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04.11.03 - 2:13 a.m.

I never meant to be here.

I didn't.

I meant to be successful. Not rich, but comfortable, with a car and a family and chilluns.

I never meant to be floating checks and borrowing money and not going out because I can't afford a beer.

I never meant to be paying for groceries with change.

I never meant to be panicking in April because I couldn't pay my taxes.

I never meant to be thirty--almost--and drunk at 2 a.m. because Fred Meyers sells wine for $2.50 and I could buy that but not a beer at the bar around the corner because that's $3.00.

For fuck's sake.

I never meant to be here.

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