messages to x-plicity:
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| from wildrosie : |
| *Sigh* The only problem with new and improved computers is that the passwords I had stored do not automatically save themselves and follow along nicely. So, ummm, would it be possible to get yours again? I am wildwestrosie at yahhoodles. Thank you darlin'! |
| from whystinger : |
| Congrats Auntie! And thanks for the note. I was pretty proud, thinking I handled her well, but learned yesterday I need to do more - and I will explain later, after I write my entry for the therapy... I will send you the details if you want... |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Mazal Tov!!! x |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Congrats dear! P.S. Thanks for all the much needed *hugs*... ~smooches~ |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Congratulations, Auntie X! congratulations, Mrs. Mike! Happy Hugs |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Thank you for your emails! Thank you for worrying about you. You are such a honey. x I love the new name for your diary. I hope you are doing ok. x |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Oh, you're new diary's layout is gorgeous! How serene...I love it! I guessed at the login...Have a good one, sweetie! |
| from second-love : |
| Can't wait to see it!!! :) xo Have a nice weekend. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Nah - not x-ploited. Now that you're truly settled..don't you feel like you've X-caped? |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| I like that too. But as it's a back up one how about something like "X-pertlydone" hahaha. |
| from second-love : |
| Yep im with everyone else for the same reasons...x-centricity!!! :))))))))))) And you are NO traitor!! ;) |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Oh definitely X-centricity!!! And so definitely NOT X-ploited!!!!!! Please don't go with that! That is so not appropriate to you! You want your diary name to say something about you! And as this diary is about your new life, the new chapter, your life with Mike, X-ploited is so not appropriate! And conversely, I LOVE X-centricity! That is so you! But given free rein, I'd christen you X-quisite! |
| from chickpea981 : |
| Yes my dear, we are on the same path. X-centricity is my pick. X-ploited is to victimizing and too "oh I've been wronged!!!" *hand to forehead in anguish* and aren't you trying to start anew? |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I think starting a new diary for this new stage in your life is a good idea. Like you did before.I hope you and your neice are having loads of fun! And I hope her foot is ok! |
| from second-love : |
| I think opening a new diary is a GREAT idea!!!!! You should start fresh now that you have a whole new life! Yes, your life was new before too, but this is different. I think a new diary is called for!!! :) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm sure you'll make the right choice. Change IS hard, but sometimes it lifts us up and makes things fresh again. It seems like you're in a good place for such an experience. Hugs |
| from second-love : |
| I once had a brief, but OH SO FAB "fling" with a guy who was 5 years younger than me. OH MY was he HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOT and just NEVER got tired. There is something to be said for "youth" *wink* |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| You are so right about appreciation!! |
| from whystinger : |
| I love it, "the smallest? definitely m... but he sure could use his tongue..." So, he couldn't cut the mustard, but boy he sure COULD lick the jar... |
| from erianne1 : |
| *big hugs* |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Heehee. We have something in common. Phil is my fifth, and the ex was the biggest! Otherwise, I'm not talking! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| That was a quick visit! Sorry about her foot-Damn that wicked woman who stepped on her!! |
| from whystinger : |
| Me no likes the Megan... gave me the creeps reading. Watch her, she doesn't have your best interests or Mike's at heart. She is an addict, so she will blame everything on anyone she can and doesn't care what she destroys... but it sounded like you handled her pretty well and maybe took the steam out of her... Still, she sounded sort of fucked up and those are the dangerous ones. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You always handle things so expertly; what you said to Megan and confronting the potential situation with your beloved. I hope I can grow up to be just like you. Oh yeah-that's right-I'm older than you. That ship has sailed! Hahaha! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Hmmmmm - the honeymoon was just a few short weeks ago. Have you taken a pregnancy test to rule that out? I know a couple weeks into my pregnancy I got REALLY depressed and could not stop crying. Just a thought *giggles* |
| from whystinger : |
| Hmmm, I think I will take this off here and send an email... I hope you are doing well... I will try to not preach... |
| from whystinger : |
| Oh X! Me thinks you are right... she is trying to hold on... she asked me if I was going back tonight, and I said "yeah, appointment tomorrow" and got the "you didn't tell me you made another appointment..." when if fact I did. |
| from second-love : |
| **hugs** |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Yay for company!!!! Have fun! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| That's great news! Have loads of fun! xx |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You sound like me-my nieces are the daughters I never had! How old is Theresa? |
| from grt8f84me : |
| I hope you have fun with your niece! And thanks for the notes...it means a lot to me! Yay...the weekend! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Yay for Mike! I don't even know what to say about poor Scotty, but OUCH! You are so sweet to worry about me, but there's no need; I'm just going the extremes lately. I'm fine, I promise! |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Congrats to Mike! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Ow!!!! Poor Scotty!! Puts my bruise into perspective!! I did it by falling down onto a box! The box corner scratched me and the bruise formed either side of the scratch. It really is freaky though eh! |
| from noaddedme : |
| ow! but oh so funny! |
| from second-love : |
| OMG hahahahaha OUCH! |
| from second-love : |
| **hugs** |
| from jwinokur : |
| I think it's so great to check my diaryland notes from time to time and see posts from you! You know, why don't you just email me directly? Justin at the justinwinokur and the dot com thing. That's me. Talk with you soon! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm glad you're feeling better. I know how you feel about things being so perfect and not lasting. But we've paid our dues, and we're not taking what we have for granted, so why shouldn't it last? |
| from whystinger : |
| You got it.... and it is a loooooong one. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| When I get like that, I usually find it's due to my diet or lack of sleep. If you think it's stress, it probably is. It'll pass. |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| ah, yes. I am often forgetting things. It suddenly got worse when I was pregnant and never really went away... No chance of a mini X is there?? You know, honeymoon etc.... ;) Then as soon as women mention hormones my radar goes into overdrive! :) Take care and hope all is improving VERY soon! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I SOOOOOO understand that short memory thing!!!! I um.... err... what was I saying?? Oh well, anyway, I know what you mean!!! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Burn, Baby, Burn! |
| from second-love : |
| I hope we dont lose you online when you arent working anymore :((((( It will be lonely without my X ;) |
| from whystinger : |
| The appointment went soooooo damn well. I am hopefull... I am not sure I will stay. She brought some things to my attention... |
| from second-love : |
| oMG im sooooooooooooooo excited for you!!!! How awesome!!! xo |
| from whystinger : |
| Unfortunately we were both right. I should have! Oh, and you are right again. I think that is why I write about sex and pretty women... |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Yaaaaaaay! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Soooo happy for you!!! How exciting!!! |
| from whystinger : |
| I feel your pain... since starting weight watchers, I have not had a cheeseburger or fries in, what, four weeks or more? |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Awww...feel better, Love. |
| from noaddedme : |
| I can kill the donut want for you. My friend just recently started working at a bakery. The first day she saw the soon to be leaving ex-wife of the owner frost donuts with her bare fingers. She's since seen the owner LICK the dribbling filling out of eclairs and put them on the rack. Plus when a frosting tip gets clogged he just sucks it out like a hoover. There, now you never want a donut or baked good again! You're welcome & feel better soon! |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Feel better soon dear. ~smooches~ |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Brown-haired Stacey was never married to Mike ;-) |
| from whystinger : |
| Nice bread recipe. I used to cook one like that, but with a lot more oil. I cut the oil down and added someting like twice the banana... As far as for Brown haired Stacey, send her my way... I love brunettes... on the serious side, don't show the jealousy, just trust him. Oh, it won't hurt for you to give him a "little special lovin" before he sees her. Remember a good man in a satifsied relationship will turn down a naked tart offering a blow job... |
| from second-love : |
| Ahhhhhhh yes the crabby jealous crab :) i know JUST what you mean :) I HATE that feeling. **tons of hugs** |
| from noaddedme : |
| I'm glad it went well! Mr. Stubby would be a good band name ... |
| from whystinger : |
| BTW, I am glad Mike is doing well... As for the eating and losing weight, it sounds weird, but does make sense.... sort of |
| from whystinger : |
| Hmmmm, she tells me she is a lesbian, but doesn't act like it... She was living with a lesbian, but that doesn't always mean anything. Is she just being friendly or is she confused or what. Or is it some bizarre test...??? |
| from the-big-day : |
| I've got to try to remember that people read this one-I get to writing in there like it's a private journal! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm glad that's over! Mike's lucky to have you doting over him! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Thinking of you, and sending good wishes and healing thoughts to Mike!! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Best wishes & prayers to Mike. You'll be missed, but I think we can manage for one day. |
| from second-love : |
| Me and my CRAZY life will miss you tomorrow...but im sure there will be more fun to post on Thursday hee hee |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm sure Band Kamp is lucky to have you. You are SO on a roll with that diet! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hahaha, cute comment below. But YUMMY!!! :-)) |
| from second-love : |
| My X has gone domestic!!!! If someone had told me 2 years ago that you would be posting recipes...i would have called them crazy :) So lovely to see you so happy. xo |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I think he hit the jackpot too! x |
| from plopphizz : |
| When did you go password protected? I thought the whole point of you blogging was candid and crude. Thanks for the comment anyway, I know I have been lame writing there lately. -- Ploppy. |
| from second-love : |
| awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww i love newly weds. But really...its better to NOT get caught up in something that isnt realistic. Real life WILL set in!!! Im not trying to be a bummer!! I think you can always commit to doing everything you can to make life great and love great. If anyone can do it, its you TWO!!!! But just remember...there is no way real life cant sneak in at some point...and thats ok!!! Thats why its nice to have each other. ;) **hugs** |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Okay. Tell me how I was soooo dense and caught up in my own mess to forget and MISS the fact that you and Mike got MARRIED!!! Hon... I am soooooo sorry that I missed it. You looked soooo beautiful and happy... Congrats to you AND Mike. You are both soooooo lucky to have found the love that you have. *huggles* Sweety.. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Good for you! I know it's not easy. I've had a recent slip too-ate sweets and lost control for not quite 24 hours, but I've pledged to get back on the wagon and am searching deep for some renewed enthusiasm. I'm proud of you! Hugs |
| from whystinger : |
| still, one wonders... church conferences, Jimmy Bakker and all that... Still, some of those old gals were HOT. Pretty, sexy and in shape.... My sis also checks out the gals. She doens't bum out when her hubby does, but Honi, FREAKS! I tend to check everyone out ; |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I was actually wondering about that. I'm sorry you had to feel bad for parts of the week. But you know? You're an incredible person! Always the optimist! Good for Mike, too, in coaching you back. |
| from noaddedme : |
| I'm glad that you have such a wonderful husband to help you with your eating. That really does make the battle easier doesn't it? I hope you are in remission soon and feeling as amazing as you should feel! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Thanks for sharing-yum... I need to get my eating sorted out and FAST. I feel totally bloated and unhealthy. Ughh. I am hating myself right now. Glad that Mike got a better doctor, still it must be so scary!! I hope it all goes well. Take care, both of you. x |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Oh that sounds sooooo yummy! I'm going to have to try that. |
| from second-love : |
| Sweet memories...cherish them |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Glad to hear Mike's news. Sounds like he finally found the right doctor. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm so happy that you had the wedding you deserved-except for the theft, which you handled creatively. Girl, I couldn't be happier for you. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am so very happy for you!! x |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Awwww it sounds like such a wonderful time - really helps with my cold feet - lol! |
| from imabrat2 : |
| Hi...are you sharing your password? |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Lovely pics my dear... |
| from dvacowgirl : |
| What a beautiful bride, and the groom isn't bad either :) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| The pictures are breathtaking!!! I am so so so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| Girl...You're beautiful, Mike's handsome...You two are truly a lovely couple! I'm so happy for you! I know you are going to have many happy years together!! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Oh sweetie....freckles on you are adorable and beautiful! (hot could they not be?). That totally sucks about your stolen valuables though - what an ass munch! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Oh, chica! Congratulations! You give me hope that there is that kind of love out there...even for me. I love the pictue of Mike kissing you on top of your head. How tender and sweet! I'm happy for you...you are a beautiful bride, and I wish you and Mike all the very best! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Eeeee!!!! Can't wait to hear about all your adventures! The pictures were just amazing. You two look so cute together *grins* Glad you're back ((hugs)) |
| from chickpea981 : |
| My favorite pictures: 49, 70, 78, 85, 90, 102, and 125. You have got to get an up close shot of the embroidery on that dress - it's equisite. You look amazing, Mike looks so handsome and the two of you look so happy. I hope your marriage is as wonderful as can be. You both deserve nothing but the best!!! |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| Awwww!!! Congratulations sweetie!! You looked absolutely beautiful and you both looked so happy. Best wishes! |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Hey Christina! Perfect - even a man can see it! Vin's a lucky guy! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| CONGRATULATIONS! You lucky girl. You made a beautiful, perfect bride, and Mike isn't too shabby either! I'm SO happy for you, I'm about to burst! Your dress was beautiful, your hair was perfect, the flowers were exquisite, and you look too happy for words. Mike too! So, congratulations, Mrs. Mike! Welcome back, too-I can't tell you how much I missed your entries, though your guest entrants were rather entertaining too! HUGS!! |
| from noaddedme : |
| CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!! The pictures are wonderful, you looked absolutely stunning sweetie!!! The pic. of your hands together reminded me of something cool I heard on the radio a few weeks ago. Every anniversary take a new pictures of your hands together so you can compare them over the years. Someone had done that and they'd been married a LONG time (like 35+ years) and they said it was the most special thing to look back on. Again, congrats and you are a beautiful couple! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| Hey welcome back. Such gorgeous pics. You both look so HAPPY. Congratulations beautiful!! |
| from yo-bitch : |
| jesus. look at that horrible block of text. it's been forever since i used d-land, dear, and i can't seem to edit entries posted to someone else's diary. i'm so sorry. :( |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Hey X! Hope you've had a great one. Delete the 'film' if you don't like it xx |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I'm so sorry I didn't get round to wishing you luck! But I am thinking of you!! And wishing you all the happiness in the world!! You deserve it!! You both do! I can't believe how far we've come! From those humble beginnings!! lol!! From the affairs diaryring!! Wow, it's like another lifetime!! I'm just so thrilled for you and proud of you! Congratulations beautiful! |
| from endthelies : |
| Congratulations on getting married! I hope everything goes beautifully! |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| I CANNOT wait till you get back and tell us how it was. I'm so excited for you!! Best of luck with everything - I hope you have a beautiful time. |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| I CANNOT wait till you get back and tell us how it was. I'm so excited for you!! Best of luck with everything - I hope you have a beautiful time. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm beyond happy for you! Have a wonderful time. You're going to be the most beautiful bride. I can't wait to see pix and hear all about it. Big happy hugs!! |
| from dope-slave : |
| Aw, darling, that's sweet of you to say. Thanks. BTW, what's up with the locked entries? Gimme a password, plz. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Oh, my little X have a wonderful time, congratulations and all the very very best to you two. Love you! x |
| from second-love : |
| Love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| goodbye and good luck, we will miss you but we understand. Lol. Oh dear, I am really not on this planet. All the best with everything AND I WANT PICTURES of lovely X at her best. Sending you lots of pre and post marital excited hugs!!! :) Becca |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am so happy and excited for you guys! |
| from iam-perfect : |
| will you let me in? |
| from yo-bitch : |
| we'll miss you, and congratulations! i could also blog-sit for you if you like. aaahaha. |
| from chakra-chick : |
| oooohhh!!! pick me ! pick me! Would love to guest spot in your blog sweetie...just give me the subject and I'll be more than happy to keep your diary busy! Wow! Time sure has flown...you'll be a Mrs. soon. |
| from second-love : |
| You know ill Blah blah blah for ya |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| I cant believe you will be married in a week. Where has that time gone??? anyway, I'd be happy to fill your diary with bits if you so like. :) What do you want in it? |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| How can you be so calm & cool?!!! It won't be long now! |
| from whystinger : |
| I'm remembering y'all in my prayers. Thanks for the note. Actually I am pleased that Honi went for it (WW). Usually I am the one who has to do it all. I was heading home, she said too late. She called and decided to go by herself, but I was close enough to be on time... We BOTH need it. Is this light at the end of the tunnel? We'll see |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| He's so lucky you're on his side. Hugs. |
| from second-love : |
| He'll get through it...he has YOU xo |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Good for Mike with the positive attitude-that will serve him well. Meanwhile, what is UP with this chick? Wow-she needs help post-haste! |
| from noaddedme : |
| Pray tell, what kind of candy do you send with a note like that? I have this image of PsychoChick at the store looking in candy aisle thinking "hmmm, mounds? no ... not sinister enough ... reese's? ... ohhh daaaark chocolate!" Karma will get her :) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Oh my word, that is scary. I am shocked. I am glad things are going better. Take care sweetie, thinking of you.x |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| OMG what a fruit cake! Best you threw the candy away - she probably poisoned it anyway - lol! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Thinking of you X. x |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Go, Mike! More people need to realize they can talk back to doctors; hold them accountable. Most of them don't even acknowledge us as human beings, just stats. Good for him! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| The three of you, Mike, you and your dad have been in my prayers. I'm hoping for the best for the men. I'm sure having Mike back makes all the difference in the world to you both! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| I think everyone has posted my exact sentiments in regards to your dad (and Mike). Just have faith...everything will be alright, `hita! |
| from dvacowgirl : |
| Hang in there kiddo. |
| from chakra-chick : |
| I'm sorry x sweetie...hope things go well for both Mike & your Dad. Sending positive vibes and prayers to you from across the continents...mwah |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Oh X, what a bad time for you right now, I am praying for you and thinking of you and hoping that Mike and your dad will be fine. Be strong and take care. x |
| from second-love : |
| *tight hugs* |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Of all people, you don't deserve bad news!! I just know that Mike and your dad will be fine!! I am sending every positive vibe and healing thought I can muster!!! *hugs* |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| Thinking of you hun. Hope this is the last of it but sending good thoughts your way and wishing everyone the best of health. Becca |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Oh my goodness. Well don't assume the worst, Hon. Please update when you find out. |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| You poor thing - sounds like you've had a rough time lately. You and yours will be in my thoughts - I hope you get good news all around soon. |
| from noaddedme : |
| I don't think you have to worry about it coming in threes because you have (literally) head to toe covered. Bad attempt to make you smile, I know. I'll be adding him to my prayers~ |
| from second-love : |
| Lots of prayers your way :)xo |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Hey, Girlie-chin up! He'll be better soon, and life will go on with much love between you. Try to stay positive for him, Dearie. Hugs |
| from whystinger : |
| Mmmmmmmmmmmm, Mongolian barbecue!!!! I love it! |
| from gofigure : |
| Oh my goodness, hon. That's terrible! Poor guy. It must be so hard for you not to be able do a damn thing about it. Hugs, and more hugs. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Oh dear - so sorry. Hope it turns up better. [And a tanning-booth?!! After all we've been through together, where on earth did you get the idea that I'm GAY?] |
| from noaddedme : |
| *hugs* that totally sucks! I'll keep hoping for the best! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Omigosh-that's awful. Poor Mike. Well, look, the timing could've been worse-not by a lot, but still, you've got that. Try not to stress too much. You getting yourself in a mess isn't going to be good for him. Hugs |
| from erianne1 : |
| I'm so sorry that this is happening, hon. Sending love, support and healing energy for you both. |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Oh heavens. Where did that come from? Yes, they'll get him in quickly since the infection has reached the bone - they won't want it to go any further then his toe. That still really sucks though. Thinking of you both ((hugs)) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Oh, sweets...I'm sure everything will turn out OK for Mike. Please, just keep reminding yourself that it's only a toe. And whatever it is has been diagnosed, and is treatable. I know how hard it is to be the supporting partner when you really haven't any idea what you're supposed to be doing to make things easier. I went through the same thing with Hombre when he was in his car accident, and again when he was diagnosed with testicular cancer. Keep your head up, luv, and don't let this affect your health. You'll know what to do and what to say...your love for Mike will guide you. I'll say a prayer for you... |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Woo Hoo!! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Three weeks-gosh thats amazing, I cant believe it!!!! I am happy you are happy. Just take it easy! x |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| awwww, you sound so happy!!!! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| !!!!!! Sounds like someone is getting lucky tonight - lol! Glad he came home early - have fun! (hugs) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Ha! Somebody sounds very happy! I'm so glad Mike is coming home tonight. Enjoy him! |
| from dvacowgirl : |
| make out? yeeech |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Awww, lovely, only a couple of days to go!!! *hugs* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Awww, sweety. Hang in there..its just for a few days. You will be fine and he will be back before you know it. ((hugs)) |
| from noaddedme : |
| I think being this upset about 4 days just shows how right things are with you both :) I'm sure he's gonna miss you horribly too and his homecoming is going to be SOMETHING for both of you! :) |
| from chakra-chick : |
| I've been one for almost a month from diaryland! Gosh I have so much to catch up on...however, I did get to read your recent entry---I'm sooooo happy for you darling! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am so so happy for you. Reading your entry made me grin from ear to ear. x |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Nah - it'll last forever. You know it! xx |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| THREE WEEKS!!!! *jumps up and down clapping hands like a manic girl drunk on cheap alcohol* hahaha |
| from whystinger : |
| Shit! I just forgot what I was going to write. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You have no idea how much I'd like to step up and confront them! Buuuut, this family doesn't work that way; they just let things get worse & worse; they will not communicate. Beside that, I've given it a lot of thought, and I am certain that I'd be overstepping my bounds. By a lot. All I can do is be there to listen and support, encourage. I hope she finds the strength to get through this. |
| from yo-bitch : |
| you locked me out! :( |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Yeah what is your myspace page? Here is mine, come say hi! *grins* http://www.myspace.com/dunklerengel |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| Hahaha. I like my men like my coffee too. Dark, a little sweet, rich and strong enough to keep me up all night!! ;) Becca |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Ooooh-I like the way you think-use his faux pas as leverage! Door prizes-aren't YOU supposed to be getting the gifties?!! |
| from classygirl83 : |
| That's cool that ya are on myspace!! What's your thing? I think I'll just lock up my diary. |
| from whystinger : |
| Hey X! that is a very good article. BTW, she is a carb whore. If my dick was a carbohydrate, she'd be giving me blowjobs till I said no more... She loves sugar, breads and not much else. She is a pain in the ass to cook for.... thanks |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Hey, if he won't go for a new tv downstairs, take the upstairs tv down! Maybe that'll change his mind about feng shui. I can't believe you're not all a-titter about the wedding! How DO you do it!!! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| Thats better than 0 minutes. I don't do it all in one go you know. I spread it out over the course of an evening and it's taken me 8 months to build up to that much and I always aim to do a minimum of 10 miles but last night got carried away. Took about 46 minutes in the end in 15 minute batches. Exercise is really having to make up those endorphines for my lack of sex. :) |
| from candoor : |
| sending a smile cuz, well, it's about time I did... hope there are more smiles in your world :) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Don't apologize for that last entry-it was fun! You must have lots of great co-workers-that is going to be so much fun! Have a great weekend. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am trying to catch up a bit. Thanks for all your cute emails, catching up there too..Dont ever feel alone...write to me instead...ughh..I know the lonely feeling but it is going to fly be-you will be ok. Love you lots! x |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| LoL! Oh I could go for a good smoke right about now as well! Enjoy my dear - enjoy! |
| from noaddedme : |
| I am NOT stoned but I read the last part as fecal matter congratulated. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Oh yes-this version of you is very interesting indeed! Lots of fun too. Not that you're not always a great chick, but you know... I'm glad you enjoyed. |
| from second-love : |
| **giggle** you are even CUTER when you are high :)))) |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Oh no - you're all locked up! Would you please send me the username and password? My email is [email protected]. Hope everything is ok with you ((hugs)) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I wish I knew how to make it easier-you're so sweet for not showing Mike how hard it is on you, but I promise you-he knows. Just focus on the home-coming. I wouldn't want to be your neighbor that night! Hugs |
| from chickpea981 : |
| i demand you let me in at once! you know my email. [email protected] |
| from noaddedme : |
| just start focusing on when you see him again. Poor man, he's not gonna know what hit him and you aren't going to be able to walk ;) |
| from the-big-day : |
| My Dear, I tried to get a pic of the cards on there, but I did them on Print Shop and have tried everything, but can't get PhotoBucket to upload. I tried to convert it to a pdf then jpg or gif-that didn't work. Any suggestions? |
| from dvacowgirl : |
| I will send you one as a gift for your bachelorette party. Let me know details at divacowgirlca at yahoo. |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| You are so right!! What about BJ's? Crazy girl - that comment made me laugh! |
| from dvacowgirl : |
| I love it when hubby is gone and I'm by myself. I think I've become hard and jaded :) |
| from f-i-n : |
| Well.....the marshmallows turned into this warm goo. I think I'll stick to microwaving them in hot chocolate. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You are one complex chickie! Hugs |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Password Pretty please?? With sugar on top?? I MISS reading you... Thanks sweety... Hope things are going good for you... *huggles* |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| and I think I have bizarre dreams... ;) |
| from whystinger : |
| She is excess baggage. I guess that makes me a pack rat... |
| from imadad2 : |
| Don't get me started. The juice is just a drop in the hat. My wife is always driving me insane by telling me what I can and cannot eat or drink. Two drinks never gives me a buzz, but that is all I can have on a weekend, so why bother? So, I rarely drink. If you can't tell, there is nothing in my life right now that I don't get to make the decisions on by myself. I have never heard my wife say "I trust your judgement". It is hard to live with a know it all. |
| from grt8f84me : |
| It's been a while since I have visited. May I have access please? I hope you are doing great, and I wish you the best in 2007! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| So sorry for being such a stranger. Thanks for all your support. Love you lots. Heres to a great, healthy, happy 2007. xoxox |
| from second-love : |
| Be safe and well. Love you!! Have a happy new year hon! xxoo |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I hope that jerk got what he deserved! You can do it-(stick with the changes, that is). Just think of all the motivation you have-Mike, all your friends-all ten million of us, Mike's awesome family, your folks, and oh yeah-the WEDDING! You are such a strong chicky that I have no doubt whatsoever that you will stick with it. Hugs & Happy New Year. |
| from dope-slave : |
| Aw, thanks for the compliments, babe. XOXO SEXAY THANG!! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I have been a terrible friend. When did you lock up? Are you ok? Please send me the passowrd details...pleeeeez! xoxox |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I wish your illness could give you a break now & then, Dearie. I hope you feel better soon. |
| from gofigure : |
| Hey, my man and I would love to have your password, if you don't mind us reading! (mimi at thefamilyblender dot com) |
| from second-love : |
| PLEASE take care of yourself...you dont want to be all messed up for your lovely wedding!!!! *hugs* |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| Oh No. Why do these things ALWAYS happen over christmas? 51 other weeks of the year it would not be nice but at christmas??? Not fair. Glad you had a good christmas though!! :) Beccaa |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Geez-there's nothing like a Christma swim in your basement! I hope the smell dissipates soon. |
| from classygirl83 : |
| Can I have your passwords please? |
| from second-love : |
| Merry Christmas hon...i hope santa brought you everything you wanted *wink* |
| from erianne1 : |
| Merry Christmas to you, hon. Big hugs and tons of love at ya! |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| Merry Christmas to you too! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Lady, I was just so pleased to get the pword! Wouldn't be the same without you. You're getting your dress fitted?!! I'd give anything to see you in it-you're going to be a stunning bride! |
| from whystinger : |
| Tools work for me. Since he is a musician, perhaps some really nice tools to work on his bass with. Try a gunsmithing supply or a music supply. Maybe some bitchin' wood handled precision screwdrivers JUST FOR YOUR guitars... Books and CDs are good too. But then again, I am a book junkie... and one can never have enough music |
| from noaddedme : |
| gift ideas for the man who has everything? Blow job gift certificates??? lmao! Dunno on that one, but I'm stumped for M myself. |
| from the-big-day : |
| Lady-you've got one heck of a memory!! You're right, and I'm getting so stinkin excited!!! Yours is even closer-I bet you're on pins & needles. Wheeeeee for us! |
| from noaddedme : |
| lucky you having an asshole cyber-stalker. Too bad people don't have lives. Send me the password please!!! |
| from noaddedme : |
| sorry I can't make anything better, but I'm thinking of you and sending hugs! |
| from second-love : |
| *hugs* |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Awwww, I'm sorry your parents can't make your wedding. Is there any chance of a visit with them otherwise? |
| from whystinger : |
| I wish I had more time... I would do the assignment too... I have learned so much. Since your bro left, I gotta ask... Did you read the book??? It was a very good book and tells about how to care for a husband... using your feminine wiles and it works. I was sad after I read it. I realized that Honi would not get it... |
| from second-love : |
| awwwwww yes...good lesson...but we all need to learn ours on our own, dont we? sigh...thanks for the reminder though *hugs* |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Well said and well learned. I could ditto that for mine, but I think I'll take a branch from your tree and be more specific. Just having trouble finding the words. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| hair-mussed wake-up look. Does it for me! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm thinking about that assignment and will try it if I can come up with something even slightly intelligible. Can't wait to read yours! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| So glad you're on the upswing. |
| from second-love : |
| Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh im sick too!!! But i cant complain...this is the first time ive been sick in awhile. But WHY on the first week of a new job???? Oh well. I hope you feel better hon - i feel like hell xo |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I hope you feel better soon. Hugs |
| from noaddedme : |
| I hope you feel better soon sweetie. This whole illness totally sucks!!!! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Should you be at work?!! Feel better soon. Hugs |
| from whystinger : |
| Congrats on breaking free from sugar. I too love corn chips, but if I eat too many, they tear me up good. Yup, they will make me bleed and I don't know why. |
| from classygirl83 : |
| are you okay? Are you throwing up blood? or what? I hope that you're okay. Only 2 months left till your wedding!! Where ya gonna have it? I hope that you're doing good. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| TWO MONTHS!!!? OMG! Where did the time go?!! Are you ready? Yeah, I bet you are. Sheesh, I'm looking at six months and getting jittery!! Wow-two months! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You know what!!! I'm right there with you. Yesterday I found something sweet-looking in the kitchen and had to try it, so I chipped off a corner, tossed it in my mouth, chewed it a little and spit it out. It had no appeal to me. Last weekend, I had a couple Cool Ranch Doritos (My all-time fave) and all I could taste was salt. I never thought it could happen, but it did. Woo-hoo for us! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Interesting. Maybe I can get used to living on vergetables and get skinny and beautiful again? :-( Naaaa.... Are you feeling better? |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| good luck to drummer. I am always reading old entries and not just from a year, but like up-to-5-years ago and with only 1 or 2 exceptional cases, I too think I was never as happy as this. I may be on my own at the minute but life is pretty good and I am so optimistic. :) Glad all is well. Becca |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Oy! take care! x |
| from second-love : |
| awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww poor baby :((*hugs* |
| from erianne1 : |
| Smash up a clove of garlic, chop a little onion, add a cup of honey, put it in a container with a lid on and sit it in the fridge overnight. Add a tablespoon of the honey to some hot tea as often as you need to...makes a wonderful soother for a sore throat, opens the sinuses, boosts the immune system. My fridge is never without a container of this...it's why I don't get colds. Feel better hon. Love you! |
| from noaddedme : |
| I think my body is going to meet Musinex very soon. Hope you feel better soon! |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Yeah it's always an ego boost when a guy thinks you're good in 'that' department. Thanks for the comment over at my place. ~smooches~ |
| from second-love : |
| I wanna play *wink* |
| from dvacowgirl : |
| Congrats! |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| Thank you!! And see, you have such a nicer way of saying it. Leave it to a man to make "you look hot" into "you look like you give good head." Geez... |
| from f-i-n : |
| happy turkey day |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| :-) Love you hon. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| It's a shame the Y doesn't pay better. It sounds like you did a good job and enjoyed it. I wish you had pix of your dress!!! |
| from dvacowgirl : |
| Hubby is 47, the other night I told the kids to be sure they kiss him goodnight, ya never know when he might not wake up, hehehehe..he didn't think it was so funny <eg> |
| from dvacowgirl : |
| So, what if two 400 people marry? Hmmmm? Just kidding, I missed you :) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Take care! x |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Been missin' ya... Come back to us real soon... (((huggles))) |
| from whystinger : |
| The book is very good indeed. A good read for any woman. Nice trip! Smart man to hold onto his drink. A few years ago someone went through a similar situation. He had sex with the women till he passed out and woke with the man taking him next... Smart, smart, smart. |
| from second-love : |
| Oh my...that is sooooooo naughty ;) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Very interesting story. I'm glad your man is finally home in your arms! |
| from second-love : |
| hee hee...my you DO know how to party!!! I'm afraid if i ever DO get out that way i'd be passed out and asleep by 9:30 and you would all be doing naughty things to me *giggle* |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Glad you had a good weekend! I can feel your excitement for your baby coming home!!! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hope your weekend was good lovely. Take care, and go you for throwing out the crap! :-) |
| from txbullett : |
| Just wanted to say hi and I enjoy reading you..for nothing more than entertainment purposes... you lead an interesting life. have a great day. Dwayne |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I had to do that in our company kitchen, with the note saying it would be done weekly. I only had to trash peoples' stuff once. That did the trick. |
| from noaddedme : |
| I had a spinach, feta & tomato omelete, hashbrowns, and wheat toast. I think it was more of the grease than anything, but it was LOVELY when it made it through. It was like Popeye exploded on a wall ... (ew ew ew) yet I'm laughing hysterically! |
| from noaddedme : |
| yeah you on the Y gig! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Hey, Missy! Congrats on the belly dancing job! And it's so great to hear you happy again! I hope you have a great weekend! |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Congrats darling! Best of luck. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Congrats Sweety... So happy for you!!! (((huggles))) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Thats great news lovely! I am happy for you! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Woo-hoo for you! You are totally going to be the best they're ever had. |
| from erianne1 : |
| I support the death penalty only because it protects the lives of potential victims should those murderers ever get out of jail. And no, sweetie, not all cows are organic. If they're raised on supplemental feed containing things like bovine growth hormone or antibiotics, then they can't be considered organic. Love ya. |
| from noaddedme : |
| Perhaps Zoe would like to join Mouser in his presidental bid? Would she like to be his running mate? Heck, he wouldn't even mind if she wanted to run the show and he went for vice president! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You've got my mouth watering, too. What time is dinner? |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Well you are wonderful yourself and we love you! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I'm glad you're feeling better! What a sweet man you have! I would say you're lucky, but you're not, because you totally deserve him!!! Thanks for your note the other day! xx |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Oy! Please feel better. I am glad you have someone to spoil you. x |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Glad you're feeling better dear...you most certainly do have the bestest guy, hey... ~smooches~ |
| from erianne1 : |
| Sending you love and good energy hon...feel better. |
| from second-love : |
| **hugs** feel better soon hon |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You should get paid for the psychological services you offer~you'd be a wealthy woman. Not to mention, I'd owe you big! Sometimes you just can't make people see what's right under their noses until they see it for themselves. It's a difficult place to be, but he knows you'll always be there for him whether he takes your advice or not. Hugs |
| from second-love : |
| Man.....full time job, full time job... i MUST find a job that fills up ever minute of my free time till i can get through all this. Thanks for the reminder AGAIN *sigh* |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| You did pretty good for not hitting spellcheck...I'm impressed!! Although, you did post the entry twice. :) Drunk entries are so fun. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| So..you're saying adultery is a bad idea? Er..I think I would have to agree! xx |
| from chickpea981 : |
| HOTNESS! and yes, your boy had the best ass of the group. You lucky bitch. :P |
| from noaddedme : |
| You are so beautiful, but the pink haired chickie needed a little tan on "her" dead carp white legs :) Glad you had so much fun! |
| from chakra-chick : |
| You look awesome dear...love the costume! I need some advice (yet again!)---what can I use on my knees when I do floor work in belly-dancing? It's killing my knees! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| This is the FIRST Picture I've seen of you.. OMG Girl!!! You are ONE HOT MAMA!!! ;o) Love your costume.. and Mike looks adorable in your panties!! hehe... *huggles* Lurv ya!! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| *grins back atcha* ;) We mere English don't get the joy of thanksgiving but it always sounds so nice and sweet. Still you guys don't get Guy Fawkes night like we do at the weekend to commemorate some crazed man a few hundred years ago with the idea to blow up parliament. So every year, the dummy called "the Guy" is burned and we have fireworks to "celebrate" the gunpowder plot. And the government wonder where terrorists get thier ideas.... ;) Lovely lovely pictures by the way. You look great in final picture :) |
| from whystinger : |
| I think all the assholes are politicians and vice versa too... I do try to make the best decision I can and I have taken to writing them to let them know how I feel, so maybe he should try that. If he doesn't vote, that is automatically a vote for what he doesn't really want. |
| from madrigle : |
| Thanks! It's a really fun costume. The things you can find at a belly dancing shop! |
| from chakra-chick : |
| I wanna see dem pics ASAP!!! That entry was great...it's strange that as you get older the more you realise how much like your parents you are :-) Thanks for your lovely comments... ~smooches~ |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Waiting and waiting for the pics. Post them ASAP!!!! Glad you had a blast! That was the most beautiful entry about your parents. Love u! x |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I can't wait to see the pix. You parents sound perfect-how could they not be, judging by the you the raised?!! |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Mike is the sweetest...you are so lucky dear. Have a lovely week further. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Awwwwwwwwww, true love! I am so happy for you. |
| from angeline-is : |
| The belly dancers here are required to cover their tummies when performing; they've gotten very creative! A lot of them just tuck scarves creatively between the bra and the belt. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| How sweet of him! It must be love, eh? Hugs |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| That worked out nicely. I'm sure you'll ALL be a hit. |
| from erianne1 : |
| You have the right to bitch, to hate the illness, to hate your body when it hates you first, to hate what it does to those who care about you. You also have an absolute right to hate having to put on your "I feel great" face when you just want to curl up and die. Getting mad at your illness is sometimes the only healthy thing happening...and you know I speak from experience. You'll get mad, get control, get a little better and start again...yet another cycle of life hon. Love you and sending good energy with it. Hang on to your pendant for awhile...it might help a little. |
| from second-love : |
| Awww hon...i know its hard...but really... do you want to switch with me???? NO you dont. But im here for you and i understand. If its not health...its kids...if its not kids...its a job...if its not a job......... its something else *sigh*...its always something else. I love ya...hang in there xxooo |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| You can bitch as much as you want. I understand you. It sucks having an illness. It sucks not feeling well. It sucks worrying people around you. Just take care sweetie. feel good-love you! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Love you! |
| from the-big-day : |
| I can't wait to see the pictures! |
| from second-love : |
| **whew** im about ready to pass out! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| LoL! He sounds like Jaime - ha! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Butterflies are just moths with colourful wings!! Eeeeek!!! |
| from nicim : |
| I continue my journey at http://cunhell.diaryland.com Kisses.. N |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Eeeek.....butterflies?! Flying all about willy nilly??!! For the first time I'm actually relieved I can't be there!!! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Mike is, indeed, a smart man! Have a great weekend! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Wow, X, that sounds absolutely amazing!!!! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| As always, you are so intuitive, AND you put it into much nicer words than I would have! That's why I love ya!! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Oh that sounds sooooo lovely!!!!! Don't forget we will require lots and lots of pictures! |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| OOOooooo, a butterfly release??!! That sounds like it is going to be freaking awesome! I'm so jealous! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| Sounds so good. :) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Wheeeeee!<That was a squeal of excitement for you! By the way, that may seem expensive to you, but I heard yesterday that an inexpensive photographer quoted a friend $1200-just for the pix & album. I'd rather hire a chimp to run around with a camera and take my chances than put out that kind of money for someone to take a few pictures! I could not possibly be happier for you. You keep that grin on! It's a breathtaking spot, you're going to make a beautiful bride, and the day will be utter perfection! Wheeeeeee! |
| from noaddedme : |
| absolutely fucking gorgeous location!!!! What does your dress look like? |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| ((hugs)) Take care love. |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| LoL! Boys *rolls eyes* |
| from noaddedme : |
| either meet where there are no musical instruments they can play or promise them they can see your boobs if they behave. Helpful aren't I?? |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Awesome! Four months-where did the time go? |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Hope things fall into place dear...sending you massive hugs and positive vibes. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I knew you'd have the answer! I'm sending you big, warm hugs. I went out for lunch, and came back feeling like a new person! Whee-what a roller coaster! I wish I could support you as much as you do me. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Feel better. You're missed. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Miss you, feel good and try to have a good week. |
| from whystinger : |
| It happens to us all sometimes, especially when busy or when much is on the mind. Chill, relax and forget about it for a while. Put it out of your mind. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hope you are ok love. x |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| What's wrong hun? Ever want anything just mail me.... *HUGS* Becca |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I wish I could send you some strength, but you'll find your own. Hang in there, Doll. Big hugs. |
| from endthelies : |
| Hugs back. |
| from erianne1 : |
| How did the performance go the other night? I'm dying to hear about it! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Hey, I can relate-I feel the same way today-distracted, not hot! I can't find words-even the easy ones, and I have no concentration ability at all. For me, I know it's stress and lack of sleep. I hope you feel better soon. Hugs |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Hey, Mamacita, can you vouch for me? Sounds like Second Love and I have some things in common! Hope your doing well, sweetie! |
| from noaddedme : |
| X, I wanna read the other diary, you'll vouch for me right? :) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Don't pill boxes suck!!?? Take care sweetie. xox |
| from whystinger : |
| Now that I think of it, Sheila did get extra horny when the Ceremony of Roses was going on. Do use protection... cause you can still plant a seed. |
| from whystinger : |
| Don't you do it during the Ceremony of Roses? Honi had a hysterectomy, so she doens't do the Ceremony anymore... but when I was single, there were a few women that would do it during the Ceremony. One former flame said it eased the cramps. I told ones after that "I heard it eases the cramps... wanna try?" It did seem to help the majority. How, put a towel down first, keep an extra near and shower right after. And no, they didn't on heavy days. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You two have such a beautiful and openly-communicative relationship. As long as you both keep your eyes open, you'll be fine. If you were both to give up your outside interests, you'd eventually end up resenting each other for it. Hugs |
| from second-love : |
| awwwwww you two are sweet |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| just dropping by - hey you xx |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| So...ummm...feel better? Hahaha. Have a good weekend. |
| from thedetails : |
| Thanks so much for the help with the list of female artists that aren't skanks. I have exposed her to a few of them, but for some reason a few of them on your list that should have been no brainers for me just wouldn't come to mind. I don't know why my brain does that to me, when I'm trying so hard to think of something the most obvious isn't able to be grasped. |
| from second-love : |
| hahahhaha saucy...you are too cute |
| from erianne1 : |
| You're very welcome. I'm glad you like it. I hope it brings you peace, love and health. Big hugs hon. |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Good luck with your gig!! I wish I lived nearby because I'd LOVE to come along! Hope you're feeling stronger and better soon! |
| from whystinger : |
| Golden slut... that fits. I saw it on a chopper and it fits. I now understand perfectly... |
| from noaddedme : |
| I bet your dream means ... Vince is GAY! |
| from whystinger : |
| Why... did you dream that someone slapped your ass affectionately last night? And yes, I do feel saucy today. Women do that to me. I can't help it, I just love woman... |
| from second-love : |
| *hugs*...you are so cute. Do you think the dreams might be a bit of cold feet? |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| I just LOVE ALI G. Have you ever seen any of his spoof interviews? Well worth trying to get hold of. Also, the guy who does Ali G is now doing a movie about Borat. I suggest you look for that on a search thing and try to find some clips. Sasha Bon Cohen is a modern comic genius. :) |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| I really want to know what the hair product you were talking about is - I need something for my almost dead curls. |
| from noaddedme : |
| Ok, I'm going to try really hard to be intelligent with my choices this weekend! Let's both do better than last weekend and I hope you can find a little something to eat. What about something to drink that is safe & will make you feel full? Be strong! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| I've caught Da Ali G Show a few times. He cracks me up. Off the wall. Have a nice relaxing weekend!!! =) |
| from erianne1 : |
| Quite proud of you really! And I personally love the mushy drivel, so you just keep on typing it out and I will keep on reading it. Big hug and good energy...hope you feel better. |
| from second-love : |
| Sooooooooooooooooooooooooo proud AND happy for you! |
| from second-love : |
| Girl...you need to take better care of yourself...i worry about you!! |
| from second-love : |
| Good GOD you are killin me! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| haha, alcohol does that to me too. ANY sort but I can't drink much wine without feeling ill. :) Won't be on that this weekend but I will have a good drink tonight. |
| from chickpea981 : |
| glad you're feeling better and that you took a few days off for yourself. thinking of you. *hugs* |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| Just going round very quickly thanking everyone for all thier support over the past few days concerning my locked diary. It really is much appreciated. Thank you for everything!!! Becca |
| from noaddedme : |
| I emailed you, let me know if you don't get it~ |
| from noaddedme : |
| Ok sweetie, we both need to knock off the bullshit and take care of ourselves. I'm ready. Are you? Let's make this happen! Besides, I wanna look good enough to belly dance some day and you'll need the strength to teach me! |
| from second-love : |
| God knows i have had more than my share of "breakdowns"...and they are ALL well deserved. Tuesday i actually puked and then just decided to stay home. It was lovely. Im glad you got a chance to do the same (well the staying home part...not the puking part). I am doing quite well...surprise surprise... :)))))) And its lovely xxoo |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| Glad to hear you are putting yourself first and did take some proper time out. It's easy enough to say but it's not always easy. Hope you are doing ok and take care. Becca |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm glad you took time to take care of yourself. Everyone understood because you always go above & beyond what you should. Hugs |
| from erianne1 : |
| Love you...sending good stuff your way. |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Take your time, and just take care of yourself, mamacita! Miss you, chingos! |
| from noaddedme : |
| Have a healthy safe break down! I'd love to join you. I got to stand in the shower and cry for 2 minutes last night for my own personal breakdown. Stress? Overwelmed feeling of ??? Don't know why life has to be SO much fun! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| (((huggles))) |
| from second-love : |
| Feel better hon...it does no good to pretend you are fine when you arent. It'll catch up with you eventually. **HUGS** |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Feel better. Hugs |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hope you had a good weekend sweetie.x |
| from noaddedme : |
| Okay, just because it was a whole grain bagel that came out doesn't mean carbs are bad right? RIGHT? RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT? I am sad to say that if it was a choice between carbs & shitting myself, well ... I'll just go by brown underwear! *giggle* I will try to watch them the next few days! |
| from wildrosie : |
| Oh yeah hon, just sublimate all of thos dreams, and then you can be like me! 46 years old, and no one will give me a second glance even if I have the voice of an angel. Get the performing down pat, then have children. Unless, of course, you would be absolutely devastated to never have kids. That's a different story. |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Is your birthday the 20, 21 or 22? My son's is the 22nd, and he sounds a lot like you. Except the panties part. I don't know about the sex either, fotunately! I remember when he was born, he was almost born a few days before and all I could think was, "I would really rather have a Cancer than a Gemini!". LOL. |
| from f-i-n : |
| Everyone needs to sing in the spotlight sometimes....It must be hard to share. |
| from second-love : |
| Being in a band together is just like working together at a job...it never works too well. My hubby and i tried working in the same office for awhile and we were at each others throats all the time. Personally, i think its better if you have your thing and he has his. Share the OTHER stuff together *wink* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hugs honey! And I cant believe its a year! Thinking of you,take care. |
| from whystinger : |
| I think it is good to see the side of this in Mike (and you). Work with it and see if you can work it out. I do like the venting, so, If I need to MYOb, that is okay too. I used to fight with my Dad when we worked together at the Garage (on cars and trucks). I visited last summer and we went out in the garage to work and we both started to bicker a bit. I realized that I missed that. Weird or funny... My mistake with HOni was the long distance relationship. No normal stuff to see how we would react and argue and such. I think what you are going thru is normal and helpful. Some can be in a band together and some cannot. I couldn't be in a band with Honi (if we were musical) yet, her "vision" would for use to be in the band and NOTHING ELSE. I could change my vision, but she is inflexible. That is your (both of you) advantage. Being together and close, you can learn and adjust. Grow together and love grows... |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Regarding the band, does Mike behave professionally in other ways? Maybe that's the key-make him see that the band is outside of your relationship, and he needs to behave like a professional. I don't know-it's just an idea! Sounds like you might get a day's worth of pouting if you suggest it though! Hugs |
| from noaddedme : |
| Personally I wouldn't quit the band, I'd make up new lyrics. Then again, I'm feeling extra evil lately. Not that evil is bad ... oh hell i'm confusing myself here :) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I am so with you on that-I love the grey skies and chill in the air. Come onnnnn, fall! |
| from erianne1 : |
| Take care hon...big hugs n love...E |
| from second-love : |
| Yep us crabs love our shells...mine is feeling toasty warm right now ;) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Chicken foot...HaHaHa! Being mexican, that sure would scare the shit out of me! DoIT, DoIT!!!! lol |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Yay for great sex...mmm at last I can relate! :-) Have a good weekend lovely.x |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| haha, I am doing the preggers dreams again too. The last really vivid one was about 2 nights before my best mate had a baby. I dreamt I was about to have a baby at any time though I didnt realise I was pregnant and the only pain I felt was a pin prick in my back. Next thing I know I had a baby girl in my arms and I named her Isabella. Literally hours later my friend had a daughter, Isabel by C section. Spooky huh? The back pain woulda been that er..... thing, *I've forgot what it's called* that they stick in your spine to numb you as pain relief. Last nights dream was more or less identical but called the baby something a bit wierder like "Krystal" or "Diamond" I can't remember fully but all very celebrityish. Very odd. And the only vivd dream I had when I was pregnant was falling off a cliff into the sea and swimming off uninjured. I've been talking alot about dreams lately. Hang on.... I see an entry coming on.... Lol. :) |
| from chakra-chick : |
| I;m so happy that you're happy sweetie! That last part of your latest entry...so right you are! ~smooches~ |
| from second-love : |
| You are too cute :))) And i love that you are so happy...it makes ME happy. And despite my obvious "pissiness" i am doing quite nicely actually. I have accomplished SO MUCH this past week. I had lost sight of how much time i have spend waiting around for something to happen in the afternoons...now im just doing...and its awesome. Oh...but 30% impulsive??? Pfffff i think not ;) *hugs* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Its wonderful seeing you so happy and well! xoxox |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Oh, sweetie, you are too nice. Shit, you'll probably be the ONLY one that even looks at the dolls. Oh, well...I guess as long as I try, eh? And it is SOOOO good to hear from you. I feel like we've disconnected somewhere along the way...is that just me? Besos, chiquita...take care! And congrats on the engagement...I wish you ALL the happiness in the world! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I like Ephedrine Me. Hope you are well otherwise. x |
| from whystinger : |
| Good promise - keep the promise. Also, both make a promise for at least two more things... Don't go to bed mad. Even if you have to forgive for the evening and take it back up in the morning. Don't stop the sex when you fight. It only adds to the hurt. If you do have sex when mad, a funny thing happens. The anger disappears... Stay true to the promise... Honi and I made the same promise. "We'll talk about it IF it ever comes close to an affair. When I try to talk about the problems, she always starts with either "let's divorce" or "well, if there is a problem, we'd better not have sex..." Those do more damage than good. I truly think you guys will do well together. |
| from second-love : |
| DAMN!!!!!!!! T shirt Shack???? Were they DRUNK??? ANY name is better than that!!! |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Nah - don't like it. Years ago friends wanted me to sing with their band then called 'Twitt Incoporated'. They moved on to 'Hired Assassin'. But I didn't do the singing.. |
| from noaddedme : |
| T-shirt shack immediately made me think of the lousy place in the mall where you can get all the transfers put on shirts. You know, like cute kitties and such. I wouldn't see a band named that! Not even for curiousity! I'd name it Sand Crotch if I was trying to think of a beach-y name! Bwa! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| I like these two anmes, they are names of actual people I have met in life and instantly thought, "If I had a band, I'd name it that". Since I'm never going to have a band, I'll share with you. "Nancy Virgin" or "Austin Fazenbaker". You know you love it. |
| from erianne1 : |
| I kinda like Ringtone Dead :) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| How about "BABYPOWDER FOOT EXPLOSIONS." HaHaHa! JK - I have no idea what would be a good name for a band...I suck at stuff like that! Love ya, talk to you soon! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| It's probably already been done in the states but as you are in it I think "X-essive" would be cool. :) or "The X-ecutive Lobby" hahahaha. Becca |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| just emailed you hunny, so check your junk mail for something from my hotmail address. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| No problem. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You are so cool-headed. I admire that. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Please make up your mind. If you want me blocked, leave it that way. That's fine. This every other day thing is kind of childish don't ya think. You know my IP address, so I'm sure you can weed out what your looking for. |
| from second-love : |
| You are such a party girl...TOO cute!!! ;) |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| If that was happening to me, I would worry too. I do have a couple of friends who know about my diary but would hate to think any of my family have the address and as I have the same email name as my diary name it wouldnt take 2 seconds to find me in a search. Thats why all the personal stuff is separate and locked. |
| from erianne1 : |
| I can see Mike's point, hon. The dinner invitation crosses the line a bit. The doctor/patient professional line is a fairly well defined thing and doesn't generally allow for personal phone calls and social invitations like that. Sounds to me like he's interested in you. |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Ah, that explains the confusion over anaesthetic!! You know you said it was unfair that we get an anaesthetic and you don't? Well, the anaesthetic isn't for the actually colposcopy investigation, it's for the operation afterwards. I described it my entry when I first said I was going into hospital. It's not the same as cryo. It's where they burn off the pre-cancerous cells with a loop wire charged with an electrical current! Nice!! Anyway, thanks for your sweet note! xx |
| from noaddedme : |
| it's not a sinus infection is it? At any rate, feel better fast ok? *hugs* |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| hope you are feeling better very soon my lovely, what actually causes vertigo? |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Please can I ask you how painful the LEEP is? I ended up only having the Colposcopy investigation, but they said that as I was going in holiday in 4 weeks they wouldn't do the LEEP (the burning off of the cells with the loop wire) and biopsy until I got back. There's a lot to burn!! |
| from whystinger : |
| A real man understands and helps you overcome stuff like this - just like he does. It bothers one when a lover is hurt or hurting. Of course, we are more fragile than we admit, so we worry that we cause the hurt. talk to him a bit and let him help you through it. It can make you stronger as a couple. His reaction also shows he cares deeply. |
| from noaddedme : |
| yeah, uh huh ... ok ... (I'd pat you on the head but you'd bite me!) I see NOTHING different and I feel like giving up, but I won't because I'm too fucking stubborn. |
| from noaddedme : |
| hang in there ... in time the good memories will overcome the bad, even in the subconcious. *hugs* |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| I suspect he'll understand that something like that takes a long time to wear away. xx |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| You're a bad, bad girl!!! |
| from second-love : |
| You naughty girl! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| wahey!!! That is just the sorta relationship I need. hehehe. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Love you back. :) |
| from endthelies : |
| Yay! Winter brides! I think Valentine's Day is a wonderful day to tie the knot. February is such a great winter-leading-into-spring month, at least around here. |
| from whystinger : |
| By the way, great Idea about the Y and the class. My Y has done that in the past. Ours is the best deal in town, expecially compared to the Y in the next town and the other health clubs.... |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Thanks so much for your help sweetie! I'll definately use your tips... ~smooches~ |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Nice to know the date is set! OK where do I send the presents? And can I come to the hen night? xx |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I feel your pain, Girlfriend! Relax, it's just nerves, and your wedding is going to be perfect. V-Day-how Romantic! |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Hi love! Glad your band is taking shape... I need your help please---I have to have a 1min dance routine prepared for next week wednesday (in preparation for my exam)...have any idea on some dance sequences you might know off the top of your head? I'm stumped! Hope to hear from you very soon... ~smooches~ |
| from whystinger : |
| Sounds like a fun weekend! Hey, we aren't doing well with the accountability, are we??? Have you worked out???? |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Have you sung 'Mac' in German? Somehow so much more sexy in a female voice. 'Und das zahnfisch, der hat zahne, und er hat sie im gesicht. Macheath hat einer messer, und sein messer sieht mann nicht'. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Are you saying that you all were driving drunk? Please tell me I misread that! Please?! |
| from endthelies : |
| Wow, that all sounds crazy! I couldn't keep up with that kind of partying! I'm sorry, though, for even asking this- maybe I'm missing something- but the way you wrote that entry it sounds like you drove while you were still drunk. You didn't, did you? Too many people care about you for you to put yourself at risk like that! |
| from second-love : |
| OMG...there is no way i could keep up with all that!!! Even when i was younger and partied hard i never partied THAT hard LOL. I dont know how you do it!!! I would be sicker than a dog and in bed the rest of the day!!!! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I understand, but don't stay away too long. You're one of my very faves! Hugs |
| from second-love : |
| **smoooooooooooooooooooches** to ya |
| from second-love : |
| I think im going to let that stone roll around in my shoe for a few MORE years and give me a good solid blister or hole in the bottom of my foot at least *hee hee* |
| from noaddedme : |
| so I could have 4 more months of this sole sucking weight gain? NOoooooooooooo! *hugs* food sucks doesn't it? |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| PMS sucks! Feel good! |
| from second-love : |
| LOL i LOVE this last entry!!! I looooooooooove pissy...its sooooooo cute ;) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| No! Rather get another couple of cats! ;-) xox |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| A dog everytime - but that's just me I guess. And thanks for your support. Sometime I'll get over and hug you for all the support you've given me. xx |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Eeeeee!!! Puppy! Do it! LoL! |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| I would like to take a moment to sing the praises of dogs! They are really wonderful - my dog is one of the best things in my life; sweet and loving and loyal. They do do stupid things sometimes, but that's part of the fun. And to echo the comment below - I honestly believe pound puppies are the best dogs in the world. Not only are the cheaper, but alot of them are good natured and don't have the health and tempermant problems that some expensive purebred dogs are basically bred with. I love my mutt! yeah, so I'll step off my soapbox now! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| I don't know how things work in the US but we in the UK, have animal rescue centres where you can pick up a pet for a small donation if you want to home an animal. They may have been injured or abandoned whatever but they need homes. That's how we are gonna get some cats from the local cat rescue. It could be worth asking at a local vets if they know of anywhere that does this. |
| from endthelies : |
| I'm so sorry that your parents aren't coming up. Hopefully they'll get up to see you after awhile, and good luck getting your brother to come! |
| from imadad2 : |
| Where does your knee hurt? You need to be more specific. Hopefully or Not (depending how you look at it) you have something similar to what I had/have. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Awww, Hon, I'm sorry about that. I'm sure she really wants to visit. I hope she changes her mind, Love. Hugs |
| from noaddedme : |
| I'm sorry they aren't coming sweetie :( *hugs* |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| sorry to hear you feeling so let down. I hope your brother can come to visit you. It always seems worse when you are let down at the last minute and I can understand your frustration and disappointment. BUT you do have a lovely life where you and you have Mike, don't let it upset you too much and try to organise something else but keep strong sweetie!!!! Becca |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Thank you lovely!! I told K what you wrote! *hugs* |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| As I pop this Tootsie Roll into my mouth, I'll say this. It's not easy to restrict yourself, and once you cheat one tiny bit, it makes you crave more. There isn't a woman on this earth that doesn't know that. You're only human. I wish so much, that you could go all out now and then and not suffer for it. It's just not fair. |
| from noaddedme : |
| Potato chips are truly the downfall of all proper eating regimines. Oh hell, they are the product of the evil empire! |
| from whystinger : |
| I do plan on doing it. All of it! And yes, I did break down and ordered a new pc... |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You are so right about trust. Once you've had your trust betrayed it sort of makes you ummm..."paranoid", for lack of a better word, about betraying that of others. On the other subject-you must have a lot of willpower-I don't think I could've said no, tender nethers or not! ;-) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You are so not awful! It was an honest misunderstanding, and he'll come around. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| You're NOT an awful person... you just had a BIT MUCh to drink... It happens... Once things calm down, and you can talk to Mike about what happened, I'm sure he'll understand... (((huggles))) |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Awww sweetie. Sorry to hear you're not feeling well. Don't worry about the weekend though. Like you said, you have your entire lives ahead of you ((hugs)) |
| from second-love : |
| awwwwwwwwww im the QUEEN of being "disappointed"...but you can be one of my princesses *wink* - love you... hope your headache goes away hon |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Yeah, I totally agree.. *grin* (((huggles))) |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Gave you the bad chills in what way??? |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Fingers are crossed : ) |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| yeah, I kinda like being "blessed with my charms" thousands pay thousands to get them then when they go you think what a cruel trick nature is playing on me. If only I could get down to a UK size 12 and still have a 36DD chest..... :) |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| You think so? That makes sense...and it is a good thing, so I'll take it! Thanks. :) And currently crossing my fingers for your parents to come down. That sounds exciting - I would love for my parents to come visit me here. |
| from second-love : |
| What a psycho bitch? Sheeeeeeeeeeeesh what a wack job |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Eeeeeeeeeee! That's so super-exciting! You made me tear up too. I'm so happy for you. I can't wait to see the pix of your Big Day! |
| from noaddedme : |
| I'm so excited for you! And yes, yes you DO know exactly what kind of man he is. She must too or she wouldn't want him back! *evil grin* |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Oooooo!!!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE the dress!!! |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| *thanks* :) And what is your myspace name again? I tried looking for the once you told me a couple weeks ago and nothing came up? |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Was wondering if you forgot about me! No problem sweetie-I can't wait to see your outfits. Ooohhh...I bought me an emerald green hip-scarf with gold and silver coins and beads yesterday---any ideas which coulour will go with that? |
| from whystinger : |
| That sounds like a good plan. Each accountable to each other for exercising and PROPER diet. Let's hash it over. I expect to get a computer so I don't have to fight for time... |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| (Oh damn! I got to typing too fast, and next thing I know-I've submitted it) Anyway, THAT'S going to be a moment to look forward to ;-) Hugs |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm sure you'll find ways to pass the time. Are you going to do something special for his homecoming? Now THAT'S |
| from chakra-chick : |
| That is an amazing dress sweetie! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Wow! Just WOW! |
| from chickpea981 : |
| Oh my God, that dress is amazing! You must get it! |
| from madrigle : |
| beyond gorgeous dahling. |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| That dress is absolutely beautiful!! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| I <3 it!!! It is BEAUTIFUL!!! Yeah, when ARE you tying the knot AGAIN?? I think I missed that post, or did I??? ((((huggles))) |
| from second-love : |
| I love it |
| from erianne1 : |
| Absolutely stunning hon! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| It's breathtaking! |
| from noaddedme : |
| gorgeous! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| It's beautiful. You are having fittings already??? oh my.... :) How exciting. When's the big day again? |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Thx for the hugs... They are MUCH appreciated at the moment... (((huggles))) back.. Hope you manage a-ok without Mike.. You'll be fine... |
| from chakra-chick : |
| At least you have a man who you can miss :-) Thanks for the offer to post your pics over the weekend...I can't wait to see them and get some ideas! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Wait til you've been together for like five years. You'll be begging him to go and stay longer. Oh, wait, that's me. ;) |
| from endthelies : |
| Thank you!! And congratulations to you too, of course, on your wonderful guy. And have fun with all that manflesh. =) |
| from madrigle : |
| *giggle* that's hot! you make that man-flesh bend to your desires! HUGS to you, down in the dumps suck. HUGS |
| from second-love : |
| *hugs* xx |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Love u.xox |
| from imadad2 : |
| Amen. That is a perfect story for the current times. How many times do you hear a counselor telling a woman that she cannot change a man? It is the same thing with Palestinians and Jews. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| You LOVE to be left hanging.. By me, that is... ;o) Missed you too. It's good to be home.. I guess... heh.. |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Ure so sweet X dear! Thanks for the offer-that'll be awesome... |
| from madrigle : |
| it must be in the start ;) I've been way social lately too. very, very, odd for me. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| To answer your note-actually Jeff & Phil have a lot in common and get along well enough. I guess it's just hard for him to see me with someone other than his father. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I was discussing that very topic (social butterfly-ism) with the m-i-l to be Saturday before I left for the cookout I was dreading. She told me I'd probably have a great time, and she was so right. Sometimes you just don't want to, but you're usually glad you did. Wedding plans? So much fun! I hope you'll share pictures when you find your dress. Enjoy! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Have a good time, lovely! I am sure its not just love that is blind. I am postive you look GREAT. Glad to hear you both feeling good. x |
| from startafresh : |
| oh wow. I hope you have a good weekend. I have never been camping but it sounds fun. But wildlife sex really appeals to me. Hahahaha. Just take plenty of sun cream with you if it's gonna be that hot. Better to be careful than sore red and miserable. Becca |
| from whystinger : |
| An infection will fuck with the blood sugar level and the antibiotics might mess with it too... It can be so difficult. That is why I get pissed with Honi when her blood sugar is way up and she won't go to the doc... They drilled into my head, that it can cause nerve damage and I guess somehow I figure her nerves have been damaged enough... Glad to hear he's doing better |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Glad Mike's levelling out. I want to see that picture-you've intrigued me! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I'm so glad Mike's doing well! And that he's spoiling you! You deserve it!! I passed on your love to K!! Thanks!! *hugs* |
| from wildrosie : |
| Well darlin' if I were in the area, you know I'd be happy to karaoke with y'all. But...as for the losing weight...you know, and I know, that it ain't a good thing. Mike needs to get his gluteus maximus into his doctor asap to adjust his insulin. Remember, I lived with a diabetic for many, many years. He ignored his sugar levels, and as a result, he was unable to have an erection by the time he was 36. This is a decidedly unhappy thing. |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| I just emailed you but forget that, I got in eventually. Just you and Mike take care of yourselves and each other and all will be ok. :) Becca |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Thanks for your concern. Calling him is the obvious answer. The problem is, he doesn't answer, nor does he return my calls. I'm feeling somewhat better today, so I suppose I'm okay. I'll keep trying... |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| i never noticwed your vault before. aahhh, can "friends" ie ME have the password info. If not, I completely understand some things are best secrets arent they. Hahaha. Email me if it's ok but like I said, if not, I'm cool with that. [email protected] |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| A new laptop= heaven! xox |
| from erianne1 : |
| Yee Haw!!! |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| Congratulations on your laptop!!!! I just got one too, but have to wait for internet for another week. I can't wait.... |
| from second-love : |
| YIPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from madrigle : |
| Thanks for your comments. :D I'm pretty much done with the freeking out. Don't really wanna just start balling anymore. Your ANprobably right about just being protective. AND I realized I match a lot of what is in his blog about what he is looking for in a huge way. Sooo. I really need to just not be so fucking fragile. But, I wanna care, you know? I wanna let people in. I don't want to be one of those guys that's not emotionally available. Thing is that leaves me a bit vulnerable. oh well. I'm sure there is a happy medium around the corner. Also, he just text messaged me about how excited he is to have thai with me tomorrow, so that made me feel like a thousand percent better about myself and made me realize I need to just fucking buck up, have fun, and see where this all leads. I mean he's the first guy I've been around in a long time that makes me want to put any effort at all into developing a relationship. That's worth something right? starting to ramble. hugs. |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| i hate them type of messages. I had a friend who lived in Germany and I would get dozens of text messages to my phone with one or two words max. She'd send crap like "How are you?" I'd reply. "I'm good thanks. bit busy how are u?" then get back something like. "I'm good" Why bother? If you want to comment/make conversation put some effort in. Grrrrr. It really annoyed me and still does come to think of it. :) Have a good weekend!!!! Becca |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hey love, have a good weekend ok? And maybe send me some recipes. I am the worlds most clueless cook. I know how to make like 3 things and thats all I do.. xox |
| from f-i-n : |
| i like cooking too....esp. because my mom is such a bad chef |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Nit TMI at all! I love hearing how happy and in love you are! Especially when it's a little raunchy and exciting! I hope that doesn't make me sound pervy!!!!! :O |
| from second-love : |
| OH MY... you naughty girl... SASSY!!! xxoo |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Thanks so much for the tips for the headaches...I am going crazy! Take care my love! x |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| thanks for your comment at my ishouldcry diary. It made me smile. But did you mean our exes sound like they come from the same seed as you wrote, or SPAWN as I call it??? hahahaha. |
| from whystinger : |
| Happy belated birthday!!! AND MANY, MANY MORE! So you guys shared a dream, eh? I think it means that you two are in pretty good tune with each other. I have shared a dream with maybe one or two women. It only happened with the ones that were best for me. Be careful anyway, as the dream may have been telling you both to be careful. The sign may have been an indication of your happiness due to the engagement... |
| from erianne1 : |
| Thanks hon...much love back. Hugs! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Freaky. Take care hon! xoxox |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Oh wow-that is too weird! Do be careful. Maybe you should hire a driver :-) |
| from noaddedme : |
| Eeeks on the dual dream of car crashes :( Ask for protection when you go some where! Be safe and try not to worry about it. When you think of all the things that you DO dream about that don't come true it puts things in perspective. |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| Congratulations!!!! And Happy Birthday!!! You and Mike seem to have the sweetest little thing going - I'm so happy for you! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx!!!!!!!!!!!! Mazal Tov!!! I am jumping up anf down here with happiness for you!!! wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| Sounds like it was a wonderful birthday all round. I left the congrats note as startafresh as I was too excited for you. Any plans for mini X's after wedding???? |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Thanks lovely! Sorry. I'm just overly sensitive at the moment! Love you too!! Squishy hugs to you!!! |
| from madrigle : |
| Oh good lord, I have easel envy. ROCK ON! Hey, i really appreciate your comments, and thanks about the winning the juried show comment. I REALLY appreciate that. HUGS, James |
| from gutterpoet : |
| "bastard fungus"!! That would be the most awesome band name of all time, wouldn't it? BUT first and foremost, congrats on your exciting news! You do so deserve to be happy and I wish you guys a lifetime of it. cheers! gp |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Awww sweetie...congratulations! I'm so very happy for you guys. |
| from plopphizz : |
| Wow! Congrats! That's quite a birthday. I didn't even know you painted. What kind of art do you paint? -- Ploppy. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Major congrats hon! I wish the two of you much happiness and love. Hugs! |
| from chickpea981 : |
| AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! That gave me goosebumps reading it! CONGRATULATIONS!!!! |
| from startafresh : |
| Fantastic news hun. Congratulations. That was just so sweet. Good luck!!!! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| OMG!!! Congratulations!!! I am SOOOOOOOOOO happy for you!!! YAY!!!! ((((huggles)))) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God!!!!! I have to keep wiping my own tears to type this! CONGRATULATIONS. I couln't be happier for you! Hugs |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Anyway, that aside...... happy birthday and a big congratulations to you!! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| By the way, did you have a biopsy taken or the cells shaved? |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Ermm... yeah, um aren't I lucky! |
| from noaddedme : |
| wooooooooooooo hoooooooooo hooooooooooo hooooooooo! Congratulations sweetie!!!!! |
| from second-love : |
| How awesome...im in a puddle of tears myself right now. Congrats!!!! xxoo |
| from wildrosie : |
| HOLY GUACAMOLE BATMAN! What an incredible Birthday present! Wow, wow, and triple WOW! The ring sounds gorgeous, and being an amateur gemologist, I am happy that his sister helped him pick it, as often folks pay too much for too little. What a way to celebrate darlin'. Now, about those nosebleeds...??? |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Happy Birthday, Lovey!!! Have an AWESOME day and have some fun at that party for me... Can't wait to *hear* all about it... luv Ya!!! (((((huggles))))) |
| from wildrosie : |
| Happy, happy birthday! Enjoy yourself darling! Birthday hugs and kisses! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Happy Birthday my love. I am thinking of you. Have a wonderful, happy time. x |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| Have a great birthday! Please partake in an alcoholic beverage for me! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Happy Birthday, and enjoy. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Have a fantabulous birthday and party! Hugs :) |
| from second-love : |
| Happy Birthday friend... love you. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| have a good time X! Thinking of ya! |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| I hope you have an awesome party and that you feel great!! Happy Birthday! |
| from imadad2 : |
| OK, you got me ... 26 seconds. I was rounding up. ;o) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Oh sweet, chica mia...I hope you have the best fucking party! Happy, happy birthday to you, sweetie. Love ya! |
| from gutterpoet : |
| have a grand and wonderful birthday! *spank spank* |
| from chakra-chick : |
| I know what you mean about belly-dancing...people have this preconceived notion that it's a sexual / seductive dance when it is so not at all! I read that it was actually introduced in Egypt for ladies to strengthen their pelvic and back and tummy muscles for childbirth-NOT for sexual gratification. People are soooo misinformed---my Dad being one of them...seriously-he is not happy that I'm doing it---he mentioned it in the same breath as pole-dancing! Can you believe? Okay-enough of my ranting away in your notes section... Have a lovely weekend sweetie---more importantly-have a great party! Glad you are feeling somewhat better... ~smooches~ |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Thinking of you. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| My step sister had TWO belly dancers at her wedding reception... Eons ago... It was great fun... ;o) Glad your starting to feel better... (((huggles))) love ya! |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Sweetie, I hope you feel better before the weekend. Just look after yourself and try to take it easy. ~smooches~ |
| from chickpea981 : |
| once upon a time, my ex had an ass bleeding issue. they tested him for crohns but alas, it was not that, just infectious diarrhea. After reading what you are going through and realizing what he could have been going through as well, I can only regret that his test came out negative and you are stuck with this shit. It should be him, not you. *hugs* |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| You poor thing, I really feel for you. ((((Hugs)))) Becca. ps, re: the monster truck thing, it's (only) the 3rd time he's done it and when he was younger he would get his leg stuck in the gaps of his cot. That happened about 7 times before he learned properly. Each time as terrifying as the first as brain depicts firemen cutting leg free from cot, cutting cot apart with chainsaw!!!! Seriously, parenthood creates mini nightmares daily. :) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| So sorry you're feeling so crappy. Feel better soon. Hugs |
| from angldust83 : |
| You've become quite domesticated......I don't know if I should say congratulations or bitch slap you to knock you out of it. |
| from noaddedme : |
| As appealing as a 4lb. weight loss would be over night, the fine print of "bleeding out your ass" might make me think twice. *big hug* hang in there ... take care of yourself ... I hope your flare is on it's way down SOON! |
| from whystinger : |
| I hope you feel better soon. Take care of that stuff. There is nothing wrong with you spouting negative stuff, after all, you are purging it from yourself and what better to do with it? |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Hi, sweet-thang! I hope you get over this health episode soon. I really hate to read that you're going through this again. Hugshugshugs...chingo's of hugs to you. One question, though: Can you see the picture in my new layout? I don't see it at all! Why do you think that is? |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Feel better soon... ((((huggles)))) |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| you poor old thing. I really really wish you get better before the party. (((hugs))) Becca |
| from second-love : |
| Hee hee... you two are going to be a lovely old couple hahahahah between your health issues and his :) xxxxoooo |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| X, who can not love you? |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| That is beautiful.... |
| from second-love : |
| *hugs* |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| (sniffle) That was...beautiful. |
| from angldust83 : |
| The stuff on the myspace page was recorded last April, before I was a member of the band. Some have changed significantly since I joined, some are still the same. Anyway, we will hopefully be doing a full length cd within the next year......it's gonna cost about $10k so it's a ways off still. And we haven't even finished the artwork yet for the EP. The EP should be completely finished and printed in July, then we get to spend our time promoting it while trying to scrounge up enough money to record full length. Which page did you try adding, mine or the Glyphic one? Either way, send it again, I'll make sure it gets accepted. Mine is http://www.myspace.com/glyphicguitarist |
| from angldust83 : |
| So my band has the biggest show we've ever played on the 24th, at a venue called Gothic Theater. Opening for one of the biggest bands in Denver, Ion. And where is the X of the plicity type? Not here!!!! Go to http://www.myspace.com/glyphictheband and look at what you're missing. You know you wanna. |
| from noaddedme : |
| I'm so happy for Jordan! That is the best news! I'm also glad he has you in his life :) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Oh, I do love that kind of news! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Yay!!! I'm happy things turned out for the better for you nephew. Poor Baby...I hope he will be able to get past this as he gets older. ((luv)) |
| from chakra-chick : |
| You were right - the class was awesome and our teacher is fabulous! I moved body parts (very well, I might add!) which I didn't know I could. Next week we start with the veils and eventually we will be dancing with candles, sticks and cymbols too. I'm super excited... |
| from wildrosie : |
| A friend of mine has a son who has Asperger's Syndrome, which is often described as being "higher functioning autistic" There are ways to help, and while he may never be *normal* (What is normal?)he will be able to have more successful social interactions. There are also therapies out there. One woman who is autistic, made a cloth "bag" rather like a sling for herself. It helps her to have all areas of her body touched, and to be almost "womblike". He isn't alone, and there are things that can help! |
| from noaddedme : |
| If I get to that stage of hottie, I surely will be training people! I love it that I was in your dream AND that I'd become that vision. Let's see if I can make that happen :) |
| from second-love : |
| *hugs* |
| from angldust83 : |
| Family Values tour? What the fuck?!! You must be saved from the crappy metal. Yesh, that's right, Korn sucks dirty bunghole. Not just dirty bunghole, but corn-infested dirty bunghole. And yes, Life does know that you're reaching your sexual peak. Problem is, Life doesn't care. Hence the whole "Life is a bitch" expression. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Yay for sex. I am crap with dreams but maybe it means you guys are going to get married? Ok I told you I am crap with dreams. Just feel good and communicate. I guess thats really important. Communication. G-d who am I kidding? I am clueless when it comes to relationships. Just take care sweety. Love you! xoxox |
| from whystinger : |
| Grt8 has me laughing about booty juice! I think I would be more scared of a Booty Joose Bitch!!! I've been singing little booty juice songs and shit. It is really sick... |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| WITH |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| MMMmmmmm enchiladas....they are my absolute most favorite food in the world. My white Irish ass has actually attempted to make them a few times, they actually came out ok. But definitely no onions. Onions are yucky. :) |
| from second-love : |
| WITH onions absolutely!!!!! |
| from wildrosie : |
| OK, I'm a bit behind the times, so firstly, I will say that yes, it sounds like you had a migraine. When you feel that banging your head against a wall will actually make you feel better, then it may be a migraine. Secondly, I was at a party this weekend, and I watched the bartender make margaritas. She used ice, Cuervo Gold, Triple sec, honey, and margarita mix. It was goooooddd! Sorry I can't give quantities, since she just splashed and dashed it together. But I would say per blender she used about 2 cups ice, 1/3 blender Tequila, 1/3-1/2 cup honey, a good gurgle-splash of Triple sec, and the rest Mix. It was not too slushy, and we added ice to the cups we served it in. Oh, and thanks for reminding me that I had to pull out my crock pot today to make barbeque beef. Yum! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Thanks for the brujeria....I AM going to try it. I'll let you know how it goes. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| With I say. And with sex if possible. For the first time in my life I am waiting. (And it's not too bad!) :-) Love you! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Enchiladas aren't enchiladas without the onions, girl! Out of curiousity...when does a woman hit her sexual peak? I always thought it was in her forties...so I was looking forward to that! Damn, did it pass me, and I didn't even know it? That fucking sucks! Do you have a brujeria charm to spark up my love life? No, seriously...do you? ((hugsnluv)) |
| from erianne1 : |
| Onions are always our friends. Mmmmkay? |
| from erianne1 : |
| Unfortunately hon...you have now experienced a migraine. The visual disturbance is called an aural effect...wavy, shimmery lines in the center of your vision. When that leaves, the pain comes. I sincerely hope you never have to go through that again. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Thinking of you love.xoxox |
| from gutterpoet : |
| oh my dear X, I may have been silent but I have never stopped keeping up with your words and happenin's. cheers! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| This is the reason I call her BootyJuice: http://grt8f84me.diaryland.com/bootyjuice.html Hahahahaha! |
| from second-love : |
| I dont know HOW you do that whole "excessive drink" thing... especially tequila!!! I would be out of service for days and days! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Love you hon! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| You have a good good man there. Hang onto him. I am glad all is ok for you both. Becca |
| from noaddedme : |
| That damn judge should be choked a little to see how many times he wants to be abused. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Thanks for your notes D. Sorryy I haven't been reciprocating - reading is really hard for me at the moment! Caught up on you now though - you have Mike to protect you: use that and indulge it. Don't ever doubt that you have to cope with anything alone ever again! xxx |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Oh my God-that makes me sick to my stomach. I'd gladly step in when Imadad2 gets tired! I don't know who's more disgusting and vile-the father or the system. Thank God he's safe now. |
| from imadad2 : |
| I'll choke him to near death four times for you. Then we will see how "Not Cool" it is. I would never even think of touching my 5 year old like that. That crap makes my blood boil. I want to knock out that judge to. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| I'm glad you told Mike... At least you can rest now.... (((huggles))) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| You are an amazing person, Lady! That's why only good things should happen to you. You have the biggest heart. I am so thankful to have "met" you in our little D'Land. |
| from endthelies : |
| Personally? I'm impressed by your ability to open to Mike, despite the obvious discomfort, and I'm thrilled that he responded by being caring and protective. I'm sorry that you ever had to go through anything painful, but I think you've carved out an amazing future for yourself. |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| Thank you so much for your notes the past 2 entries. You have really hit the nail on the head. I especially loved the "chainsaw" message. Hehehehe, so darn right!!! I'm glad you spoke about the other weekend to Mike, it kind of shares the burden and now you don't have to feel like you are hiding anything from him. It will all coming through ok though it may take time and you are lucky to have someone like Mike to support you. Becca. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Oy. What you have only been through. You deserve more than a medal. Thinking of you. |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| WTF. I fall behind for a week and shit happens. All the time. I'm glad you told Mike too. Hopefully he doesn't get himself into trouble. =) |
| from chickpea981 : |
| damnit, I want a Mike of my own! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I'm so glad you told Mike!! Hopefully you'll be able to move on now!! I'm so so sorry you had to go through that!! I want to rip off Nicholas' bollocks!!!!! Fucking twisted arse wanker!!! Thanks for your note lovely!! It made me giggle!! I love you!! *hugs* |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Yes, but how are you feeling? |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| I hope you feel *different*.. The better different, soon... ((((Huggles)))) |
| from whystinger : |
| I need to raise my energy level, but prefer to find a way than to take or borrow someone else's energy. Man that was creepy. I hate those sleepy thoughts cause they drift around and distort reality. The guy sounds creepy... ANd yes, I did think of having her put away. Figured that would teach her to try the manipulation shit. I was afraid that she would learn some bad habits from being put away, like my friend's wife did when she DID TRY to kill herself. |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| he sounds bad, banish him from your house forever. There's a link for the cow thing a the bottom of the page, I just had to fix the pic of my Beautiful Bea. :) |
| from noaddedme : |
| Nicholas sounds like the right name for an energy sucking vampire. It is oh so awesome though how you can send energies. How far can you send some? Glad you are feeling better and stayed out of the hospital! |
| from second-love : |
| Damn...... ICKY with a capital I!!! What a creep!! You are just too sweet hon -id a been "energizin" that guy right out of my room THEN my house! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| First and foremost, I am so happy you are feeling better. Secondly, GIRL...that shit sounds creepy as hell! I got goosebumps reading that...OMG! I just don't know what to say. Love you, and take care!!! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Pics of kitty tomorrow... I promise!!! i just put them on my puter.. and forgot that I had to go through all the other stuff like putting them in photobucket and all that... SOOO... tomorrow I promise!!! (((huggles))) |
| from soccernut : |
| I hope you are replenishing all those minerals, etc. that you've been losing girl... And I hope you feel better. HUGS! |
| from whystinger : |
| I hope you feel better soon. As for the gross cheese cake, what are the "parameters" for food for chrons? Honi used to make a "mock cheesecake with pumpkin that was really pretty good and sometimes pretty realistic. |
| from jwinokur : |
| Hey, thanks so much for your supportive notes lately. I appreciate it a lot. You should hit me up on MySpace. myspace/justinwinokur -- kinda obvious, eh? |
| from second-love : |
| Go easy this weekend!!! Love ya! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Thinking of you! Hope you don't have to go to hospital!! Have a good weekend lovely!! Feel better soon! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Hugs and Smooches! Please take it easy. |
| from plopphizz : |
| I haven't forgotten your invitation. I have been thinking about it since you offerred it. I have dirty little secrets I never share. Nothing mind blowing, probably, but I'm not a touchy feely guy. I am thinking through what I want to share. Should it be funny, or open, or what? I dunno, I don't want to disappoint you. Anywho, still thinking...thanks for thinking of me. -- Ploppy. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Feel better, Sweetie... (((Huggles))) |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Shit! Pun intended. =) |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I really hope you're feeling better soon! Crohn's is evil!! My friend has Crohn's dieese too. Definitely switch doctors!! I'm so lucky to have a wonderful doctor. Finding a good one is so hard! I hope you find a good one and one who understands your Crohn's. xx |
| from noaddedme : |
| Awww sweetie, hang in there. Definitely time for a new doctor. It's so hard finding good doctors :( Too bad we can't combine our weight problems and have a happy medium. Seriously, I'd love to be medium! *big hug* |
| from ishouldcry : |
| cbeebies is a kids tv channel in the UK especially for toddlers and pre-school age. That is all my tv knows before 7 pm when it ends. hehehe. I do quite enjoy it myself sometimes. Becca |
| from noaddedme : |
| If you end up single again, I'll set you up. I'm SURE he'll be available. He's got the yellow headphones on NOW. Hubba hubba. Forgot to mention he's balding too. |
| from second-love : |
| I think i need a bed party :(((( |
| from erianne1 : |
| Ok...I am soooo jealous...on many levels. Drinking and merriment...jealous. Nice guy who loves you...way jealous. Apologies? Oh yeah...jealous on that too. *grin* |
| from soccernut : |
| Many hugs and much love going ur way from me!! xo Bella (from super hot and humid Asia [Singapore]) |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I join you in that vow!! I see many of my friends behaving bitchily and unreasonably to their husbands where it's not always deserved. One of my friends is particularly guilty of it, but luckily she's my best friend and responds well when I warn her she's doing it!! But, I too need the "tsst" correction technique sometimes!! Thanks for your lovely note!! I gave K kisses from you!! |
| from whystinger : |
| The problem is that it doesn't seem worth it to me any longer. I would like her to move out, at least for the summer, which would crush her, but if something doesn't happen, it will crush me. |
| from second-love : |
| OMG i HAVE to figure out a way to get there!!! We can celebrate our bdays together!!! :))) |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| I would love to come to your party! Now that I have a car that works! Keep us posted about it! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| I would LOVE to come to your party... Alas, you are too far away from me.. :o( But hey, the bright side is that MY birthday is coming up too.. However, I am Gemini, therefore mine is closer than yours.. Phhhtttttttttt!!! ;o) |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| lol, oh hun, I was only pullin your leg. Awwww, I just honestly hope you are feeling better soon.Aunt Rose is a constant problem for me. Since I have been off the depo injection I went 6 months with no "visits" now I am getting one every 2 weeks. Still, that could have been related to stress too. Take care. Becca |
| from noaddedme : |
| You give me so much strength! I am so glad for the big wide web bringing you into my world! I'll keep fighting the fight with you ok? *hug hug hug* love you! |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| Are you sure there's not a bun in the oven? All the time I was pregnant smells would linger all day and you haven't been that well lately and the sore boobs, pah. Worst thing. Hope all is ok very soon. Becca. |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Well, from readin that, you OBVIOUSLY think you might be pregnant!! Are you asking for confirmation?? For reassurance you're not?? Everyone knows all the signs ylou've given are signs of pregnancy so it can't have escaped you! I can't give you assurance either way! I don't know if you want to be or not! If you do, then ok, yes I'd say you could well be! But if you don't, then I'd say, you know those symptoms are random enough to be absolutely anything not just pregnancy!! Only a test will tell you for sure!! Don't try to get us to diagnose!! That's not fair!! Go get a kit!! And let us know!!! *hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| For WHYSTINGER... thats the Meyers Briggs test that gives those results... i am an ENFP :))) We use that test at my church where im on staff. NOW... to X... you KNOW i have suffered miserably with mood swings, wacky periods coming and going at a whim... it SUCKS. And if i didnt know any better, i'd say it sounds like you are pregnant *gasp*... especially because of the weird smell thing. When i was pregnant, my nose drove me crazy!! Oh... and i did the patch for awhile...it SUCKED *wink* |
| from whystinger : |
| I like the walkout basement and the pole barn. It sounds like things are pretty good. As for the test. We get those every few years. I can't remember the name of the test, but it gave you letters, like "ENTJ"... |
| from angldust83 : |
| I've spent the last two hours listening to my Circle of Fifths CD while cleaning....Move your ass to Colorado so we can make purdy sounds!!!!! The Lord and Master of Eli-Qaeda has decided that you have until the 7th of July, 2006 (first random date that came to mind) to move here without facing any squirrely wrath. If Mike bitches about it throw his ass in a suitcase and bring him with. Anyway, aside from Glyphic and Paying Tuition there are several songs on myspace if you'd care to take a look: http://www.myspace.com/angldust83 And I just got a purdy new Marshall!!! Had to replace the crappy old Crate combo to start playing shows with Glyphic....sounds quite nice with the combination of the Line 6 POD. More ambient sounds to come.... |
| from erianne1 : |
| I'm a tie between a 1 and 8...unfortunately they both fit my Gemini personality very snugly. :) |
| from angldust83 : |
| You wanna know what beats hot sweaty sex?! I'll tell yo ass what beats hot sweaty sex like a muthafucka!! Acorns!!!! Everybody loves acorns!!!!! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Thanks lovely!! And you're right, nothing beats hot sweaty summer sex!! |
| from endthelies : |
| Wow, your summer sounds pretty awesome =) |
| from imadad2 : |
| What did I do? Stop ignoring me God Dammit !!! Great episode ... :o) |
| from whystinger : |
| Yes, lady lumps and humps are in my mind now... I know several Scottys that are married. I think I will call and email THEM ALL, especially some friends in NY and WI... |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Yes, you are truly evil!!! Misery does love company, does it not? Stupid ass, lame song! And along the penis story...I once got chewing gum stuck on Mr. Man's penis. I guess I'm not as adept with my tongue as I thought! He was pissed, but I just cracked up! He got it all over his fingers, and everything! HAHAHAHAHA! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| You evil evil woman!!! That song drives me insane!!! And now it's stuck in my head!! |
| from second-love : |
| You naughty girl *wink* |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Glad to *see* that you're feeling better.... *wink*.. have a good rest of the day... (((huggles))) |
| from imadad2 : |
| Threesome. B/B/G. My wife talked about doing a double penetration to. However, she thinks I would want another woman in return, so it probably will never happen. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hey, soon we can compare garden notes, my landlord is finally taking care of my garden a bit. Meaning he cut some of the weeds down.. I hope you feel better soon lovely! xoxoxox |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Feel better soon, Mamacita... thinking about you today... (((huggles))) :o*) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Hey, sexy mama! You have been on my mind all day, and I don't know why. Hmmmm.... Just wanted to touch-base, luv 2 u, sister! Hope everything is going great. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| It's going to happen. We all know it! xx |
| from whystinger : |
| Hmmm, teaching belly dancing! You may be surprised how much you learn by teaching others. It is a great way to perfect one's skills. Combine that with taking classes, and Wow! |
| from whystinger : |
| It was a catch 22 - she came back three times, so she thanked me four times... She was pretty and ... it was probably good for my ego. I figured that it would do a few things if "I went for it..." 1. It would make me break my promise to myself 2. It would hurt Honi more and she didn't need any more hurt and 3. it would be wrong. But it was still tempting. It was an ego boost. There was some irony too.... |
| from plopphizz : |
| Sure. I'd be glad to write a guest entry. Did you have any particular topic or theme you wanted me to write about? -- Ploppy. |
| from second-love : |
| can ya come to CA and give me a lesson?? *wink* Im desperate for something new :)) |
| from second-love : |
| Guest writer... i understand your paranoia... and i understand your unhappiness too :( I've lived it myself for quite awhile. It does always feel good to get it out somewhere. Hang in there |
| from whystinger : |
| Thanks for the kind note... I appreciate it. As far as for you... 130 lbs?????? Are you kidding me??? At that weight you could be 4'10" and I would think you were just fine. Windy was about 4'11" and when I saw her after she had gained 20 pounds, I liked her better... so you are most likely perfect. Don't be soooo hard on yourself. |
| from angldust83 : |
| Actually, I had nothing to do with that one....but I am pregnant, and it's yours, and I expect my child support check by next week. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Thanks for the vote of confidence... :o)... And for the prayers... Much needed and MUCHO appreciated... (((huggles))) |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| YAY!!!!!!!! *X* is back!!!! Welcome back sweety... Sure did miss ya.... (((huggles))) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Yes, Christy is Jeff's g/f. Have a great week. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Welcome back. I'm glad you had some good times, and I'm sorry your family acts like that. I'm sure they have the best intentions, but that's sad-so sad. Hugs |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Yay...you're back! Man, that first guest entry almost made me shit my pants! I did not realize it was not you making the entry...I 'bout died, Sister! And, as far as your familia and the things they say, you know what...you know what's real, just be true to yourself. I have a sister that is just like your mom. What's sad is that I really think she thinks she is being helpful when she says crappy, hurtful things like that. Oh, well...just let it roll off your back. Missed ya, love ya! |
| from imadad2 : |
| Isn't that what family is for? Insulting you and bringing you down? Why do you think we all never get together with our families except on holidays? |
| from noaddedme : |
| Can we be complex twins? What is it with family that they have to make sure we are cut down to nothing? Glad you are back, I've missed you! |
| from soccernut : |
| Hey babe - just to let you know, I'm leaving for Singapore this Sunday. I'll start writing again from Asia. Love and cheers!!! B~ |
| from kayrayne29 : |
| Hi! I have moved! Please follow me to: http://kayrayne.diaryland.com Happy reading! |
| from wildrosie : |
| Well guest writer, it is bad of me, but there is a book called "How to Hide Your Assets And Disappear", or some such nonsense. But you didn't hear it from me, 'cause I would never even think such a thing. Frankly, after having never read that book, I figured out that it is just too damned complicated to do properly. But I would say to remember the words from the Harry Chapin song W*O*L*D..."Sometimes I get this crazy dream, that I just take off in my car, but you travel all of ten thousand miles, and still stay where you are..." Now, having said THAT, sometimes a trip by oneself, that enables you to come to terms with yourself, is just the ticket. Hugs ~Rosie~ |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Thanks for the guest! Funny girl! xx |
| from second-love : |
| I can relate to wanting to just run away. I often feel that way and have fantasized about it often. Hang in there, guest writer :) |
| from whystinger : |
| To the guest writer... Here is my two cents worth... Baby comes first, you come second and relationship comes third. If you are not happy and had planned on leaving, then it may be best to leave. Love can grow when two people work towards a common goal, but you both would have to be committed and ready. If you are not and are having doubts, then go with your heart and head, which means leaving. I don't know your age, but being in a bad relationship sucks and can do more damage to the child than being a single parent. If you aren't happy, then you may grow to hate the father (b.f. I assume). It may be better to cut your losses now and hopefully be friends enough to do the best for the child. I will remember you in my prayers. |
| from wildrosie : |
| Wowee Guest Writer, that WAS a big secret! Well, I don't know if I know you or not, but when I was 22, I was pregnant, and I had my daughter without having a dad around. Then when I was 28, I was supposed to be married, got pregnant intentionally, and then he booked when I was 6 weeks along. Being a single parent isn't easy, but then again, probably the nicest thing about it is that you have no expectations that anyone else will pick up the slack. It all gets done because YOU do it! OH, there is so much more I could say, but you have already answered the most important question...Alone or with someone, you are determined to do what is best for your baby. Good for you! But you might also consider counseling too. And you can write to me if you feel like letting me bend your ear! Hugs, and all the best.~Rosie~ |
| from stelanotte : |
| I need to catch up with your journal, but am glad you're still writing! I've missed you! Keep in touch, Cheri X |
| from heelandlass : |
| Hee Hee - I just read your entry over at Kev's. It made me chuckle. Especially because I wrote an equally silly story on the same day about a friend of mine (also called coughscottycough) falling in some cheese. Thanks for sharing that! |
| from plopphizz : |
| Crap, I missed the guest entry deadline. Eastern standard time sucks for those of us on the West Coast. -- Ploppy. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Are you still around??? Did you set me up to *guest* entry in your blog??? OMGoodness... Thank you, thank you, thank you... So very much... Have a fantabulous time... (((Huggles))) |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Search engine protected huh? I wonder if it "works" now? I wonder... ???? |
| from noaddedme : |
| I don't want to guest write, I just want you to know I'm really going to miss you while you are gone! Have a wonderful time! |
| from imadad2 : |
| I thought of you when I saw that South Park episode. Thanks for the note. You made me laugh :o) |
| from madrigle : |
| Thanks. :D Hope you found something tasty to eat. |
| from bitterwineuk : |
| ;) Grins back. I was so close to actually replying to that person and saying if you dont like what I have to say, you shouldn't be reading my diary and should piss off but I feel more smug about shaming them publicly and giving others a chance to read this narrow minded opinion themselves.(from someone with the sense of humour that would make lemon peel look hilarious) ;) Have a good week and I'd have a go at guest writing too hun, just let me know the boundries as to what is fitting and what isn't. Have a fabulous week. Becca |
| from whystinger : |
| Of course I would love to g.e. but don't know if I would make the time... |
| from angldust83 : |
| I've got all kinds of dirty secrets for your diary.....might even divulge a few Eli-Qaeda plans.....only problem is they probably won't make any sense. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Yeh, I KNOW you know GI's... heh... thanks for the well wishes... <3 ya girly... (((huggles))) |
| from kayrayne29 : |
| Me! Me! Me!!!! No need to vault, I love airing dirty secrets! hehehehe |
| from ava-reborn : |
| What a wonderful weekend!! Mike's such a catch! But he is the lucky one to have got you!! *hugs* |
| from f-i-n : |
| Happy one-year. That was an awesome story. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Happy Anniversary. You give me hope! I am so very happy for you. You deserve it, after all you have been through! May you just be happy and have many many happy years to come! xoxoxo |
| from plopphizz : |
| It's so interesting how your main topic on this diary has gone from being in, and trying to escape, a bad relationship, to being in, and reveling in the happiness of, a really good relationship. Good for you lady, have a great weekend with your man. -- Ploppy. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Ye Gods I am so jealous and so happy for the two of you at the same time. *grin* Have a glorious weekend of celebration hon. |
| from imadad2 : |
| Congrats hope you have a great weekend. |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I remember those so well! Happy anniversary lovely!! I'm so so so happy for you!!! Have a wonderful weekend!! xxx |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I remember that! I'm still so happy for you. I feel the same with Phil. Thanks for the walk down Memory Lane. |
| from imadad2 : |
| I missed it. Baseball took precedent. The episode will be on this weekend, so I will catch it then. Glad to hear you enjoyed it. Now I have something to look forward to. |
| from second-love : |
| Its always good to get rid of toxic people and toxic things. There is already so much negativity and people that take themselves so dang seriously. Im with ya girl *hugs* |
| from angldust83 : |
| Untrustworthy people?! WHAT THE FUCK!!! I will have you know that despite my plots of world domination, assasination of various famous figures (particularly in Hollywood), the death of France and other socialist nations, raping of monkeys and goats (as well as numerous other animals), elimination of liberals, and plans to turn Mike gay with my sexy butt I am very fucking trustworthy. I don't care what you heard about me and the sheep in Iraq and the velcro gloves that I made (true story, minus the sheep sex), it was all LIES!!! By the way, you should read the two most recent entries I've posted if you haven't already. I think you may find them interesting. You even get credit for one, so now you can officially die happy, and I can seduce Mike with little to no interference. |
| from grt8f84me : |
| What up, chickie? Just wanted to acknowledge that I read your comment...thank you for that. I don't think I'm going to read the notes left to you for awhile...because they just seem to say..."too bad your friend feels hurt...that's life." Ah, well...I guess that IS life. I stand by my statements, as you stand by yours, and I guess I shouldn't care if every other person disagrees with me. But I really want you to know that I care about you and what goes on with you. I would never wish anything bad to happen to either you or your loved ones. You are so funny, caring, strong, and dedicated to your love, to life, and to your beliefs...You are special, and I would not throw away our new found friendship over a disagreement. I want to thank the few folks that see my side of things. Sadly, there were not as many as what you have...but they are important to me nonetheless. Love you, Sister! Por que tu sabes que toda via semos hermanas...no que no? (I don't know if I spelled any of that correctly, but hey, I gave it a shot!) Love and hugs to you, Miss Thang! :) |
| from kayrayne29 : |
| was that supposed to have an 'l' at the end? As in *squeel* becasue i'm not sure what a *squee* is.. hehehe.. And I agree with noaddedme... it also depends on what you ate.. hehehe |
| from noaddedme : |
| I'm not arrogent, but I must admit sometimes I do like the smell of my own farts .... |
| from imadad2 : |
| No plad skirts, but what a wonderful idea. I need to go to bed right away ... |
| from chakra-chick : |
| thanks for the party gear advice...I went shopping today-got myself a black 'not-too-tight' pants and a strappy lime-green top. I know what you mean about people like that---I cannot stand them either...thank GOD I don't know anyone like that! Lovely day to ya! ~smooches~ |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Rest??? Rest??? What is that?? i don't even know how to spell that... lol... (((huggles for my lovely))) Ahhhh... Yes, back to WORK!!! |
| from whystinger : |
| Stick by your opinion, it is yours, this is YOUR diary and we are in America, so you are entitled to your opinion. Also, you wouldn't be a TRUE FRIEND to anyone if you didn't speak your mind and tell the truth. I am sorry if one of your friends feels hurt. That is life. We can't always go around without hurting anyone. Now, if it was malicious, that would be one thing, but I don't think it was malicious. I have feelings about the illegal alien thing and believe me, I have feelings both ways. It IS A COMPLICATED ISSUE, so it is NOT TRIVIAL. The older I get the more less black and white the world is, but the more tones of gray I see... In NJ, I had a neighbor that was an illegal alien. He was a good person and helped me an awful lot. I wouldn't have wanted him deported. The story gets more complicated. He married a citizen. They had a kid, they divorced... He also initally came LEGALLY, for school and the visa had lapsed. He stayed illegal for many years (before I knew him). He also took the steps to legalize himself again. |
| from kayrayne29 : |
| I don't care what anyone says, you have an opinion and good on ya for sayin something. I get my back up about quite a lot of topics, and I wouldn't be me if I didn't say what I felt, and same with you. Stick to your guns, and go for it girl!! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Thank you so very much sweetheart! *hugs* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| If thats the case, it would only make sence to delete x-perimental. Having a link of that on your current diary can't do much for mental health. Just my opinion. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I REALLY tried to refrain from posting a note. I hate the thought that I'm stooping to this level. X, if you feel it's a free country and should speak your mind, then why erase abe's opinion to you and to secondlove? You have told me before that you don't care what people think. Why now do you care what abe thinks? Leaving her notes in tact and removing others doesn't give anyone an oportunity to see both sides of a debate. I hate name calling. I really do. So I won't call you a name secondlove, I'll just tell you to go fuck yourself! |
| from second-love : |
| Again i say "DIPWAD!!"... if the shoe fits.... |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I must admit that entry threw me a tad bit-I even debated your position with Phil, and basically, this is such a hot topic that all we can all do is agree to disagree. Anyway, your diary is YOUR diary, like you said-if you can't express your own opinion there, then we have another problem now, don't we? Thank you for raising my awareness of this immigration issue. I'm sitting up and paying attention now. |
| from second-love : |
| What right do you have to say that stuff??? Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm you dipwad... its MY diary!!! thats what i would say |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Awww...thanks for the hugs dear---right back at ya! |
| from whystinger : |
| Hey X, I pretty much agree. My Grandparents on my Dad's side imigrated from Poland, so I am a second gen Polish-American. Third generation Ukrainion from Mom's side, what's that make me, 2 1/2 gen??? Anyway, I was close to my Polish born Grandmother. What a love she had for this counrty of ours. Her citizenship was a MAJOR PRIDE issue for her. She helped many other imigrants earn their citizenship. They worked hard. I believe we all should. I don't want my tax dollars supporting illegal aliens. Let them be legalized and naturalized like the relatives. Do they fill a need for jobs? It appears so, but those jobs would still be available if they were citizens... And I do believe that Americans would fill those jobs if they (illegals)were not here. If you think about it, they work here and send money back to Mexico and other areas. Not only are they illegal aliens, but in many cases, they are sending CASH back home to Mexico, which is ILLEGAL EXPORTATION. Does that do our economy good? I doubt it... Thanks for being brave with your entry. I do support your position. |
| from wildrosie : |
| Amen sweetie. Give me a couple of days and I will be posting an entry on the same subject. ~Rosie~ |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Well said! Great entry lovely! |
| from chickpea981 : |
| bravo! |
| from second-love : |
| Amen sister xxoo |
| from noaddedme : |
| No name calling for me. I have to say that most people I know wouldn't even work for what I make an hour, but I have job security, which beats all. M works construction. He said there are so many mexicans it's outrageous, but they work hard and cheap. Paying them under the table is a win win that is going to be hard to break, but it sure needs to be broken! |
| from iam-perfect : |
| Kiss Kiss!! Missed you too snookums. |
| from grt8f84me : |
| But I bet you're the best damn socks folder in the whole world!!! ;) |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Hey! I *own* the lame-ass entry, and I'm not happy with you moving in one my territory. Besides, it wasn't even *that* lame. ;) |
| from classygirl83 : |
| Hey, thanks for the note. Yeah, I think taht marriage is alot harder than anyone thinks it is going to be going in to it. Thanks for the note. It meant alot. |
| from second-love : |
| how bout "STEP OFF JIM BOB" HAHAHAHAHHAHA dont ask me what the "jim bob" thing is about it just sounds funny lol xxoo |
| from erianne1 : |
| Just yell "taffy popsicle dammit!" It's funny enough to defuse anger and still mean "this is sticky and I need to chill about it". I think dammit is pretty much self-explanatory. *grin* |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| It's great that you feel up to the work, but I have to agree with your man-please don't overdo it. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Right back at 'cha sweetness... :o*) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I have been such a sucky friend! I'm glad to hear you're feeling positive about exercising. That's NEVER a bad thing. I hope Mike recovers well. Blood clots are nothing to mess around with. Hugs |
| from second-love : |
| awwwww i love other peoples anniversaries... *wink* |
| from erianne1 : |
| Would it be totally inappropriate for me to say that I'm jealous because I don't have someone to love all those things about? :) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Glad Mike is doing better! And Vince!! WTF? How are you lovely? |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| OH OH OH!!! What is your MySpace link? Yay! X is on MySpace!!! |
| from angldust83 : |
| Check this out if you get a chance....I've been making odd stuff.... http://www.myspace.com/angldust83 |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Funny how all us friends are feeling less inspired by this thing at the moment. |
| from chickpea981 : |
| thank you for your adivce. I've still got some vicodin left from last time so I am going to take it ahead of time. You're the only one to tellme what its really like!!! |
| from noaddedme : |
| Maybe the "thing" that Vince mentioned is like the giant "it" that ebay uses in it's commercials. Beware! Isn't there some old movie called "The Thing" ? If there isn't, there should be :) Glad Mike is better!!! |
| from second-love : |
| Im with you on the job bein a vampire... i feel the same way about mine *sigh*... and as you've witnessed by my diary...im also uninspired - just cant find anything to write about and im tired of whining. |
| from chickpea981 : |
| Can't they put mike on any blood thinners to help break up the clots? How awful! Also, I am green with envy over you two getting marrie din Hawaii! What a gorgeous place to tie the knot and then immediately honeymoon! When is the big day? |
| from classygirl83 : |
| Maybe he should go to the doctor if he has a clot. I would deffinatly, tell him to go. A clot is serious. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| A clot sounds a bit risky not to have someone take a look at it..? Keep watcching over him. And I assume it's still OK for us all to come to the wedding? :-) xx |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Thinking of you and Mike sweetie. ~smooches~ |
| from wildrosie : |
| Hey sweetie, Here's a hug and lots of loves. I'm sure Mike will be fine with you looking after him, but you will be in my prayers. ~Rosie~ |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| Oh you sound so scared - you and Mike will be in my prayers. Hang in there.... |
| from classygirl83 : |
| I'm sorry to hear that. You and Mike will be in my thoughts and prayers. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Sending good thoughts and energy for you both. Hugs hon. |
| from endthelies : |
| Wow, that's awful. I don't know what to say except that I'll be thinking of you and Mike. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Oh no!! I am so sorry to hear that! I don't know what to say. Just sending hugs and kisses and good wishes to the both of you. Please keep us updated. I am thinking of you. xoxo |
| from noaddedme : |
| Sending healing thoughts & lots of love! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Oh, sweetie...things will be OK. I will say a prayer for both of you. {luv u} |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| Thinking about you and Mike. Hugs back at you both! |
| from candoor : |
| if you can read this, you may not have partied as hard as you thought ;) |
| from erianne1 : |
| Thanks for the vote of confidence hon...it means a great deal! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| LMAO! Well have a blast tonight, and drink some for me!!! |
| from cleanstart : |
| I hope you all have a great time celebrating tonight! Be careful! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Please come here for a visit! Please??? |
| from wildrosie : |
| *Singing* "I don't practice Santeria, I don't got no crystal ball..." Anyway, the only thing that I would say is, as long as you don't harm anyone, then go for it. Rather than giving that one lady a headache though, I would have tried a mirror spell, one to turn her own bad thoughts back on herself. Otherwise, just remember that whatever you send out comes back multiplied, so be careful. ~Rosie~ |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| ..And the tape is available from..? |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| Thanks for the info. I have heard of Santeria before, there was an episode of Law & Order that had it in it. Glad that you found something to empower you with! ;-) |
| from second-love : |
| Damn *thud* |
| from whystinger : |
| Was going to leave you an email, then decided not to, figured I would put it here... then I got distracted and brain-farted and don't remember it now....... |
| from second-love : |
| good GOD you are killin me ;) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Vault...You have a vault? What? Por favor...puedo a ver lo? Si o no...? |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Oh STOP it! :-) |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| X... can I please, pretty please with sugar AND whipped cream on top have the paswd to your *vault*??? I promise I will not abuse the power... hehe... (((huggles))) |
| from whystinger : |
| Sharing dreams (not verbally) and sharing thoughts (also not verbally) means you two are pretty damn close and on the same wave length. You two are probably fairly cerebral and prescient. That is good for a relationship... We have that health analysis type of things. How tall are you? At your weight, you are sound pretty thin. |
| from chakra-chick : |
| I don't think I have ever read your 'vault'...perhaps I should request a password and such---since I'm not getting any, I have to live vicariously through my buddies! Lovely day to ya! ~smooches~ |
| from realsnoopy : |
| ok, your the only Catholic witch I know, I'm so confused on stuff... help me!!!! |
| from plopphizz : |
| X, thanks for all of your comments lately. I really appreciate hearing from you. Sned me an email at [email protected], please, I would liek to email you. Thanks, Ploppy. |
| from whystinger : |
| Jusrt catching up on you. Threesomes can be a big challenge and really can stress a relationship. Everyone HAS to be comfortable and there really can be NO RULES. It can split a couple up. Sometimes the thinking and chatter can be better than actually doing it. It takes a special couple to pull it off. |
| from whystinger : |
| Thanks for the note. I don't know if she went through menopause of not... She had a hysterectomy about 20 years ago. Someone said since she had no overies for so long, she wouldn't go through menopause. I think she did, or started going through it a year or so ago. Her illnesses and depression and hormones and all that are a tricky balance too, plus the pouting and childishness... Maybe I am rationalizing it... I hope not... |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Hey, `hita! Are they recording your performances at all? At my daughters productions, we have someone that tapes the performance, and then they are able to burn them to DVD's right in the lobby and sell them to the audience as they are leaving. It would be cool to see you in action! Sounds to me like you're the star, baby! Go on and do that shit! ((love)) |
| from chakra-chick : |
| I've had a 3some-it was with my fuckbuddy and his fuckbuddy...it was quite enjoyable. But I agree, if you and Mike are in a committed relationship and you both get jealous easily-don't go there. Have a lovely weekend m'dear! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| i just want to thank you for getting me ADDICTED to Sudoku!!! Yerg... I went for an online serch and d/l a trial version of the game... So yeah... THANKS A LOT, X!!! heh... (((huggles))) |
| from sarahsundae : |
| I love this layout. |
| from angldust83 : |
| Okay...several things to say to your ass...first off, Scotty G is the last of your fucking worries, my operatives are outside your window at all times. Second, how fucking dare you imply any plans at all to take over the world. I'm half tempted to send my minions to kick your ass and assign your ass an official minion to kick Mike's ass just to rub it in. Third...well, there really isn't a third, but anyway, DON'T MAKE ME FUCK YOU UP!!! The lord and master of Eli-Qaeda that is Eli and on an official mission to end all libarals and socialism is officially pissed. DO-FUCKING-NOT make me wander to your officially undisclosed state of residence and make me kick the shit out of random people with my 18" double-sided dildo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| What is a Sudoku puzzle? "blushes beacuse of her stupidity" Have fun on the last night. And take care! xoxox |
| from plopphizz : |
| I suspect that a big facor in how your keyboard interprets your typing greatly depends on what body part(s) you use to type. I am glad you picked out that reason to comment on though, it was my favorite of all of them. If I get three X comments in a row, do I get a tic tac toe? -- Ploppy. |
| from madrigle : |
| yeah, it was a fun get together. Most of the people I tried explaining it to either questioned MY sanity, or Corazon's the one who had teh imaginary brother. HUGS. |
| from erianne1 : |
| My sister (Jo) is also a Sudoku addict. I personally can't do the puzzles, but she's a whiz at them. |
| from f-i-n : |
| I dream about numbers as well....For me, fives are lucky. Odd numbers are scary. Even numbers are friends. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I want me some PDA and everything else. ;-) and poor Aaron, and thanks for all your comments and encouragement and I looooove you! xoxox |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm glad you got you some R&R...as well as the PDA. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I don't have the bottle with me, but it's the generic for Altram? Maybe Ultram? It relieves the pain but makes me incredibly spacey (-ier than usual!) |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Newspaper reviews are crap - all about the reviewer and not about the reviewed. I was once in a punk rvue called 'Never mind the Bollards' and the local paper sent their country diary man along! Gave us a torrent about bad language and 'foul content'. But did have the decency to finish with 'the audience appeared to enjoy it. Unlike me.' |
| from whystinger : |
| I'm glad the play is going well. I want to see another play or two or so... Sorry to hear about the other issue. That is so hard for everyone. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Just read something about crohns - apparently research shows it can be treated with ..viagra. have you seen that? |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Congrats on your performance. I hope Scotty pulled out of his depression. Hugs |
| from bethany9 : |
| Sending mad love your way! |
| from whystinger : |
| I hear that Reiki is wonderful. I don't know much about it, but I did get a massage a while ago... It was a fifteen minute massage and it really refreshed me and I really felt awake and aware, until I realized I was, but also dreamed a bit too. She told me to drink lots of water to flush, as she had loosened lots of the toxins in my body. She warned that if I didn't drink lots of water, I would feel like I had a hangover. I was traveling long distancce in an airport and I arrived home feeling fresh and not tired... I think manipulating the chakra and chi is definitely healing... I want Honi to try one. |
| from soccernut : |
| I hear you girlfriend. I am digging the warmth! PS: Is Reiki a type of massage? Would it help me with my (muscle) pain from the accident? |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Thanks for the *bump*, Sweets... I <3 you!!!! (((hugs))) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Regarding your note-I'm so glad you feel that way. I appreciate that all my g/f's here on Dland are sharing in the day-to-day stuff with me. To let you in on a piece of info, I decided against the dress I had picked out-I found out it's probably a sweat-shop goodie. Can't go there. Besides, I was leaning toward something with a bit of decoration, and though that one was poofy, it had no lace or beads. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Wow-I bet you experienced more because you're so open to it. I would LOOOVE to do something like that. If I were to try to find someone like that in my area, what would I Google? |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| WoW!!! That sounds sooo very awesome!!! I wish I would have been there to experience that with you... I need relaxation like that... |
| from whystinger : |
| Chubbles sometimes like to play in the water and sometimes he hates to be sprayed. He seems to pick on the big male cat, who suffers form irratable bowel syndrome and has health issues. The older female cat will figt him off, but the big male just tries to get away. I should email you, as maybe you can help more with some adivce about Q (Chubbles) |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Awww...I hope Mike feels better soon dear! Thanks for the comment over at my place...it was torture I tell ya! But I only sat through it so I could be near him... ~smooches~ |
| from third-person : |
| I've used that phone trick too, but Shhhh! Don't tell anyone! |
| from madrigle : |
| LMAO! went down on him while he was on the phone to the bitch stalker ex! LMAO! that is priceless. I like writing about this beginning. I'm glad you are enjoying reading. HUGS. |
| from avalonte : |
| Thank you for your note. It means so much to me! xx |
| from divacowgirl : |
| I am laughing so hard right now. Only a man would ask if you're preggers. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Glad to hear you had a good weekend... Booo!!! about the pic!!! Hopefully the new ones will turn out better... (((hugs))) |
| from imadad2 : |
| Applause for your skillfull driving. That would have sucked if you wrecked you vehicle and possibly got hurt. Glad to hear you got through with no damage. That is why I am so glad I live in the south. |
| from whystinger : |
| It takes more than some skill to avoid a jadcknifing semi!!! Good job! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hey Ms Sassy (I love that word, I learned it from you!) I hope you two are having a superb weekend. (Now "superb" -where the hell did that word come from?) But you know what I mean! xoxoxox |
| from classygirl83 : |
| THanks. I'm glad that you had a gooooood V-day as well. |
| from candoor : |
| yay for being safe... I finally did your johari... it's not easy choosing from all those words, especially when we only know people through their diaries, but it's fun (I've got one now :) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Thank goodness you are ok. Nothing like make-up sex right? Actually any sex...Love you too sweetie. xoxox |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Thank you for the note and no, you don't need to cut anyone. |
| from whystinger : |
| Not supposed to swear at work? Fuck 'em if they can't take a joke... I try to not swear, but for some reason, I am just a potty mouth. Must have been my hanging around garages while growing up and my time in NYC... I hate being awaken so I can feel for you. Glad you are okay from the storm... |
| from second-love : |
| awwwwwww im so sorry!! i hate that!!! take care hon and safe driving in that weather!! You need to come visit me in sunny So. CA :)))) xxoo |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Uhhh.. TGIT... Thank Goodness It's ThursDay... Only one more day and you can get some much needed rest... Be careful going home in the snow... (((hugs))) Try not to stay mad at the cute pouter... heh... |
| from erianne1 : |
| Hugs hon. Be safe, get some rest and tomorrow will hopefully be a better day. |
| from noaddedme : |
| I think I need to name my baby boy! |
| from madrigle : |
| Thanks for the lovely notes. And a happy belated v-day to you too! Hugs. |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Glad you had such a lovely Valentines sweetie! That rose is gorgeous! And roses are not even my preffered flower... hugs & kisses Faz |
| from plopphizz : |
| Cool! I just made it into your Valentine's Day "up to the letter P" criteria. That really makes me glad that when I first created my diary, that I didn't go with my original user name choice: "Quop Quiz". Who knew it would finally pay off for me this week? Hope you had a great Valentine's Day as well, ya lil' daaahhhh lin'. -- Ploppy. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| AAAwwwwww... Ain't he sooo tweet?? That rose is soo awesome... (((hugs))) |
| from noaddedme : |
| cool rose! I'm so thrilled with the love you have in your life now! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Happy Valentines Day to you too, I don't think I'd call him my Sanchez, lol. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Ah! You lovers! xx |
| from for-ever-you : |
| Happy VD to you too.. Thanks for the note, it was the only wish I got this VD... :-) |
| from whystinger : |
| Happy VD to you! I tried to do the favor, but their site was overloaded... |
| from bloodyme : |
| happy valentine's day to you as well! i hope you get some sugar and some candy as well! |
| from erianne1 : |
| *heart* back at ya hon. :) |
| from cleanstart : |
| Happy Valentine's Day! |
| from endthelies : |
| HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!! What an awesome card. You must be a fantastic girlfriend. And Mike must be fantastic too, to make you feel that way. I hope you have the perfect romantic day together. |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Between you and Snoopy I'm all in a happy mood already! LoL! Happy V-Day sweetie! Enjoy your romantic night! ((hugs)) |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Happy Valentines Day! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| One time, I got a fishing pole for Mother's Day from Hombre. Guess who used it? Anyways, your poem was beautiful. It's so, so nice to see someone as happy as you and Mike are. Gives the rest of us hope, ya know? By the way, does he have an older brother, oh, say around 40ish? ;) Happy Valentines, Sweetie! Luv ya! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Oh my... X... That was awesome... I <3 you... Will you be MY Valentine??? heh... Just so I can get notes like that from you??? Mr. Mike is ONE lucky Dude... Have a great day... (((hugs))) |
| from second-love : |
| You are too cute........... AND evil *wink* - have an awesome V day hon xxoo |
| from for-ever-you : |
| Hi. I've had to lock up.. leave me a note with your email address and i'll email you my password.. ta.. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm glad to hear you're on the mend. Hugs |
| from soccernut : |
| Girl -- take care of urself. ~ PS: I love strip clubs too... ~ Have a great weekend! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| crazy ass....LOL! Oh, and "YUCK!" |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Feel better, Hon. |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Hey, sweetie...It's been a while since I left you a note. I'm sorry your not feeling well. Please take it easy. And thank you for all your notes, and support. It's means so much to me. Pobrecita, mi mamacita...mucho amor, `cita! |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Feel better sweetie! have a fantstic weekend being pampered by Mike... ~smooches~ |
| from second-love : |
| Mike is right... you need to slow down hon... if you dont, you will just get sicker then REALLY be out of commission!!! xxoo |
| from f-i-n : |
| I added you back! I love the punk rock fairy on your template, by the way. |
| from soccernut : |
| Crohn's is tough. You really have to take care of your body girly - as they say: mens sana, corpore sano. Withough a sane body, you won't have a sane mind. (the word "sane" here used loosely). I'm glad that Mike took action. Somebody had to!! :) Love ~ xo. Get better!! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Yeah? Well...you're still skinny so shut the fuck up. Love ya! ;) |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| HEY!!! Stop pushing yourself too damn hard and rest a little!! Take his advice and REST!! Let that AWESOME man pamper you... (((hugs))) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| What a man! I hope you feel better soon. What a man! |
| from whystinger : |
| BTW, we have similar tastes in authors (from your list, not mine). I left an email, but I DO need to go back and read your stuff. |
| from whystinger : |
| Hmmmm, I did finally add you to my favs, but not because of that entry... I just got off my ass. As far as the guy/girl friend thing. Sometimes the guy is clueless, sometimes not. Same with girls. Sometimes we are (guys) flattered by the attention and blind to it and other times we want it. I think your guy may be blind to it. |
| from second-love : |
| Yes... we ARE possessive of our "friends"... hee hee and watch out for that guy/girl good friend stuff *wink* cuz guys ARE clueless bout that stuff :))) |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Have a great weekend lovely!! Just make this weekend Valentine's Day instead of Tuesday!! That's what we're doing!! *hugs* |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Hey Lady... Some of us actually ENJOY hearing... Errr... Reading your ramblings, as it were... heh... Have fun this weekend... (((hugs))) Oh yeah, get rid of Megan... She sounds like she's going to try to keep getting in between you and Mike... |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Arrrggggg!!! NO... Not the DARK side!! Anything but THAT!!! I m.u.s.t. r.e.s.i.s.t!!! lol... |
| from erianne1 : |
| Regardless of graphicity (is that even a real word?), you may rest assured that I will not drop you from my buddy list. Hugs at ya! |
| from whystinger : |
| Thanks for the note. God, you're right and I have been trying to not go there. Terese also knows this and tends to do the same. We tend to not hang out and if we do visit, it is public. It was comical the last time we were alone chatting. She would close in and I would move away, then I would close in and she would move away. Writing about it seems to help me realize the folly, but it still scares me. I don't want to cheat, but the temptation is strong... |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| That was the ONLY thing I liked about living in the colder climate of the NORTH... But, I'll sacrifice living there by having fleas and being here where its about 70 degrees right now... heh... And like 10 where I USED to live.. |
| from endthelies : |
| Hehe, that was a pretty good one. Philip and I saw that movie on our first date... with my room mate and another guy on our floor. Philip came along not quite knowing what the movie was about, and then he was so embarassed. So was I. It was hillarious. We both loved the movie, but it was so AWKWARD. |
| from soccernut : |
| Hey hon ~ I'm not quite caught up yet on ur diary so, why is ur body rejecting food? (physical or emotional?) ~ B. |
| from whystinger : |
| I do hope you are doing better... Q has been a bit better, but I sort of inadvertently did what you suggested... I was frustrated, so I pushed him away and walked away... Must be why he has not bitten me and drawn blood... Thanks and I really hope you feel better. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I also want to see the show. And go out with you for drinks..and meet for coffee, and chat! And I really hope you feel better. Thinking of you, and love you of course! xoxo |
| from second-love : |
| I wanna come to your show!!! I wish i was closer!! xxoo |
| from endthelies : |
| Ugh, I'm sorry that your body is fighting you so much. You're always in my thoughts, and I only have love and hope for you. *hugs*. I am really thrilled about the band situation, though. It's great that you get to work with Mike and people you can hang out with. |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Good drugs and you don't have to worry about gaining weight. Is that bad? I've always thought that about people with IBS-ey type stuff. "Great way to stay thin". And it's just wrong for me to think that way, isn't it? (Not too make light of your pain. EVen though I did). |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Yeah--transparent and then brown. Actually, I don't know for sure. My aunt has had one for seven years now (my very thin aunt, I might add) and I've never even noticed as much as a bulge. Or smelled poopies. And she was all freaking out when she had to get it, but to her, once she has it, it was worth it. No more pain. =) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Well, girl, you could make anything look fashioable! Feel better! Hugs |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Don't know...but the Queen Mother was never allowed to be more than fifty feet from a toilet in case she needed a change. Hang in there X. xx |
| from noaddedme : |
| from one bitchy chick to another ~~ hang in there! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Mkay... Speaking from my stance of *extensive* medical knowledge.. It's true... Shutup... ;o) I don't think so, but *again* I have been known to be wrong about these types of things... But, I *do* know that ostomies are messy AND nasty... Just DON'T DO IT!!!! heh... |
| from whystinger : |
| Thanks for the note. Yep, black and blue. I finally convinced her to go to the doctor. She was a bit worried about a blood clot and had her come back in a few days. It is now yellow, red and a bit black and blue. It is healing nicely and the mark is "breaking up nicely" according to the doc... I figure it was pinched by the seatbelt. Her crash was a bit harder than I thought it would have been |
| from candoor : |
| thanks so much - and do please take care of you (love yourself good today :) |
| from soccernut : |
| There are so many Macenna's out there unfortunatelly.... Too bad we can change the world, adopt them all, right? But we surely can make a difference everyday and touch so many lives. Find an org. that you believe in and volunteer (one of the most rewarding gifts to urself -- ever), be good to your baby (when you are blessed w/ 1), and if it is God's will, take care of someone else's child, should the opportunity arise... Time will tell for you and Mike. Until then, much love -- B~ |
| from second-love : |
| I just worry so much about you and your health. Please take care hon *hugs* |
| from soccernut : |
| Hey hon ~ Sorry that you felt so much pain... I have IBS so I can totally relate... Can't wait to see the pictures though! Now my tattoo... -- Location, location, location my friend is everything! My tattoo is on the back of my neck and I shaved some of my hair off to get it done higher up, but now, not only the tattoo is in that weird stage where it's all scabby but my stupid hair (which grows so darn fast too!) is already growing thru it! ARRRRRRRGH! Gimme a week and I'll take pics of it and I'll post them on my diary. (3 butterflies: a super-pink, a yellow and a green -- really cute!) :) BTW, piercing hurts like a m-fkr. Ugh. But I'm so happy with it!!! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Thank you SOOOOOO much for the vote of confidence... :o) You're a doll... (((hugs))) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Man, girl...You're a good one. My ass would have been making the biggest scene, crying and shit! I hope your are feeling better. You are a strong, mujer! As the Fugees would say, "Take it Easy!" *hugs* |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Feel better soon, Sweety... (((hugs))) |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| I love those peaceful moments with your loved one. It's almost as if for a moment time just stops. Enjoy your weekend of bedroom romping - lol! |
| from cleanstart : |
| Belly dance? WOW, I must learn how to do that! |
| from cleanstart : |
| OK, I haven't had time to read back far enough to learn exactly what you do. I'm reading about you being in plays? So, what do you do. Is this your job or for recreation? I know, I should go back and read up on you some more.. |
| from second-love : |
| I completely understand your "chic-ness"... its my life these days *wink* - im reduced to tears over the LAMEST stuff *sigh*... and i love that "i feel shiny" hahahahahahaha |
| from divacowgirl : |
| I was watching the news this morning and thought about you. They had this bellydancer on and she was good. Seriously the way she moved....I almost had to go back to bed <eg> |
| from cleanstart : |
| Ok, I followed the link to hubbies site... and if I can say so myself without sounding to weird, you look great in that pic! |
| from wildrosie : |
| My heart is breaking for Macenna. How much of what is happening is karmic, and lessons that she will need to make her stronger, and at what point should people step in and say "Enough!"? As long as she is being left with good people, then just watch the situation. But what if she gets let with a molester or abuser? And believe me, sometimes even the people closest to an abuser don't always know the truth. But as long as she has someone watching out for her well-being, then she will do just fine. And thank you for your advice to Zeb, it DID make a difference! Hugs ~Rosie~ |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Sweety, I am so sorry to hear this about poor little Macenna... She would be so much better off with YOU and Mike and you both know that, but you HAVE to believe that something great will come of this... And he is correct you WILL be an AWESOME mother!!! :o) (((hugs))) |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| I was wondering for a minute what I wrote that you would say *hear* you right back... *heh*... :o) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Sorry x...have never seen that movie, Exorcist: The Beginning. Damn, another opportunity lost to look like I'm brilliant!!! Such is my fate..... |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| (((hugs))) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am so so so behind and I am sorry and need to catch up and wanted you to know that I looooove you and have not forgotten you! I just need to get my act together! xoxoxox |
| from whystinger : |
| Boy, oh boy will it itch... |
| from sizmatters : |
| thanks for keeping in touch...I should be more like you and WRITE MORE !! Yikes!! And don't sell yourself short, because you DO write some pretty funny stuff, and it is not all long and boring (like mine are!!)...shall check back later!! p.s. I am a weedwacker, and shoot, does that mean my b/f likes little girls?? EWWWW....well, he IS in love with his daughter, so, puke !! |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Took two of your pimp offers! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Ahh, Sweets, I'm so sorry you've been burdened with this illness. You just don't deserve it. Please let me know if there is anything I can do. I mean it. I was talking to Phil about you last night. His father had Crohn's. He had occasional bouts of illness, but for the most part, he managed well enough. I hope & pray you get to that point, Love. Please get some rest and feel better. Big hugs. |
| from soccernut : |
| I know way too well the feeling of having your your expectations of "forever" not last. It's a huge disapointment, isn't it? But like you, I am a firm believer that you are exactly where you are supposed to be. Everything happens for a reason, who you are is a product of your experiences. We had to go thru it, I guess.... Anyway, your entry today is hysterical! Sometimes I shave mine off bc I feel cleaner - LOL - I know it doesn't make any sense at all but I do! LOL -- Anyway, I'll keep on checking in! Bella Oh and if you would, can you please send the password for your previous diary? [email protected] [hugs] :) |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Oh no! At times I wondered about telling her but it seemed best not to. Too many confidences shared. Nice to hear there's one someone who likes to keep herself covered - but are we really expected to believe the 'oops I slipped with the razor'? :-) xx |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Yes, I got used to it. At first, I felt yech-like you, but then I found some pros in shaving there. It's easier to maintain hygiene, Phil likes it, I feel more sensation, and (heh) I get more oral attention! I use Avon's Skin So Soft foam (blue can), and it doesn't make the claim, but it seems to thin the hair and stunt growth to an extent after using it for a while. If you do it often enough and don't let it get too long in between, it's not such a chore either. There you have it-Daisy's feminine shaving tips for the day! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Thanks... :o( |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| A little powder in the nether regions will help with the itchiness. Am I the only one who likes it that way? |
| from second-love : |
| hahahahahaha omg you always make me laugh no matter how lousy i feel... you are too funny :)) |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| I totally feel for ya Darling.. So been there... ;o) That growing in busines it well... SUCKS!!!! lol... |
| from noaddedme : |
| Have fun with the regrowth. Done that once, never ever again! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Especially after it really starts growing in. Itchy coochie! =) |
| from flytofantasy : |
| Yeah, I'm considering *firing* this particular *friend*... Not so much of a friend by my standards any longer... If you know what I mean... *sigh* |
| from phangasm : |
| Yeah, I wonder how they handle sleeping arrangements. 2 weeks in bed with a person you can't stand. Amazing nobody's died yet. |
| from second-love : |
| You are tooooo cute!!! and toooooo HOT! :)))) have a good weekend |
| from endthelies : |
| Thanks for the note. I think it's sorted now, but that sure made me feel better at the time. =) |
| from whystinger : |
| Congratulations on the DIVORCE!!! I hope it helps you find happiness (but you may have already). It is a life change event and is a big one no matter what the circumstances. Honi's divorce helped her find happiness... Thanks for the note. This is Honi's second marriage and my first, so I HOPE she treats me better. I always wonder if all the shit she says about her ex is true, or is it just her making excuses for herself? BTW, how long were you married? (I need to catch up and read the old ones). I am always curious on how long folks are married before divorce. I SHOULD have left before one year... instead of still working to make it work after almost 11. |
| from soccernut : |
| TAGGED: Why don't ya let a beverage touch the front of your front teeth???? |
| from soccernut : |
| I went thru a divorce and it was much more difficult that I thought it would be. I was happy but I felt so incredibly disappointed.... he wasn't forme but I believe he'd be.... how could I have been so wrong???? I'm Ok now. It's been a year. How are you doing??? |
| from chickpea981 : |
| I am so far behind on you and I am such a neglectful commenter but I love you oddles and congrats on the divorce. Hooray for freedom! |
| from second-love : |
| You would and WILL make a fabulous mother!!! xxoo |
| from endthelies : |
| He said it. He said it just like that. "I love the cat more than you". I don't really know what to do. |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Did I or did I not tell you that they are the most adorable little things on earth??? If I could keep all three I so would!!! heh... As it is, I'm gonna hve a time, getting dh to let me keep ONE... lol... He is sooo in love with them too though... hehe... |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| That so touched my heart... That was sooo awesome... I am sooo glad for you and Mike!!! I think the two of you should try and find out what it would take to see if you could get custody of the child. Even if it's only temporary for now, and then go from there... (((Huuugggssss))) |
| from imadad2 : |
| No anemia symptoms, but every thing else you described. I am thinking walking pnemonuia. However, if his white blood cell count is low, you cannot count out leukemia. I pray it is not that. |
| from noaddedme : |
| I hope for the child's sake something does come out of this. The fact that you both had the same though independently ... that means something doesn't it? Wonder if the mother would give up custody of her? Might be worth exploring. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| My! I'm sure you and Mike would make wonderful, attentive and loving parents for that sweet little girl. It just fills me up to know there are people like you two who would be willing to give her a better life. If it's meant to be, it will be, Sweetie. |
| from madrigle : |
| Sounds like big congratulations are in order over the divorce. HUGS! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| You said it all... Thanks Sweetness... :o) (((hhuuggss))) |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Hey, Divorcee! Congrats. =) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Feel better soon. I'm looking forward to hearing about your recent adventures. And HAPPY DIVORCE! Hugs |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Glad to see your back amongst the living dead hear at bee-uu-tee-full D-Land... Missed ya, Girl... (((hhuuggss))) |
| from chakra-chick : |
| I'm happy that you're happy babe! Have a lovely day further! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| HEY!!! Are you there??? Is everything okay?? Haven't heard from you in a few days, which is unusual... Just wondering if your alright... (((hhuuggss))) |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| So sorry to hear of your friends daughter. God that's just terrible...absolutely terrible. I know what you mean about the divorce though. As excited as I was to get everything done and over with I couldn't help feeling terrible when I saw my ex-husband walk away alone at the end of it all. I cried, and was depressed for a while, but it had to be done. Best of luck. |
| from endthelies : |
| Congratulations on the divorce! I hope the whole ordeal won't be too emotional for you, but I'm glad you'll feel some relief. I'm incredibly sorry about your friend's child, too. I know I've been awol for awhile, but I AM keeping up on my reading. I've just been at home, with my poor internet connection, and visiting Philip's family in another state- so I haven't had much time to write. Fortunately, he's as big an internet junkie as I am, so I have been able to snag some time online, and I figured I would spend it checking in with people. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Your entry made me...angry with you for not taking better care of yourself :-( Happy for the divorce/end of the ordeal :-) And sad for your friend's loss :-( Looks like you're going to be feeling a bit emtional for a few days. Feel better, and focus on keeping the smile on! Hugs |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| Thanks Sweety... I needed that.. :o) |
| from bloodyme : |
| yes i think i can use better sex at anytime. my friend tells me its my duty to hook up with an 18 year old because its sort of the rule when your 30 and in your prime. have you ever heard this? |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| YAY!! YAY!! IT'S DIVORCE DAY!! I'm sooo happy for you!!! Yet, so so sorry to hear of your friend's loss...(((hugs)))... |
| from noaddedme : |
| Happy Divorce Day!!! Um ... get toys now. Use them with him. Great fun I might add! In fact I just did that with M last night :0) We have a whole toy box. |
| from chakra-chick : |
| Thanks for the advice...yeah-think I should listen to my gut feeling with this one. Don't worry, I don't own a toy either, but after THAT story-think I should get myself one too. Especially now that I am single! Have a lovely weekend dear. ~smooches~ |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| Dang it! If we live closer together, I'd say come to my toy party!!! ;-) |
| from whystinger : |
| A missing clit... Take it from me (a husband) it does happen and to both sexes. My wife started to lose her vagina. Her OB-GYN told her to "use it or lose it." In her case, her vagina was shrinking and so did her pussy lips. They gave her HRT (hormone replacement therapy) and that helps, but it would be more helpful if she used hers more... She (the doctor) said that by using it, the blood flows through it and helps keep it alive... kind of like a muscle you exercise... Buy the toy even before he leaves... |
| from yo-bitch : |
| aww. thanks. i have a livejournal now. i actually update that. thewayoutis.livejournal.com ♥♥♥ |
| from wildrosie : |
| I was sneaking around, and I found you. So when your stats show a bunch of pages being read, you know who to blame. I had to comment about your Astro chart, as I read it, I thought I was reading my Zeb's chart. So I pulled his out, and he's Virgo rising, Sun in Cancer, Moon in Pisces, and Mercury in Cancer. Dang, here I am, just a poor fire/fire/fire person, what am I to do with such a water man? ~Rosie~ |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Oh my! We must take measures to ensure this kind of thing doesn't happen to us! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| OH MY GOD. You can't be serious. How the hell does that happen? I would kill myself. Poor lady. |
| from phangasm : |
| Wow, that is a scary story. Losing any body part is scary, especially an important one! |
| from scotvalkyrie : |
| Yahoo on getting a part! Rumors is a fun show. I wish I had more time to get involved again with acting. Merdez to you, and thanks for the note! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| YIKES!!! Did they ever find it?? The clitoris.. I mean... My problem is not so severe, I fear... I'm sure I will update all of you in a short while... Thank you for the support Sweety... (((Huuggss))) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I've spent 4 grueling days Googling to find out if "Uncle Chuck" could be legally certified to perform the ceremony. The laws vary from state to state, and though I'm finding anyone can easily, cheaply & quickly can be ordained by the church, we're trying to avoid the religious aspect. (Phil is an Atheist) So, yes, if you know anything about such laws in Maryland, you can be of help. Hee Hee! Honestly, I appreciate the offer-you're there for moral support, and that's all I really need. It means so much to me. Thanks |
| from second-love : |
| Congrats on the part AND the divorce *hugs* |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| YAY!!! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| YAY!!!!!! GO YOU!!!!! I'm so proud of you!!! {{{{{{{{{{{{{huuuggggsssssss}}}}}}}}}}} |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| XCELLENT! Thanks for your notes D. **xx** PT says you and she have been plotting a meeting and I'm invited if I can get over. Glad to hear things are back on an even keel - and I bet there's a tear or two (despite everything) on Friday. Thinking of you. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Woweee-Congratulations and Congratulations! I bet your face hurts from smiling! That part sounds like a fun part to play! I wish, wish, wish, I could see you in it. Errrrgh! |
| from noaddedme : |
| yeah on the part!!!!!!! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| I'll keep my fingers double xx'd for you, and my toes too... And wow!! your divorce??? Friday??? Sooooo cool!!! Yay!!! You... {{{Huugggsss}}} |
| from noaddedme : |
| Divorce day is Friday the 13th??? That is wickedly cool! I love it! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| "Congratulations" on your divorce! Good luck for getting a part! And hellooooo!!!!! *hugs* xxx |
| from candoor : |
| you're wonderful and so appreciated (I love the idea of delurking... I usually do it for New Years, but anytime's a good time it'll have to wait for the Friday/Saturday for me, but I will do my best :) |
| from angldust83 : |
| HEELLLOOOOOOOO!!!!!! |
| from erianne1 : |
| Big hug back at ya hon! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| I know, I read you every day too, nd I never leave notes either... We're a great bunch of people aren't we??? hehe... |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Yeah? Well if you were here, I'd make you my Maid of Honor. So far, I feel like I'm in this by myself. Sandy's only real concern so far is that I didn't give her credit on the wedding website for introducing us. So I told her this isn't about her-it's about Phil & I, and that I hoped she can remember that. Now, I ask you, should I have to act bitchy like that? Thanks for listening :-) Hee hee |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| OKay, I'm a lurker too. I'll de-lurk. I had no idea about the week! And I knew what you were talking about...just so you know, my husband is the same way when we fight. All about what he makes of it. It's not an unlivable situation, if you accept that and understand it and don't try to "change" it. Now, shouldn;t you be busy leaving other people comments? ;) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Happy De-Lurking Week! That's a great idea-we're all guilty to some extent. I know I love comments, but only leave them about half the time. |
| from flytofantasy : |
| OOOOO!!! OOOOOO!!! Pick ME!!! Pick M.E!!! I'm a LURKER!!! Here I think anyway, or am I??? lol... {{{{Huuuggssss}}}}} |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| You are too cute! Have a good weekend angel! xoxox |
| from erianne1 : |
| You've been TAGGED! See my entry for today for details. |
| from second-love : |
| Hug Mike for me... and that horoscope thing... just WAY toooooooo freaky!!! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| "poured the cum-like substance down my throat accompanied with almost life like "clumpies"." Gee, where do I sign up for that? Sorry to hear about Mike's grandmother. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| So sorry, Sweets. Hugs |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| And we love you. Happy New Year to both of you! xoxox |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Awww, I hope Mike's feeling better soon!! You're so right about the difference between men and women with regards to sex!! |
| from jwinokur : |
| You left me a note that said you were hoping to "feel up" my diary later. Wow. Who doesn't like getting felt up, I mean, seriously?!?! |
| from candoor : |
| Merry Happy New Year to you and yours and may 2006 be the best year of your life (until next year :) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Hey, sweetie! I just wanted to wish you a great New Year's Eve celebration, and a safe one. Thank you for all the kind, wonderful words in 2005. You are the fucking best!!! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I think as the others have said, it's quite normal and healthy to just be together and insular for a while! That doesn't mean you've lost all ambition! It just means it's been deferred for a while. Enjoy this time together! You can both pursue your ambitions in a year or so when you've had time to fully enjoy each other so intensely! Thank you for your lovely note!! I'm so happy! You may have thought I'd find this, but I'd given up hope!! I'm so glad you were right and I was wrong!!! Love you!! Happy New Year gorgeous!! |
| from madrigle : |
| Thanks for your note. :) Hmmm. Ambition is a funny thing. Daisy's comment makes sense, but at the same time, as a painter myself, painting is like oxygen to me. I go through phases, usually when I'm emotionally content where my art becomes less-- expressive, and more representational which I guess isn't necessarily a bad thing. Anyways, I really don't know what my point is other then I'd encourage you to maintain some of your own personal persuits. The band idea sounds fun. Hugs. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Honey, I worried over that for a good while when I felt it happening after I hooked up with Phil. In the end, I decided that it's right to feel that way-after all, those other pursuits, while enjoyable, were me searching for something...obviously I found it! Also, I have my guest entry prepared. |
| from second-love : |
| Eh... you guys will be fine and both of you will find your activities again. Its pretty typical to just drop all the stuff you WERE doing in those first glorious months of a new relationship. All your time and efforts are going into each other and working through all the newness:))))) Thats FUN!!!! But we both know that after those first lovely months when all is perfect...real life is just around the corner - and THEN the real work begins *hugs* |
| from chakra-chick : |
| I hope Mike feels better soon. What is it with guys and the whole Jlo butt thing? I feel like my butt is too big as well, but the male attention it gets says otherwise...males-I won't even bother trying to understand them and their minds... ~smooches~ |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Hey, non-fat-ass! You sound absolutely scrumptious if I must say. Keep that lil bit of chunk-Mike seems to like it, and you could consider it insurance. I do worry about you. If you indulge in the Big Mac, enjoy it supremely! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| I swear, you are the sweetest person...I think you gave me a cavity! Much luv to you, Missy! Have a safe and rockin New Year, my dear. You deserve to have it all in 2006. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I have your entry almost ready, but I am having a problem uploading photos to my photobucket and on diaryland and on myspace. I am not sure whats going on. So hopefully tomorrow at work I can upload the pictures and finally post...So please don't think I have forgottoen you. Ok? I wanted to also wish you and Mike a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! You deserve it honey. Lots of love!!! xoxoxox |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Merry Christmas my lovely! Have a wonderful time!! *hugs* xxxx |
| from second-love : |
| Merry Christmas, hon. Love you. xxxxxxooo |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I hope you're right about Vince not following thru on that statement. I'd watch my back if I were you. This makes me recall all the crap I went thru with Dick, and I hope it improves for you the way it did for me. We were both so lucky to find wonderful men. Here's to a better 2006! Hugs |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| Thank you so much for your note! It's so nice to really be in love. *sigh* But you know all about that huh? I'm happy for you too - Merry Christmas! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Well at least you didn't put off this entry! Hugs |
| from noaddedme : |
| no no no, it's not *procrastination* it's *working better under pressure!* Happy Holidays X :) |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Good luck for tomorrow! xxx |
| from imadad2 : |
| I just hope I have the courage to do the things I plan to. My kids keep me where I am. 2006 is the year to do something about it. |
| from endthelies : |
| I may not *always* take it, but you know I always appreciate your advice. And I always know it's good. |
| from gutterpoet : |
| Say it ain't so! A mullet is not a good look for a guy? But it's business in the front, a party in the back! I mean come on X. I was thinking going that direction myself with a Dog the Bounty Hunter-ish look. And as Paris Hilton would say if she saw me and my Dog mullet: "it's hot". |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Great guest entries!! It's making me nervous..anyway please don't delete me yet-ok? I am working on it...give me a couple of days..Looooove you lovely! xoxox |
| from second-love : |
| mmm mmmmmmmmm mmmmmmm kev... sounds DELISH:)) but ummmmmmmmmm "cockles"??? you got me excited there for a second *hee hee* |
| from imadad2 : |
| PS - I saw the pic with you and Mike. If you want a pic of me, you must email and exchange a pic. [email protected] |
| from imadad2 : |
| 9 times out of 10 "Man Boobs" come from the use of illegal means to build muscle. Steroids being the big one. Growth Hormone and other muscle enhancers do it as well. As we age, gravity takes it toll, and if you stop working out or cut back, man boobs can form. If you know someone who has them, get them doing push ups. High rep exercise tightens and defines. |
| from imadad2 : |
| You said you'd come back, but you never did :o( So, I found you. I like your diary. I saw the pic of you two. Rowrrrr. You are quite the looker. Stop by sometime and leave me a note. |
| from x-plicity : |
| I AM NOT AN ANIMAL!!! *clears throat* Ok, I got that out of my system....Don't ask... |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Gosh, all I can say is wow! Your entry made me cry. Thanks so much. I love you! xoxox |
| from remingtons : |
| Without reveling anything I am almost certain that is the case. I just think I am the best kind of theropy |
| from bloodyme : |
| how much do you think i should charge for these inventive new pills? |
| from remingtons : |
| You should have put sugar all over your vagina |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| TWO DAYS?!?! To quote Zoolander: "How do you live!!!" ;) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I just wrote the same about tagging in my diary. I also need some fresh inspiration..and for me I think this. When one has sex, you want it all the time. And when you have a very dry spell, you learn to live with out it. When I was married I learned to totally live with out it (Weird I know.) But now I want it ALL the time. *blush* Take care. xoxo Kathy |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| What an incredibly generous offer! You are truly one of the good ones. I haven't had time to catch up on reading everyone, but I hope all's well with you. I hope to catch up by the end of the week. Hugs. |
| from second-love : |
| Please take care of yourself hon... i worry about you *hugs* |
| from gutterpoet : |
| Yep, I think you may indeed be a bigger minority than me, darnit! By the by, I have still stopped by to read you entries even during my absence of late since reading your words is always a pleasure. As to the query you put forth, the giver is in control. And as I learned a long time ago, a wise man is always willing to let the woman take the reigns. have a great weekend! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Your entries lately are not fair..I mean the vault ones and this one. I need myself a good man thats available to me at all times. geez, especially after reading the vault today. *grin*. And what is with our cats lately? Mashka has been driving me mad...I mean I love her and all but geez. xoxo |
| from second-love : |
| pfffffff of COURSE you are right and im thinking just by biting down slightly one time ought to get your point across quite nicely *grin* |
| from second-love : |
| I just love reading about your happy days and happy life. It just always makes me smile *hugs* have a great weekend hon |
| from endthelies : |
| Hey, I'm sorry you're so busy and stressed with work- I know what that's like. Here's hoping that the promise of the holidays and a little relief from work will keep you going. And I'm totally excited that you have a chance to pursue some new projects! Yay for that! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| WoW! I completely forgot we got with our men about the same time! LoL! Amazing 8 months have flown by and we're still as in love (actually even more) then we were 8 months ago....now THAT is real love! ((hugs)) Oh and thanks sooo much for the loan info! |
| from second-love : |
| I see you hon... and love what i see :)) So happy for you |
| from endthelies : |
| Wow, you really are me in a few years. Thanks for the note, and the understanding. |
| from plopphizz : |
| You should have done the jazz hands. Like I always say, there's just not enough people doing jazz hands these days. I always say it once, today, on your notes. -- P.P. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| A belt and a beer bottle? Hmmm... |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I love Arab Ken Dolls! :-) In the hospital all th girls started that time of the month together. It is amazing I think. Um, I can't think of anything to say, so have a good weekend. Ok? I hope you are feeling good. xoxo K |
| from plopphizz : |
| I'm sure that, whatever your level of playing guitar is, you put on a great show :). You strike me as a woman who knows how to deliver herself as a complete package to every audience member she has. -- P.P. |
| from dope-slave : |
| Awww, you're a sweetheart. Thanks. :) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| What a fan-frickin'-tastic idea! I'm all over it! I love you. |
| from noaddedme : |
| Happy 401st Bartholomew! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I dont care about voice at this stage, bring him on a say...Geez, you have had a bad run with illness this year..I hope you feel better sweety, and take care of yourself and your sweetie. I am jealous! *sigh*. Love you! xoxoxo |
| from sizmatters : |
| Hi and thanks for the note....HAPPY tree-trimming to you and Mike !! And I vote for the wine glasses or tote bag (providing they don't stick their lousy company logo on there!! yikes!!) |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Guess what? I beat the shit out of my tv yesterday and it turned on!!! |
| from classygirl83 : |
| I Think that I would maybe go insane if I worked like all the time, and I didn't have anytime to myself in the condo, but I only work like 4 hours aday, and I have time to myself here in the condo ya know? |
| from classygirl83 : |
| 'Eh, I guess if she asked me I would say maybe, it's hard living with someone that you don't really get along with that great, but it is do-able, I'm doing it right now. Just you gotta give alot. |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| Was she just going to show up at your door after Mike left and assume that you would let her move in? If that's the case, she's got a serious set of balls. Good luck with that one! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| sweetie, I would kill for your vicodin! |
| from second-love : |
| Talk to you when i get back... have a good week :) |
| from second-love : |
| Happy Thanksgiving hon *hugs* |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| well have a happy turkey day! |
| from chickpea981 : |
| I keep meaning to leave you a note thanking you for your guest entry. I thoroughly loved it and I hope you'll write another one when I go out of town sometime. :D And in regards to the squirters... HAHAHAHA! I KNEW IT!!!!! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| have a good thanksgiving. don't work too hard on friday. thanks for all your wonderful comments..They mean so much, and I know I really suck lately. Take care dear and again as Jess would say, I heart you babe! xoxox |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Now that really is spooky!! One of my other examples would have been C saying the other night 'she took me half the way there..' and me singing in response 'She's a big teaser!' I had to go back to check whether I'd written that. How did you know?? |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Wish I had a sticky pool table too! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I told her what you said and she cracked a smile! :) |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Ewwww! Ewwww! Ewwww! Ewwww! That royally sucks ass! I don't know if I could have handled dried human puke - blah! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I feel immature wanting to hurt a 19 yr old, but I can't help it. I do want to beat her down. I have not been this angry at anyone in so long. My family keeps reminding me of my career. All of my education wasted. If I ever physically hurt anyone, I'm out of law forever. Even that doesn't seem to be enough to calm me right now. It's amazing how you can "hate" someone you don't even know. Wait until you have your babies, I pitty anyone who messes with them! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Well, now I ahve to go clean up the puke that I just did after reading that last part while eating cottage cheese! Ew! Happy Turkey Day! =) |
| from remingtons : |
| mike would seem to be a very lucky guy |
| from second-love : |
| Its a natural progression when you have found the man you love to then want to have kids with him :))) But you are young and have plenty of time. Just enjoy the freedom and fun you are having right now. The rest with come all in due time *hugs* |
| from remingtons : |
| thank you for the compliment. |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| ME TOO!!!!! LoL! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I want a pool table!! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Looooooooove you |
| from second-love : |
| hahahahaha you are wacky :)) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Oh my GOD! You are too much! Even if nothing comes of it, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Hugssss |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| That wasn't an awful entry-your giddiness leapt right off the screen and infected me (in a good way). I would love to see some snow right about now. Hell yeah to the sexy entry. I'll be there with bells on. |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Yay!! I vote for a sassy sex entry!!!!! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| DAMMIT!!!! I want snow!!! Here I am in the top northwest of the US (pretty much as far north west as you can get), and even I don't have any winter wonderland going on! Bah! The mountains are covered, but not even a flake has fallen where I am *sobs* Enjoy!!!!! = ) |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Your reaction was priceless, and I value you so much for the friendship and kindness you give me. It seems Mike has become 3 months behind on the rent. Donna's medicaid has a period now & then where she has to re-up (for lack of better knowing how to say it) and during that period, she has no coverage. Mike had to pay for her prescriptions with cash during that period, then she wound up in the hospital and he couldn't work for wanting to be there with her. There's no money, and he's exhausted all the resources he knows of, and let me tell you-he's a resourceful man. |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Woo! Sounds like you guys had a blast! Jaime and I need to start getting out and having fun instead of acting like we're 70 - blah - stupid money - I need to win that dang lottery - lol! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| ACK! I meant to offer to send copies of the magazine to those who were interested. It's free, so no need to send cashola! I'll let oyu know when it comes out. =) |
| from bloodyme : |
| thanks alot for your kind words. i don't usually go off like that but being that the situation had just occured go figure. i think sometimes we all need to hear an outsiders perspective, so thank you. |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Thank you lovely! Your concern means a lot! I'm fine. Well, I will be. I'll survive! I always do! Have to! |
| from intimacies : |
| I thought everybody had removed that diary from their lists! Of course it's a fantasy-not even really-just fiction. I was bored. |
| from erianne1 : |
| Have a good trip and be safe. Hugs! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I heard that was REALLY nice. I go to the one in Howard. "when I go, LOL" |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Which Y? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Have fun! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Maybe I forget, why are you going there?? |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Have a good time honey. Glad you are feeling better. And it pains me to hear about your life with Vince. I am so glad you have Mike. he sounds like such a gem. be happy hon! xoxox Kathy |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| Have a great trip!! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Have a fun a safe trip! = ) |
| from second-love : |
| Have tons of fun but easy on the booze and make good food choices, my friend :))) (im just a mother at heart) *hugs* |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Enjoy the trip, and do take care of yourself! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Have a great trip! I hope you hve lots of fun and watch that food! (I know, easier said than done, right?)=) |
| from noaddedme : |
| have fun & be safe! |
| from second-love : |
| Hope you feel better... take care of yourself cuz im a worrier :))) *hugs* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Feel better hon |
| from realsnoopy : |
| PS How in hell are you gona come up with $900.00? If you have a plan, let me in on it! I could use that too! *grin* |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Damn girl - that entry made my bum hurt just thinking about it! Hope you feel better soon. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| What am I going to do with you?? FIVE days, that's it! If it's older than that... NO! If you cant remember, throw it out! I'm not going to give you hugs today, I'm going to spank you! "NO YOUR NOT GONA LIKE IT!" |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Hey, I hope you feel better very soon. Please be more careful what you eat. Two week old chicken soup? Here are some feel-better hugs. |
| from noaddedme : |
| (said with much affection of course!) |
| from noaddedme : |
| take care of yourself damn it! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Yes, I know I'm an early bird but what are you getting Mike for Christmas? *grin* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Does your niece still read ya? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| It would have been easier not to have said anything, but if he found out, all hell would break loose! If he were to read you, he would analyze everything you wrote and I know you enough to know that you would hold back in your writing. Did he ever ask you to read it? *hugs* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| :-) I agree with all that is said below. I also however think, like in my case, that cheating is because something is wrong in the marriage, but I also think that sometimes one just doesn't realise what one has you know. In my case I mean. And then it all goes wrong and worse and blah blah blah. I am so happy you have Mike and good friends who you can confide in. And us of course. xoxox |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I guess secondlove summed it up well. Some people make cheating a way of life, so for those who make an isolated misteak, their are no breaks. The saying "once a cheat always a cheat" is always in the back of everyones mind. I don't believe that is true. I do think it increases the chances for some though. Some will always cheat as a subconscience way of avoiding commitment. I believe the rest cheat because they are not happy for whatever reason in their marriage and don't want to be alone. Cheating fills that void in the marriage and the fear of being alone. Who are you refering to as "you" in your diary today? Do Mike and Elle know about your diary? Do they read? |
| from second-love : |
| I saw your note to Kevin...and can i say that i think you are smart in NOT letting mike know where your diary is... we all need somewhere that we feel is "safe" to just let out certain things and often those things are easily misinterpreted. Part of Sam and my problem has been "my reality" verses "his reality" and we all know those are tragically different viewpoints... so part of his problem with my diary is he feels like i wasnt being truthful in my depiction of him and our situation. And many men (NOT including our sweet Kevin) dont understand the whole "diary thing"... just creates trouble where it doesnt need to be. We ALL need our own private places :))) |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| What? Mike doesn't know you're x-plicity? Did you get the email from the 'real me'? |
| from second-love : |
| Unfortunately, the problem with infidelity is it tends to follow you...and despite our best efforts to trust a "cheater" (keep in mind that i really DO consider myself in that category no matter WHAT anyone else might think...) it comes back to bite ya in the butt at some point. Maybe its years down the road when you are late somewhere to meet Mike or you dont do what you said you were gonna... then the doubt might start to creep in his mind again. STILL i dont trust my ex-husband and whenever T tells me something that he's done, my mind goes there first if his actions are the least bit questionable. *sigh* I guess its the high price of that particular "sin"... so much damage in the wake. But i know that you and Mike can and WILL overcome any type of challenge that might raise its ugly head *grin and hugs* And have fun on your lil excursion this weekend :)) |
| from classygirl83 : |
| Okay, I'm gona add you to my favorites, cause I've been reading you for awhiel, and I just never added you! So I'mgonna add you, if you don't mind. Also if you don't mind, could I have the password to the locked one? I totally understand if I cant, but my email is [email protected]! Havea great week! |
| from chickpea981 : |
| duuuuuuuuuude I want in!!! [email protected] |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Um, at [email protected]. And I loooooooove you. Or as Jess would say, I heart you...xoxoxox |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hey! Password please love! xoxox |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Hey! Hook me up! [email protected] Thanks! =) |
| from noaddedme : |
| password please! [email protected] |
| from realsnoopy : |
| *giggle* I may come to you for pointers! Whats up for the weekend? |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| X, I would like the password to the vault, please, please? You can send it to me frogstar14 at yahoo if you would care to! Thanks! |
| from fluttrbykiss : |
| HI X.... can I get the key to The Vault too??? Thanks In advance... Shell |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Do you ever think about changing jobs? I hate interviews. For the most part, you play a game of bullshit. If you thought about a change, what would you do? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| hubby finally did a entry admitting his counseling fears. feel free to read. |
| from noaddedme : |
| I have the light talent too. For a while I got the same one every morning on my way to work. At least 5 days in a row. It's been a while though ... oh and password please! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| ok sweetie! Hand over the keys to the vault! *hugs* I miss your sassy writing! |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Yep - spot on with those two (there weren't many other lies). I don't think I have a password...do I? Could I please? And would that island be Trinidad? If so - go read Tiragem on what the place is like...and worry! |
| from second-love : |
| hmmmmmmm the patch... wish i had the same amount of confidence. i had so much hope that it might help balance out some of my hormonal wackiness (im NOT worried about getting preggo... TG the hubby has been "fixed")but im off to the doctor on Monday again and will BEG him to figure out how to get me off the hormonal rollercoaster. Since he's a MAN i am doubting any real understanding or help :))))))) |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| You could call it "numbing" spray instead of numb-er. Aren't I helpful? :) |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| I have exactly the same anxiety dream - the one about trying to 'wing' it on stage whe you've not had the chance to learn the lines! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| what do you think about my job prospect? I feel silly being an over qualified "rent a cop" *giggle* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Life is really hard! Love the poem!! Did you write it? |
| from second-love : |
| Girl... you better take it a bit slower... hate to play the nag here, but you need to take care of yourself physically so you can keep having fun for the long haul *HUGS* (glad you had fun tho) :)))))) |
| from candoor : |
| you oughta put pics of your costumes up (you can cut off your heads if you don't want your faces on the net)... I hope your eye is better, but a big red pussy eye might have been the perfect touch for your costume :) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| You won't believe this but I have a chronic eye infection which strated yesterday morning. It got so bad today that my entire right hand side of my face swelled! And now its starting on my left side. I am going crazy, am in pain and want to scream...Ughhhh. Hope you are feeling better and glad the party went well. xox |
| from chickpea981 : |
| Just reading that made me want to take my contacts out and saturate my eyeballs with visine. *cringe* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hope your eye feels better..that costume sounds cool! I am sure you guys will look great! xoxox |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| OMG that is an awesome costume idea!!!! You better post a couple of pics for us dang it! Have fun! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| That sounds so cute! You have to post some pics! PS Are you as exhausted as I am after our wild sex? LOL |
| from realsnoopy : |
| send me an email and I'll send you my chart. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I never had oral with my ex. He probably didn't know how! LOL Abe was my first. It took a while to relax. I was so self conscience about it. Do you think it's because we pee down there? I know men don't care about anything about their own privates. They can be really gross that way. Did you do it with Vince? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Sometimes it's flattering, other times it's really fucking anoying. My ex went overboard! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I love the note below me! Too funny! OK, now try it. It was turned off and I don't know why. PS Is it me or is DL running slow as hell??? |
| from endthelies : |
| That's a really interesting dream. As far as the office guy is concerned, you could kick him in the nuts. That wouldn't hurt his 'feelings', exactly, and it would send the message that you aren't inteested. =) |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Hey swetie, could you let me know if my template is working and showing up correctly? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Try being a little cool. Use your professional side. If that doesn't work, screw his feelings. He's married with a family. He's a pig so don't worry about his feelings. If he wants to act like that, he deserves to be put in his place, nice guy or not! Wow, freaky dream! |
| from plopphizz : |
| Edward Potato peeler hands, dominant ice block, evil treat or treater kidnapping, weregoats, chocolate-filled jews, florescent tape dispenser, bobbing for cacti...I loved it all and laughed many, many times :). Definitely one of the best so far. Thanks for your contribution. -- P.P. |
| from endthelies : |
| That last entry was hillarious. =D |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Thanks for sharing the laughs. |
| from plopphizz : |
| Where are the weregoats? That's an awesome monster, but I can't find them :) -- P.P. |
| from endthelies : |
| I locked my diary. If you'd like the p-word, you can email me at [email protected] And do you know where Snoopy is...? |
| from candoor : |
| thanks... and hope you enjoyed your sexy hair (and love yourself this weekend :) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Will you be kind enought to fill out my survey "spooktacular" from my diary...? |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Sex hair is always nice to have - make that two of us - lol! Anywho, I would LOVE for Jaime to go away for a weekend - lol - but only if I was living in Austin....if he were to leave me here, I'd go nuts cause there is nothing to do. At least when he's around I have someone to be bored with. I suppose I little part of me misses the single life....not the going out and dating part, but the quiet solitude *sighs* - I still wouldn't trade my life for anything though *grins* |
| from chickpea981 : |
| I actually scored big on a bed in a bag. I have no idea how I found this marvelous set but I did and it's soft and silky feeling, normal colors, and I spent a fucking fortune on matching purple velvet curtains to go with it, but man, quite the gorgeous! It had to have been a mistake but I bought it and I'm glad I did! I never leave you notes and when I do it's about a fucking bed-in-a-bag?? Yeah, I suck. What I SHOULD say is that "yay! X updated! I love when X updates!" |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| Hey x, as far as fonts go, just do a search on the net for fonts and where ever it takes you, you can download them. There are a few sites that charge for them, but mostly they are freeware! Have fun searching! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Hmmmm. Sounds like it's time to break out the Cedarwood and Dragon's Blood....doesn't hurt to be on the safe side....if it is him, he could be doing something without even knowing....maybe a binding afterwards. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| No, this one is at his current job. I know the one your thinking of though. Abe told me about her. |
| from endthelies : |
| Well, it hardly seems woth saying now that everyone else has said it, but it's probably a good idea to tell her. You might also refer him to the specialist, though. |
| from erianne1 : |
| I also think it would be best to tell her. You explained it well here...explain it to her just the same way, that he isn't a bad person and there is just something off in his personal energy. Maybe she would be willing to discuss ways to help correct it. Wouldn't it be better to help than hide what you know? Just my opinion of course. *hugs* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I would tell her. You are a good friend to her and she trusts you. If others have said things, their is a reason for it. I am not a witch or anything, but I have a HUGE sence of people. Abe might have told you that. Sometimes it scares him, I have at times scared myself. I met a co-worker of his last year at a Christmas party. I shouldn't say met, he pointed her out across the room. I knew within minutes having never talked to her, that she was in an abusive relationship. Abe said, "no, I know her boyfriend. He works here too." Well, three weeks later, Abe came home and told me that it was all over the plant that they broke up because he was a drunk and beat her. Abe was freaked out. I wasn't surprised. I can tell you about someone in only minutes or even seconds after meeting them. Sometimes it scares me. I have learned to let it go naturally and accept the fact that it's who I am. Do you have any idea what you call it? I know it's a hell of a lot more than intuition! I would want my friend to tell me. My friends are family to me, and I want to help anyway I can. It isn't always easy to do I know. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I would believe you're obligated to tell her the truth, however, I cannot begin to know how to approach it. Good luck. Hugs |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Glad Vince took Zak, I hope that makes you feel loads better. That pregnant woman? WTF? Mr. Smith? Whats going on? I missed a lot! Hope you are feeling better! xoxox K |
| from erianne1 : |
| I'm sorry you're hurting, but maybe you can take comfort in the fact that Zak will be well taken care of now. Sometimes we have to do things that hurt us to make life easier for our furry friends. Sending you big hugs. |
| from second-love : |
| Mr. Smith is laying low, i think. Could be that he DID see my open email screen last week and has thought better of doing that anymore. He was gone most of the weekend... lets see what happens today or tomorrow :)) Glad Vince is taking Zak... at least you'll know where he is :)) *hugs* |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Sweetest Day???!!!! I had to look it up online. I've never heard of it. It's not known over here. I can't believe how rude that woman was!!! I'd have hit her! Pregnant or not!!! |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| What a bitch!! (the pregnant lady) I almost wish you would've slapped her! |
| from erianne1 : |
| Check your guest book, X...you've got an entry in there copping to the IP you're tracking. Hugs! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| With my kids, you can't see sex scenes till your 25! LOL Did Mr.Smith come out of the closet? |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Thanks for your note. It means a lot! I can't wait to get her home! But at least I know where she is, and that she's ion good hands! Will let you know how she gets on! Have a good weekend. x |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Im glad to hear it! Have a good weekend sweetie! Any idea when you'll get internet at home? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| hey sweetie!Hows your day going otherwise? |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| Yikes! I hope Mr. Smith comes forward! Have a good weekend, despite the drama right now! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| great poem! Love it love it! who is this guy you want to kill? whats up with that? |
| from divacowgirl : |
| You are not a psycho :) |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Morning sweetie, you have a few entries to read. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I hope you feel better...wish you could send Zak to me..xoxox Kathy |
| from lilfoxyvixen : |
| lilfoxyvixen.blogspot.com |
| from realsnoopy : |
| yes, I got it. I replied to it over an hour ago. If you didn't get it, send me another one. |
| from endthelies : |
| That was an awesome poem. And I am so, so sorry that you're going to have to part with yoru cat. But living on a farm or with another person who'll love him seems like a great alternative, and I'm sure Zak will be happy in the end. And as long as your health isn't suffering, that's all that matters. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| That was beautiful Dre! I loved it! *hugs* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Can You email me if you have time? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| It's so much more than the affair. You know everything. He has been trying and doing well. I don't trust him. Do you think I ever will? Am I trying to get past to much? I know he hurt you, so asking you this question will be hard for you to answer, but I trust you to do it! What are your thoughts? When you were with him, what did you see? What did he tell you about the "addiction?" |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| feel better soon sweetie! |
| from dope-slave : |
| thanx babe! luv u 2! <3 |
| from second-love : |
| thinking about ya...xxxoo |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Shame hon..I hope you start feeling better. Take care and feel good. xoxox |
| from erianne1 : |
| I'll keep Mike in my thoughts and prayers...and send a big hug for you. Take care...I know very well how scary chest pains can be and agree with you that they are nothing to put off dealing with. *Hugs* |
| from endthelies : |
| I hope Mike is fine, and I'll keep him in my thoughts. Look out for yourself, too, and try not to get too stressed about it. Hugs! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I tried adkins once. it works really well! I ended up getting REALLY sick on it. I know that type of restriction is very hard! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| are you ill from the drinking part of it or the eating? what are you supposed to be eating exactly? |
| from ava-reborn : |
| OMG!! Good luck for Mike's doctor visit! I hope he takes notice of what the doc tells him! And make sure you take care of yourself too lovely!!! *hugs* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Geez, I hope both of you are ok. I am worried and thinking of you both. Please take care and keep us updated. xoxoxo |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm worried about you, Girlie, and now Mike too. Please take care of both of you! |
| from second-love : |
| Unfortunately with this health issue, it comes down to you choosing to eat better, drink less and slow down some. Thats hard when we are young and wanna have fun :))) something happens when you hit 40 though hahahah take it from me. Try to just taper off some cuz you DO know how to have fun :)) I may have to squeeze that visit in BEFORE the complete "slow down" begins *grin* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| My notes made me giggle today! We have support from everyone but our boys. BIG SURPRISE!! Have a good weekend, eat healthy, "Im one to talk:(" and don't drink to much! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| They know just how to get round us don't they!! How cute are they when they want to be!!! lol!! *hugs* |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Just creaking out of bath-chair and going home to my slippers, now. Hope for some rissoles for tea. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Look after yourself X, or make sure Mike does, and EAT THE RIGHT FOOD!. Nice weekend xx |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I've asked him if he is affraid we will bash him and you will convince me to leave him. I asked him why it bothers him. "It's just not normal. Your supposed to dislike her. It just doesn't make sence!" I told him that he mentioned to me once that you and I would have made good friends. He said "I know, but not after all of this." I look at it from his point of view as well, ya it must be weird for him. But like I said, "he" has to "deal" with it. It hasn't been easy to get here. If he ever cheats on me again, I'm gone! Nor would I forgive again and be "buddies" with another lover! I'm not a complete fucking moron! This situation worked it's way through on it's own. It all happened naturally and over time. No, it may not be "normal" but I'm not either! *grin* Had we been friends and this happened, it would have been a double betrayel and I will be honest enough to say, I couldn't of forgiven that. I am a kind person, but I'm not Mother Theresa either! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| He will have to "deal" with it. At least I'm not sleeping with you! LOL *wink* |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Hey, Sweetie-I hope you're wrong about your health taking a bad turn. Isn't there something you can do to head it off? I hope you enjoy the weekend, and please do whatever you can to take proper care of yourself. Hugs |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Our cats rule and thats the end of the story!!! Good luck hon. Shame poor poor Zak. Give him a kiss from me! xoxoxox |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| I'm like you in the thought...I've had my cats longer than any guy I've been with, so I'm NOT getting rid of them over a guy! Not happening! Things will work themselves out... |
| from second-love : |
| Real life can be tough... and unfortunately relationships take work *sigh*... minor bump though and Im sure it will all work out with the cat... but Mike needs to take a chill pill *smile* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| You go! No way is any man gona take my pet! He must have a problem. He wasn't doing it before. I would talk to the vet or a pet specialist "I saw a doggy shrink once with my dog, no lie!" He is either ill or upset about something. I'm glad to hear your not whimping out! Your a good mommy! *hugs* |
| from endthelies : |
| Good for you, stick to your guns! I'm a TOTAL cat person, but I love animals in general. I just can't quite stomach the idea of you having to get rid of your kitty. Hopefull when he's not as mad he'll be more willing to compromiseon the litter box thing. |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Hey, chickie...Are you OK today? Seeing someone collapse would freak me out, too! BabyGirl, get that shit checked! I would hate to see something happen to you. ((hugs)) |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Sweetie, whats going on? Please don't give me that "it's just a woman thing again!" *hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| You ROCK! |
| from iam-perfect : |
| Thanks darling. Your support means more than you know. xoxo. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hail the Queen!!! Feel good! |
| from grt8f84me : |
| You are WONDERFUL...thanks for making me feel not so guilty about wanting to be bad...One good thing I did come up with is that my two oldest kids are old enough to be on their own. I really just worry about BabyGirl...she USED to be really close to her daddy, but now she's is officially a woman-child (if you get my drift), and lil' miss attitude just isn't so much of a daddy's girl anymore. :) Love ya! |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| You know what? After all this time of reading you I just realised what makes your writing so good - it's the reality of the dialogue! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I know what you mean. I wrote one when Abe and I were separated and I can't even read it myself anymore. It has been over a year since I wrote it and I'm scared to read it again. Some things go so deep that you become affraid as if the past will crawl out of the pages and worm it's way back into your soul. |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Thank you so much lovely. You don't know how much that means to me! I've had some people be really negative! *hugs* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Oh good! I love that photo! I thought it was beautiful work! I do my best poetry when I am really low. It can make it hard to go back and read at times, but it's a price to pay. As you know, many artists have had severe issues in one way or another that made it possible to create the masterpieces we enjoy today. I think the best paintings, stories and poems were done by some really wacked out people. Myself included. I love the stuff I do when I'm REALLY depressed! Do you write poetry? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I know when you painted the breaker box you were very low, I loved it! Not that you were low, I loved the art. Do you still have the photo? If you do, would you mind if I post it when I get my other diary going? If it's to painful, I understand. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Just been catching up. You have been through a lot lately. Thinking of you. xoxox |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I'm glad you liked it! How are YOU? Your entry worried me yesterday. I know I said I wouldn't babble if you didn't want me to," I lied" but I feel like something is wrong. Don't ever excuse your emotions Dre, they are there for a reason. PLEASE take care of YOU! |
| from second-love : |
| That kind of reaction really DOESNT have anything to do with the guy you are with. Its a reaction to an action or something that used to trigger a negative reaction in you. Vince used to make you feel confined, trapped... so anytime Mike does something that your mind could construe as constricting... you react without even realizing it. With time... that will get better once the trust is there. Its ok NOT to have that yet. Actually its BEST... its your minds way of protecting you. And no matter how wonderful Mike is (and i can see that he IS...) you need to keep your own health and sanity FIRST always. Missin you guys like crazy... but still reading *wink* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I want to say something but I don't. Ya know? Email me if you want to hear me babble otherwise, no offence taken. *hugs* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| oh, I remember! I saw them play downtown on the 4th of July. They are really good! Did she know about you two? I was thinking about "smurf" I really liked him. I think he has a GREAT voice! Cute too! *wink* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Yikes! Three months! Was it hard to see M? He's from old band right? He's back with wife again? What band is he in now? |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Thinking of you.xoxox |
| from candoor : |
| I get a strong sense that I want to read more of your words, so i leave this note because my concentration is waning at the moment... love the colors :) |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I'm honored! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Hey sweetie! I want the details. I'm sorry that my entry probably started that bad dream. Email me what happened. Love, Snoop |
| from hothead : |
| aw, honey, thank you! i think i'm going to have the boy do it, though...i think it's better that way. still, very touched by your lovely offer. :) |
| from endthelies : |
| Aww. Your boyfriend is lovely. And there's some good advice in taht other entry you wrote; you were right. I especially think it's worth noting that you can't change people (no matter what type they are). |
| from ava-reborn : |
| That actually helps a lot!! Thank you lovely!! Men are a strange breed huh!!! Love u too!!! xx |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Thanks for the lovely note. And maybe you're right and Hombre will come back a better person. And hopefully...well, let's just hope, eh? ((hugs)) |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Dead on! Men are like a stove. You get burned by one enough times, you tend to go by one with a suit of armor on! Do you have any reservations about going by your new "stove?" I don't like being "hard." I guess it goes against everything I believe in. Maybe thats why it "depresses" me so much. I do know that I am hard enough now not to "put up" with anymore shit from my stove! As you said, something gets hard and kinda dies. Another piece gets chipped off and pretty soon their isn't much left to feel. After that, it doesn't hurt as much to leave. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Your right. I fight for EVERYONE about everything, accept for me. I think subconsiously, I treat myself the way I was always treated. I have "conditioned" myself to expect little from people. I think that is what hurt the most with what Abe did to me. I truly detest selfish people. He knew I have always had issues with trusting people. "for obvious reasons" I had always told him to be honest with me. Things happen, I know that. Just tell me the truth. Give me that much respect. That is and will always be his number one flaw to me. He has ALWAYS put himself first. I was told in counseling that you are supposed to. I don't believe that. When you need to put youself first at the expence of someone else, I think it's wrong! Abe is far from the only man I know to do this. I find it quite common. I think it goes way back to the begining of time. You know, drag women around by the hair. I have a VERY bad taste about men. I know not everyone is that way, but when push comes to shove, how many are not? I don't have a brick wall around my heart, but nothing anyone does will ever surprise me. People can be the most terrible thing on the planet. You think you "know" someone, do we ever really???? I will never look at Abe the same way. I'm certain you won't at Vince either. Do you ever look at that and think "I would never have thought I would feel that way about a person I loved so much?" It's scary. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| That movie was good. "being a catholic and all" Our conversation got me going too. His mother had some rough spots! Wow, 12 kids?? Do you think Vince treated you that way because of a lack of respect for women because of the whole "abandoning" issue? Maybe. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| How does her husband treat her? That can make a differance too. A mother has a very serious responsibility to raise her son well. I forever battle that with Ty. His father is very much like Vince. I too was his Mother and everthing else under the sun accept an equal. He shows Ty that bullshit all the time by the way he talks about me and the way he treats his sisters. He always expected them to clean and cook. Womans work! Fuck that! If my son turns out that way, I will send his wife to Ty's dad and she can see where it came from! I'm sorry for going off but I hate the fucker no end! He has made my job as a parent so hard! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Was he always that way? I do know what it feels like to "do" for people. I am always dumb enough to believe that when someone has the chance to "do" back that they will. Ya know what, they don't. I am slowly learning and I don't "do" as much as I used to. My girls are pretty selfish that way on top of most others. It hurts, but now it has started to piss me off and I show it. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| What do you think started it? Was he taking you for granted? You guys were together a long time. Why do you think he changed? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| When was it? What was happening when it was changing? :( |
| from noaddedme : |
| Vince is such a moron! He visits you at the home you live in with the love of your life and says he thinks you two can work it out? Sharp isn't he? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Since I became a diabetic, I never really "feel" good. :( I am always tired and take so many pills that I feel ill. |
| from lilfoxyvixen : |
| You and me girl!!! Count me tardy! |
| from second-love : |
| You are right on... as always *hugs* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I will. I know you both don't think much of each other these days, but I thought you would like to know that. As I said, I don't remember how I found it, but I believe you so that theory only makes sence. What else is new? How was your weekend? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Read todays. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Hey sweetie! Did ya read Abe's diary today?? |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Feel better and have a great weekend honey! Love you. xoxox |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I believe you. Because of that, I spent the night trying to figure out how I found it. Maybe I did a search for Abe after finding co5girl diary? I'm not sure, it was so long ago and it all has blended together with the *shock* of it all. It may be possible? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| still cranky? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Someones cranky? *cheeky grin* |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| "If it upset you so much that it ruined your day and caused you to commit suicide, Sue me". How am I supposed to sue you if I'm DEAD? ;) |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Or a clutz diary ring! LOL |
| from ava-reborn : |
| If I lived closer I'd definitely be coming round for lessons!! Glad it went well, but sorry you're suffering for your art now!! Thank u so much for your note about my photo! ;) |
| from realsnoopy : |
| If ya get bored, email me. I'm doing homework so I can flip back and forth! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Do you think I need to worry so much? She is so naive. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Hey girl! I know your back from vacation. I missed your notes! How was it?? *smooches* ps I'm WIRED on some diet pill. YIKES! |
| from endthelies : |
| I can totally identify with what you said about fall. Brillaint. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Any idea when you will have internet? Have a good vacation! *wink* |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| No, Phil doesn't have any competition. If Cal would've been single when I left Dick, that would be another story... |
| from realsnoopy : |
| *giggle* I get it now. What does Mike do? Will he be able to spend your days off with you? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| What is a Christian Wiccin? Sorry, I'm still learning :( |
| from sizmatters : |
| Thanks for the kind words and *hugs* !! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Haha, a viabrator for Christmas...send it here-you certainly don't need it and I am jealous..:-)))) Have a good weekend...Love you! xoxox |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Thats "buy" not "by" I feel like Kestra now. I can't stand an obvious misteak! Even thought the readers can figure it out, I don't want to look even dummer than I am!@#$%$#@ |
| from realsnoopy : |
| "sex" that was funny! What was funny too was that you want socks! Girl, we need to come up with a better list than that! Yes, my job did suck ass! Now all I can by for Christmas IS socks! LOL I LOVE the shining! I just watched it again last week! Ya, I'm always gona have sex until the time comes and then... I'm too tired! *sigh* Even if i just layed there, I would at least have to hold my legs apart and that is to much to do. Maybe we should invest in some stirups! *grin* I don't think I spelled that right. It looks funny? I want spell check on my diary! LOL What are you doing on your vacation? |
| from endthelies : |
| Hello, I would give you the password, but I decided to unlock it. So read away =P |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Yeah, I'd forgotten what romance was like!! |
| from plopphizz : |
| I think we had very, very different weekends :). -- P.P. |
| from second-love : |
| You are SUCH a party animal... good GOD girl!!! I dont know how you do it!!! If i ever come visit... ILL be the driver! :) |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Sounds like a blast!! What the hell with not getting into a strip club without guys?? What if you were gay? What a bunch of shit! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hope you are having a fanatstic weekend! xoxox |
| from second-love : |
| Love you |
| from realsnoopy : |
| OK, now your quiet! Are you having trouble with my two entries today? You can leave me a note. It' ok to talk about it *hug* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Guess what???? I think I saw you leaving Target today! You were walking to your car and I was behind you and your friend. I was going to call out to you but I was feeling shy and I didn'y know if your friend knew we talked and I thought it may be uncomfortable. *shy grin* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Oily isn't a term I have ever used for an x but hey, it works! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Is it me, or does he have a smile to die for?? *GRIN* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Hey! You never said what you thought of Craig? |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Well congrats on the weight gain! Wow...I think that's the first time I've ever said that to someone - lol! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I love annex!Craig kicks ass! I am hiring him to teach me the drums. He is working full time now as an instructor. He just started that about a month and a half ago. He worked with Abe at a plant here in town up until he left to teach. I have to admit, I have a huge crush on him. When he smiles.... I cream! Abe just laughs at me, but I am serious! *wink* |
| from nicim : |
| popped over from your link and read an entry which said "for the first time in my life I'm in love with someone stronger than me and I don't know what to do about it". Oh my dear girl - I know exactly what you mean. Just ride the wave dear...it gets better. XXOO N |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Weee!!! Sounds like a fun fun time! |
| from second-love : |
| Naughty girl!! How DO you keep goin at that pace!??? And biker rallys... fun fun stuff :))) and ummmmmmm im sorta huggy kissy lovey when ive had a pint or two :))))) but i think ya already KNOW that hahahahahhaha - glad ya had fun love! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| St. Bernard silly girl! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Great picture! You are both scrumptious! xoxox |
| from ava-reborn : |
| haha, perhaps for your benefit I should mention the mutual hormone based bitching and bickering! The constant whinging that she needs this, or that, hoping I'll do it for her! My relationship with her is by no means perfect! I just think it's preferable to one with a man!! Have a great weekend lovely!! xxx |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| OK OK I have to say it - you're both beautiful! From my perspective you more so - but yes I can see why you like him. x |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Have a wonderful weekend, X-ey...rhymes with sexy...I think I'm gonna be a rapper when I grow up...listen to my flow, girl...just give it a whirl...Cause I'm feeling silly, yeah--ummm....ummm going WILLY-NILLY!!!! See 'dem skills, gurl!!! Seriously, have a safe, happy Labor Day weekend! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I LOVE thatpic of you and Mike!! He's gorgeous! And you are beautiful!!!! As always!! Do you know, some women are so acidic that their vaginal discharge bleaches their knickers!! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Hey! Your mood thingy works! Go You! Have a great weekend, come back Tuesday with stories! Get internet at home!!!! *hugs* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I'll be thinking of you on Monday! LOL |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Good morning! I need a beer! Maybe down the road you and I can muster the courage and go out and get plowed!!!! I'm ok, just a bad day with lots of tears. I needded to cry I think. You know how sometimes they just pour out and you can't control it? A combo of everything hits at once? I can be a whiney and very emotional at times. That comes with my very pationate personality. I have learned to accept that! I am ok with it! I LOVE being a little "physco" Thanx for asking sweetie! BIG HUGS to ya! |
| from gutterpoet : |
| what an attractive couple you guys are! have a great holiday weekend. gp |
| from chickpea981 : |
| that is EXACTLY how I pictured you two. the cuteness is overwhelming |
| from realsnoopy : |
| He's a cutie as are you! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Cute Pic! *grin* |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| OMG it's a picture!!!!! Love it love it love it! You two are so dang cute! Please mamn may I have another? |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Cute couple! =) |
| from lilfoxyvixen : |
| LOL, thanks.. but hey, takes one to know one, right? lol |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Thanx chick! How do you stop yourself from changing your template? I know, I'm a freak!! *wink* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Good morning! Kids are gone! I am blaring "seether" "Remedy" That song makes me cum LOL! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Did you see I changed my mood icon? Fits me perfect today! CUNT!! LOL! Get an I-mood, the link is on my template. People like us moody women need that! Go Thelma and Louise! |
| from noaddedme : |
| Dragprincess is my sweetie friend Abby. She much prefers girls, so dick is gross to her :) She's a riot ... not meaning anything mean to me at all! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| PMS much? ;) How come you can't bring your tarot cards into the house? That would bother me. A LOT. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| OH, ya, fuck the straight hair thing! I would love your hair! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| sorry to hear about your day. I know you love him, I do. However, don't you KINDA miss being in your own place and having your own rules? It is really hard to share space with someone. Stay strong, stand up for the *you* you love more than anyone, and find space in that house and make it yours! Messy or not, it is YOUR space too! *wink* Give yourself a warm fuzzy today! PS Nothing at all against Mike, I am a hot head when men make women cry, even if they didn't mean to! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Hey! No fair! I can't read Spanish! LOL Lostmystic76 has THE most beautiful template I have ever seen! Hey, where is the survey? I wish you could get on the computer at home. I know it isn't easy to do all of this at work :) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Heh...my spanish sucks, too! I was a little buzzed when I wrote that. I think I write better when the BudLight is a slowly flowing. I guess I shouldn't judge Hombre so harshly...it's not like I'm sober 100% of the time. But it was one of those nights last night...Anyway, we're cool, Chickie! But I do have some questions about this brujeria stuff. Uy...cucuy! Tengo susto! ;) |
| from grt8f84me : |
| Dang, X...I guess I should read more of your diary! I was reading "snoopy" and saw a note that you practice brujeria...and a comment of this being a "spic" thing. I hope and pray que tu eres una mexicana. Y si eres mexicana, pues yo creo que esta bien que tu dises "spic." Pero si no eres mexicana, pues vamos a ver que pasa con esto cosa...porque esta palabra "spic" no se debe a disir a una persona que no es mexicana...claro que no? O' tambien no es bien a disir a ninguen ocasion. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I did another survey. I did it in my diary again. DL sucks sometimes! You may have to put it in your diary. It's your turn again to make one! LOL |
| from realsnoopy : |
| When did you become a witch, how, and why? What do you do and believe in? Sorry, I love to learn new things and I find this all very interesting. *hugs* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I'm waiting to hear from Kestra and thought I would ak you! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Hey Chicka, I'm a dork I know and i just asked Kestra to explain Wiccin? Wiccan? However it is spelled. I remember you have a friend that is wiccin so I thought you could tell me what you know. I hear it explained twelve differant ways and I'm annoyed by this. I want someone to tell me that knows what the hell their talking about! Alrighty then! Thanx hon! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| It was May 3, 2003-Phil shrunk my favorite skirt. Do you think I'll ever forget? |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| I completely agree with dukkha-tanha....I cringe everytime I see Jaime at the laundry machine and realize he's touched my things. I wash all my clothing in cold water and hang dry the majority of things...which is why shirts I've bought over 2 years ago still look new and pretty....boys however just throw everything they find lying around in one load *shivers* |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Men should only ever have to do their laundry. They should never ever ever ever EVER be allowed to go near womens' laundry. This is a lesson I learned early in life, when my dad shrunk a size medium angora sweater down to something that might fit a very small dog. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Bitchfest? Didn't you know I'm the President, and ring leader to that little company! LOL! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Glad you are feeling better hon! Enjoy the photographing..sounds like fun to me... xoxox |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I amreading you at work and it took me 20min to do it cuz i had to keep minimizing my screen cuz my boss keeps going by! *giggle* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| ps don't forget to do my survey. you might have to copy and paste it in your diary like I had to. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| That makes sence. Now I feel more comfortable not feeling "happy" all the time. I think the word is overused, makes people think they need to feel that way all the time in order to be normal? Ya know? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| STRANGE. I just started reading IWILLSURVIVE and left her a note and your a few notes down! Thousands of people write here, isn't that odd? |
| from grt8f84me : |
| I filled out your suryvey...however, I copied and pasted it into my diary. Maybe I did that wrong...but I answered the questions ((saying in a little-kid, sorry-kind of voice)). |
| from twinker-bell : |
| oh no! i hope you went straight to the doctor after work and that they were able to make you feel all better!!! :-) |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Yikes! Hope you're feeling better! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| yes, it's in my surveys, when I click on "other peoples results", nothing comes up. I made up my own as well. Let me know if you figure it out :( |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Oy! Feel better sweety...must be an ear infection. Shit! Take care! :-( xoxox |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Welcome back! Glad you guys had such a good time. I loved your survey ;-) |
| from second-love : |
| Feel better hon... that blows (and i dont mean the fun kind of blow *grin*) |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Thank you, they seem to be quite popular, lol. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Do you want me to take it today or tomorrow? |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I'm on my way to work but leave me a note and let me know if my survey worked. I clicked "done" and nothing happened! :) |
| from second-love : |
| So glad you are back... and i am just so thrilled for your happiness!!! *hugs* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| YUK! The thought of parents and sex is nasty! What did you guys "do" for fun there??? |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Glad you're back. Glad you had a good time. Ewwwwwww...everybody's worst nightmare-their parents having sex! Now I've got to wash my mouth out! I'm so happy that you and Mike are so great together-you sure did pay your dues to get to him. Hugs |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I think we all have an inking of discombobulate's meaning, but is the opposite bobulate? Ha-try using that one! I'm going to try your fingernail painting method. If it doesn't work, my finger and toe-tips will just be red for a few days! Enjoy your vacay-it's been a long time coming. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Have an awsome awsome time. Love u! |
| from gutterpoet : |
| I always wanted to use the word "engorged" in a song. Try rhyming that though. have a great time on your trip. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| oh my god! That is bad! I would keep that a secret too! *hugs* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Discombobulate. My favorite word in the world! As you know, it's in my diary. It's a fun and silly word. I wish I were going! I should have been born Mexican, I love the food and drinks! Your mom could stuff me like a turkey anytime! Have a really really good time. Lots of food, drinks, sex, and of course lots of love and hugs from your family to bring home with you to hold you over till next time you see them! Have a safe trip! *hugs* snoopy |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Have fun! We'll miss you! Bring back stories! =) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Beautiful song! I hope you guys have an amazing time. I think its so exciting. And I am so happy for you X. Really. Finally for you to be happy. You so deserve it after all the pain and crap you have had in your life. Have a wonderful time. Don't stress and just enjoy. And where are the photos!!! xoxox K |
| from divacowgirl : |
| I like the song, but don't tell anyone, I'm suppose to be too bitter to like love songs. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| The song is going to be great! I finished the diary. And yes, I'm ok. I read through your eyes this time. It was painful for me at times, but it helped me some to see where you were at the time. You were in a very dark place, and for a while.... he helped you. *SIGH* |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Nice lyrics!!! You know you always tease up with things you've done to your hair, or how cute you looked going out one night, but we have yet to see any new pictures!!!!! Come on!!!! *wink wink* And thanks for the comments. They make me feel like I'm not crazy for feeling this way *sigh* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am sure that you and Mike will work things out sweety. This is true love. I am sure of it. You just need to work on yourself too. I hope you are ok. I worry about you! I think its really interesting that you and Abe's wife are in touch. I can understand how that can help the both of you with your feelings. it may seem weird to some people, but I totally understand it. I hope both of you will just be happy. Take care dear X. Love you! xoxox |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I have a question for you. Please email me. I deleted your email before I took the address. I have done that about a dozen times now! *sigh* |
| from second-love : |
| Hon... we both know that love alone cant completely save us and really, despite the fact that Mike DOES obviously love you and would do anything for you - only YOU can work through the feelings and emotions that cause you to protect yourself. Its not really ABOUT him and truly he cant do much to get you through that but be as loving and supportive as he obviously is. XXX000 |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I got your email :) No, you were not wrong in telling him anything. Honesty is best and your feelings are your feelings and they are never wrong! I forgot to write that to you. *huge hug!* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| yikes! I know abe hates it that we talk. I don't know what to say. If you think you need to stop talking, then we should. abe thinks i won't let go of the past if we talk. i don't feel that way. i feel better about it. i know you on a level without abe and i guess that is what i go on. please don't think i am judging, but he seems really insecure. will you be honest and tell me if you think he is to possesive in a unhealthy way? I will be honest, all while reading you i have been a little concerned about how you are dealing with that. it is so emotionally draining trying to prove your love to someone when it seems as though nothing you do is enough. does he think its because of abe? *hug* |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Thanx for the info on lostinmylove. She is a great person and I enjoy her diary! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| The needles are very small, you'd never know they were there |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I lost your email address, please send me an e-mail thanx |
| from missy-17 : |
| ok thats cool if you would give me it!! |
| from missy-17 : |
| hey not so nice on havin an affair with realsnoopy's husband!! so may u please give me the password to my email address [email protected] realsnoopy said that i might find some entries of yours very interesting, and i like to be told that!! |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I just read your diary. As I write this, I am in tears. That was so well written. You stated the facts with understanding and love. I hope whoever she is listens to you and knows you are only looking out for her and the end result. There is no winner to be had in the end. I don't want to judge, as I said before I HAVE been the other woman. The other woman never wins, knowone does.... Thank You X. My diary is open to anyone to read. It sounds like a really overused cliche, but if any of our diaries help anyone, it's worth it. *HUGS* |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Excellent advice, my dear. Your friend is lucky to have someone like you looking out. =) |
| from second-love : |
| I love you to death... really. THANK YOU... i needed that reminder. *hugs* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Nice doll. Of course I want live pics! And 9:30 bedtime. Thats me everynight when I don't have "guests". LOL. Take care sweet thing! xoxoxo |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Thank you! I blame you for the addiction I have to these damn dolls! I can't believe how much they look like ourselves! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Oh, and bed at 9.30?? That is like bliss!!! That is heavenly!!! My highlight of the day is falling into bed! The earlier the better! An earliy night is like an expensive gift! Nothing wrong with an early night!! I only have my pillow and duvet to look forward to at betime! At least you have a warm body to look forward to!!! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I used to make loads of dollz! I made them from scratch, including the bases. http://www.boomspeed.com/avalonte. I'd be happy to make you a personal X doll if you like!! ;) |
| from divacowgirl : |
| You are too funny. I'm sure you'll be very sexy when you're pregnant. How on earth can you be too drunk to have sex?? And...hubby has the whole jesus fish thing on the back of our truck and I have to constantly remind myself not to flip people off when I'm driving it. |
| from realsnoopy : |
| Try having sex with a fucking bobble head nun on your nightstand. My Grandma had one! Whatever!! Us Catholics :) |
| from realsnoopy : |
| I thought it would only be fair to share mine as well. I am "realsnoopy". |
| from second-love : |
| Good gracious girl... you are making us 40 year olds feel ANCIENT!!! *giggle* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hope u feel better! |
| from second-love : |
| Girl... those are some DISGUSTING descriptions... hahahahahahah we GET IT already :))))) Hang in there hon... have a great weekend! *hugs* |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Haha, I laughed when I read about your call to your parents! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I truly believe that's the most fun I've ever had reading an entry! |
| from cnotefwb77 : |
| Hey girl! Do you have an email I can send my password to? I've just been getting caught up on your diary - it's been hard here to keep caught up without a computer - but just wanted to say Congratulations! Your anniversary entry was wonderful - it's good to hear how good you're doing! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Haha. You parents sound adorable! xoxox |
| from second-love : |
| Love ya hon xxxxooo |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Wow, I can't believe it has been a year already. OMG! And look how well you are doing! I am so proud of you and so happy for you! I hope things just get better and better and better. I also hope the therapy goes well. Take care! xoxox |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Nicely put, Sweetie. You have come a long way and are so much better off. You have every right to be proud, and Mike is the icing on the cake! You deserve every minute of it. Hugs Happy Anniversary |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Well I've said it before - I used to come to read you in trepidation at how your life seemed to descend...now it's a joy to feel that warm glow of relentless happiness! Believe it or not (and I doubt you do!) you are actually an inspiration that things do turn around for the good. And whatever help you've had (and we've 'seen' that with you, don't discount your own role in that recovery. It was you that went out and set up a new band, it was you that decided not to take the crap from Vince's family.. it was you that didn't let it all drag you down. xx |
| from ava-reborn : |
| That was a great anniversary entry!! It was very inspiring!! I can't believe it's been a year since you moved to X-plicity!!! I'm sooooo glad you're life has improved so much!! You deserve it!! xxx |
| from second-love : |
| ahhhhhhhhhhhh yes bein on the back of a bike is an awesome thing... geez im sorry about the goldwing tho *grin*... couldnt swing a "real hog", eh??? *double grin* *hugs* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Have a good weekend sweety! xoxox |
| from second-love : |
| well you KNOW i read :))) and your dolls are as cute as you :) |
| from second-love : |
| You are so damn cute i cant stand it |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| You are gorgeous honey! xoxox |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Yum! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Sounds like lots of fun! As for the counseling option, I bet you have an inkling, deep down, which is the right choice. Perhaps you should listen to that voice. I will say this-you might find a counselor has ideas/techniques to make it easier to stick with the program. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You can do it, and you will. You've got so much reason to! Hugs |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Oy poor you, and poor kitties. Take care honey! I worry about you too! xoxoxo |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| OMG! Poor kitties! I would have freaked out! LoL! Glad to hear they're all ok though, and that you're starting to feel a little better. ; ) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hope you are having a good weekend! xoxoxox |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I LOVE Mike....Sounds like he DOES deserve you. Take care! xoxox |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Wow, that sounds intense. You and he are both lucky indeed. |
| from second-love : |
| Please take care of yourself... i worry about you. *hugs* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Look after yourself sweety! And send regards to Officechick! xoxo |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| I'm sorry it's so hard to stick with the diet, but I can tell you from the weight-loss perspective, once you stick with it and commit to it, it gets easier, and you don't miss the other foods (much). You can do it. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Glad to hear you sounding so incredibly happy and content. I LOVE Mike! xoxox |
| from yo-bitch : |
| oh em gee. i know. i got my book and totally finished it in a day. potter is your god now. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Sounds like an awsome weekend! And get the internet! I miss you! |
| from second-love : |
| mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Xstacy......... i like it :)))) nice AND hot all at the same time hahahahahahahahah *giggle giggle* |
| from plopphizz : |
| How long are you planning to be gone? -- P.P. |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Aren't those waiting periods a bunch of bull-hockey? I feel your pain, but know this-it's well worth the wait! The time will pass, and you've got a rather delightful diversion meanwhile! |
| from plopphizz : |
| I've found that setting my goals as things I have already accomplished really cuts down on the time and effort. But seriously, you are correct about the whole "business schmucks taking advantage of creative and intelligent people's ideas" segment. It's very ironic, but it seems like the best way to succeed is to be a completely boring, moronic, talentless clod, thereby forcing yourself to make your living off the skills, creativity and genius of others. -- P.P. |
| from divacowgirl : |
| As if you need more smut :) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Cheese butt? Cute!!! Have a good evening hon. xoxox Kathy |
| from angeline-is : |
| Petit fours, are the cakes. Close enough. And to hell with that taunting bitch. |
| from moonfaeryy : |
| x, I totally get your annoyance with the parking, only I had issues at my apartment building! I had been living there for almost 10 years, and always had the same spot, but people still felt the need to park in my spot when I was at work, and then I wouldn't have a place to park! Grrrrr |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Yeh! - Mariah Carey yodels. Can she actually hold a tune without infinite variation? |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Yip, I am too happy for you! Have a good week hon. Love Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| so happy for you |
| from plopphizz : |
| X, I can't believe anyone intentionally makes sauce that hot. It really is more like a chemical and less like a food. But I didn't know that as I glopped it on my taco like salsa. Your mom is a better man than I. -- P.P. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Sigh! I am jealous. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I would kill the cow. You handled that well. When do we get photos? I hope you are feeling better after that raucous evening! Just as long as you had fun! xoxox Kathy |
| from angeline-is : |
| Heh. Jeffrey's ex used to pull that stuff, with the clingy and the "kiss me" wordless beggings. Drove me bananas to no end. He had to just finally cut her off because it wasn't doing anyone any good. Just a thought. |
| from chickpea981 : |
| I think thats why I havent been in love much either. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Happy Independence Day...Have a wonderful weekend! xoxox |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I love the two of you. |
| from second-love : |
| So glad you are happy... |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| OMG that was a funny story. And cooking to taste? Is the best way to do it. That's when you know you're a good cook. =) |
| from gutterpoet : |
| I've never had myself on video stoned before, but I have lots of drunk and disorderly video. It can be fun. But take my word for it, try and keep your clothes on while the camera is running. That's all I'm sayin'. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Photos man, I want photos! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Oh my god, how the hell did I miss your birthday?!?! Belated happy birthday to you lovely!!! xx |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I have a feeling that you two will be just fine. xoxox |
| from second-love : |
| the main thing is that you recognize that about the two of you and that will help when the trials DO come... and they will - its just life. *hugs* |
| from sleepyzoe : |
| Heya! The shop is: The Glitter Workshop 920 E. Johnson St. Madison, WI 53703 |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Happy Birthday hon! That gift is amazing, I am glad you were spoilt! Hope you have a wonderful year! xoxox |
| from sleepyzoe : |
| I just logged in today for the first time in ages. I'm so delighted to see that you're doing well. See, you're not so bitter afterall! xoxo |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Happy Birthday sweetie! |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Happy birthday X |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Happy Birthday girl! |
| from chickpea981 : |
| Happy fucking birthday to you! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Oh My Fucking God! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! That is great! Absolutely priceless! I laughed so hard...surprised Jaime didn't come out to see what was going on. - lol! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Congrads on been the new lead singer...and as for Mike, heheh! What a honey! xoxox |
| from lilfoxyvixen : |
| Very Very Very true! |
| from noaddedme : |
| bwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ha ha ha ha @ pissing in the bucket! Thanks for sharing that!!!! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| I am also very happy for you! Please take care of yourself :) |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Yay!!! I'm soooo happy for you!! That's fab news. But I'm really sorry to hear about Frasier!! *hugs* |
| from noaddedme : |
| Thanks sweetie ... I guess for some carrying a chip on their shoulder is all the exercise they need. I need to let go, but damn it, the whole racist thing pissed me off! |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Thats absolutely fantastic news. I'm so happy for you! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Yay! Yer back! We missed ya! DLand has been slow - I needed a good read - lol! |
| from noaddedme : |
| Happy birthday! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Glad you are feeling good. Go raise some hell sweety! And I want a picture of Mike, although it doesn't matter what he looks like he sounds simply amazing. I am jealous. but happy for you. Have a good Birthday week..Sorry about the fishy. xoxoxo Kathy |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Three years is pretty good for a beta I think. It could be worse, Einstein and beaver's dad had to put their dog down this week. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Good luck for the audition and feel better honey! Have a good weekend! xoxox |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Sending you good luck vibes! |
| from unsweptroom : |
| thanks! i'll certainly keep reading your diary and if you ever want to get in touch, feel free to email me- [email protected] |
| from second-love : |
| Cool... your graphics are back! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| You make me laugh! xoxoxox |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| LMFAO! Leave it to you to turn that song into an ass smacking episode! Hahahahaha!! I love it! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| I also know someone that has the same disease. She had some issues at first but is doing very well. I think her biggest issue now is she get's migraines every once in awhile. |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Thanks for your hugs for me and Caleb! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| My friend has Crohn's. You'll be fine! You are such a strong person, and deal so well with everything that's thrown at you! Thanks for always being there for me. Remember, I'm always there for you! If I don't leave a note, it's not because I don't care! I'm so glad you have Mike there to support and love you. You're lucky, but he's luckier! *hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| Oh hon... im sorry. You'll get through this. Thank God you have Mike to go through it with you! Everything will be fine. Im praying for you :) |
| from noaddedme : |
| Hang in there. A huge part of any problem is how you attack it. You have such a good strong personality so it has to be allowed to pour over into this battle. Research and faith ... plus you have a great guy to help you stay strong! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Damn! I'm sorry sweetie. I really am. I don't know what to say. You're such a strong person....and with Mike there by your side, I just know you'll get through all this somehow. I'm keeping you in my thoughts. |
| from second-love : |
| Thanks for the note hon. Yeah... ill be ok - i think i just have way too much right now on my plate. Its just exhausting to keep having to "pull myself out of these mood spirals". Thats the part thats hard. Anything can send me over the edge at any minute... and i DO have that cancer trait of being overly-sensitive *blush* - i HATE that! :)XXX000 |
| from yo-bitch : |
| cancer? that means it's, like, your birthday soon. i think. or maybe it already passed. i am fuzzy on the dates that cancer spans. happy early/late/on time birthday! ♥ |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| My step son puts the water in first and then the kool aid. It drives me insane. Read the directions, for the love of God! But, at least he does it in the sink so he's not making a mess everywhere. =) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Yip what about pictures X? Huh? Your Sunday does sound blissful. And that woman does sound painful. Enjoy the rest of your week! xoxox |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| See! Now you have to post us some pics - lol! Anyway, yeah, I would have wanted to hurt that woman. Can't we just start offing these people? It will help preserve our race in the end...we should at least be allowed to sterilize them so they can't reproduce...just my opinion - but I'm in a people hating mood today - lol! |
| from second-love : |
| YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PICTURES damn it!!!!!! I want ones of this house, this "boy toy" and anything else you want to show us... and right NOW (pretty please with sugar on top????) |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| I'm so glad you two found each other. When are we gonna get some pictures dammit?!? |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Enjoy the rest of your weekend..xoxox Kathy |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Love you! xoxox Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| Anything worthwhile is risky...the greatest of things-including a love of a lifetime - involves the potential for the highest levels of joy, bliss and satisfaction... but ALSO the greatest risk of pain, heartache and disillusionment. I would take the risk everytime... and im so glad you did too *hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| Thanks hon... yes please send... i emailed ya back :) |
| from second-love : |
| Hey sweetie... Kev just informed me that Sam sent him an email singing my praises and hoping i am "getting plenty of encouragement" from my dland friends. Pfffffff i just KNEW he still had the email addresses for you and Kev despite his promising that he didnt. Just wanted to give you a heads up in case he sends you something... my guess is he is looking to draw out any info he can get. Will you let me know if you get anything from him???? Thanks hon! |
| from ceciliaruns : |
| that is a bitchn' dream |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Wow! A Christian/porn night sounds cool. Enjoy yourself sweetie. |
| from second-love : |
| You DID and i appreciate it! *hugs* |
| from crateobscure : |
| Thanks for the encouragement! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Just been catching up and LOVE seing you so damn happy. Love you lots. You give me hope! xoxox Kathy |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Sometimes it helps to face those things that hurt us (like your old diary)to make us stronger and see how far we've come. And you have come a long way. Can I have the info for Xperi-mental? [email protected]. Thanks! =) |
| from second-love : |
| Thanks hon... i hear you and i take no offense...*hugs* - im so glad for your happiness... it makes my heart warm |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Pictures?!? Pictures?!? Oh hurry up and get the internet up and running will ya!!!!! LoL! |
| from angldust83 : |
| While stories of you and Mike are amusing, and stories of you and Vince quite enraging, your writing brings a question to mind. Where in the FUCK are my Persephony recordings?! How am I supposed too add my random guitar sound effects and fart noises when I have nothing to work with? Granted, I've got my hands full with the bands I'm working with now, but how can the pro-flatulence subliminal messages of Eli-Qaeda be spread to Wisconsin with no music to do so with? You're about a cunt hair away from being demoted on the evil minion chain of command..... |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| You've come so far. There's nothing like a reminder now and then, though, so we don't forget to stay strong. Hugs |
| from second-love : |
| that seems like so long ago...*hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| mmmmmm nothin better than bein behind your man on a motorcycle..................i love it |
| from spring-da1sy : |
| Feel better, Hon. Hugs |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Awwww X! I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so shitty. God! I really hope things start improving soon! |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| What time shall we come round? |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| *throws life raft* |
| from second-love : |
| thanks hon |
| from second-love : |
| your happiness fills my heart |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Ooooo!!! Now how cool would that be?!? Can I have your autograph now? LoL! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Toatally agree with you, as always. Have a good weekend. xoxox |
| from divacowgirl : |
| I heard a head doc on tv yesterday say that if a woman cheats her marriage is in much more serious trouble than when a man cheats |
| from yo-bitch : |
| STELLAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! |
| from second-love : |
| LOL... its perfect that you love Little Debbies... that is what Sam's business is and i had a route as well... thats how we met hahahahahha how poetic. Hope the diet DOES help you sweetie.. i know it helped another friend i have that has it! |
| from yo-bitch : |
| ba hahaha. lolrus! |
| from second-love : |
| I understand the filter... we all have it. But i think its necessary. And im sure Mike is sincere... we are ALL sincere, but as long as you have a healthy dose of "real life" in the back of your mind, you will be ok. You KNOW that this is the "romance phase" and that "this too shall pass"... but that doesnt mean you cant enjoy it while you are in it. Just dont set him up to fail by thinking he is "perfect" and has no dificiencies... because his faults WILL show up eventually - because we are all just human. But he loves you... thats all that matters right now. *hugs* |
| from dope-slave : |
| you're a real pal, I LOVE U!! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I want pictures! Glad the show went well. You and Mike are making me jealous. I need to find myself a Mike! Mmm. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I want to hear more about the play. Hope you are ok. Hope you have a good weekend and that you manage to catch up on sleep. xoxox |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Blah blah...eh? |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Sorry you're not feeling good! By the way, your last entry wasn't boring! I love that your neice was all concerned about you! awww! Have a good weekend lovely! x |
| from iwanttotell : |
| NOT a crappy entry! Wow-your niece is so concerned about you-that's a good thing. I remember when Dick & I had the "legal document signage" dilemma. I felt like he was using it as an excuse to see me, and it was much too soon after leaving him for me to feel comfortable with that. Just stand strong, girl, and you'll be fine. Business only, right? Hugs |
| from second-love : |
| you are SO RIGHT!!! That IS what is happening. He just can't admit the pain that he's causing me... and he thinks that because he FINALLY understands what ive been TRYING to tell him for 2 freakin years that all my tension will now just "melt away"??? Spare me. If nothing, the tension is only greater for me now as i dont know if i have the strength within myself to make EITHER decision!!! Thanks for being there and for the notes - you're awesome! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| You NEVER bore us!! Have fun at your performance! xx |
| from gutterpoet : |
| ahhh Ms.X I do hope you feel better. I've had pretty much the same thing with the stomach and all and I've found that I can enjoy most things at least just once in a while without too much damage. As for the moving in thing, I think it's wonderful and we must always grab on to happiness in this world wherever it can be found. Bravo! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| *sighs* I wish I was moving this weekend. We've been apart for 11 days and it's killing me. How we're going to make it through 6 weeks is beyond me. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Great that you are so happy. Mike sounds amazing! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Go for it, follow your heart. You're young, minimal responsibilities (i.e. no children), enjoy life. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Was that my protestational 'hmm'? I say 'go for it girl!' He's obviously making you sing inside! Another subject - I'm trying to drum up support for dramateacher. Great writing. |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| We should give our parents each others numbers so they can sit around and bitch about us - lol!!! |
| from second-love : |
| I love your willingness to step out and take the chance despite all the hurt you have been through. I DO love the poem - its PERFECT - but i support you in your decision... because sometimes we just have to follow our heart no matter how much it might possibly hurt *hugs* (and thanks for your notes of encouragement... they mean everything) |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| *sighs* You're entries always leave me smiling. Tell Mike I love him for loving you! LoL! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| I have an aunt that has the poop bag. She had colitis really, really bad and once she had the operation and got the bag, she was 100% better. Just so you know, it's not THAT bad. But, I'd still freak out if faced with the possibility. Have a nice quiet evening with your man and your tv! =) |
| from crateobscure : |
| Once again, you leave me a trouble inspiring note. ;) |
| from second-love : |
| Thank GOD!! I was starting to think i was the only one that had SUCK days hahahahaha... no... i hope ya feel better, sweetie. Im sure that now you have Mike, and are so much happier - it will make your physical self be much better too and just help with getting you better. Let Mike just take good care of you:)))) Hope your day gets better! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Bah! Don't ya just hate days like this? But hey, you're right about something, chocolate does make everything better.....well that and sex - lol!!! Take care and enjoy your weekend sweetie! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Do you know what 3 bedrm places in Long Beach go for a month? I pay almost four times what you pay, geeez I'm depressed |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Hmm. |
| from second-love : |
| OMG... im so happy for you, i could just die. We have to grab whatever happiness we can. If we live in fear of being hurt... we will never experience any true happiness. And really... without pain occasionally, we would never really KNOW when things are truly good. Love you. |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Hey! A three bedroom for $490?!? I'll take it! NOTHING goes for $490 a month here! I'll be happy for you but just be careful, okay? =) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Go X. I am so very very happy for you. As long as you are happy, then all is well! Trevor and I also started to live together after a very short period and we were happy together most of our 8 years. I say go for it and enjoy, and laugh and smile and love and be happy! |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I'm so immensely happy for you lovely!!! I DO understand!! I think you really DO instinctively know when it's right! However soon it happens! Remember I had these amazingly strong feelings for Dave when I was 14 years old! 17 years later I love that boy like nothing else!!! He IS my life partner!! Even if we're not actually together!! He's my "other half"! Go for it! Even if it doesn't work. You'll have had an intensely wonderful experience and felt so much love that it will have been worth it!!! But there's every reason to believe it WILL work! Enjoy! Mike's a very lucky chap! I moved in with "The Wanker" after just 2 weeks of knowing him!! Those 18 months were some of the happiest of my life!! I don't regret it. I adored him! It WAS worth it! As for the price of your flat, that is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cheap!!! A 3 bed flat here would cost about 1800-2000 dollars! And that's without utilities!!!! Yours is unbelievably cheap!!! I'll have two please!!! *hugs* |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| *giggles* Have we all lost it? So far you, me, and one other diary I read have all fallen madly in love with someone we feel is our true soul mates! You're moving in with Mike, I'm moving 2400 miles north to be with Jaime, and my other person is moving to Australia and marrying the women he loves. This all makes me dizzy. I love it! Yay for all of us who are crazy in love! |
| from crateobscure : |
| That sort of advice could get me into trouble. A fun sort of trouble, but trouble never the less. |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| You know though - I've been thinking about this a little more. If Jaime had already lived here, I would not be moving in with him. I like my apartment and my space. In time, we'd probably get to that point. The only reason we are doing it this way is because we're 2400 miles apart. So whatever you decide will be ok....regardless you have my support 100% |
| from divacowgirl : |
| If anyone can learn fast, it's you, good luck! |
| from second-love : |
| It IS easy to look back and wonder "what the fuck was i thinking?"... its a given that i will be thinking that. I often think that already. I think i've had so little true, long and deep happiness in my life, that i wouldn't know it if it smacked me in the face. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Just so damn glad that you are smiling and happy sweetie. Love you! xoxoxo |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Yeah - I can't help but feel that way. I mean I just signed a year lease on my place last month - lol! So while I feel like I'm giving a part of myself away, I just keep telling myself that he's giving me a part of him, so it just balances everything out. Besides that, I love him so very much, and I know he feels the same. This is my chance to be truley happy, and I love myself enough to let this happen. Hope that helps *smiles* |
| from ava-reborn : |
| I'm so sorry to hear about your condition lovely! Good luck with finding a natural rememdy. I know you won't let some bastard illness get to you!! With your strength and Mike's love, you'll be fine!! *hugs* |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| I suppose it's probably cause for concern that I read about your condition and thought, "Wow, that'll keep you thin". But really, I feel for ya. And you feel bad for MY stress? =) |
| from chickpea981 : |
| Here's my perfectly sappy note to you: When they not only stick by you, but also vow to keep you healthy and offer you the little things, it's real. You know it's love when they don't run when you crumble and love can be the best medicine of all. I love your "fuck that, there's something natural I can take" attitude. *hug* |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Wow! I've been reading up on your condition...damn girl...you're in for a rough ride here aren't ya? Here's hopeing that everything works out. Keeping you in my thoughts sweetie! I'm glad you have Mike there with you. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Gosh, I didn't know you were ill. I hope you are feeling good sweetie. Thinking of you. xoxox |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| He's right - you do have a good heart. But.. 'can't recall her name'. You're funny! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Such the little minx! *wink* |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Damn, even our rose ceremonies are on schedule! LMFAO! I'm glad I'm not the only one all happy and in love - lol! |
| from iwanttotell : |
| It's so nice to hear you sound so happy. Hugs |
| from yo-bitch : |
| ahahaha. he sounds so fun, and so cool. i am happy for you. ♥ |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Wow! Enjoy.... |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Oh to be young and in love. Lucky girl. Enjoy it. Whatever it is you've got, them guys can't get enough of, ey? =) |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| *sighs* And once again I feel as though I am reading my own life. |
| from angldust83 : |
| 9 years of studying everything I can get my hands on about music. Books on theory, pro audio, acoustics, ect. and I still couldn't rap my way out of a wet paper bag......moral being that just because you and I don't like it doesn't mean that it doesn't take talent. My wife likes a lot of rap, which has led me to realize that a lot of those guys are extremely talented musicians. Once you get past the pimpin an hos and smackin up of dem wacked ass bitches, you realize there's not much difference between rap and rock aside from their choice of instruments.......Rage Against The Machine just replaced the sampler with a guitar and drums. Give his music a chance, you might be suprised. |
| from ava-reborn : |
| Never heard of Incubus??? Get him into them immediately!!!!! Aww, differences can be good! I'm just so glad you're so happy!! xx |
| from second-love : |
| Oh myyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy you are KILLIN ME~!!! I am dyyyyyyyyyyyyyying with envy - but overflowing with happiness for you!!! XX00 |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| This is a good thing - but there was a time when I had to read you because I found myself worrying about the pain you were going through. Now I have to read you because of the relentless pleasure! Love you xxx |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Ooooooh! Somebody's smiling bigtime! Good for you. Varying tastes in music isn't necessarily a bad thing-you might open each others' minds a little to each others' taste. I know Phil loves bagpipe music and opera, two genres I absolutely loathe, but our taste does cross in some areas, and he's opened my mind to some classical, which I've come to love. I am so glad you're having such a magical experience. You certainly have paid your dues! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| *giggles* Hee! It seems to me that everyone on DLand has fallen in love *grins*....as for his taste in music, well, I suppose we can forgive him - lol....but no S.O.A.D? *gasp!* |
| from second-love : |
| I'm smiling all over. XXX000 |
| from gutterpoet : |
| Thanks for the help with the translation! I will practice it this evening to use tomorrow. This will be hilarious! gracias! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Love you and am jealous of you! Take care hon! |
| from second-love : |
| Ahhhhhhhhh yes... emotionally unavailable... amen sister!! you GO!! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Well it's nice to see everything is progressing nicely. Good for you for breaking that cycle. |
| from second-love : |
| Im getting confused as to WHICH guy you are writing about *grin* - OH if i had THOSE kind of complications in my life!!!! *hugs* |
| from crateobscure : |
| I'm scared to ask.... ;) |
| from yo-bitch : |
| i hope hope hope everything turns out okay. ♥ |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Well he sounds absolutely wonderful! Enjoy yourself X! So glad to see this happening to you....yay we can all be in love together - woo! LoL! As for the condition, I have something kinda along the same lines...You're in my thoughts - let us know how things go k? |
| from ava-reborn : |
| What is your medical development? Is it the same as mine? I hope you're ok anyway. It's no problem for me, but for you it mat be different. You can talk to me whenever you like. I hope you and Mike have fun, above anything else. Take care lovely. xxx |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Well then! My My My!! LoL! He sounds wonderful *crosses fingers*.....AND....he's single!!! LMAO! What do you have to lose? |
| from second-love : |
| OMG!!!!!!!!! Someone just shoot me!!! i WANT HIM hahahahahaha OMG X!!!! GO FOR IT!!!! Holy CRAP!!! PRETTY PLEASE!!!!!! DO IT FOR MEEEEE IF YA NEED AN EXCUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *GRIN* |
| from crateobscure : |
| Thanks! But these were evil chickens. Terrorist chickens who hate freedom or something. |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Wowowowowow! |
| from gutterpoet : |
| X! Dude! You can't swing a dead cat without hitting guys who are up on you. Good for you! Keep havin' fun. me love you long time. gp |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I love you lots! xoxoxox |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Ha! That's too funny that M called a half hour later *giggles* |
| from second-love : |
| First... i wanna see that haircut!!! Can we get a picture please??? :)))) Second. You have no idea how you help me. Really. Seeing you blossum and realizing that you need to take care of YOU before you can take care of anyone else or a relationship is awesome. We just all have to go through the hell to get to the growth and the health :))) Love ya |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Here's to finding and liking ourselves! |
| from yo-bitch : |
| muaha! haircut! i haven't cut my hair in ages ... i'm thinking like may 2004 or something. one time i gave myself bangs and they looked awesome. i concur - pictures! ♥ |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Cutting your hair can be so liberating-I had mine cut short (which Dick hated too) two days after I left him. I kept it short, too, until recently. Phil likes it long, and after cutting it on purpose a few times to show him I wasn't going to give in just for HIM, I let it grow! How silly is that? I'm so glad that you're doing well. |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| A sassy new haircut eh? Well you know what that means don't ya?!? PICTURES!!!! LoL! |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Yes!! |
| from randommuse : |
| Man, I had a boring night :) And your ride Sally ride comment had me rolling. |
| from twinker-bell : |
| thank you so much...just for caring, sometimes it really feels like no one out there does. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Love you sweetie, take care. |
| from second-love : |
| Ahhhhhh sweetie... you have and never will be anything like Sam!!! And i have learned alot from you... and your personal strength... the stuff you have been through has helped me get to where i am right now. I feel stronger and i am keepin an eye more on ME than on him. Its making all the difference. Maybe to some, it would seem the opposite - that things are getting MORE complicated and MORE dangerous. And yes, in some ways they are...but i AM in control of it... i promise :))))) *hugs* |
| from sleepyzoe : |
| I read your entries from the past few days - brought back a lot of memories. Memories of your diary from a year, almost two years ago - when you were still x-perimental - and when I was going through so much shit with R. And how bitter I was. So bitter and angry - even in the happy moments. It feels good to be rid of that burden, and to be where I am now. I honestly never believed it would be my turn. R's only the tip of the iceburg, at least in regard to the shit I went through and put up with. You're not a bitter old hag, believe me you're not. I'm not going to get on a soapbox and say some shit like, "Everything will work out, blah blah blah!" 'Cuz we all know how consoling that phrase is. ;) I'll just say you're awesome, and it's been amazing to watch you grow. I'm glad I've been able to grow, too. |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Look, Honey, don't let him guilt you about religion like that. Dick does the same thing to me. If you're secure in your religion, then let his words go in one ear and out the other. |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| It's funny how ex's can't see the part they played. It as if they act like one day we just woke up and decided to stop loving them. They don't realize that all the abuse was slowing killing us. Hell if we ended things with them the way they treated us it would be considered inhumane - *sighs* |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Poor Vince - he really hasn't understood his part in it yet has he? |
| from kaire : |
| Give yourself a break from the mental spring cleaning and adjust to what you've cleaned out so far. It just takes time before you are ready to move on to the next part to be faced. |
| from randommuse : |
| Have fun with the play. And don't worry about tax payer dollars. I mean, you've been a tax payer for quite a while...think of it as making a withdrawal from a bank. |
| from second-love : |
| Tons of *HUGS* |
| from randommuse : |
| Sorry I've been gone, but I finally have a computer at home again. Wish I could do more, but here's a virtual ::hug:: for all the pain. |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Wow. You know a defining moment when you have one, don't you? I would wonder if he remembered it at all? I don't think I'd so much as give him the time of day after being treated so badly. |
| from angldust83 : |
| With all due respect, why are you still even somewhat polite to him? That is what we call a rapist, dear, and I've killed terrorists who were much better men than him. |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| That's just not right. |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Even though the stuff you're bringing to the surface is pretty dark, I have to say I do like this new open version of you, X. xx |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I have missed you too so much! Its great you got in to the play. But to tell you the absolute truth, I never doubted it for one second. M sounds very bright and sensitive. I just want you to be happy. Take care sweetie and Happy Easter! xooxo |
| from divacowgirl : |
| congratulations! |
| from second-love : |
| You GO girl!!! I learn SOOOOOOOO much from you!!! Love ya! XXX000 |
| from avalonte : |
| Congratulations on getting the part!!! As for that previous entry, Kevin's right, Ithink you're able to face up to all that stuff you've been keeping inside, because you're in a happier place now. You have to feel in a safer place to face up to the crap! If you don't feel safe, you don't dare open up that box in case you can't deal with it! I'm so glad you're in a happier place! Have a good Easter. xx |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| So much of what you say is what Jo has felt it made me close to tears. You seem to be in a happier place these days X. Maybe that's why, at last, you can start to deal with this stuff and let it out? xx |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Brava!! That's right girl! Let it all out!! Shit! I can't believe you've been keeping all that nastyness inside! Ugh!!! |
| from adorabelle : |
| Hang in there. I think what you are doing is a good thing. It's better to confront things and deal with them than it is to ignore them. If you ignore them, they'll never go away...just quietly eat at you... h |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| That was a great entry. Loved it. =) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I think that you and I are sometimes so similar. I have missed you so much. Take care. xoxoxo K |
| from second-love : |
| I can more then relate. We are at the same point in our lives. We are at those "defining moments". And spring cleaning is in order... for both of us. Im here for you and i TOTALLY and utterly understand... *hugs* |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Good luck! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Break a leg! |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| All mine are still gone too. Andrew said that they are slowly coming back up, but I'm starting to wonder. Shit! I hope they're not all gone, I host a lot of shit on this site *sob*....also it does't seem D-Land is reconizing HTML or links on some pages...my comments page layout is all fucked up, even though the correct coding is there....UGH!!! This is fucking annoying! |
| from second-love : |
| Damn... i want your life :))) |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Sigh...I miss the days I could stay up to midnight on the phone, hell I wish I could just stay up to midnight. |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Well look at it this way, at least you're getting some! LMAO! This dry spell of mine needs to end and soon! *sigh* |
| from second-love : |
| ahhhhhhh you and me... two peas in a pod... sucker for those arms and that sweet sweet voice... love ya! |
| from ponfarr : |
| Hey, that was just gettin' good! ;) |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Abe?!? Holy shit she hasn't been her in a while...lol!!! Anyway, I hope Vince doesn't take the PC *eek!*.....As far as M goes, girl, start building that wall...people in these situations are not stable enough for us...you and have have both been there....look at my T disaster! *ugh*....anyway, just protect yourself...you've come too far to let anything knock ya back. *hugs* |
| from bethany9 : |
| Hey, i havent been here in awhile... but I missed reading you... I'll be back more often! I need to catch up! Where is Abe? |
| from second-love : |
| Ok DAMN... why does life have to be so fucking difficult. All we want to do is love someone and BE loved. Its FUCKED. Frankly, i can see why some women just protect themselves so much that they feel little for anyone... seems easier sometimes to just focus in on work or friends - if it wasnt for the whole sex thing and NEEDING it hahahahahhahaha. I'm with ya girl... and i think Avalonte and I both know just what you are feeling... hang in there XX000 |
| from avalonte : |
| Yes, you're running away. But that's natural. Understandable. Even sensible!! We all step back when we sense danger. Some days when I'm feeling vulnerable I ignore Dave's calls or his knocks at the door. That's not because I'm being nasty to him, just because I need to protect myself. I'm sure he'll understand you withdrawing from the situation right now! x |
| from second-love : |
| Well... this is the part that is hard and was really inevitable, right?? I'm sure part of you knew there would be this stage and with all that he is going through it is going to be hard. And that is what i struggle with too... protecting myself emotionally without appearing angry or standoffish. Its a delicate balance - and you HAVE had to deal with another "ex wife" before... so you want to go there again???? I know how much you care for him, its clear by your writing, but i think you do need to be careful and think about yourself *hugs* love ya sweetie |
| from ponfarr : |
| You should be able to get in now. Let me know if you can't. ;) |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Hostess Cupcakes. Evil little things. I could eat the whole box, so I don't buy them. I have that same relationship with food. And I was lucky this year with the Girl Scout cookies, I avoided them altogether by virtue of me not knowing any Girl Scouts to sell them to me. Or I'd be in Samosa (? I know that's not the exact name) hell right now. Instead I have a Boy Scout with the popcorn. MMMMM, popcorn...yeah, I'm going to eat some fruit now. =) |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Surely by now Vince doesn't have any expectation that you'll change you're mind? I think if that has sunk in then it should be possible for you to help each other, to express that you care how the other recovers. You've gone over the mountain, ; holding hands on the way down doesn't mean you'll turn round and go back up. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Just been catching up on your hectic week with M and Vince. I have to agree with second-love. I am not sure what else to say because I guess maybe in some way I can relate a tiny bit with Vince, you know? Trevor is the one who seems to want to give this all up and does not seem to want to try again, so I find myself in Vince's position in some kind of way. Am I making any sense? Anyway I miss you. There is now no internet in the hospital at all.. :-(((So I try catch up on the weekends. Take care hon! Love u! Kathy |
| from twinker-bell : |
| ohhh I can't believe I am studying abroad and missing girl scout cookies in the states, maybe when I get back in April I can find some stale ones somewhere.... let us know how long you can resist before you finish off that other box.. :-) |
| from ceciliaruns : |
| ooooh, you make me laugh x-plicity. |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| LMFAO!!!!! Shit!!! I completely forgot it's "that time of year" again!! Dammit!! I've put so much into my weight loss, but how is one supposed to say no to those things? I don't think it's humanly possible is it? *sighs and thinks of frozen thin mints* |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| That is just too weird that you're moving too....I swear we're almost following identical paths....except yours involves awesome nookie...dammit!!! LoL!!!! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Sweetie, its not your responsibility to make things easier for Vince. I love that your the kind of person that cares that much, but for your own well being, you've got to take care of you first. |
| from second-love : |
| Ok... there is clearly 2 views on this and it really comes down to YOU and what YOU feel is best for YOU. But i always like to have the viewpoint that its better to leave fences mended than broken. And while there may be a bit more pain involved, as long as you stand your ground with Vince and not lead him on in any way (which you are not) being a kind, caring and decent human being will ALWAYS work in your favor in the end. You DID love him once enough to marry him and regardless of all he's done, its sorta the "right thing to do because thats who you are". You ARE kind and caring and you are healing... so i say do what you can without compromising whats best for you. Be there for him but draw definitive lines. On the other hand, you could just decide to cut all loses, be a bitch and move on. But something tells me you arent that person. Vince will get the picture sooner or later... YES he may try to manipulate some, but you already know that - so you will be prepared. It may be hard at first, but i believe being kind will ultimately only pay HUGE rewards in the end. Just one wacked out girls opinion *hugs* |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Kaire is right. When I was breaking up with my ex, he acted alot like Vince. The nicer I was to him, the worse he got. It wasn't until I started acting like a cold hearted bitch that he got the message. Really, he needs to handle it himself. It's a ploy, I'm telling ya, this "help me through this" BS, it's just a way of keeping you close so he can continue to try to get you back. Been there, done that. And keep M as much of a secret from him as humanly possible, because that will open up a whole other suck ass can of worms. |
| from kaire : |
| Why do you have to fix Vince? That's his job to find his way through this, not yours. It's highly unfair to put that responsibility on you. HE has to figure out what will bring him peace and closure. It's not something you can do for him without being untrue to yourself. You've spent enough time doing that. It's time for Vince to take care of Vince. |
| from adorabelle : |
| Hang in their girlie. Stand your ground. He'll get the point eventually, as long as you are firm with him. Good luck! -h |
| from angldust83 : |
| Is that so? Well my mother says I'm the best french kisser. She also says that you suck and can't eat puss worth shit! Beat that BIATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ......the audition went very well by the way....Paying Tuition is about a cunt hair away from officially becoming a side project. later |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am so so so glad to hear you having fun and been so happy. It makes me grin. I am though, a bit jealous!:-) Take care honey! xoxox Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| Oh my GOD <thud>... you are KILLIN me! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I hope you feel better (regarding the ulcer). Otherwise I am glad you sound so happy! xoxox Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| It is SO difficult to NOT touch someone you are just drawn too... Sam and I have taken WAY too many chances in that area - but when we are together i just CANT take my hands off of him... but yes you SHOULD be careful... it will be easier on everyone in the long run and it wont have to be THAT long. Hope you feel better sweetie! |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| Glad your life is going more happily - why can't you and M be more open about this? |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Wow, I just caught up on all your Feb entries. I cant believe I have missed all thats been going on with M. I am so glad you are happy. You so deserve it! Love you lots! xoxox Kathy |
| from divacowgirl : |
| It is true, no matter how long you wait, she'll still blame you. If she doesn't blame you for him leaving, she'll blame you for him not coming back. It's unfortunate that this world is full of so many people who want to put their failures on the backs of everyone else. Just enjoy being happy!!! |
| from gutterpoet : |
| As always it is a pleasure to get a note from the super hot Mexican chick. I can assure you my dear, that i have at one time or another tried every mind altering substance known to man and then some. But at present I have not had so much as an aspirin, this is just me I am afraid.:) I think I'm more normal on drugs than when I'm not! Oh and I am very pleased that you are having such a great time with the new man. Happiness is too sporadic in this life, ride it for all it's worth while you have it. If you know what I mean! :) later... |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Awesome lyrics!!! You should open a music page on myspace so we all can hear some of your stuff *wink* |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Try audioblogger.com. You can sign up for an audioblog that you update using the phone, and there is a way to link it to your dland diary. I would really like to hear it. =) |
| from second-love : |
| DAMN girl... you are KILLIN ME!! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Without a doubt, that was a Freudian slip. Not that it's not obvious or anything, but that man is all gaa-gaa over you. =) |
| from second-love : |
| ahh hon... the only things that we REALLY TRULY regret are the things we did NOT do. Sure, we make mistakes and there might be some things we all wish we had chosen to do differently, but really... if we dont reach out and take a risk - THAT will be the biggest regret. Just take it slow... well... as slow as you possibly CAN :))))) |
| from chickpea981 : |
| thank you |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Woo Hoo!!!! Ok my turn for a sex-a-thon (hey I can dream - lol)...Too funny about the weird dream. I had some crazy ones last night too. Must of been something in the air. |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Your strength makes me proud to be a woman! Those are some excellent choices you made. |
| from second-love : |
| So it sounds like we all agree... we want MORE not LESS of your romance! And like Avalonte, i want to live vicariously through YOU. And thanks for your note and encouragement. I know that you guys really DO know how i feel... all of you - and your encouragement is more important to me now than ever. Thanks sweetie... and be happy XXX000 |
| from iwanttotell : |
| I wonder if it's possible to feel & hear someone glow because I'm pretty sure a definite glow is what I'm picking up! |
| from amb1valent-k : |
| No - give us more! So nice to hear you happy x, so nice. |
| from avalonte : |
| Tired of it? Are you insane? I'm loving it! I love reading about your blossoming romance! If I can't have one myself, I want to live vicariously through someone else! You'll do!! Seriously, I love to see you finding some happiness! You so deserve it! |
| from second-love : |
| No PLEASE dont stop writing about him!!! I love to hear your happiness... *hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| Nope... unfortunately none of that stuff will work with Sam. No amount of manipulating can budge that man. Really the only time i make any headway is if he has had one too many beers LOL... now THAT is sad!!! And i honestly dont think he will ever feel the impact of what him and i have or HAD until the day when i can truly extricate myself from him completely. Only then (i think) will he realize what he has lost or realize what we were to each other... *sigh* |
| from avalonte : |
| I'm so happy for you!! You deserve it! |
| from second-love : |
| I'm so happy for you... and MORE than a wee bit envious *smile and hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| My dad had skin cancer on his nose too a few years ago... and Avalonte is right - there are many levels and types. He had it removed and was fine after that... im sure that will be the case with your dad too :) And Sam? Yes... the poor man is clueless... but fortunately for ME i DO have a clue now. He's cute in his denseness though... isnt he? *grin* |
| from avalonte : |
| Oh X, I'm so sorry to hear about your dad, but there are so many levels and types of skin cancer. It's more often than not simple to cure and recover from, so I'm sure your dad will be absolutely fine! I know how scary it is though. My dad had cancer. He did recover though! Keep us updated on how your dad's doing! *hugs* |
| from plopphizz : |
| Well I'm sure everything will turn out fine -- just keep us posted on how your dad is doing. -- P.P. |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Damn girl. VERY well said. I'm so impressed by your refusal to lock or censor what you write. |
| from second-love : |
| ahhhhh X... i envy you... your ability to be "real" and not hide... your willingness to just "be". And ummmmmmmmmm NO he is most DEF not a Sam hahahah thank GOD for you :))) Good luck with this new chapter in your life. I truly do envy you *hugs* |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Holy crap on that last bit. Kudos for not locking up. And it does sound really romantic with M. =) |
| from avalonte : |
| I'm happy for you & M! It's all so romantic. I know it's not going to be plain sailing while he gets through the break-up, but at least you know what he's going through. Sorry this "psycho" has interferred! But good on you for not reacting and locking up! Dave reads my diary too. I kind of feel, well, this is me, like it or not, and why should I hide myself and my feelings and rants away! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| I know how gossip works, but hang in there because you are so above all of that. |
| from yo-bitch : |
| you're about the most genuine person i've never met, you know. mwah. |
| from second-love : |
| Unfortunately... i can relate perfectly to every single word *sigh* |
| from ponfarr : |
| You know the saying, "I hate to say I told you so, but..."? Well, personally I think that's BS. I LOVE to say "I told you so" - it's like my favorite thing to do. I think you can see where I'm going with this. But hey, hopefully it will work out well for you. :) |
| from second-love : |
| ahhhhh well... dont beat yourself up too much...i happen to believe that we all make the best choices we can at any given moment - sometimes they may not SEEM like the best but DAMN it feels GREAT!!!! XX000 Happy V Day sweetie! |
| from plopphizz : |
| Well, I guess that last entry makes my note look a little silly now ;). At least you are having an interesting Valentine's weekend... -- P.P. |
| from yo-bitch : |
| guy fawkes day is a holiday celebrated in england, australia and new zealand. guy fawkes was a crazy militant man who tried to blow up parliament. like, he planned it over a period of months, if i remember correctly, slowly accumulating explosives and such and putting them in a tunnel under the parliament building. they caught him, though, and they hanged him. there's fireworks on guy fawkes day, and they burn little effigies of guy fawkes. fun holiday, yeah? muaha. |
| from plopphizz : |
| Hey X, thanks for taking the survey. I figured I would get some intersting questions and answers out of you. Watch out on the Mentor front. You guys mix up your passion for music with passion for each other and who knows what might happen. -- P.P. |
| from adorabelle : |
| You don't HAVE to go to any counseling. What you have to do is figure out what makes you happy and do it. If it's not Vince, then so be it. You obviously can't be married to someone who you can't even make love to:) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hi X. Firstly thanks for all your kind words. They mean alot and I love you lots. Have a great weekend sweetie. Love Kathy |
| from ponfarr : |
| Yeah, I'd definitely recommend a chaperone. |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| My ex did the same kind of thing to me. Only we weren't married which I am eternally grateful for. I just had his kids is all. I threw him out on his ass with the help of the local police and court system and once I did, I was DONE. He begged me to go back to him for the next year and a half, and the way he would ask was in a way that I'd feel almost like obligated. Like I was the most heartless bitch around to not even consider it. He was a retard though. He kept this shit up even AFTER I got married. Which he referred to as me getting "re-married". Which like I said, we never were married. |
| from yo-bitch : |
| why, thank you. ♥ |
| from avalonte : |
| Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup!!! Mmmmm.... now I fancy Chinese food!!! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Your cats sound adorable. Just like their mom. Thanks for everything, and I hope you do have an awsome weekend. Love Kathy |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Every time I have problems with our computer, hubby tells me to reboot. Wouldn't it be more important to learn what the problem is before rebooting? But no, that's his answer for everything. I'm going to put that on his tombstone "reboot please" |
| from adorabelle : |
| hehe...I totally hear ya on the whole help desk thing. I actually program computers, but there is this one particular help desk I sometimes have to call. The conversation usually starts with "I'm not stupid, just give me a Level 2 person". Level 1 always seems to ask you really stupid things, like "is the computer turned on?". It's always an insult. BUT, I do have to say...about 99% of the time, in my business at least, a reboot is the solution:) h |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| I love drunken sledding! The best part is waking up the next morning to the bumps, bruises and general soreness. "Gee, how in the world did I get a bruise THERE???". And the helpless desk. Do these guys work for every company? I know them, I swear. |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Hahahaha!!! Helpless desk!! I'm not the only one who bitches about those morons!! Oh and YAY for drunk sledding!!! Woo hoo!!! Can't wait for the pics!! Hee! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| That sounds like a recipe for disaster! How are you feeling this morning??? =) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Of course we are going to bother reading. Its times like those that you need us the most. I hope you are feeling better sweetie. I can so relate its scary. I am thinking of you and sending you good thoughts. xoxox Kathy |
| from twinker-bell : |
| hey i haven't been to d-land in forever and i don't know what happened to you but i am sending big hugs and support through the computer, you are such a strong soul you can make it through this.. i am a believer that it's the obstacles that make us stronger and better people in the end... smile!!! :-) |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Funny shit! "Daddy Drinks Because You Cry". Hilarious. How about "It's All Your Fault For Being Born"??? |
| from ponfarr : |
| LOL... those are great. You should read Shel Silverstein's "Uncle Shelby's ABZ Book" - it's a twisted children's book in that vein. For example: 'E is for Ernie. Ernie is the magic genie that lives in the ceiling. Ernie loves eggs. Get an egg and throw it at the ceiling and shout "Catch, Ernie! Catch the egg!" and Ernie will reach down and catch the egg. Do not tell Mommy and Daddy that Uncle Shelby told you to do this.' |
| from second-love : |
| hahahahhaha isnt he just da bomb??? i think i have sufficiently revealed WHY i am perpetually banging my head against the wall - but he keeps me hoppin *grin* |
| from dope-slave : |
| that teacher story was kinda hot |
| from cnotefwb : |
| I hate when guys tell you how much money they have or brag about something...totally turns me off. It's like they automatically assume I'm superficial. I had this one guy say "When have you ever had the opportunity to dance with a professional football player?". Ooo - let me jump out of my seat and onto your lap! And I watch football - football players aren't 45 years old and don't weigh in at 150lbs. Maybe a third string kicker - and I'm not getting out of my chair for that. |
| from divacowgirl : |
| I use "if I weren't married....." and men seem to just eat it up. It's become a joke in my circle of friends and recently at a formal dinner a friend used it to introduce me. It really does puff up their egos though. I have lots of really great male friends who are single and it's obvious sometimes they just need a ego boost. I see it as doing something good for mankind :). |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I have never had anyone use a pick-up line on me really. How sad? Maybe just stupid busdriver ones that dont count. I am also too embarrassed to pick up guys, don't have enough self confidence unless I am drunk. Like once I said something to the effect of "It's a sin that God put someone as good looking as you on this earth." How pathetic, I was really drunk though. Shit I must have been! Although with Charlie I wrote a note and slipped it to him when he was packing up on the beach. That was after he had tried to talk to me from far but I had earphones on. Too bad I didn't know he was Brazilian and my lovely English letter would be a waste, but he still kept it...I read it to him a while after and explained it to him. Boy was that embarrassing. I think I was high on valium when I wrote that letter! I am glad you managed to make a decision regarding Vince. I hope you are happy with it and feeling ok. Love u! |
| from plopphizz : |
| Hey X, send me an e-mail at [email protected] with the pictures you want for the drawing and any ideas you havefor the final piece. Thanks for the link on your entry BTW, that was very cool of you to do :). -- P.P. |
| from gutterpoet : |
| My friends and I used to play a game when out at clubs. Whoever was rejected by the most women would not have to pay his bar tab. It really got you out there mixing it up. And I found that "excuse me, but I really would love being rejected by you" often earned a laugh followed by a phone number. |
| from plopphizz : |
| I've never used this, but always thought it was funny: "The night is long...and so am I..." |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| My one very favorite pick up line when I was single worked like a charm most of the time. It was simply a nice, enthusiastic "Hi!". It always goes from there. |
| from yo-bitch : |
| ♥! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Congrads about the band. And thanks for sharing the story of your first fling, I liked it! xoxox Kathy |
| from avalonte : |
| Hooooooow exciting!!!! Has he said anything to you? Is the spark still there?? |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Flings rule. That was a cute one. =) |
| from plopphizz : |
| I was *wondering* why my Plop Phizz logo was smoking a cigarette when I logged in today. I'm sure my site thanks you from the bottom of its ...um...webframe. -- P.P. |
| from adorabelle : |
| Stop questioning yourself so much. When you least expect it your life will fall into place... The right person will come along who accepts you and loves you for who you are and those things that make you who you have become. It takes a lot to trust again, but the right person will understand and love you for your eccentricities, quirks, whatever you want to call them. Love yourself first. That's most important;) h |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Hey, quit talking like that. I felt like that until I met Phil. I know I was incredibly lucky there, but they are out there-gentle, kind, unselfish, loving men. Damaged goods, my ass! You are what you are, and if you're damaged, then we're all damaged-every single one of us. Lighten up on yourself. Your're only human, ya know? Hugs |
| from kaire : |
| You'll trust again, you'll just be slower to do so and far more cautious. After my ex fucked me over I thought I'd be alone forever. Trust took a LONG time to come with M, but it does happen. I think I am such a different person though then I was ... I know better to trust myself. Just be open to the possibilities, but stay true to yourself. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| You sound like me...Please don't apologise for moaning. Its hard to feel the way you do, belive me I know. I am not sure what else to say so just hang in there, I am with you 150%. xoxox Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| Well... i for one am NOT going to tell you to "buck up" (not that anyone is) cuz i totally understand how you are feeling. Life can kick the shit out of ya and then turn you over to do it some more. We just need to do the best we can to pick ourselves up (after maybe indulging in a bottle of wine or two...), brush ourselves off and keep going. Tons of *hugs*, my friend. |
| from divacowgirl : |
| You can so deal with this, x-perimental is in the past, you are in the future! You rock! |
| from plopphizz : |
| Wow, that was a lotta emotion and a whole lotta burden to throw on yourself all at once, lady. I don't know if the anniversary is a big deal or not because I haven't read enough of your diary, but if you will take it from a completely clueless person, "It's NOT that big of a deal!!" Besides, as you alluded to, everything is relative. You could have food poisoning right now and be vomiting, and having explosive diarrhea at the same time. Consider the bathroom choices you would have to make if they hit you together -- which end points where? Now *that's* a big deal. You can make that into a mantra or something :). -- P.P. |
| from iwanttotell : |
| What a nice thing to say! I was wondering earlier today if it was normal to feel so close to my Dland buddies. I guess it is! |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Vh-1. It's on Sunday nights at 9:00 EST. I think this was the third episode. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Shame sweety, that sounds like a hell of a hectic dream. Hang in there and keep your cool and try and relax. Take care of yourself. Love you! Kathy |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| A woman after my own heart....sounds like an awsome weekend. take care! xoxox Kathy |
| from irishdream : |
| Needed it SOOO much... much thanks:) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| You give me my strength, my courage. I adore you. Take care. xoxox Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| You've come a LONG way and you totally and utterly inspire me. *hugs*!!! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Good luck, I'm sure you'll be awesome |
| from iwanttotell : |
| You're going to do great. I hope the others hold their own and don't make you look bad. |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Good luck! You'll do just great. =) |
| from plopphizz : |
| So are you saying that the wailing torch is *not* part of the act? -- P.P. |
| from kaire : |
| I think it does mean you're weirder than me! What an honor! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| If you lived near me I would come help you and then make you come help me. I don't know where to begin. Just take it slowly. Take care. xoxox Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| Can i please apply??? |
| from intimacies : |
| You wicked little girl! You wonderfully, wild & sassy woman! Niiiiice! |
| from second-love : |
| Good GOD... you are killin ME... i NEED some of that................... WHEW |
| from plopphizz : |
| Cool, congrats on the gig. Any possibility you could get some MP3 sample of the band up here so we can have the full experience? -- P.P. |
| from second-love : |
| Congrats girl!!! You GO!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from avalonte : |
| Get well soon lovely. Congratulations on Persephone's cherry popping!! xx |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Feel better, sending you hugs! xoxoxox Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| Im so sorry you are sick!! I hope you are getting better. Illness is a BITCH!!! Thanks for your comments. He just wacks me out about this diary stuff. I told him that if he cant trust me, then THAT is a permanent deal breaker and i meant it. Im not gonna mess around with him thinkin the worst about me. I TRY to explain to him that my writing is part of how i cope... and he just thinks you guys "rag on him and badmouth him to me". It IS his insecurity i guess... but if he doesnt trust me or believe in me, then we really have no friendship, let alone anything else. Thanks for the encouragement *smile* |
| from yo-bitch : |
| aww ... feel better soon! ♥ |
| from gutterpoet : |
| oh, walking pneumonia is no fun. Had it a few years ago. Take care and take it very easy. gp |
| from dope-slave : |
| thanks for the hug, babe |
| from kaire : |
| Yep, depression can be caused by thyroid malfunction. He thinks mine might be a little bit of that, but not too much. I'm back on antidepressants. |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| Oh yeah, we have the same sense of humor. I am absolutely cracking the hell up over here. I added you, too! Have a good one! =) |
| from iwanttotell : |
| You know, I don't think I know anyone more interesting than you! I wish I knew that mcuh about my heritage. Perhaps I'm interesting too. Nah! |
| from avalonte : |
| Ooo, that's exciting. I know very little about my ancestors. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hope you are feeling better. I agree 100% about your love thoughts. It can be just evil sometimes can't it? Hurtful and evil. Thats how I think about it now. Take care.xoxox Kathy |
| from plopphizz : |
| Yikes, guess you had one or more problems in the romance department. You are Latin, where are you or your parents from? -- P.P. |
| from dukkha-tanha : |
| I just joined your new diaryring. Did you make that just for me? You must have. I've got you bookmarked and will be back to check you out later today when I have more time to read. I noticed we have a few buddies in common. Anyway, I just thought I'd say hi! =) |
| from second-love : |
| SOMETIMES!!?? Sheeeeeeeeeeeeesh MOST of the time!!! And now that im more "normal" i can really see it all clearer and i am MUCH stronger after this "forced separation" - thank GOD! And if i havent told you... i truly appreciated all your support through some of my roughest times... it was bad there for awhile - i love ya for it!!! *hugs* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Go out and dance. Go have a good time. For me...xoxoxox |
| from plopphizz : |
| Wow, you look so much like the picture. I am recently reading Killobyte and imagining you as the nymphs. You look very nymph-like, is that an insult? -- P.P. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Feel better soon, no luck for you in the health department lately, take care! xoxox |
| from avalonte : |
| Aww, get well soon lovely! *hugs* xx |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Awwww!! Poor thing - feel better = ) |
| from second-love : |
| And i feel the SAME about you!!! *hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| Jesus NEVER said anything about FORGETTING... forgiving, yes. Tell him to read the verse again and not to quote it until he knows it. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Wow, a gig for the band. Thats great I am happy for you! Enjoy tomorrow night. And you can not live with someone who makes you feel sick. As lonely as I am and as much as I call Trevor for every little thing, I know he is maybe just not for me. He is like my best friend but I think nothing more than that. (I am still trying to work my feelings out!)I know its not easy living alone. I am taking a lot of strain, especially tonight since I was with Charlie before, but you can not be with a person who makes you feel ill. I am not telling you to close any doors just yet, but think carefully only about yourself. Ok? Love Kathy |
| from gutterpoet : |
| I'll be at the convention with bells on. Or at least balls on. But I hope if you have it at a northern location you at least plan it in the summer as I am going to wear only a loin cloth and a cowboy hat. And I might get cold. gp |
| from divacowgirl : |
| You can always come live here, I'll give you the stepdaughters room, lord knows they don't use it. And..I can't believe the wife reads your posts, that's just weird. |
| from cnotefwb : |
| I know! I'm a sentimental drip when it comes to that dog. She's the only thing that evokes and real emotion from me! |
| from avalonte : |
| Sounds like fun!! Have a safe journey up there, and don't let Aunt Flo stop you from being just a little naughty!! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I hope you are feeling better. Don't be good. Come on, be NAUGHTY!!!!! Enjoy! Love you! Kathy |
| from yo-bitch : |
| i have a real, live aunt flo. like, she is an actual woman who actually lives in massachusetts who is actually my relative. madness, i tell you. |
| from plopphizz : |
| So I guess, looking at your recent pictures, that your template picture is a photoshop picture of you? Thank God I put that pizza and Post-It note cartoon together last night, I had no idea your criteria would be so strict ;). -- P.P. |
| from second-love : |
| DAMN... just had MORE rockin phone sex hahahaah can ya tell he and i are missin each other?? He was actually WORKING and pulled over into a grocery store parking lot hahahahahaa - its better than nothing! *grin* |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Hang in there, Sweetie. Being a woman can be a bitch sometimes. Feel better. Hugs |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| YAY!!! Thanks for joining my ring!! Hee! |
| from kaire : |
| My Mouser looks like a relative of your Zoe! He's the same coloring :) Cute kitties and I feel for your pms (I am doing seasonale, 4 periods a year, woo hoo!) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I can relate, RIGHT NOW!!! Take it easy and feel good, as good as one can... xoxoxo |
| from second-love : |
| yeah... fuck it |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| 1.12 - You really do crack me up sometimes. I bet we'd have a blast hanging out. Feel better. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Feel better honey! xoxox |
| from gutterpoet : |
| Listen here, young lady! I am not so old and decrepit that I can't bend you over my knee and give you a good spanking! :) ahem. Loved the pics, looked like you guys were having a lot of fun. cheers! gp |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Aw sweetie, I hope you feel better soon too, sinus infections suck! |
| from dope-slave : |
| aww, thanks for the hug babe. you're a sweetheart. a fucking hawt as all hell sweetheart. *HUGS!!* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Pretty intense dreams. That last one with the wife is all to familiar. I just have it with a damn girlfriend. Your pictures are stunning girl. I also wanna come over there and be with you. You have all the fun. Take care! xoxox Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| OH!!!!!! i wanna know WHAT that last statement means!!!!!!!!! TORTURE TORTURE i am continually living in a tortured STATE!!! *grin*... and you girls are TOO CUTE!!! I wanna party with YOU GUYS! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Nice to see your photos. I love to see photos in journals. Have a good week sweety. xoxox Kathy |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| You sounds so upbeat and great. It gives me hope! Glad you had such a good time sweety. Be happy ok? Love Kathy |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hey sweetie. Just a hello. You make me laugh! Enjoy! Love Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| OMG....................<thud> |
| from cnotefwb : |
| that candy cane stuff - you are baaaaaad!!!! :) |
| from dope-slave : |
| and d00d post some sims screenshots. i will if you will. |
| from dope-slave : |
| you know what's funny about that? i didn't even make that rap up, it was REAL. it was from an old nintendo commercial with a big nerd with huge glasses and tape in the middle and then some cool kid, i think. Maybe you knew that and that's why you called me p. diddy since he just steals all his rhymes. if that's the case then i didn't even need to write this damn thing!! |
| from cnotefwb : |
| Hey girl! I tried to send my password the first time you asked for it , but I just tried again. Let me know if it didn't work. Thanks! |
| from avalonte : |
| That's not dorky at all!! Ok, well, yeah, maybe a bit! But then I must be too then!! I adore The Sims!! But my rom drive's not working, and until I get it fixed there's no point in buying Sims 2, but I can't wait!!! |
| from plopphizz : |
| if you like the SIMS, you might like my Sim-Pork entries, if you haven't read them yet. They start on http://plopphizz.diaryland.com/040930_45.html and continue from there for about 5 entries or so. -- P.P. |
| from second-love : |
| hmmm we bought sims 2 for mini me... but cant get it to work too well on the desk computer...i do believe it is a HOG program *wink* - any suggestions? It starts to work then freezes after a few minutes! |
| from plopphizz : |
| FYI, I did pick up A Spell For Chameleon and a few other Piers books at the library last week. I just started meeting Bink, but so far I really enjoy the writing, thanks for the suggestion. -- P.P. |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Where's a pic of the new more voluptuous x-plicity? hehehehe |
| from iwanttotell : |
| That was a sweet call. The honesty may have come a little late, but that's better than never. |
| from second-love : |
| ahhhhhhh yes.. family. Love em and hate em... i know the feeling!!! *hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| OH YOU ARE EVIL!!! You are always leavin us hangin!! Glad you got to spend some good time with your family. Welcome back! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Missed you, welcome back. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Welcome back. And happy new year honey. Hope 2005 brings you everything you want and need and that you are just happy. Love Kathy |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Merry Christmas sweety. Love you! |
| from adulterous-k : |
| Happy Christmas! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Having a gym membership is a wonderful thing when you have no hot water. Been there done that and it's not fun :) Hang in there girl |
| from second-love : |
| hahhahaha he IS a "girly man" when it comes to that sort of stuff... over analyzes EVERYTHING... and ummmmmmm you think i havent TOLD him that??? hahahahahah over and over and over *grin* Have a Merry Christmas sweetie... thanks for being there for me this past year! |
| from kaire : |
| http://appetizer.allrecipes.com/az/CrmChsPngins.asp -------- penguin yourself away! they are really cute & easy! |
| from femalevolent : |
| haha I apologise! I was just too freaked out at the thought of it. Brrr. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I have missed you sooooo much sweety. Just read a couple of entries now. Just a quick hi. At an internet cafe and trying to rush. Everything is so expensive here....I am running out of money...So wishing you a Merry Christmas and a happy new year, hope you are well! xoxoxo |
| from gutterpoet : |
| oy! sorry to hear of your hot water troubles. Give 'em hell and kick their arses. And then talk about their momma's. gp |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Yeah, I read it because I was scanning and didn't read the warning before I read it. Thanks. I guess that's what I get for scanning. Enjoy your Holiday. |
| from cnotefwb : |
| I know you said not to read the story about the little girl....but I couldn't help it. Dammit. |
| from avalonte : |
| I'm not a Cancerian but that really sounds like me, too! Sorry your hot water didn't last lovely! Rip that Dan's head off!! (After he's paid for another plumber of course!!) |
| from second-love : |
| Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yes.. i AM a cancer. That explains ALOT :))))) |
| from plopphizz : |
| I remember reading some Dean Koontz in college, he is pretty good. Maybe I will revisit. I have had Piers recommended to me before also. Actually, my current favorite is Neil Gaiman, have you checked out any of his stuff? -- P.P. |
| from avalonte : |
| Good for you! That should get him moving! I hope you have hot water soon!! xx |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I have been the crappiest friend ever. Sorry. Of course its hard to let go. He was your everything. Its the same with Trevor. I also just cant let go. Its the hardest thing in the world. You will work through this. Take all the time you need. Work it out, think it out. Do whats good for you, and only you. think about you for a change. I am sorry I have not been reading for so long. Have a wonderful time at home. I am just eating and eating. Please take care. I am here for you. E-mail me anytime. xoxoxox |
| from irishdream : |
| Sometimes after that first zing of trust gets lost... it's hard to get it back or give it another try. I know how you feel. |
| from divacowgirl : |
| You seem so much stronger than me sometimes, and then I realize you need a hug too (((((())))))). |
| from mineirinha : |
| yeah, very well put reply. Clear and to the point. *HUGZ* sorry you're going through shit still :p |
| from cnotefwb : |
| Good reply. I thought it was very well put. |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Thanks for your note. It helps that there are others who understand. |
| from adulterous-k : |
| I understand those things, thanks. Just don't seem to be able to respond appropriately when the full force of it is on me! Anyway - we had a nice chat this afternoon and bridges have been mended. Thanks for your support xx |
| from divacowgirl : |
| You do sound a lot better than when I started reading you. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. |
| from adulterous-k : |
| You sound happy X - that's so good. xx (and if you're talking puke - I'm afraid I have to know all the details. Just to be sure...) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I didn't say thanks yet for the tips....As for cookies holidays etc, we have our festical of lights now which is all about celebrating how some oil lasted longer than it should have in the holy temple. Shit if I remember my history correctly. So all oily food is in. Which means doughnuts. I just can not get enough. yesterday I had 5! So much for looking good when I see my family next week. I'll be rolling off the plane.... LIke a big fucking doughnut~!! Love you. xoxoxox |
| from gutterpoet : |
| greetings Miss X. Thanks so much for your good wishes. I hope you are having a great holiday season and from what I read it sounds like you are having some fun. take care! gp |
| from mineirinha : |
| oooh, sounds fun. Oh you lucky girl you! :) |
| from iwanttotell : |
| For all my writing in Intimacies and other x-rated entries in my regular diary, I have a hard time talking dirty on the phone, but if the guy does most of the work, I love phone sex too. |
| from second-love : |
| I have known that he is dependant on me for my "over the lines" life... he has been so straight-laced and buttoned up for so long that he NEEDS me for that. But his continued "mixed messages" are whats hard. At least now i recognize it for what it is. I wish i could say that makes it easier *sigh*... i tried to get ya on the IM last night... but NOW i know what you were UP to *evil grin*... it IS tough to type and be evil hahahahaahha - i often have a hard time even holding onto the phone!!!!!! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I need you and second-love to teach me phone sex. NOW!!! I am missing out big time. Give me some tips you guys... xoxoxox |
| from second-love : |
| ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh phone sex... LOVE it!! Dont know what i would do without it actually... oh yeah... NOTHING hahahahahaah |
| from mineirinha : |
| yeah, but you know what? We had 2 and a half years apart while she was overseas! I think she thought that once she got back here we'd be inseparable and hanging out with each other 24/7. Thing is, I have a life too... and I like to see other people aswell. :p argh! complications :p |
| from iwanttotell : |
| You had my mouth watering for black licorice until you talked about the drawbacks! Thanks. |
| from avalonte : |
| Mine is the punky pink bunny! Yeah, you need to get one lovely! Your dream sounds so strange. I bet a dream analysist would have a field day! But I don't think it takes a genius to work out the premise. Take care lovely, love u! xx |
| from twinker-bell : |
| I can't believe you remember it so well, I'm going to say that I also tend to over analyze but at the same time THIS dream seems like it might truly mean something... |
| from irishdream : |
| Dreams can often leave deep scars in your mind of you over-analyze them too much... take it from someone who suffered from sleep disturbances since she was 8. No worries love! |
| from second-love : |
| Horny is my middle name these days... but only in regards to Sam *sigh*... its no wonder i havent exploded by now!! My shower massage is STILL my best friend *grin*. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Sometimes we are so alike, its scary... No offense meant to you of course... (Mine is blue and very flashy!!!) And it has a dolphin on the end! :-)) |
| from yo-bitch : |
| god dammit, i misspelled pleurisy. |
| from yo-bitch : |
| "e plurisy unum" is the best entry title i have ever heard, ever. you get the fantastic award, only in a non-facetious way. hope you feel better soon! |
| from adulterous-k : |
| 100 is average - you're bright! Hope you're feeling better. |
| from officechick : |
| hey you! glad you had a good weekend...you naughty naughty girl :-) I am going to try to make it to Elle's b-day bash, at least part of it...it's so hard to get away and go out having a big family to take care of....and I learned that being hung over the following day is not an option with 3 kids in the house....but if I can't make it, Elle and I have decided to get together at a different time in the not to distant future...something will work out. hugs!!!! |
| from yo-bitch : |
| "Or you can tell her in the most polite way possible, "Stop crying like a whiney little bitch."" you and your logic. crack me up. ♥ |
| from adulterous-k : |
| Hooray! xx |
| from second-love : |
| ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh NICE! I am SO jealous! You GO girl! *grin* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Haven't managed to catch up all entries but glad you had a good thanksgiving! Nice to hear you happy and smiling sweetie. Thinking of you...Have a good weekend! xoxox |
| from second-love : |
| hahahaahahah yeah... its a fun switch!!! now he's apologizing for being an ass hahahaha i love it! *grin* |
| from officechick : |
| You and Elle have fun! I'm staying home with Alexi and Tasha (my step-daughters) this weekend 'cause the boys are out hunting. So we're doing girl stuff....watching movies, eating lots of bad stuff and putting out Christmas decorations. Have a blast and I hope to see you and Elle around the Holidays or maybe for a movie before the Holiday :-) Hugs!!! and give Elle a hug from me too and then she can give you one from me :-) |
| from pornoviolent : |
| let's all face it: SATAN HAS MY NUMBAH I'M GOING TO HELL OMFG I'M DONE 4!!! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| You rock. Thank you so much. |
| from officechick : |
| Happy Thanksgiving!! |
| from second-love : |
| sometimes i want your life :))) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| God women,you are absolutely beautiful and sexy! And talented and nice. What else can I say? Have a good weekend! xoxox Kathy |
| from adulterous-k : |
| Have you read Kafka's 'Hunger-artist'? |
| from adulterous-k : |
| Thanks for the hugs xx Drunk or not, you looked good spread out on the car roof :-) |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Great pics, I love the top too |
| from mineirinha : |
| your corset top looks HOT! And, of course, the lovely lady INSIDE the corset top looks HOT :) *hugz* |
| from second-love : |
| I KNOW you know... and that is all i have right now to keep me going. That im not the only one and that someone else DOES understand. Im not trying to minimize the pain of what you went through with Abe... but multiply that pain by 20 YEARS!!! That is how much i am feeling. I have loved this man for 20 YEARS!!! This is the closest i have ever come to be able to experience that feeling with him... its just so hard to make a decision that i know is the best... but is the absolute hardest. Its like asking me to tear out my heart. |
| from twinker-bell : |
| I'm a pisces, and I think just cause u had one bad experience doesn't mean there couldn't be another better match of a pisces, there are some worthwhile pisceans... :-) |
| from femalevolent : |
| "Aquarius we would have wild monkey sex, love, we would make great business partners and awesome friends." So, wanna get busy? ;) |
| from iwanttotell : |
| I say find yourself a good Libra! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Interesting! :-) |
| from officechick : |
| Really special :-) Hope you're doing good! |
| from officechick : |
| Oh my dear, you are not psycho, just really special. |
| from second-love : |
| I agree with divacowgirl... lets call it loving 2 people convention :)))) and hey... are we ALL fucked up in one way or another or WHAT?? I dont even know what normal IS anymore... and does "normal" even exist? |
| from femalevolent : |
| Congratulations auntie X! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Do we have to call it an adultery convention? Cuz technically I haven't done that yet in this marriage. How about the...I can love more than one person at a time convention? |
| from second-love : |
| Ahhhhhhhhhh YES a convention!!! All us chicks and Kevin hahahahahahahahahhaha |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Congrats, Auntie! Babies are great, aren't they? Sounds like someone needs to take a day off and cater to herself. Just a suggestion. I'd do it. Hugs |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Firstly Mazal Tov on been an aunt...Secondly Chloe is cute!!! Thirdly, you were in love with Vince. he was all your life, you shared everything, it is not easy just giving up on all of that. Just the thought is scary. because its final. No matter how happy the thought makes you. I see that happening now with Trevor and I. I love him with all my heart. ut we are not happy together anymore. Divorce is too final. I can't even think about it. In the meantime the separation is good for me. Take it one day at a time. Why rush? Take care and write to me if you need anything! xoxoxo |
| from second-love : |
| Ahhhhhhhhhhhh CONGRATS Auntie!!! *hugs* |
| from pornoviolent : |
| ANGER ANGER ANGER! yeah tear shit up!! TEAR IT UP!! |
| from second-love : |
| hmmmmmmmmmmmm IM a cancer........ explains alot *grin* - and ummmmm sexual frustration?? welcome to my world *huge grin* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Don't you dare send me anything! As for your special friend, teach me how to control myself. Please! I am out of control lately, messing with the wrong people and just full of crap. And I am a Leo. Anyway sweetie, as long as you are happy and smiling and feeling good. Thats the most important thing. Love, Kathy |
| from pornoviolent : |
| um sorry but you're gonna have to hide your screen again after today mwahahahahahhAHSHSHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!/1!!!111!oneone |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Sounds like you had a ball. lol. Why don't I have your self-control. Why do I need to seek attention all the time...RRRR,I need to be more like you. Cool, calm and collected. I am glad though that you had a good time. Nothing like feasting your eyes on goodlooking men. Well at least its one of my favorite pastimes....Did you try any of the soups yet? They are quite new and I quite like them. I hope you do too. Oh I updated again after you asked if he knew I was married. He knows the whole truth. Sometimes think its a bit of a downfall that I am so truthful and staright forward sometimes...Gosh, now that I just rambled on in your notes section all afternoon, I will go. Sorry about that. I hope you are having a good weekend. xoxox Kathy |
| from mineirinha : |
| LOL - sounds like fun :) I love those heated nightclub gropes :) You go girl! |
| from angeline-is : |
| I think I know which club you went to, and *L* their gay night is hardly ever an actual gay night. Straight men of the Bay KNOW that hot women go there on "gay night" because they'll be "safe," yanno? At least they were hot. |
| from pornoviolent : |
| hey baby u lookin good |
| from officechick : |
| I am so happy that you will get to go home for the Holidays!! That's great! Any plans for this weekend? None here other that working on the "upstairs" project, cooking, cleaning and maybe trying to get some Christmas lights on this big-ass pine tree in our front yard :-) |
| from femalevolent : |
| Hey. I'd love to add Wisconsin to my list. I'm working on adding Texas. Maybe I'll have a little USA tour next summer! |
| from divacowgirl : |
| I'm an ex too, but not everyone can be cool and mature like us. |
| from divacowgirl : |
| I must say I tried a belly dancing class this weekend, and well I sucked. I have absolutely no coordination and it appears my body wants to move to it's own beat, which beat nobody knows. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Nothing wrong with a friend with benefits. I can't think of anything nicer at the moment. In fact all I have to say is that I am happy for you, and well, damn jealous. Enjoy and take care sweety! |
| from angeline-is : |
| Good...old...J....indeed! WELL! I am surely happy for you. :D A bit kerflummoxed but happy. *nod* You know, you need AIM so we can talk more often. |
| from divacowgirl : |
| I think you have a start, but it goes much deeper than that. There are relationships where both partners are "acceptors". (Sounds like some sort of prehistoric animal :)). THere are defintely people though, who would tend to say if person Y didn't want me, I wouldn't be cheating. That's pretty much bullshit isn't it? |
| from second-love : |
| Man.. you are SO right... and its all that craziness that makes it so hard. People think its easy - bein in an adulterous relationship cuz they think its just about sex. And i guess for those that it IS just about sex it could be easy... but as soon as you fall in love - you are screwed. Which sucks ahahahahhahaah oh well *smile* - and i think i could add a few chapters to that book *grin* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Wow, that was great. Amen! I hope the insomnia eases. I know there is nothing worse! |
| from second-love : |
| Thanks sweetie... i will |
| from adulterous-k : |
| I'm male - you got my attention! Too far off? |
| from second-love : |
| DAMN!! you ARE talented... an A/C mover AND an upholsterer... i didnt realize you had so many extraneous abilities *smile*... didja get my email bout my diary password??? |
| from second-love : |
| You are a naughty naughty girl... and all that alcohol mixing......... eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee GADS - i'd be sicker than a dog!!!!! *grin* (oh... and DO have fun on sunday *ENORMOUS wicked grin* |
| from officechick : |
| Hope you and Elle have FUN FUN FUN ! |
| from mineirinha : |
| thanks for the note hun - and you're right! People have different opinions on things all the time - that's what makes us all different adn hell - cognitive beings - the ability to have thoughts and form opinions. I can admit to being wrong too - it's fine, it's a learning process. I don't mind people having differing opinions, but they can be expressed without anger too - like you did! :) Thanks! |
| from second-love : |
| Thanks sweetie... i will. I will post now and then... ill send out a new password to access stuff from time to time. Im feeling a bit at a loss right now... kinda like i lost my family a bit - but i've just gotta do this right now for him and for us. I might be wrong... but i have to. Lets stay in touch by IM and email... ok??? And i WILL still be reading and leaving notes :))))) *hugs* |
| from divacowgirl : |
| I'm impressed. I wish more people your age would take the time to research things. Damn, I sound like my parents. |
| from second-love : |
| You GO girl :) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am a bit tipsy with wine, but I just hope you had a good time. You deserve it. You are young as I tell you all the time. Go out and make the most of it! |
| from second-love : |
| He did react and said he loved it... and this morning he told me that he will ALWAYS keep in mind my need to be with him and to see him - so seems like the NEW Sam to me... although, when i mentioned to him that i had cut and paste that last paragraph a dozen times, not sure if i would put it in the email... he says "why, is it because its not really important after all???"... ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm DID i say that?????? This is the sort of thing he says to me that gets us off base. I said "NO... i just was trying to stay on topic and i wasnt too sure if that had anything to do with it." And he was like "oh, ok". THIS is why i cut and paste so much...one wrong statement can send him off on a strange tangent... even just this minute... he called me and asked me AGAIN if i meant that last paragraph... sheeeeeeeeeeeesh... i just said again "babe... i wouldn't write it if i didnt mean it and if it wasnt important". Man... love the guy but he CAN be so difficult *grin* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| X. I just caught up with the Vince story. I hope you are ok. You don't really write about how it affected you and how you are coping and feeling and what is going on in your mind. If you need to vent, I am here. Just hope mentally you are ok, not too confused and just thinking carefully, taking your time, and looking after yourself. (Let me know when you get the package ok, I hope it gets there in 1 piece!) Love u! xoxo Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| Man... you are right. And i KNOW that in my heart. I guess thats why im a bit freaked and why i hesitate when he suggests something that i KNOW will lead to more. In a way, i just love the heat that exists between us the way we are right now. And i DO have enough trouble struggling with the neglect that i feel - whether its truly neglect or NOT. This morning (just now in fact) he told me that he's thrilled to "have me back"... that this is the first time since our Laughlin trip back in April that he feels like its the "old me". What he doesnt realize is that i ALWAYS do better when he gives me his TIME. And this week i got ALOT of it. I DO think about you and your situation alot... the main dif is i already know he has no intention of every leaving K... that isn't even a consideration - but there would be a new level of longing and need for him physically once we "go there". Thanks... im going to think about all this stuff ALOT. I really dont think we will actually get there (if ever) for a very long time... but i do want to consider everything. Thanks girlfriend! *hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| I'm not sure what has happened. Freaks me out a bit. He called me continually today...im floored. He constantly surprises me. I'm not sure if i KNOW what the "bad" part is... can you help me with that? Forgive me for being naive (albeit blind) but aside from the obvious...i dont know how much more emotionally invested i could possibly BE... sex or no sex. Maybe im kidding myself... |
| from second-love : |
| Im so proud of you. Hang in there. *hugs* |
| from adulterous-k : |
| Very sad, Dre. But very strong. You did well. xx |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I hope it goes ok. I will be thinking of you. xoxox |
| from yo-bitch : |
| oh my god. not those badgers again! they gave me nightmares! (mush-mushroom) |
| from adulterous-k : |
| I'm confused - where is Abe? And are you still writing at your old places? I went to one and found it locked |
| from adulterous-k : |
| Strawberry shortcake. xx |
| from angeline-is : |
| You're right, X. BFD! God, I'm sorry you ever got tangled up with that idiot, because it looks like he and his wife are A) In complete denial over their marriage and B) completely in need of therapy and medication. You're well shot of him and you know it, so bully for you! Those two are the ones clinging to the past - it makes you wonder why they're so afraid of the future that they can't face it. |
| from mineirinha : |
| I got chocolate cake too :) Must be our Latino blood :) heheh |
| from second-love : |
| I was just so annoyed by his last entry... made it sound like YOU were just out to get them. AND i just told him that if he was "so in love with his wife" then why does he keep obsessing over what you are writing etc. I told him to just drop the whole thing. Why were BOTH he ANd his wife so obsessed about your writing. They should just ride off into the freakin sunset if they were so damn happy hahahahahahahaha - he's lucky he caught me on an "upswing" instead of one of my DOWN times *grin* |
| from officechick : |
| I couldn't choose just one....I'm a dessert-aholic! I chose Brownies and Carrot Cake :-) I hope Abe and his wife will leave you alone now. If they really want to get on with their lives and marriage, they'll need to stop lashing out like that. **hugs** |
| from femalevolent : |
| I picked Chocolate Cake/Chocolate Icing too. But Brownies was a close runner up! Sorry I haven't been commenting lately, I've been reading though. I'm sorry about Abe's wife. She sounds like a bit of a.. cunt. And Abe sounds like a big jerk for laying all the responsibility on you. Fact is HE cheated whether you were a part of it or not he should take the garbage for it and not try to make this into something about you. <3 Keep your chin up! |
| from second-love : |
| Oh... and i chose choc cake with choc frosting... but you already KNEW that, didn't ya! *hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| He left me a pretty scathing note... oh well hahahha i dont regret a word i said to him. You will be better for all of this! He is just really unbelievable... like a totally different person. Thats just sad. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I chose brownies! Mmm... xoxox Kathy |
| from adulterous-k : |
| So he salvages his self-esteem by portraying the whole thing as your fault to Dawn? Yep -arse is the word. Where is his diary? I thought 'Poplord' and 'Poplordagain' were closed down? |
| from avalonte : |
| Oh my god!!!!! Oh my fucking god!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe "his" last couple of diary entries today!! What an arse!!! We love you sweetheart!!!! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| You are amazing, strong person X. And we all care about you so much. You amaze me and give me strength. I would just crumble and give up with all this shit you have to put up with. But you are a strong incredible woman. I only wish I could learn from you. I run and hide and lock. You speak your mind and stand up to your principles. I hope you know how much you are cared about. I don't understand where or why love goes wrong. And why people become so twisted? I really don't understand. Hang in there love. We are all crazy about you and we all care about you. Elle sounds amazing. I wish there were more people like her and you in the world. xoxo Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| I just cant understand some people! Why do they feel compelled to criticize. I guess this is why i locked my diary from the get-go. I didn't want to deal with people that felt so desperate they had to crap all ova someone else! I like the way you respond though... you are AWESOME X!!!!! Hope your night is the BEST!!!! |
| from officechick : |
| Hi Sweetie I definitely agree with iwanttotell And you shouldn't feel guilty hugs |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Nothing constructive ever comes out of doing something out of guilt. Besides that, you have no reason to feel guilty. Stand your ground. We're all pulling for you, and you'll be so very proud of yourself when all is said and done. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I agree also with those below. You do not have to rush in to anything, or do anything that you do not want to do. Take all the time in the world. Don't do what scares you. And follow your heart and your feelings. Take care honey. |
| from second-love : |
| Im with Avalonte... you only do what you are comfortable with. Take it one step at a time. There is no rush!!! Make sure to work through everything you might be feeling and let him know exactly where you stand! *hugs* |
| from avalonte : |
| Don't let him push you into anything you're not comfortable with. If you can be friends it'd be great, as long as he knows it's not going to lead anywhere. I think he should know he burnt his bridges there. If you're uncomfortable being with him on a romantic basis, just emphasise to him that you want nothing more than friendship. Good luck lovely!!! xx |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I know what you mean. My skin was better at 15 than it is now. Sucks! Hang in there girl, another few days... xoxoxo |
| from second-love : |
| Yeah... take it from me...got BACK on the BC. If i can get my system squared away... life will be so much easier! hahahahahaha and you crack me up... "motivated mexican" hahahahaahaha |
| from avalonte : |
| Thank you for your sweet note. It made me feel so much better! *hugs* for your suffering at the hands of pms!!! The only reason I take the pill is to prevent early, late and unexpected visits!!! Well, it's certainly not for birth control! HA!! Chance would be a fine thing! lol! xx |
| from yo-bitch : |
| yeah!! go, old man on bike, go! |
| from officechick : |
| The very next time you see Elle you must give her a hug from me and then she must give you a hug from me :-) Okay :-) I'm glad that things are going so good for you right now!!!!! xoxo HUGS xoxo |
| from angldust83 : |
| I have decided that I am madly in love with you. I can't live without you, X. I can't even stomach the thought of you not feeling the same way. I've created a shrine in my basement in your honor, complete with candles and twisted poetry about how I will have you. Please don't break my heart, just the mere idea of you turning me down is almost enough to drive me to suicide. Now I'm gonna go write nasty shit about you in my diary. ......sorry, just figured you could use a little bit more drama. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| That coffee sounds divine... I am still glad to hear you sounding bright. I will be making the trip to the post office this weekend! xoxox Kathy |
| from yo-bitch : |
| can i have a fantastic award? |
| from second-love : |
| ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh you are KILLIN ME!!! Dont you realize that i have SO LITTLE JOY IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!!!!!! Cant you just clue lil ol me in???? I promise to be good and keep it to myself and my 12 split personalities... pretty please?????!!! |
| from avalonte : |
| Knowing that someone reads your diary is quite handy when you have something to say!! I often use my diary to get things across to Dave!! That cappuccino sounds yum!! |
| from adulterous-k : |
| So glad things are good for you !! |
| from second-love : |
| hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm special friend.... you are KILLIN me here!!! |
| from officechick : |
| Johnny Cash rocks.....how many times did we play Burning Ring of Fire on Saturday?? :-) You're so good at being "bad" -wink- :-) You're the queen of spunk my dear! |
| from yo-bitch : |
| johnny cash is fucking awesome. there was a guy who used to come into the store i worked at, and he looked exactly like him. one of the women i worked with told him so, and he said that that was funny, because he PLAYED with johnny cash for a few years. isn't that awesome?? bwaha. |
| from angldust83 : |
| Sure, I suppose I can sacrifice Guam for the PMS Queen. Oh, and I like Johnny Cash, not because he is "vintage", but because he is "classic". Therefore, no forcing of the bull balls down my throat for you. HA!!! See how that works? With the technicalities and the psychological trickery?! Don't fuck with the lord and master, sweetheart. |
| from second-love : |
| oooooooooooh you ARE a naughty naughty girl *grin* and i AM intrigued *smile*... you GO girl - GET you sUm! |
| from second-love : |
| oooooooooooh you ARE a naughty naughty girl *grin* and i AM intrigued *smile*... you GO girl - GET you sUm! |
| from second-love : |
| oooooooooooh you ARE a naughty naughty girl *grin* and i AM intrigued *smile*... you GO girl - GET you sUm! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Glad you are being a BAD girl! Woman after my own heart! And where is your address, your chocolates are ready! xoxox |
| from bare-my-soul : |
| thank you so much for your note! and your hugs!!! |
| from officechick : |
| I will get to Elle's by 7 p.m. hopefully. I guess we're going out at 8:00. thank you thank you thank you!!! I'm going to take you up on your offer :-) See you soon When I see you I must give you a huge hug from Kathy. She's such a sweet person. I think I'm going to really like my new diaryland buddies :-) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I hate to think of you just eating bread..E-mail me your address so I can send you some good Israeli chocolate at least..ok? Take care and enjoy the weekend. xoxox Kathy |
| from officechick : |
| You must do my tarot reading twice, once when I'm sober and then when I'm drunk because I believe I turn into a different person after too many beverages :-) See you tomorrow night my dear!! |
| from iwanttotell : |
| ...and I quote, "I was talking to John at work today, and he said his kids could do anything, be wanted by the police and he'd take them and run if need be, and I told him he's a fucking idiot, and you're doing the same exact thing". What do you think? |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| All I want is to be skinny...Anyway sweety, have a good weekend. And feel better. xoxo |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Congrats on the weight! I know it was a long road for you. Have a scoop for me. Hugs |
| from lostmystic76 : |
| Hey girlie - it's been a while since I've left ya a note so I figured I would say hi. I love reading your diary because your recent experiences are somewhat close to mine - mainly in the men department - lol. Keep rock'n and gain'n that weight!!! |
| from sleepyzoe : |
| On one hand, I understand your regret in leaving X-plicity open. On the other hand...she searched for it, right? Shouldn't she know the truth about who she's married to? Maybe she wouldn't want to be married to someone like that. I don't know...I don't know all the answers. I almost forwarded all the emails R ever sent me to his wife (he carelessly left an email from her, that he'd printed out, on my kitchen table once). I thought maybe she'd want to know what a lying piece of shit she was married to. But then, I stopped caring. I knew he was miserable, and she was, too, so let them wallow in their own misery together. I deleted every email from him, and threw away her email address. Sometimes I wish I'd told her, sometimes I'm happy I didn't. *hugs* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Thinking of you, and remember I am here.... xoxox |
| from second-love : |
| Man... i dont even know what to say... thats some heavy shit... here for you - *hugs* |
| from officechick : |
| I hope your week gets better my dear Right now I'm 65% sure that I can come out on Saturday night --- It's also my youngest sd's birthday this weekend....so I kind of have to wait and see what we're doing. I also want my brother to come out with me. I called him yesterday and he said it might work for him. He's my little bro and he's been having a rough time lately....but if you meet him, you know nothing about that. I swore myself to secrecy. I will send positive thoughts your way and hope that your week gets better!!! |
| from femalevolent : |
| I've been thinking about trying some sort of medication for the same thing. But that's my dilemma with it too. How long do you have to keep on doing it? Is it really a help or just a delay? I hope you figure out what's best for you *hug* |
| from twinker-bell : |
| I think I know how you feel but I hate when people say that so I am hesitant, but it's worth taking them, trust me, I'm going down the not taking them road and it sucks a hell of a lot more... |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I know exactly how you feel. I hate these bloody pills. Hang in there honey. You are young, brilliant and neautiful. You can achieve anything you want. Really! xoxox Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| Yeah... hahahhahaah i know... we have been here before. But it feels SO GOOD when he FINALLY gets me. It doesn't happen often, im not sure why. I think im clear when i try to explain to him... but so often he misses what i am saying. He is very linear and gets confused often when i "explain emotion" like it did in that email. But for some reason... last night... he GOT it. And because of that, today was AWESOME!!! We were great together AGAIN... and it hasn't been that good in a long while. *hugs* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| He loves you. because you are certainly not a bitch. This kind of thing happens all the time. It does. It happens. Especially when you feel violated by your own husband. Of course you will look for tenderness and care in other places. And even if you don't look for it, it can find you. Please don't be hard on yourself. You are a sweet, wonderful person, and it's no wonder that Vince misses you so much. xoxo Kathy |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Your entry made me laugh! I am happy that you are happy and I can not wait to see the pictures, so hurry up and post them! xoxox |
| from second-love : |
| ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh GIRL you are NAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGHTYYYYYYY!!!! I love it!! hahahahahahha |
| from femalevolent : |
| hah I just read about your drunken adventure.. I totally know that drunken whore symptom. If I get drunk enough I get muuuch too friendly. And it's not like it's difficult to get male attention. I'm just glad you had the sense to sleep i your friend's room. |
| from femalevolent : |
| hey, i hope you can guess who i am. leave me a note <3 |
| from adulterous-k : |
| Good to hear you having fun Dre! And yes what *is* it about us married men? Fuckus all! xx |
| from sleepyzoe : |
| It's so good to read about you being happy. It makes me smile to read about you getting out, meeting new people, moving ahead with your band, and just getting healthy again! *huge hugs* Have fun tomorrow! :) |
| from angeline-is : |
| Honeybunch! I moved my site - fizzyhipster.com now. Miss you! |
| from list-alive : |
| You've been added. :) |
| from list-alive : |
| Hello, I've recently opened a new listing site, and I would like to list you! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Glad to come back and see you doing well! I am happy for you. Take care. (And sometimes its nice hanging around with kids....:-)xoxox Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| X you sound SO GOOD!! I am so proud of you! You give me hope *smile* XXXXX00000 |
| from iwanttotell : |
| I'm so glad you're on the upswing now. Your band will be great once you get used to working together. This must be so exciting for you. Hugs |
| from second-love : |
| Thank GOD for you!!!! Thank you for seeing my side even though i guess i am dead wrong again. Really i appreciate your viewpoint so much... AND Kevin. Really i lashed out at Kevin in a note... only because i was angry at Sam and he got the brunt of it. I apologized and i hope he understands. Anyway... thank you for just being here and for seeing my side. I feel very alone in this some days. *hugs* |
| from gutterpoet : |
| I'd love to play guitar in a band again. But I think the commute would be a bitch. cheers. |
| from adulterous-k : |
| This sounds better X. Not sure that saying yes to *everything* is the best thing though! |
| from second-love : |
| Good GOD!!!! That's tame!!!!! Holy cow... i AM old! *grin* |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Hey at least if the pics turn up on the internet, you're clothed--look at the bright side :) |
| from avalonte : |
| Thanks for the birthday wishes! I had a good one thanks! Sounds like you had a great time at the party!! Glad you let your hair down and had a good night! You deserve it! |
| from randommuse : |
| Glad you had such a great time at class. Have fun at Mel's party and let us know how it goes. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Be slutty, be very very slutty and enjoy! Belly dancing sounds like such fun. And God knows with my belly I would be belly dancing queen. I think when I get back I am going to look in to it. I wuld have passed out seeing that mouse...Anyway enjoy yourself sweety! Love Kathy |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Do we get to see a picture of the new haircolor? |
| from randommuse : |
| Glad the doctor's visit went well. And the hair color sounds great...I'm a natural blonde and dye the hell out of my hair. Have fun at class and hope you meet some great people. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Just a quick hi from London. Hope you re ok, glad the doctors check was good. I will have to catch up with entries when I am back. The computer is too damn slow here! So take honey! Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| I am just so totally frustrated and hurt right now. It takes every ounce of strength i have to NOT let him know how much i hurt right now. He just doesn't get me. Even when i speak the words directly to his face "I NEED to be with you... i NEED to touch you.. i NEED that physical connection" - he just doesn't get it. If he did, he would KNOW the pain im in right now. I TOLD him yesterday that just talking to him made me feel better...but for whatever reason, the computer and phone seem to make him happy. NOW he has Nextel direct connect and he's happy as pie that he can "radio me" whenever he wants... its torture. YES i want emails. I hope thats not wrong or bad, but i've GOT to see what is goin on in his head. Thanks sweetie... you are the best.XXXXXXXXX0000000000000 |
| from randommuse : |
| Loved your description of the rain...beautiful and melancholy at the same time. Bleah to doctor's visit and yay to being healthier. |
| from avalonte : |
| Yep, we all have one of those people in our lives!! Damn the bastards! Have a fab weekend, you deserve it! I'm planning to do the same. I'm going away for the weekend and plan to get completely revoltingly hammered!!! It has to be done!! |
| from mineirinha : |
| Oh that is soooo true about women and their stupid arsed FEELINGS. :p BlEHHHH! Hope you have a great weekend of debauchery and hope you feel better soon. *HUGZ* |
| from second-love : |
| OMG... i just read your note. He is really unbelievable... i cant tell if he CARES or NOT. Just when i think he doesn't give a rip i find out he's emailing you. I just dont get it. I just dont know how many times i have to tell him that its HIM that i need! He just doesnt GET it or accept it... i dont know. I just can't take the fact that when i need him the most, he is pullin away... MEN!!!! But thanks hon for TRYIN to help the poor boy get a clue. DAMN i love him..... SHIT!!!!! |
| from second-love : |
| hmmmmm funny... i know EXACTLY what you mean. wish i didn't |
| from randommuse : |
| Have fun at the party and the dress sounds perfect. |
| from randommuse : |
| You're not heartless nor do you have to live heartless. Once you get through other steps, your heart will belong to you. I have no desire to "be" with anyone long-term, but I still have love if that makes sense. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Just checking in. Hope you are ok, and having a good weekend. xoxox K |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Thinking of you. I don't know what advice to give, but I am thinking of you. And you are so NOT heartless. Take care.Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| Try numb... i like numb. Works nicely. |
| from second-love : |
| Thanks sweetie! XX000 |
| from divacowgirl : |
| Girl, I hope you're doing something to take care of yourself. IM me if you want to vent or talk, ok? |
| from angldust83 : |
| I'm terribly sorry to disappoint the PMS Queen, but given the fact that tomorrow I'm signing 12 month lease on an apartment in Denver, have a job interview on Friday, and I'm starting school in Denver as soon as I get outta the army, i don't find relocation to Wisconsin very likely. But on a more positive note, my Pro Tools rig works again, so if u ever need help with some guitar parts for your songs just send me some mp3's and once I learn how to work this shit a little better I'll add some tracks to them and send the songs back to u. |
| from gutterpoet : |
| Sure porcelain may shatter. However, there are those who spend their days digging through dirt just to find a small shard of it. Beauty can be shattered and broken but it will always be cherished by those who can still see it's wonder even if no longer whole. cheers. gp |
| from randommuse : |
| Flonase can be like nasal nectar from the gods to combat the satanic forces of nature. And for the person below with the computer not finding the modem...have you gone into your hardware device manager. Sometimes you can fix hardware issues from there. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| How was the seminar? I hate computers, especially when they are giving hassles. It's the most irritating thing. Thanks for all your sweet notes and comments. Have a good day! Love Kathy |
| from mineirinha : |
| good luck with the pooter. I had windows reinstalled on mine and now the stupid modem has "dissapeared" - the pooter is just not finding the stupid thing so I can't connect from home! ARGHHHHHH!!!! Computers are a pain in the arse sometimes... |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Glad you had a blast. Sounds like a really cool, different weekend. Its good to hear you sound perky. I just hope deep down you are ok. Did you ever respond to your note from below? Anyway sweetie I am here if you need to vent or whatever. We should chat online sometime... Take care sweetie. Have a good week ahead!xoxo Kathy |
| from randommuse : |
| Okay, I want to meet Mel. And do the classes...it's fun and creative. |
| from mineirinha : |
| sounds like you had fun!! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Where are you? Are you ok? You are missed! xoxox Kathy |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hope you had a good time. I hope you are ok, and your weekend has been good. xoxo K |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Just got back and just dropping in to say hi, going to try and catch up now. I hope you are well. Hey, I just saw the note down there?? Hope you are REALLY ok. Thinking of you. xoxox Kathy |
| from randommuse : |
| Hope you get to feeling better...take care of yourself. Not sure how to react to Abe's note....don't, it's not worth it. |
| from mineirinha : |
| hope you feel ok chica :) |
| from second-love : |
| Just saw the note... sheeeeeeeeesh the nerve... hope you feel better sweetie! |
| from adulterous-k : |
| Thanks for your note - yes she's being very good to me just now. Is there a part of you considering letting Vince back in - on your terms? |
| from randommuse : |
| Good for you for being a "bitch" (although I think "responsible manager" is more appropriate). Too many local bands here don't take professionalism seriously. And I don't think your gifts are weird at all. Although I don't have any abilities like that, I've known people that have and, as long as they're used appropriately, can actually be beneficial. And a good Wiccan is always good to have around. |
| from angldust83 : |
| you did the right thing there. Paying Tuition has gone through quite a few bassists due to a lack of professionalism and dedication. We've always had an unwritten rule...miss two rehearsals and you're out unless you have a "holy shitballs everyone's gonna die" kind of excuse for it. People who don't want to put out the effort to get the best sound possible aren't worth your time. |
| from poplordagain : |
| yeah ok. fuck me...thats fine. i accept that. i deserve that. but how do you expect me to stop loving you when you haven't stopped loving me? anyway...stay the fuck away from "vince". you always trusted my advice before, even if you don't trust me as a person, please trust that. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Gosh, I was thinking like all of the below. Did you guys have a nice time together at least? How did you feel? How are you? xoxox |
| from second-love : |
| hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm and i'd like to know WHICH he you are referring to!!!! *grin* |
| from randommuse : |
| Man, I really thought "oh my god, what is she doing?!?!?!" Silly you, tricking us with a dream. |
| from avalonte : |
| Shit girl, you really had me going there! I was reading and thinking, "Oh my god, what's she doing??!!!!" lol! |
| from mineirinha : |
| wow - turned off by sex. Sounds like very familiar territory! Welcome to celibates anonymous! :) Now, where did I put that libido again? *looks inside laundry basket* no, not there. *looks behind wardrobe* nup - doesn't seem to be here either. Damn! |
| from rarify : |
| I'm so stupid. I can't remember or figure out how to add you as a friend. Total blond moment. Blah, I'll try again some other day I guess :( |
| from angldust83 : |
| not a big deal, don't worry about it. i over-reacted a bit |
| from second-love : |
| Yes... i have gone to counseling MANY times over the years - i've always been one to jump for ANY help i can get. I have thought about it again... i actually went to a "pre-interview" appt with a therapist cuz my old one isn't around anymore and talked for an hour... when i was done, she said "well... it doesnt seem like you need to much 'professional' help, but if you WANT to come for a few sessions that would be fine"... HMMMMMMM not exactly a motivated therapist. So i dropped it. I may look into it again. Part of me doesnt WANT to deal yet. I already KNOW the answers. I just dont want to give up the one thing that gives me the most happiness right now... even if its costing me in the long run. I WILL get there though. Thanks for your worry and concern - you are too sweet. *hugs* |
| from divaredneck : |
| you are always welcome for dinner :) |
| from randommuse : |
| Patience, grasshopper. The band will come together and you'll have to put some MP3's or something so we can all hear you. |
| from angldust83 : |
| where the fuck do you get the goddamn balls to tell ma a fucking thing about soldiers being shortchanged?! I'm well aware of the politics involved with our budget. I'm also well aware of the fact that the assets we did have available in Iraq such as reactive armor for our Bradleys wasn't used because of incompetent leadership, and good men died for it. When you've got the lovely experience of seeing some good friends die next to you, then you can talk to me about soldiers getting fucked, until then fuckoff. |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Oh man! Being nice gets us into so much trouble, doesn't it? I STILL allow Dick to do that to me-I play along when he's nice, yell and scream profanities through the phone at him when he's being his true self, and hate myself for it either way! The best thing to do is to be straightforward and mean if you have to-it's hurtful now, but kinder to both of you in the end. Damn-that's really hard to say. I give that advice but haven't been able to do it too many times. Hugs |
| from mineirinha : |
| fuck, talk about blackmail. Stay true to yourself. Don't take him back just because. Be honest - tell him you don't want to lead him on coz it aint happening anymore he should get over it. *hugz* take care! |
| from redspitfire : |
| Be strong, stay strong. (easier said than done, I know) |
| from randommuse : |
| Just think about it...do you really want to get back with him? No. Then he's the one with the problem, not you. |
| from adulterous-k : |
| I guess it means I'm taking your advice. It has to finish, and I have to do it. and - thanks xx |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I like the name. And I wish I could have joined your party... |
| from mineirinha : |
| cool name! and the drunkfest sounded like fun! :) |
| from redspitfire : |
| I like it! |
| from iwanttotell : |
| What an awesome weekend! |
| from randommuse : |
| Persephony sounds perfect. Damn, why can't I be a guitar player?!??! And, it sounds like you and your friend had a great time. Hope the future was good for your cats :) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Oy, that does sound like a bad way to start the day. Shame honey. I think your therapist sounds great. And she is definitely right. You don't have to do anything you don't want to. And don't feel bad for even thinking of maybe meeting Vince or giving him another chance or being with him. We all need attention, we all need love. He is/was your husband and it is not easy to just unlove. You don't have to take him back. But just don't feel guilty. Am I making any sense here at all? Have a good weekend. Feel good. xoxo Kathy |
| from divaredneck : |
| thanks for the note. Actually I've been dipping my nose in a saline solution, part of what the piercer has me doing to avoid infection. My children state that its quite comical to catch me with my nose dipped in the cup for 5 mins each day |
| from randommuse : |
| You're not becoming one of "those women!" The occasional dinner doesn't mean you're "running back." You're getting on with things...it'll just take a while. And, I threw a pair of shoes at my parakeet this morning if that makes you feel any better. |
| from second-love : |
| I feel like you lately... just NOTHING going right somehow. Today my toaster wouldn't work out of the blue, my blow dryer would blow hot air (go figure) AND i cant seem to get this one cordless phone i have to stop beeping even though ive changed the battery!!! On top of that... im expecting "my monthly visitor"... FUCK!...AND all of MY lovely animals think im the greatest and only want to follow ME around endlessly hahahahhahahaa. And hey... you are doing great... one day at a time! Have a good weekend - maybe ill catch ya online - gonna be BORED out of my MIND this long weekend *grin* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Just wanted to say a big thank you for all your comments. You make me smile, you make me feel normal, and it's nice to know that people out there are interested enough to drop me a line. Gosh it means so much. I look forward to your notes always. I hope you have a good weekend. A happy weekend. xoxox Kathy |
| from yo-bitch : |
| you should check out gmail.google.com. it is "google's answer to email." yeah. so basically, if you want lots of geeks to flock to you and give you favors for gmail invites, you'll want this. heehee. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Firstly I hope you are feeling ok healthy-wise, iron-wise and perid-wise.(What a fucking curse). Vince is in town. That is interesting. I am sure you have a lot of thinking to do. You don't need to rush in to anything. You don't owe anyone anything. You have to think about yourself now. Noone esle. Just yourself. I absolutely have to agree with what you said about marriage and turning to other people. I am going through one of the hardest few weeks I have ever had. I love my husband. he is sweet, kind and wonderful. I have no idea why I am turning to other people. I don't know what is missing. All I can hope for is that something is missing, and it's not just me be being a horrible, sleazy person... (Ok enough about me in your notes..) I hope that you take things easy with Vince. That you focus on yourself, that you manage to release all of the bad feelings that you were feeling for him. And that things go the way you want to. Be happy and look after yourself! Kathy |
| from adulterous-k : |
| I still stggle with the idea that we cheat because we're missing something in our current relationships. I really, honestly thought I was OK, fulfilled in what I had. But then I found something that would enhance all that. Stupidly I thought it wouldn'e damage anyhtng. So VInce is around - unless he can understand how he was hurting you, surely you can't contemplate a recociliation? |
| from gutterpoet : |
| consider yourself a charter member my dear. Now get out there and bitch-slap someone! |
| from randommuse : |
| Remember, all decisions now are based on what YOU need, not the needs of others. |
| from second-love : |
| You are right... we DO cheat because we our missing something in our current relationships... BUT we also have no chance of getting that with our spouses as long as we ARE getting it somewhere else. Hence the dilemma |
| from randommuse : |
| I always pretend to work and it's never failed me yet. And of course you still feel...we mere mortals always do. Be angry, be sad, be whatever you need to be and don't let anyone dictate how you should feel. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I feel awful. I am so self absorbed, have not even had a chance to read and write. I hope you are ok, and I hope this weekend I can catch up. Work has been hectic and so has life, unfrotunaetly. please take care, please forgive ne. I will catch up sson and keep in touch!xoxox Kathy |
| from angldust83 : |
| HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!! You said "Yesh" in your diary!!!!! YESH!!!!!!! YOU HAVE BEEN CORRUPTED BY THE LORD AND MASTER THAT IS ELI!!!!! CONGRATULATIONS, MY BEAUTIFUL EVIL MINION, YOUR SOUL IS SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| from yo-bitch : |
| no! encourage me not! there's only two hours left on the auction and it's up to eighty ... aaaah! temptation! mustn't trust the rage against the audio garden guitar! ach! ... as you can tell, this is a very strong urge. |
| from avalonte : |
| I relate, you KNOW I relate!!! |
| from redspitfire : |
| Good girl! I enjoyed seeing you express yourself! |
| from mineirinha : |
| yeah you told me :) hehe. I'm trying tobe good I swear! I saw him last night and I didn't even hang around chatting. I only did ONE slightly provocative thing that could have been interpreted as innocent "not paying attention to what I was doing" (i'm a master at that one ;) ) - my bag was next to him and so when I took my belt off my pants kinda fall a bit so bits of undies show you know? Just a little bit of a peek at pretty undies... on purpose of course, but who'se to say I just "didn't realise it!" hehe |
| from spritopias : |
| Thanks for you comment! |
| from avalonte : |
| "Lost" implies he had no control over it. Like you left him! Like he wasn't the one to pull your heart out, crumple it up in his hand, drop in in the floor, watch it twisting and turning in agony, then stamp on it crushing it into the ground!!!! Awwww, poor hard done by little Abe, he lost his love!! Well guess what fucker, you didn't lose it, you knowingly and callously threw it away!! Sweetie I'm so sorry. *hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| You have every right to be angry. He made some very serious promises that he didn't keep. And men wonder why women have trust issues. pfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff |
| from mineirinha : |
| go ahead and vent - it's purging. What a crock all that " i still love you " stuff - it's emotional blackmail. Fuck him :) |
| from twinker-bell : |
| I care too... and I'm glad that you seem to be taking care of things and yourself. :-) |
| from avalonte : |
| Thanks so much. I can't see how anyone would think it's wrong to keep the baby! He wouldn't want it anyway. But like I said, I have absolutely no idea where he lives, what his number is, and don't know anyone who does! (Or even his surname!) Ok, so it's nothing to be proud of, but 1 night stands happen, right! Thanks so much for your support! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Oh crap. Another two pounds. You are going to fade away. Come and spend a few days with me. I will make you round and healthy in NO time. God, give me an hour even. Yes, I can put on 4 pounds in an hour.. I am sure that at some stage things have to start looking up for you. HAVE TO!!! Ok, its way past my bedtime, and I think I am not helping you at all with this stupid note. So I hope you sleep better tonight. And take care X. xoxox Kathy |
| from redspitfire : |
| ok girl, what's going on |
| from avalonte : |
| By the way, tell your Aunt Flow to fuck off and send her over my way!! Have a great weekend. xx |
| from avalonte : |
| Thank you so much! I'm so glad it makes sense and that you felt the same. I think you're right about it being something only a woman can understand. A man just sees it as black & white, if you don't want a baby, why would you want one just because you're pregnant. But a woman understands the bond. Thank you lovely!! xxx |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am glad the band is coming along. It sounds so exciting and different and well, just plain damn cool! I know you will not be happy to hear this but I am glad you are rescheduling the therapy. i am happy to know someone will at least see you and make sure you are ok, and that you will be able to talk. Now about your last entry. Are you ok? What is happening? You worry me. I care, just remember that. All of us out here care honey. So take care and when you are ready, tell us whats up, so we can try and lend a hand as best we can. xoxox Kathy |
| from pornoviolent : |
| why thank you for the valuable information |
| from second-love : |
| the man DOES have nerve... ill give him that... |
| from randommuse : |
| Ahh, I get it. And yeah, wish I could pull myself out of this just "bleahness" (yeah, it's a made-up word but it just seems to describe life right now). However, I do know that the blahs are probably preferrable to everything you've had to deal with lately. I am excited to read how your new band is going and I'm sending all kinds of good vibes for it to be wildly successful. And yes, I REALLY don't want to work and would rather spend my time playing here at Diaryland :) |
| from randommuse : |
| Yikes, what happened? And, I haven't really updated because I don't feel like I've had much to say here lately. Job is bleah, friends are bleah, life's pretty bleah. |
| from second-love : |
| Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm who is that directed to??? But i LOVE that anger *grin* Oh... and i WILL try the pedialite... thanks for the suggestion! |
| from pornoviolent : |
| From the moment SolarBabies opened with a man�s wise voice telling of the destruction and dehydration of Earth, I told myself that it couldn�t possibly get worse. That was until a pre-teen dressed in orphan rags skated down a desert slope shortly followed by a hockey team sharing the movie�s ludicrous name. The film had sunk into a hilariously feeble attempt at sci-fi and the only way to bear the rest would be to laugh at any pathetic sense of seriousness that came along. SolarBabies� plot was stupid, unbelievable, and for the most part unoriginal. What little originality there was, wasn�t in the main plot, but in how they had managed to fit such idiotic scenes together to form a movie without adding surreal, psychedelic effects to it like so many 60s movies have done. Obviously, SolarBabies was meant to be taken in the utmost gravity. It was �dramatic� and �poetic� at all the wrong moments and scenes moved too swiftly without showing logical reasoning behind each action (although, thankfully, that spares the audience from watching one moronic scene for a tedious 15 minutes). And, as in every movie of its genre, the end was accompanied by a victorious revenge fight scene in which the heros kill, or at least seriously injure, all who have done them wrong. The plot, if one at all exists, is surely not the highlight of the movie. Originality wasn�t much better. Although the entire film consisted of one cliche after another, some were more memorable than others. For instance, a group of boys who happen to play hockey are favored by a cop over another group (why, it�s West Side Story all over again!). Mist would also appear out of nowhere at the most �powerful� moments. Perhaps that would work well near a water source (i.e, Lake, ocean, swamp, etc.) but it�s not very successful in a desert. The movie isn�t exactly brilliant with cinematography either. It�s colorless, bland, and mediocre. Any special effects that happen by are pathetic: The magical orb/sphere sparkles while flying�very high-tech . . . Not. Acting and dialog could easily fit into one category since neither of them really exists. Either it was the actors who made the dialog horrible or vice versa. Or perhaps they were both just horrendous. All together it was shallow, monotonous, and transparent. The jokes came out lame, happiness was obviously faked and the metaphors, which were very simple to begin with, were all too clear. Somehow I don�t think SolarBabies acquired any Oscars in Best Script/Actor/Actress. I have to admit, the part that really shocked me was music and sound. I had heard that the composer who did it was fairly talented but when the credits opened and a mixture of Richard Strauss and Star Wars blared through the TV, it couldn�t have been more opposite. It was almost frightening in its stupidity: Complete with Happy-Go- Lucky, Let�s-All-Rejoice dancing songs, eerie space noises, and freaky 80s �music� inserted at random intervals. The background music during dialog reminded me amazingly of elevators. All in all, SolarBabies is as laughable as its name. |
| from avalonte : |
| Don't take it personally, by the way, my comments don't hate you!! I deleted the entry you left your comments for! I didn't realise you'd left a comment at the time I deleted it. I replaced it with the same entry but including a photo of K. However, I still managed to read your comments via my webmail.diaryland! Thanks hon! Love you too!! xx |
| from randommuse : |
| Go with the changes...you'll be guided to the right place. |
| from avalonte : |
| They're really useless, and don't contain any useful info at all! At the moment, the weather is fairly warm (about 72/73) with lots of rain showers! Really crap for August. Our Agusts are usually hot and dry. By next week it could be though! That's the thing with English weather, it's really changeable. One day could be chilly and wet, and the next day 90 degrees and sunny. I hope your friend has fun in London. I hate the place personally! Take care. xx |
| from avalonte : |
| I was just going to say something similar to Iwanttotell. You've entered a new chapter in your life and have closed the door on the old you, and possibly on the bare room too. That was Xperi-mental's sweet spot. You probably have to find a new place for the new you. I hope you find somewhere you feel comfortable and safe very soon!. xx |
| from iwanttotell : |
| I wonder if since you've made so many changes in your life recently, maybe you should change your "sweet spot"? I know if mine ever felt uncomfortable, I'd create a different one. I'm sure that is worrisome for you, though. Good Luck. Hugs |
| from randommuse : |
| I've just started Japa meditation so I have no idea what to tell you. Can you change how you enter your "sweet spot" ie does it have to be a room or can you change the imagery you're using? |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I know nothing about meditation. I have never ever been able to be in a relaxed state before. An ex-psychologist of mine tried to even hypnotize me once and she just couldn't do it. But what you described sounds freaky. I can imagine how scary that must have felt. Almost not been able to leave that place. I can not relate, but the way you described it freaks me out. I understand exactly how you feel. I would be scared to go back there too. I don't know what to say to you about that. Just hang in there. And take care X. xoxo Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| Im so glad too!!! I was worried about ME! hahaha but i think the hormones are doin the trick thank GOD! I appreciate all your support SOOOOOOO much and i know Sam does too...*hugs* |
| from mineirinha : |
| I'd go in with you if I was in the states! Tried to do the same here in Oz with TheEx, but our government cracked down on people making money out of real estate and put all these new absurd taxes into place so now you can't just buy-fix-sell anymore :p that HAD been our idea! Which seminar are you going to? That Burton guy? I've been to a couple - lots of info, but don't get too excited and join up on the day - they will try to sell you these massively expensive courses that are bullshit - I know - I got screwed up the arse without permission or lubricant by that :p it hurts - oh it hurts! So - go - take notes, listen hard - and DONT SIGN ANYTHING!!! YOu can get all the infor you need for free on the net or by getting books. If you need more advice on which books etc, let me know TheEx has a massive library on the subject... |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Medical bills are so astronomical, its unbelievable! That idea sounds great! Good luck! xoxo Kathy |
| from randommuse : |
| Independently wealthy has a nice ring to it. |
| from randommuse : |
| Yes, you and Elle need to get out there and conquer the world (or at least the general vicinity). And I want an MP3 of your version of My Boyfriend's Back when the band gets together. |
| from second-love : |
| Sam told me today that you are a sweetie *grin* |
| from redspitfire : |
| I LOVE Buttercup |
| from randommuse : |
| So happy the new band seems to be coming together so well. I'm sending all kinds of positive vibes for success for all your new adventures. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am glad to hear you sounding quite happy, and excited about the new project, even though it was very emotional for you on Friday.You have lots to look forward to, and hopefully only good things will lead the way. xoxoxo Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| I talked to Sam again this morning about you and told him you were hoping he understood that the stuff you say comes out of some of your recent pain... He said he did understand. He said that there is always that basic misconception that guys are just persuing someone for sex and that isn't the case with me... that he truly cares and wants only the best. I just laughed and said "yeah... thas for sure - in this situation IM the one that is trying to get the sex and YOU are the one runnin for the hills" hahahahaahahhaha - he did say that he appreciated your viewpoint tho.. so no worries *grin* |
| from gutterpoet : |
| ahh I once wore a prom dress for one of our shows. And then....wait I feel I've shared to much. Nevermind. Out with the old in with the new. That's what I say to you. Here's to the future! |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I hope last night went ok. That you didn't get too emotional, but even if you did, that you are feeling strong and ok. How did the dress look in the end? Thinking of you honey, I hope you are holding up. We are off to the beach and grandparents today so I will check in to see whats happening with you tonight. xoxo Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| Oh... and Sams fake email name is G Smith hahahaha how ORIGINAL!!!! he said he wouldn't blame ya if you thought it was spam *grin* |
| from second-love : |
| He can be cruel... its funny cuz he is SO caring otherwise actually to the point of really annoying his wife. She gets "filled up" with all his attention and caring... can you imagine?? hahahahah - but he and i just have a serious difference in the way we look at life. I DO tend to be a "glass 1/2 empty" type of person whereas he is happy and thrilled with whatever he has or whatever he is doing right that minute. He never needs MORE. I DO! |
| from randommuse : |
| You're not in a "bad mood," you're depressed. Talk to your doctor and make sure your medication dosage is right. Also, couldn't remember, but are you seeing a therapist? |
| from second-love : |
| Thanks for your note. He did understand the email and we had a very long phone conversation. I think we are both spent again emotionally and it will take a few days for both of us to recover... but i think we will make it through this AGAIN until the next episode. Thank you for all your support and encouragement... i am still down, but feeling better then yesterday. I wish we could be closer in proximity to each other... i think we could be ALOT of help to each other. *hugs* |
| from divaredneck : |
| Thank you for your nice note |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I understand. Totally. Thanks for your comments by the way. I am glad people there are worried about you and are trying to fatten you up! As I said before, give me a day or two with you and you would be looking damn healthy! Hang in there honey! xoxox Kathy |
| from randommuse : |
| I have a friend that's a drummer in a couple of bands (one cover, one original music) and that's EXACTLY how it is. Dear god, they had to play a Go-Go's song! |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Healing from a major relationship takes a very long time. It's still awfully soon. Be patient with yourself and examine your feelings. Believe it or not, now is a good time to get to know yourself without interference. Sound hokey? Sorry, but it's true. Hugs |
| from second-love : |
| thanks... breathe... breathe....breathe... im trying. i really am |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| That is so not pathetic. It is as natural as anything. It would be weird if you didn't miss him. Maybe you can write an entry about what really happened? Maybe it will help you clear out some of whats going on in your head? Hang in there. They say that time heals. Give yourself all the time in the world. xoxo Kathy |
| from yo-bitch : |
| by the way, thanks for all the comments and encouragement you've left for me for the past few days. i never seem to get enough of those, heh. |
| from sleepyzoe : |
| You're not pathetic. Criminy, I still miss R on occasion...and he ended the 'romantic' part of our relationship in January. I should have ended the friendship then, too. Don't be so hard on yourself...you loved him, you trusted him. That's not something to take lightly (and I know you don't). You're doing so well for someone in your shoes...I think you rock! *hugs* |
| from randommuse : |
| Like an emotional wallet...well written. Definitely sums up what you're going through. Maybe some of this can turn into a song(s)? |
| from second-love : |
| It really IS an emotional hijacking... thats what happens. And we are powerless to control it. *sigh* |
| from second-love : |
| ahhhhh thank you. you are SO right. I DO know this is a cycle. I have been through it enough to recognize that now... but with every cycle i feel my resolve getting a bit stronger. I'm not sure what that will mean to us day to day... but its something. THANK YOU! *hugs*... (oh and go easy on him... he can be really DENSE) |
| from randommuse : |
| Excellent news! Very happy for you. And, I had to go and edit my last post as I apparently can't spell athlete. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I hate those checks. ughh. So I wish you an "easy" check. Hope all is ok! xoxo Kathy |
| from randommuse : |
| God, if men only knew what we had to go through for "girly-parts" exams. |
| from twinker-bell : |
| ok which entry do i go back to, i had no idea something happened with abe? pre-natal pills too?!?! i am so out of the loop! |
| from twinker-bell : |
| thanx 4 missing me, things are fine with jaxie, things are bad with the roomie at school, was wondering why u hadn't updated, i forgot to add your new name! :-) |
| from second-love : |
| OMG!!!!!!! i LOVE the quote you chose for the profile hahahahahahhahaha one of my all time FAV moments hahahahaha and VERY VERY HOT!!! you crack me up! *smiles and hugs* |
| from randommuse : |
| Okay now I'm getting worried! First it was the clarinet karma connection, now I find that we're both fans of summer sausage. Usually people gross out when I tell them I love the stuff. |
| from sleepyzoe : |
| How old is Abe?! I thought all his kids were young! Was he married before? Damn...getting stared down by a 16-year-old. Poor thing!! |
| from randommuse : |
| You're on the favorites now. How stupid am I...I didn't realize the other diary (x....) was you too. To quote Homer...d-oh!!!! Love the layout and, more importantly, love the words. You're really taking time to deal with everything and to figure out what YOU want out of life, not what everyone else tells you. And, this may go against your counselor a little bit, but I don't think you're repressing anything. Sometimes happiness isn't a process...it's just a state of being. Wish I could play an instrument and join the band. I played clarinet in school...need something like that? :) |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Come spend one week with me. I will have you looking round and sexy in no time!!! Seriously though, it will just take time. Give yourself a break. You just went through a very hard, emotional time. Be easy on yourself for a while. Take care! Kathy |
| from second-love : |
| I just think that is a very good possibility. Once the "newness" of him runnin back to his wife wears off and reality sets back in... he WILL realize he made a mistake. I can only imagine what kind of emotional blackmail she used on him. You KNOW she used the kids! And its not like they have REALLY changed anything. They aren't in marriage counseling or anything. So the shit WILL hit the fan again. Its inevitable. I just thought you should be thinking about what you WILL do. Here for you either way and i hope the question didn't hurt you in any way... *hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| If Abe came back and said he had made a serious mistake and wanted you to take him back... would you??? |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I wish I could just be there for a half an hour. I would make you cry in my arms. I think you still need to cry and feel sad. It's only natural. You are been so strong after facing so damn much. Please take care. xoxo |
| from second-love : |
| Thanks... am feeling pretty good considering... and it WILL help once i get back on the hormones. I always DID do very well when i was on the pill and NEVER had any PMS... so i am looking forward to more even days emotionally. It WILL be better for Sam and me too... hope you have an AWESOME weekend. Here if you need me *hugs* |
| from irishdream : |
| It sounds like you're holding yourself up higher than you ever were, and that's awesome to hear. If you ever do miss that drama queen crown... you can borrow mine. I won't tell:) XOXO~Jesse |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Graet to hear you sounding much more cheerful, and great to hear that you have an appetite at last. I am sure that now that you are eating and building your strength back that that will help you feel even better! Take care sweetie. xoxo |
| from second-love : |
| I am exactly the same!!! I LOVE guys as friends WAY better than girls! Chicks are so moody and bitchy. Guys can be too but in a different way. I would much rather have a guy as a best friend... thats why i do *grin* |
| from yo-bitch : |
| this band sounds like it'll be kickass! wish i could play with you ... but make sure to link lots of mp3s! |
| from mineirinha : |
| hey :) glad you feeling good and eating heaps today! |
| from stelanotte : |
| You and I must be on the same wavelength! I have been eating like crazy lately, and ran to Target this weekend. XOXO |
| from sleepyzoe : |
| It's really great to read that you're feeling a little better. It's been hard hearing about what you're going through, and not being able to lend a hand. I'm so excited for your new project...maybe it will do you a world of good. One less part of your life that you associate with Vince. As far as Abe...jeezus, I felt like I was reading my own words. *hugs* I hope things continue to look up!! |
| from iwanttotell : |
| So glad you're feeling better. Hugs |
| from adulterous-k : |
| "Necessarily"? - thanks!! Glad the band's starting to look like a cert. Something you can do for you! |
| from second-love : |
| Who DOES need men anyway... i mean... it does seem more trouble then its worth. Ultimately the best ive ever been was when i was alone... and that wasnt often. Kinda hopin for that actually *wink* |
| from adulterous-k : |
| sweet of you to say that - but it makes me feel guilty! My life is a breeze compared to yours just now. And the pill thing - don't think about it. If you had some other chemical deficiency that had to be rectified b a daily tablet you wouldn't be concerned about it. This really is no different. Thinking of you, and hoping for that upturn soon. xx |
| from iwanttotell : |
| Thanks for the Foamy link-I checked out a few and they are hilarious! Keep on laughin'. Hugs |
| from avalonte : |
| The fact you're able to laugh is wonderful! You're right it really can change your mood having a good laugh. But sometimes it's so hard to actually find something that makes you laugh. I'm glad you have something. |
| from second-love : |
| thanks for your note... im always SO glad to hear from ya. you make me feel less crazy. i DO feel crazy, ya know??? |
| from bare-my-soul : |
| thank you for your note. means a lot. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am so glad you didn't cut. I am proud of you. I know how difficult it is, especially when you have the tool right there. I have some stupid blade that I have at work, I guess I should get rid of it but even just seen it gives me power. Because the power is all in me. I can decide to cut. Or not. And you didn't. Which makes you more powerful than you even know. I think more people should know whats going on with you. Because I think you need attention now. Now more than ever. You need to be spoiled and listened to and helped. And I wish I was there. xoxox |
| from avalonte : |
| I'm glad you didn't cut. But I totally understand the control thing. The fact that it's the one area you have complete control, absolute automony. But I'm glad you get that by resisting the urge you are equally using that power. x |
| from second-love : |
| Sometimes when we are going through hard times, we think it makes it easier to keep it to ourselves. I would submit that that is really not the case! Get as much help as you need by as many people as you can!!! Support and encouragement are the best sources of recovery. Isolation can destroy you if you let it. Think about you everyday sweetie. Am here for you *hugs* |
| from yo-bitch : |
| thanks so much for the compliment. i'm sure you know that i feed on them. i know it's of little consequence, but i think you're pretty fucking cool as well. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I think Abe deserves a good "talking to" if you ask me. I guess I just keep thinking that you are taking this much better than I think anyone else would. You have to express your anger. My notes sound so lame. I guess I don't know how to really express myself with writing...sorry. I am glad you are going to continue with therapy. I think it's the best for now. Give it a chance. Who knows, maybe it will really give you a little bit of help? Take care honey. xoxo Kathy |
| from avalonte : |
| Our BB5 or the US one? |
| from iwanttotell : |
| I hope things improve for you soon, Love. Hugs |
| from mineirinha : |
| "when I lost it I felt myself being lost" - yep yep - I know how that feels. But add a tonne of guilt on top of that shitty lost feeling and you have what I went through. oh joy. |
| from second-love : |
| I think we ALL wish we could have something that lasts as long as Kevins. I am terrified of "the end". It really IS inevitable, isn't it?? Yet we all make the choice to be right where we are. I have had MANY opportunities to give it all up. I COULD just NOT log on to the IM... to NOT answer emails or phone calls. But i COULDNT!!!! Damn... I LOVE him. SHIT FUCK AND ALL THAT OTHER STUFF!!! I'm screwed. |
| from stelanotte : |
| Sending hugs and good vibes your way.....XOXO Cheri |
| from second-love : |
| Man... its gotta be hard seein him and i worry about you. It sorta annoys me that he comes over acting all "happy" when you are so miserable. It would be better if he just DIDNT come at all. It has to be just a slap in the face to you especially after all the things he said to you about never leaving. MAN... men can be soooooooooo stupid and insensitive. And i KNOW that you cant just turn on and off love. Im thinkin about you sweetie... and with everything else you've been going through i KNOW its hard. Hang in there, k?? *hugs* |
| from mineirinha : |
| to quote you "Now that I’ve seen Abe, I want to see him again. The best thing for me to do right now is avoid him like the plague that he has become to me. He’s already stripped me of everything; I don’t want to go through that again." Geez - I know EXACTLY how that feels. And yes - avoid him like the plague. I thought that after my avoidance of TheEx for a good month or so - no contact nothing, that i'd be all "yeah! i dont want/need/care about you anymore!" and nup - that was so not the case. Particularly when they're being "nice" because they are nice people and not arseholes, who are much easier to distance oneself from. *sigh* men. Bloody hell. I think perhaps another arsehole would be easier to deal with than another "nice" guy in my case. But then again - I can't even bear to think of having a relationship with anyone at the moment. Time for "me time". *HUGZ* |
| from starlight42 : |
| Read your entry about your ex, Vince. Or at least he appears to be. Anyway, wanted to say I can sympathize, I had similar things done to me in an old relationship. Blow-up doll says it well. It sucks, because it's hard to get over that shit. Anyway, just wanted to say you weren't alone in that feeling. |
| from divaredneck : |
| hey if you have yahoo messenger, say hi sometime :) ---screename is redhdredneck |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| Hugs sweetie. Lots of hugs from me...xoxo |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| You have every right to be bitter....Go eat something honey! I don't know what to say, since I know I can't take away what you are feeling. Just know that you are in my thoughts. xoxo Kathy |
| from avalonte : |
| I love Incubus! One of my favourite bands! And damn right, don't give Morning View back!!! |
| from mineirinha : |
| Oh hon, i'm sorry about the loss. Good to see your inner strength shinning through though. Take good care of yourself. And yes, try to move on. Don't just push everything into a dark little corner of your mind under some rubbish though, or it will come back later and fuck you up again - but try to let it go - really let it go. It will take time, but you can do it. Once it's all gone then it's all new brighter and better :) *HUGZ* |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am amazed at your inner strength. I would pack up everything and give up. You are strong and I hope things will start looking up for you. Take care sweetie. xoxo Kathy |
| from sleepyzoe : |
| I don't even know what to say. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'm so sorry things turned out this way. It breaks my heart to read about your pain. I wish I could tuck you in and let you sleep until it all goes away. You're an amazing woman, and at the risk of sounding trite, you'll be even more amazing when you come through it. We're all here for you! *bigbigbig hugs* |
| from ceciliaruns : |
| i have been where you are and felt what you feel. it was one of the most horrific and life changing experiences i've ever had. and when i came out of it i painted the best paintings of my life. so don't be afraid. the hurting is never useless. |
| from second-love : |
| You ARE strong and i admire you SOOOOOOOO much. Im here for you WHATEVER you decide! *more hugs* |
| from second-love : |
| We ALL need one :) |
| from tragic-kiss : |
| sorry for what you've been going through hon - looks like i missed a lot whilst i was away. a new start is a good idea though... all the best in succeeding x |
| from second-love : |
| YES... you shouldn't be alone... i agree with Kevin. You need the strength and support of your family. When you are done with the band... you need to head home! You ARE strong, but real strength is revealed in weakness and knowing when you need help. Thinking and praying for you always *hugs* |
| from iwanttotell : |
| I couldn't be sorrier for your losses. You're a strong woman-hang in there, Honey. Hugs |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I am so sorry. I wish there was something I could do. xoxox Kathy |
| from adulterous-k : |
| We all do. You so need someone to wrap you up, keep you safe and take away the pain. Maybe this is one time when you have to go home? xx |
| from avalonte : |
| I just re-read my note and realised how meaningless and insignificant the "sending you hugs" part sounds! I'm sorry. I wish there were something more productive I could do. x |
| from avalonte : |
| Shit! I'm so sorry honey! Like you say, fate decided for you. (well, you said god, but I don't believe). Don't blame yourself. If it was viable and if it was meant to be it would have withstood the stress, the vomitting, the lack of sleep and lack of food! I've known people to do far worse, and still not lose it. It's sad because the choice was taken out of your hands. Whatever you would have chosen is immaterial. There are no words to comfort you, so I'm sending hugs! x |
| from mineirinha : |
| sucks about the band - i'm sorry. I'm sure you'll kick arse in another band soon :) and welcome to your new diary! |
| from second-love : |
| Ok... well the way i look at it... you have hit your bottom... nowhere to go but UP!!! Soooooo we are just gonna start fresh! LOVE the new layout and i think you are right... best to start fresh in EVERY way. You ROCK girl... and you WILL have even a better life and BETTER band. *hugs* |
| from avalonte : |
| Assholes! I'm so sorry babe! *hugs* |
| from anamal : |
| wow...too bad you're not in the band anymore. I could have been your groupie. No, no. Only kidding. You have a kickass layout and you're an awesome writer. Chin up, eh. |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| OMG. I am so sorry. I am so impressed as to how well you seem to be taking all this. Although I wish you were around here so I could give you a big hug and let you know that I am there for you. And that things usually happen for a reason and have their own way of working out. Take care. xoxo Kathy |
| from stelanotte : |
| Love to new site. Keep in touch! xoxo |
| from krugerpak007 : |
| I like the template a lot. I hope that X-plicity brings you only happiness and good things. xoxo Kathy |
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