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from mel-is-dvash :
Hi Paula, so, do you spin? I mean fibre into yarn, not the stationary bike kind - confused the heck out of me the first time I heard that. I used to love to spin, and although it's been years now, I am clinging to the hope it's like bicycle riding (not the stationary kind), and I can pick it up again someday.
from kidzpinkcat :
I dunno, I think she may have blown it. She's done this to our family so many times before in the past, I'm surprised the family hasn't collectivly thrown her away the way she's decided to do to us. Know what? She sucks.
from boxx9000 :
11-22-07 HAPPY THANKSGIVING
from fairygodmum :
Hope you still check your notes here. Your house looks spectacular! What a haunted garden, the kids musta been reallyyyyy scared to walk past that graveyard. Soooo Spooky! What a beautiful neighborhood the autumn leaves looks so surreal, the changes in the season is lovely there. We just get a little fog and earthquakes.. hehehe Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from fairygodmum :
You know gurl... I walked into the dog washing area and my long forgotten asthma kicked in. Dunno if I'll be able to even breath around that much dog hair. Gosh I forgot about that. What am I to tell the manager? She's so kewl. Who knows... the Fall Equinox with a Full Moon is sure to be exciting no matter what! Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from acaldwell :
that video is precious!! thank you!!
from poolagirl :
Rest up, lady! I'm glad you are getting some much-needed time off.
from mahvalicious :
That video was absolutely wonderful. Hope you're feeling better as the days go by. Sounds like stress induced pain caused by a jerk boss.
from forty-plus :
I hope your workload will continue to lighten and your stress will lessen. Good for you for going to the doctor! Because I am a complete and total sap, that video had me in tears. :)
from hissandtell :
Bambi and Thumper, together again! How absolutely gorgeous. (And I'm sending you all my best thoughts to feel much, much better soon...) Love, R xxx
from forty-plus :
I agree with acaldwell. This is too unhealthy for you and nothing is worth that. {{{Hugs}}}
from wyndspirit :
Everybody is jumping ship! :( Let me know where!
from acaldwell :
Paula.....STOP!!! its time for a "mental health break!" continuing at this frantic, insane work pace will be the death of you!!! for your own soberiety, you must STOP!!! nanoman and his company will survive without you!! you dont owe him anything!! quit this maddening job forthwith, you will find another job, a better one where you aint banging you head on the wall and working with incompetentants!!! have to talked to your sponsor? are you going to meetings? reel that line in, this fish is way too big for you!!! i will be praying for you!! (((((HUGS))))
from boxx9000 :
(((hugs))) I really LOVED having Dave as a house husband but he did EVERYTHING from cooking and cleaning to shopping and laundry etc. It would have been such a drag to have Dave at home if he hadn't been helping out. (unless there is some OTHER hidden talent like GREAT in bed or something) Now Dave is back to work and making more $$ than me. TWO incomes make sucha difference. He STILL does all the shopping and cooking but now I have to share all the other cleaning duties like laundry etc. Only YOU can decide when YOU have had enough. ((((hugs))))
from poolagirl :
WOW! Your boss is a JERK! Those expectations are totally unreasonable.
from m-lewis :
Hey Paula, Wow! I can't believe how long it's been since I looked at everyone's diary. My buddy list looked as red as a stop light this morning -- warning, warning, you haven't read your buddies' diaries. Anyway. As always I LOVED catching up on yours. You have such a way with words. I'm off to Mtn. Home. Catch up with you later.
from boxx9000 :
BOXX HAS MOVED DIARIES. YOU CAN FIND ME AT: http://boxx9000.wordpress.com/
from h2ophobic :
Hi Paula, I've set up a new diary at Vox. It's set up as http://cdwinmt.vox.com Come by and say hi when you get a chance.
from minstrelite :
I have a friend who has no idea when the last time he had a drink was, and never had a problem with any substances at all, but bottomed out in life some years ago, and goes to a meeting every day. Like I said, if not having a drink is the only "membership fee" I have to pay to get my spiritual priciples and sober thinking back, I'm more than willing, at this point, to pay it.
from chaosdaily :
bummer you are on salary. its like that here, too, salary means you work the hours you need to get the job done. im on salary too. it was nice though when i didnt work for 8 weeks and i still got paid~!
from minstrelite :
I never knew about the cicada invasion. That sounds totally weird. Anyway, I'm writing again, only because I got back into the program. I hadn't even been drinking -- well, I never had a problem, half a beer or a glass of wine here or three, I didn't even care -- it's just that my thinking had been becoming increasingly less sober, and I finally had to do something. I'm still all messed up, it's hotter than hell in the Village these days (upper 90's) and I'm sleeping 13 or 14 hours a day.
from boxx9000 :
If you want MORE pay and pay for all the EXTRA hours you put in.....then I will suggest you NOT go into teaching. hehehehehe. On a serious note, everyone deserves a decent work environment. If you aren't ahppy there then it is time to go and find something that DOES make you happy. (((hugs)))
from chaosdaily :
you can keep track of all those unpaid overtime hours, and make him pay you after you quit.. you have to threaten to tell the state labor board.. they love hearing things like that! most employers just pay up to avoid being closed down.
from acaldwell :
diaryland had a spasm, a black hole farted, spring hath sprung, and a pig blood story!!! i wanna hear the pig blood story!!! wheeeeeee!!! oh ya i tryed to post this note b4, but dland sez ima spammer!!!
from boxx9000 :
I don't like any Hollywood types EXCEPT to watch them in the movies. I do NOT want to hear ANYTHING about their personal lives. I did hear the rant and it was bad but I thought the same as you, "WHO would tape it and broadcast it?" I would HATE to live my life in the public eye. I would HATE if someone broadcast me having a meltdown and yelling at my kids. Maybe he is the biggest jerk in the world, maybe it was an isolated thing. Either way, I don't want to hear about it, it is NOT news, it's personal stuff and NOT for entertainment. I am in agreement with you on this one.
from m-lewis :
I love birdhouses. Dwain builds them for me usually. So far we have an owl box, a bat house, several blue bird houses and a purple martin apartment complex. My son, Chris, recently gave me a bamboo birdhouse/windchime. If I had a hand thrown bird house, I'd just die (smile). You're so lucky
from h2ophobic :
"A hand thrown pottery birdhouse to add to my newly started birdhouse collection, this being the first piece in the collection." You crack me up!
from wyndspirit :
Hope it heals soon!
from cosmicrayola :
Wow. I have heard the saying, "It's better than a stick in the eye", but you really know now from experience! Heal soon!!! (((hugs)))
from boxx9000 :
That note you left for me about leaving your car running had me laughing outloud! Oh, you win the prize for the best story, I can't even imagine.......I'm so sorry about your eye, but it's true, as soon as you injure something then you can't stop bumping it over and over. hehehehe. I hope you are healed and mended soon.
from chaosdaily :
ok its a deal! i just have to figure out how to work, do my exercises, and get out of the house for fun without overdoing it.
from acaldwell :
im happy the surgery went well, but pleese, keep ya fingers outta the eye!!!!
from bunny828 :
Sounds like more fun than I'd want to have. I hope you heal up quickly!
from h2ophobic :
Yay for your surgery being over and done with. I hope your recovery is speedy and easy!
from chaosdaily :
no im only allowed to work 4 hours a day. doctors orders!
from just2cusmile :
glad it went well and im sending you fast healing vibes your way!!
from sasori-gal :
Wow~you are brave! Glad that the surgery went well. I tried to imagine what that ordeal must have been like! Take it easy and have a speedy, pain-free recovery! :)
from m-lewis :
I didn't know Art lived in Utah. Yeah, Art, don't be so greedy with the warm air. I, too, am a huge fan of audio books. I've got one in my car right now. Since I just talked to you via e-mail, I won't stress your weepy, crusty eye any further. I know it hurts.
from forty-plus :
I'm so pleased your surgery went so well. Happy Healing!
from acaldwell :
wow!!! what an ordeal you went thru to get the eyes done!! was the catracks in both eyes or just the one? ill give spring back, its on the way over there!! hehehe!!!
from mahvalicious :
Yeah, that Art holding spring captive. Isn't he something? We could sure use some of it up here in Minnesota. It was only 5 degrees at 7 a.m. this morning. Good thing the Easter Rabbit wears a fur coat!! Have a nice holiday and enjoy that "new eye."
from poolagirl :
YAY! I'm so glad your surgery went well!
from minstrelite :
From her performance (or the lack of it) it doesn't sound as though you'd have all that much slack to pick up once he lets her go. At least you won't have to worry about someone downloading a different browswer when you're all on one network. Maybe you can advertise for a more mature person in the interim? I don't really know the situation, I just read it through once and got the general picture. Anyway, we did finish yesterday and it's at Andy Pope dot Org, you can navigate to the Music Page and click on "Monument." I'd have done it differently with more money for human resources, and less reliance on keyboard/synthesizers. Wish I could find a studio that had a real acoustic grand piano in it....but this is still the best I've come up with so far. Enjoy your day.
from poolagirl :
I absolutely HOWLED at the licorice comment! Thank goodness I wasn't trying to drink root beer. It's actually too late for root beer. I have limits about such things.
from forty-plus :
Sounds like that little woodland creature needs a bit of a whack with the reality swatter. Maybe this IS good supervisory practice!
from acaldwell :
what a waste of time and money she is!!! eek!!
from minstrelite :
Hi Paula, thanks for the reply. I actually did not make it through this time. I'm sure you know what I mean, so I'm starting from Square One again (only we don't refer to it as "Square") and the Final Mix was re-scheduled for Tuesday. The sound engineer understood, and said he's shoot one Up for me. I'm with you on the writing--I'm 50 something myself, and it would be a drag for life to go by with talents left without use or development. Good luck on your novel.
from poolagirl :
Oh God! Nanoman sounds like a doofus! I am looking for work too - for different reasons. When I merely commented on the fact that there weren't any minorities at the car museum conference last week, he said, "Well, minorities don't really get into museums that much." Can you believe that? Time to go.
from sunstarr :
Paula, thanks for your comment on my page! If you're wanting some great recipes, lemme know. I'm chock full of 'em.... you see, I'm a vegetarian (if you weren't already aware) and I have some tasty recipes that aren't too difficult to make and yet keep you full. I have to commend you on your healthy lifestyle... sounds to me like you're right on track with your eating habits. I wouldn't say that I'd recommend giving up sugar completely, but definitely monitor and limit how much you consume (and what kind) each day. Avoid high fructose corn syrup as an ingredient for example. Pure cane sugar or evaporated cane juice has a much better reaction in the body in terms of the glycemic scale. And as far as dark chocolate goes, Hershey's is *NOT* real chocolate... too much sugar and they still add dairy to it. You want to reap the benefits of dark chocolate, visit your local health foods store (where do you live?) and pick up one of these brands: Rapunzel, Endangered Species, Chocolate Love, or Tropical Source. Feel free to pick my brain any time. My email address is: citrusgirrl at hotmail dot com. Thanks again for stopping by my page! Have a wonderful day and hope to hear from you real soon!
from wyndspirit :
Watch the yogurt. It's so tart, it has a ton of sugar. When I had a consultation with a dietician after my stomach surgery, I said something about loving frozen yogurt. She said regular ice cream was much better for me, because the yogurt had so much sugar (sugar being a big issue with the side effects of the surgery). Good luck on the changes!
from minstrelite :
Hi Paula. Not sure if you've read me lately. I've been having serious major problems & somehow managing to conceal them from everyone in my "real world" -- what's the old saw about the guy who has an uncanny knack for getting tight just before some important deal is going to go through in his favor? We're supposed to (finally) do the Final Mix of the Finale of my musical in the studio tomorrow (Friday). I hope I make it there. Gonna make some phone calls.
from acaldwell :
how about a nice bowl of bran flakes or all bran with 2% milk? theres a source of fiber!! good luck!!
from boxx9000 :
I went vegetarian at the begining of this school year. It has been easy and completely effortless. I do NOT regret my decision nor do I miss meat at all. Going meatless is now a habit. I like your idea of one small life change at a time until it becomes habit.
from wyndspirit :
When I first moved back to ND I lived in a college town with also a huge population of migrant workers. Any time of the year, if we (anybody) wanted to discard something, especially furniture, we'd set it out on the curb and within half an hour somebody would come by and snatch it up. I remember the old recliner I threw out of my apt. when I moved in being crammed in a little hatchback. I think that one went to college kids...
from acaldwell :
yea i draw the line on mattresses!! this was fun to read!! i used to go dumpster diving with a friend and pick up truck to college campsuses in june when the kids go home!! oh the stereos, vcr's tee vees and the sorts!! $$$$
from m-lewis :
I probably would have wanted to walk down the block just to see what other people consider junk -- but then again, I'm curious by nature.
from chaosdaily :
lol you are right, i would only take a mattress from someone i knew, and not if it was set out at their curb!
from h2ophobic :
I am always amazed at what people will take if it's marked "free." I guess if you don't have a mattress and you find one...a can of lysol only costs a couple of bucks. That's a great idea your city has. We don't have anything like that here, so once (or twice, depending on how much crap we accumulate) a year we load up the truck and take it to the dump.
from boxx9000 :
I guess there's nothing quite like the word, "FREE".....like cat nip! hehehehehehehe. I'm a minimalist. I like to keep my worldly goods at a bare minimum.
from m-lewis :
My boss is a nano-manager too. But then again, he is anal about every single thing involved in his world (as I suspect your boss is as well). And when it comes to training a new woodland creature -- guess who gets picked to do the training? You guessed it. If boss is unhappy with something new woodland creature is doing? that's right, he asks ME to tell her, and I'm not even her supervisor. Makes for good co-worker relationships, doesn't it?
from cosmicrayola :
I can make enough mistakes myself without having to take the blame for an underlings screw-up too. Nope. Don't want to be a boss.
from chaosdaily :
but ive worked in a clinic and posted a lot of insurance payments... and i watch what is being charged, and what is being paid. i have a stack of eob's (explanation of benefits) to go through already and i know how to read them!
from acaldwell :
yep. just like the captain of a ship, you are responsible for the actions of your crew. i wanna thank you for bringing me a lil bit down to earth with your comments today!!! sometimes i forget what i been taught, and i panic too quickly, and start projecting. its hard, but i will stop projecting. thanks!!! ♥ and i wanna hear about the lil woodland creature you supervise. is his name woody? hahahah!!!
from cosmicrayola :
I told my doctor I will agree to a colonoscopy when he agrees to a mamogram. Call me 7-Up. Never had it, never will.
from m-lewis :
Paula, I had my very first colonoscopy three years ago. The colonoscopy wasn't the bad part. The bad part was the "prep" where I had to drink some vile medicine that starts with the word "FLEET." Fleet's purpose? to completely cleanse the digestive tract. It's been suggested I have another one this year. I only hope they've invented a pill I can take, you know, kind of like X-Lax.
from h2ophobic :
You are so funny! The colonoscopy suggestion explains your last note to me. ;0)
from acaldwell :
awwwww you wasnt being too graphic for me!!!!
from boxx9000 :
P.S. of course you are welcome to come to dinner at our place ANYTIME! Dave is a GREAT cook.
from boxx9000 :
OMG. I got scoped because I *THOUGHT* I might have some sort of problem (turned out I just needed to drink MORE water) ANYWAYS (not to scare you or anything hehehe) But I swore I would NEVER EVER complain of another plumbing problem EVER! I refuse to ever get scoped again. However, Kelly's best friend's Dad just DIED (age 51) from colon cancer. (sigh)
from hissandtell :
Sending you all my best quick-healy-thoughts for the 4th, possum. Love, R xxx
from h2ophobic :
THAT is exactly why I hate going to the doctor...they ALWAYS find something wrong. ;0) Good luck on surgery. I took my Grama for her cataract surgery and I remember it going amazingly well. She was up and about almost before I could get her home! Don't forget to wear your sunglasses though...I think you'll have to wear good sunglasses forever now. Get some really cool "movie star" ones!
from cosmicrayola :
Glad you are super heathy! Well, except the eye thing. Yes, 50 is a very special age. I hit it 3 years ago. Ib all fairness though, my biggie medical problems were all between 40 and 50. Get that pap smear and we can all breath easier for ya.
from acaldwell :
moocher had the cataracks in both eyes and got them removed one eye at a time with a 2 week window involved, and he turned out just as lazy as ever!!! heheh!! you will be ok, im sure of it!! ((((HUGS)))))))
from chaosdaily :
i know what you mean. they did a presurgical ekg on me and found "something" wrong, so now i have to go back and have a stress test when my ankle can handle it..
from boxx9000 :
3-18-07 I saw your name lit up on my buddy list and I let out a little scream of HOORAY! I'm sorry about the medical things. THINK POSITIVE. YOU control THEM and don't let them control YOU! OK? I'm 51 and I'm NOT falling apart (yet) WELCOME BACK! WhEeeEEE! How is your daughter?
from poolagirl :
Glad to see you back, kiddo! So glad your surgery will be minor. Too bad about missing all that garden clean-up, however. Dang!
from boxx9000 :
3-14-07. WHERE ARE YOU THESE DAYS?????? I wanted to let you know that I got hired as a 6th grade teacher for next year. WheEeeEE1
from laineyducks :
You can do it Paula - you've already come so far :)
from acaldwell :
take charge of your life!!! good for you!!! go get em, and devour them!!!
from wyndspirit :
I get you about the "lot in life" thing... And that we aren't bound by it. Go for it!!! I'm reaching that point myself. Would have flown the coop when I didn't get a raise this year except I care too much about my clients to leave them in the lurch. But once my main client is gone, all bets are off!
from boxx9000 :
(((hugs))) change is good (just scary) but also EMPOWERING
from chaosdaily :
that first decision is the hardest to make. go for it!!!!
from h2ophobic :
Good for you! I'm sorry that your life is sucking the life (bad pun) out of you. I'm praying that you keep your courage and find the life you deserve. God bless!
from forty-plus :
Sounds like you are preparing properly for Independence Day! You deserve it, no question about it.
from acaldwell :
go get em paula!!! and dont worry, you aint gonna be livin inna cardboard boxx!! (((((HUGGSSS)))))) look out for #1 aint no one else doing that!!!
from catsoul :
It is so wonderful to wake up one morning and realize that your dream is coming true. That you are going to be true to yourself and in control of your own destiny and life choices. It is fabulous for you. Just stick with it, there are things more important in life than "things" so to speak. So with that said, I am so very joyful for you. Take care. =^..^=
from mahvalicious :
Woo Hoo - I LOVE your attitude. Don't change it. You have to take care of yourself first before you can take care of anybody else.
from poolagirl :
Your cottage life with a fun sounds like magic! Go for it!
from boxx9000 :
((((hugs)))) Have you seen THE SECRET??????
from poolagirl :
Hi! Where ya been?
from boxx9000 :
♥ HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY ♥
from beyondpanic :
Believe it or not, I'm the one in the family who does all the shouting during the game. My two sons played football for years and I learned the game from watching them. My husband likes to brag to his friends that I watch all of the games with him! Congrats to the Colts, but Go Eagles in 2008!
from m-lewis :
HA, HA, HA, HA! A laugh a day is a good thing. I'm not laughing because the bears lost. Your entry was hysterical... a real keeper. Sorry. I would have rooted for Da Bears, but Dwain and I don't watch TV anymore so I had no idea (until today) who won or who lost. Besides, I'd have been watching the game the same way you did -- my book of the moment is way better than a football game. On another note, I loved your previous entry, the one of the guy playing George Harrison's "While My Guitar Gently Weeps" on his Ukulele (sorry if I spelled it wrong). Mattie Mae and Dwain's sister actually play in a very large ukulele band. They generally perform in senior centers, churches and nursing homes, and are very entertaining.
from shear-madnez :
I don't know much about football but I do know a tight end when I see one. *Snort*
from sasori-gal :
Thank you very much for your kind words of support. Your thoughtfulness meant a lot to me and I appreciate you taking the time to leave me a comment. I also appreciate your help in the public aid reference. I'm going to ask my parents to check into everything and talk to our lawyers because it's all very confusing~ this is actually the first death on my mom's side so she needs to look into all of this. Hope all is going well with you. Take good care and thanks again.
from acaldwell :
hahahahaaa!!! you crack me up!!! poor bears.
from poolagirl :
I'll try not to say WOOT!
from poolagirl :
Ah.....we call the horse's doovers.
from boxx9000 :
I will root for the bears today and have a ROOT BEER. hehehehe
from mahvalicious :
Thanks for the comments regarding the family issues. It took me awhile, but I've learned to live with it. As far as the Super Bowl goes, I think Ole will be rooting for the Bears also - he says it's going to be difficult because he's a Vikings fan and they're supposed to HATE the Bears, but ya' gotta do what ya' gotta do!! I think we'll be going down to our Local Watering Hole as they're putting out a big spread and have a big screen TV. I'm not a football fan so I may just stay home. Happy Super Bowl.
from acaldwell :
hors d'oeuvres!! heh! A Holiday! imagine that! i guess the govenor of illinois decreed super bowl sunday to be a holiday! but, federal law mandates that holidays be observed on mondays! heh! i'll be watching, but, i'll be rooting for whos ever winning! no party here just me and zipper!! woo! woo! im such a party animal!
from hissandtell :
Heh. You said "Root". Root for bears, in fact. Where I come from, that's bestiality and most definitely on par with blaspheming, missy! Love, R xxx
from poolagirl :
What an amazing video! What amazing talent!
from acaldwell :
that was beautiful!! thanks!!!
from forty-plus :
That was amazing! Thanks for sharing.
from boxx9000 :
I very much enjoyed listening to that George Harrison song. My son can play just about anything on a guitar. He has one song he plays (and I request it) I say, "Play that sad song" and it makes my CRY EVERY single time. I don't know WHY but it does. That wasn't a regular size guitar that guy was playing was it? It looked more like a ukulele? Music fascinates me. I am in AWE of anyone with musical talent (as I am very lacking in the musical talent department)
from mahvalicious :
He's an extremely talented young man. Thanks for sharing.
from forty-plus :
I loved your description of the winter sunrise!
from m-lewis :
I didn't know you had to travel through a forest on a country road. Sounds like where I live. You entry was beautiful, like looking at a snapshot of what you wanted me to REALLY see. This entry would make a good poem.
from shear-madnez :
I adore sunrises. I loved this entry. So picturesque.
from acaldwell :
i have seen shows like that before. i miss them!
from wyndspirit :
Still getting caught up... Sorry you've had it so rough! I think of you and your MIL problems when I try to advise/console/whatever my 90 Y.O. client's daughters. I don't know if it makes it harder that she was the world's kindest person and especially close to daughter #1 till the dementia started up, and now she is SO MEAN to her, to both daughters, but worse to her. (Her sons can do no wrong, even the ones that show up maybe once every few weeks, but her daughters who are her primary caregivers are so "crabby" and "ungrateful" and "mean." Go figure...) I explain over and over that she is hardest on them because she trusts them and dares vent to them when she is so frustrated. I've seen it with other sweet-natured clients who've turned on their spouses when the dementia struck. "This, too, shall pass..." And when all is said and done, you will never regret all you did for her.
from m-lewis :
I didn't score 100%. But then again, I'm not good with tests. I could have cheated by looking the answers up in my bible. But the testers were impressed at my 90%. Now I'll have to look up the answers. This was my favorite question: In Jesus' parable, who stopped to help a man in need? Donald Trump Donald Duck Don Knotts A good Samaritan. I about laughed myself silly.
from acaldwell :
Dats Mighty Impressive, Rev. Paula!! wheeeee!
from hissandtell :
Gracious, now *that*'s scary. Or impressive. Or both. Now, can you explain the Bible to me, please? Start at the very beginning... Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
i remember 1985. somewhat. hehehe. that was a grand time you guys had!! i like chicago, i really do! i feel at home there, but, in 1985, the bears cheated to win the super bowl. i remember seeing that game on tee vee. (((((((HUGS))))))
from mahvalicious :
I dunno, Yarnsmith, I think the Minnesota Vikings are right up there in the Big Losers category!! Great memories. Thanks for sharing.
from m-lewis :
I could just see it. I could see it all through your eyes. The only ticker-tape parades I've ever seen have been in movie theaters or news footage from long, long ago. What a wonderful moment in time to share. When I get to Mtn. Home today, I'll have to ask Dennis if he remembers that parade. Go Bears!
from just2cusmile :
even though i was pulling for the Saints last weekend i'll never forget that superbowl when the bears won-the superbowl shuffle,the fridge,jim mcmann(cant stand him),mike ditka etc...it was all about the bears that year and i cant even remember who they played...i love it when cities get into their sports and chicago has some major fans....i am pulling for the colts though ;)
from boxx9000 :
ummmmmmmm....you MUST be a Bears Fan. hehehehehe.
from m-lewis :
I remember the bears doing SuperBowl Shuffle -- back when music videos were all the rage on M-TV. How did you remember all the words? It's funny. At first I thought you had made up your own jingle until I realized -- hey, this sounds familiar. Since Arkansas doesn't have a team national football team they back (unless you consider the Razorbacks a national team), I'll just pick yours.
from shear-madnez :
Congratulations! I'm sad that we didn't win but hey, that's our Saints. They're good for keeping your heart rate up.
from h2ophobic :
You're so funny! I had no idea that you're a footfall fan!
from acaldwell :
oh poo!!
from kidzpinkcat :
Umm, yeah for the Bears and all that..snnnnnnore...Oh sorry I was cheering for some football team you like, wasn't I? Sorry! I used to like football until I met my husband, and now I am what they call a sports widow. I lost my husband due to the football/basketball/baseball season, and when that's not going on it's "fantasy football" or golf or God help me but I once caught him watching bowling. I am now officially a hater of all sports. Overkill.
from m-lewis :
I took your quiz. Here are my results: Your Quirk Factor: 55% You're a pretty quirky person, but you're just normal enough to hide it. Congratulations - you've fooled other people into thinking you're just like them! As to your entry today, I want you to know that I was thinking the exact same thing just last week. In fact, I wrote about it in my "private" journal -- the one I keep on my bedside table. In some ways, this was going on back in the 60s, around here anyway: The New, All Electric, Subdivion Homes. The people who live in those all electric homes suffer the most when the power goes out. I warned my oldest daughter againt that very thing when she moved into one of those "all electric, subdivision homes" earlier this year. Guess What? She lost several tropical fish when Southern Missouri had a terrible ice storm last weekend -- that and they nearly froze to death before they found a propane heater at Bass Pro Shop. P.S.: Thank you for your wise and insightful words you left for me on my last entry. They comforted me more than you'll ever EVER know. You are a dear friend. Thank you!
from beyondpanic :
...and did you ever notice that there are no children playing outside of those houses? No children riding bikes, playing hide and go seek, or catching fireflies. No kids, no pets, just who the hell is living in those houses?
from h2ophobic :
We're going through the same thing here with new housing...it used to be a lovely 10 mile drive from here to Big City. So many housing developments have been built that it's almost non-stop houses from Small Town to there. It's so sad to me. I know people need a place to live, but I miss the open space. I've noticed too that the houses being built are all clones of each other.
from forty-plus :
Normal and average are boring, which you are NOT!
from acaldwell :
i remember trucking back in the mid 80's thru there and remember the nice scenery.. as far as them "homeowners associations" go, they can go sit and spin. they have no legal standing at all, despite what people seem to think. if i owned a home in one of them places, i'd run them off like a bad habit. (((((HUGS)))))
from boxx9000 :
I LOVE earth tone colours. I'd rather blend in with the environment than clash. The newer homes are *green* homes, energy efficient, made with reyclable materials. The smaller the footprint left on this planet the better.
from beyondpanic :
"MACHOLE" So funny. I could just hear it!
from beyondpanic :
Hi Paula, Thanks for your encouraging words. One day at a time... joan
from laineyducks :
Oh Paula. I disappeared for a while and while I'm glad to be back I'm incredibly sorry to read about your struggles with your MIL. It's an incredible disease that is rough on EVERYONE involved. *HUGS* No matter what - she's being taken care of where she is now.
from kidzpinkcat :
I agree with what mom said. It was so hard to deal with my grandmother before she became really bad. I remember a day when she insulted me to my face and told me I would never go far in life. I can't really remember what we were talking about before that but I knew even then that it was not her I was talking to. I knew she was having problems with her mind so I tried not to let it hurt me, but obviously I will never forget it. There were funny times too. I remember she was cutting up two pies for company and putting the slices on plates. She put every single slice (almost 10 slices) on a plate for four guests. I just let her do it. It's also something I will never forget. I've lost her and all I have now are my memories, good and bad. Someday your MIL will be gone too. Maybe someday you will look back on this and laugh. (maybe)
from sunnflower :
Happy New Year, hon. Thank you so much for adding a link to your notes! So much easier to comment now. My MIL had Alzheimer's and it was difficult for all concerned. It's a very harsh disease - it must be hard to lose yourself like that. Good job hanging in there. Next time, no matter what she says, don't wake up your man.
from mahvalicious :
What an awful position to be in. It takes a very special person to put up with the things you do. Good luck.
from m-lewis :
Paula, I feel so very bad for you. You know I do. I've traveled this difficult path you are now on, and it was my very own mother, not my MIL. At first, none of us knew what was going on with Mother; she became so mean-spirited. Not toward me so much, but toward my father. I actually remember her calling me 13 times in one hour complaining about one thing or another. Talk about not wanting to answer the phone. And this was before caller ID became a common telephone feature. I now know it was one of the first signs of true dementia. I don't know the answer. Some day it will all be over though. Some day she'll forget how to talk -- and walk; some day she will not remember how to dial a phone. She won't even know what it's for. Keep a personal journal of this time. What things worked, what didn't. How you feel (like your entry today). Through your recorded memories you might be able to help someone else. I kept a private, personal journal. I'm so glad I did.
from cosmicrayola :
Thank God that at least she doesn't live with you and she doesn't even seem to want to talk to you. If she liked you it would probably be worse.
from acaldwell :
that is really sad paula. and i believe you to be really passionate to put up with her. ((((HUGS)))))
from kidzpinkcat :
Something interesting about live trees that was done in the old town I used to live in. They would gather up all the old trees and drive them down to the lakes. They would throw each one into the water one by one because they served as a natual breeding ground and safe haven for fish and their eggs. So in a way, the live tree you took home to make your home lively, was use as a literal home for others. They ARE still good after the holidays! Oh, and by the way...I happen to LOVE the tree my mom puts up year after year. I prefered the old fashioned 1950's white bristel tree though. Now that one was so cool and SO retro. Mom was actually cool! Ha-ha
from just2cusmile :
this was a very visual entry and i loved it :) we have always gotten real trees and they do smell so good and in our town they recyle them by putting them on the beach to help against erosion but last year after christmas sale I bought our first artificial tree-pre lit-and white-and it looked cute this year and was soooo easy to take down with no mess-so im torn between a real tree and a fake one-i might give the fake one another year!! I did buy one of the lil real trees and sat it in my Kitchen and im probabling going to replant it-it looks like it has roots :)
from m-lewis :
Dwain would have loved that idea of yours to gather all the neighborhood Christmas trees and assemble them into a fort. He claims that was one of the great joys of life, building forts. Me? I was always wanting to build a tree house, but Mother wouldn't let me. As an aside, I too like live Christmas trees. We always cut down a live tree... until I married Dwain. Some of our children are alergic to evergreen trees. That's one reason we have to get an artificial one. Ours is OLD. No pre-lit Wal-Mart tree at our house. But the kids love it -- I think.
from boxx9000 :
LIVE trees do NOT ruin our environment AND they smell good. We have curbside recycling here for our trees, or I can drive it to the yard waste station and they will turn it into mulch, or I can pay the Girl Scouts $5 to come haul it away. Win/win. I get a live tree, I don't ruin the planet, the tree gets recycled, more trees grow again. The artificial tree is made of materials that will never decompose and will end up filling a landfill somewhere. THINK GREEN.
from cosmicrayola :
I'm with you on the artificial tree. We bought a prelit one last year at Walmart and I love it.
from acaldwell :
the end of this post made me giggle!! i am that young teen chasing the girl down the street like that!! hehehehee!!! i too remeber growing up and going to get the xmas tree, in our house, the tree went up the day after thanksgiving, (in october, canadian, you know) and went down the 2nd of january!! i dont think i ever seen a fake tree until the mid 70's?? these days, living alone, i dont get a tree at all, why bother? this stuff is for families. if i had a wife and kids, then yea, i would get a tree. anyhoo, great entry!!! and too bad ruby is not a waitress!!! wheeeeeeeee!!
from just2cusmile :
thank you for the nice photo comments and there's never nothing wrong with cold pizza and being sluggish for a day or two-enjoy your rest!! :)
from acaldwell :
congratulations!! and i bet ya feel a whole lot better too!!! now, tomorrows sunday~~~sleep til noon!!! wheeeeeeee!!!
from beyondpanic :
Just read your most embarrassing moment - so funny. Mine was when my half-slip shimmied down my legs in front of the main altar at our church on Christmas Eve Mass and my son shouted, "Hey Dad, why is Mommy taking off her underwear?"
from beyondpanic :
"asshat" Love it. I told my husband what it meant and now he loves it. We just went to Target to get storage containers and I muttered it under my breath to everyone who got in my way. Asshat - just love it.
from forty-plus :
You are so wise in your realization we can only control our reactions to others. It's something we need to remind ourselves of every day (and some days ... every few moments). Good luck. Take good care of yourself!
from m-lewis :
Hey SUPER PAULA way to go... I like your "leave a note here" spot. See, I don't even know how to do that. I hope you and Mike enjoyed your New Year's Day drive. Isn't it fun? I wish I could sketch some of the scenes I see each day, but since I'm not an artist, my camera will just have to do. Things will get better.
from acaldwell :
hiya paula!! it is high time you start looking out for yourself. force mike to start to do things for himself, and he must do for himself. i have had 2 heart attacks in my life, and i had an oppurtunity to just lay around and do nothing, then, i realised that after awhile, if i wanted something done, i have to do it myself. as for MIL, let her remain where she is, she is NOT your responsibility! and dont feel guilty about it either! you are being an enabler to mike and MIL, and the result is despair, hatred, and worry and guilt, which will eventually lead back to drinking, because at some point, you will not be able to take it anymore! everyone has thier breaking point. you have skills, and i suggest that you find another job suitable to the skills that you have, and remember, take it one step at a time, and the goal is to better yourself in taking care of yourself. life does not have to be a chore.look to your higher power for guidence, and strength. when you goto meetings, do you just sit and listen, or do you sound off and participate? do you get together with people in your home group and go for coffee at a resturant, and just sit and relax with them, and have a general BS session? make use of the resources that you have to better yourself and relieve this pressure cooker you are in!!! hugs and hugs!!
from boxx9000 :
It's a NEW day.....It's a NEW YEAR! I remember how happy you were when you first bought your new house....... Concentrate on the positives. (((hugs)))
from spazs :
I am suffer woman, because...my bra is a bit too tight!! Haha, no seriousy: a friend and I had a game like this, too-it was less serious though. One day we had crawled over a fence or something and she had cut herself, and them the whole day long I had to cater to her, you know, and be her slave, since she was suffer woman! That was like her joker now!!
from chaosdaily :
i hope we can both have a better year this year..
from sunnflower :
Happy New Year! May 2007 be a great year for you. I'm begging you to get some kind of comments for your blog so we can all leave you notes related to your posts! I'm sorry you work for Scrooge but you bring a great attitude to it.
from forty-plus :
Happy New Year!
from forty-plus :
I could feel sorry for your unhappy boss if he didn't make you (and everyone else around him) so miserable. Keep it to yourself, Man!
from m-lewis :
Sometimes my boss is like that too. I don't think he means to be that way, he's just a work-a-holic without much of a close family life. But at least my boss gave us Christmas presents, sent out Christmas cards and wished us a Merry Christmas as he let us leave a little after noon on Friday before Christmas. I can't help but believe your boss is an unhappy man who lives an unhappy lifestyle. Maybe he'll commit to a New Year's resolution to be a "kinder, gentler" person in 2007. Happy New Year's to you, Paula. I can't wait to read everyone's resolutions. What's yours?
from acaldwell :
poor miserable boss... so sad. well, ya know, dont let ONE MAN get you down!!!! hava wonderful new years!! i will return with updates on jan. 1st!!! (((((HUGS))))
from boxx9000 :
hehehehehehe. I TOTALLY agree about the computer desk and the nook. I'll have to tell Dave he is out-voted!
from boxx9000 :
YES, Kelly's *new* hair is extensions. Brendan bought her HAIR for Christmas. hehehehehe. Maybe she will NOT color it for awhile.
from minstrelite :
i just locked my diary, so plz e-mail me for the username password combination
from kidzpinkcat :
I hope you had a wonderful Christmas surrounded by those you love and those who love you. I read your dream and every word was truth. I have felt differently about certain things since my grandmother passed away and one of them is my relgion. I want so desperatly to rejoin her and all those whom I love and love me as well someday and because of this I feel a more powerful connection to my faith in God. I loved your dream, Paula. What a powerful message.
from m-lewis :
I know it took an act of vulnerable faith to publically share your dream. I literally have a lump in my throat and tears are stinging the inside corners my eyes. I don't believe your dream was randomly delivered. It had to have been divinly sent to you for a reason. If I had a dream like that, I'd feel so loved, so warm -- as if my life actually counted. Jesus has such a special love for the poor, the ill, the mistreated and misunderstood. But he especially loves innocence. And that's how he asks us to come to him. Come to Christmas as a child.
from h2ophobic :
What a beautiful entry! Merry Christmas and wishes for a joyous (and stress-free) 2007!
from forty-plus :
I loved your Spiritual Dream entry. Loved.
from shear-madnez :
What a beautiful entry. Merry Christmas!
from acaldwell :
i have a what you would call a personal relationship with god. i talk directly to him, and i get comfort and joy in that. and i believe that i worship god every day by treating my fellow humans like i want to be treated. merry christmas!!!
from boxx9000 :
I don't believe in God or Jesus, but I don't mind if other's do. I live my life by treating other's how I want to be treated and that works for me. MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all.
from forty-plus :
Congratulations on the 15 years!
from m-lewis :
Your entry made me cry for I too have had such an experience. It was a very long time ago, and I can't talk about it without getting emotional. I know what you experienced many year ago is real just as I am sure that what you experienced recently is real. I hope you will share. You may help someone. I do believe Jesus Christ is the son of God -- and it wasn't because the Bible told me so. I also believe that angels are all around us. Call me crazy. I don't care. I know this absolutely. Thank you so much for your entry today.
from cosmicrayola :
Congratulations on the 15 years. Watching my mom, I know how intense and how difficult it has been. As for the Jesus/God issue. I am exactly where you are. I want to believe in Jesus, but I'm not really sure when I say I do. But like Sata Clause, when I was young, I'm afraid to say he doesn't exist , Just in case he does.
from acaldwell :
hey paula!! that was very powerful!! congrats for reaching 15 years!!! (((((HUGS)))) as for the god issue, to me what i believe is this; i believe there is one god, who goes by many names on the earth. religion i believe is man made as a way to worship god as people desire; as for myself, i have a personal relationship with the supreme being i know as god, without any interference by man. there are many aspects of the christian bible that i believe, and many i do not. the church is just a group of people with like minds who worship the same. thats all it is. there is no right way or wrong way. i talk to god like i talk to people, and if he decides to talk back and show me things then he will. i used to run away a lot from people, places, and situations, but i have learned that it is no good. and i stopped long ago worrying what people think of me if i act in a way that they dont agree with, or if i say something off the wall. who cares? i speak my mind. if people dont understand, or want to understand that is their problem!! on january 8th i will be sober 21 years, and proud of it!! after all, you dont break a vow with god!! if you feel the need to find and join a church, that is a good deal!! like AA meetings, there are good ones and there are bad ones!! just relax and be yourself, and people will love you for who you are and not care if you say something "wrong" or "off the wall"!!! just do what you are confortable with, thats all!!! (((((HUGS)))) merry christmas to you and your family!!!
from kidzpinkcat :
I am curious what this dream was. What can change your life in such a profound way? I've know the death of loved ones can change the outlook on some people's lives, and so I am totally interested. I hope things are changing in a good way. I've had some dreams that totally freaked me out and to this day I believe they might not have totally been dreams.
from minstrelite :
Well, Paula, since you think all men are big babies anyway (your own words) it doesn't surprise me you would minimize my siuation. Thanks for nothing.
from m-lewis :
I've even seen one near our high school of the manger scene and the Holy Family. When the wind blows, it changes the sweet expression on Mary's face into an evil grimace as she looks at her baby boy. I loved your thoughts on the snowmen, though. It reminded me of the scarecrow on the Wizard of Oz -- uh-oh, there goes part of me again.
from boxx9000 :
I HATE those inflatable Christmas displays! Dave says they are a HUGE seller at LOWE'S. When I was a little kid I used to LOVE playing with all the farm animals from my Grandmother's creche. I never understood WHY that made her so mad. ESPECAIALLY when I mixed in the troll dolls and Barbies, too! hehehehehe
from m-lewis :
Our little town is just beginning to have a few Latin American people move in -- the Mexican restaurants are a huge bonus and the people are so nice. I went to college in Texas and taught school there, so I learned a lot about Mexican culture. I have a daughter named Jayme whom we sometimes jokingly referred to as Haime. The name eventaully fell to our youngest son, Chris, who convinced himeself that he had been plucked up from another land -- like Spain and adopted by us. (He wasn't adopted, he's anglo and tans easliy. He just wanted to be different, I guess). I loved your moment in time. I just loved it.
from forty-plus :
I love that my sons are willing to be seen and actually ask to do things with us. Of course, if I wanted to kiss someone on top of his head I'd have to get a step ladder!
from acaldwell :
that is an excellent story!! and what you say is true!!!
from poolagirl :
Email me at [email protected]. I have a Santa icon for you!
from forty-plus :
Poor Abby. My dogs get anxious when the regular schedule changes and they help me by dancing in front of my feet every time I try to take a step. Helpful furbabies, they are!
from m-lewis :
I feel for Abby -- I really do. Sometimes I look at my cats and wonder what they think and what they see as they gaze about. Cats live in their own little world and if we are lucky, they include us. My cats are thrilled to have their house back.
from acaldwell :
woo! poor abbey!! zippers the same way. when i go out he hops on top of the tee vee and howls or the window sill and howls!! and the look of sheer panic on his face when i go out!! and when i goto work, he knows when i come home, as he waits by the door for me, then goes into telling me how he had to be all by himself all night long!!!
from boxx9000 :
YIKES! What a Thanksgiving ordeal! Mike isn't very old is he? WHY is his heart already going bad? (((hugs))) for you. I don't know HOW you deal with that mother-in-law of yours. PEED ON YOUR FLOOR!
from minstrelite :
Yes. And conversely, faith without works is dead.
from minstrelite :
Paula, thanks for your comment. I added a parenthetical paragraph to the end of the entry after I suddenly got paid $50 for the transcription job. I finished it in less than an hour, and he sent me another one to do later, and put the money into my PayPal account. It felt like a miracle.
from h2ophobic :
I'm so glad your husband is going to be OK. I can just see you...effeciently going about your day, trying NOT to freak out or strangle your MIL. I read the entire entry thinking again and again "Oh No!" Until I came to the line about your MIL peeing all over your bathroom floor. Sorry, but I laughed so loud, I scared the dogs! I hope the rest of your holiday time off is more restful!
from poolagirl :
Whoa! What a day! Gives a whole new spin to the word "thanksgiving."
from minstrelite :
Wow...makes me know how much I have to be thankful for--also I agree that your response was totally amazing. Glad he's okay!
from forty-plus :
Paula, Paula, Paula, you are an amazing woman. I thought so before but now I know. I am thinking of Mike and his mom, and especially you. {{{Hugs}}}
from acaldwell :
Oh Paula, if i had to go thru what you went thru on thanksgiving, i'd just fall apart!! I hope Mike will be ok, and i dont mean "just for now" either, to go thru what you go thru on a regular basis with your family and not fall to pieces is nothing short of a miracle. i hope things get better for you and Mike.
from chaosdaily :
my Tday was dull compared to yours.. thank god!
from m-lewis :
I'd LOVE to be out in the yard raking leaves today (the day before Thanksgiving). However... I'm going to be doing much the same as you -- cooking up a storm, cleaning house (although Jayme and Mark's apartment room above our garage is the neatest room in the house, right now). I get to sleep on Sunday. Happy Thanksgiving.
from chaosdaily :
since Man and Kid are going to madison, and Dude and I are working, it will likely be frozen pizza...
from kidzpinkcat :
Yard work??? On the day before Thanksgiving?? WhatEVER! No way would I care THAT much after being sick for two weeks. If my yard was untidy, boo-hoo to all that found it unpleasent. Hand them a rake if they don't like it. Know what I mean?
from kidzpinkcat :
Once again I agree with my mom. You ROCK, baby! Spending close time with my mother-in-law isn't top on my list either. God bless you Paula. God bless your heart. Keep your chin up and have a wonderful Thanksgiving.
from m-lewis :
Paula, BOY DO YOU EVER ROCK! I hope your family appreciates what you are doing -- I'll be they do. Everyone in our family is contributing to Thanksgiving dinner. Jayme says she's bringing cheese balls. They were a hit last year for her brother and sister-in-law. We're having Thanksgiving at the little white church across the road which is the perfect place to have a big meal. The tables are long and there is a playground outside for the kiddos. You all have a good Thanksgiving.
from acaldwell :
well, i applaud you for making a good thanksgiving day for your family!!!! (((((hugs)))) and the correct spelling is hors d'oeuvres!!!! but i knew what ya meant!!! hava happy holiday week!!! i'll be working mainly grave yard shifts!!!
from minstrelite :
It's working beautifully--not sure how I ever got along without it!
from minstrelite :
That's interesting, about being bothered by the shape of her smile, etc. It's interesting how we get bothered quite subjectively by trivial things sometimes, and then we are bothered by our own tendencies to be so quirky or petty. My ex-wife used to have this one "smirk" that I associated with her being about to go off the deep end, or being in denial, or something like that. It was all perceptual on my part, and beauty is certainly in the eye of the beholder.
from minstrelite :
Actually, I don't even know who Rachel Bay is (probably because I don't own a TV set and never watch TV) but I think we've all run across these cute, perky people who are always bubbling over with smiles, even when the situation doesn't call for it. So it's just a guess, but that might be why you want to "slap her." Like you said, she'd probably just keep smiling, so you wouldn't even get the gratification. I understand completely.
from fairygodmum :
The dome over Fremont Street is a light show. It's kinda corny but keeps the heat off when it's hot and cuts down on the wind when its breezy. Still, there are alot of unsavory charachters downtown. Best to stay in the hotel and sight see in the daytime. Or catch a $20 cab ride onto the strip. Maybe next time we'll get smart and rent a car. Mom's always likes to spend whatever extra cash on that hopefull Big Win! Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from m-lewis :
You don't like Rachel Ray?!!! But she's SO cute. That's exactly why you're supposed to like her. Dwain LOVES her, only he doesn't get to watch her television cooking show anymore because we no longer have a television or cable. I don't miss it one little "tickety-boo" either. Hey! You're right. "Tickety-boo" is perfect. And I'll see if I can work Chaos's "shoulder clod" into a sentence today. I'm so glad you "bloged" today.
from hissandtell :
Well, I watch Rachel Ray all the time, even though she pisses me right off and I want to pinch her hard for no other reason than to stop the inane flirty little gratuitous giggles she always gives. She is awfully cute in that perky Marie Osmond (pre deer-startled-eyebrow-lift surgery) kind of way, though. But even so, I just want to hurt her - maybe even for a whole Thirty Minutes. (Oops - did I say that out loud?) Actually, Ina Garten is my tickety-boo true love. The woman is a goddess, and I worship the very rich and hallowed ground she walks barefoot on. Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
racheal ray. what a joke. celebrity chefs? why???? get better soon!!
from chaosdaily :
i type fast!
from m-lewis :
I wouldn't sweat the leaf-raking stuff. I honestly wish I could come gather them out of your yard so I could put them in mine. Leaves make the best mulch in the world. I've been thinking about you and Mike -- every day I think about you and Mike and pray for your continued good health. Think positive. Turning 50 is only awful if you let it. Don't get me wrong, I've had my "I hate 50" moments, but they pass. People in their 20s and 30s have surprising serious health issues too. Well, I guess you know that since you had cancer 15 years ago -- and survived. It was SOOOO good to hear from you again. Hey, let me know how you fair in the 50,000 words... darn it, I can't remember the name of the contest you referenced. Sadly, I don't have time to even attempt it thanks to this stupid appeal I'm required to type. e-mail me sometime. I miss hearing from you.
from minstrelite :
Hi Paula, thanks for checking in. I haven't had time to read the most recent entry yet, but skimming through I gather there have been health issues. Hope you're doing all right.
from shear-madnez :
Gah! You've been through/going through a lot! Getting older ain't for wussies, is it? I hope all your test results show that you still kick ass and take names. I hope Mike is recovering quickly too.
from catsoul :
So may I suggest a tattoo to lift your spirits and sense of adventure in turning "50". I am currently finishing up my turning "50" tattoo now. I will be so glad to turn "51" in a week. I plan to celebrate "51" with another tattoo. Just because growing older is such a pain. Giggles, anyway, thinking of you and all the not so much fun you are having, but I believe that you have an excellent sense of humor. Take care, and oh, do ponder the idea of a tattoo.
from forty-plus :
I hope you get clear results from all these tests and resist the urge to bury your husband under the mountains of leaves! {{{Hugs}}} to you.
from acaldwell :
aw man, skip the notes link!! make em work to leave a comment, like i did!! hehe!! im 48, is this what i have to look forweard to in two years? whooo!!! i sure hope that cancer didnt come back!!! hugs to you, and mike!!!
from sunnflower :
As a cancer survivor too, I really understand your angst. I hope all goes well. Sorry there are so many health problems to deal with all at once. Hugs, hon. P.S. I love reading your entries but I wish you would make it easier to leave a note - like a link to your notes page. Hugs!
from mahvalicious :
Wow - that's more than one person should have to deal with all at once. Keeping my fingers crossed and sending lots of hugs.
from chaosdaily :
wow you have been busy! hope everything turns out well... missed you.
from kidzpinkcat :
Yeah, I was going to just say that then I read what mom wrote you. I was going to say how much I LOVE harvest festivals and the hot cider and the pumpkins and the kids. My boys play ON the pumpkins. They like to step on them and climb all around. My oldest in the lead and my middle one following close behind copying every move my oldest makes like "follow the leader". By the way, I waited until I was in my older 20's to have my kids. I was 26. It will happen someday for you, and when it does I hope it will be worth all the wait. You could be like MY mom who has so many grandkids she can't keep up with them all. Poor mom. She's broke after Christmas I bet.
from m-lewis :
What an absolutely wonderful entry! I'm so glad you decided to tell this story. I could see the three-year-old reacting with glee, as he fed the goat. In fact, I felt as if I had been there witnessing the same things you and Mike were seeing. Jayme and Mark take their children and go every fall to a cider festival held near Kansas City. They also have pumpkins, of course. Jayme says they buy pumpkin donuts and drink penty of cider while they are there. I hope we get to go with her some day so we can watch our grandchildren have fun.
from acaldwell :
i miss the mid west....sounds like you guys had a blast!!! michelle is 26???? oh my!! she better settle down and getcha grand kids quick!! to me i think shes running outta time!! well, thats what i think anyhoo.seems to me she was with serious b/f #2 for a long time! wernt they engaged?? what happened?? aww, i dont like it when i hear people breaking up like that!
from boxx9000 :
*WE* went to the pumpkin patch today which included: petting zoo, corn maze, stacks of hay bales to climb, brownies, cider, etc. LOTS of family fun for the 6 of us. I too, am looking forward to grandchildren. Kelly says, NEVER. Tom says someday. (sigh)
from wyndspirit :
That red folder thing is too funny. Reminds me of my years at the Job from Hell!
from m-lewis :
How funny! Did you go ahead and crack it open? Why don't you put a fake diamond inside the coal /slag and frame it? Call it outerspace Moon-diamond.
from acaldwell :
well, maybe next time.... sigh...
from chaosdaily :
well at least it was fun (and valuable) for a while!
from fairygodmum :
Handing RED Folder to Paula... in my Jack Benny Voice: Here is a list of gay guys that could be your long lost friend. Check off all possiblities and return PRONTO! tee hee Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from forty-plus :
I know it's (they're) driving you insane but your Red Folder entry was a riot.
from h2ophobic :
Nano-manager? How about Nano-insane? That's just about the craziest thing I've heard in awhile! Do you like your job, in spite of him or do you miss your "lost boys" from your previous job?
from boxx9000 :
THANK YOU for the NEW HOME card. That was so sweet of you! (((hugs)))
from poolagirl :
You need to put your diary entries into red folders. Maybe you can get a red folder template!
from hissandtell :
Whew. Thank goodness you don't suffer from red/green colour blindness, or this whole sophisticated folder system would just spiral into anarchy and mob rule! Love, R xxx
from shear-madnez :
LOL...you should sell those red folders on eBay for $12.00. That would really get old Joe's goat.
from chaosdaily :
red folder... sounds like they belong in the circular file! lol
from acaldwell :
RED FOLDER!!! I HAVA RED FOLDER!!! heheheee!!! wanna see my red folder? hehehee!!! this cracked me up paula!!! thanks!!!
from sunnflower :
I love your post on your very bad day. I wish you would frame your great stories with a nice template as you used to have - it made it easier to leave you notes on your posts which is very nice for your readers and you!
from forty-plus :
Time for an update! Miss You.
from acaldwell :
this is wierd. ya name dont get red when ya update, therefore i miss stuff ... sry u hada bad day.
from poolagirl :
I'll take your hub to Denny's for a senior meal. I hear the grilled cheese sandwich is excellent! It comes with sliced tomatoes. We can eat those and read our AARP magazines.
from boxx9000 :
THANKS for your nice note. I'm hopeful all will work out in the end for Kelly. I died laughing at your granny panties story. hehehehehehe. It's always funnier when it is someone else, right?
from boxx9000 :
Hi! I'm baaaaaaack! I hope all is well with you and your family. LOVE, Boxx
from hissandtell :
Oh, Paula, this is the most hysterical thing I've read all week. Poor you! I keep picturing the scene in "Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason" where the customs officer in Thailand searches her suitcase and holds up Bridget's huge mummy-pants in front of everyone and asks, "These yours?" and Bridget says, "Well, yes, but they're not my favourites..." I'm sure you'll be able to laugh about it in, say, ten years or so. Love, R xxx
from forty-plus :
I'm sorry. I am trying so hard not to laugh about the tag-along undies. Really, I am not laughing at you! :D
from poolagirl :
OMG! You win! The underwear falling out of your pants story in the funniest thing in AGES here on Diaryland! You win the PRIZE!
from hissandtell :
When I was visiting my brother the other day he told me about a friend of his who once announced at a restaurant that she had to use the toilet and that she needed to take a spoon with her. Now, apparently, whenever they're all out at dinner together and the friend makes moves towards the rest room, everyone in the group yells at her, "Do you need a spoon?" Somehow I feel your MIL might approve... Love, R xxx
from minstrelite :
And I think *some* solitude is necessary, but just not the type of isolation that comes from not having anything to do out in the world, or not allowing yourself to. Also, I think it depends on what one does with one's aloneness, where do we live & make ourselves at home.
from acaldwell :
poor dakota i feel so bad for him.
from minstrelite :
Thanks for the note. There was another "God Shot" earlier on too, that I posted about, having to do with the bus and the bicycle. I copied a letter I wrote to my friend Wendy about it. Maybe you saw it, it's a few entries back. Yeah. It seems like God is so much more evident in one's life when one is no longer isolated, but back in the mix, and in the swing of life. (Do they have that expression "God Shot" in Illinois? Sometimes I wonder if I'm too "California" for my own good!)
from hissandtell :
Oh, darling, it's horrible saying goodbye, isn't it? I'm so lucky to see my sister a couple of times a year, and it's always like we've never been apart, but even so it's the most heart-ripping feeling when we go our separate ways. I'm so glad you had such a lovely visit with Mrs Roo and the little bouncing joeys, though. Love, R xxx
from forty-plus :
How wonderful to have your sister and her family with you. How sad to have them go home. I'm thinking of you.
from acaldwell :
ya know, it shouldnt be like this; with yahoo messenger and a webcam, you guys can see each other when ya want. ((((((HUGS))))))
from minstrelite :
hat\'s a beautiful sentiment, Paula. My friend Art said the same thing. It's about reciprocity. Freely you have received; freely give. In the measure that you have received, so give. Right on. By the way, I remember your poem from two years ago. Thanks for posting it again.
from acaldwell :
great poem!!and welcome back!!! and spend as much time with that boy as you can; it will show him that all grownups aint like his family!!! take it from a lil boy who knows!!!
from chaosdaily :
im sure the boy appreciates it. sometimes they are sent to annoy us for a reason.... and i will be glad to have more new entries of yours to read! great poem!
from cosmicrayola :
Trust me on this. Your befriending that little boy can have an impact that you can not even imagine. Been there, done that. Only I was a little girl.
from forty-plus :
There are a lot of worse things than an adopted buddy. Thanks for opening your yard (and heart) to him!
from chaosdaily :
we dont have an express lane... we only have 2 lanes!
from acaldwell :
im sure you didnt think this was funny, rasslin with the watermelon and all!! did ya serve up boiled eggs with that "melon hash?" hehehee!! happy 4th!!!
from minstrelite :
Today was even more boring, technically speaking, since I made no effort to accomplish anything at all--not even sending any e-mails! Yesterday at least I worked on my script revision, but today I was uninterested. But it's good to have a day of rest, and down time, like you said.
from minstrelite :
With regards to your note, I think you're right. The silence these past couple days from my brother and sister has actually been refreshing, and I'm sure they're enjoying not having to hear from me either. Probably, after a while, we'll all have regrouped and things will open up once again (hopefully in a good way.)
from minstrelite :
Drive-ins are such fun. You painted a great picture there, too. (I haven't seen Da Vinci Code yet, but everyone so far says it sucks. I might see it though, so as to know what to talk about when it comes up in conversation.)
from poolagirl :
I wanna go to the drive-in movie! I tried to see "Spiderman" at the only remaining outdoor theatre in San Diego, and I fell asleep in my slurpee. Happens every damn time.
from acaldwell :
*sigh* what a wonderful piece of americana....now thats what america is about!!! i miss the drive - in!! wonderful entry!! thanks!!
from acaldwell :
i dunno about martha, but i just gotta say that im sorry that ya having so much troubles. just keep plugging away, you just got there, and from what i understand it takes a lotta years to produce a garden like you want. dont give up!!! it will get better! your hard work will pay off, just be patient and give it time!! you can do it! i know you can!! ((((HUGS)))) http://acaldwell.org
from hissandtell :
Martha Stewart is as evil a role model for gardeners as any plastically-enhanced Hollywood actress is for real women. However, I'd wager that she'd hand-pick up all the teensy pine cones and maple seeds and fashion them into some spectactular napkin rings or an attractively festive table centrepiece. And then she'd probably give *herself* a well-earned ancient-Nepalese-technique buttocks masssage and vintage French manicure and write about them in her "That's a Good Thing!" column. Bitch. Love, R xxx
from chaosdaily :
martha has a gardener....
from h2ophobic :
Funny, funny entry...because it wasn't ME at that casino! I could actually feel my toes curl in frustration! I've missed your entries; I can't wait to hear about all the changes you're making in your garden. Good luck with your "rentawoman" for June!
from fightn4life :
I found your diary through the born in the 50's club. I have enjoyed reading back through your entries and thought I would leave a foot print to let you know I stopped by. I will be back as I find your world an interesting one and your writing delightful. Sandyz
from kidzpinkcat :
If homes could speak I wonder what mine would say? My home is over 100 years old and charming. AHH...the baby is crying. Gotta go!
from kidzpinkcat :
I was a middle child and I think I am the only normal child my mother ever had. (which isn't saying too much). I used to pretend I had a serious disease so I would get attention. ANY ATTENTION! I look back now and see that it was all middle child syndrome. I spend as much alone time with him as I can. I don't want my alfa baby to feel like he's been squeezed out. He's special in his own sweet way. I wish you could meet him. He's so amiable and sweet natured, and his curly-wirrly hair is the cutest ever.
from fairygodmum :
I think you've found a nitch! Now if you could only decipher those hand written ledgers. Hmmmm... Here's sending you some Dalai Lama LOVE!!! Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from chaosdaily :
oooo it would be an interesting job...
from acaldwell :
hay man, this was very interesting!!! i love to read about histories of places and stuff, just like this!! and it seems to have lit a spark under mike!!! yay!!! good stuff, cant wait to read more!!!
from acaldwell :
happy easter!! i am sorry, buti do not know (gasp!) anything of what you need!! might i suggest a licenced contractor? this seems like too much work for you and mike.
from acaldwell :
i have had Sore Nose and Runny Eyes for a while now!! and Grey Hair invaded my moustache, so thats gone!! get well soon!!!
from hissandtell :
Oh, poor you - I hear you, sister. I've woken up this morning with Phlegm Head and Stiff Hip, caused by rapid temperature drops down from boiling hot and humid just a couple of days ago to freezing cold and rainy, virtually overnight. I've been sleeping in one position under a heavy wool doona all night long with two heavy chilly puppies on top of my limbs, cutting off aaall the blood supply to my legs. No wonder I'm all stiff and achy and snorty. When J's away from now on, I'm going to have to employ someone to come in a couple of times a night and poke me (and the pups) into a different position so we don't get bedsores. Love, R xxx
from tuckandsophi :
To answer your question about poop tossing by doggies: We do that to make sure our poop lands somewhere in the stratosphere. It is very important for dogs to fling their shit as far as possible, because it lets the rest of the world know they are in our domain. We are NOT trying to bury it, we are trying to fling it. If we had opposable thumbs (like our gorilla friends), we would simply hurl it in all directions. Since we don't have thumbs, we are forced to propel it like Peruvian soccer players. We do a really good job, don't we?
from acaldwell :
hugs to you and your DMIL. call the AMA and see what they can do about this treatment, maybe?
from minstrelite :
Hey Paula, if you have time, and you want to read my "Beautiful Mind" entry, I think it's one you might appreciate.
from boxx9000 :
My Ex father-in-law has dementia. MAYBE he won't remember that he hates me. hehehehehehehehe
from boxx9000 :
email me. I want you to have my password. my dairy is locked. So sorry about your MIL.
from acaldwell :
reading your stuff here lately paula, i am glad that your MIL is getting the care she needs, and i am glad for you that this stress has been lifted, i just hope that ya MIL continues to do well. it makes me think of what will happen to me if i reach that age.... you are a good person to care for your MIL like you do.
from hissandtell :
I've been following your last few entries with such sadness for you and Mike; I'm thinking of you all and sending my best thoughts. You gave it your best, but thankfully you've been able to come to terms with just how much professional, constant assistance your MIL needs which even you with your great deal of love, endless patience and the best of intentions are unable to provide any more. Look after yourselves and each other, doll. Love, R xxx
from chaosdaily :
*hugs* i know its hard but at least you know she is in a safe place where she cant hurt herself... or wander outside or downstairs and get lost. she needs a place like that, home is not a good place for her...
from poolagirl :
Oh, dear. This must be so awful for you and Mike. Take care and know that you cannot handle her - and that professionals are making her as comfortable as possible. I am so sorry, sweetie.
from acaldwell :
big hugs for you!! i cannot imagine the stress involved with what you been dealing with, but i am certain that you have done the right thing, and im sure that once she settles in, things will get better for her over time.
from wyndspirit :
Just getting caught up... A key to dealing with "violent" patients is understanding the "why." Kudos to them. I hope it goes well for MIL in the home. If you don't like this one, keep looking. There are nice homes with caring staff members out there, but you have to look. And she does seem ready. Good luck! (Lame as that sounds.)
from poolagirl :
You are doing the right thing. Trust me. When we go to visit our mom now, she is nice to us for a bit, and then she really wants us to leave so she can spend time with her friends. That will happen. In time.
from h2ophobic :
God bless you. I never thought you were cruel. Angry, frustrated and fed up...yes. Cruel - never. The sad thing is, she isn't going to be happy anywhere. The question is - where is she the most safe? Where will she get the best care? Where can that be provided for her, while allowing you and Mike to still have lives of your own? I know it's sounds silly and trite, but hang in there. The answer will come. It may not be an easy answer, or the one you think you're looking for, but it will come. Hugs from MT.
from acaldwell :
we all know you aint cruel, and yes, chaosdaily is right. there are other places to stay, perhaps an assisted living facility? hugs to you.
from chaosdaily :
you arent cruel, how could you think that? you could take her back home, but there is no way you could handle her. there may be other places for her to stay....
from poolagirl :
3/26/06 My heart is breaking for you. I don't know what to say. I am holding you all in my prayers.
from chaosdaily :
well at least they are evaluating her fully. and if there should be any permanent damage from the strokes, its possible she may not be able to survive at home. i dont think mike is up to being her caregiver 24/7. *hugs* hang in there....
from h2ophobic :
I'm so sorry that this has turned out the way it has. "Quality of life" has to apply to you too. How unfair it seems that keeping your MIL alive is killing both you & Mike. I'm praying for you and hope the answer than comes will be a peaceful one for all involved.
from acaldwell :
yea i agree with chaosdaily, paula!! mike needs to realise that its time for a nursing home. you bought this home to be your dream home, and its being ruined. you done good taking her in, and caring for her, but she desperately needs professionals to do it for you, and you and mike need your HOME back. ♥
from chaosdaily :
dont be so hard on yourself. it was hard taking care of my dad, and his mind is very sharp for his age! i think no matter how hard you try, you will never convince her that she needs to be somewhere other than your house.. thats part of the illness. it's mike you have to work on..
from acaldwell :
seriously, paula, its time for a nursing home. this is too much to bear. the stress level is up up up, and you need some sort of normalcy. this is not normal. for sanity's sake, put her in a nursing home!!!!
from chaosdaily :
this is way too much for you. im glad she is in the hospital. maybe she will have a tia while she is there, and they can see it for themselves. her mental state is one that should be handled by professionals. maybe you could ask her doctor to have her evaluated by a mental health professional while she is there. they might just recommend she be institutionalized, not only for her mental state, but for her physical state too. you are in above your head sweetie and you need some help.
from poolagirl :
3/19/06 Some candid and unsolicited advice. Your MIL is too much for you to handle. It sounds like your hub is overwhelmed and incapable. You might have to bite the bullet and put her in a care facility. Does she own any property? Any assets? You will only diminish yourself if you continue to do this. And that is not right. You must also think of yourself.
from acaldwell :
bee-u-t-ful!! well, a library that i <I>missed</I> in my travels!!! and what? no winos lurking about? dang!! whats a library to do with-out homeless winos sleeping all around the chairs and tables!! hahahaha!! i believe that if you will check with the front desk, you will find that they have a catalouge of DVD's. when i came here i thought the same, that the DVD collection sucked! thats not the case! thats mighty fine research ya doing there!! im totally impressed, and i cant wait to hear more!! i love hearing about the good ole days!! so, hows the MIL doing? i hope all is well as can be there!! things here are same ole same ole!!! ♥
from minstrelite :
Thanks Paula. LOL that was a hard one for a guy of my type to figure out!
from acaldwell :
well howdy!! if thinking up a tale is easier than crafting one up, the just think one up!! dont give up on this!! you will do good!!
from h2ophobic :
I was just catching up and wanted to leave a note for you. Forgiveness is so hard...so hard. God bless you.
from acaldwell :
i missed this!! been posted 2 days now!! i check and see if ya posted, and when ya do u in the red, but not this time, i just clicked on ya just because, and i see a different talk here!! what you said here made sense, but i can understand your initial feelings, when ya first read about him croaking, all the bad memories suddenly surfaced, and the instant anger set in! and what i said before, i was being on your side, but now, reading this post, and seeing what you say here, makes sense, now that calmer heads prevail!! in my opinion, forgiveness is something that an individual has to do for themselves. i suppose. i do not for example forgive my ex for what she tryed to do to me, and i can go past that and move on. but thats just me. you said some good stuff here and made a lot of sense. and its 1:20 am and im babbling!! ♥
from minstrelite :
Paula, I just read your note & your new post, and I'm proud of you. God bless you.
from wyndspirit :
Courageously done. Forgiveness can be one of the hardest things, but it is also very freeing.
from minstrelite :
Thanks for replying. I think your suggestion (and I quote): "I am wondering if I should write a nice note to him (and I do mean nice) telling him that I am sorry about his prediciment and I do wish him well, but that I just wanted him to know that whether he meant to hurt me and the others or not, we were hurt badly" -- is a good one. That's just my opinion. It will not be beneficial for him to go to his grave oblivious of harms done to others, and it sounds as though the adulation he received from so many has blinded him to his character defects. I'm in a similar quandry with an old teacher of mine, who, though not dying, is aging in darkness, so to speak. His (negative) influence on me and others was so strong, and yet the praises and honors he received so much more of a self-definition for him, I fear he will die not knowing who he really was. It's a hard one. Anyway, good luck to you.
from minstrelite :
Hey Paula. I read your entry yesterday and almost left a note then, but I wanted to read think about it overnight, and read it again this morning. I can't help but think that, despite the psychological abuse you suffered on the part of this teacher, the amount of resentment you are holding toward him after all this time might be interfering with your spiritual growth. The amount of anger you hold is not good for you. I think the hardest people to forgive are those who have hurt us the most, and those are the ones whom we most need to forgive. I hope this does not sound judgmental or harsh, because I know it is easier said than done. It's just that I have found that when I do forgive those whom it is most difficult to forgive, I am blessed for it. That's been my experience, anyway.
from yarnsmith :
Thank you for your note. I was actually picked on by several teachers. I don't have a good track record with teachers for some reason, or maybe it was that school that had the problem. Anyway, I agree with your position on meat and protein. Gotta have that protein and what would life be without bacon and burgers?
from joiedv :
Your band teacher story is ghastly. I have never known a teacher like that, and I don't blame you for being bitter. He got his, eh? I hope he sufferes long and painfully.
from boxx9000 :
I have never met any teachers like that. I was lucky as a child to have really good, nice, and kind teachers. There is something I call *yard duty syndrome* tho. It happens when you give someone a whislte and they become mini Hitlers. Too much power. I try to treat my classrom kids how I would want a teacher to treat my own two kids. I went into teaching because I really LIKE kids, I enjoy their honesty.
from acaldwell :
good! im glad hes croaking too!! asswipes like him have no business being teachers! what goes around comes around! : )
from wyndspirit :
I suppose I was fortunate. I had two teachers like that, but they both liked--or at least didn't dislike--me. The kids they picked on were also jerks, but we still knew it was uncalled for, even as ornery as 11 and 12-YO kids are. We all complained to our parents and one left on his own after 2 years but it took the entire community years to get rid of the other one since he had tenure. I think they finally got rid of him after he smashed one kid's head into a wall.
from hissandtell :
God, what a heartbreaking story. How dreadful that someone as inhumanly ghastly as that was able to get away with doing irreparable damage to so many people for so long. I am grateful that, in the state school system in Oz at least, such bullying would almost certainly not be allowed to happen today. And I sincerely hope that children are taught - and learn - to speak up for themselves AND to the appropriate authorities if they are confronted by such disgraceful behaviour from borderline psychopaths masquerading as mature role models. Love, R xxx
from chaosdaily :
i dont get it either... who is guy?
from acaldwell :
i didnt get it either! MIL with the toenails was funny, i know u thought it gross, but look at the humour!! your house is a lil lively!! heheh! hugs!
from cosmicrayola :
Ewwwww. I really didn't need that visual. I was all into your description and enjoying it and, wham!!!!
from chaosdaily :
honey, just cause you are married doesnt mean you are blind and unimaginative. just dont act on it...
from acaldwell :
damn boogers!!!! gah!!! even manly men have boogers!!
from acaldwell :
hahahaa i missed that episode of the daily show!! you climbed off the soapbox too soon!!! BTW, ole Hillary gots a rats ass chance in hell of getting elected!!! jimmy carter has one more term he is eligible for!!! lets bring back the good ole 70's!!! W.I.N.!!!! yay!!!!remember what W.I.N. meant?? hehehee!!!
from wyndspirit :
I think she plans to come home now and then, but only when there is somebody extra there to help out. I am sure it won't seem the same, though. I have been at this nursing home, staying in the attached assisted living housing, till a room opened up for a client. It was hard for her to leave her home of 10 years, but at least she already knew many of the people there, and her dementia was progressing rapidly, so she really could not live alone. That was hard because she didn't really understand, but not AS hard, because everybody was for it and it wasn't just because of bureaucratic stupidity.
from acaldwell :
volare!! hehehe!! sometimes if i go to the market down the street on thursday afternoons, it can get like that there!!!and what did ole garrison kiellor do to piss you off??
from wyndspirit :
Sorry about your template woes! In my opinion, February is the LONGEST month. I always said March was my favorite month, mostly because it meant February was over!
from acaldwell :
paula, that is so sad!! about the birds. if someone was caught at home caging up birds like that, they be hauled into court.
from poolagirl :
The same thing happened to me when I used that very same template. Weird, huh? Anyway....here's some poop on the word "milquetoast." Caspar Milquetoast was a comic strip character created by the cartoonist Harold Tucker Webster (1885-1952) for the New York Herald Tribune and other newspapers in the late 1920s. The central figure in many of Webster's witty, urbane, and mildly satirical cartoons during the interwar years was frequently a middle-class professional man who was rather mild-mannered and retiring. The most notable and best known of these was Caspar Milquetoast, self-effacing, obedient to a fault, and, quite literally, scared of his own shadow�the personification of timidity. This character's manner and richly imagistic surname yielded the epithet "a milquetoast," still part of the American vernacular although it is unlikely that very many of those who currently use the epithet have any knowledge of its origin.
from forty-plus :
I agree with you about the pet stores. I stay away from most. (There some weird stuff happening with your background also, I don't know if you can see it.)
from hissandtell :
Your entry on parrots breaks my heart. When I bought my first sulphur-crested cockatoo - from a pet shop - I chose the one who was making the most noise and doing the most dancing; she was "cage-happy" while the others just looked as if they'd given up on life. She was - and is - the most amazing bird I've ever known. Nearly all the parrots I've adopted since her have been other people's cast-offs, needing re-homing when their owners can't handle them any more, or move away and can't take them with them. There are good pet shops out there with proprietors who spend time with individual birds, socialising them for sale to a loving home. It's just so heartbreaking when, as you describe, they're seen as one more commodity and churned out in a mass-produced way of making money. Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
anutter thing about february, although its the shortest month, it sure drags ass on by!! its only the 12th?! dag nabbit!!! it should be the 28th already!!!! aggggggggg!!!! slow ass month!!
from boxx9000 :
The high today is supposed to be 69 degrees. It feels like Spring and ALL the trees are in bloom (sneeze, run nose run) The low is supposed to be 32!! (brrrrrrr)
from forty-plus :
I hope you feel much better today. It's good the doctor ordered the tests, hopefully the results will give your family some direction. Hugs, Y.
from h2ophobic :
I know this sounds silly, because we've never met and may never meet...but I love you! I love that you are responsible, yet fun. I love that you know what you want, yet are willing to give others what they want. I love that you see humor where others only see darkness. I love that you love yourself enough to love everyone else in your life too! You rock! (Ok, that enough use of the word love...back to your regularly scheduled program)
from cosmicrayola :
I'm glad to hear that everything has settled down a bit. You can use a break.
from wyndspirit :
Oh, no word on the job yet. I'm not holding my breath.
from wyndspirit :
Dementia is scary and heartbreaking--scary for her, too. You did the right thing to just calm her down. It is tough on everybody. As for writing... Nora Roberts writes mysteries as J.D. Robb. Haven't read those, but I'm not impressed by her, either. However, I DID love some Mary Higgins Clark. If it's mystery you want to write/read, I like Dick Francis. Also try Lawrence Block. I haven't read any of his stuff, but he wrote the fiction column in WRITER'S DIGEST for years. If the class gets you writing, it will be worth the $$$ even if you don't learn a lot.
from acaldwell :
hey paula! i hope ya get well soon, this flu season was a big one!! it even got me!! i hope that things work out there, just be patient, and i know you want the best for ya MIL. i cannot begin to understand fully what ya going thru. *BIG HUGS FOR YOU* hang in there!!
from laineyducks :
Let us know what's going on?
from laineyducks :
Oh Paula. I missed this entry. *HUGS* The Duck Family is thinking about your little family unit and sending well wishes your way.
from h2ophobic :
I'm so sorry, Paula. I'm praying for you and your family.
from forty-plus :
I'm sorry your family is in this sad position. It is heartbreaking.
from acaldwell :
big hugs for you. i know this is hard. best wishes for you and mike and his mom.
from hissandtell :
Oh, darling; how sad. You must all be tearing your hair out with misery and confusion. It does sound as if things are in a decline and are unlikely to get better. You're doing all you can, and more, and it's just not enough any more - so it's probably the best time to take another course of action, however painful it is for you all. I'm thinking of you and sending you my best thoughts. Love, R xxx
from poolagirl :
Oh, sweetie! I can only agree with your decision to put Mike's mom in a home. It's time. They will give her such a great life. It's hard, but you are doing the right thing. They are skilled in dealing with these issues. I speak from experience - my own mom. Thinking of you all. Blessings.
from sunnflower :
I loved your book entry. I also have found some popular writers to leave me cold. If you love mystery try the Alphabet Mysteries by Sue Grafton. I discovered them when I was Christmas shopping and I am already up to I is for Innocent. For romance, I believe that everyone should read Georgette Heyer who takes her inspiration from Jane Austen. If you want to mix mystery and romance read My Own Murder Mystery and the Dewey Decimal System of Love.
from rowsbud72 :
OMIGOD....you SO have to read the Dark Tower series. I love steven king and have read almost all of his books too....But the Dark tower...its so ADDICTIVE. think "fantasy western"...let me know what you think if you start reading!
from chaosdaily :
try going back and reading older writers... agatha christie? i only figured out one of hers before the end!
from acaldwell :
try steven king!!! people like him!!
from hissandtell :
You know what I find endlessly interesting about Nora? That Janet Dailey actually bothered plagiarising her! (http://www.news-star.com/stories/073097/life1.html). I've read a couple of Nora's novels from her Mills and Boon (or whatever they were) days, about cowboy-types in Montana or Texas or somewhere, which I quite enjoyed, but I've never read any of her more serious "literature". Perhaps, after reading your entry, I never will... Love, R xxx
from sasori-gal :
Good for you! You are such an inspiration. Enjoy your writing class. I think it'll be great! You go, girl!
from poolagirl :
Sounds like you and boss man will be parting company really soon. Good luck and Godspeed, dear one. You will land on your feet!
from acaldwell :
i know its difficult, but you might do best to wait til spring to find another job, and meanwhile, you can persue the novel in your spare time!! it all takes time, bee patient! good things will come to you!! ♥
from forty-plus :
Hurray for Phase 2!
from chaosdaily :
yay! its good to do something you like!
from poolagirl :
Dang! I missed the SNL skit with the pirates! Dang!
from laineyducks :
The end of your entry had me holding my breath for you!
from h2ophobic :
So funny! Your boss sounds like a real winner! I HATE this time of year...I keep reminding myself that after next week there are only 2 working days left in January. Then I freak out because of all the year-end reports that are still sitting on my desk, undone. They will be finished. I will not freak out. I grew up in an AA family, (which is why I don't drink) so I use the one day at a time phrase alot. Last week, I keep repeating under my breath, "One report at a time." Hang in there!
from acaldwell :
did u take fresh pics of the crisp snow? i have a pic of it in my mind, of you beautiful mid western winter snow as you described it!! seems like MIL is not as fiesty as she was?! also, i believe that it is proper grammar to have a comma between street and anytown. thats the way i was taught!!
from wyndspirit :
You're not being stalked. If you notice a jump in your stats, it was me reading a year's worth of archives. :)
from acaldwell :
i laffed so hard....oh my!!! when jesus pops out and sees his shadow!!! ahahahaaaa!!!!
from shear-madnez :
Oh my dear, dear yarnsmith. What a deliciously funny entry! You brightened my freaked out day with your Wake-o-Mat. Thanks for the laughter.
from h2ophobic :
You're so funny! I too, am an aerobic class failure. But I've decided that being uncoordinated has it's good points. I'm sure all my flailing around burns more calories! Hang in there girl!
from cosmicrayola :
If they ever come out with that pill I want some! I wake up in the morning, get my coffee and sit down. That's enough exersize for one day!
from wyndspirit :
I am so afraid something like that will happen to us--over STUFF. I don't even want to think of the time we will have to sort everything out. Thankfully, we're really open about it right now and discuss what we each want with each other and with Mom and Dad, so I'm hoping we can get the hurt feelings out of the way BEFORE we lose Mom and Dad. I've told Mom to list what SHE wants each of us to have, which I hope will also help.
from laineyducks :
No new ideas to help you, but as for the bells idea - my mother has a strand of sleigh bells on her door. So not only do they let her know if there is a child leaving the house, but they look pretty cool too.
from forty-plus :
{{Hugs}}
from acaldwell :
i really dont have any snazzy idears as to how to corral the MIL, but, i just want to say, that with all the stress in your life, and giving your MIL a home to live in, i think thats really special!!
from forty-plus :
You could use the over the door bells on your doors, the kind little shops use. That way it's a pleasant sound and not so institutionalized. I do think you should follow Hiss' advice - of course!
from chaosdaily :
hiss had a good idea... hopefully it will be warm enough that she wont freeze when she tries again, cause you know she will. maybe an alarm for the doors, so you know if someone goes in or out?? they sell them at most hardware stores..
from hissandtell :
What a lovely sideboard. (What would you call it in the US?) How ghastly about your MIL; I daresay she will try again now she's got the idea into her head. Can you possibly let the neighbours, local police and other authorities know quietly, just in case? Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
oooh!! looky that!!and is so shiny too!! how much u pay for it!! its very beautiful!! i just love antiques! ya know, you are a princess for putting up with MIL like you do!
from h2ophobic :
I leave a lot of silly notes, but this one isn't silly. I wanted to let you know how WELL you write. I can SEE what you're talking about in my mind. Thanks!
from acaldwell :
i too, get those address lables, and i put them up on the shelf. often times, i see homeless with signs that say, homeless veteran, hungry, please help. i go up to these people and demand to see their VA card. if they cannot produce a VA card, i tell em to goto the mission to eat. if they can produce a VA card, i question them about the military. if they answer the correct answers, i give them a few bucks, and tell em how to get the VA to help em out.
from shear-madnez :
What a wonderful story!
from wyndspirit :
In our area, hunting is essential. We got the predator animals under control so they wouldn't use our cattle and people as prey, which, in turn, caused prey animals to flourish beyond what is natural, which means not enough resources. In hunter, non-ecological, terminology: "A starving deer is NOT a pretty sight." The mountain lions are endangering people; in fact, one attacked a visitor in the Badlands not too long ago, that's why this mountain lion hunting season. It needs to be done. We started upsetting the balance of nature--now it's up to us to keep control of the balance, since we TOOK control. It's just that *I* couldn't do it!
from forty-plus :
You need a sound proofed room that is completely off limits to anyone but you. I hope today is more relaxed for you in every way.
from acaldwell :
remember, its only til you get something better!!! jeez, what did whiny boss do before you was there???
from poolagirl :
Sounds like you could use a Calgon moment! Take it easy, Paula!
from hissandtell :
Oh, dear; poor you. Just lean near the microwave and escape to that happy place in your head, where boiling chili abounds and noone suffers from uncontrollably-leaky bodily functions and bosses don't try to micromanage. Stay sane, sweetie. Love, R xxx
from forty-plus :
I am sure you deserve the praise. Kids don't need us to be perfect, they need us to love and guide them. You done good, Mama! :)
from h2ophobic :
Thanks for sharing that story. Most moms think we've messed up here and there. Well, we have...we're human. BUT, by some miracle, our kids don't seem to remember the mess ups so much as the times we DIDN'T mess up! What a sweetheart your daughter is. When you see her next, give her a hug from me!
from acaldwell :
lissen!! you DO deserve special praise!!! Even though you were pickled pink the 1st 11 years of your sweet daughters life, you got sober just in time for her. from age 11 until now, you taught her how to be a responsible, caring human being, and you raised her just right. as a result of your efforts, your daughter is able to hold down a full time job, able to pay bills, and maintain a good place to live, and have a normal relationship with a man that she will marry someday, and reward you with loving grandkids that your daughter will pass on the life skills that YOU taught her. and that is one of life's greatest rewards, to be able to see the results of your efforts!!! you ARE a good mom!! you got sober and straightened your life out at a time when your daughter needed you the most. you should be proud, you done right by her!! ♥
from laineyducks :
I'm jealous! I want the sun.
from acaldwell :
grab ya some rays!! i know that mid west winter ewwww!!!! "an old fusk" is a 4 am typo, replace the S in fusk with another letter and you will C!!! then you will go ahhh!!! thats what an old fusk is! hehehee!
from kidzpinkcat :
Thanks Paula, for wondering about me. I am fine and so is this new little boy inside me. He is due March 9th but I am trying to get him out by induction on the first. It's a good feeling to know that someone out there worried about me and I'm sorry I caused you any worry. I'm back. I'm cool. I've updated my diary now. Did you see mom's new diary at her new site?
from h2ophobic :
I'm just checking in...did you decide on WW or SBD? I chose neither - I chose the stomach flu diet. It worked well for a week, but I think I'm going to have to find a REAL solution.
from acaldwell :
hugs to you!!! i hope u get massive sunshine real quick!!! i know the feeling!!!
from forty-plus :
I hope some rays of sunshine warm your face today!
from minstrelite :
That sounds about right, Paula. And I guess there's a difference between real and false certainty, as in conviction vs. self-righteousness (confusion being preferable to the latter.)
from acaldwell :
hugs to you, you need it!! you have lots of patience for dealing with this. hope you will be ok.
from sasori-gal :
Happy New Year! 2005 was indeed a big year of change for both of us, but hopefully in 2006, we'll reap the rewards and good fortune for our decisions! I have to agree with you on "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory." (I saw it on the plane ride back here.) The sad part is that this is the version most of the kids now will see so it's up to us to introduce them to the original. The humor and messages in the re-make were indeed a bit weird and disturbing. Anyways, here's to a fabulous 2006!
from laineyducks :
Sorry to hear that MIL feels the need to act that way. I'm voting with Chaos - she is living in your house after all.
from chaosdaily :
instead of doing what MIL wants, why dont you treat her as you would a child. (she acts that way after all) if she doesnt want lunch, she will have to wait to eat until suppertime. and if she persists in "poop, pee and vomit" talk, she needs to be told thats not acceptable during eating times. give it a try... what do you have to lose?
from forty-plus :
I think that was the best wrapping up the year/looking forward to the next update I've read. You are an inspiration! Happy New Year!
from just2cusmile :
HAPPY 2006!!! I hope it offers you the bestest,wildest ride you ever had-you deserve it!!
from acaldwell :
hiya Nut Roll!! hehehe!!! i have read every episode of your ups and downs and sideways and all that, and you been thru a lot this year!! in 11 hours i am gonna quit cold turkey! i got 11 smokes left. one an hour!! im looking forward to reading all of your episodes of 2006, too. in my sick twisted mind, i somehow find humour in what ya MIL says sometimes!! happy new year!! heres to what you want, and dont let anything stop you!! wheee!! ♥
from laineyducks :
Nut Rolls! A favorite from one side of the family. Perogies - a favorite from another (just not a holiday tradition). Happy Christmas...
from shear-madnez :
MMMMmmmmmmm Nut rolls. I tried making yeast rolls this year. I must have had the monster yeast too. They tasted good but they looked like small loaves of bread instead of dinner rolls.
from sunnflower :
Merry Christmas! I love perogies. My grandmother used to make them and my mom could whip up a batch if pressed. I discovered Mrs. T makes a mean perogie and I can buy them in the frozen food section. Life is good.
from sunflowery :
Thanks for your note. It sounds like you had a great time nonetheless. Merry Christmas and better things in 2006!
from acaldwell :
11 year old joe committed a cardinal sin i see. but, you didnt finish!! what happened after that??? was he made to eat the periogies? or was he banished to a corner? the nut roll description remined me of the lucy episode where she was baking bread and the yeast kept rising right outta the oven!!
from poolagirl :
Send those perogies my way! Tater ones? With sour dream? OMG!
from boxx9000 :
MERRY CHRISTMAS 2005!!!!!
from forty-plus :
Merry Christmas to you and your loved ones!
from h2ophobic :
Merry, merry, merry Christmas! Thanks for all the moments of laughter you've brought into my life this year! I hope your Christmas in your new home is magically wonderful! (If all else fails, maybe you should put some super-glue in your mom in laws chapstick?!)
from h2ophobic :
You rock! You will find the job that deserves you! Every crappy job we have gives us more than a paycheck. It gives us experiece and the knowledge of what we WON'T accept in the next one. P.S. If I don't talk to you before...MERRY CHRISTMAS
from shear-madnez :
Hooray for you!!! Wear your tiara proudly. One thing my Mom always told me was "don't settle". In other words, if you're not happy, keep looking. I'm glad I took her advice.
from chaosdaily :
yahooooo!!!
from acaldwell :
yea, you are much better than being an office mule!! hey, just an evil thought..hehehe since you handle payroll, why dontcha give yaself a raise? you can do better than this sinking ship, i have confidence in ya, ya stepping up!! good luck, and try not to get too stressed out. i got ya card today!! thanky yous!! merry crispness!!! and happy zoo year!! wheeeee!!
from boxx9000 :
I am also in the job hunt yet again. (sigh) NOT because I do not like my job, but because it is only temporary. Good luck to us both, you & me. I hope we both find that comfortable match between effort and compensation. MERR Y CHRISTMAS. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006.
from forty-plus :
Life is too short to sell yourself short. I think a tiara is just what you deserve!
from h2ophobic :
Is there some sort of rule that crazy people should be the boss? Or do they become crazy when they become the boss? How fun about your tiara! I now dub thee Princess PI Yarnsmith!
from acaldwell :
i can picture you sitting in your office wearing the tiara typing away on the computer!! hehehe!!! merry xmas!!
from wyndspirit :
Robert Frost, "The Hired Man." That has always been one of my favorite quotes. The narrator's wife is explaining to him why their former hired hand chose to come back there to die. I love that poem. Anyway... We cared for Grandma while waiting for a nursing home opening, as her dementia progressed. It's not easy being a caregiver. I've been there. That's one thing I love about my job--the opportunity to give a break to these awesome caregivers who are willing to make the sacrifices necessary to take a loved one into their homes. I won't call you guys saints for doing the right thing, but I do deeply admire and respect you for it. And, vent away! It may well save your sanity.
from h2ophobic :
Reading your entries is like re-living my life 7 years ago. I don't have any words of wisdom, except keep your sense of self AND your sense of humor. At least we'll both be better senior citizens than we would have been if we hadn't had these experiences! I'd write more, but I need to walk around and expel now! ;o)
from acaldwell :
now that MIL quote of the day is funny!! hahaha!! i need to walk around a bit so i can expell too!! hahaha!!! take it slow! ♥
from acaldwell :
ya know, you are a jewel, putting up with MIL. but still i say, she does belong in a nursing home. this new home you just bought is your dream, and she is wrecking your dream. its not right. she had her day. now, its your day.
from forty-plus :
I wonder if some rules should be laid down. Yes, she should feel at home, however, when anyone share their home with other people a little common courtesy is a must. Do not eat the whole pumpkin pie right out of the plate. Do not spray your powder from the front to the back door. And, please, keep your bodily functions to yourself unless you need to see a doctor. Common courtesy, that's all. I'm glad you have seen a few rays of sunshine with her though.
from acaldwell :
paula, i think that it might be a good idea to put MIL inna nursing home. sooner or later, the stress will hit you and mike.
from forty-plus :
Oh no. I hope she takes a very long nap so you can finally eat your pizza in peace.
from just2cusmile :
you might as well go ahead and glare and mutter at your MIL cause a)she cant hear you b)she already thanks your doing it!! lol poor thing I feel for ya
from boxx9000 :
Is putting the M-I-L in a home out of the question? Does the hubby have any siblings that can SHARE the burden? Is hubby working? It's really YOU taking on all the responsibility?? YOU'RE A SAINT!!! There's no way in hell I would do it. (((((hugs)))))
from hissandtell :
Oh, darling - this entry made me laugh out loud, and very nearly cry. Negativity and self-absorption seems to be so much a part of growing old for so many people. My own mother, when my 10-year-old nephew asked her once why she was often so critical of everything and everyone, replied, "Well, I suppose because I've got nothing else to do..." But truly, the very idea of you standing in your MIL's doorway glaring at her and muttering will make me chuckle all day. Keep smiling, baby! Love, R xxx
from chaosdaily :
when she tells you shes going to vomit, just tell her that if her stomach is full enough for vomiting, she doesnt need to put more food into it.
from h2ophobic :
Bless your heart! I couldn't help but giggle at your entry. Not a coffee-spewing, fall out of my chair laugh, but a slightly uncomfortable "OH MY GOSH" kind of giggle. You may have to turn into a southerner and begin eating your big meal at noon! I wish I had some ideas about how to deal with this, but truly...I don't. The time we had with my Grama here is kind of a blur. It's kind of like labor pains...once it's all over, the relief that comes seems to dull the mind from remembering the horror of it! ;)
from wyndspirit :
I remember Grandma in her dementia dumping milk over her plate. (In retrospect, I think she thought it was the salt shaker.) We kids were torn between staring in horror (you do NOT waste food!!!) and trying to be polite and NOT stare. How little did I know that I would be dealing with that for a living 20-odd years later!
from just2cusmile :
ohhh you poor soul-i feel for ya!! we kind of went thru something like you are with my mom-she moved in a couple of years ago(shes back at home now)and she lovvvvved her powder and it gets stuck and blown everywhere-thank goodness she is only in her sixtys and doesnt have that rank old person smell just yet-lol-i can just imagine your MIL following you around in the kitchen-and you trying to be nice about everything-its tough to do even when you do mean well!!! lots of luck your way!!
from acaldwell :
oh my! i was gonna suggest fabreeze for the smell, but then i read on to the descriptions! woo! this is certainly a handful you got there!
from sunnflower :
Your Thanksgivings sound especially exciting! Talk about adventures in the kitchen.
from fairygodmum :
Thank you for the Get Well Wishes. I'm feeling better today, but still have a little sore throat. Those Green Monsters have decided to dance in my throat, but at least they've left my lungs. Hugz n Happy Thanksgiving... Bebe da FairyGodMum
from hissandtell :
Ha. Years ago, my flatmate and I cooked dinner for some very handsome kilted Scottish boys who were passing through our town. We thought we'd showcase the local produce made them a big traditional roast beef dinner with roast potatoes and pumpkin and sweet potatoes. They refused to eat the pumpkin, saying that it was "cattle food" - and insisted it was called "turnip" in Scotland! (One of them kept saying, "Aye, it's a turnip" and pulling faces until I wanted to slap and pinch him simultaneously - I mean, please. I restrained myself and instead said very icily, "Excuse me - you people eat boiled sheep's stomachs, mate - pull your head in and eat up your bloody pumpkin, now!) Happy Thanksgiving, darling. Love, R xxx
from h2ophobic :
Wow! Two entries in two days...maybe you'll be my inspiration to write more often too! Good luck with the MIL moving in thing. I'm thinking about you!
from hissandtell :
Gah - it all sounds pretty full-on for you at the moment; treat yourself kindly during the MIL's move, darling. (And what perfectly awful stocking-stuffers they are. If anyone were rude enough to give them to me, I'd just *pretend* to take the supplements and then just defecate really close to where they were sitting to teach them a lesson! Well, fine: I probably wouldn't really, but I'd be sorely tempted...) Love, R xxx
from chaosdaily :
the basket is a good idea. i did that for a while.. and everyone seemed to like it. stay away from perishables, and buy canned or packaged goods, like salmon, gourmet soups, pastas, couscous, or chocolates.. there are a lot of things in a good store without getting them a bottle of wine.. or if you can find some retro candy or things like that... good luck!
from forty-plus :
Good luck with the great MIL move-in!
from acaldwell :
overstock.com is a utah company. and they are being investigated by the utah attorney general. to file a complaint against them:http://attygen.state.ut.us/consumerassistance.html they are very helpful!!!
from acaldwell :
i remember last year, when you had thanksgiving, and all that happened then!! oh, my!! now a year later, and you are all busy bee until summer!!! wow!!! i hope u get everything done the way you wanna!!
from acaldwell :
thats a nifty looking desk!!!! i sure hope you get all the yard stuff done b4 the snow falls!!!
from just2cusmile :
we have to do the same thing to our backyard in the near future and i know my husband is going to say "just dump it right here" we'll take care of it!!! lol I feel the pain already...
from h2ophobic :
I feel your pain. Or rather, I remember feeling your pain. We did the "dump the gravel here and we'll put it in the back yard where we want it" thing several years ago. Luckily Mike was still living at home then. After a few minutes of torture, Bill told him to call every friend he could think of for free pizza. Many teenaged boys showed up and although we spent a fortune on pizza, what would have taken us DAYS, was done in hours. Isn't it amazing how a job we THINK will only take a few hours always takes 10 times as long?
from hissandtell :
A few years ago when I was living in Education Department accommodation, they (ED) helpfully dumped a ginormous load of that compacting Deco gravel stuff on my driveway. I ran inside and phoned the local National Parks and Wildlife Service and told them I had a Straw-necked Ibis in my backyard, and could they please come around and kill it? Two very handsome men arrived almost immediately, stripped off their shirts and shovelled my gravel in return for beer, a kind word and the promise not to hurt any Ibises (Ibix?) in future. That might work for you... Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
OMG!!! where on earth do u get the energy? and why didnt you hire some people? thanks god for the family!! i think your next stop is to mr. chiropractor!!! take it easy, huh? hire some homeless!! we are fun to watch!! good luck!!
from sunnflower :
Your garden exploits are inspirational. I haven't done anything in the yard of late and my husband yanked out his back doing some hedge trimming so that finished that!
from acaldwell :
588-2300....EMPIRE!!! i know that jingle!! now it wont leave the pee-brain!! i hope it dont snow on ya b4 ya get the yard done!!! good to see that your hub is helping out and doing stuff!!! and yea michelle, get hitched!! we wanna see lil paco in the punkin patch!!! hehehee~! huggys to you!! ♥
from poolagirl :
Well, I always keep the wood I want to burn inside the house for a few weeks - in one of those stacker things next to the fireplace. It really helps with the problem you are describing. I re-fill the stacker thing when I use wood. It really works well.
from kidzpinkcat :
You know something, when I was growing up we had an incenorator (SP?) and we were required to cut down trees and split logs and stack wood almost every day. My step father would do the splitting and chopping of coarse, but me and my older sister were required to get out there after school and help to stack all that wood. I just thought about that when you mentioned fire wood and stacking it. I LOVE the feel of a good fire in the winter. It has a real soothing effect on me. I guess it helps me to quelch the inner pyro. hehehe
from sunnflower :
If I had a stylist I loved I would insist on knowing where that person went from the salon anyway. That's why you hold on to good people so your business will thrive. You can't hold onto it the way this woman has - by trying to keep information away from her staff. It sounds like some kind of indentured servitude. They need to wake up and smell the coffee. I am excited for your daughter.
from hissandtell :
Good luck, Michelle, and congratulations. Now YOU, missy - may I say that I am completely loving reading all about your new house and your activities? Renovating and gardening vicariously is so much easier than doing it yourself, after all! Love, R xxx
from shear-madnez :
Michelle will always prosper, there's no doubt about it. Awesome stylists always do...no matter where they work. As a salon owner, I am appalled by the actions of her previous boss. Michelle worked hard to build up HER clientele. That's right HER clientele. Her old boss should have been more than willing to give her the customer data. I have always allowed my employees full access to ANY customer files for whatever reason.
from chaosdaily :
good luck to michelle, although i think its a matter of hard work and talent for her, and luck doesnt have much to do with it. say hi to your aunt edie, and tell her i am taking care of my leg the best i can.. i will post more on that tuesday, when i get this danged boot off, and a new one put on!
from forty-plus :
Good luck to Michelle, I'm sure her success will continue to grow!
from kidzpinkcat :
I Love this time of year too. I got outside and raked leaves so my oldest, David, could hide under them and I could say, "Where is David? Where is that boy?" All the while he giggles under the leaves. I have my good days and my bad days, but I do love this season. I love the colors and the smells that go with it.
from hissandtell :
It was - gasp - 105* IN THE SHADE here through the week. Whatever happened to Spring? We've jumped straight into bloody Summer! The drought has also brought a nice early bushfire season to the southeast of Queensland, and severe water restrictions were introduced last Monday. At this rate, I shall be glad to return to life among the cows (and in the airconditioning). Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
all that WORK is making me roll up a sweat!! I DONT KNOW HOW YA DOING IT!!! and mike is helping!! yay!!!
from laineyducks :
I have all these fun things to look forward to with Oog. AAAGH :)
from acaldwell :
WHIIINNNNEEEEEEEEE!!!! SOOOOBBBBBB!!! OH BOO HOO!!! hehee!! so last year was my year, now this year is yours!!! good luck chisox!!
from forty-plus :
Congratulations to your Sox for beating those sox!
from wyndspirit :
I miss my buddies, and I'm trying to touch base with some of them at least a little. Reading back a few... You handled the cat thing the right way, and your MIL is fortunate to have family who will care for her. Too many of my clients don't. Take care!
from fairygodmum :
Yahhh.. Happens ALL the Time.. when you worry about something.. THAT's the Thing that seems to Happen! It's called anticipated calamity. When you expect something... do try to expect something good.. otherwise you pay for it dearly. In more ways than one. Sorry.. btw.. got my navel pierced for my 40th... no one see's my fat belly but me! NOT even My Mom! tee hee. Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from acaldwell :
oooohh!! i got an email i gonna send ya, its right along these lines! hahaha!!! lesson learned for ya daughter? mama's words have eerie effects! when i was younger, i used to inhale my supper so i can run downstairs and play. well ma told me one time that i'd better slow down, that i'm gonna get sick!! i laughed! sure enuff, when i got outside, i got sick just like mama sez i will!!
from acaldwell :
i kept thinking back when mutual of omaha's wild kingdom was on back in the late 60's and early 70's when they would play that music in the background while the narrator was describing the goings on in the animal world like you done today!! hehehe!! you know the kind of music i mean!! great entry!!! what goes on at work? i miss reading about your work, and since you left the pallet place, very little has been revealed!! i hope everything is going ok for ya!
from chaosdaily :
i probably would have asked for a wheelchair... i feel so old lately and it doesnt help that someone teased me about having an "old peoples disease". gee thanks.
from h2ophobic :
I can't believe that I forgot to tell you happy birthday! I am absolutely brain-dead lately. I hope it was wonderful. I was thinking about you this morning, wondering how the cat-pissed bedroom turned out. Many years ago we had a cat that pissed into the heater vents. Once we figured it out, we took him to the vet. The vet said there wasn't anything that could be done as he'd already been neutered. We gave him to some friends who had a ranch as a "mouser." He got fat and we spent weeks taking off various heater vents and cleaning them. UGH! On a happier note, how are the home improvements coming along? I can't believe how much you've done already. I've been thinking about selling our house and buying a smaller one. But the whole "packing and unpacking" thing keeps me from actually doing anything about it.
from sasori-gal :
Happy Belated Birthday! Sorry I missed the actual special day, but celebrations should go on forever! So please continue to enjoy and celebrate. Thanks for the info on that machine. The Gazelle, huh? I was afarid I'd be a total spazz on the machine, but it's not as difficult as it looks and I think it's much easier than the treadmill. Hey, if I can do it, anyone can do it! :)
from sunnflower :
I might tell my friend what happened with the flowers because she paid for a beautiful gift for you and you didn't get what she paid for. She could call and insist that they make it right because she did spend her hard-earned money for something that wasn't as advertised. I love the way those flower cakes look and would want to know if I sent one and it didn't arrive as advertised.
from chaosdaily :
happy birthday late. i would have sent you a REAL cake, no doubt a chocolate one!!
from acaldwell :
dat guy dat quotes ya da 1000 bux, is he mobbed up?? seems like he just charges 1000 bux for everything!!! lol!!! say, ya birthday was last week, and ya didnt tell me!!! ach!!! i wish i knew!!! hava happy happy!!!
from h2ophobic :
I thought your MIL had already moved in. Good luck with the transition! We had some truly wonderful moments when my Grama lived with us. We also had some not-so-wonderful moments! I hope this will work out well for all of you. The hardest part for us was that she would get lonely during the day while we were gone and then be crabby and demanding. Hopefully with you husband home with her, that won't happen. My prayers are with you!
from acaldwell :
theres some stuff you can get for abby from the vet that will make her stop this!!
from acaldwell :
now a pic of monkey boy would be real interesting, for i have never seen a monkey boy!! woo!!
from h2ophobic :
I don't have anything in particular to say...just hi!
from fairygodmum :
Wow.. what a huge yard! I was just wondering how could you NOT see the treehouse? Looks like you guys really had fun. Invite me over for the Bar-B-Q otayyy.. Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from thirdeye7601 :
So glad you had an awesome time with your family. I always have fun with mine too, and I miss them. Have a good week! ;)
from hissandtell :
WHY? Why did you chop down the cherry tree? I mean, tear down the treehouse? I'm with poola - at my last school, I turned the wooden fort into a fabulous pirate ship with boom net underneath and rigging and Jolly Roger and nautical steering wheel and planks and ladders and wooden Rainbow Fish hanging all over it and everything. The early childhood class loved it so much, I had to order them off so I could play on it. J, however, is mean and cruel and selfish and won't build me one in our back yard as I have repeatedly requested. Pout. Love, R xxx
from laineyducks :
Nice yard! Glad to hear so many chipped in to help. How are we liking the move??
from poolagirl :
Major yard work! It looks wonderful! I probably would have kept the treehouse and used it for a "pirate ship."
from acaldwell :
happy b-day to the daughter!!! my back started aching just reading about all that yard work!!! no BBQ for me to day!
from laineyducks :
Birthday greetings to the birthday girl and I agree with you that it's difficult to wrap your mind around. Not sure what to say, so I haven't commented on it yet.
from h2ophobic :
I just wanted to tell you how much I enjoy reading your diary. It's funny how attached I've become to so many D-landers. I miss the "pallet" stories, but am so glad that your life is less stressful. Have a great weekend and remember - a day off is good, two days off is better, but a day off with PAY is the best!
from sunnflower :
Enjoy your weekend. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on the situation post-Katrina. I agree with you.
from forty-plus :
Enjoy your family party!
from thirdeye7601 :
I like you can't get my mind away from this. I'm starting to become depressed. I enjoyed reading your entry, and I'm so gald to see others out there that feel like me, and that are thanful for what they do have. Have a wonderful weekend! :)
from acaldwell :
here in salt lake city, we are gonna take in 1000 people and house them and clothe them, etc..also, channel 2 has had a telethon the past few days where they raised 3/4 of a million dollars for these poor folks, yet i see them piss and moan on tv how people aint doing enough!! sigh... i mailed ya calendar yesterday morning and you should get it by tuesday!! happy b-day to your daughter!! and hava great weekend!!!
from chaosdaily :
ill let you know how scary the dudes driving is if i make it back alive...
from kidzpinkcat :
I completely understand where you are coming from. Our roof leaks into the house EVERY time it rains and our bills stack higher than our heads, but at least I can make dinner for my family and drive them to wherever we need to go (sparing though because of gas prices) and that IS more than I can say for about two states and millions of people right about now. I donated money to the Red Cross yesterday, even though I can only afford $15 bucks. It's all I had to give.
from acaldwell :
thanks for buying the calendar!! im off to the post office inna few minutes! and dont feel badly, ya doing all right. just one "ka ching" at a time!!
from thirdeye7601 :
I understand, I've said that I felt guilty for showering today, and waking up in my warm soft bed. But you know, I realized earlier this evening that our troubles are still worth stressing about. And yours are too. Don't feel bad and good luck with everything sweetie! ;)
from fairygodmum :
Lub you gurl... I'm sending some Angel Dust YOUR Way in a Hurry!!!! Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from fairygodmum :
P.S. Your daughter is Gorgeous!!!! Hugz n Lub da FGM
from fairygodmum :
Ration out the Happy Pills for good behavior. Call the Psycho Dr. and ask for answers to those questions explaining that you will cease paying for these visits unless they discuss said matters immediately. Request a No Refills Option unless you sign for them. Bet you'll see results then! oh lorday Big Hugz Gurl.. and BTW.. tell Doctoroonie about the Black Hole! Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from acaldwell :
265 bux for a 1/2 hour of b.s.?? sheesh!! i wouldnt pay for it anymore either!!! hugs to you!, boss!! lol
from h2ophobic :
Wow! She's not just beautiful...she's gorgeous!
from sunflowery :
Michelle is just lovely! I love her hair and her jawline. Oh to possess such youth and beauty!
from forty-plus :
She is a beautiful girl!
from cosmicrayola :
She is gorgeous!!! I bet her mom is too. The acorn doesn't fall far from the tree.
from sasori-gal :
Your daughter is beautiful and I know it's her beautiful mother that gave her those genes! *smile*
from acaldwell :
wow!!! your daughter is a real looker, rubbing elbows with the hi life too!!! you done good, paula!! tyvm for the swell comment too!!!
from candoor :
I know I'm an entry late (and have been gone from here a while, but stumbled back over thanks to hiss, thank you hiss), but I loved your 365 days entry :)
from acaldwell :
o boy o boy o boy!!! do i know the feeling!! woo!! theres a big lots down the street from my new home, and yesterday, after i bought the pots and pans, i noticed i need a shower curtain! i KNOW that once i hit big lots for the shower curtain, im going to get udder STUFF too!!
from sunnflower :
Your entry on the changes that a year can bring really highlighted the wonderful journeys of many of our internet friends and their many successes often in the face of major difficulties. It reminded me of the progress that we make that often gets forgotten because we are so busy just going on with life.
from cosmicrayola :
It's wonderful to have you in our lives too! I am so happy about your move, your home and everything else that is going so well for you. Lets hope all our buddies lives go well this next year.
from chaosdaily :
awwww we love you too!!
from sasori-gal :
Aw, thanks for the shout-out. *hugs* It is amazing, isn't it? It's some kind of special Diaryland buddy magic and I think the positive love and support we have for each other makes it all happen. And then, it's so nice to be able to share the results when that magic does happen! It's a great feeling.
from acaldwell :
thank you! reading this just made me sit back and think, and realise that you can do if ya just try!!! you are a great pal!!! ♥
from h2ophobic :
I did it again...left this on MY notes,instead of yours..what a goof I can be! Your note made me laugh because I have pretty much decided NOT to send back the exit survey. I'm feeling pretty negative right now and I know that my comments won't change anything there. I hope your unpacking process gets easier. I remember when Bill & I moved to our house in Simi Valley, he wanted to have EVERYTHING unpacked in one day. Around 5pm, I was so tired that I started piling full boxes by the garage door and told him that they were "unnecessary" junk. Then I would just pull out a box now and then to unpack when he wasn't home. I did confess my lie, but not for several months, after everything had been unpacked.
from fairygodmum :
Linda.. It's very easy to blurb out your life while making some of the Best Possible Friends You'll EVER Have on the NET! Come Onnnn... JOIN US! tee hee... Yarnsie.. I have NO Idea what one does with a Women's Spirituality MA Degree.. except for write books and perhaps go on the lecture circuit. Since I am the FairyGodMum.. maybe it would validate my capabilities? rofl... go visit my Metaspiritual Website: http://www.metaspiritual.bravehost.com/ Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum P.S. Congrats on the NEW HOUSE!!!!!
from acaldwell :
everybuddy chant now: WE WANT LINDA! WE WANT LINDA! YAY!!
from sasori-gal :
Linda! We're like one big family here! C'mn and join us! Paula, thanks for your note. I can sure relate to being in a new place and living in boxes. I'm experiencing the same thing as far as interior items I've moved over which do not fit with the mood of this place. And to answer your question, I am not closer to Mr. Yak, but rather farther away!!! It's do-able, but it would be hard to do day jaunts like I did before. :(
from hissandtell :
Yeah! I want to read Linda's diary, too - except I know I'd recognise myself among the cast of characters. I'd be the grumpy dishevelled disorganised principal wandering around twitching, pulling out her own eyelashes and saying, "Who does a girl have to fax around here to get a cup of coffee made for her?" (And I always suspected *my* admin staff did absolutely nothing all day except twiddle their thumbs and monitor their eBay auctions - oh, I'm kidding...) And have fun refurbishing your new house, darling - can I have all your Fiesta Ware, please? Love, R xxx
from forty-plus :
C'mon Linda! Be fun!
from boxx9000 :
BoXx City! WheeeEEe! The picture on the card is where I imagined we would have lunch at your new house. Do you have a garden area like that? It was a lovely idea, tho. Imagine us having croissants and coffee together. HAPPY NEW HOME!
from chaosdaily :
awww come on lindypoo, i am looking for a good new diary to read....
from hissandtell :
Well, I love that you describe yourself in your profile as an "empty nester" - and here you have a family of bitch-birds moved in to keep your company. What a beautiful sense of symmetry and balance that makes! Love, R xxx
from sasori-gal :
You continue to be my inspiration! Now that I am living in unpacking hell, I can't wait until I can sit back and enjoy the new neighborhood too. We don't have bitch birds here, but there is a whole chorus of bitch ciccadas here. *eeks*
from acaldwell :
bitch bird!!! woot! new species of bird!! hahahaha!!! we had a bitch bird in our tree for a while! (yes, i have a tree, its in front of the building, and if i dont keep my windows closed i will get a suprise in my room!) my bitch bird was nocturnal, it would scream all night long!
from chaosdaily :
can you describe the bird or get a good picture of it? we could identify it then.... dont know that will stop the bitching, but at least you would know what to call it!
from spritopias :
At least you were done eating, right?
from spritopias :
At least you were done eating, right?
from h2ophobic :
Thanks for your note. It's amazing the peace that comes with surrendering. Actually what's amazing is that I fight it for so long! Yeah, well I've never been one to do things the easy way. How are things going at your new job? I'm so happy that (obviously) things are less crazy there, but I do miss the funny stories.
from sunnflower :
What a great sandwich book from Art. Just when you're on top of the world, eating those burgers out in the open air, your sandwich eating went straight to the birds! I agree about that umbrella.
from kidzpinkcat :
TOO damn funny! That happened to me once, but I was a little girl and I cried about it like it was a big deal or something. Be thankful that your plate was empty. I hope you are loving the new home. Hey you may have a nest up there. How cool.
from acaldwell :
birdie birdie in the sky, i know what that white stuff is in my eye! ooooo!!! pass the bounty and hot water please!
from laineyducks :
Share the recipes! And happy new home!!
from cosmicrayola :
Two comments. First one is EWWWW! The second one is that it brought back a memory of mine when I was in basic Training at Fort Dix. We marched to a little ditty. A yellow bird (a yellow bird) With a yellow bill (with a yellow bill) was purched upon (was perched upon) My window sill (my sindow sill) I lured him in (I lured him) With a crust of bread (with a crust of bread) and then I smashed His F**KIN HEAD! (yes, we were viscious little soldiers).
from forty-plus :
So glad you are enjoying your new lovely backyard ... dropping pooh and all!
from hissandtell :
What a fabulous housewarming present! Yes, you MUST share some of the recipes, please. What's Tennessee's? Is it the fried peanut-butter-and-banana number so beloved of Elvis? Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
your quite welcome!!
from boxx9000 :
Paula, please send me your new address <[email protected]> I want to send you a house warming postcard! YIPEE!!
from boxx9000 :
Paula, please send me your new address <[email protected]> I want to send you a house warming postcard! YIPEE!!
from h2ophobic :
Moving sucks. Bronchitis sucks. You sound amazingly cheerful for having had to deal with both!
from acaldwell :
hay, wheezie! (well u sez, call me wheezie!) so, just take a day, and flop inna chair or lay in bed, and dont do nuffin!! its allowed!!! you have done way too much, and in such little time too, i hope ya feel better!!!
from chaosdaily :
the man says "we have to treat our employees like family" because we are a small business in a small town. but if she was my kid snotting off, i would kick her butt. he takes a much softer approach, but at home, hes the hard ass. i just wish he would treat our family like the employees, we would all be a lot happier.
from acaldwell :
ya template looks good to me?!?
from h2ophobic :
Thanks for your note. I'm still about a day or two behind, but that's life after vacation. I'm already looking for a new job...sort of. An opening has come up with the local school district, doing payroll. I"ve applied, but mo word from them yet. How's the new house coming along?
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY NEW HOME! (wheeeeeEeeeeEEE!)
from forty-plus :
Congratulations on the new home and the renewed spirit!
from cosmicrayola :
I am sooo happy that you are sooo happy!
from acaldwell :
welcome back!! welcome back!!! yay on tiny cable company!! the former owner is an ass for sure. now paula, do the "american thing", and take pics and sue the bass-tid in small claims court!!! that will lern him!!! i got the book ya sent, thanky yous ♥ i will be sending you a housewarming gift!!!!! yay!! im so happy for ya!!!!
from poolagirl :
So glad to have you back! Congrats!
from chaosdaily :
we are glad to have you back! and theres always something with the move that sucks, but at least it didnt rain while you were moving. the problems you are stuck with are minor... you have the house you want! enjoy!!!!
from purple-momma :
Happy 4th! I haven't had my "extra hour" to spend on Diaryland. . . so much has happened to you. I am so happy for your move. It is sure a lot of work, but it will be wonderful when you are moved in. I wish you all the best with the house and your new "life". Please enjoy both to the fullest!
from acaldwell :
yay!!!! wow!!! a 20 year old check!!! maybe you should frame it! i am happy that u decided to go with comcast!!when i get the book in the mail and it has your return addy on it i will send u a housewarming gift!!!! congratulations!! ♥
from kidzpinkcat :
OH MY GOSH! This is it for you and I am so happy for you too. I hope the move goes well because none of my moves ever went well. Something ALWAYS broke or got lost. I did find a twenty dollar bill under my bed once though. That was sort of nice. Hey by the way, I have some news for you too. I'm pregnant! This is my third and FINAL baby so I really have my fingers crossed for a girl. It was hard to get a hold of mom, but I told her the other day. She was in Durango, Colorado. Let us know how you are once you're ready and back on line! Good luck!
from hissandtell :
Oh, darling - what a lovely welcome to your new home and neighbourhood. It sounds just wonderful. I'm sitting here with a little ter in my eye over your poor MIL's comments, though - how sad she even had to ask the question about the TV. And yes, I understand your heartbreak over the decimated garden at your old place; I've experience it too many times, too. But try to concentrate on the good things ahead - more soy sauce than any one woman could ever need, and it's there at your fingertips, for the asking! Much love, R xxx
from h2ophobic :
Your new neighborhood sounds a lot like ours. I love (most of) our neighbors. Night before last I went outside in my PJ's to hug the neighbor kids who had just returned from a week at their grandma's. I'm so happy for you! I wish you many happy years in your new home!
from acaldwell :
yay!!! wonnerful, wonnerful!!!! i am so happy for you!!! congrats!!! congrats!!! this is really special!!!
from chaosdaily :
hoooray!!!! enjoy the neighborhood!
from hissandtell :
Uber-congratultions, darling. So sorry about the bra-strap, though. Perhaps you could console yourself knowing that at least your home wasn't strewn with sex toys and bondage gear (or even clients trussed up in the living room, awaiting punishment...) Can't wait for more updates! Lots of love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
yay!!! congratulations!!! im happy for ya!!!
from chaosdaily :
oh yay!!
from sasori-gal :
Good luck with the move. Believe me, I know what you are going through. Won't it be nice when we can sit back, relax and enjoy the fact that moving hell is over??! Take care!
from laineyducks :
Your garage sounds like my 6 year olds bedroom - she's a packrat already.
from h2ophobic :
Thanks for the note. About my aunt - silly me, I read the emails and then delete them. Actually for the first time EVER, this time I replied to her email and addressed the things she said. (I usually just delete them and let it go.) Yesterday afternoon, she replied (to my email) and apologized. I have to admit, I was more shocked by her apology than I'd ever been by the things she said.
from spritopias :
You did not throw out cork! My friend in Chicago makes art from cork and can never find enough! Please, tell me you didn't throw out the cork (yet)!
from hissandtell :
Oh, those poor corks. Come the revolution, you'll be sorry. I'm loving the "crazy collections - where are they now?" stories - but all that aside, congratulations on your uber-efficiency and impending move. It all sounds fabulous. Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
wow! this has all come to be much faster than i thought it would! congratulations! i love that cork story! worldwide cork shortage!!! hehehee!!! sounds like something homer simpson would pull! you are just amazing having done all this in such short time! ♥
from chaosdaily :
we actually had moved into the house before we signed the papers, so we were already unpacked. the store was in no way as busy as it is now... our first days sales were about $1300.... they are way more than that now! but we signed the papers, and then went to the store and opened for business. since we were already living in town, we had scoped things out so we knew what we would be doing that first day.. and it was april 1st. appropriate day, huh?
from acaldwell :
radon scams. condo associations. if i owned a condo, and some jackassed condo association came to my door, i'd tell em to F**K O*F!! such headaches!!! well in the next 2 weeks i hope all works out for ya!!
from h2ophobic :
I understand what you're co-worker was saying, but just because HIS problems are frightening, doesn't make yours less frustrating. We have neighbors who became quite rich, quite quickly during the whole radon scare (they started their own home inspection business.) Now they're doing home mold inspections as well...they have a dog that sniffs out "dangerous" mold. They are now even richer! I remember when a home inspection was the "walk-through" that you did with your realtor, noting stains on the carpet and leaky faucets!
from dailypieces :
I disagree with that. Thats HIS perspective. In YOUR world the Radon thing is pretty big. And its only money.. hmmm.....Yeah hard earned money.
from chaosdaily :
radon is just one of the radioactive elements that is in the earth. we all live with it..... and you are right, its just money. peace of mind and a new neighborhood will be so much better... and you do have a good job to make more money.....
from boxx9000 :
http://www.epa.gov/radon/
from boxx9000 :
What are the health effects? Usually the maximum limit the state allows is ALSO NOT healthy. Does anyone have zero? What causes radon? Now I will need to go do a google search.
from cosmicrayola :
4.1?? That is rediculous. Sure does sound like a scam. I'd much rather have a pedicure than a picocure.
from acaldwell :
ya, paula, u can sue the rat bastards who insisted you comply with this bullshit!!!! radon gas! what a crock o' shit!! ya think L. Ron Hubbard had anything to do with this scam?
from catinasnit :
Now you've got ME worried about Radon in the ground around our home. Please... tell me it ain't so! Maybe I'll purchase one of this Home Depoit kits and check in the fall... when the weather is cooler. While I'm at it, won't you please conjur up some rain and fan it our way?
from chaosdaily :
well if you do have to wait for another year, it will give you a chance to think about who is moving with you.....
from acaldwell :
they still spewing that radon shit there? theres no such thing as radon. it was a government invention so some slobs can hoodwink the public for cash and kickbacks! what a crock o'shit that is paula!!! hang in there, and tell em to shove it up they radon ass!!! hehehe!!! big hugs for you!
from purple-momma :
How's the house situation? I have been BUSY and haven't had time to check in. Cracks? Hope all is well and they are getting fixed.
from h2ophobic :
If you enjoy eating vegetables, you'll do fine on the SBD. Any news about the house? (I don't mean to freak you out if you haven't heard anything, but I feel like the Vicente from Princess Bride "I'm WAITING!"
from sasori-gal :
I believe that there's some weird planetary alignment causing craziness in everyone's lives right now! You hang in there and my prayers are beamed out to you! *hugs*
from h2ophobic :
I go a few days without being online and your whole life changes! How exciting! I remember the the stomach churning and lack of sleep. I don't think I slept until our 2nd night in this house. Hang in there, take a deep breath and UPDATE SOON, please. ;-)
from catinasnit :
I couldn't figure out if both houses had cracks or just one. Don't crack up.
from chaosdaily :
hang in there!! i know its stressful... we bought a store and a house at the same time and spent about an hour and a half signing papers... and 8 months before that to get it all together. as far as sleep goes, ill email you and tell you how to get at least a good nap....
from boxx9000 :
Here in Sonoma County, California where the houses START at $600K.....IF you do NOT offer at least $20K OVER the asking price you do not have a chance at getting the house at all. Aren't you glad you are not buying a house here? See, I thought that would make you feel better. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!
from acaldwell :
Mein Gott in Himmel!!!! i would CRACK like the foundation under pressure!!! i can FEEL the tension just READING this!! my prayers are with ya, and crossed fingers too! this is a lot, and i hope all works out for ya!! hugs! ♥
from poolagirl :
Good Grief, Charley Brown! I am so sorry the wrenches have decided to snag your works for this house. I am also holding out the highest hope for you and Mike - and whatever decision is made about continuing your marriage. Blessings, dear one.
from purple-momma :
Oh, it is so cute~I absolutely love it! I have to ask, what is a "3-season porch"? Being from So. California I have never heard of it!
from catinasnit :
Cape Cod? Is that what a house with " all-seeing-eyes" is called? I love the window seat and the back yard. If it's right for you, everthing will turn out perfectly. Congratulatios on selling your condo, now you can check that one off your list of stresses.
from forty-plus :
I know it's still "almost" but HOW EXCITING! And it is lovely. Good luck and almost congratulations!
from chaosdaily :
oooo and close enough for a day trip! yay!
from chaosdaily :
awesome!! hope everything goes smooth!!
from acaldwell :
yay!!! SOLD! AMERICAN! wheeee congratulations!!!! (jumps for joy!) o boy!!!
from poolagirl :
Marvelous! Marvelous! I am crossing my fingers for you!
from boxx9000 :
WhEeEeEEeEeEEeEeeEeEeEEe! SOLD!
from hissandtell :
Well heavens to Betsy; how brilliantly exciting! I haven't been able to read your diary for a few days, and just look what I've missed! Congratulations in advance, darling. This is all wonderful news. Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
heavens to betsy! paula, heres what i come up with! The meaning is simple enough: it�s just a mild exclamation of shock or surprise. It is almost exclusively an American expression, associated in my mind with mature females of the Prohibition era or earlier (though this may just be a reflection of my recent reading). As to where it came from, nobody has the slightest idea. It seems to be one of those traditional sayings that have been around in the language for generations, but which only latterly have come to be recorded in print. The big Oxford English Dictionary has a first citation from 1914, but I�m told it can be found as far back as 1891. Some have tried to trace it to the Revolutionary War and to Betsy Ross, but have failed; others think it may have something to do with the frontiersman�s rifle, often called Old Betsy, but there�s no evidence that saying and name are associated. Charles Earle Funk, who in 1955 used the phrase as part of the title of a book about curious phrases, said that its origins were �completely unsolvable�. We have to leave it as one of the great mysteries of lexicography, along with the similar heavens to Murgatroyd. Unless someone reading this knows different? ♥
from poolagirl :
Wow, Paula. I am really impressed that you turned your life around. So many stay stuck. How wonderful that you have these times with your daughter now. Bless you.
from h2ophobic :
Thanks for your note. It's hard to say how well I'm doing on the SBD, it's only been a few days. BUT, I haven't been hungry and I haven't craved anything sweet...yet. Those two things alone make it worth the work for me. Take care!
from catinasnit :
Lord. I should never have read your entry a day late and a meal short. I'm absolutely starving and here you are writing about how delicious the food was at your aunt's house. I've gotta fix me something to eat or knaw my arm off. Glad you're back... safely.
from acaldwell :
hiya paula!! stranger heheheee!!! well, i am glad that you have a nifty time there in west by god virginia!! yay! and you are doing the right thing by putting one foot in front of the other! patience is a virtue, but u know that!! remember, we cant control the direction of the wind, but we can control our sails!! ♥ get some sleep!!!! *HUGS
from purple-momma :
I am sorry. . . however, there will be another house in your future. Have a wonderful weekend. You can think of me, working, making and delivering wedding cakes. Who in their right mind gets married on a holiday weekend? I will definitely have a say in my daughter's weddings as far as the date -- no holiday wedding for me!!!!!!
from h2ophobic :
I'm so sorry about your little house! I have faith that you'll find the perfect house for you. Being quiet and waiting are the WORST parts of faith, but you'll always be rewarded for your faith. THE house that you'll be happy in is out there waiting for you! Have a wonderful weekend!
from forty-plus :
I, too, am sorry for your disappointment. Things will still be exciting for you, just a bit different than first thought. I hope you have a good and healing trip to WV this weekend. Thinking of you, Y.
from chaosdaily :
sorry for the disappointment. i know how it is, our last house was so nice, and sold for a lot less than i thought we could get. oh well, theres a house out there for you somewhere....
from hissandtell :
Oh, Possum, what a bummer. I guess there's not much consolation I can offer, other than the ubiquitous old house-buying sentiments that maybe you just weren't meant to have that one, and that something even better is just around the corner. I hope you have a wonderful time with your family this weekend. Love, R xxx
from boxx9000 :
This might make you feel better: remember that the houses here in California START at $600K for absolute junk! That's $120K down and $4,900 per month in payments. Not counting taxes and insurance and repairs (sigh)
from acaldwell :
aw big hug for you! paula, dont give up!!! theres more to see there in elgin, im sure, just dont bee discouraged, we all are here rooting for ya! the ballgame just started! its only the 1st inning! you will have anutter crack at bat!!! *SMILES* you will find what you want, drive safe to west virginia! ♥ ♥
from purple-momma :
Oh, I am sooo jealous!!! what a cute house! I love it!!! and the bricks!!!!! and the yard!!!!! and garage!!!!!! what a find!!!!! Good for your!!!! I'll be thinking of you!!!!
from forty-plus :
This house really is beautiful and in perfect condition. Good luck!
from acaldwell :
hay paula~~ this is beautiful~~ wow! fingers crossed!! the suspense!!! i cant wait to find out what happens next!!!
from catinasnit :
Oh, Paula! I'm with you.. and Mike. It's absolutely wonderful. You'd never get me off the enclosed porch either. Just viewing the pictures of the house and the landscaped grounds made me feel happy. Just think, someday you may have a precious grandchild to put in that made-to-order nursery. I've got my fingers crossed and I'm waiving my "fairygodmother wand" over your pictures. If you don't believe I have a fairygodmother wand (a pink and purple one that lights up and blinks when waived), just ask Jayme.
from chaosdaily :
cool.... im hoping it will work out for you..... is it in elgin too? i must have missed that....
from chaosdaily :
yea, nice day at work. the boys use the treehouse to smoke... lol
from hissandtell :
Ah, reading this reminded me of things I'd forgotten from my last job - like when I'd bring in icecreams, cake and strawberries for staff when we had long and tedious meetings after work. But seriously, what lovely praise from your boss. And I'm so excited about your (possible) new house - all that room in the backyard for marron ponds! Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
wow! hubby did all that?!? all by his lonesome?? no begging and prodding!!! his training is starting to take shape!!! maybe you will get that raise sooner! now your fridays are buster bar fridays!!! good luck!! i got 52 pics for tomorrow!
from catinasnit :
Dairy Queen, Duty-free Buster Bars, Diaryland, Day Off, Doting husband... all in one short day. What could be more en-Dearing? Oh, a new brick house might be nice. By the way, since you asked, I got the Ostrich Ferns on eBay. I'll have to look up the site and e-mail it to you. They arrived in perfect condition too.
from kidzpinkcat :
HA! The "ARM!" Oh My GOSH! That is soooooo true. The hump, the Auto Bingo, the car farts. I am about 29 years old and I know what you mean, girl! Every word. I used to have the little cards with the red film thing that you push down when you see the bingo item. I NEVER remember finishing a game. We used to also play Mad Libs. Remember those? They were hysterical when you were like 9 or 10 and every other adjective was "stupid" or the nouns were "boob". It makes me chuckle just to remember the childish stupidity of it all.
from purple-momma :
Oh my goodness!! Road trips!! I think my family was the "king and queen" of road trips!! I have 3 sisters. I am #2 in the line-up. Picture a trip from California to New Jersey and back, twice in my life-time. Once in a 1964 Chrysler (it was "as big as a whale" as the B-52's say in Love Shack)The 1st time, only 5 of us. 2nd time in a ford station wagon with all 6 of us. Wow, I'll have to write about those trips someday!! It is amazing how many similarities we all have!! Bingo, the "foot wells" for sleeping etc.!!!!!! Thanks for the memories!!!!
from catinasnit :
Your entry today is going to trigger many others. I absolutely loved every word you wrote.
from acaldwell :
that was wonderful goin down memory lane! occasionally, when we had a car, we would go on road trips like that, and it was just me and my brother, we played the bingo game too, and we had a punching game, we see something, and call it and punch each other in the car. farts. who smelt it, dealt it! hehehe! i enjoyed the entry, made me smile!!
from sasori-gal :
I LOVED that trip down road trip memory lane. We played that BINGO game too. My brother and I also had the same imaginary dividing line. I used to slap myself and yell, "Ouch! Tom! Stay on your own side!" so that my mom would think he was crossing over and then, he would get in trouble. Being the oldest is fun, isn't it? *heehee*
from catinasnit :
A time clock? Are you serious? How old is it? That's kind of neat (in my opinion). Someday they will be as obsolete as the old rectangular glass-walled phone boothes. Everything that is going on in your life right now seems so exciting. I'm rivited to read what happens next. The yellow house with the snow-capped-roof is so romantic. Bet it has wood floors too. The wallpaper? Check with Home Depot on line. They have all kinds of answers.
from sasori-gal :
Thinking of you and hoping everything works out! Thanks for all your inspiring messages!
from purple-momma :
I personally love the snow on the roof! Sure, it might be hiding "something", but what a cute house! Good for you! In regards to your daughter's friend, how did you get through the parent "barrier" of the nationalities? It seems that is what I will have to do to get the trust of them so the daughter can come and visit after school. The discussion with the girls after she left was wonderful. . . They all want to help in some way.
from acaldwell :
under contract with contingency?? what does that mean?? i think mike has seen the light, and this IS exciting!!!!! i sent ya an email with a question!! ya, and like chaos sez, dont buy THAT house! it has snow on it! the owners are probabaly HIDING something!!!! ♥
from chaosdaily :
dont buy that house, it has snow all over it!!!! anyway, im glad that your lump is moving, maybe it was the drugs that did it.... and im glad things are working out.
from fairygodmum :
In my former life I worked at Wall Papers to Go! Yes the explaination mark was part of the Logo. You can wallpaper over the paper backing as long as you get some rough sand paper and scrub it down smooth. Best to get some textured wallpaper to cover over it. Unless you remove the paper backing with "Wall Paper Remover." Good Luck with the Gararge. You have inspired me to do some late Spring Cleaning! Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from chaosdaily :
the tri color pasta that we sell does have different flavors, the green is spinach and the red is tomato... some im sure is just colored, but this pasta is actually made with spinach and tomato, so it does have a definite flavor. i kind of think though that they used all the pasta, because they came back for more spaghetti sauce.....
from chaosdaily :
as long as you are paying someone to "do" the walls, why not see what they think about it?
from acaldwell :
good morning, paula! i would venture to guess that as long as the backing is smooth, you should be able to paper over it! just what i think, i may be wrong! heres hoping you and mike have a argue free productive weekend!!! ♥
from laineyducks :
In all honesty - I'm often like Mike. The guests are over and I really just wish they'd leave. I have to be in an "entertaining" mood which happens like once in a 6 month period. I love the guest bikes story. Snark :)
from purple-momma :
I had to quickly "scam" your diary. . . I have been too busy to write or read anybody's! Happy Mother's Day, a little late! I am going to try to write later. . . It is my stress relief!
from hissandtell :
Oh, darling Paula - this entry entertained me so much. (I inderstand it was written with great fondess and affection for his quirky eccentricities?) Gosh, it's going to be a real challenge finding a house that fulfills all those pesky little criteria you don't even know about yet (racing stables? marron ponds? heliport?) - have fun! Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
o boy, did that strike a nerve!! i was somewhat like mike. in fact, often times when some of the other tenants here come a knocking, i either ignore it or let them in, hoping they will leave quickly.
from sunnflower :
I enjoy your diary so much. Happy Mother's Day to you!
from boxx9000 :
Happy Happy Mom's Day! ♥
from h2ophobic :
Ok...that was a little scary. Just as I was beginning to write this, I got a pop up that read "You've got a new note from Yarnsmith at D-land." I just wanted to leave a quick note wishing you a Happy Mother's Day from one mom to another. I hope your house hunting leads you to the perfect home!
from forty-plus :
Happy Mother's Day!
from chaosdaily :
well, not much you can do about the MIL except divorce the husb.... and maybe once hes off the daytime drugs, he may turn out to be the man you once married.. so good luck, and happy mothers day! hugs.
from acaldwell :
happy mom's day to you!! sounds like you are just plugging right along, and you know what you want and whats best for you! i just hope that you find the one ya want, and that you are happy with the situation!!! keep on keeping on! ♥
from acaldwell :
wow, paula! u sure know ya p's and q's when it comes to house buying! that lying realtor would have convinced me!! you are lucky, and i know you will find your dream house soon!!!
from sunnflower :
What a gorgeous house. We should all put our houses up for sale so that we keep it looking so beautiful. The bathing suit pictures are terrifying - if I see a guy at the beach in one of those I will probably never stop running. I so enjoy your diary.
from hissandtell :
Darling, that house is divine. And you can only do what you want to do; if you can make it work for you (financially, at least) and you're prepared to do what it takes to get what you want most, then you must run with that. What's that old line? "Working streets and wedding rings are sometimes much the same"... hey, maybe we're ALL house whores at one time or another! Love, R xxx
from poolagirl :
OMG! That house is fabooooo!
from forty-plus :
Whatever you do don't die from stress, we would miss you terribly! These decisions cannot be rushed. P.S. I loved those two attic rooms, love the ceiling line.
from laineyducks :
No matter WHAT you decide you have people rooting for you and those houses.
from spritopias :
that's the single most digusting picture I've seen all day. I have the best solution: kill your husband. You get rid of him, get his life insurance and his equity. What more could you ask for? AND people will feel sorry for you and not think, "Thank B&*$%# divorced her sad, crippled husband."
from cosmicrayola :
Good luck in whatever you chose. You are the only one that can decide, but I bet it will work out.
from acaldwell :
life altering decisions are tuff, no doubt. but you must look toward your happiness. you know what the marraige is like. are you happy? i suspect not. you have achieved so much for yourself the past year alone, and you need to take that giant step. you do not need him to qualify for a morgauge! there must be someone in your life that can help you attain this! as my ma used to say,"any jew will do" hehehe! seriously tho, you can do this, and i know its a hard decision, but remember, your happiness matters most!! ♥ nice HOUSE pics!! can i rent the attic???
from chaosdaily :
i say, offer 190.... they might be desperate enough to take it. as to your man? well, if you are moving, you need to have the black hole cleaned out. give him a time limit, either he does it in the next week, or you do. i know what you mean about having so much time invested in your marriage.. i am looking at the same thing. i go back and forth... but mostly i am looking ahead. hang in there!
from fairygodmum :
Darn! And I wanted to see before and after pics of the Black Hole.... Knowing me.. I woulda packed everything when he wasn't home... let him fin for it in the dumpster at the Thrift Store. Gurl.. has it been a year already? Congratulations.. on your Anniversary.. Here's wishing you many many more happy dayz and a future worth living for. Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from forty-plus :
Happy Anniversary! You are doing so well working toward bettering your quality of life. Stay strong because you deserve the best. ♥
from chaosdaily :
happy anniversary, and hugs! he might change for a day or two, but its unlikely he will change the way you need him to. im keeping good thoughts for you....
from h2ophobic :
Happy Anniversary! You are rocking my world with your strength! I do have one question though...what is SRO? I'm sure you've mentioned it before, but "Standing Room Only" is the only thing that comes to mind!
from sasori-gal :
Happy Diaryland Anniversary! *hugs* and thanks for the neverending supply of sunshine and support you've brought into my life through your words and messages.
from acaldwell :
wow! well, you know he wont change! he may make a feeble attempt at changing, but he wont. congrats on your year at diaryland! mine is coming up in less than 90 days!!! go with the cute elgin house!! ♥ you deserve better then living in a landfill. hugs!
from hissandtell :
Whew, you're safe. Thank goodness I can use the flashlight batteries for something else now! I'm so glad you were able to laugh and talk about a few things. (But a special plastic box for a porn collection? Well, gracious!) And congratulations on your DL anniversary, darling - I hope there are many many many more. Love, R xxx
from fairygodmum :
Hold your breath and wear a mask.. Please! I want you coming outta there ALIVE! That reminds me to do some House Cleaning.. ok.. after the show... I promise! Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from minstrelite :
You know, she wasn't nearly as bad as I'd feared. Main things are, she doesn't get it when someone is signaling to do a lane change, and doesn't slow down to let them in; also, she seems not to brake quite soon enough when the car in front of her is slowing down to stop for a light or something. But I was proud of her; she was paying attention to all the traffic laws, and was very circumspect at four way stops and such. Like I said, I shouldn't talk (Mr. Asleep on the Road over here, boss.)
from h2ophobic :
I had to laugh at your entry. We have a BLACK HOLE too, affectionately referred to as the STORAGE ROOM. I clean it out each summer, but apparently seedlings are left behind, because the NEXT summer I'll find things in there that I don't remember EVER seeing before.
from hissandtell :
Your Black Hole sounds suspiciously like what we used to call The Scare Room, which was a cavernous frightening room that used to growl "Feed me" menacingly at regular intervals. As long as some crap got thrown in there to moulder and rot, it was happy. (Oh, poor Dusty!) And you're right - you must never keep your end of the bargain and throw away your treasures. Stuff that for a joke! Anyway, darling, I shall be there with a flashlight and a sniffer dog if we don't hear from you by May Day, alrighty? Love, R xxx
from minstrelite :
Thanks, Paula, for your note. I hadn't noticed a change in my writing myself, but it's still good to hear about it. Sometimes we ourselves don't notice things that others do. I'm currently challenged by more work than I know how to manage time-wise, even though I know it's all a matter of time management. But at least that's better than the opposite! Thanks for reading. :)
from kidzpinkcat :
OH MY GOSH!!! I can TOTALLY relate to the "black hole" thing so much so that I was laughing outloud and nodding with every word you wrote. My husband is such a pack rat and the table has always been a collection of mail and useless rebates never sent in. I finally put my foot down and moved everything to one side of the table so I can sit down at the table and eat a meal with my children like a family is suppossed to do. My carpet in the living room has become so clean since. I have a designated place for his crap. The dumpster...I mean the computer room where I am sitting now. I keep the door closed and the kids aren't allowed in here for fear they may never return. I cleaned up what is now the baby's room from his piles and piles of stuff. It took me two weeks to get it all sorted and cleaned out. I was pregnant and taking care of a toddler at the time too, so it wasn't easy. I bought two HUGE bins that I could put all his clothes in from his days in college and then what didn't fit went to Salvation Army, but he doesn't know that. A TON of crap went to the dumpster, which he also doesn't know about. He learned this bad habit from his mother also. She is a shop-aholic with pack-rat ways herself. A habit I am trying so hard to keep under control with my husband. It's a constant battle.
from boxx9000 :
I have to have a goal, something to look foward to, something to work towards or I sink into the black hole as well. Right now I am focusing on getting a job (and a rental house) in Washington. I have very little material items to actually move. GOOD LUCK on your move. One step at a time. One day at a time. You can do it!
from chaosdaily :
wow, is his heritage luxembourg? they are famous for never throwing anything away, saying "i might be able to use it for something". most luxembourgers have a collection of collections.. anything and everything... used wrapping paper.. yes, empty jars... whatever! can you get a dumpster delivered to your house?
from cosmicrayola :
My word, your place sounds like mine.... until a few months ago. We know we are moving in the next few months. I have literally put out 10 bags of junk and had a yard sale to boot. And I have only been accumulating for 10 years! Now when hubby tackles the garage, that's a whole new ball of wax!
from acaldwell :
im on AIM right now if ya wanna say afew syllables!!!
from acaldwell :
do we need to call dr. leakey, the world famous archioloigst? this task sounds like cranes and drillers may need to be involved! wait! we may hve to declare the room a national historical site, what with all the ancient treasures that may abound in there! i bet if you catagorise and list all the findings in the black hole, and list them on ebay as ancient archological findings, you will become a multimillionaire!!! hehehehee!!! good luck! ♥
from laineyducks :
You've got so many people rooting for you - keep that in mind. I too am a bit in the blue/grey area, but our weather change was like yours. It's tough. Keep your head up and think about how adorable that house is!
from acaldwell :
heya paula! i know the feeling there! its the weather!! weather depression, its cold, and not sunny, and you work ya butt off all week and come home to a lump on a chair. i'd feel the same way too! one of the things i like about living alone, is that if i want peace and quiet for some alone time, i can just shut everything off and not worry about anything! dont give up hope! its a hard struggle, but in the end you will succeed! you have proven that you can make a change for the better by changing jobs, now its time to change your life for the better by selling that house, and getting that dream house in elgin! you can do this, and you will not be alone!! we are all here with you!!! big hugs for you! soon the sun will come out and it will get warm! and the mood will be brighter!!! think positive, warm and sunshine!! one step at a time! and dont lose hope! we are here with you!!! ♥
from spritopias :
I have no idea what is going on (RE: your note)
from purple-momma :
You know where I shop for shoes? Nordstrom. Yep. That expensive department store. They actually MESSURE YOUR FEET and SUGGEST STYLES and treat you like a PERSON! Then, I watch their "reject store", The Rack, and go for the sales! Every once in a while, I actually break down and buy a pair while I am being helped by a salesperson. OK, I might spend a little more, well, a lot more, but they FIT! Just an idea. . . . I know how frustrating it is to buy any kind of clothing item . . . .
from acaldwell :
heya!! dont be so sad! you will find a shoe that works for you!! i know you will!! maybe try a shoe specialty store?? justa suggestion!! i bet you look pretty in pink!! hugs ♥ im doin the 20 question meme tomorrow, so gimme a few questions, please! i need 4 good ones!!!
from kilowatt :
The weft and weave of your resplendent words of esteem for my �Where I�m From� poem have fabricated the most luxurious, exquisite, vibrant, and rare silks to grace the fabric of my mind. "I can live for two months on a good compliment." ~ Mark Twain ~ I thank you again for the extravagant gift of your lyrical and charming words of praise. May your day sparkle with enthusiasm, consist of decadent pleasures, and be consumed with revelry and exultation upon the pursuit of discovering and nurturing your innermost desires and goals. I look forward with great anticipation to be able to read your own poetic version of your personal history.
from laineyducks :
*laughs* I love how you keep ending up in Elgin.
from kidzpinkcat :
Catinasnit's Daughter here! I have been... well, my computer has been out of commision for a while, but I am back online again and thank God! I had been wondering how you have been. I still have a lot to read to catch up to where you are now. It's been like five months. By the way, my new online name is kidzpinkcat. (with a z instead of an s) For some reason I am having trouble getting my old one to come up. So just to let you know, here I am! Jayme
from kilowatt :
I must confess that I have never read your words other than the eloquently expressed words of loveliness you left recently in a note to Candoor. Upon reading your note to him, I felt compelled to thank you for your thoughtful and forthright way of expressing yourself to him. Your note was a joy to read and I thank you for the pleasure of being able to read it. �Dive deeply into the miracle of life and let the tips of your wings be burnt by the flame, let your feet be lacerated by the thorns, let your heart be stirred by human emotion, and let your soul be lifted beyond the earth.� ~ Hazrat Inayat Khan, �Call of the Dervish� ~ May you continue to enlighten and inspire others with your powerful words. Additionally, may your evening sparkle with enthusiasm, consist of decadent pleasures, and be consumed with revelry and exultation upon the pursuit of discovering and nurturing your innermost desires and goals.
from candoor :
your thoughts might not have inspired my smile (I really want to stay much more idealistic, even as I laugh at myself for the folly of it sometimes), but the fact that you shared them sure did... and it sounds like you're moving to Elgin :)
from acaldwell :
good!! im happy you had a great time last nite!! elgin got you now! time to go!!! theres a house with your name on it there~!!
from chaosdaily :
actually, its only about 2 hours.. i really wouldnt need to stay.. just an afternoon thing would be fun!
from chaosdaily :
besides, its not that far from me. can i come some day and visit you after you move?
from chaosdaily :
sounds to me like elgin is calling you.....
from candoor :
looking around, I found your love for your daughter imspired warm teary feelings... and your rhyming is a connection we share (most of the time I think in rhyme)... I wish you well with the decisions you are coming to and hope you can find the path that leads you to the happiest life you can create :)
from acaldwell :
i am so sorry that perverted "uncle" sam screwed you! i used to file the 1040EZ. back in 1983, i filed my EZ, and got a notice that the IRS put a lien on me! well, i called em up to find out why, and was told that my w-2 was false! i had wrote EXEMPT in the box, cause i didnt owe and tax the year before, and dont expect to owe and tax this year. which was correct. then i asked them how do you determine that a W-2 is false? do you look at each one, then suddenly decide, this is false? and the shit stain said, yea, thats right, upon which i gave him a hearty FUCK YOU! and hung up. i havent filed a return since! and i aint gonna file any returns ever again! piss on em!! there must be something you can do about this??? after all the irs is a bunch of fuck ups!
from boxx9000 :
me! me! me! I use the 1040EZ. I don't own anything. I got about $3K BACK on my taxes this year. I filed HEAD of household. I used my tax return to pay for my NEW lawyer. I heard my EX got hit hard this year for taxes. (hehehe)
from minstrelite :
Hard to say, Paula. He could be forced to finally get a life, or he could become even more depressed and isolate even further. In either case, you're not responsible for his choices (although it's good that you're concerned--some people in your position would have hardened their hearts.)
from candoor :
I found myself here somehow and like it... we have racoon families (among other woods inhabitants) visiting us most nights where I work... they eat well...
from chaosdaily :
hang in there... hope you sobbed all the hurt out... as to your husband? like i think about mine, he is making his own bed.
from hissandtell :
How bloody awful; the poor little baby. I'd still be bawling, too. I am, however, extremely pleased to hear of the steps you're taking with your new life. Stay strong and determined, darling. Love, R xxx
from fairygodmum :
This clear indication of the Racoon eating his last hot dog...is a sign. God Rest his Soul. At least he enjoyed his last meal. And my prayers are with you and his poor leetle heart. They say everything happens for a reason. Lemme refresh the signs: Car indicates moving, Racoon represents deceptor or spy cause they wear a mask, Hot Dog is the Lure or Appetite... and reason for staying, Crying... hmmm... Then there's the House with the Really Good Feeling... Let it be your choice whatever you do. Just be strong.. and the way will be shown to you. Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum... PS. Thanks for the PR
from spritopias :
If your husband eats hotdogs, feed him in the driveway - maybe you'll get lucky and break even on the life insurance and taxes.
from acaldwell :
all it takes for me is to read a story like that racoon, or reading about someones cat dying. good for you! you know its right then. and you DID tell him, so dont feel guilty at all when the time comes, and you move out. hugs for you. keep on keepin on!
from chaosdaily :
i know what you mean... sometimes i think a good cry would help, but then i get mad that i even need to cry, and then its just anger. im only a couple of years behind you.....
from purple-momma :
Like you said, "God will nudge me in the right direction. . ." My thoughts and prayers are with you. It always amazes me when I read your entries. Your life is similar to mine in so many ways. My "man" problem is a little different -- my husband does EVERYTHING for everybody else, except me which includes all the house fixing ups on the "honey-do list". My stuff is always last. Sometimes it never gets done unless I do it.
from h2ophobic :
Sigh...I wish I had some magic words for you. How about "You GO girl!" You know what is right for you, the hard part will be doing it. HUGS from your buddy in Montana!
from fairygodmum :
Take a Deep Breath in.. and Let it ALL.. OUT!... When your happy and you know it that warm fuzzy feeling will encompass your entire being. So, tell me .. what did that house feel like when you stepped inside? Save every dime that you can and like my grandmother used to say... When your blue.. go out and buy yourself a New Hat! My Prayers and Love are with you whatever you decide to do. Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from spritopias :
maybe he will bounce he hits the curb, get video. Be not afraid, he's worked hard to lose such a good woman. the idiot.
from laineyducks :
All I can send is love and *hugs* Just know that there are people out there pulling for you - ok?
from acaldwell :
well, i just dont know what to say about this. i certanly can understand the reasons behind it. and it is a very hard decision. but i do not think having a hard heart is the right way to go. what i believe you should do, is take a good long hard look at this, and dont jump into this too fast. like you tell me, slow is the way to go. do not let irrational thought cloud your judgement. like i say, dont jump at the first thing smoking. look at what you have and look at your options, then decide what is best for you, and what would make you happy. its a tough decision here. what ever you decide, i will support your decision. big hug for you!! ♥
from sasori-gal :
Perhaps your good cry will come after everything is over. Tears of relief and happiness?! You have a lot of things to take care of and you're right~ maybe it is this determination and fear that is keeping you strong and preventing you from having one big cry. Just know that we all all here for you and support what you are doing. *hugs*
from chaosdaily :
i wonder if there are any walls that could come out to make some of those narrow rooms part of the room next to it... sure is odd they are only 6 feet wide... and if all the woodwork was stripped and varnished or stained, it would be awesome!! i say go for it, contact the realtor now and tell him you are interested. they may be able to figure something out.
from purple-momma :
love the pictures! It looks so cozy and cute! I wouldn't do a thing to it . . . Lucky you!
from h2ophobic :
Beautiful, cozy and exciting! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you and keeping you in my prayers!
from acaldwell :
that house dont need no work! love the shiny hardwood floors!!! i agree with ya on the kitchen cabinets tho, they are way too high!! lovely old timey bathroom fixtures!! but, like i sez in the email, dont take the 1st thing smokin! look about and compare and see what you can see!!!
from poolagirl :
When's the open house? Can we all come visit?
from boxx9000 :
What do I think? I think I would buy it NOW if I only could!!!!! It is adorable.
from laineyducks :
Oh my. I'm so excited for you! Bring on more pictures :)
from boxx9000 :
Gardening a pain in the butt? (hehehehehe) Houses don't stay for sale very long around here. Will you take it NOW if it is available? Please! Please! please! I want to come visit your NEW house!
from chaosdaily :
yea!! you go, girl!
from forty-plus :
I second what Boxx's thoughts. Can't wait to see the photos. Enjoy yourself!
from boxx9000 :
HOORAY for you! I am cheering every step of the way. Best of luck. You're headed in a positive forward motion.
from acaldwell :
oh paula! i dont think you are irreleveant at all! that comic book is pure sacrilidge! to mock the pope like that is horrendous! i know you aint doing the mocking! ♥
from purple-momma :
I love the house picture! Did you go see it? Is that a "Lake" behind it? You lucky thing you!
from forty-plus :
I'm still at the sprinkling stage, no stripe. However, I keep it up every five weeks so there very well could be a stripe hidden in there! :)
from minstrelite :
I can relate to that, Paula, somewhat, though in this new small town I don't yet have the identification with the local group as I have had at some times in the past, in San Francisco and at my Peninsula home group. I've been to three meetings this week and they've all been good.
from acaldwell :
mein gott en himmel!!! i thought I was lazy!!! cheesus h crispy cremes! he SLEEPS til 4 PM?? im just flabbergasted!!! GO! get the DREAM HOUSE!!! even on my WORST bi polar depressing down in the dumpers day, i dont sleep all that long!!!some one needs to kick him squarely in the ass towards the employment office!!!so he spends 2 whole hours fixing the bed, then he lets you know how well he done?? cripes! thats like a dog burying a bone and constanly telling you that he done it and looking for constant praise! i usta joke how im a pro at being lazy, but this clown is the champeen! oh! big hugs to you!!
from fairygodmum :
Thanks gurl... I appreciate your entry too! I just had to address the girl that wrote me in question to my beliefs. After going to her site I saw she was only 13 yrs old.. My goodness! Someone has told her that Buddhism is idol worship. Amazing... it's truly sad that we still live in a day when we have to condem other's for believing in the same thing that's just called a different name. Bless YOU and ALL that You Are! Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from forty-plus :
The house looks perfect for you. Hold on to your dreams!
from h2ophobic :
Gorgeous! Can I come for a visit when you get settled and I get rich?
from laineyducks :
You can do it. Just look at that house - so perfect!!
from chaosdaily :
hmmm have you been inside? looks pretty nice, maybe the asking price is too high..... good luck!!
from sasori-gal :
The only thing wrong that I can see with the house is that there is no one in it! It's a lovely home with such a beautiful yard~ you've made a great choice. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you that it all works out!
from fairygodmum :
Do some research on the house. Find out who the previous owners were. Then MOVE IN! It's a lovely home and I always say When it Feels Right it IS Right.. Right On Sistaaaa... Make Your Move! Hugz n Lub, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from spritopias :
I love that house! Kick that bum to the street, I'm moving in! That is exactly what I want too.
from acaldwell :
well! the pics just look real swell! DONT LOSE YA NERVE!!! you can do this!! just because he seems to be cooperating, you know its a scam! you are doing A-OK, just keep focused on ya dream, and grab it!! you can do it!!! yay!!!
from hissandtell :
Oooohh, it's completely wonderful. Near lagoons? You mean you might have lots of visits from friendly Canada Geese peering in windows at you? Good luck, darling; it looks perfect. Love, R xxx
from boxx9000 :
The little house is so cute. Hooray for you. Tell me when and where to send the house warming gift.
from hissandtell :
Oooh! Hurry! Love, R xxx
from laineyducks :
*laughs* I love the goose story. We live on a lake so occasionally I'll wake up to one looking in the window at me. I hope they store employees didn't discriminate against his/hers not being human!
from hissandtell :
What kind of goose was it? A wild goose or a domestic farmyard goose? How amusing; I get excited whenever I see geese anywhere, but I think if I saw one shopping I'd just worry constantly about him being taken advantage of and overcharged on his purchases and not given the correct change and all those things. The poor darling - I hope he made it out of the city alive. Love, R xxx
from hissandtell :
Oh, darling. I only now just read your earlier entry. It sounds as if you already know what you need to do for yourself and for him. 25 years of insight with him is more than long enough to know that you want (and deserve) more; if you're no longer prepared to do all the compromising then it's time to cut him loose. Like you said, LOTS of things are hard, and not making changes simply because it's easier that way doesn't help anyone. Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
im awake for a bit today to look to see what i can see....i am glad that you are starting to take the steps of doing hard things again! you CAN do this, just like you GOT the great job, now you CAN do ANYTHING if only you TRY! and i know you will. yes it is hard, but the reward for the effort will bring you HAPPINESS!!! dont let Dr. Pill Pusher convince you that you cannot do this! you are doing just wonderful, and i admire your courage in taking steps to continue to change your life for the better! remember, you can email me and unload, i am here for you! ♥
from spritopias :
yeah, just dropping it on him like a bomb would be uncouth, and fairness would dictate you giving him at least a pretend chance at changing his ways
from forty-plus :
Good luck!
from spritopias :
You can't make someone else happy or cure their depression, do not let him pull you down. Life your life to the fullest - someone like that will only drag you down.
from poolagirl :
Oooh! I just have to toss my two pennies into the ring now. Should you divorce your husband? Yes. Are you responsible for him? No. Are you doing the world any favors by staying married? No. Do you deserve happiness and a nice house of your dreams? Yes. Will you survive? Yes. Will he survive? Yes. Might this be a good wake-up call for him? Yes. Is it okay for relationships to end? Yes. Will this be tough? Yes. Will you get over it? Yes. Can you do it? Yes. That's all, Paula. I urge you to set aside the idea of having to live the rest of your life in a marriage like this. Give life another chance. Make a change. I am holding you in my prayers. Love, the other Paula.
from acaldwell :
take that GIANT step and divorce him, and kick him out! 3 years on the lazy ass?? i know im lazy, but i dont have a wife to support, so i can work when it suits me! take 400 and buy a basic dell puter or goto wal mart and get one like i have! do you have norton internet security 2005? i do, and it keeps out ALL that junk! even this comment is protected its that good! i can make a copy and give it to ya with product key if ya want. you dont need to keep on supporting his tired ass! cut the deadwood, and just leave him! u dont need this headache! sometimes you have to take chances in life and go whole hog! ya know what i mean? you got a great paying job, so cut the stress, and cut the deadwood. you will be better off.
from laineyducks :
I have no helpful advice or anything. All I can offer is *hugs* and support.
from boxx9000 :
I am sorry that I worried everyone. I am just fine. I have NO idea WHY my diary is locked.(???) I will have to ask my daughter to figure out why. I am having a nice vacation. I go back to work on Monday. ~Love, BoXx
from boxx9000 :
Divorce him. I do NOT regret divorcing my Ex. If your Ex gets himself *together* then he can come visit you. At least you won't have to put up with the day to day aggravation. You aren't throwing him away. He has the option to pull himself together, right?
from forty-plus :
Seems to me you have been putting everyone else's needs in front of your own. There comes a time when we all have stand on our own. That includes your husband, yes? Good luck.
from forty-plus :
The photo: they are winterized docks (lots of planks have been pulled up, some by humans and some by the rough water). The ledge: in my backyard we have a gigantic boulder. It is like an iceberg, we only see a portion and much of it runs under the house. There is soil between the ledge and foundation, that is the space where the underground stream overflows and eventually into my basement. The forecasters just said there is a chance of five inches of rain today! April showers bring May flowers, right? :)
from fairygodmum :
Lucky YOU... staying home for Bed Church... i got set up into going, then put to work once I got there. Luckily I was PMSing and made sure the gossip lady that was watching my every move find out I am a Buddhist, Catholic, Methodist... but forgot to mention I was the FairyGodMum.. lol Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from spritopias :
Thank you for your kind comment.
from purple-momma :
I love this entry! Yes, I am a catholic. A catholic who is having "problems" with what is going on in the Church. So, I don't get to mass very often. If I have to tell a priest my "sins" and he is "Judging" me and then I find out what "SINS" he has committed while judging me . . . something isn't right there! Anyway, I walked into mass yesterday and got the "Look" from all those other people who used to see me every sunday. Not a look of "good to see you" but the "where have you BEEN" look. Not a welcoming feeling. So, your entry hit home with me. Except, I haven't found a place to go where I do feel welcome. You have. Happy Easter/Happy Spring
from acaldwell :
i am the same as you! happy easter!!
from forty-plus :
The lizards weren't much for the bunny ears either. The dogs just gave me the donchaeventry look. Oh well, happy Easter to your family!
from spritopias :
You have an oddball magnet in your brain. It's how I found you. Happy Easter.
from laineyducks :
attracting the oddballs does make your life a bit more interesting though! think about how bland it could be otherwise :)
from h2ophobic :
I used to work with a man who would announce when he came out of the bathroom: Boy, that's water's cold...and deep too. Gross!
from chaosdaily :
well at least this one is a nice oddball.....
from acaldwell :
ya, i feel the same way, every where i go theres ALWAYS ONE! that ONE person who is an odd ball. maybe this is normal?
from h2ophobic :
Thanks! Coffee spewed all over the computer monitor AGAIN! What a funny story! Maybe that was your penance for NOT buying a candy bar. Now I have a visual in my head of a store clerk doing the chicken dance!
from acaldwell :
the chicken dance!!! i dont know what that is, but this whole entry was so funny!!! hahahaa!!! you make my day!!!
from poolagirl :
I (heart) the chicken dance! I guess I've played for too many weddings.
from laineyducks :
Our lone male of 30-40 women employees finds it rough. You have it much worse - women are civilized :)
from h2ophobic :
Boys will be boys! One of the wisest things a supervisor ever told me was "EVERYTHING is hard until you learn how to do it. Doing things the same way day after day is easy, but rarely efficient."
from chaosdaily :
boys, for sure. the man once read something called teh 7 steps to stagnation, and one of them was, "weve always done it that way" and not being willing to change... i forgot what most of the rest of them are...
from hissandtell :
Yep, that ham story is a good one. I remember hearing it when I was at school, and it made a profound impression on me about the necessity to ask lots of annoying questions when things that have "always been done that way" don't seem to make a lot of sense. (Not that I necessarily always adhere to that rule, you understand). Actually, it sort of reminds me of the Shirley Jackson story "The Lottery", too... Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
hams ass!!! with 7 up even! hahahaa! teenagers! you work with teenagers!!!
from to-my-heart :
Hi I would have done an update about this but it won't let me update since I'm a free user. So I created a journal at another site which I'm falling in love with lol but if Andrew gets his act together I may be back. Anyway here's the new site if you care to check it out I'm lettin all my buddylist ppl know http://www.livejournal.com/users/lolitas_heart/
from laineyducks :
Oh good Lord - yours was the first entry I read after my month long RL interlude and all I can see is a 6 foot tall cabbage patch doll. Nightmares I tell you. Nightmares. :)
from boxx9000 :
I have often wondered how speech teachers teach speech in parts of the country that have heavy accents????? Today I heard George Bush (on the radio) talking about Iran, but he pronounced it EYE-RAN. The correct pronounciation is EEEE-Ron. Learning the sound system is what we teach in KINDERGARTEN!
from hissandtell :
HA. The notion of "dangling participles" has always cracked me up, too. Whenever I'm MSN-ing a friend and one of us slips up and uses one, the other yells "Quick! Someone slap it!" LOVED your little poem - and do promise to try to rest up those sore diphthongs, darling, and I'll do the same. Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
well, i dont know what all those big words mean!! really! but yea they do sound naughty, and made me laff, but then, i dont know what im laffin at! hehehehe!! im easy to humour!
from h2ophobic :
He won't let you whistle? Hasn't he ever seen the Disney Snow White movie? (Didn't the dwarves invent whistling while working?) Please tell me that you at least giggled out loud to yourself periodically! I do that...a lot.
from chaosdaily :
no whistling??? dang, thats unamerican!!
from hissandtell :
Oops - I meant that phenomenon of stretching vowels and strining diphthongs seems more prevalent in Sydney and Melbourne...
from hissandtell :
The affected rising intonation so beloved of some Australians really is more peculiar to those under about 30 or so - it was almost unheard of until a few years ago, and it's something that drives older Australians CRAZY. Interestingly, north Queensland (where I've lived for several years) is known for sticking "ay" on the end of every sentence, but not as a questioning device - instead as a flat statement: "Nah, mate; I fell asleep, ay." Yep, they're a pretty laconic bunch up here. And I speak with a normal boring educated-Australian accent, which does not stretch its vowels or "strine" its diphthongs; that seems to be more prevalent in large southern cities like Sydney and Melbourne, and has been influenced by their vast populations of those with Greek and Italian origins. It's a pretty bloody distinctive accent though, ay. What I love about Oz accents is that they sound so naughty - a bloke I shared a house with once asked me, "Sweetheart, can you buy me a bucket please?" and it sounded so sexy and amusing it cracked me up. (Oh, and I'm dead pissed off with my score in that test: I got everything correct except "channel". Honestly, how am I supposed to bloody know what bloody rivers do differently in a bloody canal?) Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
o my! that mc donalds story was so funny! i know it wasnt funny at the time, but now! WHOO WHEEE!!! im sorry ya had a bad go of it at francesca's! the one on taylor is much better. hava happy happy!!
from h2ophobic :
Thanks for the note. No, it wasn't NUTTY LADY who made that comment (actually, she said she loved it.) The woman who said it has taken it upon herself to be the "WHAT NOT TO WEAR" guru at our work. I'd be more impressed if she showered every day!
from h2ophobic :
I recognize that house...I think it might be the last house we lived in before moving to MT!
from chaosdaily :
oh there are a few of those left... and it was really busy in there too!
from purple-momma :
This reminds me of when I had a "real" job!!! Being the only office-worker. What a pain in the ***!!!! I had the same sorta experience. Trying to do everything when it was given to me was exhausting. Then, every-other Friday, PAYDAY. Which, of course, I had to do. Which meant all the wives calling in addition to all the regular calls: "Is my husband's check ready yet? No! When will it be? Not until 5:00? It needs to be in the bank before then!" I'll tell you what, every month on the final Friday of the month, I would get so stressed out I would have "the runs" so bad I sometimes couldn't make it through the day! BE CAREFUL! don't do this to yourself~ Maybe suggest an assistant (secretary: I know, old term!) to do the phone answering, sending of flyers, filing, etc.? Just a thought . . .
from boxx9000 :
You're very welcome. It would actually be funny if it wasn't TRUE! The real esate prices here in California are ridiculous. Good Luck on YOUR house hunting.
from chaosdaily :
well it certainly has that rustic look.... lol
from acaldwell :
hey!!! thats MY old house!! hehehheeeee!!!!
from h2ophobic :
Sorry, but I had to laugh out loud at your last entry. It's impossible to prioritize your work, when EVERYTHING is a priority! Is there some law that all AP people are superhuman? If so, I didn't get the memo. One of my favorite things about my current job is that I DON'T have to approve any vendor invoice, I just post and pay them. I do however have to keep a pretty close eye on how they've been coded. Thanks for your note about my hair. I LOVE it. In fact, everyone is getting a little tired of hearing how much I LOVE it!
from to-my-heart :
thanks :)
from acaldwell :
oh, what a pisser!! the tension was building up in me as i was reading this and picturing all that was going on, and I was getting ready to explode!! until i read the last paragraph!! I COULD NEVER DO YOUR JOB!! wow!!!
from boxx9000 :
i LOVE the word CREDENZA! I'm not cut out for the office stress. Give me (20) five year olds in a room ANY day.
from forty-plus :
My heart rate kept increasing as I read your description of the chaos called work. Then when he ever called you crabby, my hand slammed across my mouth! Holy moley, you are a saint!
from to-my-heart :
No I can't draw. They are images I get from other people or from surfing around.
from minstrelite :
Thanks for getting in touch, Paula. I was just thinking about you. I figured you were busy with the new job. I was speaking in disguised terms in recent entries, because I promised myself I wouldn't talk about personal family matters in the online journal. The most important person in my life other than God is my daughter. We're on the outs right now, but it's all good. I was hanging out with her too much, and enjoying her being in the phase of idolizing me. It was feeding my ego, and also causing me to have too high an expectation of her. My expectation of myself is probably too high, too, but I think I need to start expecting more of God. Anyway, thanks for checking in, and I hope it's all good with you.
from laineyducks :
My mother was an x-ray tech and they always initialed the x-rays - her initials are m.e.s.s. Hence her nickname.
from boxx9000 :
We call my son's fiance "PP" because her last name starts with a P. You are also "PP" (hehehehe) My initials are LB. I say (re: dieting) even my name means POUNDS.
from hissandtell :
Oh, dear. What a disappointment that must have been. Your story reminded me slightly of when I was teaching preschoolers and we were playing a game where we were juxtaposing first initials/letter sounds of first names and surnames - so that, for example, Jack Morris became Mack Jorris etc. One girl called Karen Bunt (I swear the name is real) kept putting her hand up begging to be chosen, and couldn't understand why I kept passing her over and selecting someone else. Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
o my! im sorry, but i bet ya got picked on all the while u grew up cause of those initials..
from purple-momma :
oh, how lovely!!!! good for you . . . and to be able to take a bath before going to bed. . . heavenly. Also, thanks for the nice note. I am sure my mom will be ok. she will adjust, in time. For now, he is doing a little better. So, there is still a glimmer of hope.
from acaldwell :
a nice cushy bed!! wheeeeee!! congrats! hard work does pay off!!!
from boxx9000 :
I am soooooooo envious. A comfortable bed rather than the TORTURE bed????? Someday, me too. A comfy bed. Then I will dream again rather than sleepwalking.
from to-my-heart :
That was hard to read but I was able to get that the bed is good. So enjoy!
from to-my-heart :
Thanks for your kind note. I'll tell him that. :)
from forty-plus :
Ladies do not fart! *snort*
from h2ophobic :
Funny, funny entry! We've all been there! I LOVE granola, so sometimes I have to spend a lot of time alone in my cubicle! About my hair (enough about me, what do you think of me), I've tried dark blonde in the past and it didn't seem to work with my skin tone (too ashy.) I'm very pale (pinkish pale with freckles, not yellowish pale) with green eyes. I think I WILL try it again though, because my "old" blonde, which used to work, isn't. The problem I've found here in small town MT, is that the hairdressers just do what I ask, they don't make suggestions.
from acaldwell :
my o my! gas in the ass and ya hold it in with class! such control! i could never do that! i got the new monitor today, and its swell! wow!
from to-my-heart :
aww thanks for the shoutout. My diary was missing something and you helped me figure it out. That song "In My Own Little Corner" describes what my diary is to me. I'm glad you got to hear it. Not many can since geocities is being a pain and not wanting it to play most of the time lol. Hopefully I'll find a better place to upload it soon. I hope you feel better soon. LoL I have a similar story except I was in class and had to wait about an hour before I could go to the bathroom. Just my luck the bathroom was locked and I had to go down two more halls to find one lol.
from newmillenia :
Haha, that's one of the best stories I've heard about farting in a long time! And thank you for preserving the conception of feminity! (Not. C'mon! - you should have really let it RIP! We gotta let the guys know sometime!n ^-^)
from boxx9000 :
There's the part in Cinderella where she is getting ready for the ball and she has worked so hard to do all her chores and put together a dress etc and then the step Mom won't let her go. I know it's a cartoon, but it makes me CRY everytime. I believe in cinderella stories. I still believe.
from to-my-heart :
I loved that song. Not the bigest fan of Cinderella but I still love the song. Thank you for your kind note. :)
from sasori-gal :
How fun! I sang through your entry today. I have all the songs from that musical memorized! *heehee* Thanks for your note and encouragement. You are so right! I'll keep you posted.
from acaldwell :
your entry reminded me of an elvis song, the impossible dream: To dream the impossible dream To fight the unbeatable foe To bear the unbearable sorrow To run where the brave dare not go To write the unwritable wrong To be better far than you are To try when your arms are too weary The reach the unreachable star This is my quest, to follow that star No matter how hopeless, No matter how far To fight for the right Whithout question or pause To be willing to march into hell For a heavenly cause And I know if I'll only be true To this glorious quest That my heart will be peaceful and calm When I'm laid to my rest And the world would be better for this That one man scorned and covered with scars Still strove with his last ounce of courage To reach the unreachable star
from boxx9000 :
My Ex is in another state right now so it wouldn't even be possible. Either I did something to the check in my sleep or it got knocked off the counter by my cats, daughter or her boyfriend. I can NOT find it.
from sasori-gal :
Aren't dreams fun?!
from acaldwell :
i have strange dreams too!
from to-my-heart :
lol what an odd dream...
from boxx9000 :
HORRAY on th dinner thing that sounds GREAT. great that your new work appreciates you and great that you and your daughter got to have a fancy dinner together.
from chaosdaily :
ummm i would say that anything that seems to be that big of an issue needs to be looked at... and one of your comments was right, there has to be some sort of attraction there.... i would say the girl has every right to be pissed, and if he doesnt want to stop his "chilling" with his other gfs, she should just walk. doesnt sound to me like it will last anyway.
from buckaroobabe :
re: the man/woman thing. Been on both sides of that issue and I'm here to tell you that a) it won't help the relationship if one party is jealous - the other two parties will do what they want... or they won't... regardless - and b) where some people are concerned, requesting that someone drop their (either sex) friends in the best interest of the relationship CAN and MAY VERY WELL simply serve to push the requestor right out of said relationship. That said, my 'advice' (for what it's worth) is to "chill" and just relax. The people in the LTR are in the LTR because that's where they choose to be. Freaking out about potential cheating is not going to help. You can't control another person's behavior/choices so why wig out about it. Then again, I'm rather notoriously laid back about things. The relationship will work out, or it won't. Meh. Either way, odds are that all parties will survive. Blessings to you.
from forty-plus :
Concerning your questions: If I, as the girlfriend, was included in the "just chillin'" invitations (all the time), I don't think I would have a problem with it. In my 41 years I have rarely seen a long term male-female relationship that didn't involve sexual attraction at some time unless the participants were related or one was gay. Just my two cents. Hope this situation works out for whomever is involved.
from sasori-gal :
I haven't seen "The Grudge" but I did see "Juon," the original, Japanese version. I read a review which said that some things could not effectively be translated and so the English version just doesn't have the same impact or terror that the Japanese version has. The Japanese version is a bit more complex psychologically, I think.
from acaldwell :
hiya paula! i bet the jap version of the movie was better! sorry you got burned! now my opinion, as always it may be wrong. question 1 is yes, to a point, as long as its PLATONIC and no funny bizness; trust plays a big part here; and there is no reason why a guy and a gal can be pals and not fuck buddies! #2. yes, again, she is childish and very insecure; probabaly a victim of cheating in the past, she has no trust, and if she really loves him, and she must trust him. trust is ever so important inna relationship. with out it you have nothing but shattered dreams. francescas!!! when i was there in chicagoland many times i went to francescas on west taylor!! the ravioli dei sardi is ohhh sooo yummm!!!!
from hissandtell :
Oh, and my opinion about both your survey questions is "Yes, of course." I'm assuming that if he's in a serious relationship it's because he chooses to be, which suggests he places a rather different level of importance on his girlfriend/wife than he does on his other female friends. I'm also assuming that most (if not all) women have male friends with whom they share close-but-platonic friendships. I also think that if my husband demanded that I give up my male friends (or any of my girlfriends, for that matter) he would not be my husband for very long, so I'm guessing here that, in general, it's only fair to reciprocate such sensible tolerance, feel secure in one's own relationship and not feel threatened by, and jealous of, other women. Love, R xxx
from hissandtell :
But ... if you were a bird, you'd have wings, and a fully-functioning beak that allowed you to do all manner of things you don't do now with your mouth (I'm assuming, here): like weave nests, and regurgitate worms to poke into your babies' open beaks. So with trade-offs like that, surely you'd stop missing your arms after a little while? Love, R xxx
from spritopias :
Yeah, you can be in a relationship, have friends, have them over, spend time with them and yes it is bitchy to tell someone you love, "me or them." My Mom's mom said that to me once and I have not spoken to her in years. It is really terrible to tell someone they cannot have friends. If this were the Victorian era I might agree with the idea that singles shouldn't mingle, but we are in the Second Elizabethian Age where men and women can be friends and the only real problem is the insecurity of others. How would the person have felt if the man said, "NO MAN FRIENDS! MAN FRIENDS BAD!" We would call him a mysogynist, a troglodyte, and an ass. Put the shoe on the other foot and see how it feels. None too comfortable.
from acaldwell :
dont get discouraged! your new house is out there, just keep on looking, and be patient, you will get ya dream house! ♥
from chaosdaily :
yea what spiritopias said.... he can be a spud anywhere. you go, get the house you want, and do what YOU want to do. no one else matters.
from spritopias :
It does not matter where you live if all you do is sit in your recliner. Let him know that! Tell him I told him he can sit where ever he wants.
from to-my-heart :
good luck finding a nice house.
from boxx9000 :
Good Luck on the house hunting. My Ex always wanted to live with the low maintenance, too. I prefer a yard and a garden. You'll get your house with your garden and you'll live happily ever after. I am sure of it.
from laineyducks :
You're really inspiring me - you want your house and you're going to get it. That's that!
from laineyducks :
go back to school - free education - what more could you ask for? you're obviously talented enough :)
from hissandtell :
Well, of course buxom you and your cast-iron bra must go back to college. What a brilliant idea! Oh, and your email reminded me of the first telephone call I ever had (at work) from the evil (ex) local member of Parliament, referred to in my diary as "Dairy Queen". We'd been talking quite civilly and the connection had been cut off, so she phoned back and said snootily, "Huh, looks like the f*ckup fairies struck again." Honestly, I was practically speechless - I mean, I can swear as much as the next person at times, but I hope I choose my moments a little more appropriately than that. I barely knew the woman at that stage, and what I knew I disliked immensely anyway. What a f*ckin' bitch! Love, R xxx
from boxx9000 :
Me? write a book? hahahahaha. Writing is my #1 worst academic skill. It is actually painful for me to write. (followed by a close second to public speaking) Maybe my collage journals? Maybe a combination? I'd have to get a ghost writer. Who would want to read such depressing drama? Not me. Who would ever believe it? I keep hoping I will wake up and it was all just a bad dream.
from spritopias :
Bean counter, indeed.
from acaldwell :
heya cast iron! heheee! elgin sounds better than aurora! imagine that when ya finnaly do get that mess straightened out, you will be a top star at the company!! good luck with the job and the house hunting!!
from boxx9000 :
I wanted to THANK YOU for the Chicago postcard AND the 2 vintage Valentine postcards. That was so nice of you. I have to pinch myself to believe that people like you really exsist and can be so nice to me. THANKS so much. ♥ BoXx
from to-my-heart :
hi thank you for the really kind note. todays another busy day but as soon as I get some time I plan on catching up on everybodys diaries including yours. :)
from h2ophobic :
(Still laughing from reading your entry) I love you! That's all I wanted to say...I love you!
from cosmicrayola :
I'm right there with you! I prefer short hair, no make-up and very little jewelry. I just don't have much patience for all the "girly" stuff either. Of course the bra situation makes it easy for me. lol.
from hissandtell :
Hey, there's a lot to be said for cast-iron bras. Thanks so much for the mention, doll! Your day sounds fabulously indulgent and I'm proud you were able to do nothing for long enough that your nails dried. That's the secret to unsmudged talons, you know: sheer indolence and downright immobility for as long as it takes. I'm still chuckling over your description of yourself when you attempt to wear nice clothes; if there's spaghetti sauce within a one-kilometre range and I'm all dressed up in something white and linen-y, it will find me and fling itself on me. Honestly, it's easier to just wear black all the time and be done with it. Good luck with the low-cut sweater, darling. Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
when i read stuff like this im glad im a guy and dont have to do all that gurly up stuff!! good luck with that!! and what is that mumbo-jumbo from origami below this?? hava nice workday, paula!! and ya postcards to boxx looked swell!!
from orgami :
twelve years double sixer i've got a couple of weeks never seem to get past that month phase until now tired going over the edge where my flashlight only sees in this mournful ruin of memory higher power where are you there behind me beside me within me wihtout me it speaks through all and many healing going straight ahead and not looking back like the hotel keep in Shinning the slender faced bartender pouring him a drink and all that follows ....... poetics yes I love it I go to meetings just to hear peoples voices stumbling over the written language of the book or cleverly swooping and stalling like a swift bird over paragraphs each meeting has new meanings in loud of shy syllable this is and always be my speak what need I more spake spoke and speech my Lori my higher power and my desire to not drink hung on for a long time to addiction like radiation it kindly just dissolved everything I truly loved and being that I did not love myself I have not melted but been transformed into a plain old drunk hah No I love the meetings of late maybe because I am going for myself lately and the coffee and it gets me out of the apartment for an hour so I can notice the stars overhead on the walk along the streets up here or the phases of the moon or people passing in the night moving along the concrete trail going too coming from heading nowhere in particular silent nods or huffed Hello then gone again my head and heart full of hypnotic hope for another days end put my head on the pillow stare at the streetlight through the frosted upstairs window knowing that i made it through another day... ...
from poolagirl :
YIKES! What a funny line! Talking about the guy peeing in the bag and missing: "His wife was all bummed because she had made cupcakes." I almost peed without a baggie on that one!
from to-my-heart :
Hey thank you for the kind note. I'm adding you to my buddylist. I had a boss who told really boring and strange personal stories about herself all the time...It was a little disturbing.
from hissandtell :
Shrieks of wild thrills to see my name on your buddies' list, darling. Thank you: I shall be delighted to reciprocate the kindness. And I've always wondered about that misleading "cleave" business, too. The bible, as I vaguely recall, was full of everyone (and indeed everything) cleaving, usually prior to children being begetted. I rather suspect there's an uncleavable cause and effect in there somewhere. Love, R xxx
from acaldwell :
ahhh! charactors!! now u have to think of funny names for them! hehehee! heres anutter stumper: why do you park in a driveway, and drive in a parkway?! thats one of my all time stumpers!!
from boxx9000 :
http://www.nytimes.com/ref/arts/design/GATES-REF.html?excamp=GGGNchristo .........My son and I were having a conversation about Christo just yesterday and we both agreed that his art really didn't *DO* anything for either one of us. Side note: I did some work for a dear friend of Christo's when I was working on my Career Arts Management degree. (I was an intern at the local museum) Christo has ties here in Sonoma County.
from orgami :
odd people magnetic maybe are you not they who seek what flutters in that curtian breeze what lies within or from without portals of there Anyway I am here In North Bay ONtario Canada out in the rain enoying it seems a lot of people like it too i have sixteen minutes on this computer before I go home to make dinner or something watch television with my present horse I stay with my little prety Lori we are both interesting and intelligent i am an artist we both are disabled mentally but do well live together are not hateful but thoughtful and sensitive and have daughters out there who love us and we love them havent even read your diary yet but found this over fourty ring which is so cool i think I am forty this year forty one actually this present year Lori is thirty seven we are in love and settling down after all those years of searching seeing we have the movie Cold mountian and we like it we are both visually characters long hair on me goatee six one peircing eyes and she is short five one with big hair and beautiful big green eyes big intellect too high nineties in school me i was average hung out watching all the other people in the cafeteria had my own intelligensia crowd i was the art student punk rocker before it was cool to be a rebel like now with somewhat of a cause hah hah love life even though it is harsh and abrasive at times having fun out of the rain typing at the city library twelve minutes left well time to go keep on writing new people Like your Username S
from laineyducks :
I love the blue house 5(?) pictures down and the last one looks nice. It's so exciting - house hunting through you :)
from to-my-heart :
Cool site. Love the cheesus pic hehe.
from h2ophobic :
They're all beautiful! I know I use this phrase too much, but YOU ROCK! No "sitting on my butt" dreaming for you, you're out there FINDING your dream home. By the way...the second to the last one looks very like our house here in MT!
from boxx9000 :
I am drooling over the amount of house you can buy outside of California. I need to seriously consider moving out of state.
from chaosdaily :
yea i like the first one too. the one with the cabin? you could use that for... errrr..... well..... things you dont mind keeping, but dont want to look at in the house. but you would have to go see them, and see which one appeals to you the most. once you get in the house, you may not like it as much.
from laineyducks :
I love that first house - it's beautiful :)
from chaosdaily :
wil has both a mother and father who are very concerned about him. i always thought his "emotional" problem was kind of a farce until now, since he has always been ok around me. this is the first time hes spent the night at mahls house... usually his parents make him come home... and they keep a very close eye on who hes with and where he goes.
from laineyducks :
I know perfectly well who the Eagles are - sheesh - I may be young, but I'm not dumb! :)
from boxx9000 :
I'd LOVE to VISIT Illinois but I don't know if I could live there. There is a GREAT ART Museum in Chicago. One of my past student's sent me post cards when they went to visit. I don't know where I'll end up. I'll follow my kids wherever they go. They are my only family.
from h2ophobic :
The pink one looks just like the house that I grew up in (if you painted it yellow and added a porch swing.) I vote for that one!
from boxx9000 :
I'll never be able to afford to buy a house. I have to hope that my son's college education pays off so HE can buy a house (with a granny unit for me) My ex will buy a house, his parents are millionaires. There's talk of my school district building housing for their teachers that can't afford to buy. What happens when I'm too old to teach? I better keep that BOXX handy in my garage.
from cosmicrayola :
pink one 6th up from the bottom. I love the porch. You can put out a patio set, but still have a bit of privacy as you sit there. The garage is a plus too. Though, I admit, I would paint it. Pink is nice for underwear but I wouldn't want it on a house.
from acaldwell :
i like the barn shaped pink house!! it looks big and roomy!! i got a cieling fan like the rooms in the pictures! dont give up! theres a house out there with ya name on it!!! ♥
from ghostiness :
Thank you for the kind support. I'm grateful for all this attention and love from people around this big ol' Diaryland. Keep being sweet :)
from boxx9000 :
Those are ALL beautiful houses. You have to check out the real estate here in Sonoma County (California) the homes START at 600K.
from forty-plus :
I adore that enclosed porch!
from chaosdaily :
gee then you would almost have to look in north chicago...
from laineyducks :
Good luck house hunting - and stay off the real estate websites! :)
from chaosdaily :
have you looked north? you might find something cheaper close to the wisconsin border...
from acaldwell :
well, paula, all i can say is dont bee too bummed out; bee patient, something really swell will come along in time! heres a suggestion; has ya hub been in the military? if so he is eligable for a guarnteed VA loan, all he needs to do is goto the VA and see the eligibility rep to get the certificate. it might help!
from forty-plus :
I have a pedometer which does the counting for me!
from laineyducks :
*laughs* feed yourself or starve is a common theme in the ducks household
from boxx9000 :
I just got a phone call from my sister who is 56 and married to a guy who doesn't cause any extra drama. She said she wasn't happy and so she's moving out. Found a new guy (a dentist) and they are getting a house together. Looks like she's happier than ever. I would never hitch my wagon (hopes and dreams) to a man again. I am on my own by choice. It's lonely, but worth not always being mad. Everything always works out somehow. It will for ME and it will for YOU. (please post pics of the houses you look at, ok?)
from acaldwell :
oh! my! st. charles!! i do MISS that part of the country! absoulety bee-u-tee-full!! yes you can dream, and make ya dreams come true! im jumpin for joy for you! ♥
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY HOUSE HUNTING! Oh, how I wish it was me, me, me. Although, I am sincerely happy it is you, you, you. If ONE of us can do it, then it gives hope to others. My turn will come. It is your turn now. GOOD LUCK. P.S. I don't know why you feel guilty about not cooking for your house husband while you are out earning a living. HE should have the house cleaned for YOU and dinner waiting on the table when YOU get home. The roles have been reversed and he ain't playing his part.
from chaosdaily :
there are a lot of us out here... sometimes they dont want to admit it though. thats the hard part.
from acaldwell :
dont feel bad!!! cheesus!! YOU work hard ALL WEEK, and he becomes one with the couch, or recliner, whatever! he also sounds like a lil child! "can we eat soon?" im sorry paula, but this is just how i feel. i hope that things will get better for ya soon enuff!!! *hugs*
from chaosdaily :
the cold? its hard to tell if its a new one, or the old one come back with a vengance. it sure sucks though.
from chaosdaily :
kind of hard living separate lives together, isnt it?
from catinasnit :
I read a magazine article recently about a woman who took a trip down the Amazon. It was there that she saw very sick children lying feverishly in their mother's arms. Their mother's were begging passers-by for a simple aspirin to relieve the pain of their children. ASPIRIN! I have way too much that I forget to be thankful for. Thanks for the reminder.
from minstrelite :
It's funny how we have those self-images.
from boxx9000 :
Oh, Paula, you are so sweet. I am proud of my microwave. I'm not even going to open it until I get a place of my own. It's a start and I hope things continue on and I never look back. I am thankful this year for being able to say I survived.
from acaldwell :
ya, just like 40+ sez you having 13 years under ya belt brings joy to my heart too! congratulations! thanky yous too, for the link in ya page today! im happy too!
from forty-plus :
Your thirteen year mark brings joy into my life. You are wonderful!
from chaosdaily :
you are right, we take so much for granted.... i have a house full of junk, and could do without most of it. i really do want a simpler life, it just isnt working at the moment. some day i will be glad to have a place of my own, even if it doesnt have furniture.
from chaosdaily :
glad the paper training is going well.... lol hope your man is a better cook than mine!
from spritopias :
I'm really happy this job is going so great
from purple-momma :
my husband started making our "dinners" since I'm at work 24-7 (it seems). At first it was fish sticks, tator tots, creamed corn. YUCK! Now, he's gotten better--bbq steak or chicken, mashed potatoes, and some kind of canned vegie. If I can get him to change to fresh vegies, I'll be happy! However, I got to cook the last 2 days since I was home. My youngest did compliment me by saying "mom, your chicken is easy to eat--dad's is always HARD!" So, I guess I'll still have to cook once in a while!
from acaldwell :
heheheeee good deal! train him good now, and soon he will be housebroken!!!
from laineyducks :
*laughs* Yay - you're training him. Mine's young, but he does good too. I will NEVER give up control of the grocery shopping. I just can't - you're brave.
from cosmicrayola :
Man, when a slug sneezes, it must make one hell of a mess! Teach those "buggers" to cover their mouths!
from chaosdaily :
good for you re: the cooking. thats why the man cooks on his day off. if your prince isnt working, hed damn well better be doing things around the house! you go, girl!!!
from acaldwell :
Today, I walked in the door and told the lump in the recliner, "you better learn how to warm up a can of soup or nuke a pizza puff or something because I'm done with this cooking dinner shit." WELL ALLRIGHTY THEN!!! YAY!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!! i am so pruod of you, im still jumpin fer joy!! remember, you DESERVE BETTER and ya working ya ass off for it!!! hang in there! you will survive!!! standing ovation and hugs!!!
from chaosdaily :
oh you are good. i do think it was linda ronstadt who sang that song. it makes me stop and sing along any time i hear that song, which actually isnt that often. the man has it on a tape that he plays now and then... it always makes me think of that certain someone who got away........
from boxx9000 :
The checker at the local grocery store always has to look at the name on my check and then say Thank - You Mrs. B. They always murder my last name and I don't even LIKE that name. SHEESH! Another attempt to be friendly that has the opposite effect. I may start paying with cash.
from cosmicrayola :
Consider yourself lucky. I have been called "Ma'am" for the past few years. Now that's just plain depressing! I always come back with "I am not a Ma'am, I'm a Karen. When I'm 80 you can call me Ma'am."
from acaldwell :
i know it irks you, but i think its an attempt by others to be polite and flatter. i dont think you can say much to strangers, but as far as work goes, when some diaperrash comes sauntering up and sez...blah, blah, blah, young lady? you can say to him, look, i aint a young lady, and i dont apreciate the comment, young lady, my name is paula. if you can say that without a growl, i think the young lady comment will stop. thats what i think, i think! hava restful weekend!!
from sunnflower :
I was just thinking today how worried I am anymore about tripping and falling. I feel like an old lady too - damn, maybe I am.
from laineyducks :
Shhh - I'm young, cautious, and so do the ice waddle. I've always been such a scaredy cat :)
from poolagirl :
YIKES! What a daredevil you must have been! It's amazing how we slow down (somewhat) once we hit forty. You asked if I get paid to have that much fun on the ship - and the answer is YES. Sometimes, truth is stranger than fiction.
from catinasnit :
Getting older is such a bitch, isn't it?! But oh how I love to vicariously live my teen years over through your fun youthful stories... back in the 60s (I'm assuming). I could see you doing that.
from cosmicrayola :
Oh, if I could have a dollar for every stupid dangerous thing I did as a kid, I would have at least $2.00. Who am I kidding? I'd be filthy rich!
from minstrelite :
Thanks for your note, and that sounds like good advice. I've noticed that most people in the "outer world" don't seem to mind my level of intensity. Counselors tend to be more tuned in to that kind of thing. In a lot of work venues it doesn't seem to enter into the picture. Intimate relationships, perhaps. ;o)
from girls-suck :
i feel fat.
from boxx9000 :
Hooray for pajamas! (Friday is pajama day at school, I can't decide which pair to wear!) HOORAY even more for paychecks! (then we can buy NEW PJ's) WhEeEEeeee! It's a good thing your job keps you so busy, I like jobs like that. Once you get into a routine of things you'll be able to maintain a life outside of the office. Well, THAT is what everyone keeps telling me. You go girl. You're doing great. You're making us all proud.
from catinasnit :
What would we do -- I mean,how in the world could we manage without company e-mail. ~ I honestly know what the fried two egg brain feels like. That's how mine usually feels after concentrating very hard and taking down testimony ALL DAY LONG. Sometimes I can't even remember how to propery pack my reporting equipment and it's a wonder I can remember how to turn on the car's ignition, let alone get home.
from spritopias :
I'm glad this job is working out!
from catinasnit :
I've gotta tell you, I've never heard of such events, but my mind is now full of your descriptions of large family garage sales, beer, water, flying fish and children running around with plastic buckets. I'll bet everyone on the block had no trouble falling asleep by day's end. Was Michelle one of the kids you described? ~ Snow. I love to watch snow fall and pile up outside. But the older I get,the more I like to watch it fall standing beside a roaring fire, through the windows (in my cowgirl PJs and hand knitted socks).
from laineyducks :
I vote with the staying nice and warm inside...
from acaldwell :
o what a sight that was to be seen! stone cold drunks with buckets catching flying fish! what a hoot!! who sez a community dont come together at a time of need!
from catinasnit :
I usually keep my mouth shut mainly because I work for an elected official and besides, Dwain's opinions are often voiced in the newspaper he manages. Most people simply assume his opinons are mine. Sometimes they are, sometimes they are not, but no one can actually say: I heard her said such and so. If I want to rant and rave, I'll do it here. That's what Diaryland is, isn't it?~ Hey, thank you for sending the snow east insead of south. We just ended up with frigid - frigid air. THANKS!
from boxx9000 :
http://www.roadsideamerica.com/map/il.html
from boxx9000 :
In which state do you live? That sounds like a joke.... but seriously?
from cosmicrayola :
The storm we are getting now is a combination of the one you got merging with one that came onshore. I'll send you some more if you want!
from sasori-gal :
Awww, Chaos beat me to the answer to your question! (And yes, I knew it was Mary!) I am not only a graduate of what I consider to be a top university, but I am also a graduate of The School of Hard Knocks. That degree has sometimes come in waaaay more handy than the other as you do need street smarts to survive in this world. And I totally agree with you that there is a lot that can be learned from reality TV even though so many people knock it! You continue to be my inspiration! :)
from laineyducks :
Take the snow back - I insist!
from chaosdaily :
well its that same thing as "you are driving a bus" routine. the 5th daughters name is mary, of course. and i am street smart, although i did get through xray school, so i have a "technical" degree. read my post tonight for the snow update, we got A LOT!!
from homeboy5 :
Yes, I know. That's ironic. Almost makes me want to go the alternative medicine route like my ex-wife has. Another angle is that St. Joe's received over $10,000 from Kaiser for locking me up for nine days against my will.
from boxx9000 :
YIPEE!!! I would LOVE to get a postcard from you. My email address is [email protected]. I don't know what your email address is to send you my REAL address? I have a postcard collection. My ex in-law's have been all over the world. They USED to send me postcards (sigh) Right before summer vacation I put up a map of the world and the kids attach strings from the postcards to the countries. I usually do a passport activity in the summer where we read books from around the world and the kids get flag stamps for their passports. ONE DAY I will travel and collect the cards myself. HEY, I can dream can't I?!
from homeboy5 :
Yes. While we're on the subject, when I'm NOT nervous, I enjoy making a pretty good practice of walking into the Cafe and sitting down and purposely trying to listen more than talk. I used to just spew forth the whole life story at everyone I met, which would only wind up making me feel self-conscious in the long run. My daughter does the same thing, I've noticed. But when I'm nervous, I seem to lose some of the self-control required to keep my mouth shut, and I'm still working on that.
from homeboy5 :
Thanks for your note. A couple thoughts: (1) when I thought rather innocently it would be nice to know what my diagnosis would be, it never in a million years dawned on me that I wouldn't have been allowed to walk out of there a free man. Then I had to sign a statement that I had entered the institution "voluntarily." And this is America? (2) It's too bad they don't take care of the woman who lives in the woods nearby you. My guess is that she has no source of income to pay for such a service. I later found out that people who pay out of pocket at St. Joe's shell out $1200 a day to be where I was.
from acaldwell :
and ladees and gents the answer to the riddle, and it is NU NU beings how the other sisters nana, nene, nini and nono have the VOWELS in thier names its logical to say the 5th sister is named NONO!!! i am street smart too, seeings how i actually LIVED on the street, as u know paula, and that i am blessed with a 7th grade education!!! i have a saying, "dazzle em with brilliance, baffle em with bullshit! works for me! paula, ya doin a swell job, i just know you are, and you WILL SUCCEED!!!!
from homeboy5 :
"When I get nervous, I tend to start talking." I'm the same way, unfortunately. I envy the people who are the opposite, who when they get nervous, clam up and don't say anything.
from boxx9000 :
College educations are over rated AND over priced. Peachtree? I used that 20 years ago when I worked as a bookkeeper/tennis instructor. I hope they have improved it since then????
from catinasnit :
YIKES! You're scaring me. I also like hot tea before bed, but for me it may do several things: Settle me down; wind me up; wake me up every hour to pee (and make no mistake, the last one is always true).
from forty-plus :
The quiz result: we are all scoring in the twenties and early thirties. We truly are young at heart!
from boxx9000 :
these people???
from spritopias :
I agree, and the funny thing? If Kerry had one these people would be selling thier children to fund the innaugural
from boxx9000 :
I'm NOT pissed off. I don't watch TV. I very rarely spend any money other than rent, groceries, utilities and college payments. IF I had money I would definitely spend it. I just don't have it.
from boxx9000 :
THANKS Paula. Thanks for ALL the nice notes you have left for me. A kind word goes a long way. You're right, the fighting thing just isn't working for me. I'm switching gears completely, I DO surrender. WHITE FLAG WAVING. The really odd thing is that I feel relief, like a letting go. I actually only wish my Ex well and this will finally let me get on with my life. Time to rebuild. Thanks again.
from catinasnit :
By the way, I almost forgot, Bass Pro in Springfield is the FIRST Bass Pro Shop. Springfield is its home and it's so huge it covers several city blocks and houses two restuarants. They have a Wonders of Wildlife Museum in a seperate building. That's where the shark tanks are. People come to visit from all over the world.
from catinasnit :
Just goes to show you, you don't have to live in the Ozarks, or for that matter, in the south, to ponder the question... Could I realy be a rednecked Hillbilly? 'Round here hand painted signs directing homefolk and tourists toward home grown fruit and vegetables are a dime a dozen. They get good results too.
from laineyducks :
Mmm - free ice cream. Out here if you travel out to nowhere (where my friend's live) we have the hill people. They scare me - they really do.
from forty-plus :
Silly me, I never thought there was a difference between a Redneck and a Hillbilly!
from poolagirl :
Thanks so much for your lovely note! I am deeply touched by your words. (changing the subject) I will send you some Mexican moonshine so you can be a real hillbilly!
from acaldwell :
i think that would make you just a good ole free enterpriser!! make a buck while ya sleep! the american dream we all strive to achieve!!!
from boxx9000 :
I wouldn't mind at all being one of The Beverly Hillbillies.....swimmin pools, movie stars....
from spritopias :
Hill Billies live in the hills, that would make you a Redneck because you're not Appalachia - you'd be red if you rented your trailer as advertising
from forty-plus :
You used to sit on the picnic table and listen? That just made me bust up, which is an excellent way to begin the day! Have a great one yourself!
from chaosdaily :
we had thunderstorms (with rain, not snow) on wednesday. now our back yard is a sheet of ice. im not looking forward to spring! yea the weather sure is weird, im convinced that its from the earthquake. i read an article that said "geologists said that the earthquake shook the earth in its orbit" so weird weather is almost to be expected. scary stuff! and you never know about people like bob, he might turn out to be the best person for the job!
from acaldwell :
that is an amazing story! keep us posted!!!
from poolagirl :
WOW! Keep us posted on the saga of that poor kid and the job. Fascinating!
from purple-momma :
Wow, are you a busy woman! I had a "JOB" once where the office never had a "office manager" -- I sure got dumped on! I came out with my head above water! I know you will, too. I sure love the idea of an older home to fix up. I just wish my husband was on that page. He isn't. I know I could never do it alone.
from hissandtell :
Hi Paula - thanks so much for your little note at my diary. Of course you're welcome to get in on the Johnny Depp thing - it's beginning to concern me a little, though, that there might be a tad too many of us at once for the poor boy. You know, we might have to just take it in relays. You and I can start, okay? (Oh, and I'm enjoying your journal enormously, and Alex is adorable.) Love, R xxx
from catinasnit :
Thank you for your expressivly kind message. Dwain and I have given to the relief fund and will no doubt give again. But I always wish that I could do more. I just want to reach my hand across the ocean and immediately hand these people the food from my pantry, the clothes from my closet, milk jugs of clean water, ice and HUGS, especially hugs.
from boxx9000 :
How does that joke go? Take my husband....PLEASE!!!! We should BE so lucky that another women would WANT to steal them!! (hehehe) For 6 years we had a PC and it was forever getting viruses (porn?) Last year we (me and my daughter) bought an iMac and we haven't had a problem since (except for my total lack of computer knowledge)
from boxx9000 :
How does that joke go? Take my husband....PLEASE!!!! We should BE so lucky that another women would WANT to steal them!! (hehehe) For 6 years we had a PC and it was forever getting viruses (porn?) Last year we (me and my daughter) bought an iMac and we haven't had a problem since (except for my total lack of computer knowledge)
from poolagirl :
YIKES! You caught me learning how to upload gif files onto my template. The bike thing was there for...oh...maybe 30 seconds. How funny that you nabbed it! I just read the note you left on acaldwell's diary about the porn thing and computers. YIKES! 3 Trojans? Man, that is awful!
from catinasnit :
I sympathize. Honestly I do. I HATE to be asked to move and whether it's taking minutes, notes or court, why is it that people think you can write as fast as they talk?
from sasori-gal :
Thanks for your note! *hugs you and hands you a snorkel* You've been my inspiration in cutting the puppet strings so we'll see how my venture pans out. Thanks again for your words of encouragement!
from forty-plus :
Underwater and you could still smell the fart? THAT was some fart! I hope your knee is healing well.
from boxx9000 :
remember when you were worried there wouldn't be enough to do? (hehehe) I'm glad all is working out for you at your new job. I like my job, too. The time FLIES by.
from acaldwell :
someone FARTED in the room??? thats wild!! sheesh! its amazing that you can keep up with all that work! you got great skills!!
from laineyducks :
hmm. do you know anyone who wants a little old historical house? i'm not sure if i do or not :) The Canadian side of the falls does rock, but we'll probably end up staying with my Aunt in NY. For exploring we'll be checking out the Canadian side for sure - it's just all around better.
from acaldwell :
hiya sissypoo! i like john denver too! am happy you have a big smile on ya face!!! hope the knee is better!!
from spritopias :
Oh no! Not John Denver!
from chaosdaily :
ive read that book at least 4 times. i never watched the shows, because i didnt think they could improve on the book and my idea of it. i read a lot when i was a kid, and did a lot of daydreaming...... i still do.
from acaldwell :
there it is! ya million dollar invention! u can make this and go on the shopping channel!!
from boxx9000 :
I don't know what your dream means. But, if you invented such a gadget I would BUY IT. It would make cooking a whole lot more fun for people like me.
from poolagirl :
Nothing like some black ice to make your day! Dang! I have fallen on it too - just like in the cartoons. I thought I would stop by and say "howdy" to you - the other Paula everyone talks about on DiaryLand. My name is Paula too - and I actually had your template for awhile - until I blew it up and made a total mess of things. How funny, huh? Two Paula's with the same template. *theme from "Twilight Zone" teetering on the edge* Anyway....howdy and hope you're feeling better after that fall. I will come back and visit your diary soon - with such a cool template! I know I could have it again, but I am just too stubborn to re-create it. I would rather moan and carry on.
from catinasnit :
*Scream* *&^% OUCH! It all happens so suddenly too, doesn't it? After you come to your senses and analyze the damage, you realize: I could have ended up with (in my case) a broken tail bone or (in your case) a broken knee-cap. I know.
from laineyducks :
Sorry to hear about your pain - OUCH! Perhaps the bravery online helped you get through what needed to be done IRL?
from forty-plus :
Ow! Thank goodness there was no audience! Rest well.
from chaosdaily :
you know the RICE thing for injuries? rest, ice, compression and elevation. i think the most important one is ice. keep an ice pack on it.. well, you know what i mean, but keep ice handy all weekend. i fell on ice when the kid was 2, broke my wrist and banged my knee. i tore cartilege in 3 places during that fall.... and my knee is still swollen. i guess i didnt ice it enough. hahaha!
from acaldwell :
owwwwwwww! i hope its not really bad! big huggs for you and hopefully by monday it wont hurt so bad!!!!
from boxx9000 :
Ouch! ouch! Ouch! I hope the weekend gives you time to heal your bruises. Last year I slipped down my three front stairs and it hurt like hell. so sorry.
from spritopias :
I'm sorry your hurt your knees, for what it is worth W is my favorite letter.
from purple-momma :
Thanks for your note. I tried to add to my diary this morning -- can't -- too many people on? -- anyway, she's doing ok. He did get back home. However, mom wasn't going to directly talk to him yet. That, I don't understand. She said he'd come to her when he is ready. Ready? I don't know if he ever will.
from catinasnit :
Bonuses are "a good thing" especially $800 ones. I laughed at forty-plus for her vasoline comment. Funny! Your brain must be whirring with new ideas. Seriously, I think it's great you saved $$ for your new company.
from chaosdaily :
well it doesnt hurt to get an ego boost now and then. good for you!
from acaldwell :
there see? ya getting the proper praise and reconition you deserve!!! im proud of u!!!
from forty-plus :
No pin needed. Maybe just a little vasoline to get you through the doorways! :)
from spritopias :
I am really happy for you and it rocks that there is finally a good-news diary out there!
from cosmicrayola :
Of course you can do this! We are our own worse critics. You'll be smiling like the Cheshire cat in no time!
from forty-plus :
I never doubted it, not for a second. I am looking forward to reading about ALL your successes!
from boxx9000 :
That is such a great story and I am super proud of you. In my *younger* days I used to BS my way into jobs ('cuz I was cute) I figured it would take about 2 months before they would fire me and by then I would have it all figured out. AND....if I didn't, then I would DESERVE to be fired. I have never been fired from a job. YOU GO GIRL! That's called hard work and ingenuity.
from boxx9000 :
That is such a great story and I am super proud of you. In my *younger* days I used to BS my way into jobs ('cuz I was cute) I figured it would take about 2 months before they would fire me and by then I would have it all figured out. AND....if I didn't, then I would DESERVE to be fired. I have never been fired from a job. YOU GO GIRL! That's called hard work and ingenuity.
from spritopias :
I'm happy for you that things are working out the way you'd like them to.
from acaldwell :
hey nevermind wot those idiot i.t. clowns; if anything, its them thats bee essing!! i run across so called i.t. guys often, and they dont have a clue! they act so damm smug too! know it alls! actually, they know nuffin! you just keep on keepin on, paula, and have confidence in ya abilities!! you can do it!! one step at a time! dont let so called i.t. morons spook ya!! ya doin swell!!
from purple-momma :
I am so happy for you! I haven't had time to check out other diaries lately--I caught up on yours this morning. It sounds like you are doing wonderfully! Be good and enjoy your new job! With all the new "toys" you received on day 1, they must have great confidence in you!
from catinasnit :
I hear the Disney theme song playing in my head (for you) "...Make all your dreams come true..."
from chaosdaily :
glad things are working for you, and errr.... you are working for it! it would suck to have a new job that was boring on the second day. and ty for the note.. *hugs*
from boxx9000 :
I am glad they are keeping you busy because the time will go by so much quicker. I thought they would keep you busy. Have you ever heard of a job that doesn't make you earn EVERY penny? Hooray for Day 2. Are you looking at houses yet? I think about that picture you had awhile back. That little house was so adorable.
from acaldwell :
you busy bee u! pace yaself! this is swell! now, we all need a cast of charactors, but i guess this will come after a time... big hugs for you! i see a dream house in ya future!! congrats!! BTW i created a diaryring~~ %%diaryring_rantandrave%% put that in ya template and ya all set! cheers!!!
from spritopias :
I'm glad you are enjoying the new job!
from laineyducks :
Hooray - I've been away but returned to find things going well! Go you :)
from acaldwell :
yay!! o happy day!! this place sounds swell!! dont worry, after a while once ya get all settled in, things will be smoother!! they gotcha a brand spankin new dell! and a printer!! wheeeee!! they plan on keepin you!!! im really slap-happy for ya!!! big huggs for you! congratulations!!1
from catinasnit :
Sounds like they are going to keep you very busy. See, you worried for nothing. Names, we need names -- and personality profiles too (like you did at Midtown Pallet.
from forty-plus :
Nice! I am glad you opened the door when opportunity knocked!
from spritopias :
I am glad that things are going your way. You deserve the break, I am glad you got it.
from spritopias :
I hope today went well!
from catinasnit :
I got a late start reading everyone's entries, so I'm a little behind. Although I didn't get to wish you a good (new) day, I'm thinking about you right now. New clothes that fit right have a way of making us feel a little special, so anyway, you're off to a good start. I'll be looking forward to hearing how everything went.
from forty-plus :
Good luck today!
from acaldwell :
ya got pre stage jitters! once you get at that desk, and sit down and start to work, everything will fall into place and you will wow em! im sure that there will be lots to do! you will do allright!!! cant wait til tomorrow to hear how the 1 st day went! cheers!!!
from chaosdaily :
good luck tomorrow paula! ill be thinking about you...
from boxx9000 :
GOOD LUCK tomorrow. The anticipation is the worse. Tomorrow will go just fine. I'm all anxious about just returning to work. (sheesh)
from sasori-gal :
Wow! What a bargain! And yes, I see that as a positive omen and a great way to start the Year of Paula!
from chaosdaily :
dang if this keeps up, you are going to have an awesome year!! hang on, it might be a wild ride!
from acaldwell :
yay! good on you for finding a score early in the season! this truly must be an omen of good things to come!!! i hope that things go quickly for you, IE; finding your dream home, etc.. stay alive in 2005!!!
from catinasnit :
We all have to start somewhere and the new year is normally a good starting place. Plus most television shows and women's mags pump us up for just that very thing. You, for sure, have already gotten a good jump start on the rest of us. Just look what you've already accomplished to start the new year with. I'm envious of your fortitude. Have a fun day. By the way, my youngest son's resolution is to quite smoking. He told me that last night. Guess why $$$$ ...
from sasori-gal :
Happy New Year! May the "Year of Paula" be a truly happy, healthy and prosperous year for you!
from forty-plus :
Happy, happy New Year!
from acaldwell :
happy new year! each new year is symbolised by an animal of some sort...so in keeping with that chinese philosophy, i hereby decree that 2005 is the year of the Paula-Cat!! good for you to start off with a clean slate!!! good things will come your way in the new year!!!
from h2ophobic :
Happy 2005! How fitting is it that you are actually starting a new life in the new year! I hope this year brings you all of your heart's desires!
from cosmicrayola :
"Year of the Paula". It has a nice ring to it.
from boxx9000 :
Bye, bye, bye Midtown. Did you burn rubber out of the parking lot?? HELLO NEW WORLD! 2005 Year of Paula. You're moving on up.
from acaldwell :
goody fer u to be able to move ahead, i know it was difficult to leap from a comfort spot into the unknown, job wise...u will do good in the new job, and have that new house in no time! follow that dream where ever that dream may lead!!!
from catinasnit :
Way, way down, somewhere hidden deep inside, you've got to be the teensyist bit sad. But good for you for having such a positive attitude. I've gotta hand it to you, you DID move forward and without even looking back. *Applause* I actually believe that you, personally, can accomplish what you set out to do. I only hope your new employers will see what we've all seen in you these past few months. Absolute determination!
from chaosdaily :
im looking forward to the year of the paula.. but how did you miss howards involvement? i wondered why you were always so positive about him after you were denied a raise, i thought it was fairly obvious. but youre right, you are SO out of there, and it doesnt matter. they can be jerks together, and watch their business go down the drain until they are begging for a real bookkeeper, and willing to pay the money. then wont they say, gee we should have kept paula and gave her what she asked! the best revenge is living well......
from forty-plus :
The Year Of Paula sounds wonderful!
from catinasnit :
How many times have I wanted to be a "fly on the wall?" I sympathize with your feelings there. So today will be your last day. What day do you begin your new job? ~ By the way, $2,500!!! *I'm screaming* Never in my life have I ever received a bonus like that, and I used to think my boss liked me (just kidding). I have a feeling your old boss is sorry to see you leave.
from forty-plus :
Yep, exactly what Chaos said!
from chaosdaily :
the best revenge is to do well...
from boxx9000 :
OUT with the old and IN with the NEW. Thanks so much for your kind words of encouragement. I am sending you my best wishes for happiness and success in the NEW Year. You deserve it. Now go and ENJOY it!
from acaldwell :
what a CHEAP ASSED JEW! I HOPE now that u r gone that the whole company goes down the shitter! and i bet it will now that u go! heheee!!
from catinasnit :
Don't you feel blessed to have just - just visted her?! I can't get over the timing. What you wrote should be read at her funeral. I hope someone in your family prints it out and shares your sweet memories. As the old hymn goes: Blest Be the Ties that Bind. Amen.
from forty-plus :
That was a wonderful tribute to your Grandma Slanchik. I don't know how someone who knew and loved her will be able to read it without crying, I was bawling. Such a special spirit.
from sasori-gal :
What a beautiful and touching tribute to your grandmother. Thank you for sharing her amazing life with all of us~ I feel blessed that I got to know her through your words. *hugs*
from acaldwell :
hiya paula~ that was a very stirring, wonderful eulogy; your grandma lived the american dream, and was the american dream; a very full happy life!! its what we all strive for!!! your words are fitting, and well said! *huggs*
from chaosdaily :
*hugs*
from laineyducks :
Paula - It's so sad to lose a loved one - our thoughts are with you and your family.
from acaldwell :
hiya paula! keep on keeepin on! no excuses needed!! ennybuddy in here hoo knows ya , knows ya situation and understands! if dey dont, send em to me, I'll straighten dem out!! the "uncle louie" way! heheheeee! hava good sunday!
from fairygodmum :
God Bless YOU and your family... My prayers are with you and your grandmother. She looks so lovely I can feel the warmth she has for her family with goosebumps. Much Love, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from cosmicrayola :
Born on April Fools and left on Christmas Eve. I am so sorry for your loss. From your wonderful post, I know she was a remakable lady and will be missed terribly. I will add her into my prayers tonight.
from boxx9000 :
MCMB. Merry Christmas My Buddy. Wishing you lots of health and happiness (and job promotions) in the New Year. ~Love, BoXx
from boxx9000 :
Whoa! What a shock! I guess when it is time than that was at least a peaceful way to go. Surrounded by family and all. ((((hugs))))
from chaosdaily :
awwww big hugs paula... but your grandmother loved and was loved, and thats about all we can ask for... now she can be with you all the time... hugs again
from acaldwell :
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from forty-plus :
Paula, I am so sorry for your loss. My tears are also sliding. I came to wish you a Merry Christmas, instead I think I will wish for your heart to be filled with wonderful, happy thoughts of your grandmother. ♥
from sasori-gal :
Oh, Paula...I'm so sorry! I don't know what to say as the tears fall from reading your entry for today. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family as I'm sure this holiday time is going to be one where your love for each other will help you through this difficult time. *hugs*
from catinasnit :
That's part of the fun; holiday mysteries. Aren't they fun? Love it! But... we're still waiting to hear. Have you found out who and are you going or not? AND how's the kitchen coming, not to mention the job.
from purple-momma :
Hip-Hip Hurray!!!! New job for a new year!! My most meaningful CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! Thanks for your note. No, I have not been to Oatman. My sister did 2 years ago with her family on their way to the Grand Canyon. They loved it! Especially the DONKEYS!!!!! One of these days, I will have to go see the place for myself.
from h2ophobic :
Thanks so much for your note. I'm trying very hard to be good and lazy!
from chaosdaily :
sounds like fun. you gonna go?
from h2ophobic :
Congratulations! I am SO proud of you! You ROCK!! Here are my Christmas wishes for you: The family time is lovely, that you get lots of lovies from your daughter and that you get to enjoy watching your boss and co-workers eat crow! (Sorry I know that's not a very Christian thought...but it's definitely heart felt!)
from fairygodmum :
Congrats on the New Job.. You see wishes Do Come TRUE!!! YEAHHHHH... btw.. I broke a leg, shook a leg and caused a few legs to quiver.. The Show was Awesome! Thanks for the encouraging words! Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum~
from forty-plus :
Congratulations! A very nice way to begin the new year!
from boxx9000 :
Congratulations on the new job. Hooray for you! Now you can start planning your new life.
from chaosdaily :
hey congrats on the job and the compromise!! one new life, on the way!
from sasori-gal :
Congratulations! I know it's been tough trying to decide whether this is the right move, but I do think you deserve that "gravy." See how it all goes and be proud of yourself! You're movin' up (and giving me some inspiration too!) Treat yourself to something special today~ you deserve it! Congrats, again! *hugs*
from acaldwell :
yay! congratulations! i KNEW you'd get the job! allrighty then! im proud of ya and happy for ya! yay!!!
from purple-momma :
Thanks for your note. . . I know, its really scarey. I feel I have always had an open talking relationship with my daughter. She says she is extremely safe. I do believe her. The old BF, however, is not being safe. He told her so. She can't believe it. She's more concerned about diseases. When she was here, they talked about it. I hope he has changed is mind and is doing something about it. And you are correct . . . the sex education is having the opposite effect. I HATE IT!!!!! And the job . . . you follow your heart. It isn't like they want you to sign up for X amount of years. If it doesn't work out, there are other jobs out there. I would also believe the owner over the people in the office. The owner probably has big dreams that have not been disclosed to the workers.
from acaldwell :
paula, do what is right for YOU and look out for #1; that is YOU its your life and you need to do something that YOU are happy with, and feel comfortable and that YOU belong! make it CRYSTAL CLEAR to ya recuiter what YOU want and what YOU expect! its all about YOU and be strong and firm! im pullin for ya!!! 3 more days for me and the BRAND NEW COMPUTER!!! good luck!! and email me if ya wanna talk!
from spritopias :
STICK TO YOUR GUNS
from cosmicrayola :
It must be my computer. It looks fine tonight. As far as you interview, hold out. I bet they give you what you want. If they don't, there are other fish in the sea.
from chaosdaily :
well its your life, and you have to do what you think is right for you. if you think you made the right choice, then you did. *hugs* and your sister is right... there might be another (better) job right around the corner.
from forty-plus :
The pay, benefits and location are perks and it is not like you are signing a ten year contract. I would believe the word of an owner over a manager most days. Above all else, you need to find peace with your decision which cannot be made until you hear their final offer. Hold on, you deserve the best!
from catinasnit :
Listen to yourself -- go into that quiet place and just listen. Don't do so much weighing. I think in your heart of hearts you probably already know what YOU want. My mother used to advise me in this way, "If you have to talk yourself into it, you don't need or want it." Believe me, she was always right about that. I never actually liked anything I talked myself into. When it's right, you'll know it. If this is right for you, you won't be asking if it is, you'll be telling us that it is.
from acaldwell :
well, paula, i'd take the job...for now! it sounds like one hand dont know what the other hand is planning, which i suspect, is a lack of communication going on there. also sounds like they are desperate to get people in there. but the pay IS more and the benifits to go with it; i'd give it a sporting chance, say 6 months on the average; and see what plays out! so give it a shot! and if any more words are said about ya husb. job experence, you tell them that you are there for you and not ya husband.
from chaosdaily :
if it was me, i would take the job, and keep looking. yes, its not an upward move, but one never really knows. i know what you mean, though, about working with your husband.. been there, done that.
from spritopias :
I would take the job, even if it is just a 'lateral' move you would be making more money and SAVING money on clothes and gas.
from purple-momma :
I absolutely loved your entry. My dad (73) has been telling us kids (4 girls) we should be writing down in a journal all of our funny family stories. Have any of us done this? No. This is one of the reasons I started on this dairyland thing. Someday, I will be adding my funny family stories.
from catinasnit :
A squeege(sp)to wipe the fog off her window. Perfect! I absolutly loved the conversation you had with your grandmother. You captured her essence. I've done that with my mother, recorded her, that is. She's not 100 but her ramblings sound about the same as you described. I never know [mentally] where she is. The light comes on, the light goes off... and so it goes.
from cosmicrayola :
What a beautiful entry!! Can you answer someting for me? I asked once before, I think, but never got an answer. Am I the only one that has to highlight your page to read it? It shows up all black except the list on the right and the pictures.
from boxx9000 :
Your Granny doesn't look a year over 65! I on the other hand FEEL 100! She is such a pretty lady. What's her secret??
from acaldwell :
grandma dont look 100 more like 70! nice pics too! and once again, a very touching story left me in tears! btw my comments section is workin now! full blast! thanks paula!!
from sasori-gal :
Your grandmother looks fantastic! Once again, you managed to write such a touching entry~ you've left me teary-eyed!
from forty-plus :
"...trying to drink her in as much as I could..." How completely perfect.
from purple-momma :
I absolutely love the pics of the house! That would be my dream also! What would something like that go for? In So. Calif. right now houses are out of this world high prices! And your trip -- wonderful! I haven't updated in a while -- so busy with work -- and other things -- I need to take a night and WRITE
from acaldwell :
thanks, paula! now THIS is what FAMILY and COMMUNITY is supposed to be like! yay! i'm so happy you got it like that! now, puleeese, tell me how to get the last 5 entries to show up on my page!!! i dont understand the diaryland gobblety-gook! thanks, and welcome back!!!! YAY!!!!
from catinasnit :
By the way, so glad you are safely back. You were missed.
from catinasnit :
Somehow I just knew this entry of your would be a good one. And it was. How do we hold it all in -- all the sweet memories? Seems like when you get to go visit, time simply stands still. Your story could be the story of so many. You were just the first to tell it. By he way, I had an Aunt Jo too, and I miss her. My mother's family is from the piny woods of southeast Texas. I need to get back there and see my 80something aunt. My grandparents that used to live there are long ago gone and it seems like this time of year makes those old holiday memories come back to life.
from sunnflower :
Thanks for leaving me a note regarding my mom. We are hoping she will make a full recovery after her stroke. I like the bungalow style house too by the way.
from reflectohymn :
It may or may not be possible to get into my locked diary. I'm having some technical issues.
from boxx9000 :
THAT little house is SO adorable. How much does a house like that go for? That would certainly be a dream come true to have such a cute little house. I hope your dreams come true.
from catinasnit :
Be careful... and all that jazz. I'll miss your daily entries -- I really will. ~~ by the way, what a wonderful house! I love old homes. They have a style all their own, don't they?
from acaldwell :
awww paula! hardwood floors!! a porch with our flag on it!! fireplace!!! sunny and bright!!! thats MY dream home!!! just lovely!!! follow that dream, paula!! go get em!! hava SAFE drive to west-by-god-virginia, we will be here whan ya get back!!
from sasori-gal :
That is such a nice house!! Enjoy your trip to West Virginia. Travel safely and we'll be waiting for you when you get back!
from chaosdaily :
have fun and you never know. it might still be there!
from forty-plus :
Have a safe and wonderful trip to West Virginia!
from sasori-gal :
What a beautiful and touching entry about your mother!
from acaldwell :
you are so lucky to have a nice family like that! thats why you are the sweet person that you are today! thank you paula!!
from forty-plus :
Such a lovely entry about your mother. Thank you for sharing.
from reflectohymn :
Good to read about your Mom. I've been writing about mine and doing some grief work in an online forum, to which there's a link in my old blog. I like this: "Mom loved proverbs and sayings. She collected them like little gems to be pulled out and used at just the right moment." My Mom, too. Only she used to misquote them sometimes, as in: "I wasn't born yesterday for nothing!"
from catinasnit :
My Lord, I guess there is one in every town. Believe it or not, their is a woman who calls my husband at the newspaper, her name is Ms. Whinert (Dwain calls her Ms. Wy-ner) and that's all she does -- whine). This woman might have to call the humane society for help or a church might have been willing to help her. I know ours would. That's where Ms. Wy-ner gets most of her help. The newspaper puts her on speaker phone - just for kicks (eye-roll). Loved your entry today and I still remember your story on "the party."
from reflectohymn :
That's interesting, what your Mom said on the subject of infant baptism. It would make sense to me that the infant baptism is more of a gesture of commitment on the part of the family of the baby than, obviously, of commitment *by* the baby. When my daughter was born, the denomination we were involved with at the time had us "dedicate" the baby, which was expressly intended to be a sign of *our* commitment, not hers. Later on she chose to be baptized when she knew what she was doing. I myself have been baptized three times, oddly enough, although only one of them was by my own choice. My opinion, for whatever it's worth, is that the important thing is the condition of one's heart, which God knows anyway.
from acaldwell :
bah, hamburg!(with cheese!) that was sad. i guess when some peoples children reach a certain age, they expect others to be at thier beck and call! what i woulda done was took that poor lonely souls name and number, and called st charles and had someone there fetch her a pallet!
from chaosdaily :
its so hard to be nice to people sometimes... it doesnt sound like the lady WANTED satisfaction, she maybe just wanted to bitch. i was told, to deal with people like that, to stay pleasant, and say, im sorry i have to hang up now, good bye, and hang up.
from sasori-gal :
Thanks for your kind note of cheer. You're right~ it was really neat to see this Iraqi family communicating with Japan and Korea in Swedish! By the way, I'll be sending you positive vibes and good luck on your 2nd interview! Go get 'em! :)
from forty-plus :
I know she was nasty, but it makes me sad to think of a loney 95 year old woman and worried that she can't take proper care of her dog. Ugh.
from laineyducks :
I'm not sure it's sad that she's alone - perhaps her attitude is the reason she's alone. Either way you handled that call much better than I would have!
from laineyducks :
Woo! Glad to hear you got a call back - my fingers are crossed
from catinasnit :
EEYOU! What a bad choice of words for her to use. ~ I don't know what to say, but I'm not really surprised at your getting a call back. yeah, stay humble, but also keep confident. Evidently it shows. I'm still thinking about you and sending prayers heavenward.
from spritopias :
Good luck! I am really happy for you! I hope you get to quit right after your vacation!
from acaldwell :
well congrats! i KNEW ya make it! yay!!! new jobs for all!! i got my FIRST paycheck today, 264.00!!!! i bought windows xp home alone edition, and a new battery and a giant pizza!!
from forty-plus :
Happy vacation my friend and congratulations on the call back. I know it was easy for me, but when I read your words I said, "of course!" I loved your who started Christmas story. Have a great weekend, Y.
from spritopias :
thanks for the note, I appreciate it
from chaosdaily :
thats a hoho cake.. a chocolate cake split in half (a top and bottom) bettercreme in the middle (like richwhip or dream whip) and chocolate donut frosting on the top. they arent too bad.... but not my kind of thing i guess.... ive only eaten one, dont know why i dont like em, i just dont. im used to better cake than that :-P
from forty-plus :
I find it so sad no one with the proper authority can help people like your homeless lady. When they closed the state hospital a couple towns over, the homeless population sky rocketed in our area. We, as a country, fall short of proper care with poor and ill.
from reflectohymn :
That's great, Paula. I'll be praying you get that job. Glad your hubby helped you with the car too.
from catinasnit :
I'd have never thought to ask some of the questions you did. Hurray for your side! AND Hurray for your husband too. Sounds like he's taking some "baby steps" of self-improving. Oh have I ever got my fingers crossed for you. I'll add you to my prayers too. Sounds like God is watching out for you, without the added help. But just in case...
from chaosdaily :
i think we are the lucky ones for having found you..... *hugs*
from reflectohymn :
You know it's funny - I'm here with my sponsor and just shared your note with him, and we both agreed that mine is not exactly the same dynamic, although both your experience and mine are alcoholic tendencies. These days I almost wish I *had* a comfort zone (I'm being slightly facetious) - but what I'm talking about is that I constantly go out on these grand adventures, trying new things, convinced that my grandiose self-willed schemes will succeed, and then am surprised when they fail. But I know what you mean about the comfort zone, because I've been there a lot too, especially when I was taking the meds and playing at the restuarant. What a rut - but I did nothing to change it for almost ten years.
from acaldwell :
well, paula you done good! and ty for the swell note ya left me. i just fixed the monitor and put all the parts back, save the watch battery for the cmos, that battery is graveyard dead, right now my puter clock sez jan 1. 1996 1:56am heheheheee!!! the watch battery has a date stamp on it 1996! no wonder the battery died!! so fri i will pay 5 bucks and get a new battery. meanwhile my cd rom aint working! sheesh! a minor power adjustment, when i get around to it. i swear this puter is held together with spit and gum!! congratulations on a smooth interview!!! i will continue to pray for you that you get a second interview!!! TCB!!!
from minstrelite :
Hey Paula - re: my earlier note, no worries. I walked to my friend Carol's house (a music teacher of my longtime acquaintance) having left her a voice mail message explaining my plight, and though she is far too busy right now to return a phone call, she did think to slip $45 in an envelope beneath her doormat. I will now thankfully eat dinner and then stay the night with my sponsor who lives across the bay. Wish me luck when I sign my contract tomorrow.
from purple-momma :
Once again, I am behind the times! I haven't been on here in a week! I sure hope all went well for you today! I can't wait to read about it later.
from minstrelite :
Sounds like you're in about the same position I'm in, roughly speaking. Congratulations! I'm also doing email from a local library after having missed a train back home w/no money and no ability to get cash from an ATM with my local Farmers and Merchant Bank non-debit ATM card which will not work in any ATM machine. Help!!!! I sign a contract for $8500 tomorrow with a Christian theatre company for a two and a half month light rehearsal period (usually 3 hours a day.)
from catinasnit :
Oh, good night! Here you go, panty hose and all. My mother always told me to wear clothing that would train eyes to go to my face, and then SMILE. I personally don't think people remember what you wore so much as how you appeared. Ask you daughter to help you out (if you want someone to watch you model, quote, business suits). I'm rooting for you, as always.
from h2ophobic :
Today's the day! I'll keep you in my prayers all day and will RUN to the computer when I get home to read your entry! (hint hint)
from chaosdaily :
well it might help..... good luck! and they might have an education program where you would get refunded for college courses... you could live on that money, and slowly make your way through cpa classes...... you go, girl!
from acaldwell :
remember, deep breaths! interview like you is old pals with the interviewer, you will feel better! for 60 g's i'd look like an ole brick too! i dont think you are an old brick~ good luck!
from forty-plus :
I am positive you will be the most competent, best looking brick come Wednesday morning! Best luck!
from catinasnit :
What in the world is wrong with us? I did the same thing yeterday - nothing. I'm absolutely exhausted. ~ I'm so glad you're going to visit your 100 year old Grannie. West Virginia. I wonder if it's snowing there yet?
from laineyducks :
Ah. The joy of leftovers - B is getting that way too. Turkey again?? I'm making him pasta tonight just so I don't have to hear it :) The curly looking black yarn is mohair - I'm interested though. What are you talking about!?
from minstrelite :
Yeah, I loved him a lot. I'm also lucky I had a good Dad - sounds like you were too. A lot of people we know weren't so fortunate.
from acaldwell :
cheer! cheer! rah! rah! rah! hardee har har!! you, yarnsmith, along with chaosdaily are real pals~ thanky you!
from sasori-gal :
*yum* Your leftovers sound like gourmet meals to me! Once again, I will enjoy them vicariously through you!
from acaldwell :
can i have some pork and cranberry stew? i got some rice and chicken combined with macroni and cheese with tomato sauce mixed in for good measure. had some for breakfast, along with an ice cold slice of german chocolate cake and a pepsi, diet of course! i dont like fussy eaters! i eat whats put in front of me and thank christ i got it! thats what mama sez! if i was around there, you'd have NO leftovers!
from acaldwell :
can i have some pork and cranberry stew? i got some rice and chicken combined with macroni and cheese with tomato sauce mixed in for good measure. had some for breakfast, along with an ice cold slice of german chocolate cake and a pepsi, diet of course! i dont like fussy eaters! i eat whats put in front of me and thank christ i got it! thats what mama sez! if i was around there, you'd have NO leftovers!
from catinasnit :
I fell over laughing (sorry). But your entry was funny to read, even if you didn't mean it to come out that way. I'm kind of like that, love to experiment with food too. Sounds like you all had a ton of it. Just be glad you have a loving family and daughter. Personally, I can't get over all the work you voluntarily put into this one meal. Whew!
from acaldwell :
mmmmm sounds like u made a tasty dinner!!!!! i believe ya being too hard on yaself, paula!! boneless skinless turkey breast normally comes out thata way! its supposed to be white! thats how ya know its done! big thing is ya had a lovely time with ya family, thats what counts the most! well, with the leftovers, maybe donate it to a shelter!
from fairygodmum :
Cornbread Dressing YES! .. with brown gravy and giblets.. Big YES!! Well.. that's what we call it.."Dressing" that is, kind of a Southern Tradition... even though I was born in San Francisco... Apples in Cornbread NO! Walnuts or Rice in Stuffing BIG NO!!! rofl.. where in heck did you get that recipe. Martha's Incarcerated Kitchen Show??? rofl.. Glad your footing was sure and your Turkey Butts.. errr.. Breasts were Delicious! Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from chaosdaily :
well look at it this way... at least you didnt fall on the knife out in the snow and bleed to death.... lol and everyone else is healthy too, so what more can you ask for? well, except maybe a better stocked kitchen to cook in.....
from forty-plus :
Happy Thanksgiving Day! I hope you have a wonderful day with your loved ones.
from catinasnit :
Saturday Night Live occasionally did a parody on that very subject, saying: He who dealt it, smelt it. Large crowds of holiday grocery shoppers, it's bound to happen. ~ I've probably spent that much this week too; $53 on Sunday and $48 last night. ~ Surrounded by your family, you are certain to have fun -- stinky old farts and all.
from forty-plus :
I can't stop giggling at your fart story!
from catinasnit :
"...Mr. Potter of I'ts a Wonderful Life..." What a perfect analogy regarding my entry. Perfect. Absolutly perfect!
from boxx9000 :
Thanks. apology accepted.
from sunnflower :
What a great Thanksgiving story! Thanks for adding Suburban Island to your Dland favorites. I'm honored.
from catinasnit :
I'm going to be in the same boat as you (so to speak) this next week, ymmy food and all. Have fun with your daughter. Loved your walk down an old Thanksgiving past. How cool that you saved it. You have an extra fun week. I'm Thankful for you.
from chaosdaily :
i would have eaten them, i love sweet potatoes. but what i do is slice them, boil them, then put them in the pan with all the stuff... and it only takes 20 minutes to bake..
from acaldwell :
that was one for the books all right!! one of the best stories i have ever heard!! or read!!!
from acaldwell :
thank you paula! but if people wanna drop me its their right, its ok. why havent you posted? are you ok?
from acaldwell :
hiya paula! gmail is a new email service by google; for some insane reason you have to have an invite from someone who has a gmail account, u just cannot goto google to get one. i dont know why, thats just the way it is! cya!!
from catinasnit :
Man! What's the warm weather thing all about anyway? ~ Computer Death Sucks, doesn't it? When you get the wind back in your sails and the weather is cooperatively cold, try again. We'd all (selfishly) enjoy it so very very much. *please*
from minstrelite :
That's happened to me before - I write something that I'm sure is just about the best thing I've ever done, and when I click to submit, it for some reason gets zapped. A good solution is always to copy before submitting. Then you can paste later. On another subject, I've temporarily disabled my notes feature because I was getting abusive notes from someone, just a punk kid. It was okay for a while, but after I'd gotten about ten or twelve of them in rapid succession, I figured it was time to turn off the notes for now. You can still note me on my spiritual blog at http://reflectohymn.diaryland.com. This is a commitment, and I'm there every morning at coffee break.
from acaldwell :
huggs to you, paula, i know the feeling, it happened to me the other day when i changed my template! computers, AGGGGGGG!!!
from catinasnit :
Girl Scouting (and grandmas) can teach girls the darnest crafting ideas. But Michelle didnt' know her good intentions would eventually become an XXX toy for a bird. ~ Birdie Viagra! Ha! Bad enough it exists at all.
from forty-plus :
Maybe Alex needs a newer, younger version of Fuzzy Mae, could be a midlife thing!
from buckaroobabe :
OMG that is the funniest damn thing I've ever read. Yarnsmith, you rock! :)
from acaldwell :
(banjo playin in background) fuzzy mae, you are my little bittle fuzzy mae, you make my day all the way, fuzzy mae......heheheheeee!
from catinasnit :
First thing that came into my mind was a guy I knew in college that was from the Bahamas. He sported a large, jagged, scar on his upper thigh which I could plainly see when he wore shorts. Barracuda attack, he would explain. Never knew there were small barracuda that stung. Well, all's well. Thank goodness. I won't even go into the "men's brain/thought process" thing. Most men don't think in color (sorry Art, I know you do). They process only black and white thoughts. Q and A fit in this process too. ~ I've been wondering where you went. Now I know. You've been lost in a world of worry.
from chaosdaily :
im not sure. cow tipping would be harder i think, cause cows arent always friendly... but gravestones never moo at you or try to butt you... lol
from h2ophobic :
My husband acts the same way. I've spent years trying to teach him the WHO WHAT WHERE WHEN and WHY theory of conversation. But he sticks to the MINIMAL INFORMATION GIVEN followed by a "OK, I'll let Carolyn know" theory!
from chaosdaily :
yea, men. sheesh. and the other problem with small towns is, the most exciting thing to do is tip over gravestones.....
from spritopias :
well, at least she LIVED, she could have been swallowed by a giant FISH and puked out at Nineva
from acaldwell :
well, dont feel like you made a fool of yaself. after all, you got little or no information from a lump. how could you possibabaly know what actually happened with little or no info?? i am very happy that michelle is a-ok! you acted just like any other doting mother did! BTW!!! its all fixed!!! NEW template, archives WORKS!!!! its all there! i am beat!!! 5 hours on this!! sheesh!
from chaosdaily :
a new way to torment me???? gee thanks for the encouragement lol
from laineyducks :
*laughs* I always end up with that one useless purchase too!
from spritopias :
it's heavy, I drop things
from spritopias :
No, Mitchner hurts my feet. I do not read him.
from catinasnit :
Hospitals and debt will always be with you and they DO accept payment plans and that part of your Will that reads, upon my death pay... . You may not always be around to enjoy PINK or for that matter, turkey roasters and the incense they perfume our homes with.
from acaldwell :
impulse buying!!!!! wheeeeeeee!!!! my favorite sport!!! i thought i heard a sonic boom this morning!!! coming from the east!!!! heheheeee!!!
from chaosdaily :
gee ill probably be able to hear it from my house!!!!
from minstrelite :
If it's a situation in which you owe something like $2,000 to a hospital and you happen to get an unexpected $159, I would feel no moral compunction against spending the $159 in any way you choose. Whatever plans you'd already made as to how to deal with the hospital debt still stand. The $159 is in a different arena. It's a gift.
from spritopias :
For years people assumed I was a black woman until I posted a picture of myself when they learned that I am a little hebrew man.
from spritopias :
I'm a boy, I have a penis.
from fairygodmum :
That's amazing, those double number's coming up in your life like that. Has more meaning than a little bit. Please examine them further, I'm sure you'll find out some relevating facts. Hugz Gurl.. Your Mom is one incredible loving angel. Bebe, da FairyGodMum
from acaldwell :
screw that money gorging hospital! treat yourself! you certainaly deserve it!
from sasori-gal :
I say, "Think pink! Think pink!" You deserve a treat! :)
from catinasnit :
That entry was absolutely breathtaking. You should submit it to the Chicago Tribune or to their Letters to the Editor. You've made me feel ashamed - I have no reason to gripe. We are so very blessed to live where we do. ~ Since you've given me permission to print out your entries before, I think I will do just that and put it on my frig. Hope you don't mind.
from h2ophobic :
That was beautiful. I wish I'd written it, and am ashamed that I didn't even realize it was Veteran's Day until the mail didn't come.
from chaosdaily :
bravo!!!
from forty-plus :
Very nice Veterans Day entry.
from acaldwell :
thank you paula that was very heartwarming!
from catinasnit :
The secretary moved to Mtn. Home? That figures. Did you know there are so many people from Chicago in Mtn. Home that a mail box at the post office says: Mail Going to Chicago. AND they have a special bus line that runs to and from either daily or bi-weekly.
from catinasnit :
You aren't kidding when you say, Golden Nugget. She is, and you certainly should gleen what you can while she still has a mind and a breathing body. Such a sweet memory!
from h2ophobic :
Thank you for the note. I hope you get a chance to visit with your grandmother soon!
from forty-plus :
I hope you get a chance to visit with your Granny Slanchik very soon. My mother went to Newfoundland to visit with her elderly relatives and keep a handheld recorder with her whenever they were sharing. She has some wonderful family stories in their voices.
from acaldwell :
wow! im impressed! 100 god bless ya and ya grandma! we can only hope to live so long!
from purple-momma :
I am so happy for you! Another inspiring person here in Diaryland! Good for you! On another note--how do you survive your daughter being gone? I find it so hard to be without her! She's in her second year in college, away from home, and It is SOOOO hard for me!
from sasori-gal :
Way to go, Paula! *applause, applause* I am so proud of you and you should be, too! *hugs*
from buckaroobabe :
Oh, YARNSMITH!!!!! =) What awesome, awesome news! *dances* I'm so very happy for you. And proud!!! =) Now aren't you glad you MADE WAVES? =) Sorry, I can't quit grinning! And using exclamation points! And ALLCAPS! Way to go, and ROCK ON! - Buckaroobabe
from spritopias :
good luck in the job search
from acaldwell :
now, im willing to give anyone a sporting chance there! so lets just see hoo bush nominates!
from acaldwell :
im proud of you paula!!! now im doubly happy! you will get what you want! it will happen!!! BTW ASHCROFT QUIT! yay!
from forty-plus :
Great job on the evaluation! Congratulations!
from catinasnit :
You'll most likly get what you ask for. Sometimes, a degee is earned over a life time. That's why they are sometimes awarded to ordinary people. You made waves - you certainly did! ~ Thank you for the encouraging words about my son. Dwain and I are on our way out the door to have supper at the restaurant he manages.
from chaosdaily :
you are AWESOME!! 40K a year will get you what you want!! woooo hoooooo!!! YOU GO, GIRL!!!!!
from h2ophobic :
Nothing picks me up like a haircut and color! Good luck with your interview...I can't wait to hear about it!
from acaldwell :
no, im a slob, not a metrosexual! hahahaaaa! i cant afford to dress snappy! or get salon treatments! the closest i get to a salon is the shower! wheeeeeee!
from catinasnit :
I can't tell you how envious I am of your daughter's ability to do hair. (hear that Jayme, there's an idea for you - beauty school!) As talented as your Michelle is, you can't lose.
from forty-plus :
Good luck with the interview! Can't wait to hear about it.
from acaldwell :
yay! isnt a cut and colour refreshing?
from catinasnit :
I had to go back and read your "Changes" entry before I read your "Dallas" entery. I've been in KC visiting Jayme (kidspinkcat). Obviously, we didn't get to see the show last night because we were making the five hour trip back to Arkansas. I love Dallas (the show) and I'm so sorry that I also didn't remember the reunion show or I would have taped it. Your rememberance of Las Vegas was wonderful. I've never been there, but I felt like I was walking down the strip with you. ~~ Forward - Fast Forward into your new life. Sounds so promising and SO worth the new corporate duds. 'Round here we get to deal with our own race, mostly. But believe me, there are prejudices that surround people who have ivory skin, too. The term is "Southern Rednecks." Jeff Foxworthy laughs with them, but believe me, in the real life world, they are ~scary~ In other words, everyone has a prejudice or two.
from spritopias :
My uncle says that I don't exist, I am really a figment of Garrison Keillor's imagination.
from spritopias :
I would love to say something clever, but all I can really say is "thank you for adding me" and "I added you because dropping you because of your politics is silly" Amen.
from minstrelite :
Right on! I think you've probably figured this out already, since you've been around the program for a long time, but I also had to change my sobriety date once I realized that I had a part in agreeing to take the klonopin to begin with. All the years I was "sober" and attending meetings while using and occasionally abusing klonopin don't count as far as I'm concerned. I mention this in reference to amends. You're probably familiar with the chapter on the Ninth Step in the 12 by 12, where Bill refers to the amends that ought to be made as soon as possible (certain family - in my case my daughter and my stepdaughter) while encouraging us not to rush into other amends. There is an order to the Steps, and that's a good thing. The letter of apology I wrote a few months ago to the executive director of that theatre was premature, because all I wanted was her approval. She may have sensed that, and that may be why she didn't respond. The amends to my stepdaughter, however, was in God's time, and that was why it worked.
from acaldwell :
ah yes! DALLAS! i too will be glued to the tv tonight and see DALLAS! back when the show was on regular, another fine show, HILL STREET BLUES was on at the same time,so me and the future ex came to a comprimise, one week we seen DALLAS and the next week, we seen HILL STREET BLUES! i miss both showes!
from minstrelite :
I agree, of course (with your note) and sort of knew that while I was writing the entry. However, I think I have to decide/realize what it is that I want first, before I can go about asking for it. I might not want to work at that particular theatre, or if I feel as though I want it, the desire might only be because I'm trying to prove that I'm all right in those people's eyes. I guess what I'm saying is what I might want is not necessarily want what God wants for me, and I need to seek His will.
from sunnflower :
Thanks for your note letting me now that my posting on disagreement and disrespect struck a cord for you. I am sorry you lost a diaryland pal in the election fray. I had someone drop me off their favorites list because of one tiny mention of my candidate of choice so you are not alone. Oh well. Hugs to you!
from chaosdaily :
yea, open that door of opportunity! good luck, we are all behind you!!
from acaldwell :
like i sez be4 paula, oppotunity is banging furiously on ya door, fling it open and leap into it! get on that gravy train and dont look back! i will be prayin 4 ya! btw, i dumped my AOL messenger cause it was eating bandwith and slowin me down, i went from 1.2 MBPS to 342KBPS! sheesh! so now i just run good ole yahoo messenger! cheers! and congrats!
from acaldwell :
depression democrats!!! hehehehee!!! what a riot!! if the symptoms include a stuffy nose, and a lite head, maybe....!
from catinasnit :
Amen to the map/cyberspack thing. Isn't that the truth? What a good friend you have made there. I plan to go to her site, but I'll have to do it later. I'll go back to your entry and click on. Right now I've got to head off.
from catinasnit :
Well said! I really liked your comparison to an (emotional) morning after hangover. Our country needs to find some common ground. A country divided is a country that will be targeted by evil.
from acaldwell :
you put into words how i feel today! thanks!
from acaldwell :
i got a personal email from sen kerry itts at the bottom of my dland page! cya inna while!
from acaldwell :
well congrats! now we must support our president
from catinasnit :
I very much appreciated reading your comments about political views. But today I am sad. I always am when my friends get hurt, and some of my friends, Republicans and Democrates WERE defeated (locally) in hard fought races. All I can say outwardly is, I'm so very sorry, but inwardly, I wanted to cry. ~~ I watched John Kerry and John Edwards do the right thing today, while eating a sandwich during our noon court recess, and accept defeat, instead of d-r-a-g-g-i-n-g out the pain. I'm proud of them both and the words he used to encourage the country to unify and get behind our country. In my opinion, that's the mark of a really great candidate. That's what I intend to do. Right or wrong, "Duwya" is our president, the leader of our nation and I pray he really is doing what he says, and listening to a higher power for the greater good. ~~ Now I'm going to write a few notes to my defeated friends.
from catinasnit :
I almost forgot to tell you how much fun it was to hear you say you watched those two old ~scary~ movies. I'd love to see them again. They frightened me to death as a child. I'm going to look and see if they are going to repeat them.
from catinasnit :
Republican bashing? Around here it's the other way around. But however it turns out, I'm 100 percent behind our leaders. My prayers go out to them daily. I only hope God is listening.
from acaldwell :
thank you for voting! may the best win fair and square!
from sasori-gal :
*heehee* I think we live in the same neighborhood. We used to go trick or treating up the hill in the ritzy neighborhood and got cheap candy, if any. But in my neck of the woods (the struggling-to-make-ends-meet folks), we used to get those little bags stuffed with lots of treats! And yes, the original "The Haunting" is a classic scary movie!
from catinasnit :
"...Five year olds are more sophisticated now..." Isn't that the ever lovin' truth! We had two trick or treaters, and we were absolutly stunned when they came walking up on our front porch. I gave them two full sized Butterfingers. Now, tell me this, who else would give out full size Butterfingers?
from acaldwell :
its more of a "trick" these days then a "treat" when we went trick and treatin, we had costumes and we went by ourselves. around the early 70's is when the B.S. started.. scary movies? how bout what ever happened to baby jane? bette davis and joan crawford scared the beecheesus outta me literally! and psycho? believe it or not, when im alone in a shower in a motel, them curtians stay OPEN!!!!
from chaosdaily :
oooo those smores bars are good, arent they? they are one of the best new candy bars that came out....
from minstrelite :
Amen (re: Amends.)
from wyndspirit :
Tell Linda to just sit back and enjoy the envy of others. Nobody who knows her will think she's lazy just because she managed to land a real go-getter! And LET him know how much he's admired and how much people envy his wife. Guys need that sort of ego boosting. (Only the ones who DESERVE it, though.)
from catinasnit :
I had to go back and read your last three entries in order to catch up. Friday morning I woke up SICK -- had an ear infection. So I understand where you're coming from when you say you've not felt good either. Only I didn't even have the strength to type. ~~ How nice it must be to be close to your sister and her family. I can only imagine. As to the weather you described, I'm afraid you'll be getting more of the same. Arkansas is in the process of sending you rain by the bucket full.
from acaldwell :
ya well kerry is gonna get him! happy halloween! glad to see a tale of a guy who dont laze around the house! remember kerry! bush~~whoosh!!! quote: being president is a hard job! (said with dispair)! heheheeeee. sorry paula, but i took a trip on my time machine and kerry wins! heheheee! BOO!
from boxx9000 :
HAPPY HALLOWEEN.....BOO!
from wyndspirit :
And Mom thinks I should try to sell my crafts to my clients. :) Somehow it doesn't seem right to mix my own business with my employer's, even though it doesn't bother me to WORK on crafts around them, and tell them the name of the store where I sell them. I don't know... I've never thought about writing biographies. I write fiction, preferably fantasy. I'd like to see the questions and find out if they inspire me, but I'd have no idea how to go about turning it into a business.
from chaosdaily :
you know youre from wisconsin when an illinois driver is called a "dang flatlander"
from acaldwell :
wheeeeeeee! that was fun to read! because i travelled so damm much, i understand all of the statements there! BTW, in january of 86, da bears cheated! heheheee also george bush uses the internets! heheheee this was great, paula!
from boxx9000 :
That was too cute *from the Burbs". well done.
from chaosdaily :
yea its nice to be able to laugh again. and with a positive attitude, you should have no trouble laughing in the future!
from acaldwell :
if ya put the week in some perspective, it wasnt that bad, u made some discoveries, possibably have found a new job, and discovered a confidence ya had all along, but it was hidden! see ya paula!
from minstrelite :
The band is great, too - New Clear Days. Not sure if that's their CD on the link, though. A bunch of locals, but the tightest band I've heard in the Valley. Unfortunately, Echo and I didn't hook up tonight. I don't think my getting mad at her last night on AIM helped too much. I've been praying, and I believe I am going to have to let go of this one. I've already apologized, but I've got to give them both space. Also, I believe I have to work on not pressuring them with my high expectations.
from minstrelite :
Yeah, I think that was a little more than two nickel's worth, Paula, lol. God bless you.
from minstrelite :
Hey Paula - thanks for checking. I love this D-Land community, the way everyone watches out after everyone. I've neither written nor read lately on D-Land, been stressed about my car situation. Will write soon. God bless.
from catinasnit :
Hey, I like Del Monte catsup. Read your entry, but that's why it's your entry and your opinion. You've certainly earned it! Vive la difference!
from acaldwell :
well, thats okey dokey! hugs to you! that was ya shiny nickels worth! hehehehe! weel, try this:http://www.johnkerry.com/about/john_kerry/bio.html read that and see what ya think! have a good evening!
from chaosdaily :
im with you. i dont trust kerry, well, lets say i trust him less than i trust bush. hugs!
from catinasnit :
Gotta tell you, I'm so impressed. Really. I am. I'm sitting here shaking my head, because I would be scared to death to have to take tests and answer "where do you see yourself in 10 years" kind of stuff. ~~ Suits make you feel important, don't they (not a question). Jeans are fun but suits make you... You really are doing what you set out to do.
from acaldwell :
god is on ya side, believe it! bravo to you for seeing this shitswamp thru and continue the struggle to better yaself! it will pay off in the end! someday you will lokk at all this and laff! hang in there, and keep ya head up high!
from catinasnit :
Wow! that was certainly fast -- the interview, I mean. Bookeeping and math are not my forte', but you must be something else when it comes to numbers. Can't even imagine doing bookeeping on the computer) You have my highest respect. ~` And hey, nothing like an excuse to go shopping. Do you keep your resume up to date, or did you have to start all over and develop one (that's what I would have to do).
from sasori-gal :
That's great! Good luck although I know you will dazzle them! Things are looking up and I know bigger and better things lie ahead for you! :)
from chaosdaily :
wow that didnt take long! good luck!!
from acaldwell :
O joy to you! Congratulations! See, i told you that you are worth it and now someone else does! good luck to you! and if the guy asks when can you start, say, right now!!!!!!!
from purple-momma :
Wow, did I miss a lot of goings on! You know you are worth the extra. . . .and another position will be right around the corner for you. You will be in my prayers and thoughts . . .
from kidspinkcat :
ALRIGHTY!! I just know things will be fine for you. See??? You already have an interview! That says something about how much they already think of you. Chicago is a big city and they want YOU to come in for an interview! How exciting! I have my fingers crossed for you, but I know you will be fine. Let your experience do the talking. I'm so excited for you! YEAH!!
from catinasnit :
I almost forgot, your new little kitty is soooo cute! And thank you for telling my about hair extensions. Wow! Two a week? People always ask me if my hand/arms get tired (court reporting) but I'll bet Michelle's really do; kind of like a surgeon, isn't she?
from catinasnit :
Oh, God, Paula. I just now read your past three entries, and I feel sure you'll be posting another one (cuz we're all waiting to find out what happened) today. But I wanted to tell you that as I read your brave entry about the "conference" my stomach tightened and I started feeling so sick. Can't imagine the pain -- just simply can't imagine. If you can't cry, don't worry, I will do it for you. Somehow I know things will work out like they should, but heaven only knows when and how. Someday you'll look back on all this and know for a fact that you are a better person for all that you went through. All these platitudes will reassure you of group support from all your buddies, but ultimately, it all comes back to you. In the meantime, you are in my thoughts and prayer, you honestly are. Dear Lord, Paula is such a good and brave person. Please give her a break TODAY! Amen.
from wyndspirit :
Hope the day goes all right! Hang in there!
from sasori-gal :
*hugs* of thanks right back at you! Thank you for your sweet note. The love and support from Diaryland buddies is amazing, isn't it? Keep hanging tough, Paula~
from laineyducks :
Oh no. I just caught up with all the reading. It's time to wipe it from your mind and think of those glowing references - clean slate.
from chaosdaily :
look at it this way. getting a new job will be practise for getting your new life... moving out from hubby and getting your own place. but just remember, you CAN DO IT!!! one day at a time, or 6 at a time, it will come, and it will be better than before!! and you might enjoy getting new clothes. have you considered applying at any banks?
from acaldwell :
awwww you got the kitty cat one! i wanted the kitty cat pic! o well! hay paula, try one hour at a time you are doing so well, even tho u might not think so; you are going thru a personal crisis, and you are not drinking! bravo for you! dont worry what other people are thinking, it doesnt matter;just continue to be strong and show them that you are not a pushover; so they pushed a few buttons, you push some buttons back! like the commercial sez, never let em see ya sweat! i have confidence that you will find a better job soon! hang in there, i'm with ya!
from minstrelite :
You're welcome, Paula. Also, I know what you mean about the "comfort zone." I was in that zone for years until after Mom died, I started picturing what the rest of my life would be like if I contented myself to remain in the zone. It may sound simplistic or even insensitive, but it could be a good thing that you're getting out of that job and headed toward points unknown. You might find a fuller version of your true self in the process.
from wyndspirit :
That stinks... Of course, my knee-jerk reflex is to say it's a gender thing. Time to move on... Good luck!
from kidspinkcat :
Terrible!! Just terrible the way people can be. I'm so sorry for what they didn't do for you. Since they won't appologise, I'm sure, I feel like I need to do it for them. You take those refrences and R-U-N the other way. I had a boss fire me once, but she told me she was going to give me a good refrence and a letter of recommendation. You know what? I had to call her every week until I got it out of her. So you make DAMN SURE that you get what has been promised to you and then like I said, RUN LIKE HELL! I wish I were there to hug you right now. It seems that you could use a real good hug. And by the way, you better just go ahead and cry and get it over with now because when you go back there on Monday, I think you better put on your game face, honey! Don't let them see you cry. Be BRAVE! I know you can do it. Flip your switch over to survival mode, at least while you're there. Then go home and melt if you want. I wish you all the best. You're worth it!
from boxx9000 :
(((((hugs))))) I wish I could do something to make it all better for you. Remember when I was hired at my old school and then UNhired? I thought it was the end of the world and then I got this dream job I have now. Things always work out somehow. I don't know HOW they do, but they always do. I understand what you mean about being shocked with the betrayal from those men. I understand that feeling TOO well. MORE HUGS for you. We all love you and EVERYONE will be thinking positive thoughts for you. I KNOW you are going to be OK......... BETTER even! The self-esteem can take quite an ass kick'n and still bounce back to tell the survivor stories. Never give up. Never surrender. (((hugs)))
from sasori-gal :
Hang in there, Paula! It seems like there are a lot of people besides us who believe in you and know that you deserve far better treatment than what these jerks are doing to you. I truly believe that you will come out of all of this a winner. Don't lose your self-esteem~ what you did what honest, courageous, and sincere and those qualities will certainly benefit another workplace that will appreciate them and give you the respect you deserve. *hugs* Be proud of yourself and know that we're with you all the way!!
from minstrelite :
Get your references and go, baby. Howard had no business speaking to you that way. I'm totally pissed off. I'll be rational later. God be with you.
from acaldwell :
paula, big hugs from me too! along with what chaosdaily sez, still, hold ya head high, and show them that what those asswipes did wont effect you. that really sucks, so now just give em a nickels worth. you will find a job suitable to your talents, not every boss is a backstabbing bastards like at midtown! at least now they have shown thier true colours!now you show them that they cannot hurt you!
from chaosdaily :
oh paula, big hugs. im so sorry things went the way they did. dont let them get you down, you can find a better job, and take some consolation that they will likely have to pay someone more to do your job.. and will realize what a great employee you were once you are gone. im sorry.....
from minstrelite :
Of course, when I said "makes me want to take a valium" I was only joking. :-)
from minstrelite :
I'm unsure if your entry "On Pins and Needles" is the one you just referred to being about to write in the note I just read. It says it was written yesterday afternoon. In any case, the statement "Anxiety is the reason I self medicated for so long" rings true for me. I don't know why it is, but I don't experience much genuine anxiety these days, or when I do, I don't feel an urge to self-medicate anymore. But I dealt with wanting to self-medicate in order to "treat" anxiety for many years. Maybe I've been delivered, maybe the obsession has been removed, maybe not. I could just be relieved that I finally got off the psych meds. It could be temporary, but I do feel thankful that I neither feel very anxious nor have the desire to self-medicate. I suspect that you're probably like me in this regard, but that your current situation in regards to the raise you requested is bringing on an anxiety level that perhaps you did not anticipate? It sounds as though the expectation would have been for your boss to have responded earlier. If it were me, anyway, that would have been my expectation. God is with you despite the anxiety, and He has promised that He will never leave you nor forsake you.
from kidspinkcat :
Hey a seashell's gotta eat, right? BTW: You are a worry wart but then again, so am I. I think it's women's nature to be worry-ers. I never see my husband get all like he's chewing his nails and stressing out over things like the kids. He worries over bills but mostly when I'm all over him about paying them on time. He's the King of Late. ANOTHER thing for me to worry about. You will be fine and I have my fingers crossed for you!
from catinasnit :
When it's all over and done with, you always wonder, why -- why did I worry so much? I'm the exact same way (usually), chewing my lip, biting my fingers, causing myself sufficient pain, then everything turns out better than I thought. You'll be in my thoughts today, that's for sure. I'll be gone today and tomorrow, but I'll check your entries when I get back to see what became of you. ~~ I had absolutely no idea that your daughter's hair was extensions. None! All I knew from her picture was that she is absolutely radiant, with beautiful blonde hair. Is her hair short under the extensions? Anyway, now I know for sure I couldn't justify paying for hair extensions. How long do they stay in, and how are they cared for, or do you know? I should probably be asking these questions of my on stylist, good-looking, tall, Mike the unavailable to women (darn it).
from minstrelite :
I don't know. I don't have her figured. I know I myself am being way too passive, though. Of couse it's fun having a bunch of attention hurled at me, but usually things like this end in some kind of weirdness, possibly even pain. Also, I think she might not be as talented as she looks on paper, and she may be trying to latch on to someone who she thinks is a good musician and might be able to help her get places. Co-dependent, too. She called today to tell me I would be hearing from a theatre company in San Jose who needs a musical director. It really is a little much - she keeps wanting me to get out of the Valley and move back to the City. Namedropping and the whole shot. Makes me want to take a valium.
from minstrelite :
Yes, me, total Deadhead. People are often surprised for some reason. In fact I saw them at their last Shoreline show about a month before Jerry died. It was a good last Dead show - me and my brother went, just the two of us, they closed with Brokedown Palace. Did Bertha that night, Mama Tried, Jerry did Days Between after the drum solo. I was directing the Vacation Bible School at my church a few weeks letter when one of the old deacons took me aside and told me Jerry died. My brother was holed up in a hotel in Rochester at the time when he was working for Kodak. I had to do a gig at the restaurant that night, played Mississippi Half Step, only one guy tuned in and recognized it, gave me a one dollar tip. I drove up to Golden Gate Park that weekend and was with the thousands. That ended about 26 years of my following the Grateful Dead.
from acaldwell :
BEE POSITIVE!!!deep breath in deep exhale out! u know......ok!
from minstrelite :
At last count she has sent me 77 emails. In return, she claims I have sent her 148. At a certain point last night, she actually called me on the phone and we wound up talking for an hour and a half. Now she's driving over to see me on Saturday, and she already wants me to move to San Jose where she claims she can get me a good teaching job and a number of gigs. The whole thing's wacky.
from chaosdaily :
ooooo i hate that anxious not knowing what will happen feeling. good for you for not self-medicating. watch a good movie or something and try to keep your mind off of it. im keeping my fingers/toes/legs/arms/eyes crossed for you!!!
from catinasnit :
First, I will say that I know how terribly frustrating it is to "lose" a long entry. I guess we all do. But I must say, you seemed terribly composed about the whole thing.~~ Your bosses response to let him "think about it" seems like a wise reply to me. That's what my boss said to me the last time I asked for a raise. Little did I know that behind the scenes he was pulling strings and working hard, good politician that he is. What I received was much much more than I even asked. Hang in there. It was two months before I got an answer, but it was well worth the wait. ~~ I'm still praying for your little Asian lady. You're doing all that you can, I'm sure. Do you think she has a thick blanket or sleeping bag for warmth?
from purple-momma :
Hay, you did it! Great! Now, let it go, and don't worry about it the rest of the week. Yes, it will be hard to do, but you deserve to let your nerves go for a while. Thanks for the message -- it is amazing how honest people are here in "writing land"! You have accomplished so much in your life. This raise is a small thing compared to what you have gone through.
from minstrelite :
Fear of financial insecurity has not left me. Or if it ever did, it certainly came back. On another note, glad you're involved in trying to take care of the homeless lady. I was homeless for the first time in my life at the age of 51, and in retrospect I'm very thankful that the weather was warm in the town where I was "rendered homeless" and that it never rained during that period of time. I also had sworn I would never walk into a Mental Health Center or any kind of psychiatric institute again, but when I got hungry enough I did just that, only because it was the nearest open building at the time when I felt I was about to faint in the heat. When I explained my situation to the mental health workers there, they did something no one would ever have done in the Great City. They realized I was only hungry, and they gave me food. They even released me without deciding that I was a "danger to myself and others." I left the building thankful that I had become homeless in a community where it would not be assumed that homelessness is equated with some kind of mental health disorder. Prior to that I had never lived anywhere where the average person had compassion.
from laineyducks :
Our fingers are crossed for your raise...and for someone to care enough to help out that woman.
from acaldwell :
u betcha go red sox! u got highly important mail in yahoo mail!
from catinasnit :
When I was in Jr. High, feeling awkward in the "it's good to be popular" time, every morning my mother used to say, the moment I was getting out of the car, "Be an actress -- Sparkle!" I'm sure I rolled my eyes and sighed at her hopeless suggestion. Over the years, though, her words seeped into my subconsciousness and I found myself using her advice in my daily living. I mean, think about it, you really are playing a roll at work, so play your part and play it well. Practice, practice, practice. Become the person you are trying to be. When you feel confident, you'll do what you have to do -- without stagefright. ~~ Megan
from chaosdaily :
ummm yea what art said. you can do it!! and its the difference between being assertive and agressive. agression puts people off, assertive tells em you know what you want and wont stop till you get it. YOU GO!!! im behind you all the way!! (hiding behind you, lol)
from acaldwell :
hiya paula! spend 5 minutes or so, and look in the mirror and tell the image in the mirror that you are worth every cent you are asking for, that you are the best there is, andthere is no one better! and keep saying that! also, tell ya self that you will do better, and no one can look at you and think you are a pushover! go get em paula, hold ya head up hi and be strong! i am with u!
from purple-momma :
wow! you do have the GUTS! Best of luck on Wednesday -- why Wednesday? why not today? Like I have said, there are days when I feel the same way. However, my "guts" aren't there yet! I have decided to stay in my "safe world" and not say anything.
from catinasnit :
You left me with my mouth hanging open. That's what always happens when someone with GUTS speaks their mind.~~Keep us informed about the poor little Asian woman. That story just made me sick. She's in my prayers. ~~ the catalog with the "Merry Christmas From Heaven" is absolutely true; right on the front page. You can look it up on www.carolwrightgifts.com and see for yourself.
from sasori-gal :
Omigosh~ Chaosdaily wrote the exact "YOU GO GIRL" that I was planning to! Well, I second that emotion! *cheers*
from chaosdaily :
YOU GO GIRL!!! one down, one to go. you can do it! you have all of dland behind you.....
from minstrelite :
Hard to picture anyone being as desensitized as your husband. It must have registered in him somewhere, maybe that's why he turned the TV volume up, to tune out something he couldn't deal with. Anyway, this part here: "I wobble back and forth between blissful acceptance and seething resentment" has been me, too, lately. It seems like I'm either in a great space and accept everything or I'm in a lousy space and resent everything. Neither one is real. (Although the former is more pleasant, at least temporarily.) By the way, my diary's unlocked again. I've returned to normal. There's an interesting link on my second to last entry if you feel like taking another quiz.
from acaldwell :
heya paula! GOOD FOR YOU!!!!! now sic em!' and dont back down, and dont be discouraged! you will win!
from boxx9000 :
I can't think of anyone who would be looking for me who didn't KNOW who I am. A complete stranger? And....they didn't sign in at the office? Weird. I MAY ALREADY BE A WINNER!!!!
from boxx9000 :
Hey Paula (isn't that a song?) IF the millionaire guy comes knocking on my door I will glady split it with you and we can run away toogether. OK? It's a deal.
from boxx9000 :
I'm rooting for you at every step. I know it's not easy. If you keep talking about it you will be able to go thru with it all. You can do it. I know you can.
from catinasnit :
Writing an entry about "the homeless" will always evoke another story. I guess most of us have one to tell, some from personal knowledge/experience. Have you contacted DHS about this little Asian woman? Maybe they could help her in some way or could suggest how you could organize help for her (to get her through the winter). We have a place here called Share and Care to help people out who are in bad circumstances, as long as they are not wanted for a crime, then the police will give them a place to stay until they can post bail or have a trial. Oh well, at least they are warm and have three meals a day. ~~ By the way, the game of LIFE has a poorhouse too.
from minstrelite :
Believe me, I don't make $75K - last year, close, and I think you know my 2004 tale of woe, since I wrote about it on D-Land. Christ, the lady has sent me fifteen emails tonight, called me twice, and invited me over to her house for an evening already. It's not so much that I'm worried as that I'm flattered, and yet it's totally obvious that she's bad news. I wanted a singer, not a blitzkrieg relationship! Don't worry, I'll be strong (eventually.) I didn't realize I was this needy - I must be, otherwise I wouldn't be willfully playing into her trip.
from minstrelite :
yeah i know - it seems also, though, from a man's perspective, far-left women tend to be somewhat more manipulative and kind of hook guys in - that could just be bias from my own experience; anyway, she invited me over on wednesday evening & she's rather attractive so i'm concerned
from minstrelite :
Also, by the way, I just locked my journal, so if you want the password send me an email at minstrelite at comcast dot net. (Or, you may be getting an automated message advising you of the password - I wasn't too clear on the procedure, but it's locked now.)
from minstrelite :
You just articulated something I was thinking might be a possible scenario. Also, she did call back, but not before sending me an email letting me know she had removed the link to her Yahoo Personal ad from her business web site. Then I sent her an email of apology. Then when she called she told me she felt totally judged, and especially that her aspirations for an ideal mate's financial situation were none of my business. I agreed with her and told her I wasn't sure why I even said that, except that I was trying to rationalize that the page was in some way intended to be a joke. However, I think your intuition or perception is right - she does seem like an open person who is used to speaking her mind, and maybe a little bit wacky like I might be, so we could conceivably be good friends. Hopefully we won't discuss politics (also found out about that on her web site and would say she's leaning a little to the left of Chairman Mao.)
from acaldwell :
thank you for the encouragement and the kind words here paula, today, its struggle day, im depressed for no good reason, and thinking about the peppernickle casino down the street in wendover, my stinking thinking is kicking in, and i damm well know what will happen if i hit that friggen casino! also, a good amtrak ride seems like a deal, but, what then? when thats over with, i will be broke! so ya im struggling now, but if i stay focused, and PAY MY BILLS!!!! i will be ok. i'm surviving. i had a few bucks and got some pork chops to me thats a treat, put em in the microwave, and mmmmm they was good! hehehe. i got my tv, my puter, coffee and smokes. and BONUS! i can take a nap if i want! i am hanging in there, and its good to know i am popular again! thanks!
from kidspinkcat :
It seems we all have a homeless person story. There is a sort-of "poor-house" here in KC, but I'm not sure how it works. I do know that it's busy with people coming and going all the time and beside the house is the highway with it's fast driving cars whizzing by and it's over-passes. THAT'S where alot of the homeless stay around here. Not the house persay, but under the overpasses. They sleep and live right there where the cars pass by, NEXT to the "poor-house". They can go inside and chat it up with fellow homeless persons and get a bite to eat, but then a lot of them return to sleep under the bridges. It's getting COLD here in KC especially at night. So when I see them standing at the stop signs at the end of exits holding up signs that say, "please help. $$$ Need to eat" or whatever, I will give spare change. So who cares what they use the money for? What if they really use the money to eat? I would like to know that I have helped them in some way instead of turning a cold shoulder. My husband does that a lot. I don't think people are bad for doing it. I can understand why sometimes, but as for me, I will help.
from kidspinkcat :
It seems we all have a homeless person story. There is a sort-of "poor-house" here in KC, but I'm not sure how it works. I do know that it's busy with people coming and going all the time and beside the house is the highway with it's fast driving cars whizzing by and it's over-passes. THAT'S where alot of the homeless stay around here. Not the house persay, but under the overpasses. They sleep and live right there where the cars pass by, NEXT to the "poor-house". They can go inside and chat it up with fellow homeless persons and get a bite to eat, but then a lot of them return to sleep under the bridges. It's getting COLD here in KC especially at night. So when I see them standing at the stop signs at the end of exits holding up signs that say, "please help. $$$ Need to eat" or whatever, I will give spare change. So who cares what they use the money for? What if they really use the money to eat? I would like to know that I have helped them in some way instead of turning a cold shoulder. My husband does that a lot. I don't think people are bad for doing it. I can understand why sometimes, but as for me, I will help.
from purple-momma :
We have a "homeless" man who is constantly in our shopping center. We made the mistake when we opened our shop 3 years ago of being nice to him. He seems to be a decent man, early 40's I think. However, he is usually either drunk or high on who knows what. The first Christmas, we felt so sorry for him. Worried about him constantly. We were going to get him a hotel room for a few nights (there are some inexpensive ones here in town). We then found out he has 5 brothers in the immediate area all with there own houses! Why don't they take him in? I don't know. We do give him food. Most of the time we don't have "hot" food since we only make cakes. But, we always have fruit, drinks, bread. One day, he wouldn't take my fruit. He said"I need a hot meal". Well, I didn't have anything hot. I was extremely hurt by this. If you are HUNGRY you will eat what is offered. He also always seems to have "New" clothes. He has some means, it seems, but he chooses to live in the parks or open fields. He did tell me one time where he slept. Under a huge tree that had low branches. This property has been sold, and now they are building on it. I don't know where he sleeps. Occasionally, the police pick he up and he spends time in jail. For what, I don't know. Yes, it is a sad thing, but, I don't want him to know where I live -- there must be a problem if his own family won't take him in.
from acaldwell :
*sigh* where to begin...this strikes a nerve for me...well, if you are a veteran, the VA has "domicillaries" where the homeless veteran can go and stay for a time to get it together, i stayed in one or two or three...its really a good thing...it is true, there are homeless people out here who prefer to sleep outside by choice because being in a shelter or mission requires rules which these people refuse to follow..as for the chronic mentally ill, lotsa cities and towns have decreed that if the person is not a danger to themselves or others, they dont do anything, but, sleeping outside CAN be percieved as a danger to yourself, but society in general dont bother, because the general concept is "they will go away" and they really dont want to spend the money; but they dont. most major cities have vans that go around to different spots at night looking for people and offer shelter, and if they refuse, they give blankets and soup out. when i am homeless, i have never slept outside, i always manage to get into someplace. some homeless prefer outside because they dont feel good about sleeping indoors, next to others in a dorm setting. lots of people cannot or have lost the ability to hold a job, and cannot rent a place, even though they may have the rent money, because of these asinine "credit checks" and "applications" and wanting "rental history" these things anger me to no end! these things in my opinion, are one of the main reasons of homelessness in america today. theres NO NEED for "credit checks" i wanna rent an apartment, not apply for a bank loan! CHEESUS! high rents by greedy people are another cause. i can go on and on and rant about it, but paula, i wont. i understand your frustration. it frustrates me too.
from cosmicrayola :
Just a little story for you. I am originally from Portland, Maine. There was a 50-ish woman named Annie. She walked the streets winter and summer with her shopping cart. She would yell at invisible people. The story goes that her son had died years before and her husband had left her. She obviouly suffered a total breakdown from which she never recovered. In the winter, she would sneak into the front door of the YWCA before they locked up for the night and sleep in the stairwell. Most of the workers turned a blind eye so she would at least be warm. She was not penniless, on the contrary. She owned one of the nicer homes in town. Many times someone would try to intervene, but since sht was no danger to herself or others, all hands were tied. Her legal guardian kept up the house, I guess, but could never get her to stay in it. Wow, I hadn't thought of her in years. I wonder what ever became of her.
from boxx9000 :
The Poor House? Didn't there used to be a Debtor's Prison, too? I think Orphanages are a good idea. I would work for one. I feel really bad for homeless people. I could so easily be one myself. I have NO safety net. I am only one paycheck away.
from wyndspirit :
Verbal abuse is still abuse and you shouldn't have to deal with it. But your plan sounds like a good one.
from sasori-gal :
Oh gosh~ I can certainly relate to your entry about the best made plans....I have things that should have been taken care of ages ago but something always seems to sidetrack me. *sigh* Then again, it's always more fun for me to read diaries than to organize my junk and do housework!!! :)
from wyndspirit :
A couple things... About Howard, it seems as though he is having a horrible time adjusting to retirement. I know it's a disappointment to you, but it's his son's place to deal with it. If it were MY father, I would give it some time, beg MY staff to be patient, and start putting a lot of effort into getting him involved in all the hobbies he claims he's going to do once he has time (note: not using the "R" word). (If he has NO hobbies, give up. He'll drop dead in the office, or die an early death of depression if he stays away.) I'd say to you to be patient for awhile, but if he seems to completely "un-retire," have a talk with Dan and find out what's going on. Is he going to retire or not? Then you will have to make your choices accordingly. About the husband, just a few observations. First, if you aren't ready to move on yourself yet, don't feel guilty about not being 100% sure what you need to do. It doesn't sound like he is abusive and you are in physical or emotional/mental danger. Second, it sounds like he has symptoms of major depression. (Been there, done that.) Third, think about your role and are you being an enabler to a user? Not saying that's good or bad, but is it a role you are willing to play? There is no right or wrong answer.
from catinasnit :
Thank you for the compliment. Your stories are very nice to read too. I look so forward to them each time. Have a good rest of your weekend. I certainly intend to. -Megan-
from catinasnit :
Your recent entry about your painting project got me going. We went to Home Depot last night and selected a trio of new paint colors. There they are, just waiting for me to finish filling in all the little holes -- all the awful prep, you know. But you inspired me. Thank you. ~~ I'm probably going to take my phone off "ring" when I get busy on this project. I know exactly what you mean about all the little interruptions. Thank you - thank you.
from chaosdaily :
ummm yea the puter grabs me too, and if nothing is urgent, well, it just somehow doesnt get done.
from boxx9000 :
That is such a good idea to meet at the psych office. I had NO idea that my divorce was going to be so difficult. Hind sight is 20/20. I think you have a good plan and are approaching the whole situation in a smart way.
from boxx9000 :
re: my decission to leave my EX. It was a very hard move for me. I had thought about it for years. I just wasn't ready. I too, did not want to see that sad look on his face. However, everytime I looked in the mirror I was seeing that sad face on MY face. I just couldn't go on living like that anymore. I was totally miserable. I should have done it years ago. I had to get to the point where there was nothing left before I could make the move. Sad but true.
from minstrelite :
Thanks for the note, and I agree 100% with you this time. "Dr.s are too quick today to give someone a pill for a conditioned that can be arrested by faith in a higher power." Right, you and I have both found that to be true. I *knew* I wasn't supposed to be taking stuff like xanax and klonopin (it was xanax first, then klonopin) because it was no different than a street drug to me. The intent was to alter my state. Even when I matured somewhat and began to take it as prescribed, I still knew it was limiting me and twisting my natural thought processes as well as depriving me of being able to know my real feelings. And the thing about ADD, my friend Carol is ADD and she's incredibly creative. But now they've got her on some speedy drug in the morning and klonopin in the evening, and she's much harder to deal with. She's less real. I'm kind of glad I live in a small conservative church town where everyone's still in the 19th Century. Things were better then - if someone was nervous, people would actually talk to him and help him to calm down. None of this mentality that any deviation from the norm is to be medicated. Our society is too Orwellian.
from acaldwell :
oh ya i 4got! the quiz only gives ya 5 seconds to answer, i gotta find anutter 1 i stunk at it too.....sorry
from acaldwell :
the stories on my page are actually links, if ya mouse overthem and click em u will see more!
from catinasnit :
Gee, I get hungry just watching the food network (where I get my best cooking ideas). Wonder which is worse, having Larry talk about his vices or listening to him describe food. YUMMM. Now I want to eat some chocolate.
from chaosdaily :
i learned that from working in a hospital.. the residents had different personalities.. pediatrics residents tended to be very patient, while surgery residents were IMpatient and quite demanding.... a female surgery res was the worst, demanding and bitchy. i already told a couple of them to just chill out, people work better when they arent being pushed. they would just glare at me, and i would laugh! lol since most of the time i was 10+ years older than them...
from minstrelite :
I know what you're going to say. (Or at least I *think* I do.) I wrote her a six page letter, just read it, and am going to sit on it for an hour or two before reading it again. Then chances are I'll mail it. She needs to know the truth, otherwise she'll keep blowing me off, and I'll just become disillusioned and cynical.
from boxx9000 :
'Possum Poop? YIKES! Nope, no POOP. That would indeed be very gross. Perhaps Crumpet IS using the litter box?
from chaosdaily :
ummm yea what art said..
from acaldwell :
hiya paula! well, larry seems like he took one addiction and replaced it with anutter....paula, i know u have better self control than that! try to ignore him when he goes into a food diatribe! you can do it!
from minstrelite :
"Bitching and venting in my diary just causes me to grab onto the foul mood and run with it....or sit and stew in it and I would rather just turn my attention to the future and the sunshine and not let myself get so dramatic about what I think are my problems." I'm the same way. I complain in my diary, but I like to keep the complaints at a level where they are not empowered or cause me to think that they ought to be my primary focus. I'd rather speak positive things, or express "searching" things. I think journals are good for searching.
from catinasnit :
I'm still chuckling out loud. A moment ago I was really making some noise. I'm sorry. I know I shouldn't laugh, but I know EXACTLY what you are talking about -- sugar free candy. Isn't the bodies reaction to sugar-free chocolate a crying shame?! And it tastes so good too.~~ If it makes you feel any better, you are not alone here. Dwain and I have both had "reactions" to sugar free candy, especially chocolate.
from minstrelite :
Yes, I tend to agree. No word on her yet, my kids and my wife (or ex-wife) have not yet spoken to me. Guess I just gotta be patient.
from acaldwell :
i completely enjoy politicking with you! it is so refreshing to listen to an intelligent point of view! thank you!
from acaldwell :
hiya paula! hope ya feel better! are ya allergic to the sugar bomb candy also? well, i hear on KGO radio, san francisco, the #1 radio station in the usa the BIG flap now from the whiners is the remark Future President Kerry made last night about Vice-President Cheney's Daughter being lesbian! CHEESUS! all he did was try to answer a question!!!!! Get well soon, paula!
from minstrelite :
Interesting post. I'd comment, but at this time my "little old lady" story is totally depressing, and I've got major writer's block. See ya.
from acaldwell :
ooooo!! LIBRARY!! ty for the reminder! hey its ok u dont need to post every day! hahaaha! hey paula, if ya need to vent, im here, i gotcha on AIM~ i am arthurc1958 on AIM take it ez
from purple-momma :
Sorry--forgot to ad: My daughter is going to the College of Santa Fe in New Mexico. She is majoring in theatre arts/minor in dance. In her second year. She sent me a text picture today of the rain/sleet/snow that she is having today! I sent her another picture of our lovely 75/clear sky mountains! which, once again, prompted her to call me. Hey, maybe that's how I get a phone call from her --
from purple-momma :
Thanks for the note. Yes, I understand. It is a hard decision and everyone's situation is different. I am still in mine -- and probably will be. I know, I ignore a lot of things which I hate. Right now, the good still out weighs the bad. Oh, I have tons of "old lady stories". I'll have to post some soon!
from catinasnit :
Oh my gosh! Your entry today was F-U-N-N-Y! I have SO been there and done that with my own mother. I've got to ask your permission to print this out (like I did your deli story) to keep and read occasionally. Yes, I do have a few of my own. This is great! What a good laugh I have to hold me through the day. -Megan-
from laineyducks :
Oh my goodness. All I can think of is this woman who takes care of an older woman. She washed her hair! As soon as she said that I gasped and went, "not the set"! How dare she wash hair when it isn't a beauty salon day. Even I know that!
from acaldwell :
i 4 got to tell ya if ya havent noticed, i made the print bigger on my site, i got tired of squinting too! lol
from minstrelite :
Just got back from teaching. It really is infuriating. An innocent eighty year old woman, taking care of her eighty year old cousin. Now she's in a rest home and what's going to happen to Marilee? That criminal has no right to live, I'm sorry.
from kidspinkcat :
I have so many little old lady stories, it's incredible! I have worked in nursing homes for years as a nurse's aid. I will spare the thousands of stories I have under my belt, but I will tell you one thing. I haven't chuckled out loud all day until now. Thank you for the story. It feels good to have a good laugh!
from acaldwell :
im sorry, paula, i dont have any lil ol lady stories.....
from minstrelite :
Just got back from Stockton (nearest big town.) There's a lot going on today. My ex-mother-in-law was mugged and robbed in broad daylight over the weekend, taken to the hospital with a fractured pelvic bone, and has now been taken to a nursing home. This probably explains why the kids were not there on Sunday. I went down to visit her in the hosptial, which was when I found out she was in the nursing home - I couldn't get there on time on public transportation, so I came back home and am about to head over to the house where I teach four piano and voice lessons on Tuesday. The kids still haven't called or emailed, nor has my ex-wife, and I'm a little tense. My ex-mother-in-law is 80 years old and in failing health to begin with. I'll reply to your note later on. Thanks, Paula.
from purple-momma :
ok, I took 5 more minutes before I must get ready for work -- I am another 25 year married woman. I have the same exact thoughts! My husband is employed. However, does NOTHING around the house as far as fixing things. It is awful. He does, however, do the grocery shopping and fixing dinners since I am at my shop 24-7. So, that's good. Could it possibly be 25 year "itch"? I know I can't leave; I couldn't possibly support myself and my 13 yr. old. My 19 yr. old is at college (which is sucking the money right out of me). She would have to support herself. Right now, she couldn't with the way her program is run. Anyway, I do feel for you.
from purple-momma :
It's been a few days since I have been on -- looks like I missed A LOT!!!!! Just a quick note to say "hang in there", I know, old saying! Oh, I love the pic of the soldier and grass. Now, that's an inspiration to "stick with it". He must have to use his rationed water to water that grass!
from minstrelite :
Thanks for the new note. I'm getting better at understanding and respecting the boundaries, except for that I tend to slip a lot when it comes to family. I'm not ready to write about it yet on D-Land, but my daughter and my stepdaughter both stood me up on Sunday, and they haven't called. Then I found I have not been respecting the boundaries very well, both the two of them and also my ex-wife Jan. I haven't exercised restraint of tongue and pen, so I'm kind of down on myself.
from minstrelite :
Just read your post. I hate hurting people's feelings too, or even suspecting that I might. My take is that you're right on the mark about the next right thing and the raise request, and then God will reveal your course from there. (Once you get it, of course!)
from minstrelite :
"I also have trouble with people thinking that I am having financial trouble just because I don't spend like they do and then they go and pay my way because of their supposition." I can fully understand how annoying it must have been to have influential people in your daughter's life assume you were at poverty level only because you opted out of unhealthy food choices and expressed healthy budget concerns. One of my favorite Abraham Lincoln quotes is: "You cannot help men permanently by doing what they can and should do for themselves."
from minstrelite :
I'll read your examples more carefully after dinner, but just want to say briefly that these are all very real issues, and it's interesting how the subject of "boundaries" arose in counseling this morning. (I used the word first in reference to my landlady, and it later got me to recognize my own need to honor the boundaries in all relationships.) Throughout the day I pondered how I very often alter the "definition" of a certain human relationship in my mind prior to any agreement on the part of the other party to re-define the relationship as such. For example, a certain colleague once became "in my mind" an individual whose purpose it was to help my daughter in a certain situation, and it didn't dawn on me that my colleague wasn't either interested nor particularly pre-destined to do so. It took me a long time to realize that I'm essentially playing God when I make such unilateral decisions.
from acaldwell :
what matters most is your happiness, that is #1! u deserve to be happy, not miserable! hold ya head up high and be strong and ask for the raise, u earned it! and if theres any pain to be felt he self inflicted it upon hisself, u shouldnt feel bad about that! dont fall for the guilttrip either, u been thru a lot the past 25 years and now its time for regime change! be the master of your own domain! go for it!
from catinasnit :
Many years ago, after my husband died, a good lawyer friend gave me this advice; don't do anything drastic for a year. I was sorely tempted too, but the advice was well taken. ~~ I have had other friends who asked me, should I leave. My response is, when you are ready to leave, you won't be asking me if the time is right. You'll just know, and there will be no doubt in your mind. Don't leave until you've reached that point.
from catinasnit :
Oh, Paula, I do so feel for you. Believe it or not, I somewhat understand your predicament. My parents lived like this until my mother developed Alzheimer�s. Now it's just kind of pitiful -- the both of them. They don't know what they would do without each other, but they pick - pick - pick at each other constantly, like two little kids. I'm not much on great advice, but maybe a good lawyer could give you some good advice about the semantics of separation or perhaps a trusted counselor. In the meantime, vent and write all you want. It's your diary and your feelings. ~~ By the way, an oyster Po Boy is a New Orleans style sandwich. The bread has to be "just so" and dressed (mayo, mustard, and special sauce) "just so" to make them soooooo good. Look Po'Boy up on the internet; you'll honestly find a good description and how to make one. -Megan-
from minstrelite :
I'm at somewhat of a loss. My friend Kent and I read the whole recent exchange, and he was pretty quick to agree with everyone in your life and recommend a divorce. I find myself wondering, however, if your husband might be able to change after all, or if he might be more motivated to change for the better if you only filed for a legal separation with the intent to divorce if he doesn't get his act together. Personally, I don't like to be in the position where I recommend a divorce. If Jan hadn't have divorced me unilaterally according to the California "irreconcilable differences" suit which the divorcee has no power to contest, we'd still be married. But as you can see, my thoughts are not organized on this matter. I'll be praying for you, that God's will be made known to you, and done.
from minstrelite :
I know I just left you another note, but something popped into my head about your marital situation. This is just a hunch. You strike me as a high-energy, motivated, going-places kind of person. Either he is a low-energy, unmotivated, maybe passive-aggessive sort of person (apathetic, almost anemic, frequent angry outbursts, etc.) or he's just in that *mode* these days possibly due to depression related to unemployment. It could be one or the other, or the two could be related. In either case, there's some kind of energy clash that is either temporary and circumstantial, or permanent based on temperament differences. To be honest with you, that's why my wife and I divorced. I'm obviously a very driven, motivated, high-energy, perfectionistic, and sometimes frustrated individual with an extreme work ethic, a sense of debt, obligation, performance orientation, internally pressured, and so forth. She, on the other hand, was lethargic, unconcerned, uninvolved, sophisitic, a dilettante, blocking decisions, slothful, fatalistic, and sometimes violent. In our case, this was a true temperament conflict: she viewed herself as "being at peace" when I thought she was the laziest slob on earth. There!
from minstrelite :
I just read your last three posts upon my return from the City. Briefly, I think sober people do have more fun in general - I myself feel better and more capable of having fun when I am not altered or medicated by any kind of substance, and it's also a lot easier to relate to people when they are sober, because you don't have to fight through the drugs or alcohol to get to who they are. Otherwise, your cathartic account of your thoughts and feelings regarding your marital situation is thought-provoking. I don't really have enough information to comment, but I certainly hope that if you do choose to divorce him, you will do so with complete commitment and integrity, and not as any kind of rash or impulsive reaction to negative circumstance. Again, I don't know you very well, or the situation, so this is just a generic catch-all impression. I do realize you were venting.
from acaldwell :
i seem to have a song for every occasion..im sorry i made you cry. i dont like that! just dont give up the ship, and fight for what you want! be aggressive! firm! confident! you have talents! stand up and make people take notice! i shore do wish ya use yahoo messenger, i'd love to just chat in real time with ya for a while! also, i wish there was more i could do for you. u deserve the best!
from boxx9000 :
I can definitely relate. Been there, done that. I'm sending you lots of happy positive vibes. You'll do what you need to do when you are ready. Be kind to yourself. You deserve the best. You deserve to be happy. ((((hugs))))
from acaldwell :
its ok to bitch and moan! as i was reading your diary today, a coupla elvis songs came to mind:Softly as I Leave You, and follow that dream: Softly (Softly) I will leave you (I will leave you softly) Softly (Softly) For my heart would break (For my heart would break) If you should wake (If you should wake) And see me go (And see me go) So I leave you (So I leave you) Softly (Softly) Long before you miss me (Long before you miss me) Long before your arms can beg me stay (Long before your arms can beg me stay) For one more hour (For one more hour) For one more day (For one more day) After all the years (After all the years) I can't bare the tears (I can't bare the tears) To fall (To fall) So softly, (So softly) so softly (I will leave you there) I will leave you I will leave you there Follow that dream, I gotta follow that dream Keep a-movin, move along, keep a moving I've got to follow that dream wherever that dream may lead I've got to follow that dream to find the love I need When your heart gets restless, time to move along When your heart gets weary, time to sing a song But when a dream is calling you, There's just one thing that you can do Well, you gotta follow that dream wherever that dream may lead You gotta follow that dream to find the love you need Keep a-movin, move along, keep a moving Got to find me someone whose heart is free Someone to look for my dream with me And when I find her I may find out Just what my dreams are all about I've got to follow that dream wherever that dream may lead I've got to follow that dream to find the love I need I've got to follow that dream wherever that dream may lead I've got to follow that dream to find the love I need Keep a-movin, move along Keep a-movin, move along Keep a-movin, move along i know every single elvis song he ever recorded. u should go out to the country to day its sunday.....
from chaosdaily :
well miss bitcher and moaner, i know what you mean, and how you feel. hang in there, it will work out!
from acaldwell :
that made me cry
from catinasnit :
What a dear and sweet thing to do. We do take every day things so for granted, don't we? An aquaintance of mine said that she and her husband sat out on their porch and take recorded a thunderstorm to send to their son, who was serving in the military someplace where they didn't have thunderstorms, and he missed them. -Megan-
from acaldwell :
it took me a long while for my thick skull to figure that one out! not only do we have more fun sober, we actually remember what happened! looking back to the "good times" they wernt good times at all. thanks!
from chaosdaily :
and sober people REMEMBER what was so funny...
from catinasnit :
Sounds like Paul Harvey... stand by for NEWS. I've always wondered where he found his news stories. Now I know. You are his secret source. -Megan-
from acaldwell :
aw looky you, paula! i'm on "de hunt" now! heheheee i will find something BUSHY like! tenneesee tuxedo will not fail! hahahahahaaaaa!
from boxx9000 :
The picture of Edwards looks as tho he could be saying, "pull my finger". One of my studens (age 5) told me that he had watched the Passion. I told him that was NOT a movie for kids. To NOT watch it, cover his eyes or leave the room. I've never seen it. I heard it was WAY vilolent, as in ass kicking from start to finish? CHEESUS!
from minstrelite :
"Anger is so easy to hang on to. Usually you don't even know your hanging onto it until it makes you so miserable, you give it up out of exhaustion. It is only then that you realize how angry you were and how good it feels to turn it all over to God." Yes, I think that's it exactly. Very well put, Paula.
from catinasnit :
Dwain's former boss (nearing 80 years old) and former owner of the company, retired 10 years ago, but he's still there every single day. By now, no one really listens to him, but still they are respectful. ~~ My boss (a judge) who was born with an 80 year old soul, found it very difficult to bring himself into the computer age. So many years ago I brought my computer into the office and showed him how it worked. Took a few weeks to win him over, but by now he can't imagine how he ever got along without one. I have my own home office now (when I'm not in court somewhere) and he's used to me faxing, e-mailing and sending wav files of testimony to his computer. Maybe Howard just needs to be "sold" on the 21st century or Dan just needs to stand up and be the boss now. That's what Dwain (managing editor) and the new owner had to do -- but respectfully. ~~ Like I said before, you have such a way with words. -Megan-
from minstrelite :
Yeah, I see that now (that you do love him dearly, and that he just can't let go.) The account brought back vivid memories of jobs I've had where a detached Owner would visit the work site occasionally and make all kinds of changes that caused us nothing but problems. The old-world view of computers and Internet struck a chord, too. You paint such vivid pictures when you write. By the way, it's my stepdaughter's 24th birthday today, and I'm about to update.
from minstrelite :
Yes, of course you were dead serious - Howard couldn't tell because he's such a control freak he can't see past his own ego. I was reading it like he was going to finally get it when you said all that. What a let-down!
from chaosdaily :
yea that sucks. what happened to chander?
from acaldwell :
o my paula, u have a problem! this guy how ever loveable he is needs a life! he shouldnt be doing wot he is doing!!who actually owns the company? maybe u can go talk to them? wot a mess!
from catinasnit :
Poop Reports? Ha! Some people talk about it like weather reports. But I've gotta say, vomit reports is a new twist. YUCK! You have such a way with words. Your posts just make my day. What's next? -Megan-
from chaosdaily :
no you arent the only one! my mother does the same thing to me, and its especially worse when shes sick.....
from minstrelite :
Oh, that's right, it was Pilate's wife. I remember the scene now - it's been a long time since I saw the movie, and my memory failed me. I have no idea what that was about - some sort of solidarity or sympathy with the cause of Christ expressed through the fabric exchange. The blood . . . who knows? Mel Gibson probably.
from acaldwell :
my family when there was a family, (ma, pa, bro) used to be poop reporters! i usta be a poop reporter, until i realised it wasnt the thing to do..old people are poop reporters, its part of being old! BTW my pic is on my site!
from wyndspirit :
I'm with you in politics... I simply refuse to discuss it in my diary. I don't have the gift of gab, I won't convince anybody, so there's no point. Anybody who's read my diary for awhile knows I'm a conservative and apparently likes me anyway, since to my knowledge nobody has dumped me for the crime of being conservative. But don't you find it interesting that a liberal president's little "indiscrections" should be "nobody's" business but a conservative president's every little vocabularly slipup is fair game and held against him indefinitely? And am I wrong to believe that the LEADER of our entire country SHOULD be held to a higher standard of behavior than the rest of the herd?
from minstrelite :
No, it didn't sound as though you were condemning the movie at all. I thought you were merely expressing your opinion, which of course is valid. I think what you're getting at is a thing of expectations. If you had gone into the experience expecting to be blown away emotionally, I can understand why you were let down. My own expectation was a little different, because I had heard only two takes on it prior to seeing it: (1) that of most of my friends, who condemned it prior to seeing it on the basis of either violence or commercialism surrounding the event; and (2) comments of Christian people who hadn't seen it either, but who assumed it was great without seeing it. I was the first person I knew to see the movie. So what struck me was its intellectual level, and that was sufficiently intriguing to transcend the violence. I'm not a real media person, and I hadn't tuned into the hoopla. Otherwise, I *think* that the significance of the Pilate scene with the fabric was only to indicate his guilt in the matter and his desire to assume some responsibility, however symbolically, for Christ's death. I thought the use of sub-titles was effective, and the cinematography and special effects were strong, but like you I wasn't emotionally moved by any of it. I was only intellectually appreciative.
from minstrelite :
Oh, I forgot to mention in my note last night that my Dad died on July 14, 1985 - ten years after yours did. He was a great guy, and got a degree in history (his only college degree) at the age of 64. Now, about the Passion: it's one of my favorite movies. I will only disclaim that by confessing that I am very easily moved by movies, I change my internal list of favorite movies frequently, and I don't go to many movies. I also noticed that I was not emotionally moved, although I am a rather emotional person. The reasons why I liked it were sheerly intellectual, in that I believe that Gibson did a great job of expressing how some of those who witnessed Christ's passion were sympathetic to the point of devotion, and some were hostile to the point of applauding his execution. This, I believe, is in line with the general reaction to Jesus in His ministry as depicted in the Gospels: those who loved Him loved him with a passion, and those who hated Him hated him with a passion. I also appreciated the hyperbole: the things that Mel Gibson invented that are not in the Biblical account, but added nicely to the story and could conceivably have happened. These include an encounter with Satan and a foreshadowing of the promise of his demise in Revelation 18, as well as various similar encounters with demonic entities, real or imagined. But I do admit I was not emotionally moved. I just thought the movie was intellectually so intriguing that this attribute of it stood on its own. And I do commend you for actually seeing it: most of my friends condemned it without viewing it, and thus exercised contempt prior to investigation.
from acaldwell :
heya! u forgot to mention~~~2 thumbs up? 1 thumb up and one down? or 2 thumbs down? to be a movie reviewer, u need to use the thumbs! heheheheee
from catinasnit :
I can not tell you how much I SO AGREE WITH YOU! Didn't go see the movie; won't watch it on DVD. The church services; Ash Wednesday, Good Friday, Easter, that is all I can take. The Cross with the black cloth on Good Friday. The story was meant to be told. There is enough violence coming out of Hollywood, not to mention in real time. GREAT POST! -Megan- ~~ P.S. Wish I had some Sponge Bob sleep pants. I think it would turn my husband on (snicker & giggle).
from minstrelite :
I agree it's a good idea to post every day, both as a sign of commitment and as a healthy practice. In fact, it's good for me to have heard that from you, because maybe I'll start doing it again! (Lately I've just been posting every now and then.) Anyway, my Mom died of gastral-intestinal stasis or "ileus" - a rare disease that occurs primarily in rabbits. She had never been in the hospital in 89 years of living except for the removal of one catharact in 1994, barring of course check-ups and the like.
from purple-momma :
I still haven't seen the movie -- now, maybe I won't. While in theatres, I had thoughts of going and seeing it, but now, I don't know. Maybe I won't waste my time. I feel the same way, being in a church and reading the passion I do feel something. Maybe that's enough.
from cosmicrayola :
I went and saw the Passion with my sister and BIL. My sister sat in awe. I just wanted it to end. I thought it was horrible. Ok, I know the story. I can appreciate what He went through, but man, that was one long movie! Way overdone IMHO. Way too much gore and way too long spent on the beating. One can only hope that Mel never does a remake of Around the world in 80 days. You'll have to pack a sleeping bag and enough food for a week.
from minstrelite :
Hey there! Just happened to read your Personality Types entry. Thanks! I don't usually go for the online quizzes either, but I must admit I liked these. My wife was an INTP (we both took the Keirsey Temperament Sorter) and she did have the greatest precision in thought and language, as do you, at least as evidenced in the clarity of your writing. I love to write, but I only do it well when I edit it to the max. Say, when did your Mom die? The one-year anniversary of my Mom's death will be this Saturday the 9th. I'm doing a gig in the Great City, and I feel pretty weird about it. My stepdaughter is one year younger than your daughter, by the way, and also blonde. :)
from sasori-gal :
Oh wow~ I TOTALLY understand the situation you were in during this wedding party. Going into social butterfly mode for me is a big challenge. You handled yourself beautifully and I give you lots of credit for going in the first place! And then, you handled yourself so gracefully in the political arena! :)
from chaosdaily :
phew that was close!
from chaosdaily :
thats a good point, but after living together that long, they would have a lot of things that had been purchased together. who says the man would get all of it?
from purple-momma :
The Goose! I am sorry! We have been having a lot of crows and seagulls falling in our yard -- we think from the dreaded "West Nile Virus". I don't dare scoop them up! The animal control will come get them -- yes they are tested -- yes, the virus is "here" And thank goodness, my family has not yet gotten it (knock on wood)! Oh, and the foster children working, I know it also happens here. It must be a terrible life for them.
from acaldwell :
i was saddened to hear about the goose, and i understand the frustration about them and angry that the town was so lazy to do anything about it.
from minstrelite :
Oh, by the way, I know that the suggestions in your most recent note are correct from a recovery standpoint. It took a while for me to remember the gyst of my history with my stepdaughter and realize how my behavior must have appeared to her. So definitely when we get together next week, I'm going to bring it up. Thank you.
from minstrelite :
She just called and we talked for a half an hour, first conversation we've had in five months, so I'm praising God. I'll write about it after a while on D-Land.
from minstrelite :
On a lighter note, your entry on the debate was hilarious!
from chaosdaily :
im with you paula... theres something about kerry i dont like or trust.. maybe if he could make up his mind about something....
from minstrelite :
Thanks, Paula, but I'm still wondering if what is called for here is "the courage to change the things I can" or "the serenity to accept the things I cannot change." In other words, right now I am seeking "the wisdom to know the difference." I don't know whether it's best to address my stepdaughter at all, or whether to let go completely and give it all to God. I would like to be able to understand rather than to be understood here, and what is the most difficult thing to understand is why it would even be a consideration in her mind that I would have used cocaine when she knows that I have not used cocaine for eleven years as of this Christmas. It still baffles me.
from marn :
I'm sorry to hear about your Dusty. I find the not knowing part to be the worst. My daughter had her cat disappear for a month last year -- turned out that somehow Trouble had gotten into a neighbour's apartment just before he left for three weeks of vacation. Fortunately, he left the toilet seat up, so the cat had water and she lived. I had given up hope of ever seeing Trouble again after a week, but my daughter refused to give up. I'm trying to keep positive thoughts about Norma, too, but common sense (and my spousal unit) mean I'm bracing for the worst.
from catinasnit :
Most of my immediate family (excluding my children and husband) would side with you. They all think that because my sympathies are democratic, I'm lost and going to >>>>. Like you say, we agree to disagree and love each other anyway. Personally, I didn't get to watch TV last night, so I don't know what they said. Wouldn't change my vote anyway. Kidspinkcat (Jayme) is coming with her sweet family to visit us this weekend, so I'll be busy today. We're going to celebrate David's (the one who lost a finger) second birthday.
from acaldwell :
you know wot u are? you are a riot! a regular riot! hahahahaha! i read your blog and my depression and problems turn into laffs! BTW, KERRY won! there, I got the last word in!!! hahahahahahahahha! i like sean hannity too even tho im a democrat! have a fun filled, action packed day!
from kidspinkcat :
Alright. I got all that out of my system. (read below) But seriously, thank you for your kind and true words. I'm sure during my "abusing" days, my mother prayed for me like everynight, and I am so lucky to have her in my life. My family is a wonderful family, and believe me when I say we have had our fair share of hard times. Yet we still love each other, and they all forgive me for all that I did to them and to myself. You're right, I'm a very lucky lady. Very lucky indeed. I love my family. I love my mom. Thank God for helping me to see my way out of that grave.
from kidspinkcat :
Eeewww!!! You're a republican??? EEEEEEWWWWW!!!! Pee-eww! (alright, I got that outta my system.) No I didn't...EEEEWWWW! (hee-hee)
from chaosdaily :
thats why i dont watch, or get into political discussions. its one thing that no one wins, everyone has their own opinion and wont be swayed. plus it really irritates people when i refuse to talk about it!! haha right, art??
from acaldwell :
paula i love ya writings, but i have bad news for ya...i went into my time machine and sees that KERRY WINS!! BTW the fake orange tan is from an overdose of orange juice! hahhaaaaa!
from chaosdaily :
that does sound kind of weird... especially the bit about the red hair. could they have been hiding kids? dyeing hair so they wouldnt be recognized?
from catinasnit :
I agree with Boxx. I've learned a lot about the pallet business from you, and I've got to admit, it appears to be an interesting business. You must meet all kinds (but so do I). ~~ a good foster family deserves an extra loving place in Heaven. Thankfully, most of the foster families I know are extraordinary people with more love in their hearts than I would know what to do with.
from boxx9000 :
I read the book White Oleander. It was made into a movie, but the movie was not as good as the book. WOW! You know a lot about pallets! My Ex's youngest sister is married to a man who is in the recycling business (auto parts) and they live in a million dollar + house. Tell me WHY I went into teaching again? Oh, yes, because i love working with kids.
from boxx9000 :
In the book White Oleanders, there was a Russian foster mom that had all her teenage foster girls scrounging used stuff and selling it. Do you remember that? My EX said that people used to try and steal the pallets from Home Depot all the time. How much is a pallet worth?
from cosmicrayola :
Curiousity got the best of me. I love a mystery. Mayby he moved to FL, and got into trouble. http://www.hollywoodpolice.org/getting_help/want_Cantrell.htm
from catinasnit :
Aren't little ones THE WAY? Love them. I love them all. How anyone could actually harm a helpless, trusting young child is beyond me. I saw a troubled young adult in court whose mother was begging the Judge to spare her son because he had been mistreated by his father when he was just a nursing baby. Evidently papa was jealous of his own son. I was looking at this now adult person and seeing him as a little child. My heart went out to him. Sometimes I think the parents should be the ones who pay.
from laineyducks :
You've given me things to think about.
from kidspinkcat :
I told you my mom is a BIG bird nerd!
from kidspinkcat :
You have a big heart and it is so refreshing to see that there is somebody else in this world like that. The world needs more of us. Maybe the world would be a better place because of it. When I was pregnant, I couldn't watch the news because it made me cry every single time. There were ALWAYS horror stories about abused children or molested children or worse. I cried for their souls and I was angry with myself for being so selfish. I was about to bring another person into the world when so many other kids need homes too. My husband and I still consider adoption. We would like a girl and would love the chance to adopt one when the time is right. For all the bad out there in this world, I would like to think that there is that much good also.
from boxx9000 :
I heard once that our lives are set by the time we are THREE and then the rest of our life is damage control?!
from danielle-y :
Thank you for the comment you left in my diary about the prayer. It was extremely sweet and considerate of you to do that. All those comments really made my day, and I seriously thought my face would be stuck in a huge smile for the rest of my life. Thank you so much. Thank you. <3 <3 <3
from catinasnit :
I love to watch birds too. We encourage them, which seems ridiculous because we have two lazy housecats -- but they aren't the least bit interested in birds.. or mice.. or whathaveyou. They just want to get their Friskies morning and night. Such a sweet little bird too. Did you say the "dear Father hear and bless" prayer for it? I did in case you didn't. ~~ I laughed (in a sorrowful way) about you loosing your posts. That's happened to me a number of times; something about my spooler, I think. Had to empty my hard drive and then restore it. What a bummer! Sorry this is so long; must be hyper today.
from chaosdaily :
i love bird identifying... if only i could find my bird book i could have helped you...
from acaldwell :
happy that u was able to id the bird! you done a good job! thanks for the heartwarming story!
from catinasnit :
OH NO, OH NO, OH NO! Did you run around in circles too? That's what I usually do, and I pull on my hair -- worry worry. I sincerely felt for you. Birds fly into my windows all the time. Poor little things. You did the right thing, though. I pick them up and usually place them into a platform bird feeder to recover, which they usually do. If it's really cold, I'll bring them inside and put them into a pet carrier (my cats would go crazy) until the bird fully recovers. At first I thought the bird must be a yellow finch, but they are grain eaters not bug eaters. Let me know if you find out.
from acaldwell :
the kind of bird ya had in ya mitts paula was....a grateful to be alive bird!! the story was wonderful, and you done good! the part about having ya fists in ya mouth and sayin oh no oh no oh no!!! was a regular riot! i fell over laffin and picturing you in the pose and just hahahhaaaaaa! wheeee! that was a goody paula! thanks! i needed a good laff!
from cosmicrayola :
http://birds.cornell.edu/BOW/MOUDOV/ A young morning dove perhaps?
from kidspinkcat :
My mom (catinasnit) is sort of a bird watching geek. You should ask her! (not that a bird-watching-geek is a bad thing, because if I had pretty birds here in down town KC, I would watch them too) She might be able to help you.
from minstrelite :
Thanks for your note. I tried my best to paint a picture of the evening. By the way, your recent entry on spirituality as related to experience in recovery was phenomenal! I first copied this quote: "One of my personal spiritual beliefs is that different things converge to point out the direction one should take to fulfill the will of the higher power, whom I choose to call God," although I later found other gems amid your writing that I would like to have copied as well. The quote reminds me of Romans 8:28 in the Bible as well as the statement in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous to the effect that "nothing happens in God's universe by accident." If you'd like to chat sometime, my three chat ID's are identified on my profile. May God bless you and keep you.
from chaosdaily :
wow
from fairygodmum :
Spiritual Experiences are always like that.. they're Life Changing.. are like a Relevation... I believe it is so.. therefore it IS... the Spoken/Written Word is Power.. given to you from Above... Send forth the message.. so more will be healed by the Almighty Word! Hugz, Bebe da FairyGodMum
from acaldwell :
wow! thats deep! i dont get spiritual experences like that...
from boxx9000 :
I am a worrier. I have gotten better. There was a time when I gave MYSELF anxiety. I used to constantly worry about my son. One morning I woke up and I wasn't worried anymore (at least not in the same way) *SOMEONE* had TOLD me in my sleep to STOP worrying and my son was going to be just fine. I don't believe in god, but it was the weirdest experience and a very powerful message. It wasn't actual words, it was a message, and I totally believed it as TRUTH and I felt relief and calm. It was definitely a *religious* experience (minus the belief in religion)
from acaldwell :
paula i dont think you are an oddball!
from kidspinkcat :
Is there a rule that says you HAVE to like eveything that hits the best-sellers list? Naw! I loved the book The Lovely Bones/ HATED the movie Titanic. (not for the same reasons as yours, but still didn't like it just the same)There are even a few books by Anne Rice that were s-l-o-w reading, and she's my FAVORITE author of like all time. Shoot! There's lots of movies that I thought sucked big time, but yet they went on to make box office hits. You're normal. Don't sweat it!
from chaosdaily :
(im humming here) and the sign said, long haired freaky people need not apply. so i tucked my hair up under my hat and i went in to ask him why. he said you look like a fine upstanding young man, i think you'll do, so i took off my hat and said, "imagine that! ME working for YOU" (hum again) sign, sign, everywhere a sign.....
from boxx9000 :
Do you think my EX will EVER sober up?
from chaosdaily :
and its people like you who help. we are all grateful for you, even if we dont drink... because we all know someone who does.
from acaldwell :
thank you paula reading that reminds me that i got it good here this is a "see what happens when ya drink" story, and reading stuff like this reminds me why i stay sober!
from wyndspirit :
Amen to the "things that piss me off," especially the joke senders and the rabid Dems. Everytime I read yet ANOTHER rant against Republicans in D-land, I think, "Gee, that sounds familiar... I've got it! It sounds EXACTLY like what some of my rabid Republican kin say about Democrats!" As for the e-mail jokes, I FINALLY have people trained for the most part. I tell everybody that if it says FW: my filters send it directly to trash. (Not QUITE true, but close enough.) And if it's an urban legend I debunk it and send them the link. Works like a charm!
from catinasnit :
Every time I read about "The Love Muffin" I think, how old is this man, anyway? Now I know. Wonder what he actually looks like Sober vs. Drunk. Does he have a big red nose?
from catinasnit :
drunkalogue ~~ What a great word! How old is Larry anyway?
from boxx9000 :
The only time my EX was EVER sober was his 8 hour work shift. He would fill a glass as soon as he walked in the door at home. Cling, cling goes the ice cubes. I don't miss that sound at all.
from boxx9000 :
People used to always ask my daughter WHERE she got her blonde hair (both myself and her father have dark hair) We would jokingly say, "Oh, the mailman" For the longest time my daughter actually thought that her blonde hair had arrived as some package in our mailbox!
from acaldwell :
well, u will get the mailman next time, no worries! BTW, can i "borrow" cheesus for yum kipper? yum kipper is friday!
from boxx9000 :
#25?? The TITANIC?? Why is that?
from kidspinkcat :
NUMBER7!!!!! I laughed till I nearly peed! That is so true. Stupid shitty kitties. They're all so spoiled. My cat does that every single time I feed her. EVERY SINGLE TIME! Stupid cat eats better than I do most of the time.
from kidspinkcat :
NUMBER7!!!!! I laughed till I nearly peed! That is so true. Stupid shitty kitties. They're all so spoiled. My cat does that every single time I feed her. EVERY SINGLE TIME! Stupid cat eats better than I do most of the time.
from acaldwell :
the one about the thankless cats make me laff! we got a stray that comes around and mews loudly, and when ya bring out the can of tuna, he takes a few nibbles and waltzes away! all this cat drama makin u think the poor rat is starving, and he goes a nibbling! i didnt understand #14 i hope you are having a good day!
from catinasnit :
Isn't that the truth ~~ especially the one about bad jokes sent by e-mail from your relatives. Oh, I get so tired of that. I want to hear what they are actually doing. Do you feel better now or do you still need to really SHOUT and SCREAM. The "poop" stuff really gets to me and my cat sometimes does exactly the same thing, only after he eats and he doesn't want anymore food. Stupid Cat!
from cosmicrayola :
My favorite line about checking out men other than the hubby is that Just because I'm on a diet doesn't mean I can't read the menu.
from acaldwell :
very nice pic! thanks for the corrections~email to follow! lol
from chaosdaily :
and single!!!!!!!!
from chaosdaily :
gawd, why am i not 25 years younger???????
from chaosdaily :
i got the pic, but not the link. its ok.... and ive often said... just because im old/married/whatever doesnt mean im blind!!
from acaldwell :
hey, that was very funny! im glad u had a great time! the pic didnt come out tho, all i see is a white x. i looked at ya source code and ya might try to get rid of the border = 0 thing. also u got all the code past IMG SRC spread out. ! try putting it together like this: <IMG SRC="http://yarnsmith.diaryland.com/images/donaldinkilt.jpg">
from catinasnit :
I have no doubt you'll get your warranted raise -- no doubt. Sounds to me like you have the confidence and know how. Make that come through when you speak up. ~~ (some unasked for advice from me) A long time ago someone told me to pick my battles carefully and NOT to draw lines too deeply in the sand unless you are truly prepared to go the distance. It was very good advice, and I'm so glad I listened. -Megan-
from boxx9000 :
What I've heard about asking for raises is that you never say you NEED a raise, you say you MERIT a raise because of X, Y, Z. CHEESUS! Just that name makes me laugh every time. My son has a Virgin Guadalupe collection. His Mexican in-laws to be do NOT understand it. Michelle is very beautiful. I always think of that BEATLES song. Do you two look alike? Everyone says that my daughter and I look alike. Except that my daughter is 30 years younger and much prettier than me! CHEESUS! (hahahaha) Good Luck on the raise. I'll be sending good RAISE vibes your way.
from laineyducks :
Hold off on the, "or I'll quit". Everything else sounds great...you can do it!
from chaosdaily :
well thats what diaries are for, to let off steam. i tried the "or ill quit" once, and got a raise out of it, but i wouldnt want to try it again unless i was REALLY secure in my employment... which obviously you are. good luck!!
from acaldwell :
hiya! get well established in ya bizness b4 you quit, otherwise you will be sorry! im so glad u posted, i was wondering what was happening with ya. i look 4ward to readin ya stuff here!
from chaosdaily :
try holding off of the "or i quit" if you can, it usually puts people off and they say, ok. i would definitely insist on a raise, but if they dont give you one, try saying, ok, i will do ONE job, since thats what im being paid for. pick which one you want me to do.....
from catinasnit :
Thank you for the positive note. I hope to write two more posts in the next few days (like you did with your pallet cat stories) one about what we DID find to do and the last one will be about evacuating Biloxi. Fun-fun-fun.~~ By the way, I used to be addicted to eBay too. I've got a room full of "stuff."
from catinasnit :
Your sister is fortunate to have a "sis" as talented as you are. Do you think we could ever live enough lifetimes in one life to do all we really want to... crafts, poems, gardening, volunteering, etc.? ~~ I visited your daughters web site. Beautiful, beautiful site and such nice (selling) remarks from clients. By the way, I love the new pictures you've put on your site. I'm such a sucker for cats and birds -- and dogs and babies... better stop while I'm ahead.
from acaldwell :
very nice poem! i used to write poems, but lost the enthusiasm for it....http://saltlakecity.craigslist.org/ craigslist for salt lake city! yaya!!! i been looking for this! cya!
from kidspinkcat :
Yarnsmith, I have been going to that gym now for two years! I think that this is a terrible phase that he has to go thru and I have to learn how to weather it better. I swear I just got lucky today, but I'm sure things will get better for me. But when? You know, I don't ask for an easy life. Just the strength to live through it. Ha!
from laineyducks :
Ah. Not only did your name make me happy, but another Garrison Keillor fan. Thank goodness :)
from acaldwell :
hiya! i absolutey LOVE that pic of CHEESUS!!! hahahaaa i rolled when i seen that!!! did u make it? i never seen anything like it! nice pics of ya daughter and ya cat! you are doin just fine! keep on plugging away!
from wyndspirit :
I too somehow manage to never finish things before being distracted by something else. Took me half of today to find a certain box of marking pens because every time I started to search for it, I ended up seeing something else that needed to be done before I forgot to do it, and then I'd get distracted by something ELSE and forget about that thing...
from purple-momma :
Oh how I love to hunt for "old jewelry"! My idea is to use the broken wonderful pieces and old hankies (christmas hankies preferably) and arrange them hanging softa fluffy with the old jewelry so it would look similar to a christmas tree. OK, my description is not good -- anyway, I love old things! And the unfinished projects! Yes, we all have them!
from chaosdaily :
i was once addicted to exercise, it was the only way i could get out of the house alone. the man didnt like it, he thought i should at least take the dog... but i did lose 50 lbs. but now, i gained it back and more....
from sasori-gal :
*hahaha* I do believe we share the same addictions and habits. I have almost as many unfinished projects as I do "collections." By the way, I never heard my pet turtles being excited either. That's why that TV documentary surprised me. Perhaps those tortoises they filmed were porno stars in a previous life. *heehee*
from chaosdaily :
do you think some people just get addicted to things easier than others? like ebay... collecting... smoking, drinking.. and i know what you mean about amassing junk, i just tell people that i collect collections of things.
from acaldwell :
dont feel bad! i usta do the same thing. my problem now is, that when i go to a different city, i just up and go and leave everything, and take nothing, on the premise that i dont like to lug anything around! you are not sick, you are doin ok and you are not alone!
from boxx9000 :
My sister is addicted to eBay. Her husband had to turn their attic into a storage room just for all her eBay purchases. Most of the things are still sitting in their original packaging. She just likes the HUNT. She always says that she is going to start selling stuff on eBay (and she has a small fortune) but she continues to only BUY rather than sell. I am a mimilist, I don't like to have anything *extra*. (except for my art stuff)
from boxx9000 :
http://wench77.diaryland.com/doggypoo.html
from cosmicrayola :
Well, that 'splains it Lucy! I looked back a week's worth of prissy-pants and poolagirl. I knew it was a "P" name! Now I know why!
from catinasnit :
Well ~~~ Happy SeptemberEverything to you (and your daughter). Your new project sounds inspirational. What a fantastic idea you came up with. Dwain writes biographies all the time (for the newspaper) and the people he write about are so touched and grateful. They are always sending him thank you notes and giving him little gifts. He's a natural writer though. ~~ I didn't go to my 30th class reunion either, but in my defense, I had been to all the others. I see and talk frequently to my classmates who live here, and e-mail the others who have shared their e-mail addresses with me. ~~ Look at Jayme's (kidspinkcat.diaryland.com) post from yesterday. SCARY! It reminded me of your recent post about the killer, Larry and body found near where you work. ~shudder~
from boxx9000 :
We must be about the same age and experiences? I was born in '56, graduated HS in '74, married for 25 years.
from chaosdaily :
you go girl!
from acaldwell :
not trying to sound corny, but when i read about ya dreams here, the elvis song, if i can dream came to mind, also, follow that dream right along with it!never stop trying to attain your dreams and goals! keep up the effort, you will get there, BTW, i update my diary every morning when i awake, and dont go by dland's update on the buddy list, i dont use dlands add an entry anymore. happy friday! i extremely enjoy reading your entries!
from catinasnit :
..."Martin Stamper called us collect from Prison and he wants his money..." Don't they always?! In court proceedings there are who just love to be subpoenaed because by law, they have to be paid MONEY for coming to testify. (Expert Witnesses) I call them "Whores of the Court." Okay, on to your dream. You'll get there; YOU WILL. You know why? Because you want to, just like you want to quit smoking, lose weight, exercise. Believe it or not, I used to be overweight. Not all my life overweight, but gradually. I didn't see it coming. Buying larger clothing didn't seem to tip me off either, until I saw a photograph of myself. Suddenly, I was a woman obsessed about food, nutrition and exercise. I didn't tell anyone what I was up to, but gradually I started losing weight. I did it for ME! You will too. You have that kind of personality -- I can tell. P. S. Thank you very much for the suggestions for designing web pages. I'll work on it. -Megan-
from chaosdaily :
ummmm the first thing i think of is, what am i gonna cook for supper, and whos gonna be home for it?
from sasori-gal :
I once took a comparitive lit class called "Literature of the Occult" and one of the topics we had to debate about was whether we are living in a dream and our dreams were actually our real lives. It was verrry interesting and kind of freaky.
from cosmicrayola :
Nicotine free cigs? What are they called? What do they taste like? Tell, me please!
from catinasnit :
ooooo! [S-h-u-d-d-e-r] Larry's guardian angel is working overtime. I can't prove this, but I believe that their are certain forces of nature that come together and in some way make people CRAZY, for instance, a full moon or even the weather. Domestic violance goes up every time there is a full moon (or a 3-day holiday). .... okay, you asked me where I got the copywrite button. Click on my copywrite button and you'll be taken to a web page. At the very bottom of the web page is some information in blue, says something like, if you want a copywrite button of your own, click here. The instructions are pretty clear and it's FREE! I still can't figure out how people in D-land construct such cute web pages, like yours. Be careful out there!
from catinasnit :
You're right, she will most likely eventually visit all those places in D.C., if she goes there often enough. However, history and/or politics isn't for everyone. Maybe you could go with her on one of those trips and the two of you could see those things together.
from marn :
It's neat that you and your daughter are so close and can tease each other like this. You have my sympathies on also being married to a pack rat. I should have realized what was to come the first time I met his parents--they were empty nesters but had their five bedroom farm house full to the rafters with stuff they could not bear to throw away (not to mention a barn and too many sheds to discuss). The spousal unit comes by it naturally, eh?
from catinasnit :
I had to go back and read your daughter's birthday post, as well as your most recent. Such a lovely girl she is too. Your pride in her is obvious. I had girls too, and Jr. High was absolute H-E-L-L. My oldest daughter had a similar experience with a "friend." Happy (belated) 24th birthday, Michelle. As for your other post, the one about not enough time in the day... AMEN to that. It's always when I have a project to work on that my phone rings constantly or we end up with unexptected company. You've got a good attitude -- better than mine.
from sasori-gal :
Hi Paula! Thanks for your sweet note! I'm sorry I missed the actual day, but please wish your beautiful daughter a very happy belated birthday from me. You wrote such a lovely entry about her and both you and your daughter have a lot to be proud of! :)
from chaosdaily :
what a wonderful birthday entry for your daughter. you have every right to be proud!!
from catinasnit :
My 88 year old mostly deaf father plays his television SUPER LOUD!!!! and YELLS at no one in particular about what he hears on CNN. God help my sister and I if we should come to visit him during a CNN television moment. Needless to say, we avoid talking about politics.
from chaosdaily :
yea, 92. my mom will be 87 in october, and in november will be their 64th wedding anniversary. i can only wonder how many more celebrations there will be......
from catinasnit :
YOU GO GIRL! It'll get easier and easier, the walking, I mean. Next, quit smoking and walking will become even easier. I know you have the tenasity do it because you quit drinking Watch out world, here comes a whole new Paula. Have a fun Labor Day weekend. -Megan-
from chaosdaily :
i quit cold turkey and was sick for about 2 months. i wouldnt start again just for the pure fact that i dont want to go through quitting again!!
from acaldwell :
hiya paula! keep up the good work! i smoke like a rageing chimney, and i usta waddle too, and when i was a clump, i usta huff and puff and gag! but, after a while and determination, i walked, and walked, and today, i can walk 5 miles or so and no huffin puffin, or gagging! so hang in there, and the more ya walk, the more you will enjoy it!
from chaosdaily :
i know what you say is true about detoxing. i used to work in a hospital that would detox patients, but they just loaded them up on drugs and sent them home 2 weeks later. and usually a month later they would be back for the same thing. i quit smoking, and did indeed get physically ill from it, i was glad i didnt have to quit drinking too!
from chaosdaily :
you could always call the police and have them pick larry up some day when hes driving... they will do a breathalizer and then likely arrest him..... but i agree, to do nothing is negligence.
from catinasnit :
Over the years I've realized that the "Larry's" of this world need our personal prayers, because prayer is the ONLY thing that has the potential to save them from themselves. Pray for Larry but look out for yourself too -- and while you are praying for Larry, pray that he doesn't "accidently" kill someone and financially put your company out of business for good. At that point, no one will be earning $400 to $800 a week. Seems to me you have a moral obligation to talk to someone who has the power to DO SOMETHING. Good luck, friend. Megan
from cosmicrayola :
You have to tell. You are not being a friend if you don't. How will Larry deal with it if he kills someone? Howard is being an enabler. If you were "snitching" just for the sake of stealing his job, I would call you a snitch, but telling at this stage of the game is not only the right thing to do, it's the only thing to do.
from acaldwell :
hay paula, do ya company a BIG favor? call the D.O.T. enforcement and tell them about larry, BEFORE he gets into a drunkin wreck, and the victims sue ya company then y'all be out of a job! do it quick! take it from one who knows!
from boxx9000 :
My *happy* attitude has a whole lot to do with being employed. If more people were employed (who are currently Unemployed) then more people would be happy. ALSO, It's PROBABLY because I have that new *SUNNY* template that SaldHO put up for me. Oh, sunshine and happiness. YES!
from acaldwell :
oh ya i KNOW what ya doin too, dont worry i aint tellin! have fun!!!
from acaldwell :
paula~ i just read this, and i thought u was talkin about me for a minute there! i usta do the exact same thing! this made me sad, and grateful im sober...this is anutter way of sayin my sayin---see what happens when you drink! i shed tears reading this~it hit home
from chaosdaily :
yes, please do talk to the boss. the life you save may be your own.....
from catinasnit :
I almost forgot, those letters your nephews found in your sister's attic and returned, I loved reading that. Your nephew who is afraid of the "ghost people" should simply introduce himself to them (it might help, who knows). BOOO right back atcha... -Megan-
from catinasnit :
Oh, come on.. give it up. Now you've got me wondering. Yeah, you're right. On behalf of those of us with frog-turned-prince, I truly am grateful because I don't deserve him. There aren't many fairy-tale "frogs" out there anymore. Beleive it or not, my recent post helped me today so thank you for reading it. My daughter, kidspinkcat,diaryland.com read it because her post was in support of mine (she has ghost memories too. Seems like old homes get people stirred up, like you with your hopes and dreams of owning a historic one. -Megan-
from acaldwell :
sneaky, sneaky, sneaky! hehehehee i know what ya doin' and i aint tellin either! hahaha! TRY Quincy, Ill. its a nice town on the river, and its colorful too, i lived there for a while, and i usta go across the river to hannabal, MO. home of huck finn, et al! its nice too. cya!
from catinasnit :
The honesty of your post is ... gosh, I can't find the word I am looking for, and I had it a moment ago (damn senior moments). Somehow I feel like there must be some way we could go back and relive our mistakes and make them right. Now there's you a good book to write. You are thinking about your future too, so good for you! AND thank you for your kind remarks. -Megan-
from chaosdaily :
i agree with you on a lot of your last entry, and specifically the clothes issue. i used to work in a hospital, and wore scrubs. that was easy. now i work in a store, and wear jeans and tshirts or shorts and tshirts. i dont think ive worn panty hose in 10 years! i would have to completely buy a new wardrobe to work in an office. i, too, wish id done differently in my 20s, but yes, now we have to deal with what weve got. hang in there, im working for the same freedom you are!
from boxx9000 :
Oh I can SO identify with what you are saying. I think we have a lot more in common than I had first thought. Too bad you didn't live closer and then we could help each other out.
from catinasnit :
First, I will say -- "Bummer" because I know that's what my kids say when something REALLY bad happens, unlike me, whose voice goes up two octives gets extra loud. But I'm truly sorry for your nephews -- both of them. Sam better just get a good job and hope for the best. -Megan-
from chaosdaily :
awwww poor sam!
from catinasnit :
Thank you for the help and suggestions re: spooler trouble. I did try to reinstall Word Perfect. Still no go. I'll run the antivirus too. Poor little kitties. I hope someone took Pooh home. That pallet company you work for sounds like heaven. And I was going to ask you how long you worked there, but you answered my question before I could ask it. I get to read at work to, but only when the court takes a recess or when the jury is out. Thank you again for the help. At least I now know what a spooler does. -Megan-
from catinasnit :
This post of yours today is just TOO great for words. I'm going to have to read it again. I laughed and laughed (it's good for me, doncha think?) You poor thing (I'm still laughing). I know it probably was annoying as hell at the time, but the way you posted your boss and The Love Muffin -- I'm sorry, but that was just funny. By the way, you will LOVE the Lovely Bones. I've already read it and "loaned" the book to my daughter. Both of us have listed the book as a favorite in our profiles. Let me know how you like it. AND finally, thank you so much for reading Jayme's diary. I did tell her to turn on her notes feature. She's still trying to figure out the whole Diaryland thing. I e-mailed her your message. Hope you have a better day (snicker) and can find a place to hide and read. -Megan-
from acaldwell :
i extremely enjoyed just ramblings! it made me smile, especially this:AN OBSERVATION I MADE WHILE DRIVING HOME: A fat Greek man walking into The Village Taverna in Schaumburg giving his crotch a good scratch...right there with all the busy rush hour traffic to see. when i read that! i busted out laughing! thanks! i needed that! also, reading about that guy bitching about what his ex did to him, well he deserved it, and that goes to show you about what i always say: see what happens when you get drunk? keep coming back! i look forward to the next episode!
from chaosdaily :
there were 5 goldfinch on my bird feeder yesterday, about 5 feet from the window. i love watching them!!
from chaosdaily :
that reminds me of zorro when we found him, he was dirty, hurt and near frozen... he was 8 weeks old and less than a pound. we wrapped him in a towel and he stayed there for almost a whole day....
from fairygodmum :
I can Moo with the Best of em. I've been enjoying your cat stories especially the paw one. Poor baby was probably waiting for the under the sink trash basket.. leftover meow mix! Hugz Bebe, da FairyGodMum
from catinasnit :
See! Larry the Love Muffin IS loved by someone! Sounds like he's not all bad. His obnoxiousness could be overlooked-forgiven if he's an animal lover too. Pooh-Bear. What a darling name. A cat with a name that cute needs someone to love him all the time. By the way, my youngest daughter has her own diary now kidspinkcat.diaryland.com. I'm going to ask her to read yours. She LOVES cats and she'll adore your recent posts. -Megan-
from chaosdaily :
i also believe in spaying/neutering dogs and cats. the only reason not to is breeding for money. all our pets have either come from a farm, the humane society, or like zorro, were strays.
from catinasnit :
I've enjoyed, sometimes with great sadness, your recent posts about ferral cats: Pallet Cats I Have Known. Wouldn't it be nice if all humans were compassionate to God's helpless creatures? These past five postings must have been emotional for you. Thank you for giving of yourself. -Megan-
from catinasnit :
Typewriter? Did you say, typewriter? My goodness, that term seems so ancient these days. BUT many years ago, that's what I worked on as well -- first learned to type on a manual typewriter too. My prayer for 4-Way (it's a prayer I learned long ago): "Dear Father hear and bless they beasts and singing birds. And guard with tenderness small things that have no words." I say that prayer a lot. God bless you, Paula, for your compassion. Megan-
from catinasnit :
Those poor scared kittens -- can you imagine? The pallet company you work for must be HUGE. At least for the short time those cats live, their lives are protected by the pallets, being indoors and MICE. Do they have access to water or being outdoors?
from boxx9000 :
EVERY Virgo I have ever met has been a perfectionist and very hard to please. Perhaps you are an exception to the rule? Have you heard this before?
from boxx9000 :
Thanks, that was sweet of you to wish me good fortune. i wouldn't want anything bad to happen to ANy of the teachers at school because they are all my friends. i better go play that lottery ticket. my LUCK has GOT to change.
from acaldwell :
hiya! i no longer believe i am powerless over people, but places and things thats anutter story!, in utter words, i dont let people run ramshod over me anymore! i now use legal measures to the people who try to take advantage these days!
from catinasnit :
My husband woke this morning to find that his computer a VIRUS that Norton was frantically trying fix before the computer completely tore up. The download apparently worked. Sorry for your computer troubles -- honestly I am. I'll be looking for your next cat story. -Megan-
from catinasnit :
Dammit -- why do people spit out their gum like a cigarette butt? Littering is an awful habit anyway, BUT GUM!? That's the worst. Glad you raved to the world about how you (and millions of others) feel. Jack the pallet cat. God has a special place in heaven for people who care... blessed are the creatures who have no words for they shall have caretakers. Waiting for the next post... Megan
from chaosdaily :
i know about losing a cat... we had "boots" who was so friendly he had been in every house in the neighborhood... we moved out to cowtown, and two years later he just disappeared.. he was an awesome cat, and like yours, very protective. any dogs that came into our yard left bleeding... lol
from catinasnit :
Your post from yesterday was the bravest thing I've read. You must be such a blessing to your family -- all that you have learned. Can't wait to read your next post on the Pallet Cat. This one was so sweet and cute too. We have "cat preditors" here too. But our cats stay on our back deck or they are inside with us. I honestly believe our labrador would kill a preditor who came anywhere near our cats, but she doesn't like other cats. By the way, your former post about the Italian market has been a super big hit with my friends. I can always tell when they have read the last line. -Megan-
from boxx9000 :
I wish my EX would stop drinking but I don't think he ever will until he dies.
from chaosdaily :
well you know.... we all like oddballs around these parts.......
from chaosdaily :
and we are blessed because we get to read your life!
from wyndspirit :
Yes, you are blessed. And you are doubly blessed because you realize it.
from catinasnit :
I got stuck on "100 year old grandmother." That is amazing. Where does she live now? Did your parents die in an accident when you were young? Who raised you? You have such a good outlook on life for someone who has evidently gone through some extremely tough times. I reflect on your posts sometimes, and they help me get through my day. I will seriously keep your boss in my prayers. Maybe he should talk to fairygodmum. -Megan-
from sasori-gal :
And we are blessed to have met you through Diaryland! You are such a beautiful, strong and loving woman! *hugs*
from boxx9000 :
I don't think I knew that you had lost BOTH your parents. How old were you when they died? Accident or illness?
from fairygodmum :
Thanks Paula... you really know how to make a person feel good. Also, good point.. I never thought of myself as a writer.. and realize now how limited my vocabulary is... so please excuse my simplicity. Hugz, Bebe da FGM
from catinasnit :
Thank you so much for your prayers. I'm afraid this incident did not happen yesterday, but a few weekends ago. until now, I just haven't been mentally able to bring myself to write about it. David is doing so good, too. Little kids are incredible, aren't they? His finger "took" and he's even starting to get new growth on this fingernail. I just got off the phone with David's mother (my daughter) and David was throwing an I-don't-want-to-go-to-bed fit. Jayme says he kind of carries his hand protectively and he won't use it much. But she's working on that. Again,thank you for your prayers. He's still healing. -Megan-
from catinasnit :
I got stuck on, my sister lives in Australia and I got to go see her during the last olympics. Can't even imagine! By the way, Greek and Roman mythology was a favorite subject of mine all those years ago. You've got a better memory about the characters than I do though. You and your husband may have transformed a young life, which is worth more than all the money in the world. -Megan-
from chaosdaily :
lucky kid. i used to have a cb 360 too, and it was red.. dont know what year it was though. it was a nice little bike, and cheap to run.
from boxx9000 :
P.S. Your initials would be P.S. Thanks for your note. It's really what I am most leaning towards (new name) I'm going to check out the cost of it all. Thanks. ~Mrs. Bee
from fairygodmum :
Wasn't that nice of your nephew :) Can't wait to see the pictures of you with your belly on that bike in your leather gear.. hehehe Hugz, da FairyGodMum
from catinasnit :
Thank you for the encouraging words. As to your question, I am employed by the State as an Official Court Reporter. I rarely do private depositions -- don't have time. -Megan-
from catinasnit :
Last fall I spent several days picking out computerized wall paint colors-that-go-together at Lowes. Took me a week to paint our bedroom -- corners, corners, corners, straight lines and I don't get on well. Looks good enough to me though. One of these days... -Megan-
from marn :
Those links made me laugh out loud. Thanks muchly for the giggles, eh?
from catinasnit :
This place may become my all time favorite shopping-for-cool-gifts store. Thanks for doing all the work for me. Hum... wonder if they have baby gifts? Time to shop. -Megan-
from mom-on-roof :
You have been paying attention, haven't you? You have me all figured out, I live between Pittsburgh and Chester, West Virginia. Parental units live in Ohio. Stop by sometime, I'll put you up in my little garden shed, the couch is comfy and the tea is chamomile, all the time!
from catinasnit :
I was taught, no matter what you do, no matter your part, do it with gusto, much enthusiasm and with a smile on your face. The Lord above watch as you entertained 50 mentally challenged people -- didn't you feel the warm karma for days after? My sister-in-law wasn't married to a man to whom she could connect, nor was he easy to live with. He worked sporatically. Thankfully, she was the main bread winner. So she found that her friends were her main outlet. Several years ago her husband had a brain aneurism and actually survived it. Now her husband is mentally disabled and can't think rationally; can't remember that he just ate or what he did a few minutes ago. Loud noises drive him crazy. When she's at work, she has to have someone "watch" him. She was elegible to retire this year and decided to continue to work - for her own piece of mind. Far too often, life is NOT fair. However, you sound like you've found an outlet for at least one of your talents, and you do it well. By the way, the older I get the more I've noticed, everyone is odd in some way. That's what keeps this old world spinning with a twinkle in it's eye. -Megan-
from catinasnit :
"Hey You....yeah you... get offa my cheese...nobody wantsa to eat butt food." I laughed loudly, and there is nobody here but me (is that wierd)? Since I live in an area where there is no such multi-cultural market within 400 miles in any direction, I want to thank you for a lasting mental picture of a shopping trip that I have not yet physically taken. A co-worker, formerly from Chicago,will most likely appreciate your post today. Hope you don't mind if I imform her of your web site. -Megan-
from sasori-gal :
I was so excited because I thought I was going to be your first guestbook entry, but I got a message saying your guestbook hadn't been activated yet. :( Anyways, I just wanted to thank you for all your nice notes. I'm enjoying reading all the entries I've missed and that translator is pretty fun. Now I can share entries in Japanese??! What fun! By the way, in your honor, I went to our local Coldstone, but it was so crowded, I opted for one of our neighborhood's ice creamery, Fosselman's. Not quite as gimmicky, but just as tasty! ;)
from cosmicrayola :
It could have taken 9 months for the course, but they give you 2 years. What with bladder surgery and other glitches, it took me 22 months.
from catinasnit :
Okay, I've just got to share a couple of Diaryland journals that I found today. One is: Gardenqueen, what great pictures! and the other is Marn. I think the actual title of her post is Marn's Big Adventure, but just plug in Marn and it will get you there. She's fiftysomething and FUNNY, truly funny. Megan
from catinasnit :
Listen, I think I can help take the mystery out of loosing weight. Several years ago I purchased a book: T-Factor 2000. Then I purchased another set of books, Thin For Life and Eating Thin For Life. The two sets of books are from different authors, but they make good companions. Their theory is the same; no diet will work. It's true. A female lawyer friend of mine borrowed my books and lost a LOT of weight. She's kept it off too, and so have I. I rate both books *****. They also have recipes and menus to help you get started. I learned more about nutrition, fat, calories and eating right than I ever learned in home ec class. My diabetic husband has been forced to eat the way I do because I do the lion's share of cooking, and he's lost weight. The books encourage you to keep a food diary for a short while. I did, and it was an eye-opener for sure. Some of my friends still believe in the fairy tale "magic pill", that QVC probably markets them, and that they will live happily ever after. By the way, wearing good sandals is the ONLY way to go. My husband wears them year 'round; he wears wool sock with them in cold weather. I own several pairs and wear them as often as I can, but not in the winter. Your posts are really just so much fun to read. Speaking of which, how's your little bird? Did he fully recover from his crash? -Megan-
from catinasnit :
Okay, I'll grant you, it's been several days since I've been able to catch up on my Diaryland reading. But your last several posts HAVE to win the blue ribbons. Hey, y'all take care of that poor little cat. No telling what "Horny Larry" might get desperate enough to do.
from chaosdaily :
dont worry, im sure the mother of the groom has a dishwasher!! hahahhaha i suppose you could do it if you just didnt sleep for a week before the wedding.......
from chaosdaily :
my garden was so wet for so long, i couldnt get in it to weed. by the time it was dry enough not to sink in up to my ankles, the weeds had overtaken it. ive finally got all the weeds pulled out, and it looks like... well, its a shock, you know, like someone getting their head shaved...
from catinasnit :
I've said it before and I'll say it again.. be yourself. Your writing tell me that you are such a great wit. Whatsawrong with your people? I've got relatives, including my own sister, with whom I could never be friends. I love them and talk to them often, but they don't "get it." Our politics and beliefs are at opposite ends of the world. We agree to disagree and love each other in spite of it all. -Megan-
from cosmicrayola :
A little word of advise. Don't worry what you my or may not say to your relatives. Trust me, in big families, usually they will have forgotten 3 seconds after you say it anyway. Be yourself! If it isn't good enough they will stop inviting you and hey, that might not be so bad either.
from boxx9000 :
Hey, you have a new template. i thought I had clicked on the wrong link. Poolagirl has the same template.
from catinasnit :
My husband is always asking me "who's hot?" In other words, what famous person is HOT to me. I'm almost embarassed to say, but usually the first person to come to my mine is Paul Newman -- he's still got the bluest eyes and sooo good looking. But I know what you mean about looking at someone very young and thinking... what a hottie! I won't tell my husband this, but Brad Pitt is still the best looking young man I've seen in a long time. I'm certain your family will be a wringing their hands wondering about your post today. I know that I am always mentally thinking, "I need to write that down."
from chaosdaily :
the boys never looked like that when i was in high school.....
from catinasnit :
Hey, don't know how you did it, but I really like your new page. I was reading one of your previous posts about "The Homeless Guy" and thought it one of the best I've ever read. Made me think... By the way, we've got so many tomoatoes that my mother-in-law (bless her) made and canned spaghetti sauce for my husband and me. Anyone need some cucumbers?
from chaosdaily :
hey nice template! poolagirl also has one the same, you might want to read her diary, she tells a good story.... hehehe
from p-o-y :
Welcome to Pieces Of You!
from catinasnit :
Finally I'm back and catching up on everyone's posts--including your brand new gift to the world (literally). I clicked on the Italian flag -- Wow! It really does work! I'm impressed to death. I am always amazed at the computer generated accomplishments of web pages. I've just got to find some time to learn this stuff. -Megan- P.S. I'll get a post done soon (in case anybody is actually looking -- beside my children).
from boxx9000 :
We're just going to have to disagree on this one. I have 3 friends who have been to Iraq. They are not military PR people, just regular people. A 22 year old friend of my son, the husband of a teacher I work with and one of my professors from my credential program. They all have the same things to say. The war is wrong.
from catinasnit :
Thank you for your kind words (about my attempts to improve my page). My God! I've been on this stupid computer all day. Made one more little post, and I'm off for a week. Until then.. I'll have a lot of catching up to do.
from catinasnit :
Glad you made it back from the TROJAN WAR; wounded -- but alive. Missed your posts. If life were fair... "those Trojan infiltrators" would ALSO get 5 months and two years probation ... Whatdayathink? in a federal prison? They could teach Martha a new "Martha Stewart Living" technique to share with the rest of the common world.
from chaosdaily :
gee that would make a great poem!!!
from catinasnit :
What an exceedingly wonderful (I'm lost for words) post! I could actually visualize your description of those mini mansions and putty colored look-alike homes. We have them in the Ozarks too. What if the same contractors you have in Illinois, have moved here? Gee, ya think?
from catinasnit :
What an exceedingly wonderful (I'm lost for words) post! I could actually visualize your description of those mini mansions and putty colored look-alike homes. We have them in the Ozarks too. What if the same contractors you have in Illinois, have moved here? Gee, ya think?
from chaosdaily :
you should have gone north... then you would have ended up in cowtown, lost among the fields of wheat, hay and corn.....
from catinasnit :
My husband was cursed with that stupid Trojan virus too. He fiddled around and found a new server called Mozilla that is supposed to be more resistant to worms and viruses. We'll see. Anyway, I'm back from my recent "vacation." I'm catching up in my spare time. Still got a lot of diary reading to do, and posted one of my own today. -Megan-
from cosmicrayola :
Welcome to the over-40-gang!!!
from boxx9000 :
7-4-04 Happy 4th of July!
from chaosdaily :
and my husb wants to move out into the country when we retire.... up to the UP of michigan, a little cabin in the woods. sheesh 85 miles from a wally world...
from chaosdaily :
theres a bit of a twist to where i live. i lived on a farm about 1/4 mile from the store until i was 14, then we moved "into" town. i left at 17 and swore never to come back. since my family still lives here, the man knew the store, and when it came up for sale he decided he wanted it. so we had to move back. there is nothing to do here! no theater, no stores (other than ours and the lumberyard and a gas station) no community pool. entertainment is little league and the school sports. this town sucks the life out of people.... lol
from chaosdaily :
it sounds great. but my husb said he really wouldnt have that much fun at a mall for more than a day, so we took another couple of days off and are planning a bigger trip. but ill keep that information, just in case! its really only a couple hours drive from me....
from chaosdaily :
yep thats the one! the kid was there this past school year for a trip of some sort... she said it was great! of course, she has lots of energy to run around in malls......
from sasori-gal :
*hahaha* Believe it or not, they even have songs in Japanese about farting. A Japanese guy I know sang this song beautifully and his puzzled girlfriend asked, "Honey, was that song you sang just about farts?" He proudly answered yes.
from chaosdaily :
farts.com was actually one of the first sites my son found online... figures, doesnt it?
from catinasnit :
What would I do without you and all your helpful ways. God Bless You -- Cheezus Loves You (sorry, couldn't resist). I'll post sometime late next week. Until then...
from chaosdaily :
i usually post later on thursdays because i like to post my horseshoe scores before i forget them. the memory is the first to go you know!
from catinasnit :
My gosh, what a crew you work with! But in some way, I know ... By the way, how do you add someone to "your buddy list" I've tried adding your name. Do you have a different user name than yarnsmith? The HTML(?) says you don't exist.
from catinasnit :
Hey, I like your new page. It is fun to fix them up, once you learn how (THANKS). Maybe I should start scrapbooking. yeah, right, with all my spare time -- NOT. Looking forward to reading about Larry.
from sasori-gal :
Lovely pictures of your beautiful family!!
from catinasnit :
Regarding your newest post, some unasked for advice. Another Chicago-ian, singer/songwriter John Prine said in his song "Dear Abby" You are what you are and you ain't what you ain't; stop wishing for bad luck and knocking on wood. My unasked for advice? RELAX and relish what you truly enjoy, and don't worry about the rest. Life is much too short... -Megan-
from catinasnit :
Thank you very much for the suggestions about how to download/upload pictures. My gosh, fooling around with this computer can take up all your time, and my job and husband want all of mine. I'll have to wait for a free day or evening to work with the HTML or whatever it's called. Still enjoying your posts. I'm posting another one today.
from chaosdaily :
dont be too sure. i lived on copps frozen custard for about 2 years.....
from sasori-gal :
Oooohhh, you lucky! We have a Coldstones right near where my parents live, but NONE in Japan. I ought to open a franchise! Enjoy every bit of it and don't feel the least bit guilty because you will be enjoying it for me too! :P
from chaosdaily :
i dont feel that way about being overweight. i realized, there is always someone in the ice cream shop or on the beach who is bigger than i am, so no one will be looking at me...
from boxx9000 :
Cheesus, I LOVE pineapple chunks and cool whip on Angel Food cake.
from mom-on-roof :
Thanks so much, always a pleasure to have a new buddy! I enjoyed your poem immensely, hope you have lots more to share. I'll be able to catch all up on the rest of your diary tomorrow. I hope! Thanks again! Dawn
from chaosdaily :
thats the nice thing about this diary. its yours, you put in it YOUR feelings and thoughts, and if someone doesnt like it, they dont have to read it. write for you, not for anyone else.
from sasori-gal :
*heehee* I laughed too! I love your flower photos!
from chaosdaily :
hahahhaah that was pretty funny. now ill be thinking of cheezus all day and laughing!
from boxx9000 :
Cheezus, Mary and Joseph, that was HILARIOUS!!
from chaosdaily :
nice pics... kind of looks like wisconsin...*hee hee*
from sasori-gal :
Rest up, relax and take good care! *hugs*
from chaosdaily :
try writing it in ms word or something and copying and pasting. it works much better, and if dland eats it, you still have the original copy.
from chaosdaily :
i know what you mean. negativity is counter-productive. wow those were big words!!
from sasori-gal :
Oh no! I hope the "vomiting" spell is over. They don't have garbage disposals here in Japan and that's one appliance I have missed while living here. I would have done exactly what you did assuming that chopped herbs would dispose of easily! Who would have thought otherwise?!
from chaosdaily :
ooo it would be a good dr seuss book. but most plumbers have seen and smelled worse, my dad worked as a plumber, so i know.. as to harry? if he fixes it for you, bake him a pie or something some day, you can use the barter system for payment.....;-)
from chaosdaily :
i dont have a cell phone either. i got one for my kid though, but she has to buy the time, so i know she doesnt talk much on it. and i agree, as a store employee, its a pain to have to talk to customers who are on the phone..
from boxx9000 :
I don't have a cell phone (or want one) either.
from chaosdaily :
i know what you mean. its not easy to raise kids, but it looks like it could be from the outside. it sure is harder than i thought it would be..
from boxx9000 :
Welcome to Diary Land and the Born in the 50's Diaryring. Thanks for your nice note. I'd like to talk to you more about your thoughts and experiences re: alcoholism. ~Boxx
from chaosdaily :
wow what an awesome poem!! you definitely should make that into a book. visit the diary of wench77, she illustrates childrens books. oh i can just see it now!!!! when the first copies come out, may i get an autographed one??? lol now i have to change my comment for you hehe
from sasori-gal :
Isn't Chaosdaily great? I found you through her entry today and enjoyed reading your diary. Oh gosh~ the fond memories of mimeograph ink! *sniff* And it was such a lovely shade of purple! Sadly, I don't see any kids in Japan with playing cards on their bicycles. Kids nowadays have no idea of the simple pleasures we enjoyed! Anyways, welcome to Diaryland!
from chaosdaily :
i know what you mean. most of the people on my buddy list are over 40. feel free to check out any of their diaries.... they are all great people!
from chaosdaily :
and by the way, bravenet.com has a great html tutorial!
from chaosdaily :
thanks for joining my over 50 diaryring. im adding you to my buddy list, as i really enjoy reading your entries!!

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