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disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.

note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.

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2004.02.17 11:03 a.m.

i am such a good mood right now. unexplainable. oh wait.

explaination. i had the house to myself last night. everything was where i left it when i woke up! and i didn't have to worry about my alarm waking britt up so i let it play jazz.. humanities was boring but i always feel smart in it. (i like feeling smart. i can't lie.) and i stopped listening to the teacher and starting working (actually working), making progress on my tv show. everytime i abandon it i have to start anew. but it's delightful. i'm in love with myself. it really could be a good tv show. i'd bet. as soon as i have something concrete, i'll post it here. a three hour class is a good amount of time for being focused on your own projects! and don't worry, i'll still be ahead of everyone else.

i was also feeling pretty hot yesterday. what i consider to my biggest flaws: my bum (oh god), my profile (flat face, meredactyl nose, weak fat chin/jaw line), and my voice (i wonder..). and now i feel okay-ish about all of it. living with chala and priscilla made me feel good about my bum..they both like theirs, and mine's kind of cute in a flat gross way. haah. and i have many mirrors in my bathroom so i'm constantly exposed to my profile, so i grow comfortable with it. and my voice! oh god. well, at least it's funny. and i find it's already better and more 'connected' because of my work. still irritating..but useful?also i was thinking about my breasts a lot, cable television will do that for you...i was watching a special on cleavage. i have small breasts but they're well shaped and i have such a bird-boned tiny ribcage that they are very close together which gives me good cleavage. haha, it's ridiculous that i'm serioius.

fuck.

it's weird when people find my diary through searches for their names. it's okay when i don't say anything bad about them. but still odd. unnerving. serves me damn right.

oh oh oh! yesterday!!! okay. jtt was on 8 simple rules! i hate 8 simple rules. but i like him so much. it gave me the jitters. haha that's horrible. i'm much too mature for this shit. but seriously, hillary is my only friend because she was the only one who told me about this. and he's dating one of the daughters (on the show), so he'll be around for a bit! umm. never mind. (i love it.)

ack! i'm so overly-excited for my tv show. neil(teacher) was talking about the stratford founder who would talk about something until there was no way it wouldn't become a reality. i like that approach...very fitting. so my tv show.....also neil and labovitch both said they'd be interested to read anything we're writing. excellent. all my teachers are still somewhat connected in the industry. hahaha. soon.

other causes for my good mood: ignoring everything that i feel bad about.
i had really good dreams last night. there were cute boys and cute situations.
oh my god i love beck. i'm watching videos of him on this internet (i love the lab). new pollution is so funny.
i was just listening to hothotheat. who are so hot..i want to see them again so bad. i bet they'll be in my tv show.

for some reason i'm having an absurdly good time writing this entry. too bad it's not interesting for you.

everyone should write me about all the fabulous things in thier lives. i like this mood. i'd really like to hear about what you really love...

previously - and then

*oh random entry*

all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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