2002-01-07 telephone Ok so here I was. Slowly recovering from the January 1st experience, and thinkin well Nic is in Costa Rica and I won't see him for at least a week. That's when he called. He called me from there! Instead of calling his dad to give him news, he called me!!! He asked me if I wanted to stop it there (what was goin on between us). At the moment I thought that's it, he wants to come back with me and he's asking if I wants too. Si I said that I didn't want to stop it, I was willing to go on with that. BUT, and there's a but, Before I went to bed last night I just realized that maybe he don't want to come back with me, maybe when he asked if I wanted to stop it there, he meant the sex part. Because, yes when we saw each other last time, sex was involved. And then I thought about it and wondered. Would he call me all the way from Costa Rica, just to talk about sex? That doesn't make any sense! He must have called for something more, for what I thought in the first place.... He's coming back next Saturday, and I can't wait to see him. We agreed that we should think about that for the rest of the week. When we'll see each other next week, we'll see what's goin on. I mean I'll see because I don't think he's askin himself such questions... He's not as screwed up as me! So this is it! Maybe we'll go back together soon, I don't know but I'd love too. Life makes no sense without him. I know it and I knew it a long time ago
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