fergie's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- PMS_2 Spike: fergie: fergie: fergie: Spike: Spike: fergie: Spike: Spike: Spike: fergie: Spike: fergie: 8:43 p.m. - Jan. 23, 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- PMS Men have PMS too. End of the month. Body chemicals insane. Suddenly, fergie flips into super-bitch mode. I can barely even feel my face, and I have no way of forcing it into a smile. These are days I seriously try not to interact with people at all costs. It�s like my personality is suppressed and I only feel agitated. I have to rely on acting skills to seem even remotely pleasant. I�m still a total bitch. My reaction to all outside stimulation is that total annoyance. I can barely even stand to breathe. Good thing for automatism. We are creatures driven by chemicals and electrical impulses. Sometimes things can go a little haywire. Other times they get fucking insane. The best thing to do it throw the covers back over my head, call off work and sleep the day away. This doesn�t usually happen. Why? Today it was because I need my days off to go on job interviews. So I made it though the day, as I make it through every day, but with venom running through my veins. Everybody goes a little crazy sometimes. The upswing is that I know I�m leaving the company I�m with now, so every day there is a little more detached. Later, like a switch, I�m super-happy. Not just glad to be home or relaxed from the day, but gleeful, joyous, bouncing around, drunk on life happy. Welcome to my upswing. 9:59 p.m. - Jan. 22, 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- thong WIN A THONG - ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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