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from darthuae :
weird is sweet.
from darthuae :
just keep that feeling as long as you can, if you believe it to come and go ♥ (it's the best thing i know about love, i think, but i'm very unsure).
from darthuae :
try one hundred things at the same time. i've been alright, i hear you're alright too, and i'm just glad you found that stray strand of happiness that always belonged to you. am i right?
from darthuae :
always* - i think it's funny i wrote "away" just now :)
from darthuae :
may you away have regular days, love.
from darthuae :
just in a happy mood :) what's up with you?
from missfickles :
Wow that's so weird! I never actually thought I'd find someone else who splits their changing moods into personas. c: At least I know I'm not crazy now...
from darthuae :
thanks man. you rock. you're not nothing--jack kerouac once said that "Great things are not accomplished by those who yield to trends and fads and popular opinion." therefore you are open-ended and can do many a beautiful thing if you wish to <3
from darthuae :
i saw this film called 'thelma & louise' a few years ago & it stuck with me when one of the characters said something along the lines of "you get what you settle for" - i wonder if that makes any sense to you.
from seventhwing :
Whats wrong with coffee with milk in it?! Welll, I'm stuck home alone all day tomorrow and the next, so I'll have time to send you a mail or ten....
from darthuae :
♥ or <3
from seventhwing :
So I've decided to spam your notes. I have also decided I will not stop until not only am I added to your fav list, but the top of said list AND that diary has been deleted off of it. You have been warned. that is all.
from darthuae :
you know, there's a certain silence that comes with translating words and emotions into numbers. it eases my mind when things can be defined. i wish numbers solved everything. 12 cups of coffee.
from darthuae :
what you just wrote, man. with your mind.
from darthuae :
i love this i love this.
from darthuae :
i guess 'on the road' would be a good start. you can try 'the subterraneans' next. tell me how you find it.
from darthuae :
aw. sorry. i don't use IM. i think you'd understand the whole melancholic beauty of words if you let jack kerouac into your head.
from darthuae :
yeah, i meant your writing. i don't know, really--it just amazes me what a person can do to mere words. and yours are just like the glitters of my morning (no matter how sad they are.) i'm sorry you think of yourself as ugly - though i don't believe it. you couldn't have possibly written your tortured mind down so achingly beautiful otherwise. [sorry if i don't make sense.]
from darthuae :
your words are so potently shriveled with beauty.
from darthuae :
happy birthday. -don't think of it: birthdays make no sense anymore.-
from darthuae :
how long until?
from darthuae :
i too want to sleep the sadness away...
from jiltedsoul :
Our words are one more often than not; tis why I am still devoted to you.
from sheo :
No not really. Sometimes I do worry about certain things, but then again I think it's better not to write everything down. I also don't have the need anymore to write. I used to when I wasn't with Hen yet, but now everything is cool :)
from and-darling :
It's always hard to try to ignore love when your brain is telling you what's really right.
from jiltedsoul :
I understand needs for privacy, but if you feel like sharing, please do so. Jiltedsoul@gmail.com
from darthuae :
it's 10am where i am. i'm supposed to be at school but i don't feel like being there, ya'know? whenever i'm feeling slightly down i take my pens and notebooks out & start writing letters to dead poets and novelists. it makes me feel better somehow :)
from darthuae :
i visited the Netherlands a long time ago & i still remember how beautiful it was. you're lucky to be living in sucha place, man. (i do hope you're not feeling as bad as your diary says you are.)
from whaton :
live*
from whaton :
the weather is beautifully sunny over here too. i love in a place called the UAE. somewhere in the centre of the world. it's going to get damn hot soon though.
from whaton :
oh & i absolutely adore your art! that's so funky, man.
from whaton :
trying to make it to the places that i love..
from whaton :
that's cool, man. i'm doing some kind of engineering at the moment & i can't say i'm enjoying it much. i'm still unsure about what i want to do in my life; i certainly like a lot of things but i can't be committed. i think i might one day end up a poor writer living in the gutter, too talented to be noticed and too brilliantly mad to be taken seriously (or perhaps that's considered as pushing ones luck, haha.) -- art school is beautiful though, so many opportunities. what kind of art are you particularly interested in?
from whaton :
art school huh? we have more than a thing in common i see - except i'm not really in art school (although my mum would love that very much.) what year are you in? i think it's pretty cool that you've got lots of interests just in case you get bored and want to do something else in your life--that's pretty neat.
from whaton :
that's awesome dude! what else can you play?
from whaton :
sorry, i sent you this note from my other diary.
from whaton :
it's jimmy page's solo in "stairway to heaven" - a brilliant piece! cool, so you play the guitar? i wish i could. sadly, my talents are centered around being bored all the time and doing abominable things in my life. so are you in a band?
from darthuae :
it's easier to say "oh woe" than say "i'm so happy!" i guess--i wonder though, how are the good moments portrayed then if not by writing? surely not by pictures?
from darthuae :
haha, i don't know why but i've always wanted to be a writer someday--this diary is for nothing really, i do my real writing on paper (an old soul you might say.) your diary is neat though! i'm gonna add you to my buddies :)
from darthuae :
yeah, same here. i'm not sure i'll ever be pleased with being happy either.
from darthuae :
don't know how you'll take this but: things get better. they have to, somehow.
from volgende :
just breathe
from whitespine :
do you laugh at my german? haha, your welcome.
from whitespine :
tag...wie gehen sie? ich spreche etwas deutsch...ich gefalle dein worten (?) :)
from and-darling :
Ah yes. Vash... Haha, I love your name choices. Anyway, dear, do take care. <3
from and-darling :
Just waiting for ultimate doom. Or, rather, the realization that I need to do something with my life. It'll come. It'll be shocking. Something to write about. Right now, though, I'm just waiting. Enjoying free time. Pondering. The sorts. How's living with a significant other? How long have you been together?
from and-darling :
I miss your updates! Well... I do hope you discover what you need. Sometimes keeping busy is the best cure for idle minds.
from and-darling :
What made you feel like this? I'm curious.
from miedema2002 :
I am great thanks. How are you?
from miedema2002 :
Great diary. Did you make that template yourself?? Beautiful. I read one entry and was hooked. May I add you as a favourite?
from and-darling :
School is almost over. I didn't go today, and I should be studying for diplomas. As for anything going on, well-- not really. I'm just moisying along. I hope you have a good night's rest and sweet dreams. Get well soon.
from and-darling :
I'm... okay. I don't know how else to say that. Haha. It's a small world sometimes. I suppose, if you get a hold of your brother anytime soon, to say hi. More or less he won't remember me, but it's all good. Wow. This is amazing... How are you?
from and-darling :
Holy crap. I do know you! I remember Scion too, and all the shit he was going through at the time. Man... That was so long ago-- I was like... thirteen.
from and-darling :
Come to think of it, the name "Suta" off Diaryland seems very... Similar. I was around in the 2001 era, though, but perhaps we chanced across one another before. I used to go under kyousha and false-apathy and then ironic-. It changed, usually, every year/two years and then I stopped all together. But I'm curious as to your work now. You should update~
from and-darling :
Hah... This Phoenix person attacked you too. I'm a veteran at D-land, but I recently came back so I can start writing shit in my life down again. I chanced across your diary and looked through it, and I love your artwork and photography. It reminds me of what I aim for and the lot. Hit me back, dear. I'd love to hear from you.
from pink-circle :
I love your template!!!! *The Circle of the Phoenix* Hi, I'm Phoenix, and I'd like to personally invite you to join The Circle; a writers' and artists' group for diaryland members. It's a public journal, so that anyone can post to it, but members have profiles on the site, as well as critiques, and once promoted to Apprentice have buttons to show off their achievements on their site. I hope you don't take this as spam, you can just delete this message if you're not interested, but if you are, please visit our welcome page: http://pink-circle.diaryland.com/welcome3.html -- Thanks for your time -- Atara Phoenix
from chinariquena :
LOL. Well, an e-mail reminded me. So, I just thought of dropping by to wish it myself. I also sent you a Myspace message, *raspberry* :]
from chinariquena :
Happy Birthday ♥
from chinariquena :
Hey you. I've been on&off of here. Just reading some diaries to catch on up. I moved to LJ, but ....That's kind of private, wtvr man. How have you been, kiddo? ♥
from sheo :
Wow that was great! *waves*
from koi-ishly :
Wanted to let you know that I added you =) Hope you don't get too lost...
from vladica :
im back. hello hell-0
from josepi :
hey kiddo, sorry i went AWOL there. I'm probably not going to update this thing very often anymore. Or even any blog. I don't really feel the need to vent into the interweb anymore. I have a new girl for that. She is lovely and I love her so. I have no really super depressing feelings that she can't make better and she is lovely for that. I guess that's really my life to this point. Keep on rocking kid. Life only get's better. Love, Josepi
from vladica :
das ist so schon. that was a beautiful entry, so calm, i could feel it.
from vladica :
i tried helping people. who dont give a shit. so my fucking time was wasted.
from vladica :
alle ist schlect...und shiesse.
from teen-review :
Your review is FINALLY finished. I apologize for the wait. Enjoy your review! - Mandy
from vladica :
nicht sehr gut, und gut auch. haha! alle ist sheisse, und alle ist nicht sehr sheisse!
from vladica :
its never been alright, you know? so i guess, its passive. but slowly going down...down the negative shitty slope. what about you?
from vladica :
everything shatters just to be fixed then broken again, its a never-ending fucking cycle of life. life and all the shit that comes along with it...
from chinariquena :
hapi birthday next... thursday!!! the 16th!!!i think!!!ajajaja..yeh... a lot is up with me.... but i guess its just slowly dying out.. no big... i hate drama anywho.. ♥!!!
from chinariquena :
....i wouldn't say interesting per se... how about you?:S
from vladica :
brilliant pictures, they made me think. just stop.and.think.about.everything...my life.the lives of other people.and reality...
from chinariquena :
Hey! Not much & yourself? Just.. procrastinating like always:> jejeje, how's life treating you? :D Much love <3 mua♥
from murdrsxaffrs :
No vacation for me. Never, I wish though! Yesh, I must say loving someone who loves you back just as much is amazing.
from murdrsxaffrs :
I love love, I really do. And I'm happy being in love and knowing it's with the perfect person, and knowing no one in the world could make you happier
from vladica :
Ich bin gut! alle is nicht sehr schlect, jetzt...ja. im actually doing ok, for once i feel everything being lifted from me. the pain is not so bad, for now. :)
from murdrsxaffrs :
Loverly loverly. Love is always a good thing, I'm glad you're happy.
from murdrsxaffrs :
Could be better, could be worse. How're you, I haven't talked to you in ages.
from vladica :
Hallo, wie geht's dir?
from jiltedsoul :
Sorry it's been a while...missed you.
from chinariquena :
Awww!Pero that's so cute!!teehee!!:> And my diary's been locked for maybe a month now.. And if you want it, just ask on msn, kay? ♥
from vladica :
yes, i have bled for my instrument. really, my fingers are bleeding. yeah-my pics dont work, its ok. im doing fine, im reading Necronomicon-its quite interesting...and how do you do?
from vladica :
one day you shall see a pic of the mistress macabre(vladica) and her guitar.
from vladica :
yes, Orgy is a great electronica band- i like to listen to them a lot.
from vladica :
greetings friend- the sun is down and it is time for me to resurface!
from bebopkid :
Wow two educations and a job does sound hard! I've been doing fine myself, my grades are a little messed up and I am currently looking for a job, but things are good ^_^
from pigment :
this is great "Matafix" . Listen to it! All the best...
from pigment :
thank you for the note! :o) * a lot of fun, really? tell!
from chinariquena :
awwww!!!so he's like a soul mate in a way!!!that's so cute!!!happy 10 months soon to you then![hopefully it is soon..] jijiji... i totally agree with that thought, loving someone is SO not easy.. :'< *huggles back* have fun too!!! love yuuuu -D
from vladica :
Well, i met someone. he has a wicked debonair, and a dark quality about him that i love oh so much. I dont know what kind of sickness i had, i didnt go to the doctor. I felt like i was being punished! Yes, it is the new year, and the new moon as well. I wish you only the best. :)
from vladica :
hello, things are well- i have just recovered from a painful illness, but all is ok for now. Und du?
from chinariquena :
Good point :> You were always the smart one between us two XD awww!! Congrats with the lover boyyyy.. Heehee.. ^_^ I'm doing peachy keen jellybean :D How about you? You sound so happy and I'm glad!
from chinariquena :
Cause cause cause we always used to write notes to each other and now we don't!!! [sobs loudly] Anywho, Happy belated New Years to you too!!! [huggles back] :>
from chinariquena :
Miss you. ♥<3♥
from vladica :
yes, things are full of crap; as of late. but since it is the full moon, things fluctuate...change..yes lots of change. I have been, hmm, ok. I dont know, i have made my final descent into darkness, and am wondering if one can be content- i think so. for me life begins at night, but ah well, i guess there are other night creatures out there. oh and thank you, musik means a lot to me, i can play sweet dreams as well, marilyn manson songs are the best. I have been very cold lately, almost freezing.
from vladica :
suta, let us talk of many more things; for i have resurfaced this place. how do you do?
from chinariquena :
Hello!! I've been extremely well thanks! Hahaha, I wrote sextremely well and i was like O_O oopsie.. -_-'' anywho.. Thanks for the complement on the layouttt, if you need one, I can attempt to make you one, and fail miserably :> Pues.. Yeah. How's everything with you? :> ♥
from bebopkid :
Hello ^_^ Just wondering how you're doing, I haven't talked to you for a while.
from vladica :
i have surfaced again, after a long long ....nap.
from volgende :
i don't come uit nederland but once i was there and yes, next, next
from vladica :
hm...still hiding from the sun, but occasionally i like to step out to see the beauty of fall; the death of summer. things have been violently passionate, and hurtful.
from morganlight :
I found you by listing members of the Kaori Yuki diaryring. All Kaori fans are intelligent by default. ;)
from cuttersblood :
thank you. i will.
from vladica :
i know exactly what you speak of, and it brings a smile to my face, its lovely. :)
from vladica :
at the time when i wrote that, i was consumed enveloped with an overwhelming love for someone. i felt, undeserving. but i wanted to reach out so bad, just to feel- taste what i can never have.
from pigment :
no, it is made by some odd strange E.T. farmers...! see: http://www.temporarytemples.co.uk/imagelib/ttlibx/ttlibx-A2001M-MilkHillCU1.html and all that... Thank you for note. :o)
from chinariquena :
hey, i was doing alright earlier, now im just wicked sad cause i really need to talk to my boyfriend but i think something's happened. nah. paranoia again.. i hope
from vladica :
the return of vladica: its been awhile huh? hi, wie gehts? mew!
from pigment :
heyo Suta! thank you for messages...!! i'm doing well, at my sister's place, ocean, my 1 yo niece, reading fabulous books and making inner progress...oh well. Still single though, grrr... ;o) 'You?
from aiyori :
hey... i havent talked to you in so long.. im sorry that i havent. i hope youve been well. my love.
from chinariquena :
awwww..that sux0rz jejej.. but i hope it doesn't that .. chaotic anytime soon or anything! cause i don't want you to die of stress): ouchie.. boredome..tiredness.e&..
from chinariquena :
Jejeje... I'm doing just great thanks. I'm peachy fuzzy keen. I can't explain it at the moment, but t'yeah!:D:D:D!! How are you?
from vladica :
that entry "let it be love", its a culmination of everything i want to say to one who deserves.
from evilcat :
thanks... um... which one? :\
from vladica :
i meant perfect, its everything i ever wanted to say. is that so odd?
from vladica :
beautiful.
from hindthesmile :
*Is confused*
from hindthesmile :
Um...?
from simplyrayne :
i don't mind at all :) Yes, I did make the layout but the bottom text has gone funny because I changed the size of the image in photoshop without realising. D'oh! Need to sort that out. Have a nice day x
from simplyrayne :
Thanks, I've read a few of your entries so far and they're very emotional and well written. Take care x
from evilcat :
i'm fine, nothing's new here. et vous?
from vladica :
ahh thank you, :)
from chinariquena :
AHHH!! FRENCH IS A POO! pardon my french, but you are a poo! (: love ya! <3
from vladica :
ive been doing, i wouldnt say good, but, well im not very lonely anymore. so thats a high note, but im still in the background. silently watching the party. i find that beneath all the torment and the pain, i can still escape, and find something to smile about. its twisted. pleasure in pain?
from chinariquena :
i think its mon amie cause you can't have two a's one after another (when you said ma amie) i dunno.. jejeje french is not one of those subjects i exelled in, hell, i didn't excell in any class! buahahaha!! i'm tired cause i either a) oversleep or b) too much work and can't sleep that much, its one or the other or both. heh. yeah, i was in the mood for an apple today so i opened my fridge and couldn't find any so i was like, hmm, maybe i can ask alec to run over here and give me one of his.. wait, i just remembered his knee.. jejeje...... bai!
from chinariquena :
*speaks to you in french* of course, i don't know much, so you can just shut me up whenever.. :P jejeje.. anywho! i'm doing quite alright, still sick, still wicked tired, et toi? comment ca va?
from evilcat :
i forgot notes existed briefly... *blushes in shame*
from chinariquena :
that's what parents are here for. werd. yes. oh yeah, patting your head is gonna be so much better.. jejeje (; *gives you chocolates* ouchie my throat.. ): anywho! i hope you have a swell weekend/thursday/friday thing! actually its thursday.. soo err oui.. au revoiour? eh.. i dunno <3
from hindthesmile :
Thank you.
from chinariquena :
yeah i gues your right.. :) *hugs* we hug too much ;_;
from chinariquena :
heh, coffeetoast is my best friend. so its odd that you kinda got pissed at her, but ok. its no big to me. i can't control what people do or say, if i could, just imagine that damage. who are we talking about with the hope? eduardo? eh? i'm so lost. *hugs twice* .. *hugs another time* teehee! yayness. :D merci pour le.. complements about my layout! :) take care! <33
from vladica :
life is a long and seemingly endless road, its too long for me.
from chinariquena :
yeah, here's to the people around us! what if you can't deal with it? hmm.. i'll try to have fun. can't guarentee that much. thanks for that. <33
from chinariquena :
thank you.
from palerealm :
I HATE LIFE AND I HATE JOBS AND I HATE PEOPLE!!!!!!! Anyway, I'll send out my letter to you, as soon as I can get to the post office, that is......>_<*
from chinariquena :
swell. :) thanks for that. i hope.. if there's any troubles on your end, you'll be ok too. we'll be ok. wait for it. wait for the end. love, d
from chinariquena :
I didn't know you went to Italy. Where has the time gone? I've been ok, I think. Yeah. How about you? Talk to me about the trip to get my mind off of these things...
from silver-blue :
I was just doing some random browsing around the site and came across it, hope you don't mind.
from hindthesmile :
Thank you.
from f-i-n :
hihihi!
from chinariquena :
thanks for your advice and kind words. they meant a lot. <3
from chinariquena :
I like your poem.
from suckers-love :
-ishpfuckeddm- Loved your entry. Have a wonderful evening. :)
from yami-moto :
hey! i'm REALLY sorry, i've been working really hard around home and to add to that i take martial arts so i really don't have a lot of time to spare, i'm so sorry! i love writing to you and everyone else here, its just that i get so busy i'm about ready to pass out, and to make it harder my parents are fighting and bickering CONSTANTELY! I'm about ready to keel over if you know what i mean. Good to hear from you! ^^ your like my secound nii-chan! Shame on me!! I deserve to get kicked! *hits head on wall* I'll scold myself then. Write me back... k?...? ~Yami-Moto
from palerealm :
The passion of lovers is for death, little girl...kiss kiss.
from palerealm :
*smirk* Yeah, yeah, I know, it's been forever. Alive and not addicted to heroin. Good, ne? Just fucking stressful. I've gotten your letter and I'm writing back. Love you, kid.
from godhatesu :
yes lol aren't i a kind one?
from chinariquena :
Awwww.. *gives you all my jumpers and winter jackets and everything* Well, actually, *gives you a lighter and a lot of dry wood* :D make a camp fire in your living room :) And thank you for the advice, I am forgetting about him. <333
from hindthesmile :
*Wills snowy winter to you*
from hindthesmile :
I'm a winter person, so...normal summer = death. This summer = super death. On the bright side, I'm listening to "Daddy Cool" and it makes everything better.
from hindthesmile :
Lucky. It's melting death here.
from vladica :
i completely relate to "the difference" you spoke of in your last entry. i have always been, "the other" unwanted, child put on the back burner. sometimes people forget im there, or just forget me completey. and i have a way to um, break things. like break the unbreakable. and everyone knows its my fault, because its always been my fault. im just, defective.
from vladica :
hows it goin.
from chinariquena :
Yeah. But I thought he was the perfect guy. I think I made a mistake and let that go. Thanks for the hug.. *hugs back* When will it be the end then? Thanks, yeah, it's Yuna from Final Fantasy 10.. I've never played it though. Oh well.
from aiyori :
oh yeah, ive been changing my layout so much cause im just too lazy to make a real one. so yeah its just cause ive been so lazy lately, and i havent had much motivation or inspiration to make one. so its like writers block for those who really cant write, but display theyre feelings in color and images. haha. right. ♥
from aiyori :
hey, i know how you feel, but i would have probably started crying :] haha. well i love ya, and the hard times suck right? i would say that theyre gonna get better, but who really believes that in the world that we live in today? so all i can say is that im here for you. cause that, i know for a fact.
from chinariquena :
yup a doodles!! jejeje.. it was a purty rose too! not just a rose rose, it was purty.. :P
from hindthesmile :
Not really. I had some plans, but I've managed to cancel most of them. Lame. I've just been...chillin', yo. Oh, yes. And swimming a lot. I like swimming. What about you?
from phoenixgrave :
:) ----------------------------------------------------------"Sometimes I feel the city is my only friend"-------------------------------------------I really liked reading this entry. I really like the way you wrote it and what you put into it. The darkness, the silence of a dying day, the stillness but the mortality of this instant, the light, the determination... I think that in a way, we're very alike and very different. That we think the same, that we can feel the same, except you made the choice of standing above your emotions, and not let your heart care too much, when I can't just forget, forsake my feelings and then get easily driven by them. My numerous tears may equilibrate your rare ones .. good night darling !
from chinariquena :
I love the rose! :D
from hindthesmile :
Summer vacation? Yeah, it's been on for a while.
from chinariquena :
Yeah. Good points. :D *hugs back* You go out and have fun too. GO GET LAID!OMGOMGOMGOMG LOL <333
from aiyori :
times like those.. they consume me... i know how you feel so well, and at the same time, the pain is all its own. you cant imagine how badly i wish i could say the perfect words.. and make the pain go away... but if i could life would just be too easy huh? over and over i try to explain the pain to myself.. but it only comes out as nonsense like this. im always here for you, dont give up.
from chinariquena :
Yeah, that's true. Always sadness. When your happy most likely you'll be sad sometime soon anywho.. Yeah. I liked your new entry! Tres cool. :P <3 love ya
from hindthesmile :
God, no. It's nice to talk to you.
from l0stwhispers :
Naw, I'm not all that sad. Just really stressed up and exhausted. I really want a break, but I just can't seem to get one. Just the thought of a fully-booked week ahead makes me ill. >< And yea... I just need some rest. Well, maybe a rest which doesn't end. =X But other than that, I'm fine. =) Thanks for asking anyway! And you? XP =)
from jackthripper :
Welcome back, love. Actually, I've been doing a lot better than I have been in a great many months. Things are coming back together now, thankfully. I hope things are well with you, love.
from chinariquena :
My french sucks, I knew that already 8D jejeje.. I would choose to be sad all the time, but what's the point!? There's so much more to life that's not sadness. There's love, there's.. more love! There's just so much stuff that it's pointless to be sad all the time :) You should totally have that party! jejejeje.. And thanks! I hope your summer's just as swell. Jiminy cricket! I gotta go. I'll talk to you soon! <33
from cammella :
I'm ok, how was England?
from aiyori :
thanks suta :) youre so right.... your words give me strength. loved, Yori
from hindthesmile :
I'm okay. We both know I don't write often, so you should be fine. Thanks for caring.
from chinariquena :
J'adore beacoup = i adore you so! self destructive thing? well, i was talking to my friend eli on aim once and he called me self destructive cause i accused him of such horrendous things in a letter i wrote him, and he's like, 'you know what? your just self destructive, you hurt yourself all the time! you can be happy and all that jazz but you choose the fact to be sad all the time which leads you to do such actions!' or something along those lines. i'm doing quite well thanks, how about you? not shred to pieces hooray! <3
from aiyori :
thanks suta.. your comment made me cry a little.. hah.. i dont know... i dont know whether im sad because i know he isnt.. or im sad... because i know that ive wasted so much time on someone who could never love me back. i feel like my life sucks, but im trying to move on. it cant be that hard right? well anyway, thank you for always being there.. being here for me. im always here for you if you need me okay? Love Always, Yori
from chinariquena :
Yay! Welcome back darling. :) It's good to know your alive and well and not .. well, shred to pieces I guess. It's good to be a comfort. I think I did cut for more reasons, but the reason that we were discussing was probably a key one. I am self destructive afterall, and after having a long line of rejection, what kind of way would I unleash such pain? J'adore beacoup! <333
from aiyori :
wah i missed you. anyway, my life has pretty much gone down the drain.. and at this moment i actually am crying. everyone was right. jay is a crap boyfriend. he talks about all these other girls except me.. am i really that embarrassing?? oh well. i hope you had a fun time. i miss you super mucho grande much.
from velvetmask :
Mmmm, Robert Smith. Nice. Although you picked a hell of a time to be in England. Funny how coincidences happen, isn't it? There was something I wanted to say to you, some time ago, but I've forgetten it, so it doesn't matter. I'll write you when I can think of something useful. Take care, and such. I would hate to have to find a replacement big sister, and I don't think people would take too well to someone wandering around with a "little brother for hire" sign. Have fun on your trip.
from aiyori :
wow i feel the same way. god bless the one day wen everything is just... good.
from chinariquena :
Aw, I used to cut beacuse of guys.. I feel horrible about it but yeah, tis the truth. I don't know if I ever admitted that I cut in my diary, maybe like once. And I've done it quite a few times. So eh. Whatever. =/ Yeah, my life is crappy too. But we survive..
from chinariquena :
You said you were lost and didn't wanna be found, SO I WILL FIND YOU! :P and it's a song, you interpret it however you want ;) <3
from chinariquena :
WELL IM GONNA FIND YOU BUCKO! :P
from palerealm :
Hello little sister. I'm glad you got my letter. Will you be writting me back?
from f-i-n :
Yes, "Fin" means "the end," in French. But it's also my initials...Which anime character are you thinking of?
from chinariquena :
Awww I'm sorry to hear about your friend! :( And yeah, 5 weeks. I can do this, I can defintely do this. Yeah. Mhm. SIGH.. :) <3
from aiyori :
thanks suta... im definately over dramatic when it comes to my boyfriend but what can i say? i put myself out in the open and he shoots me down. i always think its the end.. but i want things to work out. well who knows. love you lots. youre the best suta bozu i bow to you. haha that rhymed ^.^U
from evilcat :
i forget to check my notes sometimes. i also forget my age sometimes. not my gender though. i know i'm a girl :D
from chinariquena :
oh, about the weekend? jeje, yeah, alec is leaving today (saturday) for 5 weeks.. and i'm so sad! not to mention confused.. ttyl~
from chinariquena :
reggeaton = spanish rap.. jejeje its sooo weird how americans and everywhere else are adapting it.. it originated here if im not mistaken.. erlacky.. i don't want it to spread.. that'd be just so UGH.. jejeje <3
from f-i-n :
hugs and kisses
from yami-moto :
I'm sssssoooorrrrrrrrrryyyy!! I've been hella busy lately, and am currently in pullman, WA Uggg .... I'm so dazed, i feel drained... I'm sorry, i've been at a writers stand-still. ^^;;;; sorrysorrysorrygomennegomenne! ^^; Anyways, heh heh... i'm doing ok, hope you are too,sorry i've not been on or writing ^^;;;; ~Yami Moto
from godhatesu :
I've been better thank you how abot you?
from chinariquena :
Yay for that!! I listen to all types of Music :D.. minus bluegrass. It scares me too much :P <3
from chinariquena :
Ha... I get called a pothic by my mates XD its hilarious cause it's a mixture of punk and gothic and yeah.. jejeje. i'm a wannabe for both things.. not really. but yeah.. hm, i don't think you should change.. blah for change... een though eric says i have.. not the piont. i forget what i was gonna say.. blurgh.. oh yeah. i hate the cruxshadows.. i think that was the name of the band.. they're icky.. :( i love you though! and who wants to be normal, eh?
from vladica :
ich bin nicht sehr gut. alle ist sheisse, fur misch. i never really have the motivation to make my life interesting, even when i do, it all gets fucked up. so whats the use i say. i have my guitar and thats about it. and the occasional drugs.
from vladica :
hey! its been awhile huh? ive been in zombie mode. what website?
from godhatesu :
haha well then good name
from cammella :
Because you seem to be stronger, and happier so it seems, than I am. I'm a fucking moron, something you will soon learn about me. But I'm always happy. This note made alot more sense in my head. Best of wishes.
from godhatesu :
yeah it sounds like a sexual position lol or something along those lines
from chinariquena :
i'm pretty sure you have to be dead in order to reincarnate.. =/ yeah, i don't have much to say either..
from godhatesu :
thanks I like your name too although I don't know what it means and i'm going to make this short because i actually have inspiration lol
from cammella :
You can
from godhatesu :
no problem I meant to add you earlier but I guess I forgot since I don't go on this site as often anymore when i'm depressed I usually write more too but I don't know it hasn't happened for me lately
from cammella :
I'll live.
from bebopkid :
I'm sorry I just always say goodbye...I guess it's a habit or something...sorry for that.
from chinariquena :
LOL fine, not fun. :(
from chinariquena :
:D MARCO POLO!! yayayayayayayayay!!!!! reincarnation is fun :P
from godhatesu :
I"ve stopped writing for a bit because I've been depressed and really just couldn't write at all and I still can't write as much as i want to but I am going to start updating mor often now because as you can see i've updated like twice within this month alone and i used to update daily so I"m going to try to fix that
from aiyori :
well i couldnt tell you why you keep writing but i know why i do.... its really the only way im able to express the feelings that really are in my heart. people tell me all the time that theyre there for me... but if theyre so close why can i never reach out to them? i guess this is the 11th hour... this is where i decide that life doesnt really suck.. and that even tho i travel the path of life alone, the path is lit. the false love draws me in sometimes, but when i come back.... everything makes sense.
from aiyori :
all i can say is that what you said about your mom made me cry... i know exactly how you feel. at times it seems that you and i are parallel lives. love always- yori
from bebopkid :
Adios=goodbye
from chinariquena :
Totally, but make the best of it okay? Live one life and that's it. Unless you believe in reincarnation! :D
from cammella :
Yea, I hate them with a passion.
from aiyori :
im doing okay ^^U well besides my stomach and stuff but yeah. i dunno, sometimes life just seems so much more complicated than it really is, and as for that guy- things are going alright i guess. i saw my ex today and it made me so sad cause he didnt even talk to me, but i guess i shouldnt expect him too. its so wierd to stand still and realize that people are constantly passing you by. to realize that youre so far behind that no one realizes that you ever left at all. to realzie that the feelings that we once had for each other are just that, the past.
from chinariquena :
hEY, i THINK shit.. lol sorry about the weird writing, i'm too lazy to fix it.. :P uhhhh.. well, what was i saying? ah, yes. i think i can totally relate to your entry 'ur daught is dead' and such.. yuh.. <3
from aiyori :
hey suta... i havent talked to you in forever. well i really miss ya. comment back k? love always- yori
from chinariquena :
I love frogs too! ^^ omgomgomgomgomgomg :P
from murdrsxaffrs :
Ooooh, what part of England?
from murdrsxaffrs :
I'm quite shitty actually. I've been having some problems in certain areas and not doing shit about them. I sliced the corner of my thumb off and want to shoot someone. The usual I suppose. How're you?
from evilcat :
sexy B)
from dooki :
I'm just as angry and spiteful as always! :) How are you doing?
from chinariquena :
aw, but it's so boring!!!! i went out for the second time this week, and tomorrow shall be a third! (third times a charm, right?)
from angelseyezzz :
the Netherlands & Deutschland baby ;) hope u doin aight, so glad summer's bk yayyyy lets go party :P
from invisibledon :
Found your page and I liked it so I thought I would say and you did have the thing there that says leave a note or e-mail if you are from diaryland so I did - how are you?
from invisibledon :
Magic beans - it's how I find everyone - the invisible have special things like that
from invisibledon :
hey
from vladica :
woa, that was a quick reply!
from vladica :
toll! ich spreche etwas deutch, auch, ich komme aus amerika. :)
from lime-reviews :
Sorry about that wait and the confusion, but hell, at least it's done and I have internet so I can review at a natural pace, eh? <<http://lime-reviews.diaryland.com/suta.html>> Thanks for requesting.
from chinariquena :
Yeah, I am. :)
from vladica :
i agree, zombie's been rockin. sprichts du deutch?
from lime-reviews :
Yeah...sorry about that, diaryland (since I've had the account open for a while) is taking a lot of time to update super old pages, like hours if not days to do so. It's kind of a pain in the butt and something I've been asking Andrew about for a while. The pending list should be fixed and working tonight.
from vladica :
why sure you can add me, im really flattered. thanks. i can show you my art, i have a lot of junk, but i just need to get a scanner and my internet back on-using the library's computer. i miss my own computer, here i feel like everybody's poking their nose in my business, like theyre watching me.
from evilcat :
fun is indeed the name of the game ^^
from vladica :
thank you for visiting my poor diary, its pretty random, and ive had it for awhile. its dark, but not black, because ive been living a lie. your diary holds a lot of interest, an eclectic soup of things...i took a look at your art, its really good! i love "Paintings on a blood stained wall" and your architectural drawings, much like mc escher's stoff. ive been creating imaginary people in my art lately, mostly robotic-type figures sometimes based on people ive actually seen or met, my favorite is one based on the guitarist for A Perfect Circle, James Iha. :)
from chinariquena :
lol i've never been kissed before
from chinariquena :
LOL hehehe, I don't know if I'm good at anything so I won't mention anything :D
from vladica :
ive been told something very similar to what you just said, about not knowing anything. i once quoted bob dylan and said "money doesnt talk, it swears." and this man said, "it does talk.you dont know, youre just a young kid."
from jiltedsoul :
Ha, you know why. I am very fond of you.
from jackthripper :
Yes, locked..for good reason. E-mail me, sweetheart. I'll give you the password. JckthRppr669@yahoo.com
from chinariquena :
arts according to some people is shit, but its ok. i love the teacher, he's a cool guy :)
from godhatesu :
thank you
from jiltedsoul :
I always appreciate word from you, even if I don't always say it. Please don't think it goes unnoticed or unappreciated.
from chinariquena :
I didn't notice. Maybe it's just the nostalgic sadness. It's not going away.
from chinariquena :
My words have despair? Don't they always?
from chinariquena :
:) totally!
from deathred47 :
Thanks: I wish I could take credit, but I can't. I got it at Velvet Designs(.diaryland.com). She's awesome! Love, Hayli.
from jiltedsoul :
I've been aweful at replying to notes lately, I apologize. I'm glad you enjoy the layout =)
from chinariquena :
but i didn't kick him! i'll poke him though.. :)
from evilcat :
you have to be cruel... but cruelty is not necessarily shown. cruelty would be something like not giving a damn if the kid next door gets shot. it doesn't necessarily imply an action.
from aiyori :
confessions? oh dear, well you can tell me cause we're tight like that ^__^U haha, well love ya! -Aiyoyo! yoyos are nice.... =^^=
from evilcat :
being a genius implies psycopathy. how else can you detach yourself so completely from the understood and accepted world, and be so curious and awe-inspired? you are either like a child, or a psycopath. one is innocent, the other cruel.
from chinariquena :
irony, he's right next to me but i can't kick him. oh well. :( i just had history and it was hell.. damn.. :/ take care! <3
from chinariquena :
lol yeeeeeeeah.. anyways.. uhh i forgot what i was gonna say. i'm absent minded like that :) i heard kingdom of heaven was actually a good movie. damn charles for lying to me then. teehee.. love ya kid
from evilcat :
ruling the world is highly underrated
from angelseyezzz :
hey!! sorry it took me so long to get bk to u but its been crazy.......... but anyways, lucky u that ur in two of my fave places here in europe... *sighs* so what have u been up to? hope u have a great weekend......... peaceeeeeeeeee
from chinariquena :
I found it to be quite a bore...
from l0stwhispers :
Aw thanks! =) But, well, I don't think I look all that good. o.O Maybe next year'll be better. =) Thanks anyway! *Huggles*
from jackthripper :
oh. i see now. just the arm pic was taken from another site.
from jackthripper :
How do you mean?
from evilcat :
ooh yey i was added to someone else's list! soon... the world shall be mine! muahahah! wait... did i say that aloud? :( and what pain doth trace itself along my wounded body is but gone if only thoughts reign.
from aiyori :
couldnt be as bad as here tho e___e
from aiyori :
haha yeah i live in the friggin ghettos XD
from aiyori :
california
from aiyori :
i live in ghettosville USA >:| man i need to go back to japan
from aiyori :
whoa 8 hour time difference thats crazy O__O
from aiyori :
uhh i dunno... lemme count... 16 o clock?? haha something like that (4 pm)
from aiyori :
sleep??!?! SLEEP!?!? ARE YOU CRAZY CHAN MAN!?! its party time -gyrate gyrate-
from cammella :
hehe, nah I knew what you ment.
from aiyori :
har har har! man oh man, i think that im a little bit high @__@
from cammella :
People who had it? ::shrugs:: Beats me.
from aiyori :
man what the duece, im so bored!!! and thanks for the compliments! haha^__^ msn i wish i had someone i could make a layout for @__@ cause i think im gonna die of freakin boredom *runs off looking for people to make layouts for* HUZZAH!!
from cammella :
Who isn't what?
from aiyori :
i think the layouts too simple e__e ANOTHER ONE!! huzzah!! *runs off to play with PHOTOSHOP!!* YA YA YA!!! O__O
from aiyori :
youre right, i dont need no freakin boys :] har har har. well i feel stupid for always having these kinds of problems, youd think id learn from making the mistake once. i cant say that it wont happen again unfortunately, im just easily stepped on. i may be a weed but even weeds die if theyre stomped on too much. i think im getting close to that, i think i need to take a car drive, and scream and my angry music ^__^U. thanks alot for your help suta-chan! you really make me feel like im not alone in this nasty world :P
from aiyori :
now i get to rant over another boy.. this is so crazy.. i need to learn how to live a single life.. hah.. i guess im scared to be alone. anyway, love ya always -crawls back into the shady corner- see ya soon!
from aiyori :
hey there suta... -sniffle- i hope that youre doing alright e___e -big hug-
from evilcat :
hello oh great suta-one *bows* *hits head on shelf* *tear*
from raveneys- :
A lot of people say I make them think. But I don't think it's so deeply true. Maybe I say some things they've been wondering about in their own lives but they're just words. It's nice to be appreciated though so I do thank you for that. As for love, well, we've been getting along pretty good as of late. I think things can only get better from here on out.
from chinariquena :
<blockquote> WRITE WHATEVER YOU WANT HERE </blockquote> I think that's it.. =/ <3
from jiltedsoul :
Add away, please!
from hp-fucked-dm :
Y'know... You're right about my name. :) That is what it means. Made on impulse. :) Have a wonderful day!
from chinariquena :
awwww c'mon! You have had to try blockquotes at least once in your life! :P
from shagalicious :
i need to change the pics with my life. the cigarette and the black and white pic describe how i feel right now. my friend thanx i need some help cause i still cut myself and now she thinks i'm suicidal (no longer am, but was at a point). so i've got an appointment for this female shrink at this free clinic or whatever. should be interesting. i'm a natural morbid person. but i can't help that.
from murdrsxaffrs :
Yea I just put those up there not that long ago. I'll put you on my profile since I forgot to. Yea I locked it. Email me at Stagnant2004@yahoo.com and I'll give you the pass.
from chinariquena :
Stellar. Welcome back, yeah I did have a party. :D
from l0stwhispers :
Lol! Yea, I had that in mind when I requested the layout. The innocence of 2 children who just like each other very much. =) Hee! Anyway, it's cool that you're half German, half Dutch. =D I'm a total Chinese, which makes it pretty boring. o.O Ah well. It's alright that you don't answer my question. Was just pretty curious, as usual. XP I don't really know what it's like to lose a really good friend, but well, I hope it turns out alright for you. *Huggles* I can imagine how devastating it is though. And sure, you can link me! =) I'll link you too... if it's alright? XP
from hindthesmile :
Chocolate is good. Bad, but good.
from chinariquena :
oh me gosh thank youuuu!!! <333
from suta :
Well, tomorrow I go on vacation. Wednesday till Sunday. So don’t worry if not hearing something from me. ^____^ Seeya! Love, Luc.
from angelseyezzz :
fallen angels... yah im fallin with u too :O glad u found me cuz u got an awesome diary, what can i say :) always wanted to go to holland, the closest i got was germany lol & the only thing i remember ir ik hou van jou, i dont even kno if i spelled that rite, what a shame.... lol
from chinariquena :
*HUGS BACK* YAY! THANKS! :D:D:D i'm turning 16 tomorrow... can't wait.. :P i can get my permit and crash cars! YA! YA! thanks a lot for the note! <3
from murdrsxaffrs :
If you ever want to change your video I have two sites that host them. just ask.
from chinariquena :
maybe i will have it afterall.. who knows. i don't that's for sure. my birthday = may 3rd. tomorrow. tuesday. yeah. <3
from l0stwhispers :
Hey, thanks for the note you dropped! =) I love your layout! Really nice... dark, simple, yet really meaningful. And, hm... I've only read one entry of yours and it has led me to asking the question "Who?". Hee. XP =) Well, I might read your whole diary if I've the time, it looks really interesting. And yay! Netherlands! I once had a real close Internet friend from there. =)
from josepi :
I'm doing fine, as for the deepness... smashing pumpkins. Billy's writing is a huge influence to me.
from aiyori :
YES MY INSPIRATION!!!! O__O -romps and cavorts- hehehhe
from murdrsxaffrs :
Why dont you?
from raven72d :
Exactly: having male friends or listening to male singers makes one...suspect. And if you're thought to be gay, it makes it that much harder to (1) be taken seriously in certain professions or (2) convince attractive, younger girls to have sex with you.
from chinariquena :
THATS AWESOME! china is a cool place though i haven't been for say.. 8 years? cause last time i went i went to visit my grams who is now not here anymore.. but yeah... <3
from silver-blue :
It's from Revolutionary Girl Utena hehe I'm glad you like it though, it's good to see another otaku around :) Take care!
from j3ff00 :
Thank you. Someone put me up to it, and I'm keeping it out of spite.
from raven72d :
I never speak to males if I can avoid it. Having male friends past a certain age (university) makes one...suspect.
from aiyori :
-hugs you till your head pops off- well im off to bed!! its 4:30 in the morning here e__e ugghh.. need sleep =P i'll be back in a few hours... maybe at like 8 my time, haha, not like it really matters. XD well nighty night!!
from aiyori :
OH MAN!!!! -runs around eating drugs- i got the biggest butt inspiration!!! KFJASLFKAS!!!! O__O yes this is great... hehehe >:] layout should be up soon.. its of a guy this time.. but i cant get away from the friggin pinks and purples >_< !!
from aiyori :
haha^__^ thanks suta! youre so awesome.. har har har.well i think i will work on a dark layout.. ahoy!
from aiyori :
you can kick him all you want >:] hehehe. um ya i thought he was my friend too.. oh well, things change =/
from chinariquena :
Yeah. Good.
from murdrsxaffrs :
What a shame?
from raven72d :
I like finding out a girl's secrets...
from aiyori :
oh i was just commenting.... hehe... man thats some really deep stuff. makes me think x_o
from nighteangel :
*gives you lollipop* ^_^ just because you deserve it.
from charminggirl :
thanks for joining the robert smith ring!
from chinariquena :
Cool. I think it's.. well i do not know really. and the issue with my friends, i'm typing the reason on my dland now. <3
from aiyori :
whoa a hooker!?!! O__OO_O_O_O_O_O_O_O
from raven72d :
send notes, send an e-mail or two...
from hindthesmile :
I have hives! I don't know why I have them, why they entertain me so or why I feel the need to bring them up, but there you have it. Hives!
from raven72d :
Thank you... And do write often.
from raven72d :
Streets at midnight, laced with tendrils of fog... silence on dark water... A girl waiting in shadow... It's a lovely image.
from chinariquena :
One of us can move and then everything will be just dandy. Never heard of Yuri.
from herdarlinsin :
It is self made.
from josepi :
You know, for all the notes you leave me (and you are the only one) I leave you stark few in ratio. I should start leaving more. I suck in that respect. As for someone calling you something and ruining your day... happens to me all the time man. I hate that it does but it does. And then we had a speaker come in and talk about labeling and bullying, etc. and to me, most of these kids don't know what it's like to wake up every morning to torment for 10 years. I do. I hated it. I'd fake sick for a week at a time to escape my school. Evil hallways. Evil people. There was no good in that place until this year.
from bebopkid :
Hi! sorry, even though i've been on, I haven't left any notes lately, and then when that server thing happened I got mad because a lot of people's profiles and stuff wouldn't work. But it's cool, by the way, have you ever seen Full Metal Alchemist?
from raveneys- :
Hi suta. sorry it's been awhile. Um, no, Jack made the layout for me awhile ago. I like it too. He made the raven there for me obviously because of my namesake.
from chinariquena :
1) Yuri Kajiura, 2) Yuri Chika, and 3) Yuria Yato. That's all the Yuri's I know.. yes, time zones suck.. they should die though its not physically possible; not the point
from shagalicious :
punk rock is the shit. my chemical romance is like my new favorite band. i'm also down on the indie rock thing as well so i love hot hot heat and ben kweller. much love my rubber ducky!
from aetris :
Oh, why thank you ^.^. I dig your diary as well. Um, my name dosn't have much to it, as in it dosn't mean anything, its just a name I came up with a while ago that I use for everything. Have a nice evnin' =)
from j3ff00 :
I used to have them as links on my diary, nonetheless, you're right. You don't want to.
from chinariquena :
Utada Hikaru = girl. Jejejeje. THe Pillows? Nope. I've only listend to Utada Hikaru and Ayumi Hamasaki, I thought I spelt that wrong... Oh well.. I'll talk to you later on MSN!!! <3
from jackthripper :
mhm. i made the pictures myself, long time ago. whatever happened to the young man's heart...swallowed by pain as he slowly fell apart.
from j3ff00 :
Erm..alright, purple suits me. I guess so.
from aiyori :
haha.. i will now explain L for pain!! hehe.. we were at disneyland and there are huge letters in the ground and we were taking pictures with them. and my friend was like "stand next to the l" and then lorene keeled over and was all im in pain!! so then i jumped in the picture and was like.. l for pain!! thats what it sounded like she said tho!! its not my fault >.>
from aiyori :
i dont think that youre depressed all the time. lets face it, our diaries are vents for our anger and problems or whatever. i do it too =D hehe
from chinariquena :
Awww non! C'est impossible! LOL well, that's ok, i'll add you to msn. lol i feel nobody's breathe behind my back however i did sneeze right now and tears are streaming down my cheeks. :( <3 Sleep well sleepy head
from hindthesmile :
Thank you.
from j3ff00 :
Purple, thank you! :D 'night.
from j3ff00 :
Template got messed up, and I had to reset it. Since I'm really not much for building anything right now, I'm just leaving it black.
from chinariquena :
*Boy Meets World, I hadn't noticed that.. hehehe, I'm bored too! But I have to study for my History thing and I'm just procrastinating and whatnot. Yup. I shall add you to my AIM and we can be bored together! Doesn't that sound lovely? <3
from chinariquena :
I happen to think they are quite the opposite of crappy, I think its... wood.. HEEHEE! Sorry, I just had to quote Boy Metts World. :) Well, fine, a more description thinger about my moods. I think I'm bipolar, moody, bitchy, nice, bittersweet, sarcastic, and all these other adjectives I can't think of at the moment. Well, what's up?
from aiyori :
... cold and alone?? -huge bear hug- mwahhaa my fatness will keep you warm!!! ^__^U
from chinariquena :
GEEZ! that's a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mhm. yeah i like your layout too, it finally loaded, though it still takes a long time.. poo poo.. lol your gonna add me just cause you like mE? im really not that interesting, trust me, i get boring and and annoying and all bitchy and grumpy so yeah.. :( <3
from hindthesmile :
Not really, I guess. I'm sick again.
from aiyori :
hi!!! O_O L for pain!!
from chinariquena :
cause taking drugs in a legal drug place is so much fun. i was being sarcastic.. hehe. geez, how many languages do you speak then?! i only speak: english, semi spanish, bit of french, and chinese/cantonese and like .01 mandarin.. jejeje.. that's a very true point, not matter what you do, you just wind up liking them even more in the end is my theory.. so yeah. love, di
from murdrsxaffrs :
Thought I'd inform you, the guy you drew in your pics, (the one on your wall, and the one with the eyes you said you fell in love with, they look the same to me) are so inchingly close to being on my list.
from murdrsxaffrs :
If you mean Jacky (Ripper) then nah, its not the same one. I have a List...And Jeff always teases me on it, so I thought I'd post it. Thats Jack from "the nightmare before Christmas"
from murdrsxaffrs :
oh...heh, yea its only 4pm here. I get what you mean.
from murdrsxaffrs :
Most of the people I meet here are from California. Dont know what you mean be I live in the past...but ok
from reviewu :
Your review is done, I hope I've done your diary justice.
from theascension :
Too fucked over to remember wether I'm alive or not. Oh well, right? Not much of a difference either way, I suppose. I'm okay...okay as I can be at the moment. But it'll be okay kid. I'm sorry I can't be around. Just remember your big brother loves you lots. I'll send you a nice long happy letter with a return adress here soon. Love you kid.
from chinariquena :
LOL i have wireless so yeah... it still doesn't work :( how pooey. half dutch half german? that's so spiffy!!! i've never met anybody dutch nor german, or have i? hm, i don't know really. jejeje. that's still stellar though. <3
from murdrsxaffrs :
I'm in the states, I dont know what its like outside, I havent left the house yet, but I plan on leaving in a few, I hope its warm.
from murdrsxaffrs :
Well I dont know about the netherlands, but where I am all the tree's are blooming, its awesome.
from murdrsxaffrs :
Nothing is ever going on here, its so boring, and pathetic, it makes me sick....
from chinariquena :
LOL that's stellar. Looking at a friends' friends friends friends profile and seeing my name on there.. Hehehe.. Chinariquena = china is spanish for chinese and riquena is from puertorriqueńa cause i'm chinese born in puerto rico, so yeah. chinariquena, it's meant to have 2 r's though, i realized after i made the account... and i don't plan on changing it really.. jejeje good to know u weren't bored to death with my diary! i would read yours but on my computer it seems impossible.. take care!
from murdrsxaffrs :
AWW! Sweetie you made me all squishy! Haha, nah but really, I love this name. Its the most creative thing I've ever done aside from create a tattoo that I'm never going to get. Much love to you deary.
from chinariquena :
Thanks. Did you just find it out of the blue?
from reviewu :
You've been added to the pending, thank you so much for the interest!
from murdrsxaffrs :
Yea, ana is an awesome song, and I think I know Imagine....or is that tool......
from j3ff00 :
Basically, you put the code anywhere you want. It won't show up on your diary, just after the song is uploaded, it'll start playing.
from murdrsxaffrs :
I'm not quite sure what it is about the song, but "I'm a tear drop away from crying, and a few shots away from dying, cover my pain, let it rain let it rain on me, while I cherish the air I beathe,I'm an angel, I cant soar cant fly, and I mastered it lord knows why" Is my favorite line of all time.
from celestial31 :
if you like le tigre you should check out peaches, gravy train!!!!, Ladytron, and The Faint. Yayy for electro dance music. Thanks for the comment, I figured it's been a while since the last meaningful post. P.S. hot chocolate!
from hindthesmile :
Holy crap.
from hindthesmile :
Heh. Thank you. I know it's nothing special, but it's mine, you know? Something I can claim, which makes it kind of special, at least to me. We'll see how long it takes for me to get sick of it. :p Do people have puffy coats where you are? Because it's a hilarious trend down here. I got a ride to school with a friend once and it's about a five minute ride, and we counted seventeen puffy coats with faux fur around the hoods. In my school, all the "popular" people in the "popular" where them. And, if you're a girl, you have to have pin-straight hair, light denim jeans that are painted on and a pink or white belt. Then, if you're a "popular" person in the "everybody hates me, even though I'm incredibly popular" crowd you wear jeans (or pj pants) and a tight t-shirt with long sleeves. It's incredible how they all look like each other. That's why, in my own quiet and understated way, I dress differently from them. I don't want to be just another clone, because that doesn't make people like you if they don't like you, it just makes you lose what little self you have. Even if people look at me (which makes me extremely uncomfortable), I'd rather have them looking at me as I am rather than trying (and failing) to be something I'm not. At least you can't fail at being yourself...I don't think. I hope not, lol. Sorry, I'm rambling again, huh? It's all good. ~dances about and throws monkey droppings~ Love, love, love.
from raven72d :
Tell me about the dreams... And about your weekend.
from murdrsxaffrs :
YEa, I'm not a big Ja rule fan, or Mary J blige, but she did an awesome remix of "no more drama", and rainy days has been a favorite of mine for a long while.
from hindthesmile :
Ah, I am much the same. Trenchy coat and hatred of labels and all. I don't wear spikes or chains or anything like that, I don't like drawing attention to myself. Mostly I just wear black pants and sweater, though I have a couple long, flowy black skirts that I love. I'm just curious about your name, kind of helps me know who I'm talking to, you know? I'm Elizabeth, if you didn't already know that.
from hindthesmile :
Ah, I envy you. ...I love scary movies, too; I really have no idea why. I don't seem like the kind of person who would, I don't think, but I do. What's your name?
from hindthesmile :
Huh? Wha? What about drama? Drama in life? Drama class? I hate drama class. I never realized until I started drama class how much I hate performing. It terrifies me, all those people looking at me. I shake violently and I can't get my words out. I'm so failing drama...feels weird, I've never failed a class before...I don't think I've ever even failed a test. :| I'm kinda pathetic. Anyways, I hate drama class...I'm seriously considering just kinda not going anymore. Right, I'm rambling. I apologize, it's early and I didn't sleep last night (surprise, surprise; now the medications are wearing off and it's back to my old friend insomnia... insomnia sucks. Once I tried to bribe it away with a cookie, but it didn't work. Just made me want a cookie. I like that story.) Should I shut up now? Probably. Will I? Probably not. Actually, maybe I will 'cause I have to pee. Leave me a note and feel free to ramble as much as I have so I don't look like too much of a loser. Ciao, my new friend. Good day!
from hindthesmile :
And yours?
from hindthesmile :
Yeah. Stupid character limit.
from herdarlinsin :
Never apologize for long notes. I love them. Makes me feel all loved and warm and fuzzy inside, heh. I still like the way you express yourself. I wasn't trying to put a label on you doll. Sorry
from cammella :
I have more, but I dont tell people about them, I was just going to use the name on murd, but then my friend made a template and I locked this one because someone read between the invisible lines of an entry so I locked it, people complained so I opened murd up so people could read selective entries, most of them I made the names up for fun, But then I decided I needed places to write shit where people didnt know about, I like typing better cause I have CT in my wrists and when I write too much my right hand goes numb, and typing is easier for me. I'm guessing this is your only name?
from j3ff00 :
Yeah, the song takes awhile to load, but its one of my favorites. <center><bgsound src="URL" autostart="true" loop="infinite"></center> All you have to do is enter that, and find a site that hosts the song you want to play. Jack was the first one that showed me, that sly dog.
from herdarlinsin :
I read a few of your entries. The story behind your eyes; people say the same of mine as well. Perhaps it is the past that bring us the loneliness that we embrace now. But why do we? Is it because that's all we know and remember. Sadness, empathy, our self-sacrifices of altruism. Is it harmful to be selfish? Sometimes I feel myself wanting more than I have and wishing I didn't have some of the certain things I do. Life. Who knew that it would be so tough and hard on the mind, body and soul? I sure didn't. You're a lovely writer. You express your emotions so well, even I leave mesmerized.
from josepi :
loneliness... it's such a hard feeling to take. I know what it's like to need help and have no one come running. I hate that feeling. Dammit... all my friends live across town from me!!! Oh well nothing i can do. Try to cheer up man, like the killers said "Everything will be aright". Love forever, Eric
from hindthesmile :
My mom's is a big ol' orange cat, mine is a skinny black and white baby...he's such a wimp, he's afraid of birds. Yeah. I'm okay, I guess, and yourself?
from cammella :
No, I perfer that people add me because they want to. And unfortuantly I have to fix my links because you cant read any of my past entries do to a mix up with the layout....
from murdrsxaffrs :
Yea, I love coffee, but I had to give it up because it was making me sick-ish, it's been hard, Ive been all twicthy-ish-like...ah well its all good.
from celestial31 :
i've been doing relatively well; how 'bout you?
from velvetmask :
Thanks. You're oddly...cheery. Not cheerful, but -- never mind, it's a subtle distinction and an altogether useless one. But, thanks. I think you're the only person outside of family who said that yesterday and actually made it mean something. Maybe it was the extra punctuation. Anyway...yeah, I don't know, don't mind me, I'm just talking to myself because as of sunrise tomorrow I'm under a vow of silence. The new-ish version of the picture with the clocks is incredible, so you know. Beautiful. And I'm out of things to ramble about, so there you go. Happy day-that-is-not-your-birthday. <3
from hindthesmile :
Well, my mom has a cat and so do I, so it's really two cats. The fat one and the skinny one...I like cats. And of course I don't mind. I'm flattered. :)
from leslieirene :
Your diary is lovely. I really love the layout.:) You must be very intelligent to know so many languages. I know a little French, but the less I am exposed to it, the worse I am at it! Have a nice day! Blessings, Leslie :)
from josepi :
wow... the same song at the time you read my enrty... WEIRDEST COINCIDENCE EVER!!!!!! mmmm... guitar. I like drums though
from murdrsxaffrs :
Yea, I know, I still dont get why he loves me, but I cant complain, cause, as I like to put it, I'm addicted to him. My name is taken from my original diary, if you want to check it out the username is Cammella, it means "murder sex affairs" its a weird joke between me and my friend Nate.
from murdrsxaffrs :
Yea, he really is.Hence why I love him so much. No, thats not the only reason....but yea, I really do, and yea he really is, I shall kill anyone whome approaches ::is on guard:: He really should just call me obsessed, but he doesnt.
from raven72d :
It gets much publicity beacuse so many treaties and international tribunals have been centered there.
from gothique :
Gothique was my first journal...I manily chose it because I like gothic things and people (and have a few gothic tendencies myself). I also like the way it sounds. :o)
from raven72d :
The Hague = 's Gravenhaag
from phoenixgrave :
so is it msn that disconnected you ? or is it my sneaky questions ?
from shagalicious :
forgive me and my aspiring downfall of beliverant hate unto myself. certain things are happening in my life right now where i'm very concerned and aware of my body. and this is what i do best, destroy my body.
from raven72d :
Darkness is safe...
from raven72d :
I love your layout... And I could read you in German... Tell me about clouds and rain over Zeeland or The Hague...
from murdrsxaffrs :
Tehehe, yea, he's a sexy one, especialy when he's in pharoh mode and he has the chain around his neck ::drools:: ......::blinks:: Jeff's hotter though....::leaves the crime scene::
from chibi-lily :
All this adrenaline is enough to make your head spin. I went from bored to spazz, just like that. of course, my new found addiction to stance punks doesn't help either. but it's always fun to scream out 'Sunday morning nightmare', everybody knows that. XD j-rock shall live on. even if I'm old and pruny (ewww reminds you of long baths), my never-ending love of music won't die. <__<;; oh thanks for teh site. I desperately needed something to keep me occupied. hopefully, I'll stop twitching from the sugar rush. that is but my one and only weakness.
from phoenixgrave :
anyway, if you have msn and that you feel alone once, I'm : mamooloo@hotmail.com . I'm kind of always in the place...
from phoenixgrave :
hey - your last entry was like an echo in my mind. Sometimes the same choice again and again. I can't breathe, vannot breathe at all, I just want to close my eyes and stop to breath and stop to exist and I know none is here to hold me back. And I don't really know why everytime I made myself survive. Probably the same reasons. Something to finish first. Some alst things to write, to draw, to put into tab and play and sing once. Though I would say you're quite a better person than I am. I'll tell you why later
from velvetmask :
Yes. I've switched it a few times now. Messages for someone. It's my birthday today. Seems unrelated, but I imagine there's a correlation. I'm coming home. Soon. Maybe that's what it's all about.
from samgrey :
Thank you for the note, I also enjoyed your diary, It's raw and honest, I like it.
from raven72d :
Yay, Pokemon-- sp. the Psyduck! Stay in touch...
from raven72d :
You write lovely and sad and haunting entries...
from hindthesmile :
Well, um... ~stares blankly~ ... I have a cat.
from murdrsxaffrs :
yugio is one sexy mofo :)
from jackthripper :
Yes, that's Craig Armstrong's "Escape". It's one of my favorite pieces of choral music. I have a taste for those darker, seemingly apocalyptic pieces. I dont know why. There's a special code you need to enter music in your diary. I make it invisibile because I like to be an ass so people won't pause it. I put the music there because it expresses the exact emotions I was feeling at the time of the events I write. It's too bad I can't put the code in each individual entry. Or can I?....hm.
from aiyori :
thank you! i get my jollies from the new layout as well XD hehe... must finish watching naruto: SEX ED STYLE!!! hehe
from aiyori :
dont feel abandoned!!!! O_O -hugs you till your head pops off-
from murdrsxaffrs :
Heh, I know. I saw that on one the notes you left for Jeff, but I wasnt sure. So netherlands eh? Sounds interesting, more interesting than NJ. I'm not into anime myself, but your layout kicks ass, sorry for the randomness, I just woke up and am off to work....
from murdrsxaffrs :
*grins* Thanks, I didnt make the layout, my friend bloodandgold made the template, its a tattoo I wanted. I really like your template, I'm guessing you made it, and it kicks all ass. I'll read your diary now, I see you're friends with Jeff and Jack, so you must kick some kind of ass :)
from hindthesmile :
Aw, that's so sweet. Thank you. Your brother sounds so nice; is he older or younger? I have an older brother.
from raveneys- :
Oh, Jack is such a naughty boy. I didn't know he had posted that drawing. *blush* Thank you for the compliment though. I shall have to thrash Jack for that:)
from hindthesmile :
Nah, I'm completely lacking in computer skills. I like yours, too. Same question back at you...did you make it?
from phoenixgrave :
eheh yay I'm on a list ! eheh You know pretty much more bands than I do, I'm a living lack of culture ... And yeah I drew it, escpt the garve and the forest, which were photmanipulations. I did the phoeniw and the girl, but they were too little so the details aren't so fine... waht do you draw usually ?
from phoenixgrave :
thank you :) . I did it actually, from two paintings and a picture of a forest. But some things are not so good in it, I should redo one.
from j3ff00 :
Alright, later.
from j3ff00 :
Yeah, mostly Trance-ish kind of stuff...currently, i've been listening to a mix cd that has a bunch of stuff, Delerium, Cruxshadows, Prodigy, Clan of Xymox, VAC, VNV, Flesh Field, and Haujobb
from j3ff00 :
I get called a goth a lot...but, then again, its only a label..so, whatever.
from j3ff00 :
Well, the only reason I know of them is because A23 did a mix of Innocent (the defiled mix)...quite enjoyable.
from j3ff00 :
Hahaha, yeah, I know about one song...the Only reason I said Xymox instead of...say...VNV Nation was because Innocent (defiled mix) was playing when I left that note. :)
from j3ff00 :
Oh, so, I'm just some sort of peice of ass because I walk around in a purple Mini whilst listening to Clan of Xymox?! (Note, no, i don't wear dresses)
from j3ff00 :
Meh..trust me..if my teddy bear was here, I'd have longsince been asleep with him. :)
from j3ff00 :
Ironically, I'm a feminine male...I believe they call them "faggots" here, or something, I dunno, i don't pay much attention anymore. :)
from j3ff00 :
Meh...I figured I was wrong. You can't possibly expect me to get things right when its 12:10 here. :D
from j3ff00 :
Yeah, well, its a reason as to why i won't be visiting Amsterdam.
from j3ff00 :
Not really, no. Then again, I hardly know you, and from the impression I get...agewise, I'd peg you around 19 or so.
from j3ff00 :
If you're a guy, then you're a guy who I just called babe.
from j3ff00 :
I grow tired of these foolish mortals who put their lives on the line for a simple break in the route of everyday life. If this realm is to be protected, those who waste their lives will pay with their lives.
from j3ff00 :
Actually, just about everyone on this site that knows me knows my name...Hell, you can guess at that that too. Of course, you only get one guess, so make it count :D
from j3ff00 :
Keep on guessing, babe, like I said, I'll never tell. :)
from j3ff00 :
Well, I didn't say you were a user, you asked what I thought about the fact that the Dutch have all that. And, I know you didn't really think I was ten. You can guess all you want, but I can guarentee you that I'll never tell. :)
from j3ff00 :
Bah..burns suck...i mean, if its one on my arm, its not too bad, but my mouth is a different story.
from j3ff00 :
P.S. No, I'm not really ten, silly.
from j3ff00 :
I do not care for Drug users. Sometime, when you get the chance, ask Jack how I feel about them.
from j3ff00 :
Bleh...I hate drinking hot liquids...they just kinda bug me...I always get burnt no matter what. :(
from j3ff00 :
Meh...Old enough to sleep during the day, and...um...yeah, i'm like ten years old. really. :D
from j3ff00 :
Meh..someday I might go to Europe...There's a certain someone, rather, a certain three people in Florence I need to see sometime. :)
from j3ff00 :
Bleh..sleep blows...i might head out in a bit, though. its 11:42 here now...so...bleh.
from j3ff00 :
Well, I've never been to Germany..I've been all over America, but never really out of the country besides Mexico.
from j3ff00 :
yeah, well, he doesn't like it much anyway, so, oh well :)
from j3ff00 :
The German I used to know was just a little bit, and I say 'used to know' because I more or less forgot it. :) I'm about 3/4's German myself, the other part is...well...a lot of things, I believe mostly Cherokee.
from j3ff00 :
Yeah...Ook is..well...as in Ookami..so...Double O sound with a k. Haha, he loves it :)
from j3ff00 :
Yeah...I know English..and that's about it. I know bits and pieces of German, a tiny bit of French, and...well...yeah, I know English. :D
from j3ff00 :
Haha, his real name is Josh, but, since he usually goes by the name Ookami, I just call him Ook :)
from j3ff00 :
I will admit that I am a tad tired, but, that never stopped me before. Yeah, traveling is alright, but I dunno about going to Japan for me...I would absolutely hate to have to converse in Japanese there...you know, I kinda suck at that. :)
from j3ff00 :
Yeah...games take up a big portion of my life too...mostly 'cube, because my computer is too trashy to run any games right. Hehe...the major portions of my life are as follows: My girl that I've never even met, but still love, my friend Ook, and my cube :D
from j3ff00 :
Yeah, it does get a tad annoying, and MKD is one of my favorite games of all time. I mean, it has Chess, puzzle (tetris) kombat, classic fighting, and the Konquest mode, which is a big RPG thingy. Lots 'o fun
from j3ff00 :
Sleep blows, and no, you don't shoot any dutch people on MKD, hell, I don't think there are any Dutch on that game...or any of the MK series. :D
from j3ff00 :
Netherealm is basically Hell. In MKD (On Gamecube :D), you get to explore six realms. Earthrealm, Netherealm, Outworld, Chaosrealm, Orderrealm, and Edenia. Think of it as in Earth, Hell, erm...some other planet, a place where everything is weird, a place where order is held above everything, and a magical kingdom thingy. :D
from j3ff00 :
Yeah...the early mornings from about 5-10 are about the loneliest times of the day. Bleh..I don't sleep enough :)
from j3ff00 :
Yeah, I saw your drawings awhile back when we were conversing through our notespages. Yeah..eventually...by that, I mean when I get around to it, i'll set up a page that has some pictures.
from j3ff00 :
Sleep is overrated, and yeah, I'm on the west coast of the U.S. Damn California...I'd rather be in just about any state but this one. Oh well, You're in the Netherealm...erm..Netherlands, right? (excuse the netherealm...I play Mortal Kombat too much :D )
from j3ff00 :
Yeah, I've been doing this for about a year and 4 months...Father got his digital last December, about a year before I got mine (from him). Ironically, the camera he got is a slightly lower model than mine. His is a Nikon Coolpix 2100, mine bes a Coolpix 2200 :D So, yeah, I'm the same as you, I carry it just about whereever I go...i'll find some of my pictures sometime.
from josepi :
*smirk* she said yes
from j3ff00 :
Yeah, i like photography. I finally got a camera of my own for Christmas. Nothing too special, but, it works, and i'm happy.
from shagalicious :
actually, i love avril lavigne. cause some of her stuff hits home. not details here. anyways, i'm out. research paper is calling me.
from j3ff00 :
yeah. i just threw the entry together..my mind has been preoccupied...couldn't really concentrate. And yeah, I took the picture with my camera.
from j3ff00 :
Haha, thanks...I just randomly threw that together.
from jackthripper :
I will be sure to pass on your complimets for his drawing. And I would be most interested to see your own work.
from josepi :
Things are well in my part of the world... though, i did just return from the EU. ^_^ Nice place... not quite home but definatly nice. About the whole clear description thing... just what it's like to have a totaly crash of yourself thats what i meant you were very very clear on describing. It's a tough thing just to we walking along and just dying like that. Happens to me a lot too, leads to some of my more sad and (in my opinion) whiney rants. Still no news on the girl though. Damn eh?
from suta :
I go to germany today, people, for the whole weekend. Have some nice days!!! ^_^V
from shagalicious :
i'm a little psycho, forgive me. well not so much psycho, but more like morbid...that could be a plus or minus. for some god forsaken reason i'm attracted to the dark side of people-like adolf hitler...
from raveneys- :
I've been doing good. It's the same old routine but routine is good:) How are you?
from chibi-lily :
^_^ everyone hates meh now. I can't manage to update everyday or just don't have time to anymore. yeah I'm not consistent at all. BUT I love getting notes anytime. I'm doing all right, same as always. and you suta? but I feel 100% happier with my new speedy comp. *___* heh
from jackthripper :
"Cry alone, I've gone away...no more nights, no more pain. I've gone alone, took all my strength. But I've made the change, I won't see you tonight...Sorrow sank deep inside my blood. All the ones around me I cared for and loved..."
from josepi :
Man, you seem so sad!!!! I know what that's like. Wow... do i ever... that's a pretty clear description... hm.. *hugs* Feel better!!! Love always, Eric
from josepi :
Man, you seem so sad!!!! I know what that's like. Wow... do i ever... that's a pretty clear description... hm.. *hugs* Feel better!!! Love always, Eric
from shagalicious :
yeah. jegermeister bomb are the enemy and so are cigarettes...bleed eternally for every gasping breath brings death nearer.
from shagalicious :
not much has been going on over here. but i got my tickets to see new found glory, ryan cabrera, and avril lavigne in this weekend. three concerts in three months. oh, plus i got a tatoo and i'm planning on getting another one this summer. easter was alright. just work and sleep. yours?
from zodiacalstar :
Oh, awesome! Yay for Dutch people! (I have a few friends over there!) Well, the whole sun sign/moon sign/ascendant thing is referring to Western astrology. You know...like...Aries, Pisces, etc? If you go to http://www.astro.com , it should explain it for you. Just put in your birth time and birth place, and it'll tell you. :) If you need any help, just let me know.
from zodiacalstar :
Hi there! I saw where you'd requested a review on my old review site (Starlit-Lily), which is now, alas, closed, as my other two reviewers baled on me. Therefore, I'd like to offer you a chance to be reviewed on my new site. Come on over and check it out! Cheers!
from chibi-lily :
happy spring!! ^__^;; kinda late. heh oh and merry easter as well.
from killingkarma :
yeah, so diaryland f'd up and it took me a while to leave a note. glad you enjoy my dy.
from shagalicious :
at my house. you missed it. some of the best i've ever had. everyone has their own preferable taste in music. it's just depends on what your ear is into. right now, the bands i've got listed under my profile are what my ear is tuned into. love ya!
from shagalicious :
i can come up with something harsher, but i figure i'd hold my tongue ya know? yes, it's like the hidden track off of "meet my maker." i had another entry but like somehow this wonderful website fucked it up...irritating. HOT CHOCOLATE!
from josepi :
Actually i meant Italy... my spelling is so horrid _-_
from josepi :
Thankies! ^_^ Anyway... back to packing! Only 3 more sleeps till I go to Itlay! Oo
from shagalicious :
not really. it's ironic cause she asked me the same question awhile back. truth be told, i could care less about her. i got my eyes on a new girl and her and me have been seeing each other for like about 1/2 month now. yeah, it turns out i'm like supposedly saying shit cause i want her back (from her new boy-toy). what an idiot is all i can say.
from aiyori :
whhhoa -spasm- diaryland is all jacked up -twitch- haha... anyway... that was it >> haha. much lovies!
from j3ff00 :
Oh, and I like your template too. I just threw mine together over the course of a week or so, until I was finally satisfied with it. Have a good day. :)
from j3ff00 :
Firstly, yeah, I knew you weren't trying to insult my template. :) Secondly, you draw a hell of a lot better than I do. I think there's a reason as to why I gave up on drawing/moved to photography. I'll get a few more examples of that up later.
from shagalicious :
yeah, actually i kind of do. she's a junior and all and her dad and mom are like some of the top dog's in the school district where i live. they've forbidden them dating as well. but i don't know, i'm twenty and i dated her, but's it's different cause i'm not 23 ya know?plust i'm a freshman in college. so it's only like a two year difference really. till then my love!
from j3ff00 :
Well, thank ya kindly for the diary comment. The picture in the background is one I took, and I kinda like the color purple, so, I put two and two together, and got my shitpile :D (Speaking of which, the Love Never Dies was a song)
from shagalicious :
alas but to no avail can i get the link to your journal of exhorts and what not...bummer!um, some shit happened with folks reading my diary. an ex did and i kind of expressed how i truly felt about her and now she's all up in this fucking mood and her new bory-a redneck of 23-24 (she's 16-17)wants to kill me, that's why, but i'll give you a pass word and shit here in a sec...love-shag
from j3ff00 :
(Jeffooooooo being how she pronounces it). You'll have to forgive me for posting twice, sometimes I like to be a bit too...informative. :D
from j3ff00 :
I used to have a mug that had the name Jeff in a thousand different languages, and in Japanese, it said that "Jefu" was how it was pronounced. Sure enough, my sis called me that ever since (she's the one that started this account for me). So, there's your lengthy explaination of how the name j3ff00 translates to Jeffoo :)
from j3ff00 :
I remain slow, but would you have been talking about my profile?
from shagalicious :
i'm good. mellowing out in orlando, fl. love the coasters such as the incredible hulk and dualing dragons. much love for you suta...EARMUFFS!
from j3ff00 :
Umm...what? :)
from velvetmask :
Mmmmm. Yeah, I've been gone for ages, I know. I'll be back. Someday. I think. Maybe. I don't really know or care right now. Just sort of...apathetic. It's not that I don't CARE, it's that I don't...care. You know the feeling? Like when someone says, "It's not that I don't like you, I just don't...like you." There's an in-between, somewhere. "Farewell, My Concubine," since you asked, is one of the best films ever, period. It's about the life of a Chinese opera star, during and before the Communist revolution. His mother, a prostitute, gives him to this abusive theatre master, and he is brilliant at playing the girl's roles, particularly that of the "concubine" and falls in love with the boy who plays the "king", the concubine's love interest in the play they become famous for being in. Basically, it follows the life of these two men as they grow up, as the Revolution takes place and the theatre falls apart. It's all done in Chinese (watch the subtitles if you don't speak it; the dubbed versions are right horrors, and the actor who plays the main character is fantastic and deserves being heard in his native tongue) and has Leslie Cheung, who is just incredible at what he does. Was, anyway. He committed suicide a few years ago. But he's incredible. There are moments in that film that just...especially the end...but I don't want to spoil it. You should see the movie, if you haven't already. It's directed by Kaige Chen, as well, and he's okay, as director's go. It won lots of awards, but some of the child abuse in it is pretty hard stuff, so I don't know how you'll like it. One of the best movies I've ever seen, though. And, um, if you asked about the movie because you recognized the title and already knew all of this, well, I'm glad to have shared useless information. Have a nice...life, or whatever. Something. I don't know. Have something happy, for what it's worth. ---J
from kagome15 :
yeah... I made the layout as a 'payback' kind of thing towards this idiot that wouldn't leave me alone... I used her favorite bands/artists/quotes to make the layout... and I'm gonna change it sooner or later. I'm not really a fan of Rasputina or Keane. \/^_^ *Peace out*
from raveneys- :
I know it's always a long span of time between entries. I just don't have much to write about anymore. That or I just don't have the patience. I will keep on. I won't be going anywhere for a while.
from gotgaz :
Im changing the password for my diary. It will now be food (the username is still gonna be the same)
from lizbathory :
Beware the ripper!
from chibi-lily :
hallo. *pat**pat* you feelin' better yet? I've been with a little cold, but it's all gone now. ^^ I asked him and he said yup. It's kinda weird, but that's okay! I have someone to talk to. heh oh I have meh national french exam (level III) on wednesday. w00t get to skip two classes. but they're both studies. studies= meh sleepeh time ~_~ uh huh I paid..count 'em 5 dollars just for taking it, but it doesn't count. well at least I don't think it does. -shifty eyes- just another thing to fail
from jackthripper :
Dropping a line to send my thanks for the encouragement you sent. Much love to you, sweet girl. Much love to you always.
from aiyori :
ahaha... its not so much that i like usher.... just that wen i start talking about one topic i sound super obsessed for somereason -.- maybe all the exclamation marks XD hehehee
from aiyori :
ya thats what i meant... my friends drink waaaaaaaaay too much -.- blah... har har...
from aiyori :
deepy ness... i feel the soreness in my throat that is... EMO CORE!!!! O________________O haha... ha.... rock on
from chibi-lily :
has it been that long since I played any games? I used to have mad skills..eeeehh well I'm only bluffin' of course. I can just put my imaginary talent to use now. my bio teach, he's in his early 20s or so, but he really must be a dork if he talks about Halo 2, x-box, blah blah all. the. time. I could understand if he was showed the least bit of interest in anime, cause I got no one to talk to in that class about my favorite shows. Proud to be teh only anime geek. ^^ I'll ask him if he likes FF cause he's such a gamer and all. who knows? A science teacher who's a RPG fan. heh
from theascension :
Waaaaahhhhh. *glomp* I have a few minutes, so I just wanted to leave you a note. We went to Texas, grabbed Lozzo. We were messing around, talking about a longer road trip, originally joking around about going to New Orleans. Somehow the subject of Canada came up and so did marriage. So we detoured. ^_^ It was very very off the cuff, short and sweet. I'm actually in a hotel outside of Littleton, Colorado right now, so I should be home by tomorrow. I can see the clear consequences already, one being that I was fired from my job. (Already!!) I had to call in the tax records on Monday, and they basically told me they had to let me go because they didn't want any couples working with the children. It was just a simple way to cover homophobia, because couples have worked there in the past. My mother has damn near disowned me, and Kira hasn't even said anything to his parents yet. But you know what? I could fucking care less. Because it's my fucking life, and I understand what I want. So they can all fornicate themselves with an iron stick. ^______^ Well, I better go sleepies. I love you little sister. Email me or whatever. Take care.
from chibi-lily :
sorryness. couldn't help but start that topic again. really, I'm the first one to blame when someone gets hungry. ;_; I blame myself too sometimes. @_@ on the bright side, you have a party to celebrate. what fun! and there probably is a lot of food, am I right? -snickers- aiyeeeee that reminds meh..*snatches snickers bar from my bro* he just turned 10. and he's still hasn't learned to wash the dishes. I'll teach him soon enough. he just sits there..and play games all day. my parents couldn't care less cause he's the 'oh so smart one' of the family. >_<
from aiyori :
wooo thank you for the birthday wishes! ^_^ -Annehh
from chibi-lily :
yup but I didn't do anything but sit at the computer all day long. would that be considered a vacation to you? >33 anything else worth mentioning is that I ate crepe. haven't done so in a long time. heh pizza flavor. I'm so american.
from pigment :
yeah... but did you notice the shortness??!! * ah well... :o)
from chibi-lily :
do you think it's weird I've never tasted any German food? I've always wondered..eh I don't know if I already told you about my vacation? ah well I'll gladly say it again. I'm on vacation!!! ok, that was utterly pointless, but kinda fun. *_* gah all that homework on my desk is sure piling up. *sigh* hm let's see, my family is Asian. everyone single one. I think that not one has married who wasn't. I find it strange, interesting nonetheless. 0_o
from jackthripper :
I apologize for the lateness of my response...but to answer your question. I don't know if I'm okay, dearest. I just don't know.
from theascension :
*glomps* Love ya, kid! Goodnight!!!! ^_____^ (only two days until my birthday, smirk)
from theascension :
*siggggggh* So lonely...
from theascension :
*glomps* Love you, kid. Have a good time buying manga in Germany.
from josepi :
HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE'S DAY!
from velvetmask :
It's been forever since I commented, and figured I'd drop you a note, as I've kind of disappeared off the face of the earth lately. Not that anyone would notice. I looked at your pictures again, and the new ones (don't know how new they are, considering it's been weeks since I last checked) are stunning, as usual. The one with the staircase is very interesting, with the sort of wavy perspective. Hopefully that was intentional and I'm not insulting your ability to draw straight lines :P Also kind of reminds me of Run Lola Run. Ever see that? Anyway, I love the Angel/Nazi sketch. I don't know why, but it's very pretty somehow. Is it meant to be the biblical archangel Michael, or the Angel Sanctuary character? Either way, the picture's pretty. I like the contrast, although something about Michael's wings kind of bothers me. Wings are miserable for me to draw... Anyway, is there a story behind the picture? It looks like it'd be a very interesting one. And with that, I've got two term papers to write -- one on Existentialism, particularly Camus and Sartre, and the other on the afterlife myths of Egypt vs. those of Mesopotamia -- so I have to get back to letting school work slowly crush the life out of me. Cheers -- Jaime
from postcognate :
Just checked out your pictures for the first time, and I wanted to tell you that I think they are really good (as constructive as that is). I know you were looking for advice on how to improve, but I don't know much about it. I just felt that a compliment was due, so there it is. (low bow of deference) -The Emale
from chibi-lily :
my first lesson. yaay! German and Dutch is about the same, ne? or close? sorry if I'm wrong. the only word I recognized was hallo. but these are to prove to be useful yet! je suis faim, or shall I say Ik heb honger? heh it's toally different from any language I know. that's why I'm so interested. ^^ pretty soon I'll start trying to prounce it. for now, typing is all I can do. enjoy your week off!
from theascension :
*waves from an exhausted little abyss of nothingness*
from chibi-lily :
for starters, you could teach me some dutch. *nods* that would be cool. but now..I'm so bent on finally getting my report card. *_* me ish got the honor roll, for once. oh and I rented Samurai X: the motion picture just the other day. ^^; kenshin looks to different. I really need to update my list of movies. sayonara and sorry for replying so late. love and peace to you too suta! XD Vash pwns meh
from enhancedview :
Hello, I just wanted to tell you that I got my review site up again so check back because I will have your review up soon. Oh yeah, I'm definatly a rock chick.
from josepi :
OK, since you always seem to have a reply ready for me and I never reply to you I feel like a dink! T_T But now I am replying so.... (where the fuck am I going with this?) about that not crying thing. That's kinda sad man. I wish I could cry. It's one thing that I've taken for granted for so long but now that I can't seem to do it... I miss it. You've been very poetic lately... I like it. Expressive, dark... wonderful. Well keep on rocking in the free world and do doodle oo doo... - Eric
from chibi-lily :
you know I can't ever imagine myself not as an anime fan. that would be just...there's not even a word to describe it. 0_0 *stares at the coolness of your website* looking forward to see it up when it's done. suta, you're pretty multi-tasked if you type it in two languages. *ish jealous* wow I'm in awe..but I understand why'd you keep the layout for your diary. I just have this tendency to change. ^^; if only I could learn a few things from you.
from chibi-lily :
hmm. I'll take it! x3 yup love getting compliments. call it bragging, but I just can't help it. Oi, today was Groundhogs day. 6 more weeks of winter..6 more weeeeks. =P
from theascension :
Okay, I think I've thoroughly flooded (and fucked up ^^;;;;;) both your notes and your comments. *smirk* Have a good day at school, nii-sama.
from theascension :
You should delete that note after you read it. *points* it makes your page go all screwie. ^___^
from theascension :
Yay! I got a new cell phone finally. Lookie. http://mycricket.letstalk.com/inc/widgets/simplecart/productmapfeatures.htm?metaCode=211518719&depId=0&pgId=100&prId=25878 *blink blink* That's fucking gaaaayyyy!!! Three fucking days after I buy it, and they're selling it for thirty fucking dollars cheaper. *goes off on a rant* Dammit, I was in a good mood. Now it's gone. -_-
from theascension :
Shiiiiiiitttt....if I could dish out the money at the moment to go over the Europe, I would, kid. *glomps* This place is horrible. The closest to a vacation I'm getting anytime soon really maybe (high on the maybe) be to fuckin' texas to pick up Lozzo. But I seriously doubt that. *pouts* I want a hug.
from theascension :
Yes, yes it is little Yuugi's name. ^_^ I'm not sure if that's where I got it, but it's as good of guess as any.
from theascension :
Melancholy things are great. AS made me cry too. Then again, so did Trigun, and Bebop...I'm a little pussy.
from theascension :
Fuck, I'm sure it's always freezing over there compared to here. I'd prefer there.....yeah, we have mitsubishi's over here. I'm not a car person, but we're buying a pontiac. *shrugs*
from theascension :
But it dosen't matter. The bunnies are still kawaii. *nodnod*
from theascension :
dammit....I didn't mean swallow like that, I meant...gahh, you probably didn't take it that way. But you might have, and that IS NOT what I meant, ECCHI!!!
from theascension :
paaaaaa......no, actually, not busy at all. Very very sick. -_- Well, I'm pretty much better now, but I still can't swallow right...
from nighteangel :
oh yeah. i didn't know that they disappear when you don't write in them. it scared me when i couldn't access it. but it's back again. ^_^ and my other diary thing is at ashenflutterby.diary-x.com i have a head ache. i drank like 12 cups of coffee and now i feel like sleep. . later
from hamiltonian :
Nice journal and your very expressive!
from ariza :
That's from Incubus? I had no idea. I like Incubus; it's been a while since I've heard from them or listened to them. Thanks for complimenting my diary.
from shagalicious :
yes...well not physically anyway...but my soul is. i'm nothing but a corpse with a sould stuck inside now...i wish i was dead
from shagalicious :
yeah...it's totally cool. where do you live? besides, i just like the pick-some of his music is cool. thanks....
from dooki :
Yes, that's me.
from theascension :
Well, I guess I should try to get some sleep. Have a good day! (even though I'm sure your like, already half way done with school already) Ja ne, Suta Mutou.
from theascension :
Well, I guess I should try to get some sleep. Have a good day! (even though I'm sure your like, already half way done with school already) Ja ne, Suta Mutou.
from theascension :
Gawdammit...it's three in the morning now...three hours after you left for school -_- I hate trying to go to sleep after attacks, so I've just been sitting up watching anime. I only got back on so I could bombard you with notes. ^_^
from theascension :
You poor thing. *glomps* Are you sure you're alright from all that? Still sucks your cars wrecked...well, soon the snow will be gone and it won't be so cold.
from theascension :
*looks at pictures* I want a bunny, too....
from theascension :
My Carpe Noctem is gone? That's odd, I just updated it....oh well, I'll figure it out later.
from chibi-lily :
My snowman will it R.I.P. ~~ I gave up after my first try and it looked bleh. I'm a critic of my own work. As an alternative, making snow angels was more easier and fun. Today's my last day so I think I'll go play some more. :3 I think this care-free attitude won't get me anywhere but it will keep my mind off things.
from chibi-lily :
-sheepish smile- And here I was thinking I wouldn't be online all weekend. -priases the snow- Oh well, two more days of no school, that can't be all bad. ^^;
from dooki :
I said the "bist do krank" comment because of your entry. You seemed down...it was a funny way for me to ask if you were ok, by asking if you were sick in the head! Again, my German isn't that great so I like to use what I know in funny ways. Ich bin sehr lusig, ja? Nein...
from theascension :
*glomp* Oi oi nii-sama. Neato, that's the Doom (or Doma, depending who you ask) story arc. There's this one part, it's so fucking cute...Yami Yuugi's about to play Bindings of Oreichalcos, and little Yuugi's like "No!! You can't!!" And he's all hanging onto Yami's arm...and it's cute. -_- Just trust me!!
from chibi-lily :
Hiya Suta. Just in case you don't hear from me in a while..that's well because I'll be preparing for my Mid-terms, exams that'll count for 20% or more of my final grade. >_< I believe all this 'studying' will get me nowhere, as I have terrible memory, but it's better than nothing I suppose. Have a nice day! ~Lily
from celestial31 :
bikini kill is awesome! i'm guessing you like le tigre too?
from theascension :
GODAMNIT!!!!! >O<
from theascension :
Fuckin' MSN kicked me off and said service was unavailable...
from theascension :
I really don't know what to do right now. Everything seems so fucking shakey, the future seems so fucked up. Like we've worked for nothing. I think I'm gonna go crazy, nii-sama...*hugs*
from theascension :
Oh! I was gonna send you this. I dunno why, but I thought it'd be interesting.... http://www.aurealm.com/red.htm
from theascension :
Yay! I'm glad they choose your layout, Suta Mutou. Yes, that is your name from now on. *nodnod* I've been on a lot this week because I don't feel like wasting my day, I wanna use as much of it as possible. And I haven't been able to hang out late at all. Kira has to be up at six, so...I guess that's gonna be gone for a while. I enjoy reading your entries, I think they're beautiful, dammit. And techinically, Yuugiou is three words...*smirk.*
from nighteangel :
Whoa, you walked on a nail?! That would have made for a wicked photo. (I'm into photography). Sorry it took so long to respond. Computer has been acting up. But to catch up, HAPPY NEW YEAR, and all that good stuff. Me and my friend are doing fine. We're both grounded right now so we can't see eachother, but she is going to try to sneak over here today so maybe I'll see her then ^_^. Hope you are doing well. ~Nighte
from theascension :
Oh yes, I actually did forget to say this...YES, I AM THE UNHOLY PRINCE OF FREAKS!! I RULE ALL BELOW ME! BOW, BOW BEFORE MY AWESOME MIGHT!! BWA HA, BWA HA HA HA HA!! *continues going off into an evil villain laugh for the next twenty minutes*
from theascension :
Yes...I have nothing else to say to flood your inbox. Damn.
from theascension :
Hee hee hee....nee-sama and nii-sama mean the same exact thing, just when translated to romanji, genereally nee-sama is more femine.
from theascension :
Eh, sorry bout that. Have no clue how it happened. ^^;; So did you do well on your English test?
from theascension :
And you do know I'm a masochist! (I've decided to leave little notes so I can flood your inbox. ^_^)
from theascension :
And you do know I'm a masochist! (I've decided to leave little notes so I can flood your inbox. ^_^
from theascension :
That's pretty fucking assume. Two of the best cd's of all time, in my opinion.
from theascension :
That entry was beautiful, you fool! And I was swooning because of it's beauty! -_-
from thalakos84 :
Actually, yes, but only recently. I was trying to figure out that riff by Tenacious D in the song "Rock Your Socks". I knew it was by Bach obviously, but I didn't know the name of the piece. Well I found it. It was called Bouree. This version was performed by Jethro Tull though. A very nice piece. What is it he plays? Is it a pan flute? -D
from chibi-lily :
Yesiree, I'm terribly sorry. ^^; Speaking of which, I need to catch up on my favorite shows. My mom is obsessed with "The Bachelorette." She has watched every season religously, it scares me. Maybe they air that "reality show" elsewhere too..?
from theascension :
Hope you have a good day, kid. *yawns* I'm sorry about my lack of talkativeness, I just...can't think of much to say. Love you, nee-sama.
from thalakos84 :
Actually I believe Jack might have been quoting Jesus Christ since that comes from scripture. But who knows. Only Jack. -D
from diary-nazi :
Your review finally got posted. Sorry it took so long, I'm lazy. Have a good day. Sarah.
from velvetmask :
...You've lost me. What point?
from theascension :
And don't ask me why I called you Mutou. Frankly, I don't know.
from theascension :
No!!! I must be the sole kicker!!!! You shall PAY, Suta Mutou!!! *does a big dramatic villain exit*
from velvetmask :
Hey. You left me a note a while ago, and I never replied, but I've since then returned to the real world, so... I don't know. Sorry for totally ignoring you, I guess. I read a few of your entries, and you seem rather interesting; you've got a very unique way of looking at things, at any rate. Which is a compliment, yes. Also, you like the Cure, the Smiths, Nirvana, Sleepy Hollow, Edward Scissorhands, Gackt, and Kazuki Takahashi, which pretty much makes you a fantastic person in my eyes. And there was honestly a point to this note before I started writing it, but it's way too late at night/early in the morning for me to be coherent. Anyway, your latest entry has me just kind of stunned, in a good way albeit a sad one, so I'm adding you, if you don't mind. Also, thanks for not only bothering to read my entry, but actually leaving a note as well. Dozens of people read my diary every day, which is kind of creepy actually, but almost no one bothers to leave a note, so it's kind of special. Right, I'm stopping now, before I get any less coherent. Good night / morning / whatever it is in the Netherlands --Jaime
from chibi-lily :
Cookies?! *puppy eyes* Give moi one? Damn my fast metabolism. Eating is all in a days work I suppose. But enough of this about food, my stomach keeps on growling. My fault for mentioning this subject, so I shall go sulk in my room. T_T
from chibi-lily :
CAUTION: The following is food-related..all this talk about food is making me hungry. it's nice to eat vegetables, but at the end of the day, meat is what really counts. I'm not trying to sound like a carnivore. *cough* I'm actually a omnivore. Hard to believe, I eat so much tofu. People often mistake me as a vegeterian. Don't know why though. ^_^; Maybe the fact that I always wear an 'I &heart; Veggie!' has something to do with it.
from theascension :
Waahhh, Orgy...or are you singing the original New Order version? Either way, it's awesome. DAMN! Back to work. And they gave me a lot more hours. I suppose it's good in the long run, but this is some mother-fucking 12 hour day bullshit. I'm TIRED. -_- I have to get up at six in the morning, and it's two...mumble mumble growl.
from josepi :
Yep... the death of Good Charlotte would be a good thing. It would possibly end this whole punk pop thing, like the way that the Backstreet Boys went off and died! ... or tried the solo thing and failed miserably. As for avril... i'd have to kill and army of the und34d with her. 3v1l z0mb13s!
from chibi-lily :
Chinese food is how I live. It's funny cause I was trying to make a soup with dumplings. (Yumm) Sad to say, it didn't turn out as I expected. So now I'm eating cold pizza. Anyway, happy wishes to you too! Also, happy to point out I don't need the use of medicine anymore. I'm all better now. wh00t Ironic, cause vacation's over for me and I spent most of it sick. <_<;;
from yami-moto :
whoa, i had to double take when i saw you left me so many messages... ^^;; If you get to know me you might be scared away... Lets see... i'm kindda like a mix of Legato BlueSummers, Darcia, !!Sesshomaru!! and yes, Krad. <me Love Krad-sama> Ya... I'm... interesting as Hawk-sama says... Happy Late New-Year!! ~Aitri/Chrono -Lil' Dark Fallen-
from jackthripper :
The music is by a man named Craig Armstrong. I'm not sure what it was called though.
from josepi :
Have a happy new year kid! All the best in 100245 CMD!
from jackthripper :
happy new year, suta. i hope it goes well for you
from chibi-lily :
yes, j00 pwneth meh!!1 erm, that's just chatspeak, in a way to sum it up. here's the translation: j00/you pwn/own all! but seriously, I haven't used this so-called language in a while and until recently have I done so. It's very fun confusing people who can't understand. x3 Have lots of fun in Germany suta!
from theascension :
Have a happy new year, kid. Love you.
from chibi-lily :
whooo *slurrs a little* No, I'm not drunk if that's what you think. -_- Just had too much medicine all in one night (and these past few days for that matter.) Anyway, I'm sure you're pretty busy and all so I'll leave it short. Glad to see not everybody's feeling down these days. I'm one of them. ^_^
from yami-moto :
^^;;;;;; heh heh... I dunno, would you call me dark...? I guess thats an obvious question... anyway. Ano, Yugioh.. ah... its so-so for me, though i like yami's voice. I think that he should have been the voice of Dark in DN Angel... But oh well, it fits now, i've watched it so much. Yes, i have the DVD and i'm damned proud. Anyways... As you can tell, i'm not totally here today.. but when am i... Again, obvious question and awnser. Here's my randomness kicking in. Listen to this... In Trigun i like Legato the best, in Wolf's Rain i like Darcia the best, and in DN Angel i like Krad best, well.. dark and him are about the same, can't i have them both? anyways.... Hi.wait, ja-ne. ~Aitri/Chrono
from yami-moto :
interesting profile. I was a bit shocked to find meh own diary on your listing... but, you braved reading it! sugoi. Fallen angels you say... Hmm... Do you like DN Angel??? I do! I'm hella hocked on it. I changed my proifile too... i think its still a bit dull for meh liking but who cares... I did change it alittle. X_o Made myself sound like a Fallen... Sugoi! Oppps... I'm having puter problems... Damn parentals... Back to what i was typing about... Do you like Evanescence? I do...Amy Lee is SUGOI!! *nod nod* anyways... Hope i didn't scare ya, i'm not off to polish my swords! ^^ ~Yami <better know as as Aitri or Chrono!> ^-v----v-^ lol
from chibi-lily :
yeah about that..I need to change everything. maybe it's because it's almost the new year. who knows? whatever it is, I'm still me. The only thing on my mind now is that I pass my grades. (which I did!) who's the smart girl now?! I am..I am. ^_^ <<--you can ignore this. Have a VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR SUTA! *_*
from theascension :
I can glomp you if I wanna fucking glomp you! And I didn't mean to make you worry. -_- The only bits of time I've even been around my own computer I've been too exhausted to even sign on. Gomen nasi. Where am I, right at this very moment? I'm at my mothers house. I'll be here tonight. But probably not tomorrow. If you're asking for a permantent residency, I have no fucking clue. Blah, no tweens. *shudders* No, they're kindergarden thru fifth...*blink blink* something like 4 to 10 years old. Well, if it makes you feel any better, at least you're getting paid. I'm taking two full weeks off pay, and that fucking hurts. Well, I hope you feel better. You're leaving for vacation on Monday? Well, I hope you have fun. Talk to you soon, kid. Love ya lots.
from theascension :
WAHHH!!! *glomps* I'm sorry I haven't been around at all the past week or so, child. I guess it's the winter break getting to me. (the school I work at is off until a little bit into January. On a side note, it's cute to hear little kids pronounce my name "why-woo" instead of "Ry-ouu") But anyway, I'm out until two in the morning most nights, then I pass out, then I get up and play Fable all day with Kira-chan, then I go out. But I promise I'll be around sometime this weekend...Sunday, perhaps? I haven't been neglecting YOU, I've just been neglecting everything. ^_^ Hope your doing well, child. Love you lots, little sister.
from jackthripper :
And..Im honored that you like me dear. Honestly, kindness is what I need more than just about anything. So really, thank you.
from jackthripper :
i didnt take offense. it just caught me off guard a bit. Im used to calling ladies and gents that is all.
from jackthripper :
Okay. I will respect your wishes. I won't call you that anymore. thank you anyway.
from jackthripper :
Thank you for the kind wishes, dearest *hugs*
from suta :
Emotion Sickness Silverchair Erupt again ignore the pill And I won't let it show Sacrifice the tortures Orchestral tear cash-flow Increase delete escape defeat It's all that matters to you Cotton case for an iron pill Distorted eyes when everything is clearly dying Burn my knees and Burn my knees and Burn my knees and E-motion sickness Addict with no heroine E-motion sickness Distorted eyes when everything is clearly dying Burn my knees and Burn my knees and pray Burn my knees and Burn my knees and pray [All my friends say] Get up get up get up get up Get up get up get up Won't you stop my pain E-motion sickness [To idle with an idol] Addict with no heroine Good things will pass It helps with excess access Lessons learnt E-motion sickness [Lost no friendship] [Corrosive head pollution] Lessons learnt
from nighteangel :
Thank you. I hope you had a good x-mas as well. Hope you are feeling a bit better. Take care. ~Nighte
from bebopkid :
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!
from daath :
And a grand Christmas to you as well!
from chibi-lily :
jolly x-mas to everyone and to all a good night! hohoho
from kurdtkobain- :
Thank you and happy christmas to you too..^^
from nutty-kiddo :
Merry Christmas to you too! :)
from pennydeath :
Hey, this is theself on a new account - thank you for the notes and HAPPY CHRISTMAS! <3
from suta :
Merry Christmas to you, who reads this. Hohoho Santa's coming. Oh dammit. In the Netherlands we don't believe in Santa! *shrugs* We celebrate christmas anyway, gyahahahahaha!!!
from theascension :
I'm okay, kid. I'm sorry for worrying you so much. *pats on head* It's okay, okay?I hope you have a merry Christmas. Love you lots, little sister. Take care.
from gotgaz :
I fucked that last note up, sorry. Anyway. I support them to some extent. I like Benj, because hes intellagent. But thats about it.
from gotgaz :
Oh, I don't care. I dont like the band too much either. Theyre okay. Ive known who they were since '98 though so
from gotgaz :
Oh, I don't care. I dont like the band too much either. Theyre okay. Ive known who they were since '98 though so
from chibi-lily :
It's so bright outside now..come to think of it, I haven't left the house since Friday. 0_0 I can't believe it'll snow tomorrow, at least that's what I'm hoping. Darn weather people.
from chibi-lily :
SUTA!!! gah it feels forever since I left you a note. >_> I've been too busy with school work now to the point I'm going crazy. All that's keeping me sane is watching my animes. I think it actually worked though, me concentrating more on my work as opposed of fooling around. Interim reports are coming out soon or already did. Damn them for not telling us the exact day. Anyway! I apologise still for not giving you a sign or anything that showed I was still alive. Yup, I'm alive and kicking, hard to believe myself.
from bloodandgold :
Thanks for the comment in my journal! I love your writing, it's so descriptive, poetic sounding even! I'm adding you to my buddy list. ;)
from theascension :
*yawns* Have you ever seen Shaun of the Dead?? Fucking awesome. I'll respond, I'll respond, I promise...just not now. Coz it's 1:30 in the moning and I'm tired. ^_^ Love you lots, little sister.
from nighteangel :
Shit, it sent twice. @_@ sorry about that. Computer froze. . or. . something. . ~Nighte
from nighteangel :
Internet is back! Finally, evil mother refused to pay the bill, so I did. Silver Chair, I've heard them once or twice before. From what I remember, very good. I have midterm testing all this week. I hate them, but I only have to go to school for 3 hours a day. And they end friday at 930. Now. . must study . . *cracks a dusty old book and blows dust* Hmm, I wonder what chapters we've read so far this year? ^_^ Later suta!
from nighteangel :
Internet is back! Finally, evil mother refused to pay the bill, so I did. Silver Chair, I've heard them once or twice before. From what I remember, very good. I have midterm testing all this week. I hate them, but I only have to go to school for 3 hours a day. And they end friday at 930. Now. . must study . . *cracks a dusty old book and blows dust* Hmm, I wonder what chapters we've read so far this year? ^_^ Later suta!
from theascension :
Wahhh...so much to respond to...x_x Well, I'll do it later on tonight. Have a nifty Wednesday! ^_^
from theascension :
And by the way, I AM a whore. Token queer asian boy, remember?? You just were unfortunate enough to end up with me as a brother.
from theascension :
Pyong, pyong, PYONG! And yes I have heard that song. It is quite awesome. I wanted to send you some shit, but I suppose I should wait to do that...anything in particular you'd like? Oh, and I sent you a Christmas card today. Not quite a card, per se, but you get the drift...I'll talk to you laters kid.
from theascension :
Oh, and don't worry about not being on. I wasn't here anyway! ^_^ I got stuck at Kira's, so I just slept there. And then last night, I wasn't here either because we accidently stayed up all night at Honda's playing Falsebound Kingdom, which is basically just a big fucking game of war, but with Pegasus and Seto. ^_^ I'm not even kidding you, all fucking night. We has watched The Simpsons and ate and started playing again, and the next thing we knew it was 2:00 in the morning and Shizuka was long asleep. So we continued playing...
from theascension :
I mean, did anyone even think, "Hey, that would be the perfect Christmas gift for Kira and Ryou? It's cheap like hell!!" I mean, that's much less expensive then what they're gonna get us. *pout pout* I know, I know, I'm being a brat. But with what happened to Dimebag Darrell, I'm just fucking scared Manson's gonna up and die before I ever get to see him live.
from theascension :
AHHH!! How the fuck did I get so late??...anywho, I'm pretty pissed off. My concert was tonight, and I missed it. Just didn't have the spare money. *cries* I really, really wanted to see that, too...who knows if he's ever going to even come back? I doubt it, not to a rat hole like this. Well, I'll respond to everything (and bitch considerably more) later. Ja ne.
from theascension :
Oh, I know you don't really hate Duel Monsters. ^_^ it just takes practice, and I'll help you whenever you need! I've been playing it since I was in high school, so I can help with damn near anything. On a side note, it's kinda of ironic; this is my first year I don't have any kind of schooling, no college, nothing. A moment I've been waiting for a good long while. Yet, I get a job at a school. I kinda find that funny, don't you??
from theascension :
No, I have never heard of that song, or Lyam Lynch. *shrugs* Is it good? PYONG!!!!!!!!
from theascension :
I completely agree! I'd rather kiss one of them in those masks...but then again, I have a weird sense of beauty. Or that girl...*smirk*
from josepi :
do you seriously feel the way that you just described? That's kinda sad. I used to and still do feel like that some days. Oh well eh? Somedays are better than others. 'Tis the course of life.
from suta :
Baby, Ich kann dich gut leiden. Es ist wirklich wahr! Das wird nie was mit uns beiden. Das ist mir klar. Du bist unrockbar, du weisst nicht was das für ein schock war! BABY, SIEH ES NICHT SO ENG. FANG JETZT ENDLICH AND ZU BENG! DAN HAST DU BALD KAPIERT....DAS DER ROCK DIE WELT REGIERT! UNROCKBAR!!! *sings* (a real weird mood) ^_^
from theascension :
I love Corey Taylor's voice. It's beautiful...I'm just playing with the whole girl thing. I just hate whores. ^_^ Both me and Kira were fucking drooling all over the TV when that video came on. She's so hot.....*grins*
from theascension :
Oh!! Speaking of rats, I saw the cutest little mousey at the pet store today...he was grey to the point of looking blue, and he was cute...I want him. Mine.
from nutty-kiddo :
Yo! Thanks for the note. I checked out your diary - 'tis trčs awesome ;). Take care, Ell
from suta :
>>>>_<<<< ROOOOAAAARRRRRRRRRR!!!!! gosh... I am sorry, I am just sooo fucking depressed. I should really start listening pop, rock makes me depressed...but ROCK REGIERT DIE WELT!!! Damn old playlist, damn old memories, damn me... Oh fuck. I've to gooooo. Auf Wiedersehen!!! Sayonara, morons. ^_^ -_- X_X >>>>_<<<< waaahhhhhh!!!
from theascension :
Awwww, I'm a rat? *pouts*
from theascension :
Hmm...it probably wasn't much of a laugh. More of a smirk. Or perhaps more of barked laughter...either way, I don't remember.
from theascension :
Hee hee hee...have a good day at school, Suta-chan!!!
from suta :
hmmm...hello. I just wanted to say I won't be there for a few days. I need some time to think. Sayonara.
from theascension :
I call you darling because I'm a GENTLEMAN, dammit. That's how I act with girls. Except Torin and Chelly, but lets face it, they don't deserve my respect. *smirk* I meant Golden Sun 2 when I said GS2. I abreviarte everything. I know I can't compare situations, but I know what I want and I need it...I just do. I don't know about my new job...it's workinng with little kids, which is fun, but the hours are hell...6am to 9am, then 1pm to 6pm; my current hours are 5pm to 9pm, so it's a big leap. I'm getting paid a dollar more an hour, so those should be some fat paychecks. I'll send you a picture of my hair, I promise. Kira's parents?? *laughs* No fucking way. They're probably more homophobic than my mom, and that's a stretch. He's gotten in trouble for wearing black nail polish. The whole, "You wanna look like a faggot, son?" bit. *laughs some more* No, everyone here is really conservative right wing Christian. We don't even hold hands when we're in the valley, coz we'll get killed....*laughs more*
from theascension :
The flower maidens?? There're...erm...flower maidens. (I'm horrible at describing things. -_-) The main one in the series goes with all the wolves to find paradise...still dosen't make sense. -_-;;;;; Anyway, I love Darcia!!! He's awesome...reminds me of Gaku-chan! ^_^
from theascension :
Have fun at the university. I'll respond fully later. Sleepy sleepy sleepy....and Kira looks ever so cuddly in my bed.
from theascension :
I'm ever so tired....x_x So I'm gonna try to get this all out in one very large note. I love Sesshoumaru, and Golden Sun...they make me happy. The first or second GS? I prefer the second. All my favourite characters are in that one...Peace does exist. I've seen it. Like Kage and Thief, you can see it in their eyes, they're really happy...no matter what comes near them, they can face it together. I want to be able to find serenity without betrayl. I never had to cook when I worked at the Chinese restraunt, thank god...(they made me assistant manager just because I'm a chink. ha ha ha) Only overly greasey pizza. I'm going to be switching jobs, AGAIN, and have even less time to myself. (oh, the joy.) We want to have enough money saved to move into these really, really nice apartments, but they're about 650 E a month. We need more money. But the upside is, I get to dress however I want. And I'm grateful, because my labret piercing is damn near closed up because I haven't been able to wear as often as I need to. Yay! I'm gonna cut my hair and dye it again! ^_^ Pink, pink, pink....Wah, honestly, I know Kira's family has to know about us. We fell asleep all cuddled up on his bed, we were holding hands all thru dinner, he was hugging me and kissing my head...then again, we acted like that long before we got together. They're really homophobic, so we never said anything. This is so damn long, I might as well have wrote an email. -_-...well, goodnight, my DARLING Suta. Have a good Friday.
from josepi :
I used Gemini because it's my star sign. As for the music... Rock is wicked. As is electronica. Comics forever. Misfile is seriously like my deepest longing man. It's weird. I'm weird. It all makes sense. But I must get some sleep. I bidst thou adieu.
from chibi-lily :
Had a whole-hearty meal you could say for dinner. All those poor turkeys. >_>;; Yeah heard about Halloween being not celebrated there. I think it's awful, since personally, it's the best holiday out there (excluding your own birthday.) The one night you get excused for eating all those delicious mouth-watering damn good of a candy...*cough* And I suppose dressing up isn't a bad thing either. Though I suppose I'm too old, but I'm never too old for candy. XD Candy rox my sox. wh00t
from pornoviolent :
twenty threeeeeeeeeeeee
from suta :
Life is great, hell yeah! *yes, you detected sarcasm* -_-;
from josepi :
Sorry I took so long getting back to you. You have a wicked layout as well. Hmm... you have good taste in music and manga... DEFINITLEY WICKED! ^_^
from nighteangel :
I was baptised catholic, but I don't believe in it. I did tell her that I loved her. . and she said that she had loved me too all four years. *cries* I could have kicked myself. If I had known that she had liked me too I would have asked her out LONG ago. But she asked me first. *hugs her* I love my love. Sleep well. ^_^
from nighteangel :
^_^ yes, I did fall in love with a girl. Well, fell in love four years ago (she's my best friend) But I never told her because I thought it would freak her out. She asked me out the other day so I've been all smiles. And I know how my fellow americans can be, especially all the southern ones where I live. And I go to a Private Catholic school which doesn't make things all to easy. It's a shame they are that way. Wow, all those languages. I know a tiny bit of french and some Russian. Russian only because my grandparents speak it. But anyways, have a good day ~Nighte
from pornoviolent :
i hate those fuckers, cuz they gave one of my layouts less points than fags who had ugly ass boring ones. i left a note to tell them how much they sucked and i saw one from you saying you fixed some stuff for more points or something. you don't need them. they're idiots. and about girls aloud: it's kind of a joke. i was trying to be ironic.
from suta :
>>>>>>>___<<<<<<<<;;;
from suta :
>_<
from suta :
-_-;;;
from suta :
-_-
from pornoviolent :
you shouldn't pander to those fags over at orion reviews.
from nighteangel :
*gasp* you? a bother?! i think not. sorry if you've been feeling down lately. i won't ask why because i know that most times it either can't be explained or is better to just be noticed and moved away from. your last entry was very pretty *drools a bit* I do have one question that I would probably find if I weren't so lazy ^_^, what is your native language? wow. . 2 a.m. . I get to sleep in tomorrow. so lovely. . night! ~Nighte
from chibi-lily :
quick question: Is Thanksgiving a big holiday over there? My parents 'disapprove' of my music. They think it's a stage or phase I'm just going through. XD They have no clue, don't they?
from pornoviolent :
half nazi?? badass
from theascension :
Oh...and Kira says oi as he's laying on my shoulder...and you were quite right. Lady Edith is Kage. She's a weird kid.
from carpenocteme :
I pretty much never forgive people. It's in my nature to carry grudges. But I also lash out people, even those who haven't hurt me...I always feel malicious. I feel the need to find people that are weak, and make them strong by showing them how stupid it is to be weak like that...I don't know why I do what I do. It just...happens, you know?
from carpenocteme :
I mean actually truly happy, and at peace. I just want that peace...not the sort of fleeting happiness thats there when your sitting around with friends. I wanna be able to go to sleep happy, and looking forward to waking up in the morning, just once...And I feel eternally guilty that I don't feel all of that simply being with the person I love. But something is still missing. I don't know what it is, but I still feel empty inside. Hollow.
from carpenocteme :
GV Crew? The Gotham Visuals Crew. Our little crack production team. We have been very lazy lately...I think all of us our too overwhelmed by our current state of affairs that we're too lethargic to do any work.
from theascension :
Yes...DARLING. *smirk*
from pornoviolent :
holy shit did i comment bomb you? looks like i didn't... weird. holla!
from alonereviews :
there's nothing wrong with your site, the only reason you didn't get a perfect score (which only a few people get) is because your writing didn't blow me off my chair, even though it was good. i don't know if that explained it well enough? your diary is really great, honest and personal and you should be proud of it and just keep on doing what you do right now. you're beautiful.
from suta :
*yawn* sleepy, sleepy, sleepy, farewell *sleeps at desk as usually*
from chibi-lily :
yeah it does quite give me audacity..but I learn to live with it I guess. Music, now that's what keeps my mind off things. You'll see me with my mp3 player 24/7. Rarely do you see me without it. Of course now, I'm pissed off at my mom for taking it away cause she came into my room last night and found me asleep with it on. Grr. Anyway, I can't believe you can speak that many languages. I'd love to learn German anytime. Too bad my school doesn't offer it. I mean, I think other European languages are just as important as French, Italian, etc..
from daath :
[grins] Well it can't always be my shots getting all the attention. I muchly appreciate your listing me. I wish you well!
from alonereviews :
your review is up at http://alonereviews.diaryland.com/suta.html thank you for letting me read your diary.
from theascension :
Have you ever heard of Clan of Xymox? They're from Nijmegen. They're quite good, actually. And your right, it does make it beautiful. No matter how much I bitch and moan, I would rather die than live a life without any obstacles. Well, your little snowman is going to try to get some sleep. It's about 3:20 now...anyway, love you lots, kid. Goodnight.
from theascension :
You know you're a much better person than you give yourself credit for...or maybe I'm just a much worse person than I make myself out to be. No matter how I feel, I always wish to destroy that light in others eyes. I never had a reason, I just did, even as a child. I guess in the end I'm just way too fucking bitter.
from theascension :
Hmm...well, it's 2:49 in the morning here. I'm sorry I wasn't on tonight/thismorning, I was actually in bed. I have a pretty bad head cold, and for some reason I am very wide awake at the moment. Actually right now I don't feel sick, just very very awake...
from chibi-lily :
hmm I do suppose not a lot of people like the French? But then, I'm just thinking of only Americans..and you were born Dutch? Most of the the ones I meet are really nice and a dedicated otaku. I'd say you're a prime example. ^_^ I wish I could travel but all I have my agenda (at least until next summer) is school, school, and more school. 2nd semester's already begun and sad to say, I know for a fact that I failed my English Honors class. >_< (Personally I think it's just my teacher, he grades you on mostly quizzes, and they hurt me, A LOT.) I'm not even sure I'll ever get my laptop. It's highly unlikely and I can just imagine my parents' faces with they catch a glimpse of it. Oi, I'm a gonner for sure. It puts too much pressure on me when they always expect the best from me. Why can't they understand that I'll never be a straight-A honor student like my younger bro? I don't think I can ever forgive them for this..
from theascension :
Well, it is in my opinion that they are quite beautiful. I was actually quite grateful Honda was there, I'll tell you all about everything later. Right now, though, I just had a real fucked up day and I feel really buggered. I'll talk to you later, kid.
from raveneys- :
Well thank you:) No, I'm not familiar with count cain or God child. My dear lover, Jack is looking over my shoulder. You know him as JackthRipper. He says you are a sweetheart:) I have no doubts. Anyone he likes must be wonderful. I will be adding you:)
from theascension :
*pokes back* It's not we get ANYTHING like that here, either. But I'm very resourceful..*smirk* And those pictures are very awesome. Pretty pretty pretty...I'm was gonna sketch you a little image in the next couple of days. *realizing I'm gonna freeze my ass off outside, all fucking night; also realizing me and Honda are gonna be doing fucking cartwheels in the parking lot from all the coffee while Kira and Shizuka sleep* Gah, what have I gotten myself into??
from chibi-lily :
forgot to mention I'm in the 10th grade of my high school..so I have no idea how that is in your school system. It'll just get me confuzzles, so I won't even bother. >_>
from chibi-lily :
oh well I live in the USA. In what I like to call my hometown, Boston. French well, what can I say also..c'est magnifique! I was thinking about going to the France trip my French teacher is planning this April..but then I thought..*sigh* I don't really wanna, cause I'm too shy, and nothing's gonna change that. What difference would it make me staying in a French high school besides maybe (which is highly unlikely) improve my French...and *cough* another reason is cause the people who already signed up for it are stuck-up I can barely stand them. ^_^; well, I guess I don't have to worry about them if I just don't go. Problem solved.
from suta :
*growls* I hate myself *growls even more*
from theascension :
Hee hee hee, the only time he had it long at all was as a little kid, and I only know that because I've seen pictures. (It's quite funny, actually) He had it a bit long and just messy back in high school, which did look good on him. Now he has it uber-short. I hate when I'm forced to pretend I'm someone I'm not. It's one of the most annoying and degrading things in the world. Have you ever heard L'Arc~en~Ciel? They're very awesome. They remind me of the american band, Ours....very beautiful.
from theascension :
Ne! The four of us (meaning me, Kira, Honda, and Shizuka) are gonna stay up all night wednesday outside of a restraunt so we can win free meals for a year! I don't know why, but it seemed imparative that you know that. *nodnod* Have fun, suta-chan! ^__^
from theascension :
Ahh, I understand. Family sucks chode, but that's coming from a bitter mouth. I loathe my real family, if you haven't been able to tell already. Hmm, what poem were you reciting? Something familar about it, but I don't know what. Ha, Honda CAN'T have long hair! It's really badly curly, it turns into this huge afro. *Can't stop laughing* Yes, I am a prick. Resentful much?? I am so sorry I haven't gotten you an email in so long. Most of the time when on the net long enough to respond, you're already there...
from jackthripper :
well we are all different from one another dear. writing is no exception..but i am very happy that you like what you read in my diary. i do try to be a little different if i can.
from jackthripper :
Email me if you want the password to my diary JckthRppr669@yahoo.com
from carpenocteme :
He took his vorpal sword in hand, Long time the manx-ome foe he sought, So rested he by the Tum Tum Tree And stood a while in thought.
from carpenocteme :
"O Oysters!" said the Carpenter, "You've had a plesent run! Shall we be trotting home again?" But answer came there none; and this was scarcely odd, because they'd eaten every one.
from toomuchrevu :
there is a change in your score and your button. Congrats!
from theascension :
*blink blink* no, I'm here....I haven't gotten a response. MSN must be acting up...
from nighteangel :
^_^ i love your cryptic writing. Hey, if that's the way it is so be it. "Sing about the crazys Pocket full of daisys Slashes, Slashes, they all fall down." *giggles* coffee high. Four rather large cups after my studio class and this is what happens. It's friday, what the hell, right? Have a good weekend.
from toomuchrevu :
review + button = done!
from toomuchrevu :
NEW FEATURE! Check the update!
from theascension :
I guess I am pretty evil, huh? Doesn't matter. He didn't want to hurt me, but it hurt much, much more for him to wait this long to tell me. He just made so many promises to me and it hurt to see it all shatter. It still dosen't feel quite real. It's better now, though. It is pretty bad, at least to me it was. I'll tell you when we can talk on MSN, I don't wanna say anything here or in email. I'm dealing, you know? Kira's helped me thru it, along with Kage. Just trying to overcome it all. (You know how unstable I am) Well, I'll talk to you later, little sister. Your onii-chan.
from chibi-lily :
Oui! Je parle francais. But believe me, I'm not an expert. I'm only in an honors class for French, but all my other friends take Advanced. umm, I don't know, is 4 years of French that long? My mom wants me to persue this language for college too. Bah! I'm too young to be thinking about college, but alas, my dad wants me to tell him what I want to be when I grow up. I'm in way over my head. XD I usually reply my notes late (in case you're wondering why) Nasty old habit of mine. 0_0;; I'm eating ice cream now when it's 20 degress outside. Just my lucky that New England weather starts up again. *sniff* I miss summer already. *smile* I really appreciate your comment Suta.
from theascension :
It's eleven here...I'm sorry I wasn't on earlier. I've been on the phone with Kira. Just...I'm in so much pain now, you know? Betrayl is one of the most painful things in the world. And nothing makes me feel better than destroying other peoples lives. Hmph.
from jackthripper :
A japanese comic? You're right...I'm not familiar with it. But I understand your affection for the criminally questionable..such a love is not so questionable in itself. Strange the ironic situations these things put us in. My name represents not so much the man himself but the reason for my own birth given name, Jack...Perhaps you read it.
from theascension :
Kira...just told me something I never ever wanted to hear. And now I feel pretty much dead inside. Your the only one I can talk to about it. By the way, your comments aren't working. Love you, little sister.
from theascension :
Hey kid...do you know if you'll be on tonight/this morning? Well, I suppose that's a stupid question. If your reading this, you will be on...I just need someone to talk to.
from jackthripper :
Care to know why I chose the name of JackthRipper? Go to my entry entitled "A Confession"...you will find it there. No, I've never read Godchild. What is it about, dearest? I am a great lover of books and always curious for a new find. Thank you for adding me to your list. That's very kind of you. *leaves a rose at your doorstep*
from carpenocteme :
Hey, and I'm not all lucky...I went thru all the motions of school already, with debilitating mental disorders. Besides, I HAVE to work, and not for spending money.
from carpenocteme :
Yea! Getting evacuated is fun...ahhh, bomb threats. Ha ha ha, I remember back in high school, we used to get so many bomb threats and "mysterious packages" that the school just kinda stopped paying attention. Kids were arrested for bringing semi-automatic weapons at least once a month. We actually had mother-fuckig bullet proof glass. That leasd to the ever popular joke, "Why is there bullet proof glass?" "Because it's Rio Grande." We were the worst high school in the state. See? I ditched for my health. *nodnod* Ahhh, funny little memories.
from chibi-lily :
um..erm..yeah I forgot how I came upon your site..it just happened I guess. Sooo..um the manga you listed are spiffy. ^_^ I like you already Suta. Me ish Lily..call me chibi-lily..whatever. ZZZZZzzzzZZ sleepy time for moi.
from nighteangel :
good guess. i am a girl. and that link has a mind of it's own. it works like once a month, i'll have to fool with it or make another one. anyway, saturday night, have a good weekend.
from theascension :
Have a good Saturday, kid! ^_^
from theascension :
Dammit, I hope I didn't get you in trouble. So sorry....Chou chou? I'm a butterfly???? *confused*
from nighteangel :
just in case you are interested, i have a diary thing on diary-x. i update that one more often than this. ashenflutterby.diary-x.com
from bebopkid :
I know that I haven't been on this site for awhile...but you take Japanese?(I think that's what you wrote on the note, I have a really bad memory) Well anyways, that is really cool.
from theascension :
GAWDAMMITSUNOVABITCH!!!!!!! *screaming* I didn't get to go to my fucking concert. Why, you ask? Because I go put in the mother-fucking hospital, AGAIN!!! *full of a great deal of rage* it's just one thing after a bloody 'nother, and everything SUCKS and I haven't even been home since halloween and just.....grr. How are you doing?
from suta :
Who cares!!! Fuck silly plasters!
from suta :
*sniffle* I want a plaster! *sniffle sniffle* Why do I have to be the one with the most bad luck everrrrrrr???
from nighteangel :
I equally love the picture on your diary as well. My entries are few and far inbetween for misguided circumstances (i had two stalkers a while ago) Many thanks for the signing. ~Nighte
from theascension :
Well, that's all for now....HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!^______________________^
from theascension :
Hee hee hee, go read my Carpe Noctem entry....hee hee hee. *I feel like flooding your notes tonight. Smirk.*
from theascension :
Yes I do like the song, thank you!! ^____^ *looking for something to send you*
from theascension :
*realizes it has been an eternity since I sent you an actual email* I am so sorry!!! *hugs* I'll start writing now, maybe I'll get it to you by Monday...-_-
from theascension :
It's a song called Glycerine by the band Bush. The real line is, "Don't let the days go by." I love them to death, even though they're not that hard or anything. Matter of fact, I don't know anyone who dosen't like them.
from theascension :
Awwww, your not on....*I talked my shit last night so I won't make any comments about the concert* ^_^
from icedmilk :
review is done!
from carpenocteme :
THE CRUXSHADOWS ARE COMING TO TOWN! THE CRUXSHADOWS ARE COMING TO TOWN!!! YEAAAAAAA!!! *jumps aroung like a fan-girl* I'm gonna go flirt with Rogue!! -_- *slips into the realization I probably won't get the chance to see it*
from carpenocteme :
*Ahem*
from carpenocteme :
Ahh, gawdammit. It's only one in the morning and I'm already home. *pouts* I really fucking wanted to stay out all night, come home after my aunt left. *pouts* I remember when we were teenagers, those motherfuckers had so much more stamina!!! Hmm....well, anyway. Carpe Noctem means Seize The Night in Latin. I thru an "E" on the end coz carpenoctem was taken. *jumps around because of pot of coffee I drunk*
from theascension :
Can't leave a long note, but just wanted to show you this entry. I wrote it about five years ago, so see? Writing style hasn't changed. I'm gonna be hanging out tonight, so you won't see me online. Well, talk to you later, kid. Lots of love.
from theascension :
Hee hee hee, I like Ryou Sakuya. It sounds nice, ne? Thinking of using it as a pen name.
from suta :
Dear devil in hell, another history test, life seems to hate me... *smirk* Torture, one of pleasures in life... heee. "Zerschneit mir dass gesicht... töte mich und iss mein hirn... und iss mich ganz auf..." *sings another psycho song* *looks in the kitchen* Coffee!!! *slavering* sorry, I've to go, poor Suta. What? I am Suta.... cofffeeee I am coming!!!!! Aufwiedersehen, people!
from carpenocteme :
Well, goodnight, kid. Smirk.
from theascension :
Anou..I don't know if your on, because my MSN isn't working. Just wanted to say, "hi."
from theascension :
Well, you know that your arrogent jerk of a brother loves you lots and lots. ^__^ Have a nice day, Suta-chan!!
from tokcocktok :
Magnifique!
from tokcocktok :
WORD. Thanks for the comment! : )
from theascension :
I don't have any time. Playing my little games takes a couple seconds. It's such an easy task. *grin* And don't send me any files until I can stay online long enough to send you something! That way it's fair. And yes, I know what a sick bastard I am, and I'm damn proud of it. ^_^
from theascension :
And yes they are funny people...
from theascension :
No, I do not have the Rammstein song, and thank you. GODAMMIT!! I had this big old fuck email written to you then plow! computer crash. On the next day! A next day reply from me of all people! *grumbles off*
from suta :
I know this is my own... but I had too lose this: *SMASHES HEAD AGAINST DESK* , okay I feel a lot better now.
from theascension :
Fuck, I found this band I became addicted to...you might of heard of them, Muse?
from theascension :
Wah! Good for you, happy alone time and such. I want alone time...anyway, I'll tell her you said happy birthday. She wanted to spend the day with her family, which sucks for me, because I wanted to stay out as late as possible drinking coffee. -_-
from bebopkid :
ok, well i just tried to write a note and my computer is stupid. i was wondering, do you watch wolf's rain? it is an awesome show.
from theascension :
*sniffle*
from theascension :
*sticks tongue out* Lemme alone. I'm tired. *grumble, kick*
from theascension :
And I'm not THAT old....barely old enough to drink.
from theascension :
And yes, I am aware I wrote this in my own notes first. >_<
from theascension :
And besides, I'm three or four years older than you...so I have presidence.
from theascension :
I AM NOT LITTLE!
from theascension :
*can't stop laughing* Oh, come on, you know for a FACT what a pompous jack ass I am. *smirk*
from theascension :
I am aware. ^_^
from theascension :
Pssh, I did nothing of the sort. *smirk*
from theascension :
I'm sorry you have school, Suta-chan. *buries head in knees* God, I feel like shit.
from suta :
God, I hate school, someone there who can save me!!!!????? PLEASE!!! Geography is soooo boring...
from suta :
Lalala... lalala... Fuck life, fuck the world, fuck the humanity, just fuck everything... lalala... lalala...
from theascension :
Ohhhh, I get it....yes, BLAME! is very good. I like it, anyway. There are ten volumes, and thats the cover for the last one. Then again, I like shonen a bit more than you do. So flip thru it, try it out.
from theascension :
No problem, I'll always send you songs. You like Evanessence and Seether, don't you?? *smirk, smirk, smirk* Are you talking about the original American comic book, Blade? Coz then, yea, I like it. Manga-list??? Well, kiddo, I'll tlak to you later. Ganbatte, ja ne.
from theascension :
Okay, maybe not a flood, but that's just cause I'm really fucking tired...weekend from hell, man, I swear to god...but I'm gonna send you a song for now. Love ya kid, ja ne!!! ^O^
from theascension :
Ha! This shall beguine the flood of notes that will reign DOOM and DESTRUCTION upon your email box! *stereotypical evil maniacal villain laugh*
from gotgaz :
hehe, I feel special. I will add you back.
from theascension :
I hate my conditions SO MUCH sometimes...*grumbles* The second we have decent weather, my family drags me out of town. *pouts* It's not faaaaiiiiirrrrr...But anyway, how are you doing, Suta-chan?? *hugs* I'm so sorry I haven't been around as much lately.
from suta :
*KICK* (fight between two personalities -_-;)
from suta :
Leave me alone!!! you ***********
from suta :
I hate you too, damn brat!!!
from suta :
I hate you!
from gotgaz :
aww, you are a very sweet person (mutilating things is always fun) anyway the username is gotgaz and the password is blah
from bebopkid :
Hi! I'll add you to my list too, you seem pretty cool.
from theascension :
Ehh....I know I'm mean. I likes it that way. ^___^ Besides, you wouldn't like me as much if I wasn't cute and mean. I'd be too normal.
from theascension :
Oh, no problem. I understand parent problems. No, I was pissed off at some people who were trying to use me. I'll give you the full gist later. I'm just really fucking pissed off. *glares* Well, I'm glad you didn't get killed, and I'm so sorry I've screwed up your Dutch. -_- Ahh, it's good to be such a moody fucking jackass...okay, I feel a little better now. Take care, little sister.
from theascension :
Hee hee hee....
from theascension :
(yes, I am aware I could have emailed these, but I'm LAZY!) Watching backwards as life like pictures Stinging thoughts, born with phantoms We danced above a world forgotten Moments cherished...even now A train-wrecked heart loves fairy tales Singing from a gaping wound However time has left unsettled My memories play out of tune You can't unmake a cold mistake You can't undo the hearts you break You can't erase the poet's fate Not even if you try And she had Audry Hepburn's smile With deeper sadder eyes The only thing she said No one hears Cassandra cry Because the earth is standing still And the truth becomes a lie A choice profound is bittersweet No one hears Cassandra cry A heartfelt sorrow I believe Offered this for passion's crime A crippled satellite trapped in orbit My memories play out of time You can't unmake a cold mistake You can't undo the hearts you break You can't erase the poet's fate Not even if you ry... The listless price of my descension Where emptiness has pulled me down Cascading from my divagation Below the frozen winter skies Pythonic sadness unreleased As serpents rigid in the cold Waiting for the warmth of Sunday Before the cruelty of growing old Are you listening? Are you listening? Are you listening now? Like Orpheus with hope intangled Your path was mapped about your feet Leading backwards into forgiveness Or forward to a foold retreat
from theascension :
Yeah...and I'm not quite sure why she wants to kill me...then again, I do something to piss someone off every two seconds. *grins* Didn't really learn any...just used Babel Fish!! ^_^ HALLOWEEN DOSEN'T EXIST?!?!?!?! *anime fall* Dear god, I could not live there...X_X I look forward to Halloween every single year. *huggles* Well, have fun, sis. WAIT! I have to send you these lyrics really quick, they're neato.
from theascension :
And THANK YOU for the report...^_^...*in the process of translating it as I write this*
from theascension :
I absolutely LOVE being mean...bwah ha ha. And I can understand why Edward reminds you of me. I wish I wasn't tiny!! *sniffle* I'm trying at the moment to figure out what to be for Halloween. Oh! and I wanted to send you a Cruxshadow song...but that will have to wait a little bit. It's pretty big, damn six minute long song. Well, there's more, but I'll save it for an email. JA NE!!!!!!
from suta :
God I've to remember this one. And the white bird flew away. His wings and feathers red, full of blood, marked forever for being a sinner. ^_^ Kinda weird ha?
from theascension :
Oh, and one last thing...isn't that Cruxshadow's song just great?? Ja ne! <(^_^<) (>^_^)>
from theascension :
You know, I'm in the middle of writing you an email, but it's one in the morning here and I'm SO FUCKING TIRED....-_- I'm so sorry, I'm such a bad friend. But, yes, of COURSE you can write about me!! I'm an attention whore, so I'm happy. ^_^ Well, nighty night, you. Sleepy, sleepy, sleepy....
from theascension :
Yeah, I realized after I wrote it, that it was something that I would say...so I figured it would be a bad idea, me being a jackass and all. ^_^ Love, hugs and kisses, your big brother Ry-kun
from theascension :
Oh, stop with that nothing suits me crap!! *kicks* YOU'RE not the ugly one here. Your lucky, I had to wear a formal suit. *sniffles* After a while, I stopped caring, because I just hid it with a trench coat. I have both those cards...the lead cards in my deck are (in english) Yata Garasu and Inaba White Rabbit. I have a spirit deck!! ^_^ (Appropriate, my name being Ryou and alll.....)
from theascension :
And also...I LIKED THAT APOCALIPTICA SONG, dammit. I fucking love instrumental!!! Tell your parents, "I believe in God my OWN way, you butt-fucking sonofa bitch!" Wait...no. That's what I would say, so don't. *nodnod* Do you have to wear a dress? I always had to wear a suit. -_- Well, bye bye, ja ne!!!!
from theascension :
Oi oi!! And yes, you ARE right, that IS where I stole your title from! ^_^ I drew it in a pack that day, and looked at your picture and went, "hmmmm..."
from theascension :
Ahh, dammit, I'm leaving a note whether you like it or not. Blah. Hope your doing well!!
from lumin-ant :
hi :) I'm the owner of Rothe Review, thanks for your request, and nice diary. ^_^
from theascension :
Broken, broken, broken...fuck, we'll scream until everything SHATTERS!! ...I won't let you walk away Without hearing what I have to say...
from theascension :
<(^_^<) (>^_^)>
from theascension :
You are aware I am your brother and it's my fucking DUTY to be annoying, right??? Hugs and kisses Suta-chan BYE BYE!!
from theascension :
Bye bye, have FUUUUUNNNNNNN!!!!!! ^O^
from theascension :
You can't use that forever, though..and it's no good for skipping entire days (or semesters...heeh) of school. I, however, am an expert. No GO before your late!!
from theascension :
*smirk*
from theascension :
Well, if you were here, I would have tought you how to ditch real sneaky like ages ago then you'd be screwed...so be glad your there!
from theascension :
^____^V Love ya, little sister!!!
from theascension :
HI!!!!! *waves* I'm at Kira's, so no MSN...HAVE A GOOD FRIDAY!!!!!!
from moosix :
No, that's Angst Boy Comics. http://ferret.com/angstboy/ It's so cute, cause he is just like Scion.
from theascension :
And yes, you are cute. *looks at cast* I can't exactly complain...it's all really really true. *sniffles* I still want my fucking lasagna...and it's all gone now. *sniffle* Kira...bastard. He and Kage pass those comics out and say it's me down to the t. Well, it's true, but that's not the point. BYE BYE!!! *the school weeks over, be happy!*
from theascension :
Hi!! *waves* note note notey note...
from moosix :
Hey, look! It's a perfect recreation of Scion! Down to the little rants, the hair, and sneer. Ha. http://www.ferret.com/angstboy/ab705i.jpg
from moosix :
Hi! And thank you. I love my Kurt Cobain shirt, too.
from theascension :
Can't...stop...think...about...lasagna...I can't even write an entry. DAMN YOU JOSH!!!!!!!!! >O<
from theascension :
Dob dob dob dob....*sigh* I want lasagna. DAMN JOSH!!! (one of the toads husbands, yeah, the other one) Shizuka was making us all lasagna, so we went to the store. Then THAT FUCKER showed up and kept us there forever. It wasn't done cooking by the time I had to leave. Butt-fucking son of a bitch, if I wasn't gonna kill him before, I'm gonna now...>_< Yeah! I don't have work tomorrow, la la la la...happy kick back and do jack shit time!! Bye bye ^_^
from theascension :
*Smirk* Ha ha ha!! VICTORY IS MINE!!! But seriously, I've been so screwed by the school system (have I told you about the thing with the barbed wire??) I'm glad it's all over. I'm just poor now. How are you doing with school so far, anyway?
from theascension :
Okay, I just couldn't wait to say this...DEAR GOD, I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING....I don't have to go to school this year! Any school of any sort! NO MORE COLLEGE FOR SCION!!! YAY!!!! *does a little dance* Just clean a building at night and draw and mess around with friends during the day!! I'm so happy.......
from theascension :
Heya little kid. *pat pat pat* See? I told you I'd be okay.
from dooki :
Wie Geht's? Was gibst? Ich sprechen bitte Deutsch. Ich bin nicht sehr gut. Du liebst chocolade? Ich liebe kartoffelsalat! Es ist sehr fantastiche! Du bist nett, und ich nicht gut am Deutsche! Aber, ich bin sehr lustig, ja? Ich nicht sprechen Deutsche in vier oder funf yahren! Ciao, Auf Wiedersehen! (this is hard without putting the little omlautts over the vowels. I hope you understood 1/10 of that. I tried!)
from dooki :
Hey, thanks for listing me on your favorites! I don't mind if your english is a little rusty. I understand perfectly well. Keep on writing!
from theascension :
I just wanted to say real quick that it won't be that long, I promise. It'll be real soon, oke little sister?
from kagome15 :
Konichiwa, thanx for the note on my diary. YOur diary totally kicks ass. Thanx for listing me I'll list you as soon as i get a chance. I'll talk to you later. Leave a note if you want to. ~~Hikari
from suta :
Hhehehehehehe... Jesus! I am so addicted to notes I leave myself notes. *shaking her head* But they're so cute, nifty, neato, just like spiders.... Come on be happy girl! *is talking to herself* Bye bye guys!
from celestial31 :
Addicted to notes?! ^_^ Your work isn't bad ,it's not even remotely close -_-
from celestial31 :
Nonsense Suta, you're a wonderful writer, your layout is stunning and I'm quite hooked to your work already.
from theascension :
Yes, yes I am, thank you....*smirk smirk smirk*
from theascension :
YEA!!! Tests are finally over...*does a little dance* But I have to wait a fuckin' month to even know if I passed...-_- Oh well, I'm email when I can actually explain. Ja ne!!
from cdghost :
stumbled across your words and enjoyed reading them very much
from theascension :
Yeppers, it's dead...>_>...*sings Marylin, My Bitterness at the top of my lungs* Well, good morning!! ^_^
from theascension :
Your account is being weird...I didn't get emailed for the last two notes you sent me. It's a haunted account!!
from theascension :
Your account is being weird...I didn't get emailed for the last two notes you sent me. It's a haunted account!!
from theascension :
Ahh, I still trying to figure out that glitch...not getting anywhere, but still trying. ^^;;
from theascension :
La la la...I know I'm talking to you right now, but I'm gonna leave you a note anyway, la la la...
from theascension :
Ha! Hi....*waves*

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