vxxen's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Aint nobody got time for that! I had a kind of a blind date yesterday . black guy 36, he a cop in queens for the school. he's a lieutenant. he was a marine. really cool guy. really shy. we had a date for like 2 hours. I texted him and I got nothing. I told him I was gonna text him . I asked him if he had a good time. he said he did. ehhhhhhh! I'm not supposed to be feel in a funk or feel lonely, but I do. I work 2 jobs to make money AND not feel lonely. I texted Steve like twice in like 4 weeks. since I last ended our friendship. I know I'm not supposed to do that cuz it takes the feeling worse. ((shrugs)) ugh. this sucks. I just wanna guy that is a good guy that likes to be in the outdoors. is that so much to ask?! no. I think not. I need to just focus on other things. like my vacation that I booked with my mom and sister next month. the comic con I booked to stay for the weekend in Philly in June, my new job in April and the legend of Zelda escape room I booked with Carissa. I'm also losing weight a little. and next week have a doctor appointment with a new hormone doctor that I found so I can stop this hair loss and get my pcos under control. so, I don't have time to be lonely and shit. fuck that. its still a sucky feeling tho grrrrrr! 9:46 p.m. - March 05, 2017 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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