new raspberry; �HATES technological I am sick to death of erectile dysfunction, pass the tampons please |
Self-Diagnosis Self-Diagnosis� Yup, that must be it. Symptoms:
I'm still not sure if she's speaking to me or not. I know she's sick so the lack of conversation could be due entirely to the fact that all she does is sleep. I would just like to know one way or the other. I can't seem to get enough sleep. I'm going to bed at a reasonable hour. And I'm not one to just drop-off as soon as my head hits the pillow so I read a chapter or two of my current read and when I find my eyes closing, I turn off the light and go to sleep. And I sleep a nice deep sleep. And my ass is still dragging when the alarm sounds in the morning. Maybe it's the long winter. I'm so tired of brown and gray. Everything gets on my nerves. No, it�s not PMS, that was last week. The cats had the crazies last night and I swear if I wasn�t sober, there would have been blood shed. There�s a mole digging up my yard and I can�t seem to be out there at the same time he�s digging. But the dog is and she tries to catch him but makes so much noise digging that by the time she gets down to mole level the mole is long gone. Today I went to configure a port on The Kid�s firewall so he can play an online game and find he�s installed a program he was specifically told not to install on his computer. So then I have to take the time to set up an administrator account and bump his privileges down to limited. And you know who he�s going to be pissed at, don�t you? Not himself for doing something he was told not to do. No, he�s going to be pissed at me because he got caught. And in a day or two when he realizes what limited means in WindowsXP, he�s going to be even more pissed. Tough shit. So I just keep repeating the Serenity Prayer because I have absolutely no control over the things I am currently bothered by. I cannot make her speak to me. I cannot push the calendar forward to spring. I cannot make the mole appear when I want him to appear. I cannot prevent The Kid from being pissed that he got caught. I can only control how I react to these situations. I do my morning meditation to get in the right frame of mind, at least as right as it can be. And I end the day with an 11th step. Listening to: theme song from Extra Smelling: Kisses by Candlelight lotion Reading: sara paretsky blacklist Mood: depressed
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