natural sexiness shining through despite the haircut!

from tithonus :

*hugs*

from arthurgeorge :

my bruv loves feona apple, iv got him right in to it, whats her best cd?, did u down lode, all time love, if not then do it your ipod will be so much better then it already is,

from tithonus :

With great difficulty.

from asper-gen :

I like the passport application in the background :)

from katlitter :

ouch, that Mardi Gras looks like the most fun.

from gypped :

there's a reason why everything at supre is $1.50

from asper-gen :

Never mind about the whole short thing, i'm only about 5'3" and I get asked how the world looks from down here too. I usually answer, "when your head is level with their shoulders then your fists are level with their groin".

from arthurgeorge :

ash u lost so much wait, that spidar has got more fat on it then u. dont every eat again it really suits u

from asper-gen :

Ah, so that's what you look like :) I'm liking the new layout, can't really go wrong with paul frank

from arthurgeorge :

i love babs to! your just a woman in love, best song in world, down lode will's new song its called, old time love, u will probley hate its a bit soppy but u know me i fucking love it. i tryed to get in your diary at my mums office the outher day and it said that this website has been blooked by the pornogrphy protector. and i just thought that is my ash. call u soon arf

from pink-pearls :

and you look as hot as ever ashy love.

from arthurgeorge :

alright mate, u need to tell shelldon to drop me out of that one lenth wavey bob, not felling it at all, tell him to get the clippers out again. come to that did i ever send u the pic of my skin head if not let me know and i will, oh yer and i remember when i meet that bloke called neill and i got down on one knee u told me to get up and that i was a cunt, oh but when corey dose it its funny. not coming to oz yet i aint got 2 pound coins to rub together at the moment, but soon as i have ill be there. me jo mary and nicky all went dogging the outher day it was the funnist day of my life but ill tell u about that when i speek to u, i might put in an entey about it as it gos...lateron then gezz

from pink-pearls :

Oh the trouble Sydney is in when Eve and Mashy get drunk. I predict tourette's style swearing, falling over and possibly flashing of breasts. But that may just be me.

from tannymonster :

One more thing to add to the list: - Have trashy night out with Tan at the Townie.

from tithonus :

You'll cope. Good luck. :)

from arthurgeorge :

alright mate sorry i missed your bday the the night i ment to call i fell asleep on the settee with the call card in my hand, but happy birthday anyway and ill call u soon, lots of love arf oxoxoxo

from gypped :

happy birthday, dear ash!

from gypped :

I want to see your list!!

from gypped :

haha I love it I LOVE IT!! he sounds great.

from pink-pearls :

that is fucking awesome ashy love. now marry him. and make me bridesmaid.

from tithonus :

Well, you're about where I was 3 years out of high school, and just look at me now! Uh, actually, probably better not...

from tithonus :

I couldn't agree more. Having worked in customer service myself, I would never, ever be rude to a waiter or waitress... I guess some people who've never done it just have no idea.

from gypped :

hehehe fucken great game. loved it.

from tithonus :

"poy-yo" is the spanish pronunciation... I was guessing it might be the same in Italian... but, uh, yes, I've contacted my lawyers, you should expect the suit to be set in motion any day now... ;)

from tithonus :

Isn't it... without wanting to sound like a big jerky pedant, which might be hard since I am one, but, uh, isn't it five letters? "Pollo"? And pronounced "poy-yo"? Which, uh, someone might genuinely be nervous about getting wrong? "Etna" does seem a bit silly, though...

from tithonus :

:( *hugs*

from arthurgeorge :

alright ash good to see that u r feeling the diary, i let debbie read it today, she thinks i might the next ann frank. send me a email and tell me why u was an arsehole, did u get laggin and call every one a cunt, hate it when i do that u just want to scrach the skin of your face dont ya,go and read richard's diary he is such a nob jockey

from pink-pearls :

You are one of the funniest bitches I know.

from badmj :

hi I just wanted to let you know your diary is really good and I like reading it

from arthurgeorge :

i love this all i keep thing about is what im going to wright next,iv got to learn a bit about punchuacion though cos when i just looked at loklins mesge it was so much better then mine, but dont worry its in the bag have u got any iders for my profile cos im shit at thers things and i think i sound a bit like a nob.

from slumper :

OH MY GOD ASH... this is loki... obviously the home computer is logged into your diaryland account and i cant esacpe !! so this message is to you from you !! You is at your mommas house, im at home it is 3.00am and i am bored SHITLESS ! Mansha-Lee is sick ... work was BIZZY... how are you feeling sick chicken ?? (im sure i will know the answer before you read this) ok got no more to write EXCEPT... sydjerkboys just flashed on my screen syjerkboys says: willing to pay $$ to meet for a wank ! How fantastic is that... i wonder how much. MWA gonna go find out ;)

from arthurgeorge :

alright ash what u up to i read about u being a phone whore it sonunds good is the money good let me know a bit about it cos i want to be one. im a member now and i just dont know what to say i have never had that problem in my life. i think its going to take me a whail to get used to it its a bit fucking this diary land shit but ill get it in the end i allways do. got to go now and do a bit work. laters

from tithonus :

Hehehe... I can see their fragile little bodies plunging to their doom even now...

from asper-gen :

I always sneeze three times in a row. Always.

from pink-pearls :

Coolest job ever mashy

from tithonus :

Goodness. Well, you may not have enough room, but you are going to have to share some funny stories with us anyway. ;)

from gypped :

fuck, what is that, and how do I get one?

from tithonus :

Uh, great! Um. What does that mean?

from pink-pearls :

ARFUR! I completely forgot about Arfur, if I see a gorgeous hairdresser over there I'll say hi. I cannot believe I am going overseas, but I'll bring back lollies. I like lollies.

from pink-pearls :

I'm with you on that. Or people who not only don't drink or smoke but also don't drink coffee and you go what the fuck do you have then? What do you DO? Weirdos.

from gypped :

oh my god what a great layout.

from gypped :

oi hope you are okay. xo.

from pink-pearls :

oi ashy, you better be going to john's saturday.....

from tithonus :

Didn't you know? These days, the cool kids don't *smoke* marijuana. Oh no. They just stuff the buds into a hypodermic syringe and then *shoot it straight into their veins*. Obviously.

from gypped :

good luck! mums are suprising sometimes aren't they. lovelovelove

from katlitter :

best of luck and wishes, and let me know if you decide to come be a new yorker. that would be cool. i would steer you away from the spots that really smell like piss and show you where to get the best tea. -olga

from tithonus :

Hey, it takes a lot to face up to having a problem, of whatever kind. Well done - of course, the hard part isn't over yet. :( My best wishes go with you - a lot of people never make it even as far as you already have, though, so you should, yeah, you know, feel proud and stuff. :)

from pink-pearls :

thanks darlin' I knew it I know him after you told me, gifts of american cigarettes is pretty cool....

from tithonus :

Wait wait, I thought there was someone... heavy metal boy packing you cones? Where did he go? Sounds like, though, you should be moving to texas. It's really not so far. :)

from tithonus :

Well, I couldn't stand fretting anymore so I went and looked on Google. For shame, for shame, I know. Anyway, I know "Dock of the Bay" and I should've gotten that, and I know "Lovecats" but not that well... I think if you'd started with "We move like cagey tigers" then I would've gotten it, which makes me think, you must have a version that isn't by the cure and starts differently...

from tithonus :

Hey, thanks. :) Anything to do with music will alwyas get me interested... tell me the numbers of the ones I should've gotten and I'll give them another think...

from broodling :

Let's see what a musical mind gets me: 1) Shania Twain - Still The One 3) The Beach Boys - I Get Around 4) Throw Your Arms Around Me (Eddie Vedder version?) 7) Kylie - Did It Again 9) Queen - Fat-Bottomed Girls 11) Silverchair - Pure Massacre 16) ACCIDENTALLY KELLY STREET KIAH KILL RAHHHHHHHH@#%!@#% 19) Jimi Hendrix - Foxy Lady 22) Deep Blue Something - Breakfast At Tiffany's 25) Your Wedding Night - L-A-C-H-L-A-N Do I win a prize? Huh? Huh? :D

from tithonus :

1. No idea 2. Carole King, "You Make Me Feel Like a Natural Woman" 3. The Beach Boys, "I Get Around" 4. Hunters & Collectors, "Throw Your Arms Around Me" (I think it's called that) 5. No idea. 6. Elton John, "Tiny Dancer" 7. Dunno 8. Ditto 9. Vaguely familiar but can't place it 10. I'm guessing it's by Snoop Dogg, no idea what it is 11. No idea 12. Nope 13. Nope 14. Sounds interesting, but nope 15. Vaguely familiar again 16. Nope 17. Starting to feel dumb 18. Hmm mmm 19. La la la la 20. I only did this quiz because I immediately recognised two of the first three 21. Marvin Gaye, "Heard it Through the Grapevine", yay, I got another one! 22. But only one 23. Hum di dum 24. Well, here we are 25. At the end end. Phew!

from gypped :

wheee. I wonder if I still have the correct phone number for you. I will text it and see. of course you have no credit.

from gypped :

yo bitch, I have something to send but no address. pls text it to me. darling. xo.

from pink-pearls :

Aaww Ashy love, you found a non-douche bag. This is a beautiful thing.

from katlitter :

been forever since I signed your thing, yo! ...death metal and puppies, that's an excellent combination! stay happy, Olga

from tannymonster :

I don't know who Joey chooses but I'm 98% sure that Jen dies. Which is dumb because Michelle Williams is soooooooo much hotter that Katie "Creepy" Holmes

from tithonus :

Hey, sorry about your dad. And, yay! About the other thing. :)

from gypped :

eee :) lots of *love*

from gypped :

camels, baby. yes.

from pink-pearls :

Oh Ashy username - open (shit, maybe it's read, I dunno try both)p/word - now. kisses

from tithonus :

What if my duck wasn't salty enough?

from gypped :

my pussy, dude.

from gypped :

yay! romance and waitressing and old italian ladies. your life is complete. congrats miss :)

from misselyssa :

In my dream last night you'd moved your diary. I need to stop dreaming...

from gypped :

xoxox thank you

from asper-gen :

Ah, glad to hear it :)

from whereismycat :

OH MY GAWD !!!! do you know who this is ? I know where you live/are moving to... I think i might lock you under the stairs in your new house...Or i will get all the poo from you neighbours backyard and put it in your room... Are you scared yet ? knowing you, you probably are... but your not stupid and have probably guessed that it is DONKEY !! Im actually waiting for you in newtown... bored out of my brain, of course i go to the one thing i know well !! THE INTERNETTTT i must say i am so excited about you moving in... do you know we will be together 24/7.. only when we are asleep will we get a break from each other... AHAHAHAHA.. and i am VV excited about our purchase of a minature Pig... we were thinking susie for a name... and we are going to put a pink bow on its tail.. and we are going to make mini overalls for it aswell !!! anyway i am going to be seeing you soon and will tell you all this..so not quite sure why i have written it all down >> catch ya.. LOKI.. Lord of Donkey Manor.

from fag-got :

I forgot to touch your boobs at mardi gra.

from astrodyke :

McMash you are teh sex and I miss you so motherfucking much it hurts my spleen. We need to get drunk soon *nods*

from gypped :

ah, mansha, still as beautiful as ever... mm, burger.

from majikmushrum :

hahahaha!!! looks like you had a good night!! i went to two ribes that night, had a wicked time too. leave us a note some time, don't be a stranger!! take care xx

from gypped :

*snorts* you just did. ha ha ha ha ha ha ha. well done.

from gypped :

I sexond that! (hee)

from pink-pearls :

you are possibly the cutest and funniest girl I know.

from betholindo :

Am inspired by you to buy some pointy pink shoes and an Idiot's Guide to Sewing- Pff.

from tithonus :

How does who know what?

from gypped :

I am pretty sure I was drunk when I left that last message, because I don't even remember leaving it. ps: I'm drunk now too! your love makes me sing!

from gypped :

dear ash: your love makes me sing! yours, claire. xo.

from majikmushrum :

haha ive been wondering whats been happening to you. well now i know that youve just been busy slutting around! haha. have some fun. why not? but you do realise that the second he shows you any attention you'll just turn around and be like, woah man, not cool. haha, cut out shoes. well that was one of fashions downfalls. like shoulder pads. cant wait to hear from you again. keep writing. my buddy list misses having you light up in red every once in a while. oh! did i tell you i got a new sewing machine for christmas too?? i named her betty :) shes hott!

from tithonus :

Nah, your template is cool. I never even noticed that it said that love singing thing...

from pink-pearls :

Hey missy, are you coming to feel the Ferris love this Sunday? You better be btw.

from asper-gen :

Ah, I know that post-NYE shower feeling well... It's great isn't it :)

from betholindo :

Thank goodness. Congrats on Charlie. And stop being a slackass: set up your new notes.

from betholindo :

Sugahbuns, don't take your blog away from me! Password please? [email protected] I'll blow you a kiss to make you feel better about whatever it is that made you protect your site.

from leyla-moon :

Hmmm :o( Password?

from asper-gen :

kick his head in.

from majikmushrum :

hello my dearest!!! how ARE you???i know ive been lazy with notes. hell, ive been lazy with entries all up! i might do one now. thats it! youve inspired me to update my diary, and you didnt have to do anything! just writing you a note is inspiring. see how inspiring you are!!! anyhow, i went to newtown the other week, and i think i mightve seen the shoe shop you were talking about. i couldnt go in because i was headed for a friends place to go out that night. is it like the antique shoe shop, or something along those lines??? i went there again last weekend and had a look inside, whether it was the one you were referring to or not, i liked it!! and yeah, i can make bags. like, fabric handbags n stuff. you know the deal? i havent made one for a while. going through a motivation dry spell at the present. been working lots. ive been aching to just sit down and design and draw and make stuff, but when i do nothing comes out, even though i feel like i could burst. do you know what i mean? do you ever get that too? anyway, i think time calls for an update. you should update more too! youve been sorely missed!!! write back soon hun! xxx

from majikmushrum :

hey... whats happening with you?? i havent had a note from you in quite a considerable amount of time!! whats up??? i feel without!!!!!!!

from majikmushrum :

ok.. so ur on my msn... miss ballerina... (you know i did ballet for eleven years?? who woulda thunk it huh? well there you go!), and now im just waiting for you to come online, cuz youre being super crap and not going on msn. im going to newtown next weekend with a friend of mine, so that shoe store will be a definate pitstop. cant wait. im shiverin' with excitement, i am. oh, and speaking of broadway, you been to broadway betty? im sure you have. i love that shop, except i think they charge too much for some of their second hand stuff. i much prefer the thrill of searching through racks of potential filled clothes and finding a winner. oh the hullaballoo! and as for bill hicks, where have you been!?!?!?! have you never looked at the inside sleave of your trusty aenima cover, and wondered, who is this alleged "another dead hero"? this is something worthy of being looked into! why, i think i'll do that now! bill hicks is a comedian. he was very controversial, and spoke a lot about how positive drugs were, how fucked politicians are, he spoke against christianity and organised religion, all while making you piddle your panties! he does the "see i think drugs have done some good things for us..." sketch at the beginning of Third Eye. i have so many of his cds. and his biography :) you should download some of his stuff off the net. as a matter of fact.... i demand it! yeah! take that! you know, since you went to see tool, and i went to see tool, that means weve both been in the same room together! and we didnt even know! isnt that exciting? i get excited over stuff like that. its the whole 'small world' thing that gets me. and yeah, ive still got both my tickets.... framed... hahahaha, yeah i know. and i also have the salival box set................. and two copies of aenima... the original and the special limited edition.. i know how to nerd it up harcore man. and yeah, i think i may have to leave the piercing idea dormant until i get my car.... which is only about 47 days away. (counting down? who.. me?) i can wait 47 days. right? and you should count yourself super lucky to have a mum that cool. i love my mumma to bits, shes just a bit uptight over... like.. everything. but if youre going to get it done again that come get it done with me!!! then i wont be shitting myself cuz im so scared of needles and pain and big tattooed guys thinking im a woos. you free in 47 days? oh, and i reckon Maylan is a really nice name for a cool lil funky yet feminine fashion line. my last name wouldnt go too well as a label. it'd be like, so what are you wearing? oh, this is a Minichova number. haha, yeah maybe not. hmm.. what am i interested in designing... thats such a hard question to answer. the one thing that i absolutely love to do is sew. so i wouldnt mind doing tailoring. but like, with cool things, like corsetry or something. and do other things as well. like i live to get old things and revamp them. or get a huge ugly dress from the salvos and make something else from it cuz the fabrics cool. i like getting fabric and playing around with it and seeing what i can come up with by what the fabric is like. i make heaps of cuffs and bags and things at the moment. but ive got some cool ideas for shirts and i love making pants. i just love the whole area, you know what im sayin' g? it makes me feel all tingly just thinking about it! oh, and i havent been anywhere else in europe, just slovakia. i cant wait to go back now cuz when i went last time i was nine. so this time i get to go out and drink czech beer and see the nightlife. cant wait. maybe ill pick up some cute slovak boy... oh the possibilites!!! anyway, i was agreeing with you at the beginning of this note about keeping the length of these damned notes down, but it looks like it just didnt happen. sorry dude, i tried. haha. anyhow, my parting words will be, (inspired by the song playing in the blckground) i sold my soul to make a record, dipshit, and then you bought oooooone *insert long maynard scream here*. talk to you soon chicken!!!

from betholindo :

You're such a super hot genius with these posts!

from majikmushrum :

oh, and whats ur email? i want to add you to my msn :):):)

from majikmushrum :

o0oo00oo0... 2 notes! well that was near orgasmic. this shoe store on king has got my curiosity on overdrive. i really wanna see! so when you come out of the station you go left, right? a friend of mine did that thing where you go to america and work at one of their camps, is that what youre talking about? he really didnt like it. he couldnt wait to come home. (he came back a week ago). he missed aussie beer :P and yeah id love to travel around europe. id love to visit my relatives in slovakia. i think im going back to visit with my mum next winter, so that its summer there. ive already seen the winter. need a bit of variety, eh? my best friend is actually in england now, and she's visited scotland, ireland, france, umm.. i forgot where else, but shes loving it. lol, as for the store idea, hell yeah!! why not hey? what ideas do you have for your own label? names that is. haha i have a list and i dont know where to start. but dude, the inside of the store will be wickid. can you imagine? our combined creativity with the clothes and interior design. oh dear god. itll be revolutionary in the retail world. mwahaha. ok, maybe my minds going overboard (read: lack of sleep), but you do get my general point of greatness. and as for tool, yes, loved them since i was in year 8... thats 5 years. i was 13!!! i had awesome taste in music to boot as a 13 year old! woo!! and yeah, i saw them live twice. you ever see them? and OHMYGOD those are my favourite songs too. i love opiate. lovelovelove. and eulogy *orgasms* and hooker... well, its just hooker.. whats there not to love?? but you cant overlook the prodigiousness that is forty six & 2. i did a speech on that song for a year 12 assessable and got full marks. woot! oh, and please tell me youre a bill hicks fan.... *joygasm*

from majikmushrum :

hahaha... well that was a note and a half. loved it tho :) and youre not old!! only 2 years older than yours truly (theres one of your questions answered :P) haha, and as for the rooms, i once designed for my room to have the colourscheme of white walls, beachwood furniture/bed, white sheets, and then fuschia and purple throw cushions, black vases, with fuschia/purple flowers.. and rararara.. you get the picture... yes? but then, well... i got the better of me... and my room turned out as it is now :P oh, and as for your huge house, ive always had a dream house with different themed rooms.. but my themes were like, a ball pit room, where you walk in and the floor is a ball pit... with like a fireman pole coming down from the room above, or a trampline room where the entire floor is a trampoline. haha... well yes... thats my brain for you. oooh, and i liked your clothes too. i would love nothing more than to one day raid your wardrobe. agreed? youre too nice. but as for my life plan... i have a love for fashion and sewing. ive sewn for as long as i can remember, my mother taught me how, and her mother was a seamstress who made wedding dresses. its one of those 'in the blood' things. my plan is to do a clothing production course next year at tafe, and come out in 2 and a half years with an advanced diploma. and ill learn all sorts of patternmaking goodness. cant wait. and id love to release my own clothing label one day, and my own store, but thats way off. for now, im aiming for a tertiary edumacation. and for some reason i just a got the biggest urge to spend my next pay cheque at newtown. havent shopped there for too long to be healthy. meanwhile, this note has become long enough to be classified an email. so i shall be off. reply soon!

from asper-gen :

gotta love Paul Bettany...

from gewerq :

You have be a verbose hermit that enjoys experimenting on people with different inflections of voice to be able to succeed in work in a call centre. Fortunately I am so. And I still got sacked :-D

from leyla-moon :

Ah shit...double-post. I hate it when people do that.

from leyla-moon :

What else can an un-educated 19 year old do? Sewing in sweat shop like conditions...not fun. Man...you sounded so much like me in that last post, with the 'so bored I'll implode' and the whole europe thing. Pretty creapy actually. Anyway....just to let ya know i've been reading ur diary for a while now and really like it :o) Leyla. ps...im a huge big bro fan too...i try not to be...but cant help it.

from leyla-moon :

from asper-gen :

I'm crossing everything possible for you, I hope your interview goes well and that you get the job... Man... I'd love a job where I get to sit down *sigh*

from betholindo :

Oh, whatever, if he's joking around with you like you're a younger sister, then he totally wants to fuck you too. It's all foreplay.

from gypped :

dude are you getting married? like, actually? did I miss something? ps: we both work for telstra and are inlove with a guy from telstra :)

from tithonus :

Cannabis Cup? Wha?

from tithonus :

AND IT IS ILLEGAL!!! Uh, what I mean is, um, *hugs*.

from alarm-call :

I thought for a second there I might have found one. he seemed like an awesome skater boy with some interesting things to say. and he doesn't think I'm weord. wouldn't you just know he's hiding a Wounded Heart and some Artistic Vision, just like the rest of them? there should be classes for emo/indie/alternative boys on how to stop being such a pussy.

from tithonus :

Won't you be missing "Big Brother Up Late", though?

from tithonus :

Good luck with your interview. :)

from alarm-call :

after I stopped laughing and telling her I loved her:"yes. don't you?" "no, not really.not without.. other stuff". and then we discussed different kinds of orgasms for awhile. I felt so in highschool. with knowledge taken from cosmo, yknow.

from tithonus :

Um... it sort of gives me some kind of weird optical effect... not that that's necessarily bad...

from markthehulk :

Oh... and nice to sort of meet you... yeah! =)

from markthehulk :

Hahaha... Good to hear! I try to avoid swearing, but it is so much fucking easier to get your point across!

from asper-gen :

I think your tiara is better than Mary Donaldson's any day...

from asper-gen :

I did something similar, like a bridging course stylee where you had to get at least 73 to get in. They changed the rules of the course after my lot went though because we fucked the system completely. But it made uni so much easier when we did finally get there. My UAI was a grand total of 65, most of which can be attributed to getting on the good side of my music and english teacher. I think that's quite impressive considering how little work I did...

from alarm-call :

I googled it, because I'm nice like that. actually, though. I don't know how old you are, so maybe you're too young to do it. you have to be turning twenty. but I guess it's good to keep in mind anyway, since they don't publicise it. it is the easiest thing ever. you don't have to study anything, you just have to do comprehension tests and graphs, and they give a score, which gets translated into a uai. (is that what they call it now? I'm old)---> http://www.uac.edu.au/admin/stat.html

from broodling :

Woo! Let's hear it for getting out of work early! I did indeed check out your super-sexy eye - looking at pretty eyes like yours up close is always a pleasure. *grin* Mine are sorta greenish-brown and one of the few things I get consistent compliments about. Have a good weekend, cuteness, and try to stay out of trouble. K.

from broodling :

Now see, you can't rush the creative process. It has to evolve on its own. A proper gushing of gratuitous praise has to manifest at its own pace - if you try and hurry it you'll end up with nothing. And yes, you do rock. But don't let it go to your head, spaz. :P

from alarm-call :

oh, I'm always getting internet crushes. a crush crush crush all over the place.they just don't generally get into my real life. it's okay if you sometimes imagine what it might be like.. that's okay, isn't it? that doesn't count, does it? what's not okay, is when you have an actual life, and things are happening, and for no reason you're thinking about some boy you don't even know. and you say "shut up. I have to concentrate on sending this" to people who are not [possibly]imaginary.

from asper-gen :

Right, i'm jumping on this question band wagon thing because i'm procrastinating from uni work. (1) If a tree falls in the forest and there's no one there, does it make a sound, or is this question a big load of philosophical wank? (2) Who would you most like to assassinate? (3) What song will be played at your funeral and why?

from parlance :

Slumpee.

from caraxus :

For real, for real. We must meet up again and cheer up miss Eve for she seems sad, when she's gets back...eeek...yay for shared hatred!!

from squeekyclean :

also..kewel Random Facts thign it's really interesting...I hava all the OCD's you mentioned...wierd.. xXx

from squeekyclean :

also..kewel Random Facts thign it's really interesting...I hava all the OCD's you mentioned...wierd.. xXx

from squeekyclean :

Heh, Love the newest entry "deal, bitch" I'm always comaplaining of the hot/cold weather too. Although I think in England it's always cold... Yeah whatever...it made me smile in these wee hours of the morn. xXx

from squeekyclean :

from gypped :

okay so the night? we'll be at the elephant & wheelbarrow on oxford st (paddington? no idea) from about nine, I think. I'm going to stay at caraxus's place! hurrah! and, you should totally come, but if you can't I'll understand. but don't move to campbelltown till the next day.

from tom-seb-jak :

my boyfriend is will young AND he is in your list. wow. how special like.

from olei :

first, i left a message in danny's guestbook for you. THEN i signed your guestbook telling you that i left you a message in danny's guestbook. THEN signmyguestbook is an asshole and wouldn't take my guestbook entry to you. anyway. hate danny all day & night, but even if you break up with him 50 million times a month, he still won't return calls OR write you back. because he sucks. BUT! i have his number, if you want it. heh.

from rishi :

I'm sorry he's gone, love. On the bright side, I've just discovered your diary and you've got a new fan! Yay! Umm... yeah, having me as a fan wouldn't cheer me up either. Damnit...

from mizmaris :

best jesus story. ever.

from tithonus :

Relax!

from parlance :