mermaidreams's Diaryland Diary

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The result of letting it go

It feels good to free yourself of something, once you have decided not to let it bother you anymore and move on, I mean really let it go...it feels good. Since that day way back when I got "the e-mail" I have let it go...have not done any looking, reading, searching...just let it all go. Sure things come about and you kinda go WTF??? But you learn to just let it all go...it means nothing.
Now living with it, that's different, it doesn't sound like it but it IS, we will talk about living with it another time.

1:40 p.m. - 2006-02-21

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Swimming

You wonder who may be watching as a mermaid swims along...is it a careful eye that casts a sad glance or a stern look that is filled with hate. I suppose she cannot concern herself with these things...just keep swimming.

4:13 p.m. - 2006-02-09

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Breaking the surface

Mermaids sometimes stay under water for a long time without coming up for air. Somtimes it is just easier to avoid the surface. She can go on like that and almost forget what it is about the surface that keeps her under. The "glittering and stinging" of the harsh light. It becomes almost comforting to stay there.
Then something happens and she is pulled to the surface so abruptly that she forgets how to breathe and cannot help but flounder for a moment or two. When her eyes adjust and she takes in her surroundings she knows now that she must breathe...and keep breathing. What is this that has brought her from the depths? Why is this happening...and what does it mean?

3:43 p.m. - 2006-02-02

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Some stuff.

So Vegas has come and gone...I had a blast. The mermaid henna tattoo is almost faded...we always get henna tattoos on the girls trip to Vegas. I have decided to move on from the e-mail that almost ruined my trip. She can kiss my tail fin!
On to other things...my aunt is here in town to visit her brother. I should point out that this is my FAVORITE aunt who lives a couple thousand miles away. What a nice suprise to hear from her today. I might go pick her up tonight and take her out to dinner. She is really more like a friend and the closest thing to my mom really. Mom is also a couple thousand miles away...it sucks.
Having said that, we are talking about moving, yep, a couple thousand miles away. I think I am ready for it. I have not lived away from the ocean in all of my 33 years. Sad but it is getting harder and harder to live here. Home prices here are the highest in the US and I happened to have been born and raised in the heart of it all. Funny...lived here my whole life and suddenly NOW it's a big deal. Stupid TV shows.

1:24 p.m. - 2005-10-21

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Counting down

2 hours and 10 minutes...til Vegas!
I just got an e-mail from someone that I was not expecting. I will write about it when I get back...I don't really want to think about it now.
When you think you are doing something good...and you find out it only made it worse...it sucks.

1:19 p.m. - 2005-10-07

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whatever...stupid templates!

Hmmm...just not having luck with templates. Think I will stick with this for now until I find something more exciting.
Not having luck with explorer either...gaaah

4:19 p.m. - 2005-10-06

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Vegas Baby!

Oh it is on...24 hours from now I will be heading down 15 with my 2 best friends on our way to Vegas. It's the annual girls trip. Ok it's only the second year but that counts right? Anyway, I still have alot to do but nothing can bother me right now...Vegas Baby!
Packing might need to be top priority, I don't even care if I forget anything, I got my head on (although it may not be on straight).
This is an interesting time for me, I can remember vividly this trip last year and the days leading up to it, it feels like a lifetime ago yet it seems as if it flew by. Swim away mermaid...

3:39 p.m. - 2005-10-06

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The trouble with diaries...

You have the constant fear that they will be read by the wrong people.

1:33 p.m. - 2005-10-05

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