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messages to tarynheart:
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from breathe-salt :
taryn. i miss you. are you still here somewhere?
from degausser :
my libido is raging. bahah, i had planned on going to this boy's room and basically jumping him. but we were just being awkward and gropey. and then he realized that i made him like 30 min late for his class aha. i was hysterical and he's like, "THIS ISN'T ME!...I HATE YOU! (running to get his books and shoes) come back tonight!" and i was like, "no." and he's like WHAT DO YOU MEAN NO?! and i was just really amused by the whole thing. if i can get a damn minute alone, i'll go back aha. HOW ARE YOU
from my-serenade :
where have you ventured off to now my dear?
from karbonphyber :
gotta stay loose, let the cool get into your vertebrae.
from breathe-salt :
sometimes i don't know if i'm reading your words or mine. <33
from breathe-salt :
oh taryn. i feel the exact same way. there's something about snow & christmas lights that makes me wish i had someone to cuddle with, too.
from breathe-salt :
happy bday doll.
from breathe-salt :
thank you. <3
from breathe-salt :
if you're still writing for eyes other than your own, i would love the password. <3
from tofalldivine :
I get that. I do. And I don't think it changes things. And it doesn't bug me if you are there. Ali I've never disliked you. Hell, I don't really have any problem with you at all. You aren't going to wreck a good time. I just want to chill and bowl and whatever. Could we be anymore dramatic really? I don't really understand why you are apologizing. Things happen. I'm the last person you need to apologize to these days and the people that count should have forgiven you already. So no worries. Lets just keep up this strange truce we have going and not be concerned.
from tofalldivine :
I wasn't aware we were playing games. We've both stayed out of each other's lives and I've had nothing to say to you. I did nothing to Jenn but express my concern. I'm sorry that that somehow makes me a ferocious jerk. And I don't have any way to reach you these days. No numbers, no nothing. You've been out of my life completely. But I still worry when I hear stuff like this and I wanted to make sure someone knew and someone would be there for you. It was my misguided attempt at trying to be helpful. Next time I will just fuck off. I wasn't trying to say I could have changed things. That isn't my place and I'm not trying to make it that. Don't presume what I would and would not have time for. Either way, you didn't want to tell me and I am not the person to listen to you anymore. Personal attacks are uncalled for. I've directed none at you. So let's just continue to stay the hell away from each other because that seems to be working out just fine. I hope things get better for you, Ali. I really, really do.
from degausser :
i'm sorry.
from emperorincxt :
heya, user and p/w please? Id like to read what you write..
from miedema2002 :
I like your diary. The layout is unique and I enjoy what you write. Peace.
from my-serenade :
do you still miss me though i've returned? i'm happy to see you're accepting notes, i think i've tried numerous times and was told you weren't accepting new notes. not that it's my place to say, but you don't seem to be doing too well. if you ever need an ear, my yahoo or msn are available for your chatting on my profile. keep writing please... ex oh, teec
from breathe-salt :
i know what you mean. if i could ever meet one person outside of dland, it would be you. and who knows? (ps. loved your dream entry. well. i love all of them. <3)
from breathe-salt :
TARYN. i want you to know that i still think of you; your diary is one of the first my eyes go to when i log on. we've never met and likely never will, but when i think of dland and beautiful writing, i'll always think of a gal i knew first as solace-blue. i just wanted to let you know. <3
from myheavyheart :
hey, i guess you won't be writing here anymore. but i enjoyed your previous entries. do take care, lots of love ~<3
from tarynheart :
leave me notes, you bastards!
from deadwater :
I'm going to miss reading your entries as well.... If you ever do decide to come back, drop me a note! I wish you luck. ;)
from deadwater :
Yeah, my password got screwed over for some reason & wasn't working so I had to switch it up. username: pippin password: merry =( I'm uber sad you're done with tarynheart, by the way.
from lifeineminor :
Dearest, Thank you for sharing your beautiful words, your thoughts, your ideas and dreams for all these years. I will miss being able to be connected to that part of your life. Cheers, love. -'Rena
from saving-salt :
taryn doll. <3 it's so good to know someone out there is going through the same thing as i am. i know i'll never stop writing, but do i really want to do it as a career? i never thought i'd feel that way, and it's confusing the hell out of me. i'm not ready to leave my home yet. i'm not ready to be 18, but i am, and it blows my mind. and oh- i know you stopped updated this diary, but will you still be writing in solace-blue? you know i will miss you if you do. <3salt
from deadwater :
I'm gonna miss you dear... Good luck, and I love you.
from mangojam :
Hey, are you still looking to be reviewed ? If so message me back and I'll have you reviewed within a few days. Please remember to link though. Let me know anyway.
from boyecho :
good luck.
from given-a-soul :
i love you.
from tularosa :
¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾ hey my love guess who???? its laura!!! finally ive been meaning to set one of these up for ages,hehehehe,im no longer the procrastinist i used to be.write me when u get time ¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾
from transmute :
I wouldnt have wasted so much of my life being jelous.
from straypussy :
Hey, sorry my diary was down for some reason. I don't know if that makes a difference to your answers...
from transmute :
Georgina
from straypussy :
Stray.. I like your diary. I'm glad you got a good review.
from tofalldivine :
I thought I ought to return the gesture...mostly because I can. 1)You want to go by a different name(because it doesn't suit you so well-whether that is my opinion or yours it's true) 2)I challenge you to look on the bright side more often because life is only as fun as you make it. 3)Purple. The deep dark kind, not lilac or some such. 4)I like that you are so aware of what can mean a lot to people and that you aren't afraid to take chances on something even when you know it might not work out. 5)The day Kat introduced us and you were sitting beside Gwen in the hallway. 6)A sloth bear. 7)What do you want more than anything in the world? because I don't know if you've really truly delved into yourself to find it. And I'd just like to know And yeah I think it will survive if there is effort there. Just so you know.
from tofalldivine :
Oh, oh. Do mine!
from honestlyou :
you've been reviewed.
from deadwater :
user: merry pass: dootzie i was getting paranoid about people finding it, again. so i locked it. x]
from transmute :
lady lady! I have something for you. its not big or special, but its yellow! (and smells like mango)
from k-ron :
Yesss isn't it funny! I hope life post-high school is good for you as well.
from chasngghosts :
love & i need to stay away from eachother, because it never ends well.
from tofalldivine :
Hey dollface! I got home late or else I would have called. You interested in hanging out on Thursday or even on the weekend? We could just hang out and talk or there is a Peruvian gold exhibit at the Nickle Arts Museum we could check out. Not that those are the only options. If I have a chance perhaps I will phone you tomorrow. Love you lots!
from sleepystorm :
thank you for the add (in both places.)
from deadwater :
lucky duck! i can't wait till i get old enough & can travel all around... especially to europe. take lots of pictures.
from honestlyou :
no worries! i thought that might be the case, but didn't have time to type that whole thing out since i was printing something and had problems...i will put you on the pending list and hopefully by the time i get to your diary, the older entries will get updated! -riley
from honestlyou :
it's only on one entry. i looked through the other ones and it doesn't show up. look at the rules. it can't be in one entry. in the rules it lists ONLY the places that are acceptable.
from honestlyou :
you need a link
from tofalldivine :
You are locked. That is sad.
from tofalldivine :
Good luck in finding whatever it is you find. I hope the change, the newness, is what you're looking for. Failing that...I hope for a little while you get to be someone else when you are away. My best breaks are always from me. I want this to be all you hoped and more. So have fun and bon voyage. I'd like to hear about it when you get home.
from boyecho :
all i can say at the moment is thank you. i am reading. and reading.
from chasngghosts :
ahah. you have no idea how much that made my night. i swear, i thought army kids were supposed to be tough, but he's such a little bitch sometimes. it's funny. i love you. ♥
from deadwater :
of course, we will always keep encoutering bad experiences. they build character, & strength to overcome worse ones.
from chasngghosts :
haha. i meant to finish the one i have up now, but i was entirely too lazy/tired. so it looks icky. & icky it shall remain until...well, probably the middle of the night. ps i love you.
from pitter-pat :
Yeah, I guess that's why, I use foxfire. Alright, well thanks for letting me know that <3
from my-serenade :
hello love, i know exactly what you mean abou writing. i've never quite had the stamina to write stories, which is why i stick to poetry. but as of late i've been longing to write beat poetry i actually like. hasn't happened yet but i'm holding on. i also saw the update in bang- and was wondering if we should start browsing diaries and inviting bang-virgins to join? or have you already? in any matter, the new entry was beautiful. (yay for long notes) -L
from tofalldivine :
Please don't assume that I was directing that entry at you. There are other things going on in my life that caused it. I hope that you didn't think it was an attack. Because as much as your diary is your thoughts, my diary is mine. Most of it is fiction based loosely on fact. So please don't think it was a "letter" because that was never the intention.
from deadwater :
you locked it?
from transmute :
So you've decided to do it?
from deadwater :
don't delete that entry. i love it. you always put the problems i deal with into words. i absolutely LOVE you because you can do that; as i have said before--it scares me how much we are alike.
from deadwater :
x] .Retro Cake, is my username. What's yours?? Send me a PM! hehe.
from tofalldivine :
Says the girl who gets mad at me for deleting entries. Maybe they aren't trying to tell you that your feelings are invalid. Maybe they are trying to tell you that it is not as big a deal as you think because they know there is something bigger behind it. They aren't necessarily trying to shut you down but they don't want the little things to become big things either. Ya dig?
from loversvanity :
i miss you.
from deadwater :
there is something about you, i feel like i've known you forever--& yet I don't even know you.
from tofalldivine :
I know lots of people who believe something is just "part of who they are" and do nothing to fix it assuming that it will always be so. People are like that with their physical appearance, their grades, but they can't be lik that with friendship? It isn't necessarily like people don't give a damn whether or not you are in their life that is just the way you feel. Maybe they just can't meet your standards. Maybe you aren't their first priority because they aren't yours.
from tofalldivine :
It is wonderful idea to think that friendship is full of beautiful undying loyalty and a lack of conditions. That however is not the case. People can not read minds, they can't always be there, and self preservation is the most important thing of all. Sometimes they don't do what they are supposed to because they feel it is ingrained in their being, other times it is due to apathy, but often it is due to the belief that inevitably their friends will eventually be lost to them. People doubt their ability to maintain relationships because they feel inately flawed. Or so I believe anyhow.
from tarynheart :
You don't have your notes turned on so I will just reply here...awha?! I have no idea what the hell you're talking about. I didn't accuse you of raping/molesting anyone. I don't even know who you are!
from digitalroses :
You know, I should just sue your ass for slander. And telling other people to spread the same lies? What the shit. You people don't even know me, and I have never had sex with, molested, or taken advantage of an underage girl. Unless flirting in d-land a year and a half ago is illegal activity.
from loversvanity :
you're lucky. i'm so not looking forward to the college search next year. but i cant wait for the actual not being here. you should come visit me during your travels. =)
from deadwater :
Time & time again I read your entries & I am touched by how I can relate to them. I just wanted to tell you that you are not alone out there, self-absorbed in your own problems & emotional state... Trying to get above it all. I :heart: you.
from slug123 :
Your diary floored me. Even when it's not poetry, it's amazingly poetic.
from sunfuck :
after reading your latest entry i felt compelled to help so i thought and thought and i have finally decided that you should buy MELATONIN supplements!!! seriously, monsters can't fuck with that!
from weatethesea :
dear sir or madam (i am guessing madam): thank you for saying nice things to me. i see yours is locked now, and mine is unlocked, so maybe we just traded insecurities.
from soul14 :
locked? i would love to have the password darling? please?
from deadwater :
you locked your diary. ;-; passie please?
from amazinfuckup :
Thanks for the encouragement, that's what my friend said too. I ended up with a nice guy though, and I passed. Thanks again! <3
from tofalldivine :
Same to you, kiddo. Hope it was the best yet.
from sunfuck :
let me tell you there is no interesting reply to that one, friend
from ruby--sky :
meep. i love your diary. XoX
from loversvanity :
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouuuuuu ♥ ♥
from ifiwere :
sorry, I left myself a note by accident.. I have such bad timing. it's almost frightening. in the last few days I have managed to forget a friend's birthday, (though I sang her happy birthday the evening before) and a teacher's leaving party. (or maybe I could blame this all on my terrible memory and assumptions upon reading your diary.) apologies all around. ((hugs for tuesday)) =)
from ifiwere :
happy birthday, Kiaya. [[[[hugs&love]]]]
from tofalldivine :
Alas, for I do not have the needed name to use the password. Help? Let me in*sob*
from tofalldivine :
Are you okay? I don't know if you are anymore...ever. And I'd call you but I hate phones and I'm scared you'd just hang up(that's mainly why I hate them). Just don't forget that you can tell me all that ails you and I won't judge.
from herdarlinsin :
All I can tell you thus far about anything pertaining to Leticia is that she's well, but has her days. Her and I haven't spoken to one another since June. It's hard sometimes not knowing on hand how shes doing, but what I gather from her girlfriend is that she's okay. Wish I could tell you more but its really not for me to say. What I do know is this, she doesn't miss the use of a computer and she doesn't miss diaryland or the internet. If that hurts you I apologize. Leticia is going through a change, but only the kind of change she's seeking. you can always leave a message for her with her girlfriend if you want. Let me know ok?
from deadwater :
maybe. ^^
from deadwater :
that's what new york is i guess. i dont know, it just seems so pretty. seems like you & i both would fit in there, eah. ;) someday i'll get there.
from deadwater :
hah. i've never been there. although, i've always really really wanted to go. T.T i'm sure its wonderful. i have two really good friends that live there though.
from deadwater :
<3 i'm glad, too. new york city sounds so great right. it really does. but no matter what, i think i'll end up staying where i am.
from herdarlinsin :
I suppose I could, but I have no idea who you are, and I'm not exactly at free liberty to tell people what's going on with her life. Let me know something, okay?
from deadwater :
your last entry, i just have to say, pratically stopped my heart. it was so beautiful... & the even weirder thing is, you sound /exactly/ like me.
from sunfuck :
thank you a ton for the offer but i can never think of what to say in a communal journal!
from darkthinger :
amen to that 'commitmentphobic'. I hear you. <33
from loversvanity :
sorry about levi. & not killing yourself for fear of missing out isnt cowardice. its bravery. i love you.
from sunfuck :
dude i'm never sarcastic when it comes to BIRTHDAYS!!!!! it was TRUE!! i had a good day i hope you did too.
from loversvanity :
if he found the diary...that would SUCK beyond belief. i'm pretty paranoid about it. especially because of myspace. a few days ago a diaryland person on myspace said "loversvanity" in a comment, & i had to delete it. yeah. so. i'm pathetic, & crush on my teacher. what else is new? haha.
from loversvanity :
definately. if i dont accidentally jump him at somepoint & make an ass out of myself, i'll definately do something after graduation. because by then it will be like, look tard, i've spent the better part of my highschool career writing about you. love me. NOW.
from loversvanity :
i do. its insane. & nope, still in school. i'm actually 16 at the moment. hahah. yeahh. hes not my teacher now. well. he will be in like...3 months? one of those half year courses. i dont know. i'm retarded. haha.
from loversvanity :
aww. i hope he lets you get levi. if not...i'll smack him upside the head. because i can do that, you know. & i am confused, because i hate boys, except not really, because if i did, i wouldnt be confused. boys. TEACHERS. they tend to make things confusing.
from loversvanity :
i think, i am good. confused as per usual, but pretty good. why are you tense & anxious?
from loversvanity :
hey lady. how are you?
from transmute :
AWE
from loversvanity :
goooood song.
from loversvanity :
all feelings are justified, even not missing your mom.
from sunfuck :
that chair thing seems like it should work...
from loversvanity :
tell me your secret.
from sunfuck :
no, i think i'd fit right in
from soul14 :
sorry lovey i've been missing. i'm in toronto now (omg its fucking amazing right?) and mainly on lj now. but i'll still be around here.when i settle down i'll go back to bang-. i'm sorry ive been MIA. because im hardly here, leave me a note at my lj if anything <3
from better-days :
awe well now i feel so loved! yeah, if its the taylor i'm thinking of then...i do? i dunno! thats so rad. and your writing is interesting as well. mines just mindless randomness and rambling.
from better-days :
well thats pretty rad. you have a beautiful layout. you know laura...do i know you? =O
from laurakay- :
shit it was supposed to send you a password ali/girl
from tofalldivine :
A note that goes straight to my heart.
from finjamartens :
Wow,this has a NICE layout. Awesome,how it looks so misty,very cool. I DO envy you because of THAT!!
from given-a-soul :
Bring us back the secret to joy from the nature around you. love ya
from to-isabella :
come visit me!!! just keep on going down the country and down a bit more and you're here... oif you hit beach then you've gone too far. the mosquitoes might give it away. There is must be fabulous; bring lots of pictures. <3
from tofalldivine :
That sounds superb and perfect and so many more adjectives that I can't call to mind. Thanks for remembering us when you are in a place you love so much. I'm glad you are enjoying yourself. I miss you like Gary Coleman misses fame. See you soon, kiddo.
from given-a-soul :
I'm glad you're having a good time, don't slip away too far or we'll never find you again in that massive city
from loversvanity :
i love new york. & i love you.
from deadwater :
:D that's great! mmhmm. anytime.<3 ^^
from tofalldivine :
Me again...I hope you're having fun. Things are lousy here without you(even though I never get to see you anymore even when you are here). New York better be swell or I will eat Central Park. Actually that sounds really painful so maybe I won't. Benches give you splinters and that could be nasty. Could you imagine an esophagus splinter? Come home and get you Toronto present soon. It misses you(And by it I mean me)
from deadwater :
I hope you have a lovely time in New York.<33 Wish I could go there. -____e.
from tofalldivine :
You're gone..but I am still here and that is lame. Next time take me to the big NY with you. Yeah, that's right...the big NY not the big apple. Apples are tasty...new york tastes like smog and bus dirt. I don't like cabbies...
from loversvanity :
i'll miss you...take me with you?
from deathpilot :
Hulloooo, I hope you're having a glorious time in New York. Just sucks I didn't get to talk to you before you went.
from loversvanity :
i'm friends with alot of different people, & whenever they interact, its amusing. a week or two ago a few of us went to our friends cast party, & we were watching the holy grail. & we're all saying the lines outloud. & hitting ourselves in the heads with books. & riding fake horses. & etc. but one of my friends didnt find any of it funny & kept going, "i dont get it." & we're like .....!!!! theres nothing to get. its amazing & hilarious, end of story.
from loversvanity :
definately. i'll marry you. this boy i love said he hated monty python & my respect went down for him by like, 6974632974629476397 points.
from tofalldivine :
I'm not dead...so...we should hang out sometime. Life is so busy that I'm forgetting to live it.
from deadwater :
just thought i'd drop a hi.<3
from loversvanity :
come find me.
from sunfuck :
HEAR, HEAR! here's to bruises, rats, the cold and being mistreated by the portuguese and their spanish neighbors! and above all the others, HERE'S TO BEING SELFISH NORTH-AMERICANS! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
from sunfuck :
if i knew you, and you lived in arizona instead of fucking canada (which you're probably blessed that you don't) i would gladly accept your offer to go to disneyland. and you're right, of course, and i know it myself (though it's sucky to admit) that disneyland is nothing special...unless of course you're on an illegal substance or two!!!!1 ALSO, i've never been anywhere either. maybe we should make a stop there on our imaginary road trip if the mood strikes us.
from deathpilot :
hear, hear. I loved your last entry. Those thoughts struggle through my mind at my times of insanity of thinking that I have it horrible.
from love-fatal :
it seems there are a few of you i cant stop reading. & i'm thinking, maybe the problem was always that its the people who were home, not the site.
from love-fatal :
hey ali. i kind of surprised myself, & decided i am going to leave dland afterall. i just wanted to leave you a note, because you were one of the few i really talked to. i miss telling & hearing stories with you. you're a wonderful person & an amazing writer. keep in touch. i love you. ♥ ♥
from love-fatal :
haha. you were the only one who understood i wanted to change diaries, not journal sites. i guess you know me a little bit better. =)
from fuschiashock :
your layout is absolutely beautiful.
from soul14 :
guess what? my boyface just told me today to leave him alone cos he's having problems at work. i guess we;re in the same boat. i hate feeling redundant <333 take care love. p.s. i've killed teardrop_stamps at lj. i'm at sultry_nights now.
from love-fatal :
hahah. that made my night. but i really havent knowingly caused him any trouble, but give it time, & i'm sure i'll drive him insane. =)
from amrita :
thanks for joining the pinback ring. will you post us on your diaryrig page please?
from lifeineminor :
hm... I just might. I've been thinking about it for a while.. Perhaps if I can find the money. I'm a little sparse right now.
from transmute :
www.dictionary.com in fact and the saddest part is that some are still spelled wrong? but thats ok, because this summer is going to be so rad, that it doesnt even matter. haha.
from deathpilot :
that last paragraph was very sweet, thank you:) I also wanted to tell you, you MUST go to Greenwich (sp?) Village. I don't know if you've already been there, but I've heard it was amazing.
from soul14 :
thank you for the sweet message lovey. things are better now cos we got back together =) and i'll be heading to canada this sept.
from deadwater :
it's driven-freak, new diary. i'm sure you're none of those things. of course we all have weaknesses, but you seem to be such an amazing person.
from transmute :
Talented, Deep, Understanding, A Good Listener, Intelligent, Cultured, Well Rounded, Progressive, Realistic, Dreamer, Simple, Complicated, LOVED.
from love-fatal :
beautiful. stunning. wonderful. amazing. // loved.
from driven-freak :
Hah, of course. ^-^ I love reading diaries...and yours caught my attention. I actually hadn't gone from her favorites list to your diary, I was just browsing the member's area and saw your username. So I clicked. And well, yeah. <33
from transmute :
sounds good, I might take a little longer, I want to do a whole bunch of colleging, but all I may need is courses.. but I also have an extra year. when I get out of highschool, I'll upgrade my maths to pure, take physics (maybe) and get a course in pathology ( or degree or whatever) and nutrition and dietician stuffs. I'll have to look in to exactly how long that all should take, but I might make it the same time as you, or maybe a year after.
from soul14 :
i just had time to read all of andy major. i'm so sorry i havent been active at bang- and even soul14 much but things are just so hard these days. i am probably going to toronto to study and that's what's tearing me apart. i love my girlfaces, i love my boyfriend so much i don't want to pack up and go so all i do is cry and think about it and he broke up with me because he thinks its better to hurt now than later but he doesnt understand i want to spend all the time we have left together. andy major seems promising. if i go canada (which is highly likely), i'll email you. <3333333333333333333
from transmute :
:O!! yes I'm serious!! WHEN!! WHEEEN!! I'd LOVE that!! and its right in my favorate area too.. southeast Asia.
from deathpilot :
hey, i've changed my template once again. I rather like it and the text isn't funky or anything.
from studsnpatchs :
thanks
from john-gerrard :
thanks taryn .. that was uplifting .. definitly something i needed .. life is treating me well .. you can never complain .. hehe love, john xoxox
from yeh-whatever :
hey... i'm still alive. lucky me.
from tofalldivine :
I'm back now and the trip was far too short. My poor Grammie had me sobbing on her shoulder because I wasn't ready to leave. Every time it feels like home but that's partially because it always IS. So hard to leave.
from lessthanhalf :
Hey lady, it's not too difficult to start teaching, you just need to get a TESOL certification. If you want a quick one Global TESOL in Calgary is easy, it's only 5 days but it gets you accredited. If you want a proper one then look for a CELTA [SELTA?] course. Global is just up on 17th ave past McD's on 12 or 13th st can't remember, if it's still running the woman's name is jana. Then hit the internet, daveseslcafe.com is a good place to find work. If you don't have a degree you're kind of limited but Indo's easy to get into, and you can always buy a degree online [don't get caught]. Wow, that was long, any more questions just email me. Ronin_43@hotmail
from lifeineminor :
thanks, baby. ^^ Probably the quickest layout I've ever made. I love yours, too. ;o)
from pocketsea :
Well then I'll definaty be looking for an AlexHart. I'll read all her novels. As for tommorrow, i'm sorry, but my ex-bf [who I'm still in <3 with] made plans with me yesterday. Dang. I'm so in <3 with doing hair. Ahh.. maybe Monday? I do believe that's my next free day.
from pocketsea :
I'd read something written by a Gilroy.
from pocketsea :
You think that's a bad name? Try living with Driver for a last name. Think of all the.. no wait. Think of the one joke I hear all the time. /dies.
from studsnpatchs :
i dont know if gina already talked to you about all this but lately ive been thinking and ive decided lifes too short to worry about all the high school drama that surrounds us. and honestly, ive gotten over everything, and you might still hear rude things but trust me, its not me anymore. im sorry if i did anything that hurt you (i know i did) but i guess i realise now how pointless it was, and how it really just made everything worse to be a bitch about it. i dont know if we could ever be friends again, ive been pretty ridiculous, but i just wanted you to know that i dont hate you, and i do feel bad for everything ive done. okay. im done now. bye. -k
from pocketsea :
Gilroy and shiet? Cause that's what I was assuming, but I wasn't too sure. Umm, I decided to keep it open for right now, but if I do lock it again, I'll remeber to give you a password.
from pocketsea :
Why thank you. It does mean something. alot of people that tell me to my face they read it, don't. Now that's kinda horrible. Now this may make me seem like a bad person. But can I ask whom this is?
from deathpilot :
wow, you're almost up to 500 entries!
from tofalldivine :
He's just a boy and I'm just scenery. I don't always notice the background characters so why should he? It's enough.
from transmute :
WHAT. I am very upset about this.
from given-a-soul :
I really must say this sucks. We'll miss you
from love-fatal :
please dont leave.
from transmute :
this saturday? I think perhaps yes.
from transmute :
I'd love to go to the 14th and/or 15th with you. If that would be good with you?
from transmute :
"<3" = less than three
from transmute :
its yewww!!
from soul14 :
i know. and im so excited but i dont know if i'll end up there because there're other factors to consider <3 i just hope everything turns out well
from deathpilot :
hey babe, i just realized that for a period i had unlocked my diary but now it's back locked. I didn't know if you knew the password and all that stuff. It's the same as it was last time. love you!
from finalcadence :
anything. everything. a normal blog, but we share it. just thought I'd see how something like this would go. have fun. ^^ love rena
from lifeineminor :
Don't think I can't tell that you're referring to my entry on depressed people. Don't be so vain that you automatically assume that I'm referring to you. It looks like you're the one taking blogs seriously. Anyway, that's all I'm going to say on it.
from tofalldivine :
It was a statement,not an attack. It was a passing thought I felt I'd share.
from love-fatal :
psh. what love life? haha. mine is fairly boring & definately lacking. i think more sex & the frequented use of alcohol & drugs would substantially improve that, but for now i'm single, bored, drooling over my teacher, & trying to mess with the hormones of teenage boys. it can only get better from here. your love life is plenty interesting. plus, its normal. plus, it exists. i'll trade. & yes, we should talk. love you. ♥
from soul14 :
you're never alone <33333 love is a tricky business heartbreak is never easy but love, you're never alone
from tofalldivine :
Apathy is never becoming.
from darkthinger :
your last couple entries have been so heartbreaking. <33333333333333333
from love-fatal :
i've been feeling the same way as you lately. all stressed over little thing, but happy. but not quite good. or something.
from soul14 :
that was an awesome entry <3
from soul14 :
i don't know if its just me but each time i click on yr diary during a new update, the same entry comes up. i miss seeing yr new writings <33333
from twistedverse :
okay
from deathpilot :
is your diary locked from EVERYONE? if not can I have the password, love?
from twistedverse :
may I too, have a password?
from given-a-soul :
Its never the way its supposed to be is it? Lots of love stargirl I don't know what else to say
from hatexbreathe :
Could I have a password please? <3
from larcenylife :
you have awesome taste in authors. <3 and music. and movies. lozl marry me.
from love-fatal :
i would totally make babies with you, but we both lack sperm, & i hear you need that for the baby making process.
from truth-review :
you review is up!
from k-rex :
Hah thanks. Maybe one day I will take you up on that, maybe one day I will not.
from k-rex :
I don't hate you I am just an incredibly awkward person. Sorry.
from wediscodance :
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwe you've found me<3
from soul14 :
sorry baby, but there are people who found out about it and i just want to keep them away. i can give you the password if you like <3
from deathpilot :
hey you must call and tell me all about this dream boy!
from love-fatal :
you said you cant write in here anymore.
from love-fatal :
i love you. i'm glad you're happy. but i'll miss you. ♥
from given-a-soul :
I don't know what to say to make you happy but I remember that you had a nice smile, and I'm sure I've missed it a lot lately heart
from yeh-whatever :
I love you the mostest. wait... is mostest even a word? oh well, who gives a fuck - i'm drunk and i said it anways. bye!
from soul14 :
<3333333333333333 i love you.
from yeh-whatever :
I love being surrounded by cute lesbian girls. Love you.
from love-fatal :
i totally just sang, "if i could turn back tiiime" i need to stop watching will & grace, because it makes me sing cher.
from lifeineminor :
glad you had fun, beautiful. ^^ And yes, it is sane to love her.
from given-a-soul :
I hope T&S is amazing i hope you're having the best night in a long time and i hope that you'll wish i was there ;) i wish i was hahah have a great night dearheart
from darkthinger :
my dads work gave him tickets for macbeth. like.. front row type tickets. My parents hate shakespeare, but they're going to get away from their kids for a night. I WANT TO GO INSTEAD OF THEM!!!!!!!! I'm so mad. GAH
from twinklies1 :
i love your DA entry. simply fucking beautiful.
from corabobora :
Neat to know you're still reading my blog :)
from k-rex :
Mr Whitbread
from tofalldivine :
People ask why you're happy because they are curious...sometimes that is it. They just want to know. Because sometimes we just like to know why you feel how you do. So why are you angry? And how can it be fixed?
from love-fatal :
thank god. you dont like fur either? i always laugh when i see those rich old ladies in nyc with the ankle length mink coats.
from love-fatal :
i hate biology. i think i failed it. dont fail it. then you'll turn into....ME (dun dun dun) (scary music) i like watching those fashion things sometimes, but mostly just to make fun of the silly things they wear. i know what you mean about the hats. they're terrifying. i mean, hats in general are risky business. so then when you take this ginormous five foot wide thing & put it on your head..it just simply shouldnt be done. lets start our own line of clothes. that lacks scary hats.
from deathpilot :
hey i miss you too! call me tonight if you can xoxo
from k-rex :
th bus of course.
from deathpilot :
oh god babe, that soundsa awful about the cyst! please call me tonight!
from k-rex :
For sitting AND standing.
from k-rex :
I love stools.
from k-rex :
Ohhh... Get a stool?
from k-rex :
Too short for what?
from tarynheart :
i'm thinking of applying to quiznos but i'd really like to work at chapters. i get weird looks a lot though because i think they think i'm too short? or something.
from k-rex :
Always look!
from k-rex :
Because I wasn't happy.
from k-rex :
I used to work there.
from yeh-whatever :
My last name is McDonald. and no, I don't know that Ronald fucker. Much Love.
from k-rex :
McDonalds. Cute, right? Where do you work?
from fan4 :
I found your diary when browsing the buddy list of another diary I like. Don't ask me which one though. I have a lot listed.
from fan4 :
My name's Tricia. *makes the change in my favorites list*
from twinklies1 :
i read your 100 things for the first time today and it shocked me how much we have in common.
from tofalldivine :
I'm not going to say I'm sorry. To be honest, I can't tell what's right anymore...
from k-rex :
I haven't decided. Are you?
from yeh-whatever :
I can always count on you to lend an ear, and even more so - your heart.
from needingalex :
lucky you, a drama free day! i love those and i've had a huge rise in them since i graduated high school. they're so oddly normal yet refreshing...
from k-rex :
I get it sometimes too.
from k-rex :
Oh she lives in Victoria. But you kind of look like her.
from k-rex :
I definitely know who you are. You remind me of this other girl I know. Dang.
from k-rex :
Do you know who I am actually? Holy cow! ...please tell me who you are. I don't listen to my friends when it comes to other people. I make my own decisions.
from k-rex :
That's a bummer. Chances are I don't really hate you, at least not a whole lot because um, I don't hate many people a whole lot. And if I did you would know.
from girlreview :
you have been reviewed at Girl Review.
from lessthanhalf :
Hey lady, just catching up on some reading here, been slacking a bit. If I wasn't intrigued and inspired by your opinions then I wouldn't be reading, your a good writer with ideas and soul, so don't sweat others ignorance.
from k-rex :
The idea of someone loving me forever is just scary to me. But I am cold and kind of tired so I think I will add you to my list and then go to sleep. Talk to you later.
from k-rex :
I desert people a lot, so I think about it a lot. And I could probably come up with a crazy deep psychological theory but really I think it is jsut because I'm afraid they'll stop liking me so I hurt them before they can hurt me. It's not clever and I am trying to stop. But I don't do it on purpose and can't tell that I'm doing it.
from k-rex :
Often I think that I should open up to people but everytime I do I just desert them and I've decided that it's not a very nice thing to do so I should probably just stop telling people.
from k-rex :
I'm not sure. A big part of me just won't talk to the world and I'm left with this little part that is what everyone knows. And when I write I think it is that part that comes out and I just... I don't know. I can say that I don't care what people think about me and it's halfway true but I think I'm terrified of people knowing more about me than I let them. Okay maybe that wasn't such a good explanation. I think I just keep everything that isn't necessary a secret so that I can remain MYSTERIOUS AND ELUSIVE to the world. I would like to be a photographer too. In reality, I suppose I would like to do a little of everything.
from k-rex :
Everything I want to do I am not confident enough to do. I would like to be a fashion designer but I'm afraid that my family will disapprove and I'll fail even after convincing them that it's a good idea. I would like to be a writer but I can't show anyone the sorts of things I would actually write and I have a hard enough time handing in english assignments, I'm too embarassed. I don't realy care what I do with my life as long as I am content for the majority and get to see more things than I can even imagine right now. Hopefully I will have a sudden flash of confidence or brilliance and know what path I am supposed to follow but right now I can only hope that my heart will guide me to the right place. You want to be a poet I take it?
from k-rex :
Oh I would love to live in the country. Ideally, I would live downtown with a place in the country to go to on the weekends or if I just needed a break. There is a definite appeal about living downtown to me. Or in an older neighbourhood. Living in the country would be fantastic especially if it was near a lake. I suppose it really depends on what I decide to do with my life.
from k-rex :
I have lived here and in one much smaller town that is not so far away. My dishes will be plain coloured but probably not the same. There will be a few blue plates, a few red mugs, some green bowls. Mostly it will be mine and it doesn't have to be the same because I don't want it to be, and I think that is the most exciting part. I will go shopping on my day off after I wake up and I will carry all my bags on the bus which will be a hassle but I probably won't have a car. Besides, I'll live pretty close to everything so it won't be too bad.
from k-rex :
Sometimes I wish I could be a teacher. To be honest, I don't think it would be worth my time. I have very specific ideas about my future but it rarely includes the big picture. Just things like what my dishes will look like and how often I will go grocery shopping. I don't even know if I will move out of Calgary. I hope that I do. I don't hate it here, I just hate the idea of staying in one place for almost my entire life.
from k-rex :
A lot of the time I wish I didn't have to go to school anymore. It feels like my general education career should be over. It will be soon enough but I am sick and tired of learning about things I don't even care about. I'm not sure what I want to do after high school but it wouldn't be so bad to just read and draw and swim all day. Often it feels like I'm missing out and don't read enough and I wish I could fix that but I always seem so busy.
from k-rex :
In the third grade I got in trouble every day in science class because I was reading instead of learning. So yeah, I like reading. I don't read as much as I'd like. I've read a couple of Kurt Vonnegut's books, I thought that they were so so good. Chuck Pahalnuik is also excellent. I like reading a lot of biographies and factual stories too. I will read pretty much anything. I don't really like reading poetry but maybe I just haven't found any that was good enough yet. What do you like to read?
from k-rex :
Well he was a jerk who was a dropout himself. I guess he figured it was good for some people? And maybe it is but teachers shouldn't tell their students to quit school.
from love-fatal :
*grins* god knows MY teacher has had an impact on me.
from k-rex :
In grade nine my math teacher told my class that half of us should drop out because we don't have a future. Cute, right? Our names rhyme! It is nice to meet your diary as well.
from hatexbreathe :
Of course your opinions matter! Where would we be without them? They may feel insignificant but if you keep voicing them someone somewhere will hear them and understand or change because of them. I know, because one time someones small words in the form of a zine stopped me from ending my life. Just keep writing and thinking of new things! <3
from soul14 :
darling, i know exactly what you mean. but don't we all hide behind our own facade? words hurt but i'm sure you're perfect in your own way <3333333
from tofalldivine :
My words may do so little to soothe your fears but your opinion-you- matter to me. Don't let the demons drag you down even if they seem like angels.
from love-fatal :
your opinions, & everything else about you, will always matter to me. ♥
from twinklies1 :
not to be cliche, but as weak as your voice may be, that is what makes it unique and that is what makes it beautiful. <3456789
from twinklies1 :
i love the spill canvas. making music isn't only an art, it's just you being you. you should pick up an instrument..it's invigorating to create.
from hatexbreathe :
No prob, your diary is beautiful...love the new layout ^_^
from find-katie :
I love the picture on your layout!
from love-fatal :
what kind of story would you like to hear?
from amerla :
alright, sounds good. :)
from tofalldivine :
am i allowed to have a password? *sigh*You can lock everyone out of here but you shouldn't lock us out in the real world. Sometimes you do it anyhow
from amerla :
hey yo, can i have some of that password?
from deathpilot :
can i have your password?
from love-fatal :
i could never leave you, story girl. ♥
from soul14 :
i love the new layout darling. i'm glad to hear that you had a great time during the holidays <3333333
from tofalldivine :
"are self-change and self-improvement the same things? do i lose weight or stay the same on principal that it's part of who i am and then there's the question of is it really?" Change is not the same as improvement. To improve yourself is to fix something you are unhappy with. A change is just a change. Positive or negative. And that isn't part of what you are. Saying your physical appearance is part of who you are when you can change it without mass amounts of surgery is just resignation. Who you are is not dependent on how you look. You choose who you are, that's just a factor of how you choose. And nobody thinks there is anything amazing about them but there is. There really is and it won't matter that I say it unless you believe it. i don't think there's anything amazing about me. And maybe he didn't get you letter so maybe you have to explain it very simply to him. Or maybe it's best left unsaid but it is your decision.Museums are wonderful places. I love art.And someone will love you. You just have to wait because it doesn't really matter unless you love them, does it? "Unrequited love is a bitch." Christmas is coming and we are still going to hang out. Everything will be okay whether it just turns out that way or you make it that way.
from tofalldivine :
Maybe it's for the best. And endings aren't real. It's just a beginning of a new tale. Another branch, another seedling. It's almost Christmas and everything is going to work out fine. Maybe I don't know anything but I know that.
from yeh-whatever :
It was a fucking blast. Everyone should go to jail. .... I mean, nah, it sucked balls. It seemed like it'd never end. But then it did, and here I am.
from yeh-whatever :
Missed You. WithLove - Chris
from tofalldivine :
Hehe. Omens! I'm glad you're enjoying yourself. You seem very...serene. Like this girl I saw on a bus bench today. She was sitting there, cross-legged, and utterly at peace. It was cool.
from soul14 :
have lots of fun! i'll miss you <3
from tofalldivine :
Hello darling! I hope your trip is being a blast and a half. Or better yet, three quarters. Anyhow. I selfishly want you to be here so we can hang out but I'm glad you're there. Have fun!
from darkthinger :
OH EM GEE you better have so much goddamned fun!!! I'll miss you dear! YOU BETTER HAVE LOVELY STORIES WHEN YOU RETURN!! *wink, wink* "hugs times the stars" <3<3<3<3
from deathpilot :
Hey babe, I hope you have lots and lots of fun at Jake's!
from find-katie :
hey there, I'm adding you to my buddylist, keep up the good writing!
from r-e-v-i-e-w :
your review is up!
from amerla :
hey! it was great to get a note from you. I haven't read your diary in so long for some reason... I'd say that I've changed, to answer that one. I'm just this big empty unhappy bubble thing now. What about you, what are you up to, etc? I'm 15 now, and you?
from love-fatal :
teacher guy. eek. if i dont jump him soon, i'm going to go more insane.
from tofalldivine :
This time last year I'd started a diary. This time last year things were strange. This time last year I met you. This time, this year, things couldn't be any better.This time, this year, everything is going my way. This time, this year, things'll go okay.
from love-fatal :
i'd never heard of tegan & sara until just now, but thats officially my song. i loooove you lady. ♥
from tofalldivine :
Hey. Maybe I'm vain to feel as if these comments are somehow directed at me but that's something I'm risking. I know I'm self absorbed and I know I'm not attentive but please...just...let me know without cryptic turns of phrase. Hell, CALL ME! I'll always have time for you even when you think I don't. If I don't have time then I'll find a way to make it but you need to tell me you need it. Demand it. I can't read your mind although I wish I could. It'd make things easier. I'm not apologizing though because sometimes I get sick of being sorry. Love and hugs, Beth
from fir-designs :
hi there` :) ive just started a fir-designs webbie. to provide free layouts for diaryland users. n ive picked random users to go visit it! i wud love to haf u visit it wen you're free :) http://fir-designs.diaryland.com--dats it! thanks so so much. n much love <33
from love-fatal :
i came very close to peeing myself the first time i read it.
from lessthanhalf :
Hey, added you to my MSN, don't be fooled by the creepy email addy, it's an obscure nick-name I was given back in the day......
from lessthanhalf :
Happy B-day mystery girl, some things you write make you seem way too old for 16, keep up the good work. Take care of Calgary for me ok?
from stiggy69 :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALI!! I heart you tons and tons and tons! Have an awesomest of awesome days. You deserve it! <3 <3 <3 *hug*
from love-fatal :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STORY GIRL! love you alwaysss ♥ ♥
from tofalldivine :
Ali, my darling, my doll. I'm sorry can never ever be enough. I'm sorry I'm not there and that I don't listen and that I'm so goddamned self involved. I'm sorry that I can't read minds and make your life perfect. I'm sorry he's an ass, along with everyone else. But don't forget that I love you and I would drop everything if you needed me. Don't hesitate to call me or land on my doorstep. Stop me in the halls, hell, if it's that bad just STOP ME. Never think that I don't care. Sometimes I'm just stupid.
from soul14 :
it seems like you're going through a pretty hard time now. i really hope that things get better for you cos you're too wonderful to get hurt <3
from deathpilot :
Hey, I'm glad to see you unlocked your diary. I filled out that 5 thingy thing, it's on my diary now. I've been reading all your entries, and I miss you too! I think we need to make it a point to have at least 2 good conversations a week. Either online, or phone. I don't care which, just I don't want us to grow farther and farther apart! that's scary to think -.-
from soul14 :
why have you locked? i hope you're alright <3
from deathpilot :
yeah, I'm worried too, you said there was no password, but yet it's locked and needs a password to be read:S
from needingalex :
i'm worried because you locked your diary. are you okay? and can i have the password?
from love-fatal :
i'm sorry to hear that. ♥
from love-fatal :
whats the passworddddd
from deathpilot :
is your diary locked? can i have the password?
from soul14 :
<33333333 love is scary but its oh-so-amazing too
from love-fatal :
thats horrible. why dont you have aim?
from love-fatal :
i'll always love you, storygirl. even when i'm president. ♥
from deathpilot :
chill ali...hahaha i'm just kidding! I'm gonna give you a ring tomorrow night (sunday) okay?
from thegenerator :
Bush himself was to declare victory and had only put it off as a courtesy to Kerry "to allow the opportunity to look at the situation in the cold hard light of day," said Republican Party chairman Marc Racicot
from lessthanhalf :
Yeah man, Any book will do, even Paulo C. As long as you don't trade it for one that's bigger. Heard it snowed, sorry about your luck :]
from dork-wad :
OH SWEET. I like that alot! What a random thing to say! Who ARE you?
from darkly-blue :
you write beautifully...mind if i add you? ♥
from deathpilot :
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Email coming your way during lunch hopefully! Love ya ash
from given-a-soul :
I'd elaborate but i'm in a bad mood at the moment and don't want to offend. suffice to say you were mentioned at the time.
from candy-sorrow :
guess what. come on. guess. okay. fine. dont guess. i'll just tell you. i love you. ♥
from candy-sorrow :
teacher guy is 29. took me this long to find out. haha. i'm cool. love you like crazy. ♥
from lessthanhalf :
So your in Calgary then, radcore keep a leaf in a book for me [preferably Will, or Vonnegut]. If you were wondering, the rainy season in Indonesia's not half bad either.
from deathpilot :
Your good at being beautiful babe, beauty in all different kind of ways. So there. I miss you, I'm grounded, and your letter is about to be sent off. miss you
from tofalldivine :
You are good at everything. I always tell you your poetry is flawless(in all of it's flaws) and that you are one of the strongest people I know. Fuck it. Rip my heart to shreds. I read it so tear me the fuck apart. Don't say you don't need to. I want you to. Everyone's scared of saying something that'll hurt. Hurt me. You know I'm a fucking masochist. Yeah. It stops here.
from candy-sorrow :
back i am. ♥
from lessthanhalf :
Hey lady, never did thank you for that hug, thanks.
from deathpilot :
hey babe, my diary is locked...username: anyone, password: nirvana
from yeh-whatever :
thanks love.
from yeh-whatever :
um, the way i saw the quote i used was that whenever she's around, i fall to pieces - just knowing she's in the same room, the same building, .....just knowing she's around. it kills me... cause i'll do anything for her, and she knows it.
from tofalldivine :
I find it terribly hard to forge bridges across these boundless gaps, in personality and relationships. Everything is disappearing from underneath us but everyone is looking up and we won't notice until the acid green earth swallows us whole. It's all terribly exciting in a frightening sort of way.
from stiggy69 :
Secretly I love you. But don't tell anyone! It's a secret! Just for you =)
from willowthrush :
I love you, m'dear.
from deathpilot :
You are sparkly, m'dear. Don't ever forget your sparkly nature.
from corabobora :
Hey gorgeous, you're not online but I was bored so I thought I'd check out the links on your blog. Thing is, I found even more stuff we have in common *gasp*: Almost Famous, White Oleader, The Virgin Suicides, Girl Interupted, ELLEN WITTLINGER. <<I was obsessed with Hard Love for a while, I got it on book tape too. It changed my life and I feel like I was meant to read it, it related so much to what was going on at the time. It gave me a sign I needed. Take care gurlie, ttyl.
from tofalldivine :
you're unlocked for edensrose,kiddo. It's not worth the read but it's written. Cloud
from yeh-whatever :
beautiful words. They spoke to me. And I listened. much love.
from tofalldivine :
Darling is one of the rare terms of endearment I adore. Continue with it,please. And I'm not being silly. My random bits of fiction are randomly awful. I'm rather disgusted with them actually. Oh well, what can be done.
from yeh-whatever :
I wish someone would make that promise to me...
from needingalex :
hi you! first off, thanks for joining my ring and second of all, i'm sorry we haven't kept in touch. i liked your newest entry and i love your template. i have to go find out who designed it! but don't worry, i won't steal it! talk to you later!
from tofalldivine :
If I don't lock it now I can never unlock it later. It needs to be mine for the moment and the world's the moment after that. But these moments are mine for now,ya dig?
from candy-sorrow :
*huggles* i know i cant change the way you feel about yourself, but to me, you're such a beautiful person.& i believe that you'll be happy one day & you'll have people who appreciate you & know how wonderful you are. & for whatever its worth, i know how you feel. this week has been terrible for me. usually i'm only sad & stuff when i'm at home, because i have fleeting emotions, so when i'm with my friends i usually feel pretty happy. but by thursday even at school i'd get thinking about matt & be miserable. i miss him really bad cause he graduated last year & he has a girlfriend that he loves now. so, i hope you feel better. & i hope you sleep, & have wild hot crazy wet dreams..er, i mean, good dreams.. hehe. lets run away together. ♥ ♥
from candy-sorrow :
why are you so sad? tell me what its all about.
from ticky21 :
you're moving? where to? NO. you cannot leave. Please say it is still in Calgary.
from candy-sorrow :
i'm very glad to hear it. ♥
from candy-sorrow :
you make me smile, story girl.
from blueraineyes :
hi :) i saw you added me! thank you! and who are you? have we met before?
from crazed4you :
hay doll. you can talk to me. it feels like you took those words from my heart, tonight. last night, i went through the same thing, time and time again. and i too, feel like i should be crying, but my tears are frozen inside me. really, you can talk to me. please do. i might actually be the one who needs to talk with you. i love you. and i haven't heard the story before. feel free to IM me, if you want to. maybe then the rocks will hold, if only for a little while longer. the name is playnwitpride23@aol.com. my heart goes out to you tonight.
from tofalldivine :
Then share the weight. Sometimes the same old,same old lays the way for something new. A story can be just as good the hundredth time around as it was the first.
from endtheworld :
I do pay attention to her. She never wants to talk to me. It is always the same thing Im ok. I know things are rough for her. I know a lot about her. But how can I be there and help when she pushes me away? You tell me that.
from endtheworld :
SORRY I MENT NOT TO AN ONLINE BUDDY. BYE ;)
from endtheworld :
OK SO I AM TRIED OF MESSING WITH YOU. THE ONLY REASON I DID WAS BECAUSE OF deathpilot. SHE NEEDS TO PAY MORE ATTENTION TO HER ACTUAL FRIENDS AND NO TO AN ONLINE BUDDY.
from endtheworld :
YOU SAY YOU DON'T KNOW ME BUT I KNOW YOU. IF WHAT I SAID BEFORE WAS NOT TRUE THEN YOU AND YOURS WOULD NOT GET SO UP TIGHT.
from crazed4you :
good to know.. and thank you, very the response. and it did make sense to me even if it didnt feel like it. so thanks again, doll. and have an amazing day.
from deathpilot :
hey, I'm in business again...still fuming over that stupid ass note that you got. Endoftheworld is something short of a prick, I tell ya. Love you babe @shley
from crazed4you :
[this almost scares me because how can one person change so much? but it was about time, i guess. i used to need people, i used to feel lost without them. my friends, everyone. i used to need to be loved, it was this desperation that consumed me. but now...i don't know. i don't need love the way i did. i'm okay with myself enough that i don't need someone else telling me that they love me. i love that i have someone telling me that, but it isn't this desperate need] this is you, on a very older entry.. i read soo many of yours tonight, at random.. and im left feeling even more curious than before.. but many of your feelings and thoughts that you have expressed amaze me.. and why, why did the above portion of one of your entries hit me like a cold water in the midst of a great dream?? because i think lately i have began to feel that feeling, and i was wondering, did it lead you to a better place than the desperation had?? i know i hardly know you, but i love you times the stars, already. on this clear summer sky.
from autumnsxrain :
my butt still hurts. & you arent a bitch, says the sage. i love you lady. ♥
from endtheworld :
YOU ARE A BITCH!!!!!!!!!
from autumnsxrain :
you are better than them all.
from deathpilot :
I heard a song by Rilo Kiley and I remember she was listed as one of your favorites on here! Good Job, she has a great voice. I miss you! Only one more day! xoxo
from deathpilot :
hey babe, I'm in business again...thinking about how much I MISS YOU! Feign being sick and come home already! xoxo ashley
from tofalldivine :
I have been up for five hours now. The man at the gym reminded me of leprachaun and i don't know why. He looked slightly irish and had this sweet lopsided grin. I wanted to snuggle him. As a side note, I keep falling in love with fictional characters this can mean one of two things: -there is something wrong with me -there is something wrong with everyone else I choose to think it's the second but I know it is actually the first. I read the Outsiders(again!) It's like the 10th time. I am addicted to the darling,daring Ponyboy and his beautiful,gas pumping,dropout,emotional brother Sodapop. I can't tear myself away from the would-have-been-successfull Darry or Dally, the criminal who's death reduces me to tears. Can't shake the sadness of Johnny and his puppydog looks or the wisecracks or twobit. Bothered by Steve who's quick and cruel. Sorry,I ramble. Come back soon. "How's the sunset on the Westside?"
from tofalldivine :
My summer is going...well. Will you send me a hooker? hahaha. sorry. Anyhow, I haven't been out in the sun in days...maybe weeks and that pleases me greatly. It is evil and warm, cursed brightness. Dealing with people is far too difficult so I avoid them like I avoid the sun in my slight vampiric similarity. Come back soon. I'm becoming intolerable. *snugs*
from tofalldivine :
*grumble* I miss you,you silly wench. It sucks here but at least it's been raining. Your trip better be going well! I was lying before..it doesn't suck her I am just antisocial. When you come back we will hang out and after the 30th we will watch tarantino movies and I will be on a liquid diet. Aren't you excited?Yeah,that's right,you'd better be.
from vaselinemind :
hi, i've been reading yr diary for a couple months now, and i even put you on my favorites, but i've been too shy to leave a note. anyway, yr writing is amazing, totally amazing. you are so talented. i don't know what else to say. i hope you have a good time on yr trip. :)
from deathpilot :
Your gonnnnnnnneeeeeeee! nooooooooooooo! xoxo
from crazed4you :
hello, i wanted to say have a safe trip. i am felicia and i just stumbled onto your diary, and i, like you, write mainly when im feeling sudden surges of deep emotion, and usually those arent the good ones, because they dont bring out writing in me.. they leave me content.. soo i havent read much of it, but please dont kill it before i have the chance... thanks, and soon i hope i can love you, if you dont mind
from deathpilot :
Hey babe, you haven't left yet, but the whole idea of you being gone for an entire week is frightening! I will write you Monday about how my first day of a brand new school went:S I can't wait till you get back...even though your not gone yet, LOL! xoxo love always ash
from walkingxby :
i'll missss youuuuu lady. ♥
from yeh-whatever :
have a safe journey, and all that good stuff.
from tofalldivine :
Can we trap ourselves in our censorship prisons forever? If I let loose my fear of hurting others nad in turn being hurt will you as well. I'd like to see what happens when fear stops guiding our hands short of a page.
from yeh-whatever :
i, for one, like your diary. so don't kill it.
from deathpilot :
hey babes, you know I love you, lol, so I'm making up some more room in your note thingy! Yay! Yay for the Beatles, and strange noises that keep me awake at night. xoxo
from tofalldivine :
Oh darling, we'll hide behind our glass towers and hope they don't come crashing down on us. Then maybe our cloaks of sweet nothings can keep us safe from the shards of the lives we ignored. This is too complicated to be real. At least we have each other to talk to while the whole world goes mad
from tofalldivine :
You never fail to shock or amaze,my dear. Unfortunately, I cannot read your mind any more than I can force you to tell me what it is you keep so well hidden. All I can hope is someday I cna be privy to the information you keep so sacred about yourself. Despite popular beliefs the people who care aren't quite so easy to get rid of. Love and hugs, Beth
from binder-paper :
don't leave. i like you
from tofalldivine :
*squeals*BEST NIGHT EVER!!!!I loved it. We will hang out this summer and go to concerts and lay in fields and look at stars. It will be fun.I command it so it shall be. *snuggles* Beth
from angelic-wolf :
Ohhh.. this whole diary thing is nifty. ANYWAYS, teh J misses you.. alot. Come back into existance for me! (This is -of course- J)
from tofalldivine :
What do you mean you didn't know I could write "like that?" My diary isn't normally my writing so no one sees it much anymore. Thanks though. They are just scribbles from spare I'm not pleased with them but I thought I'd try out the public lol.
from tofalldivine :
Rereading my notes because I'm an odd duck. Thank you. You tolerate me and god I hope I'm worth the bloody time. Thank you for being here and letting me trust you. I worry about you. Just...don't leave us too soon eh? Love and snugs, Beth
from tofalldivine :
We all have weaknesses but we have to learn to overcome. And I say it and it sounds meaningless but each time I say it I mean it more. I'm here. You may not want me to be but I am. There may be nothing worth fighting for but sometimes you just have to fight to make it worth it. Love and snugs, xoxoBethxoxo
from burnt--out :
i don't being vulnerable either. i hate it.
from tofalldivine :
The pain can be overwhelming. Too bad wew all become consumed at some point. THis is the breaking point. Welcome.
from tofalldivine :
And I wish you could see yourself for the beautiful person that you are. We are behind and ahead of our time in so many ways so maybe that just makes us better. Once you said you and I were a rare breed but I'm common and you are so very very rare. If only more people would care for others like you. You amaze me.
from behndivryeys :
Have you ever read "Please Don't Kill The Freshmen" ? The book itself reminds me a lot of me but it reminds me more of words that could be taken straight from your mouth sometimes. This passage particularly reminds me of your entry. <i>I like sour things. Sour gummi bears. Warheads. Lemons. Things like that. The idea that I am sour is not an insult. Perhaps a compliment. Would I really be unhappy to be put inside someones mouth, swished around, feel the puckering of someones cheeks? Would it be so terrible to give someone pain to give them pleasure? I am a masochistic candy cane, lick'em'lolly, and gummi girl all in one. The pain you seek is me. Just me." 'Tis an amazing book.
from burnt--out :
x<3x
from tarynheart :
burn me alive so i'll never have to feel this pain again, one last tribute to the searing acid taking hostage of my heart. dig out my eyes with silver spoons so i'll never again see the destruction this world belongs to and the comfort in your eyes when he holds you. i never want to breathe again.
from tofalldivine :
Oh dear, I am again without a password. How shall I get by without your updates?Please,please,please provide me with your password.*whimper,sob, puppy dog eyes.
from burnt--out :
i need a pw pwease. *pouts*
from burnt--out :
yes, i shall start writing once i find an apropriate layout. this is hard.
from amerla :
such a beautiful template...
from tofalldivine :
I'm missing you over springbreak, not that I ever see much of you anyway. We need to hang out sometime. Words behind which we are unknown can be so deceiving. Maybe honesty will better suit sometime although it's hard to tell apart the truth from lies now.
from anotherstar :
I absolutely love the diary <3 I'm adding you if you don't mind... -Rachael
from andwebreathe :
thanks for adding me ♥
from amerla :
relationships are a fickle thing. Guitar is a very cool thing, and one of the things most worthy of learning EVER. I spend a lot of my life on it. Playing it constantly is the only way I can be alone and not feel overly missing something. Guitar is a very consuming thing, occasionally taking 2 hour chunks out of my days, and keeping me from sleep. I love it. I'm going to go to sleep-ish now, and so end my contributions for the night to our note party-thing. Notes are fun things.
from amerla :
a whole country away? that's shitty. Very shitty. I wouldn't be able to stand it. Elaina'll be in Norway next year though... oh, I am so lucky to have her. thank's for calling the whole thing endearing. i like that word.
from amerla :
Lethbridge. I am from le Lethbridge. I love Calgary. It has Recordland and A New Dimension Comics, or something like that. And the Harley Davidson Diner. Also, my girlfriend lives there. Alright, that was a nice little rant. Sorry. Oh, and emo is a wonderful thing.
from amerla :
hey, i'm from youngpoets. you're diary is a pretty well written thing. it's... i don't know, emo. Sure, emo. But pretty, but nice. Sounds a very small bit like my life. um, yea.
from loveletter44 :
Um, Thedilly.com...its like you have pictures of yourself up and information about yourself. And people can sign your guestbook and rate you and such. Its fun. You should go there sometime.
from yeh-whatever :
now you can picture my face when you read my diary. and i can see you....
from loveletter44 :
Ooooh. Whoops. Okay, never again will I use the word "nice" when referring to you. lol I know what you mean though, nice is a stupid word. *shoots self* hah. So you wouldnt happen to have a page on TheDilly.com would you? Im just wondering...
from track1side2 :
your site is cool. made me feel like mine sucks. given, my site does suck. cool poems. i write semi-like you.
from loveletter44 :
Haha. Well as you can probably imagine I feel like quite the jack ass now. It's probably not a good idea to assume the gender of someone...lol. Oh well. Thank you very much. I enjoyed your diary also. You seem very nice. :D
from tofalldivine :
you are beautiful;although, maybe that means nothing coming from me. You should never let anyone make you belive differently.
from yeh-whatever :
i'll be your somebody.
from aliblogs :
<3 dashboard confessional <3
from dead-wings :
hey lol sorry bout that :) i found you because you were using a layout from my design site (FSD) and when i checked the counter stats, it showed your site and i read the first entry and got hooked.. hehe ttyl! :)
from erinnolan :
not offended at all, just curious. :)
from erinnolan :
dear you, i am so confused because i just don't know who you are! have we met? love, erin.
from stardew27 :
I had never known anyone else who knew who Francesca Lia Block... OH MY GOD were the only words that cam out of my mouth... lol... I love her writing, moslty Echo... lol... I am a total stranger to you, lol.. my name is Natalia, and I'm friends with Jake(Jakob). my Livejournal is littlenat. Hope to talk to you soon.
from kelly :
i dunno if i'd be into the sciencey-bits...also, i've found that i like the old skool mccafferey more then the new stuff. have you read Nimisha's ship? it was really lacking in comparison to her other novels.
from kelly :
i haven't read acorna..yet? i don't know...they seem to not appeal to me. have you read them?
from euphoriac :
Well, that's slightly ominous, but I'm too lazy and not paranoid enough to persue the issue any further.
from euphoriac :
Whaddya mean POOR ME? Scarlett is...pretty......neat........FINE IT SUCKS. I met Ms. Nolan through Tess Edmunson. By the way, WHO ARE YOU?!
from pentup-angr :
you locked your diary up again. :(
from tofalldivine :
Maybe this is really rude but I adore reading your diary. Would you, maybe be willing to give me the password and what not so I could continue to. If not that's fine, of course but...yeah, thanks.
from aliblogs :
was wondering if i could have the password to your diary :)
from benoely :
Thanks for adding me as one of your favorites! I appreciate it! ^__^
from xnevereverx :
if i ever lock my diary for good, you'll be the first one to get the password. promise. <3
from emotionwhore :
i go through phases where i cant write at all, too. i just dont show up here to post. ;P ;;muchlove
from b0b0 :
Thank you much for takeing my survey!
from circled :
<3 you, Ali. =) And I still love reading your diary, as usual.
from xnevereverx :
aww.. thanks. <3
from xnevereverx :
wow. you make me feel so loved. like someone actually cares or something.sorry, i was just playing with my template. it's unlocked now, but the template's still the same ((for now))<333
from tofalldivine :
In reply to what you said, normally in exhaustion. I agree, we should talk more. I'll do what I can to help you out if you ever need it. Thanks.
from aliblogs :
hi! thanks for adding me to your buddylist. i am adding you to mine also :) my diary is passworded and i'd be more than happy to e-mail you the password if you want it. or you can e-mail me at chocolategirlie8@hotmail.com. yes, we do sound like twins! except i'm two years older =D
from kelly :
i sense a blue scarf in your future!
from kelly :
love the new layout!
from enchancea :
I feel the same way. Very well said
from tofalldivine :
In "She calls silent reminders to us all," are you quoting a book. It sounds so familiar, I've read it or something similar in a book on paganism and I can't place it.Maybe it isn't but it sounds so damn familiar.
from tofalldivine :
I haven't listened to taking back sunday before. My friend sent me that song so it's all I've heard. It is awesome though.
from tofalldivine :
I'd love to read it if you'd be willing to lend it to me. You don't frighten me but you seem to be someone I can relate to. I'm not sure how to react to that because I don't relate to many people. Thanks.
from tofalldivine :
You astound and frighten me and I don't know what to think of that. So far, I seem to be able to relate to you and that, in itself is odd. Thanks for the book rec. I'll have to read it now because otherwise I'll suffer from discontent.
from enchancea :
I found you through one of my rings. I believed you joined my moon lover ring that or the faery ring
from sanguineself :
And Thank you.
from sanguineself :
I don't quite know who you are. But ok! I'm there...
from kelly :
not only is wyatt a crazy person that i know, he's also my cousin:) makes having a sock war a bit more..dangerous.
from teen-review :
Your review is up at Teen Review. Enjoy!
from silentletter :
thanks for adding me as a favorite, sweetheart. <3
from given-a-soul :
Do whatever you have to do and if i'm not there to see the cuts and the lines traced by razor blades it won't hurt me, i'll pretend you aren't. And remember what i've been trying to tell you, do something for yourself do something witout worrying how it affects other people. If you want to cut and you think it will make anthing better than by all means go ahead. (i never made you promise to stop if you'll remember)
from xnevereverx :
i wouldnt worry too much. as much as i really want to lock it, i just dont think i could. and thanks for caring <3
from beneathnight :
reason being because you love me.
from beneathnight :
im taryn. where did you appear from?
from kelly :
a birthday twin! rock on:)
from studsnpatchs :
post or send said poetry.
from erinnolan :
aye.
from xnevereverx :
im so sorry, i forgot to unlock it when i had template problems. it's unlocked now <3
from deathletter :
trouble is the username and breathing is the password. love, xo -deathletter
from beneathnight :
taryn. taryn.
from yeh-whatever :
when you feel nothing is going right in your life, smoke a bowl, you'll feel much better.
from euphoriac :
Good evening taryn, you will be pleased to know that I, Matt, have UNLOCKED my diary. However, I have resolved to be less emo. This may be a deterrent. I just saw the note you left. don't know how long ago you left it. hmmm.
from circled :
<3 you, Ali. Everything will work out, you'll see...=)
from circled :
Eeek, eeek! I was in Florida for about a week there...actually, I've been away for about two weeks. o.O;; Meep! I want to send you a postcard, too, and I will, eventually...*laughs* I just forgot to bring your address with me when I was down in Florida. u.u;;; I am SUCH a loser. But I understand, and I'd still love to read your journal, if you'd like to share! =)
from circled :
*just about dies* The...the...password! *waves arms around* I don't know what else to say! Aaaaah! *cries*
from yeh-whatever :
hi.
from mindless :
i felt the same way when my person left. and no one took me away and it made me hard and more cold. so i'm more than willing, because i'm non-social too. maybe we both need a break to be other than what everyone thinks we are. you can contact me outside the note function. if you so want.
from mindless :
i don't live in that city anymore, but i live really close. i go there a lot. being unreal is exhausting isn't it? the next time i go shopping i'll come kidnap you so you can be real for a while.
from mindless :
the world is hellish, except when you find somewhere comfortable to sit and just be whatever you want to be. like for instance my basement, with a smokeable, and music. you can escape to anywhere you want if you just ask. do you like cats? i have one and i'll seriously kidnap you. just say the word! *grin*
from mindless :
<3. seriously, kidnapping you. that ok?
from mindless :
i always believed pain is the most beautiful thing we all have. mine lives in my chest. either you love me for it or you hate me for it. just like everyone else. i love people more strongly that hurt, than people who feel nothing but blissful joy. ever notice how after anguish, something happy is twice as sweet? <3
from mindless :
i think i like you. i think my mind wants to kidnap you.
from mindless :
didn't curiosity kill the cat? or did it just get it's fur taken off. i was never too clear on that. sometimes my head is the most beautiful place anyone can be, then other times it's just shadows and doubt. kind of like those old movies, where everything looks beautiful and just when it starts to be perfect, something mean and scary comes out. then again, it depends on what you want to know.
from mindless :
living in my head is like a disease. no one wants to be in here, not even me.
from needingalex :
i really liked your poem "colors of a broken heart" and i wanted to say thank you for writing it. -alicia
from circled :
I think you've figured it out, but my new username is circled. =) Eeek, I wish I had never stopped writing! Because now all of my writing seems like crap again. *laughs* But yours is always so wonderful! ^.^
from irishdream :
Everyone forgets their own worth at times, and all I know is it's up to you to find yours again... and I know it's there
from xylandaria :
keep healing at your own pace and being happy at your own pace, what you're doing for yourself is wonderful. don't let others' expectations run your life, you are the sole keeper of your happiness and your sadness. it's hard to show happiness when all others do is point out your sadness. everyone is beautiful in their own right, whether others see it or not. the fact that you are able to acknowledge your own beauty is something that many others are lacking. you shouldn't worry about them...they should envy you...
from irishdream :
Just wanted to say that I really like your writing. There's a lot of depth to it, and so much truth.
from emotionwhore :
<-- probably borderline. i fit all the criteria.
from pentup-angr :
yah, i think i'm a mix... between psychotic, bi-polar, and borderline personality.
from needingalex :
i've been reading, and i've loved every minute.
from xsummerlandx :
You're not boring! You're beautiful and interesting; I love talking to you. =) And I'm so excited to be writing you!
from xsummerlandx :
Very nice AFI quotes on your layout...and...*hugs* my parents are both really thinking about letting me write to you! =D Which will be so awesome...too bad we don't live nearer to eachother; we could almost celebrate our birthdays together! =)
from pentup-angr :
you dont need to move to l.a. to be a beautiful goddess, you're already beautiful.
from pentup-angr :
that's ok for being late. i didn't tell anybody. yay. i like hugs.
from steel-glass :
le sigh. it's cutmelovely
from xsummerlandx :
I suppose at some points in your life, you need to decide whether you'll give up the pain that's become the one thing you love - and hate - to save others. It's hard, I know. It took me almost a year to tell my mother that I cut, and my father still doesn't know. I had to tell her because I was forced to, otherwise I could never expose everything to her that I'd always wanted to say. Of course, all situations are better. I hope you can make the right choice. I <3 you, no matter what you decide; don't forget.
from given-a-soul :
Don't fall little girl don't fall back down to the darkness, even when they push you. Let us be your light your strength. Hold my hand, don't let go and save yourself. I'll give you my strength my ears my heart...save them and save yourself. Don't slip away And i'm sorry i didn't call you like i said i would
from xsummerlandx :
*hugs*
from xsummerlandx :
Goddess, Ali, please don't...I need you! It's a miracle you found me because you're the only one that's kept me here, otherwise I would've ended it long ago. We can help eachother, or we can try. Please don't leave me. <3
from pentup-angr :
twisted up on the insides and crazed in the mind. what is wrong with us?
from envyyou :
Oh, sorry, forgot the link. It's here: (http://jenifer-007.diaryland.com/tarynheart.html)
from envyyou :
Yes, I was the one who made the template (somber is my design site) and I tested out my theory, and I have made a coding just for your diary. All of the links are already there, you just have to paste them into the sections. I think I have figured out the problem, so there you go :)
from envyyou :
If you want to know how to link your older sections, go into the place to change your archives and paste in: Other Archives:<a href="http://tarynheart.diaryland.com/older1.html"> 1 </a> <a href="http://tarynheart.diaryland.com/older2.html"> 2 </a> <a href="http://tarynheart.diaryland.com/older3.html"> 3 </a>
from ambs69 :
hey. Ani Difranco is awesome and I realy like your entry "Fuck Off'. Very interesting.
from screemingink :
hey sweety, this is Miss Takes. Yes I have retired, but so have the rest of us, temporarilly, I would love to do your review. When our site is undergo once more. You keep writing, and I will most definately get back to you! xo, Miss Takes
from allie23869 :
Hey! Thanks for joinin the Tyson Ritter diaryring! =)
from prettykay :
hey, just thought i'd leave you know that i added you to my favorites.
from inchase :
"Tears are the most sincere form of emotional beauty found anywhere." This is quite a statement... what about running, laughing, and jumping? Or, perhaps all three at the same time? ...I like to sing all by myself, this is perhaps my most sincere form of emotional beauty.
from inchase :
I enjoyed your diary very much. remember "it is not the passionate writting that i am interested in, it is that passionate life." -some writer whose name i don't know
from diaryreviews :
Your review is up at Diary Reviews!
from xsummerlandx :
I really hope I didn't offend you when I said what I did in my LJ. I know that you can't always be happy, but when you're happy, it's the most wonderful feeling because you're my inspiration and I can be happy too. =) I hope you get everything sorted out, because there seems to be problems but I'm not sure what they are. =/
from xsummerlandx :
Aww, thank you for quoting me, sweetheart! =D All of those songs sound really good...I'll download them, definitely. And that one song is "Jet Black New Year" by Thursday. <33
from xsummerlandx :
I like Evanescence as well, though I don't think that the singles they chose represented the rest of their music very well...I still really love "Haunted," "Tourniquet," and "My Immortal" as well as some others...I don't remember any more since I don't have the c.d. ^^; And you'll be just a good a lyricist as her - no doubt better! =)
from xsummerlandx :
Whatever is happening with your friends, I wish you the best in working it out...it seems that when your friend is mad at you, the entire world hates you. But hopefully you'll be friends again...<3
from erinnolan :
dear taryn, that is more than allright. that's wonderful! thank you so much. love, erin.
from erinnolan :
hi! who is this, sorry for asking, just noticed you saved my diary. erin
from xsummerlandx :
Thank you so much! =) Your poetry is excellent!! =D
from pentup-angr :
thanks doll. you write pretty poetry.
from xsummerlandx :
I really hope I can continue reading your diary...I noticed that it was locked the other day. =)
from pentup-angr :
i can handle loving her in secret. it's better than not having her in my life at all. love you buttercups!
from needingalex :
Oh Ali...i'm sorry you feel that way but i'm sure no one else does. i'm not exactly sure what else to say (it's early) except that um...hang in there! :-D
from needingalex :
Your latest entry was amazing. It is great to have someone love you. Sometimes you just have a to wait a damn long time to find it though. Good luck and hope to talk to you soon, ALICIA
from xsummerlandx :
You really do amaze me how much you sounded like me in your most recent post...you described the perfect guy and the perfect girl, and it's interesting how neither of us have even half of who we want. And you're Wiccan, as well, like me...honestly...I'm so glad you found me. <3
from missused :
Your review is up at Diary Reviews! Go to: http://diaryreviews.diaryland.com/tarynheart.html to see it.
from xsummerlandx :
It's amazing that you're getting away for awhile because just last night, I was going to run away...not that it would solve anything, but maybe it would, after all?
from lackoftrust :
I haven't gotten around to reading much of your diary, YET. I definitely plan to. I see you also have needingalex on your favorite diaries...is that how you found me? I just always find it interesting how people find me on dland. *blushes for being a dork* Anyway, I'm off to read some of your diary RIGHT now, I just wanted to say thank you not only for leaving a note, but for the things you said in the note. That really touched me and made my day. Thank you, a ton. Hope to hear from you soon!
from xquisitepain :
you sound beautiful. your y/o/u/t/h draws me in.
from blueallover :
you definitely do NOT sound fourteen. i'm quite surprised, they grow them fast in canada i suppose. i'm david, eighteen, i live in california, i have the capacity to love anything and everything at any given time, and vice versa.
from xsummerlandx :
Thank you so much for leaving a note for me in my diary! =) I really do appreciate it, even if I don't deserve comments like that. You're a beautiful writer!! I really hope to read more of your diary. =)
from blueallover :
well, if you won't educate me on them nipples, educate me on yourself :)
from blueallover :
okay, how about now? :)
from blueallover :
so...what do your nipples look like?
from iwasntreal :
♥ thanks doll.
from needingalex :
you don't seem as happy. :-( Hang in there dollface. I shouldn't even be on the computer because i'm affected by the blackout...talk to you later! -ALICIA
from pentup-angr :
practically identical lives. my sister is my mom's favorite too and giving up is practically what i'm good at.
from needingalex :
I'm sorry about your mother, mine is the same way. And trust me, being in a mental hospital isn't that fun. Ever seen girl, interrupted? Try going a week without going to piss by yourself. ICK! Hugs and kisses and a smack on the ass, ALICIA
from sahoko :
O.o My name is Taryn... Should I be scared??? *bashes head against the wall* Maybe I should be scared of myself... Sorry.. this is irrelivant...
from needingalex :
I love your last few entries...I don't know what else to say! -Alicia
from xnevereverx :
thanks for listing me as a favorite, when i get time, i'll have to check out your diary <3
from needingalex :
Wow. Your latest entry really hit me. I know how you feel. I know that's not much...I was just sitting here reading it and all I want to do is try to convey a real sense of understanding and sympathy. All I can say is that...I promise you, one day you'll wake up, and you'll have guys asking you out right and left. It might not happen today or tomorrow, but it WILL happen. Then you'll just be sitting around somewhere with your boyfriend, and you'll be so happy...and you'll just stop and remember how alone you used to feel. It's really amazing. But for now, I guess I'll just offer the friendship of a single gal who's back to wishing for the same damn thing. Life sucks, doesn't it? :-) -Alicia
from xquisitepain :
[no/one\ ever really sl.e.e.ps.] thank you.
from needingalex :
Thanks for reading, and I know exactly what you mean. When I started reading YOUR diary, especially the "100 things", I was saying how much you sounded like me when I wasn't so stable, to put it lightly. Having depression is such a difficult thing to go through, and it sounds like you know exactly how I feel. Being so low is very surprising, but what’s even more so is that life never gets so bad that it can’t get worse. I'm very, very sorry that you don't like yourself much or your appearance it sounds like, but I assure you that when you get older, or if you just get past a specific part of your life, you really start to accept yourself more. I'll keep in touch and keep writing! -Alicia P.S. Isn't "White Oleander" great?
from pentup-angr :
those are the same reasons i dont like myself
from given-a-soul :
You shouldn't regret anything about what you write. At its base its just expression of self right? i mean we don't keep a journal to make ourselves look cool or to tell a story, we keep a journal to vent and express ourselves. And u whine far less, over more important things, than most people do. Whining is part of human nature ;)
from pentup-angr :
i actually got to reading your whole diary & rock on

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