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from pondlife :
Thank you for the support. It wasn't an issue I intended to become involved in. The first post was poor judgement on my part, I shouldn't have handled it differently. But I was instantly outraged by the statement. Finding pics of my girlfriend on his Livejournal under his userpics was definitely a low, but the Polanski comment was the deal breaker. It's become clear in just one year of reading this person that there will never be a permanent end to, or even a short reprieve of the daily droning on of self loathe and whining. For Christ's sake everyone has tried to bolster this person, despite his insistence that they engage in ridiculous role play with him. It's the same thing, day in and day out. It's impossible to befriend someone who behaves this way. And then to misrepresent my email, reading it to someone else for the sole purpose of blogging later that this "friend" thought it was outrageously wrong-headed to feel the way I do about the rape of a child? Ridiculous. I'd forgotten you work with children. You understand how important it is that they're protected form people who think like this. I blame the media and Hollywood for creating a culture of acceptance of violence and exploitation of women and children. That may be an unpopular opinion, but I've already put myself out on a limb over this issue, so what's to lose?
from pondlife :
:) Here's to the summer!
from raven72d :
love the 23 Sept. 09 entry.
from raven72d :
those are very much things worth doing...
from raven72d :
so where do your own hopes lead? what are your fears and dreams?
from pondlife :
Selective mutism. Symantic pragmatic disorder. Coping mechanisms that include, but are not limited to, using sex to escape reality. Having a rough go of it these days, thank you for being kind.
from pondlife :
"Need" This is beautiful.
from pondlife :
Let me know if you want a password.
from pondlife :
This note is late, sorry. I didn't realise you were unlocked, nice to read your world late at night again. Hope you're well.
from raven72d :
hadn't heard from you in a while...or about your adventures.
from raven72d :
whatever became of you?
from raven72d :
crazed...nostalgic...
from raven72d :
and the spring is beginning for you...?
from raven72d :
you need more than one boy
from raven72d :
stay panty-free and write often.
from raven72d :
send me passwords and erotica stories...
from raven72d :
i so miss you.
from raven72d :
28 Oct. 08 entry--- very lovely.
from pondlife :
Humbert's weakness was maddening, and had the effect of lessening any respect I may have had for his character as a man. By the same token it illustrated his humanity. Not an excuse, understand. But Lola, how I loathed her! I miss reading your diary, hope all's well there.
from raven72d :
Manipulation of some poor Humbert by you? Hmmm.
from raven72d :
Thanks, beautiful. Much appreciated.
from raven72d :
I miss reading you! may I have a password?
from breathe-salt :
so um. i'm here to beg for your password. are you giving it out?
from coldandgray :
Glad you found someone. So sweet.
from coldandgray :
Thank you for the password. Your writing is beautiful as usual.
from coldandgray :
You are the sweetest. Might I have your password, please? colleenfalling @ gmail . com
from raven72d :
Please do send your password again... And listen to the Llama Song.
from raven72d :
write soon...
from raven72d :
And who *is* your llama?
from raven72d :
My year ends in a new flat, with (I hope) a new life... Tell me what you've been doing... On 31 December I'll drink champagne and dream of the Year Eight.
from raven72d :
How is the old year ending?
from chalkstain :
ditto.
from breathe-salt :
of course. i would've asked you earlier, but i do this thing where i leave diaryland for months at a time, and then pop back in again...regardless. i do love your diary.
from breathe-salt :
if you don't mind, i'd love the password to your diary.
from raven72d :
No driving into posts. Write and tell me how you are.
from pondlife :
Yay for do-overs! Fever spiked around 3pm yesterday so the worst over. I might be capable of polite conversation now. Again, I'm really sorry.
from pondlife :
I shouldn't speak or be spoken to when I feel sick. Already I've been banned from verbal contact with the domestic, who dissolved into tears and fled the house earlier. I'm a knob. Sorry. May I have a do-over then?
from pondlife :
Thanks very much then, I feel like the butt of everyone's joke. Is that how I really appear, as living in my own little cute world? It was just a scattered reflection on how perfect everything momentarily feels. Authenticity in a moment of weakness. Debauchery just insn't in me at the moment, though I'm fully aware it's infinitely more fun to read. Ignore me, I feel like rubbish.
from darthuae :
cheers :)
from darthuae :
i'm glad that my nonsensical ramblings made someone's day (they're useless otherwise.) btw, any chance of me getting a password to your diary?
from lost-facade :
Don't worry, I cry too.
from tarynheart :
It wasn't meant to be a personal attack, Beth. I honestly don't have the energy for animosity lately. I understand that you were trying to do a good thing and believe me, I appreciate it. Just know that.. I hadn't really meant for anyone to know about what happened. And it's frustrating that I'm being talked about over something that generally, no one should know. Ugh, I don't even have the right words for this. I'm sorry if what I said came off as abrasive. It wasn't intentional. I just don't want us to act like this changes things, that's all. And if you don't want me to be there on Saturday, I'll absent myself. I know I'm the pariah here and I won't get in the way of you guys having a good time. I guess I'm just sorry for everything, honestly, for hurting you and everybody else.
from tarynheart :
Dear Beth, We're getting too old for diaryland and for conversations bantered over the internet like so many tennis balls. I don't want to play this game anymore, I CAN'T play this game anymore. If you have something to say to me about recent events, or past events, direct them to me. Please don't go through third parties and especially not through Jen; this is all just as hard on her. You know how to reach me. But please don't pretend like you could have changed things, or like things would have been different if you'd known. Because if even I'd tried to tell you, you wouldn't have had time to listen. -Ali
from pondlife :
Rather lengthy response coming, if I put it here in notes do you mind removing it after you've read it?
from pondlife :
The gourmet shop was my ticket out of what would have been a very dull career in nutrition counseling, i.e. trying to talk teenaged girls into eating properly. I didn't start university with the intention of being a nutritionist but that's what I ended with. There was a small vacant shop with a courtyard adjacent in the market district of old Charleston that I'd noticed for a while and subsequently had extravagant daydreams about. We decided to call and have a look. Robert bought it as a surprise. Early the next year we opened the kaffehaus, a Viennese theme (my late wife was from Innsbruck, Austria) and I enrolled four months later at Johnson & Wales. You're right about fiction holding at least a little truth. Fiction, like a bit of gossip, usually contains at least a grain of truth. An artist paints what he has seen with his own eyes, and an author writes from memory.
from pondlife :
Well I've managed to fool everyone then, because there isn't much about my life that's terribly interesting. Surreal at times, I will concede that much, but that's entirely my own fault! As for the modern novel hero bit, I'm afraid I don't qualify there either. I'm just a parent to two young boys, I own a gourmet coffee/dessert shop, and I spend an inordinate amount of time and money trying to run away from my problems. Problems I have created for myself mind you. The thing about airing your laundry in a place like this is that you haven't anything to lose, nobody knows you so you can be completely honest. This is my passive aggressive way of thumbing my nose at my partner, or telling someone who isn't alive anymore that I still love and miss them. Pathetic really, but it's anonymous so who cares? What are you studying at university? First year? Toronto is mostly a blur. All work when we were there and not much else.
from raven72d :
Write soon. I miss hearing from you.
from pondlife :
After my mother died I moved to New York. At that time my father lived in NYC but has since moved to Massachusettes. Beside the point really, as I lived with a legal gaurdian (Robert) and not him. Anyway, we spent a great deal of time going back and forth between Toronto and NYC because of his work and I ended up signed with Ford Modeling out of Toronto. I always wanted to visit Quebec City. Maybe some day.
from pondlife :
Then your Signal Hill is the same as mine. I'm not Canadian, but I have a cousin who lives in St. John's and as a child I visited often. Don't know what made me think of it again recently. Haven't been in so long. Do you live in Canada?
from pondlife :
Btw I meant to ask a million years ago, but how do you know Signal Hill? There may be more than one. In which case I'd feel pretty stupid. Well, no more so than I normally do.
from imatwin :
Simplicity is a plus. :)
from imatwin :
I feel bad because it has been so long since I checked your diary that now I see it is locked :/ Could I please have the password? With a cherry on top? :)
from pondlife :
Glad. That's another in constant rotation.
from adelnye :
Can I have the password, pretty please?
from pondlife :
I really shouldn't presume anything at all, ever. Just be well.
from raven72d :
Scotch, not bourbon... And stay panty-free in ultra-low hiphuggers and use your intelligence and cleverness--- you'll be vur' much in charge at the bar.
from pondlife :
Well that isn't what I read. It's like watching someone else being me. All of this could just as easily have come from my fingertips. It sounds all too familiar. I'm frightened for you.
from pondlife :
All's well, or it will be eventually. But you're a sweetheart for caring. One Republic is constantly playing in my car and on my iPod these days, the whole cd, but especially this song. It just fits right now. Hmm, think I have a few entries of yours to catch up on, how've you been?
from raven72d :
Shots of vodka? And lovely girls should always wear button-fly jeans.
from raven72d :
Tokyo... Yes. Tokyo.
from lost-facade :
Is it okay if I can get a password?
from pondlife :
And thanks. It feels odd being here after so long.
from pondlife :
Relatively, yes. If you consider that when she's in, I'm out. On purpose.
from pondlife :
Don't expect too much, I'm afraid all the pretty words and imagery are leaving me. It's more important to me these days to just be a good father. Translation: I'm a bloody bore!
from pondlife :
You're right of course, it's easy enough for someone else to say chin up. I wouldn't presume anything about your situation, but if I could ever help I would try. And thanks to you I am minutes away from posting for the first time in what, over a year? Cheers!
from raven72d :
I wanted to stay in my grad school days forever... Read, stay up late, be thought to have promise...and to have no ties to a place or Past.
from pondlife :
It's scary isn't it, this honesty thing? But I'll wager there are many friends who care about you. Never begrudge your life. Drink deeply of every moment. Taste it all, the pleasures, pains, sorrows. You'll find that none of these, no matter how displeasing, will taste as bitter as regret. You're going to do just fine. Oh, and thanks very much for the pass.
from raven72d :
I have the paper credentials (and the years) to be a Serious Grown Up, but I'm still living like I was eighteen...actually, with less cash flow than I had then, and certainly in the same kinds of rooms.
from pondlife :
What if I said pretty-please with the condiment of your choice on top? Hope you're well.
from raven72d :
I've never been a Grown-Up, and have no idea how to be one. I'm actually scared of Grown-Ups.
from raven72d :
The Peter Pan entry was scary.
from raven72d :
May I have a password again...?
from raven72d :
I hope things are better.
from raven72d :
10 Sept. 07... What's the story behind the entry?
from raven72d :
Check your e-mail.
from raven72d :
Llamas are with us always, even unto the end of the earth. And-- glad you liked the line! How did you end up with just the single room?
from raven72d :
Just the single room?
from raven72d :
Anytime! I always love talking about books.
from raven72d :
Interesting shirt... Books...hmmm... Try Shusaku Endo, "Silence"... Geo. Shipway, "Free Lance" and "Imperial Governor"... Cecilia Holland, "Until the Sun Falls".
from raven72d :
What is the mysterious t-shirt like?
from darthuae :
hey, thanks for the note. i actually felt a tad better afterwards. life, what are you going to do with it? bob dylan once said that "you do what you must & you do it well."
from raven72d :
Tell me what sorts of books you like... What have your recent favourites been...?
from darthuae :
annihilation is the answer then! (or so dostoyevsky seems to suggest.)
from darthuae :
i do hope, sincerely, that the morning makes all of our problems & worries fade away. where else can we find that sort of redemption?
from raven72d :
I hope the changes all go well. And I hope you'll stay in touch...and leave lots of notes.
from raven72d :
I do hope your life is doing better...
from raven72d :
Thanks! And I find your entries vur' interesting, too... Do stay in touch and comment often.
from raven72d :
raven72d/capybara if you'd like to read along...
from raven72d :
I do like the entries... You're a fun discovery...
from stardumb :
words always fail. but bad 80's slang sometimes hits the spot :) thanks.
from adelnye :
Can I have access to your password? I promise not to stalk you. ;P
from darthuae :
at one point my friend actually had the nerve to send me this coelho quote; "everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own." & maybe, just maybe, it's too true for others' liking. i don't know.
from lost-facade :
I always fear that someone died when they don't write in their diaries with little/no explanation as to why. I think I just worry too much.
from breathe-salt :
oh lord, i had one of those "someone from my life is reading" moments a while back; they knew my real name and everything. i'm glad you're unlocking, and thank you for the comment on my entry. very kind of you. <3
from breathe-salt :
oh no, you're locked..may i have the password? i love your writing.
from imatwin :
Oh things are fine for me. Once I'm out of the house, I'm a lot happier. My mother just drives me insane. Her and her own insaneness.
from ottodixless :
Your little mermaid is great. Not quite as disturbing as a singing lobster, but more poetic.
from darthuae :
..sometimes that's the only thing you can say.
from sbellem :
Ever hear that song by Tom Waits called Chocolate Jesus? Download it now!!!
from darthuae :
i really think that even zombies are afraid of calculus. ah don't ya worry, someday (in the near future) our brains will start self-digesting. just you wait & see.
from imatwin :
I know, it's something everyone has to get through in their lives. I just wish people would open up their eyes sometimes.
from imatwin :
I see your getting the same bout of cold weather too. I love it, well everyone else hates it.
from darthuae :
calculus will eat your brains. slooowly.
from imatwin :
Yeah, I saw that onthe news. I can't believe it snowed there! Insane.
from sbellem :
So fkng true.
from bluepetal :
Hey your diary is very pretty. When are you going to fix the link on the side that says about you "more?" :P
from pondlife :
You're on fire. History, Weaver, Signal Hill, great stuff.
from given-a-soul :
And sometimes i think that things like that mean everything... to all parties involved. Connections, random ones too, are rare enough to be beautiful.
from lost-facade :
I know what you mean about exams. I have a tendency to jump on the spot with nervous energy, and everyone looks at me like I'm a weirdo.
from imatwin :
I didn't know that The Dears were from Montreal? That's so cool, I love them. In general Canada has a really good music scene. There's some good music coming out of Hailfax as well.
from adelnye :
I think the entry was beautiful. I've yet to read that book, but I will- soon. You didn't leave a title for the entry... let me know if you'd to change the title to something else. Thank you for writing this guest entry for me. :D
from lost-facade :
Haha. Maybe I'll do everything in mime. Although imitating torture could get difficult.
from spillink :
hey, I was searching around the internet and was kinda disappointed to find out that they changed the setting for The Black Donnelly's show. The show has it in New York when they really lived in a rural area in Ontario Canada. Oh well... I guess that's tv for ya, sounds like the show is based more on the general idea and characters rather than what actually happened. I'm going to try and watch it this week if I remember, and see what it's like.
from adelnye :
Hi there.. been meaning to tell you that if (whenever) you're sending me the entry, please make some sort of indication on the subject title of the email, cos I get heaps of spam. I usually just delete it straight away if I don't recognise the email address. I hope you haven't sent me anything yet, cos I'd probably deleted it. Oops. Send again pls, if you did. Oh, noticed that you had a Johari too. So do I. :D
from ottodixless :
Thanks. I'll still be writing here about most of my life's details, just perhaps not describing every minute in sequence. I'd love to receive threatening or whining letters. But I'll see if I can have more adventures. I hope you're ok, anyway, aside from being in the middle of nowhere.
from spillink :
I didn't know there was a show about The Black Donnelly's. They use to live not too far from where I live. One time I read the book for English class... they were definitely interesting people... and a little scary.
from adelnye :
Oohh... yes, of course the offer still stands. You'll be able to find my email address at the bottom of my page. I'm sure whatever you've written will be good... can't wait to read it!!! :D
from adelnye :
Yes... and that is why we don't sleep anymore... sigh.
from adelnye :
Oh wow!! I'm flattered, very flattered. Thank you! :D
from ottodixless :
I'm glad I'm not the only person who managed to grow more dust than crystals. I'm amazed at its popularity, I guess the promise of crystals is beguiling. Or they make it look really simple in the books. I've still not found any songs about Canada (I am unfamiliar with Arrogant Worms). Most Canadians just seem to write about the USA.
from imatwin :
You are the luckiest person in the world.
from boyecho :
the videos of the people holding signs for free hugs have their fair share of copycats. this can only be a good thing of course, but even here i've spotted adults in their 30s/40s walking around downtown with white posterboard signs declaring the availability of a no-cost embrace. one particular afternoon, spotting no takers, i stopped my car at a stop sign, jumped out and ran to them to indulge their wishes. i drove off as others followed suit.
from zigglett :
I think Mary got gyped as she seems to suffer some of the major modern issues affecting women: a) she was violated by man [since she did not ask to get pregnant] b) she was in poverty c) she was a single-parent [joseph was merely her beau] and d) she had to bury her own child. I can't say anyone can envy her, even if they aren't religious. She epitomizes the suckiness of women.
from ottodixless :
Your entry does make me wonder why I've never heard an anti-abortion campaigner say "If Mary could've had an abortion, single mother and all, there'd be no Jesus." I guess it raises rather too many theological questions.
from boyecho :
teehee. django is fantastic. he's a total brat. he is clumsy and breaks things. but i love him just the same.
from kungfukitten :
I can't believe you read the whole thing so fast! Thank you for the kind words, they mean a lot to me. :)
from adelnye :
That's fine with me. Take your time and just send it to me whenever you're ready. I've yet to find the time to sit and finish typing those unfinished entries myself!!
from adelnye :
Hey there... you could always write a guest entry for me if you want to? It's free-style and you get to choose what you think would be appropriate to post on my journal. The only thing being I'm not a gold member, so you'll have to email me the entry (in html if possible).
from adelnye :
Thank you for responding... you left some interesting answers that I wouldn't normally have identified myself with. Food for thought. Now, I'm more than happy to give you yours! 1. You're pretty clear as to where you want to be in life, but ever now and then you wonder if there might be something more beyond that goal of yours. 2. I challenge you to write something different from your usual entries... be it a different topic or in a different style altogether. 3. Aqua-green 4. I love the snippets of thoughts that you write. They often make me wonder why I can't write like you do. 5. When you first added me on your buddy list (through coldandgray), the very first entry of yours that I read (30-03-2006) hit me and I was lost in your words ever since. 6. A horse 7. What exactly are you pursuing?
from given-a-soul :
And i remember you... you're more like a memory thana real person. i hate that.
from tarynheart :
let's call it inspiration to delve and i'll tell you when i know.
from pondlife :
You really must stop saying such awfully nice things to me, or I may start to flirt shamelessly. But after a second thought...
from adelnye :
I would leave a name, but you don't really know me.
from tarynheart :
1. You often write stories in the margins of your notes. 2. I challenge you to actually call people the next time you feel like socializing :P 3. Indigo 4. I love how trustworthy and honest you are. 5. Shopping at the mall with you, the girls, and Jake. What a weird day. 6. Black Panther 7. Do you think our friendship will survive past post-secondary, relocation, new families?
from pondlife :
Hokey- brought to mind a scene from Breakfast At Tiffany's. Nice. Oh, Happy Belated Birthday!
from thatgirlx :
Happy Birthday!!! ♥
from spillink :
aww thanks. I still read yours too
from pondlife :
Your tadpole story nagged and tugged at me all day. It makes me want to be better, try harder.
from pondlife :
Wow.
from cheekyash :
i agree. but it might be nice to just once taste 'perfection'. just once. hope you're well.
from sbellem :
Beautiful post. Thank you. Been there, stayed there, still there...trying to move on.
from thatgirlx :
Wow. I know exactly what you mean. Every day I wake up and say "today I'm going to do it" but then the day drags out and I proclaim "tomorrow" and it never ever happens. I applaud you for wanting to finally take action and want to break the cycle. I wish you well. ♥
from thatgirlx :
I stumbled upon your diary through the members area and suddenly found myself captivated by your words. Your writing is beautiful, truly mesmerizing. It's rare to find a true gem like yourself, and I'm always pleasantly surprised when I do. Hope you don't mind my reading. Take care.
from ottodixless :
Hi, I wish people would comment more too, but I'm as bad as anyone else (I was going to comment on you at least twice recently, about yr entry of 2006-09-08 about making acquaintances not friends and disappearing, and to wish you good luck; and also how I'd looked at your layout for what must have been a year without realising it's London, I thought it was somewhere in the midwest, but I guess you're not actually in London and just got the layout somewhere). I'm sure I'm going to continue bitching anyway, no matter how much or how little I do, until you regret encouraging me.
from boyecho :
"Eventually I stopped making friends and started making acquaintances." i keep forgetting to do something about this myself...
from imatwin :
thanks, I know I do. It's mainly a confidence thing. I don't know where it comes from, I just take compliments bad thats all. thanks for leaving a note. ~Alex
from pondlife :
Nice. Like it. How goes univeristy life?
from boyecho :
purely accidental, i assure you. i have nothing to hide from anyone. it's back as it should be!
from imatwin :
you said what would normally seem like something boring to read, and turned it into something incitful. Something you can't stop. Something that makes us understand. It was wonderful :) ~Alex
from boyecho :
i don't know about wicked... but please feel free to read it. 6 messy years. cheers.
from cheekyash :
don't ever stop writing. ever.
from tarynheart :
i hope you're having a wonderful time in spain, darling. you must regail us all with photos and stories when you come back. <3
from spillink :
ooo... lucky you. I'd love to go to spain. I hope you have an awesome time
from imatwin :
The sad thing is all you say is true.
from edgarfrog :
Storm's a brewin' at edgarfrog.diaryland.com
from imatwin :
Your entries are always so incitful, and interesting to read. ~Alex
from pondlife :
I don't believe you. If you're anything like myself, it's here that I do speak the truth, withholding no unspeakable details. By the way, I added something to your Johari box.
from pondlife :
I wouldn't say he's excited, just interested. He hasn't quite warmed up to Ian's mother. Thankfully our nanny is coming back and this will soothe his discontent a little. Ian looks like Christian Danes did when he was a newborn, it's their personalities that are so different. I just hope they get along well.
from pondlife :
Thanks! He's already so different from my first. His mother is half Brazilian so maybe he's going to be more like her.
from luciangrey :
They say endurance is gainted by enduring. My words to you are this: Fortitude, Miss, Fortitude. The power of the human mind and will is illimitable: If you do not like who you are becoming -change it-. Life is ultimately what WE make of it, and if I know anything about you, you're exceptional.
from ottodixless :
Ha, I'm glad my poem fills you with feelings of love, as long as it's not love towards herons. Or indeed herring, because I don't really like them either. Stupid grey fish. I hope you didn't hit anything today.
from tarynheart :
I don't think they should do it with anything - grades, appearance, friendship, whatever. Pinning down a flaw as "a part of who you are" is a sign of laziness and the reluctance to allow change. -------- Is that how -you- feel? That I don't consider you a priority? Because I do, and I hope you know that. If you ever needed me, for anything, I would drop everything to be there. ------- That isn't what I mean, though. When I make plans with someone, I stick to them, even if there is someone else I like more wanting to make plans with me. I personally believe it's extremely rude to tell someone you might be able to hang out with them, make them wait to find out, and then tell them you're hanging with someone else instead, even though they asked you first. If high standards are believing that people should make concrete plans with you and not back out of them [except in the case of an emergency] then yes, I have high standards. I expect a certain amount of reliability out of people. --------- I don't know. Maybe I am in the wrong, and I expect way too much. Maybe I'm taking what I have for granted. It just upsets me how much I want to hang out with certain people, because I love sharing their company, but then they ditch me for other people or just don't show up or don't ever make definite plans so I never know whether or not they'll actually be there. I like these people, they're interesting & fun & intelligent, but I can only put up with so much. I can only be let down so many times before I just give up trying to deal with people altogether, you know?
from tarynheart :
I didn't necessarily mean the emotional reliability of people. That's part of it, but it certainly isn't the whole thing. I don't honestly expect people to psychically know when I'm feeling upset. I do, however, expect them to actually show up once they've made plans with me. Or to at least make concrete plans with me instead of making me wait until they know whether or not they have plans with someone else [which in the end makes me feel like they don't really want to hang out with me in the first place. And if that is that case, what is the point? Why can't they just tell me they don't want to hang out with me instead of getting my hopes up?]Is it really so much to ask for people to actually show up when and where they say they will? Or to at least call beforehand if they can't be there? ----------- As for the other thing..."belief that they are inately flawed"? That's the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard. Someone thinks they are already a bad friend, so they don't even bother to prove otherwise? They just disappoint from the beginning? If that's the case, and they aren't even trying to change the perception, then maybe they shouldn't have friends in the first place. ------------------ You want to know the honest truth? I'm sick of feeling like people don't give a fuck whether or not I'm a part of their life. Like I'm completely irrelevant and replaceable. It makes me wish I'd never had friends in the first place. Everyone has friends that they give a higher priority to than others, I understand that, but I am never ANYONE's priority. Which just makes me question what the fuck I am doing wrong to make people hate me so much.
from luciangrey :
What then ARE you like?
from luciangrey :
Ah, but have you read Sextrology?
from elgan :
Thanks for adding me to your favourites. My husband’s uncle, a Nova Scotia maritimer, says “Holy Mary mother of God!” as though he has surprised her while stuffing the good silver into her purse when she thinks no one is looking.
from coldandgray :
Wow, thanks so much for your kind words. I loved the entry you did for me. Your poetry today was perfect. Thanks for what you wrote about my guest thing. You're awesome.
from serenaville :
My. Thank you so much, for adding Serenaville to your faves/buddy list! What a pleasant surprise! I'm warmed to know you'll be reading regularly. Welcome to 'The Posse'! Thanks again. :) -Serena
from adelnye :
Thank you for adding me onto your buddy list.
from not-tuesday :
Hmm...good question. But you are an appreciated reader nonetheless.
from ottodixless :
The best love song ever is The Ramones "I Wanna Be Your Boyfriend", closely followed by Hefner's "The Sweetness Lies Within", and for ultimate sappiness "Someone to share my life with" by TV Personalities. The first has the advantage of the lyrics being really easy to remember, while the other two sound better the more badly they're sung which I think is good in a song.
from doll-of-pain :
its from the movie coach carter if you havent seen see it. youll love it. ive bene meaning to call you only ive lost your number and whenever im online youre not. we should chill soon.
from nightingale- :
As always, your response has struck a chord with me. Same with your entry- how ridiculously lazy did someone need to be for sensory doors to be invented? You don't even need to push a button, you just walk. *sigh* This is what I miss about Diaryland sometimes- you. But other times, like now, I realize that it has to be completed. Farewell, and continue to be beautiful.
from ottodixless :
I promise not to kill you for your che t-shirt since it was a gift (I think i said I was mainly planning to inconvenience people which Che stuff, so probably I'm already inconveniencing you). I believe Che was quite interested in women's bosoms, so I doubt he'd mind being stretched across yours.
from ottodixless :
Since you ask. I would tie you to a chair and make you tell me your life story in microscopic detail, while pouring tequila over your head. Or cook you a nice veggie curry, if you had any vegetables.
from doll-of-pain :
oh i miss that loud music too. even though i think youre making your dress perhaps we should go grad dress shopping that would be very nice! im very poor, even worse than before but a nice outing would be awesome!
from ottodixless :
I've a theory that Timothy Treadwell's voice was too high-pitched for bears to notice, until one day a freak bear (or maybe a freak wind) caused him to be heard, and the bears, understandably fans of Fitzcarraldo [and presumably hoping someone would build an opera house nearby], bit TT's head off (and where did he get that hair dye in the wilderness?). Unrelatedly, I'm amazed not just by the quality of your diary but by the fact that you have good ideas so often (I'm lucky if I can manage something creative every 3 months).
from not-tuesday :
Thank you!!
from given-a-soul :
god damn you are amazing
from ottodixless :
Death may be imminent, but it seems to get on pretty well without me. In contrast, getting my landlords to fix my shower is also likely to be an obsession that results in nothingness and lying in a cold place (my bath), but at least I can look in their cold dead eyes and beg for mercy. I'll put you down for a book if I publish it, and in return I'll take a copy of yr delightful diary in hard covers.
from saving-salt :
your entry "lone dancer" was absolutely beautiful.
from given-a-soul :
hi there girlie, hope you had an excellent christmas, and that life is glorious or at least interesting. Much love, Jakob
from saving-salt :
no no- not shocked in the way you are thinking. just happy to find something so unique. ^_^
from tarynheart :
merry christmas, love. i hope it was absolutely wonderful. <3<3
from saving-salt :
wow...you can WRITE. very unique style.
from spillink :
Your entry is very interesting and contradicting. it's awesome. Thanks for the note. I love notes. If I don't get a chance to say it later, have an awesome christmas!
from lost-facade :
It means a lot. Thanks for the message.
from doll-of-pain :
ttttttthanx beautiful!
from tarynheart :
dave?!
from lost-facade :
Just wanted to say that I really enjoy reading your diary... it's nice to find such poetic words in an emo world.
from tarynheart :
i'm fine darling, i promise. better than i've ever been. for once, there's no need to worry a bit about me. we should, however, spend some time together soon. in fact, i believe i will call you right now. <3
from pondlife :
Darling entry, loved it.
from given-a-soul :
deleted words stolen from our eyes by...?
from given-a-soul :
you are so far away and I'm drifting in and out of fiction... why have you been so absent from all of this?
from given-a-soul :
then come back and i'll talk your ear off
from given-a-soul :
does this beautiful girl dare judge what words would interest me, knowing full well that nothing you could say could bore me? you speak and i'll listen... for real
from given-a-soul :
haven't spoken to you in days....wasting...a....way hah
from given-a-soul :
You know... i don't like wanting to ask you these questions... so i won't... ya know?
from given-a-soul :
argh you're a disappearer!
from given-a-soul :
rawr!!!!!!!
from pondlife :
Thank you, I've admired yours for some time now also.
from given-a-soul :
what are without purpose, without meaning? If we cannot create, whether you create feelings or machines, why are we here? And you're still full of secrets.
from given-a-soul :
what on earth have you done?
from spillink :
I love "The Owner's Manual". It's nice to find alittle humor on diaryland these days. Everything is usually so serious. I enjoy reading your daily writings, even if I don't get around to commenting too often. Keep your chin up.
from tarynheart :
arrrgh i am so sorry about earlier. my computer decided to shut itself off and wouldn't [and still won't] turn itself back on. and it just didn't occur to me to use this computer at the time. <3<3 i will probably call you tomorrow to appologize again. i hope you're sleeping well. <3love
from tarynheart :
"there's a fire forming not so far from here. out on the east coast maybe, it resides in you, my dear."
from given-a-soul :
"you'll notice the one that you have loved in dreams is here among the others... chase its you i want but if i can't have her then why should i spend anymore time in a world thats gonna end pretty soon..." They're waiting and calling from up in the stars
from given-a-soul :
that is one of the most gorgeous pieces of writing i've ever seen
from given-a-soul :
Beautiful... simply so. Fear is the rush of sensation that urges us on
from given-a-soul :
I do not know, this is unexplored territory. I do not know what to think, but i would like to find out what there is between us
from given-a-soul :
what's created this semblance of closeness between us?
from tarynheart :
Oh Bethie, I miss you too. I wish you were here - you would love this place so much. I was only in the city on Friday, we're about two hours outside of it now, near a very small town called Rhinebeck, and on a glorious piece of lake property. The sun is setting over the lake now, turning it to shining molten glass, and it is a beautiful sight. I have so many pictures to show you when I get back. And today, I went kayaking twice and swimming more times than I can count. It is peaceful and relaxing and just exactly what I needed. And I so wish you were here to share it with me. One day, we'll rent a cottage by a lake with several of our dear friends [such as Emily and Jake and many others] and we will do all sorts of wonderful things there. I miss you like butterflies miss flying in the winter. Love love love <3 Ali
from given-a-soul :
who are you pining away over? Who is eating you up inside?
from given-a-soul :
You should know that I'm not like most. All i ever want is the truth, and a glimpse of something deeper. Being alone doesn't come from us; its inside, hiding. Let me see who you are
from given-a-soul :
I pray it is. When you look deep into my mind, what do you see?
from given-a-soul :
only if you were lying
from given-a-soul :
Can you read my mind? Can you feel me through this words?
from given-a-soul :
if you're missing something from these words you're looking to deep. this isn't about sentences its about souls. Additionally, i never promised anyone understanding
from loversvanity :
never. thats why i didnt post this at the old diary. i didnt want everyone back.
from loversvanity :
come find me.
from find-katie :
Hey, my new diary is at spillink.diaryland.com I will be adding you soon. Thanks!
from given-a-soul :
She was weaving with dreams and passions, creating illusion from truth and reality collapsed into daydreaming. Sweet dreams beautiful girl
from love-fatal :
i found that guy, the dream & forever one. & he was my english teacher. strange how it happens, isnt it?
from coldandgray :
Your writing is always so beautiful; yes like the rain.
from paperworlds :
Dearest I've been wondering what it would be like to understand the words transcribed on these pages
from tarynheart :
maybe next time, take me home with you. that way you will be home and i will not miss you. it's a completely feasible solution.
from nightingale- :
I love you so much, and you're by far what I will miss the most about Diaryland. Never give up your beautiful words, or your beautiful soul- you're simply gorgeous, and anyone who fails to realize that doesn't deserve you in the first place. With much love and peace, Sarah*
from tarynheart :
i miss you, darling. i hope p.e.i. is lovely but i also hope you come home soon. <3
from paperworlds :
We'll reminisce under starlight and lately i've been wondering how you're really doing
from tarynheart :
who is this boy, darling? i'm curious as to who could stand to not notice you.
from love-fatal :
your 'story of a boy' reminds me so much of a boy that i know.
from given-a-soul :
"the things I don't understand are always the most interesting" am i A.N and if so what does that mean
from given-a-soul :
I haven't the slightest what that means, but it certainly makes me curious. Thanks for speaking up, the voices were gorgeous
from given-a-soul :
You've been too silent lately beautiful
from lifeineminor :
thanks a bunch ^^
from tarynheart :
since when was i apathetic?
from love-fatal :
yeah, when it comes to my readers, i stick to the saying, "no pulse, no read." which, i'm pretty sure wasnt a saying until i just made it up. so, i accomplished something today. i'm proud.
from love-fatal :
i am alive.
from coldandgray :
Hey Sweets. I am here, still reading, still loving your words.
from luciangrey :
Hey! The sandman is way hot. I do not fault you a bit. *winx*
from paperworlds :
That is so gorgeous
from nightingale- :
*sigh* Beautiful.
from nightingale- :
Someone will always be there to fix you...sometimes it just takes a bit of searching on your part. Best wishes.
from nightingale- :
Using naivety to conceal your own naivety. Interesting.
from nightingale- :
...I love you.
from nightingale- :
I'm pretty sure the only way to answer that would be illegally. So, since I know the FBI is monitoring my every move, I won't answer it at all...again. Damn.
from nightingale- :
Really? Wow, I never thought that Depp would be into the criers. I mean, I could see Pitt, and maybe Law, but Depp...? I should've tried that when I was locked in his dressing room for 3 hours.
from nightingale- :
Yea, NObody wants Jude Law. Well, maybe nobody that's blind...*drools* Mmm...Johnny and rum...and Pitt and Law...*drools again*
from nightingale- :
"So...many...WOMEN!" cried the lone emergency crew man as he rocked back and forth, trying to escape to his happy place where women didn't exist and men ran around, free and naked.
from nightingale- :
Oh God, talk about scarring mental images...I'm sure the emergency crew didn't mind.* wink*
from nightingale- :
I'd much rather place you as the Viola to his Orsino. Or at least the witty Fool.
from nightingale- :
:(
from nightingale- :
Whatever, we all know that Disney is law. Therefore, You= cooler than me. Times a million. Besides, being a shadow is practically like having the ability to be invisible, and just imagine how many AMAZING, mischievious little things you could do if you were invisible! Loves, Me*
from nightingale- :
You know, you're kind of self-conscious for my Peter Pan shadow...hmmm...Hah, I'm just kidding- I wouldn't deny you the place of my shadow for the world. (Although I believe it's presumptuous of myself to assume I could be anything more than your shadow. But then again, the Peter Pan shadow was way cooler than Peter Pan himself...) Oh, and I won't sew you to the soles of my feet, as long as you promise to always be within eyeshot.
from nightingale- :
Ooh, could you be like my Peter Pan shadow? I'll try to catch you in the dark corners of a nursery drawer, and you'll always be one step ahead of me.
from nightingale- :
Every night before they go to bed, somebody thinks about you. More people will care for you than you will ever know, in ways that you could never guess. And we're all living in a world of balance, where peace and love will fill the dark holes that hate has created. Sweet dreams, dear.
from tarynheart :
it isn't so much that i'm mad that they asked because it's like asking why you're sad or angry or anything else; it's a legitimate question. it's more the tone they use, like, why should you be happy when we so obviously are not? and it just annoys me. my whole family thinks i'm on drugs whenever i'm happy, just because it's unexpected. sometimes good things just happen, that's all.
from nightingale- :
No, but after that last comment, I'm thinking I should. You've intrigued me. (And I think I've actually been in love with you since I first read your diary. This looks like the beginning of a strong, solid relationship.)
from nightingale- :
Yea, that Yellowcard thing didn't really seem to fit you, but I wasn't about to question it. I mean, questioning online quizzes is like questioning God. Especially when they're created by _shelovedaboy. (<-- Jesus)
from nightingale- :
Yea, I'd have to agree with your comment- McDonalds' is sick. But your Emo Boyfriend sounds adorable! I think there's actually a kid in my grade who looks like that...lip ring and all. I'll have to look into this...*wink* Loves, Me*
from nightingale- :
Ahh, I see. Quite understandable...*cough*
from nightingale- :
GAH, curse you and your colder-than-here weather!! I've been watching T.V. religiously today, crossing my fingers for the holy school closings that will announce my freedom from hell, if for only another 24 hours. Oh, and I'm intrigued to know how you got a paper cut while typing...(virtual paper???) Indeed.
from nightingale- :
Heh, I must confess, I do the same. But then I am eventually overcome with the need to reveal my delicious little secret, and I end up telling them about it anyway. I don't think it's really invasion, it's posted on the Internet so they must (at least subconciously) want people to read it. Oh, and I'll tell you when I find Mr. TDH ;) Loves, Me*
from watercolored :
Our guilty pleasures for your entertainment is it? Are you sure?
from nightingale- :
The iridescent chariots bring me down Memory Road, a cliche all too familiar, this time of year, and I can only hope your Memories are much more alive than mine. Peace and sweet dreams, me*
from given-a-soul :
Sweetest the night air is calling your name as the spirits sing in praise and the beauty of the tears falling is something of a metaphor and as you weep the world weeps with you much love
from nightingale- :
Always glad to lend a hand...err, note...you know what I mean. Sure, it can be acidic, but then we'd need really tough rickshaw drivers. And anti-acid slippers, 'cause slippers are delicious. Kisses and wishes, Me*
from nightingale- :
I know just what you're saying, I know a few people who are EXACTLY like that, and they're waiting for a miracle to change what they're doing to themselves. I admire you for recognizing this and trying to bring people to their senses. Oh, and as far as that New Year rant goes- what determines a new beginning, anyway, but a new day? Loves, Me*
from tarynheart :
i'm only locking my diary, not myself. i am always here and always open if you want to know something. i'm easily contacted in the real world.
from wyldehoney :
so very strange when another person describes something you've scented in a dream. "what a waste" was like deja vu... thanks for sharing.
from nightingale- :
Yea, and their utter confusion would only cause us to burst into even more obnoxious fits of laughter. But they couldn't get mad at us, because they are our rickshaw drivers, and we are their masters. Muaha.
from nightingale- :
I do the exact same thing, and it really bothers me every now and again when people don't realize something incredibly clever and/or ironic I've just said. I wish we could get together and have rhetorical conversations behind the real ones.
from nightingale- :
AHH! You watch Invader Zim, too? If I wasn't in love with you before, I am now. Merry Christmas, darling, and may all your days be merry and bright.
from tarynheart :
I LOOOOOOOVE YOU. i wrote in the journal and it's tres prettiful and thankyou!!! and merry christmas, beautiful. <3
from find-katie :
yah, you're probably right. Thanks.
from nightingale- :
Ditto, darling.
from nightingale- :
Intriguing perspective- hah, ashamed as I am to say it, your pun took me a while. But I got (get) it...*giggles* What a waste indeed. Please excuse my juvenile giddyness- 'tis the season, as they say :)
from venusianfire :
Thank you.
from love-fatal :
yes. i'm totally running next time around. i think "Satan for President" would get a fairly decent response.
from tarynheart :
your phoneline is busy. curses. bought your christmas present today, i hope you'll like it. should be going for a walk soon, watched kill bill earlier and it wasn't as violent as i thought it would be. i might try to call again later, we'll see. love you. <3
from tarynheart :
the truth is that right now i'm more sad than i'm willing to say. he's playing guitar and one day he'll see his own talent. i don't know what to think. are self-change and self-improvement the same things? do i lose weight or stay the same on principal that it's part of who i am and then there's the question of is it really? i don't think there's anything amazing about me. last night i wrote him a letter and i let him read it when maybe i shouldn't have because i don't think he really understood what i was trying to say. i went to an art museum today, i love paintings but there weren't any vermeer or pino [you brought out my love for him] i think i'm almost writing a whole journal entry to you. and the thing at the root of it all, is that if he can't love me...who will? but i love you and i miss you and we'd better still be hanging out on friday. <3
from nightingale- :
Hmm, how oddly convienient- if you look at my buddy list, you'll see I've already done that.
from tarynheart :
no, no omens. he really doesn't, bethy. we talked about it, and really talked this time. i'm not what he's looking for. so maybe this is the end, who knows. maybe this is where i stop hoping. but you're right, beautiful. i am at peace. <3
from tarynheart :
my beautiful, i love you and right now i miss you very much. thankyou for the note, and so far, it is lovely here. like it was before, and we cuddled last night. but i have to admit, denver is so cold. <3
from watercolored :
I wouldn't say it's boxist, it's a simple descriptive. If there were anything other than white boxes then yes, there would be a problem. Lifes really too short for all that bother.
from rosebynename :
I'll hold my breath. ;)
from nightingale- :
Probably, but then again, nobody could ponder these thoughts as amusingly (and elegantly) as you do.
from watercolored :
Imagine having to fill blank white boxes to pay the bills.
from find-katie :
I can't resist adding you to my buddylist! Keep Writing!
from nightingale- :
And the same to you, darling.
from nightingale- :
Happy Holidays (she says, smiling)
from nightingale- :
I have no idea how anybody can't be incredibly giddy around the holiday season.
from rosebynename :
Thank you darling, I know I can always count on you to make me feel better. Your notes always seem to brighten my day, and your humble opinion will always be welcomed.
from nightingale- :
A noble quest, to be sure, and one the more compassionate (i.e., perceptive) people of this world have been trying to achieve for centuries. Never give up, my dear.
from tarynheart :
i love you, beth. tonight you made me cry but in a good way. you're one of the most wonderful people i've ever met, please don't ever forget it. you're welcome to my heart whenever you'd like to hold it. my hand, too. <3 ali.
from nightingale- :
Too true, the rise of technology in our society has severly damaged the intelligence and depth of today's children. I'm glad you haven't fallen into the Pit of No Return (i.e.- Technology and commercialism). It's good to know what matters in life.
from rosebynename :
Oh, and don't worry about the bouts of weirdness- they'll pass. (I hope ;) Loves, me
from rosebynename :
I completely understand what you're getting at in this latest entry, and I don't find the pansexual results frightening- the fact is, we shouldn't categorize people into different titles, including gender. And from personal experience, I can tell you- age does not correlate with maturity. Age and appearance definately have no place in love.
from miss-shirty :
I think we all feel that way sometimes. Are we who we are or what others want us to be? Or who it is they see? I don't know if there is an answer... ? -miss shirty
from tarynheart :
i love you, bethy. feel better. <3
from peachy-pal :
You are amazing, everything you always write reflects how i feel exactly.. i don't know what to say or how to express it... But you do it so well.. thanks for saying what you always do, and being able to express how i feel... i agree with everything you say and have the exact same questions as you... Im sorry i can't answer them for you...
from nightingale- :
No, I'm just glad you could read my note. I think I'm the confusing one, not you. Anytime you need help, just ask. I'll always be willing to offer my two cents...which usually doesn't buy a whole lot. ;)
from nightingale- :
I think that there are some people that are exactly what everyone else sees them to be, some that aren't anything like what others know them as, and some who are part and part. As far as I know you, from your virtual self, I'd say that you're one of those part and part people, who is partially what others think you are, but also a large portion of what others don't see. Perhaps, with some people, they are just what people percieve, but think they are more than that because they wish to be. I wonder if this comment could become anymore convuluted...I'm going to stop now. Loves!! ~Me
from nightingale- :
Well, if he doesn't, you know you're too good for him.
from nightingale- :
Darling, if he ever just gets a chance to see what you present everytime you write an entry, there's no way he couldn't love you.
from darkthinger :
I'm doing the 5 things thinger. in my diary. pee ess. I added you to msn. finally.
from nightingale- :
Ditto. (I don't know how you ever could- I know I could never give up on you.)
from coldandgray :
Don't give up.
from nightingale- :
...I'll think about it. ;)
from nightingale- :
Graceful, elegant, and utterly gorgeous. As always.
from nightingale- :
You don't have a Sadie Hawkins dance?!? Oh, the travesty! Well, there's only one way to solve this- come live with me, and we shall live happily ever after in our feminist, overbearing, exalting-ourselves-to-titles-of-godliness type of existence. I love you! ~Me*
from dearroberta :
Just thought I should say, Pleased to meet you. I am flattered that you would add me.
from nightingale- :
Oh, I will offend you! (Probably not intentionally, but it's part of my nature ;) I think that you could be the perfect specimen of beauty. But not just the physical, superficial type of beauty- oh no, my friend- also the deep, thoughtful, pensive, soulful type of beauty. You're practically already there.
from nightingale- :
Well, I don't make noise, but my pet pterodactyl does. Oh man, that would be awesome...I'm sorry, this note doesn't really make sense. Ah, c'est la vie.
from nightingale- :
Can I move to Canada and live with you? I don't make very much noise.
from nightingale- :
Haha, clever. But no, in fact, I was referring to the comment about how making snow angels will be the closest you'll ever be to actually being one. That's a lie, and you know it, you snow goddess you.
from nightingale- :
(read previous note) x2!!
from nightingale- :
You take that back!
from nightingale- :
Thank you for the reference, really, but whereas all I can offer is humor and comfort, you provide so much more, so much beauty, depth, eloquence and grace that it strengthens my soul everytime I read it. Your sincerity and vibrancy of emotion never ceases to amaze me. Never stop. Never.
from nightingale- :
*blank stare*...I love you?
from nightingale- :
Not foolish. Not ever foolish. Your little girl dreams are as real as anything, and so are the emotions and fantasies you hold. Never let go of them.
from love-fatal :
ohh..i was serious. i didnt see the potential sarcasm in the comment.
from miss-shirty :
Hi. Just stumbled onto your diary and wanted to say kudos. I have little bit of a poetry obsession these days. Anyway, it's really good. -miss shirty
from nightingale- :
You? Sidekick to ME? psh, if that's the kind of world we're running, I don't know if I can take part in it...*wink* I'll only run this world with you if we can run it side-by-side. Or...I'll be YOUR faithful sidekick. As long as I get to rule with you, I'll take anything. Loves, Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Ahh, the proverbial Pandora's box. So many unleashed mysteries, never to be unleashed again. Love it.
from love-fatal :
wait. what?
from nightingale- :
Not even your love will save you now!! ...ah, who am I kidding. It will always save you. World, here I come!
from love-fatal :
that poem was fucking awesome.
from nightingale- :
If by "weak and pathetic" you mean "awesome and amazing"- then yes, I'd have to agree.
from nightingale- :
No need to thank me, love. (Does anyone else feel the POC atmosphere in here?)
from nightingale- :
Things often don't turn out like they're "supposed" to. Which, in this case, doesn't sound like such a shame. Happy Birthday, loved one!
from love-fatal :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
from nightingale- :
You can whimper all you want, it will get you nowhere...*gives in* Alright, we'll have coins. And even if we don't use currency, we can use the coins to cover our sacrifices. And they can be chocolate coins, so it's servitude and deliciousness all in one.
from nightingale- :
Servitude is a fantastic way for people to show their love (well, to us, anyway ;) which is why the people of our conquered lands must serve us with all their hearts or perish beneath our dominating hand. Oh, and chocolate is servitude, just melted. Loves, Sarah*
from nightingale- :
That's right- we don't have to limit ourselves to anything! The day is mine, Trebek!! (Sorry, SNL moment jumped in...if you've ever seen Celebrity Jeopardy, you'll know.) And there's no need to thank me- I should be thanking you, just for the gorgeous writing.
from nightingale- :
What they said.
from darkthinger :
I ADORE "The Snow Angel." fantastically done.
from nightingale- :
Or we could just play that game where you spin a globe and close your eyes, and wherever your fingers land is the place we're going to take over. With my luck, though, we'd probably get Siberia. And then those damned shrubberies would bow to us!! (Sorry, I can't think of anything that actually lives in Siberia...shame on me.) P.S.- the maniacal laughter was awesome. P.P.S.- almost as much so as your last entry. Beautiful.
from nightingale- :
I understand, don't worry about it- I caught the meaning. I hope you don't have too many people to insult- that would indicate that you're hanging out with the wrong people. Anyway, I've been meaning to talk to you about this island- how do you feel about Fiji?
from nightingale- :
Not at all, it is I who is skewered. (Awkward sentence...wait until it wears off...) Thank you for the sentiment, I know the meaning was there and your heart was in the right place, I just took it offensively. Like the gracious person I am. (I'm sorry...forgive me?) Loves, Me*
from nightingale- :
Psh, "Canada". Well, I am sincerely sorry that you don't get to enjoy autumn in all of its beauty. However, you compared me to spring, so now I'm less sorry. (Spring is my least favorite season- muddy grossness. Actually, I think this is due to my "rebellion", as a lot of people I know love spring, so...I'm not going to take it out on you.) Actually, you kind of remind me of spring, as well. Maybe a bit more autumn, though.
from nightingale- :
C'est vrai, c'est vrai. Je t'aime, ma chere.
from watercolored :
Les mortels décevront toujours mon cher.
from nightingale- :
How DARE they question your sense of humor and perfection! I say we rise and revolt!!
from nightingale- :
Of course, everything is easier said than done. Sometimes, something is only possible when said. Don't beat yourself up- I love you too much for that!
from nightingale- :
Desiring from other people that which can only be found from yourself is futile.
from nightingale- :
No one can tell her who she is.
from nightingale- :
Although, the beatings might lead to stereotypes of "beaten" and "non-beaten". I say, a good, healthy beating for all citizens! Equality is the way! (Oh, except for us, of course- we are so far beyond stereotypes that it's not a problem.) Yes, and the abolition of cars will soon follow. The rickshaw market...it's a good thing.
from nightingale- :
I think the reason the loneliness is worse in a room full of people is because you can't confront it. There's always someone smile at, someone to keep happy, and the fact that there are all these people who you can't connect to heightens the fact that we're deeply alone. And it's human nature not to trust others, at least for most, because humans in general are quite untrustworthy. I know exactly what you mean by this, and my sentiments are never heartless. Love, Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Yes, and if anyone steps on our feet, rickshaw cart, or personal Asian drivers' feet, so help them- they will die. They will die at the hands of our half-breed clone. And I like the way you conduct yourself- sort of a "what I say, goes. Fool." Very classy.
from nightingale- :
That's YOU tripping on my shoes? Whore. (Hah, just kidding. I'll give you a piggyback ride, if you'd like. Although I believe it'd be you in front of me.) I agree, rules (and limits) are meant to be broken, and dreams are meant to be surpassed. I'm glad you've realized this and can achieve your wishes. Loves, moi
from nightingale- :
We all try to categorize ourselves, narrow ourselves down to something we can be proud of, but we're all everything and everything is us, to a certain degree. Trying to deny this is naive, and I hope you don't limit yourself to "the way things are". I know you won't. Loves, Sarah*
from nightingale- :
There is a certain twisted sense of pleasure involved, that probably would qualify us both for a nice padded cell somewhere. Until then, we shall exercise our demented humor freely and without restraint (redundant? I think so).
from nightingale- :
There's no such thing as taking a bad metaphor too far. (So I tell myself...) Will this shrine include chocolate? And the occasional Eddie Izzard CD? We should really look into a name for this island...but then again, that would make it all the easier for the FBI to track us down. Dirty Feds.
from nightingale- :
You have no idea how much respect I have for you, for staying with what you see as the right path when those around you are doing wrong. I fully support, and love, you in this. And the naivety of all angels is eventually lost, but their beauty forever stands. Loves, Sarah*
from tarynheart :
sometimes i wish i could kiss you, not in a sexual way but more in a...hello i love you you're beautiful kind of way. we love everything and you are absolutely lovely. hello, lovely, the morning is here. <3
from nightingale- :
Thinking too much tends to do that to people. However, I hope you can get used to it, because we're going to have to think up a lot of creative and original ways of torture if this island is going to get anywhere. Mmm, delicious.
from nightingale- :
I'm liking the animal bait idea- it's good for them to know what pain is. And the fact that you used the word "atrocious" makes up for any and all spelling errors you may have had. Love you darling, Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Maybe the butterfly flying away felt like beauty leaving your life. Or maybe you just have raging hormones that will be released at the touch of a feather- it's really anyone's guess. Loves, Sarah*
from nightingale- :
I think we all overanalyze things. So perhaps asking for someone different is just wishful thinking. Grrr...high school guys suck. On our island, we shall make them the ones who wash the sheep.
from nightingale- :
"Your soul is breathtakingly beautiful"...and here I thought online quizzes were a sham.
from luciangrey :
Dearest Beth. Your line regarding bones collecting dust actually made me laugh. ...a good consistancy of my home decor, is actually bones. (I have a wall of mandibles... ) Not that you could have known but the literal implications were more than amusing. I want to ask then, on a less literal-more-metaphorical level, how DOES one go about cleaning out their closests? Is redemption to be had? I am not even sure I WANT that yet? What about you, if I can ask, do you forgive yourself? ...This is...extensive, yes? If it suits you, please carry this to e-mail: Redemption@post.com and/or AIM: Mon Beau Menteur.
from luciangrey :
...Beth... Thank you for sharing this with me. I am honored, and gratitifed more than anyone man should be, yes? ... I appreciate your words but the skeletons in my closets are excessive.
from nightingale- :
Contracts and vouchers. (For their souls, of course.) And maybe we could have a section of the island where the roads are made out of chocolate, so when it melts you can coat yourself in it. Mmm, melted chocolate toes...
from doll-of-pain :
calllllllllllll me.
from nightingale- :
The superpowers are practically a given- you can't be an island-owning shepard overlord without superpowers, otherwise how would you get any respect? I enjoy the hobbling idea...could we also give them hats and canes? You know, Vaudeville-style?
from nightingale- :
Yes, and we could take over an island and deem it to be our own, dictating the lives of all the sheep who inhabit it. And if they don't conform to our every whim, we shall beat them into submission, sacrifice them on our altar to Neptune, and throw them into the ocean. Muaha!
from nightingale- :
I could say the same to you- your notes seem to brighten my day like no other, and I'm forever grateful for that. It's true, random comments outdo any other as far as hilarity goes. This gopher guy sounds intriguing, if not a bit off-center himself. ;) May our conversations never go out of style.
from nightingale- :
A beautiful, wispy morning sunrise is only tainted to its creator.
from tarynheart :
We're morning and night and dreading the re-creation of our canvasses as we lie bare beneath skies that don't scream our names. In truth, we spend years searching for the hearts that were never ours to begin with, and inevitable we fail, those hearts always belonging to another. I love you, let's be homicidal.
from luciangrey :
* bows his head and laughs * I would like a name in which to address you by, allow me to appeal to you in a realistic fashion? My name is in fact, Lucian. ... I am no God and any grace of mine is tempered by acccumulated sin. If I offer you inspiration, I am grateful then to have done something, anything for anyone with what it is that I have wrought, especially for you.
from luciangrey :
Nothing... about your words is flawed and NOTHING about you, your notes strikes me as inadequate. Flattery and gawdy sentiments do so very little. Please, do not find embarassment in this. I appreciate you, your words, all that you manifest on a regular basis, perhaps it is -I- that should feel inadequate in my long-standing admiration? Nevertheless, I am pleased to have been able to communicate with you this much.
from doll-of-pain :
ah thats ok, your there when i need you and sometimes when i dont which is important to me. Im horrible at being there for people and running in the opposite dircetion to avoid confrontation of the worst but sometimes we need to run to know what regret feels like. just dont run to much or to far. Ive got your number on my mirror in my room so your only a call away or a bus ride away which i dont mind taking just to have a talk. one day we'll chill. and possibly beat kids with shoes.
from doll-of-pain :
Oh love I thank you so for your comforting words. but I suppose with everything good there must a downfall and i suppose today was my day. hopefully your wrods will bring a better day tomorrow. and I wish you as many good days as you could possibly handle for always being there for me :) xox
from nightingale- :
I actually did fit myself into a duffel bag once...(long story). It seems that the parts of ourselves we enjoy the most are the ones found on the outermost parts of the mind we do use, i.e. that miniscule percentage. The entry was artfully presented, and I had to actually tell myself that it was dirty because it was hard to believe. That just proves it- you are the master of word manipulation. *grovels at your feet* Loves!
from nightingale- :
I don't see how you could have socializing issues when your prose is so incredible. Besides, using me to communicate for you would end in death and destruction, etc. etc. But I'm liking the duffel bag idea.
from nightingale- :
I feel like your last entry should be extremely dirty, but it's so elegant and tasteful that I just can't make it uncomfortable like that. And yes, sadly enough, we do only use small percents of our brain (about 10 percent, I think it is). Interesting view on purgatory/heaven...where is hell?
from luciangrey :
Thank you, for your communication. I meant not to coax you into speaking should you not choose to do so? At least at this point. Your latest entry, stuns and shocks. My latent carnal voracity aches at these mentions. The tender massacre as you state it is all I know? A basis of relation reaffirms a humanity I often feel secular in enduring. Glad to know, I am not always alone. If I could reassure YOU of this fact, I would be a content man.
from not-tuesday :
It really is a great picture.
from nightingale- :
The content isn't what makes something poetic, it's how it's presented. Which you seem to do with an elegant ease that I adore.
from luciangrey :
I can relate to the sins of silence, my goddamn clattering mouth gets away with me and my emotions are rampant. You have my sincereity in these issues you endure.
from nightingale- :
Good call, good call. Lovely entries- I often wonder how is it that you're so poetic in your anger and jealousy, when all I can seem to get out is tormented teenage angst? Beautiful.
from nightingale- :
Too easy- we should make them have to catch the donkey, and then coat it with honey. And tie their hands together.
from nightingale- :
Yes, and they shall all succumb to our whims. I'm liking the bed idea, I think we should also install a "Don't step on a crack, or we'll break your mother's back!" rule. Just because watching them jump around the cracks would be amusing.
from nightingale- :
Ooh, could we make them sacrifice their beautiful sons AND make them give us baked goods? After all, we will be dictating their lives, they owe us. Oh, and the spitting comes with the territory. And the occasional blunt object, as well.
from not-tuesday :
Thanks for reading. It's good to know someone is.
from nightingale- :
And you could live in your Fort Nightingale as I live on Cloud Tofalldivine, because your entries always seem to lift me up, and we shall dictate the lives of those around/below us to suit our royal needs.
from nightingale- :
You're hilarious. And I think that you could very well be the diamond girl you want to be- you already sparkle. (A little cheesy? Eh, we're all a little cheesy, at heart. ;) Love you! ~Sarah*
from tarynheart :
i think i have to stop calling you darling so much. it's getting a tad silly. and i love your pretty bits of fiction, don't be silly.
from tarynheart :
i love you, darling.
from tarynheart :
understandable, darling. love you muchly <3
from nightingale- :
It's understandable, I would just cry if you left permanetaly.
from nightingale- :
NOOO! You mustn't leave us poor, ignorant fools on our own! I went through this too, and what you do is run two diaries at the same time! How about a deal- you at least give me the name to your other diary, somehow, and I'll give you mine. I just can't let you go all together!! Loves ~Sarah*
from tarynheart :
you make my world, darling. i love you <3
from earthandseed :
Impressed every time I visit.
from watercolored :
Thank you for the kind words, I'm glad you liked it.
from nightingale- :
Of course the haunting thing is still on! Do you honestly think I'd let you get away with a peaceful afterlife? ;) Don't worry about leaving too many notes- you always make me smile. Kisses and wishes ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Probably not, but it's worth a try.
from nightingale- :
You're putting yourself down for lack of vocabulary skills, and yet you use the phrase "goddess of wordem". Come on, anyone who can make up their own words, and make them sound good, has to be pretty articulate, if not straight-out cool. Which you are. And fiction is more fun than reality, anyway. Keep it up, you're amazing. ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Wow.
from nightingale- :
Aha! We're both fun pin-up girls and Earth, and...I'm supposed to have red hair! (And I do!) I know, you're jealous. ;) And a unicorn suits you (but not because you're naive).
from sunnflower :
Hi from Suburban Island and thanks so much for adding my diary to your Diaryland favorite's list!
from nightingale- :
Be sure to never lose sight of your true dreams, because settling for convienient ones can hurt more than never reaching the real ones. Love you ~Me
from doll-of-pain :
we definatly will hang out before school starts....sometime this comming week! and ill tell you with our lack of talking ways it should definatly lead for a VERY intense conversation!! XOX
from nightingale- :
Word to that. Besides, how you could ever think that you're just mediocre is beyond me. Every time I read your diary I'm blown away, and I don't know how you do it. If you're average, I'd settle for poor. Kisses and wishes ~Sarah*
from doll-of-pain :
Oh beth, youve always been really goregous and you dont really relize it. but you should. your goregous and you have a great personilty. and im not just saying this cheer you up. youre a doll and really need to realise this. im sure all your clothing looks awesome on you. xox
from nightingale- :
You'll get a grip on reality when it becomes better than daydreams. I love you, and do hope it happens soon. Just remember to throw out a cloud before you leave- the landing does get rather bumpy. ~Sarah*
from watercolored :
You couldn't be. Or could you?
from autumnsxrain :
thank you so much lovely..♥
from nightingale- :
Oh Beth, you flatter me. Honestly, I forgot what I was going to say...oh, right- what else is my diary for but shameless plugs? (Oh, and I did know about the stalking...I just didn't want it to stop ;) You're one of the strongest people I know, and I love you for it. ~Sarah*
from not-tuesday :
Thank you. I've enjoyed reading the couple of entries of yours that I've read too.
from not-tuesday :
I love the layout of your diary. 'Be Still My Heart' is one of my favorite little phrases. And of course, divine is my favorite word ever. I'm going to add you to my favorites.
from nightingale- :
At least he said mayo and not something like, I don't know, straight fat. Anyway, now that I've even grossed myself out...I hope you can find the dream behind the nightmare. Kisses and wishes ~Sarah*
from tarynheart :
i miss you more, sillier wench. it is desolate here, and the sun is making me want to shrink inside myself. i miss you and your lovely conversation. i mailed you a lovely card yesterday, you probably won't get it until long after i have returned. that's alright. but i miss you terrribly and i cannot wait to return home. do leave me more notes that i shall read and be much cheered by. <3 love you always.
from nightingale- :
It's all that people can ask of you.
from walkingxby :
i just noticed you like tool. that means you're cool. i didnt mean for that to rhyme, but that happens sometimes. fuck. rhyme & time. i need to stop talking now.
from nightingale- :
Not if I get there first!! I have an idea- fight to the death! (Oh, and Beth- I must meet your brother. He sounds almost as amazing as you. Although, it's kind of disguisting that you would be eating plain mayo. Gross.) Love you muchly! ~Sarah*
from walkingxby :
haha. *sings* i'm going to be presidentttt
from walkingxby :
my rules would be simple. you can do whatever the fuck you want. i mean, free country, right? unless i didnt like what they were doing. like, if bush was breathing, i would be like, no, stop.
from walkingxby :
move to the states, its awesome. literally anyone can be president.
from solace-blue :
oh, Beth. I love how you note me before I've even left. Heart you <3 I do hope you'll be on later tonight, I must must must get your address from you so that I may send you a postcard. And if I cannot do that, I shall buy a postcard and write on it and simply give it to you when I return. Love you muchly, I shall miss you! <3
from nightingale- :
*gets down on her knees and worships you like the supreme being you are*
from pandorasbox- :
This is my no-holds diary. Glad you like it. You're amazing, btw.
from nightingale- :
Oh, and thank you for the uplifting note. It made me smile.
from nightingale- :
I'll take it to mean that I love you because you rock. Kisses and wishes (you can thank..well, I don't really have an exotic pet to thank for that) ~Sarah*
from pandorasbox- :
Gorgeous.
from rosebynename :
I loved that "Christ desires nothing of the flesh" entry. Great connection from beginning to end. You astound me. ~Sarah*
from earthandseed :
Thank you for adding me, and thank you for drawing my attention to your entries. Wonderful!
from walkingxby :
that was an amazing entry. i love you. ♥
from nightingale- :
I'm not sure what to feel after that last entry, but it doesn't matter because I still know I loved it.
from nightingale- :
The world- that's what you're worth.
from tarynheart :
oh Beth...whatever have we gotten ourselves into? So much trouble, these days...but oh, at least we have each other. Bulwarks against the storm. love you muchly. <3Ali
from nightingale- :
John Ashcroft, that's who. Damn, he's watching...they're always watching...(I'm also paranoid. It's a crazy world we live in, during this mad season.) Haha, I'm glad you can handle my insanity, and I love you for every minute of it. Oh, and the sex. That's good too. ;) Love you! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Damn, walkingxby stole my note!! Curse you...
from walkingxby :
you are perfect.
from nightingale- :
Why anyone would care if you loved them is a mystery to me, because just being in love with you would be reward enough. You're amazing. ~Sarah*
from queentrixie :
Thank you! I adore your diary, very thought provoking.
from nightingale- :
Yea, I'd have to say that losing everything you love, while still being alive, would be the equivalent of Hell. And I know exactly what you mean by the haunting thing- I've been planning who I was going to haunt for years now. (Believe me, you're high on the list. ;) Your future old, fat, and threatening friend ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
*blushes* Thanks...*tee hee* I love you too!
from nightingale- :
Sometimes, it's hard to realize that something you'd really like to say just sounds weird to other people. Believe me, I've been there. Damn reality. Love you! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
That was one of the cutest conversations I've ever read. Hah, I love you year-round! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Thank you, but your flattery falls on those who deserve none. And if I ever find a gold strong enough to hold the praise I shall bestow upon it, you shall have a shrine built in your honor. It is much overdue. Love ya ~Sarah*
from watercolored :
"The beauty is in the flaws, the tiny things that make us different." With a single sentence you restored hope that intelligence isn't outdated-yet. I savour an entry randomly when time allows. You're a rare pleasure.
from nightingale- :
Why wouldn't people be attracted to you? Ow ow! Haha ;-) Love ya! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
I don't know how anyone as beautiful as you could forget why they love themselves, but I'm glad you have someone to remind you. Love you! ~Sarah*
from doll-of-pain :
1)If you could use three words to describe yourself they would be... Dreamer.Lost.Romantic. 2)If you could be reincarnated as an animal what would you want to be? Dog(a quiet lap dog) 3)What do you think you would be if you actually were?...not what you want, what you would be. Cat. 4)If you could say one word only and then you would be silent forever, what would it be? Goodbye. Id hate to leave without saying goodbye. 5) What is a promise you would never make?- I will never promise i wont hurt someone. Thats impossible.
from nightingale- :
"Oh spleen does that star-spangled spleen yet wave..." Haha, hilarious. I would answer your questions, but I think it'd take up too much notes space. Although, I'd probably be reincarnated as a bush baby and my last word would be "live". Because we should all learn how to. Love you! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Wow. As always, your words and your beauty, astound me as much as the brightest night sky. ;) Love you~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Well, if all goes well, we'll grow up to be old, one of us fat and the other haggard, and then peacefully ascend into the hippie heaven we all know exists. Now, to just steal enough money and Ho Hos to live off of during our old age...*wink* The Feds have got nothin' on us! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
*gets down on her knees and worships you* (And in no way was I just calling you an asshole. Haha, I love you!) ~Sarah*
from keylaipie :
Why is everyone artists? I'm confused. >_<" movie on weekend?
from nightingale- :
That poem left me speechless, not to mention the entries following it...how someone could be as beautiful as you is beyond me. Love you! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Sarcasm's a mighty tool, my friend. Glad I could get rid of that pesky reality for ya. Oh, and I'm also glad that you decided to snuggle me to death so soon. Thanks. (See, sarcasm!) Love ya ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
*writes "reality" down on a sheet of paper, chews it up, spits it out, burns it, and throws it away* Done.
from nightingale- :
WoOt! Almost- dates! I hope you had fun (and stayed STD free!) lol. Love ya ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Sometimes it's hard to find reality...maybe we should just ditch it altogether. Love you! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
If I didn't know you any better, I'd say that you were incredibly high during that "Weird" entry. (Were you?) Haha, it somehow still turned out to be beautiful. Amazing.
from rosebynename :
There are many reasons to love you, but mainly because of the depth and perception with which you write. Never change.
from nightingale- :
I'm sure being "snuggled to doom" is more enjoyable than it sounds. At least, I hope so. ;) Love you! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Time has no place in love. Oh darling, your entries always continue to amaze me with their depth and sincerity. And how often I can relate...you are beautiful in every way. I love you! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Yay! You make me smile all over. (Don't think too hard about that one...I basically have no idea what it was supposed to mean. But I'm sure if I had multiple mouths, they would be smiling, too. I'm going to stop now.) I hope your happiness extends itself as much as possible! Have fun at your shows! Love, Sarah*
from nightingale- :
*squeals in delight* Yay for you!! I hope your happy night extends into happy days! Kisses and wishes ~Sarah*
from tarynheart :
haha...oh Beth, I love you! and yes, of course we shall! I feel determined to make this summer rock and be awesome. <3<3
from nightingale- :
To be used hurts, but even moreso when you know just how little it hurts them. I hope you can get through this and rise above them like the better person that I know you are. You're beautiful and sensitive and deeply aware of emotions...and that's why you can make it. You are stronger than them. You know how to live- they only know how to kill. Use it to your advantage. Love you! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Life's too short to fear-especially that which you crave. Love can be found in the most unexpected places, so if you're looking for your dream man, start with reality. Love~Sarah*
from rosebynename :
Wow. I think I love you.
from nightingale- :
I love you, despite your flaws!! If someone can't see you for the beautiful, deep, poetic person you really are, that's their loss. Kisses and Wishes ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
No, it's perfectly normal to feel this type of jealousy, especially over a parent. Just don't let it take you over- life will go on, and your father does still love you. No one can take away Daddy's Little Girl. (And you could never be shallow. Ever.) I love you! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
I do hope you don't have to share too much. But remember, love, more than one person is allowed to love a man, particularly if it's your father. I love you! Kisses and wishes~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Darling, I know exactly what you mean. Probably because I've already done it myself. (haha, ooh, mysterious!) Love you lots! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
You used the word wench appropriately in a sentence? You are my hero. (And as far as bad winters go- I feel your pain. I practically live in Canada anyway. Winters are bitchy, but ya gotta love 'um.) Just like I love you! (But you're not bitchy, you're a sweetheart and I love you! Haha!) ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
It's funny how in purgatory you're not supposed to feel anything, but because of this you feel worse than if you were in hell. Would you like to climb in my lifeboat, darling? We're going up the river Styx...Love you always, you're amazing!! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
AHH! I love you so much I just want to scream! I'm so estatic for you- if you're able to giggle with delight at three in the morning because you're talking to a boy, you're living a life envied by most. And as far as me saying something retarded...let's just say I'm glad you don't talk to me in real life. (Half the people I know think I'm insane!) I love you! ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Oh honey, if someone has caused you that much pain, just know that they can do it again. Possibly even more. I'm not telling you what to do- nobody can, and nobody should even try to- but just remember to take everything into account and don't sugarcoat pain with a sideways gaze. Trust me, it only turns you into a diabetic. (Horrible joke, please forgive me.) Love you always, Sarah*
from darkthinger :
You know Kat. Kat knows me. She showed me your diary, and I love your writing. Would it be alright if I added you to my buddy list, so I can read your stuff some more?
from luciangrey :
Dearest, Thank you for the addition and the kinds words, my absence of late does not warrent the kind of labels you have bestowed upon me? Nevertheless I reside grateful. - L.
from nightingale- :
I can't believe you...you amaze me, in so many ways. Your metaphors, flowing language, beautiful use of imagery...I can't begin to describe it all. Not to mention you seem to understand everything I say better than anyone. Oh, and don't be afraid to get lost in the sunlight- it's always warm there. Kisses and Wishes~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Please, don't fall asleep- life is too wonderful, too full of beauty to miss a beat. And, believe it or not, it's people like you that make me never miss a beat. Kisses and wishes~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
A life without passion is an impassionate one indeed. (That was absurdly redundant. Sorry about that!) And in reality, aren't we all hiding within our diaryland worlds? Kisses and wishes ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Well, if someone with normal logic were to read my last entry, they probably wouldn't understand a whole lot of the transitions. Luckily for us, we're both nonsensical! Woot! Kisses and Wishes ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Oh love, if you were to leave, I don't know what I would do...but there would be a lot more than just random thoughts of you, believe me. Believe you me.
from nightingale- :
I should just have you go to every movie I want to see and tell me if it sucked or not. Lol. Oh, and in response to your question- both. ;) But it's more of a "Kisses and (may all of your) Wishes (come true)" type of thing. Love you! ~Sarah*
from watercolored :
Thank you for adding me as a favourite, and for the compliment. I'm enjoying a browse through your pages as well!
from nightingale- :
Thank you darling. Oh, and as far as that kiss/evil laugh goes- aren't they essentially the same? Ugh, there's something I don't want to think about..lol...Kisses and wishes ~Sarah*
from nightingale- :
Oh darling, just remember that a cocoon of heartbreak will inevitiably lead to a butterfly of serenity. Only those who live life can truly enjoy, and you, my love, definately live. Kisses and wishes, Sarah
from nightingale- :
So...how much is it going for? (Haha, as much as I love your soul, I love you too much to let you get rid of it. Hold on to it as long as Fate will let you.) Love you! ~Sarah
from keylaipie :
bethy bethy bethy! I'm verrryy excited about The Terminal, I so wanted to see it. You guys better give me a call Tuesday then.
from rosebynename :
Never keep quiet, darling.
from nightingale- :
The lies of the past inspire the truths of the future. At least, that's what they told me...
from nightingale- :
Woot! Official appearance! Woot! Inspiring thoughts! Woot! Encouraging the thoughts of God having casual sex! ...haha, wow.
from nightingale- :
Wow. I think you just blew my mind. They were all filled with such depth and perception...but, if I had to choose favorites, I would have to say #3 and 5 would do it. Oh man, number 5...insanely beautiful is the only way to describe it. Kisses and Wishes ~Me
from tarynheart :
beth, you are lovely. those were...lovely. stunning, actually. i always knew you could write but not quite like that. they are beautiful. your mind amazes me.<3<3
from nightingale- :
No darling- you shall always be the beautiful, intelligent, sensitive girl I was drawn to admire. Kisses and Wishes~Sarah
from nightingale- :
You'd BETTER hold on! I wouldn't want to lose someone as beautiful as you! (And yes, maybe that was a threat- wanna do something about it?) Love you always, Sarah
from nightingale- :
I sincerely hope you can find something sturdy to hold onto through this hurricane- because I love you, and I don't want you to blow away. Ever.
from nightingale- :
Rice pudding?! Woah, let's not be too drastic...if you want to be my skinny, hagard old friend, you'll have to do it the right way. No food. Whatsoever. Oh, and you'll have to stop bathing as well. Peace!
from nightingale- :
Oh- and you can most definately be my skinny, haggard friend. Just don't touch my Ho Hos.
from nightingale- :
It's like we're the same person!! I actually wrote a poem a while back that sounded like your "I can't hang on your words" entry. You're everything anyone could want to be. I love you.
from nightingale- :
Thank you, you're always so thoughtful. The notes you leave really remind me of all the caring, beautiful people out there, and I love you for it. Thanks ~Sarah
from nightingale- :
No one can take away that which is rightfully yours- your name, your throne, your title as Queen...your soul. And that's what I love about you.
from nightingale- :
Here here, sista! Oh man...I am so incredibly white...
from rosebynename :
Perhaps that is why blueberries tend to be so bitter.
from nightingale- :
If our lives were storybooks, yours would be a pop-up.
from nightingale- :
Thanks for that last note, they always seem to brighten up my day just when I need it! Oh, and don't worry about that morbid laughing thing- I would rather have you laugh than cry. (Besides, I'd do the same thing in your position.) You rock.
from nightingale- :
Music makes the world taste good. (And yes- that made sense.) Recently I had the song, "Now look around your world, pretty baby. Is it everything you hoped it would be?" stuck in my head. Good stuff.
from nightingale- :
If you could amaze me any more- well, you can't. I love you.
from rosebynename :
Forgive me, it's late at night, the moon is right...oh, what am I saying, the moon is never right. Only the stars could be so bright.
from rosebynename :
**I=I am
from rosebynename :
You are outstanding. I love your diary and I don't think I could express emotion better myself. I sure the bastard deserves whatever they get!!
from nightingale- :
You can have some of my oxygen. There's plenty more under the sun...or shade, as some may have it.
from nightingale- :
Ah, the land of bleeding hearts...how many times I have been there for a visit. How well you capture it with words. By the way...do you know how to get out?
from nightingale- :
Oho, the basking I shall do...
from nightingale- :
Ugh, so many moons out there...thank you for being a star.
from nightingale- :
Love is when you can't let go, but will. Brava.
from nightingale- :
Oh, but if only you saw how much the skies love you! How much they cry for you and your hatred of yourself! Please, remember- you are a beautiful person, who has more depth and grace than people can comprehend and I love you for that.
from nightingale- :
Ah, therein lies our mistake- society always expects stars out of those who will never be anything more than a moon. But stars are perfection, stars are that which we cannot reach and might never want to. Yet you are so much better than a moon- you have a view on the cosmos that most people ignore. You, my friend, could be nothing less than the Northern Lights- beautiful, always changing, uplifting, enlightening.
from nightingale- :
I love you. (Girl or boy ;)
from nightingale- :
You could never be as vain as the moon. You could be nothing but a star.
from tarynheart :
oh, I've been neglectful. I appologize. But you know everything I could say here, anyway. Beth, I love your diary, always will and always have. Your words are...beautiful and beyond. I wish you'd see yourself as I see you, as all of us see you. Much love, darling. <3
from nightingale- :
*Another note in an unending line of notes by nightingale-* I was JUST thinking practically EXACTLY what you wrote just before I came on Diaryland!! You are so amazing!
from nightingale- :
External beauty comes and goes, but internal beauty forever flows. Wow, that was corny...forgive me, it's a Saturday.
from nightingale- :
Oh darling...sometimes it is only through the mist of the rain that you can see the rainbow. I love you.
from nightingale- :
WOW...you're in grade 10? I never would've guessed from your writing...uber hot men make the day a little better ;)!
from nightingale- :
Oh, I forgot to mention- your last entry was full of truth, and I love you for that.
from nightingale- :
Oh man, I can't believe you said that thing about being a porcelain puppet...I wrote a poem back in the day entitled "Puppeteer"...we're on the same wavelength. Awesome.
from nightingale- :
Yes, but if sad songs didn't make people happy, how could happy songs ever get people so depressed? "Tomorrow is a day gone by..." I love it. I absolutely love it.
from nightingale- :
Some say there's a thin line between love and hate. I say they swim in the same pool. I hope you find your love again...poetry to last through love. That's what you have.
from chibi-kami :
Such beautiful language and metaphors. I hope that perhaps this friend of yours realizes her worth to you.
from chibi-kami :
"A star is an ever silent listener and a perfect friend." 'Tis beautiful.
from nightingale- :
*tear* All of the symbolism with celestial bodies...have you read my diary lately? I think we may be talking about the same thing. Gorgeous.
from nightingale- :
Oh darling...I think you should watch Moulin Rouge. It can open your eyes to the wonders of love...and shut them again with the heartbreak of a loved one. Then again, maybe you shouldn't...you're a true gift.
from nightingale- :
You give me a smile made of tears. Beautiful.
from doll-of-pain :
misstresss what on earth you doing saturday! drinking little miss!!!! :O:O:O:O:O:O xoxoxoxooxoxoxox
from nightingale- :
"You are beautiful no matter what they say..." Sorry to have to use such a cliche song, but I felt it was appropriate. I love you!
from ourinnocence :
that sounds awesome, i am not much for coffee, but hey they serve hott choclate like every where! hehe. and i'll deffinatly see you on saturday, gab at you later. peace babe *mwah* Robz xoxox
from ourinnocence :
beth i love you do much. thank you for the note it means everything to me to know you care. i forget that anyone reads those entries. wheni sit down to write it just flows out of my fingers you know? i dont even remeber what i wrote. I have to comment on what an amazing writer you are. I dont totally understamd what is said in your diary but through your writing I can feel the meaning. I don't know maybe i sounds crazy, but i am crazy these days. talk to me beth, call me up and we'll do something. luv *hugz and kisseS* peace Robyn
from nightingale- :
Your last entry...wow. I don't know what else to say...it was deep, poetic, thought-provoking, and yet somehow I seemed to know what every word meant...you are truly talented.
from nightingale- :
Please don't leave us here in our darkened world- you spread such a golden light over the human soul.
from tarynheart :
Bethbeth...<3 I think I hurt you and I'm sorry if I did. But I might just be being vain and if I am I'm sorry for that also. There are things I should tell you but I'm not sure how to say it and I don't know how you'd take it and sigh. Have a good day, okay? And know that I care about you and think you're awesome and other things. <3 you muchly.
from doll-of-pain :
oh bethany sounds like your having wonderfl days now a days... lol. Im glad and I hope to hang out with you soon. One day when I have monday I was prance to your house and drag you to starbucks or secondcup for a coffee-zilla chat down. and I will tell you all about my new hair and my hemp diet im going on soon! and you can tell me about all your new adventures and all your new friends!!! and maybe boyfriends! hehehehehhee. coffee time. SOOON. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
from doll-of-pain :
I like your comment for me on your profile and I like your comment on my flog. Seeing in how I am now off my never ending but ended house arrest we can hang out and it will be hunky dory with my blue hair and my shortness and your normal haior and your tallness it shall create splendid never long enough hours on end! CALL ME! xox
from jinx1 :
You are a very thought provoking person, and an excellent writter. Just stopping by - Jinx
from nightingale- :
Yea, I'm starting to seriously question high school. I'm questioning society as a whole even more, but since high school is like a compacted society, it's basically the same thing. British humor rocks. ~Sarah
from nightingale- :
Hey! Sorry, you don't know me...at all...unless of course you're my stalker, in which case you know me but you probably don't know that I'm the one writing this, so you wouldn't know it's me anyway...ok, sorry, back to the point- I tried finding people who liked Monty Python and the Holy Grial, and you did, so...there we are...yea, that was pretty much my whole story. Wow, I'm odd. Well, if you'd like to talk, I'm here! (P.S.- my name is Sarah.) See ya! Keep writing, you rock! ~Sarah
from tarynheart :
Wow. Can COMPLETELY relate to your latest entry. Well said, really. <3
from tarynheart :
If it's any consolation, I also think Valetine's is stupid and that girls get so ridiculously silly over it. Oh pooh, hearts and chocolates. It's so assinine. Anyway. On a side note...I won't be at school tomorrow, strep throat, so could you pretty please pick up my science homework from Mrs. Stoutenberg? *hugglehs* Much love <3
from doll-of-pain :
DONT CRY BETHY BONE!!! YOUR TO PURDY TO CRY!!! ILL CRY FOR YOU IF YOU DONT CRY EVER AGAIN! hehehe. I miss yew tonz and call me and cause im not doing much on saturday [i think] so call moi and we shall chill in in the hizzouse! hahaha. must clean now and i love ytou dearly and talk to me if you need help, im an even better listener/helper then i was last year! :) love yew. xox chelsey
from doll-of-pain :
hey you, yes we do ahve to do something soon, call me this weekend if you want. I dont think I have ringette on saturday. but ive no money...:P p.s download beetle bum by blur or make me send it to you. miss yew. xox
from tarynheart :
of course! i'm sorry that i didn't automatically give you one. i'm just being very cautious about who i let read right now. i'll send you a password right away.
from doll-of-pain :
awe bethy your stories sound so sad whats wrong??? talk to me sometime and call me you know! cya!!! xox
from tarynheart :
hmm. i know how that is. being automatic. and so angry like that that your fingers fly across the keys until you've gotten it all out and you sit back and sigh. maybe in appreciation and maybe just in exhaustion. i think i understand you. we should talk more...hmm. i'm here for you babe, even if i'm hardly in the picture.
from tarynheart :
no, i wasn't quoting anyone. i wrote that. but perhaps it is something that has been mentioned before, or perhaps you remember it from a life before. deja vu.
from tarynheart :
a good song by them is timberwolves at new jersey...but they're all good if you ask me.
from tarynheart :
a good song by them is timberwolves at new jersey...but they're all good if you ask me.
from tarynheart :
"you're a touch overrated...you're a lush, and i hate it." do you listen to taking back sunday? i love them. i understand how you feel, i don't relate well to many people either. no one understands us, how could they? they don't know what's like. at least they try, though. it's hard to find people who are like you, nevermind think like you. i'm just thankful that i'm original, an individual. we're a rare sort of breed. <3
from tarynheart :
reality is overrated, and usually painful. it's so much better to live in dreams. people are wrong when they say it's unhealthy, what is so wrong about creating a world all your own? at least you can be content with it. i'm not sure why i frighten you, i didn't mean to, so my appologies. and if you are interested in reading Echo, i can lend kat my copy to give to you if you'd like. <3 ali
from tarynheart :
you should read Echo by Francesca Lia Block...i think, perhaps, that you would truly understand the pains of Echo herself. and also. i know how you feel, to my best ability. dream-time apparitions that you wish would stay, never go away. there's a girl, a faerie, an angel, who stays beside me in the night, in my dreams. she is gone when i awake. and a man who becomes a bird and is beautiful. he watches over me. and i can feel him there in the daytime...he's not real, they say. imagination, they say. why do we listen to them, pretty girl? we know they're real. ah well, such secrets must be kept in the heart, no? loves and faery kisses <3 ali
from keylaipie :
How was Bowie?!?!?!?!?! As it was told in 3 of your entries, why am I asking you ask? Because I can! *proud look* I'm really tired but not really, you know? I slept non-continuously until 4 today! I shouldn't be left home alone because i eat like mad. I have decided I probably ate enough to last me a month but tomorrow...there will be food and there will be a Kelly and there will be food in the Kelly. >.< I shall go *cough* sleep *cough* now and let the abundance (the wrod which i found out meant a lot and not lack of today thanks to Jen) of food cling to my thighs, ass and tummy and set in to their new home. Oh~and thank you for the comment on my flog. You're such a sweetie, *glomps* talk to you soon and you shall tell me about the concert with your girlish giggles and what not.
from starlet-21 :
this is going to sound insane, but i'm about to lose someone i really care about and if you could do me a HUGE favor and leave chris-uk a note to tell him to forgive me, it would mean the world. i'm hoping if enough persuasive notes are left it might impact him to listen to me. <3 - katie
from doll-of-pain :
I HAVE THE LABRYNTH(cant spell it but can finally say it!) ON DVD hahaa......Sorry its a need to know bases.....if we dont go out for coffee before the new year comes Karen and I are going to the zoo lights possibly if youve got nothing better to do you should come. they are pretty. anyways. call me or something.
from doll-of-pain :
Its ok I dont need a comment! lol. I hope you got my christmas junk in your mail box. I dont know why but i just did that ha. im a loser. but merry christmas beth. hope all is going wonderful:)
from keylaipie :
~glomp~ i luuuurrrve you!
from ciulionn :
You said, "I'm not really sure who she is but her diary is beautiful". That's quite flattering. If knowing me is necessary, ask what you'd like answered and I'll do my best. Thank you for listing me as a favorite.
from frozenblack :
hey babe!! geeez, did you have to post to the world that im computer illiterate?! my god woman!! what are you thinking?! lmao!! i agree with ur comment to marie though..haha! I'd like to finalize this mindless rambling by saying: You are beautiful in soo many ways!! physically you're gorgeous! and im NOT saying that to be nice. cuz i hate being nice. lol! you're beautiful in your writing, thats why i love reading your entries so much! And Beth all around is just..BEAUTIFUL!! :):):)

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